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sergeanthatredbignaturals · 2 months ago

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Joanna “Joan” Macintosh

The third of the 3 original Prime Assets gathered for Project LATHE one

Although the project itself was deemed a failure, promptly scrapped and repurposed, Joan showed incredible potential, and was thus kept, along side “Sergeant” Leland Coyle, and Phylis Futterman A.K.A. Mother Gooseberry.

All other subjects were liquidised, as they could not be repurposed.

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As you can probably tell, this is about my OC, I’ve never made an OC post before so I fully don’t know what I’m doing, but the people have spoken

Like I was expecting the majority vote to be yes, given its general fandom courtesy to not vote in these if you don’t care, but I wasn’t expecting such an overwhelming yes

I love this fandom dearly

Anyway, about Joan

This is her initial design (first image) and her beta design (second image)

Neither of which I’m really happy with, but the second more reflects my vision of her. The first was before I realised I should capitalise on her Trial ground being a school (we’ll go into why later) and that I could dress her in a school uniform, so I did. The first was also far too similar to Gooseberry (doesn’t reflect in the image, im more talking about how I envisioned her in my head) so I had to change that obviously.

As you can probably tell, her weapon is a pair of scissors, again, we’ll get to why later

I’ve only finished one piece of her, which is this

Which was drawn over an image of me

I wanted to show her glowing eye (and yes, it actually glows). It’s a false eye given after she stabbed out her own (once more, this will be elaborated on later) and works about the same as those little glow in the dark stars, and isn’t greatly stronger than them. It does result in her having better night vision than the other Primes (it’s like the night vision headset when you run out of battery. Not the strongest, but enough to make her tricky to deal with). Doctor Easterman came up with the idea for her eye to glow in the dark, to see if it would make her night vision better, and it does, which provides a unique challenge for the Reagents, so they kept it.

Fun fact, like those glow in the dark stars , her eye also needs recharged with light. So yes, she has to sit and shine a torch into it to recharge it for a trial, outside of game mechanics bc this would never be included, when in a dark area for a long period of time, the light will gradually dim.

Let’s get into her story now, the briefest rundown i can manage (i can guarantee it’ll be anything but brief) (edit: im right, oops)

Tw for topics of self-harm/self-mutilation, and child abuse, there’s a lot of that in her early life, though as this is outlast I need to mention that none of the abuse is sexual in nature, it’s just emotional and hitting. Saying “it’s just” feels like I’m diminishing things, but I’m tired and my brain can’t come up with better phrasing rn as I’m writing this before I post it and my brain feels like mush rn 💀

Anyway, the sections written from sections 13 onward dont discuss the abuse, S/H is a rather large topic for this character in general, so if that’s something that upsets you, she might not be the character for you/lh. If you don’t want to hear any of this, fair enough, don’t read content that you know will upset you 👍

Early life (birth-12) [1922-1934]

Joanna was born to Thomas and Martha Macintosh in 1922. Her mother was a housewife, and her father was a pastor in the local church. She grew up heavily religious.

Problems arose with her parents focus on their own image in the community, and didn’t like that their child “came out wrong”, their own words. She grew up in an incredibly abusive household, her parents would hit her for seemingly no reason whatsoever, and it caused her to retreat into her room most of the time. She was safe there, so long as they didn’t see her, they wouldn’t hit her. Her existence in her own home was often seen as an annoyance, which would warrant punishment. She was an anxious child because of this, and an incredibly quiet one as well. She would dread church services, because they always ended in beatings. She was “too awkward” with the other church goers, and was thus a “stain on their good reputation”.

She wasn’t able to do much in early life because of this, most of her time was spent in her room, reading. However, as a Christian fundamentalist household, she wasn’t allowed to read much, for fear certain books could “corrupt her”. Jer parents would need to read anything before her, and deem it safe for her to read. Which ended in her reading, and rereading, and rereading, and rereading, and rereading again, the Bible. She felt she had to know the Bible front to back and back to front again, a pressure further put upon her by her parents, scolding her for not knowing it as in depth as some other child who’s parents had bragged to them about their little bookworm. Needless to say, she also attended catholic schools.

Due to the abuse she faced at the hands of her parents, and she belief distilled in her that parents all love their children, she developed strange perceptions of love. Believing to love someone is to hurt them, that it was an innate part of love, and that that’s simply how it is.

13. [1935]

At age 13, she developed strange religious beliefs, that battled against her upbringing. In her own words, she “just knew one day what she was to do” she didn’t hear the voice of God, she would later claim that anyone who says they have is lying or crazy. She just knew, like intuition, you can’t explain how but you just know somethings going to happen. She knew she had a purpose bestowed upon her by a God. That purpose, you may ask? To free people from their suffering, by means of death. Specifically removing the eyes before death. Her belief was that, by removing the eyes of people, they could no longer see the suffering they endured in life once they pass on. Though due to conflicting beliefs, she did not act on them at this point. She would later characterise the beliefs fighting as “her”, Joan, and “Joanna”, who she speaks of like a sister, rather than a part of herself.

14-18 [1936-1940]

As the two beliefs clashed, Joan started winning, killing people in her school with a pair of scissors (note, she still uses that same pair in the Trials, she insisted upon keeping them. She claims it’s for practicality, as she knows those scissors well enough that their like an extension of her own hands, and if she were to replace them, she’d need to learn a whole new pair in order to be more effective. She refuses to admit that it’s partially because they’re all that link her to her old self) she avoided suspicions though all this, as she kept to herself, laying under the radar for the most part.

I’m unsure as to whether or not I’m going to give Joanna a girlfriend at this point. I think I will, but I’m yet to flesh that out. All I’ve got now is that they went to the same catholic school, she was called Sarah, and that Joan would at some point in these years, kill her.

19. [1941]

Joanna would cease to exist, and Joan won out over her, with the final victory before Joanna stopped fighting Joan’s will, was killing their parents. Joanna’s last act was running from the scene in panic. Which, all together, made a pretty hard case for Joan to get out of.

Joan is an incredibly manipulative person. Shes the charismatic one of the pair, though only when she wants to be, this will be touched on further in her interview with Clyde Perry. She put on her best innocent little girl act, crying in the police interview, when it came to discussing the state of the bodies she left to throw up, she was utterly disgusted with the memories of the event, and had to be temporarily excused. She made an incredibly convincing case. There was nothing to concretely prove it was her, the most damning evidence being her fleeing the scene, which she excused as fight of flight. When asked why she didn’t phone police, or tell anyone, she explained that it would make what she saw “too real”, that if she told anyone, it would cement it that that had happened, and that she had actually seen that. It was out of panic, and denial. That, along with media coverage condemning police for putting such a young girl though interrogation after seeing something so horrific, made them let her go. Too many simply couldn’t believe a young girl could commit such an atrocity.

Everything she said was a complete lie, obviously, she was just pulling out all the stops so she wouldn’t be convinced. And it worked.

20 [1942]

Joan moved from Oklahoma to Montana, claiming she needed a “fresh start” after everything that happened. In truth, she was sick of her intelligence being assumed based on accent and gender, and opted to fix at least one of those. (Added info, shes from the same state as Coyle because i like writing those two as two sides of the same coin)

Her crimes were made far less convenient, and she had to try and find a way to not have them move with her, at least not yet

21-27 [1943-1949]

Joan does everything in her power to live an uneventful, utterly normal, completely boring life. Making friends, dating, finding a job, and retaking her education, and living a generally unfurling life. She killer people on the side, but now plotted them in depth, stalking the person before to get their schedule down, she would kill at most two people a year, and those would occur in like January and November of the same year, to give you some idea of the timeframe here. Copycats popped up, trying to replicate her crimes, and typically failing and getting caught. She loathed them. She loathed a lot of people. Her “friends”, not for any personal reason, but simply the fact that she had to act around them all the damn time to keep up the image she’d made. It was exhausting. She detested her boyfriends. For completely personal reasons, they were pig headed, and repulsive, and annoying, and she was sick of them all. Her saving grace was being able to play the role of a “good Christian girl” so she at least never had to sleep with any of them. How she hated them all.

28 [1950]

Shes caught. While killing a man in an alley, a woman opened the door on the side of one of the buildings they were between, she was going to the bins. She saw Joan, and every plan Joan had for something like this evaporated. She froze, staring dead at the woman, and shaw her one look reflected back at her on the woman’s face. After a few seconds, the woman snapped out of it and ran back inside, and Joan ran off. It was narrowed down to her based off the woman’s description quickly, and they took her into custody. When searching her apartment, they found documentation of her plans, and notes she’d taken on the last victim. She had tried to burn all the evidence, but some was hidden too well for her own panicked brain, and she missed some spot.

She was given a lawyer, who forced her into an insanity plea. In court, she refused to admit to her crimes, and it was only after a full hour had passed of the prosecutor having to back her into the metaphorical wall with evidence against her, that she finally relented. She did a 180 in her personality, no longer feeling the need to act when she was already caught. She admitted to everything, telling the court hiding things would be pointless, her sentence won’t be any lighter. She was deemed insane, and not in her right mind enough to make decisions on the grounds of religious psychosis, and shipped off to an asylum.

29-??? [1950-whenever LATHE one started]

She lived in an asylum (I need to pick one, that will happen eventually but I keep forgetting and I cba to do that right now) up until she was interviewed as a Prime Asset candidate (i don’t know then LATHE one began, if that is information that has been released and I’m forgetting please let me know)

She continually attempted to escape, getting further and further each time. She was a wonderful escapee, and continually used her innocent little girl act to trick guards. She spent most of her time in solitary, in a padded cell, in a muzzle, and straight jacket (she had a habit of biting guards, and also chewing though her straight jacket). In her stay, she attempted escape upwards of 10 times, the last attempt she almost escaped, but was moved to Sinyala before she could try again, and killed 3 guards across those attempts.

??? [???]

Clyde Perry is instructed to interview Joan as a possible Prime Asset by Doctor Easterman, this was due to his own interest in her case that he attempted to cover up as believing there was potential in her. And oh boy is there.

Joan appeared rather hostile throughout the interview, and attempted to attack Perry after he referred to her as “Joanna”. She would hold this grudge until the day he dies. The only reason she was unable to do anything to him was the downright comical amount of restraints on her. She just thrashed wildly against them until she calmed down.

