#or at least that being together and those complications aren't any part of them being fucked up

[quality-on-a-patch-of-awesome]

okay, sorry, but rereading your fic just made me a little bit more insane about those two and i had to come scream about it lol. i absolutely adore those two. i think their dynamic is very interesting, the tension being there from the very first moment we see them.

at first it's like, okay they have a tough love type of thing going on. but its actually more than that as episodes progress; there's genuine love and care. bear knows alex better than anyone else, just like alex does bear. it's like they have this unspoken thing going on between them for the longest time.

its also very interesting because there's Lena. Bear being religious and having Lena on one hand, his clashing, sinful, thoughts and feelings on the other hand. To Alex it's no different. He's literally ready to give it all up for Joe the moment he asks 😭 but Joe... Man. He's clearly attracted to the man, and its so close to him, yet so far away because of who he is. There's some good angst potential there. I really really like these two

So, so sorry for the rant. Its just, I don't think anyone else cares about Six so i had to come yell about it 😭

First of all, thank you- it's always nice to hear when people are reading and enjoying your fics.

And, OMG, I could go fully insane over these two. Like I was just immediately gone for them. Because there is that huge connection there, undeniably, regardless of whether you ship it or not. But obvs I do.

I just think that Alex is the one who gets the most emotion out of Bear. And okay a lot of that emotion is anger, but that still feels a lot more than Lena gets out of Bear and she's his wife.

Now how I like to think of it like absolutely everyone knows that Alex is in love with Bear. He has constant heart eyes so it would be pretty hard to miss that and all. And he would wait forever for Bear. And they are both aware of that. And I also think Bear loves Alex, but he doesn't think he would ever be able to give Alex everything that he wants (because of Lena, religion etc). But because he does love him, he still wants to give him as much as he can. And then that's how they end up so fucked up basically. And that can be such a fascinating dynamic to explore.

But also sometimes, in fic, I do just like to pretend it's less complicated and they're just in love and even when issues do crop up, what they have is the most important thing

[unsanctioned-if]

I got an ask that goes into spoilers for all the selectable MC backgrounds. I decided to copy and paste it like this so I can post it under the cut and avoid spoilers for those who may not have played the game yet or have not played all three backgrounds.

Click to see the rest!

"Honestly, I feel bad for all the people Mc was forced to leave behind because there's the clan, but more specifically Neïj, whose guilt must be immense with everyone who died trying to get the both of them back, especially if the Mc tried to dissuade her from following "Mother's" voice. And there's not any good way to assuage her guilt. Then there's the Belnac parents, who I imagine didn't outright lie about what happened, except for how they survived and providing the cover story that their adopted child died during the ambush, which would lead to the grief of Meya, Mirae, and possibly Cassius, depending on his relationship with them. And I'm also going to tentatively say Giorgina, who I feel like, with how things can be left off, a door was opened for them to potentially become friends, or at least for Mc to be in a category of people she doesn't mind the presence of, even if they aren't friends. So there's the loss of a potential friend with her, and then there's the found family, which honestly, that whole scenario is messy. Though I feel like if Jugg'art was conscious, he'd also push for them to be taken, but it'd be because he would see an opportunity to try and give them a life the group couldn't and definitely can't give them after what happened, like a parent that puts their child up for adoption because, for one reason or another, they either are or see themselves as unable to care for them or give them a life they feel the child deserves, so they hope someone else will. And from what little is given, it feels like him and Fin were the ones who tried to give Mc moments where they could try to be a normal kid despite the circumstances they were in."

First of all, thank you so much for reading all of the backgrounds! That makes me really happy. And thank you for offering your thoughts on all of them.

I agree, and the situation was never going to be a happy one for the MC. Even in some cases where they might prefer to stay in Cirern's care (the scavenger MC maybe especially depending on how you view it/play it) they didn't end up there out of their own choice but because of circumstances outside of their control. This is always a point of complication in the MC and Cirern's relationship even if you play as someone who gets attached to him or grows to care about him.

It was also never going to be a happy outcome for the people around them who ended up involved in the attempted ritual or who they had to leave behind.

The scavenger situation is definitely messy; as much as I adore genuine found families and want to lean into that for some paths during the main sory, I wanted to portray a group that has the potential to be that but, consisting of people who have all lived extremely difficult lives and who struggle to get by - a group that also consists of people with ambition who are challenged by greed, clashing ideals and the will to survive - never quite manages to come together in that way.

That being said, the MC's backgrounds will play a huge part later in the story and you'll find out much more regarding character motivation etc. by then :)

Thank you so much for the ask!

EDIT: Made the message blue to make it easier to tell it apart from the response.

[incorrect-green-lantern-quotes]

I thought of a headcanon that Kyle, as a side effect of becoming the White Lantern, can see more colors than humans naturally can (he got them shrimp eyeballs). Just a funny theory that doesn't even really make that much sense since the white light is comprised of the ROYGBIV gang, and it's not like Kyle had to master the Octarine Light of Hysteria or whatever Ultraviolet was.

For whatever reason, this leads into a mostly separate line of thought about whether the colors of the emotions make sense for the various forms of life in the DC universe (at least the ones who can perceive the ROYGBIV colors). Like, did the Kryptonians know about the Emotional Spectrum before their planet went kablooey? Did the Martians understand that green was the color of willpower?

The flaw with this questioning however, is that even within the confines of the American culture that is the foundation for the comics that Green Lanterns are a part of, the colors of the spectrum aren't a perfect match. Like if you ask someone who's never picked up a GL book what the color of willpower is, it's not a guarantee that they'll answer green.

Sure some of the emotions line up with western color associations, like yellow with fear or red with rage. But red is also tied to love, probably more than violet is. And the other color-emotion matchups like Orange Avarice or Indigo Compassion are just as arbitrary as Green Willpower.

It only gets even more complicated when taking into consideration all the other cultures around the world! Like, in many East Asian cultures, white signifies mourning and death, the complete opposite of it being the color of life in DC's cosmology!

Hell, the reason there's only seven colors in the spectrum is because those are the ones that Geoff Johns picked, presumably because they're the ones we traditionally associate with the rainbow created by refracting white light! And it's not like the colors in a rainbow are clearly distinct and defined like they are in a kid's drawing, they actually blend together. Come to think of it, I vaguely recall one of my elementary school teachers saying indigo wasn't a real color, it was just Isaac Newton's shitty eyesight. Lemme check if that's actually true.

