#oops my neurodivergencies are showing

[lifesshort-imshorter]

My Sunday PSA for ADHD:

I am *constantly* seeing people talk about accidentally doubling up on their meds because they can't remember already taking them - or skipping them altogether just in case they did take them.

Seriously, guys, please think about getting the timer caps for your pill bottles. This has been a lifesaver for me when I grab my bottle to take my meds, remember I need to do something, set it down, and then when I see the pill bottle again I can't remember if I even opened the damn thing. This has happened enough that I can't count the times, and even if I could I wouldn't tell you because really, brain? C'mon.

This thing tells you exactly how long it's been since you opened the bottle and helps to keep you on track. These come in multiple sizes to fit virtually any pill bottle you already have, but they also come with their own bottles (and labels!) on the off chance they don't - and you can find them online easy enough.

Best part is these things can work for multiple people for different reasons. Got a forgetful parent or grandparent and want to make sure they're safe with their meds? Great gift. Have a teen in the home but you smoke weed and want to keep an eye on it? Perfect nug jar. Just curious about how long your adhd meds last before productivity goes down? Perfect timer.

Have teen children and worried they're going to access your Vicodin from that dentist appointment? Have a high fever and can't remember how long it's been since you took your last Tylenol? On day three of a depression streak and can't remember doing anything but staring at the wall? Can't remember how long it's been since your last birth control pill? Great purchase.

Just keep them in an area you are frequently and stop worrying (I keep my adhd meds right next to my computer, and my morning meds next to the sink in the bathroom). Get rid of the am/pm pill containers that no one remembers to fill anyways. Trust me, it is worth it.

In case I've inspired anyone, these are the ones I have, but there are other brands and styles out there from different sites if you don't support Amazon.

Even if it's not for you, please share so that other people see.

[catboygoalie]

the backpack i thrifted has So Many pockets.

so now i have a dedicated fidget toy pocket. :3

[heyclickadee]

Six, “Magic is not respectable, sir.”

SOMEONE SAVE EMMA WINTERTOWNE

Okay but seriously. Emma’s entire life is a series of people putting their needs and wants, even if they’re things they want for her, ahead of her. She’s deathly ill, but her mother won’t take her to a doctor because the idea that Emma might be sick causes too much cognitive dissonance, so she ignores it. Sir Walter knows she’s deathly ill, and he actually quite likes her and wants to get to know her, but he also needs to marry her to save himself from financial ruin and to do that he needs to keep her mother happy for another week. Norrell is going to put his ambition ahead of her and bargain half her life away. The gentleman with the thistledown hair is going to be so invested in having her at his parties he’s not going to care of even notice that she’s miserable. No one is actually going to listen to her for about a decade from this point.

So. Venice. Not that. That city is ever going to come up again.

Lady Wintertowne’s entire monologue about Dreamditch is…interesting. The story is buried under a sickening load of classism—the way she talks about Dreamditch is shocking—and probably some bitterness and buried grief about the sister who died. She’s probably not that reliable of a narrator here in terms of even telling us what she thinks happened. And beneath all of that, I think we’ve got some indication that Dreamditch’s perception of what was going on was actually quite a bit closer to reality than hers—that there maybe really were some fairy spirits watching over the kids, that the kids did offend them, and that it’s maybe why the sister died or—knowing what we see later on with Arabella—didn’t die, but was maybe taken elsewhere instead.

“Poor Norrell! To be classed with the Dreamditches and Vinculuses of the world,” aaaaand there it is. It comes as a shock to Norrell, but the fact is that as a practical magician, he’s been thought of as on par with the begging street magicians—a novelty, someone to entertain, but ultimately beneath “respectable” society and occupying a place outside of it. That’s why Drawlight has been dragging him around to dinner parties—he (and his many acquaintances) don’t actually see him as any different than the street magician in Mrs. Littleworth’s story. They want to see him do tricks, and he ends up being accepted as long as he’s useful.

None of what I’ve been saying for these last few commentaries is really a defense of Norrell; Norrell is conceited and can be downright despicable at times. But the chapters where we do get more of Norrell’s point of view do give us a more complicated picture of the guy.

[charlieg1rl]

— 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐞𝐱𝐜𝐞𝐩𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧

𝟏𝟖. 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐡𝐚𝐝 𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐣𝐨𝐛

𝐰𝐜: 𝟎.𝟐𝐤

they weren’t supposed to go public yet.

but then felix, in all his sunshine-filled excitement, forgot he wasn’t supposed to post certain pictures.

and suddenly, there was a very clear shot of y/n in one of his selfies, her face visible as she reached over to steal his fries.

felix didn’t realize until it was too late.

“uh… y/n?”

she looked up from her book. “what?”

felix slowly turned his phone around, showing the thousands of comments flooding in.

“oh my god it’s y/n.”

“no way this is real.”

“i knew it. i knew they were dating.”

y/n blinked. “you absolute idiot.”

felix winced. “oops?”

she groaned, rubbing her temples. “you had one job.”

felix pouted. “at least now we don’t have to hide?”

y/n glared. “this wasn’t how i wanted to do it.”

felix grinned sheepishly. “so… hard launch?”

she sighed, shaking her head. “unbelievable.”

but then felix reached for her hand, intertwining their fingers under the table.

and just like that, she found herself exhaling, the frustration melting away.

