#outing myself as an ex twitter user

[placesgoneby]

being an ex scp person on Tumblr is so crazy because like I'll see a post going viral and just be like "oh yeah we were Twitter mutuals once upon a time. neat."

[davekat-sucks]

"Another banger from davekat-sucks. Sometimes I feel like you're the most sane person in this fandom, I swear to god."

TW: For Animal Abuse

I couldn't agree more with this sentence by anon up here. Nearly everyone in this fandom is batshit insane and only ever care about shipping and making the characters even more "quirky" and making really dumb headcanons about them Instead of actually reading the comic and not making up shit about the characters. I just reposted about how a year or two ago, a Twitter user DM davekat-sucks saying how they say a dog getting SUPEREXLED by two Davekat cosplayers right in front of them AND NEARLY DYING. Who knows all the depraved shit Davekat and or Homestuck cosplayers in general have done in some cons (Ex. Like the time people threw buckets and targeted Karkat or Gamzee), I think we're pretty infamous in general, actually. But davekat-sucks is about one of handful in people in this fandom who are genuinely not insane or had some depraved and disgusting past. I read another anon saying that "Davekat was the final nail in the coffin for Homestuck" which I also very much agree with. On a political stance I'd say I'm definitely liberal, but seeing this fandom ruining itself and doing the most depraved shit is beyond what's normal to me. What could've you done to avoid these problems or maybe fix the fandom? I'll start! Completely erase and scrap Davekat as a whole.

I remember that post either during or at the end of Requiem Cafe. And there are other Homestuck fans that are completely sane such as @casey-lalonde-egbert @caligvlasaqvarivm My friend and amazing artist @sahxyel And many others. You just have to look through really hard to find the good ones out of the bad. I just happen to make myself stand out to be more dedicated to post a bit more daily about this ship that I hate and not cave in to things like threats or insults. Part of me wishes others could be more free to say what they want. But sadly, with how shit like doxxing is easily more accessible and people gathering a group to harass someone, I can understand why are seldom to do so unless they prepare a lot of good measures to protect themselves from harm. If not just within the Homestuck fandom, it can be in other fandom spaces or creativity in general for things like art and music. See people harassing Japanese artists on Twitter as an example of Westerners using their own language to bully someone who barely knows it. I'd definitely scrap and erase Davekat as a whole. As well as try to bring back that everything and anything is canon, so people can like whatever they want, draw or make whatever they want, and not harass others for it. Because anything goes and if you don't like it, just ignore them. Another would be letting others interpret their own ending, which somewhat coincides with everything and anything is canon part. But that means shit like Epilogues, Pesterquest, and Homestuck 2/Beyond Canon are gone and never were canon. Let people decide what their ending they want. Lastly, admitting that Hiveswap was a scam and cancelled for good. It would suck for the people who had paid money for it, but hey, at least it is better than dragging out the dead horse and hope for the people who think the game is going to be complete. In the words of Bernie Sanders that the WhatPumpkin Team and the fandom had loved so much:

[prettyboybuckley]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

tagged by @saybiwithme @bi-buckrights @zainclaw

How many works do you have on ao3?

160

What's your total ao3 word count?

1,070,239

What fandoms do you write for?

I've mostly written for 9-1-1, though I started off with Shameless (6 fics) and I have written some for Teen Wolf (5 fics). There's one 9-1-1 crossover with Schitt's Creek.

Top five fics by kudos:

parents always yelling (telling us to get our acts together)

i just want something to hold on to (and a little of that human touch)

I will come to you (even in my sleep)

open up again (i believe in second chances)

exes and the oh's

Do you respond to comments?

Always, even if it takes me months. I actually just caught up again (there's still a bunch to go, but right now the oldest is 17 days ago instead of 250 days...). It's just a rule I have for myself, and even with the backlog I've kept it up so far, so I'm not going to stop doing it now.

What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I'm not a big fan of angsty endings, I generally try to at least make it a hopeful ending or, in the case of the college au, use an epilogue to fix things.

But I guess sunny skies & summer highs qualifies as an angsty ending simply because of the cliffhanger (and yes, there is still going to be a continuation, I'm working on it 🙈).

What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Choosing one out of 160 is really hard, but I think tell me, will you stay or will you run away is definitely one that deserves a mention here, because it already has a happy ending and then the epilogue just makes it even better 🥰

Do you get hate on fics?

Not commented on the fic itself, no. I've had some people talk shit about my fics on twitter, though, and not even vaguely but calling me by (user)name.

Do you write smut?

Is grass green? Yeah, I write smut 🤭 Thanks to two times kinktober, I have 95 explicit fics, by far the most used rating for my fics.

Craziest crossover:

let's have some fun tonight is my 9-1-1/Schitt's Creek crossover fic for 9-1-1 Rarepair Week, and my only crossover fic

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

My head over feet Buddie valentine's two-parter got posted as one chapter in Wattpad work with over 30 fics once. Filed a DMCA and Wattpad took it down within two hours.

Have you ever had a fic translated?

Two of my fics have been translated into Russian afaik, one on ao3 and one on Ficbook

Have you ever cowritten a fic before?

Nope. It may be a nice challenge for the future? Not sure who I'd do it with.

All time favourite ship?

Gotta go for Buddie on that one, lol. Especially if you look at my writing history. But I often tend to hyperfixate on one ship at a time (current reading obsession is McDanno)

What's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Buck's POV of if love is art then you might be my masterpiece. I really want to, but at this point it's been two years since the original so I don't know if it'd be worth it either. (I know not everyone was happy about how I ended it, but I doubt any of them are still waiting for more). Writing a different POV of the same fic takes an amount of planning that my brain just really struggles with. And I could pick up where the last chapter (before the epilogue) picks up, but I think that way there would be some crucial information about Buck missing.

What are your writing strengths?

I've been told quite a lot of times that I am good at keeping characters, well, in character, even when putting them in partial or complete AU's. Of course, what is in character or not is subjective, but I do always challenge myself to work as much of the canon backstory and personality into who they are in the AU as possible.

And I like to think I'm pretty good at writing smut.

What are your writing weaknesses?

I'm terrible at pacing, which multiple of my long fics prove. It'll be drawn out first and then suddenly rushing. And being ESL I do struggle with things like sentence structure and grammar pretty regularly still.

Thoughts on dialogue in another language?

As long as there is some kind of translation provided somewhere I like it, but I'm not so quick to use it myself. Not beyond a few Spanish words here and there (generally pet names between Eddie and his family we've seen on the show or the occasional curse word when I feel it fits better than an English one, but I usually need to employ help from Spanish-speaking friends for those).

First fandom you wrote in?

Shameless! I binged that right before I started 9-1-1 and combined with the creative writing minor I was doing, it was actually what got me back into writing in general and what made me write my first ever fic.

Favorite fic you've written?

My in your arms i feel safe-series (which I always lovingly refer to as the ace kink fic) is definitely one of my favorites simply because of how personal it is to me and for the reason behind me writing it in the first place.