*opens Wikipedia's article on the rainbow*

No. No, fuck you Modern interpretation I am not saying "Cyan Lantern of Hope-"

At least the old newt's arbitrary division of the rainbow into seven means the emotional spectrum lines up with musical notes and Rot Lop Fan being the F Sharp Bell makes sense. But wait, isn't the major scale being seven notes only a western thing? Motherfu-

If there's one conclusion I can pull from this rambling mess of my 5 AM brain, it's that the Emotional Spectrum is probably not universal for any culture within DC's universe, and that's okay

Anyways going back to the idea of Kyle being able to see more colors than humanly possible, it's probably because he did it to himself by accident while he still had reality-altering powers

[commsroom]

do you have any ideas for what you want for eiffel and hera post-canon?

yes, i do! the answer to that really depends on whether we're talking short term or long term, and what i want vs. what i think will happen is... well, i think they'll be okay. eventually. they'll get there.

i'm firmly in the camp that eiffel gets his memories back (fairly short-term in my mental timeline; given the most likely ways that he could get his memories back, it doesn't make much sense for him to be without them for more than a few months) and that hera gets a body (more complicated, and somewhat more long term), but my reasoning for why i think those things work narratively would be a long post in itself (and i've made multiple posts about those topics already) so i won't get into the why here. just, i think it happens.

the note the finale ends on definitely implies eiffel, hera, and minkowski intend to stick together on earth, and i think minkowski feels a lot of responsibility for them, given everything. so i think they live with her, for the foreseeable future. eiffel's not good at holding down a job, and hera... i think it's important that she gets a chance to try things without fear of failure and to separate her self worth from productivity. eiffel and hera are meant to be minkowski's slacker roommates. hera should be creating unmarketable art.

and the issue of where they live will come up pretty quickly, i think - hera doesn't have any particular attachment to anywhere, except for a desire to see the ocean, but mobility might be a problem. minkowski is a career military woman who's moved around a lot, but her husband worked in DC, so presumably they lived in... probably maryland or virginia? before she accepted the job, and that's a complicating factor if she's choosing who to prioritize. i think eiffel would be pretty adamant about staying in texas so he's at least in the same state as his daughter, even if he can't see her. and as much as i would like for eiffel to be able to be a part of her life again, because i know how much he wants that... i don't think it's very likely. at least not any time soon. and he won't handle that well.

speaking about post-canon wolf 359, i don't tend to get that into potential legal / media circuit stuff because... frankly, i don't think it's that important to what the show is about. i'm sure it will be a scandal, but lots and lots of space-travel-related scandals are going on in that world, and cutter and pryce were very intentionally not the public faces of goddard futuristics. it'll pass. that said, the aspect of that i am interested in is legal personhood - that's going to be a hurdle for hera to be able to live her life, and i think eiffel will worry - even if it isn't totally rational - about whether he'll be able to stay out of prison once no longer legally dead, not knowing exactly what the terms of cutter's arrangement were. being an ex-convict is going to complicate some facets of his life regardless.

there's just a lot of stuff that being on earth is going to bring up for them. and i think they'll be there for each other, obviously - one of the things i like most about their relationship is how much they're able to be a refuge for each other in some objectively horrible situations - but they're both pretty insecure people who feel like everyone is bound to replace them, and earth is going to give hera some serious separation anxiety while she's bound to one location and the others aren't, and those are things they're going to have to work through.

as for what i want for them... well. i think eiffel will give hera a 'promise ring' with a kind of jokey but good natured promise that one day she'll be able to wear it. and she does! but neither of them are sure if that counts as a proposal in retrospect and they dance around it for a while. they get married eventually, and - against her better judgment - minkowski agrees to be both eiffel's best man and hera's maid of honor. and ends up taking on way too much of the wedding planning, even though she said she wouldn't, because they're both super lax about it and it starts stressing her out. she tries to delegate to lovelace, but lovelace just thinks it's all really funny. eiffel gets married in a novelty tuxedo tee and minkowski apologizes to hera, but hera knows the type of guy she's marrying (and isn't concerned about tradition anyway) so it doesn't bother her.

[nikki-is-a-nerd]

Invisible String

Synopsis:

While in bed with Ezra, you tell him how you think you two were always destined to find your way to each other.

(it's also my apology for the angst fic and this Taylor Swift song hits in ways you don't know)

Genre: Fluff just tooth rotting fluff.

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It has already been about six months since you and Ezra have been reunited and three months since you two started dating and living together. It wasn't a difficult transition from being friends to lovers, not when you and him had so much history. It felt almost too natural, like you two were meant to end up here.

You and Ezra both grew up with the other members of the ghost crew, you more than him. You were younger than him by three years, but you were part of the crew way before him. When he disappeared, you and Sabine took it so hard, but Sabine at least had an outlet for a while when she was training with Ahsoka, while you stayed behind to help out the resistance in any way that you could.

All those years apart and gaining experiences, though different made you think about the what ifs in life.

"What are you thinking about?" Ezra asked softly as his fingers carded through your hair.

"Just...what if you stayed here. Like you didn't get to sacrifice yourself. Would we have arrived at this point in our lives still?" You asked truthfully.

"I think we would, maybe a lot faster than we did. I also think that it would have been less complicated too. I think I would have confessed to you in a nice field somewhere in either Lothal or we could go to Naboo." Ezra said looking at the ceiling.

"I think I would've liked that, but am I biased if I like the one I did get?" You teased.

"What? The one I said while I had the flu? You're weird." He laughed.

"Only for you." You joked.

You lay your head on his bare chest drawing patterns on it and some of the blaster scars he must've gotten in his time in Peridea. Ezra looked down on you, feeling content and happy, when he asked you a question as well.

Imagine how different life would've been if I declined Kanan's offer to teach me the ways of a Jedi." He said softly.

"I wouldn't have met you, gotten close to you and all of our little adventures with Sabine would be non existent. I don't think Lothal would be free without you." You said softly.

"I wouldn't know how happy I could've been." You added as you looked up at him through your lashes.

"Aw geez, you really know how to fluster a guy." Ezra said as a blush creeped up his face.

"You know I did try though, date other people while you were gone but they didn't work out." You whispered.

"I know, Sabine told me and that's totally fine. Like I told her, as much as I love you and wish to be with you, I don't want you waiting around for someone who might not come back." Ezra added kindly.

"No, Ezra. They didn't work out because I was looking for you in all of them. I was trying to see glimpses of you in them but, then again there's only one you."

It was silent for a while as Ezra let those words sink in. He felt so much unbridled happiness at the thought. He just felt so much happiness.

"I read a book somewhere how some people are connected by the force, or for some a red string, but with how life was with us. The way we keep finding each other. I'm starting to think ours is no measley red string. I think ours is a golden thread." Ezra said.

"Well aren't you a romantic." You teased as you poked his chest.

"Only for you." He returned your earlier words to you.

"Since we're not as busy in the resistance as of yet, wanna come with me to Yavin-4. I want to show you somewhere I used to go before I joined the ghost." You asked.

"Honestly I'd go anywhere with you. I don't think I can handle being away from you for too long now." He said as he kissed your temple.