“…you owe me for this.”

felix’s smile softened. “anything you want.”

y/n huffed. “you’re lucky i like you.”

felix beamed. “i really, really am.”

𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐯𝐢𝐨𝐮𝐬 | 𝐦𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭 | 𝐧𝐞𝐱𝐭

tags: @jeonginsleftcheek @my-neurodivergent-world @akindaflora @urlocalmultigroupfan @leeknowinggg @bookswillfindyouaway @hyunnjynn @rhonnie23 @velvetmoonlght

[npd-characters-tournament]

Propaganda

Pyrrhon

ouhghhhh oughhhh ouh ouhh. Ok disclaimer this is a character who's called generically "crazy" by others with no real specifics, the narrative doesn't seem to want to justify or respect him but there's a lot of room for interpretation on what he has going on and if he has good intentions or not, but generally he's a guy who can be very relatable to neurodivergence and mental illness or offensive depending on who you are. Anyways Kid Icarus Uprising is rooted in Greek mythology and parallels the way those gods were originally characterized, often being flawed and self-centered. The selfishness and ego of the gods is brought up a lot, but I think Pyrrhon has a really complex relationship with that. He's bombastic, talks about heroism and justice constantly, and is described as massively egotistical. However, up until a certain point in the story, he seems to be acting selflessly and doesn't really do anything wrong, but the other characters are really vocally critical of him, considering him useless, detrimental, an idiot, and the Sun god according to himself and no one else. I kinda see him as no more egotistical than the other gods and even more selfless than a lot of them, he's just vocal about the things they pretend they're not. They insult him in front of him, vocally and consistently, but he doesn't respond to it. However, he betrays the other characters in the story arc's climax, which many people interpret as a result of pent-up frustration at the other gods making him feel inferior and not having the power for his constant attempts to do good to work. I think the most damning thing is that he's mentioned as only seeing Pit, the main character, as his equal. Pit is also constantly mocked for being a flightless angel who always follows his goddess's orders and doesn't have much independence or free will that he can call his own, and it says a lot about Pyrrhon that he respects this guy more than the gods. It shows he does care about people weaker than the gods, where most of the gods see angels and humans as tools and afterthoughts.

I really think Pyrrhon was trying his best to do good, its just that no one was willing to see him that way because of his perceived exceptional ego, when really it just has a different nature from the one everyone else has, and he's seen as incapable of doing good despite trying to be a hero to others (he doesn't stop the heroic demeanor post-betrayal, which I also think is damning and shows that acting like a hero wasn't just a tool for him). Anyways he did that betrayal and gained power by taking control of a robotic alien hivemind because director Masahiro Sakurai does whatever he wants and eventually Pyrrhon loses control to them and becomes corrupted/possessed/assimilated/Something by them. That loss of control makes me think of ego death both in the "losing sense of self" way and "suddenly plummeting in self image and worth" way, and the way his emotions are restricted to something soulless and robotic in contrast to his previous personality feels really stark and tragic. to me. it's also kinda funny because he's saying his funny catchphrases in monotone now. Him taking away the hivemind after his defeat, his survival being ambiguous, really shows to me that he wanted to do good and be good and help the world, and while everyone else is likeable too I can kinda understand him for putting himself above them considering their selfish wars caused the alien invasion in the first place. Everyone just saw him as worthless, and he couldn't handle it (in my headcanons. unless I'm relaying something that happened in the game this is all just me being autistic about him so we're clear). gawd. pyrrhon kid icarus uprising. also sidenote he's funny as fuck he's like if a ditzy anime girl was 7'4" and he canonically says "oops my bad" and "you're so over" at different points and he's a wiki addict. pyrrhon kid icarus uprising. ALSOOO i don't have npd and was encouraged to submit so I hope none of these were like really bad judgements or anything I just think he in general is ripe for neurodivergent readings and that includes paralleling some of what I know about npd. you might relate to him on some level or want to execute him via firing squad either is fine

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Dimentio

I don't really have the intelligence rn to explain why he's so NPD coded, if this gets posted if anyone could add to this that'd be great!! He's a charming magician that thinks highly of himself and his abilities. He's deceptive and ends up being the big bad of the game, because he wants to create a new universe where he can become king of all worlds.

[jester-nonconforming]

Stolas, Via, and Autistic Parenthood

I want to start this off by saying autism is a spectrum, so not everyone will have these exact traits, and neurotypicals can certainly exhibit these traits to a certain extent. This is just the way I interpret Stolas based on my own experiences with myself, my autistic friendships, and growing up with most-likely-neurodivergent parents.

A lot of autistic people play and show affection in ways that neurotypicals find confusing. Sometimes an autistic person can look like they’re ignoring you or that they’re completely self-involved, but to us, we’re doing important social bonding activities. This can lead to issues where autistic people think “oh, this is my good friend!” while the neurotypical person thinks “we barely know each other”. And, although I don’t see this talked about much, it also means close bonds between autistic parents and their kids can look a lot different than society expects—especially if their kids are also autistic!

