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DUAL LIFE â s.jaeyun
PAIRING: mafiaboss!jake x fem!reader GENRES: smut, angst, slight fluff WC: 10.8k+
WARNINGS:Â swearing, mention of drugs and illicit things, mafia stuff, jake implicitly jealous, oral sex (f. receiving), nipple sucking, unprotected sex (do it safely, please). lmk if i missed anything else.
SYNOPSIS:Â being a serious and respected businessman was the only side of him that jaeyun wanted you to know, afraid that he would let you into his life and, over time, you would get to know not only sim jaeyun, but also sim jake, the mafia boss.
NOTES:Â idk how, but i thought about it for a day and just wrote it down. i let my mind run wild and wanted something completely different for jake, so here it is. i hope you like it!
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The corporate environment could be challenging and misogynistic when a woman holds a position of great power. At first, the fear hit you hard when your name was molded onto a plaque and, below it, the title of the boss was stamped. But alongside all this, you found yourself supported by your colleague and partner Sim Jaeyun. The first man who saw you with respect, who treated you like a boss and a partner, who handed you demands with the same intensity as he handed demands to other men in the company.
He was incredible when he signed the contract to share that company with you. And it was a good deal because once your name was linked to Jaeyun's, everything inside that building seemed to be moving perfectly toward success. Numbers and shares grew faster and faster, and meetings were shared late into the night where you and Jaeyun reviewed what you had done so far, whether you needed to change any strategies in your approaches, and how you two could take the next step.
You were surprised every time because even though he was there for everything, his word was always final. Jaeyun seemed to want your approval even if his vision was the opposite of yours. It was as if your permission was worth more than his, even though you saw him think for a while before making any decisions. Carefully and cautiously when he asked you about shares and employees, about investments, and what he should do, he was careful and very intelligent, but in his view, you were so much more. So having your approval before his was more important.
This meant that the two of you shared more time than necessary, apart from being in the office. Jaeyun constantly calls you to have dinner and go over some papers when, in reality, the two of you did everything but go over papers. Or when he called you for coffee in the middle of the day to de-stress from an annoying client in question, you gladly accepted because the combination of his company and a hot coffee was all you needed after a moment like that.
What started as routine things became a little different when Jaeyun became warmer towards you at work. It was hard to tell at first since he was always very professional and the looks you got from him were either approving ones or small smiles after a good idea in the corporate environment. You never noticed anything more than that. Until that moment. Where he made a point of touching your hand when he sat next to you, reaching for your pen while he was resting on the other side. Or when Jaeyun would gently rest his hand on your lower back so that you would enter the rooms before him as if he would lose sight of you at any moment even though the room was quite large and there was no way he could lose sight of you.
Dinners no longer had the excuse of work stuff, Jaeyun just wanted to go out and talk to you about everything other than shares, money, and boring investors. He wanted to know more about you, he wanted to hear you tell stories and he wanted to share his too. However, in this respect, you could feel him wavering a little as if he was afraid to talk about something he shouldn't have.
In your mind, Jaeyun had something difficult he was dealing with, so he tended to be more reserved about it, but you learned enough about him as the dinners became weekly. Every detail about his life â which he managed to share with you â and every quirk you picked up on as the two of you spent more time together. Jaeyun was a little box of surprises that you were trying to unravel little by little.
But as things naturally grew closer between you and him, something about the boy's behavior caught your attention. From time to time Jaeyun seemed more scattered at meetings, as if his mind was anywhere but on the words of an old, gray-haired man talking about work. Or how dinners between the two of you became the company cafeteria, him refusing â politely â to go out with you with the excuse that he was too tired. But at the same time, he didn't want to break his silent promise that you and he would share a meal at least once a week.
That didn't bother you, after all, you still had his company even if the dishes varied from pasta with fancy sauce to ramen that he asked an employee to pick up at the corner convenience store. That wasn't so important, at least Jaeyun was sitting in front of you with a faint smile and talking about how hard his day had been and how he wanted to go home and be with his dog.
Everything changed that night. You did everything in your routine, working tirelessly in your office while receiving a few emails from Jaeyun to line up a thing here and there. Answering a few calls and dealing with the staff as best you could. After you finished work, you just wanted to be in the cafeteria and try another flavor of ramen that Jaeyun had bought, claiming that you would love it. Your mouth was already starting to salivate because you knew he could find the most unusual flavors, always impressing you with the smallest things.
But your heart sank when the door to your living room opened, revealing Jaeyun and a grocery bag. Everything happened slowly before your eyes, even though the scene itself was so fast.
âI can't stay todayâ Jaeyun's voice snapped you out of your reverie, the bag placed on your desk while his hands were now hidden inside the tailored pants he was wearing.
âWhy? Did something happen?â you asked, trying not to sound disappointed enough for him to see that he had messed with you.
But what you didn't know was that Jaeyun knew you as well as you knew yourself. Your every expression, tone of voice, everything. He knew exactly how you felt, perhaps because he was the same way, but also because he watched you too much.
âSome personal problemsâ he sighed softly, looking away from the bag to you âI brought you the ramen, so you can try it and tell me what you think.â
Jaeyun tried to smile to lighten the mood, taking his hands out of his pockets to fiddle with the bag and take out the bowl, showing you the new flavor he'd found. You bit your lower lip to keep from letting out a sigh or saying something you shouldn't have. Your heart was strangely bothered by it.
âIt's no fun without you, Jaeyunâ was the most you could say without sounding desperate or showing too much.
He felt the weight of everything fall on him as his eyes fell to the pot of ramen, seeing a spark of sadness shine in your eyes as your hands touched his and took the pot from his hand. Putting it back in the bag, you closed it and pushed it towards him.
âIââ Jaeyun turned away from your table, not wanting the ramen packets back âI'm sorry, Y/n. I really have to go.â
âJaeyunââ
He was afraid that if he heard you say anything, he'd stay for dinner with you. That's what he wanted most. But he couldn't. Jaeyun had to leave as soon as possible before everything went to shit. So, just as quickly as he entered your office, he left and closed the door before he heard anything else come out of your mouth.
You stood there at your desk, staring at the bag that had been left there. It was the first night since you two started eating together that he didn't stay. The first night that Jaeyun barely looked at you before saying goodbye. He didn't even touch your hand as he did when he picked you up for dinner or coffee. He was so distant that it seemed like you didn't recognize him.
Meanwhile, Jaeyun was racing against time to try to balance the double life he was leading. Getting involved with you wasn't in his plans, not least because corporate life was just a façade for him, so the moment he found himself nurturing any feelings for you, he knew he was screwed. Jaeyun couldn't fall in love, but he also couldn't help feeling it when everything seemed natural when he was with you. Your presence made him forget all the bad things he experienced outside that office. That is there he was Sim Jaeyun, your partner and someone who was slowly taking over your heart.
But unfortunately, that couldn't be forever and he knew it. Leaving the elevator and walking hurriedly to his car, he took off his jacket and threw it on the passenger seat, the place where you had sat countless times in your work clothes as beautiful as any woman he had ever seen in his life. That symbolic place belonged to you, even if he didn't want to admit it. Jaeyun let his head fall back against the steering wheel of the car, uttering swear words that he remembered and that made his body explode with rage.
He wanted to be Sim Jaeyun forever. Your partner, the man who was slowly making you fall in love.
But leaving there he was Jake, one of the mob bosses who was now rushing to help his friends with new charges and problems coming up.
The sound of his fingers drumming on the marble of the table was a little louder than usual. Jaeyun tried hard not to show how annoyed â and angry â he was to be there that night. He knew it would be impossible to hide from his friends how much he disliked being there, but at the same time, he couldn't forget what an authority figure he was there too.
âAre you in a bad mood?â he heard Sunghoon's voice cut through the air, entering the room with all the grace he had compared to the other boys. Jaeyun sighed, stopping his drumming to slide his hand to the glass in front of him and drink all the liquid it contained. He wasn't sure what it was, but he would thank Heeseung later for putting in the highest alcohol content he could find.
âDon't tease me, Parkâ he replied after feeling the burning go down his throat.
Sunghoon laughed a little and sat down next to Heeseung, facing Jaeyun.
âI asked you a question, broâ he said, âWhy are you in such a bad mood? Jay and San have already managed to corner those idiots and take what they tried to steal from us.â
Looking at it that way, Jaeyun could be relieved. Smuggling drugs wasn't something he was proud of doing, but he knew how respected he was for carrying on his father's work as well as he would have liked. At the time, Sim wished he hadn't been so good and just stuck to executive work, without getting involved with the family mafia. But he knew how much confidence his late father had and how much he wanted Jaeyun to take over.
âI know, it's justââ
âHe's mad because we ruined his date with his girlfriendâ Heeseung winked at Sunghoon, who quickly understood everything.
âShit, tonight was the night of your romantic dinner.â
âIt's not a romantic dinnerâ Jaeyun tried to make amends.
âI told us not to call him, damn it, Heeseungâ Sunghoon pretended to be angry, knowing that there was no way not to call Jaeyun. This was of a gigantic magnitude and even though the two of them were his right-hand man, they couldn't make decisions without consulting him first. A form of respect for their best friend, who had taken them in even after taking on a dangerous and important position.
âWhat did you want me to do?â Heeseung tried to defend himself, sliding down the back of the chair and running one hand through his hair âThey tried to rob usâ he continued âMy only thought was to run to the shed and stop it, but I couldn't do that without Jake's approval.â
Jaeyun listened intently as the conversation unfolded in front of him. Heeseung and Sunghoon knew that they had complete freedom when it came to any decision, especially if Jaeyun was playing the role of partner in a big company. Wearing a suit and tie, expensive tailoring, and with you by his side. It was a persona he wanted to maintain, even though reality hit him every time he received a call from his best friends informing him of something concerning his second job.
He ran a hand through his hair, the sting of the drink gradually fading from his throat as he looked at the two boys still talking.
An absurd urge to disappear and leave the business to the two of them, to run to the office because Jaeyun knew you'd still be there working, eating the ramen he'd left for you. A strange tightness in his chest made him sigh. He had left you alone for the first time after everything had happened. It wasn't because he wanted to, but Jaeyun was afraid of involving you in the second life he was leading. He didn't want to put you in danger, make you go out to dinner with glances lingering between the two of you.
That life brought Jaeyun and his friends a lot of good things, but just as many bad things. He walked around with plainclothes security guards all the time, but it wasn't as if he could do that for you without your permission. It would be handed to him on a plate to tell you about his life in the mafia because on what pretext would Jaeyun say he wanted to offer you private security? It wasn't as if it was necessary for the life of a company boss. No one would want to hurt you for that. So with his lack of creativity in coming up with an excuse, he found himself doing the one thing he didn't want to do: hide you.
Dinner in the company cafeteria was safer than parading around with you by his side, even though it was the only thing he wanted at that moment more than anything. Holding your hand again with the excuse that the restaurant was full and he didn't want to let you out of his sight. That may have been true, but a large part of it was because he was worried that someone in disguise might harm you.
Jaeyun had declared enemies and he knew what some were capable of. Anything could be done against him, but no one should lay a finger on you.
âJake!â Heeseung's shout brought him out of his thoughts quickly, blinking hard to regain awareness that he'd been immersed in his thoughts for too long âDude, do you have her on your mind again?â
âAt least disguise itâ Sunghoon muttered.
âI think I'm going to shoot your ass, you idiotâ Jaeyun pointed at his friend, getting up from his chair.
âCalm down man, I'm kiddingâ he said âMessing with her really puts you in a bad mood.â
Jaeyun ignored it because he had no way of refuting it. He realized that everything that involved him made his nerves frayed and his feelings more acute. It wasn't as if he could control what he felt. If he could, Jaeyun would have chosen not to involve any feelings because he wanted to protect you. But the next thing he knew, any little detail about you made him lose his mind. He wanted to keep you close, he wanted to feel you, he wanted to have you even if it meant risking everything.
A remnant of conscience made him keep his touches a little simpler, although he felt the absurd urge to grab your waist and feel your lips pressed to his.
âI'm going to check what Jay's got so farâ Heeseung got up too, passing the seats and going around the table to leave the room âAny news I'll let you two know, so keep an eye on the phonesâ and left.
Now with Sunghoon being the only presence in the room besides him, Jaeyun felt the weight of everything almost crush him. His friend's gaze almost pierced his insides because he knew how Sim felt. Sunghoon had a better view of Jaeyun's feelings than the other two.
âSit downâ he said when he saw his best friend lost in thought, barely able to utter a word apart from opening and closing his mouth a few times. Obeying, Jaeyun sat back in his chair âWhat's going on?â
What about? He wanted to ask but knew it was a waste of time. There was nothing Park Sunghoon couldn't figure out. So the other just sighed, leaning back even further in his chair and closing his eyes.
âI shouldn't have liked her in the first placeâ it was almost natural to let it out, as if he wanted Sunghoon to hear those words âThings should be professional, I should just focus on the actions and nothing else. Then go back home, deal with the mafia problems my father left behind, and later think about marrying the daughter of some other mafia boss.â
âBetter than marrying Y/n?â Sunghoon asked.
It was strange that his best friends spoke your name. This was proof that the two worlds Jaeyun lived in were colliding. Then he opened his eyes, wanting to scream out everything that had been squeezing his chest for the last few hours.
âThat's what happened to my father, I justââ
âIt doesn't have to happen to youâ Sunghoon interrupted him with a certain kindness, although there was none in his tone. He still looked at his best friend as he said each word with deep sincerity âYou fell in love with her and you have to go with that. Make Y/n part of your life like Sim Jaeyun andââ
âDon't even finish itâ it was his turn to interrupt him âI would never bring her to meet Jake Sim.â
âBut if you two got engaged, sooner or later she'd find out about the double life you lead, manâ Jaeyun hated how certain Sunghoon seemed about anything. He was the most rational when it came to work and personal life and always had the best advice. He was responsible for not letting any of his three best friends commit any kind of madness.
âThis can't happenâ his hands ran frantically through his hair, messing up every strand that Jaeyun managed to get his fingers through. He wanted to pull them out of his head in a moment of small sanity but came back to reality when he heard Sunghoon's voice next.
âMaybe you don't need to tell her at first, but it might make Jaeyun's life a little more enjoyableâ he said calmly, âYou really are falling for her, we can see that.â
We. Jaeyun had always been good at hiding his feelings, from the prettiest to the worst, from his friends. Or so he thought since he had to swallow so much just to make his father proud and be where he was at that moment. Bringing Sunghoon, Jongseong, and Heeseung with him was a baggage of confidence and a remnant of the normal life he had before getting involved in the family business. The only three people in his circle who knew everything, who never judged him, and were always there for Jaeyun. The best childhood friends who stuck together, and that in itself made them get to know more about each other every day.
That's why the three of you could see Jaeyun slowly falling in love with you. Although the words never left his mouth, the way he talked about you could already be deduced from afar. The sparkle in his eyes when he opened a message from you on the meeting table in the room as Jake Sim. The spark of a feeling emerged as he replied sweetly. When the boys attended a company dinner as fake investors, talking to you about the profit they could generate for your and Jaeyun's company. The reality was that they were there at Sim's request to check if anyone was a possible suspected smuggler or rival since his name had been talked about so much in the city at the famous dinner. He was afraid of someone showing up and ruining the double life he had fought so hard to hide.
It was the first and only time the three of them had met and talked to you, but it was enough to see the way Jaeyun looked at you. How he behaved next to you and the tired sighs he released throughout the night as each man approached you. Before, your name was a legend to them, Sim Jaeyun's lousy partner in the company, but when they saw you in person, it all seemed to make sense.
Now we know why Jake fell in love so easily, Heeseung almost lost his teeth when he made that comment inside the shed, after counting out three hundred and eight suitcases of cash. Payment for the container of drugs they had distributed. Jongseong was in charge of separating his best friend so that he wouldn't beat Heeseung to a pulp, while Sunghoon calmly intervened.
Everything went so slowly until he realized that he had fallen too hard for you. In the feelings he was having for you.
âWhat can I do about it now?â Jaeyun finally looked at Sunghoon, really looked at him. Looking for an answer and no longer wanting to run away from what mattered at that moment.
âHow about making amends and asking her to dinner?â he asked.
âI don't want to go out with her and be seenâ You know, I don't know who might be following meâŠâ
âCome on Jake, how many men do you have doing security for your dead father's mafia?â he glared at his friend, always teased by the way Jaeyun didn't like to say that it was all his now. It would be easier to say that it still belonged to his late father, that all those men followed the command of Mr. Sim, to whom Jaeyun gave his voice. He didn't like to be called boss, although it happened at the teasing of his friends.
âManyâ Jaeyun answered him.
âThen put them in charge of her security once a weekâ Sunghoon swiveled in his chair, his eyes never leaving Jaeyun's for a second âWe have enough men to put in one a week without her noticing, and you'll still be able to go out with her in peace.â
He seemed to ponder this for a moment. He didn't want to be awkward about mentioning to you that men were escorting you for your safety, after all, he was afraid that something would happen to you even if the two of you had no involvement whatsoever.
âThat's a very good idea, Hoon, butââ
âThere's no such thing, you know it's the only way if you want to have something with her.â
For a while longer he seemed to think about the possibility. It wasn't as if Jaeyun was hiding something terrible from you, not least because he would be looking out for your safety. He'd also be freer to go out with you again for the dinners you two shared during the weeks.
âNot to mention that if you and she start dating, the security will be doubled, don't you think?â Sunghoon stood up from his chair âEveryone will know about her if something gets serious.â
That was Jaeyun's fear, that everyone would know about you besides him and his best friends. In that world where he was Jake Sim, there was no way anything could be hidden. It wasn't like the world where Jaeyun could get away with it under an expensive suit and a lot of stock. He sighed heavily, throwing his head back without the strength to continue the conversation. Knowing how right his best friend was.
âRight, thanks for the advice, anywayâ Jaeyun asked.
âAt your serviceâ Sunghoon smiled âAre you going to stay there now? I'll check on Heeseung if Jay needs any help tooâŠâ
âI'll stay a while longer, I'll be going soonâ he said, still sitting down because his body seemed to be weighed down by the barrage of information and advice thrown at him in such a short space of time.
Sunghoon walked to the door of the room, opened it, and turned to Jaeyun with a playful, silly smile on his face.
âYes sir, bossâ giving a mock salute, he ran off before Jaeyun could gather up a load of papers to throw in his direction, but Sunghoon was quick to close the door. Not before hearing the other swear at him for his provocations.
Jaeyun got to know you little by little, his first impression being of you as a strong and fearless woman. Someone he could easily work with among the men who underestimated you and who made him feel angry. Little by little, he noticed how easy it was to live with you and how you could read between the lines when things were happening. He was surprised when he started to notice the moment you felt uncomfortable in a meeting or in the presence of a man who tried to put you down, or how he could understand how bothered and angry you were with some stupid comment or action that had gone wrong.
Over time, he realized that he knew a lot about you just by interacting with you professionally. But when he decided to take a step and invite you to dinner, under the pretext of reviewing something from work, Jaeyun knew he was ruined. He knew that the first sincere smile you gave him had ruined and torn down any barrier he had built over the years in an attempt to not bring anyone into the dark and double world of his life. Jaeyun didn't want you to be a part of that.
So trying to push you away and keep you safe was the first and only thought he had, swallowing the physical and carnal desire that consumed him for wanting to have you in his arms. He couldn't afford to make the mistake of going around glimpsing you and your beauty, enjoying life as a couple that he knew was dangerous.
Sim Jaeyun was a good man, but Sim Jake was the opposite of that. And between the two personas he found himself divided on what to do because he knew that in both his lives, he was in love with you. It was the only thing he couldn't separate.
He knew it was too late to try to make Sunghoon's advice count for anything. Arriving at the office the next day, Jaeyun knew he had screwed up when he saw the bag of ramen on his desk, the two untouched pots very well placed next to the papers he needed to fill out during the day. What surprised him was the way you treated him throughout the week.
Professionalism took over again and you were the Y/n he had met when he joined that company and took on the role of being his partner. He saw the old woman with whom he had shared the management of that building and whom he had always admired â later he had fallen in love â and now he was back to the beginning. At least you, because he felt that he was falling more and more into your charms and letting his feelings take over.
It wasn't easy that you were monosyllabic in meetings, your gaze never meeting his, and every time you both needed to talk about any decision, you said you were busy and asked Jaeyun to talk to your secretary. You were running away, he knew that. So it could only mean that, besides being upset about him leaving you that night, something told you that you also had feelings for him.
Because no one would be upset about canceling a dinner. Even with the shitty excuse he gave you, if neither of you had feelings for each other, Jaeyun wouldn't have been frustrated to get Heeseung's call that night and you wouldn't have been upset to see him leave without even eating with you and then leaving.
It was a silent competition of who was handling it the worst way possible.
But he didn't know that jealousy was being added to the mix when he saw a new investor smile at you. How bold he was to approach you after the meeting, in the coffee room, and ask if you wanted to go out for something to eat.
I've seen this happen before, idiot. Don't even try. That's what he hoped the look would convey, but Jaeyun forgot that you hadn't looked in his direction for a few days, trying to ignore him as best you could. That's why you accepted the invitation. A little hesitantly because it had never happened before, other than Jaeyun, it was the first time that any man inside that building had invited you for something other than your partner. At that moment, after so many days, you looked in his direction, afraid of what you might feel when your eyes met. But seeing the discomfort on Sim's face seemed to give you some satisfaction.
âI still have a few more things to take care of, soââ the man extended a hand to you, gently holding yours. His touch was gentle and you tried to smile a little wider, looking away from Jaeyun to the boy in front of you âDo you mind meeting at the restaurant on the corner in half an hour?â
âNo. Itâs okayâ you replied, feeling him squeeze your hand and lean in to kiss your torso, pulling away and letting go of your hand. He smiled at you once more, returning to the circle of men that was in the other corner of the room to say goodbye and do what he had to do.
You thought you should chat with your employees after a meeting, have some coffee like you always did, and then go to your office. But Jaeyunâs gaze was starting to make you feel strange. He didnât miss a single movement of yours, from the moment you moved to get a cup of coffee to when you approached your secretary to whisper to him.
âIâm going to my officeâ you said quietly, not wanting to make a fuss with anyone. âIâll be leaving for dinner soon, okay?â
âYes, maâamâ he smiled at you, looking away to Jaeyun and swallowing hard. Your secretary had always been a bit wary of the man who was staring at you, but since there had never been any disagreements, that was passed on as he showed himself to be completely professional.
Jaeyun had never felt jealous until this moment, watching you gracefully leave the room and close the door.
It was all his fault and the idiotic way he tried to push you away even though he wanted to keep you close. Now, not knowing how to act, Jaeyun had to witness that scoundrel of someone asking you out and, worst of all, you accept it.
Something settled inside him and, without measuring any effort, he walked out the door quickly to your office. His mind had never worked well under pressure, whether from anger or jealousy like it was now. Jaeyun had never been jealous, after all, he had never met anyone who aroused that kind of feeling in him. It was like an urban legend or only hearing about the romantic stories that Jongseong and Sunghoon had here and there. But he had never felt that in his life.
When he stopped in front of your office door, his heartbeat almost rose to his ears as adrenaline and anxiety ran through him. Jaeyun didn't know how he would act after finding you in your office and confronting you. He knew something would happen, you could feel the tension in the air every time the two of you were in the same room, he just didn't know how intense it was. He had a slight impression, but he couldn't decipher you from that yet.
He decided not to knock, gripping the door handle and turning around without beating around the bush, entering right away before you could say anything else.
âWhatââ you quickly turned around from the table, where you had been facing away until then, packing your things and ready to leave. Your heart almost jumped out of your mouth at the sight of Jaeyun standing in the middle of your living room. The thud of the door as it closed went unnoticed by your ears and the only sound was your own racing heart. âJaeyun?â
He approached slowly, one step at a time as he thought about what to say or how to act. You could tell how fast his chest was rising and falling due to the rapid breathing from the fright he had gotten seconds ago.
âWhat are you doing here?â you asked, trying to stay calm as he continued to approach. The steps stopped just a few inches away when he cornered you between his body and your table, making your body almost bend over if it werenât for your hands being quick enough to hold on to the edge of the table.
âYouâre not going to this dinnerâ the authority in his tone of voice made your legs tremble, but you were grateful to hold yourself firmly against the table and your hands tightened their grip on the edge. Jaeyun still had the ability and knowledge to read you so perfectly that when he saw your mouth open â probably with the intention of asking why â he was faster and leaned in to press his lips to yours.
He expected anything: a slap, a sudden pull away, a loud curse that could echo throughout the building. But the surprise came when you let go of the edge of the table to spread your hands against his chest, slowly moving up until you grabbed the collar of the shirt he was wearing, pulling him closer to you.
You were an amazing woman and he knew it, every single thing you did drove him crazy. And feeling you pulling him between your legs, giving way by opening your lips and welcoming his tongue and tangling it with yours.
Everything seemed magical to Jaeyun and you. Each touch took its time, something that had been repressed until now. He brought his hands to your hips, keeping you in place as he made a small effort to lift you up and sit you on the table.
Your pride in trying to ignore him was going down the drain more and more, as Jaeyun intensified that kiss and moaned against your lips. You should have pushed him away and gotten out of there when it was time, but now it was too late. He was tangled between your legs and his hands were doing a great job squeezing you and sliding down to your lower back to slide down to your ass. It was your turn to moan against his lips, your nails going inside the collar of his shirt and scratching his shoulder to mark something against the skin you wanted so much to know.
âJaeyunâ you whispered breathlessly and he swore that was the best sound he had ever heard in his life. Pulling his lips away from yours to get some air for his lungs, he let you ramble on as he lowered his mouth down your jaw. Feeling the taste of your skin and the texture of it between his lips, marking a path of saliva until it reached your neck.
âYes, babe?â Jaeyun had no idea how much he moved you, because if he did, he would never call you by that nickname in the form of a whisper, while still kissing your skin and sucking a good amount of it between his lips. The pop noise he left after a long suck, certainly leaving the spot marked a few minutes later.
