#or maybe she does right? like i want to believe she does bc ive known her for 5 maybe 6 actually years. ive gone to christmas--

[dorkicon]

bitching abt homophobia n shit at my job in the tags o7 happy pride

[medievalcat]

I was going to joke that I always think its funny when people are like "Angelina wouldn't want Hoffman to kill any people ever :(" bc like how do we know that, we unfortunately barely know anything about her but also why would she care if someone like Ivan or the abusive guy at the school died, or yknow the guy who literally killed her, fuck knows none of us do lol. BUT it got me thinking about how...kind of the point of her inclusion in the story is a commentary on society and the legal system's endemic violence against women. Women are killed by partners so much that people just don't even think about it and the law often does nothing at all or enables it or is a part of it. Angelina's death in the story is essentially considered a minor crime that her killer pretty much gets away with legally. Seth Baxter when in his trap even claims he accidentally killed her, a classic tactic used by many men who actually do murder their wives and girlfriends. Angelina was considered an acceptable loss, a forgettable statistic, even before she was killed. She was only in the headlines because she was related to a local detective. The law was never on her side.

In retrospect, when we learn about all this, the horror of Saw IV isn't simply "wait the detective was the killer all along!" Because we see that the trafficker is known to be exploiting young girls- but that these young girls are not evidently considered a priority to help by the law (the fact that the trafficker is a woman doesn't "disprove" that what she did is violence against women). We see that the rapist operates in a motel where there are undoubtedly many witnesses who clearly have not done anything to stop him or to help his victims. We see that the wife-beating child abuser is accosted by Rigg and Hoffman but the abuser's word is backed up and he is protected, and that even the abuser's wife, a victim herself, is too afraid to do anything but support him even though he is hurting a child- reflecting how many women are silent because they know they will not believed. The horror is that with the way the legal system works Hoffman can do more to help abused women as a serial killer than he ever did as a detective.

But then, of course, Hoffman wouldn't have been the serial killer he became if he hadn't been a detective first, and the fact that he was a detective was something utilized by him and John in their endeavors. And even if he saved lives of vulnerable women and girls like his sister by getting rid of Seth Baxter and those people in IV, he still helped John do the same thing those people did to other women- and then did the same thing on his own. With these similar systems, there are similar results. We remember John sent Addison to her torture and death for being a sex worker, with Hoffman's help, further comparing and illuminating the similarities between John's work and the legal system. We see that Hoffman's resentment of Amanda (based in her similarities to Angelina, even their names point this out) that led to him orchestrating her death may have been met with disapproval by John, but was ultimately enabled by his actions, because John thought further torturing Amanda for her trauma, addiction, and self harm was not only correct but helpful. Maybe Hoffman thought he really was "helping" Sidney by putting her in the trap that enabled her to kill her abusive boyfriend, maybe he really did think this was a way of doing what he couldn't do for his sister. But ultimately, if he did help anyone, he did much more harm. Ultimately, Amanda was right. It's all bullshit- the Jigsaw ideology doesn't "save" anyone, just perpetuates the cycle.

[mazzystargirl]

ok living up to pinned post w some true confessions/dark secrets… so basically after i tried to kms in 2021 fall and went to the hospital i entered a really intense slut era and like started impulsively spending money and stuff too and i didnt have a job so i was like oh omg having a sugar daddy would work out really well for me and also i wanted to do things that would be like damaging or whatever idk why i did it rly. but anyway i engaged in some sugar baby behaviors. and then that winter break i went home from school and met up w some of my friends who ive known since i was a kid. now i have to give a little bit of context here cuz its important. so i have these 3 friends, one of whom ive known since i was 3 years old (N) and the other two since i was like 7 (S and J). and we all live in a very tight knit neighborhood/cultural community where mostly everyone knows everyone. and so my 3 friends parents know my parents. i guess you can see where this is going… but anyway i told them i had a sugar daddy or like it came up in conversation idk. and that was that. then literally the following AUGUSTTTT my mom comes to me and is like oh so some people in the neighborhood have been saying that you’ve been engaging in risky behaviors with older men and that youve been meeting them in hotels. so obviously i denied it very emphatically and tried to pry out who tf she heard that from and honestly i was like what like who could have even spread that and she said J’s mom told her and was lowkey rly cagey about it bc she didnt want to “break her daughter’s trust” and had asked other aunties about the situation like wtfff… and then i remembered i had mentioned to them over winter break so she must have fucking told her mommmm. i decided to assume best intent and chose to believe she was worried abt me and thats why she told her mom so i messaged her like hi did u tell ur mom abt this and i appreciate ur concern but i would have appreciated it if maybe u came to me directly and checked on me it would have been better and u lowkey hurt my feelings cuz now im stressed and anxious and don’t know whos saying what abt me etc etc. and then…

she fucking LIEDDDDD she said she didnt say anything to her mom AND that her mom didnt say anything to my mom!?? which i know is fucking bullshitttt 😭 like it makes 0 sense like if no one said anything is my mom just pulling shit out of the air and if she was how would she land straight on the money like that it just doesnt add up. so i was like um ok ?? uh have a good day. and decided to let it go and i lowkey don’t speak to her anymore and i told N and S that im not speaking to her but they can hang out w her if they want. and i forgot abt it.

but now i just moved back home after finishing school and its lowkey been eating away at me. it hurts me that she was my friend for 13 years and its all up in flames and i never got any closure or an apology or even her to admit or acknowledge the situation?? it hurts me to be at home worried abt what people are saying or thinking about me. i know i shouldnt care but what other people think of me bothers me. im not ashamed of myself and my choices but i don’t want other people to think less of me. i don’t want to reach out to her bc what if she doesn’t care at all about the situation ??? i don’t want to be like this has been eating at me forever and it really hurt me and her to be like what r u talking about i don’t think about you at all. she also just got into med school and im happy for her for real like glad shes doing well its just like. she hurt my feelings really bad :(

anyway if you read this far… what should i do 🥲 is the only path forward trying to let go… tbh i think i just need someone to validate my feelings like am i right to be hurt or is it all my fault and should i beg for forgiveness 😭 like my friend N got coffee w her a couple weeks ago and brought it up to me twice what does that even meannnn

[opal-owl-flight]

Hiii hi. Yes, new Owl House ep dropped and me and a friend of mine made an au. Meet Mapolor, and the local cosmic jester who’s in mirror jail!

Under readmore bc its many thoughts

Mapo’s goals...

Halcandra is not kind to practitioners of magic. If they find one, theyre immediately banished. Mapo here has been interested in magic for a long time, and practiced it in secret until he was found out. He was witch hunted from young age. All hes known is how to run.

He wants to belong so bad.

But he cant find any safe space…

See, even the most “innocent” Halcandran has something against magic users. Stereotypes, all that. I think theyre afraid of forces they cant understand; choosing to rely on tech instead.

I wonder, are there other magic users…?

Maybe Mapo found himself with them. Finally found a place he can belong to… until the “coven” was found and he its sole survivor. (Again with him being the last survivor of something…)

Seeing his found family get banished…made him vengeful.

If he cannot find a safe space for himself and others like him. He is going to make it himself.

Thus enters the thought of “cleansing” Halcandra. Cleanse it of its technological blight, restore magic to its rightful place.

He finds a certain mirror around this time…heard it whispering, heard it promise him everything he desired.

With the power of the being in the mirror, he manages to make Halcandra destroy itself. Probably made the Halcandrans build machine that wiped their entire race from existence, save for Mapo. After the way it treated him…this is what he thought was the best way to deal with his anger. He has gotten the vengeance he sought, and he does not regret it.

But he wanted to do more. Hes aware of the reaches of Halcandra’s influence.

He decides to become the galaxy’s savior, cleansing it of the tech-Halcandran’s influence (a COMPLETE reversal of what regular Mags does!). He renames himself Mapolor; “Hope of Paradise”.

As he does this, he found communities on every planet he “cleanses”.

“A community, to keep magic-users safe. Give them sanctuary.

Under my watchful eye… I will make sure that the planet they inhabit is never corrupted by technology again.”

He sees tech as a blight; how dare a single mortal or society mess with the will of the universe/nature like so?

Those communities are connected to him. Hes keeping watch over them. Protecting them in his own twisted way.

He truly believes hes doing good…what hes doing instead is preventing societies from ever advancing.

Hes very powerful magic-wise. He can defend himself from any magic attack. Tech could take him down. But by keeping most of the galaxy away from it…well. Hes unbeatable.

Basically hes done a Susie and is colonizing planets “for their own good”, and “bring them closer to the forces that be, their natural state”

From what Ive described, it seems that Mapo has suppressed a lot of his desire for friends. He has no intent on freeing Marx, who’s very lonely in his mirror jail and just wants to play….

Bc he believes he already found the friends he needed.

He thinks the leaders of those communities he keeps in touch with are his friends. The truth is, many of them want him dead.

“He promised paradise. He only brought us hell. Mapolor? More like Mafolor!!”

Does he actually care for them? Only a select few. The others are just tools. Pawns for his conquest.

By the way, he never finds the Lor here. He doesnt care to. He has Landia instead :) the Halcandrans were not kind to the big scary dragon with the powerful magical artifact (WHO WAS PROTECTING THEM). They were building a tech replacement. It pissed Landia off so much that she decided to join Mapolor’s conquest out of her own volition.

Tldr EVIL EVIL WIZARD WITH A DRAGON STEED AND A COSMIC JESTER IN MIRROR JAIL. HALCANDRA DONE FUCKED UP WITH HOW IT TREATED HIM AND THE ENTIRE GALAXY IS IN JEOPARDY.

[leossmoonn]

Play Ground Days

masterlist

pairing - carl gallagher x fem!reader

type - fluff

note / request - “ughh FINALLY someone that writes good imagines abt carl from shameless! could you write one where you two grew up together and you've always been close n stuff and then at some point he realizes he loves the reader and he talks to ian and lip (maybe mickey too bc i love him) about it? (fem!reader btw if that's cool) thanks babe xx” thanks for inspo on the beginning @poesflygirl​ <3 ,,, carl and you are 16 also pls dont come for me ive only played COD 2 times last year so lmao i dont remember a lot about it, enjoy!

summary - carl has liked you since you two were young, and seeks advice from his brothers and mickey

warnings - strong language, drugs and alcohol, little talk about bad body imagine 

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*gif isnt mine*

“I fucking knew it!” Lip exclaimed.

“Why are you telling us? We’ve known this.” Ian commented, smirking at his little brother.  

“How the hell—” Carl started. 

“You’re not exactly great at hiding your crush on her,” Mickey chuckled. 

Carl’s eyes were the size of saucers. “You knew?”

“Of course I did. I’m not fucking Helen Keller,” Mickey rolled his eyes. 

Carl groaned and ran his hands roughly through his hair. “I can’t believe this. Well, secret’s out, I guess. What do I do?”

“Just go tell her you like her. It’s not like she’s going to turn you down.” Lip shrugged, putting his cigarette to his lips. 

“Lip!” Ian hit his brother’s shoulder. 

“What?” Lip asked. 

“You weren’t supposed to say that, dumbass,” Mickey said.

 “What does that mean?” Carl asked, looking in-between his brother’s and Mickey. 

Lip sighed. “Ah, shit, right. I’ve already said too much.”

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4 hours earlier: 2:00 PM

“Hey, shit head!” She called out, throwing rocks against the window. 

Carl got up from his bed, shocked but happy to see her. He opened his window, leaning against the frame. 

“What’re you doing here?” He asked.

She threw the rocks to the ground. “Escaping from my druggie dad, duh. What’re you doing?”

“Nothing,” Carl shrugged. 

She did her signature smirk that always made Carl’s heart flutter. “Wanna go and stuff our faces at Patsy’s Pies?”

Carl’s eyes lit up at the mention of fatty, greasy food. “Hell yeah. I’ll come down.”

She nodded, going to the front of their house. Carl ran down the stairs, putting on his shoes and opening the door to find her on the steps. 

“Hey, why didn’t you just come into the house?” Carl asked, shutting the door behind him. 

