#other anon if you’d like to name urself too!!!

[seiwas]

Hi other anon (n sel!) about my friends bf, No he definitely isn’t the “are u done yet?” type (thank god). Hes very patient n hes super into high fashion/designing so we ask him for advice whenever we’re stuck during clothes shopping! Atleast ur friend’s bf went home to have his ramen in peace n didnt bother u guys so thats good😭

N sel, about my fav music genre, it definitely has to be r&b/soul n jazz! Hip hop too!! my favourite artists are sza, summer walker, nicki minaj, kehlani, FLO, brandy, ariana theres so many 😭😭 But yea, I love r&b girlies sm! i listen to lots of bollywood/south asian music tooo.

Ur an exo stan??? I’ve been wanting to get into their music! Do u have any favs?

zuro anon

zuro anon!! hello hehe 🥹

other anon, you’ve got mail! ✉️

omg sza and kehlani 🥹 i love em tooooo!! ariana ofc… queen… AAAH ur music taste is so diverse i love it!! 🥹

and yes i am an exo stan 🥹 zuro anon, i hope u know that by asking me for some of my fave exo music… u have opened a GATEWAY and i will now never shut up… 🤧 i have prepared a lil list for u under the cut 🫶🏻

i love all their music!! but since you like rnb i’ll cater this to their rnb songs for you!! 🤍 (out of their solos, the ones who do r&b are baekhyun and kai!! and the exo-sc (chanyeol + sehun) subunit for r&b hiphop)

in no particular order!! but i did try to put the ones i like the most/i feel like you might like the most on the top of each category!! (also im sorry it's long omg... they have been active for 11 yrs... HAHAHA)

exo group songs

24/7

ooh la la la

hear me out

let me in

bird (this is in japanese!)

fall

what if...

growl (the song that made them popular!)

groove

playboy

no makeup

what u do?

paradise

baby you are

butterfly effect

thunder

moonlight

the eve

been through

walk on memories

one and only

baby don't cry

don't go

angel

solo/subunit songs (highly recommend baekhyun's entire discography!! i feel like he'll suit your music vibe!!)

cry for love (baekhyun)

stay up (baekhyun)

all i got (baekhyun)

un village (baekhyun)

love scene (baekhyun)

love again (baekhyun)

bambi (baekhyun)

bungee (baekhyun)

tell me (what is love) (d.o.)

i'm fine (d.o.)

i'm gonna love you (d.o.)

1 billion views (exo-sc)

underwater (baekhyun) (my absolute fave baek song!)

tomorrow (chanyeol)

mmmh (kai)

drown (baekhyun) (this is in japanese!)

hello stranger (kai)

nothin' (exo-sc)

candy (baekhyun)

ice queen (baekhyun)

diamond (baekhyun)

nothing on me (kai)

ssfw (chanyeol) (the japanese ver!!)

take you home (baekhyun)

let me love you (chanyeol)

[professor-pato]

HIHI!! I rlly like ur writing, and I've been wanting to request u for a lil while!!! Would you do a Josuke x reader confession hcs/oneshot? Its alright if you don't want to, just take care of urself 💕💕

hello anon!! tysm! jsyk, you can request at any time!! feel free to send stuff in whenever you’d like! <3 btw, i went with josuke being the one confessing if that’s alright w u!

-JOSUKE X READER (CONFESSION: DRABBLE)-

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josuke wasn’t usually the anxious type. far from it, actually. josuke was pretty much known for his confidence, both in style and attitude.

but today, though, he couldn’t shake his nerves. a tight ball of nervousness had sank into the pits if his stomach as he leaned against the outer walls of the school, feigning non-chalance as he waited for you to exit with the wave of students heading home for the day. as he picked out your voice among the herd of highschoolers pouring out of the doors, he looked away in an attempt to pretend like he hadn’t positioned himself at the exits like this on purpose (it really wasn’t working).

“oh-oh hey, y/n!” he raises his hand in a half wave to catch your attention, mentally berating himself at the way his words caught on each other.

“hey josuke! you’re out way earlier than usual.” you point out, having been friends with him long enough to realize that he tends to leave school later than most (on accounts of screwing around with okuyasu, for sure.)

“i am? oh, uh- i mean, yeah, i guess i am!” he catches his mistake quickly enough, but his obvious attempts to stall prompt a quirked eyebrow from you.

“is something up?” you ask, and josuke gulps hard. here goes nothing..

“i.. i wrote something for you!” he says, sticking out a lavender envelope with your name written on it in pen. the second you look up, josuke is gone. poor guy got too scared.

open opening the envelope, you realize that it contains a letter written on patterned stationary.

“dear y/n,

hey! it’s josuke!

i was really nervous to talk to you in person, so koichi suggested i write you a letter! koichi’s a smart guy, so.. here’s a letter!

i like you a lot, y/n. i mean, obviously, because we’re friends, but i like you. like that. i totally get it if you’re not into me that way, but.. i still want to invite you to tonio’s on friday after school, if that’s alright.

love,

josuke :)”

now you have something to look forward to, you think.