âI needââ you wanted to say that you needed to go, that this would be a provocation on his part. But your mind wasnât working right and it didnât help that he started pressing his hips against yours. âHoly shitâ you moaned softly, the hardness of Jaeyunâs cock slowly making the right pressure against your still-clothed clit. You couldnât say how he had the exact notion of where to press and how to press.
âI already told you that you wonât, Y/nâ Jaeyun gasped against your neck, moving his kisses up and trailing the tip of his tongue across your skin until his face was level with yours again.
That sight was hell on earth for you. Jaeyun with his lips red and shiny from the kiss they had just shared, adding to the kisses and hickeys on your skin. His eyes drooping and dark with desire staring at you with a possessiveness you never thought you would know. You wanted to be able to say something, but it was impossible while you had his hands on your shoulders now.
âTell me if this is too much, okay?â What did he mean by that? What was Jaeyun thinking when he asked you that kind of thing? It was already too much to have felt his kiss in a situation like that, but you were sure that it was too much to have his fingers unbuttoning the buttons of your shirt.
Every particle of your skin is exposed for his eyes to admire even more. You were never one to wear low-cut tops at work and his sanity was grateful for that, so he didn't know what to do as each button was undone until he reached below your breasts.
âShitâ he cursed softly, praying that you wouldn't hear the hint of vulnerability in his voice as he noticed the light lace adorning your breasts. They were beautiful and he didn't want to think about anything else but touching them. But Jaeyun didn't want to rush, he needed to feel you because he had been depriving himself of it for so long and almost lost.
When the last button was undone, he bit his lower lip to keep from moaning at the sight of you naked in front of him, sitting on the table with his body between your legs. Jaeyun would be lying if he said he had never thought about being in that position with you, or any other, where only his cock inside you and your voice moaning his name would be enough for any scenario to be propitious. He felt like a pervert for it, but there was no denying the desire that radiated inside him every time you showed up.
Leaning down, Jaeyun left a kiss in the space between your neck and your collarbone, enjoying the sounds you made and smiling against your skin when he didn't hear any objections from you. This meant he could continue with the kisses until he reached the curve of your breast, tracing the outline with the tip of his tongue. He looked up, seeking eye contact with you and when he did, he knew he was where he belonged. The way you looked at him, the tense and longing expression you maintained as you held his gaze was all he needed.
âCan I continue?â he asked.
âPlease, yesâ you answered, nibbling on your lower lip at the same moment that Jaeyun's teeth slid over the lace of your bra, lowering the fabric enough to expose your chest. He was on the verge of madness to taste every part of you, but desire consumed him with every reaction you had to his touch.
The tip of Jaeyun's tongue circled your exposed nipple, making a moan run through the room as it slipped out of your throat. He felt his cock tighten even more in his pants with each sound you made. His hands â which had previously remained calm when touching you â now impatiently ran over your shoulders to remove your shirt with a quick tug, going to the middle of your back to unbutton your bra and rip it off your body as well. Turning his attention back to your breasts, he sucked your nipple with such desire while his large hand covered the other and squeezed to feel its softness.
You were on cloud nine, his every touch coated with possessiveness and desire, making your head spin as you felt Jaeyun's warm tongue against your nipple. The silent sucking compared to the sound of your moans, while your hands quickly went to his hair to pull the strands as a sign that he would never stop what he was doing.
But he also didn't intend to take his mouth off your body. If Jaeyun could talk at that moment, he would tell you how good it was feeling every part of your skin, hearing every one of your moans, and he still hadn't done half of the things he wanted to do with you.
Missing your mouth, he went up to your lips again to share another kiss, this time a little more sloppy and slobbery. Your tongues ran against each other for dominance while your mouths fit perfectly, the synchrony of the movements making you both gasp into each other's mouths.
Jaeyun's hands went to your hips again, but this time his speed and strength came to the advantage as he took off your skirt along with your panties. At another time you could notice how skilled he was and wonder â or not â why he was in such a hurry or knew how to do it so quickly. But now you just wanted to focus on the cold air of the room hitting your pussy and how Jaeyun released your lips with a lewd and wet noise.
It never crossed your mind that Sim Jaeyun, your partner, the man you had seen many times seriously across the room â regardless of the number of times you had dinner together â and for whom you were harboring feelings, would now be kneeling in front of you. He was perdition personified in that submissive and vulnerable position. His eyes were bright, like a puppy begging for a reward. And you knew that what he wanted, besides making up for lost time, was to be between your legs like that.
A mutual and wordless agreement between you and Jaeyun was drawn at that moment, with him slowly approaching your pussy and you opening your legs enough to accommodate him even more. As a test, he stretched out his tongue and licked a long strip from your entrance to your clitoris, collecting your essence and feeling your taste linger on the tip of the wet muscle that he passed through your entire intimacy.
âFuck, Jaeyunâ you tilted your head back, the deliciously warm sensation of his tongue licking your pussy was too much to handle. His hands wrapped around your thighs and held them wide open as he licked a little more, seeming to be hungry as he collected a little more of your essence.
You rested your hands in his hair, your legs feeling like jelly as Jaeyun moved a little further. He focused on sucking on your clit, circling his tongue over the sensitive bud as he looked up to try to catch some reaction from you. Your head was thrown back, but he wanted you to look at him, just once. Just once to see him eat you like a good meal.
âLook at me, Y/nâ Jaeyun asked hoarsely, pulling his lips away from your pussy to get your attention. You wanted to pull his hair and bury his face in your pussy again, the lack of contact with your clit made you whimper softly, it was a great torture. But you had to obey if you wanted to feel him again, so your head lifted, your eyes searching his to find the sinful sight.
There was no way Jaeyun could be that desirous more than anything else, it was impossible that that man could look so good in any position or situation. You almost cursed him if it weren't for how quickly he maintained eye contact as he approached your pussy again. This time he sucked you more slowly, drawing circles on your clit and maintaining eye contact, not losing a single second of his eyes on yours. He moved one of his hands away from your leg to slide between your folds, introducing his index finger into your hole.
âIâ Fuck, don't do thisâ you pressed yourself against his finger, the introduction being too much for you. He wanted to fuck you so badly now, with your moaning and your eyes nearly closing, it was torturous to keep them open as he inserted the second finger and continued to suck on your clit.
The movements were now combined quickly, making him alternate between scissoring movements and rotating his fingers inside you, at the same second he sucked your clitoris and ran the tip of his tongue over your pussy, opening your lips so he could spread his saliva along with your essence. The wet sound of his fingers going back and forth inside you, Jaeyun's prominent knuckles almost making you come undone right there. Your walls sucked him so deliciously that he wanted to feel his cock being buried inside you and how hot it would be to be inside there.
The thought alone made Jaeyun feel his underwear get wet, he knew that his pre-cum was almost overcoming the tailoring of the pants he was wearing. It was already too much to have to endure all of that without being able to feel the slightest relief in his cock. But when he decided to introduce the third finger inside your pussy, it was as if he had seen the vision of heaven. Your head fell back again, you couldn't keep your eyes on him.
âY/n, lookââ
âCome up here, please,â you begged. He gave your clit one last kiss as if to taste you one last time before moving up his body to be close to you again. His fingers continued to work your pussy harder and harder as it clenched around his sliding, wet digits.
When Jaeyun brought his face closer to yours, you didnât wait for any response other than to place your lips on his, sharing the taste of you that lingered on his lips. It was all so intense as your body shuddered and the knot in your stomach broke. You hugged Jaeyunâs body between your arms and held him by the hips between your legs, your pussy convulsing on his fingers as his mouth muffled the most obscene and loud moans you could make calling his name. Cumming on his fingers so hard that all of your liquid easily ran down the palm of his hand.
He wanted you to take the time you needed to catch your breath, the intensity of your orgasm taking over every cell in your body as he was careful enough to pull his fingers out of your pussy. You moaned and whimpered, the lack of contact making you feel empty and weak, but something sparked in you when Jaeyun pulled away enough to bring his fingers to his lips, licking the length of his cock until he reached the palm of his hand.
âI knew you tasted amazingâ he whispered, completely cleaning up what had been your orgasm liquid until there was nothing left.
You pulled him back to you, running your thumb over his chin that held more of your liquid. Jaeyun smiled slowly as he felt your soft touch, your fingers sliding down it until they reached the waistband of his pants.
âY/n, donâtââ
âShhh, itâs okayâ you kissed his jaw, your lips slowly sliding down Jaeyunâs neck to part of his exposed collarbone âIt must hurt, huh?â
âNoâ he lied, moaning the second your hands undid his belt and opened his zipper so his cock would be less tight. He wasnât good at that kind of lie per se, but he wasnât stupid enough to want to demand too much from you either, considering the intensity of your orgasm, Jaeyun was already happy to see you satisfied like that.
âWe can make this less painful for youâ your voice whispered so sensually that he almost came undone right there, his Adamâs apple bobbing up and down before he felt your mouth kiss him, right in the middle of his throat. âPut that down for meâ your request was an order that had no objection, so Jaeyun quickly pushed his pants along with his underwear, his cock jumping out and hitting against his pelvis and stomach. Your eyes quickly scanned down, seeing the size of it and sighing at the thought of it being inside you in a few seconds.
âY/nâ Jaeyun moaned, an absurd need to have any kind of touch from you against him. Then your fingers quickly went to the head of his cock, red and shiny with pre-cum, spreading all the liquid with the sole purpose of stimulating him and teasing him a little. âWhat the fuck, shitâ he cursed.
It was too much to suffer, considering that Jaeyun had been untouched for a long time, even more so after hearing your moans and seeing what your body was capable of with just a few touches from him. Impatience took over and he pulled his shirt by the collar, not bothering to undo any buttons, he just wanted to get rid of any piece that held him and feel the heat of your body against his.
âI wantââ he moaned again, pushing his hips against the palm of your hand when you held the base and went down the entire length, masturbating his veiny and thick cock between your fingers. Jaeyun wanted nothing more than to feel your touch and what you were making him feel.
âWhat do you want?â you asked, your lips still against the skin of his throat, slowly sliding down to one of his ears to whisper the words. He spread his hands on your thighs, squeezing the soft flesh and pulling your body over the table so that he was at the edge of it. Your hips and your pussy are a little more exposed to him.
âI want to be inside you, Y/n. Iâ fuckâ Jaeyun knew he was being a mess just moaning and fucking your fist as your hand tightened more and more on his cock. Spreading the pre-cum all over the length until it reached the base.
He went crazy when you leaned in enough for a ball of saliva to escape between your lips and slide down to the head of his cock, spreading some of it along the length with your â almostâperfect aim. That helped spread it even more across Jaeyunâs cock and he couldnât take it anymore, it was too much for him and the boy was afraid he would explode in his hand and cum right there. It would be shameful to do this without him being inside you, even for a few seconds.
âY/n, pleaseâŠâ it was his turn to beg now. The feared Sim Jake would never do this, would never be in this role, much less Sim Jaeyun. Both respected and feared, but now he just wanted to be yours and beg for whatever you had to offer.
Without further provocation, you knew how painful it was for him. And your pussy got wet again just from the sounds he made and the unfolding of the scene in front of you. Positioning his cock at your entrance, it was a silent invitation for him to insert himself into your hole. Your hands left there to hold him, one on each side of his neck, letting Jaeyun lead the movements.
Slowly he thrust his cock into you, the warmth of your pussy and the wetness of your juices being enough to shelter him so well and facilitate the entrance of his cock that you swore it would not be possible to fit. Soon he was all the way inside you, his breathing uneven as he finally had his cock shoved into your pussy.
âHow do you feel?â Jaeyun uttered with some difficulty, his chest rising and falling quickly as he leaned his body towards you.
âAmazingâ you tried not to moan, pulling his face close to yours so that his forehead rested on yours. âYou can move nowâ your request, again, became an order when Jaeyun finally moved his hips to remove his cock and leave only the head inside you, returning with a slow but strong movement. His pelvis touching your clit with the movement.
He could no longer hold back his good manners and the desire to go slowly, wanting to make you feel every time his cock entered and left your pussy. Jaeyun pressed his fingers into your thighs, leaving marks that could be seen later as his nails dug into your skin, gaining momentum to start the movements. The sounds of skin slapping and the wetness of both your arousals are the perfect symphony accompanied by the moans that you and he left in your living room. It was visible the way you tried to keep your body each time Jaeyun thrust his cock even deeper into you, the burning slightly appearing in your groin with each more force that he thrust inside you. Your walls fluttered around his cock and sheltered him each time he entered with even more force.
âShit, you feel so good.â Jaeyun gave a small smile when you tried to say something, only managing to moan and nod in agreement. Knowing how hard it would be for you to say anything at that moment he went faster and faster, pressing his fingers harder and harder against your body, now moving up to your hips. He felt you move your body against his, rubbing your clit against the length of his cock each time he pulled out completely before burying him deep inside you again. Jaeyunâs pelvis stimulated your sensitive bud each time he went so deep that there was no space left between your bodies, his balls slapping against your thighs and adding even more to the obscene noises in the sex between the two of you.
Jaeyunâs cock twitched as your pussy tightened, indicating that your orgasm was just around the corner. He was also about to cum, practically holding it in for so long that he feared how much would come next.
âI needââ Jaeyun whispered.
âInsideâ you cut him off, knowing he could cum just by the way his hips bucked between thrusts. Your hands slid down his neck and up to his cheeks, cupping his face and pulling him in for a kiss. Your tongues tangled, your lips quick and desperate for some pressure as he picked up the pace to drive his cock even deeper into you.
A combination of his hip thrusts and the pulls he gave your hips to meet him, he felt your pussy clench around him so hard that it was enough for Jaeyun to spill. He came, painting your walls milky white as he moaned your name relentlessly. You werenât far away and it only took a few more thrusts for you to cum on his cock. The white ring formed around his length as he continued to thrust in and out of you, not indicate that he was stopping just because cum was still gushing from the head of his sensitive cock.
With one last movement, your pussy milking every last drop, Jaeyun stopped moving. The strength draining from his body and giving way to calm, the high serotonin running through you and him after you both came together.
Jaeyun left a slow kiss on your lips, waiting a long minute until he finally pulled out of you. The sensitivity hits you both and makes you moan into each other's mouths.
âSorryâ he said as he knew you might be hypersensitive, even though he wanted to stay inside your pussy all night if he could.
âOkayâ you replied, smiling tiredly before looking to the side and searching for your clothes. He went faster before lifting his underwear and pants, leaving a hint of sadness in your body for depriving you of the sight of him practically naked in front of you. But what caught your attention was that Jaeyun picked up his shirt from the floor, stretching it towards you.
âI donât know where there are tissues, butââ he smiled a little, using the sleeve of his shirt to clean you between your legs.
âJaeyunâ you tried to stop him, but it was too late. Jaeyun cleaned you so carefully that it was practically impossible to believe, especially after what the two of you had done and the marks he had left on your body.
He helped you change, putting each piece of clothing in its proper place and still waiting for you to fix your hair, turning to him after a long time. The stain on the sleeve of his shirt, after it was put on, made your cheeks burn more than looking into his eyes and thinking about what the two of you had done.
âSoâŠâ you began, looking at him with a shy smile. Jaeyun smiled too, biting the inside of his cheek to keep it from growing even bigger as he got closer and wrapped one of his arms around your waist.
âThen Iâll take you home, and weâll have dinner properly again from now onâ as a couple, he wanted to add. But that was too much for just one night, Jaeyun wanted to tell you that as the two of you went out more often.
Explaining the fear he felt about his feelings for you was the most that could come out of Jaeyun's mouth. That made him feel good enough to not think he was lying â completely â to you. He was really afraid of what he felt, but at the same time, he was afraid of bringing you into his double world. The last part was still a secret, but at least hearing that you forgave him and that you accepted having a relationship with him was all that needed to be said.
Two months in which Jaeyun stopped being afraid to tell you what he felt for you. That the two of you, besides being business partners, had become a couple. You started to frequent his apartment and met his friends too, those who had to lie about their professions and never let it slip that they worked for Sim Jake, who you didn't even know.
Two months in which you had private security, unknown to you because Sunghoon's idea was better. At least one man every week took care of you from afar and kept Jaeyun informed in case anyone suspicious approached. No consequences were made as the relationship progressed. He was a little more relieved. Keeping it just in Jaeyun's life was what he wanted for a while, if things really progressed and became even more serious, he had to tell you about his other life. But there was no need yet.
âLoveâ your voice made him abandon the thoughts that constantly intrigued him, afraid that you would leave him at any moment for the lie he so wanted to get rid of, but couldn't. Looking in your direction, the smile came automatically when you approached him, going around the office desk to sit on his lap âIs everything okay?â
âWhy do you ask?â in the last few months Jaeyun let the thought pass that you could also read him the same way he did with you. That you knew him as well as he knew you.
âBecause Iâve been feeling quiet for a few days nowâ you wrapped one of your arms around his shoulders, at the same second he wrapped his arm around your waist âAnd because youâre twenty minutes late for dinner.â
Shit, the dinner. He had completely forgotten, staying inside the office to finish answering Jongseong and Sunghoonâs messages, trying to keep things out of danger with the new robbery that had been successfully carried out. He wanted to know if everything had gone according to the orders he had given that same morning, completely forgetting that he was supposed to meet you twenty minutes ago in the company parking lot.
âShit, love, Iâm sorryâ Jaeyun leaned in, hiding his face in the crook of your neck. His heavy breathing hit your skin and made you shiver. âI justââ
âHow about we go home, then?â you asked, one of your hands going up to his hair and trying to stroke it slowly. âYour day must have been kind of rough, those men are annoying when they want to go back on their proposals.â
Every time you deduced that Jaeyun's tiredness and fear had something to do with the office, his heart sank a little more. His breathing hitched and he wanted to scream. But he held himself back and just nodded slowly, kissing your skin and lifting his head to look at you.
âWait for me in the car? I'll fix everything here,â he asked.
âSure,â you smiled once more, that being enough to calm all the nerves that persisted in his body. You leaned in to leave a quick and simple kiss on Jaeyun's full lips. âI love you.â
âI love you, Y/n,â he whispered back, kissing you once more before letting you get off his lap to leave the room.
Saying that he loved you out loud was like freeing himself from the bonds that suffocated him, held him back, and hurt him. He had never said that out loud to anyone other than his parents and his best friends. At first, it was as scary as wanting a relationship, but as you said and showed your love, Jaeyun knew it was the right thing to do. He felt that all that love was overwhelming, that as intensely as it scared him, it was the only thing that gave him the courage to continue.
Turning off all the appliances in the room and turning off the lights, he headed to the hallways of the building, greeting the security guards and some employees who were still there. Going to meet you in the parking lot. He just wanted to go home, enjoy your company, and take a hot shower. Many notes Jaeyun could think about having sex with you and using it as a form of calming, but that night he just wanted to feel your embrace, and your smell alone being the only thing capable of making his mind unfocused from everything that worried him.
A natural calming that was always right in front of him, the person who was the perfect balance between chaos and what he needed to stay alive.
âJaeyun!â That was your voice, he could hear it from far away, but it wasn't like your call was as soft and calm as it always was. You were screaming. In desperation.
He looked around the open parking lot, trying to find you and why you seemed so desperate, but suddenly his world fell apart. Jaeyun's stomach was churning seeing your figure through the window of that van, screaming desperately and being pulled by someone hooded who wanted you to be quiet.
The car accelerated, making a complete turn in the parking lot before stopping next to Jaeyun and the passenger rolled down the window.
âWe have something that belongs to you, Jakeâ the man smiled with rotten teeth, Jaeyun ran a few steps to grab him, but the driver took off âWe want our drugs back!â he shouted before disappearing.
Your screams were the last thing he heard before the dead of night and the noise of the tires tearing through that parking lot. Jaeyun fell to his knees on the ground, the strength draining from his body. His scream echoed throughout the parking lot as he felt despair flood his body, along with the burning in his eyes and tears streaming down his cheeks.
What he feared most had happened. And he would stop at nothing to get you back.
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Pairing: Joel Miller x fem!reader
Summary: Once again you've found an excuse to invite your neighbor over, except for once you might be able to make him look past your age difference and have a little fun.
Warnings: big ass unspecified age gap, Jackson!Joel is a softie and he's nervous and he's not so very sure about this bc of how old he is + he's out of practice. smut| oral (m and f receiving) and swallowing you know what. sub!Joel vibez all around
This wasn't anything new.
The fact that he was coming over wasn't at all surprising to either of you.
You always found a way to be around him, and no matter how he ignored your every attempt at flirting- he never said no.
It had taken all of two minutes.
You'd knocked on his door, your best little skirt and tight little top on, and faked a pout as you told him:
"There's something wrong with the shower again Mr. Miller"
To his defense, Joel really tried not to stare at your ass as you walked right in front of him to guide him to your house, but that fucking skirt seemed more of a joke than anything.
You both knew there was nothing wrong with your shower, the switch that granted the hot water had just mysteriously turned itself off once again.
This had been going on for months now, since he first arrived in Jackson... since you knocked at his door that one chilly morning to introduce yourself to your new neighbor-
All it took was one look, and you were hooked.
He was gonna be yours.
"there- 's hot" he nodded, shutting the water off once he'd made sure it worked properly again, before drying his hands on his pants.
"thank you so much Joel" you smiled wider than necessary "What can I do to thank you?"
And no, you didn't even try to make your words not sound dirty, quite the opposite actually.
He cleared his throat, his eyes breaking from yours in a nervous shift.
You always did that- had this annoying effect on him.
"'s nothing darlin'" he shook his head, "didn't even take five minutes"
"Still- I feel like I owe you," you said, biting down a smirk
Shitshitshit
"How 'bout some cake?" you suggested just as he was about to have a stroke.
"sounds good"
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"'s real good darlin'"
"thank you" you smiled happily, watching him clear his plate in under a minute
Yeah... you were a great baker, what can I say
"you want another slice?"
"You spoil me sugar," he laughed, patting his belly "I can't"
"alright" You couldn't help but softly laugh as you placed his plate in the sink.
You caught him looking away just as you turned around, which made you smile to yourself, a smile that only widened when you noticed the chocolate on the corner of his mouth.
"Oh Joel"
"Mh?"
You sat beside him at the table, your legs brushing against one another as you leaned closer.
"You've got something... right here"
You swiped the chocolate off with your pointer finger, making a show of popping it into your mouth to clean it.
His eyes remained transfixed on you as your tongue licked your digit clean until you were finally done with a loud pop.
"Jesus"
"What?" you smirked, knowing exactly what  "that gave you some ideas?"
"babygirl-" he stopped you immediately, shaking his head
"Oh c'mon Joel" you pouted, your hand going to rest on his forearm "What's a girl gotta do to get you to give up?"
He blinked, looking at you intently and nervously altogether.
"Why do ya even care about an old man like me sweetie?"
You couldn't help but laugh "Have you ever looked in a mirror, Joel?"
You swore you saw pink flood his cheeks- the man was blushing.
"Plus you're kind... and funny when you want to.... and you make me feel-" you bit your lip, trying to find the right word "safe... you make me feel safe"
He scratched his beard, but you couldn't help but notice he hadn't used the arm your hand was still on.
"'m sure there's boys here that are funnier and kinder and make you feel even safer babygirl" he spoke gently "Pretty sure most of them are prayin' you give 'em a chance actually"
You hummed, raising a brow
"but what if I don't want them?"
"You want an old man instead?" he huffed out a self-deprecating laugh.
You rolled your eyes "How old even are you?"
"old enough to be your father darlin'"
God, maybe there was something wrong with you, but those words only made your need for him burn harder.
"so?"
"so I ain't even supposed to look your way babygirl- it ain't right"
"But why?" you pouted "Shouldn't I get to have a say in what's right and wrong for me?"
He sighed, not really knowing what to answer to that.
"What if I don't care?" you spoke softly, your pointer finger on his chest, circling his pec "What if I like you, Joel? what if I wanted to show you just how much right now?"
"sweetheart" he started, shaking his head
"You'd stop me?"
And there it was, the pause... your way in.
"Joel?" you called for him, your voice sickly sweet "Would you?"
He couldn't do anything but tell the truth when you were looking at him like that.
"I don't think any man in his right mind could or would ever stop you darlin'"
Satisfaction took over your whole body.
"no?" you teased, grinning like a cat "Not even if he's old enough to be my father?"
He sighed, what looked like resignation in his eyes.
"I'm just a man sweetheart"
And that- that got him the biggest smirk ever known to man.
There was no sound, it was like the word got quiet as you stood up, placed your hands on his thighs, and slowly kneeled between his legs.
He didn't know what to do, he was genuinely frozen, torn between guilt and attraction, the need to let go, to finally do this- that his brain was short-circuiting.
You took advantage of his silence, making quick work of his zipper, and pulling down his boxers just enough to free his cock...
All your speculations got proven right there- he was huge.
"oh wow," you bit down a grin as you watched your fingers struggle to wrap around his whole base.
You gave him a tentative squeeze, and the strained groan rumbling from his chest was just about the hottest thing you'd ever heard.
"y-you- f-fuck"
You stopped him before he could start protesting, your tongue sliding slowly on his tip before leaving a little kiss right on top.
"You're so big" you hummed, your tongue licking him up from base to head, feeling every vein and twitch of his member.
He was looking down at you just as you looked at him, and he seemed... mesmerized, like he couldn't believe this was really happening, that this wasn't another one of the dreams he'd get about you at night, and that it was really your lips wrapping around him.
Goddamnit
You had barely a little more than his tip in your mouth and he was already gone- and I mean gone gone.
He couldn't even remember why he'd spent so long ignoring your not-so-subtle hints-
Just a minute ago he wanted to tell you that no, you don't gotta do that, and ask you sure about this? - But now... now all he could do was throw his head back as he realized that his lack of practice these past few years had really gotten to him, and that he already had to grab at the chair beneath him with all his strength as he tried not to come embarrassingly fast.
You hummed around his cock, and he couldn't stop his hips from thrusting upwards, a small choking sound fleeing your throat.
"goddamnit, 'm sorry baby-"
But the moment he looked down at you, he saw everything but anger... you seemed happy- you were begging him to do it again with your eyes.
But he couldn't, and part of you already knew that.
