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a lot of people will play dragon age 2 and they'll be like... whoa.... anders is truly a grey character who does both good and evil......
when in actuality anders blowing up the chantry was not only good but based, sexy, and inspirational and he has never done wrong a day in his life
#dragon age#anders#i refuse to believe the non-game added lore by dave gaider - via his tumblr blog - placing several hundred orphans in the chantry#there are no fucking kids in that building in the game. if we were meant to care about a bunch of fucking exploded orphans they'd be there#if we go just by who we the player see in the church a bunch of fucking shitty pastors got blown up#and given the chantry is the nonviolent part of a military org#theyre not like blameless or innocent bystanders lol#any attempt to put children in the chantry is simply an attempt to justify the violent oppressive theocracy they represent#by adding 'innocent bystanders' for anders to additionally kill#thus making him look more violent compared 2 the banality of the true horror enacted by this military theocracy's oppressive violence
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Saw a review for one of the Anne books that LMM was "filling it with her ideas on God and politics" as a very unfavorable thing. Like. My dude. You were the one who chose to read a book series written by a minister's wife who grew up in the 1870s and 1880s. There's no way it wasn't going to have that in it
#b talks#aogg#l m montgomery#lmm#i actually really like how she pulls in scripture for her descriptions. she does it beautifully#also half the time the 'ideas' of God are just kids talking to Anne about what they think based on church and just#being kids coming to conclusions#also all books can draw back to politics. sorry that's just how lit works#fandom talking#<-- please note this was for like. anne of the island#or one of the earlier books#slightly different convo to have about RoI for example#but yeah by politics they meant casual mentions of the tories and stuff
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church today was SO good
#julia.txt#my church started out as an arabic church#but then ppl started having kids and we ran into the problem of these kids dont know arabic well enough to understand whats being said#so we started doing two meetings one in arabic and one in english/french#but it was kinda discouraging bc it meant the arabic meeting (which is the one i attend) is very sparsely populated#the bilingual one too but like. theres still more people#but today we tried combining the two so like#singing hymns in arabic and english#if someone could pray in both languages they would#the sermon had a real time translation#AND IT WAS SO GOOD. IT WAS SO NICR#its been so long since we've had everyone in the same room i almost started crying with the first hymn because it sounded so FULL#praying that we make the switch to that
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The craziest thing about PTSD is thinking you're free from it and then getting triggered like 5 mins later by the most random thing.
#ptsd#it isn't always the big and obvious triggers that get you#sometimes it is some random child making a casual comment#that just happens to be very close to a comment that stuck with you from your time being abused when you were the same age as the kid#they didn't know and meant no harm but damn it really fucks you uo#like I could have been that child and kept that innocent and blind trust#i could have grown up still trusting in community leaders and authority figures to guide and protect me#but I didn't and now I have to live navigating a minefield while a part of me desperately wants to protect these children#despite knowing that not all churches are like the one I went to#a deep part of me wants to actively teach fear of these institutions but that would just be a self fulfilling prophecy right there#vent#i haven't had an event like that in almost A YEAR#i entered a church without any problems for the first time in 18 years just the other week#so I mean I had a valid reason to think I was finally able to fix things with my mind but I guess not#religion tw
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i always forget that the ark is like a religion thing every time i hear the phrase "the ark" i think space colony ark
#was just listening to some random video and they mentioned the ark and i was like . Like from sonic adventure 2 ?#no they meant the one from the bible .#< went to church a lot as a kid but has never truly given a shit about jesus in my life
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My 3 little cousins were baptized today. "Triggered" is kind of a strong word but being in a catholic church again... I'm a little fragile rn ngl.