"You're such a sap. Jacen tells me you talk his ear off during training and you just tell him how we met, albeit very different from how we actually met." You teased.

Ezra looks at you with a teasing grin as he shifts himself to hover over you and moves his hands to where you're ticklish. Letting the sound of both your laughter echo in your little haven. Although Ezra finds it funny to tickle you and finds it even funnier that now that you're both older, you're struggling to get him off of you, but he was much more focused on the sound of your laughter. A sound he truly did miss while in exile.

"Stop, stop, I admit defeat to the great Jabba the Hut!" You exclaimed a bit breathless.

"What? The great Jabba can't hear you clearly?" He said grinning.

"Oh great Jabba, love of my life, sunshine boy, I surrender." You said catching your breath as Ezra slowed his ministrations to a stop.

"Yay! You are now the captive of Jabba!" He said as he dropped his entire bodyweight on you.

"Ezra, no, you're heavier now and you're huge. You're as heavy as a loth wolf or something." You whined playfully.

"This Loth wolf wants to cuddle his darling girl, awooo" Ezra said hiding his face in the crook of your neck.

You card your fingers through his locks and he looks at you. Eyes full of affection, one you're sure you're reciprocating. At that moment, Ezra immediately knew that there was no time more perfect than this. No crowds, no fancy preparation, just you two in your happiest moment in your comfortable pajamas, with the light of the moon being the only light source in the room.

"Marry me?" Ezra asked shyly.

"Huh?" You asked, wanting to be sure.

Ezra moved away from you, allowing you to sit up as he opened a compartment in his bedside drawer, pulling out a small box. He then situated himself in front of you once more as he opened the box and got down on one knee.

"Will you marry me, your goofy and very much smitten boyfriend and make me the happiest guy in the universe, (Y/N) (Y/L/N)?" Ezra asked, his voice shaky as the nerves were settling in.

Your eyes pricked with tears, as you hugged Ezra tightly, nodding your head.

"Yes Ezra. Always yes." You answered as you pulled away.

"Thank the force, I thought I was getting a 'not yet Ezra', I mean I wouldn't mind it but that would definitely destroy my confidence." Ezra said as his own tears of joy rolled down his face.

He grabbed your hand and placed a beautiful ring on your hand. It wasn't too in your face or intricate but it was the perfect ring. You then noticed a certain detail engraved inside the ring.

"Ezra, did you ask the ring maker to engrave this?" You asked, a soft smile on your face.

Ezra looked at you as you handed him the ring so he could see it and he grinned as he read the words.

One single thread of gold tied me to you.

"Yeah, I did. I feel like it sums us up perfectly." Ezra said as he placed the ring back on your finger.

"I love you, I'll always find my way back to you." You said softly.

"I'd wait forever for you too. Now, let's sleep my future Mrs. Bridger." Ezra said with the brightest smile.

"Alright, only because I'd wake up seeing your handsome face." You said as you snuggled closer to Ezra.

The future was truly bright for you two. You won't know what would happen next but as long as you two are together. That would be enough.

[ra-archives]

The Inconveniences of Resurrection

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3/? Chapters Posted

Part 3 of 'Breaking Point'

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TW: Past Character Death, Blood, Gore, (Others to be added with updates)

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The first few weeks of traveling together are a learning curb, to say the least.

Its not necessarily bad, just... complicated. A group of heroes with strong personalities is bound to clash when their forced to live with eachother for the next however long. People make friends and bonds, and some people start to work wonderfully in moments. Some people clash, arguing over leadership, tactics, the lot of it.

Legend finds himself on the more, argumentative sides of things. He finds himself butting heads with Warriors most often. The captain is too commanding for his taste, treating them more like soldiers than equals or even acquaintances. So Legend pushes back, and perhaps he's a bit of an asshole, but its all a learning curb. Warriors lets his commanding nature slip, and Legend stops picking fights at every tiny thing he says.

The first month or so is like a puzzle, trying to find where everyone falls and fits without bumping elbows and stepping on each others feet. Its not a pretty dance, and Warriors is far from the only person he's had fights with, but learning to adapt is a necessary skill in a heroes arsenal. And he does, he compromises and works together, so as those first weeks are coming to a close, he finds himself much more comfortable in the dynamic the Chain has made for themselves.

Thats not to say there aren't still things to learn after the first few rocky weeks. There's plenty more bumps and bruises afterwards. Like the first night Wild spent on the ground. Thats something he won't be forgetting any time soon.

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When they first stumbled through a portal into Wilds era and met him, Legend had clocked him as... odd. The champion had plenty of weird mannerisms, refusing to sleep on the ground, offering everyone bananas, a knack for setting things on fire 'accidentally', but nothing was that out of the ordinary. At least, nothing out of the ordinary when you're using a group of heroes as your baseline.

Wild hasn't really done anything to earn himself distrust, but Legend can't help the few steps to the side he takes every time the Champions around. He makes something in Legends chest twist, and its made worse by the way no one else sees it. The rest of the Chain interacts with Wild nicely, even delightedly in some cases. Even Hyrule, who's known for being skittish, doesn't seem bothered by their new addition. So Legend keeps his mouth shut.

That doesn't mean he's not curious though. He spends a lot of downtime staring and studying Wild, probably too much. The Champion catches him sometimes and shifts uncomfortably, and Legend shoves his nose into the book he's been pretending to be reading for the past twenty minutes. They never talk about it.

Todays one of those days. They're walking another old dusty path, headed some place he doesn't know or care for. So the vet spends his time at the back of the group, staring at the back of Wilds head.

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[musette22]

Hello minnie! Hope your day's going great 💛

I'm coming to your blog because i think you're really kind and accepting when it comes to this, so i'm sorry in advance if this is someting you don't wanna answer BUT, i have a question about evanstan. It's gonna get kinda lengthy.

See, i've always been a marvel fan, but was just part of the GA. Then i fell into a rabbit hole not so long ago and somehow ended up learning about rpf and evanstan specifically. I've seen posts, watched fanmade videos, read fanfics, and it's all great and nice! Some of your work's made the cut, actually, and i truly love the fics i've got to read from you 🥹

Thing is, when it comes to evanstan, i can't help to wonder what the general consensus is within rpfers. Do we think they either:

Option 1: had a thing, but aren't together anymore (still are friends, tho)

Option 2: still have a thing / are still together (which is kinda tricky bc a lot of things would come into play with this one - pr included, that i know is kinda controversial and a taboo in certain circles)

Option 3: we only rpf for jokes and funsies, but it's not something we actually believe that happened

Or a secret 4th option idk about yet hahah

So yeah, that's basically it. I'd just like to understand the fandom's pov, if there even is one.