He shook his head slowly, still trying to think as straight as he could given the situation, but while he was busy with that... you settled for the next best thing... you forced his manhood down your throat all on your own.
The groan he let out was damn near feral.
You couldn't actually get all of it down there, it was the biggest dick you'd ever seen in your life after all, but you swore that with a little bit of practice (that he'd hopefully grant you), you'd get there.
Still, he didn't really seem bothered or in any way disappointed by your inability.
It was an indescribable feeling seeing this tough, rugged man shiver with pleasure before you, his eyes shut and knuckles white with the effort of gripping onto something.
"I- fuck"
He didn't even know what he wanted to say, he just... it felt so fucking good
Your head was back on bobbing up and down his length, and what used to be groans had turned to moans coming out of his mouth.
"Y-you've gotta-" he swallowed, his sentence interrupted by the feeling of your fingers playing with his balls.
"Y-you've got t-" to stop
But you were choking on his girth again
"I-'m gonna-" come
You watched him struggle with his words, his breathing, and his self-control with what would have been a huge smirk on your face if your mouth hadn't been so preoccupied.
You knew he was about to come already, it really wasn't hard to understand,
You also knew that if you stopped now there was a chance you'd get to do more later- but really, this was something too perfect to leave halfway done, and besides... you feared that if you went with your initial plan of straddling his lap and riding the man to heaven, you'd leave him traumatized.
So you didn't stop, you kept massaging his balls as you worked his dick in and out your mouth, ever so often forcing him as deep as you could and choking while drool and saliva dripped down your chin.
"J-Jesus, sweetheart- I-"
All his words came out in rugged breaths, barely coherent- his eyes were back on you, shadows of lust and need darkening his iris as his right hand went to your cheek, a gesture almost too sweet considering what you were doing.
"F-fuck"
And that was it.
He groaned so loud you probably could hear him from outside the house as he reached his climax, rope after rope of his come filling your mouth and throat.
Joel Miller had come in your mouth... and it couldn't have been any more perfect.
You didn't take your eyes off him for one second. You greedily swallowed all his spent as he breathed heavily, eyes still closed.
His dick was softening in your hand as you pulled his boxers back on top of it, a little wave of disappointment washing over your gut.
It's ok, I'll see it again soon
Just as you were plotting exactly how you were gonna get in his pants in the future, his voice startled you
"I-I don't know what to say"
A soft smile pulled at your lips
"You don't have to say anything" you reassured him as you sat back on your chair, your eyes inevitably falling back to where his boxers peeked from the unfasted fly.
"now- I won't keep you hostage any longer, 'm sure you have important stuff to do back at your house"
The frowns on his forehead deepened as his eyebrows came together in confusion.
"What?"
Now you were confused.
"I'm just saying- thank you for... this" You bit down a smile "You know how long I've been wanting it- and you can bet your ass we're doing it and more, again and again, and again" his eyes widened an almost imperceptible amount and you had to stifle a laugh "but... I'm letting you free for tonight"
He took his time to say something.
Silence wrapped around you for a good minute before he was able to mumble something.
"sweetheart-" he cleared his throat to try and clear his thoughts "I-I dunno how you're used to... bein' treated, but this ain't over"
A spark of excitement ignited in your belly
He couldn't mean...
"unless you want it to be, of course"
Oh my
"I definitely don't want it to be" you hastily spoke, almost breathless "but I would like to know what you... mean"
I mean, not to be prejudiced, but you very much doubted he could get it up again so quickly given his... well, age.
He cleared his throat again and you finally realized it was just a nervous tic and he didn't actually feel the need to.
"You should be on a bed" he avoided your question
You couldn't help but smile as you got up
"Such a gentleman"
"that's the last word that comes to mind right now" was all he grumbled
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"sit"
that's all he said, and now there you were, sitting on your bed as he looked at you with a mix of lust and uncertainty.
Until he finally did it- he crouched between your legs.
He cleared his throat again, and you felt on the urge of cumbusting.
he was gonna eat you out
You'd only ever done this once, and even then you had to basically beg the guy, just for him to be god-awful at it.
Somehow you had a feeling Joel wasn't gonna be bad at all.
"You sure about this, yeah?"
You fought the urge to roll your eyes.
He could probably ask you to put it up your ass and you'd say yes.
"Yes Joel, I'm 100% positive"
He gave you a little nod, and his hands- his big, strong hands- went to your thighs.
You watched him as if he'd disappear at any moment as he slowly- oh so very slowly- took your skirt off.
He swallowed tightly as his eyes fell on your clothed cunt.
If you didn't know any better you would have guessed he was holding his breath as he got rid of your panties.
"Jesus Christ"
I shouldn't be doing this- I really shouldn't be fucking doing this.
She's not even half my age- she's a kid for god's sake- I'm fucking disgustin-
Every single thought in his mind turned to dust the moment you spread your legs- the moment your wet, drenched, pussy came fully into view.
"Y-you-"
he didn't even remember what he wanted to say- and he didn't remember when his thumb had decided to find your folds, but it had.
He heard a whimper leave your mouth and he felt his cock twitch in his pants, hardening again.
It usually took him a whole fucking hour to get hard again
He looked up at you, and you looked hotter than ever before.
Your cheeks were flushed, your bottom lip was between your teeth, and you looked so... perfect.
"I haven't done this in a- while"
As he spoke those words he hoped you'd think he only meant this... as if you'd actually care about how he hadn't gotten laid in years.
"'s ok Joel" you nodded, smiling encouragingly.
He swallowed again, his gaze slowly lowering.
He couldn't believe you were this wet for him- a pretty thing like you.
His thumb moved, gently sliding up and up and up, until he found your clit, earning another little moan.
Fuck
He circled the little bud, and your cries got a little higher and he swore- he swore going to hell was worth it, worth this.
He had to taste you- fuck, he'd been dreaming about the taste of you since he first saw you- So with all the carefulness in the word, he bent down, his lips finding your soft thighs.
He could see your belly inflate and deflate with your exited breaths as he kissed his way closer and closer to your heat, until he was right there, and he couldn't help but leave a kiss on your mound, on the hair covering it so very nicely.
"Joel-" your voice was strangled "please"
If it had been twenty years ago he would have said something cocky like "'s ok baby, it's coming", his whole demeanor would have been very different too. He used to be in charge in the bedroom, always- he used to feel smug and sure of himself, but now... now he was old and out of practice, and he was... he was nervous.
But all it took was to look up at you, at those beautiful pleading eyes, to find the courage.
You wanted this. You wanted him.
And you tasted better than he could have ever fucking imagined.
A deep, feral groan rumbled in his chest as his tongue passed between your folds, as he gathered all your slickness on his taste buds, all that sweet sweet juice that felt like fucking heaven.
Yeah, now I remember why I used to love this so much
You were moaning like a desperate little thing above him, your thighs squeezing his face as your feet clung to his torso.
And he was gripping the outside of your legs, keeping you as close to him as humanly possible, his face as deep in your core as it would go.
His nose was rubbing against your clit in a way that made you see stars, and he was still lapping, not focusing on anywhere in particular, just aimlessly and desperately feeding off of you.
"Oh my god Joel-" you gasped as two of his fingers found their way inside of you.
His movements were slow, he didn't wanna hurt you, and he wanted to find what made you feel good, which is why he kept exploring until his digits curled up into that sweet cushy part of you, and he felt you squeeze him as you threw your head back.
"f-fuck!"
Your left hand had traveled to his locks, gripping them tightly as your hips frantically moved against his face to try and seek more.
His mouth was focusing only on your clit now, thoroughly sucking on it- and just when you thought this couldn't get any better, that this was the most pleasure you'd ever experienced and there was no way he would be able to top this- another one of his big, thick fingers pushed into you.
The cry you let out was something Joel would be thinking of until he was six feet under.
Three of his fingers were so much more than what you were used to.
"J-Joel" you whimpered actual tears staining your vision as you looked down at him "Oh my fucking g-god Joel"
Your gut had been right. He was really fucking good at this
He was watching you, studying every little face you made as the squelching of his fingers moving inside of you filled the room together with your moans.
"I-I'm coming"
You could barely finish the sentence that the world went bright, and the purest pleasure you'd ever felt erupted in your body with a million different blasts.
For a whole minute, you were in another universe- and Joel eagerly enjoyed the show, not stopping his movements for even a fraction of a second.
You feared the moment you opened your eyes you'd wake up in your bed after yet another dream about this man- and yet he was still here, looking up at you with only adoration in his eyes.
He couldn't help but steal another little kiss on your core before he leaned away.
"well... wow" you smiled like an idiot, your breathing still a little labored "You know what you're doing Mr. Miller"
He didn't say anything, but you saw pink flush his cheeks again as he let your legs go, robbing you of his touch.
You would have been disappointed if it wasn't for the fact he was very clearly having trouble not having his gaze fall down to your heat.
You smiled to yourself as you accepted the skirt he quietly handed you.
Seeing you standing before him with it on when he knew you were bare and wet underneath made Joel's brain freeze for a moment, but that was of course, until you stood on your tiptoes, and placed a kiss on his cheek.
"thank you for this Joel"
Your voice was so sweet it sounded angelic to his ears- but the sweetness was replaced by something very different very quickly.
As you stood back down to your normal height, your body, being flushed against Joel's, came in contact with something that very much piqued your interest.
he was hard- very fucking hard
"no babygirl"
he was already shaking his head, crushing all your dreams
"but-"
"I can't" his tone was firm, although you could still hear restraint behind his words, like it was costing him a lot to say no.
"It feels to me like you very much can" you rebutted, smirking softly.
"I- it ain't right"
Oh my god
It took a lot not to roll your eyes "I thought we were past that whole thing" you said, cocking an eyebrow "Do I need to remind you what you were doing just a minute ago?"
"that's different"
"How?"
"it just is"
"what if I beg you Joel?" you purred, your best doe eyes looking up at him "What if I told you about how much I'd like to feel your cock inside of me? How desperate I am for it, Joel- how much I need it"
He was gonna go home and punch himself in the face for what he was about to say.
But it was true, he couldn't. It wasn't right- he needed... to think about it at least
"darlin'" he spoke softly "I can't... not right now"
there it is
The smirk that pulled at your lips was the most mischievous thing in the world.
"right now" you repeated his words, biting your lip as you played with the hem of his flannel "I can live with that- but Joel...don't even think this is over"
#anybody knows how to shut your brain up?#joel miller#joel miller smut#joel miller x reader#joel miller fluff#joel miller fanfiction#joel miller fic#joel miller fanfic#joel miller x fem!reader#joel miller x female reader#joel miller x y/n#joel miller x you#smut#pedro pascal#pedro pascal x reader#fluff#joel miller imagine#joel miller blurb#joel miller angst#fanfiction#the last of us#tlou#the last of us hbo#tlou hbo#joel miller x f!reader#sub!Joel#sub joel miller
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â- Could've fooled me
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âž INTERESTS; -timeskip/pro-hero!katsuki bakugo x f!reader
âž BACKGROUND; - Little drabble/blurb about Bakugo, and how much he claims to hate you. Considering you as someone who's nothing, but an obstacle for him, but like all obstacles you constantly get in his way, and he loves it.
âž WARNINGS; - wc.1k, mentions of hatred/dislike, indecisiveness, romantic and sexual tension, smut, p in v, oral sex f!recieving, masturbation m!engaging, kissing, orgasms (both f and m engaging), mentions of arguing, hating/disliking to liking/loving relations.
âža.i; - omg new blurb everyone wake up eek, working on 3 masterlists rn so sad eugh, but i hope u guys enjoy.
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Katsuki hates how much you tail or tag around him, no matter how many times he's told you to leave him alone you just keep coming back.
Katsuki also hates the amount of attention you attract whenever you're out, whether a small story the girls are bringing up about random people approaching you, or even if he's stuck in a situation with you himself. He knew better than to bring it up to your attention through an argument though, you can't help who you attract. He just considers you lucky that he's always there at the right times.
He despises how kind you are, it almost seems as if you do it to mock him. You're not nice, but kind, kind to random people you've met, people you've had issues with and even him. It bothers him more like anything before, maybe it's because he believes he's the only person that should be getting that attention.
He isn't fond of how much you two share in common aside from your opposite attitudes. It's almost as if you two were meant to clash with one another. Arguments would always disperse between the two of you, and honestly, it fired him up in a way even he wouldn't expect.
He hates how he's back at his place now, his sweatpants pulled down to his thighs as his wifebeater was now rolled up over his belly button. His breath hitched as he was 'relieving himself of his anger' from your argument prior. He wasn't sure if he was going crazy or was just too caught up in the moment, but when he pictured you on your knees with your mouth wide open it sent him straight to climax, huffing and grunting softly to himself.
Don't get Katsuki started on the entire phrase others repeat to him. 'Opposites attract', he finds it a bunch of bullshit, he hates how often he hears it. Even if whatever he felt for you was what everyone else thought there's no way it was reciprocated. From all of his messes he had to clean up (like last night's mess) there was no way he'd take the risk.
He hates how he wasn't able to realize it sooner, your small remarks and subtle comments were pointers. You did reciprocate whatever he was feeling towards you, and he knew that by how much you were babbling underneath him while he fucked you.
Katsuki loves how you feel around his cock, it's like you're trying to suck him in any deeper from the inside. There wasn't any deeper, his breath was ragged as you were a moaning mess by how his tip kissed your cervix with every thrust.
"Katsuki please, I- ah, I can't" you cry. Oh, he loves how much you try to fight him over it, it's practically making him harder than he was. He could tell you were close; no one just denies their pleasure if an orgasm isn't close.
He's quick to lift up one of your legs, pressing down on the back of your thigh as he pistols himself within you now, your cries getting louder as your clawing at his shoulders and back now. He hates how easily whipped you are for him, one minute you invite him into your place and the next your spread out on your couch.
He hates that you attempt to cover your mouth while he's drilling you so quickly, you're sure that the condom he has on will either snap or come off. He's quick to grab your hands and hold them over your head with his much larger one.
He doesn't like how good you feel now, because now he's getting vocal. He hates being vocal more than anything, and with the other girls he's fucked it hadn't been a problem until right now with you. The way you were biting and clawing at him made something in the pit of his stomach flutter, maybe it was something he ate.
He loves how you kiss him when you come undone, biting his lip softly as you whine and twitch through your orgasm. His thrusts becoming sloppy after your orgasm. You now applied pressure and spoke him through his own orgasm, and even clamped down on him, and it wasn't helping.
He likes the fact that he's doing this to you, that this moment is being shared between the two of you. At first when you two started you admitted out of shame this was your first time, he only looked at you in awe, to him this was an honor.
He hated how much you squirmed and moved around when he ate you out when you started. His tongue never leaving your clit as he dug his fingers deep into you, one by one. He wanted to keep you still, he didn't like how you pushed and turned, but it was all worth it when he made you cum, the first time out of many for the night.
"Ha, are you close? Your- mmm, you're going faster" you moan into him, as he buries his head within your neck and nods slightly. He isn't a man of many words, the two of you knew this already, but for you he wanted to. Maybe the thought was stupid or funny to ridicule him for, but he wishes for this moment to never end, and he hates that.
Katsuki was just on the edge, no words were shared between you two, more importantly him, as he climaxed. His grunts and breathing were as heavy as ever as he cradled into your shoulder, you only rubbed his back and moaned along with him, easing him through it. He hated how you babied him, even though you were younger than him.
Maybe he hated the fact that he secretly loved what you were doing, you weren't able to see it, but after the high faded he smiled. Katsuki smiled at the fact of how happy he was to share such a moment like this with you, but yet again it was going to take a lot to even get a confession from him.
As of now, not even Katsuki Bakugo himself could tell you whether or not he still hated you. Hating someone for who they are and hating someone for what they do are two different things, but maybe it wasn't even you. Katsuki hates how he feels for you because it drives him off in such an animalistic way, he just can't ever get enough of you.
And he loves it.
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âŽđ· please do not copy, plagiarize, edit, or translate any works submitted by me. all works are originated and all other pictures used within those works are online images. thank you!! @kryptznnn
#kryptznnn#bakugou katsuki#mha bakugou#bakugou x reader#katsuki bakugo x reader#bnha bakugo katsuki#bakugo katuski#katsuki bakugou#bakugo#katsuki x you#katsuki bakugo mha#bnha bakugou#bakugo katsuki#bakugo x reader#bakugo x you#bakugo smut#katsuki smut#drabble
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The answer to aspecs asking you to stop assuming [thing] about all aspecs is not to start assuming [opposite of thing] about all aspecs btw.
"Stop assuming all AlloAros have a lot of sex (or "are sluts")" does not mean "Start assuming no AlloAro has lots of sex" and also not "No AlloAro ever feels comfortable calling themselves a slut (or whore or w/e)" and vice-versa.
"Stop assuming all aros are loveless and non-partnering" does not mean "start assuming all aros do love ("in non-romantic ways") and are always partnering" and vice-versa.
"Stop assuming all aces are sex-repulsed" does not mean "start assuming all aces are sex-favourable", and vice-versa.
"Stop assuming all aplatonic people want to make friends" does not mean "start assuming no aplatonic people want to make friends" and vice-versa.
"Stop assuming all [aros or aces, mostly*] experience no [romantic or sexual, mostly*] attraction" does not mean "start assuming all [aros or aces] experience some form of [romantic or sexual attraction]" and vice-versa.
[Continue ad infinitum; these are just some examples and listing all things like that would be impossible.]
Just stop making assumptions about people based on one part of their identity. If they decide they want you to know, they'll tell you. If you want to know, you can ask, and maybe they'll give an answer (don't act like you're owed one, tho).
Accept that all people are different and even people under the same queer identity are going to have a vastly different experience; especially vast umbrellas like the aspec-identities. Instead of taking what one aspec person says about their identity as true for everyone under that same identity and then taking everything else as a "contradiction" to that label, or as something that needs another or a different label, simply accept that different people are going to have a different experience even if they use the same words to describe them.
It's really not that hard.
[*I think this may also apply to other aspec-identities (aplatonic, afamilial, atertriary, etc), right? I see these takes mostly inside of and directed at aro- and ace-spaces; but it also seems like it just applies across the board, non-aro and non-ace aspec-identities are just lesser known and thus not discussed as often.]
#aspec#aspec community#aromantic#aro#asexual#ace#aplatonic#apl#alloaro#aroallo#loveless#loveless aro
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listen. i'm still so convinced it's Tommy up on that crane in 807 that my brain keeps writing scenes đđđđ so have this:
"Buck, you need to-"
He can't hear Bobby's words as he races up the ladder, panic rising faster and faster in his chest.
"Hey no no no no no!" He yells, throwing himself over the side. His hands grasp tight around Tommy's. "Stop stop stop! Please!" The words are coming out of him in sobs, but large hands grip around his wrists and a moment later, the older man tilts his head up and his eyes lock with Evan's.
"Ev-..." He cuts himself off, his voice wobbly and raspy from his current predicament.
"Just stop," Evan replies, snuffling as tears run down his face. "Stop moving, stop- just stop."
"Ok," Tommy replies, his voice weary as his fingers tighten around Evan's wrists that much more. The blonde glances up toward Chimney on the opposite crane. He's still working to get the harness unstuck, but apparently only having mild success with it.
"My legs are numb," Tommy states, blinking slowly. Chim looks up at them.
"Fuck this. I'm going to cut him down. The 217 can get the line fixed," Chimney states before heading back down the ladder in quick succession. "I need bolt cutters!"
"Evan," Tommy rasps. His hands are sweaty now, hanging onto the other man's arms.
"No," Evan replies, his voice tinged with anger now. "You have to hang on."
"You have to let go," Tommy counters to him, his voice exhausted. "Evan-" His grip slips on Evan's arm, and beneath them there's scrambling to get the inflatable placed properly. He glances over at the other crane as Chimney finishes reascending it.
"I can't," Evan replies, his own voice strained as he grips onto Tommy's arm with both hands now. "Fuck, Tommy, I can't."
"Why not," he asks wearily.
"Because!" Evan yells at him. Several tears fall off his face in quick succession, one landing on Tommy's own face as it continues its descent downward.
Somehow, even from beneath him, even with most of his blood volume hanging out in the lower half of his body with no way to make it circulate properly, Tommy manages to give him that look, the one that says he's really paying attention.
"Evan." He says it like it's Evan who needs to be talked off the ledge, like he's the one hanging in the middle of the air being held up by a crane.
"You don't get to give up now," Evan growls at him. "You already did that to me once this week."
"Are we really talking about this now," Tommy asks him. His fingers slip a few millimeters, but Evan curls his hand tight under Tommy's elbow, trying to pull him up.
"Seems as good a time as any," he replies. A humorless laugh slips out of him.
"I've almost got it," Chimney calls from the other crane.
Evan gulps. "It was too much, too fast," he states. "Asking you to move in. I s-said things that made it sound like I wasn't invested-.."
"It's fine," Tommy replies, sounding mildly exasperated.
"No its not," Evan argues, squeezing tighter on Tommy's arm. "it's not. Because it made me sound like I was asking you to move in because it's the easy option, like I wanted you to stay without any consideration of what your life looks like outside of what we are. Or were."
Tommy stares up at him, still blinking slow and long. Evan pulls his arm up inches higher, trying to take more of the weight off of his lower body.
"But it's not that," he says, sniffling again. "I lept before thinking, a-and made it into a thing that it wasn't and has never been." He sniffles again. "I didn't ask you to move in because I wanted to be impulsive. I said it because I want a life with you, a-and I was afraid to own that and what that means for me." He pauses and gulps, lets out a breath. "I was so pissed at you for breaking up with me, a-and you were doing the same thing I did. You were protecting yourself." Tommy stares up at him, eyebrows quirked slightly in confusion.
"I thought if I didn't say it, it was safer, that we-..." He shakes his head at himself as he feels the tension pulling Tommy back toward Chimney starting to wane as the bolt cutters work through the metal. "But I also want the whole damn thing with you. I'm not in it because it's easy, or because you were the first man to kiss me. I'm in it because I'm in love with you."
Tommy stares up at him still, giving him that damn look again, and the slack goes looser, his weight becoming even heavier on Evan's arms.
"I love you," he repeats. "I love you so damn much."
Tommy grants him a weary smile. "I love you too, Evan."
His weight falls entirely on Evan then, and both of their arms jerk out straight, Evan leaned roughly over the crane as he tries to keep holding on.
"Evan, let go," Tommy tells him.
"Please," Evan begs him, and he's not even entirely sure what it is he's begging for. "Tommy-.."
"I love you too," he repeats. "But you have to let go."
Evan gulps, forces a breath in, forces his tunnel vision to open up, and realizes the inflatable is ready and will catch Tommy. "I'll meet you at the bottom."
"Sounds good," Tommy rasps. And then, against everything that tells him he should, Evan lets go, watching as Tommy drops the 30 feet onto the inflatable crash pad. As soon as his body hits, Evan is already double-timing his way down the ladder. He makes it down in what he's sure is record time, running past everyone else to get to Tommy's side. Hen already has him on a stretcher, attached to a dozen leads and assessing his legs.
"Risk of compartment syndrome," she states. "Likely dislocation of the left hip. He needs x-rays and we need to go."
"I'm going with," Evan announces, refusing to hear reason to any other option. His hand is tight in Tommy's as soon as he's next to him, his other hand combing down the other man's hair as he stares down into those blue eyes. They're already brighter from his circulation picking back up. "I love you. I love you, I love you, I love you."
"Good lord just kiss the man already," Gerrard calls from the back of the crowd. Evan whips his head around and Tommy leans up off he gurney, both of them giving the old grump a shocked expression.
"What?" He asks. He has that grumpy look on his face once more, like he still thinks that their lifestyle is beneath him (at the very least). "We all know it's what you're thinking. I just said it."
Evan turns back toward Tommy, and the blue eyes meet.
"My boyfriend's sister once said there better ways to get someone's attention than this," Tommy says. Evan lets out a laugh, color flushing through his cheeks at the dignification of boyfriend. He curls two fingers under Tommy's chin and kisses him, both of them ignorant of the whooping and hollering happening around them.
"Like that," he whispers when they finally part, pressing his forehead into Tommy's. Tommy has a hand fisted around Evan's shirt, keeping him close.
"Yeah, that works," he whispers back. "I love you, too, Evan. I love you, too."
#mel's musings#mini fic#bucktommy#lightning strike parallel#seriously if they don't go in this direction with this parallel#then they've DROPPED THE BALL#tevan#kinley#firepilot#firebeast
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YOU CAN'T HIDE ii
â± bountyhunter!terry x black fem reader â° â± warnings: 18+, smut, degradation kink, pregnancy scare, mention of clinic visit, slight choking, stalking aspects, slight dom!terry and more i forgot â° â± probably the last part for this, i don't know... writing smut scares me because i'm bad at it â° enjoy
A few weeks have passed of you being on the run. The media coverage of the robbery had died down; yet you were still on edge.Â
Not about the robbery but about him.