Stolas often shows affection by sharing his own interests, and Via reciprocates that and (usually) enjoys it. When she’s upset as a kid, he sings to her (normal thing to do with a child, but also something he’d do even if it wasn’t normal). He shares his love of space with her from a young age, and she clearly latches onto it—it’s something they bond over multiple times. The stars on her outfits make it pretty clear that Stolas is the one choosing what clothes to buy. Then as a teenager, Via chooses to keep the star theme because, again, it’s not something he’s forcing on her—she likes it! But if he wasn’t regularly infodumping to her about it, would she have the same interest? Maybe, maybe not, but I definitely think at least part of her interest in space stuff is because she associates it with someone she loves. He shares his love of music with her as well by giving her a guitar to express herself through, because he processes the world through music. And so does Via, although for her it’s usually in the form of listening to her headphones.

In LooLoo Land, there’s a lot going on with Stolas being distracted by his very new dynamic with Blitz as well as the escalating abuse in his household. I can see how at first glance the whole Robo Fizz scene would seem like an indicator that Stolas doesn’t care about or intentionally ignores Via’s interests, but it really doesn’t feel that way to me (and if it was, it wouldn’t get directly contradicted by his support of her interests at the end).

As is shown many times later in the series, Stolas gets absorbed in own thoughts and sometimes misses other people’s feelings and social cues. Often, when people talk about how Stolas gets wrapped up in his emotions, they’re talking about negative ones, but he gets wrapped up in positive emotions too. This results in reactions that many neurotypicals would find inappropriate (him saying “ooh this will be fun!” when faced with a bunch of paperwork and a life-or-death situation in Oops is delightful to me). This works well in a comedy because it’s easy to play the contrast for humor, but it’s also just incredibly relatable for me. The entire beginning of his dynamic with Blitz really reflects this tendency (and I do think you could argue that Blitz himself is a “special interest” of sorts for Stolas, which isn’t bad or good, it’s just the way brains work sometimes).

For autistic people, emotions about things you like can be VERY strong, and it can be hard for us to remember that not everyone cares about our interests. Stolas likes clowns and weird humor, and the Robo Fizz performance probably subconsciously reminds him a lot of the day he met Blitz (whether he remembers Fizz being there or not). He’s also being extra unobservant and pushy in this episode because he’s trying to distract Via (and himself) from everything going on with her mom. So it’s not surprising he would just assume Via also likes it and not think things through. Especially since she often does like the same things as him.

This doesn’t negate that fact that he’s being rude here and missing her distress—sometimes people are assholes completely on accident! And for autistic people, we often get accused of ignoring other people’s feelings or wants on purpose, because we miss things that seem “obvious” to other people. But the key is that after he realizes his mistake, he admits to it and tries to fix things by focusing on Via and listening to her. And then he goes to bond with her by looking at weird taxidermy, despite his clear disinterest in it, because what matters is letting her share something she likes with him.

In Seeing Stars, I think it’s important to recognize that the thing Stolas forgot about wasn’t like… his kid’s piano recital or baseball game. It wasn’t anything exclusive to Via that he was going to for her sake. Azathoth’s Tears are his OWN interest, something he was excited about and shared with Via a long time ago, and her excitement matched his. When he gets distracted by Stella, he’s forgetting about something he genuinely wanted to do and neglecting his own interests, showing how much of his life and mind have been taken up by the divorce. Of course, this absolutely affects Via and her ability to bond with him. If things had a chance to settle down, he would have gone back to focusing on his and Via’s mutual interests, but she has no way of knowing that because she’s 17 and can only process whatever is happening Right Now.

In The Circus, we see again how Stolas “plays” by sharing his interests without any real awareness of Blitz’s displeased facial expressions. He loves books and facts, so he’s going to infodump about them. He doesn’t really know any other options. And Blitz’s blunt “I’m bored,” while technically rude, is one reason that Blitz and Stolas work well together. Blitz (when he’s not working through years of relationship trauma) is clear about what he wants, and Stolas doesn’t have to play social guessing games with him. When he offers to play “pirates,” Stolas is excited about it despite the game not making sense to him. Because this is Blitz sharing his interests! Stolas is able to process this as affection and as the way that friendship works. This also likely contributes to why Stolas places such a big deal on their friendship even years later, while Blitz just sees it as one weird day.

Even later in their relationship, he enjoys everything that Blitz throws at him regardless of whether it fits his personal interests. Autistic socializing often works that way—sharing special interests back and forth, giving each other time with their Thing. Sometimes that means meeting their excitement (like how Via and Stolas bond over stars or how Stolas tries to ask questions about Blitz’s job, which he knows is important to him) and other times it means quietly doing completely different things in the same space (like Stolas reading a book at the dinner table while Via listens to her headphones, or Stolas following Blitz around in Sinsmas without necessarily participating in whatever he’s doing). There are definitely even more examples of this, and some of these instances are affected by other factors (like Stolas’s depression and dissociation), but it does seem to be a consistent running thread through the series.