Perry was ready to dismiss her, as she showed no potential for anything but a nutcase, until he mentioned what he was there for. As soon as she realised he could be a way out, she switched on a dime. There’s the charisma he was looking for. She did everything in her power to convince him she’d be an excellent fit, almost convincing him against things he already knew about her. Almost. She was brought forward as a Prime Asset candidate, and shipped to Sinyala. Her old facility was glad to be rid of her, as she claimed they would. She said they’d put up no fight to keep her, and they didn’t, they wanted rid of her.

???-37/38 [???-1959/1960]

During LATHE one she had extreme self mutalatory habits, hence her scarring. It was during this period she removed her own eye. She has extreme sadomasochistic habits, which is what caused this. To put it simply, she got off on the pain she caused herself, including what she did to her eye. It was at this point action was taken to prevent further mutilation, as they (Dr. Easterman) realised she was a serious threat to herself. She now satisfies her need to cut things with cutting her own hair, hence why it’s in the choppy state that it’s in.

She now functions as a Prime Asset, her trial being themed off the crimes she committed in school. She develops an unnatural attachment to Dr. Easterman, referring to him only as “The Doctor”, and occasionally “My Doctor”, she’s incredibly possessive of him. (In my version of events, Irene divorces him, and he finds out about when LATHE two starts, fully because it gives me more time to develop their relationship before Amelia comes along, and to factor in the time for him to process and move in from his ex-Wife). Not as long as you’d anticipate after he finds out about the divorce, he moves her rooms cameras to only be seen by him. And installs more. And maybe occasionally reads though her diary to see what she writes about him. After about a year of LATHE two being running, they start getting closer, with him talking to her over the radio every evening as she cleans her scissors, and sharpens them (shes the only one permitted her weapon in her room, as he trusts her not to attack staff, and so far she hasn’t. I’ll get to that in another post), or makes art to put up in her school, or patches up her uniform, ect. He gives off about his work, and coworkers, and she listens like it’s a podcast, offering responses when appropriate. At some point it becomes a running joke between them that he’ll give off about a coworker, and she’ll offer to kill them for him, and he’ll give some surface level reason not to, and they have a little giggle. They things progress farther. In short, they get freaky on a Friday night/ref. They highkey start dating, and Easterman is trying desperately to not let anyone know (everyone knows, it’s so fucking obvious). He doesn’t fully trust her until after the escape, as she herself admits that if she were trying to use him to get out, she’d likely be doing about the same things. But afterwards he trusts her loyalty to him completely. They spend time together, him bringing her to his office when he can spare the time, even if it’s just to see her in person while he works, having her sit on the floor next to him, her cheek resting on his thigh while he works, comforts him more than he’d ever admit. I feel I should mention shes straight jacketed while around him, though the arms aren’t strapped in. They engage in parallel play a lot while he’s talking over the radio. Sometimes he runs out of things to say (rarely) or needs to concentrate more, and goes quiet. They find comfort in working on their own thing with the other on the line.

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Ok my houses wifi is scheduled to go off at midnight and that’s 19 mins away so I’m wrapping this up, also I’ve been at this for 2 and a half hours straight, and my hands hurt and my phone needs charged. If you’ve made it this far., holy shit thank you dawg, I’ll make another post when i remember to about her relationships with the other Prime Assets

#oc: Joan #oc: Joanne Macintosh #prime asset oc #outlast oc #outlast trials oc #the outlast trials #outlast trials #clyde perry #doctor easterman #dr easterman #hendrick joliet easterman #outlast #oc: Joanna Macintosh #dr Freakerman

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legionofnone · 18 days ago

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Click here to read ch15 of 'A Sea of Glass...' on AO3!

Title: "The Snack Hydra Payout" Pairing: Harvey x Chloe Fandom: Stardew Valley Rating: Explicit Summary:

Harvey does some investigating after Chloe off-handedly mentions the criminally small amount of money she made from licensing one of her inventions, and discovers she’s not nearly as broke as she thought. Cue financial whiplash, emotional whiplash, and the sort of sex that gets you yelled at by your roommate.

Excerpt:

[Chloe’s POV]

The wedding is four months away, and I am not prepared, to put it mildly.

I don’t have a dress, I don’t know what I’m doing for flowers, at this point I think I’ll just offer up all the booze I’ve got fermenting as the drinks in lieu of a cash bar, and…

“Why are we doing this wedding again? Aren’t we already married?” I whine at him. We’re sitting in bed together; I’m haphazardly scribbling down bridal shops to go look at when I go to the city next week, as he pores over his budget spreadsheet.

He looks over at me with a mix of anxiety, concern, and sympathy. “Because, neither of us have gotten to have a wedding that wasn’t in a courthouse,” he answers gently.

“Well, we did kinda have that one in the Stardrop supply closet,” I smirk at him suggestively.

He sighs, “Fine, we didn’t get to have a wedding that wasn’t in a courthouse or immediately post-coitus with Elliot watching us.” A hint of mischief glitters in his expression as his eyes meet mine.

“I know, you’re right. It’s just, ugh, four months isn’t a lot of time, I lost a lot of ground with this whole ‘getting cancer’ followed by ‘yay I don’t have cancer’ followed by ‘oops now we have a baby hanging out all the time,’ you know?”

He nods thoughtfully, “Yeah, I know. We could always push the date out?”

I frown, “But I was really looking forward to our Halloween Wedding, you know?”

“What if we just had a super sick Halloween party, and then did a wedding on…I don’t know, New Years Eve?”

I blink up at him in shock, before examining his neck to make sure he didn’t have a spare head getting ready to grow out of it. “Did I just hear you, Harvey ‘I don’t want people touching my stuff’ Klein, not only suggest we have a sick party, but also have a wedding on the most chaotic day of the year?!”

He shrugs lightly, “What can I say, living with you has been akin to exposure therapy.”

I lean over to hug him, pinning his arms to his side as he awkwardly tries to navigate the open Excel file on his laptop. “I love you, like, a stupid amount,” I mumble into his neck, biting it for emphasis.

He yelps and giggles, “Careful, if you keep that up I’m going to make you learn about budgets with me here.”

I straighten myself up a bit, “Weren’t you going to teach me that anyway or something?”

He blushes a bit, clearing his throat, “What, you mean ‘Mutual Funds for Mutual Fun’ scene I’d suggested?” I nod, and he lets out a light chuckle, “Well, it might not be a terrible time for that. I’m struggling a bit to figure out what our wedding budget should be, especially now that I’ve got an eye on expanding the clinic,” he tells me, like he’s informing me of bad news that he’s trying to soften the blow for.

“How bad is it?”

“It’s not impossible, it’s just… applying for grants and getting past all the red tape could take years. Now, if I could just buy the old community center up, that would be a great property to rehabilitate and expand into.”

“Oh, that would be awesome!” I light up, smiling.

He winces a bit, “Awesome in theory, yes. But, Joja is trying to make a play for it, and they’re offering more than I can do without considerably compromising us financially.”

“Fucking Joja,” I grumble, “You know, when I sold Snack Hydra, a little over a year ago, Joja made an offer on it. It was like, a lot of money. But I hated them so much I turned it down. Maybe I made a mistake doing that, I don’t know.”

“Wait, wait,” he says, lifting a hand like he’s trying to physically slow the chaos down. “You mean that Frankenplant you made with the melon that smelled like Smarties and tasted like battery acid?”

“The very one,” I say proudly.

“I’m not surprised they wanted to get their hands on it, if only to make sure it didn’t see the light of day,” he ponders aloud, “That thing grew four different crops from the same stem. It could sense soil conditions and adapt accordingly. You built a biologically impossible modular crop hybrid out of expired seeds, banana peels, and spite.”

“And duct tape,” I add.

I’d started working on Snack Hydra in the first couple of months of living here. I was starving, and I couldn’t get shit to grow right – not without fertilizer I couldn’t afford, or tools I didn’t have, or the kind of soil that wasn’t made entirely out of crushed dreams and fucking clay. Every single crop either shriveled, got eaten, or bolted before I could even blink.

By that point, I was so angry that everything I’d worked for up to that point—college, internships, all of it—had fallen apart. So I leaned into the only thing I had left: my brain and an absurd amount of vengeance energy.

I started messing with seed coatings and hormone grafts. I didn't have a proper lab, just some broken glassware, an old fondue pot, and a folding table rigged under a janky lean-to I built out of fence posts and a surfboard. But it worked. Eventually.

The first time it fruited, it produced a tomato, a chili, and half of a suspiciously bioluminescent mushroom before collapsing under the weight of its own impossible ambition. And I remember just sitting there and laughing, because it was the dumbest, most beautiful thing I’d ever made.

I told Harvey about it during the Egg Festival, like it was no big deal. I’d been kind of avoiding him for a couple weeks (okay, ghosting him, fine) and then suddenly there he was, sitting under a tree looking like an absolute snack himself, and I just…sat down and started talking.

It was the first time I really let myself talk to him, and not just flirt or fluster or whatever the hell it was we were doing. The first time he felt like a friend, not just a crush. And I don’t think I realized how much I needed that until he followed me home and stood in my busted-up lean-to and said the words, “This is inspired.” Like I wasn’t just some wreck in cutoffs doing trash science to survive.

And then a couple weeks later, I closed on a licensing deal with a startup. Said it was niche tech, probably wouldn’t go anywhere, but they wanted to try. They gave me twenty grand and a contract I didn’t read. I paid off my bar tab, built a coop, bought a shed, and never thought about it again.

He looks at me, alarmed. “You didn’t tell me you turned down an offer, how much was it for?”

I shrug, “Something ridiculous, like, $250,000.”

His eyes go wide, “WOW. And how much did you end up selling it for?”

“I dunno, it was this little startup ag-tech outfit, they said they couldn’t pay me much up front but said something like, ‘down the road it’ll hit big!’ But I didn’t care, I was fucking hungry, I would have sold it for a Wawa hoagie at that point.”

“But how much?”

“$20,000, I think? I went through it pretty quick, it’s how I got my coop and barn built. And how I paid my bar tab at the Stardrop,” I chuckle. Gus was so happy that day, it was wonderful.

“And you just… sold it. For twenty grand.”

“Well, and I insisted that they couldn’t let Joja touch it, under any circumstances. And that they had to keep the name Snack Hydra.”

“…huh,” is all he can say, like there’s several tiny gears turning in his head.