âWhen I catch you again, I wonât be as nice.â
 His words replayed over and over in your head. You felt them deep in your stomach, just like his di-
No, no, no. You will not allow a man to be the proprietor of your downfall.Â
After he left, you gathered your things and immediately headed for the nearest bus station. You brought a ticket to Arondale, another small town about four hours away. You needed to put distance between the two of you.Â
As you boarded the bus, you had an eerie feeling of being watched. You turn and see a truck. His truck.Â
Its lights cut on and it rapidly sped off in the opposite direction.Â
You let out a sigh of relief.Â
Now you could live in peaceâŠ.. or so you thought.Â
You were currently bent over the toilet of your dingy motel room. The entire contents of your stomach emptied out before you.Â
For the last 5 or so days, youâve been unable to hold down any food, certain smells cause you to gag, and youâve been over emotional about every little thing.Â
The tenant next door was not being of any help as he didnât seem to know how to lower his volume. Constantly playing loud music and talking loudly. Every time you went to complain, he would get quiet and not answer his door.Â
The one time you did see him, his back was turned to you as he got in his car. You wish you wouldâve saw his face so you could flip it off.Â
You were trying not to think the worst, brushing it off to a persistent stomach bug. But your period was late and that wasnât making anything more comforting.Â
âThereâs no fucking way!â, you whisper to yourself.Â
Thereâs no way you could possibly be pregnant by a man you donât even know. A man whose face youâve never even seen. You didnât need any of this right now.Â
Gathering yourself, you pull up to look in the mirror. Your curly hair wild, eyes shadowed with bags and your plump lips were chapped. You were a mess.Â
You needed a pregnancy test. There was a small market across the street. You gathered your jacket and headed out.Â
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The market was stocked; having every essential one might need.Â
You grabbed a buggy. You were going to get everything you needed so if you get the worst, you wouldnât have to come out for a while.Â
As you turn down one of the aisles, you bump into someone.Â
âOh, Iâm sorry, I didnât see you,â you say.Â
Looking up, you see itâs your loud next door tenant. Heâs wearing shades with the biggest shit eating grin on his face. A perfect set of 32s.Â
âThatâs no bother, just donât do it again,â he replies.Â
Already aggravated, you didnât have the energy to play into his games. You continue along the aisle, paying him no more attention.Â
Scanning the items, you finally find what youâre looking for; a clear blue pregnancy test. You grab it, biting your lower lip out of nervousness.Â
Taking a step backwards, you run into what feels like a brick wall. A pair of arms surround you, the hands covering yours over the test. They lift them so the owner can take a closer look.Â
âA pregnancy test. Who dis fa?â, the person says.Â
You push back, turning to see who it is.Â
Itâs the tenant again.Â
âDonât fucking touch me and itâs none of your fucking business.â
He laughs, taking off his shades to get a better look at you.Â
âI think itâs a lot of my business considering I could be a daddy.â Â
Fuck, those eyes.Â
It was him. The bounty hunter.Â
Terry stood before you, smiling so big that his eyes disappeared. His hair was cut low, his skin bronzed by the sun.Â
He was beautiful.Â
You were frozen, unable to properly process what was going on. You wanted to run but your body wouldnât move. You have many questions but your mouth wouldnât move.Â
âYou look surprised. Whatâs wrong?â, he says jokingly.Â
You finally get the push to speak.Â
âYouâre not the only person Iâve been with so youâre probably not the fatherâ, you lie.Â
Terry raises one of his eyebrows. âIs that so?â, he says.Â
âYes, so you can go away nowâ, you reply.Â
âNah, Iâm curious about the results. Let's get back to your roomâ, he says walking towards the registers.
Your shoulders sunk. There was no way of this.Â
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Terry watched every step of you take your test; standing in the bathroom doorway like a bouncer.Â
You avoided eye contact, feeling vulnerable about the current situation.Â
âWhat does it say?â, he asks.Â
âI donât know, the instructions say thereâs a 20 minute wait,â you reply.Â
He sighs, looking up at the ceiling in thought.Â
âWhat should we name it? Iâm thinking Junior for a boy and Jasmi for a girlâ, he says, smiling.Â
You scoff.Â
âYou have lost your black ass mind if you think Iâm having a baby with you. Plus, you donât even know if this is your baby. The only thing Iâm worried about is what clinic I need to go toâ, you say.Â
You peek at him through your lashes. He stood arms crossed, no longer smiling. You could cut the tension with a knife.Â
âIâve been watching you for weeks. There is no other manâ, he says.Â
âHow did you find me? I left Springville weeks ago, it shouldâve been impossible for you to find me here.â
Terry smiles, a laugh erupting deep from within his chest.Â
âI never stopped following you, youâre just too fucking stupid to realize it. I followed your bus all the way here. Iâve been staying next door the whole time.â, he chuckles.Â
You stood there dumbfounded. The clogs in your brain jammed and you were unable to produce a coherent thought.Â
The loud music, the loud talking, the man entering the car. All him.Â
âAre you actually insane? Do you not hear how ridiculous you sound? Whatâs not clicking?â, you say.Â
Terryâs brows furrowed in genuine confusion.Â
âWhy are you so mad? I never told you I was going to leave you alone. I said when I catch you, not if I catch. Youâre my problem until I feel youâre sorted out,â he says. âYou were warned yet you still canât hide.â
He stepped towards you. You step back and he follows you until you hit the wall. He leans down, his lips brushing your ear. You shiver at the contact.Â
âDo I scare you?â, he asks, tracing a circle on your hip.Â
Feigning dominance, you respond, âNo, Iâm not scared of you.â
You were definitely afraid of him.Â
âIâm not afraid of a bubbling moron that goes around stalking people, unable to act like an adult,â you continue.Â
You see Terryâs shoulders shake with a silent laugh. He pulls back, trailing the hand on your hip up to your neck. He wraps it around, squeezing slightly. You can feel your nipples harden through your shirt.Â
âAs long as youâre here, I wonât ever leave you alone. Deal with itâ, he says.Â
The statement causes you to look down at the floor. The thought of him bothering you forever was too much to bear.Â
Terry lifts your chin so you can meet his eyes. Youâre stuck, unable to look away; almost like you were being hypnotized.Â
He kisses you, his mouth engulfing yours. His lips were so soft, citing a moan from you. His hands slide their way to your butt. He squeezes, pulling you flesh against his body.Â
He picks you up, walking you over to the bed. He places you down, still not breaking the kiss.Â
Your tongues fight for power, neither of you wanting to fall to the other.Â
âTake these offâ, he says tugging at your pants.Â
You oblige, removing your shirt, pants and underwear. He does the same, allowing you to finally get a good look at his body.Â
He was chiseled by the gods. His shoulders were large, coupled with a six pack and a deep v-line leading down to a hung dick.Â
Terry hovers over you, settling his face in the crook of your neck to inhale your scent. His fingers begin to rub up and down your pussy, softly grazing over your clit.Â
He plunges two fingers in you. He licks from your collarbone to the shell of your ear. He gives it a kiss.Â
âStill as tight as last time. Thereâs no way somebody else been in here,â he teases in your ear.Â
âWouldâve been better than you anyways,â you reply.Â
Terry freezes. He pulls his fingers out of you, lifting his head up to stare in your eyes. The stoic expression is back.Â
Uh oh.Â
He sits back, using your hips to flip you on your stomach. His hands find your hair and he pushes your face into the mattress. He straddles you, his other hand on your back. You can feel his dick resting on your ass.Â
âIâve been being really nice. I donât appreciate all this back talk,â he says.Â
âIf you stop talking so much shit then maybe we wouldnât have that problem,â you reply.Â
Terry pushes you further into the mattress, leaning in closer to your face.Â
âApologize and mayb-â, he starts.Â
âFuck youâ, you spit, cutting him off.Â
With no warning, he slams into you, taking a pause so you can adjust around him.Â
His grip loosens from your hair, wrapping it around to cover your mouth. He lowers the rest of his body on you, trapping you between him and the mattress.Â
âYou donât know how to shut up and be a good girl. Always got that bitchy attitude. Thatâs ok, I can fix thatâ, he says with a smile.Â
He begins to thrust into you, hard. The position made it feel like he was poking your lungs.Â
âCanât nobody fuck this pussy like I can.â
He would pull up, only leaving the tip; rolling his hips, before thrusting back in. He kept moving over your spot; it felt like scratching an itch slowly.
âTalking all that big shit, say something now,â he urges, removing his hand.Â
All you could respond with was a moan. No matter how hard you tried, you couldnât form any words. He was fucking you dumb.Â
You began to pant, feeling out of breath; that familiar knot growing in your stomach.Â
Terry shifts, the change of angle reaching a new dept within you.Â
âCumming,â you say with an exasperated sigh. He continued to fuck you through it, making it feel like it was going on forever.Â
âThatâs what I thoughtâ, he says.Â
Terry flips over to his side, taking you with him. He grabs the back of your knee, pulling it up to your ear. He slides back into you, feeling even deeper than before.Â
âAh, fuck, that feels so fucking goodâ, you say.Â
âYou are mine, this pussy is mine, all MINE. You belong to me,â he growls, planting a kiss on your knee. Â
You nodded. The words sounding like music to your ears. If this was the kind of dick youâd get everyday, you thought it wouldnât be too bad. Besides, you know he wasnât going to leave you alone anytime soon. Especially if you had a baby on the way.Â
âYou will be a slut for me, whether you like it or not Â
He kept slamming into, never letting up. His free hand grabs your neck, pulling you closer to his face. You felt the warmth of his breath on your skin.Â
âIâm gonna cum againâ, you say.Â
âLet it go, wet that dick upâ, he replies.Â
With that, you let go, screaming to the heavens. Terry follows closely behind. You feel him tense up as he paints your walls white.Â
The two of you are a mess of sweat and deep breaths. Terry pulls out of you, looking down at the art he created. He gives a playful slap to your ass cheek.
âThat wasnât so bad, was it?â, he says.
You roll your eyes, getting a chuckle out of him.Â
He gets up, heading to the bathroom to check on the test.Â
âOh lookâ, he says flashing it to you, âitâs negativeâ.
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Every planet in the 12th: Observations
The 12th house shows you in which ways you can leave the biggest impact on the world in the purest most intentional way if you so choose.
*I didn't feel like proof reading spare me*
sun in the 12th often misperceived or seen as having underlining motives even when that is furthest from the truth. Actually quite often upfront with their intentions regardless if they know more than they've led you to believe. The projection others put on them is veryyy high, sun person unconsciously triggering deep seated wounds in others while they just assume theyâre having a normal conversation. They either love gossip or are always being brought up in gossip. Attracting secret admirers bc of the taboo aspect of their personality. They teach others how to be themselves through example and that gives them the popular loner vibe, everyone wants to know whats going on in their life. Though Its often not as interesting as the stories that are being created about them (probably at home chilling). Unintentionally very funny their light hearted nature makes others feel comfortable. They know how to create warm welcomes. They can read animals minds. They dress how they feel. Escape artist. Probably through music, film or imagination. Gift for photography.
moon in 12th romantic relationships have a big influence on these people. They'll change their whole life around to fit into their lovers life for better or worse. Naturally harmonious these people are seemingly unsuspecting until you piss them off then you realize they just choose to keep peace. Prone to escapism usually through some sort of creative pursuit turned business. Obviously not forward with their feelings ppl tend to label them as having their head in the clouds when in reality they have plans its just nobody else's business. There's a love/resentful relationship with the mother. The mother could've been a physical provider but not emotional. These ppl had to nurture and comfort themselves and it made them very good at being those things for others. Children and animals loveeeee them. They are givers and don't mind sharing for the greater good. Dependable and persistent they can stick out something they feel is important. But if they don't care... Oh its very obvious. That job they don't like? Oh don't even worry about it they'll quit. They don't like feeling stressed or unharmonious and don't mind removing anything thats trying to hinder that. In the lower natures this creates a person that ignores anything that would make them have to readjust their behavior. Extremely delusional and misreads the room quite often. Very emotional changing how they feel about you frequently. It can become hard to give and receive trust.
Mars in the 12th manifest things/experiences so easy especially through their connections. They know how to put themselves in the right rooms with the right people. They date people that improve their social standing and they do the same in return. When its comes to career they could've seemed like the runt in the group but they grew themselves to be well respected in their field. Often hearing ''you only got this because''. They attract a lot of haters jealous of their success or the way they got their success. these people are attractive and naturally have a body others envy, they always have options and good ones at that.
Venus in 12th boy oh boy the hopeless romantics, but whats so hopeless about it? Others may often wonder why you picked the person you did viewing you as opposites. There may be an age gap or cultural difference. The women often choose partners that have a different social standing or perception than their own. The Men do the same though their more willing to be in relationships with unrequited love. Have had their fair share of infidelity issues until they found the person that would ride or die for them and vise versa. Privacy and trust are high priority for these people. Very good at socializing they know how to read what is needed to improve the energy of a space. Their parties/hostings are always so inviting and rememberable. They work very well with children and animals. Especially those in need. Fostering is something they wouldn't mind doing, along with nursing things back to health. Examples hair, nails. Plants etc. Very crafty they'd create beautiful jewelry and clothing. Their style is unique and acquired taste even. Controlling an image or narrative comes natural these Pol could do damage control for celebrities. When Ppl are in a frantic state they know how to calm assist.
Mercury in 12th are good at controlling the narratives around themselves. People hand on to every word that's said. These are the types that prefer to talk when necessary and not give out to much information. Just enough to keep you hooked. They have a unique sound and are musically inclined it helps that they think outside of the box. Usually the leader of the group because of their ability to see the broader picture and keep everyones best interest at heart. They attract haters bc they set high goals for themselves they get viewed as outlandish or unpractical when actually they just believe in themselves and remain optimistic. They know alot about very specific niche things.
Jupiter in the 12th don't get the credit they deserve for being so iconic. They really are trendsetters that break molds and stereotypes and tend receive backlash for the things they say & do simply because they were the first to do it. Opening up the pathway for others to show up more authentically and protected. They have big expression and are passionate about the things they choose to do. Their not afraid to speak their truth and having a forgiving nature. Creative pursuits are well received by the public attracting sponsors easily. Its also easy for them to find/create a community ppl reall gravitate to them. Their kryptonite lies in their self esteem. If they can't face rejection they'll hide the best parts of themselves. Only seeing the beauty in others and not what they offer the world.
Saturn in the 12th need to know when to stop while their ahead. They get into unnecessary battles bc of a fragile or inflated ego. When the ego is healthy this makes for a very powerful person that commands rooms with ease. They make Pol want to sit up in their chair when they walk in. These Pol are stubborn but more often than not it works out in their favor. Very hard workers and the same energy they apply is expected from those around them. If they put in 80 hrs a week they expect the same from you, if I can do it why can't you mentality. They achieve alot and Ppl notice it but its like no one ever sees them working they just see the finished product and know a lot had to be done behind the scenes. For example let's say someone is very popular you know they would've had to built those relationships you just didn't see it happen. They could have a guilt complex about their achievements and feel like theirs still more they should be doing for other ppl. Growing up as the star, the golden child, the one thats going to help the family put a lot of pressure and responsibility on them. This could've also affected the relationship between the others siblings. Lastly these Ppl are either very serious about punctuality or show up whenever they want to. Maybe even both they could've started out one way and over time became another way. When saturn is damaged they run from responsibility and are viewed as childish and never learning from their lessons.
Neptune in the 12th know how to win over the audience. I chose the word audience bc they love an audience. Ppl will make excuses for their behavior like ''you know they had a rough childhood'' as if that excuses hurting others. Professional sympathy grabbers even when their not even trying and great ass kissers when they want to be. That is in neptunes lower natures ofc. These ppl speak their mind without a fuck given. This is like the only pile im cursing in and that kind of explains them. Their going to say what they want and don't mind shaking the room up. Image is important to them. They'll study their own footage to see what they looked like, sounded like, acted like, and change anything they deem as not fitting. They could be great actors or social media personalities. Also would be good at managing social media accounts. These ppl may be easily persuaded especially by those they view as having a higher social ranking than themselves. Knowing how to adapt to any environment is their strong suit. They act as a mirror in their environment and reflect back whatever energy you give them. To a T at that. They know when to play it up or be more lowkey. This is type of person to always leave lasting impressions on ppl. They could be the first in a taboo field to achieve something. Like being the first pornstar to get 100 million views. Its like when you think you have them figured out they do something else that shows there's many other sides to them. Often hearing ''i didnt think I would like you at first''. With a great sense of humor they know how to laugh at themselves and lighten the mood they don't take life to seriously. They attract a lot of unique ppl their friend group is very expansive. They could be friends with a stripper and an attorney. Hell they might've been a stripper and an attorney.
Uranus in the 12th they just pop up and ppl are surprised like ''omg what are doing here'' these ppl are held in high regard mostly bc their very selective with their energy, your viewed as a busy person so when you come around it makes ppl feel lucky. You treat others fairly and want everyone around you to feel accepted. You value keeping the peace. The fact that I'm even using you instead of they is a reflection of how inclusion is important for you. Having an eccentric vibe is more obvious here but alot of ppl go the opposite way and don't want to appear uniquely at all they actually want to be as plain Jane as possible. This can actually rub ppl the wrong way and make them feel something is being hidden from them like your pretending. Feeling criticized in childhood is why accepting others is something they prioritize. They end up in rooms with many different types of ppl. This placement has a lot of experience in a lot of different areas. With a free spirited nature they are open to trying new things pushing themselves outside of their comfort zone quite often.
Pluto in the 12th, a quiet energy standing in the back of the room scoping out the scenery. They notice more than ppl realize and are smarter than they let on. Often having their power tested bc of their calm observing demeanor. Ppl try to make them feel they don't belong in certain environments or that their not really qualified but they don't mind showing you why that perception isn't accurate. They know how to push back. The type to pretend they don't care about popularity but they work very hard at obtaining it. But maybe they don't care about the popularity just the power that it brings. Knowing the value of relationships they put alot into maintaining them. They are very giving to those around them. Self sacrificing even, its like they believe thats how you show someone you really care. These are some of the most passionate people you'll meet. They just know how to make you feel understood and seen. They make everyone feel special. This is one of the most intense placements for the 12th house. The transformations are deep, murky, confusing but it breeds and very self sufficient determined person. They question everything and are always growing and adapting. When they find something they like they become obsessive about it. They will work for extended amounts at a time. Like binging behavior. In Pluto's lower natures they develop a chip or their shoulder and use their influence to hurt others. If they are operating from that place they become very good at it. If they are never brought into awareness they continue generational curses but their children will have it worse than they did. These are the type of Pol that will tell you a traumatic experience in such a casual way and your just left like wtf you said that like it was normal. They also could've grew up experiencing their traumas being brushed off like they were normal. They were familiar with death from a young age and may have felt like they never really were a child. They build the trust of others easily and its bc their honest. It is what it is to them. They are natural born leaders it doesn't take much convincing & they don't mind leading the way as long as you give them their accolades for it. Mind you they could have a god complex but to be fair if you've experienced or achieved the things they have you might too.
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â - won the boyfriend lottery âĄ
đŻđ content : insecure fem!reader x sweet bf!ni-ki , FLUFF , skinship (hugging , kissing , hand holding etc) , cursing , petnames (nini , baby , my love etc) , reader loves the scent of vanilla , lots of lovee <33
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đŻđ note : i really reallyy think that as much as ni-ki is playful and likes to tease ,, he would definitely be the most caring, gentle, and understanding boyfriend ever :3 i hope that atleast some of you can find this fic relatable (i know i can) and i hope you enjoyy âĄâĄ
You look in the mirror, you're wearing a fitted top and flared jeans. Complimenting the outfit, you're wearing bow earrings and pretty rings, and of course some cute makeup. You're supposed to be feeling all pretty and confident, right? But actually, you're feeling the exact opposite. It's like the longer you look at yourself, the uglier you get. Fuck, why is it so hard for you to feel pretty?
Giving up, you change back into your baggy basketball shorts and xl baggy tee.
You've always preferred baggier clothes because 1. they were more comfortable and 2. people don't pay attention to your body. One could say that you were quite insecure. You've never felt gorgeous, at most you've felt okay, average, or mediocre. You've always found something wrong with your face, your uneven eyes, the one bump that won't seem to go away, or your dark circles. You wonder how those pretty girls do it. How they just walk around flawlessly, wind blowing through their hair perfectly and their skin basically glowing. Gosh, you really hated how you looked and how insecure you were. You thought you could never be loved by someone, ever.
That was until your boyfriend, ni-ki appeared in your life, and you couldn't be more grateful. It was like the universe knew when you needed him the most and boom, there he was.
Of course, you were still very insecure, it was nothing compared to how you were one year ago. Ni-ki had always made it very clear that he understood you and that you were absolutely beautiful, even if you couldn't quite see it yet. Everytime you felt insecure, he could immediately tell and instantly went to comfort you. Everytime that you felt unsure about anything, he would reassure you. He made you feel understood and seen, something you hadn't felt since...well...ever. People would always tell you, "you don't need to be insecure" or "just stop being insecure" as if it was really that easy.
Fast forward to today, it was your guy's first anniversary as a couple. You still remember the day he confessed, you also remember being so confused. How did someone as beautiful and perfect as him end up being attracted to you?
To put it simply, you were the most gorgeous human being he had ever laid his eyes on. The first time that he laid his eyes on you in senior year of highschool, he knew that you were the one. He never expected such a beautiful girl to be so insecure, but that didn't matter to him. Everyone worried about something, your worry just happened to be your appearance and overall self. He understood. He truly did.
Anyways, you and ni-ki agreed on just going out to get his favorite gongcha milk tea and come back to your place to cuddle and watch an anime. You guys didn't care if it wasn't that "special", because all you really wanted to do was be in each other's presence.
You didn't wanted to be perceived as the hot boy's ugly girlfriend. That's why you were trying to dress up like the pretty girls you've seen on social media. We already know how it went, and now you're in baggy basketball shorts and a baggy tee.
What if ni-ki doesn't like it? What if he thinks you look bad today? Should you just put more effort and atleast try to look "good"?
"y/n, baby, you're so fucking gorgeous. you don't have to dress up and put on alot of makeup for me to find you beautiful. you could be bald and i'd still find you so gorgeous. and don't worry about what other people think of you, why does it matter at the end of the day?" you remember him telling you.
Right, ni-ki loves you for who you already are, and you try to remind yourself of that everyday. Of course, it's hard- but you're trying.
Snapping you out of your thoughts, you hear a knock on your door and a voice from outside. A very familiar voice, one that you could recognize literally anywhere.
"babyyy it's meee" ni-ki says from the other side of the door, and you already know he has the cutest smile on his face right now. He might be 6ft and all, but he's your giant baby.
"coming!!" you exclaim while excitedly running to the door, trying not to slip. Let's just say you've slipped a few times before.
Opening to the door, you're met with a smiling ni-ki. And wow- he looked so good. He was wearing an oversized black hoodie with some red designs on it and some baggy jeans. On top of that, he also had some silver rings and a silver chrome hearts necklace on and honestly, you were fighting the urge to lunge at him right now. God knows how you were controlling yourself.
He quickly brings you into his embrace, engulfing you in his warmth.
"my baby, i missed youuuu" he says in a sweet tone of voice, still hugging you. He was always so sweet to you, you truly think you won the boyfriend lottery.
You look up at him with hearts in your eyes. "i missed you too ki" you respond, talking in the same sweet tone of voice.
"here, wait- we should go inside, i still need to get ready" you tell him. He nods while intertwining your guy's hands and lets you drag him inside. To be honest, he didn't think you needed to get ready. You were always gorgeous in his eyes, no matter what you were doing.
You bring him into your bedroom, and he instantly smiles at the familiar scent of vanilla. Of course, he was very well aware of your love for vanilla. The way you had 4 different type of vanilla candles on your bedside table and so many different vanilla perfumes was so endearing to him. Quietly, he sits down on the edge of your bed and watches as you go to quickly grab some clothes. He quickly notices that these clothes aren't very you.
"baby, since when did you start wearing such fitted tops? i mean, don't get me wrong- i bet you'd look so good. but i'm just wondering" he asks curiously.
"oh," you say quietly "i just wanted to look pretty for you"
Ni-ki slightly frowns at your words. He wished you knew how effortlessly beautiful you already were. He gets up from your bed and walks towards you, wrapping his large arms around your waist and resting his chin on the top of your head. He makes eye contact with you through the mirror and pulls you closer to his chest.
"my love you always look so pretty. trust me. just wear whatever you're comfortable in, okay?" he tells you in a soft voice. He kisses the top of your head and smiles at you. God, he's so good at reassuring you. You're so in love with this man.
Feeling less pressured after hearing what he said, you put down the clothes and instead, put on one of the oversized hoodies that he lent you. Your favorite one actually, it smelt just like him. After putting it on, you have a comfortable smile on your face, visibly showing that you feel much better. Ni-ki notices the instant change in your energy, and he loves seeing you like this.
"my girl, you're so cuuteee i love you so much" he says while admiring you. He turns you around so that you're facing him and he just stares at you, admiring your beauty in all is glory. Getting shy, you bring your face down and bury it in his chest.
"nini i love you too my big baby" you tell him as you finally look back up at him and go on your tippy toes to give him a peck on the lips. You loved his pretty plump lips, he was really the most beautiful man ever. He giggles and pulls you closer to kiss your forehead. He loved you so so much.
"you're so beautiful" he says as he brushes your hair away from your face, "god i could stare at you forever my pretty girl"
You could already feel how hot and red your cheeks were, you always got like this because of him. He always said such nice things to you and always showered you in compliments, what did you do to deserve such an amazing boyfriend?
"i love you" you tell him while smiling "we should go to gongcha now though, they might be closing soon"
Ni-ki completely forgot about the boba, shit. Agreeing with you, he grabs your tote bag for you and opens the door for you.
"for you m'lady" he says playfully while bowing at you. You giggle and bow back at him, matching his playful energy. He finds you so adorable, and so he ruffles your hair and closes the door behind him.
He quickly intertwines your guy's hands and sways them back and forth. He was always so happy around you, your energy and presence just made him so happy.
Once you guys got back to your place, you decided that you wanted to have a skincare night. You might not be the best at makeup, but you loved your skincare. He, of course- found you so adorable. And of course, he let you do his skincare. He'd let you do whatever you wanted, honestly.
You quickly run to your bathroom and grab your skincare, face masks, and skincare headbands. Ni-ki looks at you, slightly confused, not understanding why you had so many things in your hands. He helps put the items onto your bed and sits down, waiting for you to do his skincare. You wipe his face down with micellar water and put the face mask on him. He just stares at your beautiful face, enjoying how close you are to him. Swiftly, he wraps his arm around your waist and pulls you onto his lap.
Shit, your face was hot again. Ni-ki giggles and gives you a kiss on the cheek.
"kiiiii" you whine, "you got the face mask serum on my face"
"sorry baby, you're just too cute" he teases and gives you another kiss, but on the lips this time.
You smile fondly at him and start putting your own face mask on, asking ni-ki to help you. Of course, he helps you and notices how big his hands are compared to your face. He loves it. You were so tiny compared to him.
Once it was on, you take out your phone to take a selfie. You both loved taking pics together, so that you could look back and laugh at them. After taking the picture with him, you pull out your wired earphones and give him one of them. Another thing you guys loved to do together was listen to music. You both enjoyed music, although you didn't dance like him- you still loved it just as much.