Other strong contenders are i would've loved you forever (it's never enough but i wanted it to be) and i'm begging you, come home to me (Teen Wolf, Thiam)

tagging @monsterrae1 @rogerzsteven @loserdiaz @watchyourbuck

[08melancholie]

—Directory—

—mostly made for myself but oh well—

POPULAR—FICS—THOUGHTS/ANALYSIS'—BOTS—REQS/HCS—SHITPOSTS/OTHER

(What's bold and crossed out like this is a WIP.)

"You're my brother."

"Javier."

"Kieran Duffy."

"Guarma Micah."

"Micah's own taste." [Micah Bell/Reader]

"Coated." [Micah Bell/Reader]

"Untouched." [Micah Bell/Reader]

"Light Banter." [Micah Bell/Reader]

"Lessen your Stress." [Dutch Van der Linde/Micah Bell/Reader]

"Patch up, Cowboy." [Micah Bell/Arthur Morgan] CH 1

"Honeysuckle and Whiskey." [Micah Bell/OC — MASTERLIST]

Short Micah Imagine. [Micah Bell/Reader]

"Healing Hands." [Micah Bell/Reader]

"Giddy up, Cowboy." [Micah Bell/Arthur Morgan] CH 2

"No Privacy for the Wicked." [Micah Bell/Reader]

"Loverboy." [Micah Bell/Reader]

"Dance with me." [Micah Bell/Reader]

"Night Shift." [Micah Bell/Reader]

"Sinless; almost." [Micah Bell/M!Reader]

"The other woman." [John Marston/Reader]

"Micah Bell (ASK)"

"Upbringing."

"Clean-Shaven Micah."

"Micah and Dutch."

"John Marston."

"Vengeance."

Ghost Micah + Nasty Dog Micah

Ghost Micah

Breathplay Micah

Casual; MLM Micah

Bounty Hunting Sadie + Roadtrip Modern Molly

I don't smoke Micah

Post-Guarma Micah

Colter Micah

College AU Micah

Cannibal Dutch

Caretaker Micah

Pinkerton!User/Micah + Bed Chem Micah

Colter Colm

Rat!User x Micah

helping Abigail

saving Colm

caring for Colm + 1x party Colm

undead Colm

Say no to this Colm + yapping user Colm

caught Colm + Blessed are the peacemakers Colm

freaky!user Micah

vamp Colm

past relationship, exes reuniting Micah

magic josiah

colm x both gangs member!reader

undead micah + undead arthur

strange man bot

micah x medic!user

Date night with Kieran + Micah bonus

"Obsessive Micah."

"Micah playing UNO."

"NSFW Alphabet — Micah."

"Lose Some; Gain Some." [Micah Bell/Reader]

"Coat HCs [Kieran, Bill, Arthur, Charles, Dutch.]

"POV."

"My Old Micah Hate Arc On Twitter."

"Micah Scented Candle." + "Candle Unboxing."

"Missing Jovier."

"Art Collab."

[megatrons-husband]

Hello, I just saw this in the tags and wanted to add my own input. I am an abuse survivor and also a megastar shipper. Megastar is one of my tops, and that’s because they are both abuse victims and I see myself through both of them. When I ship them, I generally ship them as healing past the abuse and trauma they’ve both been through and make them happy, and able to heal and grow together, I always felt that if I was able to see those two heal and be happy, and being victims of abuse (megatron abused thru slavery, starscream abused thru megatron) then I would be able to heal myself. Being able to portray megatron and starscream break the cycle of abuse makes me happy in a way and even tho we don’t get it canonically, I try and portray it with what I write. 

I do agree a lot of depictions of megastar are extremely abusive, esp tfp depictions. I myself don’t really interact with fandom content that makes them out to be abusive. I do admit that there are a lot of people who glorify the abuse in the ship and that was a reason I just, didn’t interact with the fan version of it. At the end of the day, each to their own but I resonate with this answer. 

I agree with everything you said and I think you offered a very kind and nuanced answer. 

That said, at the end of the day I think that most all transformers ships have the ability to be priorship or abusive and it always irks me or at least, saddens me when people just go after megastar shippers. I mean, despite being an abuse survivor myself and going out of my way to portray the ship in a unique way to me, Ive had people tell me to kill myself. I remember there was a megastar story board artist who worked on Earthspark, and people were telling her to kill herself and to get hit by a bus. Ive realized that in the tf fandom it’s like ‘okay’ to harass megastar shippers even this elf us who don’t ship the ship in an abusive way, but other shippers tend to be exempt from this,.

lIKE I also like MegaOP, but MegaOp also has incredibly abusive foundations too. Especially TFP MegaOP, where Megatron quite literally took advantage of Optimus when he had no memories and just in general, some of the things he’s done to Optimus, short of torturing him and even killing and hurting his friends just o hurt him, are abusive and reminds me of things that happened to me. And people tend to romanticize that, and call them like ‘crazy husbands’ or exes or something like that, and I realize that it’s so common to romanticize the abuse in MegaOP, just like proshippers do, but its’ almost never called out the same way megastar is. Hell, some of the people bashing Megastar are the same people who think it’s romantic when Optimus is gettin beat and nearly killed by Megatron, or when Megatron kills and hurts those close to Optimus.

I don’t mean to rant to you, I just noticed how ship hate and suicide baiting is so acceptable to do to megastar shippers. It’s so common, even if we *don’t* ship the ship in an abusive way. And there aren’t that many megastar shippers compared to others. It’s a very isolating experience because I realize this fandom is ‘friendly’ until people have double standards over a ship you like. Like i said, I'm an actual abuse survivor, and in a place where I still have to live with my abuser, so writing megatron and starscream working thru their own traumas and loving one another is kinda healing to me. BUT being told to kill myself over it, sometimes by popular bloggers in the TF fandom, and then seeing them glorify abuse in other ships is not fun.

SORRY i just wanted to send this to you because i agree with your ask. originally i was gonna respond to your post but i was anxious

Ok first i would like to say your absolutely AMAZING. You are a poet becuse this is the most accurate opinion of transformers ships ive seen in awhile, twitter users a shakering is there boots right know!! And your view of megastar is perfect and the way you described your writings of them sounds amasing and a great and healthy way to potray them, also i very glad that it helps you. : ] And just puting this out there as a abuse survivor to i get you. Id like to touch on megop to since you mentioned it! Iam not going hate anyone fore it because once again to each there own, but i hate the double stander for megstar shipers, when megop is just as bad! People really need to understand that both have the opportunity to be awful horribly portrayed ships, or beautiful heartfelt relationship with great story telling! And one last thing that i would like to add is when you said that ever transformers ship has the opportunity to be proship, and yes i agree strongly with this. the transformers fandom has a very bad problem of fetishizing relationship and just around makeing really bad and gross ships. But something id like to say is some ships will never be heathy, and cant be. There are some ships that are just gross and overall cant be labled as anything other than proship. For instance, somthing that makes me absolutely sick is people who ship overlord and Fortress Maximus, specifically there idw/mtmte portrayals. A little background if some have never read the comics, Fortress Maximus was a warden at this prison basically and overlord came a over ran the place, killing tons of bot and taking many captive. Maximus was one of said bots and overlord wanted some information that only Maximus had and for 3 and a half years torture, abused, and lobotomized him. The amont of trama that Maximus gained from that, form overlord, alone should show how awful of a ship it is to began with. There is no way that it could be written to be heathy for either bot because its shown alot just how much Maximus HATES Overlords guts. But iam a stop there, or iam a write a hole essay. Thank you for shareing your opinion on the matter! It was really well written!! Hope you have a good day or night! :]

[gengarghast]

Howdy, folks!