#farmer x harvey #harvey sdv #harvey x farmer #sdv harvey #stardew fanfic #stardew harvey #stardew oc #stardew valley fanfic #stardew valley harvey #sdv fanfic

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rewordthis · 2 months ago

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for the ask game...ohohohohoh the baka of all time the one and only... Kagami Taiga ♥

Waaah! My Forest Lady!!! 💚✨ You ordered from this menu! And you say my Bakagami! I’m always here to tear Taiga-kun down 100 ways till Monday! Here we go!

GIVE ME A CHARACTER; and I’ll break their ass down:

How I feel about this baka gluton

I want him to bottom. I want him to top. I want him hard and sweating and exasperated! That’s how I feel about this dude! I need to examine him under the microscope while he fucks with Aomine because if he doesn’t give insurmountable pleasure to my babyboy I will bite him! He has GOT to perform on more levels and with more ferocity than what he’s shown me so far! Come back here and get this Aho by the hand with you, stupid! How can you only think of yourself and return to America without Aomine having time to confess??? Numskull. 😤

All the people I ship romantically with this baka ahh ass

Aomine. Aomine AoMINEEEEE! He says Kagami is his. I have no reason to argue. It’s destiny. Hehehe Other than that… nah~ He may have a fling with Kise or even Momoi. Still. No one really fills Aomine’s shoes. You know~ 😏

My non-romantic OTP for this basketball nerd

BrOTP with his canon besto friendo Tatsu-n and then the MiraGen + MomoKuro, yes. What can I say, it’s just that the series is writen this way they are all great at being bros over balls~ Still, I think he’d be a bit more compatible with Kise who he interacts more lightly and cracks jokes and maybe Murasakibara for sharing one braincell over communication. Aomine will allow it. LOL At least he won’t throw his magazines at them for interacting with Kagami. Except for Kise—this idiot gets handsy. 🤭 After that, I think Kiyoshi is superbly fitting for a big brother figure to all the kouhais but daaamn~ Taiga-kun could help his senpai’s patience to practice manners a bit and get a slap over the back… whether it’s hard enough to sent him into the wall because he is his usual ass-self or a friendly acknowledgment that stings him for the rest of the week. Kiyoshi has strong hands, he can drill a hole in this guys bones if he so wishes. Aomine finds it deserved, too. Btw. 😇

My unpopular opinion about this idiot

He is not an idiot. Oops. This guy over here is not actually stupid or an angel. He is perfectly capable of remembering recipes and throwing hands—he is NOT the bottom/wife material the fandom has made him into. He is aggressive, with anger management issues. He is not cute. And compared to Aomine he is straight af—except for when it comes to Aomine that is. But he is quite dense in those matters so he hasn’t noticed yet so… no one spook him, please~ 🤫

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this endless belly-pit monster in canon.

Ughhh… I think, ending the movie like that was a shit move on Fuji-sensei’s part. Have Aomine chase after him? Really??? My darling babyboy having to go to America to face off his fated challenger and rival??? At least give me a Kagami that is a bit emotional over the fact he’s leaving behind the only guy he knows can never own in one-on-ones! Let them have a moment! A quiet brushing of shoulders as they are all squeezed against each-other on a bench after a farewell street-ball game before Kagami’s departure!!! Dick-ass move to send him off like they did. Bruh. 🤬

Yeah. Thank you for the rigorous thinking you forced on me, my Forest Lady~Pfff~ I kept adding and subtracting for this one, he and Aomine are 20 and 50 pages thesis analysis worthy respectively. LMAO Sunday Character Dismantling workshop in the delivery again. LOL Maybe I should do this a weekly event~ Tsss~ 😎😋

#asks #answered #kagami taiga #kuroko no basket #knb #blorboblurting #ily my forest lady! 💚✨

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weirdly-specific-but-ok · 1 year ago

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hey, i hope you’re ok. i’ve been watching this whole thing unfold from the sidelines since it first started, and it’s been wild because it’s been like watching what i went through when i first watched GO, from the outside. i’m so sorry we as a fandom introduced you to this godawful heartbreak, but also, if you’re anything like me, you wouldn’t want it any other way because it’s just. so perfect. good omens genuinely rewired my brain chemistry and is easily the best piece of media i have ever seen. even though it has destroyed me, i am so grateful i decided to watch it. i share all your feelings about crowley. i have So Many Feelings About Crowley. after s2 i reacted just as violently as you did lol. i will say, it does get easier with time. for the first two weeks i genuinely could not think about anything other than the Pain (lol), but now i’m fully functional again! i still think about Them every hour of every day, but now i think about other things in between too. so it gets better! commiserating with fellow Good Omens Brainrot sufferers helped make me feel a lot less alone, especially in the beginning. and now that it hurts less, i’ve actually found quite a comforting family of sorts in this fandom. make sure you make room for other things too though!!! take a few days just to be emotionally devastated, but after that try and go outside or spend some time with friends or family. eventually it will fade to a comfortable level of obsession and you’ll feel okay again. it’s a lot less scary now that we know season 3 is coming. and even though it hurts. there’s something sort of beautiful and exquisite about being moved this strongly by a piece of artwork, i think. sorry for this long ramble, i just wanted to express my support and let you know that you’re not alone i guess.

Hello anon maggot! Thank you so much for taking the time to write this, please don't apologise, it's so touching to read. This fandom really is beautiful, isn't it, and it's so crazy to see how much art and creativity inspired it as well as was inspired by it. It's such a kind community and it's wild how strangers have bonded over Good Omens and become so tight-knit. And yes, Crowley. Just Crowley. I am in love with them. I'm glad you've also found a family in this batshit insane and loving fandom.

Yeah, I'm trying to remember to take a break *looks away guiltily* whenever I'm not on tumblr I just seem to pull a Crowley and sleep through the day. It's been such a rollercoaster of emotions.

Why did I say that. Everyday, it's a-getting closer, going faster than a rollercoa-

Oops.

#good omens mascot #good omens #weirdly specific but ok #asmi #crowley #good omens fandom #maggots #lgbtqia #ineffable brainrot #good omens brainrot #ineffable husbands #final fifteen

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incandescentflower · 2 years ago

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Emoji fic writer ask time! 🛒 What are some common things you incorporate in your fics? Themes, feels, scenes, imagery, etc.

⛔Do you have a fic you started, but scrapped?

👀Tell me about an up and coming wip please!

✅What's something that appears in your fics over and over and over again, even if you don't mean to?

🎢Which of your fics would you call your wildest ride?

thanks lauren! this one is so fun!

🛒If it's a one shot, I am most often writing smut (haha) that is a character study. Intimacy can be shown in a lot of ways, but any kind of sex (and I mean any kind of physical touching) requires a vulnerability for most people if it involves intense feelings (which it always does in my fic) and I like to explore how that impacts what we already know are the character's struggles/fears/characteristics. What does vulnerability look like for them? how do they ask for what they they need and how they show what they want from their partner (communication is always a major part, but not always verbal).

Longer fics just usually play out these conflicts and challenges in a larger story that is a variation on theme.

I love nature imagery. I love seasons, weather, sun rises, sun sets, those tactile experiences we all have of the world around us.

⛔I definitely do have at least one. Most others I plan to go back to at some point, but I started a DanYok Not Me fic where Dan has amnesia that seemed like it would be fun, but then at the time, I wasn't really thrilled how they played out Dan at the end of that story so I lost the motivation. I do sometimes think I am now far enough away from my immediate emotions about that story to write something that makes more sense to me, but *waves hands* look at all these other ideas in front of me haha

👀oh jeez, I think besides finishing my current half-posted bbs wip, I am going to start working on a Cherry Magic thailand fic. A few of us have had some fun talking about how the manga exists in the CMTh universe and that it could be fun to mess with that a bit.

✅I've been told I write comfort smut so maybe that's it? 😂 See above first answer haha. I do like the friends with benefits tropes and the self delusion people can do to get to be close to the person they desire. It might be a different trope I'm working on and then somehow oops, that's kind of friends with benefits. sorry/not sorry

🎢I'm not exactly sure what this means, but for me I guess I would just assume it was a fic that kinda went unexpected places? I would say it's Boldly Going Where Adachi Has Never Gone Before Eventually, because it's a fic that came out of a cherry magic prompt challenge I helped run and it was just written on fandom crack.

from the fanfic writer emoji ask game!

#ask game #asks #galauvant

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moonchild-in-blue · 7 months ago

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Hey its anon again. Thank you for the reply. I was angry and rambly, but i had just woken up and almost immediately saw takes that pissed me off so i went off lol. Its just very frustrating seeing people act so awful towards others for interpreting up to interpretation art differently. While discourse over whether or not the music is romantic/sexy is not the only discourse about how to interpret sleep token, it really seems to be what has the most vitriol aimed towards people over. As someone who does very much embrace the romantic/sexy elements of sleep token, it makes me feel very unwelcome in the fandom because im supposedly in many peoples eyes just a stupid horny fangirl who is not a real fan or is a terrible person or whatnot. I can acknowledge these elements and appreciate them on just a surface level in a given moment, while also diving deep into metaphors and double meanings or whatnot in other moments. One day ill be like "oh this song gives me unholy thoughts", another day ill deepdive into the tragic meanings, rinse and repeat. Thats the fun of sleep token in my eyes, its many things all at once and can give you so many totally different emotions depending on what angle in certain lighting you look at it in in a given moment. Hell, i find the idea that the romantic/sexy meanings are only surface level to be false, ive changed my perspective on some songs to see them as hornier than i realized once other people pointed it out so no i do not think sexual interpretations dumb the music down and i think it makes the music so much richer in meaning. (I also honestly dont hate the "baby making metal" thing, hell even one of their stage crew called sleep token "sexy metal", its such a nonissue to me that i dont get why people get so angry over it) I wish we could just stop with the "dont romanticize/sexualize sleep token!!" stuff, and just embrace mature nuanced discussion where we embrace the variety of experiences we have with the music. (And even in cases where people say a song like atlantic is sexy, like, okay, weird take but you do you as long as youre not being shitty to other fans or vessel) I also honestly dont think its wrong to speculate on vessels life. I do it a lot, i want to know what this music means to him since its obviously so personal to him and i admire the vulnerability in his lyrics and stage presence. I do think the whole thing fans do where theyre like "this music is definitely about this thing that im assuming happened irl so im gonna be shitty to people for disagreeing on my interpretation because i totally know without proof vessel would be offended" is shitty, but thats because its infantilizing to assume a grown man needs to be protected from people enjoying the romantic/sexy stuff he puts into his art and because its just otherwise shitty to treat people like shit over assumptions. But yeah, theres lots of nuance in sleep token. Its a really bizarre art project with the anonymity and little communication with fans, and it leads to lots of disagreements among fans for how to approach it. Im not perfect either, i can be a bitch too lol, but we can seriously do better as a fandom to handle the nuance (again, im not immune to being shitty! Im only human and all! But i still do get very upset with the fandom a lot because of my Hot Takes on various things). Thank you for your time, and again thank you to everyone who call people out on being assholes over different interpretations (this got rambly again but idk how to trim it down oops)

I'm not gonna comment further on this, cus honestly there's no point to drag this on and I'm tired, so! You do you anon, yay for music etc etc 👍

#darya answers #anon ask #sleep token

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whumptober · 5 years ago

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Whumptober 2020 - Updated

Welcome to Whumptober 2020! We’re doing things a little differently this year so please make sure to read the Event Info carefully. We are also excited to announce the addition of an AO3 Collection, which can be found here.

