#or so I've been told anyway
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For Once
I can say, for once – for what my heart hunts
Let me write, for once – about things ideal
Let me show, for once – what it is I feel
I can say, for once – what I meant for months
I can’t believe that – we’ve only just met
You make me love that – for which I don’t live
You make me trust that – which I don’t believe
I can’t believe that – this, I’ve never felt
Get it off my chest – the love I’ve amassed
I am not obsessed – with you anymore
I am not obsessed – still, I love you so
Get it off my chest – the love we detest
I do my best to – be worthy of you
And all that I do – you accompany
And all that you do – all thrills, so many
I do my best to – love and cherish you
I want, so badly – to hold you gently
I love, how sadly – from pleasure I flinch
I love, so madly – of you, every inch
I want, so badly – to kiss you madly
I want, so badly – to kiss you gently
I love, so madly – I love all things yours
I love, how sadly – I can’t not be yours
I want, so badly – to hold you madly
I do my best to – always comfort you
And all that you do – makes me love you more
And all that I do – you are who it’s for
I do my best to – be cherished by you
Get it off my chest – the love without rest
I am not obsessed – still, you’re far too sweet
I am not obsessed – still, I act like it
Get it off my chest – the love I’ve confessed
I can’t believe that – this, I’ve just now felt
You make me trust that – which I never would
You make me love that – which I really should
I can’t believe that – this late, we have met
I can say, for once – I’ve loved you for months
Let me show, for once – how happy I am
Let me write, for once – a happy poem
I can say, for once – what all of me wants
#The only happy poem I have ever written#a little obvious I suppose. as it's pointed out. but yea#I am sure the person for whom I wrote this won't mind#since they decided to no longer be a part of my life :3#ahahaha anyway#INNER RHYMES MY BELOVED#One of my favourite things in poems ever#they're so good#lovesick#lovedrunk lovesick little poem#love poem#love poetry#love#romantic#or so I've been told anyway#poetry#writing#poem#poetry on tumblr#poemblr#original poem#poems on tumblr#spilled ink#spilled poetry#signed; fa
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better than 'would he say that' is to ask 'what would it take to drive him to say that'
*sweating, whole body shaking while I stare at a google doc* would he fucking say that????
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after my friends expressed horror watching professional hockey player nathan mackinnon spray suncreen straight in the face, i'm actually curious...
#like... i do this all the time.......#i've done it my entire life#my friends were like we support you but that’s not how people normally do it though#and i was like... is the nozzle not there so you can whip the can out and just rawdog it? and the sting is part of the experience#(anyway… force of habit. i still do it now even though i’ve been told that’s apparently not the way)#polls#needed to reupload this because formatting problems#poll#nathan mackinnon#sidney crosby#pittsburgh penguins#colorado avalanche#hockey#nhl
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something's a bit fishy about this man
#i've been loving the nautical theme adopted by a few of the hermits this season#anyways grian changed his skin halfway thru making this drawing so .#glad that's the one thing that's stayed consistent throughout my years of drawing him#grian#grian fanart#hermitcraft s10#hermitcraft#my art#also if you told 2022 me that i'd be drawing grian with mutton chops i think i'd just stop functioning
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I feel like F/P/S was still a pretty weird one, even by Lance's standards.
sorry for (in an ironic twist) not doing much Ride Kamens art now that it's actually started; I've been pretty slow going through it and I feel weird posting about things I'm not caught up on! though I'm. definitely gonna have to set aside some time to actually get through episode 13, after what they posted today. (w-what did they do to my Leon) (NOBODY TELL ME I HAVE TO FIND OUT ON MY OWN) (LEOOOOOOOON)
#art#ride kamens#f/p/s#freedom/play/slam#it's probably not as dramatic as i'm imagining i'm just terrified for our sweet boy#smh can't believe leon's bald now#this is why i don't like to post before i get caught up i have NO IDEA#anyway sorry this. kind of sucks. it just made me laugh#i love the sheer absurdity that must be lance's day-to-day#it's amazing what you can get used to i guess#event chaosworlds are bizarre even for chaosworlds though#(poor shizuru...he was SO confused about the bread...)#i admit the events are one of the reasons i've been so slow at the main story#i told myself i was going to put my foot down and prioritize and not get distracted by the next event#and then they announced frilly prince froufrou tea party wisdom boys and RUINED MY LIFE#how am i supposed to get anything done when all i can think about is jou just going absolutely ham on some tiny cucumber sandwiches#how dare they do this to me
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Incorrect, the fact that Biden has dropped out and a candidate with history of supporting medicare for all and being more receptive to a ceasefire in the I/P conflict has made me go from "I cannot morally support the Democratic nominee" to "I am voting for the Democratic nominee despite the fact she isn't perfect in every respect." I'm really happy this played out. The Dems for the most part abandoned the old Obama platform and it feels like its possible an actual progressive agenda could come to pass in my lifetime.