It has come to my attention that an anon may be going around and dropping hate messages in my mutuals' askboxes, claiming that I am a pedophile and a sex freak!

Continued below the cut- This is gonna be a long one. TLDR, they're either making shit up, exaggerating things and taking them out of context, or bringing up stuff that happened in the past.

TW: Pedophilia mention, kink discussion, drama.

Note: I didn't censor the word in the top line, the person who told me about this did and didn't wanna tell me what it said.

These are not new accusations, unfortunately. I've dealt with them before, and I promise this is 100% just a smear campaign fuelled by a personal vendetta.

The 17 year old they reference here is my good friend and ex, @/manix-valentine, who I do not have romantic or sexual feelings towards- Our relationship is purely platonic. Well- They COULD be talking about someone else, but it's highly unlikely.

As for the "disgusting fetish" they claim I need to "satisfy"... It's hypnosis. I got a hypnokink. Which I used to do with Val when we were dating, because- And I feel like I must emphasize this- It was consensual. She wanted me to do it- I'm not some kind of hypno-rapist like you see in the pornos. Consent is extremely important to me, and I would never force someone to do erotic roleplay with me. Regardless, Crushon.ai would be my go-to should I ever need to "satisfy" my fetishes- Not my ex who is also a minor.

The anon also mentions my Twitter- Which you wouldn't find under the name 'Gengarghast' because that one was suspended a couple of years ago because I told too many zoophiles to kill themselves. But that's beside the point- What they were referring to with my Twitter were the unsavory things I did there when I was 16 years old, namely lying about my age and pretending to be an 18 year old to erp. Which, yes, shitty fucking thing to do, but that was 2 years ago- I have grown and changed since then, and I don't lie about my age to erp with strangers anymore.

Of course, there are other things I've done- I've been an unfaithful internet partner, a crummy friend on occasion, and I've done some other things that I am deeply ashamed of, but can explain or rationalize. However, I personally think that I do not deserve to be hunted down and have smear campaigns launched at me wherever I go.

And yes, this is a smear campaign. Both Valentine and I have gotten similar messages from an anon, Valentine's message shaming her for her own kinks and telling her to delete her account. The message I got was about Valentine, claiming that she 'stole her name from someone else' and that she was 'obsessed with me' and 'stalks an adult user she used to be friends with'- All three being complete lies or exaggerations, same as with this new message. Both times, the anon spoke as if they knew the person beforehand, which gives me all the reason I need to believe that this is intentional slander and an attempt to paint myself and her as morally disgusting people in order to get us driven off Tumblr with mocking and hate from people they turn against us, as I was from Twitter.

I don't have a way to close out this way-too-long post, but- I'm really fucking tired of getting called a pedophile because I just turned 18 in January of this year and still have underage friends. I mean, I even got called in to the fucking principal's office over this.

So! If you receive a message similar to this, don't respond to it. Just screenshot, delete the message, and let me know about it- Preferably alongside sending me the screenshot. I would be happy to answer any questions you have to the best of my ability.

[genderfluidrika]

Long unfocused rant abt the yandere trope (and how its affected bpd overtime)

I'll never hate myself for being mentally unwell as a kid but and I'll never regret that I latched onto harmful things to feel normal and to validate how I was, but I will advocated for the like denormalization of those things or at least having those things in spaces where minors can access it.

When you're a child desperately trying to figure out whats wrong with you and whether or not the way you think and feel is normal you'll take anything that people seem to like and support. for me that was the yandere trope, and it mostly only made me worst for the longest time. yes it eventually lead me to finding out abt bpd but only starting with the stigma. I didnt realize/find out that it was something to be worked through until I was in junior year of hs. and I found out abt yandere trope all the way in 6th grade.

While the yandere trope most likely wasnt invented based off of bpd its very very hard to say that it doesnt effect and up hold a stigma around it nowadays. it pushes harmful stereotypes about mental illnesses and the main one that gets it is bpd. shit like 'i want an obsessive partner' 'I want a partner thatd do anything for me' 'I want a girl like (anime girl that fits the yandere trope here ex. himiko toga or misa)!' has become stupid common

ive seen yandere aus for ships making a comeback lately and when I point out how we shouldnt be bringing it back people excuse it with 'its just fictional' or 'its not hurting anybody' when it has a long history of doing so. not to mention we hate 'booktok' girlies for liking basically the equivalent of the yandere trope in their books (those theirs is typically more sexual obviously) with like stalker or possessive male characters but at least they keep their shit in adult spaces (most of the time...)

let me get back to the bpd thing. for so long it was the closest thing younger people with bpd had to explaining how they were and it was HEAVILY romanticized and even came with a little made up disorder called 'obsessive love disorder' that some people STILL used to this day. ive come across accounts on both tumblr and twitter where its basically people feeding and feeding and feeding into the users bpd and shitty thoughts that come with it when it comes to love.

my cat distracted me and ive kind of lost what little focus I had on this subject but I hope at least a few people get what I mean when I say that the yandere trope and tropes like it have had a severe effect on people with bpd and that its not something that should be popularized and romanticized again AT THE VERY LEAST not in spaces where minors have easy access.