“Putting damage on your window seemed more fun. Oh, hey! Do you have an extra bed I can sleep in tonight?” She asked. 

Carl nodded. “Yeah, of course. Your dad is that bad, huh?”

“Yep, he relapsed. Super fun,” she laughed sarcastically. 

“I’m sorry. That shit sucks,” Carl said.

She shrugged. “Yeah, well, it’s life. Anyways, ready to go?”

Carl nodded. They got into her car, the girl starting it and driving fast to the dinner. As she was driving, humming to the songs on the radio, Carl stared at her. She was absolutely gorgeous. 

Her name was Y/n L/n. Carl’s oldest and only real friend. They had grown up together, Y/n living only a few houses away from him. They had met in detention in 1st grade and had been close ever since. 

“What’re you staring at?” Y/n asked, glancing over to him. 

Carl blushed. “Nothing.”

“Alright,” Y/n sang.

Carl had often been caught staring at her. It was something he usually did from time to time, but now it was more often. He couldn’t help it. There was something about her. Maybe flawless her skin was, how pretty and bright her smile and eyes were, the way she would make him feel secure and loved, something he had never got from anyone consitently. 

He never really knew why he thought those things about her. People had told him that he probably had a crush on her, but he knew that wasn’t right. He had crushes on girls before and the things he was feeling for Y/n were a lot different than what he had felt for his past girlfriends. He figured it was just that she was his closest friend and he happened to be a horny teenager, so naturally, he just thought those things about her. But oh, how wrong he actually was. 

Y/n parked her car at Patsy’s Pies. They walked into the diner, seeing Fiona at the register. 

“Hey, Fi,” Y/n smiled. 

“Hey, Y/n, Carl! Long time, no see. How are ya?” Fiona asked. 

“Good, good,” Y/n smiled. 

“Good,” Carl said. 

“Great! Well, get yourself seated and someone will be right with you,” she smiled. 

Y/n and walked off to a small booth and sat down. They picked up the menus that were already on the table. 

“You gonna get your usual?” Y/n asked. 

Carl shrugged. “Maybe. Should I change it up?”

“Yes. The double bacon cheeseburger looks good,” Y/n said. 

“Are you getting that?” Carl asked. 

“Maybe. I’ll probably get a salad or something. Gotta watch those calories, you know?” She half-joked, putting a hand on her stomach. 

“I think you look good. You don’t need to worry,” Carl smiled. 

Y/n’s eyes widened. “Thank you.”

“You’re welcome,” Carl nodded. 

Y/n looked back at the menu, hiding her embarrassment.

Carl complimenting her was something that was rare, but did happen. Y/n never remembered Carl as a romantic type of guy, but it seems that he had developed  those traits from having a few girlfriends. She liked that, actually. She liked him complimenting her, staring at her for minutes at a time, the way his ears would turn red when she teased him. She liked all of that. 

Y/n would never admit it to anyone, but she had a crush on Carl. She had a crush on him since their freshman year of high school. Well, in reality, she probably has always had one, but the first time she really realised she liked him was in biology when he got in trouble in one of the labs. She remembered when the teacher was yelling at him and he looked at her, smiling at her mischievously and winking at her. That wink had her heart racing and mind go foggy. From then on, she had liked him as more than a friend. Yet, she never said anything because well, as cliche as it was, she was afraid of ruining their friendship. He was really the only one who got her and who never abandoned her. She couldn’t lose him, so she just kept her feelings and gestures to him as friendly as she could.  

“Hi, I’m Carly and I’ll be serving you today. What can I get you today?” The waitress asked. 

“Hi, can I get the philly cheesesteak with a medium coke and fries,” Carl ordered. 

Carly nodded and wrote his order down, turning to Y/n. 

“Um, I’ll get the bacon cheeseburger with a small sprite and fries. Thanks,” Y/n ordered. 

Carly took their menus. “Great. I’ll have your drinks out soon.”

Y/n and Carl smiled at the waitress as she walked away. 

“Hey, so I thought your dad was in rehab,” Carl said. 

Y/n sighed. “He was, but I guess his girlfriend got him drunk, then convinced him to do some lines. God, I can’t believe he's even with her still.”

Carl frowned. “What about your mom? Where’s she?”

“She’s going to nursing school right now. She’s the only one responsible in this family, yet she never calls or anything,” she scoffed.

“You’re really responsible,” Carl said. 

Y/n smiled. “Thanks, C. You are, too.”

Carl laughed, “Me? I sold drugs on the streets once.”

She giggled. “True. But you’ve really shaped. I'm proud.”

Carl smiled sheepishly. “Thanks.”

Y/n hummed a ‘you’re welcome’. Carly came back with their food quickly and they dug in. Carl and Y/n spent their time talking and eating, spending about 2 hours there as they just kept talking. 

“Are you two finished?” Carly asked, gesturing to their empty plates. 

“Yeah,” Carl nodded. 

“Great. Here’s your bill, pay whenever you’re ready,” Carly smiled and took their dirty dishes. 

“Ready to go?” Y/n asked. 

Carl nodded and got out his wallet that he had in his shorts. Meanwhile, Y/n also got out her wallet. They both looked up at each other, awkward expressions on their faces. 

“Oh, I was gonna pay,” Carl said. “No, no, my treat. I invited you here,” Y/n said. 

“You sure?” Carl asked. 

She smiled and put a hand on his arm. “Yes, I am, Carl.”

Butterflies irrupted in Carl’s stomach as she touched him. He nodded slowly, putting his credit card away. Y/n and him walked up to the register and paid for their meal. They then went back to Y/n car. 

“What do you wanna do now?” Y/n asked. 

“Wanna play COD Black Ops 3?” Carl asked. 

“Yes!” Y/n smiled. She drove them back to his house, parking haphazardly on the street. 

The two hurried into the house, grabbing a seat on the couch. Carl got the controllers, turning onto the playstation. Y/n logged onto her account, selecting the gun she wanted to use. Carl then started the game. 

“Where are you?” Y/n squinted her eyes at the screen. 

“Right behind you,” Carl smirked. 

Y/n turned around, gasping as Carl shot her. 

“Fuck you!” Y/n exclaimed. 

“Little rusty, huh?” Carl teased. She rolled her eyes. “I’m gonna kill you next round.”

“I’d like to see you try,” Carl said. 

“Winner gets to pick what’s for dinner,” Y/n said. 

“Deal,” Carl nodded. 

The pair played for a couple hours, the game ending with Y/n getting the last kill. 

“Good game,” she smirked, setting the controller down. 

“I forgot how good you were at this,” Carl frowned. Y/n giggled, “I forgot how bad you were.”

Carl rolled his eyes with a smile. “Alright, where do you want to eat?”

“Hm… Noodles n Company?” She suggested. 

“Sure,” Carl nodded. 

“Alright, I’m gonna use the bathroom and then order. Text me what you want,” Y/n said, getting up from the couch. 

Carl nodded and watched her go upstairs to use the bathroom. Then that’s when Lip, Ian, and Mickey all came into the house. 

“Hey, guys,” Carl said. 

“Hey,” Ian smiled. 

“Is Y/n here? We saw her car out front,” Lip said. “Yeah, she is,” Carl nodded. 

“Asked her out yet?” Lip smirked. Carl’s face turned red. “Wh-What?”

“Oh, you’re not in love with her then?” Ian furrowed his brows. 

“I… am I?” Carl asked. 

Ian chuckled. “Yeah. You always are always happy around her, blush whenever she teases you.”

“And you’re always staring at her,” Lip added.

“That doesn’t mean I like her,” Carl said.

“Do feel dizzy and nauseous when she touches you? Does your heart race when she gets close? Do you see yourself kissing her? Would you do anything for her?” Ian asked. 

Carl furrowed his brows. They were right, all those things did happen when she was near. She was his best friend. He also sometimes think about kissing her and being with her in a romantic way. And yeah, of course he would do anything for her. Maybe… Maybe he did love her. 

“Oh, shit,” he muttered. “I… I guess I am in love with her.”

And that, ladies and gents, is where we left off. Lip, Ian, and Mickey teased Carl until Carl begged them for real help. 

“What do you mean?” Carl asked anxiously. 

Lip looked to Ian and Mickey for help on what to say. Little did Carl know, Y/n actually did admit her crush to someone. And that someone, or someones, were Lip, Ian, and Mickey. 

“Don’t worry about it, man,” Mickey said. 

“Did she say something to you?” Carl asked. “No,” Ian shook his head. “Like Mick said, don’t worry.”

“I… fine. Well, what do I do then?” Carl asked in slight distress.

“Give her some flowers and chocolate. Girls love that shit,” Lip suggested. 

“Alright,” Carl nodded. “I don’t know what her favourite flowers are, though.”

“Just get her roses. That’s really romantic,” Lip said. 

Carl smiled, “Alright. Awesome. Thanks, guys.”

He decided to get the flowers early morning tomorrow before Y/n woke up. 

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Carl sneaked back into the house, hoping not to wake Y/n up. As he walked into the kitchen, he was shocked to see her at the table drinking coffee. 

“Hey, Carl!” Y/n smiled. 

Carl’s eyes were blown wide. “I.. uh…”

“Who are those for?” Y/n got up and pointed to the flowers and chocolate in his hand. 

“Um… you?” Carl said. Y/n smiled. “Me? What did I do to deserve this?”

Carl knew that he couldn’t make up an excuse. He was horrible at lying to her. So, he decided to just have his confession here. 

“I.. I’m in love with you,” Carl said. Y/n’s jaw dropped and she froze. “Wha-What?”

“My brothers and Mickey helped me realise I was yesterday when you were ordering dinner. They told me I should get you flowers and stuff so I did. I hope you like roses,” Carl explained and held up the gifts. 

Y/n’s lips upturned in a wide smile. “How long have you liked me?”

“Honestly, probably since we were little,” Carl shrugged sheepishly. 

Y/n giggled. “Me, too.”

“Really?” Carl smiled. 

Y/n waked up to him and took the gifts, setting them on the kitchen counter. She went up to him and put her arms around his neck. 

“Yep. I always have,” she grinned. 

“Oh, sick!” Carl exclaimed. “Oh wait.”

“What?” Y/n asked in confusion. 

“That’s what they meant!” Carl exclaimed in realisation.

“Who? What?” “Oh, Lip, Mickey, and Ian kind of told me yesterday when I asked for help,” Carl explained. 

Y/n’s eyes widened and she turned to the stairs, glaring. “Mickey, Lip, Ian! You better fucking run!”  

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[hematomes]

it’s ok im baby-faced ive accepted ill always be on the cute side of the spectrum

IT DOES NOT TASTE WEIRD MILK TASTES WEIRD

makes grabby hands at hyv bc my weapon selection is. ahem. sub par

natsu + grey + erza . erza. ERZA. also maybe this was just me but i didn’t like lucy that much?? maybe that was just me in middle school hating rlly peppy people tho? VALID KEEP THE NOSTALGIC FEELING <3 and. WAIT LEVY AND GAJEEL WERE YOUR INTRO TO AO3?? THATS SO CUTE

you, seeing itadori: oh no here it comes

but ur right he is u. like i saw ur rb and then thought abt like, the way u talk and i was like. oh my god. OH MY GOD.

sobs at least it’s a compliment,, i was like nAAAH i won’t kin him pls . i should’ve known better. it got progressively worse with each episode like , every time he opened his mouth i fell deeper into the spiral 👍 NO RLLY LIKE MAKI?? I ADORE HER. but ur right ugh like the first time i saw mei i was like. ahem. excuse me miss. AND UTAHIME LISYEN DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED

i haven’t read the manga yet so idk if this is an informed opinion but . we all know i’m (platonically) obsessed with mentor figures. i might have a slight preference for nanami? haven’t don’t much thinking abt gojo yet tbh bc i was. focused on the sorcery system. like a nerd. bc i like magic systems and i wanna understand how it works in detail ajddjj ANYWYAS the point is i don’t rlly have a gojo take yet, i just think he’s neat and also that if i had to deal with him i’d probably bite him in a fit of irritation (derogatory)

MILK TASTES FINE U JUST HAVE A WEAK STOMACH /J

zbdjzj dw im experiencing the lack of weapon agony on my us acc bc im refraining from spending primogems so. im realizing 3* weapons are actually really good tho. i knew abt the tassel for shield zhongli and the harbinger of dawn for any dps but DAMN

HARA I HATE LUCY TOO. she's rly here for full fanservice & to enhance how strong natsu and grey are. always in distress, her best weapon is crying and calling for natsu like come on. it pisses me off bc her powers are so cool like girl please pull yourself together. plus i cannot stand the natsu/lucy ship bc of her, she's so BLAND . at least lisanna is pretty

ZBDJZ YEA..... i can't believe im yuuji itadori . tho i wouldn't mind having sukuna inside m-*gunshots*

MAKI..!!!! ALSO. ALSO. MIWA <333 miwa and mechamaru..... i love them. so much. genuinely cried over them. several times. also nobara fighting momo for maki and momo fighting nobara for mai like... let's go lesbians...!!