Feel free to ignore this if you prefer to not reply, or if you don't want to post the ask, but still feel like answering, just call me late to the party anon (😭) so i know you're talking about my ask haha

Anyway, thank you so much! 🫶

Hello my darling! My day is going well, thank you, I hope yours is too! 💗 Love hearing that you fell down the Evanstan rabbit hole, it's a great hole to fall down lmao, so I hope you're having fun with it!

Thank you so much for being so sweet, and so thoughtful and respectful about this, I appreciate that a lot! I don't mind answering this question, although I'm afraid I can't really give you a conclusive answer.

Basically, there isn't any real consensus amongst Evanstan shippers about all this, as far as I'm aware. As is always the case with RPF shipping, it's a mixture of people with varying degrees of investment and various different beliefs. All three kinds of approaches you mention here are represented, though I feel like most of the people I know who also still ship the boys are more or less all on the same page, and that’s probably somewhere between the first and the third option. Or at least, that's where I am.

Personally, I would not be at all surprised if something really did happen between them at some point, but whether that was a fling, or an actual relationship of some kind, or just some flirting and drunken shenanigans, I couldn't tell you. I guess it's all possible, just as it's possible that nothing actually ever happened, and they just had some not-so platonic feelings for each other that they never actually acted on.

What I don't believe is that things have always been 100% strictly platonic between them, though, but I also don't believe they had or still have a longstanding secret relationship or anything like that. I do like to believe that they'll always have a soft spot for each other, maybe even carry a bit of a torch, because life is long and complicated and you can love many people in one lifetime, and not everything will always work out, but that doesn't mean those things are meaningless or worthless, you know? And clearly, whatever may or may not have happened, they're still friends who love and respect each other very much! And I think that's wonderful ❤️

Sometimes when I make Evanstan posts I am 100% serious, other times I'm just playing with my beautiful boy dolls who I love very dearly, and sometimes I'm just joking around. But overall, what I described above is pretty much how I approach this ship, and I think there are quite a few others who share that view. To be honest, I don't actually care what people believe, as long as they remain respectful towards the boys and their loved ones and don't hate on them or even harass them. That is very much where I draw the line, but other than that, I think everyone should decide for themselves what they think, and have fun with it!

I'm sorry this is such a non-answer, nonnie, but I still hope it sort of answers your question! Sending hugs! 💕💕

[butch-chastity]

as The cass enjoyer and dick enjoyer i need your ideal cass & dick dynamic pls 🤲

dick & cass's dynamic is really interesting because, up until the evil cass arc, their canon material together tends to be really good! (even if there's not a lot of it)

cause, like, in the beginning, dick puts up his usual front. he's all about appearing responsible and collected in front of the new, "less experienced" hero:

Batman: Legends of the Dark Knight #120 / Batman: Family #7

but drops that role the moment he spends a few minutes alone with her.

dick realizes very quickly that a) cass can see through any facade dick tries to play in to, and that b) cass doesn't need him to be someone older & wiser than her.

batgirl #29

compared to dick's other siblings, like damian and tim, cass feels like dick's contemporary, not someone he's mentoring or trying to guide.

they're on equal ground. and, they both know that they can take care of themselves.

this leads them to be pretty silly (for bats) around one another:

Detective Comics #782

gotham knights #45

Batman: Legends of the Dark Knight #184

because, while i'm not going to outright say that dick is completely himself around her (as in, he lets himself be emotional vulnerable), dick is at least aware that he can't pretend around her, and probably feels at least a little kinship with her.

I mean, they're pretty similar. They enable each other's guilt complexes, neither one of them is comfortable spending a lot of time in one place, and they wouldn't know what a healthy amount of devotion looked like if it smacked them upside the head.

^ that's not even unpacking their similar forms of trauma, which is just. woof. y'know?

cass's insecurities are similar to dick's, in that they're both desperately afraid of slipping up and hurting every one, but also her insecurities aren't similar to his at all because they formed under completely different circumstances and choose to act on those fears in different ways.

i think a lot of what i'm trying to say could be summed up by my own tags on a post:

as well as @/heroesriseandfall's tags on the same post:

also, as cool as dick & cass's canon material is, there isn't a lot of it and the evil cass character assassination ruined EVERYTHING!!!

i want cass and dick in blud together!!!!!! we were so close to having it all!!!! i want it sooooo bad and its so fucked that dc editorial decided to pull BULLSHIT and drag cass through the mud for ??? reasons.

so, tl;dr my ideal dick & cass dynamic is pretty complicated, but looks a little like this:

they trust each other a lot. and they're a little goofy together, because they're on equal ground, and both know they're really damn good at their jobs. the majority of their relationship is quiet, based around mutual understanding and an unspoken desire to fill in the gaps left behind by trauma.

and if i had it my way: they would both live in blud (for at least part of the year) and get shitty midnight coffee together, on the really bad nights.

my absolute favorite interaction they have is in NW vol. 2, even if it happens because dick is busy being a cop:

because, yeah. "what do you need me to do?" that's it.

also, much as i love being recognized as a dick and cass enjoyer, i think the person who's actually thee d&c enjoyer is @heroesriseandfall, who posts about them semi frequently and is actually smart enough to keep a dedicated tag, which i pillaged for screenshots for this post.

thank you, bestie. :>

[golden28s]

Let's talk about why Blank Space by Taylor Swift is an Ian Gallagher song.

The ironic tone of the song is so important and key for this, Taylor presents herself as this serial dater that makes men fall in love with her by being exactly what they want, makes that relationship a living hell because it seems, according to the narrative that the media spreads, that she's the problem and then they leave her. She's embracing the character that the media built for her and she's doing it with irony and sarcasm, like "oh, yeah I'm so crazy I even have a list of all the men I've dated".

So keeping this in mind, let's see the connections to Ian. In my mind this song encapsulates his character from s4 to s10 but specially in s6 and s7. What do we see him doing in those two seasons? Dating men that aren't Mickey. And he tries, he tries really hard to be what they want, what they need. He even, specially in Caleb's case, tries to separate them from his family so they don't know he's not this well put together persona he's trying to be. But that's his nature, a nature that he also embraces with irony and sarcasm every time he talks about his bipolar. He keeps that tone every time he thinks or insinuates that any of those relationships could end because of that, because it seems like he's the problem, like he's the one being what everyone needs until the worst comes. Until this nature he can't stop manifests itself and the relationship ends.

He views himself as a mess, as a problem, as this fucked up thing no one can't fix because there's nothing to fix. He thinks he’s this thing that can lie and pretend to be okay, to be fine until it's not, until it breaks and it hurts you leaving you with a nasty scar. Obviously this comes from the idea that he could end up being like his mum, being destructive. He feels that being in a relationship with him is just waiting for the fatal final mess that at some point will come, you could even say he thinks he's a nightmare dressed like a daydream. He can be what you want, you can fall in love with him but the end is right there waiting. The destructive nature he thinks he has in him it's patiently waiting.

