#otiv

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otiv 2022

[dampfloks]

[gramophoneturtle]

October 2024 Update

Heyo it's been a while! Hope folks here are doing well. I haven't been making a lot of stuff recently, but I've made some good progress with my site and finally got RSS feeds working!! (More on that below.) There's definitely visual improvements it needs but it should still be pretty decent to navigate around the site! It's more important that I get my art and details on there while uh... social media sites are still functioning.

(I did download an archive of this blog, just in case. Although maybe it's easier to use that instead of the website's archive. Ah well.)

I'm still posting primarily on pillowfort, then my site, and then bluesky. I'm not super into bsky but it fills the role I used for twitter for updates. And even though pifo's funding goals has been hit pretty consistently this year, the funds it has is currently another 3 months (Jan 2025). For each month it hits, the longer it can go on, and it at least has a buffer and is transparent about finances. This why I'm still focusing on my site, so I'll another place to store my work.

On to more details!

Website

I've got RSS Feeds! Got different feeds for All Updates, Art Only and Site Only. You can find links to them on the home page and the footer of each page, but RSS feed readers should be able to detect them anyways. Hoping to have Writing Only and Crochet Only one day when I a) have more than one batch of Writing and b) have a crochet section!

As above, there is a Writing section! Currently, 3 are from my crochet posts on pillowfort and one has only been posted on my site and pillowfort since it's OC focused (Null, Chisa and a bit of Father)

Artworks have a link to Related Series/AUs. They're like the Master Posts I have here for stuff like Composer Neku AU

New Artwork is added some time after being posted to pillowfort and old artwork is still being added in small chunks. Sometimes alternate versions are added that weren't posted on Tumblr. Looking back on older pieces make them not feel as incomplete as they did before

This has been around for a while but on each artwork page I have a "Posted On" section that will list any active social media site and a link to the actual post that I made with the artwork. So while the site doesn't have a guestbook (one day??) if it's posted on another social media site you're on, you can like/reblog/comment/whatever from those links! The cohost ones are there but I might remove them later since I think cohost should be in read only mode now...?

Other Stuff

I haven't been drawing as much but it's been mostly OC stuff. I have WIP for TWEWY stuff cause I feel a still little aimless at the moment for making art or I run out of energy and motivation to finish pieces more quickly than usual. Doing site work is definitely taking away from that, but that's just how it is!

Timelapses should be returning! A new computer means I can actually record timelapses from start to finish for a piece, instead of recording them in batches and stitching them together later. The first timelapse in a while is on Youtube featuring Null!

I think that's pretty much it. I did take a break from streaming on Twitch but I'm pretty much back to weekly streams. I did a test crochet stream last week and finished making a little jellyfish so I'll be doing more of those too. Since the last post, I've made a little gray cat and a Null jellyfish.

[toji-bunny-girl]

WESDRTFGYBHU WTF

THAT'S A THING???? girl bye I CAN'T.

‘That’s a thing’??? YOU’RE THE THING 🤨

[barbarasegalandassociates]

Make sure the people in your life are lifting you up, not dragging you down.

[motivationaquotes1]

Find motivation in each word with our assortment of Motivational Quotes in Hindi. Hoist your spirits and embrace inspiration today.

[letmesleeponyourtummyordie]

Me and the boys when we make it

[shall-we-die]

{Happy 100+}

Thank you for all the support and love you have given to me & my blog. I was happily writing every post during all these days ❤

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↬[Fandom(s)]•⊰ {Obey Me! || Moriarty the Patriot || Jujutsu Kaisen || Bungou Stray Dogs}࿐

↬[Warnings]•⊰ {NSFW... so yeah, MDNI}࿐

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[A]ftercare: What they're like after sex?

⇒ [Obey me!]: Diavolo (💋)

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[B]ody Part: Their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner's?

⇒ [Obey me!]: Lucifer (💋)

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[C]um: Anything to do with cum?