So those are just some things I’ve noticed about the way Stolas bonds with people! Personally I don’t find any of this unusual because I’m so used to it in my real life, but I can understand why it would be more confusing for people who were expecting a very typical parent-child relationship in the show. I think it’s really cool, though, to see close relationships portrayed in this way.

[destiny-in-the-universe]

RC9GN Commentary + Thoughts

my current and ridiculous hyperfixation on RC9GN is dominating my entire life, oops- but basically, this is mostly me once again testing the waters of not only a potential fanfic with a reimagined/continued-fanon season three and beyond but before i start

Here’s my general commentary of the show!

For starters- Randy is so neurodivergent-coded? He has ADHD, and I feel if his actions in the canon are viewed from a more ND angle, a lot of his behavior makes so much more sense to be honest; he stims, he doesn’t exactly think before he acts sometimes (and it’s only later - once he’s truly thought about his own actions - that he finally realizes he could’ve messed up), he gets overstimulated, and on another thing- he definitely has displayed signs of not only rejection sensitivity dysphoria but he also looks for others’ approval - not in the people pleasing way, he wants to be noticed and he can’t exactly get that

The show can be mature- and it shows in certain moments. Howard‘s beef with the Nomicon is genuinely legitimate, and we see he hates and despises being alone - he’s not socially anxious, but he does seem to only have Randy as his friend; though could it also be tied with Howard just being so used to having him as company that not having him around just gets a little distressing? They were friends from literally three years old- maybe it’s the knowledge that Randy’s now faced with this life-threatening role?

Another thing! The whole thing with the First Ninja (part of the commentary and thoughts of this post) having lost his entire family at the hands of the Sorcerer? That has got to have developed some serious ptsd and survivor’s guilt- it could explain why he’s so strict and rational and attempts to be this mediating figure but also suddenly gives up and loses his temper (like- if his soul is in the nomicon, then has he had proper contact with people? He’d have been completely isolated-)

Going off on “Finja” (though i seriously need to give him a name-), his official introductory episode could’ve gone so much better? Like. I get it, why he seemingly gave up so quickly but also- I think he sees his younger self in Randy and that’s why he could be harder on him, but going back on the last point; “Finja” has gone through so much - even if it isn’t inherently canon - and goodness me, I wish we could’ve seen more of his character- and the idea he’s Randy’s ancestor? Hello?

Massive Commentary incoming!

The Norisu 9 is such an interesting concept- I want to know more, but for that I need to write it; who were they? They were a clan- could they possibly be brought back as other ninjas that fight alongside the Ninja? (AKA Randy) If that’s the case though, wouldn’t it have been mentioned beforehand? Then again- this is entirely fanon. Maybe it’s only in specific moments; like we all know there are eight other realms - apart from the Land of Shadows - that Randy would’ve had to face. Imagine just-

The Norisu 9 are carefully chosen, and that’s likely why they weren’t seen before? Maybe it was thought the bloodline vanished- or only show up when fighting against specific threats like, say, the Sorceress- but now I have to figure out who would be the rest of the Norisu 9? Off the top of my head, genuinely- Debbie should be one of them (a theme of dark purple? But seriously- I feel they all have a select set of powers) - i can’t fully explain my thoughts right now, but also Theresa? Like, they definitely have certain qualities to be ninjas- though that still leaves six more people-

Also like, I really want more on the tengu and the ninja? I have a lot more dedicated to the fanon season three and this is only one part of my thoughts but- i keep thinking about the one episode where tengu! Howard (in the time travel/season one finale episode) was hurt and it affected Randy; like this has so much potential? Like just imagine the angst that could create- or even if Howard was permanently linked to the tengu, and he developed powers and things went a little… south - there is going to be so much I’m going to explore with this tbh

I need to dedicate an entire nine post thesis purely dedicated to my attempts at interpreting the different realms that Randy would have had to face if the show wasn't suddenly cancelled, oh my god

Another thing- the Sorcerer had so much potential as a villain; it's basically what he could have been if the show wasn't posed so much as a lighthearted action-comedy, but this is also a topic for another day. The amount of brainrot I've been dealing with is so ridiculous, someone help

[transfemme-floofer]

I scrolled through the available TV channels for Florets next to my best friend Millie in Mistress’s vines, looking for something to enjoy together, before stopping on one particular show in particular

“Florets and Fun, what’s that” I enquired

The Affini and Millie looked at each other “Petal, you explain” Mistress encourages. Millie burst out in neurodivergent joy as she explained “okay, you know how back on Earth there were lifestyle car shows like Top Gear or Men and Motors?”

“Yes”

“Well, here we have the same thing but for Florets”

“That sounds like fun, shall we?”

“Go on” we pressed it and the screen came up with a notice with a sad cartoon floret and text that said “oops, ask your owner if you can watch this” Millie spoke again “oh yeah, there’s a little bit of naughty language and like playful violence… but Miss Anisette always lets me watch it because she knows I was really into cars on Terra” I looked to my Mistress “can we?, please may we watch it” She ponders for a painfully long time “alright, I know Anisette, she has the best judgment out of everyone I know

She presses the approval button, and we are treated to the sweet sound of the Allman Brothers

[dysfunctional-doodle]

i love that they have an autism groupchat. like of COURSE they would make one. i don’t even really know what they’d talk about but like. lmao

(also an adhd chat that’s 99% mikey and most of what is said is just spamming memes. some related to adhd some completely irrelevant)

also referring to bay mikey as their DOUBLE AGENT I CAN’T

i’d love to hear some neurodivergent headcanons you have (i am very passionate about neurodivergent headcanons i have so many it’s unreal)

I hc that most of the Donatellos, if not all, are autistic with varying levels. I also hc that 2003 Raph in particular has autism due to the mannerisms he has in the show and I will die on that hill.