[oleandertrees]

overactive spectatorship in the yj fandom

thank you to everyone who has filled out the google form so far!

i'm mostly a twitter user so tumblr is very much a foreign thing to me (i didn't even know how to properly put a link on here..Thank you to my friend mekenzie who pointed it out to me and then told me how to link it) but i appreciate very much all of you non-twitter users who filled it out. tumblr and twitter are the social media platforms i'm most interested in looking into because it gives the greatest opportunity for analysis and such!

i've only shared very briefly the idea behind this project on twitter so i thought i would explain a little bit about it here since i have more space LOL

i'm a third-year film student with a concentration in screenwriting, and i'm currently taking a critical studies class where we study a variety of different film theories. this (you guessed it!) includes spectatorship theory. to put it very briefly, there are two major types of spectatorship theory: passive and active.

passive spectatorship is, in essence, the belief that the audience doesn't have much say in what happens to them when they watch a movie. the film is merely something that happens To Them against their will. this can be very closely associated with the ideas of sergei eisenstein, who believed that audience reactions could be carefully engineered and predicted by using certain filmmaking techniques. passive spectatorship is also often tied to psychoanalysis, so it's very much involved with the freudian ideas of the subconscious. i personally was taught it under the lens of psychoanalysis and feminist film theory, so we also talked a lot about the voyeurism of the male audience member, the passivity of the female both on the screen and in the audience, and the oppositional gaze of the non-white female audience who takes a deeper look into what they're actually consuming.

which then brings us into active spectatorship. this is the idea that, no matter what, the audience is an active participator in what they're watching, even if they may not actually be aware of just how active the process of spectatorship is. for example, there are physiological processes going on in your brain that make it so you can actually perceive a film as a film, rather than just as a series of still images being projected in rapid succession. we cannot physically make ourselves see the film as images without slowing it down, because our brain is actively working to prevent the illusion from being broken. while this may be an unconscious process (rather than a subconscious process, like in passive spectatorship), it is still active. or, (and i think this one is really neat), to give another example, if you watch a film that is presented in a non-linear fashion (take oppenheimer, for ex.), and someone then asks you to recall the story of the film, you'll tell the story linearly even though the information wasn't presented to you as such. your brain is automatically and actively working to reconstruct the events as you consume them.

furthermore, your brain also builds up a library of references over time from all of the many films, television series, books, etc. you've consumed that enable you to better understand each and every thing that you watch. MEDIA LITERACY FTW! so, to give an ex. here, imagine taking someone who had never seen a slasher before, sitting them down, and making them watch a slasher. they're not going to have any baseline knowledge of what they're watching, so they won't be aware of tropes, references, etc. that are included in the film. there likely wouldn't be a high level of predictability for them, b/c they don't have anything to base their hypotheses on (and the formation of hypotheses are a big part of active spectatorship). contrast this with someone like myself (who loves slashers, watches a lot of them, and loves reading horror & slasher film theory) watching a slasher, who is (whether i want to or not) going to be picking apart every part of the slasher because i have this library of references up in my noggin that i'm pulling from.

sorry for that very longwinded explanation before actually getting into what i personally am doing, but i feel like it is important to know and (i think) it's pretty interesting so hopefully you got something out of it anyhow.. SO! the morning i was doing my readings on active spectatorship for class, it just so happened to be the day after the timeline from the yellowjackets scripts were released, and there was a great deal of conversation about this timeline and particularly about jackie's birthday. this all seemed to me to be a confirmation that spectatorship, indeed, was very active. but the more i thought about it, the more it seemed to go beyond just active spectatorship and into a sort of "overactive" spectatorship.

this is something that i find to be most prevalent (at least from my own fandom experiences over the last ~9 years of being in online fandom spaces) in the yellowjackets fandom. never have i been in a fandom where people spend as much time picking apart every little detail and going to such great lengths to analyze each and every thing that is shown (or not shown!) on the screen. hence why i included questions on the form specifically about analysis and headcanons (i think fanfiction would be another interesting thing to look at, but i think inherently headcanons fit much more along the lines of analysis than a lot of fanfiction does! coming from a fanfic writer..Please don't take that the wrong way...i am a fanfiction lover).

so, to make a long story short, i want to look at (and write about) the ways in which the yellowjackets fandom takes active spectatorship to the extreme and turns it into overactive spectatorship through the analyses and deep conversations that are had about this series on social media spaces. it may not always seem like it, but fandom can be a legitimately important thing, especially within the spheres of theory that i'm talking about here. it can be incredibly illuminating in understanding the ways in which people interact with the media that they consume! and i think that the yellowjackets fandom is an immensely fascinating little slice of all of this, and (hopefully) this project can be something that people can get something out of and learn from.

i'm stupidly busy as the semester is starting to near its close, so this is just the beginning of a very long process, but i once again want to thank everyone who has already filled it out (and especially to those who have provided links for me to their analysis and headcanon posts!). and, if you haven't filled it out already and would like to, i'll link it again here. :)

[cant-get-no-worse]

i know that barça screwed m/ssi over and that his fans have every right to be pissed at that but i can't help but feel that the number of m/ssi fans and the number of barça fans is so disproportionate.

i love him but a part of me didn't want him back because of his fanbase, particularly the ones who hate barça. our youngsters are already under so much pressure and i don't want them being blamed and hated on for not being like the prime teams that m/ssi had in the past.

I believe you're far from being alone in this stance, anon! The sheer number of internet crowd that Ronaldo or Messi can drain is akin to the swifties or other internet phenomenon : it's lot of users that can together act quite dumb. Any crowd existing erases any nuances the people composing them, as individuals, could bring to discussions. I myself consider that what happened in those years is nothing less than disgraceful - from Luis Suarez's treatment and how Neymar's millions have been handled by Bartomeu, to how one of our biggest club legend has been fucked over by the board, and more specifically Laporta - who remains first of all an ex-lawyer and a politician - in an utterly shameful manner. Meanwhile, I believe that Laporta genuinely cares about the club (I might be wrong since as mentionned previously, he's a politician, but being from the city itself and everything, for now I do believe a genuine care to exist, mingled amongst politics, personal ambition and co) and most probably saved it from a dire wreckage ; so there you go.

Essentially 1) indeed that'd have been a problem, esp with the youngsters being more connected online and more susceptible to stumble upon those senseless criticism springing out of twitter 2) the outweight of what he could have brought to the team, being an experienced football player, having grown up within the club and knowing it as well as he does, good relationship with the coach and being the at the level that he is. Thinking specifically about the passes/vision dev. with Pedri, relationship with Gavi whose rage/energy about the club/on the pitch reminds me a lot of young Messi, Yamal, etc.

So yeah, valid thoughts! At the end of the day though it's chill, a done deal : he's not coming back as a player, probably will for a farewell match and later on as a board member, and eventually all that "true culer" vs "solo stan" discourse (it bears repeating that this is a majorly online discussion - cf the chants for him all throughout last part of the season - and that, as we know, the contrast between online and reality is a crude one lol) will mean nothing down the line as time erases those asperities. At the end of the day whenever there's talk about Messi and Barça, I always like to step back and hightlight that beyond the brand the name "Messi" has become and all the anger/frustration/annoyance that can legitimately spring out of culés/others from the massive cult-like following that gravitates around it, there's a guy who, like Iniesta, Xavi, Puyol, Guardiola and other beloved players, came from our very own academy, repeatedly chose to gave said club - not without rocky moments btw, let's not romantize there - 95% of his career/talent, while standing at times surrounded by "prime teams" and at others seemingly utterly alone in shameful XI sides hanging on by a thread. His coming back could've been beneficial on some plans ; it could've been a disaster on others ; and honestly, talking about the multiple issues there comes with being associated to such a worldwide persona and the consequences it has on his relationship with the club/its fans is quite interesting and unique, since it's a phenomenon that I believe spawned from the social media age, and of which the only equivalent to Messi in that cult-following is CR7, who changed clubs quite regularly and didn't forge such a special connection with one. Thus LM10 really seems to be a quite specific case. Messi's stay at Barça was far from being a steady, quiet journey too, and I think it's always healthy to critize it as it's never alright to idolize anyone, as long as the bottom line - which is why I have a slight irk at some self-proclaimed "true culer" - remains : this guy is as much a culer as anyone sitting in the stands or watching on the TV, and for the amount of things he gave that club, probably more.