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[antoncore]

sorry i hope i’m not annoying but i’m bored too🤭🤭🤧

i’ve never rly paid that much attention in that way to sohee but like i imagine if u got partnered up for a project at uni and he came over to help u work on it and he was being annoying and u got mad at him for it but then he popped a boner because of u being stern with him and raising ur voice😳🤭🤭 so ofc you have to help him out and suck him off while he tangles his fingers in ur hair and whimpers so desperately it’s so cute how pathetic and whiney he gets when you fondle his balls and suck on his length!!! when he cums you’d swallow for him cuz he was so good for u<333333

but then idk i could also see sohee who u don’t really spare a second glance but then ur at a frat party together and end up in some kind of seven minutes in heaven scenario and he kinda goes a little crazy with u now that he finally has a chance to show u how bad he’s wanted u<33 like maybe he’d just give you the best head you’ve ever gotten, eating you out in someone else’s closet while you pull on his hair and muffle your moans with the back of ur hand cuz you’d never live it down if someone caught you letting him slut you out :( he’d definitely mess with u though and use his fingers, sucking harshly on ur clit and whispering nasty things to u about how ur giving it up so easy for him, he expected better from u :( and u whine about how that’s the whole point of the game is to mess around with the person ur paired with but he’s like “is cumming on my face part of it?” and ur so close u can feel the tension inside of you threatening to snap and you almost want to try to deny urself so he doesn’t get the satisfaction but he starts using his fingers again and you can’t help urself :((( after u cum, if u had any time left he’d use his tongue to clean you up and maybe even kiss u, even though you’d recoil a little, he’d hold ur jaw in place and stick his tongue in ur mouth to force you to taste urself ! and then you’d go back to the party only to find a room half an hour later so u can take his cock this time :)

not me being like.. i don’t think about him.. and then saying all this😓😓

- 🧸 anon

I AM SO DEAD😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

can imagine sohee’s little whimpers, would be so pretty!! feel like he wouldn’t even be able to speak bc he just loves the way you suck his cock. would wanna coo at him that he’s so cute like this, making him blush and squirm under you. and when he cums down your throat, he’s too shy to ask to take a picture so he keeps the mental image in his head. every time after he saw you on campus (which was multiple times a day), he’d go back to his dorm and jerk off, wishing it was your mouth wrapped around his cock again :( he wanted you so bad but was scared you’d never give him the time of day again, watching as you talked to other guys.

on the flip side, i rlly think he could be cocky too (idk why but i find the thought of him being cocky quite hot???) like he would just LOVE having you moan his name, it’s what he’s been wanting to hear for so long. he would slut you out completely, loving the way you reacted to him (you were so adorable, how could he not love it) and would love having you in front of the mirror so you could watch yourself fall apart for him. you didn’t know whether to love or hate the way he made you feel, like putty in his hands - his touch making you so weak :( you’d be cumming all over his cock and he’d want pictures to remember in his words ‘the neediest girl he’s ever fucked’. this definitely wouldn’t be the last time he had you like this, possibly leading to a situationship (bc he doesn’t want to behave like a simp - yet)

screaming, creaming over this tbh

[sanchoyo]

i promise i will read the manga!! but um. well. now i’m just so curious i gotta know. just how blorbo can cara go. i wanna take a graceful step backwards and head-first into the rabbit hole. please i gotta know

- saguaro anon pt 2

(i promise it’s me again i swearzit. not that it isn’t easy to lie of course i just think that’d be the funniest thing in the world. there can only be ONE saguaro liker everyone pass the original anon message around the circle if you’d like a turn with the saguaro anon.)

(speaking of i’m chewing on the art of them. i love them so bad they make me wanna draw swords. obsessed also with the dichotomy of physical/spiritual prowess that contradicts a more common “pacifist priest” archetype through swords. still a very graceful way to slay but between that strength/faith dichotomy and their dichotomy with the queen’s science... it’s so evocative of a righteous paladin. but they are also so eepy.)

not u sending this right after I sent a friend a 10000+ word essay to a friend on discord abt cara. pls. the timing is incredible im bouncing cara around in my brain…

SAGUARO ANON!!! HI!!! (wait thats cute. naming urself as an enjoyer of them. my heart will explode fr thank u sm for enjoying my ocs ;_; u are the champion liker of them….this is ur burden to bear)

I mean, don't feel obligated to read the manga/watch the show(s)(either of them! still so happy we got a reboot 20 years after the original…) its just. would fill on context for Some Things (also is a gateway into magical girls if ur not already into them) and I always take a chance to rec it. but..I do try to make things understandable w/out it? I hope?

Cara…im trying to think of what I can say publicly abt her without spoiling her whole story. (I plan to probably make it a novel-sized fanfic and...with 2-3 illus per chapter…it works better as a comic, but the energy to do it + how little reception I got when I tried it…TwT </3) this got. erm. long. so under the cut? I dont THINK anything is TOO spoilery, but if anyone wants to wait until the story is actually being written, maybe skip this one :3c

ok so. my sweet caroline (ba ba ba) 'cara' testout-seebauer, (god what a good name)...… she's like. my wildcard character. full of surprises. full of anxiety. as someone who is also full of anxiety I can say sometimes getting too anxious makes people lash out, seem irritable. get this girl some noise-cancelling headphones tbh. she's also quiet, which, people around her misinterpret as 'oh shes brooding and mysterious' but she's 15. she's the Most 15 Year Old, and all that entails.

She, uh…let me just say she is about as aware as magical girl tropes as Mira is. she makes a point to declare herself as the 'dark magical girl rival' to Mira's heroine persona. which is totally a Normal Thing for anyone with Normal Motivations to say, obviously. (mira aggressively turns a blind eye to how absolutely weird that is because it fits with what she also wants, but other characters are even like, hey thats..questionable? why is a human working with the Aliens Who Want All Humans Dead?? you might ASSUME tragic backstory, but I Love Subverting Expectations. she has a pretty good family life!) she's not as much as an edgelord as this type of character should be in theory, but she IS dramatic 🤔

she's actually somewhat naive and makes the worlds most questionable judgement calls and has the worst sense of who to trust. she's a nerd. she speaks like 4 languages because she was moved around a lot up until she was about 13 and has lived in a handful of countries (if you ask her, she'd say shes american bc thats where shes lived the longest, but her dad is half british half japanese raised in japan and left when he was 18 for america, and her mother is afro-latina american. she strongly takes after her mom in looks but got her dads hair texture :> )

it's a running gag that she knows how to do an improbable amount of things and she always brushes this off her parents were very indulgent and she had a hard time sticking to anything. why does she know origami and karate and how to make balloon animals and ballet and sword fighting and art?? oh but she can only do the very basics of any of the various things, she's not like, outstanding at very many things admittedly and cannot commit to anything. she has...approximate knowledge of many things...It must be said, for the majority of the alien ocs I have...shes the first human theyve met. so u can imagine this gives them very skewed idea of how many things humans can do...