Getting comfortable, you both get under the comforter and he wraps his arms around your waist, your back facing his chest. He rests his head in the crook of your neck and pulls you closer to him. (if that was even possible) He loves how you smell, he could really smell your vanilla shampoo and conditioner now and he almost melts. He feels so relaxed, and you do too. You could hear ni-ki's breathing because he was right next to your ear, and you loved being so close to him. By the way he was breathing, you could tell he was asleep.
Slowly, you shuffle your body around so that you're facing him now, chest to chest. You gently take off the face mask and pat the serum into his skin, making sure you doesn't wake him up. You observe his beautiful features, his pretty eyelashes, his pouty lips, and your favorite- his pretty moles. You loved his moles, especially the one on his chin. He always told you how beautiful you were, and you realized you didn't tell him enough about how absolutely handsome he was, inside and out.
You promised yourself that from now on, you would tell him at least 100 times every. single. day.
You brush your fingers through his pretty hair and lovingly trace his features with your smaller hands. Without realizing, your eyes start to get glassy. Ni-ki was so beautiful on the outside, but also so beautiful on the inside. He always made sure you were doing okay mentaly and reminded you of how beautiful of a person you were.
After staring at him for (at least) 5 whole minutes, you take off your own skincare mask and decide to just call it a night. You really didn't want to get out of this comfortable position.
Ni-ki is so special to you, and you love him so fucking much. He's had such a positive effect on your self esteem and mental health and you're forever grateful. He was your soulmate, you were very sure of that. Nobody compared to him, and nobody was ever going to compare to him.
Honestly, you won the boyfriend lottery.
this is the longest fic i've ever wrote and surprisingly, i don't feel too bad about it! pls reblog if you enjoyed <33 my other works are here :D
#enhypen#ni ki#ni ki fluff#enhypen x reader#enhypen fluff#fluff#ni ki enhypen#ni ki x reader#nishimura riki#ni ki imagines#mochiwonz#enhypen x female reader
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hiiii, i love ur writing so much, u capture the slytherin boys perfectly chefs kiss đ and i was wondering if u could do 69 or ab/thigh riding with any of the boys?? heehee đ€ if ur not comfortable with that thatâs totally ok, js wanted to ask and see
thanks!!
Hide and seek- T.R
first of all thank u smmm, annnd okay sooo how about both.. hehe >:)
you see, tom was a man who was into many things. some, usual, and some well.. deranged?
he wasnât the type to immediately get into sexual relations upon getting together, but believe me once heâs there, thereâs no going back. he watched over you constantly as if you were his prey, ready to be taken over by him, your main predator.
and when i say predator i mean it, once hes got you youâre his and thereâs no getting out, he will literally eat you out the second heâs got you. he loves playing this special little game, one where you run, hide, and he seeks. now it seems easy, the castle is huge thereâs no way he could catch you.
not to mention the fact that you two only play at night- prefect privileges.
youâre running, heart pounding against your chest at the thought that any given moment tom would snatch you up and youâd lose your game, though thatâs what you really wanted. the adrenaline starts kicking in when you hear echoed footsteps from another hall, attempting to sprint away as quietly as possible failing miserably; hearing the footsteps getting louder and closer.
no thinking necessary you ran out of the castle and it was pitch black. peeking behind as you were running you caught a glimpse of tom chasing after you- this time you did think but only for a split second before running towards the forbidden forest not looking behind at all and rushing throughout different bushes and passing creatures.
finally stopping for a second to take a rest and catch your breath you slid down a tree and sat breathing heavily. you closed your eyes for a second and as you were getting up you heard a twig break. looking behind you there stood tom smirking. you had two options in this part of the game, surrender and have some mercy, or the fun option, run more and whatever happens.. happens.
obviously choosing the fun option you immediately ran for your life in the opposite direction of him and swerved around trees trying to offset him from your trail, to no avail you heard twigs breaking behind you after youâve thought youâve gotten away.
stopping for a moment you realized there were no more breaking twigs, or any noise at all for that matter. you looked around worried, there was not even the sound of a cricket. all you could hear was your breathing, until you felt warm sporadic breathing over your left shoulder. abruptly turning around you were stopped by strong arms. âcaught you doveâ
even though you knew it was tom, even though you knew he wouldnât hurt you, your heart was practically beating through your chest. you could never imagine what he was going to do to you whenever you lost this specific game, even if youâve never actually won.
âyou know, running into the forest like that.. not very smart of you. i think someone might need a bit of a punishmentâ. his hand met your throat tightly wrapping around it, whispering a charm that brought you back to his dorm. âhow the fuckâ you breathed out suddenly dizzy. âwatch your toneâ he slapped your ass harshly pushing you on the bed.
âstrip for me dollâ, his voice was deep and seductive his words making you hypnotized doing exactly what you were told. removing your skirt slowly looking up at him with your fuck me eyes, followed by removing your shirt giving him a smile. âi have no problem ripping that shit off hurry up.â no hesitation you threw your underwear and bra across his room revealing yourself completely.
âmm you get hotter and sluttier everydayâ he breathed out walking towards you unbuttoning his shirt. though your boyfriend didnât look it, he was hiding a raging six pack underneath that white button down. absolutely toned to perfection you stared in awe, as you did everytime he took his shirt off. âcan i touchâ you looked up at him reaching for his stomach.
he smirked slapping your hand down âactually, youâre going to do something for me.â he laid on the bed and looked over at you, âyouâre going to ride my abs, just like the slut you are dollâ his smirk only growing wider at your visual embarrassment. âwhatâs wrong? i thought you loved them..â he chuckled mockingly in amusement.
your face was an indescribable color of crimson and you couldnât even look him in the eyes as you straddled yourself over his stomach and brought yourself down onto his abs. âspitâ he nodded towards your pussy not even looking back up at you, doing as you were told you spit down onto his abs lifting yourself slightly so it could roll down underneath you, lowering yourself back down.
his hands met your hips harshly and began grinding you back and forth onto his abs, to your surprise your clit was being perfectly stimulated dragging over his abs your wetness now mixing with the previous spit as low moans escape your mouth. âi knew youâd like this shit whoreâ he slapped your right breast causing a loud moan to leave your mouth âi need you tomâ you cried out desperately for his dick.
âwell dick is only for good girls who surrender for me, someone didnât surrender.â he pushed you off of his stomach and shoved you on his thigh, âget yourself off for me, and maybe, just maybe iâll let you have dickâ his eyes darkened waiting for your next move, wanting any chance to fuck him you began moving your hips chasing your high just looking at him.
you desperately moved yourself back and forth leaving a slick spot of wetness on his school pants that heâd yet to remove. your eyes trailed up and down his body- scanning his abs admiring how shiny they look covered in your arousal. balancing yourself onto him your hand landed onto his raging boner. it felt like a complete fucking rock. and you absolutely needed it. just the thought of it alone made your immediately reach your high. moaning for him as he watched you carefully.
he reached his fingers down to your pussy sliding them under and pushing them inside the pleasure making you moan even more before he abruptly removed them taking them into his mouth âso delicious doveâ he smirked. âi think overstimulation is the perfect punishment for your forbidden forest incident.â he pushed you off of him and onto the bed, getting off the bed and dragging your legs to the end. he bent down and his head dived into your pussy.
he shook his head back and fourth licking and twirling his tongue all over your clit you could feel another high coming and you didnât want him to stop no matter how much the pleasure hurt. just when you were about to cum he shoved three fingers inside of you pumping them in and out at a harsh speed. you were unable to control your own reactions drool ready to spill from your mouth as you moaned like there was no tomorrow.
you tried to keep yourself from cumming, you didnât want to give him the satisfaction of it. he sucked and twirled his tongue around your clit licking up and down all while fingering you expertly. he knew every spot that made you feel pleasure and had no problem finding new ones. everything finally took over and you couldnât hold back.
even when you screamed âiâm cumming oh fuckkkâ- he didnât stop. tom curled his fingers up and began curling and un curling them all while pumping in and out of you, his long slender fingers hitting your g-spot perfectly. he suddenly stopped. removing all fingers and his face from your pussy. without any words he got back on the bed and smirked. âever done six nine before, loveâ he winked dragging your ass to his face and immediately going back to eating your pussy.
through your moans and undeniable pleasure you tried your best to remove his throbbing boner from his pants, most of it springing out of his boxers you took what you could in your mouth and began bobbing your head. âfuckkâ he took a break from your pussy leaning back and groaning lowly. you swirled your tongue around his tip multiple times before taking all of it and leaving it there for a second.
you were about to keep going when his mouth began to suck harshly on your swollen clit. your moan barley escaping over his dick in your mouth the vibration itself gave him pleasure, he continued abusing your clit, slapping your ass over and over before you bobbed your head more. you were a moaning mess gobbing on tomâs cock, spit was all over yours and tomâs body.
managing to get one arm to his dick you pumped the base of his shaft and sucked only the tip, attempting to give him a taste of his own medicine. you knew he wouldnât last long if you did this. just then he began thrusting himself up into your throat fucking your face all while eating you out. at this point it wasnât only a game of pleasure and overstimulation, but it was a game of you trying to breathe while he attempts to catch his own high.
his thrusts were harsh and your throat would surely be bruised by tomorrow but oh my god did it make you want to cum. and so you did, you came hard, loud, and well, you squirted all over his face. the noise that left your mouth was almost demonic-yet heavenly to him as the pleasure truly became too much. and with that you felt tomâs cum shooting down your throat making you gag at the harsh impact of his thick cum.
âgood fucking girl.. fuck y/nâ he sighed heavily pulling you off of him and bringing you on top of him, âi love this gameâ you sighed catching your breath.
this was so fun to write tbh not having to come up with my own ideas is great LMAO
#slytherin boys#harry potter#harry potter fanfiction#harry potter smut#harrypotterboys#harry potter reader insert#fanfic#draco malfoy#tom riddle#smut#slytherin boys x reader#tom riddle x you#tom riddle x y/n#professor tom riddle#tom riddle imagine#tom riddle x reader#tom riddle smut#tom marvolo riddle#slytherin boys x you#slytherin boys react#slytherin boys smut#draco malfoy x you#theo nott x y/n#theo nott x you#theodore nott smut#lorenzo berkshire smut#mattheo riddle smut#theo nott smut#mattheo smut#draco smut
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I was going to send an ask about Millenium Actress but maybe I should just reblog and add thoughts here b/c I'm not really sure it's a question
That movie is, like, thematically *all about* running. Or at least Pursuit. But That Woman Sure Can Run.
Here is the big scene near the climax of the movie IIRC, but there's others (actually this one might be a supercut/reinterpretation of the others, probably, that seems like what Satoshi Kon would do) [note: big spoilers for the movie]
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âand also this scene turns up on youtube search, I think b/c it uses the song titled "Run" on the soundtrack? Even though she is sitting in vehicles, not literally running here.
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[there's more in the Every Frame A Painting video about Satoshi Kon, which is really excellent]
anyways I remembered these scenes (mostly the first, longer one) for the fancy Kon editing tricks, super-imposing different parts of Chiyoko's life and different movies she acted in to express a thematic climax. But now I'm wondering about the animation of the running itself.... anyways I remembered these scenes (mostly the first, longer one) for the fancy Kon editing tricks, super-imposing different parts of Chiyoko's life and different movies she acted in to express a thematic climax. But now I'm wondering about the animation of the running itself....
The thing I noticed right now is -- isn't she running the wrong direction?? Like, correct me if I'm wrong b/c I'm rusty on this, but isn't the usual anime film language that running *right to left* is for advancement/positive/protagonist action, and the opposite direction is for villains/reversals/obstacles? If i'm reading it right, that is a *really* interesting thing to consider when interpreting the point of this movie (which I should probably try to writeup my thoughts on but I'm too tired right now. I will say i've heard completely opposite takes on it.)
I always find the 'semiotics' or symbolic language of media interesting from an evolutionary perspective. Recently online there was a bit of a discussion about run cycles in animation; a guide to running written by Hayao Miyazaki from back in 1980 for which we had the text due to its inclusion in collected-writings book Starting Point has been missing its original accompanying visuals for all this time. Someone (Rebekah Machemer) found and scanned those drawings so now we have the complete work:
Very cool stuff, and really great to recover any lost production media like this. In the essay itself Miyazaki gets a bit philosophical - why care about running animation at all?
Above all what is most important is what one wants to express through the act of runningâŠMen of strong resolve, who are wearing heavy armor and carrying swords, should run in a way that weak extras cannot. The running of surging masses on fire with anger, the running of a child doing his best to hold back tears until he reaches his house, the running of a heroine who has forsaken everything but the desire to fleeâbeing able to show wonderful ways of running, running that expresses the very act of living, the pulse of life, across the screen would give me enormous delight. I dream of someday coming across a work that requires that kind of running.
On the one hand this all resonates; make the character visual, express their identity through motion, etc. On the other hand...girl who runs like this? I don't run, like, at all! It's not a common occurence in my everyday life to see a single person running, and if I do it is 99% of the time someone working out. I am pretty sure when I do run its way less an expression of my Forsaken Herione vibes and instead an expression of my 12-hours-a-day-on-a-computer workout routine.
-How you think you look running
-How you actually look running
What I am not saying here is that Miyazaki is wrong or anything to care about running. Instead I am saying that when he discusses how beautiful the act-of-running is, that is only partially coming from observing reality; it primarily comes from animation as a medium. Animation's value-add is the art-in-motion, you want the screen to be expressing itself to the audience through movement. You as an audience member want to see the animator themselves express their own aesthetic to you through that movement. There are a million ways to make that happen but running is one of the strongest; its character focused, universally applicable, common *enough* that you know what it looks like, you can make it diegetic to a climax if the plot demands it, etc. It makes sense for animation to utilize it, and it does - more than just animation, film all over does! It's a universally common symbol in the language of film with decades of meaning built into it.
But that meaning does not first come from real life, it comes from those demands of film-as-a-medium. In all likelihood no one has ever emoted a climactic meaning to you while running, or after running, you don't have a frame of reference for that. When you, as a viewer, are emotionally moved by the act of running, you feel that because film as a medium taught you to feel that. Compare it to how animation/film often focuses on the eyes and mouth for expressing emotion - that is not an invention of film, that is how real human beings communicate, when talking to a person you focus primarily on their eyes and mouth. The semiotics of film's language around eyes is built primarily from real life, which is much less true for running.
What is cool is how much of a semiotics of running animation has been built up given its origin within the demands of the medium. Miyazaki had a hot take and a desire to see artists push the craft as early as 1980; since then I can think of hundreds of running cycles artists have put their own touch on. I think of these as real Artist moments - it is something that the craft leads you to that you become obsessed with perfecting, existing for its own sake, something that interplays between observation and pure creativity. I can see these scenes now outside their own story, as the use and evolution of language. Which is neat!
#millenium actress#i actually thought I *did* understand that movie when i watched it#or at least had a strong idea for one solid interpretation#but that was like a year ago and i've since watched youtube videos about it and made myself much more confused#no one else seems to think it has a twist ending??#anyways thoughts and corrections welcome#maybe i'll rewatch this movie and try to rewrite this more coherently at some point#anime#long post#Youtube
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what you know - ch1: fallen angel || r. sukuna
⊠ryomen sukuna x f!reader [college au] [ongoing series]
â you've heard his reputation and you've seen first-hand the way he's late to class if he even bothers to show up. paired with him for the most important project of the year, you choose to give him the benefit of the doubt- but maybe that's more than he deserves when your perfect grades depend on him, or maybe there's more to the aloof and irritable sukuna than meets the eye. â
⊠cw ; mdni, 18+ only. contains explicit sexual themes and content. use of alcohol. use of cannabis. use of nicotine/cigarettes. angst. hurt/no comfort. hurt/comfort. implied injury. family trauma. smut. slow burn. tags will be updated as series continues.
⊠additional tags ; college parties and themes. sukuna ooc warning as this is a realistic take on modern sukuna. reader is fairly preppy and implied to be smaller than sukuna, but he's 6"11.
⊠words ; 12.1k.
main masterlist || series masterlist || next chapter - coming soon
You make a point of not judging a book by its cover. So, when paired with the collegeâs resident bad boy for the literal most important project of the year, you just nod to yourself. Of course, youâre aware of his very poor attendance record among other things youâve heard about him. At the end of the day, the rest is all hearsay, so youâll treat him the same as you would any other group project partner.
Searching around the lecture hall until your gaze lands on him, you shoot him a kind smile. You donât expect him to return it, he practically always sports a disinterested or aloof expression and now is one of those times, it would seem. Heâs wearing his usual oversized but fairly stylish shirt, baggy cargo pants and a leather jacket, even though itâs quite warm inside. One airpod sits in his ear, only half paying attention.
The two of you are practically polar opposites. You, who shows up to class ten minutes early, jots down every note you possibly can, and turns in projects a week early, not to mention your fairly preppy style, makes the two of you about as different as it gets. On top of that, there were moments where Sukuna would dip into a room late and you would wonder why he bothers paying for college at all. Does he even want to be here?
Turning back to your laptop, you decide youâll set up some documents for your project to get ahead of everything and stop worrying about someone elseâs life. Youâll just have to make the most of the project. Besides, Sukuna could be the best project partner youâll ever work with.
Upon dismissal, you wait a moment for the room to clear before slinging your pale pink bag over your shoulder, holding your books to your chest and making your way up the lecture hall to where Sukunaâs seated.
âHey, nice to meet you, Iâm-â
âI know who you are,â he sighs. âIâm Sukuna.â
Rude. âRight,â you swallow, blinking twice as you attempt to clear your mind of the less than ideal first impression. âSo, I was thinking since we need to analyze three paintings, I can choose one, you can choose one and we can do the work separately and then work together on the last one-â
âSure, whatever.â
You purse your lips. That was easy. Or does he just not care? Brushing off the thought, you nod slowly. âOkay. Great,â you mumble somewhat nervously, unsure if the reason your voice is wavering is out of fear that youâre doomed from the project, or the fact that Sukuna is hardly giving you the time of day and itâs somewhat imposing.
Finding the nerve to meet his gaze, you find that it seems heâs barely paying attention. His deep near-crimson eyes accented by tattoos are trained off to the side, one hand in his pocket and the other is fiddling with an unlit cigarette. You have half a mind to wonder if heâs heard a damn thing youâve said given the airpod still hanging from his pierced lobe.
âDo you, um,â you worry your lip between your teeth as you mentally reset to stop yourself from stammering. âDo you want to go over anything before we do our parts?â
âNah.â
Nah? Oh my god, youâre doomed.Â
âOkay. No problem. Um, why donât we just meet after class next Friday?â
Sukuna balances the unlit cigarette between his lips, shuffling to pull out his phone and open his calendar. âSure,â he agrees, his words muffled by the cigarette.
âGreat! I think weâll want to start working on the third piece next week so Iâll choose the first painting and get started on it and then we can choose the last painting next week,â you say, putting the date in your calendar as well. âOh! And we should exchange numbers.â
He hums in agreement, not even giving you the time for words now but he does give you his number. Realizing you arenât about to get anywhere else with him, you shoot him a wry smile and make your way out the door.
Oh Shoko is so gonna hear about this.
â
Before you know it, next Friday comes around and when you turn your gaze to where Sukuna usually sits, you realize he just isnât there.
Well thatâs⊠lovely.
Leaning forward on your elbows, you groan with your face in your hands. This project was sure to be a nightmare at this rate. You could already see yourself going to talk to the professor about how Sukuna hadnât done an ounce of work and it was all done by you.
Opening your laptop, you stare at the document youâd put together for Persistence of Memory, which may be an obvious choice but you love the painting too much to choose a different one.
Maybe you should just choose the third one on your own.
Maybe you should just choose the second one on your ownâŠ
Fuck.
You sigh, glancing back at Sukunaâs empty seat once more, and to your surprise just as you begin to give up hope upon seeing his seat empty, he ambles through the door in an oversized hoodie and sweats as though the lecture didnât end fifteen minutes ago.
His gaze meets yours and he tilts his chin upwards at you, a silent message for you to take a seat near him.
Gathering your belongings, you take your laptop over to him, setting it on the table beside him in the mostly-empty lecture hall.
âHey,â you greet him, receiving a grunt in response. âI was starting to think you were gonna flake out on me,â you joke with a somewhat nervous laugh when you meet his striking gaze. His disinterested eyes bore into you as he examines your nervous expression, and itâs then that you notice that- âare you okay?â
He sighs, heavy with exasperation, running a hand over his sharp features. His hair is still damp, not spiked up as usual as it hangs over his forehead, he has dark circles that make him look like he hasnât slept in years, and his leg is shaking up and down like heâs got somewhere else to be.
âIâm fine,â he grumbles, unimpressed that youâve noticed how horribly disheveled he looks, but he brushes it off. âYou got somethinâ to show me?â
âI, um-â you pause, casting him one last uncertain glance at the fact that oh my god, he looks sick? âYeah, so I chose a Salvador DalĂŹ piece,â you tell him, nudging your laptop towards him so that he can see your analysis.
He casts a glance at it, and itâs then that you realize that he doesnât seem to have a laptop on him. Hm.
He seems to have noticed your confusion as he pulls out his phone, fiddling with it for a moment or two before setting it in front of you. âHad to do something before our meeting, so I donât have my computer right now, but hereâs what Iâve got so far.â
You flash him a curious glance before staring at his phone screen, reading through his notes quietly. The Fallen Angel painted by Alexandre Cabanel. You canât say youâre shocked, but itâs a good choice. His analysis is short and needs more detail, but itâs a good start and fairly insightful. Sukuna lacks elegance with his words, but this is just the research phase anyway. Okay, not a bad start.
Maybe this wonât be so bad.
To your surprise, although heâs mostly quiet, he gives you some input on your analysis and hums in agreement when you ask him to write a bit more in certain areas to match your research. He doesnât even seem that bothered by it, only mildly inconvenienced. You would almost argue that he was agreeable if you couldnât feel the side-eye you were receiving from him.
When you finally settle on C. Allan Gilbertâs All is Vanity for your final piece, Sukuna excuses himself quite quickly and makes his way out, grunting in agreement when you ask him to meet you at the same time next week. You had hoped to get some research done with him but this would have to do, and hopefully you would have more time next week.
Only⊠when next week comes, he doesnât show. You lean over the desk where Sukuna usually sits, figuring maybe heâs just late again, but as the clock rolls past the thirty minute mark, you begin to lose hope. Tapping your fingers rhythmically over the desk as you stare at the clock, you resign to texting him.
3:39 PM || You: hey! just wondering if youre on your way
Another twenty minutes of staring at the sent text does you no good and you canât really get much done without Sukunaâs portion, so with a sigh, you push yourself up and call Shoko to go out with you. At least now you can make the most of your Friday night, even if itâs a bit earlier than intended.
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âHe just completely no-showed, huh?â
âNot even a text,â you confirm with a groan, keeping your attention on the road as you make your way to the bar by Shokoâs house. The afternoon sun glints on the windshield of your car, warming the interior of the vehicle rather comfortably for the early autumn day.
âCanât say Iâm surprised,â Shoko hums at the thought.
âI really wanted to give him the benefit of the doubt, I mean honestly his research wasnât too bad,â you sigh, casting a glance at your best friend.
âCould still be salvageable. Maybe try asking him what works for him?â She suggests with a shrug, leaning back in her seat as she stares blankly out the windshield.
âI donât know. I think if I leave things up to him, he just wonât do it.â
âOh, because heâs been so good at showing up when you organize things?â She chides with a raised brow.
You suppose you canât really argue with that, so you groan in response. âAt least he has a good taste in art.â
âYeah?â
âA little edgy, but yeah. He chose The Fallen Angel, you know the one that-â you pause, moving your arm over your face to mimic the famous painting while keeping your eyes on the road and one hand on the wheel.
âOh yeah, I think I know the one,â she agrees with a chuckle at your description. âI think Iâve seen-â she pauses as your car comes to a slow halt at a stop light. You shoot her a questioning glance when she remains quiet. âSpeak of the devil. Isnât that him?â
âSukuna?â You question, leaning forward to catch a glimpse of whatever Shokoâs looking at.
Sure enough, the pink-haired man in question is on the sidewalk along with two young kids. He seems frustrated, his hand flying in the air in obvious exasperation and you wonder what his relation to them is. Your first thought is that they could be his, but the older of the two kids is just a bit too old to make that assumption.
Still, you didnât take Sukuna as someone enthusiastic at the thought of being a babysitter.
âShit, that is him,â Shoko confirms for herself. When the light turns green, the car jolts forward as you pull through a lane abruptly to turn and grab street parking very suddenly. âWoah, what are you-? You canât be serious.â
âI-â your words die in your throat. Are you serious? What are you doing? Itâs not like youâre friends. Are you here to confront him about not showing up? No, you arenât really even mad, just frustrated at most. Your mind flashes back to how heâd looked the week before, like he could pass out at any moment, and you wonder if youâre here out of concern. âI donât know,â you mumble, parking your car and hopping out.
âYou are serious,â she mutters more to herself than you as she watches you leave the car with a sigh, following a short distance behind you.
The day is relatively warm for the early fall, the sun shining high overhead and providing a comfortable escape from the brisk breeze. Leaves are losing their vibrant green colors overhead, replaced with beautiful hues of yellows, oranges, and reds, and the sound of them rustling in the breeze is refreshing.
From around the corner, you can just barely make out Sukunaâs words. You were right to assume he was frustrated.
âGive it back to your brother,â he instructs, his voice a near-growl, but as the younger of the two kids whines in complaint, you can tell neither kid seems all that intimidated even by the almost seven-foot-tall man made of pure muscle who towers over them.
âNo!â
âCâmon brat, I donât have time for this,â he hisses out, voice rife with irritation. As you round the corner, lightly jogging up to Sukuna, you watch his gaze slowly turn to land on you and Shoko, his eyes widening for a moment as his expression shifts to surprise. For a moment you even think you see horror flash through his eyes, but he masks it all with his usual disinterested expression before you have time to think much about it.