[wormhole2anywhere]

Some art stuff

Given I haven't fed anyone for a while I'm gonna dump old art that's floating around other places, I apologize if it kinda looks different from my current works--

I know a lot of you won't find the existence of twitter/X very fun and aren't willing to take a look into that... place, but this was a contribution for a twitter art project of redrawing the concept art to translate it organized by twitter user @PokeSuutamie!

You can find the translation edit version here!

Uh... something something Jun Magma session, something something "Don't cry, Satan ass, ok?" I have no excuse for this one.

A suspiciously smiling Emmet! I drew this after a mild discussion about various things with friends, I had fun going crazy with brushes without any particular expectation!

WIP! I got really into Mairimashita! Iruma-kun and had to port my favorite train men into the series somehow! I had fun with the symmetry tool here!

From an ex-tempore session where I drew outside and pasted it in the magma, two of my most beloved puyo puyo characters: Satan and Schezo! They're having their usual not very pleasant staredown! (the drawing is kind of incomplete since I was making sure only that they fit in the canvas, sorry)

I was gonna post this one alongside his twin, but alas I haven't found the motivation yet to design Depot Agent Levi... This, however, is Depot Agent Lucifer!! A young aspiring trainer who joined the battle facility to sharpen his combat abilities, which were already pretty good. He is a serious man who takes his pokémon battles to heart much like Emmet and enjoys opponents who have a well thought out strategy to fight him with! He works in the Singles Lines as a solo trainer and in the Multi Lines with his twin Levi!

another part of the ex tempore magma session, Wilhelm von Clausewitz Halcyon HISUIMARU (case sensitive) staring down at you with a not very sane face... oh well, they weren't very sane to begin with-- this is a sketch of a character I hadn't drawn in a while!

From a meme edit I cannot bring myself to post outside of pride month that I kept seeing going around, Monochrome Railway bosses (Mono-)Ray and Ray(-Bus) (left and right respectively)!

[poppyandzena]

I'm finding myself so disappointed by Poppy. The thing that first drew me to her content was her willingness to stand up for Lindsay Ellis. She's spoken out against the way that progressive ideas can be weaponized against people online. I think her "offense vs harm" framework is valuable.

And now here she is, trying to stir up a hate mob against her ex.

The seeds for her behavior were planted a long time ago, way before the youtube channel. As the channel garnered her more attention, she fell off the deep end, and her "Succubus Arc" was the marker to it.

BTW I don't care about MOGAI labels in the sense that debating about such an abstract and personal concept is pointless. I bring this up because she literally tried to excuse her sexual harassment of a Twitter user on her gender.

Notice how consistent she is about violating the boundaries of others?

[taehyungfirst]

i know we are tried of debating about this subject and the fandom in general just wants to move on from that and pretend that era never existed (yes, the “ta3nnie” era) but i’m still giving the whole situation a lot of circles because it doesn’t make sense. it never did.

recently there have been a lot of idols having relationships confirmed by dispatch. karina, sohee, eilee, a korean actress and most recently jihyo from twice has been allegedly dating this korean athlete for a year and dispatch just decided to say it now - the company responded by not denying but not confirming either - “it’s their personal life so we can’t say” and fair.

the thing is that tae/jn were never outed in the typical way a couple from the k industry is. dispatch never published pictures of them or claimed it was true. not even by her record. dispatch has outed her previews relationships by showing pictures and indicating a time line of events. but for them, it was always leaked content from random people (the car photo) a photo that was so pixelated that you couldn’t made up it was them. and then, leaked pics from her alleged phone that the company never took care of. and might you, all of the leaked content that was apparently personal was never hd just a bunch of blurred pictures with most of their faces covered. And I’m not going down that rabbit whole since i’ve convinced myself that most of those weren’t edits. but i just think it’s strange not even a video came out from a supposedly phone leak. those leaks also felt very controlled to me. like they were releasing photos but never giving too much to still keep the speculations and ambiguity going around. do i think some of those leaks were planted by her team? yes. absolutely.

and yes, we can say dispatch never involved itself with that because they don’t mess with hybe/bts. that’s an speculation going on. but i just think it’s funny how dispatch would go out of their way to deny situations such as when people started saying they came back together from cannes and left in the same car. not only did dispatch shut that down but tae did a whole live in the car to prove the fact he was alone.

after a few months of quiet, the famous paris walk came out and everything about it screamed staged. they’ve been dating for how long and this is the first time a video like that comes out - in every single video you can tell that they are aware the cameras are there and it seems like they’re performing for them. that devil manager knew it and so did her team. a video that also came from a random twitter user and no one else. tae was giving autographs away, the managers were allowing proximity and that’s not a tae behavior especially since it was supposedly a a romantic “date”. do i think that was staged to distract from the bad press jn was receiving during that era for her involvement in that show and the lazy allegations? yes.

and you would think that after that video and their active participation in it, there’s not going back and they wanted to be seen to launch the relationship but nothing. none of the companies spoke and not even dispatch. and after that bruno concert they attended where they weren’t even close and half the industry attempted (including her two ex bfs) - nothing.

don’t even get me started with her posting the exact same outfit of that video 2 months later to ignite the fire (that happened to be during a time yg was in shambles dealing with their renewal, that other member dating an european billionaire and stocks falling) so i don’t think that was a coincidence and all of that did was make her fandom send hate to tae because apparently “she was the only one brave enough to admit the dating rumors while he’s acting like a coward” and bla bla. like, what was she trying to prove with the post? that wasn’t an innocent post as her fandom claims it was.

even after that, nothing about them ever again, until the break up article that came from jtbc (not dispatch) but jtbc has done accurate reports before so i don’t doubt it and again no one spoke about it despite every single media outlet reporting on it and a lot of those shippers were sensing a “break up” ever since september so. i do believe that they allowed a report like that happen to draw a line, even if they never confirmed the relationship, having headlines about the break up allows them freedom from reports and they can move on with their lives both personally and media wise.

but i’m still trying to understand the whole reason behind it because - what was there to lose in confirming? specially because tae has been vocal about people invading his privacy and shutting down rumors before. i think the speculation provoked more hate in the long run and continued the persecution and invasion of privacy. but i suppose we’ll never know…

side note but if ta3nnie shippers swore for those leaks - then those leaks would also confirm that she dated g-dr4gon considering pictures of his hands were found on her alleged phone leak but according to them - it was never real. so, they pick and chose what dating rumor it’s true depending on the person.