a lot of the characters n plots in tm2 are things I think were tragically underused and under-explored in tmm. in particular the things about her that I draw from are largely things from tokyo mew mew a la mode. (which as of now is free to read on archive.org and is only two volumes!! its the sequel to tmm ^_^...) anyway regarding that...there's a hint in her full name no one as picked up on yet and I shant say more on that. (...do people not pick up on certain naming schemes in tmm aside from the girls having food names? I dont know. this is one of those 'would only pick up on it if ur familiar w tmm things but! I dont even think ppl who HAVE read it have noticed yet.. tbf I only revealed her full name last year I think!)

all of the girls have symbolism with the animal dna they're infused with. cara's a snake. which is such a double sided thing. a lot of people are scared of snakes, lots of imagery of being two-faced or deceitful BUT also, like, 'transformations/rebirth' (shedding of the snake skin) and the caduceus!!! (hermes association, loosely :)) fun. her weapon being a shield + gramophone combo thing now reflects a lot about her too :)

shes SHORT. shes freckled. she cuts her own hair. shes objectively just really funny in a messed up way because everything is extreme when ur 15, its seriously so. just. shes so so so dramatic and gay, my god. its painful to watch. its painful to WRITE. rancid at just COMMUNICATING. she doesnt necessarily even want to be a magical girl its rotten work but my god she'll do it she DOES like the genre but she is so so scared and would probably rather NOT be doing more than like, cosplay. fighting things or people = scary. anxiety is real. but here she is! for some ungodly reason! eeey exposure therapy amiright fellow anxiety sufferers. queen put her and sapote together because sapote was the only alien whod volunteer to get infused and become a mew mew lol sapote is outgoing and queen figured this would offset cara's...*vaguely gestures* everything pretty well. and that sapote would be able to sus out anything cara might be hiding. queen knows sapote's smarter than expected and trusts her a lot cara and sapote are SUCH a funny duo 😭

cara is like. she has problems. and instead of solving them in any rational way she ends up creating 15 more severe problems about it. pitiful little meow meow mew mew

also I'm glad u enjoyed the lil doodle of them, had to toss them in after ur nice message :) (+I will take any excuse to draw or talk abt my ocs r u kidding. i love them)

replying to the very last bit of ur message abt our friend saguaro: WAAAA THAT MAKES ME SO HAPPY THAT THEY MAKE U WANNA DRAW SWORDS!! (do it. swords are fun to draw) u hit the nail on the head with: 'the dichotomy of physical/spiritual prowess that contradicts a more common “pacifist priest” archetype through swords. still a very graceful way to slay but between that strength/faith dichotomy and their dichotomy with the queen’s science… it’s so evocative of a righteous paladin.' the. understanding. the analysis. u are so correct. holding ur hand about this. thank u. thank u.

since u arent a tmm watcher/reader. I have to tell you. deep blue, their god? is the main final bad guy in tmm. we have SO SO SO little info about him. I had to make up so many stupid little headcanons surrounding him + the religion and what would possibly happen post-canon. which is only vaguely tangentially related but I have Many Thoughts. he uses a sword, so of course saguaro would Want To as well! and as far as 'gods' go, deep blue is. hm. a violent one. saguaro is incredibly nice! but is still a devout cult member follower of a violent god who they WILL spill blood in the name of. they WILL tell queen to her face that no, she should NOT be the leader, that should be someone who follows deep blue-sama! and they are only following her for a good view from the top to spot carry out his will, because surely deep blue guided them to be so skillful for a REASON, they MUST be useful to him when he finally reappears! and there is NO room for doubt in their mind he WILL. (jaws theme ominously plays in the distance)

queen and saguaro are both ppl who pride themselves on being civil and well-mannered, so you can imagine the sheer passive-aggressiveness in their convos. they're useful, they're probably the BEST swordsmaster, and they've proven to be very diplomatic and can bridge the gap queen sorely needs to with the other straggling deep blue followers, and queen isn't one to throw away a pawn, so she ultimately sees it as putting up with an annoyance for the greater good. (its not like deep blue could possibly return or anything! jaws theme sounds louder and closer)

everyone else in queens little upper posse thinks theyre super weird. …except cara! (we've come full circle!) because shes human! and! has no frame of reference! for deep blue related things! (well…at least, not in the way everyone else would've) shes dealt with like, mormons or thse door to door religious ppl, to her its like. whatever. same difference. saguaro isnt mean to her solely because shes a human like SOME people in queen's upper circle are. in fact, they're really actually very nice to her! and hey, she likes swords! and they have a calming presence, which is GREAT when u are a little shaky chihuahua abt everything.

I have this scene planned out where cara wakes up from a nightmare SCREAMING, sapote's room is right beside her and hey thats her little buddy so ofc she runs in. but cara wont talk to her, and sapote is like. kid I Am Not Leaving You Alone rn I Am Vaguely Worried and you need someone Adult Shaped to talk to. so caras like. whatever get saguaro then. and sapote is BAFFLED, but it makes perfect sense. because unlike sapote, they won't badger her or try and get her to spill anything, they won't try forcing her into a hug, if she asks them to just talk and distract, they're happy to. they aren't going to go spill her secrets and they CERTAINLY wont rat her out for saying anything untowardly about queen.

sapote accuses them of trying to yank cara into their little cult over this of course. kadskj

oops. thats a very long ramble about nothing very clear. I'm trying to be GOOD about not spoiling my own darn story, but the temptation to talk about it is so strong. I'm always super happy to share stuff on it and when ppl show interest it makes my heart explode. thank uuuu so much again TwT

[transmasc-wizard]

@letters-to-lgbt-kids' 22 Questions for Nonbinary November!