âSukuna?â
âThatâs me,â he grumbles, running a hand through his tousled hair in exasperation.
âHi! Iâm Yuji!â The younger of the two boys bounds up to you, blatantly ignoring Sukuna as he waves to Shoko behind you.
You grin at him, kneeling down to his height as you greet him with your name. His eyes are filled with delight and as you get back to your feet, you put the pieces together. These must be Sukunaâs little brothers. Although the older of the two doesnât particularly look like him, the youngest is a near carbon copy of Sukuna, only lacking his tattoos, piercings, and his signature attitude.
âWhat a cutie,â you coo at the little boy, who canât be any older than five. The older of the two boys doesnât resemble Sukuna in the same way Yuji does, with sunken eyes and unkempt long brown hair, he looks to be about eleven⊠and he also looks like heâs about to burst into tears.
âDonât feed his ego,â Sukuna huffs, watching you interact with Yuji with his hands shoved in his pockets.
âLook! Look!â Yuji excitedly holds his hands out to you. You recognize an old GameBoy in his hands, something youâre sure you have hidden away somewhere in your own apartment from your childhood.
âI had one of those when I was young,â you tell him, glancing up at Sukuna whose left brow slowly raises.
âReally? Do you like Pokemon?â
âYuji, thatâs enough. Leave her alone and give it back to your brother,â Sukuna instructs, his frustration laced within his words.
âNo! Chosoâs playing it wrong,â he argues.
Sukuna looks like heâs about to burst. If he were a balloon, heâd be floating dangerously close to a pin, and itâs in that moment that you finally get a good look at him. If you thought he looked sickly last week, he looks like heâs about to collapse now.
His eyes are sunken, skin pale, and although heâs making an effort to mask it, his focus seems as though itâs drifting while he simply stands there. His hair is disheveled in a way that doesnât look intentional and thereâs a stain on the abdomen of his shirt. Which, to your surprise, is also a uniform for a local food distribution warehouse. Heâs wearing cargo pants, steel-toed boots, and a blue polo shirt. Itâs a strange look for him, but youâre more concerned about the fact that he seems to be swaying, heâs so tired.
âI wasnât playing it wrong!â Choso argues back, leaping at his brother as they get into a scuffle, and itâs barely a split second before Yuji is in tears alongside Choso.
âFucking-â Sukuna cuts himself off, taking a step forward.
Instinctively, you step in before Sukuna needs to. âHey, hey!â You coo softly, leaning back down to them. âWhy donât you both play together?â Yujiâs sobs donât stop at your suggestion, although Choso backs away from the younger boy, listening to what you have to say with a heartbreakingly sad expression over something so simple. Life was so much easier at their age.
âHow?â Yuji asks through sobs.
âWhy donât you take turns? Itâs Pokemon, right?â You ask, earning a nod from Yuji as he sniffles and wipes his face, his sleeve absolutely covered in tears and snot already. âWhy donât you pass it over between each battle?â
Yuji stares at you skeptically, as though the little boy cannot possibly fathom sharing. Choso quietly waits for his brother to come to a conclusion as his sniffles subside, all the while Sukuna just watches the entire scene unfold with a furrowed brow.
âOkay,â Yuji finally agrees in a small voice. âBut I go first!â
To your surprise, Choso seems fine with this as they both crowd around the game.
When you stand back up, youâre happy to find that Sukuna looks absolutely relieved.
âFuck, thought Iâd never hear the end of that,â he mumbles, making you wonder if thatâs his begrudging way of thanking you.
You chuckle quietly, crossing your arms over your chest with a small shrug. âIâm good with kids,â you tell him. He eyes you for a moment, humming, but doesnât say anything. After a brief silence, you glance back up at him to find the tall manâs tired gaze still boring into you.
âAsk,â he instructs.
Your brow raises. âAsk?â
âYou wanna ask where I was today, right?â
That obvious, huh? âI did wait for an hour.â
A hint of a smirk graces his lips as he snidely comments, âyâknow, Iâm sure Iâve had other women wait longer.â You arenât sure how he expects you to react, but the way you raise a brow and donât entertain his lewd implications clearly doesnât encourage him to continue. His tongue pokes the inside of his cheek as he clicks his tongue and turns his head away from you. âHad to pick up a shift at work. Was gonna text but the little brat broke my phone yesterday.â
âSorry, Kuna,â Yujiâs voice is small as you realize heâs been listening the whole time now that Choso is holding the GameBoy. His cheeks are puffy and red still from crying, but god he sure is a mini Sukuna.
âKunaaaa?â You coo teasingly at the absolutely adorable nickname.
âHe canât say my name,â Sukuna grumbles, suppressing his irritation as best as he can, given that you did save him from further arguments with his brothers and he did already test his limits with you anyway. Still, his nose wrinkles in distaste at the nickname as he stares at the ground with a huff.
âThatâs so cute!â You practically squeal, eyes bright as you grin at the hulking mass of anger and maybe even embarrassment as his cheeks heat up before your eyes.
âShut up,â he hisses, still avoiding your gaze.
âItâs alright, by the way. We can figure out another time to meet.â
âYeah, whatever. Iâll text-â he cuts himself off, blinking at the realization that he has no phone. âIâll email you or some shit.â
âEmail. Right,â you sarcastically tease with a tilt of your head. A muscle in Sukunaâs jaw visibly twitches and he huffs.
âTake it or leave it.â
You raise your hands in the air defensively, unable to help your amused smile. As silence falls over the both of you, interrupted only by Chosoâs quiet commentary to Yuji about their game, you let your expression morph to one of concern again. Your lips part to ask if Sukunaâs alright, but he beats you to it.
âIâm fine.â His voice is low and strained and you both know you donât believe him.
âYou look it,â you challenge him sarcastically.
Sukunaâs jaw tenses as he stares you down as if daring you to challenge him again. Luckily for him, youâre willing to let it go.
âDo you guys need a ride somewhere?â You ask, glancing back in the direction of your car. Shoko is probably itching to get to the bar, though surely she wonât mind your offer given that the man in front of you looks like he could melt into a puddle if it only meant he could sleep.
âNo.â
âYeah!â
Sukuna and Yuji stare at one another as they both respond at the same time.
âNo. Weâre fine,â Sukuna growls, narrowing his eyes at the young boy.
âI donât wanna walk anymooooore,â Yuji complains, shooting Choso a pleading look. Catching on, Choso shoots Sukuna a pair of puppy dog eyes. God the two of them are just adorable.
âNo, both of you. Cut it out. Now.â Sukunaâs voice drops an octave as he hisses the last word.
âI really donât mind,â you say quietly, leaning closer to him in an attempt to keep your words between the two of you.
âI donât need your help,â Sukuna protests, taking a step towards you with massive muscular arms folding over his chest as his polo shirt is pulled taut from the movement.
âSo if I give you a little push, you wonât fall over and pass out?â
âNo.â He scowls defensively as he stares back at his two brothers, not noticing the way you slowly reach your hand out before shoving him lightly. He sways backwards slightly, catching himself before he actually does fall over as he swats at your hand. âFucking- What the fuck is wrong with you?â He grouses, voice dripping with irritation and anger, although it doesnât reach his eyes. He just looks tired.
âLet me drive you where you need to go and Iâll stop,â you taunt, moving your hand forward to shove him again.
Now paying attention, he grabs your wrist before you can push him. âChrist, youâre almost as much of a brat as my brothers,â he huffs, fiery eyes hyper-focused on your cheerful demeanor in spite of the fact that heâs been nothing short of snappy with you since you first showed up. âYouâll stop because I said so, not because Iâm agreeing, got that?â
You shrug, shooting him a smile that says you won. âWhatever you say, Sukuna.â
He drops your wrist with a dramatic sigh before ushering his brothers after you as you turn to make your way back to your car.
âCanât say I know what just happened,â Shoko whispers in your ear as she walks alongside you to your car. âBut Iâm surprised he agreed.â
âIâm not. Heâs barely awake,â you tell her as you both cast a glance back at him. He doesnât seem to notice as he bickers with his brothers, telling them to keep up if they want a ride from you.
âYeah, he looks like shit,â she chuckles with a shake of her head. Never one to beat around the bush, but she is right.
Unlocking your car, you open the back door as Sukuna lifts his youngest brother into the backseat, grumbling about the two boys needing to behave before he climbs in himself, completely blocking your view through your rearview mirror.
He huffs and puffs as he gives you his address, choosing not to say a word throughout the ride as he listens to you chat with Shoko, muttering only the occasional âcut it outâ or âstop that, bratâ to one of his brothers.
Rolling up to what you assume is his apartment, you put the car in park and turn your attention back to the boys, putting on your best radio voice.
âThank you for riding, please exit to your left and have a greeeeeat day!â You earn a sweet laugh from Yuji and a calm smile from Choso for your antics. You can practically feel Sukunaâs exasperation as it comes off of him in waves, clearly done with the world for the day, but you donât miss the silent relief gleaming in his eyes.
âWhat do you say?â Sukuna gruffs, nudging the youngest of his brothers who youâre obviously putting on the show for.
âThank you, miss!â He grins brightly as Sukuna opens the door and lowers him to the ground. He hands Choso a pair of keys, nudging them along to the door of the run-down building. To your surprise, he shuts the door and comes around to your side, knocking on the window.
You tilt your head as you roll down the window.
âThanksâŠâ he trails off as though the word is sour on his tongue, shooting a glance at Shoko in a silent gesture of thank you to her as well.
âNo problem. Go get some sleep,â you tell him softly. Frustration flashes through his eyes as you tell him what to do but heâs not about to lash out at the person responsible for his grade who also gave him a ride home. Even heâs not that much of an asshole.
He sets a hand on your hood, pausing for a moment before he runs a hand through his hair, causing it to stick up more than it already was. âDo me a favor and donât mention this to anyone, yeah?â
You tilt your head, exchanging a glance with Shoko as he looks between the two of you. âYeah. No problem.â
His hand slides off your car as he rounds the vehicle to follow after his brothers. He pauses to cast a glance at you, before pushing into the front lobby of his apartment building and out of sight.
Silence falls over both you and Shoko as you watch the tattooed man disappear into the building when Choso holds the door open for him.
âThat was fucking weird,â Shoko comments.
âHm?â You hum as you pull out of the apartment, unsure of what she means. Of course Sukuna would have a life Shoko had never thought about, itâs not like they were close, you arenât sure what she was expecting.
âHe wasnât a complete dick.â
Shooting Shoko a confused glance, you purse your lips. âIs he known for that? I thought he was just a bit of a delinquent.â
âYeah, that too, but heâs pretty well-known for being snappy with people and snarky to profs.â
âOh,â you blink twice in thought, keeping your eyes on the road. âI donât know. Heâs pretty quiet in Art History, this project is the first time Iâve ever talked to him. I figured Iâd give him the benefit of the doubt.â
âHuh,â Shoko shrugs, âguess youâre on his good side, then.â She sighs, leaning back in her seat once again. âOh well, you have blackmail on him anyway, so thereâs no way heâs bailing on you now,â she grins with a teasing smirk.
Your eyes widen and you move your elbow to nudge her. âAbsolutely not, and donât you think about it either!â
Shoko chuckles, though you know she wouldnât anyway. Much like you, sheâs too kind to spill Sukunaâs secrets to the school, regardless of her opinions or thoughts on him.
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As you return home from the bar late that night with a comfortable buzz that had left you needing to keep your car at the bar overnight, you pour yourself a glass of water and open your laptop on your bed, letting it boot up while you change into an oversized cozy beige hoodie with little bows adorning the sleeves.
Pulling the sleeves of the hoodie down over your hands and throwing on a pair of shorts, you run a hand through your hair and log into your laptop, pulling it onto your lap to browse social media, when something catches your eye.
You donât pay much attention to your email inbox most of the time. Maybe you should, after all the college sends you a fair amount of emails and youâve missed some in the past, but what catches your eye is certainly not from the faculty.
Itâs a response to the document you sent Sukuna via email last week.
Oh shit, he was serious about sending you an email.
Maybe itâs because you're drunk, or maybe itâs because the idea of the nearly seven foot tall tattooed man who youâd watched leave class once just to smoke sending you an email of all things is a truly funny thought, but you snicker to yourself as you open it.
[email protected] - Saturday, 1:17 AM hey. you around this weekend
Your snicker turns to a full laugh as you read the message. You canât decide if the message feels like a sad attempt at a booty call, an old man attempting to text via email, or an embarrassing attempt to save his bruised ego since he canât text you.
Youâd learned from Shoko at the bar earlier that Sukuna has quite the reputation. Supposedly heâs known for bringing a woman home at every party, for being able to smooth talk his way into the bedroom in spite of his usually grumpy and ill-mannered demeanor, and for being able to always get what he wants even though he has a reputation for being an asshole. So itâs hard not to laugh when that same man is the one who just sent you the most awkward email. At one in the morning. On a Saturday.
Oh my god.
[email protected] - Saturday, 2:12 AM Hey Sukuna! Iâm around tomorrow afternoon and all day Sunday. Did you have time to work on the project?
You hit send and shut your laptop, deciding to brush your teeth and begin getting ready to get some rest. Taking off your makeup and brushing your hair, you finish up your nighttime routine and decide on a whim to see if your project partner has responded to you.
Getting under the covers and leaning against the headboard of your bed, you open your laptop again. To your surprise, your inbox has gone up by one.
[email protected] - Saturday, 2:19 AM cool. come by mine tomorrow whenever
You snicker to yourself as you read the message again. Heâs certainly not fighting either the sad booty call or old man texting via email allegations.
[email protected] - Saturday, 2:23 AM Had to leave my car at the bar, did you wanna come by my place?
To your surprise, itâs only a couple of minutes later when he replies.
[email protected] - Saturday, 2:25 AM uhhh i gotta watch over the brats
[email protected] - Saturday, 2:26 AM Bring them!! Theyâre so cute :)
You can practically feel his irritated grumbles through the screen when not even a minute later he responds.
[email protected] - Saturday, 2:26 AM fine. address and time
With a satisfied smile, you let him know to drop by at two in the afternoon and send him your address before shutting your laptop.
As you lay down in bed, you canât help but wonder what a strange little world youâve somehow managed to squeeze your way into. Sukunaâs world. Maybe itâs because heâs easy to tease, maybe itâs the undeniable fact that heâs a good looking guy, or maybe itâs the fact that heâs actually surprised you more than once now and youâre somewhat enjoying the project more than you initially thought you would, but you canât help but find yourself fascinated by him.
Come to think of it, you wonder if maybe Shokoâs comment has something to do with it. You think back to the way that she mentioned that he was oddly agreeable and, well, not a dick, and you wonder if itâs a curiosity to get to know this side of Sukuna that no one seems to know that compels you to be laying in bed at two in the morning thinking about the situation.
Regardless, you fall asleep with a calm little smile.
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Glancing at the clock, you have half a mind to wonder if Sukuna will actually show up. Sure, he was the one who reached out, but maybe you should have just bussed to your car rather than waiting on Shoko to drive you to it and gone to his place on your own given that you canât text him to ask where he is and itâs almost two thirty in the afternoon.
You could email him.
No⊠no. You arenât about to email him.
You almost laugh to yourself at the thought.
Returning to your coffee, you keep at your work, refining your notes until you have something you think you can confidently write a full thesis about, when finally thereâs a buzz at your door.
Speak of the devil. You buzz him up and there's a knock at your apartment door a few moments later.
âCut that out,â Sukuna hisses practically the moment you open the door. You raise a brow at him and he sighs. âThe brat, not you,â he clarifies, nudging Yuji.
You shoot him a sweet smile, suppressing a chuckle. Sukuna is dressed in a leather jacket, a plain white V-Neck and a pair of ripped jeans. In comparison to his usual baggy cargo pants and hoodie, he almost seems like heâs dressed up a bit and you canât help but smile at the thought. More importantly though, the dark circles beneath his eyes are just a bit faded in comparison to when you had spotted him yesterday and you can tell he was able to get a bit of rest.
Yuji is excitedly looking up at you and attempting to tug on Sukunaâs hand while Choso stands behind his brother silently, his expression neutral.
âHey guys, câmon in.â You grin as you open the door for them, watching Yuji bound in ahead of his older brothers. He begins looking around with wide eyes, so full of wonder and excitement that you canât help but smile.
âSuch sweet kids,â you comment as Sukuna stands beside you, sighing as both brothers practically run to the sofa, looking around your little apartment excitedly.
âYeah, whatever.â
You giggle at Sukuna, nudging him playfully. The glare he shoots you as he grunts seems to lack the usual malice his expressions hold and he runs a hand through his well-groomed hair, motioning for you to lead the way.
You show him to your little desk at the back of the apartment, pulling up a kitchen chair for yourself as you give him your office chair. He silently obliges, sitting down with his legs spread.
âOne moment,â you mumble, heading into your room briefly before reappearing with none other than your old GameBoy, complete with a copy of Pokemon Ruby. Sukunaâs gaze is tethered to you and although his expression doesnât change, you see surprise flash across his crimson irises as you walk up to the boys, kneeling in front of them.
âChoso, do you want to use my old GameBoy?â You ask the brown-haired young man, holding it out to him. His eyes are wide with surprise as Yujiâs jaw drops open. Choso nods, not saying a word as he flips the device and eyes the game. If itâs even possible, his eyes widen further and he smiles shyly.
âAre you sure?â
âMore than sure. I bet thereâs some neat Pokemon on that file,â you tell him.
The two boys exchange a grin and Choso thanks you profusely as he turns on the system.
âNo problem. Thereâs a TV in my room, why donât you two hang out in there and you donât need to listen to your brother and I talk about boring art, hm?â
Yuji nods excitedly, bounding to his feet and grabbing your hand. Your heart swells at the action as you lead him and Choso to your room and hand them the remote. It takes all of a moment for both of them to begin bickering about what to watch, though you notice their arguments are fairly one-sided, with Choso being much quieter than his younger brother.
Leaving the two of them to their own devices, you make your way back out to Sukuna, whoâs set his laptop on your desk and draped his jacket over the back of his chair. Heâs wearing a white band tee with a deep V-neck for a metal band you arenât familiar with, though the sleeves are torn off. With arms crossed over his chest and tattooed muscular arms on display, itâs undeniable just how attractive he is.
The real surprise is when he turns his head to look at you and his sharp eyes are, strangely, filled with⊠well you arenât quite sure. Uncertainty? Confusion?
You subtly tilt your head when you take a seat on the kitchen chair beside him. His chair spins to face you as he examines you.
âIs something wrong?â
Sukunaâs adam's apple bobs as he swallows, before shaking his head. âNah. Letâs just get this shit over with,â he grumbles, opening his laptop and turning his research document towards you. Heâs clearly taken a look at yours, because his notes are in a similar format and he has about as much written as you, not to mention heâs put some work into research on the third painting you two had chosen.
Your brows raise as you read through it. âWow, this is really good.â
He scoffs. âDonât sound so shocked.â
You chuckle in embarrassment. âI didnât mean to come off that way, I just-â you pause, leaning back in your chair. Aside from the subtle sounds of Pokemon and the TV in the background, the only sound that breaks the silence as you pause is the squeaking of your chair. âI donât know. When you were late and then you just didnât show up, IâŠâ you trail off, not wanting to accuse him of something that clearly isnât true.
âYou assumed the worst.â
Your mouth opens but any words you had in your defense die on your tongue, casting your glance to the side as you search for something, anything, to explain your thought process. No matter what way you try to word it, youâre definitely the bad guy here.
âItâs fine. Everyone does.â
Your brow furrows but before you can ask what he means, Choso is surprising you as he taps on your arm. You turn your attention to the young boy, whoâs looking up at you with gleaming eyes.
âYou have Rayquaza,â he states, arms outstretched to show you a serpentine creature on the GameBoy.
Your curiosity twists to easy mirth as you smile at him. âI guess I do, huh?â
Chosoâs arms fall back down in front of him as he stares down at the Pokemon. His eyes flicker up to you briefly, then back down. âYou have Groudon too.â
You canât help your amused laugh. Heâs such a sweet and shy little boy, but he talks just like Sukuna. Straight to the point, blunt, and rather short. He may not look like Sukuna like Yuji does, but his speech is just like his older brotherâs.
âLeave her alone,â Sukuna mumbles gruffly from beside you. Choso smiles up at him before bounding back to your room. You can hear the two of them gearing up to play the games together from across the apartment, the gameâs music heard in mismatched double as they both turn up the volume.
Turning back to Sukuna, your trail of thought is completely gone. âWhat was I saying?â
âYou got any music? The bratâs gameâs been drivinâ me crazy,â Sukuna mutters. âYuji broke my laptopâs speakers,â he sighs.
âHeâs on a hot streak for breaking things, huh?â You giggle.
âDonât get me started.â
You turn in your seat, pointing towards the wall where a table sits with a fairly nice record player on it, and a shelf of records. Theyâre organized by artist and their sleeves range from new-looking to clearly well-loved.
Getting to his feet, Sukuna follows to where you point, curiously staring at the spines of the records. Heâs not exactly shocked by most of the choices, but a few of them do stand out to him, and youâre thankful when you hear him sliding something off the shelf and putting it on the player.
You recognize the melody in the air instantly, and grin when Sukuna sits down beside you again. âThe Eagles?â
Sukuna doesnât move as his eyes slowly trail to you. He hums after a moment. âItâs a good album. You have⊠alright taste.â
In truth, he doesnât mind your taste in music. Sure, he may not be fond of all of your choices, many in fact, but it would seem the two of you are making a habit out of surprising one another as he has his next album choice in mind already.
âIâll take that as a compliment,â you chuckle at his dry attempt at being nice. The corner of Sukunaâs lips twitches up into a hint of a smile. It suits him.
As Hotel California blankets the air in warm strings and simple drum beats, the two of you are able to get a good amount of work done, putting your research together into one well-written and coherent thesis, one to be proud of.
Of course, you still need to put together an actual visual presentation to go with the thesis to be presented, but at least the bulk of the work is over with and you can feel confident in your project without concern anymore.
You have half a mind to get started on the visual portion now as well to get it all finished, but one glance at Sukuna tells you heâs tapped out, and either way youâve gone through three records at this point as the final track on a Pink Floyd album comes to a close.
As silence falls over your project group, Sukuna lets out a sigh. Itâs fairly dark in the room too as the sun sets, and when you check the clock to find itâs already six, you realize thatâs likely why your stomachâs been making noises for the last twenty minutes.
âWhy donât you guys all stay for dinner?â You suggest, mostly out of politeness, but you canât help but feel as though youâre drawn to him. You want to get to know him, know why heâs late so often, why he stays in school just to not show up for classes when itâs his money being blown. After all, it canât just be his brothers or work, he likely only takes care of them while his parents are at work, surely.
Sukuna wearily glances between you and the door where his little brothers are, before shaking his head. âNah, I can just make us somethinâ when we get back.â
âI insist,â you grin at him, watching the way a muscle twitches in jaw. âThere are some great places nearby, we can just grab takeout while they play games, weâll only be gone for a moment.â
He remains silent, arms crossed disdainfully over his chest before grimacing, giving in to your overly kind grin.
You settle on a curry restaurant just down the block and grab the boysâ orders, letting them know youâll be right back. Youâre sure you can trust Choso to look after his younger brother for twenty minutes.
As the chilly evening air hits your face, you let out a content hum, peering curiously back to see Sukuna falling into step with you. The two of you are a sight to behold, your appearance preppy and sweet decorated with autumnal colors fitting for the season, while heâs clad in leather and punk attire, the tones of his clothing purely grayscale.
He shoves his hands into his pockets, keeping his mild gaze locked in front of him.
âHow old are they, your brothers?â
âFive and twelve,â Sukuna replies, fighting off a yawn and failing.
Amused, you smile up at him. âIâm glad you got some rest last night. I was worried about you.â
His brow twitches as he meets your kind smile. âWorried? About me?â He shoots you an incredulous look, scoffing. When you pout at him, heâs unable to hold back a smirk. Itâs the first time youâve seen him truly at ease and now that youâre alone with him, you notice that he actually seems to be somewhat relaxed.
âYeah, maybe I was. Shoot me,â you shrug, playfully rolling your eyes.
He snorts, entertained, growing silent although the air that settles over you is comfortable now. Sukunaâs presence is surprisingly calming now that he isnât constantly regarding you with disinterested gazes and irritated huffs. His expressions remain mild, but his brooding is more infrequent and the tension in his gruff voice has dulled. You would almost think he likes being around you.
As you come up to the curry restaurant, you lean into Sukuna with a point of your finger, silently telling him to enter the restaurant to your right. He pulls the door open for you, trailing closely behind. The atmosphere of the restaurant is busy, the employees behind the counter moving quickly to fulfill orders. Sukuna can only imagine how good the food must be given the line waiting to order, though you assure him it wonât take long.
He casts a glance up at the menu and frowns as he takes in the prices. He can afford to pay for himself, Yuji, and Choso, but not you. He has half a mind to say something, but his pride causes him to choke on the words. He inconspicuously pulls out his phone to take a look at his bank app to see if he can swing anything, but catches a glimpse of an employee not paying attention as he moves quickly towards you, all the while youâre not paying attention either, idly staring at the menu.
The employee about to barrel into you is holding a massive steel bucket and while Sukuna canât see whatâs inside, he doesnât love the idea of you covered in water or worse.
With an annoyed click of his tongue, he lowers himself slightly, locking a strong arm around your middle and lifting you off the ground. You yelp in surprise, eyes wide as you latch onto his arm for purchase, head whipping around in confusion until you find the employee now walking past the exact spot you were in with boiling hot oil in a bucket.
Your lips purse, a shiver running from the base of your spine up to your nape just as Sukuna drops you to the ground unceremoniously in front of him. Your heels land with a clack on the ground as you catch your balance, your eyes still trailing after the employee that hadnât been able to see you over the jug of hot oil they carried.
âPay attention,â he scolds you with a frown.