My hcs also revolve around every Mikey having ADHD (Bayverse, 2003, 2007, 2012, Rise - which was basically confirmed anyway - 2019/Batman vs the TMNT) /ADD (1987). They simply are not Mikey without it, in my opinion.

As for mutant mayhem (I’ve done a post about this) but in concept art Donnie and Mikey both have autism rep stickers - Mikey on his nunchucks and Donnie on his laptop (? I can’t remember where his was too well oops).

Other than that, I don’t particularly hc many other neurodivergent behaviours in any of the turtles notably, though I do see a lot of hcs for 2012 Raph having IED which is interesting, but I’ve not watched enough to know much about his mannerisms. Obviously I’m not a professional, these are just my thoughts and completely understand if people don’t see it or disagree! I just am quite fond of the Mikey ADHD hc the most :)

(Also, I hc Bayverse Mikey as ADHD and Autistic due to @brightlotusmoon ‘s Bayverse fanfics and tumblr posts, which are all amazing and you should check them out!)

[magicalgirlmascot]

We know a little about Vakama’s family, and Nuju’s… did you have any details worked out about some of the other Turaga’s families?

A little bit! Not a whole lot tbh.

Vakama has been no contact with his parents at least since he became a Turaga. They were neglectful and very much the kind of parents who check out of their kid's life when he starts showing signs of neurodivergence, blaming him for not being "normal." I mentioned at one point Lhikan sitting the Metru down and telling them they needed a will and a POA, and that was the catalyst for Vakama cutting them out. He suddenly realized that if something happened to him, even if it was just a car accident and not Toa related at all, they'd be the ones making decisions for him and that scared him.

Nuju gets along with Kualus better now than when they were younger. The age gap didn't help (their parents were fairly young when they had Nuju and then Kualus was Baby Oops 10 years later) but Hot Beast Summer ultimately served to make Nuju realize just how much he'd been ignoring that relationship. They argue still, but they are quite close. Their parents live a good distance away so they don't see them often. Possibly in another province. Or maybe they moved to California after retirement and their ice elemental sons refuse to visit them there lol

Whenua is also no contact with his family but didn't do that until a few years into his marriage. They were not happy about him marrying a man (and a disabled one at that) and no matter how much he tried to get through to them they refused to change. He stuck it out for as long as he did because he was raised on the idea of "traditional family values" (and all the bullshit that comes with), but eventually it became too much. He doesn't regret it, he can't, but it does make him deeply sad in a way that Vakama (and Lewa) aren't about their families.

(At one point I was going to have a chapter or two about Whenua dealing with his father passing and all the complicated feelings about that. But I couldn't find a good place for it, and then my grandmother died in the spring and writing about a funeral service was hitting a bit too close to home. It might show up as a short story someday but for now it's pretty firmly tabled.)

Nokama is very much an oldest sibling. Of how many I'm undecided, but she's definitely the oldest. She's used to being in charge, which is where her whole "does whatever she thinks is best without asking" thing comes from. (Contrast with Gali, who also has Oldest Daughter Syndrome but was also the youngest sibling, so not only was she given responsibilities her brothers often weren't, but also her brothers never listened to her ever because she's the baby.)

Matau grew up in a pretty loud and chaotic blended family situation where he was the second youngest of five. It was a home full of love, but also full of yelling kids. So Matau has absolutely no trouble dealing with loud groups of children lol. As far as he's concerned that is childhood's default volume.

Onewa had a tough home life, but unlike the others I haven't really decided what that looks like yet. He strikes me as the sort of person who ran away from home several times before he was even in high school yet.

[alessiasfreckles]

if my memory is not as bad as I think it is, you've recommended sapphic books before, right? I'm in desperate need to read some contemporary romance but I don't know what book to start now😭 I recently read the Bright Falls trilogy and I've just finished "Imogen, obviously"

i'm so sorry i'm only just replying to this now!! but you're right, I have :) here's some recommendations for you!

We Used To Live Here by Marcus Kliewer - HORROR!!! about a young wlw couple who flip houses and they've moved into their newest place when a family knocks on the door, saying the dad used to live here, asking if he could show his kids around... but then they won't leave. (not very romance-y but I do like a book that happens to have a wlw as the main character)

Hearing Red by Nicole Maser - zombie apocalypse, kind of enemies to lovers, and one of the main characters is deaf!

Tryst Six Venom by Penelope Douglas - this is dark romance/enemies to lovers, very smutty. actual story was fine, as far as I remember? but the smut was gooood.