1.Which labels do you use? Transmasculine, nonbinary, genderqueer, nonbinary trans guy, transmasc. (only counting gender labels)

2.What are your pronouns? he/they! No preference.

3.How old were you when you came out to yourself as nonbinary? Uh... idk exactly but it was like a year ago? ish? depends on whether you count the other 3 times i came out to myself lmao.

4.What’s one thing you’d like to tell your younger self? "hey there's actually a Reason you hate being called pretty and avoid mirrors like the plague and really want a flat chest. Wild, right"

5.Is there a myth about nonbinary people that annoys you the most? that we're all unaligned and want to be androgynous. I DO want to be andro, in the sense of being fem and masc at the same time, but others don't. Also, i'm masc-alligned.

6.Is there a nonbinary celebrity you look up to? This might be cheap lol but Demi Lovato, i like their music, so... yeah.

7.If you’re out, how did you come out? I am not ~technically~ out. But my friend knows; i was like "hey i think im transmasc" and she said "ok cool". but i came out to my family and it was. interesting lmao

8.Is there a gender-related pun you like? non-beenary. Also: trans people should handle the money because everything we do is a transaction im so sorry

9.Do you have friends who identify as nonbinary, too? friend-ish people, yeah. Also i have a friend who jokes she's "{name}gender" and says he is ok with literally any pronouns so... we may have an egg here.

10.Do you have a favorite lgbt+ character? Hmmmm Nico Di Angelo is my namesake but i honestly can't pick lmao.

11. Lgbt, lgbt+, lgbtqa+… which one do you usually use? Queer. I have a long, long post explaining why, but i hate being called LGBT unless you also call me queer lmao

12. How do you explain the term “nonbinary” to people who have no idea what it means? "i do not vibe with gender". or, "boy is here, girl is here, no gender is here, and i am here" *points between boy and no gender*. they usually get it

13.Tell us a fun fact about yourself (gender-related or random!) i am absolutely obsessed with books and if you want a book of any genre or type or trope just ask me via asks or anon and i will throw ALL THE RECS at u

14.How did you find your name? I stole it from Nico Di Angelo <3

15.If you’re in a relationship, how did your partner react to your coming-out? I'm a single pringle who doesn't wanna mingle lol, but my FRIENDS were all pretty good (except one. she's a transphobic asshole and i kinda hate her now)

16.Do you prefer partner, datemate, significant other or something else? i mean i've never dated and don't really wanna but my theoretical partner would call me boyfriend or partner in crime. the "in crime" would not be optional and i would not date someone who would object to it

17.A piece of advice for questioning kids? don't treat labels like they own you. E.g. if you ID as straight then really wanna date a boy/girl/ur gender, don't jump thru hoops explaining away that emotion--just use bi or pan or something else that fits. Also, it's ok to change labels!! i did like 20 times before i settled on my labels i've been using for about 8 months now!!

18.Which flag(s) do you use? nonbinary, genderqueer, aroace, bi, trans, transmasculine, asexual, aromantic. Look em up urself, tumblr won't let me post the images

19.Any tips for bad days? read a book. write a story. draw a picture. it doesn't have to be good, just do it. it helps

20.Do you have a favorite nonbinary blog on tumblr? i like @neopronounsmybelovaed, @lgb-positivi-t (not NB specific tho), and @letters-to-lgbt-kids (also not nonbinary specific tho). idk i havent seen a lot of NB blogs--reccomendations are appreciated!

21.Feminine, masculine, androgynous - or none of those things? i would like to be all of them at once but also femme but also manly masc boy but also 'my gender is gay and my sexuality is nonbinary' but also do not percieve me but ALSO-- (u get the idea)

22. What are your three favorite things about yourself? ah fuck uh. i like my writing. I like my ability to usually find good friends. i like how i will literally consume All The Information related to the things i like (in other words, talk to me about the raven cycle or writing pls).

[jae-canikeepyou]

| heartstrings | j.jh

genre: angst, pure angst a/n: requested by this anon! this scenario based on taylor swift’s new song; afterglow. i can tell you how relatable the lyrics are. whew, been a while since i wrote an angst! not proof read but anyway, hope you like it anon! please do give urself a nickname so i can recognize you. ~j.

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jaehyun never wanted this to happen. his chest heaved in deep, hiccuped breaths, reacting in regret of his actions. at this very moment, he saw your eyes swell, all puffed up and looked like you hadn’t gotten much sleep in the past few days. the redness of its thin veins just adds the amount of agony he had caused you. the sniffs so frequent meant you had finished crying— or so he thought.

tears began rolling down your cheeks as you saw him right at your apartment door. you wrapped yourself more in the wool cardigan, forming sweaterpaws to hide your slightly bruised hands from hitting anything they encountered. jaehyun wanted to step in to talk but your arm swung, telling him that you’d had enough.

“y/n.. i’m really sorry i hurt you.” he quivered like he wanted to break down. “i never meant to hurt you in a way that it’d lead to.. this.” he pointed at your sleeves, hinting that he saw your hands before you hid them away.