#butch speaks#it was hard not to shake as i held J over the basin to have the water poured on his head#when he was cleansed of sin. as if a little kid could ever knowly or intentionally offend a so-called loving god#the words came naturally to me#but they meant nothing#i remember when they used to mean something. when i begged gods forgiveness for my sin (being a lesbian) and tried to pray the gay away#i remember how much i wanted to die bc i could never truly embrace the sacred#i STILL deal with the complex of catholic guilt. its a very real thing. its hard to shake#i cant help but wonder if the catholicism ingrained in my brain is why i have a hard time with casual dating n sex#fun fact: there was a point when i was a teen that i got REALLY catholic#i prayed everyday. i talked to my patrin saint (st agnes) every day. i wantsd to become a nun#the thought of marrying a man mad me more sad than feeling like an alien did. so id marry the church as a nun.#not the way to hide being a dyke when ur fam is catholic btw LMAO#the first priest i knew was father joe. i loved that guy. he was so kind. friendly. briming with love.#he was one of my biggest references for what a good person was like#he talked about gods love a lot. how its for everyone. no one is exluded. ever.#he used to look right at me when he said stuff like that. a few other kids too. all of whom grew up to be queer#then father joe passed away. our church merged with another church. father jeff was the priest there.#he was kind but not as kind. he talked about hell and sin more. he looked at the same kids father joe did.#but the kindness in his eyes wasnt there.#that wasnt for us.#my family wasnt even THAT catholic#i went to church every sunday i did vacation bible school and catechism classes and youth group#i was an altar servant and in the choir#i even used to speak/understand a little latin#imagine how much worse id have been if my mom could have afforded catholic school lmao#grateful to have grown up poor in that regard#hm. actually... reading my own tags. mayne we were pretty catholic actually.#fucking hell.#i need to have lesbian sex in a church before god and everyone. mayeb that would fix me.
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words i only know bc they were in church songs part 1: diadem
#i just saw that word in an article and if i hadn't sang that song as a kid i would have no idea what that meant at my big age#words i only know bc of church songs
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fandom/game vent
tw: csa
Uuugghgggh. Idk why but nothing feels right lately.
On one hand, the enstars fixation died down A LOT. Great for my bank account tbh, i don't wanna spend another cent on gacha games. My brain is free🎉🎉🎉
And rather than feeling this pressure of "omg i must grind new events and get new cards" or "omg there are so many event stories i missed out on" or "i must grind every single new song on all difficulty levels for dia" i just. Don't do that anymore lol. I actually just play the songs whenever i actually feel like playing any and i read only the stories that actually interest me. Which definitely aren't a lot tbh. (still waiting on that knights climax tl) but yeah i'm basically reading 0 stuff from engstars.
So if you wanna break free from a gacha game sucking your soul, I think the reason why the enstars fixation died down so much for me is a combination of
burning myself out trying to get cards
getting bluetooth headphones (which basically make it impossible to play the game with headphones)
turning the BP game notification off
Engstars TLs getting worse than fan TLs
Obviously i still have basic but since i can't read japanese, i can't stress myself over reading new stories because i can't read anything at all. Yaaaay. I have evolved into a casual player.
Now. On the other hand. The new fixation. My beloved wizards. Mahoyaku.
I'm gonna be so honest, i kinda hate it here.
Don't get me wrong, i love the game, i love the story, i love the characters. But the fans. The fans man.
Like with enstars fandom, i started out with tumblr, and sure, i had to occasionally block some people and filter out some stuff, but that was it. That was enough for me to be able to chill and actually be comfortable in the enstars fandom space on tumblr.
Now, there are basically no mhyk fans on tumblr. Ok fine. Guess i'll go on twitter instead. So i made a twt account.
I truly cannot explain to you how much i should not have done that.
Like, ok, LOTS MORE fanart which is great. Fantastic. Lovely. However, a lot of proshippers. Many many proshippers. Like i do not have that much experience in fandom spaces in the first place but i swear the amount of proshippers is disproportionately large in mhyk fandom, on twt at least.
Ok another warning for talk about csa if you somehow didn't catch the one above
I think it's obvious from my blog here alone how much i like northfam, especially Snow and White. To be so honest, Snow and White were the biggest hesitation for me to NOT get into mhyk because we all know the "child looking character is actually over 2000 y.o." is NEVER handled well in fiction. Well, i ended up reading mhyk anyways, and to my relief, s&w's child forms do not get sexualized ever. Thank god.
But like mentioned before, this is not the case for the fandom. Not only do i always end up finding people shipping s&w together, but also many other of my faves, like oz and arthur (foster father and son) or mitile and figaro (student and teacher). Which i do not want to see ever, and the thing with twt is, you can't tag and filter stuff like on here. And even after being on twt for...idk how many months, i STILL end up seeing stuff i would like to stay 4869761093 lightyears away from.