⇒ [Obey me!]: Simeon (💋)

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[D]irty Secret

⇒ [Jujutsu Kaisen]: Geto (💋)

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[E]xperience: How experienced are they? Do they know what they're doing?

⇒ [Jujutsu Kaisen]: Sukuna (💋)

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[F]avorite Position

⇒ [Moriarty the Patriot]: Sherlock (💋)

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[G]oofy: Are they more serious in the moment, or are they humorous, etc?

⇒ [Bungo Stray Dogs]: Atsushi (💋)

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[H]air: How well-groomed are they, does the carpet match the drapes, etc.?

⇒ [Jujutsu Kaisen]: Yuji (💋)

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[I]ntimacy: How are they during the moment, romantic aspect...?

⇒ [Moriarty the Patriot]: William (💋)

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[J]ack Off: Masturbation headcanon

⇒ [Bungo Stray Dogs]: Tetchou (💋)

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[K]ink: One or more of their kinks.

⇒ [Obey me!]: Solomon (💋)

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[L]ocation: Favorite places to do the do.

⇒ [Jujutsu Kaisen]: Nanami (💋)

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[M]otivation: What turns them on, gets them going?

⇒ [Obey me!]: Satan (💋)

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[N]O: Something they wouldn't do, turn offs

⇒ [Bungo Stray Dogs]: Chuuya (💋)

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[O]ral: Preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.

⇒ [Bungo Stray Dogs]: Dazai (💋)

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[P]ace: Are they fast and rough? Slow and sensual?...

⇒ [Moriarty the Patriot]: Albert (💋)

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[Q]uickie: Their opinions on quickies rather than proper sex, how often, etc.

⇒ [Bungo Stray Dogs]: Jouno (💋)

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[R]isk: Are they game to experiment, do they take risks, etc.

⇒ [Bungo Stray Dogs]: Fyodor (💋)

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[S]tamina: How many rounds can they go for, how long do they last...

⇒ [Obey me!]: Barbatos (💋)

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[T]oys: Do they own toys? Do they use them? On a partner or themselves?

⇒ [Moriarty the Patriot]: Sebastian (💋)

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[U]nfair: How much they like to tease?

⇒ [Jujutsu Kaisen]: Gojo (💋)

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[V]olume: How loud they are,what sounds they make?

⇒ [Moriarty the Patriot]: Louis (💋)

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[W]ild Card: Random headcanon

⇒ [Obey me!]: Mammon (💋)

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[X]-Ray: Let's see what's going on in those pants.

⇒ [Jujutsu Kaisen]: Megumi (💋)

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[Y]earning: How high is their sex drive?

⇒ [Jujutsu Kaisen]: Inumaki (💋)

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[Z]ZZ: how quickly they fall asleep afterwards?

⇒ [Bungo Stray Dogs]: Akutagawa (💋)

[glamaphonic]

i don't post a ton about izzy hands bcs, being real, i just don't care that much about him, and frankly, i find the obsessive fixation on him both predictable and annoying.

but it's my blog and i have thoughts that, because of the person that i am, are going to be expressed in the form of a character breakdown. i promise it is as discourse-free as i could possibly make it, but obviously if you don't want to read my examination of izzy hands' motivations as a character then...don't.

i feel like there's a very widespread misapprehension of said character and motivations, and indeed it's a misapprehension that i predicted way last year, and one that helps contribute to a wealth of repetitive arguments and discourse about the character that i am assiduously attempting to avoid in this post. (i am not, btw, proposing any sort of "solution" here; people can argue about whatever they want.)

in short, there's a tendency in meta and fic to take a singular aspect of subtext (izzy is into blackbeard) and center it as the character's primary (and often sole) motivation. and then, to work from there to recontextualize and reimagine and reinvent everything around that assumption.

but the show and the character straight up stop making sense when you do that. because izzy's primary motivation is categorically not desire for blackbeard.

