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Hey, so to have a second good thing to wake up to (yes, i am a freak that reads tags) have a question:
How do you think Misha and Arthur would meet? And how would Misha respond to literally puppeteering Arthur during WITW?
HOW ARE YOU SO FAST i havent even had my morning coffee when you sent this sjhdbfjshd
long answer ahead:
im guessing you mean them meeting face to face. how i imagine it happening starts with misha carrying arthur back to base after he passes out from severely overstraining himself during a fight. usually they would phase in and drag arthur to a safe spot and watch over him until he woke up.. but this is a dangerous area and that cough sounded particularly bad, so they decide to drop the act and get him to safety
up until that moment theyve been backseating his missions and talking to him the whole time.. due their chronic inability to shut up and keep a low profile. any questions about their identity are either ignored or answered with a shitty lie ("dont worry arthur im just your subconsciousness :)" "you dont sound like me" "dont worry about it :)")
after arthur wakes up, he goes to find out how tf he got here since he was running solo and no one was supposed to be in the area, people tell him he got brought back by a stranger thats currently talking to dr entrati. no one knows who they are or where they came from but seem to be important to the doctor
when the two finally meet he instantly recognizes the voice thats been talking to him in his head nonstop but cant straight up ask without sounding insane to everyone else. arthur settles on asking if they met before and misha says that maybe they have, who knows? ;)
misha sticks around in the flesh after that and they team up :) the voice in arthurs head has gone suspiciously silent for the most part but he can still feel some echo of foreign emotions bouncing around his skull
as for the puppeteering part: misha has mixed feelings about the whole warframe thing and already feels very iffy controlling umbra. they tried to keep their control over arthur to the absolute minimum before their official meeting and forgoes it completely when they work together (up until the inevitable reveal i guess)
#cant say misha is a good actor#or a good liar for that matter#their acting is very much theatrical due to duviri#so you can imagine how much nobody buys what theyre saying#its a hilariously messy situation#this is your chosen operator albrecht good luck#inbox#chronicler of narrative#drifter misha#wf arthur#personal hc
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all motivational speakers should do the motivational thing and kill themselves
#home cooked hijinks#āsuccessful students were crying themselves to sleep at night. and the reason for THAT is because they don't have a C.O.M.P.Sā no jared.#jared the reason for that is because i have 5 assessments in the next two days and the world is going to shit and i have 1000 homework#āgetting into a good university doesnt really matter to employersā jared i think you may be a bitch ass liar#ājust make friends. that makes you less sadā jared you were grown in a vat and never went to high school !!
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Why did you do it? I don't know what you're talking about. I was drunk that night, and you told me you would always look at meā You want to get back at me, right?
KISEKI: DEAR TO ME Ep. 09
#kiseki: dear to me#kisekiedit#kdtm#kiseki dear to me#ai di x chen yi#chen yi x ai di#louis chiang#chaing tien#jiang dian#nat chen#chen bowen#userspring#userrain#uservid#userspicy#userjjessi#pdribs#*cajedit#*gif#WE LOVE WHEN AI DI IS A BITCH. 10/10 NO NOTES. just. be a freak about it why dont you i love this for him#its actually insane how good of a liar he is. like........he really truly seems so unbothered by everything#but no matter what he says the idea of something casual is the last thing he could ever want. its so painful for him#and he only pushes the idea because he doesnt think chen yi will ever ever love him seriously OR casually#as if the idea of being with him could anger chen yi. SHOULD anger chen yi. because of how preposterous it is#but he also feels like he owes chen yi. like. ai di literally thought that after prison chen yi would never seek him out#would never want to speak to him ever again and he thinks thats BETTER for them too bc he cant take back what he did AND#he cant take back his own vulnerability. but he cant take anything casual with chen yi so he hides behind this facade of being uncaring#that chen yi KNOWS is FALSE and that BREAKS ME. his face as ai di pushes past him.......ow.#a more openly expressive version of 'i know he's lying to me but i dont understand whats going on and that HURTS me' but Extra Painful#because ai di is all chen yi wants. and - 'an explanation'... he wants ai di to want him too
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Hey, remember those analogies on the SATs, Boston Dumb Fuck? I got one for you...
Republicans, who outwardly express their Christian values, while willing to vote for a vile, lying convicted felon and sexual predator, who on his first day in office vows to become a dictator, destroying democracy and seeking revenge on his enemies::: Makes them šÆ complicit in the destruction of our society, even if they say they had "no other choice"
Is to...