âOh my god,â you mutter mostly to yourself, your heart beating out of your chest as you finally look up at your savior. Your eyes flicker down to his arms. Even covered in leather, the way his muscles ripple beneath the fabric with each movement he makes doesnât go unnoticed by you. âThank you, Sâkuna.â
He shoves his hands in his pocket, nodding. The way you abbreviate his name is painfully close to the nickname he avoids as much as he can, but he canât bring himself to correct you and in all honesty, heâs not sure why. He lets it slide, clearing his throat as he clears his mind of the way the name seems to shake him.
âDonât make a habit of it.â
His words feel like they should be scolding, but his tone doesnât hold the same meaning. As he stares back up at the menu with a stitch in his horribly handsome brow, you canât help but find yourself confused by the meaning of his words.
You donât have much time to think about it as your turn to order comes and you find yourself at the counter, giving the employee your order before glancing back at Sukuna. His mouth parts and he hesitates.
âI- uh-â
Youâve never seen him dither in such a way and you tilt your head, blinking in confusion.
âI canât-â
Frustration flashes through his eyes and you can see his jaw clench as he trips over his words. Flustered isnât the right word, but his pride is certainly hurt as he finally manages to force out the explanation you need.
âI canât afford to- uh-â
Again he pauses, his expression burning with irritation as his cheeks heat up, the admission coming at the cost of his ego.
Your face softens in understanding and your soft fingers wrap around his tattooed wrist, pulling him up to the counter.
âIâve got it. I invited you to stay, itâs on me.â You hold your card out with a kind smile, but Sukuna doesnât share your sentiment, anger flashing across the crimson of his eyes as he grits his teeth at you.
âI donât need help,â he hisses, eyes narrowed as his walls go back up right before you.
âThatâs not-â your eyes widen as you try to salvage the situation when Sukuna recoils suddenly. You hadnât intended for him to take your words so personally, youâd just felt it was the right thing to do given that you had invited not only him, but both of his brothers over as well, and suggested the place to begin with. âYou can get the next one,â you tell him in hopes of mending the bridge between you.
He examines your expression, finding no traces of malice or ill-will in your features. Frowning, he huffs as he turns to give his order to the poor employee whoâd had the displeasure of witnessing Sukunaâs outburst. In his silence, you order for his little brothers as well.
With a dour sigh, the tattooed man moves along to the side to wait for the order, the fact that you paid leaving a sour taste in his mouth. You make your way over to him, leaving a small distance between you.
âIâm really sorry, I didnât mean-â
âItâs fine.â
âReally, I- I-â you stumble over your words as he glares at you. You suppose Shoko had warned you that Sukuna was notoriously an ass, but you hadnât witnessed it first hand until now. Still, you canât help but feel like what youâre witnessing isnât that. At the end of the day he isnât lashing out for no reason, itâs clear you struck a nerve and you canât blame him for being hurt by it, even if itâs not what you intended and you donât fully understand where heâs coming from.
âDrop it,â Sukuna growls, though his anger has subsided somewhat, his gaze cast to the wall.
You blink up at him, hating the way the world seems to hold its breath around you.
You canât deny that the man who towers over you, covered in tattoos and piercings is intimidating. Between his gruff voice, his mild mannerisms and his disinterested demeanor, heâs tough to read and you really canât afford to let a rift come between you when you still have to work on your project.
Your lips part to say something but one striking glance from those crimson eyes has the words dying in your throat. Your mouth goes dry as you wrack your brain for anything to stay, but draw a blank.
Sukunaâs brow knits together at the sight of your anxious expression and he shuts his eyes for a moment, sighing.
It takes him a moment to fully cool off and collect his thoughts, but he can see in your eyes that you genuinely meant no harm and he supposes itâs the right thing to do to give you a break for that. Youâre just naturally kind and he finds that he needs to remind himself of that.
âItâs⊠fine,â he murmurs in a strained voice, nudging you with his elbow. You crack a smile at him, thankful when his body language seems to relax somewhat again.
You donât dare say anything as you wait for your food, fiddling with your phone in your hands as you contemplate his reaction. You obviously hurt his pride unintentionally by offering to pay, but between skipping school for work and the fact that this restaurant isnât by any means expensive, you have a guess as to why he might have been so affected, one that makes Sukunaâs entire demeanor and his exhaustion click into place like a puzzle.
Before you have a chance to ask him, unsure if you even want to, your name is called and Sukuna is grabbing your order. You reach out to grab one of the bags but Sukuna swiftly holds it overhead with a smirk that doesnât quite meet his eyes as you pout playfully. He continues to hold the food overhead as he leads the way outside. Watching you trail closely behind him, standing up on your tiptoes in an attempt to reach the bags, he raises a brow.
âWalk, brat.â
You shoot him a look, brow furrowed, before giving in and falling into step alongside him. He brings his arms down, holding the bags on his arms opposite you.
With your mind still preoccupied with thoughts of Sukunaâs earlier outburst, you bring your lower lip between your teeth, mindlessly chewing on it as you stare at the sidewalk beneath your feet.
Sukuna eyes you from his peripherals, taking note of the way youâre deep in thought. âJust fucking ask your question.â
Much like yesterday, Sukuna easily notices the way you glance at him uncertainly, the question on the tip of your tongue. It catches you off-guard how easily he reads you and you fall out of step with him, taking longer strides to catch up after you falter.
âI- um- do you-â you hesitate, casting a glance at his aloof expression. He seems at ease again and you donât want to burn the bridge youâve only just managed to mend, out of fear that another fire wouldnât be put out so easily.
âYeah.â
You stop in your tracks, blinking in surprise with pursed lips. Sukuna raises a brow at you, only a short distance ahead as he stops too, turning to face you. You canât read his expression as it remains mild, his questioning brow the only sign that gives away any hint of his thoughts. In a few short strides, youâre back at his side.
âYouâre⊠their guardian?â
âYeah.â
âOh.â
Sukuna chews on his tongue piercing mindlessly as he watches the gears turn in your mind, putting together the pieces of the puzzle that had been laid out for you.
Of course Sukunaâs tired if heâs taking care of two young boys, going to college, working, cooking, cleaning, god the list can only go on. You wonder if the reason he seems so at ease right now, so quick to forgive you, is because heâs thankful for the break. You wonder how long itâs been since heâs had time to himself.
âThatâs why you missed yesterday.â
He shrugs. âYou knew that already.â
âI guess, yeah.â Your turn to shrug. âI just thought it was a temporary thing.â
Sukuna lets out a humorless laugh. âWell itâs not.â
Youâre not really sure how to react, in all honesty. You donât want him to think you pity him, you canât offer sympathy, you certainly canât offer help. In your uncertainty, you find yourself continuing to fiddle with your phone, avoiding his gaze.
Sukuna quite simply⊠turns to leave, deciding to spare you of your discomfort, and him of any more blows to his pride. You jog after him, falling into step again. There are questions left unanswered and sympathies you want to extend, but you canât bear the thought of hurting him again, even if itâs unintentional, so you bite your tongue.
The sounds of the city surround you, filling the silence. Sirens blare in the distance, trees rustle above you, and casual chatter comes and goes as you pass other groups of people on the way to your apartment. Itâs all a welcome distraction as you continue to fiddle with your phone, the air between you two neither tense nor comfortable. It lies somewhere in between and you donât dare tip the scales out of fear of making your counterpart uncomfortable.
âYou play a lot of Pokemon growinâ up?â
Your eyes light up as Sukuna starts a conversation, finally tipping the scales back towards being comfortable.
âMy best friend growing up really liked it, we played a lot of Ruby and Sapphire.â
âSame as the brats.â He scoffs playfully.
âAre you gonna pretend that isnât your old GameBoy?â
He tilts his head in your direction, a hint of a smirk on his lips. âAnd if it is?â
âDunno, I might think youâre a bit of a nerd,â you tease, mindlessly chewing on your lip.
Sukunaâs eyes flicker down to your lips. He catches himself immediately, averting his gaze. âTch.â
You giggle when he doesnât refute your claim. He shoves his hands back into his pockets, your takeout bags dangling from his forearm.
As you arrive back at your apartment, Sukuna lets you unlock the door before grabbing and holding it open for you. His eyes trace your figure as you tread ahead of him with a skip in your step. When you turn back to him, realizing he hasnât followed you yet, he blinks in surprise as he realizes exactly what heâs doing, shaking his head to clear it.
Why in the hell was he checking you out anyway? He doesnât make a habit of hooking up with people who know him beyond face value. He mutters a âsorryâ, relieved when you donât seem to notice the way heâd so shamelessly checked you out.
Closing the door behind him, he sets the food on the table, tossing his jacket aside as you call his brothers, setting up a little dinner around your coffee table. Sukuna groans as he slips down onto the floor to eat, remaining quiet as he simply watches the way you cheerfully entertain both of his brothersâ antics.
Shoveling rice into his mouth, Sukuna stares down at his curry, contemplating the strange sense of warmth blooming in his chest. The feeling is so unfamiliar to him that he canât place it. He has half a mind to drown the emotion in nicotine and the need to smoke grows quickly.
Heâs so preoccupied in his thoughts, Sukuna doesnât realize his little brothers have both run off back to your room, leaving the two of you alone.
âSâkuna?â
Striking pupils suddenly meet yours. He straightens from where he sits across from you on the couch, taking notice of the fact that youâve already finished your dinner.
âAre you alright?â
Sukuna nods. ââM fine.â Yet he canât help but to drink in the sight of you, the way you look at him with so much care and he canât understand why, the way your lips move so softly when you speak. The way your figure and curves would feel under his hands, the way you keep biting your lip⊠Sukuna shakes his head suddenly, getting to his feet as he chalks it up to lust. Heâll get over it at the next party he goes to. âBalcony?â He asks suddenly, pointing at the door at the back of your apartment.
You nod, watching in confusion as he rises suddenly and rushes out the door, pulling out a box of cigarettes. You hum to yourself, deciding to give him a moment. Youâre not sure exactly what came over him, he seemed flustered even if only for a moment, but there was something else you noticed in his eyes, something darker you couldnât identify.
Pushing that aside, you put the lid back over his food to keep it warm and check your phone to find Shokoâs been trying to reach you to go pick up your car. You let her know youâll have to pick it up tomorrow since youâre with Sukuna as you wait for him to finish smoking.
After a few messages back and forth, you glance back outside at Sukuna. The way the muscles along his back ripple just from the act of breathing is eye-catching enough, but when he stubs out his cigarette and leans over the railing of your little balcony, your eyes trail to his shoulder blades protruding from the white material of his shirt.
Catching yourself holding your breath, you take a step forward and decide to check on him, closing the balcony door in your stead as you slip onto the small overlook behind him.
He doesnât acknowledge you even as you lean beside him, his tired expression fixated on the street below. You rest a hand on his bicep as you tilt your head quizzically. âAre you sure everythingâs alright?â
Ever aloof, you arenât able to tell what heâs thinking as he turns to look at you. You, completely unaware that your touch has set his skin alight. Unbeknownst to him, his eyes have darkened a shade as his pupils dilate at your touch. Unsure whatâs come over him, he simply hums affirmatively as an answer to your question.
Your brow knits together but you accept his response. He wonders if you know that youâre rubbing circles into the skin of his bicep and itâs driving him crazy. What the hell is it about you thatâs got him horny like itâs his first year of college again? It frustrates him beyond belief, but maybe itâs just been too long since heâs slept with someone. That has to be it. Itâs just lust. He swallows hard, his adamâs apple bobbing with the action when you finally bring your attention out to the road in front of you both, removing your hand from him.
âHey, um, what do you do at the supermarket?â You ask in an effort to create conversation with him.
âStock,â he replies shortly, his tone as stoic as his expression.
âThatâs not too bad,â you murmur thoughtfully, giggling to yourself suddenly. Sukunaâs brow raises. âSorry, I just canât imagine you as, like, a cashier or something.â
âWhy not?â He sneers, standing up straight and facing you, offended.
âCome on,â you giggle, âyouâre not very talkative.â
âI can be,â he insists, taking a step towards you.
âIs that your way of proving it?â You provoke him with a grin.
He scoffs. âI just donât have anythinâ to say,â he grumbles with a tense jaw, staring down at you. ââSides, I work with customers at my other job.â
Another job? You frown at his admission. How the hell is he managing this? How hasnât he flunked out? âWhat other job?â
âMechanic,â he states blandly.
âReally? Are you a big car guy?â You ask, genuinely curious.
Sukunaâs somewhat taken aback by the way you lean in, your full attention directed towards him. You seem to take such a genuine interest in him and he isnât quite sure what to make of it.
A smirk pays at the corners of his lips as he decides to mess with you, loving the idea of keeping you on your toes and pushing your buttons. âNah. âM just good with my hands,â he drawls as you present him the perfect opportunity to tease you back given how much of a hard time youâve been giving him.
Your eyes widen at his euphemism, cheeks heating up as you grip the balcony railing harder. You avert your gaze in an attempt to save face, willing your heart to slow down to no avail.
You clear your throat. âI-I um, th-that makes sense,â you stammer, mentally facepalming at just how nervous your words come out. He has no right to be this hot.
âNot so talkative now, are ya?â He chuckles lowly, sliding from his position leaning on the railing beside you to rest his opposite hand on your other side, effectively trapping you.
You flip over to face him, leaning back against the railing with pursed lips. Sukuna grins at your mousey behavior, thrilling in the way you squirm trapped between him and the railing. âSukuna?â
His heart pounds in his chest at the sound of his name coming from your lips and his smirk falters. Why the hell is his heart beating so fast? He forces his smirk again, moving his face down to your level in an effort to push away the strange feeling blooming in the pit of his stomach. âYeah, woman?â
Focusing on anything other than the man in front of you, you can only manage to mumble out a few âumâs and âuhâs. Sukuna chuckles at just how flustered you are, freeing you from the cage of his arms as he rests against the railing beside you again.
You clear your throat, trying to ignore your spiraling thoughts. And boy are they ever spiraling as you stare out at the street beneath you, attempting to focus on the passing cars and not your pounding heart. âWhy are you in Art History?â
Sukunaâs lit another cigarette in the time that youâve used to recover your thoughts. He looks calmer once again as smoke spirals from the glowing embers. âRequired class.â
âR-Right.â You swallow, moving past your stammer. âWhat do you want to do?â
He pauses for a moment, taking a languid drag from the cigarette. A puff of smoke leaves his lips before he replies. âDunno. Iâm a history major.â
You wouldnât have imagined the collegeâs resident bad boy to be a history major, if youâre being honest with yourself, but you remind yourself not to judge a book by its cover.
He runs a hand through his hair as you contemplate the idea of Sukuna as a history major and what he might do with that major given that you canât envision him as a historian or a museum curator, and certainly not as a teacher.
âIâm thinking of swapping majors,â he admits. You examine his expression as he taps the edge of the cigarette with a finger. He shrugs, shifting his gaze to stare at the sidewalk beneath the both of you. âStarting to think history doesnât make sense.â
âWell, what do you want to do, Sukuna?â
He casts you a glance, examining your attentive face. Youâre so wholly invested in his words that it causes a pang in his chest. He subconsciously brings a hand up to his chest, scratching at it as if to cast the strange feeling away.
Setting the feeling aside, he finds himself scowling in thought. When he was considerably younger heâd wanted to pursue graphic design but he hadnât had the luxury of thinking about his future for a while now. In truth, heâs not even sure why heâs in history right now. It interests him enough to keep him attentive but the career options are⊠few and far between and he canât exactly afford to fuck around and swap majors constantly.
His minor in business makes more sense, at least he can do something with it, but⊠in truth, he doesnât know what heâs doing. Itâs another page filed under âuncertaintiesâ in the book that is Sukuna.
You take his silence as an answer and shoot him a wry smile. âYou donât have to answer, Iâm sorry to pry.â
âItâs fine,â he sighs. âI just dunno that either.â
Admitting to it feels shameful, almost, and frankly, Sukuna thinks heâs had enough of making a fool of himself in front of you today. Stubbing out his cigarette, he stands up and makes his way back inside. You follow after him, blinking as he begins packing up.
âI should go,â he mumbles, shutting his laptop and tossing it into his bag. He picks up his keys from your desk, shoving them in his pocket as he zips up his backpack. âOh,â he stops his movements, hesitating for a moment. âI⊠Appreciate dinner.â
Your expression softens and you smile wholeheartedly. âNo problem. You can take your leftovers, too. Theyâre still on the table,â you point over to the box youâd set the cover over. He nods, shutting it and tucking it in his bag as well.
With a tired sigh, he gathers his brothers, ushering them towards the doorway.
âGot anything to say?â Sukuna utters, staring down at both kids expectantly.
âThank you!â
âThank you, miss!â
You grin at both kids, kneeling down. âI hope you two had fun. You know, maybe you can convince your brother to come over again and Iâll pull out my old GameCube.â
With the expressions of jaw-dropping awe youâre getting right now, you would think youâd revealed to them the secret to happiness or something. Yuji leaps into your arms immediately, nearly toppling you over as he shoots a pleading stare at Sukuna.
Sukunaâs expression shifts to one of irritation as Yuji pleads with him, âKuna! Pleeeease pleasepleasepleasepleasepleaseplease,â that has you giggling at the way a vein in his forehead seems to pulse.
âBrat. Brat! Shut up, Iâll think about it, alright?â
Yuji nods cheerfully, counting straight to Sukunaâs leg to hug him, and the clear irritation on your classmateâs face immediately falters. Maybe heâs a bit of a softie after all.
Sukuna sighs heavily, reaching a long arm down to ruffle his brotherâs hair. âYeah, alright, kid. If she invites us.â
His voice is tired, albeit strangely soft. Itâs almost like heâs a different person, and suddenly you can see why it is that heâs pulling such a terrible schedule. Despite the clear stress being a twenty two year old parent to two young kids is, he clearly loves them.
But this is Sukuna weâre talking about, so he doesnât always know how to express that.
Itâs sweet, really, and your heart melts at the sight.
âGo wait outside, you two.â Both kids run down the hall to the elevator as they excitedly ponder what games you might have, leaving you and Sukuna alone as he leans on the doorframe.
âYou free next Saturday?â You ask once his attention returns to you.
âI can let you know. Depends on the auto shopâs schedule.â
âWe can always do another day, whatever works best for you, Kuna.â Your voice holds a teasing lilt as you mimic Yujiâs entirely too adorable name for him.
âDonât start with that,â he snarls, mumbling something about the name being annoying. Before turning to walk away, he decides to pay you back for all of your teasing with a jab of his own. âDonât make a habit of getting oil dumped on you, yeah?â
What Sukuna isnât expecting is for you to be able to match his teasing without a second thought. âWhat, I canât email you for help?â
He snorts, smirking at the ground as he pushes himself off of the doorframe and begins to turn away. âSee you around,â he says, raising a hand in farewell as he follows after his two brothers. Your eyes trail curiously after him until heâs out of sight, shutting and locking the door quietly.
In truth, you donât expect to hear from him until maybe next Friday if youâre lucky, but to your surprise when you check your email later that night, your inbox has a new email from Sukuna. Itâs still funny, to think that youâre communicating via email, but at least you arenât giggling to yourself as you open this one.
[email protected] - Sunday, 12:04 AM brat stole your gameboy. meet at the fountain at noon monday
[email protected] - Sunday, 12:23 AM Thatâs alright!! He can keep it :)
[email protected] - Sunday, 12:27 AM no he needs to learn. noon at the fountain
With a sigh, you realize he isnât about to relent and give in.
[email protected] - Sunday, 12:28 AM Okay Iâll see you then Kuna lol
And oh if you could see the way Sukuna is guffawing and huffing at his screen, slamming his laptop shut as you call him the nickname he doesnât want anyone to know. Yet here you are, barging into his life on all fronts and learning more about him than he wants.
The way his heart stutters, it actually stutters when he sees his inbox go up by a notification because he just knows itâs you and fuck why is it actually cute when you use that nickname?
Sukuna rubs a hand over his face and pulls his comforter up over his shoulder, sinking into the plush of his mattress as he tries to get some rest before his shift the next morning. Heâll deal with his other issues later.
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Can I request drift (idw/lost light) having an opposite personality, daughter? With said daughter being with him since he was deadlock?
First of the MTMTE cast to have a daughter with the opposite personality!
Hope you enjoy!
Drift with a daughter with the opposite personality
SFW, Platonic, Angst, Familial, Cybertronian reader
MTMTE
Deadlock found the little sparkling while wandering aimlessly through the gutters of the Dead End.
The poor thing was struggling around in a deep puddle of oil, whirling and chirping for help.
Drift immediately went over and scooped her up from the puddle and placed her down.
Using some cloth and thinner pieces of scrap, he managed to get most of the gunk from the little oneâs vents and cleaned most of the excess oil off her.
Drift: âThere.â He feels a bit proud he managed to help someone out, even if it wasnât much. The sparkling stared at him with wide optics and curiously chirped at him. Drift looked around. Drift: âWhere are your guardianâs atâoh?â The sparkling was attempting to hug his pede. Drift: âOh! Iâm notâLittle one Iâmânow go on now.â Drift gently pushes the sparkling away from him. The sparkling looks a bit confused before waddling right back to him⊠but not before tripping going headfirst back into the puddle. Drift quickly grabs the sparkling from the puddle again. She blinks as Drift once again cleans her face. Drift: âYou need to watch where youâre going, little one. Now go and this time the other way.â Drift gently pushes the sparkling in the opposite direction. The sparkling chirps at him sadly before waddling sadly away. Drift spark clenched. This was for the best⊠Right⊠SPLASH! Drift: âOh sweet Primus not again!â Drift picked up the sparkling in the cloth, but this time made no move to put her down. Drift: ââŠI guess youâre stuck with me⊠At least until your guardians arrive.â The sparkling chirps happily as she snuggles up into his chassis.
What was he doing?
Drift barely had enough as it was to support himself and now, he had a little sparkling!
âŠBut he buckles up a bit and tries working odd jobs to at least get more credits for some kind of energon for the sparkling.
He was grateful that the little thing was quiet and not that fussy.
Though her curiosity and slight clumsiness were the downside.
Drift is looking around for his sparkling. Drift: âLittle one! Little one where are you!? I really need to name herâŠâ He hears some chirping and frantically looks around him. A rock falls on his helm. Drift: âOW!â He looks up and feels all the energon draining from his frame. The sparkling was sitting on a rusty guard rail a couple feet up in the air. Drift: âHow did you get up there!?â Drift pulls a stray crate and stands on it trying to reach her. Drift: âHey little buddy, come here. Come to papa buddy!â The sparkling chirps before the rail gives in. Drift manages to catch her just as the railing came down. He frantically looks at his sparkling, who was thankfully unharmed. Drift: âOh thank Primus⊠you really scared me there buddy. Buddy? Hmm⊠thatâs sounds nice donât you think?â Buddy chirps in agreement.
As the years grew on, Buddy matured much quicker than Drift would have liked it.
It seemed that one minute he was holding her servo as she nervously tried her first transformation.
The next she was carrying him to safety after a couple of mechs decided to beat him to a pulp for not giving him the rest of his circuit booster.
She often scolded him about taking those⊠enhancements and telling him the damage they could cause.
Buddy manages to messily wield a bit of scrap metal onto his arm. Drift winces a bit. Buddy: ââŠThis wouldnât happen ifââ Drift: âI laid off the boosters. Buddy how many more times are we going to go through this?â Buddy gives him a slight glare. Buddy: âEnough times to see when that message gets into that thick helm of yours⊠I donât know how to fix you if youâŠâ Buddy grunted a bit, not even daring to say the last thing. Drift gives her a reassuring smile. Drift: âHave I mentioned I have the best daughter a mech could ask for?â Buddy smiles a bit. Buddy: âNot too often⊠but that still doesnât mean Iâm forgetting about the boosters.â Drift: âScrââ THWACK! Drift rubs his helm. Drift: âBuddy!â
Buddy was a scrapy youngling when Drift nearly overdosed on speedster circuits and engex.
She remembered cradling his glitching frame, crying for someone to help her.
Was pushed and nearly beaten by some thugs who wanted Driftâs frame, before the famous officer Orion Pax cuffed them.
Buddy tried to stand up and protect her father by trying to shield his body with her frame.
She was utterly terrified but ready to fight for him.
Was surprised when the officer kindly told her he knew someone who could help her and Drift.
As frightened as she was, Buddy decides that any chance of saving Drift was worth the risk.
She makes it very clear that Drift needed more care than she did and would refuse until Drift was okay.
Thankfully Ratchet was able to get Drift stable and moves on to help Buddy.
Ratchet starts patching up Buddy. Ratchet: âI take it the mech I just fixed is your guardian?â Buddy: âHeâs, my dad.â Ratchet: âHmmâŠâ Buddy twitches a bit. Ratchet: âYou got a question kid?â Buddy hesitantly nods. Buddy: âWhat are those tools for?â Ratchet: âThose help me see better into a bots smaller crevices.â Buddy: ââŠDo you think you can teach me how to save a bot from overdosing?â Ratchet stops for a minute. Buddy: âI just donât know if he might do it again and I want to be prepared for it.â Ratchet looks at the youngling who had determination and slight twinge of fear in her optics. Ratchet: âI can teach you how to better hide some of the boosters and the warning signs, but I canât teach you the proper procedure.â Buddy looks down a bit. Ratchet: âNot because I donât want to, but because it is a difficult procedure to do, near impossible without any prior medical knowledge. If you come to me with at least some sort of certification you can do some healing besides a standard patch job, then weâll see.â Buddy smiles at him with a new look of determination. Buddy: âThen⊠can you tell me about that tool?â
Drift is glad to see Buddy okay.
He brings her close as they start to depart.
His audial ring a bit with what the doctor had told him about starting a new life and to watch for his daughter.
Buddy makes sure to remember the location of the clinic.
Ratchet is surprised to find the youngling back.
She wants to help him, help others like he did with Drift.
Buddy couldnât exactly go to school or medical school, so he was the next best thing.
Ratchet makes her work for it.
Constantly randomly asking her random questions about certain parts of the frame of a Seeker, to names of certain tools and what they are used for.
Buddy makes him proud by putting the work in.
Drift doesnât notice Buddyâs absence.
He had taken up more tasks and jobs that were taking even more time than before.
As much as Buddy loved Drift, she did wish he was home more.
Those were peaceful moments where they would staring into the sky and see how many constellations they could spot.