Kamala 2024!
If you weren't going to vote Democratic in this election before Biden dropped out you're a dorkass loser who does not care about any of the issues you're yammering about here and also a fundamentally bad person, and I hope you get run over by a bus.
But you got one thing right in all of this gibberish, Kamala 2024.
#personal#answered#anonymous#i mean let's be clear here no president is gonna attempt to be progressive ever again within my lifetime#because joe biden tried to do like 25% of that and got ZERO fucking credit#he did so much on healthcare on reform on loans on so many social issues and for all his litany of failings on i/p#he has been distinctly harsher on netanyahu than a good chunk of dems and certainly the entire republican party#for the first time since i was four we are not involved in any wars as americans and that is thanks to joe biden#but the thing is that he gets no credit for any of it!#him pulling out of afghanistan caused his approvals to tank in a way that never recovered#and leftists gave him FUCK ALL for it#they gave him nothing they just continued whining that even tho he cancelled a bajillion in student loans#he didn't actually cancel a QUADRILLION dollars so both parties are the same and voting is the most arduous task known to man#no democrat who is running is going to forget that catering to leftist/progressive policies gets them zero leeway with those supporters#that it not only tanks numbers but you still get constant haranguing about it anyway#so they're not gonna do it#we are gonna get fuckall for at least a good fifty years#and anything we get will be utterly in SPITE of people like you anon it will happen in spite of everything you've done#mostly because of people like me and mine who understand that voting is the bare minimum#and that for the democratic process to work the way you want it to you need to participate and not pitch a fucking fit#like a four year old who was told they can't go to disney this weekend#like i know you ratfuckers are happy this played out because this is all a game to you and you don't actually care#but that's why i've got zero faith in you people and why i'm glad it's my kind of folks#actual die hard democrats who have always been hardliners for supporting democrats in every possible election#who are picking up the slack and donating to harris and supporting her agenda#which is the exact same as biden's because she's his vice president and they share they same platform#because that's what they were both running on! twice!#anyway fuck you please feel free to find a necktie and test how tall your doorframe is
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(ID in alt) I literally said I was gonna post this month's ago and then never had the wherewithal to describe it and so I didn't Lmao (said with pain). But since I'm thinking of opening my commissions I figured I should remind ppl that I. Yknow. Can draw.
Lots of Steph here (I had major art block making all of these and my brain worms for her kept me going) + some sprinkles of stephcass for Cass nation to enjoy!
#dc comics#dc#stephanie brown#cassandra cain#jason todd#(yes for the teddy bear. it counts)#batgirl#batgirls#mine#< keep forgetting to tag my art as that I'm terrible 😭#ANYHOW I'm slowly getting back into drawing again after my last ipad got nuked (cant think abt that or ill cry) and i finished uni#oh yeah j finished my first year of uni btw. i went to an Olivia Rodrigo concert like a week or 2 ago. I've been busy lol#but yeah it's looking like I've got a fun summer of bottom feeding ahead of me now that I've officially been told i got passed over for that#-comic job i applied for. lol. lmao even#it's fine honestly it was a pretty daunting prospect i just have to find a way to fill the time by myself now#I've plenty of comics to read so that's nice. got wayyy into mark waids DD run recently (mostly for Chris Samnee's art)#so that's been fun! i have my empowered omnibus (embarrassing and kept under my bed <3) i have TT year 1 i have huntress and WW#uhhh i got flash 1 minute war. lots of good stuff!#so hopefully i don't go. completely feral from lack of stimulation#also hopefully commissions will be a thing i can do#godddd there's many mkre things i want to draw. i got too enamoured w my own bad theory and now I've drawn tim!bats#but unfortunately now i only want to draw tim!bats being laughed at my the batfamily bc seriously tim?? really??#< it's literally probably not going to happen but I've invested myself in this terrible future for some reason#imagine damian trying to robin for tim!bats for 1 (one) night and the next morning he doesn't say anything he just moves to bludhaven#he can't take this shit#oh so many ideas...#ANYWAY. ues. finally art. now if you like it. consider commissioning me (in 2 to 3 business weeks <3)#(no pressure)
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I cannot even begin to articulate how beautiful and heartbreaking the Kevin moment was.