"Marrying" (fake, spiritually or real) an antisemetic, racist, fatshaming, arrogant, childish, vapid, vacuous, lazy, entitled clout chasing Lotlita::: ???
Do you get it? Answer is in the tag, you lying, untrustworthy hypocrite. This is your "brand" now. Have fun promoting those festering turds you have been making and hope they don't remind you too much of when you actually put in some effort, before you went full on CAA puppet, with their hand firmly up your keister (more Yiddish for the Nazi wifey to enjoy).
But as I always say, prove me wrong, you prick! Get some serious fucking help and do better. Find the last truffala tree seed and tend to your forest.
#Answer-You are complicit in all the same behaviors the little wifey believes in by āmarryingā her and thus supporting her- no matter the fut#You are no longer woke Captain America; you are not righteous: you are no feminist#Check your privlege and stop fucking around with ASP- it is doing more harm than good#You are in the same league as George Santos and all the other professional liars even if you aren't good at it#Is your mom still proud?#I'm sick of this bullshit and I bet you are too#Is there something in the water in Massachusetts that gives rise to so many assholes?#Was it worth it?
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Kingdom of Ash Chapter 24
"What is this place?" Manon asked Glennis as she found the crone polishing the handle of a gold-bound broom beside the fire. Two others lay on a cloak nearby. Menial work for the witch in charge of this camp.
"This is an ancient camp-one of the oldest we claim." Glennis's knobbed fingers flew over the broom handle. "Each of the seven Great Hearths has a fire here, as do many others." Indeed, there were far more than seven in the camp. "It was a gathering place for us after the war, and since then, it had become a place to usher in some of our younger witches to adulthood. It is a rite we've developed over the yearsāto send them into the deep wilds for a few weeks to hunt and survive with only their brooms and a knife. We remain here while they do so."
Manon asked quietly, "Do you know what our initiation rite is?"
Glennis's face tightened. "I do. We all do." Which hearth had the witch she'd killed at age sixteen belonged to?
"You're not a cold person."
He arched a brow. "Is that your professional opinion?"
Manon studied him. "You can descend to those levels when you are angry, when your friends are threatened. But you are not cold, not at heart. I've seen men who are, and you are not."
"Neither are you," he said a bit quietly.
The wrong thing to say.
Manon stiffened, her chin lifting. "I am one hundred seventeen years old," she said flatly. "I have spent the majority of that time killing. Don't convince yourself that the events of the past few months have erased that."
"Keep telling yourself that." He doubted anyone had ever spoken to her that baldly-relished that he now did, and kept his throat intact.
She snarled in his face. "You're a fool if you believe the fact that I am their queen wipes away the truth that I have killed scores of Crochans."
"That fact will always remain. It's how you make it count now that matters."
Make it count. Aelin had said as much back in those initial days after he'd been freed of the collar. He tried not to wonder whether the icy bite of Wyrdstone would soon clamp around his neck once more.
"I am not a softhearted Crochan. I will never be, even if I wear their crown of stars."
He'd heard the whispers about that crown amongst the Crochans this week-about whether it would be found at last. Rhiannon Crochan's crown of stars, stolen from her dying body by Baba Yellowlegs herself. Where it had gone after Aelin had killed the Matron, Dorian had not the faintest idea. If it had stayed with that strange carnival she'd traveled with, it could be anywhere. Could have been sold for quick coin.
Manon went on, "If that is what the Crochans expect me to become before they join in this war, then I will let them venture to Eyllwe tomorrow alone."
"Is it so bad, to care?" The gods knew he'd been struggling to do so himself.
"I don't know how to," she growled.
Ridiculous. An outright lie. Perhaps it was because of the high likelihood that he'd be collared again at Morath, perhaps it was because he was a king who'd left his kingdom in an enemy's grip, but Dorian found himself saying, "You do care. You know it, too. It's what makes you so damn scared of all this."
Her golden eyes raged, but she said nothing.
"Caring doesn't make you weak," he offered.
"Then why don't you heed your own advice?"
"I care." His temper rose to meet hers. And he decided to hell with it-decided to let go of that leash he'd put on himself. Let go of that restraint. "I care about more than I should. I even care about you."
Another wrong thing to say.
Manon stoodāas high as the tent would allow. "Then you're a fool." She shoved on her boots and stomped into the frigid night.
I even care about you.