“should’ve seen it coming, what do i expect from a jock?” you bitterly questioned.

it had been months since you’ve hung out with jaehyun. he introduced himself when you both became partners that one time for that damned science project. him being the person who came late for the lesson, he automatically was paired with you by the professor in charge. the universe just loves to irritate you, you thought. however, for a jock, he was actually smart; like he knew his priorities.

jaehyun had always wanted to befriend you, but opportunities doesn’t seem to align with his desires. however at that time, he thanked the heavens for answering that. he knew you were the type who was easy to approach, but most in days he saw you usually, all alone.

and he wanted to change that.

you both bonded over little silly things such as memes on the internet, music genres and heck, even going to a coin karaoke bar to sing your hearts out. after school dates became a thing too, where you and jaehyun would take turns into treating each other junk food or go on a detour when neither of you didn’t want to head home yet. gosh, how nicknames became the norm too. he called you ‘sweets’ because he knew you loved desserts, whereas you called him ‘hoops’, his love for basketball was so obvious. he pulled your heartstrings and soon enough, time passed so much to the point you had, somehow, developed feelings for him.

how you wished your heart had never gave in— fell for him*, that was the accurate phrase.

jaehyun hadn’t replied to your messages for a long time, so you went back to being alone. maybe he needed space? but that one day.. you felt yourself crumbling down when you saw him, arms wrapped around another girl’s waist and they just.. kissed.

“sweets..” he called out your name, his hands wanting to reach you.

“don’t call me that, jaehyun.” you gritted your teeth, your fingers pointing at him with a fierce expression he hadn’t seen before. “go and be with your girlfriend. she might be looking for you and i’d be dead if she knew you were even here.” you attempted to close the door.

“wait y/n! she’s not my girlfriend!” he held the door. “i was being friendly.”

you’ve had enough of that typical defense and your brows scrunched in irritation. “oh and snogging other girls is your way of being friendly?!” you scoffed in disbelief.

“look, i didn’t mean to. it just happened at the spur of the moment.” he tried to reason out but you weren’t having any of it.

“yeah sure and our friendship probably happened at the spur of the moment too.” you attempted to close the door, yet his strength was no match for you. you hated being hung in the air, without explanation.

“no y/n. please-”

“i thought you were different! i thought i’d see the good in you but i guess you change so easily when you find another fish in the tank huh?” you yelled.

“i am different!” his voice echoed the hallway and as he was aware of it, he sighed. “i changed because of you. whenever we hung out we had chemistry. we clicked so much-” he held your shoulders.

“we did! but we had too much of that and it blew up..” you sighed heavily, catching your breath from screaming. jaehyun waited for the next words; and he hoped that he didn’t.

“until there’s no us..” you mumbled. “actually, there was never an ‘us’. you just left me in the dark. leave and go have fun swimming with her.”

jaehyun’s heart sank at your assumption. he knew your feelings for him, yet he wasn’t so sure too. he wanted you to let him explain, that it was in his nature of being friendly, but snogging was definitely not part of it.

“i ask you to stop chasing me. don’t court me anymore. i’m not a girl who you could easily use.” you sniffed as you wiped your nose.

“y/n..” he pleaded. the door slammed right in front of him. “it’s all on me! i blame myself for what i’ve done!”

there was no answer but minutes later, you went off like sirens, and started to cry. jaehyun began to question himself;

why do i have to break what i love so much?

he punched the wall hard enough that his knuckles reddened, soon becoming bruised. as it heals, it will forever remind him of how he hurt you, when he didn’t mean it. he didn’t want to lose you like this. jaehyun leaned back against your door, his hands ruffled his hair in a mess. tears fell as he squinted his clouded eyes.

the closed door meant its meaning. the closure was there, and it was a bitter one.

you covered your mouth to muffle the cries as your back slid by the door. you lowered to ground, and you’ve never felt this weak before. too much pain and agony sucked out of you that you didn’t even care thinking about when you’ll ever stand up again. never in a few months you’d believed for it to happen.. that you had to end this imaginary, hopeful friendship. the worse part?

to cut his heartstrings; the ones you tugged oh so tightly.

[whirlybirbs]

studying.

pairing: college!peter x reader rating: all audiences welcome to this fluff what to listen to: roll up by fitz & the tantrums a/n: for the anons who gave me some ideas, here is the start of a potential series? or, as i would say, peter crushes on his TA.

After months of applications and tours and accepted student days, Peter had finally settled on MIT.

(It had helped that Tony had written his recommendation letter. A lot.)

September brings a new leaf.

Peter trades in the hustle and bustle for NYC for that of Boston. It is less shiny, less new. He likes it though; likes the cobblestone, the spirit, the history and the rhythmic rattle of the T under the Kendell stop. The late summer breeze is crisp as Peter shrugs his hoodie on, bagel dangling from his mouth as he chews and launches himself up the steps towards the quad.

His sense are in a haywire; it is the new environment. His sunglasses are maybe a little darker than they should be.

A week ago, his phone had been buzzing with kissy emoji from Aunt May, a good luck text from Tony and of course Ned -- his friend had settled in only a few T stops away at Harvard. The first day of classes had come and gone, bringing it with it an overwhelming sense of belonging. For once, Peter didn’t feel like an outlier.

The only text Peter is paying attention to this morning is yours, though.

pls help me study for my bio quiz later, peter, i am begging u

It makes him laugh. Peter grins, dimples digging in a little bit as he settles into a quick pace. Strawberry converse beat against the jagged cobblestone.

I mean, he wasn’t going to lie to himself -- you were, like, gorgeous. And funny. And you thought it was cool that he’d binged the entirety of Jason Todd and the Outlaws in one night. The fact that you’d excitedly added him on Facebook last Friday after class was enough; he’d messaged you, asking if avoiding the chicken at McCormick was a smart move.

You were a sophomore. You knew the ropes. Peter is totally using it as an excuse.

it’s literally the second week??? who is giving quizzes already??? who’s THAT evil???

You’re laughing, crossing the quad on the opposite side of campus when you get his texts.

It was only happenstance you two started to become friends. His first class, an 8:30am entry-level history course run by Professor Frankfurt (which was really just one big Captain America fanboy session) happened to be the class you’d decided to TA for -- and in turn, the class you’d first met Peter in. Forced to sit front row after arriving late -- he’d had trouble finding the Tang Auditorium -- he ended up being the one to sit next to you.