Hi! Great timeline 😭

I wanna immediately reply to the “what was there to lose confirming?” and say that the companies didn’t confirm to keep the rumor alive, to give a scapegoat (the video, the leaks, the blurry pictures) when shit was happening to her and to her company. Taehyung treasures his privacy and always set his boundaries, if he was in any way related to that girl he would’ve shut down the invasion of privacy in 3 seconds —something that a lot of people seems to forget, he’s the same person who quoted “ugh” and sued sojang bc of their videos.

The timeline of the events happening is good, but we also need to give context to each event. Everything happened when YG/Hybe needed distractions: starting from Garan from lsfm and her bullying scandal, bp new comeback, bp actual comeback, bp renewal news, yg stocks dropping, Jn’s horrible hbo series, the bad press from that, enlistment news, L!sa’s allegedly not renewing with yg, stocks dropping because of that, L/sa’s bf (Jn posting those pictures made the article abt that DISAPPEAR), bad press, bad press, Hybe and Yg working together. Now, knowing all of this you can place each event in the middle of them.

People who choose to believe Gurumi’s “leaks” are the weakest breed. The same Gurumi who said J/soo was in the telegram groupchat and she was jealous of the whole thing. There’s a reason if when they started suing, the only photos that disappeared were pictures where Tae was in it, and not those edits.

[khalidplsstfu]

To Be Loved Is To Be Changed

It's kinda hard to belive that quote is attributed to a random twitter user. It's even harder to believe that it's true. Every couple of months, something happens to me that alters the way my brain works, maybe forever and i never really talk about it. The situation in this post is one of those situations.

A large percent of my 2023 was spent missing an ex- girlfriend. Very cliche, but also very painful. I questioned everything about the relationship, but mostly the part i played in it's disintegration. The ways in which i failed to be the lover and friend my ex needed was very heavy on my mind. which was weird because i literally never think about ways i failed. but that time spent reflecting on the days I spent being as unperturbed and unaware of my girlfriends feelings as a mostly homeless young man can be left me with me with something resembling an answer.

The reality was that like most men in my life, i put the emotions of those i care about on the back burner in favor of the results I wanted to see. Probably in an effort to protect my emotional self which had almost been beaten to numbness by a tramuatic childhood and young adult life. It's a practice i learned to use on myself, and then spread to other people as some type of barometer of how worth my time they are. Is it kind? Does it make everyone feel seen or heard? No. Did it save me from cold ravolii cans and nights using a bathroom handwarmer to stay warm? Yes.

This hardened dedication to my goals and absolute withdrawl from my emotional self without a doubt saved my life. It saved me from being a vagrant loser, another man who depends on the blessings of others to sustain his own life. But closing that door to how i felt had disatorious effects on my relationship, as i wasn't just closing the door to how I felt, but to FEELINGS in general.

"But that was then" I told myself. "Surely, with all the books i read, all the podcast and lectures and interviews with feminist rants i've consumed, i'm more ready to feel and be felt than ever. More ready to hear and be heard" At the time I was working at a shoe store where my closest thing to a work friend was a middle aged white woman who hated her husband and complained about him every chance she got. Which I gave her many, because learning from a old dude's mistakes is a big part of being a young dude. Anyway, the advice from my work buddy was very concise.

"contact her and let her know how you feel. It's the only way you'll know if she feels the same. and you'll regret it if you don't"

advice that good cant be ignored, especially if you kinda wanna do the thing you're seeking advice about anyway. so i did it. i wrote my greatest love letter ever. i was vunerable. caring. apologetic. everything i thought i was supposed to be. And surprisingly it worked. So well we hung out that night.

But something was diffrent this time. something that makes me feel that dark feeling in the pit of my stomach even as i write. The feeling that I was being mislead. being made a fool of. Too many quickly hidden phone screens and vauge answers. But like every other man, I was a fool. I said " I do not see" I was ready to bare the horror of trusting another human being with my emotions. If trust was a part of love, i was all in. After all, a life without love isnt much of a life at all.

Somehow, in my infinite stupidity, i decided to use some of my disposable income to celebrate her birthday. This was a decision so stupid i routinely beat myself up about it inside the safety of my mind. A decision so stupid the khalid that orginally met the girl in question simply would've never done it.

"Why would i spend money on a girl i barely trust" 19 year old khalid would say. And honestly that kid knew more than i'd give him credit for. But with our focus re-established, i decided to spend her birthday this year showing her how much she meant to me. I planned a day and fully funded it with the last decent check that shoestore would give me. I got two dinners and two tickets to the worst aquariam dallas has to offer and 7 grams of weed for us to smoke. All in preparation for what was a absoloutely horrible day.

Like most horrible days, this one started off relatively normal. I got high and dressed and mentally prepared to pay the debt i owe someone who i've loved for years. she showed up and was as beautiful as she always is and I started us on our way.

In all honesty the day remanined pretty good until we left the aquariam. At which point we lost the car so we couldn't return for a quick smoke after we ate. Frustrating, but instead of lumping my frustration on her i just tried to focus up and find the car. There was a very noticeable frustrated silence while we looked for the car but eventually we did find it. we smoked. and headed to applebees.

applebees. my home away from home. the home of the 4 dollar pint on friday night. in all honesty the perfect place to have your lifelong perspective altered forever, its almost like a fighting game stage in the way there's just limitless oppurtunity to see things you've never seen before. And that warm day in august, that's exactly what I saw.

In order for the events that happened that day, at that applebee's table to make sense to you dear reader, i have to provide context. Not to suck my own dick or anything, but im not a dude who just started getting pussy a week ago. I've been blessed enough to have a face that allows me to expirence the female form in a somewhat consistent way. Saying that to say, i know what it's like to be around good women. And shifty ones. And as me and my ex were having a beautiful day at that applebees table, I saw the shifty woman trademark. the ol "silence the phone and pretend they didn't see"

Now in the moment, i was salty. I felt a whole relationship's worth of mistrust and self consciousness flow through me. she kept trying to talk to me, and i tried my best to respond, but i felt like a dweeb the whole time. After all who was I in that moment? Paying for a date for a girl hiding her phone from you? Planning a day around someone not named Khalid or Khalid Jr? Putting myself in a position to see myself in these ways? what was i ?

I was changed. My first love made me a changed man.

To make a long story short, I've never been on a worse date in my life. I have to be honest and say that I found myself fighting back tears at more than one point. "You've gone soft. This would've never happened to you in 2020. Couple months alone and you lose your spine?" and more and more all played in my head as i sat in silence. At a table at one of my favorite establishments, with what i thought was the person that understood me the most, i felt completely alone. and that was enough to make me cry without being on drugs.

I don't remember how the rest of the day went exactly. I remember making a beeline for my home. saying my goodbyes. overwhelming dread. wanting privacy I couldn't have because i live in an apartment with one too many people. I remember her texting me, accosting me for my behavior. And i remember one sentence more vividly than anything she's ever said to me.