We hope you’re as excited as us to watch the Whump Community come together once again for a month of bone-crunching creativity and collaboration!

(All 31 Themes + Prompts, Event Information, and FAQs are posted below the cut!)

No 1. LET'S HANG OUT SOMETIME Waking Up Restrained | Shackled | Hanging

No 2. IN THE HANDS OF THE ENEMY "Pick Who Dies" | Collars | Kidnapped

No 3. MY WAY OR THE HIGHWAY Manhandled | Forced to their Knees | Held at Gunpoint

No 4. RUNNING OUT OF TIME Caged | Buried Alive | Collapsed Building

No 5. WHERE DO YOU THINK YOU'RE GOING? On the Run | Failed Escape | Rescue

No 6. PLEASE.... "Get it Out" | No More | "Stop, please"

No 7. I'VE GOT YOU Support | Carrying | Enemy to Caretaker

No 8. WHERE DID EVERYBODY GO? "Don't Say Goodbye" | Abandoned | Isolation

No 9. FOR THE GREATER GOOD "Take Me Instead" | "Run!” | Ritual Sacrifice

No 10. THEY LOOK SO PRETTY WHEN THEY BLEED Blood Loss | Internal Bleeding | Trail of Blood

No 11. PSYCH 101 Defiance | Struggling | Crying

No 12. I THINK I'VE BROKEN SOMETHING Broken Down | Broken Bones | Broken Trust

No 13. BREATHE IN BREATHE OUT Delayed Drowning | Chemical Pneumonia | Oxygen Mask

No 14. IS SOMETHING BURNING? Branding | Heat Exhaustion | Fire

No 15. INTO THE UNKNOWN Possession | Magical Healing | Science Gone Wrong

No 16. A TERRIBLE, HORRIBLE, NO GOOD, VERY BAD DAY Forced to Beg | Hallucinations | Shoot the Hostage

No 17. I DID NOT SEE THAT COMING Blackmail | Dirty Secret | Wrongfully Accused

No 18. PANIC! AT THE DISCO Panic Attacks | Phobias | Paranoia

No 19. BROKEN HEARTS Grief | Mourning Loved One | Survivor's Guilt

No 20. TOTO, I HAVE A FEELING WE'RE NOT IN KANSAS ANYMORE Lost | Field Medicine | Medieval

No 21. I DON'T FEEL SO WELL Chronic Pain | Hypothermia | Infection

No 22. DO THESE TACOS TASTE FUNNY TO YOU? Poisoned | Drugged | Withdrawal

No 23. WHAT’S A WHUMPEE GOTTA DO TO GET SOME SLEEP AROUND HERE? Exhaustion | Narcolepsy | Sleep Deprivation

No 24. YOU’RE NOT MAKING ANY SENSE Forced Mutism | Blindfolded | Sensory Deprivation

No 25. I THINK I’LL JUST COLLAPSE RIGHT HERE, THANKS Disorientation | Blurred Vision | Ringing Ears

No 26. IF YOU THOUGHT THE HEAD TRAUMA WAS BAD... Migraine | Concussion | Blindness

No 27. OK, WHO HAD NATURAL DISASTERS ON THEIR 2020 BINGO CARD? Earthquake | Extreme Weather | Power Outage

No 28. SUCH WOW. MANY NORMAL. VERY OOPS. Accidents | Hunting Season | Mugged

No 29. I THINK I NEED A DOCTOR Intubation | Emergency Room | Reluctant Bedrest

No 30. NOW WHERE DID THAT COME FROM? Wound Reveal | Ignoring an Injury | Internal Organ Injury

No 31. TODAY’S SPECIAL: TORTURE Experiment | Whipped | Left for Dead

Alternate Prompt List

Alt 1. Punctured

Alt 2. Falling

Alt 3. Comfort

Alt 4. Stitches

Alt 5. Stoic Whumpees

Alt 6. Altered States

Alt 7. Found Family

Alt 8. Adverse Reactions

Alt 9. Memory Loss

Alt 10. Nightmares

Alt 11. Presumed Dead

Alt. 12. Water

Alt. 13 Accidents

Alt. 14 Shot

Alt. 15 Carry/Support

Event Info

WHUMPTOBER is a month-long, prompt-based creation challenge (think: Inktober, but whumpier). There are 31 Official themes this year - one for each day of the month - which can be used, skipped, or combined in any way you’d like. They are meant to serve as inspiration without being taken literally (e.g. you don't have to include the exact wording into your work). Additionally, there are 3 prompts for each theme. These are optional suggestions and can be used in conjunction with the theme, or as options/alternatives. We want to give everyone as much creative freedom as possible, as well as increase event accessibility for folks with triggers and squicks.

Creators can PRODUCE work in any media they choose, including but not limited to: writing, visual artwork, and photo/video/audio edits. Creators can PARTICIPATE as much or as little as they want (i.e. you don’t have to do ALL the prompts if you don’t want to) and prompts can be used in any order. They are also free to use even after the event ends.

When uploading Whumptober content to your blog, be sure to tag the with:

#whumptober2020 …..(the event tag)

#no.1, #no.2, #no.3, …..(theme number)

#bruised, #stabbed, …..(the theme or specific prompt you chose)

#fandom or #OC

#medium …..(gifs, fic, podcast, art, etc.)

#teeth, #etc …..(trigger warnings & any additional tags. Keep in mind not to add “tw” in front but only use the word/trigger itself, because tumblr sucks)

#nsfw, #nsfwhump …..(only for nsfw content)

PLEASE BE DILIGENT WITH YOUR TAGGING. Only properly tagged posts are considered for archiving on the official @whumptober2020 blog. They must be tagged in the order above.

Unfortunately, due to the sheer number of participants in recent years, we cannot guarantee your work will be archived. A random selection of properly tagged posts from all genres will be reblogged each day.

Whumpers who produce content for 31 total theme days are considered event completionists and will be tagged in a masterpost at the end of the month.

Questions not addressed below can be directed to this blog as well.

Thanks for reading, and happy whumping!

Frequently Asked Questions

Q. What kind of content can I make? Can it be NSFW?

This is a MIXED MEDIA event! You can write fic, post meta, doodle or paint, create a gif set or photo edit, link a song, or get crafty with video - anything goes. As for NSFW, make what you like, we just hope that you’ll tag your work accordingly so that others participating in the event can stay safe :)

Q. Do I have to do all 31 Days? Can I post early/late?

Participate as much or little as you like, and post whenever! Just be sure to tag your posts properly (ex. #no.11, #psych101). Combining prompts into one piece of work is okay, and posting late is as well so as long as it’s in October.

Q. What if I don’t understand a theme?

Send us an ask! We’re happy to help clarify. That said, the themes are entirely up for interpretation :)

Q. Can I combine Whumptober with other creation challenges?

Absolutely! That’s like shooting two whumpees with one bullet :)

Q. Can I upload/repost my whumptober content to other social media platforms?

Of course! We’ve created an AO3 Collection to archive any fics posted there. The archive can be accessed here. The blog is the official archive, so please respect the boundaries of any closeted whumpers in your social circle :)

Q. Can I use prompts to write a new chapter for an existing fic?

Yes

Q. An existing fic I am currently writing contains many of the Whumptober prompts, can I use it?

If you are actively writing this fic at the moment with the whumptober prompts in mind, yes. If it just conveniently checks the boxes, then please don’t. You can, however, add new chapters answering one or more of the prompts.

Q. What kind of characters can I write for?

Fandom characters, OC characters, human, furry, alien, cyborg, whoever you like.

Q. Can I use a prompt multiple times?

Yes, but it only counts once

Q. If I’m not comfortable with one day's prompts can I use a prompt of a different day as a substitute and still be a completionist?

Yes, but please do not use a specific prompt twice. We have also created an alternate prompts list that you can draw from [here].

Q. Where can I post my work?

Post where and how you want. You don’t even have to (cross)post it to Tumblr. Just keep in mind if it’s not on Tumblr we will not be able to add it to the blog archive.

Q. Can I start posting early?

You can, but this is an October event and wouldn’t it be more fun with everyone doing it at the same time? That being said, you can post early, but we won’t be reblogging any work predating October 1st.

Q. Do I have to finish a fic I started/can I post WIP’s.?

Yes you can post WIPs. And you’re not obligated to finish it in October for it to count towards being a completionist.

Q. Is co-writing allowed?

Yes, absolutely, and it would count towards being a completionist for both/all of you :)

Q. Do I have to create 31 standalone pieces to be considered a completionist or can I write one continuous story?

One continuous story is fine. The challenge is to write something for 31 prompts. If that’s spread over 31 fics or just one, you are still considered a completionist. (The same goes for every other media you choose.)

Q. Is there a min/max limit on word count?

There is no limit

Q. Can I combine prompts? Is there a limit on how many?

No limit and combine as many as you’d like.

Q. Is a hc/angst focus ok?

Of course!

Q. What’s considered nsfw?

See this post

Q. What's whump?

See this post

Q. My interpretation of the prompt isn't whumpy at all, does that count?

No, sorry, but keep in mind that whump [see definition] is something very nuanced and different for everyone and emotional whump/angst is just as much part of it, as is physical whump and torture. So before you dismiss your idea, think about this.

Q. Can I start working on the prompts before October?

Absolutely! That’s why we posted the prompts a month in advance. We recognise how difficult it can be creating for 31 days in “real time”.

Q. How do I tag triggers?

tw at the end of the word, ex. emeto tw

Q. Do I have to use your tags?

Yes, if you want your work archived on the blog. If not, feel free to use whatever tags you want.