NO CUZ. STRONG WOMEN WITH SCARS. NGHHH<333 NGHHZJDKZ BAEKBARKBARKWOFO absolutely hate that we don't see her more

also also also. him.

he's my little meow meow. my skrunkly. sooo insane. i want to eat him

YEAH I SEE FOR GOJO THAT'S VALID.... tbh i don't like him solely bc he's so overrated in the fandom like zbdjz okay he has pretty eyes and he's overpowered but that's it. nanami is so superior. and choso. and sukuna. hell id rather fuck ichiji (ok maybe not. love him tho <3)

[lunar-lair]

ok say hello to my insanely new oc who ive made entirely to be a villain who is still an excellent adult and a decent parent, probably. cares too much abt kids. think reigen mob psycho with a drop or two of milla. worked under Nick From The Mailroom and was actually in on his scheme.

has always been rather cold and brash towards adults, but is more caring towards kids. in my brain he has a brooklyn type accent? rough and tumble, walks around without a tie, yknow? they keep him cause he sorts mail real good, though.

(added a read more because this got INSANELY LONG AKSKSK i spent like an hr on this h)

he was a delugeionist, but only because he kinda just wanted to rip the world apart a little; lysandre vibes, thinks a lot of it is scum and needs to go. thinks the *psychonauts* are scum and need to go. hes psychic but suppressed it, think aquato parents but extra toxic about it, and straight up just saying being psychic is unnatural. wouldnt go to loboto parent lengths tho. so he adopted that thought of 'being psychic is unnatural and wrong', which contributed to a lot of self hate that was never learned out. likely, he realizes hes a shitty person and thinks he needs to go too. so like...yknow hank, dbh? kinda the vibe im gettin right now. way more formal, of course, and while usually gruff, is more polite when its needed; can and *will* beat the shit out of you verbally in a factual way, though, and can talk more street-lingo if hes talkin to real thugs. (probably winged it on his own after failing college or smth, hes got the vibes.)

anyways, its this plot where he slinks off and starts planting mistrust in the psychonauts or something. and inevitably he just...shows up and starts kidnapping people. dismantling things from the inside and all that. he left and formed a group who also hated psychics at some point, likely friends of his parents and friends of friends, all from his hometown. all of them fight *insanely* dirty, and a lot of them are insanely vulgar. the kids are supposed to be kept away.

but theres a line to follow here.

this man is a fold to raz. hates the psychonauts, hates being psychic, adopted his parent's hate of psychics, hates the *world.* raz is young and unburdened and unjaded...mostly. hes not the shock of water some young characters can be when it comes to being the foils of other characters; think steven with a villain or something, right? but raz is sassy and a little jaded, and not total sunshine positivity.

hes a child this man could look down on and not be immediately annoyed by, who is worried by yet respects raz's realization of the world as it is, however little that is.

and yet raz is still his foil. he still mostly loves the psychonauts, despite it all, he loves being psychic, for the most part, he dodged adopting his parents previous values, he still seems to have an even view of the world as a whole.

raz is jaded, if only a little, but he moved past it and accepted that things could still be bright. this man is jaded, but he stayed in his stormclouds, never looked for the sun.

ok where. was i. RIGHT ok so. at the beginning of this...story? the man finds raz being talked down to by one of the office workers; someone with weak psychic powers whos insanely jealous of his prowess. an adult who envies the young prodigy. and theyre giving him some insane task to do, like cleaning all of the closets within the hour, but hes saved the world twice, so he smiles and nods along, because he said he would help around the motherlobe, and this adult is asking him to do something that seems simple enough.

and this guy, internally, goes 'bitch.' for a good long second bc 1. dude even if you envy a kid, kinda fucked to show that?? not their fault 2. WHY are you asking a 10 year old to do that. why is there a 10 year old here. holy shit thats a 10 year old oh my god hes so tiny (no one told him there was a 10 year old because they knew hed stomp right up to management but. regardless. he is going to stomp up to management after this and no one can really stop him. except maybe raz well see)

so yknow. dude fixes his slight slouch and walks forward and politely tells this woman that 1. hes 10 why are you jealous of him and 2. hes 10????????? and shes like shit hes 10. and apologizes. and walks away

and raz is VERY ?? bc she was doing what? why is him being 10 important? and its that young part of you that gets pissed when people try to keep you from doing things because youre young and hes DEFINITELY yet to learn that piling responsibilites that should be handled by adults onto a child is fucked up in its own special way (looking at you ford, *nick*)

and the dude calmly explains because yea. he gets that. and he still sounds gruff and a little peeved but he squats down to razs height and he talks simply and factually, telling him straight on why it isnt right.

and. huh. people dont really do that for raz. except for sasha, sometimes, everyone likes to dodge the truth a lot with him, because hes 10, and sometimes, hes too nice to tug it out of them.

and this guy, this man that raz is already polishing a trophy for 'good adulting' in the back of his brain with his striking statements about how adults should handle things and kids should-kids should...get to have fun. not be traumatized.

for the shock on his face when raz said hed already saved the world a couple times, whats some closets. he reigned it in, said that its weird he saved the world, because thats usually their jobs.

and this guy offers his hand on instict before he stands up, even though he doesnt seem very sweet and kind like the adults that usually offer raz a hand. and he takes it, i think. he takes it.

warm. warm, a little nice.

reminds raz of his dad, maybe. he wonders if this man has any kids himself, but keeps his mouth shut, because he thinks he already has the answer, and its yes.

(he doesnt have any. he would wish he did, but he knows hed fail to raise them right.)

and when he stands, he asks raz what he was asking that woman for, and he says hes doing tasks around the motherlobe because his papers are still coming in. the man doesnt ask. (he knows what 'papers' means, realizes this is the tiny junior psychonaut every room in the damn place has been buzzing about, and he has fucking words for forsythe.) he just offers for the kid to sort mail under his supervision.

and that sounds boring. at least, it usually would.

this man is interesting, and a good...person? a good adult? hes...hes new. hes new, and calm, and a little like sasha but a lot not, and he thinks he trusts him.

so raz grins and says yea, mail sorting sounds nice.

(debatably, raz does not take his hand. hes too jaded when it comes to adults. debatably, he does not feel any warmth from this man who has taught him every adult has been telling him wrong. debatably, im projecting. but thats the whole point of ocs, hm?)

and then holes crop up in motherlobe systems. people are kidnapped.

raz keeps seeing the strange man, keeps telling him things, keeps hearing back, gruff and factual and a little annoyed, but raz can almost-just-barely tell its not at him, with the way he talks.

he can tell. he can tell.

he can never tell. this man is making sure he can tell.

raz trusts the man, is still polishing that trophy for 'best adulting' he has settling in the back of his mind.

and then the man comes with a militia.

he did not seem jaded. he did not seem hateful. he never showed any anger or hate towards raz.

but thats because he knows kids dont deserve it.

an excellent moral or two. a rotten, broken heart.

and at first, they keep the kids away, because these people fight dirty, because this isnt their battle, because the man has been sending emails about why 15 year olds are in a secret psychic agency.

(he does not mention raz. by razs second visit, he had just marked the boy down as another reason to hate the psychonauts as a whole, and especially its higher ups.

hes also regretting his alliance to nick by about the third. if he had known the man would puppet a child as if they were a toy, he would have organized his own rebellion ages ago.)

but eventually, the psychonauts need all hands on deck.

they send the children to find the missing agents.

the interns are fought on the way. some of them avoid the child, know the boss would pummel them.

they get to the base, and the strange man, the one with the broken trophy for 'best adult' (still barely-polished, because hes still so sure) still nestled in the back of razs brain, is still there.

the junior psychonauts are spotted. one of the guards throws a few rocks aimlessly.

they surprise them. one almost hits raz.

its intercepted instead.

and the other junior psychonauts watch as this man, their enemy, a villain, in their eyes, reprimands the other man for even accidentally daring, for even trying. for doing something they might have done just a month or so ago, if they had decided he was too much weirder than they already had.

and he yells something like, "Why the hell is he even here?! This is an enemy base, of whats a rebellion! This is a *10 year old*! What kind of adult sends a child *near* something like that?!" and he truly sounds angry this time, raz finds. hes too angry to keep it in. he still sounds gruff and oddly proper. raz is standing there, arms hanging. hes baffled in a specific way, the way he was every time the man's brow furrowed when he mentioned a harrowing story, the way he was the first day they met.

and he asks, a little quiet, a little small, a reminder of how young he really is, "Why are you still trying to keep me safe? We're supposed to be enemies now."

And his brow furrows further before flattening out, and he tilts onto one leg, and he swears he almost kneels to a knee.

He cant believe it. He really cant.

"You're 10." he says simply, softly, that factual way. "You shouldn't even be here."

and raz pauses. the interns freeze.

"...well, here I am."

and i think...it would be so intriguing if this was done halfway out of the mind, because this man is so against anything psychic. it would be so *compelling.*

so raz steps forward and asks again, asks why hes doing this.

and the mans eyes harden, he tries to turn off that soft heart, trying to remind himself of all that he hates. because he hates the psychonauts, because he sort of hates the world.

and raz asks why he could ever hate the psychonauts, head tilted, before listing off the few he knows to be true. but other than that, how? and ok, the world sucks a little, yea, hes seen that, gets that.

and he appreciates that this kid isnt totally gung ho about existence.

but he hates that he isnt, too.

and its this back and forth. everything the man hates, why he hates it. raz saying why its good but admitting why its bad.

and hes swayed, just a little.

but the man stands up from the kneel hed inevitably instinctively put himself into, and walks forward, hand held out yet again.

"You shouldn't be in the Psychonauts," he tells him, soft, factual, brow furrowed. "Come with me. I'll bring you back to your parents, or wherever it is you want to go."

raz contemplates. thinks, for a long moment.

he grabs the mans hand, warm and firm, yet again, for a terrifying moment.

before he reaches up to slap a mental door on his forehead, and astral projects into it.

he thinks this man is good. thinks hes just jaded.

thinks hes the best adult hes ever met, one who just happens to hate a lot of things.

hes only 10.

hes not letting someone who can tell him so clearly whats wrong and right for adults to tell him go that easily.

aaaand yknow. raz does his razzy thing. learns about why the guy hates the world and the psychonauts and himself. helps him learn that its not all bad, that he was excellent to raz, and still is, that things can be bad and good all at once.

the man concedes that raz is very capable, very smart, and can do a lot. but that doesnt mean he should have to.

raz tells him, though, that he likes working for the psychonauts. its his dream. and he realizes some things he was told to do were kinda screwed up, now. that maybe, in honesty, he was dealt a bad hand.

but hes done what he can with that hand, and he ended up with a royal flush.

and uh! yknow!! then raz leaves his mind and he calls off the rebellion! its like a rhombus of ruin type adventure, except without the villain being present beforehand. its just not clustered in insanely close with a ton of other wild shit.

anyways this got really long? sorry?? its an oc i just saw good adult and slight father vibe potential in the vibe i instantly got on him and then i went feral???? rip maybe someone will read this and if you did. congrats i honestly really liked how the whole foil and good-yet-bad and consideration of raz being 10 thing worked out. this oc is almost like our representative in the psychonauts world the way reigen is for the audience in mp100. yea :) i match them up a lot but thats just cause they vibe a lot. anyways its 1:40 am now and i spent abt an hour on this hope it vibed mildly byeeee

[olde-scratch]

So I watched LUCIDS 1-4 without any prior knowledge...

and here were my thoughts. I didn’t watch any backstory or anything so enjoy my suffering.