Don't Want You Like a Best Friend by Emma Alban - like a crossover of bridgerton and the parent trap, but gay! two debutantes in 1857 Do Not want to find a husband, so they hatch a plan to get their parents (who seem to have a history) together instead, and, well, it's on my list of recommended sapphic books so you can see where this is going.

Hotshot by Clare Lydon - an american footballer joins a team in the uk, but when her life starts unravelling, the team's new sports psychiatrist (i think?? ngl i don't fully remember her role) helps her to pick up the pieces.

Mistakes Were Made by Meryl Wilsner - oops, i slept with my roommate's hot mom (sweet and romantic but also good smut)

Cleat Cute by Meryl Wilsner - assuming anyone seeing this list has read it bc let's be real, but in case you haven't: GO READ IT!!! rivals to lovers on the US women's national team (+ neurodivergent/disabled rep) (also very good mix of sweet, romantic, funny, smutty)

Catch and Cradle by Katia Rose - college lacrosse team with an unofficial rule that players shouldn't players... but then a new girl tries out and the captain is smitten (again, good mix of romance and smut)

Wilder Girls by Rory Power - a girls' school is put under quarantine, and now they're cut off from the world, stuck on the island they call home, not daring to go beyond the school's gates where a mysterious illness has taken over the woods. but when one of the girls goes missing, her friend will do anything she has to to find her.

The Abyss Surrounds Us by Emily Skrutskie (and its sequel, The Edge of the Abyss) - i think this one is so underrated!!! i never see it mentioned anywhere. this one's essentially a scifi pirate thing, where a trainer of sea monsters is taken captive by a pirate ship, and one of the pirates is ordered to take care of her. has alllll the classic tropes, handcuffed together, only one bed, etc.

sorry this list is so long and that it took me so long to reply!! i also have quite a few on my to read list, but since i haven't read them yet i didn't want to include them (in case they suck lol)

[finch-velutina]

Gomu Gomu No Mi Analysis/Headcanons: The Neurodivergency of Devil Fruits:

(tl;dr: Luffy is an absolute weirdo and I love him SO much)

Luffy is neurodivergent, this much is obvious. However, Luffy is also someone who has eaten a fruit at a very young age, which also affects the way he sees the world and interacts with it. I personally believe that Luffy is neurodivergent not just in mind but in body, and I absolutely love to think about how the Gomu Gomu no Mi affects Luffy both physically and mentally.

[Spoiler warning for up to Dressrosa because gear 4 is discussed ]

Luffy and Blunt Damage: He's Just Built Different

One of the most obvious examples of how Luffy's fruit affects how he views the world is how he treats other people in regards to blunt damage. Blunt damage is a Thing That Happens to Other People to him, and as such he has trouble remembering it exists. When he Gomu Gomu no Rockets his nakama into things he apologizes after it happens, like he didn't think it would hurt them.

Because blunt damage is a type of fall damage, Luffy also doesn't understand how far a normal human can fall. My absolute favorite canon example of this is from the Arlong fight, where Luffy "swaps places" with Zoro by hurling him ten feet in the air while severely wounded.

Instincts (the stretchy kind)

Related to this, I don't think Luffy can get vertigo because he has no instinctual reaction to heights whatsoever. We saw him fall off a cliff in Syrup Village without even waking up. His first name may be Monkey but there is nothing monkeylike about not waking up from Oops Fell From Thing. His instincts literally work in a very different way, which is so interesting to me.

Another example of how Luffy's instincts work in strange and delightful ways is from this tiny 2 second bit in the Davy Back Fight arc. Any normal human would have ducked when seeing something fast coming towards their head. Not Luffy though. He physically pulls his head out of the way. There's nothing natural about that reflex and it just shows how much Luffy's fruit is intrinsic to his being!

[ID: Screenshot of Luffy in the Davy Back/Long Ring Long Island arc avoiding a spiked ball by holding his head an arms' length away from his shoulders ]

Being rubber, which is an insulator, has affected his temperature perception. In alabasta he mostly complains about being thirsty, not hot, and always has delayed reactions to things he touches being hot or the climate being cold, like on Drum Island. (This is one of my favorite examples of how luffy's neurodivergency interacts with his Fruit because his poor interoception is both a mental and a physical thing).

Gears

Now it's time for even more analysis of how the Gomu Gomu no Mi works! Time for the Gears. A Gear is not, like, a state of mind in the same way Luffy being a Rubber Human is, but it's part of luffy's loveable weirdness, so I'm including my theories/headcanons on them too.

Gear Second: I think this makes it hard for him to walk, because he is moving very fast, which makes his bones looser and more rubbery.

Gear Third: The main operating principle of this is Luffy inflating his bones. What happens to the non-inflated parts of his arm like the muscles? Obviously they have to stretch and are put under a lot of strain, which is something I think is part of him becoming tiny after. This would also explain how getting stronger during the timeskip caused the shrinking to stop happening - his muscles are stronger and more resistant.