Q. Does combining prompts count towards completion?

Yes

Q. Can we @ you?

Yes but we mostly rely on the whumptober2020 tag

Q. Is there anything we are absolutely not allowed to write?

There are no rules, just be sure to properly tag your trigger warnings. And keep in mind Tumblr’s policies if you are posting it here (or the policies of whatever site you use).

Q. Where can I go for brainstorming help?

Here on Discord

Q. My characters are minors, is that ok?

Yes, but as with everything else, tags are your best friend.

Q. Can I cross post on other blogs?

Yes, multiple platforms and blogs are perfectly acceptable. You can also post different works to different accounts under different names, without posting them everywhere at once.

Note: This is a creation challenge, please don’t repost your old work under our tags (unless it’s been changed or edited for the event).

#eventinfo2020 #whumptober2020 #whumptober #promptlist2020 #prompt list #FAQs #event info

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9w1ft · 3 years ago

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There ARE pressing issues. Indeed. And in June, you could very well support them while supporting Pride. Like. Retweeting something about them. Like. Posting a message about how we acknowledge that Pride is intersectional and that queer lives matter and racial minority lives matter and gender equality matters etc. Acknowledging the anniversary of the petition and how far it went and thanking everyone that signed. Hell, liking à freaking tweet.

There are many ways to continue to support one or many causes and look *legit* rather than just being One Time Loud during promo season. I /believe/ she's an ally (duh, I'm here) but it also looks kinda cringe if she's only ostensibly an ally when she has something to sell.

i am once again going to refer to be there in five because i think she articulated it well in… i think it’s episode 141 (edit: ep 241 🙈 oops! it’s about 40 mins in, if you want a listen), at one point she said (i’m paraphrasing) that the past few years (ie since covid) have been a big period of growth for a lot of people in regards to social issues. even for people that have always been advocates and activists, it has been a period of time that has magnified and underscored many key problems with our society. it would be one thing for taylor to remain consistently quiet (as many respected celebrities do) on all fronts, however her general quietness (not silence but noticeable quietness) is coming on the tail end of Miss Americana, a documentary who’s key message as taken away by her fans was that taylor was ready to start speaking out on social issues. so there is a dissonance between miss americana taylor and the taylor we have seen (or not really seen) since. and i think a lot of fans, especially through the k*mye thing, really went to bat for taylor when the general public decided taylor was a “bad” person. a lot of people really cut their teeth in maintaining and amplifying that taylor is in fact a “good” person who does “good” things. for these fans, Miss Americana surely felt like a redemption, and acknowledgement and conclusion to an arc that was so formative in their lives. in a way, Lover era was further proof of concept. she began advocating for the queer community, posting more vocally about things, supporting and interacting wider net of fans, etc… but that seemingly all went away the moment her masters were taken.

then the pandemic hits and soon we have people marching for Black lives, and taylor is uber quiet. to the point where she leaves tumblr in perpetuity —a move i worry she will never address— and at one point hands her instagram account over for like a day to an activist but by and large she is gone.

and we can see in folklore a portrait of a taylor that is unbelievably sad. there is a lot of emotion in that album directed at (who i believe are) the people who fucked with her music. there’s epiphany in the mix as well. but she remains super quiet overall. she did the “we will vote you out in november” tweet, and we get the pride post last year and things like “happy pride to you too” but in general the times where she has appeared have been to defend issues related to herself. there’s that business of the bad joke in the netflix show (“happy international womens day i guess 💔”), the tweet in response to the gorillaz guy, etc.

and i think the one thing that has kept a lot of fans afloat or at somewhat of a balance is the idea that she’s been focused on her re-records. now that the momentum for that has been lost, i think it’s left a lot of fans restless

this is by no means an exhaustive recounting of all the related events but i’m assuming we all know the beats so to circle back to the top, bethereinfive said in so many words that long story short, a lot of fans are anxious that they have grown during the pandemic in ways that their idol has not. i would add that i think the parasocial relationship we as a greater fandom have with taylor will lend people to see her as an extension of their own morality. and thus, seeing taylor not do something that you would or associate with people you wouldn’t, etc, feels as if you had lost control of your own body where you thought you previously had it.

now, personally, i still firmly believe that Miss Americana was originally intended to be her coming out documentary. this is just my feeling and i don’t have a well structured argument either than perhaps that we know rep tour chicago was filmed, so there is footage of taylor saying her pride speech that apparently got left on the cutting room floor. and the fact that Lover era was, in general, Gay As Hell.

so while i believe there is a separate discussion to be had about what taylor’s empirical quietness on many social issues means to us as fans, i think at the start that, for a lot of her fans, there has been a grand miscommunication stemming from Miss Americana having been (imo) morphed into a documentary about “finding your voice” or becoming an activist, where maybe that was never taylor’s intention in the first place. to put it another way, she may have unintentionally overpromised on a version of herself that she was not planning to commit to at this time.

once again, a separate conversation can be had about if we like the state of affairs, or if it’s “good” or “bad” to just come out without also defending marginalized communities, but i do think it can be said that the documentary contributed to peoples frustrations.

i think as gaylors, and particularly if you are magically still a kaylor, we are more able to see a greater variety of stressors in taylor’s life that may have been leading to her being checked out at the moment. i have so much empathy for her for so many reasons, she is in a truly singularly complex position and i truly believe if i was in her shoes i would understand it, and i’ve been doing my best to take opportunities when i get perplexed as opportunities to improve my own actions.. ie, focus my energy on what i can control and not what (who) i can’t

but anon, as you said, it’s pretty simple to do a little bit more than what she’s doing now. so in the absence of evidence to the contrary… yeah. 🙈

#oops this got long

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lavenderbexlatte · 4 years ago

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plz type out the hot take essay. we love critical thinking within fandoms.

alright so. chan's personas.

i feel like he's already had a few.

2017, so predebut and over the survival show, it was the Monster Rookie. jyp's veteran trainee, hip hop prodigy, stone-cold leader who was ~sometimes~ silly but who mostly was a badass who singlehandedly put together skz and led them to debut.

yeah, no. the show wasn't a survival show, not really. they eliminated people, sure, but i would bet top fucking dollar that jype always intended to debut the group as is.

and chan didn't form the group. jype did. that's a blatant story told to make the group seem more...underdog-ish? idk. regardless. that's not how that works.

2018 was Teen Chan. bear with me on the name.

he was a rookie idol, but he was trying everything. he was on ASC for a while. he tried MCing, he tried fitting the goofy and sporty role on the team for a while. he dropped the hip-hop persona. he turned away from rap toward vocals. he was funnier, looser, more physical comedy, more awkwardness.

2019 was the birth of Emotional Support Kpop Boy Chan, which ran through 2020, also.

as he developed his chan's room method over 2019, he fell more into the responsible, socially-aware, image-conscious role. he focused a lot on his output toward fans. he started to cultivate an open, honest, and communicative style of being.

but is that real? or is it another persona?

not that he's fake, but that...it's what he thinks he should be.

i think that he probably tries really hard to be exactly what he needs to be. and we do get glimpses of the real guy, bc of course we do. he’s not lying or deceiving us. he’s just creating a boundary of his own. he wants to be a positive force, so he ONLY shows the good on chanbang. that kind of thing.

now, why would he make the OTHER personas??

2017 Monster Rookie Chan, i think, is the result of 7 years of training and a deep, deep inferiority complex. based on when he was recruited, his age, and who he trained with, chan should have been in got7. he should have. why would they pass him over?

easy. he wasn’t good enough yet. some people are born to be stars (bts jungkook. jackson wang. nct/wayv ten) and i firmly believe that’s not chan. chan WORKED to get where he is. he WORKED to become an all-rounder. at got7′s debut, he wasn’t READY. and i think that he was determined to make it stick this time. hence. a strong and fearless persona.

2018 Teen Chan was him overcompensating. he had been a badass for a long, long time at that point. his whole image was Leader. strong, bossy, parental. he wanted to get goofy. he didn’t have many solo stans before this era. seriously.

2019-2020 ESKB Chan was him softening again. he realized that the goofy role better fits the younger members, especially once chan became both the leader and the oldest. there was no one left to baby HIM, or be an equal. so he stepped fully into being the one who takes care of EVERYTHING. the band. the company. us. not himself tho oop-

and that brings us to 2021.

the new era. and his new persona. Sexy Chan.

body chains. multiple songs about sex. always being naked. the wolfgang stage. why does he keep wearing collars he knows i love writing him a collar but this is REAL LIFE-

yeah. fuck that 🤣🤣

#chan persona discourse #okay DISCUSS #this is ALL MY OPINION OKAY #JUST MY RAMBLINGS AS A LOVER OF THE BANG CHAN

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dancer-me · 4 years ago

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Fic Writer Questions

@hopeintheashes tagged me (that was pleasantly surprising, so YAY) as well as anyone who wants to play (so if you want do - just do it!!!) 1) How many works do you have on AO3?

I have nine!

2) What’s your total AO3 word count?

106,461! I broke 100,000 on AO3 and didn't notice =O

3) How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

For posted fanfiction, I have written for 5 fandoms at this point. Naruto (this was my early days, around 2007 to 2015, with pretty huge gaps inbetwen), Merlin (oops), High Seas (just the one small fic because Netflix had me angsting hard enough to break my hiatus), and of course 9-1-1 and 9-1-1 Lone Star!

4) What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

1. Express to Nowhere (911 / 911 Lone Star) 2. Giving up Ground (911 / 911 Lone Star) 3. Quarter Life Crisis (911) 4. Pull me Under (911) 5. Coming Soon to a Theatre Near You (911)

5) What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

I hesitate to say this about a WIP but I'm pretty sure it's going to be Giving up Ground when it's done. Not that it's going to have a sad ending, but that it's part of a continuous series and I already have the next part planned out and partially started (titled "Overdrawn" for anyone interested) so it will leave things feeling hopeful but open-ended, which can be construed as angsty. But really, all my other stories, while they have angst for the most part, have happy endings because I'm a sucker for it. Chaotic Energy is slow burning itself to the happiest of endings.

6) What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?

Hmm... I think it's Coming Soon to a Theatre Near You! This story was just such a fun blast of drama, hijinks, and hilarity, with our two leads getting their love story at the end of it all :) All my completed works have very happy endings, but this one resonates because there really wasn't any angst at all in the whole thing. Just good fun!

7) Do you write crossovers? If so what is the craziest one you’ve written?