It feels like he started those relationships knowing they would end, that they would be a name on that list the song mentions and maybe the rumor would spread and "they'll tell you I'm insane". Though that line could also be a reference to the reputation that having the same mental illness as his mum builts for him.

But then, Trevor. He lets Trevor know some stuff about his family and this time it's not only him the destructive element, it's his family at least in s7. And he lets him know probably because he has seen other complicated lives because of his job, so he could understand and not judge unlike Caleb who had a very stable and normal life. So he tries, he tries to be everything Trevor needs, he listens, he nods and smiles and understands. He tries to be better and know better and tries, he tries so hard to fit in Trevor's world, in Trevor's life. But it happens again, he's just dressed as a daydream because he wants to be loved so bad that he would be anything for that, he would be that boy for a month. But once again, never forgetting the irony and sarcasm of it all, the worst is yet to come. And of course, everything ends but Trevor couldn't say he didn't warn him. Ian told him about his mum, about his bipolar so he should've seen it coming, right?

Turns out boys don’t want love if it’s torture even if that's what he has seen in his parents, even if he has seen destruction being part of love. But he will take those relationships way too far, because he's young and reckless and will watch them end knowing it was gonna happen, knowing everyone knew it would because this is what he does, this is what that nature he understands as his, does.

This is why Blank Space is an Ian Gallagher song, because in an ironical and sarcastic way, he embraces the idea of him being the problem, the reason why his relationships don't work.

[specialshinytrinkets]

The funniest part about my OCs is that, out of all characters, Kee has the most normal parents (others I just didn't get much into-)

Like. There are three somewhat main characters: Derres, Lioo and Kee (like Sonic the Hedgehog). There's also Ies, but her deal is kind of Complicated™, since they're not quite. Someone to have parents. Cuz. She's a demon-

But anyways (warning for death mention):

Derres doesn't want to remember his parents much to not let the grief and trauma resurface, but he idolises them a lot. However, his speech about them is more often than not very... vague, prioritising the feeling of him missing their company than any specific memory. And I don't blame him, because, if you actually dig in, there aren't many niceties to remember! Being a witcher in a secluded place, from a dynasty of sorts, it was inevitable that a lot of responsibility would be put onto him, especially considering he is the youngest, most recent holder of the amplifiers. So, the pressure resulted in an odd dynamic where young Derres knew that he is loved (he must be loved), but would dismiss his own feelings to prioritise what is important, so that he would be given attention (the way to earn love). Of course, it does not mean the parents were cold to him all the time, but it was not an ideal dynamic. And sadly, one that could not be prevented or, at least, mended. Not now...

Lioo, on the other hand, despises her mom, namely because of how she handled her proposal to become Derres' apprentice. Now, obviously, she was 18 when she left home to do what she wanted, so you need to take this with a grain - or a cup - of salt. However, her decision had somewhat reasonable roots: she saw how much Derres provided for the community, stressing himself out every day, and wanted to easen up his job. Her mom did not take it well, though, shutting down the idea at every possibility. Think of "Blow My Brains Out" by Tikkle Me, specifically the chorus (lyrics):

Lucky is she who lives unaware Doesn't get bothered by those who don't care Lucky is she who lives unaware Who doesn't get bothered by all that's unfair Unlucky me who knows way too much Who fights to make changes and music and such Unlucky me, aware of the pain All 'cause I happen to have some brain

Mixing together teenager maximalism and seeing the indifferent response to trying to fix the issue is bound to create fire. And it wasn't put out, even after drowning. In fact... The rift deepened. Since, who else can be blamed for your daughter's death, but the man who "took her away with witchcraft"? Who else can be yelled at for ruining your child? For making a deal with a demon? Who else?

And then we have Kee, who has been fully supported by his parents throughout his entire life. Said parents tried their best to help him adjust to the prosthetics and reach out when their son suddenly isolated himself and left the city. He's gonna regret that, alright.

All in all, very funny how the guy you'd expect to have fucked up upbringing actually has it fine, he just got hurt much later in life than the rest, hence why his coping isn't very good. And well. We are witnessing it in real time, and not as a memory. Trauma is messy

[honey-minded-hivemind]

Beast Anon back again xP I apologize for the late reply and I'm sorry to hear you were stressed. As always I would encourage you to take it easy where you can, friend :) I'm doing well, thank you for asking, and to answer your question, the reason I like those kinds of AUs and relationships isn't anything that complicated, I just...find them really wholesome ^^ With them, you're always guaranteed a certain level of fluff and slice-of-life goodness that's easy to imagine and can help get you through your day when you need that extra little bit of warmth in your day, ya'know? :D As for why I prefer it with some X-Men characters, well, I have two reasons. Firstly, with the multiverse being an extremely canon thing in Marvel, especially X-Men in this case, it makes the idea of these relationships and stories a kind of canon in themselves, and it's always so fun to explore that ^^ To explain that a little more and get into the second reason, when you're dealing with the X-Men, some of the most exciting and complex Marvel characters of all time, you know these situations are going to be more than just a daily routine, there's always going to be some twist/emotional adventure to explore along the way, and it adds a whole new depth to the situation. True, you could argue that to be the case with just about any fictional character but...c'mon, it's the X-Men! xD As for your soon-to-be recent viewing of the first two episodes of X-Men '97, I promise you a real treat, but, I am obligated to not spoil a thing ^^ Except this: OMG HANK FINALLY SAID THE THING!!! :DDDD

No worries, Beast Anon! I am glad to hear from you again, and there is no set time or need to respond immediately. What happens happens. And I finally started watching the first episode of X-Men 97 and so far, my thoughts are as follows:

• Roberto you sweet, poor child... You don't know the half of it-

• Who the f*ck is hiding Sentinel parts?! They're fr*cking HUGE, how does someone just move that around?! Someone knows something, how can you not when a single Sentinel arm is bigger than a car-!

• Go Morph! Mighty Morph-ling Power Ranger! (Well, X-Man)

• Wolverine, dude, please get over the love triangle; you and Scott were friends once, can you two get some team or friend therapy and try to talk about it for once?

• Where is the official team therapist? Nor the therapist friend, the actual certified therapist-

• Let the kids have fun!