I've been trying to do everything, from blocking to muting words to clicking the three dots on each individual post i don't want to see for the "please don't show me stuff like this". AND IT STILL HAPPENS.
Idk man...as a csa survivor myself it feels so hopeless...like is it really worth it here if i'll just keep finding stuff that triggers me? Is it worth meeting new people and constantly being on edge if this new fan thinks being proship is ok?
I really did like making fanart for fandom purposes, it made me draw a lot more, but between my dying interest in enstars and mhyk fandom thinking the stuff that has and will put me in therapy for decades is hot. I don't feel like interacting with fandom that much anymore ngl....and that makes me genuinely sad. Idk maybe this is a depressive episode that will go away but i feel so tired for now....hobbies are supposed to be fun....
#Everyone's all about the wellbeing of real people over fiction until you mention that fiction can influence culture which influences#the way real people are handled#Getting told to just get over it by the church as a kid and then getting told to get over it by adults on the internet who aren't victims👍#uuuggghhhh#gameplay rambles#Anyways idk i think i need a break of some sorts but how do i do that??? When my definition of getting a break meant making fanart?????
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Ok so apparently it's not normal that whenever someone goes to a restaurant and I'm with them, I expect them to get just themselves food and then we leave. Like if you get me food or ask if I want anything I will in fact look at you like you're a stranger who just walked up and offered me a 100 dollar bill
#what can i say im just used to getting nothing#both my parents and my older sisters would go to get food and basically never get me anything#if i did get anything it also wasnt 'what do you want' it was 'heres what im getting you youre welcome'#lol and i was okay with that? guys. guys am i supposed to raise my standards#is this like. am i not respecting myself enough#like this is me having gottwn much better too. i used to be even worse#if i went to your house and you let me sleep on something that wasnt the floor i would stare at yoy in shock#i was mentally incapable of comprehending that i could get whatever i wanted off of a menu#one time my friends mom actually yelled at me because she took me to dunk8n donuts and asked what i wanted#and i froze up so bad that i just couldnt say anything because i didnt know what she meant#i was like 'oh you dont need to get me anything' 😭😭 and she INSISTED she had to get me something#for context i mustve been like 9 and i had NEVER had anyone ask my what i wanted before#i also was so prepared to just skip breakfast due to the anxiety of this situation#turns out having kids skip breakfast is also not super normal? me and my sisters usually wouldnt eat breakfast#especially on sunday mornings before church because there was snacks there
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Nemona from Pokemon is actually autistic. I am in shock and awe. They don't use the exact word "autistic" (its still a Nintendo game lmao), but she the most blatantly autistic coded character I have seen in a WHILE. Genuinely I am over the moon about this
#seriously!!! an autistic character who is confident and competent and someone youre meant to look up to!!!!!!#also not to mention you RARELY see autistic characters who arent like. little boys#shes an older teenage girl and she is very clearly written as autistic and GOD i fucking wish i had this game as a kid#as a freshmen in highschool i gave a sermon at my church with the topic of mental disability representation in childrens media#and it was genuinely a life changing experience to go up there and talk about it#and i am legitimately so unbelievably happy that Nemona as a character exists#i had no autistic characters to ever look up to as a kid so i am endlessly thankful that there's characters NOW for kids to see#also Eri is DEEEEFINITELY implied to be in a relationship with another girl so theres that.#but Eri being a lesbian is WAY less explicitly said in-text than Nemona's autism is#anyways sorry for being a bit personal on main lol but its true
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THIS IS A PERSONAL POST
Was spontaneously hugged by a ten-year-old today. Very sweet, would recommend.