Manon scowled as she turned in her sleep, wedged between Asterin and Sorrel. Only hours remained until they were to move outāto head to Eyllwe and whatever force might be waiting to ally with the Crochans. And in need of help.
Caring doesn't make you weak.
The king was a fool. Little more than a boy.
What did he know of anything?
Still the words burrowed under her skin, her bones. Is it so bad, to care?
She didn't know. Didn't want to know.
#Chapter 24#Kingdom of Ash#Sarah J. Maas#Manon Blackbeak#no spoilers please#first read#read with me#read along#more notes and annotations in the tags spoilers for the chapter & priors#anyone else getting Ramaelle vibes#we fly with you. ā the significance of that line#Dorian and Vesta dynamics lol I love it#It'd be a boon for his friends. If they could survive it would be enough.#the heart mothers and fire and witch queen + just manon being manon at her best allowed proving even to her like Asterin said etc#It was now a matter of convincing his magic to become like that shifter's power.#Be what you wish Cyrene had told him. Nothing. He wished to be nothing.#Your wyvern seems like more of a dog than anything. It was not an insult Manon reminded herself. The Crochans kept dogs as pets.#Adored them as humans did. His name is Abraxos Manon said. He is ... different. He and the blue one are mates.#her mom mode and then her and Asterin realizing lol#āFor love. These beasts despite their dark master are capable of love.#Nonsense yet some kernel in her realized it to be true.#Hurry northward the wind sang day and night. Hurry Blackbeak.#say It took you long enough to figure it out.#Gods above she was beautiful. He wondered when it would stop feeling like a betrayal to think so.#but Dorian kept peering inward a kind of therapy I guess and ignoring the whisper presence which is also good#None of this could end well. For either of them.#I am not a softhearted Crochan. I will never be even if I wear their crown of stars.#I like the ice bestā¦ Narene and Abraxos sitting in a treeā¦ so much foreshadowingā¦ change and liarā¦ damaris is real or not realā¦ many things#When they awoke something sharp in his chest had dulled-just a fraction#What he'd opened up revealed to her. A sort of freedom that letting go.
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I'm not sure how much overlap there is between the Good Omens fandom and the LOTR fandom...
However as someone in both, I can attest-- there is some mutual heartbreak that we can share-- </3
#āhe's a liarā#āhe's poisoned you against meā#when your hubby is so brainwashed that you're forced to go your separate ways#no matter how much it hurts#yes I am well aware this separation does not happen in the lotr books#but neither does the entirety of GO Season 2 so same difference#sam and frodo should have kissed#Crowley just needs to save Azi from a giant spider#hey both of these scenes still make me cry#so at least there's that#good omens#lotr#aziraphale#crowley#frodo baggins#samwise gamgee#ineffable husbands#frowise#aziracrow#samfro#fandom things
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if liar liar has 1m fans im one of them, if liar liar has 1k fans im one of them, if liar lair has 100 fans im in there if liar liar has 0 fans smn brutually murdered me
sorry i was cooking when i got the notif and couldnāt leave the stove on but i read it like an hour ago and moved around the kitchen with a smile on my face šš©·
no bc ik when i post an ask iāve received or random updates about liar, liar, youāll be one of the first to like, reblog, or comment and iām here for it <33
but if someone brutally murdered you, iād be the first person to be at the crime scene because nobody is harming you under my care š¤
your support means the world to me, thank you sm for just existing ā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø
#iām gonna explode with all this love iām recieving#you guys are too good to me š„¹#liar liar is still a very small family (that grows every week no matter how slow it does)#but i love it all the same#and i love the comments replies likes everythinggg#1l-ynn being an og wbk?? š#love her to death#iād write a will and leave everything to āmy readersā and my friends and family will be so confused cuz they have no idea i write ff LMAO#liar liar is at 11k words rn so the halfway point is probably gonna be 13k words with how longgg itās gotten?#wait not liar liar#the fifth chapter of liar liar LMFAO#and after the recent leaks (NOBARA IS BACK I NEVER LOST HOPE HAHAH) this chapter is VERY fitting#VERY#do what that information what you will#ty for ur support everyone#thank you 1l-ynn <3#my honey bunch sugar plum#and every other sweet nickname that cute old ladies use (most of my readers are older than me)#ilyyyy#liar liar asks!
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What art program and tablet do you use?