• Roberto, they viewer-insert/new guy who is how everyone would react to the crazy shenanigans of the X-Men and Marvel

• Mr. Xavier, I am starting to believe you and Magneto really WERE more than friends, or were some form of QPR at the least

• And Magento is back! And more... oddly looking well for someone who is in their... 70s, I think? Wow. He's doing good (if you aren't counting losing his best bud and possible boyfriend, not to mention inheriting aforementioned friend's family, school, and property)

Aaaaand that is about how far I've gotten. I need to play a little catch-up😅😊

And now I really want to see Beast and Carla get together/have a secret date, watch Wolverine and Morph or Wolverine and Storm become a couple, get more Sabretooth and the Brotherhood in this show (please please please let them be brothers) (sorry fandom members who ship them, I view them platoncially!), hopefully they introduce Laura/X-23 at some point, someone let Rogue and Gambit get together, we know that is likely endgame, and yes yes yes Roberto can be Jubilee's friend (and maybe sibling?) (Whatcha wanna bet she's wanted one since the first year?)

And woo! Yes, platonic yandere genre! I get the points you've made: Platonic yandere could be canon in some way, and it's Marvel, so canon is a bag of 40+ flavor jellybeans and a 45+ flavor milkshake stand... Also, yes, X-Men add a certain flair to the platonic yandere trope. Surprise, super-poweree genetically enhanced people, and this random teen/young adult/child who they somehow procured. Que a normal Tuesday of crazy villains, more insane humans, some weird relationship issues and the break-up then make-up, and (gasp) surprise! You have been blessed with this new character to love! They're called Reader, they can be sweet at times, they are willing to use a metal bat as a weapon, and oh, and they are as addictive to y'all as catnip is to cats!

May I ask your top three favorite X-Men characters? Top three favorite heroes, and favorite villain, so four favorite characters? Do you enjoy how I write them (if I have written for them) as platonic yanderes? Do you want an older teen/adult cartoon or anime where the X-Men are platonic yandere over someone? I myself do, and I would have so manh ideas on it! Are there any duo platonic yanderes you like, where two team up over Reader or are both interested in the same one? (Ex. Rogue and Gambit, Kurt and Rogue, Wolverine and Sabretooth, etc.)

I hope you have a good night/day! I will hopefully get to the second episode of X-Men 97 tomorrow, and once the first season is finished for the series, I can add X-Men 97 to the X-Men media I will write for😊 (And if you want to discuss any if this more, I am all ears!)

[multiplicity-positivity]

Any advice for a past anti-endo becoming pro-endo? I find myself slowly drifting away from friends who consider themselves anti-endo and I wonder if maybe I'm doing something wrong. I understand endos aren't perfect but they aren't as bad as people make them out to be. Sorry if this is too discoursey for this blog, feel free to ignore if it is!

hey - we don’t mind answering this, but we’ll do so under a cut to spare our followers from the syscourse. followers, if syscourse upsets you, please scroll on without clicking to keep reading.

so first of all, that’s great that you’re having a more open mind about plurality and endogenic systems! accepting and embracing different forms of plurality can help bring us closer together as a community :)

we’re sorry it’s been causing you to drift away from your friends as a result… syscourse is a complicated and nuanced topic, and it’s hard to find anyone who will agree with your syscourse beliefs 100%. we know pro endos who still maintain friendships with anti endos, and we do believe it’s possible to maintain positive relationships with those who disagree with you without wavering in your beliefs.

i suppose some general advice we’d like to give for a previous anti endo who’s changing their ways is:

1) trust yourself for validation, not other pro endos.

if you are open and accepting of other kinds of systems, that is excellent, and you are doing the right thing. many in the pro endo community may struggle to accept folks who have changed their ways. there’s lots of “once an anti, always an anti”, “syscourse unaligned/neutral just means anti”, and “anti endos are a hate group” sentiments online. and those who genuinely have these beliefs likely won’t trust or show kindness to those who have been anti endos in the past. so don’t be too discouraged and please don’t go back to being anti endo if you’re not accepted in the community by other pro endos. we ourself have been shunned by much of the pro endo community for being “syscourse unaligned,” so we know personally how that goes. but that hasn’t stopped us from listening to and supporting endogenic systems to the best of our ability.

2) stay out of syscourse, at least for a while

syscourse is dangerous. discussions (on the rare occasions there is one) are often emotionally charged and can get very heated very quickly. so many individuals on all sides of syscourse truly believe that their opinions are the only right ones, and everyone else needs to change or leave the system community. so if you’re learning more about endogenic systems and trying to be a pro endo, it may be wise to just stay out of syscourse and support nontraumagenic systems from the sidelines. one way you can do this is by…

3) following common pro endo tags

“#pluralgang” in general is pretty accepting of all systems. there’s also “#endo safe,” “#endo friendly,” “#endogenic,” “#pro endo,” “#nontraumagenic,” and “#nontraumagenic safe.” you will see the occasional cross post which doesn’t belong, but for the most part, these tags are by endo systems and supporters, for endo systems and their supporters. following these tags can help you feel less isolated from the community!

4) know when to set boundaries and draw the line

it’s well known that the pro endo community (and the plural community in general, honestly) has issues with racism, particularly concerning “tulpamancy” language, which has been condemned by many buddhist systems of color. it is possible to be pro endo without condoning the racism that exists within the community! please make an effort to listen to, center, and uplift plural voices of color in your discussion spaces. it’s possible to believe in tulpamancy and be pro tulpa systems while not standing for their choice of language use. please don’t be accepting of all practices and terminology at face value; when you hear marginalized groups voicing their concerns, listen to them and take them seriously. there are plenty of other terms to describe these systems you can use besides “tulpa” - our system uses paro/paromancy/paromancer, which is not a term bastardized from vajrayana buddhism and tibetan culture.

5) think critically about what you see online

as with any community, there can be bad actors, and there can be ableism. please put your thinking cap on when reading others’ posts, especially posts made by endogenic systems that discuss did/osdd and other dissociative disorders. learn how to spot misinformation and disinformation. try to understand when posts are slightly misguided, and when they may have ulterior motives to cause harm to traumagenic systems. there are accounts out there run by people who will make bigoted, hurtful, and untrue statements regularly, but since they do this eloquently and with a cheery attitude, they often go unchecked. make sure you’re being careful when engaging with the pro endo community, to try and avoid interacting with those whose intentions are to harm disabled systems.

6) try not to waver in your beliefs

if you end up having conversations about syscourse with your anti endo friends, you may find that they spend time trying to steer you back to disliking or disbelieving endo systems. having a few talking points to help you stand your ground could be really useful. some of our go-to statements are:

- other people know themselves and their experiences more than i ever will.

- just because someone’s personal or spiritual beliefs are not provable by science doesn’t mean that they deserve to be disrespected.

- policing other people’s identities and lived experiences is never a good look.

- for the most part, endogenic systems do not claim to have dissociative disorders and do not take up resources allocated for traumagenic systems, contrary to popular belief.

hopefully these things can help keep you on track. you’re not doing anything wrong by coming to a better understanding of plurality and choosing to listen to and respect nontraumagenic systems. remember we’re not the end-all-be-all to syscourse and the pro endo community! we’re just one system who’s been around the block sharing our ideas.

we seriously hope that soon you can find community with likeminded people. thank you for making a genuine attempt to learn more - we see you and appreciate your efforts in trying to change for the better!