Gear Fourth! This is the first gear to affect Luffy's entire body. It's explicitly stated that Luffy gets so bouncy in this form he can't stand still or walk very well, which delights me. In gear 4, Luffy inflates his muscles, and the bones are now the part stretching. They're more resistant to stretching than inflating, which makes moving hard, doubly so because his muscles are huge and less precise. (Sidenote - this is different from a standard Pistol bone stretch because those recoil right back into place without being held stretched for long periods of time). This is why he can do that accordion fold in with the muscles that brings that concussive force like in Kong Gun - his bones naturally want to scrunch the muscles back to release the pressure on the bone.

How are his lungs affected by this form? His lungs are extremely important to his forms because gear second, the basis of them, pumps blood very fast and needs more airflow. The lungs are surrounded by both muscle (inflating) and bone (stretching) so the tension between those two seems like it would put a weird strain on the lungs. I think some sort of lung inflation like in Gomu Gomu no Fuusen is necessary, if only so that Luffy can get enough air.

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Yeah ok Legacy of the Gods time (aka Percy Jackson x Rottmnt crossover)

So basically, instead of being kidnapped by Big Mama in the early 2000s, Lou Jitsu narrowly avoids a terrible marriage and instead continues his life of partying in Hollywood.

He meets several beautiful people and eventually finds himself with 4 kids. Oops.

In his defense, he has no idea how some of these kids were ever born, it shouldn't even be possible, but alas. He's a dad now.

He raises them (while continuing to ignore his Hamato legacy), moving to NYC away from his life in Hollywood to give his kids a chance at a semi-normal life. Weird stuff happens to them all the time but hey, he's rasing 4 neurodivergent boys, shit's gonna happen.

Even if some of that is.....really unexplainably weird.

There's been incidents. He files each one numerically in case he needs to bring it up on a court case.

They're somewhere in the 1000s by the time little Raphael reaches 10.

He needs bigger filing cabinets.

But finally his boys make a friend! There's this really sweet girl who plays with them all the time and seems really mature for her age, like SUPER mature, and her parents are never around.....

Well, there's always an extra seat at the table for little April, who's limp keeps her from playing some of the rougher games sometimes.

The kids have a REALLY hard time in school, and a good portion of Yoshi's Hollywood money goes into finding tutors willing to stick around long enough to actually teach his boys. He gave up on traditional schooling pretty quickly. Sure it secluded them a little bit, but they do plenty of sports and clubs, and they're REALLY REALLY REALLY good at it!

......where did they get these genetics from???

Anyways, everything is going great!

That is, until that weird green smoke filled up Yoshi's room one night.......

Feel free to ask me questions! I'd love to expand on more, there's just so much lore I couldn't possibly get it all out in one post! My ask box is always open!

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Re: Sometimes feeling species dysphoria as someone who doesn't ID as non-human - would you be willing to expand on that? It's okay if not - I don't want to pry - but I've never heard of someone having that experience before and think it might be valuable to the overall conversation.

That said the comparison to cis folks sometimes experiencing gender dysphoria makes intuitive sense to me, too.

Sure! I'll try my best to figure out how to articulate this in a way that makes sense and is also respectful (as someone who doesn't ID as non-human, I obviously do not want to appropriate experiences!) but I do fear it may not be as interesting as it sounds.

This got really long, so I'm putting in a read more, oops!

For clarification, I experience psychosis (since childhood) and have neurological disorders. I think the combination of these things is what causes what I'm about to try to describe, though I would certainly not try to say that the only thing that can cause species dysphoria is this sort of experience, nor would that would make someone's experience any less valid if they chose to ID as non-human if they were in a similar situation. Everyone is different, after all!

Primarily, this thing I equate to species dysphoria manifests as two different things that I tend to describe as non-human body language and non-organic yearning.

Non-human body language isn't as encompassing as I'd like it to be, but it's hard to articulate. My limbs don't feel right sometimes; disproportionate to each other, maybe. My spine feels wrong; too short, maybe? That could be the scoliosis causing both of these things, but it happens in my arms sometimes too. I don't know what it wants to be, however. There's ways my body wants to move to convey ideas to others than I can't emulate properly. My vocal mimicry is good, but not good enough, though I wouldn't really tell you what calls I'm supposed to make. I do trill a lot, when I can.

My teeth aren't quite sharp enough, I know that. And would a tail help? Would upright, pointy ears? A crest of feathers? I wouldn't mind a crest, I think, but then the moment passes and what I have is... acceptable. Fine. I am here, in this place, and my nerves are made of fire.

In a more permanent fashion, I bunt people to show my affection, but even when I physically can't it is a constant urge. (I nearly broke poor @/sattarehi asking if I could bunt him.) It's easier to move on all fours sometimes, or just in ways that are unintuitive to a human blueprint. To curl around people while we're sitting on the edge of a bed, them sitting up, me on my side to encircle them, in a way I don't see others doing often. The way I hold my arms sometimes feels like the resting position of something else; holding them at my sides like a person is expected to feels wrong, like it'll impede my ability to flee if I need to. (From what? Is that the paranoia? The hypervigilance? The nerves again? The various and sundry neurodivergencies?) When I'm socially allowed to cross my arms it helps, but it's not quite perfect.

Sometimes, the fact that I cannot do these things more effectively (though my brain does not grant me the knowledge of what that would look like), that I am considered eccentric and strange for doing them at all, pulls at something in me that doesn't speak in any language I have access to.