ClipStudioPaint Ver 1 and for my tablet a Gaomon PD2200
#asks#anyone that says you need a wacom 14455468995x series is a liar#literally if ur looking for a display tablet just find one with good resolution#this one kinda sucks because the buttons are flat and i cant differentiate#but i have my tourbox so it doesn't really matter for me#i still have my wacom bamboo tablet i use for my laptop and shes been holding up so good too
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Who's your favorite character? :)
CALE HENITUSE.
#NOONE FOLLOWING FOR THE THINGS I MAKE WILL KNOW HIM PROBABLY#TO BE SPECIFIC I LIKE THE OG CALE THE VERY MOST IN THE WHOLE WORLD#WOULD DIE FOR KRS AS WELL BUT OG CALE JUST HITS DIFFERENT#just talking dmm#asks#IVE BEEN THINKING ABT HIM NONSTOP SINCE I FOUND OUT ABT HIS EXISTENCE GENUINELY UNWELL#HES SO EVERYTHING#HES A LIAR AND A DOUCHEBAG AND HE DOES IT ON PURPOSE FOR THE GREATER GOOD AND IT WORKES#WORKED* BUT NONE OF IT EVEN MATTERED AND THEN EVERYONE HE LOVED DIEDDDDD#FUCK DUDE#tcf
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#this is why we can't have nice things#lies and the lying liars who tell them#fight the patriarchy#smash the patriarchy#fight peer pressure from the past#traditions are toxic#purity culture#puritanical nonsense#why does America hate science#american horror story#america#America is a horror story#fix America#students#this is what education is for#education and science#tools of learning#American stagnation#students or just future workers#school is not a job#this godforsaken country#America the stupid#how am I supposed to be patriotic about this?#puritanical feelings hold us back#progress matters#woke is wonderful#children as workers#why does America hate children?#why isnāt change a good thing?
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as a writer how do you stop thinking about like getting kudos/comments? I've just started writing fanfic, and when I start a writing something -- it goes well and then eventually I get to point where I'm like "ahh but what the readers don't like that? or what if I don't get as many kudos or comments" and it makes it difficult to continue because then it becomes stressful -- I guess how do you deal with "wanting to write stuff for yourself" and "wanting validation" thanks!
You're going to hate this answer, because I hated it too, but TIME. When you first start writing and you get kudos and comments and people love what you're doing, it's a huge validation of your effort and talent, and it's natural that you want MORE of it. When I first started putting up fics I already had been writing for 15+ years, knew I was good at it, and still for a good few years found myself really glued to the hit counter, and the kudos, and wondering how I'd be able to get people to comment the same way they did on things like Seven Suitors.
But the thing is that commenting comes and goes in waves, and unless a fandom has a big comment culture, or is large enough that you're guaranteed a good glut of them every time you post...you're going to hit a point where you write exactly what everyone wants and get crickets. And at that point you'll get ANNOYED, because LOOK, I MADE THIS, i made it for YOU GUYS, and now y'all don't have anything to say? It'll get to you. It'll make you doubt that you know what anyone wants at all. It'll happen and it'll suck the whole time.
Lots of advice will say "write for yourself," which is an excellent sentiment. You should always write what YOU want. Put into your fic what you want to see, write the nitpicky poetic metaphors and craft the most screwball twists your heart desires. Pour yourself into the most niche AUs and most tin-hat canon theories. At the end of the day, you want the IDEAS you put down to be for you, because comments and kudos are nice, but if they don't come...you have to be proud of what you put out, even when it feels like an echo chamber.
But also...we don't POST things for ourselves. We post things to share. Fic are a conversation with canon and it is perfectly natural to want to create something that creates conversation among other fans. So you're never going to fully get the need for validation out of your head, you're not. You can hide hit counts and ignore your inbox all you like, but the want to have someone interact with your work, to inspire someone to reach out to you will ALWAYS be there. You just have to create a healthier relationship with it.
Be confident in what you write. Think less about whether people will like it, and more about how you WANT them to react. The reader is the most important character in any novel, but it's the one most authors forget to manage. When you come to a point where you go "oh man, I hope this is good for them!" stop and go, "what do I *want* them to be feeling here?" Focus on where you're putting their attention and whether you WANT it there. There's so much you can do when you visualize your relationship with the reader as PART of the work, and it takes off a lot of the pressure of "is this good? is it disappointing? will this get me validation?" and brings it back into the realm of storytelling. You are taking your reader on a journey, and when you do it well people will think less about "did I like that?" and more about "what comes next?"