He was wearing a Saint Motel t-shirt. You’d stopped him after class, nervously chirping your admiration of that particular album. He’d stuttered in surprise. You were a little mortified, mostly since you had realize how pretty he was. He had big brown eyes and dimples. Dimples.

From that point forward, it was like you couldn’t escape him. He joined the Broadcasting club -- and you’d laughed out loud when he walked through the door wearing a different Saint Motel t-shirt. Comic Roundtable wasn’t safe either, as Peter Parker had suddenly become the fresh face among the small club of eight. It truly culminated when you realized Peter had taken up residency on Danny’s floor -- the R.A. was a fellow Anthropology major, and one of your closest friends.

So, yeah, texting him and asking for help on a Gen Ed Bio course quiz was kind of pushing it. You wanted to hate Peter, honestly -- as a freshman he’d already met a handful of prerequisites through his famed Stark Internship, working his way through a good half of the first year Computer Science and Molecular Biology course load. The air at MIT was competitive, but for some reason Peter didn’t feed into it. You felt okay admitting a fault.

It wasn’t like you were going to go to Academic Computing. They’d definitely roast you for not understanding cell structure and osmosis and all that other shit. You were an Anthropology and American History double major for god’s sake. You didn’t need that stuff in your brain. You needed room for other things.

So, you text Peter back.

it’s prof steck. don’t play urself. stay away from her. but is that a yes??? bc if it is i’ll swipe for u at baker!!!

Peter’s slipping through the auditorium doors when he texts you back.

Your phone buzzes on your desk, and you laugh a little when you read the message.

only if u buy me mozzerella stix!!!!

He shoulders you as he sits down. The touch is enough to light up Peter’s nervous system; he ignores the happy tingle that creeps up his back.

The stack of graded papers is jostled a bit by the movement -- Frankfurt had done an assessment on Wednesday, intending to get a gage for what he was working with in the class. So much for syllabus week. You, of course, had been tasked with grading. Not that you minded, though, it had distracted you from asking Peter to come out with you on Saturday night.

“You know,” you chirp, “Baker has make your own stir fry tonight...”

“No way!” Peter’s voice clips a bit, high and excited, “Then forget the fried cheese sticks, buy me stir fry.”

“Only if you don’t make fun of me,” you hum, rolling your eyes a little, “This quiz on is the simple stuff and I don’t know why, I just don’t get it.”

“Well,” Peter chides, settling back in his seat. His fingers dance across the trackpad of his laptop, waking it up, “Mitochondria is the powerhouse of the cell.”

You deadpan.

Peter grins. It’s toothy.

“Is that what the Stark Internship taught you?”

His laugh is boyish. Those dimples are back. Your chest caves a bit, face hot with a gooey expression. What the hell is wrong with you? Going gaga over a freshman?

“Naw, memes taught me that one.”

“Oh,” you wave your hands as Professor Frankfurt throws himself into the auditorium in a huff, “Even better.”

You’re both silenced into a hush as the rest of the first year class follows suit. Professor Frankfurt calls roll. Your name is called after Peter’s. You hand out the exams, and then sit beside Peter for the rest of the class, basking in the warm glow of his semi-permanent smile.

“You know it’s not a date, right?”

Your roommate has her fists halfway into a family sized bag of doritos. Netflix glows from the top bunk. You’re fixing your hair in the mirror hanging on the door.

“I know, but,” you sigh, “He’s cute.”

“He’s a freshman,” she waves as The Office drones on, “He’s fresh meat -- dead in the water. That’s social suicide, you know. At least wait until after Rush Week.”

“Peter doesn’t seem like the fraternity type.”

“Yikes.”

“That’s not a bad thing!” you huff, tugging your hair up and away, “Seriously, there’s a reason why you keep getting your heart broken by dumb boys.”

“Is it because I have an affinity for beefy rich assholes named Brad?”

“That’ll do it, honestly.”

“Fair enough,” she tosses a grin your way, “Good luck on your dinner date with Peter.”

“It’s not a date!”

--

It’s not a date.

Totally not?

Why is he so nervous?

Oh god, his hands are sweating.

“I’ll have the sweet and tangy sauce, please.”

The box of stir fry is handed to him -- you’re already digging in with a goofy grin on your face. You much on the lo mein noodles happily. You’re covering your own nervousness well. Thank god for deodorant because Peter has you sweating -- literally. It had climbed into the high 70s by late afternoon, leaving Parker in a t-shirt that seemed too tight to be legal and a pair of shorts. He was tan. And he had freckles. Everywhere.

Your hair is swept into hazy curls by the late summer heat. Peter watches the curls along the back of your neck as you both work your way through the check out in the dining hall.

You both make your way to the Hayden Library, strides slow. The sky looks gold, and the clouds glow in the deep blue of the September evening. Traffic drums on, but you both are locked into conversation. Nothing is breaking it -- not even the wave of friends across the street.

“So, New York, huh?”

“Yeah,” he laughs, taking a bite from his takeout container, “My Aunt told me that if I ever went to a Red Sox game, she’d murder me in cold blood.”

“Yikes,” you chatter, “You’re missing out -- I mean, no Big Papi anymore, but Hanley Ramirez is a big deal. Be a shame if you never saw him play in Boston.”

“Are you trying to convince me to go to a Red Sox game?” Peter’s voice hitches, “Because that’s not happening.”

“C’mon, the Yankees suck,” your smile is challenging and Peter laugh as you take a few steps ahead, turning around to watch him as you skip backwards, “Turn to the dark side, Peter! It’s more fun! We have a green monster.”

“I think I’d rather take the Hulk, honestly.”