#random personal stuff#very young children get a lot of (deserved) appreciation#but I'd like to put in a word for how fantastic older kids are#they are SO EXCITED about things#and will tell you all about them at the slightest opportunity#they're fearlessly creative#and they just want to be heard and appreciated#(a lot of the time you don't get much of that at that age)#I don't get to be around the kids from church a LOT#but they're a lot of fun to talk with#and it was a big honor when S hugged me today#I doubt she knows how much it meant
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I think one of the biggest things I want to break the cycle of if I'm ever able to have kids is religion tbh. like growing up my parents didn't really give me a choice of which religion I wanted to be a part of, if any, and when I expressed interest in studying religions from other cultures as a hobby they got freaked out and made me promise I'd "be careful not to fall away from the True Real Church" or whatever and like. idk I feel like a kid should be allowed to choose for themselves !? because religion is a big personal thing and so I think the reason it never clicked with me was because it was always something I was forced to do and believe. and idk if I ever have a kid I would want them to be able to explore the world around them and decide what they believe on their own, and have my support no matter what they choose
#re lrb#i mean there's also. the weird cult side of mormonism that also weirded me the fuck out from a young age#i remember distinctly this one time i had some concerns about how the church essentially brainwashes people and brought it up to my mom#and her answer was something like ''well yes that's true it wouldnt be good but in this case its the true church so its fine :)''#like. ma'am that was exactly the wrong thing to say to a kid who was an avid reader + already knew what mob mentality + blind following was#and idk. my parents have always said that ive always been someone to Question things. authority and rules and systems and all that#and theyve always warned me that it could get me in trouble if im not careful (which im sure it could)#but the way they always meant it was trouble with the church#and tbh im glad i grew up questioning all the things i was taught because i managed to get the hell outta dodge#and idk. i have a lot of trauma and baggage surrounding religion because of how i was raised practically in a cult#but if i ever have a kid i'd want them to be able to choose what they believe or if they dont believe at all#idk. i just wish i had a choice thst my family truly supported me in and so i want that for any kids i have.#anyway this is a long tag ramble but idk. i just got thinking.#winter speaks#personal#tw mormonism#tw religion
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Church On Michael's Street character list
Adam MacDonell
Joan Clarke
Genèvieve "Evie" Lumount
Elijah Santos-Mãldonado
David Clarke
Peter Kohen
Issac Clarke
Layla Santos-Mãldonado
Emilio Santos
Antonella Mãldonado
Noah Kulivach
Dahlia O'Brannigan
Christine "Chirsty" MacDonald
Judás Amores
Simon Najm
Levi Najm
Daieba "Debbie" Nadir
Michael
Gavriel/Raphael
Morgan Santamaria
Joseph Santamaria
Martha Zafar
Isabelle Clarke
Abigail Lumount
Louís Lumount
Layali "Lili" Nadir
Naija Nadir
Malik Nadir
Samira Nadir
Ryan Fraser
Fatima Najm
Jophiel
Azazel
Saphriel
#Church On Michael's Street#kids show au#< yes its the ocification of that i meant to make this ages ago#i meant to post this ages ago
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reading people reviews of home movie and either im a genius and im the only one in the world who understands this movie or im an idiot and everyone else understood the movie and i didnt
#speakerphone!#PLEASE let it be the first one PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE#and yeah there's the dragon story and you could say theyre pretending to be 'normal' kids but... 🙄#no... i think the dad is pretending to be a 'normal' dad by being funny and sweet but hes abusing them.#the subtext is there i swear it.#also the children pretending to behave like 'normal' children theory makes it seem like violence comes from a vacuum.#when in reality children are reflections of their world. if a child is acting out there is a reason. it doesnt just come from nowhere.#revoltimg against the fathers prayer during thanksgiving is huge. its them going against their father. the church. and the idea of their#family. it's also them saying theyre not grateful for the family because something is hurting them#and its staged. they throw the dinner at the same time. this is something they thought out and talked about#they repeat the father saying 'im sorry' on video a few times because its something they want to hear him say. why is that?#because he is abusing them.#the harder things to pin down are why they attack christian but even then. you could easily say theyre lashing out.#them having a secret lamguage and not wanting their parents in their playhouse is meant to be scary of course but why do they do this?#because they feel the need to be away from the parents because they cant trust them for some reason#and we see the mother would rather defend the father than believe her children are being abused. because even though she thinks its a#possibility she never takes the kids away. AND! the way she starts medicating them instead of taking any real action is disGUSTING#its the idea that you can make someone 'normal' by putting them on meds. that way their tolerable to those around them#OH! AND! when the father asks 'is there evil in the house' and the daughter looks straight at him after lookong away and nods!!!!#HE is the evil!#okay. talkimg it out through the tags has made me feel better i think im right. though ill be sad if i look up interviews from the writers#to see im not. oh whale.