PART 1

“So what happens when the people inside of their dreams go to sleep?” They die

“What happens when we wake up? Do they go on living while we’re not there?” THEY DIE-

“Who are they anyway?” they’re faces that our brain catalogs and stores for later use, although it’s also arguable that every time we dream we go to an alternate reality and inhabit the body of another version of ourselves. Now, were you in a car accident and trapped underwater or-

Are they twins?

(Me tuning out to do something)

“-the squirrel in spongebob was your soulmate, making you a Sandy simp-”

Me, snapping back to the video: hold up-

[missed the part about the worksheet, realized it when i rewatched 10 mins later to make this post]

yall speakin gibberish idk what youre saying-

“I’m gonna go to bed.” bro it literally looks like morning-

“You should get some sleep you look terrible.” i get six hours of sleep a night minimum and i look worse than him shut up bro-

“jump into someone else’s dream” ah i know this con-

why they all got the same face-

haha funni meme

“--an interruptiion can create feedback and tear them apart.” Death. I long for thee.

Is that Karl Jacob’s jacket?

“a second grader” makes me think this is a different school system. [i was wrong? i think?]

“[get him to] eat your apple”

[in the dream sequence] weird dream, but ive had weirder. now, Why Pamper’s-

why does he suddenly have a knife-

“You put a filter on the Dreamscape feed?”

“Technically, you are seven years old.”

???????????

the second hand embarrassment is UGGGHHH

[reading the description] you mean like the guy who was knocked out for 2 minutes on a football field and woke to find he’d dreamt 17 years of his life? oh this shall be Fun

PART 2

[I check the description] “jasper cult” what the fu-

how many camp camp references can i make during this

Is the apple a reference to religion or does the creator just really ilke apples?

“meal.”

“meal?”

meal????

Wait why couldn’t that guy eat the apple? If he wanted it in the fruit bowl, wouldn’t there be a chance of the guy eating it anyways?? Why can’t the guy who brought the apple eat it?

well he’s Dead

[debating if I should read the backstory}

n a h h h h h -

Was he gonna feed the dead guy the apple or something? Why is he upset about the apple in this scene???

oooo the grownups are fightinnnngggg

Is he an antagonist?

HE WROTE A BOOK???

oh now i want food

ESTABLISH JUSTICE ENSURE DOMESTIC TRANQUILITYYYYYYYYYYYYY

“I watched all those aforementioned shows” what shows did i miss something what-

man why you gotta hate on her jane austen fanfic let her live bro

string theory! i can get behind that! sorta-

o no he found the memes-

BOY GOT KNOCKED OUT-

kim there’s people that are dying-

is SHE an antagonist?

quinn? calling himself jasper? u sure hes not just nonbinary? is this just a metaphor for transphobic parenting?

“He died... but somewhere, he grew up.” So is your plan to take a Quinn from a different universe and make him your own, thereby robbing another version of yourself from happiness? When does this ever go well?

Yknow most people, when they lose a kid,,,, kinda,,,,,,, dont go on a ceaseless quest to find another version of their kid that grew up without knowing that another version of his mother was invading other peoples’ dreams to find and kidnap him,,,,,,,, like aint u got a therapist-

“Once you get past the point of not knowing what’s real anymore, you realize it doesn’t matter.” Well, I Got Called Out-

PART 3

“you’re real, oliver.”

aRe yOu sUrE aBoUt tHaT-

“you’ve been infected by the anti-love parasite of Mandadon” the amatonormativity is strong

so anyways ive been infected since birth hbu-

“James Jasperson, creator of Japple” did you mean to Fancy Well-Educated Man in a Black Turtleneck? cause the only FWEMBT i allow near me is prof. hidgens

“are you winning?” says the capitalist

why did you rewind to see his face?? you have the same face????? is this just bc the creator doesnt like working with other people cause in that case same but???????

“it’s a bad idea. i’m not gonna do it.” we’ve all been there. and we’ve all done it.

looks like me trying to study. (i say, a person who has studied a total of five minutes throughout their entire life.)

your “Spartan trial” looks like a bunch of guys standing on a hill pretending to be something they’re not. Let The Man Bring His Snacks.

eat the apple.

is this your first existential crisis or something what a loser lets all point and laugh

“One of you should be spared, the other shall’nt.” did you mean shant or was that a choice-

yall gonna get called out for talking shut UP

“sorry if this is too personal, btw. are you okay?”

me, confused and half understanding what’s going on and also needing to sleep cause its almost one in the morning but wanting to finish what i can find of lucids which i only starting watching cause i saw an animatic of ranboo and dream w audio from it: i don’t know anymore

“i just want my life back... i was gonna get married-” AREN’T YOU LIKE SEVEN-

ay man if this is a sacrificial cult yall gotta get daniel-

UPDATE: I  H A V E  N O T  F O U N D  I T -

“oliver”

I  F O U N D   I  T -

WHICH ONE IS QUINN?? WHO’S JASPER???? WHICH ONE IS BENJAMIN???? I THOUGH BENJAMIN WAS SEVEN BUT I THOUGHT HE WAS THE ONE GETTING MARRIED WHAT-

oliver. eat the apple.

“Can you still have memories even when you’re dreaming?” One time I woke up to my alarm and fell back asleep and in my dream I remembered that I had class in a few minutes and my dream self woke my real self up so fast I thought I was gonna get whiplash. Anyways, I was late to class bc of my computer but that doesn’t matter.

NOPE I FOUND IT. HERE’S THE AUDIO. THE ANIMATIC ONE. FINALLY.

im thinking car crash. but also maybe murder. but also maybe both? is it raining or was he drowning? is he in a coma? hmmmmmm?

wait olivers the one with the apple does that mean he’s the one dreaming? is the ending gonna be him and jasper (quinn? idk) fighting against ben and mrs hills about jasper eating the apple to save oliver from the dream? hmmmmmmmmmm-

waitwaitwait i thought oliver was 7 how is benjamin 7 years younger than him if they look the same age what what what explain america explain what you mean arkansaw-

are the cuts on his nose plot-relevant or

“What if you hadn’t been driving?” So I was right about the car accident but Mrs. Hills still said he was seven so did i mishear her say that BENJAMIN was seven? but even then oliver would be 14 and that would still be illegal-

“How are you feeling?”

“Like you’re a pretty bad therapist.”

mood

“--it makes it all bearable to have power over the stories we write in our heads” that’s why i write fanfiction

HE’S GOT THE NOTEBOOK HE’S GONNA WRITE SOMETHING ONE OF US ONE OF US ONE OF US

WHAT YOU MEAN AN EXPERIMENT THAT’S HIS NAME-

[upon reading the description] so i was right.

wait was that supposed to be the twist in part 2 about the apple in his pocket is that what the existential crisis was about i thought it was because he was introduced to the multiple worlds theory-

PART 4

wait wasnt the other one january 2018 why we going back to 2017-

appol

“--the future and the past all already exist” mhm yep figured this out long ago

there was simultaneously a point in time in which i hadn’t known about this, had been looking it up, had been watching it, and had been writing an ending to this post, and had been posting it the next morning before class. that time is both now and not now. Welcome To The Multiverse Theory or whatever its called-

“--my favorite scene of the movie is waking up next to you.” Mine is eating fast food as I listen to AJJ and play Minecraft. We are not the same.

Now I’m hungry but it’s 1 in the morning and i already put my retainer in god fu-

[reading description] what do you mean previously??? she did that in the first episode????????

[still on description] WHAT DO YOU MEAN WILL QUINN BITE THE APPLE AND GO TO BENJAMINS REALITY ISNT THIS OLIVERS REALITY AND HE HAS TO GET BEN TO BITE THE APPLE WHY IS APPLE CAPITALIZED IS THIS THE DOING OF THE FWEMBT

i should have watched the backstory i should have watched the backstory i should have watched the backstory i should have wa-

[description] oh ive been spelling quinn right the whole time nice

i hope she rejects you /j

WAIT BENJAMIN WAS THE ONE GETTING MARRIED TO ISABELLE

ISNT HE IN SECOND GRADE-

HE IS SEVEN YEARS OLD HOW IS HE GETTING MARRIED ARE THERE TWO BENJAMINS THAT WE’RE FOCUSING ON-

bro get out of the road ull get hit

how do you knOW WHICH ONE IS QUINN THEY ARE THE SAME PERSON-

so

wait

hills wants ben to feed quinn the apple bc in his mind, that will give hills and quinn a happy ending and she doesnt want ben to see the apple bc thats gonna mean ben will know that his reality isnt reality at all. so then oliver has to,,,, not let anyone eat his apple? he just has to wake up?

IS HILLS THE VILLAIN AFTER ALL ORRRRR

wait but if ben sees the apple wont he realize that his reality is wrong and his reality will change, making it so that hills doesnt get her son? or is there some time-based rule that says they’re only transported to the reality that the person believes at that moment? or is this another stab at the multiverse thing where an infinite amount of hills gets their happy endings while an infinite amount of hills doesnt and etc etc?

i should have watched the ba-

oooo dramatique

they’re in a time loop?

nope thats a new powerpoint

wait so theyre,,,, no-

wait-

nvm-

IS THE BEN WE KNOW AN ADULT GETTING MARRIED TO ISABELLE OR NOT-

“they were actually pretty nice” didnt they throw someone off a cliff-

oh so it got confusing THEN??? NOT BEFORE?????

“it all seemed so real.” is that Not the point of vivid REM sleep hallucinations-

is oliver gonna show ben the apple and ruin hills’ whole operation

WHO ARE ALEX AND RYAN-

“what’s 25-8″ bro dont do this to me-

yep hes gonna show the apple

ayyy the guy who stole karl jacobs jacket it back

the second hand embarrassment is back and I Hate It

all that happens in episode ONE??? bro get some better writers that is bad pacing

“it’s the best!” wait until season eight. no show has a good season eight.

quinn knows about the apple thing w the dreams and multiverse and realities dont he

YOU KILLED HIM

NOT KARL JACOBS NOOOOO HES ALREADY DIED ONCE

oliver is v relatable

wHaT iN tArNaTiOn-

lemme hear that explanaton again-

is bill cipher gonna show up? i hope bill cipher shows up. i miss gravity falls

“ah! a tree! ah! a tree! ah a tree!” moooooooood

did hills murder quinn

is your family the jasper cult

TOXXIICCCCCC get that lady out of your life quinn that is so toxic

“ ah! a tree! ah! a tree! ah a tree!  ah! a tree! ah! a tree! ah a tree!” mooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood

WHAT DO YOU MEAN THAT’S THE END NO WHAT WHY NO

The Adventures of Benjamin and Oliver

he is Not Good

ope-

wait so ben is equal parts an adult AND a child?? okay that clears a lot up

I MEAN HE WAS RIGHT THO BEN U CAN’T REALLY ARGUE ON THAT-

ew get off the floor

butterfly effect, multiverse theory, memory decay, and your imagination ALL exist yall gonna ignore that cause you wanna be famous?