“Me too,” you wink, “Bruce Banner is an absolute babe.”

Peter laughs at that -- loud and rowdy in the late summer heat. It’s intoxicating.

Your takeaway boxes have been abandoned, licked clean, in favor of a biology textbook and notepads. Though, it wasn’t a welcome abandonment. You wanted to pull your hair out. It showed.

Your lips are pulled into a pout. Peter watches your brows screw together. The study room is filled with the chatter of a Bio101 Youtube video he’d pulled up, hoping to explain osmosis and semipermeable membranes and the importance of saline.

“See?” Peter’s pen taps the screen, “From high to low!”

“Always?”

“Always.”

“Sounds fake,” you hum, mushing your cheeks together as you lean on the wooden table, “But okay.”

“It’s not fake! It’s science.”

“So,” you lean back, waving your fingers, “... magic?”

“Basically,” Peter shrugs, “My formal title after grad school will be Wizard.”

“I want to be a wizard.”

“Then --”

“And make this whole quiz disappear.”

Peter drops his head into his hands, laughing softly as he rubs his brows together. You were getting it, albeit slowly. He couldn’t say he really minded losing his Monday night to you -- in fact, he found himself enjoying this a little bit too much. Your knee brushes his under the table as you shift, eyes drawn back to the video.

His skin tingles. Hot and prickly.

“How about one more hour of studying?”

“Thank god,” you whisper, “I can do that.”

“Power hour?”

“Power hour.”

He walks you back to your dorm.

Even though it’s in the opposite direction of his.

“I hope I helped,” he sighs, “Even if it’s a little bit?”

“You helped a lot -- seriously, I think I’m a wizard now.”

You blossom with pride as he giggles, eyes screwing shut as his head falls backwards. His converse scuff against the pavement as he shoves his fingers into his pockets. Peter glows under pinks and yellows of the streetlights. It’s cute. You wind your own fingers together, toeing the ground.

There’s a weighted pause between you both. Brown eyes burrow into your own.

It’s broken by the door to your dorm swinging open and a group of guys bustling by. It prompts you both to laugh again.

“I’ll see you on Wednesday, then?”

“Yeah! And, uh, I’ll let you know how I do on my quiz!”

“Make me proud!”

He waves, you wave, and you swear it’s the warmest you’ve ever felt.

[koikingu]

every number with a 1 or 7 in it.

is this the same anon from last time? ; u; ty ty ty

1: How tall or short do you wish you were?Uhhh I like the height I’m at right now. c: I’m 5′4~Not too short and not too tall!

7: What is your opinion on [insert person/thing here]????????????????????????????????????

10: Are you allergic to anything?I can’t ingest Lobster or Cantelope o:And I’m actually really allergic to cats and dogs and most animals with fur but WHO CARES I LOVE THEM ALL. (plus it’s a really mild allergy it’s not like I puff up at the thought of them THANK GOD)

11: What’s your sexuality?Pansexual!

12: Do you prefer tea, coffee, or cocoa?I like all three a lot ~ Teas are preferred but I usually will choose coffee if I need caffeine.AND COCOA IS JUST A DELICIOUS TREAT OKAY? ; u;

13: Are you a cat or dog person?Honestly? It depends. I love all cats, I really really REALLY do, but I get more excited over certain breeds of dogs. ; u; Like there will never be a cat I don’t like, but I will ALWAYS be insanely excited when there’s a nice dog somewhere in the same vicinity of me.

14: Would you rather be a vampire, elf, or merperson?Can I be a vampiric mermaid? If so, then yes.

15: Do you have a favorite Youtuber?I have several! I enjoy Lindy of BubzbeautyMykie of Glam&GoreiDubbbzand ofcourse Markimoo

16: How tall are you?[See Question 1]

17: If you had to change your name, what would you change it to?Uhhhh well I mean officially change it to Linh but if I had to change my name altogether I used to really like the name Emma but that wouldn’t fit me really well. Sarah is a name I really like, but I don’t wanna have a common name, I know like a trillion Sarahs lmao. Idk. I like too many names.

Skipping 18.

19: Do you believe in ghosts/spirits?I do!

21: Are you religious?Nope.

27: Any phobias or fears?I’m kinda claustrophobic, pretty arachnophobic, and I have a fear of being alone.which is weird because I’m on the introverted side.

31: Do you get scared easily?Very

37: What is your eye color?Unfortunately, dark brown. :c

41: Who is someone you would like to see/visit right now?@fafnir-aegis​ :c i love Nicholas, he will always be my best friend and I wish he lived closer.And there is not a moment in time where I wouldn’t wanna see David. I love him too much.

47: What is a sound you really hate?Loud ones, or really repetitive sounds. (and the voices of my enemies B( jk)

51: Favorite actor and/or actress? I HAVE TOO MANY

57: Have any mental disorders?Severe Depression and Anxiety.

58: What does your URL mean?I’m answering this one in place of #18 c:My url is the japanese name for magikarp!!

61: What makes you unfollow a blog?honestly not much because I would like, just scroll past posts I think aren’t interesting

67: Favorite meme:my life????????? jk i’m dumbuh there are too many good ones right now but the tag urself ones are p good.idk

70: Can your dog roll over on command, if you have a dog?Pintsize cannot, lmao I wish.

71: What outfit out of all your clothes do you like to wear the most?Uhhh I don’t have many outfits, but I like my dresses, or my asian kungfu generation shirt with my generic black ripped jeans I always wear. lmao.

72: Post a selfie or two?Maybe later ~

73: Do you have platform shoes?Nope :c I want some tho.

74: What is one random but interesting fact about yourself?One of my ears is more towards my face than the other one. o:75: Can you do a front flip?in a moon house, prob.

76: Do you like birds?No.