The idea that this man who Chimney loved as a brother, who he lost too soon, came back to him in his moment of need and pointed him home? The way Kevin is one of his ghosts, but only in the most loving way.
As tragic as it was, losing Kevin brought with it a realization of unconditional love in the Lees—because not only did they manage to love him through the hurt, but they needed him, too. He wasn't a reminder of their pain—he was the son they had left who they could have lost, too, but didn't. He was love and joy, even through all the hurt. They were a family. A little bit broken, but built on the kind of foundation Chimney had never had until them, at least not since he'd lost his mom.
For Kevin to be the one to point him home? To send him to the two people whose unconditional love had kept him alive, if only in their hearts? To the parents who'd raised them both and didn't deserve to lose another son? To the two people who had never let him down?
It's just a lot.
#anyway this is really fucking me up something fierce#all i can think about is the moment they were told kevin didn't make it#and mr. lee collapse into chimney for support and then mrs. lee followed#because there is so much love in that#and chimney must have expected them to hate him. for bringing kevin with him into firefighting. for not being the one to die in that fire.#but all they showed him was unconditional love#and for kevin to come back to him and send him home?#well i've just been sobbing over it all day long#911 spoilers#chimney han#kevin lee#the lees#911 s7#911 7x06#random 911 thoughts
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FAMINE: That's one deep, dark nothing you've got there, Dean.
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dean and his father. dean and his family. dean and how bad it is.
(via @closetoyou1970)
#spn#vid#mind the warnings on this one for real#woe! fruit of my rewatch be upon ye.#pallas calls this my 'deangirl coming out vid' which honestly. true. but those who paid attention know i've always been a deangirl.#also. after this no more deanwinchester rilo kiley amvs I Pwomise#anyway. i'm not gonna give a full commentary here but a big reason why i chose this song is that the narrator#is essentially dismissing her own problems and instead watching the problems of someone else#and i kind of wanted to play with that theme. this is the parallels show so let's do some parallels. lots of things happen to characters#that are Like Dean somehow. either in personality or circumstance. that we know or can infer happen to him. but we don't see it bc it's#not sayable. not speakable. so like for an easy one. we see meg being tortured in caged heat. she also talks about apprenticing under#alastair just like dean. so i show her being tortured [in a way that is sexualized and demon-specific] and reacting how she does#because i invite the audience to imagine or interpret that this has also happened to dean at some point. we just don't see it#so there are many dean parallels in this video. some obvious. some subtle but textual. some products of my twisted mind. but that's the way#i am using them to make my argument.#oh also: dean voice sam's eyes going black is JUST like when he used to fight with dad and wouldn't listen to me when i told him not to.#i guess also the point is that because it's unsayable. dean can't say it. dean can't even acknowledge it. and so it bleeds through#into everything in his life#that's why it's important that the song narrator doesn't take her own problems seriously. dean doesn't either.
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WHO is ernesto foulworth and gino 🧍
#[—✦ rambling#-✧ twst updates#HAD to post about this immediately omg#miraculous marionettes sounds so cuteee#i've been excited for playful land to drop on EN#but the names are such an interesting change 😭#if i wasnt already so used to fellow honest and gidel i would've liked these names a lot more bc i feel like it works???#if i looked at fellow honest without knowing he's fellow honest and you told me his name is “ernesto foulworth” i would've believed it#idk that's just my opinion 😭#anyways thanks EN localization#your curveballs never cease to be surprising
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alongside my existing goals i think that an additional artistic goal of mine is to teach and stage work that is often time deemed “unstagable”—works with impossible stage directions, plays with ghosts, works so textually dense they require hundreds of hours of parsing, work that is violent and uncomfortable and confrontational, works that leave marks on their audience (psychic or otherwise) and i think all of that is still compatible with an artistic and pedagogical approach that centers safety and growth of all involved—i am drawn to these works that make me uncomfortable because they make me think deeply and critically and i think the notion that some of these works are “unstable” inherently makes them worthy of an attempt
#i've been thinking a lot about projects that i want to direct down the line and so many of them fall into that ''unstagable'' (or worse imho#''unproducable'' which is a fucking stupid term producers not wanting to take even minor risk is its own convo) and i remember the reaction#i got when i told people i was directing baal which is incredibly tame compared to some of the work i'm interested directing and being so#shocked at the pearl clutching; i think that it is entirely possible to do extremely difficult work centering safety in the process and it#frustrates me that there are very few producing entities interested in that type of work#anyways—not really going anywhere with this but i am thinking deeply about this + i want to teach a directing class with the focus of#staging the unstagable#anyways. bring on your hamletmachines your jets of bloods your blasteds your cleansed etc. etc.