“We already know what the future looks like!”

aRe yOu sUrE aBoUt tHaT-

to add to the list of bad things: Cats (2019)

YA BOI THINKS IT’S NOT ALREADY FIFTY YEARS TOO LATE TO START FIGHTING CLIMATE CHANGE FFFFF

BINGO BABYYYY

get what what

what mapped-

awwwww he thinks THEY’RE creating the multiverse

you gonna dismiss the multiverse theory bc of something you created in your current reality? loooserrrrrr

ABUSE YOUR GODLIKE POWERS

she draggin that seven year old

a lot makes sense now why didnt i do this first-

Jasper

the food shortages-

bro that calculators like 90 bucks at walmart

imagine meeting a stranger and they know Everything about your life like that’s gotta be so weird

what’s even weirder is them telling you you’re the deity of a cult that sacrifices animals

THAT FOURTH WALL BREAK WAS-

KARL JACOBS IS DEAD NOOOOOO

ooohhh there’s context for that

OOOOHHHH THERE’S CONTEXT FOR THIS TOOOO

w h a t -

w  h  a  t  -

W   H   A   T   -

Conclusion:

it’s 2 in the morning and i need sleep but hOOOOO MY GODS THAT WAS GOOD IS IT OVER OR NOT IDK ANYMORE IM TIRED THAT WAS CRAZY I HOPE QUINN AND JASPER GO ON TO BE VERY GOOD FRIENDS, AND I HOPE BENJAMIN AND OLIVER STAY VERY GOOD FRIENDS AND I HOPE HILLS FINDS A THERAPIST WAS A LITTLE CONFUSING BUT I ENJOYED IT

if i dream about apples im suing /j /lh

[smalltragedy]

* ryan destiny, cis woman + she/her | you know kira blake, right? they’re twenty four, and they’ve lived in irving for, like, ever? well, their spotify wrapped says they listened to babooshka by kate bush like, a million times this year, which makes sense ‘cause they’ve got that whole lazily stretched out in a ray of light, daisy shaped irises and daisy chain braids, performing an intricate dance to move the ocean's waves thing going on. i just checked and their birthday is october 31st, so they’re a scorpio, which is unsurprising, all things considered. ( james, 22, est, they/them )

hllo ive hd kira in my head fr a bit bt i also know ntohing abt her! this is me winging it even though i hv no right to <3 this is my third character maybe whose birthday is in honor of ella n coincidentally 2/3 of them r in this rp. yea im messy smirks sexily.

DEATH, GRIEF, DRUGS TW

mini playlist.

wuthering heights ;; kate bush / babooskha ;; kate bush / dreams ;; fleetwood mac / california dreamin’ ;; the mamas & the papas / lavender moon ;; haroula rose / time of the season ;; the zombies / after the storm ;; kali uchis / left hand free ;; alt-j / always forever ;; cults / wait a minute! ;; willow / your dog ;; soccer mommy.

statistics.

full name: kira blake

nickname(s): keely.

birthday: october 31st, 1996.

zodiac: scorpio sun, cancer moon, aquarius ascending. 

mbti & temperament: esfp & catalyst / sanguine. 

label: the ebullient.

sexuality: bisexual.

pinterest.

biography.

born to two original hippies which hs pretty much set up who kira is fr the rest of her life <3 the type of ppl who didnt like the boundaries of marriage n held off frm it fr as long as possible until theyd hd a spur of the moment elopement involving a celebrity impersonator at fannie’s <3 yea theyre lesbians lets go <3

nvr rly took things srsly until kira ws like 5 yrs old n then they were like ah gee ah fuck we probably shld probably settle settle. n they job hopped n worked many odd jobs until they found their footing in careers they liked n one of them probably does like. blown glass art. n the other prob fixes old computers n other ~vintage~ mementos of the past fr ppl.

they make a decent living n they live in delpinius heights n they try a few times fr another kid bt it nvr rly works out (raises an eyebrow. adopted siblings anyone?) n fr the most part kira as a child spends her time running around town and tugging on the hem of other’s shirts to ask them small favors (mostly to play a game with her)

often left unsupervised as a kid, bt not in the way tht her parents dnt care (bc her parents love her a lot a lot a lot like she is their world) bt in the way tht they simply raised her the way they were raised. running amuck all day n coming home jst in time fr dinner, front porch light always on, cat always waiting faithfully on their stoop.

pretty evident frm a young age tht kira’s mind saw things differently, in a different light - the world an array of light n mystery n sound n taste n sometimes those collided n created new experiences. prob hs some form of synsthesia bt dnt ask me which one yet. she’s a painting prodigy with an excellent understanding of color theory.

always ws known as a kind of like. rambunctious kid. a well meaning class clown who cld nt keep her mouth shut fr the life of her. grew up constantly with a yellow card beneath her name in school bt ws always well liked by her teachers n classmates alike.

jst a very bright child who did well naturally bt always ws turned more towards art.

feel like her parents very noticeably turned a cheek when she started smoking weed w the cool older kids when she ws 13. the type of person who wnts 2 b liked so bad she’d jump over a hurdle fr it. hs jumped over many hurdles n many fences n many other obstacles to be liked bt does it without breaking a sweat.

(edit: nw tht i think abt it hwevr i dnt think she does tht anymore i think while a bit of a mess atm she. likes herself. n doesnt rly want or need the approval of others anymore she jst does her own little thing. bt when she ws younger? she jst wnted 2 b friends w the entire world.)

nothing bad rly happened fr like. a good bit of her life. got into psychedelics at some point in high school n tht only heightened her artistic abilities. most of her high school art portfolio ws probably done while high bt <3 does it matter.

hd a high school sweetheart n they were pretty serious like. full on in love. a total believer of soulmates kira ws jst like. this is the one. there is nobody else i cn imagine my life with.

death tw

death tw

death tw.

death n grief tw // yea. sometime during their freshmen year of college. car incident. kira ws nvr the same though she’d like to pretend tht nothing’d ever happened. like theyd nvr existed. like she didnt plan out their entire lives together hiking thru hills n valleys n boating across various bodies of water n traveling together until they were old n wrinkly. end of death tw //

cld nt explain 2 u why kira hd bought a van n completely demolished it only to drain all of her savings remodeling it bt nw she lives in it by the beach. hd dreams of travelling the world bt cannot go long distances in a car without feeling sick. sees planes n feels envy. stopped painting fr a long time bt she’s started back up recently. took on surfing. told her parents tht it ws fine n tht she ws fine n theyre concerned bt shes always by the beach, her van rarely leaves. she’s trying her best bt its only been a few yrs n i think ppl cn sense tht shes jst nt the same cheerful girl as they once knew. end of grief tw //

anyways. tugs on my collar. tht’s kira! she lives on the beach n surfs everyday n is obsessed with daisies n is prob growing her own shrooms somewhere. 

personality & facts.

always been very emotional n a little dramatic. nt a drama queen bt is a little messy n does not hv like. many rational thoughts up in there. very cup full or cup empty.

regardless though she hs an. overall reputation fr jst being. enjoyable to be around. her her little moments bt shes also pretty like. laidback. in a way. KDSHFSDLKHGHFLKSD

prob bc she smokes a lot or is often <3 on a trip if u know wht i mean <3

god. got obsessed with the 60s n 70s aesthetic at some point n hs not gone back evr. big fan of psychedelic rock. is a prodigy painter bt her life dream outside of traveling ws always to own her own record label. hs nt happened yet, maybe will never happen? works at a record shop though n does hide the good vinyls tht she wants away frm the customers.

very cheerful n usually uplifting n she doesnt like to b negative around others bt smtms she cnt control it n smtms thinks tht ppl r out 2 get her jst out of. anxiety. hs long bouts where she’ll sit in a still sort of sadness n then shake out of it n hop back into conversation like nothing’s happened bt. its fine we’re fine kira is fine.

shes not gullible or naive bt wants to believe tht everybody hs a heart of gold even if its false. keeps giving ppl second chances bc she hs a savior complex n thinks she cn change ppl.

is very into zodiac n will judge u by ur chart. knows everybody in town’s natal chart. even newcomers. it’s a little scary hw quick she finds this information bt its very important to her.

kind of like. into spirituality bt i wont lie its very surface level n a little superficial. learning tarot cards bt cannot fr the life of her memorize the meanings so smtms she jst makes up things on the spot. hs so many crystals she will not stop buying them.

i think a part of her is desperately trying to cling onto tht like. think positive. self care. msg thts super prevalent online without addressing or actually helping any of her problems. it is her flaw </3

hates to admit when she needs help. wld rather do everything herself.

head is a little in the clouds n her parents r a little concerned fr her bc shes nt rly doing much rn bt like. she jst needs time i think. shes jst doing her little thing.

does not give up on ppl easily she absolutely hates dropping ppl frm her life even if she grows 2 resent them over time which is bad bc she is bad at hiding when she is upset at someone or when she doesnt like someone.

like shes jst passive aggressive abt it n does not properly communicate <3

bt this is rare i think ... negative feelings abt other ppl

self centered bt not selfish if tht makes sense. she will do things fr others without a problem n sometimes trips over herself 2 do it bt at the end of the day i think she cares abt herself the most.

hs only been in love once bt hs hd many infatuations n many like. admirations n very surface level feelings. her body is a temple n she loves 2 b worshipped.

prob does fkn. beach yoga. probably vegan bt also maybe breaks tht every once in a while. almost noncommittal its hard 2 distinguish between her being carefree, not taking care of herself, or jst hving commitment issues? flaky or not? who knows.

feels jst a bit too strongly bt tries to contain it. jst full of multitudes or smth. idk. icon <3

like. cares bt doesnt care. does thinks tht r purposely self destructive n then acts like shes like. cool girl monologue frm gone girl. bt does it while being like peace n luv on earth x

ok thts all i hv goodbye

wanted plots.

a pseudonym 2 fool ‘em... ;; jst hd this idea pop up bt i like the idea of kira going undercover 2 expose cheaters. whether she does this on her own accord or is personally requested by smbdy is up in the air. a plottable point. she h8s cheaters n is chaotic good she prob thinks shes the relationship vigilante testing the strengths of other’s relationships. once again she cld b. specifically going undercover fr smbdy 2 help them out. im sure she wldnt go 2 very. extensive srs measures like actually. sleeping w the assumed-cheaters bt once again. world is our oyster n i lov drama?

crystal visions ... ;; once again. shes super into crystals n astrology n she will base sm of her opinions of others on it. this is nt just abt her being judgmental of others bt also jst. catching her running around in the rain trying sooo hard 2 fkn. charge her crystals in the rainwater bc she forgot 2 charge them under the full moon the night b4. this is her giving wrong tarot readings. she hs no idea wht shes doing at any given time bt acts like she does know. acts like she knows the entire world. she gives crystals as gifts n will do ur natal chart for u bt will also pack her things n leave if ur a capricorn.

time of the season... ;; i dnt knw admittedly. this song’s abt being horny so perhaps? perhaps. kira isnt rly able to keep a grasp on long term relationships rn due to. factors in her life so she hops frm person 2 person often. smtms jst flings smtms its jst a relationship accidentally led on. shes noncommittal n a little flaky atm when she’s usually ride or die fr others. perhaps this is all in the name of some good fun! world? oyster. 

literally anything .dsfskhdkgs ;; god. shes so new i jst dnt know. childhood friends. current friends. friends shes hd frever. enemies n ex lovers n ppl shes constantly pushing away or scorned lovers or both or anything?? she pushed them out of the roller rink to make more room fr herself or maybe they did tht to her. perhaps theyre both constantly pursuing some sort of fkn. meaning in their lives tht they cnt quite grasp. mayb they go on an acid trip together. who knows. 