The only cross-over I have ever written or been compelled to write in my life has been with 9-1-1 and 9-1-1: Lone Star, and that's my Chaotic Energy series. I don't know if it's "crazy", though it's turning out to be crazy long, since my original plan for it was 5 separate one-shots and Captain, that ship has long since sailed. We're deep at sea now, SOS. I love what it's become, though, and I hope everyone who reads it is enjoying the journey :)

8) Do you write smut? If so what kind?

Weeeeeeeeell. Here's the thing. I wrote m/f smut back in the day, on ff.net and carried my one shots over to AO3 when I made the move. I'm talking way back in the day - those two "E" stories are dated 2015 but I actually originally posted them in 2011 - TEN years ago!! I haven't written smut since (I'm not counting TK and Carlos getting frisky in chapter 2 of Giving up Ground). It's not that I wouldn't, but that I haven't been inspired and with time somehow I have also become ragingly self-conscious over whether I could still do a good job. My smut has always been emotion based though, as I've never been able to truly go PWP. That said, I'm actively open to and considering some m/m smut for my current fandom. Fingers crossed I don't embarrass myself.

9) Do you respond to comments, why or why not?

I do on all my recent work on AO3 (basically my 9-1-1 and lone star fics that I've written since coming out of hiatus).

10) Have you ever received hate on a fic?

Not on any of my AO3 work, though I have received hate on my much older work on ff.net to varying degrees of reasonability. So far the AO3 community has been very kind to me! I’ll get some comments where I think readers had hoped I’d go in a different direction, but nothing has ever been too much.

11) Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of! Imitation is the greatest form of flattery but also no, stop, don’t do that.

12) Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yes, actually! I wrote my first ever published fic for Naruto called “Stand Alone” back between 2007 and 2011 (took a couple years off in the middle there to, you know, finish high school…) that someone asked me if they could translate into Russian. At the time I thought that was super cool, and it still is, but now I look back at that story and I think oof, now we can cringe at it in multiple languages. (more on that later)

13) Have you ever co-written a fic before?

No, but I’m not opposed to it! I’ve seen some excellent fic partnerships and it’s so great seeing writers leverage the creativity and talents of their friends and peers.

14) What’s your all time favorite ship?

Y’know, before 9-1-1, it was Merlin x Arthur, but Buck x Eddie have 110% of my heart and attention now.

15) What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

On the topic of Merlin… I started writing “The Quest for the Knife” back in 2015 at the peak of my Merlin fixation after painstakingly planning it out. I have pages upon pages of outlines and notes for a 14 chapter adventure… somewhere. I found a piece of it like an archeological dig when I was moving this pandemic season, but the rest seems lost to time. I’m sad because I had gotten so excited about it and loved my first two chapters, but I don’t think I’ll ever finish it. I might take it down so I can stop wallowing in guilt.

16) What are your writing strengths?

I like to think I write good action / adventure scenes and plot lines, because I love painting vivid pictures of what I see playing out in my head whenever I think through my stories. I like to incorporate subtle (and not so subtle) humour as well in my work, which is born from my very active internal narrator voice as I go through my day-to-day and try to find the humour in everything. I also like to make outlines before all my bigger stories too, which ‘usually’ means I avoid cringey plot holes and can make some fun connections.

17) What are your writing weaknesses?

*looks at the camera very seriously* writing convincing smut. Well, that, and the kind of emotional, flirty love and fluff that I love devouring in fics. I don’t think I do nearly as good a job there. Get in a character’s head and angst them up? Sure. Wax poetic in a convincing and not jarring way about how much Character A is in love with Character B without making it seem like it was a bit too much of a leap? Debatable.

Also… I tend to require my readers to suspend a lot of disbelief to enjoy my fics with elements of adventure, because I tend to do exactly 5 minutes of Google research for something before I decide I’ve had enough and go ahead.

18) What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

Here we revisit the cringe of “Stand Alone,” where I tried in the first half (the 2007 portion) to incorporate Japanese since I watched the anime in Japanese and felt this was the best way to try and have the character’s voices come off the page. It… is really just a big ol’ cringe, because I didn’t know the language, and I definitely didn’t use suffixes right at ALL. So… I tend to avoid it personally because I don’t want to cringe at how wrong my use of other languages is.

But if it fits you, your story, fits your character, and you know the language confidently enough to not embarrass yourself? You do you *carefully side steps around discourse and leaves the room*

19) What was the first fandom you wrote for?

Naruto!

20) What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

I think it has to be “Express to Nowhere” these days. It was wanting to write that fic that pulled me out of hiatus and helped me find joy in writing and sharing my work again, and I have nothing but love for it and how it turned out.

Holy Cow I was warned that this level of introspection was going to take a minute but whew this was a good chunk of time. Fun to do and think about though!

Tagging: @221bsunsettowers, @onelonelytortillachip, @blueeyedbuckley and anyone who sees this and thinks, "hey, I have an answer for these questions." Because I am madly curious and would love to see your take!

#danswers #fic writer game #she's a long boi

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the-starryknight · 5 years ago

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Top 5 of 2020

Rules: It’s time to love yourselves! Choose your 5 (ish) favourite works you created in the past year (fics, art, edits, etc.) and link them below to reflect on the amazing things you brought into the world in 2020. Tag as many writers/artists/etc. as you want (fan or original) so we can spread the love and link each other to awesome works!

I was tagged by the utterly brilliant @tackytigerfic who is a gift to this fandom <3

I’d like to tag @sitp-recs (what lists or serieses are you most proud of? :) and @onbeinganangel @thesleepiesthufflepuff @teacup-tai @julcheninred @glittering-git @fantalf @peachpety @veelawings @ladderofyears @lastontheboat @mxmaneater @erlasart @erebeus-roxy @unicorn-in-the-library @zigster-ao3 @pineau-noir @queercore-curriculum @primavera-cerezos @gallifrey1sburning -- please don’t feel pressure to do this if you’re not up for it! and however many things you’d like to share (5 or more or less) is welcome, 2020 has been a hell of a year for creators <3

Like everyone else in the world, this year has been so challenging in so many ways. And the past months have been incredibly lonely for a great many reasons -- moving, leaving a job I’ve loved, ending a relationship to name a few. It’s been a bit of a lonely last few months, and I feel so lucky to have had fandom to turn to -- beautiful fics to read, brilliant people to meet, and my own, newly renewed creative energies to rediscover.

It’s been a pleasure to get to create beautiful things with you all, and to indulge in all your beautiful bits of creativity, and to be part of this lovely community of people. And that I think making this blog -- choosing to reach out and be vocal in this wonderful community, that’s probably my #1 of 2020.

As for the fics, well, I’ve only been at it since September, so bear with me!

A Room Up There (And You In It) (59k, T) - Everything in this dear fic came from all the emotions I’ve motioned above - being lonely in a great beautiful house, seeking connection among old things, the quietness of connecting with people you can’t see... I haven’t written something this long since I was in high school, and I’m so proud of myself for finishing it, even during such a crazy time of my life. It’s been so gratifying to get to share it with you all.

Matching Pair (4k, T) - This fic taught me that I could write creatively again, and how cool is that? I’ve mainly written plays in the recent years, so it was exciting to write something prose again. Though I think I can write a bit better than that (and certainly edit better than I did this fic :’) it was wonderful to get to stretch my typing fingers again). And I got such an incredible response! I felt so loved and welcomed into the fandom.

Lie Awake (5k, T) - It was while I was editing this piece that I really thought about my role as a ‘being a fic writer.’ Matching Pair was meant to be a one-off. Practice writing to see if I could still do it, publish it, and move on. Except then I participated in the lovely Drarry Discord Drabble Challenge for October, and wrote a little drabble I adored featuring a trope I love (Master of Death!Harry). I wrote this fic, and my dear friend gryffindorhearts completely tore it apart in her beta of it (in the best of ways). See, I’m a playwright by training and as such, I pay very little attention to the way things flow in space--the way people interact with objects and rooms and the like. Not my fault, that’s the director’s job! Except in prose... I’m also the director... Anyway, it was editing Lie Awake that made me realize that I could (and wanted to) spend the time crafting my stories, to work at the things I struggle with and improve them, for no other reason than that I can improve. And I think that’s pretty cool, so here I am writing an entire advent fic about spaces. Oops?

halcyon days (1.3k, T) - Gosh. When I wrote a great deal in high school (and desperately planned to be a published author before I finished college), I could sit at my keyboard and it felt like my own consciousness had been bypassed. The words would just flow without my needing to guide them much at all, it was so intuitive. And then I got very, very depressed. And I lost that ease of writing. And I thought that was the end of my being a ~creative~ as a career and as a passion. Since then I’ve learned how to write without that spark or to create at least something even when my mind isn’t working like I’d like it to do. But this? This fic came to me like it used to do -- I wrote it in about 45 minutes (approximately 2 sprints on the Drarry Discord). Though I don’t think much of my writing will flow so easily in the future, it was a needed reminder that I still have that kind of spark in me.

Thanks for reading along <3 Thank you all for creating such beautiful stuff to get us all through this awful, awful year. Cheers to a brighter 2021.

#my fic #5 favorites #2020 #drarry #drarry fic #suppose it's honesty hour huh #please if i didn't tag you #and this is something you want to do #i would love a tag to see yours <3

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moonlight-breeze-44 · 5 years ago

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Hey Em! I've gone through most of your Malec fics and I really love them! (especially the autistic!Alec one but also all those dealing with Alec's mental health issues) I was wondering if you have other recs for me of fics you love, since I'm really new in the fandom and there's so much out there?

Hi there! I’m so glad you’ve been reading and enjoying my fics! That means so much to me :) You’re so sweet! <3

I always have fic recs, so I am more than happy to give you some anytime you want. Here’s a list of a few (or a LOT because I got carried away, oops) that I love with my whole heart. I’m not sure what kinds of fics you like, so I rec’d some of my faves and ones that are specifically about autistic!Alec or Alec & mental health issues.

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- Walking With Death by Aria_Lerendeair. This is a fic about Malec becoming immortal husbands, and it’s angsty but so, so, so good. Death is a character and Alec buys him coffee.

- Stone Can Be Broken by lawsofchaos and the wonderful sequel Hearts Can Be Remade by Aria_Lerendeair. Both are very angsty, but Laws’ has a hopeful ending and Aria’s has a happy ending. Be sure to read the tags on Aria’s! <3

- Five Times Alec Hides His Tears And One Time He Doesn’t by notcrypticbutcoy. This fic is about Alec’s struggles with anxiety and it is such a heartwrenching read for me. 100/10 recommend.