#asks#writing advice#writing#please understand nonnie that what you are feeling is completely natural and part of the process#and shades of that will stick with you no matter how good you get#but the thing you want to keep in the center of your mind when it comes to that#is that you can only get kudos once on a fic and you are lucky to get a 1:100 comment vs hits ratio#so the instant validation WILL dry up and you'll have to have something about your story#that makes you push through. because people will come back and comment!#people will blow through 50+ chapter and leave you the most emotionally hungover review promising you their first borns#but sometimes you will have written a good third of them with NO feedback whatsoever#and you just have to trust in yourself that it's good. it's FINE#i used to obsessively check hits and be really put out to see how many people were coming and not commenting#especially when i wrote really emotionally driven stuff and really tore myself up to get those feelings through#but i also would have been miserable only writing fluffy 1 or 2 shots with no plot just to get the flush of comments those fics get#you just gotta do what you gotta do and let your audience find you. recontextualizing the relationship helps a LOT#i already was big on focusing on the meta plot of my works because as i said. 15+ years. had a lot of time to experiment and get good#but i still had to like. give myself the same pep talk 2 years in about how to view that relationship#everyone goes through it and if they say they don't they're a liar and i mean that seriously š¤£
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iām just saying the secret history would make such a good telenovela and be 1000000 times funnier in spanglish
āno es murderā¦ā¦ creo es unaā¦. esā¦. una redistribution of matter. si. una redistribution of matter.ā
āAY DIOS MIO CHARLES STOP ACTING COMO UNA PINCHE BEBĆā
āpeople landed on the moon alreadyā ā*muttering* mentirosoā āque dijiste????ā āDIJE MENTIROSOā
āel pinche puede hacer lo que quiera y no hacer pinche ningĆŗn bien y no enfrentar ninguna pinche consecuenciasā āpor favor bastaā āYO HAGO LO QUE ME DE LA GANAā
#the secret history#tsh#translations:#1. itās not murderā¦. itāsā¦ itsā¦. itās a redistribution of matter. yeah. redistribution of matter#2. my god charles stop acting like a fucking baby#3. āliarā āwhat did you sayā āi said liarā#4. āhe can do whatever the fuck he wants and do nothing fucking good and face no fucking consequencesā āplease stopā āi do what i wantā
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I've been wondering why MH workers have been treating me like I'm The Lying Liar when I talk about emotions and other people's reactions to things and I found out today (by glancing at a medical form that my counselor filled out for my intake at a program) that my psychiatrist actually did diagnose me with BPD and the psychologist who disagreed with that diagnosis and instead PROPERLY diagnosed me with ASD didn't get BPD taken off my file..... I'M SO PEEVED. and I doubt I'll be able to get BPD removed from my file because MH workers act like everyone diagnosed with a cluster B disorder is an attention-seeking liar. dragging my hands down my face. this is so stupid oh my god. any BPD symptoms that I do have are better explained by OTHER disorders I have š
#i just want to be clear that the way cluster B folk are treated is so bullshit and fucked up#but unfortunately it is the reality of the situation so I would really love to get that diagnosis removed#but now they think im the Lying Liar right off the bat so it's going to be impossible to get removed š#and to make matters worse... any BPD symptoms are either just ASD symptoms or the DID symptoms oh my god#but good fucking luck trying to get DID or OSDD diagnosed lmfao i am not even going to attempt that at this point#it doesnt need to be diagnosed anyways right now bc it will just make shit worse for me to have that on my records#one day maybe if i have a better support system and medical team but rn it'd be goddamn stupid to try#I'M SO PISSED ABOUT THIS WHAT THE HELL#i hate this psychiatrist so much fhdjdl he's so useless and condescending#unfortunately he's my only available option rn -_-#pippen needs 2nd breakfast
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Hey, I've got a new branding idea for that insipid website of yours, Boston Dumb Fuck!
After mulling over the winter wonderland of white, mostly male, photos posted for the self-congratulatory Washington DC tour, promoting that waste-of-time and possibly democracy debilitating website, A Starting Point (which is ironic, because, while a good idea, was dead in the water almost from the start), I was thinking maybe you guys could use a name punch-up.