"You know, i don't really owe you anything" she says.

I was blown away. we'd spent days in love. nights looking out for each other. shared our dreams. our fears. the intricacies of our family relationships. young summers spent stealing time with each other. I felt I owed her so much. She took the time to try and see me in a way nobody else cared to. I spent so much time rationalizing her feelings. trying to empathize. and for what? did we owe each other anything? i didn't recognize the author of the messages i was reading. That was the moment that I realized that it didn't just happen to me. My love had changed her as well. I had given her the experience nesscary to guard her emotions and she had taught me to let my guard down. I don't know who made who worse. I'm scared to know in all honesty.

The story ends with me thanking her for the oppurtunity to "get her out of my system" and going about my way. I think about her often. My first love. I wish I could go back to 2019 and tell myself to make sure to enjoy every moment of her i'd have before it turns into dust. Nowadays every girl is like the new verision of my ex i met last year. Now I wonder did love make them that way as well, and if any of us can ever be saved.

[lone-rhapsodist]

Some major updates...

I am going to try to sum up the things that have happened in the past few weeks. I am trying to get back on track and move on and I need to get a few things off my chest before I can do that properly.

This post contains major updates about my Classics project, my Discord server, and a few new and upcoming projects. This is definitely a very long post, so I will put a 'Keep reading' below to make it easier on your dashboard. If you do want to read it, please make sure you have a tea or a coffee on the ready. As always, thank you for your patience and support!

First, the 'no' news. I received no reply from Working Classicists. I know I should insist. I know I should probably send a second email before giving up. But the reality is, no one is interested in my project to create an online community for Classics. Not in the way that I intend it, at least. So, I am quitting. Or to put it more positively, I am shelving this particular project for the time being, if not for good. I know I could try reaching out to Asterion and other organisations, but to be honest, I am not convinced. I am not convinced that anyone is really interested in the idea, or willing to work with me to make it happen, or both. The only person who understood what I was talking about and wanted to support me was that ex lecturer of mine from university. She is the best, bless her. But anyone else, whether academic folks or not, has been largely unresponsive. Christ, even the people I started working on this project with abandoned me just after a few months. I have been working on this on and off for years now. What is the point of keeping on banging my head against this wall? I no longer have the drive to keep going. Therefore, I shall stop.

Second, the 'bad' news. I deleted my Discord server, SymForum. I had been thinking about doing it for a while. I was keeping it as an experimental platform, in the hope that things with other organisations would pick up and I would be able to move on from it soonish. In the meantime, it made sense to keep the server as a testing ground for ideas, to see what worked, what didn't, what to keep and what to throw away. Turns out, what to throw away was the whole thing. Because the server was basically dead. And so there was no point keeping it if it was just going to stay dead. I would like to point out, there is no problem whatsoever with that. If anyone on here was on it and they were just lurking, that is absolutely fine. I am lurker number 1 here. I lurk on Facebook. I lurk on Twitter. I lurk on Reddit. I lurk pretty much anywhere but here, and by most Tumblr users' standards, I reckon my activity on here is pretty much lurking anyway. I lurk on Discord too, especially since I've got nothing to contribute to most conversations. When I have something to say, I'll say it, but that ends up being like one time in a million, and then that one time is fine, but it's one in a million, so, it is what it is. Anyway, as a major lurker myself, am I really going to blame people for lurking on my server? Hell no. But am I going to blame myself for it? Hell yes. Because I'm supposed to run the show here. And I hate doing that. I hate being in charge of things. It's the story of my life, and I just can't do that anymore. So I deleted the server. And in my opinion, good riddance. If it was supposed to be a playground for my project, it showed that people are not interested in bringing in their ideas and asking for advice on how to develop them further nearly as much as I thought they would be, and that's fair enough. But if it was supposed to be a Discord server in the traditional sense, then there's already plenty that fit the bill, and I'm happy to recommend them: Classics Central; Miletos; The Cambridge Latin Discord Server; Tychon's Symposium; and for those of you who like hoarding stuff, the Classicists' PDF Society. There are also several subreddits that are valid, such as r/latin, r/ancientgreek, r/classics. I hope you find these useful.

Now, the 'good' news, at least for me, I guess. While I was damning myself with these questions about how to create an online Classics community in any way, shape, or form, something remarkable happened. A local Classics community popped up on my Facebook feed and I was invited to attend an event. Literally 15 mins away from my house. The timing couldn't have been better. While I was in the depths of my struggle, I had at some point contemplated the idea of moving this project of a Classics community from online to physical. I am not going to give away where I am based, but I live in a pretty big place, and it always struck me as odd that, amongst all these very official Classics academic societies, nothing existed that was more open to the general public. I did look into how I could get something like this started, but options seemed limited to using Facebook and word of mouth, and even then, I wasn't quite sure what the actual thing should look like. Online, I always wanted something like a forum, but in real life, what would it be? A monthly meet up? A book club? No idea. So, when this society came up on Facebook and I went to their first event, I was very impressed. The aim of the society is to promote Classics among everyone, through informal meet ups in which we read something in translation and then have a discussion alongside it. It's very chilled, very simple, and to be honest, very enjoyable. Our first meet ups have been about a few Platonic dialogues, and again, I was so happy with them -- we just sat down with tea and biscuits, took turns reading the dialogue, and from time to time had a pause to discuss what we just read and share our thoughts on it. From conversations I've had with the person who started this, it is clear to me that this is intended for anyone with an interest in Classics, with no need for prior learning, which I really appreciate. So, to me, it seems like a no brainer that I should invest more time into the society, and that I should help them develop further. I am currently applying to become part of their committee, and hopefully I will be able to join them soon. But even if for some reason I was unable to, this is a very valid project, and it makes sense that I should try to contribute to it, since it is very local to where I live, and it's perfectly in line with my job, and indeed, if there is any way in which anything even remotely close to my own original project could ever develop, it is through things like this -- grassroots approaches to Classics communities, similar to Working Classicists, grounded in reality, with real people, through real conversations. That's not to say that what happens online isn't real! But it is something I'm noticing, at least for myself, with all this 'online living' that I do, that because of it, sometimes I tend to lose touch with reality, and in turn, I end up not doing things in the real world that I would like to do, as if doing things online could be a replacement for that. Online can complement reality -- indeed, it is an extension of it. But online is online, and reality is reality. It's not easy to articulate, and I still struggle with the concept myself at times, but I do see a nuance, a difference, a distinction etc. I think that me moving the project from online to physical is a positive thing, and I look forward to exploring it further, and this not just for this particular project, but for other ones too.