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*me immediately after going through a terrifying and traumatic experience* haha yeah I guess it was rough but I'm fine now like I'm totally chill. It was kinda funny actually if you think about it
#GUESS WHO GOT A PIERCING INFECTION SO BAD OVERNIGHT SHE HAD TO RUSH TO THE HOSPITAL#AND GET SURGERY TO REMOVE IT BC THE METAL WAS BURROWING ITSELF INSIDE HER LIP#yep that was meee :3#man. it sounds so silly now. like that probably shouldn't have made me panic nearly as much as it did#but you have to understand at the time it was terrifying#I noticed my lip was a bit swollen earlier in the night but I was like ok it's probably nothing serious#I put some ice on it hoping it would be back to normal after I got some sleep#then I woke up at like 5:30 AM with my lip super swollen and my lip piercing literally burying itself inside my flesh#I tried pushing it back out a bit and blood and pus started coming out so yk I started panicking#so I went upstairs and I asked my mom to drive me to the hospital#luckily we have free healthcare in brazil and the hospital was basically empty(this was on sunday)#but when I got there they told me the doctor wouldn't arrive until 8AM and it was like 6:45 at that point#so I REALLY started panicking 🫠 bc I could feel like the piercing kept burying itself more deeply like#I felt like the skin inside my lip was going to close around it and I was terrified bc I had no idea what to do#and I was scared it might make things worse#but all I could do was sit there and wait and so I started having a panic attack#luckily my mom was there with me the whole time so at least I didn't feel alone#and then I just. waited for it to end. and then tried to keep myself distracted until the doctor got there#I got treated by military doctors! sjdjcjck the army has been giving additional support for hospitals in my city#bc of the floods some health units are currently closed and demand got higher so they needed extra support there#so an army doctor performed my surgery(inside an army tent no less ajfjjfkf maybe not ideal but. functional)#he was so nice?? like probably the calmest most careful doctor I've ever been treated by#I still had a bit of a nervous breakdown again after the surgery but that was bc I'd never been through something like that before#I got anesthesia obvs but I still felt the tug when he cut into my skin to remove the piercing and did my stitches#so my mind started cooking up all these horrible scenarios of how everything could go wrong and I was gonna die#cried on the doctor's table. 👍🏻 awesome#but he and his assistant were super nice about it she even offered me a hug#but anyway in the end I finally calmed down and got some medication#now I'm all stitched up with my little bloated lip eating soup out of a straw 👍🏻 but I'm ALIVE and I'm just glad it's all over fjjvjkf#sleep.txt
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Satan shower card edit because WHY IS HE WEARING SHORTSS 🤬🤬‼️‼️‼️
also plopped some headcanons and better lighting on him :3
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One with less steam on his ass because it started off as a joke but I am NOT a coward:
#omg im going insane becuz i forgot to remove some part of his shorts 😭😭😭#also i am so proud on his ass????#it sounds weird as hell but theres been weirder#anyways like i was able to create ass from SCRATCH????? and rendered it???? clap clap....#i've seen people's post get taken down so TUMBLR.... TUMBLR :3 TUMBLR HI... YEAH SO LIKE....#i need to fucking sleep this shit took me 45 minutes (atleast thats what ibispaint told me)#obey me satan#satan#obey me#... uhm#StOP WHY DID SEVENTEEN BY MARINA START PLAHING RIHHT WHEN I WANTED TO POST THIS 😭😭#is this a sign to make a seventeen satan animatic 🤨#obey me shower card#obey me edit
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thesis updates: sent the draft to my advisor -> she said it was "incoherent" and that she was "shocked" at my work and instead of telling me anything in detail as to what's wrong directs me to the writing center then proceeds to cc my committee members saying that she's at a loss with what to do with me -> was confused because... did i send her the wrong draft?? it seemed pretty solid to me?? like i was genuinely proud of it??? -> next day she sends me another email saying that actually my draft isn't bad at all and it just needs some reworking ???????