🐢 kip and 💫 parker

[ramshacklestar]

SHIPPING INFO. Answer the following for your muse(s) so people know how shipping works on your blog.

What’s your OTP for your Muse(s)?

I do not actually have a OTP for Yuuna, and she's relatively open to anyone and everyone. I however do not personally care for (though rare but it exists) GrimxYuu and humanoid OrthoxYuu, but I'd be open to an au scenario where Ortho actually survived~.

What are you willing to RP when it comes to shipping?

There really isn't a limit when it comes to what I'll rp, I personally do not have any triggers but the concept of non intimate related physical abuse (ie: spanking, grabbing onto each other in the heat of the moment, etc.) is not something I'm comfortable with. So as long as we remain tame in that sort of department, we'll be golden.

How large does the age gap have to be to make it uncomfortable?

Age of consent varies country by country, so long as our muses are at the age of consent you're not too young.

Are you selective when shipping?

Big yes, though I do enjoy a lot of the Yuu ships I see I'm not the type to straight up throw my muse at my rp partners without discussing the idea with them first, and would love if I was given the same courtesy.

I do also prefer to be writing with my rp partner and have some semblance of chemistry formed between our muses before we start to talk about that. If you have the idea to ship your muse with mine I'll certainly hear you out at any point but Yuuna's not the type to be instantly head over heels in love.

How far do steamy moments have to go before they’re considered NSFW?

I'm not uncomfortable with writing NSFW, I'm just also not very good at it, so when we get to the point in which the passionate hugging part is happening I will typically fade at that point.

However; kissing, touching, pressing up close to each other, clothing discarding, that is open and welcome.

Who are other muses you ship your muse with?

At this current time I have an AzulxYuu ship, a RuggiexYuu ship, and a FloydxYuu ship but those are not exclusive and I am definitely willing to ship with duplicates and potentially other Yuu's as well if the other rper and myself agree on that.

Yuu is a open character and I am adaptive to many different fandoms (so long as they aren't part of my hard no fandoms cause of the toxicity), so Yuu is shippable in any sort of situation. Just know though, she is complicated to ship with due to her being pretty oblivious to someone having feelings for her.

Thus why I only really have 3 ships at this time

Does one have to ask to ship with you?

I do prefer we at least talk about the idea first but you don't directly need to ask if we can ship our characters. Just popping in my dm's and being like 'hey I think our characters would work well together' will get you a response either ranging on some form of yes or agreement or it'll be a matter of me saying perhaps we should rp a bit first and feel it out.

I'm not going to outright say hard no on any ships, aside from the underage thing or one of my two NOTP's but if I'm just not feeling it I will let you know that at least.

I will say though despite the relationship between Mc, Ace and Deuce I will not immediate ship simply because the characters get along in the game. This also goes for the McxMal relationship; so please just don't do that :3

How often do you like to ship?

I love exploring shipping ideas with people, and if I happen to be feeling it I will also likely slide into your dm's. But that's not the point of this rp blog either and Yuu is more that character that wants to primarily be your friend before being your girlfriend/lover.

Are you multiship?

Yes, it is also not limited to just the twst fandom.

Are you ship obsessed or ship more-or-less?

Ship more-or-less typically, again I didn't make the blog for the sole purpose of shipping. I certainly enjoy shipping though.

What is your favorite ship in your current fandom?

All I'll say is there's at least 3 at the top cause I can't decide which I like more. >;3

Finally, how does one ship with you?

Talk to me :) my discord is available for mutuals or if you just want to dm me here that works just as well. I'm a pretty open person and will certainly respond when you send me a message, may not be immediate cause work and life, but I'm not the type of person to fully ghost another.

Tagged by: @wishkept

Tagging: @kkriitters, @sleeplesswork, @halfafishandawholehuman, @paramythas (whoever you're feeling)for the 4 of you) & anyone else who wants to do it~

[twistedtummies2]

Which do you like most: Obey Me, FGO, or Twisted Wonderland?

You'd think this would be a hard question to answer, but it really isn't. And the answer probably isn't a surprise. I'm gonna put a Keep Reading here though, because I do ramble a touch. 'XD

I'd say, of the three games - which, so far, are the only games I have on my phone (because I barely have room for them, let alone any more) - Twisted Wonderland is my favorite, Obey Me is my least favorite, and Fate/Grand Order is right smack in the middle between them. Now, for all you FGO and OM fans, this does not mean I dislike either game. FAR from it. I really love Obey Me's sense of humor, and the characters are very fun. It's also the one of the three where your choices really do dictate the way things progress; most notably in forming relationships with the characters. In FGO, some of your choices have an effect on the gameplay, but most of them just seem to MAYBE give you slightly different dialogue. Twisted Wonderland really is just "slightly different dialogue if you choose X vs. Y." However, I'm not a huge fan of the "dance battle" system, and it's the one of the three that's most explicitly focused on forming relationships - specifically romantic ones - with your cast. Despite all the otome and gacha titles I've looked into, and how much I love romantic relationships with my characters, actually PLAYING romance-themed games isn't quite my speed. I make an exception for OM. XD With FGO, I love it mostly for the reasons I love the Fate series as a whole: seeing all the characters reimagined from history, literature, and mythology come together, and how they are portrayed. Whether I love them, hate them, or even just don't have strong feelings about them in general, the simple concept is just one that I really, really love. I mean, how often can I say I got to battle the Knights of the Round Table or heroes from Anceint Greece with the help of Professor Moriarty and Vlad Dracula? That's just something I love in general, and Fate - for all its ups and downs - does some really interesting stuff there. HOWEVER, I've always felt the lore of the entire franchise is...well...EXTREMELY hard to follow, and I also have what might be termed a love/hate relationship with the combat system. FGO relies on a lot more strategic thinking and planning than the other two games, and - unfortunately - a lot of the characters I love most AS characters aren't necessarily the best ones to use in combat on a strategic level. Plus, once you know and have the characters who "break the game," you don't have a lot of reason to use other ones: why use someone who can't get the job done as easily when you can just thoroughly own the competition? And when those characters who can do that job are ones I'm not as interested in as others, it creates a mismatch of interests, so to speak. Twisted Wonderland, of the three, is just the right kind of game for me: I love ALL the characters, it's challenging enough without being obscenely complicated, the lore and background of this world is just bonkers enough to keep me entertained, it clearly has shipping on the brain but isn't super overt about it...really, the only problem I have with TW is that, of the three so far, it feels like the one where I have to do the most grinding to get a lot done. And, to be honest...I don't really mind grinding in TW, most of the time. I don't love it, naturally, but it can just kind of happen in the background while I do other things. With FGO and OM, you can't really do things that way: the grinding itself requires some attentiveness that I can't always afford, which is part of why, in both cases, I haven't gotten through as much of them yet.