Buddy soon stops coming by the clinic, which worries Ratchet but there are other things he needs to worry about now.
As much as it pains himâŠ
What happened?
Drift had brought Buddy to one of Megatronâs rallies.
There was supposable going to be some free energon at the event.
The pair is surprised when the leader of the movement himself came to them.
Megatron asked Drift if heâd like to join.
Drift accepted seeing a new opportunity in life, maybe a better one for him and Buddy.
He was even given a new name, Deadlock.
Buddy didnât like the name, but never voiced it.
Megatron kindly turned to Buddy and asked her if she wanted to make a difference, to help bots less fortunate to find a voice.
Buddy was onboard with the idea of helping others.
Just like doctor Ratchet!
They became Decepticonâs that very day.
Being a youngling, there wasnât much Buddy could do but do odd little jobs or be a messenger.
She showed promise in the healing department, and given that the Decepticonâs were short on medics, thoughts on teaching her the ropes didnât seem too bad.
Buddy was taught by engineers and other doctors around the base.
She quickly rose up to the occasion once the injured started arriving.
It would take a couple more years before she officially was given her doctorâs title.
This happened around the beginning of the war.
Deadlock started becoming this infamous bounty hunter.
Buddy did not like this deadlock persona.
He was rude, snappy, and at times even cruel.
The pairs paths crossing was rare.
The only time they would be in the same room for more than a minute would happen whenever he was sent to the medbay.
Deadlock refuses any medic besides Buddy to see him.
She would feel flattered if the injuries he came back didnât hurt her spark.
Buddy is patching up Deadlock. He hisses at some of the sparks. Deadlock: âWould it kill for you to be a bit gentler?â Buddy: âWould it kill you to be more careful out there?â Deadlock stays silent. Buddy: âThatâs what I thought.â Deadlock: ââŠHow are the exams coming along?â Buddy: âI passed those exams⊠6 months agoâŠâ Deadlock: âYou did?â Buddy: âIâm a doctor now.â Deadlock chuckles a bit. Buddy swears she hears Drift for a second. Deadlock: âLook at you. I would be proud if you could be a bit gentler with your patients.â Buddy doesnât say anything as she finishes patching Deadlock up.
The first time he snapped at her, she gave him the silent treatment, a bit in shock that he did that.
Deadlock would later apologies by managing to snag a couple of new tools for her to use.
He would be gone for an unknown number of times, but Buddy found herself trying to cherish the time that she did have with Deadlock.
Deadlock was the last thing she had left of Drift.
Soon enough she stops giving him the silent treatment when she patches him up and continues to scold.
Buddy was tired of seeing her loved ones and friends get hurt all the time, there was some part of her that hoped that nagging enough would get them to be more careful.
It never happened or worked too well.
She hated losing her patients to this war, she hated losing everyone to it.
But the only thing she could do now was do her job.
This was not the future she thought when she stood in front of a smiling Megatron.
Soon enough Buddy was given a promotion.
As Megatronâs personal nurse/doctor.
A doctor that also became a therapist of sorts when heâd started ranting about Prime or the recent battles or just about Starscream.
Given the recent attempts on his life, Megatron saw fit to have someone trusted to care for him.
Buddy just so happened to be the least likely to betray him on his list of medics.
Also least likely to do something other than heal his frame.
Buddy was patching up one of his pedes from a nasty mesh wound. Buddy: âIf Iâd have to guess⊠this was Starscreamâs doing?â Megatron: âNot entirely.â Buddy: âHow so?â Megatron: âI do not believe that is part of your concern.â Buddy gives him a tired look. Buddy: âYes, silly me, a doctor asking her patient how they got hurt. Silly me for wanting to make sure I am healing it properly.â Megatron: â⊠I trip down the stairs.â Buddy blinks. Buddy: âYou what?â Megatron: âAnd in falling I kicked Starscream in the face causing him to retaliate.â Starscream on a nearby berth: âHow do you think I would have responded!?â Skywarp laughs by his side, âplayfullyâ slapping the Seeker. THWACK! Skywarp was now on the floor groaning as he held his helm. Buddy has another wrench in her servo while not taking her optics off the wound. Buddy: âDonât touch my patients like that.â Megatron: ââŠHow is it that you never decided to join your faââ Buddy gives him a sharp look that surprisingly shuts him up. Buddy: âIâd rather fits the bots that I see, not dismantle them.â
Buddy began to see Deadlock a bit more too, no surprise him being one of the few mechs in the warlordâs inner circle.
Though not much was said between the two.
It wasnât personal, but there wasnât a lot of time between the pair given oneâs job being outside the base taking bots out.
While the other spent most of her time in the base patching up the wounded.
It would be a simple miscalculation that would cause a major shift in Buddyâs life.
Someone had breached the information of the location of Megatronâs base.
It was compromised and they all needed to move.
There was a rapid panic through the troops as they tried to move everything before the Autobots would arrive.
Buddy was in the med bay trying to get patients to safety when the first shots were heard.
She only had two bots left.
There was an explosion knocking her back.
Waking up, Buddy quickly realized that she was pinned down by some of the debris.
The doctor struggled to move when a blaster was shoved close to her faceplate.
Buddy freezes staring at the blaster. Spark pulsing too fast. Suddenly the blaster was yanked back. Buddy just stared dumbfounded at the red and blue mech. The scene seemed strikingly familiar to her. Buddy: âOptimus Prime.â Optimus looks down at the medic before it clicked. Optimus: âBuddy. It has been a long time. I see you made yourself a medic.â Buddy: âDoctor actually sir.â Optimus chuckles a bit before he starts to get some of the debris off her. There are some bots arguing against the action, suggesting leaving her there. Buddy stiffens a bit at the thought of being trapped under the rubble alone in the dark. Buddy: âSir, if I may. I am a doctor and word around is that you need more medics. Allow me to help you.â The Prime looks at her confused. Optimus: âYouâd willingly leave your side of the war to join the enemy?â Buddy gives him a serious look. Buddy: âI joined this cause in the promise to help bots and make a better place for Cybertron⊠I have been deceived sir. I am disappointed and to say I am furious is an understatement.  I canât think of a better way to get back at the Decepticonâs than taking away a good medic who knows where the secret compartment of data slugs of the location of the next base are.â Buddy was hoping that the data slug would be enough to persuade the Prime. Optimus looks at her with surprise and slight suspicion. He finds no sign of lying. In a single kick, he manages to get most of the debris off Buddy. She now noticed she was down a pede thanks to the explosion. Optimus gently picks her up. Optimus: âLead the way, Buddy.â A couple hours later in some remote location⊠Deadlock gets a call. Deadlock: âYes Lord Megatron.â Megatron: âThe base was compromise. We are moving to the next base of operation in the South quadrant.â Deadlockâs optics widen a bit. Deadlock: âThe entire base?â Megatron: âThe Autobotâs took no prisoners. Anyone who was in the base has been massacred.â Deadlock is silent. Megatron: ââŠYou have my condolences on your loss Deadlock.â The call ends as the Decepticon screams into the silent night.
Buddy was brought into Autobot custody.
She kept a stoic face on meeting the other Autobotâs.
Buddy knew well enough that these bots did not trust her, not that she would blame them.
The only reason she was alive was because she was a medic.
After a fresh coating of paint and change of insignia the doctor was finally allowed in the medbay.
Her façade almost completely dropped seeing Rachet there.
Buddy had long come to the terms that he had offlined at some point in the war.
Her spark warmed seeing her first mentor had survived this long.
Ratchet was surprised to see his former student in front of him.
Under Optimusâs direct order, she was to always stay by Ratchetâs side unless under dire circumstances.
Buddy knew this was for the team to get used to her, but the thing she cared most was seeing how her mentor managed to stay online for so long.
The two would eventually sit down and talk about the past and why she was a part of the Decepticonâs even though she had different views.
Ratchetâs spark clenched a bit hearing one of the biggest being her father staying.
She truly thought if she left the Decepticonâs earlier that he would not last long.
But now⊠call her cruel but she did not care where he was.
It wasnât like Deadlock would look for her.
It was thanks to Optimus and Ratchet that Buddy would get integrated fast into the group.
A lot of the bots thought Buddy would soften up Ratchet considering she was younger.
They were so wrong.
Buddy might as well be known as Mini Ratchet because she acted JUST like him!
Buddy finishing the final patch work on Sunstreaker. Sideswipe and Bumblebee were on the berth next to them, wrapped up and waiting for one more look over. Buddy: âAnd what was going through your processor when you and Sideswipe decided to take on the Elite Trine alone? And to bring Bumblebee, of all bots as back up? No offense Bumblebee.â Bumblebee: âNone taken.â Sunstreaker: âIn our defenseââ Buddy tightens her grip on his armor making him wince. Buddy: âTry again? Sideswipe: âWe had it under control.â Buddy gives him an unimpressed look. Buddy: âYes because nothing says that you have it under control than sitting in themed bay with injuries that could have been avoidedââ Bumblebee: âAww, you do care.â Buddy huffs and continues working. Buddy: âOne more peep and its lights out for you.â Sideswipe: âYeah, like youâd hurt a poor defenseless mechââ THWACK! Sideswipe was knocked out on the berth with a wrench on his chassis. The other yellow mechs stared at her in shock. Buddy just continued her work. Ratchet enters the room. He glances at Sideswipe. Ratchet: âHe couldnât stop running his mouth?â Buddy: âTo be fair I gave a warning.â Sunstreaker: âAre you sure that Ratchet isnât your father?â The young doctor tenses up. Buddy: âAnd thatâs nighty night for you.â She presses a pressure point and watches the mech crumble on the berth. Bumblebee makes the right decision and lays back down.
Buddy hadnât exactly introduced herself to Drift.
She remembered hearing about Deadlock defecting and going by Drift once again.
She also remembers waking up in the medslab with a concern Rodimus by her side.
But any opportunity of meeting him Buddy had to stop herself.
It was too painful.
Too many whyâs and hurting for Buddy to handle.
Ratchet was very admitted about having her go and meet him, that he was nothing like Deadlock.
She still refused to.
The young doctor knew that if she met this new mech and didnât see any sign of Drift...
Sheâd rather avoid that as long as she can.
Timeskip to Lost Light boarding⊠Buddy was accompanying Ratchet to the med bay when Drift and Rodimus turned the corner. Drift stopped dead in his tracks staring at her. Ratchet continues into the medbay, completely unaware of the inner turmoil Buddy was going though. Buddy mentally and physically steeled herself up. Buddy: âCaptain Rodimus, Third in Command Drift. What brings you two to the medbay?â Rodimus: âBuddy you can lose the title thing.â Buddy: âIâm just being polite Captain.â Rodimus raises an optic at Buddy. Buddy: ââŠFine. How does Roddy sound?â Rodimus puffs his chassis. Rodimus: âNow thatâs better! Anyways, Drift and I were just doing the last walk around the ship. Youâve met Drift, right? You know he defected too?â Buddy and Drift just stare at each other. Buddy: âI am well aware of who Deadlock was.â Buddy pretends not to notice Drift wincing a bit at the sound of his previous name. Buddy: âNow, if you two excuse me, I need to make sure everything is secure and ready for quantum leaps.â Buddy returned back into the medbay sitting close to Ratchet. Rodimus shrugs and continues his walk with Drift who had yet to say anything. Rodimus notices his friendâs silence. Rodimus: âYou okay Drift? Did you and Buddy have some sort of history?â Drift: âRodimus⊠that was my daughter.â Rodimus: âOh just your daughter, I thought youâwait what!?â
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Literally the only thing I can think of is that they found the perfect love interest for Buck in Tommy and realized that he was too perfect. It's very difficult to mine a relationship for drama when they intentionally gave Buck a boyfriend whose traits were the exact opposite of every single problem all of Buck's girlfriends had.
Issues with the job? No problem, Tommy does the same one. Friendship group? Tommy's known most of the firefam for longer than Buck has. Christmas or birthday gifts? He has hobbies and interests! He communicates, he discusses things instead of letting them be dragged out.
And ironically the break up episode makes it obvious that Tommy has a hell of a lot of trauma that Buck could have inadvertently triggered which could have been used to mine for that drama.
Precisely, he was the perfect love interest for Buck.
I said this in another post that the reason for the breakup seemed like a cop-out. What i didnt say in the post was that I think they couldnât find another reason to break them up. Their relationship had no problems, it was fine, it was going really well.
As someone else said, âyouâre saying buck and tommy broke up because they both wanted a future with each otherâ like. Come on.
I think they couldâve found a lot of interesting things to give their relationship drama. Tommy doesnât have a good relationship with his dad, maybe he thinks he wouldnât be a good parent, maybe heâs hesitant about marriage. heâs obviously got baggage. They couldâve used that baggage to give their relationship the drama that TV shows need. Their breakup puts Buck right back on the hamster wheel and itâs getting boring. Itâs so predictable. It needs to turn around and they need to get back together.
Maybe, god forbid, Tommy matches Buckâs freak. We think Buck goes over the top? Maybe Tommy is even worse, maybe Tommy would be the one getting him hot air balloon rides and vacations and over thinking. We couldâve seen Tommy being the one head over heels, we shouldâve seen Buck getting the absolute Princess treatment on screen. Let Buck have something good for once.
Their relationship had endlessly possibilities too. Working together on a call, one of them getting hurt (like Bathena), the Eddie-tommy dynamic (mimicking Bobby-Michael)⊠The show had such a good thing going there and it got thrown away.
I ainât a professional writer or shit but even I could map out their entire relationship with TV-worthy drama.
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My personal experience seems mild in comparison to that. But several years ago, I went on a date with someone I met online that had "woman" on the profile. Nope. Whole-ass man. With long hair. No chemistry. Ick.
So I went home early bc i wanted to date a woman and i wasnt attracted to him. then later that night, when I was kickin back with my friend (who is a dysphoric, female, autistic, genderfluid TRA who loves anime, kpop, and mooching weed), I told her about it and how i dipped bc i wasnt feelin it. she called me transphobic and started criticizing me IN MY OWN HOME for not giving him a chance, even though 1) he was uglier in person (and at this time the campus was my oyster so i was Not gonna choose a 3/10 sorry not sorry), 2) he was honestly a bit crass and 3) he didnt even id as transwoman, he completely lied and said he was a woman! That pissed me tf off. So i stated why i wasn't going to date him and pandora's box was ripped open.
The night devolved into her suggesting that I can be as strong as a man who is over a foot taller than me if i, a petite woman, go to the gym a lot (which is.. so wrong...). I began to explain scientifically why that cant happen. Muscle mass, skeletal density, hormones, height power imbalances, you name it. Didn't go well. She also told me that women are Neeeeveeeerrrr everrrr sexually abused by TIM cellmates in prison, and when i showed her proof of exactly the opposite, she said "well that's only one person" and dismissed it!! wtf you mean?!? How many women are supposed to suffer for male feelings before you stand up for their rights?? One is too many
The night, and our friendship, finally ended when she stormed out of my apartment screeeeaming "FUCK SCIENCE!!!!"
I think i screamed something about her needing to critically analyze what that says about her to dedicate her life to an idea that led her to reject science. I was so flustered and upset i can hardly remember.
All i know is that I never want to be on the side yelling "fuck science" or guilting women into sleeping with men they have no interest in.
radblr / terfblr, what is your worst TRA interaction story / the story that radicalized you?
Mine is when I had a bunch of TiF friends trying to convince me what I was experiencing was gender dysphoria (when it was internalized misogyny). I believed it until I realized every experience I had that was âgender dysphoriaâ was related to misogyny I experienced and held towards myself and not âfeeling like another genderâ. Also, being told that me being autistic meant I was more likely to be trans because I âwouldnât understand what gender felt likeâ.
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Why was Bellamort always canon
Delphini Riddle;
I actually donât believe Delphini was born in 1998. I think it was in 97.
The reason is that in the books, Bellatrix is absent from the entire book. (Except that event in Spinnerâs End, which happened in the summer-autumn of 96 and after that we see Bellatrix at the Death Eater meeting, which happens in July 97 but that's in the Deathly Hallows).
That means Bellatrix was absent for at least nine or ten months in that book. You think thatâs just a coincidence? And where was she?
In my opinion, after rereading the books for I don't know how many times now (xD) she was glued to LV, who was in my opinion, fully aware of her pregnancy. And since he was traumatized by his mother dying in childbirth (which is also implied in the books), it also makes sense that he wanted her by his side. Another thing is that he certainly didnât want anyone to see her pregnant. Because I think the death eaters were aware of something going on between them two and LV didnât want anyone to know that Bellatrix is, indeed, pregnant with his child.
Bella wasnât there, when Dumbledore was killed. Which I consider strange, because if you like it or not, Bellatrix was a very powerful witch and the highest ranking death eater, considering Lucius failing LV over and over. And no, Snape wasn't the highest ranking either, since LV didn't trust him 100%. LV sent Peter Pettigrew to Spinner's End so he and Snape could spy on each other basically (xD, very mindful, Tom, very demure). (And do you know why? Because Bellatrix had been telling Tom constantly that she doesnât trust Snape, it seemed like LV ignored her opinion but I think he rethought it and sent PP there just to be sure.)
So why on earth ?! From a strategical point of view, it doesnât make sense for Bellatrix not to be there?! And LV was aware of that so it mustâve been his meant decision to not send her there.
Just think⊠It had to be something really, really important⊠She wouldâve been there if it wasnât.
Delphini could be born in May â June 97. (It would be actually ironic, if she was born the same day Dumbledore died, 30th June 1997⊠Just a thought!)
Bellamort;
Secondly, I know itâs hard for some people to accept this, but Voldemort did CARE⊠He maybe didnât love her or maybe he did, in his own twisted way, because we arenât talking about fairytale love with these two. But he certainly wasnât ignorant towards her. (opposite of love). It was unhealthy and toxic but at the same time they were kindred spirits who just accepted each other and even tho LV would never say it out loud, they also needed each other.
âBut hE TrEaTeD hER BaDLyâ
When exactly did Lord Voldemort treat Bellatrix badly? I canât recall one time he was harsher to her than to other death eaters. And if you want to bring up that scene at Malfoy Manor, when he humiliated her and the Malfoys. You're right, he did, he enjoyed humiliating people. And yet, he took the shame from her in the next few sentances and focused solely on the Malfoys, because Lucius failed the Ministy mission, not Bellatrix. And he even made it up to her in the next paragraph. He didn't have a reason to be mad at her.
He actually treated her with the most respect he could.
He never punished her badly. Not so harshly like the Malfoys. She is described as unharmed after that fiasco at Malfoy Manor. And whatâs more, she is by LVs side in public shortly after, whereas the Malfoys are home prisoned and I think Lucius might've been tortured even. He personally trained her, put his energy and time into her, because he saw potential in her. He saw her madness as a source for her powerful dark magic, not something she should suppress, thatâs also why she was so devoted to him. Because he was the only person who respected her for who she was. Because in the end, they were both just two extremly broken souls (pun intended).
Further:
He was the happiest he had been in 14 years when she escaped from Azkaban. You may try to say that he was happy because he had 10 more death eaters. That would make sense if the other page wasnât talking mainly about Bella. (Remember, JK Rowling was intentional when writing, itâs not a coincidence, that sheâs focusing on Bellatrix after that statement. She chose every word of all their interactions and Harry's perspective on them intentionally).
He called her âBellaâ, a short version of her name, that only few wizards, mainly her family used. He even called her Bella when he was angry about the borken prophecy.
She was the only one, who wasn't scared to speak first when talking to him or touch him even when he said no.
He entrusted her with his soul, whereas he gave the diary to Lucius just to get it to Hogwarts, never telling him that itâs his horcrux. But the cup was given to Bellatrix for protection. And itâs even symbolic, because that cup was Helga Hufflepuffâs, the founder of the Hufflepuff house which stands for loyalty⊠and whoâs the most loyal servent of the Dark Lord?
He rescued her from the Ministry, I think thatâs obvious. He certainly didnât have to. And yet he did risk the whole operation and exposed himself to the whole Ministry. And weâre still talking about the most selfish man here⊠but he did it⊠and he did it just for HER, because he CARED. Thereâs no other logical explanation to this. He came the second she called him and rescued her because he didnât want her in Azkaban again.
And you can see the difference in LV's behavior towards Bellatrix, Lucius and the other DEs. He didn't help Lucius to get out of Azkaban right away. Instead, he tasked his only son to kill a man, he himself wasn't able to kill simply to mock and torture him mentally.
Yes, from Dumbledoreâs words, we were made to think that Tom really doesnât care for anyone other than himself. But Dumbledore wasnât aware of Bellatrixâs status at all! Because he didnât suspect that Voldemort would give his horcrux to her. But we know, Voldemort did just that. And another problem with Dumbledore's preception on this is that he didnât know much about Tomâs life (certainly not his private life) after his years at Hogwarts, so he couldnât know about Tomâs realtionship with Bella. It was just his opinion, not a fact. He said, he *thinks*.
And Voldemortâs reaction to her death⊠That made everything clear, He cared for Bellatrix more than for the piece of his own soul living in Nagini. He had a worse reaction to Bellatrix's death than to, mind you, Naginiâs death⊠and she was HIS LAST HORCRUX. He lost the control of his magic (which doesn't happen often, since we're talking about THE Lord Voldemort here). He was so furious that McGonagall, Kingsley and Slughorn (all three very powerful wizards) were blasted through the air because: "Voldemort's fury at the fall of his last best lieutenant exploded with the force of a bomb. Voldemort raised his hand and directed it at Molly Weasley" he even tried to avenge her death and kill Molly. If Bellatrix hadn't meant so much to him, why would he waste his energy and time on killing Molly? Have you seen him avenging the death of someone else except Bellatrix? And if Harry didn't intervene, he would do just that. Because he lost it at that point. Death took another person (first his mother), who loved and admired him uncoditionally. All of his other DEs fleed or died. He knew he was alone and mortal. A human.
In my opinion they led, let's call it a Dual Relationship. As Bellatrix implies that LV tells her everything and yet he tells her to be quiet often. He calls her Bella when they're is just the two of them and mocks her in front of others. There's a disconnect between his behaviour towards her. So, in my deduction; there was Bellatrix Lestrange, the most loyal sevent of Lord Voldemort: which was basically their work mode. (And I'm a bit sad we didn't get more of their team work while fighting because I think they made an excellent work duo.) And then there was Bella and her Lord and their private life. Bellatrix wouldn't be against it being public, I'm sure about that. But I think LV didn't want others to know about him having some feelings or a soft spot for her, it would make both of them more vulnerable = since as you can see above, he lost control over his magic because of her dying. But he didn't manage to hide it that well because even Harry (from whose perspective are the books written) notices that there is something between them; "As to a lover"...
And on top of that, Bellatrix was the ideal match for Tom; a very beautiful, powerful witch from a pureblood family. Devoted solely to him.
So Bellamort had been canon even before the CC was released.
But the biggest question is; Why would Lord Voldemort want a child? A hard one⊠yes
Some explanations:
a) to continue with the Slytherin bloodline.
b) it was an accident, but he let Bellatrix keep the child, so she could be later trained into really powerful weapon (just like Bella)
c) it was that reward beyond Bellatrixâs dreams, he mentioned earlier in the series. He talked about it in the fourth book when he said that the Lestranges will be rewarded beyond their dreams.
d) last possibility, the most out of Voldemortâs character; In the case horcruxes failed, he would be still âaliveâ through his daughter. â I personally donât believe this was the case⊠but who knows?
To sum it up: Bellamort makes more sense than people think. And the CC just confirmed it. period.
Delphini could be conceived around October 1996 and could be born, not in 1998, but in 1997 (before the Battle of Hogwarts). THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR READING THIS <3
#bellamort#bellatrix x voldemort#bellatrix lestrange#bellatrix black#voldemort#lord voldemord#tom marvolo riddle#delphini riddle#delphi#the cursed child
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Can I just say that I love how many layers there are surrounding Sevika and her change towards Jinx....because...
1. Sevika misses Silco (perhaps it was the stable chaos or something to do to stop thinking of the suffering. Perhaps she truly likes to protects things in her own way.) It shows in the way she is not utterly messing up the Chem Barons, it's because she misses not making every decision.
2. Jinx is the mess Silco left her, the last one.
She is what is left of his legacy and it is the last thing that ties her to him since as she said "everything he made has crumbled, everything they built" but Jinx is still there, a testament of his life. One who mirrors Silco in his chaotic wish for stability where he finally is in control. Jinx is the opposite of Silco yet the same, she is fighting against topside (her sister who betrayed her) much like Silco but where he needed manpower, Jinx needs mental support.
Jinx needs control like Silco to balance her mental health to create a peace of mind under the sheer power of her own mental trauma. Sevika is what Silco created and she intends to make sure his legacy lives.
3. Sevika finally sees what Silco saw in Jinx.
She could see it when Jinx, without needing to, gave her a literal helping hand. Improved it even to mirror the new era of chaos the undercity is brewing.
When Jinx said it was because she could fix something, it shows a vulnerability and a strength to grow. It shows that Jinx has matured and Sevika is recognizing that Jinx won't always be the bratty psychopath whom she couldn't understand anymore. That, like Silco, there are layers underneath it, a loyalty much like Sevika's to the footprints left behind by Silco.
4. Sevika enjoys serving others.
It shows in the way she states her allegiance even if she disagrees.
She seems to need to not be completely alone, perhaps she has alcohol problems or a deep festering brain that rambles or just something that won't leave her be. She likes to be in control with someone she deems weaker (thus why she traded Vander for Silco) she doesn't follow weak people, but that's the thing. She follows, she never leads even when she is the oldest between Jinx and the little girl Isha. She prefers to help someone than hold the responsibility and all the irritating moralistic choices. (Which is why I believe she doesn't like to think much by herself).
So yeah.... I really enjoy this new Sevika changing arc happening, but it's more or less just showing how deep these layers go will be more interesting because I don't think she even realizes how much she has feelings because they are veiled beneath the word 'loyalty' for her.
Curious to see how deep the change runs but God I love a buff queen.
#arcane#sevika#arcane s2#arcane season 2#the start of season 2 be delving#arcane better win awards for this#again
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