[begans]

hey i’m bi too and i’m really curious- hope im not grilling u w questions lol. But ive only ever heard of lesbians labeling their gender as lesbian, but never of bi ppl labeling their gender as bi.. why do u think that is? Also what does like.. identifying ur gender as bi mean to u? <<3

yeah i’d love to speak more on this! sorry i’m answering this so late, but no it’s no trouble at all. i think (and again, this is from my experiences as a bi nb person as well as hearing from other bi ppl in the community as well as like. dissecting recent bi and transphobia) that a lot of times bi ppl don’t necessarily think or know that they can question their gender. bisexuality is seen as “binary”, as rigid. we’re not seen as real members of the lgbt community, and biphobic stereotypes enhance this. i think in particular you have the stereotype of bi women faking their love for women and basically being straight and performing for men that often hinders us from wanting to explore our gender. then you have the stereotypes against bi men; they’re basically gay, bisexuality in men is just never believed. if a bi woman is nb/gnc, she’s seen as “actually a lesbian” bc so many people don’t think that bi women can have unique relationships with our gender. same thing with bi men, if they’re more feminine they’re just seen as gay men, and their attraction to women is ignored. it’s all due to biphobic stereotypes imo, and from a fundamental misunderstanding of bisexuality. bisexual people are seen as dumb sluts, not capable of questioning our gender like gay men and lesbians, and these stereotypes have hinder me, have hindered other bi ppl that i know in fully exploring our gender. i’ve known i was bi p much my whole life even if i didn’t really have a label until i was 12, but i only started questioning my gender last year bc i internalized so many biphobic stereotypes and believed them about myself. i rlly thought i could never love women as much as lesbians (which led to me identifying as a lesbian for a bit just so i could prove to people that i’m “gay enough” but i was denying so much of my identity) and i just genuinely thought i couldn’t ever think about my gender. it rlly took meeting other bi ppl who felt the same way i did to rlly break free of that thinking and allow myself to explore my gender. that’s basically what’s led me to sort of think of my gender as bisexual. i would also think of my self as a non-binary woman, maybe even bigender, but bisexual as a sexuality and as my gender expression just feels right to me. for me, it’s all about fluidity and being sort of both masc and fem and also somewhere in between. my attraction shifts a lot and so does my gender and such. it can be sort of hard to explain and conceptualize (i have a hard time putting it into words) but that’s just sort of my feelings! if any other bi nb people want to add their experiences please do!

[prkrfm]

charles melton. cis male. he/him.  ／  riley parker just pulled up blasting fat lip by sum 41  — that song is so them ! you know, for a twenty - three year old lead singer and guitarist of rabid porcupine, i’ve heard they’re really choleric, but that they make up for it by being so individualistic. if i had to choose three things to describe them, i’d probably say band tees stained with motor oil, sipping whiskey straight from the bottle, and spitting blood into the bathroom sink at an underground punk club . here’s to hoping they don’t cause too much trouble ! ( sam, 23, est, she/her )

rabid porcupine career claim: neck deep

i. stats

𝙛𝙪𝙡𝙡 𝙣𝙖𝙢𝙚: riley ignatius parker-worthington

𝙝𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙩𝙤𝙬𝙣: alderley edge, cheshire, uk

𝙖𝙜𝙚: twenty - three

𝙙𝙖𝙩𝙚 𝙤𝙛 𝙗𝙞𝙧𝙩𝙝: january 31st, 1997

𝙯𝙤𝙙𝙞𝙖𝙘: aquarius

𝙤𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣: heterosexual

𝙤𝙘𝙘𝙪𝙥𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣: lead singer and guitarist of rabid porcupine

𝙥𝙤𝙨. 𝙩𝙧𝙖𝙞𝙩𝙨: individualistic, loyal, perceptive, forthright.

𝙣𝙚𝙜. 𝙩𝙧𝙖𝙞𝙩𝙨: choleric, temerarious, refractory, unceremonious.

ii. history

riley ignatius parker - worthington was born and raised in alderley edge, a small and affluent village in england’s northwestern county of cheshire. he’s the youngest of four boys, so he has three older brothers.

his family, the parker - worthingtons, are one of the richest in not only the uk or england, but the entire northern hemisphere. throughout a history that spans over 150 years, the family business which began as a small architectural firm expanded its reach to areas such as real estate, banking, oil, and mechanical engineering and is worth approximately 60 billion usd.

he was under constant guard at worthington manor, but not by his parents. raised by nannies and educated by private tutors, he went through most of his childhood prohibited from leaving the property and training to one day occupy a prestigious spot in the family company.

it was a very sheltered life and he rebelled against it from the start. being the unplanned child ( along with his twin brother ), his parents went through the motions of hiring private tutors and grooming him to be a successful businessman, but he was still quite young when he figured it out : they didn’t really care. their eldest sons were already the heirs, primed and eager to carry on their legacy of wealth and power. their youngest sons were simply the spares, and they were treated as such all their lives.

he began acting out the moment he realized it, refusing to participate in a game that would always be rigged against him. his parents viewed him as a problem? fine. he could be a problem.

he was kicked out boarding school ( several times ), he got a sketchy back alley tattoo, he got a tongue piercing, he was failing every single one of his classes, and the only thing he showed any real interest in was music. he had been taking piano lessons since before he could even reach the pedals and had a natural talent for it. his instructor ( the only adult he ever really liked ) actually believed that he could become an accomplished classical concert pianist, but upon discovering punk music at the age of sixteen, parker felt as though he had found his calling.

he was seventeen and attending boarding school in switzerland when he snuck off campus one night and never came back. he moved to seattle, bought a motorcycle, took some courses in auto mechanics, and then moved to los angeles where he started rabid porcupine. the three - piece band is popular among their genre but not super well - known otherwise. think neck deep themselves or maybe all time low!

iii. extras  

parker is parker, not riley. never riley. he’ll throw hands before he allows someone to call him by his first name, although most people don’t even realize that parker isn’t his first name to begin with.

has the thickest, most posh british accent.

he almost never speaks to his family but when he does they always threaten to cut him off unless he comes home, but he never comes home and they never cut him off.

he can basically get anything he wants with nothing more than a flash of the black card in his wallet, but he doesn’t like to use his family name to get stuff because it makes him feel like he’s still dependent on them and he absolutely DOES NOT want to be.

pretends like his favorite beverage is jack daniels whiskey when it’s actually the quintessential british cup of tea ( he doesn’t even drink coffee because he doesn’t like it ).

fluent in english and korean ( although he’s really rusty ) & knows some german.

he literally never watched movies or television growing up so 100% of throwback pop culture references will fly right over his head.

has a pet rottweiler puppy named heroin bob ( nicknamed harry ) who...literally has the exact same personality as him.

his motorcycle is a norton that he basically built from scratch all by himself and named debbie harry so it’s his child and he is very protective.

iv. wanted connections

cousins ( paternal cousins would be white and most likely from europe ; maternal cousins would be korean )

friends

party friends who can only stand each other when drunk

friends from boarding school in the uk or switzerland

ex friends / enemies

fwb / ewb / one night stands

exes

please give me ship plots bc i LOVE them thanks

( these are just ideas and i’m not great at coming up with stuff, so please don’t feel limited by what’s listed here. )

[queerhannibal]

Feel free to ignore this if you don’t share the same opinions or don’t wanna start this discussion but this has been on my mind a lot lately – i would die for hannigram but i really hate the way fandom treats jack, esp compared to Hannibal. Ppl write him as being horrendous in fics bc of “what he did to will” while in the show he actually gave will an out, will just didn’t take it bc he wanted to keep saving lives, even if it cost him his own. He had actual agency in the situation, (1)

while he wasn’t even *aware* of the shit Hannibal was putting him through. Jack was desperate, his wife was dying, he was a pushy boss and he wasn’t aware of how badly will was affected bc *will didn’t tell him*. He put *himself* at risk of getting worse (i love will but he was *losing time* and yet didn’t tell anyone besides Hannibal? That’s… irresponsible to say the least i’d be afraid to go out of my house lmao). But he got his revenge on Hannibal and they’re soulmates so he’s fine (2)

while jack deserves to die in fics i guess?? It’s the same with Beverly. Ive seen multiple times people call her a bitch for how she treated will while he was in prison and it’s like… she’d seen definitive proof that her friend and colleague had eaten someone. Would you not be suspicious/confused/guarded in this situation? She got herself killed for him and that’s still not enough for some people. (3)

Idk man, i come from fandoms with a lot of racist attitudes among the fans, for a while the Hannibal one seemed different but it seems everywhere people just refuse to treat characters of colour with the same respect they do white ones. It’s not everyone of course but it’s still noticeable and no one seems to care. (4/4) (sorry for the rant, again, feel free to ignore)

Man I mean I admit that I myself am not a big fan of Jack Crawford but you’re absolutely right that this is a huge problem in the fandom

I’m hesitant to say it’s all rooted in racism (especially with regard to Jack) bc the show definitely paints Jack as a far less sympathetic character than it does Hannibal. But certainly a lot of it is reinforced by the racist attitudes to which we’ve all been exposed

Jack isn’t a terrible person, and he’s certainly not half as terrible a person as Hannibal is; maybe he’s not a Great Guy and certainly he doesn’t show as much care and consideration for Will as I would like him to, but as you say there was an awful lot that Jack didn’t know about how Will was doing and it’s difficult to demand someone accommodate a person for things that person is intentionally concealing.

Also, not being a great boss and arguably manipulating someone into helping you save lives is an inherently lesser evil than any of the things Hannibal has done

It is however a more mundane evil, and I think that’s why a lot of people latch onto it; it’s really hard to care about Hannibal’s brand of evil in a personal way, bc it’s a type of evil that very few of us have experienced. He’s awful in a way our everyday monsters are not. Jack, on the other hand, is the kind of shitty boss I think a lot of us have had and hated, which means we react in a more instinctive way to his kind of awfulness

The Beverly stuff though... that I really can’t explain away. She was as good a friend to Will as anyone could possibly have expected her to be. Of course she was wary of him when she found out about all the evidence that he’d killed people: there was a TON of evidence, and she even references that when talking about it. It was too much evidence, too subtly planted, for her to think “he probably didn’t do this”

And she knew he’d been acting off, and it was discovered at the same time as his arrest that he had a brain disease—even if she believed that Will (who she really hadn’t known that long or had much chance to get close to!!) wouldn’t normally do something like this, there was reason to believe he’d been out of his mind in a way that might make him act out of character, and, again, tons of evidence that he was the killer

Beverly is a scientist, of course she’s going to listen to provable facts over her feelings in a situation like that one

And she did end up believing Will!! When he pressed her to go back and look into other things, she gave him that benefit of the doubt and did so fairly and found that he was right!!! What more do people want from her, honestly. She literally died for him

I’m white so like I don’t have authority here but it’s bad lol

[zackmephisto]

dirt watches aew

ITS TIME BITCHEZ

stop i don't want to see this betrayal :(

mjf turned and now my depression is Worse i hate him i love him :(

JURASSIC EXPRESS AAAAAA

N Y L A YES OG MY GOD

i know I didnt hear yall boo nyla.

HANGMAN AND PAC REEEE

SCUUUUU REEEEE

M I S T E R M O X L E Y

:'''''(

STOP IM GONNA CRY KENNY NOOO

is it really nakazawa v mox. that's wild

mox looks good wtf?

STOP pulling the crazy shit dude. hes a good boy.

is he wrestling in pants bc his legs got fucked up or

that was weak. wtf ?

is it just bc hes still sort of hurt and they want to book him stronger than kenny?

o he speak

"you are one radical son of a bitch" how come he can say bitch but chuck cant say the s word

👀

damn yeah what's next for him. he really did fuck up kenny. who is next. I'm excited idc who is next like.... whoever it is they're gonna be working w the best of the best tbh

wait what the fuck why is it a championship match with sammy and chris and scu. why

cheer dark order and their gimp army you FUCKING cowards

T H E M!!!!!

GOD I LOVE MY CHILDREN STOP IM GONNA CRY MARKO WEARING THE MASK

THE MARKO CHANTS THANK YOU LORD

i have no more will to live now that marko ate the pin

STOP BEFORE I CRY FOR REAL

oH MY GOD LUCHASAURUS AAAA

luchasuarus said "back off my baby dinosaurs" and i respect that

hes obv still a little hurt tho you can see it in his movement

I STAN ONE DINOSAUR FAMILY

hmmm how come scu have to defend their championships every five minutes but chris jericho is always safe 🤔

gfys shawn spears

i'm a simple woman. i see shawn spears on my screen and I switch tabs

I constantly thank god for darby allin

Aubrey 😍😍😍😍

if darby loses i sue

JOEY!!!

uh. i mean. i mean. joey. big deal. who even cares about him and his braids and he smells anyway 😡

thank u darby i love you and definitely not joey...