- Violet by cuubism. This one deals with some pretty serious suicidal thoughts, so be cautious! <3 Magnus and Alec meet each other on a bridge. Or, the one where helping someone else is sometimes easier than helping yourself. Written by cuubism of the Malec Discord server we’re a part of!

- Wish Upon A Shooting Star by Aria_Lerendeair. Another immortal husbands fic, and it is so, so sweet and has a whimsical, optimistic energy that will surely make you smile. (Bonus points: written by our very own sassy moderator of the Malec Discord server.)

- “You are hurt” by sugarandspace. I’m not sure how much you like parabatai feels, but if you do, this is THE FIC for you. Jenna, who is a member of our lovely Malec server as well, does it wonderfully. It’s set post-3x18 Malec breakup and it has Alec self-harming and lots of feels with him & Jace.

- A Different Time by TK_Extraordinaire. This fic is basically a character study of Alec, a look at how he evolved over the years told from the POV of others.

- Tell me I’m perfect (but tell me the truth) by SquaresAreNotCircles. This fic is one of my favourite fluffy ones and it’s basically 7.5k of Alec talking about how much he loves his boyfriend to everyone who’s not him and then one time Magnus finds out about these secret compliment-fests.

- Brother Let Me Be Your Shelter by alistoney. This fic deals with Alec’s self-harm and it is an add-on to that scene in season 1 when Alec storms away after Jace & Clary kiss. Lots of Izzy and Alec feels, provided graciously by the amazing Zia of our Malec server.

- I will catch you when you fall by sugarandspace. Another fic where Alec self-harms, but this time it’s Magnus helping him out.

- Quiet now, you’re gonna wake the beast by EternallySilverMagnusAndAlec. This is a wonderful autistic!Alec fic that also goes into the emotional trauma that Alec has to deal with from Maryse. Written by EternallySilver of the Malec Discord server!

- Not So Unrequited by Aria_Lerendeair. A best friends to lovers AU that goes through their journey together as friends (including lots of delicious angst) and eventually leads to the confessing of feelings.

- The Lonely Hearts Hotline by Fatale (femme). I prefer oneshots to long fics, so this is one of the only fanfics I’ve read that surpasses 20k. This is the story of CEO Magnus and phone sex operator Alec and yes, it is absolutely as good as it sounds. 100/10 must read.

- Subjective by Accal1a. This fic was actually just posted tonight in the Malec Discord server, but I wanted to link it in case you didn’t see. Hannah has an amazing way with words. This is a 5+1 about Alec & dealing with homophobia. It isn’t all posted yet, but it will be soon, and the first chapter is SO GOOD.

- Autistic Alec AU by AceOnIce. This is a series of fics where Alec is a mundane and autistic, and it shows the journey of his relationship with Magnus. It’s amazing and also written by one of our Discord server members, Amelia.

- shed my skin, my scars by ByTheAngell. This fic is another fic about Alec & self-harm, written by the wonderful Elle of the Malec Discord server, with a few mentions of other ways of not taking care of himself, too. It’s set post-canon and portrays the way that people can fall back into bad habits quickly and easily very well.

- On Thunderstorms and Scared Shadowhunters by alxdrlightwood. The fic in which Alec slowly begins to accept that it’s okay to have a phobia, and Magnus is there to provide cuddles.

- And They Were Roommates by CoolStoryMatt. A roommates college AU where Malec are oblivious idiots that really need to learn to communicate better. Another of the rare above 20k faves of mine. Absolutely hilarious, with great plot and so many moments that’ll make you yell at your screen.

- Whumptober 2019 by Donovanspen. This is a series of works with Malec hurt/comfort and angst.

- No reason to feel like this by sugarandspace. A fic in which Alec deals with depression, and Magnus is there for him.

- it took me years to say the words that you did not even need said by arekiras. A series of fics about autistic!Alec and his life as a Shadowhunter, Head of the Institute, and boyfriend/husband to Magnus Bane.

- Red-Handed by Carmenlire. This is a fic about Alec relapsing with self-harm and Magnus being there for him. Like Elle’s fic above, it also portrays the way one can slip back into bad habits quickly and easily very well.

- Reasons To Stay by AceOnIce. This fic is a 5 times fic with 5 times Alec wanted to die, but didn’t.

- holding onto you by anonlymous. Another Alec & self-harm fic where Magnus is there for him.

- Once You Taste It by Carmenlire. Yet another Alec & self-harm fic, with Alec making the choice to go to Magnus before things get too far.

- An Unlikely Angel by thatnerdemilyj. This fic is a Fraywood brotp where Clary leaves nice sticky notes for Alec after being exposed to all of the bad thoughts in his mind. Bonus points, it’s written by the lovely creator of our Malec server, the other Em!

- First step after the fall by sugarandspace. A fic about the aftermath of 2x08 but Magnus has wings as a warlock mark and he used those to save Alec when he jumped. Lots of angst for both Magnus & Alec!

- Survive In That Despair by thattrainssailed. This fic is one of the only no-dialogue fics I’ve ever read, but it makes the emotion that much more potent. It’s another Alec & self-harm fic, and it’s more graphic than the others I’ve rec’d here, so please be extra cautious! <3

- We Care For Each Other by ZequoiaRose. A bad day fic with absolutely ridiculous amounts of hurt/comfort. So soft, I don’t even have words. 100/10 recommend.

- I cannot touch because they are too near by jillyfae. This fic is honestly the best fic about the parabatai bond I’ve ever read. It has a truly lovely amount of wordbuilding and is told from Magnus’s POV where he wants to know more about the bond Alec & Jace have. Extremely soft and written by jilly from our Malec Discord server.

- Between The Lines by Carmenlire. If you like pre-canon fics at all, this is an absolute must-read. It tells a heartwrenching story of Alec & his repression due to the Shadowhunters’ homophobic society, told from Isabelle’s POV.

- Starling by cuubism. One of the best fics about Alec & mental health issues, in my opinion. It’s absolutely heartbreaking in the best way. It can also be pretty intense, so be sure to read the tags and the author’s trigger warnings! <3

- Astraphobia by AceOnIce. An autistic!Alec college AU where Alec’s fear of thunderstorms causes him to meet Magnus for the first time. So, so, so cute. Like, illegally cute.

- The Breath of a Lie by Secretness. This fic is another one of the best fics about Alec & mental healh issues. Although, please be aware - it is very, very intense. This fic will fuck you up good if you’re not careful, so please take care of yourself. <3

- 11:45 by bidness. This fic is the last of my above 20k recs. It is the sweetest workplace AU you will ever read, where Magnus keeps stealing Alec’s lunch and leaving apology notes behind. Also written by the absolutely wonderful Tilly of the Malec Discord server.

- The Best High School Love Story (Maybe Ever) by Aria_Lerendeair. If high school AUs are your thing, you will absolutely love this. It features competitive Malec, best friends to lovers, and the cutest storyline to ever cute.

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So I ended up giving you like, half of my bookmarks, oops. Sorry about that. I hope you find some that you like among these, and thank you so much again for reading my fics!

Thank you for the ask!

#asked and answered #emma-arthur #ask #asks open #shadowhunters #malec #fanfiction #fic recs #so many talented writers here #I'm damn lucky to know some of them #hope you enjoy these!#thanks for the ask!

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aelwynrights · 5 years ago

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fic writer interview

tagged by: @mordredmanor !!

name: josephine or josie!! aelwynrights on tumblr and twitter, scrxbble on non-d20 tumblr and ao3

fandoms: the only ones i really write for are d20 and naddpod (specifically hot boy summer because i’m fully in for the bros)

where you post: ao3! i will sometimes remember to post about them on my tumblr and very less frequently remember to tweet about them but i’m trying (i haven’t posted in months oops)

most popular oneshot: aelwyn abernant’s kiss list, aka the first fic i posted for d20 or literally any fandom! i was having emotions about aelwyn and healing and kissing girls so i wrote 5,500 words about it (and aelwyn/sam is in it for good measure)

most popular multi-chapter: i don’t write multichapter because i don’t write “plot” i write “vibes” which don’t last for multiple chapters but!! shoutout to multichapter fic writers you all are so powerful

fics you were nervous to post: uh all of them but especially find out your hiding places again because i adore egwene and i really wanted to do her justice and begin living because i don’t usually write/relate to hardwon and it was a little more experimental !! but i love them both so

how do you choose your titles: usually hozier lyrics! occasionally lyrics by other artists, and sometimes little phrases that i just make up

do you outline: absolutely not! my fic writing process is getting a line or two stuck in my head and then building 3,000 words about that so it goes very much the opposite direction from how it’s meant to (i think for this hbs carmac fic i wrote the last two or three lines before anything else)

favorite story you’ve written so far: the naddcord knows this but put your emptiness to melody! it is fully a hot boy summer fic written before any of the campaign episodes came out but i got to put my love of music and my love of writing into one sweet little thing so if you listen to naddpod or just like reading things check it out (there’s literally no naddpod spoilers because again it was written Before The Campaign Started)

complete: everything i’ve posted so far! i could write more about some of them but they are sittin’ pretty

in progress: i have 1 aelwyn fic half written in my docs about ghosts and running and nightmares that i may not be able to finish and i have 1 hot boy summer fic about last ditch late night parties that is unfortunately canon compliant so i don’t know if i can write it bc i’m not used to writing hbs fics based in canon

coming soon: nothing for now!! we just finished the d20 big bang (go read space heist bad kids au) and i am feeling eldermourne and i am feeling more aelwyn recently but we are seeing my final assignments for this bit of school through and then reevaluating fic writing

prompts: please please PLEASE send me prompts (or like. anything)! i adore writing and sharing things w this community and my inbox is always open for prompts or conversation <3

tagging: @drinkingdeadpeopletea @beverlytoegoldv @elmowithshoes and anyone else who wants to do it!!