Again, I should stress that I do enjoy all three games. But I don't need to be tied to a chair to immediately say TW is my favorite. It's not the perfect mobile game, or game in general, by ANY means, but it's one of those games that's perfect for ME, specifically, if that makes sense. FGO is where I wanna go if I want something challenging and strategic; OM is where I wanna go if I want something more colorful, comical, and slightly mellow in comparison; TW is a good blend of both. Plus, as much as I love stories themed around almost Faustian concepts, as well as how much I love classic literature, mythology, and various parts of history...TW is the world of the Disney Villains, and Disney in general. And that fandom is one of my absolute biggest places of expertise. I don't know all the characters and myths featured in Fate; I know EVERYONE'S source in TW, and I LOVE everyone's source in TW. One thing all three of these have in common is that they have PLENTY of EXTREMELY kinkable, crushable characters, with a large number of canon big eaters and/or canon preds present. XD

[squishylemonbubbles]

How about some of your favorite KZMJ headcanons? :Dc Or favorite tropes you like writing the most?

OOH MAN the hard questions!! ty!!! >:3

i love focussing on goromi and kazumi bc of those genderqueer feelings. i went on that rant the other day PFFT but it can be really hard to find characters that have a mixed/gnc presentation that aren't just treated as a joke, which. don't get me wrong, that is how goromi's introduction is treated, yet she's also given the hostess routine with a genuine conversation, which is. more than most i've seen lmao.

i think it's hard to come across online bc you don't see any of my physical mannerisms or my inner thoughts in their purest form, but my masculinity and being a man are extremely important to me - as well as my femininity, my being gnc, the days where i like settling down as a "cute girl" while never being solely that. soooo i love putting a focus on gender, presentation, the rules and what it means to break them. i will infect everyone in this series with gender if i have to (<- joke lmao)

i also love like… the interplay of majima and kiryu not necessarily taking care of themselves all the time, but absolutely putting it in for the other, and the kinds of tension that can bring when going too far to help. i do think i write kiryu in crisis more than majima - that's less trope preference though and more seeing myself in his problems a bit clearer than majima's, giving me more perspective to write from, and some of kiryu's troubles (or like, hypothetical troubles lmao) being lesser explored in my eyes

uhh hmm specific headcanons.

kiryu and majima both know JSL, but ironically it's majima who knows less - between them majima is the one with hearing problems, being another one of his complications from the hole, and another that he tries to hide. meanwhile, kiryu's generation in sunflower included a deaf kid, so it was ensured the caretakers and other kids would know at least the basics. nishiki and kiryu in particular took to becoming conversational, using it between themselves if they needed to keep things quiet, quickly flash each other a code, the works. so kiryu and majima use JSL together, not as much as speech, but it can help with keeping things quiet, or alternatively, when one of their brains is on the fritz lmao. both of them have times where they lose their speech, usually from stress, so it's nice to have signs to fall back on. (however, they can't use JSL to keep secrets from haruka, as she's learning it too!)

kiryu has kleptomania (impulse control disorder; the urge to steal is disconnected from one's thoughts on the morality of stealing, and even liking stealing at all), majima knows this, so sometimes he leaves around trinkets/straight up gifts to give him the thrill of stealing without the consequence. if he needs something back he knows he can just ask and kiryu will return it, and he trusts kiryu not to lie and say he didn't steal something when he really did.

if kiryu had to pick one favourite physical trait of majima's, it would be his face. but okay, let's say he's not allowed to do that and he has to pick any other part of majima's body? he'd say majima's back. he loves his irezumi and what it represents, not only for its intended symbolism, but also the numerous scars both physical and mental that his irezumi try to hide. he would spend hours focussing on the hannya if he could, comforting her to comfort majima in the process his next favourite trait? majima's hands. no further comment.

if majima had to pick one favourite physical trait of kiryu's, it would be his tits. this would, in fact, be a little bit of a lie. he likes the comfort of hearing kiryu's heartbeat - sometimes he has trouble feeling like he's still alive (hence my take on the zombie majima persona; it's not always a fun act) so getting to hear kiryu's life helps. but that's more embarrassing to say than just saying tits, and i mean, they are a good set of tits regardless hehehe his next favourite would be kiryu's arms. he loves that strength and, on a sappier note, those hugs.

okay i am now thoroughly brainfarting on any more to say at the moment WHOOPS 💖

[dogsliampaynedoesntinstagram]

I wonder about that sometimes, if they have a CO planned out. I wonder how much planning would have to go into that because there are 2 of them to think about. Even if HL aren't together anymore then I would think they'd still need to work together as a CO from one of them will raise questions about what happened in 1D. It would probably bring more attention to Larry. Every so often they'll say or do something that doesn't make any sense now but I wonder if it will make sense in the future with more context. The CO process really interests me a lot... if they will start laying the groundwork in advance or leave it closer to the tie, if they will tie up loose ends or just wing it, if there will be signs or it'll be when we least expect it etc. I love to look for signs but it's pointless really because it could happen in 1 year or 10 years or 20 or not at all, we'll never know until it happens.

I do think the question of how they think about coming out is a really interesting (and unknowable one). Is coming out something that is unthinkable at the moment, is it a desire for some vague future which is on the never never, is there a desire for a slightly more concrete future that impacts on the present day, or is there a concrete plan that is currently in place?

Fascinating question - there's no way we could have any idea about the answer.

If they're not together - then I don't think they'd need to work together to come out. I think if things weren't terrible between them then the person who was coming out would give the other a heads up. But there would be no need to plan together. Obviously there would be some discussion of the fact that fans believe they are together if they came out, but I don't think it would be that significant. (If Louis came out the question about Harry wouldn't be that big a part of Harry discourse. And if Harry came out the questions about Louis wouldn't be that big a part of Harry coming out).

I also think if there's just one of them coming out then there's a lot more options. It would have to be planned - but things can be planned over a relatively short timetable and it could be a 'I can't do this anymore' type timetable. Although given the regular cycle of a touring artists life - I think it would be more likely to take place in a way that reflects that cycle. I think it's unlikely that a touring artist would come out mid-tour - it's a uncontrollable environment.

If they are together and are planning on being out together and about their relationship - then I think things get heaps more complicated and would have to be planned significantly in advance. There are so many challenges to Harry and Louis coming out together (to add one - how do you do any kind of set up when you have all these people who will lose their minds if you start to do what you do very much mean to do. Or how do you deal with the fact that there are a lot of people who work in the media and write stories - who are very invested in this and it might have an impact on their sense of identity. And those are just some of the fandom based problems).