DARBY AND JON WAIT STOP I CANT BREATHE OH MY GOD NO PLEASE THIS IS GONNA BE THE BEST THING IVE EVER SEEN SCREEEEEE

I'm literally screeching darby vs mox??? NAME A MORE ICONIC DUO

ya'll have a crowd full on transphobes huh

darby vs mox tho this is so goddamn exciting

SO excited oh my god who is nyla fighting !!

who??

people really are such big transphobes that they're cheering someone who hasn't had a match yet. i hate straighties

thank you queen I love you

get well soon dad i miss u :(

i feel like i should know her by sight but i don't

o i remember her. i like her merch

shes annoying

😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍

AWESOME KONG AND BRANDI MY SKIN IS CLEARING AS I SPEAK

perish, blonde woman

god i love this. i LOVE THIS

if mjf joins the inner circle i want it to be known right now at 5:56 pm that i will Still Stan. okay. i stood w baron corbin through it all. i'll stand by mjf through it all.

every time some one swears on aew and it's not chuck taylor i lose six months of my life

OH?!?!?!

HELLO MAX I LOVE YOU GOOD MORNING MY SWEET SCARF SON

he's handsome no one @ me ever again

i lov u asshole love you so much

LOVE YOUUUU

NO I LOVE YOU I'M NOT UPSET I LOVE YOU

expose him Max EXPOSE HIM

max 😍😍😍😍😍

I believe every word you've ever said ever

max is right stop SAYING MEAN THINGS TO HIM

THIS MAN IS HURT MAY I HUG HIM

max STOP I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU SO MUCH

AND WHAT A HANDSOME NEW FACE IT IS

YES YOU ARE BETTER THAN HIM AND I DO KNOW IT

wake up sheeple max is RIGHT

"my third or fourth installment" go off king.. go off......

sigh. I didnt want to do this. but i'm gonna have to stan.

or not?

MAX SAID A LITTLE BIT OF THE BUBBLY AND I IMMEDIATELY GOT UP TO GRAB THE CHAMPAGNE I SAVED FOR THIS EXACT SITUATION

ok thank god i dont have to stan the inner circle

thanks max i love you

HE IS HANDSOME ITS TRUE

ok... maybe that was funny. but I still love max

dont do this Max I dont want to stan

this is making me laugh hella hard dncnsndj

I LOVE THE HUG

cody man come on just let me have my max in peace

sigh

cmon Maxwell let's go

who?

wardlow I see

ok. I stan if he likes max

@ Maxwell Jacob Friedman choke me like that d*ddy

good morning it's been an hour and I've had four mikes and am on my fifth i'm drunk and in love with mjf

cowboy 😍😍😍😍😍

wait please don't let hangman lose I dont want to see him sad anymore

pac is fucking. more than human. I love him too

COW👏BOY👏SHIT👏

"i'm shocked by pac's leg strength" me 2 bud. those legs? i'm always shocked. hes so ripped his muscles have muscles

BASTARD SHIT LMFAOO HOW THE TURNS HABE TABLED

COWBOY STOP MAKING THESE NOISES I FEEL NSFWORK

yall are going to commercial in the middle of this match? disgostang. guess its valid bc this alcohol is going right thru me but. >:(

so Twitter says luchasaurus is actually Back back I'm really really happy abt that I missed dinosaur father

i finished going to the bathroom and sat down and it came back on clearly this is dirt rights

hangman and pac didnt get up for a second and I was Ben Affleck w cigarette. jpeg for a second thinking abt pac vs moxley

thank u for being a good bean mr ref bryce

:(((((((((((((((((((((

suing aew for emotional distress

JESUS matt Jackson

OH MY GOD AAAAAA ORANGE IVE NEVER LOVED A MAN MORE

literally I love orange cassidy more than i love myself

I'd be more exciting for this bucks/proud n powerful moment if orange cassidy wasn't on screen for two (2) seconds. His Impact

aew refs are my new mandatory kin

dont hurt Brandon Cutler hes a good boy

:(

thank god for private party

proud n powerful vs private party is dirt rights

me: :l

scu: SCUUUUU

me: :)

oh yeah btw my onion on scu officially changed i love them officially

SCU SAYS FUCK NASHVILLE BUT I LOVE WRESTLING FANS AND REALLY THATS CALIFORNIANS IN A NUTSHELL, I CAN CONFIRM, BEING CALIFORNIAN

i'm DRUNK thank god for autocorrect

why is sammy not vlogging. is he okay. does he have a fever

anyway if scu loses i'm suing again

jericho, a few weeks ago: WHO WEARS A SCARF

Jericho, today: wears a scarf tonight and talks abt scarfs today

judas FUCKS one of my fave songs of all time tbh

sammy guevara is like. 12. stop hip thrusting, child

kaz, my angel. I love you. so much

sammy: I GOT EM, DAD. I GOT EM

I love sammy BUT he better eat this pin so hard hes still tasting it next week

almost started filing my aew lawsuit when scorpio sky almost got pinned

I love how effective and strong the thesz press is. so wild. thank u mr sky

oh thank fuck. thank FUCK that pin wasn't complete

PLEASE MR SKY

THANK YOU MR SKY

SCU BEAT INNER CIRCLE SO NO ONE EVER TALK SHIT ABT CALIFORNIANS EVER AGAIN

unless ur californian. in which case ur allowed

scorpio sky being the first person in aew to pin Jericho is California Rights

that was a wonderful show. orange cassidy was there so it was 10/10. everyone say thank u aew

[intocontiinents]

EVA NOBLEZADA, DEMIGIRL, SHE/THEY.  —  looks  like VIOLET GOTHEL  is  attending   AURADON PREP  in  auradon.  they're  the  EIGHTEEN  year  old  child  of  MOTHER GOTHEL (ADOPTED),  which  means  they're  from  THE ISLE OF THE LOST.  heard  they're  RESOURCEFUL  &  OBSERVANT,  but  can  also  be  HOSTILE  &  SULLEN  ;  we  all  have  our  bad  days.  people  normally  associate  them  with  SWIFT HANDS, SNEAKING OUT AT NIGHT, CUTTING YOUR OWN BANGS. 

hello all !! it’s  seph  once again with a new character ! this time it’s sort of a heavy revamp of one of my much older characters  (  think:  character i’ve had since  2012  kind of old  )  but definitely with some new points i’ve added !!  anyways, as per usual, if you wanna hc, hit me tf up on tumblr pms or through discord @ seph !#7477 !!

i. i was born with fire burning ╱

                      violet  lillith  gothel.

         nineteen. daughter of mother gothel.

                      spotify. pinterest.

ii. at the root of my heart ╱

  ╰    ˚            mother gothel had a penchant of taking in children that were not her own,  and violet knew from the start that the woman she calls mother really wasn’t hers.

 ╰    ˚            her real parents were petty thieves shipped off to the isle, who never in their wildest dreams even expected a child.  so she was left on the stoop of some random building in a basket,  with only a locket and a letter containing her name.

 ╰    ˚            when mother gothel saw the crying baby on her doorstep, she took her in, raised her as if she were one of her own.  she was  nice  enough to have let violet keep her locket during the first few years of her childhood, though eventually sold it to get food for them.

 ╰    ˚            maybe it was because she was so  small  and  quiet  as a child, or maybe it was because she was the youngest,  but gothel was never as harsh to violet,  though that didn’t mean she didn’t spit vile words  and passive aggressive comments at the girl’s face.

 ╰    ˚            when she got older,  gothel found a use for her small build and her  innocent  face, and after a few weeks of learning the tricks,  violet was sent out to the streets in her free time to pickpocket random passersby and citizens of the isle.

 ╰    ˚            nobody ever suspected her, of course.  how could they,  when they looked into her big brown eyes and saw  innocence.  to them she was just gothel’s youngest child,  a charity case  who never really spoke that much.

╰    ˚            she was always so quiet, yes, but what she lacked in words she made up for in her observations.

 ╰    ˚            she was  so quiet  and  so isolated.  gothel didn’t keep them in a tower, but she moderated violet’s ins and outs so much that it might as well have been.  her contact with the rest of the isle was limited to her schooling and on the days when gothel would let her roam the street to lift valuables from unknowing passersby.

╰    ˚            it also didn’t help that gothel fed her the same lies that she did to rapunzel,  that the world beyond their homestead was nasty and filled with ruffians and thugs  (  which wasn’t much of a  lie  now these days, but u get my point  ),  which made her wary of the world outside what she’s known.

╰    ˚            she has, however, snuck out at night  (  though it’s only been a handful  of times since she’s done so  ),  not to interact with the rest of the kids of the isle,  but to just walk around the dark paths of the forest near their house,  basking in the moon’s glow.  the forest has become her friend, and one might argue that it was her  only  friend,  and they’re partially true.  friends are hard to come by in the isle, after all.

╰    ˚            when she was chosen to go to auradon,  violet had an uneasy feeling in her gut.  of course, she was happy to leave the isle,  and auradon had  much more  valuable and expensive things to pickpocket off, but while her life in the isle was never really ideal,  she was a bit  scared  to leave all she’s ever known.

iii. at the base of my throat ╱ personality.

╰    ˚            if you hadn’t noticed,  violet isn’t much of a talker, though it’s mostly out of her own volition.  to her, her quiet nature = innocence, which fools a lot of people.

╰    ˚            she’s a tad bit  naive, yes-- she doesn’t quite believe gothel when she says that the outside world is dangerous, but she does heed a bit of her instructions,  which means that she’s very wary and suspicious of literally everyone around her. like !! she doesn’t think that the outside world isn’t inherently  bad,  she just assumes that a majority of the people are kind of out to get her.

╰    ˚            is probably inwardly judging you  so hard  right now.  while she rarely speaks,  her inner monologue is just full of her critiquing others.

╰    ˚            can definitely be perceived as hostile once people look past her ‘innocent’ front and she kind really is?? she takes a lot of caution when handling w people bc again ! !  she still doesn’t trust them

╰    ˚            also when people look past her Innocent™️ front, she is hella Grumpy™️  like she is lit rally the walking definition of ‘do not fucking talk to me or i will stomp you with my hooves’  

iv. at the bottom of my lungs ╱

i don’t really have a specific wanted connection for violet, but like i said, if you want to plot something w/ me, hit me up on tumbler or on discord @ seph !#7477

[cleosahar-blog]

hlo i’m ari and i'm 20 and use whatever pronouns! atm i like she/her or they/them, and i’m in the est timezone. i’m back with my evil shitbaby hope u enjoy

(female ) haven’t seen CLEO SAHAR around in a while. the MEDALION RAHIMI lookalike has been known to be (+) TACTFUL & (+) OBSERVANT, but SHE can also be (-) CUNNING & (-) TEMPERAMENTAL. The 21 year old is a SENIOR majoring in ART HISTORY. I believe they’re living in PEREGRINIS but I popped by earlier and no one answered the door. ( ari. 20. est. she/they. )

+ dark lipstick, dried flowers, black marble, the dead of winter, cigarette dropped in a glass of wine, candles left burning for hours, lighter touching a tongue, scribbled notes

her pinterest board!

tw mental illness

cleora “cleo” sahar is textbook slytherin. born to a russian woman too smart for her own good, named with something archaic via her mother’s fascination with everything grecian, cleo was basically born to be the personification of a nightshade. growing up in new york city didn’t particularly help her not-so-subtle erudite qualities, most specifically granted to her mother’s work as a professor at columbia university.

her father is an iranian immigrant who had enough charm to convince her mother to go on a date with him after three tries. her mother, nikita, always loved to tell this story.

cleo resembles her mother in many ways. from a cutting stare to her obsession with control, cleo had always wanted to be like her mother -- erudite to the point of possessing the ability for world domination. because of this, she was a bit of an elitist growing up, able to go to a good all girls private school on scholarship (not that she needed it), which led her to lockwood.