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During the 2008 recession, my aunt lost her job. Her, her partner, and my three cousins moved across the country to stay with us while they got back on their feet. My house turned from a family of four to a family of nine overnight, complete with three dogs and five cats between us.
It took a few years for them to get a place of their own, but after a few rentals and apartments, they now own a split level ranch in a town nearby. I’ve lost track of how many coworkers and friends have stayed with them when they were in a tight spot. A mother and son getting out of an abusive relationship, a divorcee trying to stay local for his kids while they work out a custody agreement, you name it. My aunt and uncle knew first hand what that kindness meant, and always find space for someone who needed it, the way my parents had for them.
That same aunt and uncle visited me in [redacted] city last year. They are prolific drinkers, so we spent most of the day bar hopping. As we wandered the city, any time we passed a homeless person, my uncle would pull out a fresh cigarette and ask them if they had a light. Regardless of if they had a lighter on hand or not, he offered them a few bucks in exchange, which he explained to me after was because he felt it would be easier for them to accept in exchange for a service, no matter how small.
I work for a company that produces a lot of fabric waste. Every few weeks, I bring two big black trash bags full of discarded material over to a woman who works down the hall. She distributes them to local churches, quilting clubs, and teachers who can use them for crafts. She’s currently in the process of working with our building to set up a recycling program for the smaller pieces of fabric that are harder to find use for.
One of my best friends gives monthly donations to four or five local organizations. She’s fortunate enough to have a tech job that gives her a good salary, and she knows that a recurring donation is more valuable to a non-profit because they can rely on that money month after month, and can plan ways to stretch that dollar for maximum impact. One of those organizations is a native plant trust, and once she’s out of her apartment complex and in a home with a yard, she has plans to convert it into a haven of local flora.
My partner works for a company that is working to help regulate crypto and hold the current bad actors in the space accountable for their actions. We unfortunately live in a time where technology develops far too fast for bureaucracy to keep up with, but just because people use a technology for ill gain doesn’t mean the technology itself is bad. The blockchain is something that she finds fascinating and powerful, and she is using her degree and her expertise to turn it into a tool for good.
I knew someone who always had a bag of treats in their purse, on the odd chance they came across a stray cat or dog, they had something to offer them.
I follow artists who post about every local election they know of, because they know their platform gives them more reach than the average person, and that they can leverage that platform to encourage people to vote in elections that get less attention, but in many ways have more impact on the direction our country is going to go.
All of this to say, there’s more than one way to do good in the world. Social media leads us to believe that the loudest, the most vocal, the most prolific poster is the most virtuous, but they are only a piece of the puzzle. (And if virtue for virtues sake is your end goal, you’ve already lost, but that’s a different post). Community is built of people leveraging their privileges to help those without them. We need people doing all of those things and more, because no individual can or should do all of it. You would be stretched too thin, your efforts valiant, but less effective in your ambition.
None of this is to encourage inaction. Identify your unique strengths, skills, and privileges, and put them to use. Determine what causes are important to you, and commit to doing what you can to help them. Collective action is how change is made, but don’t forget that we need diversity in actions taken.
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Holy shit I was wondering why my mom was so shaken up by the horrible news of the Palestinian boy that was killed until my dad mentioned that his family lives. Like 20 minutes from us. Plainfield is our neighboring town. My mom is shaken up because his family is literally in her school district.
I want to be horrified, I want to be angry but I'm just. So tired.
Crimes against humanity are happening in my backyard and I'm just. Tired.
#stacky ramblings#vent post#i guess#this past week has been really hard bc of other current issues and this just. idk man.#i'm just a stupid kid I can't do anything about it you know?? what am I meant to do???#all I can do is cry about it and post silly little drawings#i just. don't want to be a statistic someday. I don't want my partner or my brother or my friends to be just another victim of a hate crime#i don't know what to do about it.#edit: bastard went to my fucking church. jesus fucking christ
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