his primary motivation, textually, is that he wants to be captain.

if i was at work and breaking down his GMC as an antagonist in s1 it would be:

g(oal): get rid of stede so that ed can retire

m(otivation): become captain

c(onflict): he is continually prevented from getting rid of stede, primarily by ed

and as happens in well-constructed narratives everything he does for most of the season revolves around this gmc.

to slide into the character section: izzy is, fundamentally, both hungry for power and bad at actually wielding power. izzy cares, more than anything, about his job and being at the top of the field in that job.

in 1x04, he tells ed to his face that he thinks ed's a washed up has-been who izzy has only continued to work for because of the clout that comes with working for the legendary blackbeard. this is because, as we've seen him mention to fang and ivan, he reads ed's increasing disinterest in and boredom with his job, and potentially the attendant depression, as ed having gone "half-insane" and no longer living up to that ideal. izzy later takes this back when ed has once again proven himself capable of pulling off a typical blackbeard miracle, of being the master of the work that izzy venerates. and then ed dangles izzy's heart's desire before him. if ed can retire, then izzy no longer has to suffice with being second-in-command to the biggest, baddest pirate. he can have the mantle passed to him. he can be the master of the work.

but of course, necessary to this plan, as ed presents it, is that stede must die.

and that's what izzy spends the rest of the season trying to accomplish.

to suppose that izzy is primarily acting against stede out of jealousy over thwarted romantic hopes, as the point of a love triangle trying to get rid of his rival, as someone who is desperately trying to have ed's attention redirected at him, is to suppose that he is actively seeking an end-state directly in opposition to his own goals.

because if stede dies, things don't return to the status quo, izzy doesn't get ed "back" to continue alongside him in perpetuity, and he certainly doesn't get the affection and adoration that ed has never before demonstrated towards anyone (nor do i think he even wants it, but that's a whole other analysis). the terms as they were laid out and as izzy continuously pushes ed to fulfill are that stede dies, ed goes away forever, and izzy gets a boat and a captaincy. that is what izzy explicitly wants.

and yes, as ed falls in love with stede, izzy is disgusted by what he sees as ed being corrupted by someone beneath him, turned into some "thing" that deserves to be put down. and yes, he wants to avoid the legendary blackbeard being brought low, be it by stede bonnet's influence or an english ambush. and, yes, repressed gay jealousy is definitely an aspect of izzy's overall dislike of stede, in particular.

but these things are secondary and tertiary, respectively, to izzy's immediate motivations and goals.

he stays in 1x04 because ed offers him a captaincy. he pushes ed to kill stede in 1x06 because it's the plan that will lead to him being captain. he narks to the english because they will give him a boat and a captaincy for it (plus he swore to make ed regret not following through with the original plan that would give him a boat and a captaincy). and he's happy as a clam in 1x09, even though stede isn't actually dead and ed has undermined the legend of blackbeard by signing the act of grace, because his primary goal has been fulfilled. izzy is now captain of his own boat.

and in 1x10 the sole alteration in izzy's motivation all season occurs. he realized his power-hungry dreams, but his regrettable incapacity at wielding power comes back to bite him. after he's mutinied in short order, and his life is saved solely by ed's presence and authority, he's left with limited choices (within the scope of his characterization).

he can leave and go it alone; attempt to climb the ranks again elsewhere, and eventually perhaps meet that same end he just narrowly avoided.

or he can try to go back to how things were before, try to once again achieve the highest strata he ever had: right-hand man to the legendary blackbeard. secure in the knowledge that not only is this a top position in the field, but that, barring all else, blackbeard's power and authority are sufficient to keep him safe from the machinations of the crew.

but of course, in izzy's mind, for all that to happen blackbeard has to actually be blackbeard. and well we need not rehash his opinions on that.

so yeah, gay jealousy over ed? definitely a thing izzy feels, imo, if deeply repressed.

but is it his actual motivation for almost anything he does throughout the season? demonstrably not, or else he would've made some very different decisions.

anyway this is all basically just a rehash of this conversation, but i was noodling on it so.