truly a wildcard and has this strange anger that’s been inside of her since she was a child. like a bomb that hasn’t completely detonated. on one hand, she was never able to completely relate to the girls at her high school, who were a bit scared of her because she seemed to be constantly seething.

fascinated w mythology, art history, film, etc

extremely sarcastic and cold most of the time. her familial pressures were enough to make her household tense, and the largeness of new york never allowed her to keep many intimate relationships or friendships growing up

has a god complex that she doesnt like to admit

uses her beauty to her advantage in most situations n has a reputation of a heartbreaker ever since she realized that all the boys from the public school downtown would ogle her on weekends

she isnt as reckless as the usual femme fatale — there’s this refined edge to her. like a glowing flame that never truly goes out

a scorpio..... ???? i literally cnt decide this is subject to change bt her personality? stereotypical scorpio perhaps

she was classically trained but ended up sticking to guitar/bass, is very talented and her tendency to be drawn to harder rock music/punk from her uncle landed her in a band in her freshman yr (think fiona apple/mysterious frontwoman of every 90s rock band/i was definitely influenced by the lead singer of crumb when i saw them live lol)

honestly an enigma like even her close friends are usually like [waka flocka okay gif] when talking abt her bc she’s a mystery in the sense that no one is truly close to her

exclusively wears red and black

winter is her favorite season

prone to depressive episodes extremely easily and if she can’t get her alone time she will go Absolutely Batshit

voted Most Likely To Slit A Man’s Throat in high school (an unspoken award)

bisexual bc who comes out of a girls private school straight

moral compass? questionable. she’s not one to be the most reckless simply because she doesn’t care enough for the thrill the way her peers do, but she’s been known to be a kleptomaniac in her younger years for the sake that she was damn good at it. very passionate about palestinian rights, women’s rights, etc. so her morals align with her good politics but her bad attitude and irreverence for authority has made her… slightly anarchist… although she thinks all that is dumb re: leftist boys she’s met

her intelligence makes the world limitless and her passion for art and music only confuse her intentions for her future... it’s like her ambition is on overdrive towards something intangible n cleo has a constant fear of grasping at straws bc of pressure from her mom

constant need for power n control due to her upbringing n probably some undiagnosed ocd... she has irrational problems that are more obscure in terms of what she needs to have control over bt she tells literally no one abt these

literally has an elaborate pocket knife in her bag at all times

WANTED CONNECTIONS

exes; people who have felt the brunt of cleo’s coldness and/or wrath. most likely on bad terms or she truly jst... does not have the mind to care abt them

the odd ex that she actually does care abt?? their relationship is... strange but if opportunity came she wld not say no to hooking up

fwb/hookups; u kno the drill... we love power play n unrequitedness n the confusion of who likes who more bring the angst 2 me!!!

unrequited crush?? cld go both ways... maybe someone who sees cleo so often that she’s jst curious enough to keep them around / someone who’s pining for her but she enjoys the game / someone she likes v easily (uncommon) n she truly.. doesn’t kno how to cope

NEMESIS

childhood acquaintance that cld be fwb or hookup or weird friend...or  something.. idk.. cnt decide if her cleo’s mother is a prof or someone in academia yet bc if so then this person cld be  a child of one of her colleagues?

all friends any type welcome pls she’s so stone cold that she needs 2 loosen up... ive written a gd VILLAIN in my head

[matlidas-blog]

(    madelaine  petsch ／ she/her  ／ twenty three .    )    welcome  to  los  angeles, matilda   “tilly”  hughes.   the  glitterati  has  been  watching  you.  rumour  has  it  you  made  your  first  mark  in  the  industry  seven  years ago   &  that  your  net  worth  currently  stands  at  10m. it  seems  as  though  you’re  enjoying  being  a  reality  television  personality  /  musician since  relocating  from  orange  county,  ca.   some  might  say  you’d  be  a  good  fit  for  the glitterati  due  to  your  hollywood  ranking  being  a  solid  #2,  &  it  helps  that  fans  speak  so  highly  of  your  gregarious  & magnetic ways.  unfortunately,  our  sources  cite  that  those  closest  to  you  aren’t  particularly  impressed  with  your  impetuous  &  argumentative tendencies.

hi,  all  !  i’m  kinda  nervous  about  joining  this  group  bc  of  all  your  lovely  muses  &  amazing  concept  but  never  the  less  let’s  hope  i  don’t  flop  !  wow,  sm  hope  !  SDKFHSHF  ...  ANYWAY  !  i’m  bean  ( she  +  her  /  twenty  /  livin’  in  england  ) :+) ! you  can  call  me  beanie,  b,  beans,  whatever  your  heart  desires  really  &  this  is  my  Chaotic™  daughter,  tilly  !  she’s  a  mash-up  of  some  characters  that  i’ve  played  previously,  so  hopefully  you  all  love  her  as  much  as  i  do.  ANYWAYS,  i’m  also  really  really  bad  at  intros  &  whatnot  (  she  says  as  she  writes  a  literal  novel  SFKHDHF.  )  but  if  you  want  to  plot,  or  ...  whatever  y’all  wanna  do.  🤠  then  feel  free  to  im  me ?  add  me  on  discord  ?  (  old bean#9559  )  and  uhhh,  yeah ! this  sux,  goodnight.  pls  love  me  :+)  

p.s  :  i’m  so  sorry  that  this  whole  post  radiates  a  chaotic  energy  that  i  did  not  expect  !  oh well  !

one.   ˛     ◜ 🥀 ◞     BASIC  STATISTICS.

full  name  :  matilda  quinn  hughes-becker. professionally  known  as  :  matilda  /  tilly  hughes. nicknames  :  tils  (  general  ),  lil’  red  (  family  orientated  )  –  just  don’t  call  her  matilda,  unless  you’re  her  mother  or  you  want  to  annoy  her. :-) age  :  twenty-three. birthdate  :  october  twenty-fourth. zodiac  :  scorpio. claim  to  fame  :  sort  of  like  the  kardashians  /  real  housewives, the  hughes’  family  has  built  an  empire  over  the  years  and  tilly  was  born  into  the  lifestyle  (  comparable  to  kendall  &  kylie,  if  i’m  honest  )  and  hasn’t  really  had  to  do  anything  but  breathe to  see  money  in  the  bank.  reality  tv  star  (   her  family  has  their  own  show,  following  the  day-to-day  lives  of  ex-musician  turned  producer, gerald  hughes,  his  beautician  housewife,  julia  becker  &  their  five  children  )  and  recording  artist  /  musician  are  both  notches  on  her  belt,  but  she  has  various  social  media  followings,  of  course  (  youtube  for  music,  bts  &  promotional  videos,  instagram  &  snapchat  for  the  same,  but  also  personal  use  ). general  occupation  : reality  television  personality  /  musician. net-worth  to  date  :  ten  million. years  active  :  seven. birthplace  &  hometown  :  orange  county,  california,  united  states. current  residence  :  los  angeles,  california. career  claims  :  to  be  added,  not  applicable  atm. orientation  :  bisexual,  biromantic.

two.   ˛     ◜ 🥀 ◞     PHYSICALS.

faceclaim  :  madelaine  petsch. hair  colour  &  style  (  general  )  :  strawberry  blonde  /  red,  all  natural,  usually  worn  curled  /  wavy  in  it’s  natural  form. height  :  5′6. piercings  :  standard  lobes  (  x3  in  left,  2  in  right  ),  both  nipples  &  scattered  studs  in  her  left  ear  (  including  tragus,  conch  &  cartilage  ). tattoos  :  all  most  definitely  from  curt  montgomery,  coverage  is  at  this  level. surgeries  made  public  :  rhinoplasty  (  2015  ),  dissolvable  lip  fillers  (  2017–  ). other  physical  notes  :  has  a  mole  on  her  stomach,  a  few  freckles  on  her  face  and  slightly  noticeable  scar  just  above  her  right  eyebrow,  although  she  tries  to  hide  that  as  much  as  possible.

three.   ˛     ◜ 🥀 ◞     KEY  POINTS.

i.  truly  thinks  she’s  that  bitch, the  regina  george  of  her  own  time...  or  so  she  likes  to  believe.  she’s  grown  up  in  the  spotlight  (  or  at  least  with  the  cameras  rolling  and  following  her  around  for  her  every  movie  )  so  she’s  a)  used  to  it,  b)  likes  to  use  it  all  to  her  advantage  if  need  be  and  c)  knows  too  much  sometimes.  she’s  literally  only  ever  known  this  life,  so  if  she  was  to  be  knocked  down  a  few  notches,  then  so  be  it  !

ii.  her  father  (  gerald  hughes,  ex-singer  of  the  80′s/90′s  )  is  the  one  that  got  her  into  the  music  scene,  she  didn’t  have  to  really  work  for  anything  to  get  where  she  is.  she’s  claimed  to  of   “worked  hard”  but  in  the  world  of  ghost-writers,  good  press  teams  and  a  famous  father ? who  needs  hard  work  ? sure,  she’s  talented,  and  good  at  what  she  does,  but  in  some  ways,  she  takes  after  her  mother  in  the  sense  of  relying  on  looks  and  her  name  to  get  her  to  the  top.  but,  she  works  hard  in  that  category.

iii.  she’s  an  open  book,  has  never  lied  about  anything  regarding  her  past-scandals,  relationships  etc.  but  there’s  always  room  for  that  ( wink  wonk  ;+)  )  but  in  the  long  run,  she’s pretty  much  chilled  out.  she’s  not  an  asshole,  but  she  can  be  defensive,  argumentative  &  literally  start  beef  online  if  she  feels  she’s  being  publicly  shamed  (  basically  any  youtuber  ever  SDKHFSHK.  )  however,  when  she  cares  about  people  ...  she  fuckin’  cares.  like ?  she’ll  deadass  be  a  ride  or  die,  but  don’t  expect  her  to  let  it  go  if  you  cross  her.  #spilltheteasis  !  skdhfds.

four.   ˛     ◜ 🥀 ◞     W.  CONNECTIONS.

i.   ride  or  die  :  can  be  a  single  friend,  or  perhaps  a  group  (  max.  4,  maybe  ?  )  that  have  rode  through  all  the  hardships  with  tilly,  including  scandals,  etc.  and  have  stuck  with  her  unlike  others  that  came  & went  like  the  common  cold.

ii.   exes  :  boyfriends,  girlfriends  ...  something  that  ended  good  or  bad,  mutually  agreed  on  the  split  or  ...  it  was  messy ! whatever  works,  she’s  a  messy  gal  so  ...  literally  anything  will  work,  i  promise.

iii.  family  friends  :  maybe  their  families  grew  up  together,  worked  together  at  some  point  or  run  in  the  same  circle  (  closer  than  others,  for  better  or  for  worse  )  ?  it  can  be  positive,  negative,  indifferent.  maybe  their  families  /  parents  are  friends  but  they’ve  never  really  met  ?  who  knows  !

iv.  unlikely  friends  :  two  people  who  are  nothing  the  same,  or  textbook  definitions  of  not  getting  along  but  have  some  sort  of  mutual  thing  that  connect  them  together !  not  necessarily  joined  at  the  hip,  maybe  not  even  that  close  but  can  call  on  one  another  if  they’d  ever  need  it.

v.  hook-ups,  friends  w  benefits,  rebounds  :  it’s  a  messy  world  &  they’re  just  living  in  it.  you  get  it...  it’s  simple  !  i  just  want  tilly  to  be  the  messy  bitch  she  deserves  to  be  SDKFHDS.  but  ! gotta  love  drama,  angst  ...  don’t  we  all  :^)

a  full  bio  &  a  more  extensive  list  of  wanted  connections  will  come  when  i’m not  Stressed™  over  my  degree  &  that’s  the  motherfuckin’  tea  !  lmao.  but  uhhh  y’all  please  love  her  ?  she’s  a  bit  chaotic  and  whack  –  and  completely  not  outlined  properly  in  this  post  –  but  i  ...  promise  that  i’m  –  slightly  –  better  than  this. *raven  vc*  yep,  that’s  me  !