As an aside that may only slightly be relevant, my social integration is interesting. People who are friends or close associates or even people I think of fondly become extensions of us in a way that isn't so much possessive, but in the same way a tight knit family group might be among certain animals. (Which is why when people ask 'do you experience romantic love?' I can't honestly say. This is already quite intense, you want me to try and define it further?) And that's to say nothing of the prey drive. The human prey drive is intense enough, and I can certainly repress it well (I can't believe PvP games were good for something) but mine feels a little overtuned.

... So the non-organic yearning is fun to try and figure out, but it provokes the same feelings, so I'll try to articulate it just in case it helps!

It feels like I am made of something deeper. Something farther. Here, there, everywhere. I feel like I am floating adrift in a dark sea, unable to drown or sink, though surely I must. Surely I must. And yet.

It isn't an invincibility. It isn't a belief in a higher power or an afterlife. For the sake of my health, I cannot believe in these things. (We shan't talk about my childhood delusions, but they were quite elaborate! You could tell I was into world religions as study subject as a child.)

But sometimes I look into the sky and feel it staring back, like I am stuck in a Polaroid that an old friend keeps looking at to remember me. I look at pictures from all of our instruments that turn into the infinite dark beyond our planet and my brain thinks I want to go home the same way I do when I see my hometown on a map. I am not from here, something in me insists. I am from nowhere, but I am certainly not from here. Is that the intergenerational trauma? The thing that infects you and fills in where your grandparents' language and food and culture is supposed to be? The remains of what a war before you were born left behind? Or is it something else?

It feels like something else, the same way sometimes my body feels wrong in the same, but different, way that it always feels wrong. It feels like whatever I am, separate from this meat suit and these mutinous neurotransmitters, is from somewhere else. That it knows this. That it wants to go back.

Not all of my body dysmorphia is neatly gender dysphoria. Species dysphoria, as a term, helps gather these experiences up neatly, even if I don't identify as non-human. I am human. I am a strange, eccentric human, even if I feel like Something Else Wearing A Human Skin, but ultimately human regardless. Despite that, almost. Maybe, in a strange, contradictory way, I'm both. Human is what I want to be, at the end of this day. But regardless, it does help me understand things a bit more than someone who doesn't have the same experiences, I think. And maybe this will change in the future as my understanding of myself grows! I'm a whole adult, but I'm growing every day, you know?

(You know that book, Casual Rex? And they made it into a show pilot/TV movie called Anonymous Rex? And it was about dinosaurs barely surviving their extinction and pretending to be human and they wore disguises to blend in? There's a scene where a character describes another character as "she's a human pretending to be a dinosaur pretending to be a human!" Life feels like that sometimes.)

[rachymarie]

GUYS look i did A Thing!! Potential neurodivergent life hack! That thing is actually sorting one of my home screens just a lil.

So I sandwiched this new MultiTimer app I've mentioned before in between Tumblr n Reddit and I am now contractually obliged (by myself) to open the timer app, and start the Tumblr/social media timer first every time I go to open the Tumblr/Reddit app lol. I know, such a smart cookie am I 🍪😅

I was finding myself getting lost in rambles on Tumblr too often and not getting my irl stuff done and had to figure out app timers and this is my compromise.*

And friendly reminder that the app timer by the Samsung Digital Wellbeing app timer functions sucks/is extremely difficult/slow/annoying to use/customize, so I can't just use that.

I've got a timer running in the timer app now for not getting lost following getting this very communication out.

So let's see how effective it is for this rather neurodivergent brain once it goes off lol. Oop, and timer just went off. Consider me alerted lol.

Oh also also the alarm sound I use is U Gotta Show Up by Marc Rebillet (yes, maker of all fun alarms, our ADHD King and saviour aka Loop Daddy), you must use some ⛵🦜 tech sorcery (or premium yt if u can afford that) to acquire it.

Lemme know how y'all fellow neurodivergents (yes all including that of mental illness) tackle the issue of getting lost in certain apps (well social media, pretty much) and don't say something ridiculous/condescending like "self control" or else u have to buy me a house

It's kinda hard cos i kinda need to grapple with social media as an artist and raising mental health awareness, so I don't need to "cut out/go on vacation from social media" - i need Tactics

*Btw - and this probably isn't new info to most of you tech savvy folks, but - you can get apps to make your own app shortcuts. The only caveat is that if your phone restarts it takes ages for it to load again. I did it for Todoist bc they replaced the pink icon with a slightly different and uglier shade of pink lol. And cos I think selecting your own app icon within the app is a paid feature I cunnae afford

**I know there is a route where you can get apps/apks for an app that can run auto macros on your phone, meaning I could probably have it automatically open this new timer app/or auto activate the timer whenever I tap on the Tumblr (etc) app... but honestly I cba farting around with that and not sure if an third party app can be trusted w control of my phone lol (I say, as if Samsung and Google truly can 🤡) may have to consult Reddit (the og source where I first found a recommendation for such an app) again on that one. And as always I've a Lot To Do. So may not be a perfect solution but for now this will have to do.

or maybe even a widget but they do take up so much valuable space on home screens