[dampfloks]

Jung Hilax 600mm (Baujahr 1941) Schmalspur Feldbahnlokomotive heute im Feldbahnmuseum Oekoven Gillbachbahn

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[gouinisme]

need to draw fursona. but no otivation. hep

[ciaossu-imagines]

Sorry if this is too much for one ask, but M, K, and J for Enki (Nanba)? Also, is it ok to send the same questions but for different characters?

Thanks so much for sending in a request, my gorgeous anon! I'm more than happy to do these up for you and I hope you'll enjoy the headcanons! I'm generally pretty easy-going about how many requests get sent in or if there's a couple more prompts than I asked for...though I do want to say, not just to you, anon dear, but everyone that when I do set character limits or prompt limits (lately, one character, one prompt per ask), it's usually for a reason - it makes it quicker to answer the asks and I can normally write more for the post since I'm focusing on only one topic, especially where I'm still getting back into writing and a large majority of what is in my inbox is multi-character requests. However, to answer your second question - it is perfectly okay to send in multiple requests for the same character or the same prompt with a different character because I'll work on them when I have ideas for those characters or prompts. Anyway, smut is under the cut, and I hope it satisfies, dear! I think this is one of the first times I've ever wrote Enki seriously and I hope I did him justice!

M(otivation): what turns them on, gets them going

Oh, you're going to hate me, anon dear. Enki doesn't get turned on, not that he'll admit or allow himself. This man has such a strict control on his own emotions and desires. He compartmentalizes and reins in any impulses, desires, or needs that he feels acts against his work and purpose.

K(ink): one or more of their kinks

Does Enki have kinks, fetishes, and fantasies that pop into his mind, despite how much control he has of his mind? Most definitely he does. It's normal and human.

However, I'm really, really sorry to disappoint, but Enki is highly unlikely to act on these kinks, fetishes or fantasies. His view towards sex is very traditional, almost puritanically so. Sex to him is something saved for marriage, when two people fully commit to each other and your virginity is a gift you give to another.

He doesn't have casual sex and I honestly see Enki as completely a virgin in the series, since he dedicated his life to justice and his work. He saw that as his calling more than a life that allowed him the time for marriage and children, though he did sometimes allow himself moments of wondering what such a life would have been like and did sometimes feel moments of sadness or longing for such a life.

Even in marriage, Enki has very firm ideas of what is and isn't proper sexual behaviour. Sex should be loving, enjoyable, but at it's core, I do think it is something Enki believes should be done largely to carry on the family line and for reproductive purposes.

J(ack Off): masturbation headcanons

You know the belief that everyone masturbates? I'm normally the first to agree, but honestly, when it comes to Enki, I don't. As mentioned prior in these headcanons, Enki keeps a really tight rein on his own sexual desires due to his strong moral codes and ideas of what is right and proper.

So, while I do think he has masturbated at least once, probably during the start of his sexual awakening, before he got that tight rein firmly in there, I don't think it's something he does as an adult or often during his teenage years.

Enki doesn't buy into the belief that sex is an absolute necessity or that desires must be satisfied for the body's happiness. He very much does turn any sexual frustration he feels into energy he can spend on other things, such as physical and mental training or his work.

[br0-k3n-sch00lb01]

Hai I'm sorr but me need sum motivatin fur snunfwower animatin ple

MOTIVATES. OTIVATE MOTICVATVSED YOU

[malesmokingguys]

Otiv Privato

[random-conspiracy]

SURREALISM TO THE SERVICE OF REVOLUTION MY BALLS

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[chubbymoongoddess]

I wanna write but I have no motivation. I wanna read but I have no otivation. It doesn't help that I'm getting sick I'm so MAD