I don't know if you have brought this futile project back from the dead to see if you can sell it (beware of covert conservative organizations who would love to take it off your hands so they could brainwash the youth of America; your information is so pointless now, it wouldn't be hard for someone to subtly turn their heads in any direction they desired), or if you want to distract us from the fact that the man who once confronted the grand wizard of the KKK, marched in Black Lives Matter rallies and claimed he was a feminist, is now "married" to an arrogant, antisemetic, racist fatshamer that he treats like shit. You aren't Captain America anymore, not that you ever were. But unlike your absurb website, you have to pick a side.
Or it could be a combination of both hemorrhaging cash and and the need for an image scrub, not to mention an ego stroking participation trophy after a long list of failures.
May I suggest possibly adding "Wack-jobs:", "Why?" or "WTF," (an acronym within an acronym is edgy) to the beginning, the new acronym being WASP. Afterall, that is all I saw from your visit and it is totally on brand.
In case it's been a while since you were called one, I have include part of the Wiki page below. Pay particular attention to the highlighted section at the bottom.
P.S.- I tried watching that promo video you created summarizing your DC experience, where you interview some of the young folks, and I nearly passed out from chocking on my own bile. Seriously, was that really a secret Easter egg for your upcoming cult movie, because that's what it looked like. You and Mark indoctrinating new recruits. So creepy!
#boston antisemite#boston racist#boston fatshamer#you are the company you keep#liars suck!#i don't like hypocrites#i hate manipulation#coward#check your privlege#ai in human form#You stroked that ego hard!#Arrogant to think you are the arbiters of this information#Diversity matters#sometimes there are not good people on both sides#democracy is crumbling and you want to summarize the most important concepts into bullet points#get some help#Greed blinds good decision making
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The Betrayer
You like to do things up close and personal. As personal as you can get. You are an excellent actor, and you do adore putting on a smile knowing your worst enemy, the one you hate the most, doesn't suspect a thing when they tell you their deepest secrets. Your only motivation is revenge, and revenge you shall get. Perhaps you loved them once, long ago, but any fondness for your target you once felt has long since warped and twisted into perverse obsession, laced with malice and venom and seething hatred. Good or evil does not matter to you. All that matters is they get what they deserve.
tagged stolen from @historiavn tagging @uselessdevice (rufus or leah), @multipleoccupancy (edgar), @imjustanauthor (mulder), @dcmur3, @countlessrealities (evil rick or evil morty), @ladiesandwitches (scully), @versin-surfin, @badassxbirdy
#not everything is true but not everything is untrue either lol#Isaac is a great actor and a great liar#definitely obsessive#and he does things VERY up close and personal#good and bad definitely doesn't matter to him#BUT !!!! while he can get blinded by revenge bc of his obsessive nature he is NOT driven by revenge at all!#he's driven by science and his crazy little alien brain#isaac (oh now you want to talk to god?)#dash games#ooc
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Itās difficult to not feel discouraged sometimes when your partner is also an artist and happens to be faster than you in every conceivable way
This doesnāt bother me often because everyone is different and comparing production time and skill against each other or anyone is detrimental mostly and its ok to have your own workflow
but it does weigh on me vaguely sometimes sometimes that she can finish 2-3 full coloured pieces within a week and ive been painfully scratching out the same number but theyre only sketches that ill never revisit within a month
None of this actually matters in the long run, it just makes me feel bad on occasion
#like i should be doing more#im very sorry for complaining so much online#i just dont really have any other way to express myself#i know some of you have generously and kindly reached out to me to offer an ear#but my fatal flaw is i cant talk to anyone about my problems i just idk it was beaten into me that none of it matter#matters or my problems arent a big deal and i know ots healthy to think actuallt my problems are worth talking about or a big deal#but its hard to change a behaviour that was kinda literally beaten jnto you that talking about stuff likw this is a waste of time#i guess i just feel bad that i could do more and i dont because i dont want to#but i also want to if that makes any sense at all#i suppose it also doesnt help that alot of the work im doing right now i actually sorta hate like none of it is good to me personally#i want to stop being toxic towards myself#i just wanna stop hating me and who i am and what i do every step of the way#but that mean little voice inside me is like ahh. it wont shut up#I always say i need a break or more time but what am i gonna do with it#doing nothing at all isnt fulfilling#it sounds. sad like what teenager me did and i dont want to be or feel like that ever again but its fuckjng hard#this is so woe is me#im a liar bc i say the main text doesnt bother me but it bothers me alot im very envious of her speed prolificness and drive to create#and i have none like thats so unfair#this makes me sound ultra bitter god fucking damn it#i want to go to sleep and genuinely never fucking wake up again#please im done i just dont want to
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