#tag game #fic writer interview #my writing #dimension 20

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swanqiu · 4 years ago

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talk to me abt cho and aid

// you mean [checks notes] [an entire scroll unfurls and bounces out of sight] sunshiniest boi and swan girl and their 390187526019+ alternate universes?

i wasn’t sure if this was an ask for the playlist meme thing but: oops my hand slipped. and i believe i have capslock-screamed at you extensively about aidan and cho, but since they really do something for me in the form of serotonin, here are some more thoughts i am having about them:

aidan’s whole personality is based around love and that is just. so powerful??? especially for someone like cho who is, personally, one of the characters who does not get very much of it, in canon and in fandom (fandom reception has gotten a lot better in recent years tho so hooray for that).

but then we get to her meeting aidan lynch (pick an au, any au), and it’s just like— wow, here is someone who is very good at giving and receiving and personifying love, and cho becomes drawn to that because what must that kind of power be like? how does he do it? how does he have the capacity to just love love love? he even reminds her of cedric a little bit, with all the commonalities of being kind and hardworking and enjoying quidditch and having been in hufflepuff (just the surface basics, but it’s still enough to make her head turn on sight).

in almost all of the aid/cho alternate universes and scenarios we’ve bounced off of each other, i am highkey obsessed with how well they work when paired with each other. i could pit a fun-loving and cheery and capable of going toe-to-toe on the field!cho (think PoA) with aidan and it would be a fun time all around, with lots of banter and very strong friends to lovers energy and only the ~occasional~ miscommunications. i could pit a non-confrontational and awkward with feelings/relationships in general!cho (think HBP) with aidan and it would be A LOT of miscommunications and will they-won’t they and her overthinking the time he made her stand with him under his umbrella as they were waiting for the bus because she’d been stubborn enough not to bring hers! i could pit a weepy and grief-stricken and mourning!cho (think OotP) with aidan and it would be a tender, comforting dynamic because aid likely knows how to walk with her through it and show her what healthy communication during emotional outbursts look like. (like... i am sure he has had his fair share of grieving and being angry and being emotionally exhausted. i am looking right at you, @ the aftermath of august 1994!)

the point is, your take on aidan is a character that, right off the bat, works well with my take(s) on cho (again— pick an au, any au). i also just straight up love and appreciate your take on aidan so maybe i’m a little bit biased already but. oh well! 10/10 softness levels are off the charts!! this is an elliot AND aidan lynch-positive blog space and i will always be up for more aid/cho content in all of its forms, especially when it’s one (1) single message typed in the heat of a 2am no-sleep daze about whatever new au concept is gonna wreck me next. ❤

#lvncher #in this household we love and stan elliot and his apollo/icarus/sunshiniest boi/quidditch daddy #anyway waiting for the day you'll finally write with me but w/e i am cursed with patience what can i say #come find me when you’re ready take your time etc etc #indiecho character study

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clockworkswans · 5 years ago

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thoughts on mots:7?? *eyes emoji*

aaaaaaah it feels like SO LONG since we’ve had music, even though we get so much content! i feel so spoilt lmao.

think i’m gonna skip the tracks from persona, they’re all legends but i’ll end up making this ten pages long otherwise!

under the cut cause it’s looooooong, oops.

interlude shadow - this had some serious challenge coming after its god-tier predecessor, seesaw, ngl, but WOW. yoongi’s solo songs have such a unique style despite being different genres/moods and his lyrics are always what i especially look forward to diving into and shadow was no different! a lot of people say this too but the autotune works SO WELL for him and the way he plays with the rhythms in shadow is amazing. and that last section?? EXPLOSIVE. that’s gonna slay on tour oh my god.

black swan - i wish i’d made notes when it first came out but it took me a while to get used to this sound because it was so interesting and haunting. the topics in this song are so relatable and frightening tbh, it’s something i feel a lot recently, that fear of losing passion for your hobbies and job, etc, and surrendering to the darker emotions of giving up on those dreams (wow, dark, CHILL). after seeing the first performance of it as well!! omg!! some of their absolute BEST choreo yet, easily.

filter - mr. park. JIMIN. I was not prepared for this song and it’s so sexy and smooth and i want to scream thinking about choreo for this on tour, wtf man. this song was my jam right away!! the latin vibes!! rumba/salsa in a club at 2am vibes!! also idk if this is misreading the lyrics but i love the lowkey dark/seductive undertone of making anyone fall in love with you/celeb perception, etc. (probably reading way too much into it lol but still, loved the lyrics). But yes, WOW. Can he let me choreo pls?? i want him to have a CHAIR and a suit and tie and to absolutely destrOY us.

my time - before i go into this, i wanna say how much i loved the vocal line doing completely different stuff and defying all my expectations. the mood of this song is so unique and the slow rhythm with his just…absolutely gorgeous emotive voice makes it so refreshing. Also!! something i found really cool is jungkook doing stuff that’s more complex in emotion and a bit sadder/darker? he’s always had the happy golden perfect boyTM vibe and that’s cute af but also this song lets him be a bit confusing and mature and lost for once. This song hit me quite personally too because the lyrics about time and distance hit close to home as i have friends and loved ones moving out of my life and i just wanna feel not so stuck. I can’t WAIT to see what kind of staging he’ll do for this?? it could be anything lol, i really can’t guess.

louder than bombs - legit EVERYTHING i wanted from a troye/bts collaboration project oh my god. The music and build-up for this song is so bittersweet and haunting, the VOCALS oh my god?? truly stole my breath, wow. the rap line verses had some seriously hard-hitting lyrics too, the lower ranges of namjoon and yoongi made my heart STOP. (something i’ve always loved with bts is the way they play with flow through members taking different parts, which sounds so obvious lol, it’s what you do with a group, but i always love the way bts uses their members’ tones/styles to create a great mix in a song). I feel like this song truly sets up the recurring theme of acknowledging and embracing the good and bad, the wholeness of it is really vulnerable and - pun intended - explosive! it reminds me of the ‘sing louder to drown out the pain’ kind of mindset. sometimes you just gotta sing louder and sadder and ache.

ON - i actually don’t have much to say on this one because it’s just SO BTS and perfect for a title track and will absolutely GO OFF live. also the choreo is hard as hell lmao GOOD LUCK PEOPLE TRYING TO LEARN IT. also i’m gonna say it alongside everyone else but…JUNGKOOK’S HOLY BRIDGE!!!!!!!!!!!

Ugh! - *aroused and scared.* this beat!!!! slaps!!! rapline songs can never fail tbh, also….i think i already love this more than outro: tear and we haven’t even had a performance lol. I don’t have any coherent thoughts to add other than HOLYYY SHIIIIT. This will be so fierce live??? i’m gonna get whiplash headbanging probably. also…can they PLEASE do choreo for that last bit??? please. please.

zero o’clock - lol some songs just make you ugly sob and then you read the lyrics and ABSOLUTELY SOB. this little asshole right here came for my entire heart. it’s pretty spot on for how i feel right now: just get through the day and wait for the next and try and be a bit happier. the bittersweet, hopeful tone is so lovely and really touching. it’s heartbreaking ngl, but in a healing, therapeutic way. it’s so soft and mellow without being too air-y which is pretty hard to get right tbh.

inner child - my favourite vocal line solo!!! i’m always so in love with taehyung’s solo songs tbh, his voice and songs are always my cup of tea, thank you for being a true hopeless romantic sir. this song is SO end-of-indie-movie and i’m completely hooked on it already, i walk to work and keep looping it and it makes me smile and tear up just thinking about hearing it live already. I love how it’s a love letter to his younger self, comforting, sad and so full of heart and acceptance. We all find it hard to look back but to have a song that says it’s okay to be proud of every version of yourself and your growth is AMAZING. i haven’t stopped thinking of the ‘we gonna change’ and i’ll give you my world’ lines. truly magical.

friends - shut up this is the SWEETEST SONG EVER. so my best friend is finally moving away from the hometown we’ve shared for 11 years and i am very vulnerable about it right now, so this coming out when it did?? a bit of an attack lol. but it really made me smile and be SO GRATEFUL to her, and to everyone else in my life and the bonds i have around me. jimin and tae’s friendship is the sweetest thing and to have them release a platonic love song??? to sing on tour together?? after growing up and becoming legends together? wow. talk about bff goals. the adorable details in the lyrics make it so personal and genuine, and the crowd-chanting bits in the chorus are gonna sound awesome live. also not to get sappy and cheesy but this also makes me think of all the friends people have made in this fandom and community and how we’re all enjoying this awesome thing together? love that, man.

moon - THAT’S THE LOML, KIM SEOKJIN, SLAYING AGAIN. awake and epiphany were both so epic and emotional in the traditional ballad genre, so hearing this was just?? SO COOL. it’s so happy and sweet and shows off his high range effortlessly. this has such an addictive melody, i kept humming it at work today and driving myself nuts lmao. it makes me think of summer days and hanging out with friends or on your own in the sun, reading. i also love how he expanded on ‘beauty’ as it’s always a word thrown at him lol, but he made it so innocent and lovely, like idk if he’s fed up of everyone yelling handsome at him and embarrassing him lmao but it was so wholesome of him to then turn around and make a song about appreciating subtle beauty and the bonds between army and bts (god i’m LAME, blame this album).

respect - this song’s such a VIBE. love the founders of bts doing a song together, god, just bros being bros and jamming together?? WE LOVE TO SEE IT. I didn’t realise how much i’d love this duo together but it’s so natural and you can see how much they love writing and working together. the lyrics are so fun and snarky and the throwback old-school bts vibe is PERFECT. it’s that clever thing they do of re-visiting older works and combining it with your present self to make something familiar yet different. so so cool.

we are bulletproof: eternal - omg so the first line of this i started laughing so hard because i was SO SURE it would be a Concert Jam™. then i sobered up pretty quickly and cue the tears and emotions lmao. This song gives me heartbeat/sea/mikrokosmos energy, it falls in that ‘epic emotional singalong’ genre they do beautifully. you bet your ass i’m gonna be bawling at this on the tour. i lost it crying in that last bridge when they say ‘why are you still walking with us’, it just hit me that wow, i’ve been a part of this journey and tbh, it’s gonna stay with me for life. the emotions packed into this song are overwhelming af whilst still being a celebration of the 7 years bts have been together, and the individual achievements too, of them and also armys? idk it feels very collective ‘us’ vibe and it’s beautiful.

outro: ego - READY, SET AND BEGIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MAP OF THE SOUL MAP OF THE AAAAAAAAAAAL THAT’S MY EGOOOOOOOOOO. Oh my god, this song just slays everything tbh. When it came out i could not stop repeating it for the entire week and i’m still so in love with it. By far one of my favourite solos of the album! it’s so colourful, clever and A DANCE BOP. It’s everything about why i bias jhope and his style is freaking awesome.

okay wow, all done!!!!!

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