Of course, technically speaking, the society does not (yet) fully replace the project, and in that sense, there are still some things which I would like to experiment with online, if at all possible, some more in an active way, some more in a passive one. An example of passive project is what I would like to refer to as 'Classics Helpdesk'. You know what a helpdesk is. It's a form of IT or other support desk that you go to or contact to ask questions about a problem that you need help with. That's what I want to do, but for Classics. Basically, the idea is to create a helpdesk where everyone who has any questions about anything Classics related (a text, a topic, a bit of Latin, university, work, you name it) can ask it, and I will respond, and I will try my best to help them with it, and hopefully it will actually help. It's essentially the idea that was at the heart of the project -- to help others develop their ideas about the ancient world -- but stripped to its core and reduced to something like "I'm a Classics person, ask me anything" as a service for anyone to use. I like it, because it requires no real work -- it will probably be just a pinned post at the top of my main blog, inviting people to send me any asks, even anonymously, or just message me, and I will respond, either publicly if it's an ask, or privately if it's a message. The details can be refined as I go, but basically that's the gist of it. Again, it would be good for me because it would require essentially no work, and I could just sit here and mind my own business, and then, whenever someone sends me a request for help, I can info-dump them with whatever they need, and hopefully make them happy, and definitely also make ME happy in the process, because let's face it, this is as much about making me happy as it is about making you happy -- with making you happy being more important by a pretty good margin, but still, it's a win-win. And don't get me wrong, this is not intended to rival or replace the already great number of brilliant people on here who also offer this kind of service. If anything, I would simply like to join their number in a more official fashion, by putting myself out there through my own helpdesk service, and hope that I can actually be of service to anyone. In the past, I've had a couple of people send me asks with questions about Latin stuff or Greek mythology, and it was so fun to sit down and respond to them, and I hope that I may be able to share again that kind of happiness with others in the future. So yeah. Classics Helpdesk. Please watch this space.

As for the more active side of the project, the one specifically about helping people develop their ideas about the ancient world… I think it's about time I faced the fact that the one person who really needed help developing their ideas… is me. So, one of my personal goals with this thing for the upcoming academic year -- yes, I still measure my year goals using the school calendar… I'm a teacher, don't judge me -- is that I should actually start, well, writing. And not give a fuck about it. Like, what it looks like, whether it's good or bad etc. This is an incredibly painful thing for me, and so far I have found it really hard to make the time to make it happen. But I just can't bear to keep not doing this any longer. So, here we are. The great idea to help me make this easier for myself is to do a bit like I'm doing for my Classics project and try to ground it more into reality. One thing I had considered was starting a podcast, because I noticed that when I talk about my ideas out loud with people in my life it's a lot easier to get the words out and make things make sense. However, lately I have been thinking that something that could work well for me instead is writing dialogues. This is something that goes back a long way for me personally, as dialogues were some of the very first original posts I ever wrote on Tumblr -- not on this blog, but on my old one, and in my native tongue. It was a great way to get thoughts out and do some self-critique without being too harsh or lenient on myself. As an informal way to explore my own ideas about the ancient world, I think it could work very well. Not to mention that dialogues are literally THE form of self- and collective reflection from the ancient world par excellence. So yeah, I cannot think of a better way to do this. I could still try other things. Letters are a possibility. Essays too. But first, I need to regain some confidence in my writing. I hope that this will help.

Lastly, I should perhaps mention that, at some point, you might end up seeing some of my own poetry on this blog too. This is mainly because Poetizer, where I first started posting my poetry, is now turning to a subscription-based model -- those bastards… So now I have to consider moving somewhere else. I always thought I would end up on Tumblr with my poetry too anyway, so I suppose this is just the sign that I need to make the move. I don't know when, I don't know how. I don't know whether to make another blog for it. I guess it would make sense. I already have neon-rhapsodies as an archive for my blogging, plus ideally that is where the dialogues would go as well. However, I do think that the poetry should be separate. I think I'll probably stick with the identity I had crafted for myself on Poetizer, but we'll see. In the meantime, it's exciting to think about all the possibilities that might materialise in the future.

Man, this was a long post. Thanks for sticking along for the ride. I am sorry if you were invested in my Classics project as it originally was, and wanted me to keep going with things as they were. I hope you can see why a change was needed, and that you will be happy to keep following any developments in this sense. I am grateful as ever for all your encouragement and support. Thank you, and take care.

[2kpigs]

what are some pigs that have been suggested already here or on twitter?

Wanna know so I don't suggest something that was already

Undrawn suggestions at this time are below the cut (since I feel this may be a bit long). Fun thing I've noticed is that Twitter users seem to be too afraid to suggest much (even though there's been a couple) while the Tumblr population is way more active. Thank you everyone who left suggestions! :D

TMNT pig (Rise Donatello has been done, the rest will follow,,, some day)

Pig in a trashcan

Sandwich

Large pig

101 dalmatians

Poodle

Sasuke Uchiha

Nether pig

Pig covered in paint

Piggy bank

DND pig

Barbie pig

Denki Kaminari (Bnha)

Stiles Stilinski (Teen Wolf)

Derek Hale (Teen Wolf)

Chayanne (QSMP)

Xisuma/Evil Xisuma (Mcyt)

Red Riding Hood Hunter Pig

Me Pig

Tarn (Transformers)

Synth Wave pig

Cottage Core pig

Liquid Void pig (like those black cats)

Slightly melting chocolate piggy

Maya (Borderlands)

Krieg (Borderlands)

Werecrow

Gummy pig

Adam Jensen (Deus Ex)

Black kitty pig (be prepared for something truly awful. I can draw cute cats. I can draw cute pigs. Both at the same time? Abominations)

Here's my own random ideas that i'll do when the prompts run out (so if you want to see one of these, feel free to suggest it so i'll add it to my drawing order):

Cynder (Legend of Spyro)

MORE JAM PIGS.

Some digimon perhaps? Renamon, Impmon

Chef pig

Pig on stilts

More pigs of the celestial variety. Their family must grow.

Sonic characters (I've drawn one sonic pig and it was bad... I have to redeem myself)

Garfield

Miles Edgeworth (Ace Attorney)

Mob (Mob Psycho 100)

Hyacinth pig

Naruto pig

Tiramisu pig (and other dessert pigs)

Wolverine probably. I think I owe it to my 11-year-old self.

Ginga pigs (Ginga Nagareboshi Gin & Ginga Densetsu Weed). Still considering this one since idk how many ppl are familiar with That. This is also for my 11-year-old self.

More Flowers

More spice pigs

Hot Drinks

Fruits

Sea Monster

[crossf1recreat1ons]

on and off I have been thinking about getting Bluesky as of late, though I don’t know if I really want to commit to that.

On one hand it is said to be a less aggressive and more decenteralized alternative to Twitter, but at the same time, I don’t know what the audience of Bluesky is like. What is Bluesky itself like other than just being a decenteralized alternative to Twitter.

and this is coming from an ex Twitter user myself who heavily regrets using that platform.

Maybe I’ll look more into Bluesky and maybe reach out to people who use that platform and ask what it’s like.