77: Do you like to swim?I LOVE TO SWIM

78: Is swimming or ice skating more fun to you?SWIMMING

79: Something you wish didn’t exist:xxxxxx and xxxxxx

81: Piercings you have?None at the moment.My earlobes closed up a really long time ago.I took my nipple piercings out last yearMy 16th birthday I got two ear cartilage piercings and since I was naive I had them done at Piercing Pagoda where they used a piercing gun and it shattered my cartilage and didn’t heal for an entire year so I took them out and when they healed, it healed weird and now there’s a weird bump on my ear where the piercings used to be.But I want my septum pierced and my ears pierced again both the lobes and cartilage ;A;

87: Do your socks always match?Uhhhh kinda. I usually only wear black socks, but sometimes the brand of sock doesn’t match but. they’re still matching?????

91: If a flower could aesthetically represent you, what kind would it be?Hibiscus

97: How long can you hold your breath for?Not long, my lungs are weak. ;A;

OH GOD THIS IS A LOT LONGER THAN I THOUGHT. ANON WHY.

100: A store you love?TOO MANY STORES TO COUNT OKAY?

101: Favorite type of shoesSlip on ANYTHING jk not anything.but I like slip on vans a lot.I also really want a pair of doc martensi also like flats and moccasins a lot

102: Where do you live?AZ

103: Are you a vegetarian or vegan? If so, why?Nope

104: What is your favorite mineral or gem?I like amethysts and emeralds a lot!!

105: Do you drink milk?Yes! I love milk. c:

106: Do you like bugs?;A; not really…

107: Do you like spiders?NO.

108: Something you get paranoid about?Being dirty ;A; or thinking everyone h8s me

109: Can you draw:Kinda

110: Nosiest question you have ever been asked?“Nosiest Question you have ever been asked?“

111: A question you hate being asked?uhhh I know theres some, but I can’t think of any right now.

112: Ever been bitten by a spider?Like every day of my life. :C

113: Do you like the sound of waves at the beach?I love them!

114: Do you prefer cloudy or sunny days?Cloudy but no rain pls!!

115: Someone you’d like to kiss or cuddle right now:DAVID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

116: Favorite cloud type: Cumulonimbus!!

117: What color do you wish the sky was?In Arizona, our sunsets are REALLY pretty and the sky turns a nice shade of blue that transitions into a pretty orange colour and the clouds turn purple!! so that, like ALL the time.

118: Do you have freckles?Kinda

119: Favorite thing about a person:MY FAVOURITE THING ABOUT DAVID IS DAVID.I LOVE HIM.

120: Fruits or vegetables?Fruits pls!

121: Something you want to do right now:Not work lmao.

122: Is the ocean or sky prettier?the Sky! but I do like the Ocean a lot!

123: Sweet or sour foods?BOTH

124: Bright or dim lights?Uhhh depends.

125: Do you believe in a certain magical creature?Uhhh???

126: Something you hate about Tumblr:Tumblr

127: Something you love about Tumblr:Tumblr

128: What do you think about the least?uhhhhh idk??

129: What would you want written on your tombstone?¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 

130: Who would you like to punch in the face right now?xxxxxx and xxxxxx

131: What is something you love but also hate about yourself?ME???

132: Do you smile with your teeth showing for pictures?both

133: Computer or TV?konpyuuta-kun

134: Do you like roller coasters?YES!

135: Do you get motion sickness or seasickness?Motion sickness pretty bad

136: Are your ears lobed or attached?Attached

137: Do you believe in karma?Yup

138: On a scale of 1-10, how attractive would you say you are?-12?

139: What nicknames do you have/have had?Too many to count

140: Did you have any pretend or imaginary friends?Yeah lol

141: Have you ever seen a therapist/shrink?Yeah, I kinda have to

142: Would you say you are a good or bad influence to others?I try to be a good influence

143: Do you prefer giving or receiving gifts/help?BOTH

144: What makes you angry?Uhhh I try not to be an angry person, but my emotions get the best of me a lot of the time, so like.. a lot of things make me angry. :C

145: How many languages do you speak fluently?2! I’m working on 3~I’m fluent in English and Tagalog (filipino) and I’m studying Japanese~

146: Do you prefer boys, girls, and/or non-binaries?I’m pansexual, but I prefer boys

147: Are you androgynous?no.

148: Favorite physical thing about yourself:My eyeglasses lmao

149: Favorite thing about your personality:I care A LOT

150: Name three people you would like to talk to right now in person.David, Nicholas, and Andres.

151: If you could go back into time and live in one era, which would you choose?nah, I wanna go into the future pls152: Do you like BuzzFeed?Sometimes.

153: How did you meet your spouse/girlfriend/boyfriend/partner? Tinder, actually xD

154: Do you like to kiss others’ foreheads or hands for platonic reasons?YES

155: Do you like to play with others’ hair?Yes~

156: What embarrasses you?A lot apparently. :c I don’t wanna go in depth.

157: Something that makes you nervous/anxious:Being alone.

158: Biggest lie you have ever told:I’m fine.

159: How many people are you following?1023

160: How many posts do you have on your blog(s)?3403

161: How many drafts do you have on your blog(s)?16

162: How many likes do you have on your blog(s)?2721

163: Last time you cried and why:a few hours ago, because I was watching a sad video

164: Do you have long or short hair?Longish hair, it’s down to my boobies c:

165: Longest your hair has ever been:Down to my butt!

166: Why do you like, dislike, or have neutral feelings about religon?I mean, I don’t have an opinion on religion yet.

167: Do you really care how the universe and world was created?I don’t. c:

168: Do you like to wear makeup?I do! but I’m a lazy potato and never want to spend time putting it on. xD

169: Can you stand on your hands or head for more than thirty seconds?Nope :c

170: Did you answer the questions you were asked truthfully?Yep! o uoJFC ANON. I underestimated how many questions this was. ;A;