#you know what the problem is.#she's been telling me to write my thesis like a research article so i've been copying how it is in the articles she sends me#and so im like. clearly this isn't working if she's upset by this and didn't expect this. go rooting around my uni's websites to see#what the hell im doing wrong bc i must be doing something wrong but i dont know and my advisor wont TELL me what's wrong with the format#no examples of theses on the theses/dissertations page of my uni. knew that already but checked again#no examples of theses on the theses page of my program. knew that but double checked.#ended up rooting around for an HOUR and then stumbled upon a bunch of theses from my program#that is [1] not linked ANYWHERE on my program page or on the thesis page. [2] literally by good luck that i stumbled upon this cause it has#a bunch of MA theses from the past 20 years on here#read like 20 of them. realize that there's a specific format that my advisor just NEVER TOLD ME????? TO WRITE IN??#realize that i just kinda need to restructure my work a bit but it's actually not as bad as i expected#also. during my 'fake' defense last semester she was pissed at me about my charts but...everyone is using the format of charts i did ??????#oh. that's another thing. my advisor said that i 'defended' to the program coordinator even though i didn't actually defend anything and#she just told me flat out it was a no go so. lol.#anyways. it's. 4 am and im working on this stupid thing. im SO over it.#guys. im starting to fear im not the problem but my advisor is LMAO
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Looking at your what if post got me thinking
Would Shen Qingqiu have reacted a little...better? Less 'I have no relation to that child' type of reaction if people had assumed both him and Shen Yuan are siblings and not parent and child? Or would it have made it worse?
Probably worse! SQQ has through years of hard work and spite managed to establish himself as a noble born to the point that even LQG calls him one in canon; SY is very obviously NOT a noble born, considering how he acts, how he arrived and his subpar skills in the four arts.
Shen Yuan being assumed to be SQQ's son from, say, a whore, is slightly better than someone assuming they are siblings simply because if they assume they are siblings, then they are a short step away from the truth. Which is that Shen Qingqiu is not a noble.
Of course, there has probably been a few rumors about that as well. But SQQ is in that perfect range of possibly being a young father or a sibling with a large age gap. The young father option fits better for many of the older generation, especially since Shen Qingqiu in syonr stopped going to brothels the moment he got his own house- I've never clearly stated that, only hinted at, but that is how it is.
SQQ refusing to claim any relation to SY despite the "father" option being "better" has many other reasons behind it, one of them being that he is a spiteful bitch who hates doing what people tell him to and now, perhaps, simply because it puts SY in danger. Not that he cares about the brat or anything :/
My SQQ also has a bit of agoraphobia in that he hates leaving his own peak and if he has to leave the sect, he much rather stay in his room or carriage as much as possible <_< this has little to do with your question, I just like holding up that headcanon of mine because it makes a lot of sense to me.
#syonr ask#syonr#ask me answers#my grandma also had agoraphobia#she was however much sweeter than SQQ and when she DID leave the house she had like 7 cats keeping her company to and from the grocery stor#but i've been told that my mom and her siblings were the ones sent out shopping during tourist season due to the abrupt increase of ppl#anyway I already know how and why and what SY is so that will be fun to reveal at some point
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hey all! i wrote a comedy/drama character study fic about kaku & lucci, exploring their relationship and everything they're feeling post water 7/enies lobby. i’d really love if you gave it a read! thanks so much!
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#hi i arrive to you after not posting for like a month to jumpscare you with a monstrosity about these two mfs. Whatup guys did ya mis me#SERIOUSLY THOUGH this fic was such a fucking blast to write. god i'm obsessed with these two. the chokehold they have on me#is worse than their war crimes#i've been told lucci is weirdly charming in this. he's so serious it loops back around to being silly#i'd really love if you read it! i know they're a rarepair but god they mean so much to me#chapter 1111 CHANGED me#rob fucking lucci having feelings & caring about someone clocked me so hard i had to write this#dw though if you havent read 1111 tho!!! this takes place during the timeskip so nothing past marineford in here#kaku my precious giraffe i love you and your old man accent#kaku#rob lucci#cp9#one piece#one piece fanfiction#what is their ship name. uhh#kakucci#???#anyway#ltrri
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