#oof rn.....this feels.....like the Vibes.....but who knows ;)))) absolutely Not me

[genderlesssinner]

Prepare yourself for more of my rambling bullshit

I apologize this is gonna be LONG as I just spew my thoughts while watching

Oh right Liliana is here I forgot this is where we left off OOF

The Weave Mind built the fortress, okay okay okay

Burrow Site?? Ah the dig to the cage

Oooh no he's using Liliana for the projection??

Oooo fae info dump

Are the Unseelie part of how Ludinus does the widespread projections? Or is he just rallying the troops

I am both stressed and love how eager Travis always is for things to go poorly

So much teleporting if they do this and going to the Fey is time fucky so that could be bad I hope they remember that and maybe Morri can still help with that?

Istg Travis. That die roll is gonna get Chet one day and no one is gonna believe it at first cause he fakes out so much

"we're not interesting enough for that" TAL

Part of me really hopes they turn the Sorrowlord fully against Ludinus but I also don't want that sombitch anywhere near Fearnie

Always walkin and talkin, or they would never get anywhere. Ever.

This meeting should be interesting.

WHO ARE THE OTHER DRAGONS MATTHEW?

I know my love, J'mon is one. Who are the other two.

Love having telepathic bond, hell yeah Imogen

GET IT LIL MAN dayum WHO IS HERE MATT AAAAA THE WHISPERSSSSS

Braius apologizing to Fearne is hilarious to me Fearne is the last one to be picky about relationship stuff yet he kissed Imogen and it it's fine lol

TALIESIN IS SO INTO THIS I love Taliesin's reactions to everything omg

"shut up baby I know it" LIAM LEMUR O'BRIEN

I have so many mixed feelings about all of this wow okay

Thank you for stopping them Matt

My boys? WHO DID YOUR HALFLING EYES SEE ORYM?

Oh no oh um is that papa Wyvernwind?? It iiisssss oh shiiiiiiitttt

Hoo boy, those are big ass golems

WHO IS THE SILVER DRAGON MATTIE

Oooh man I love these absolute chucklefucks

The beacons are lit

Cerkonos!! Fuck yeah. Ashari!

Vex is like fuck the politics we have to *stop* this

Everytime they say Sunder King it sounds SO FAMILIAR and I can't remember it's driving me bonkers

That is one hell of a name Matt

Oh SHIT the dragon Zone of Truthed the whole damn place ooooff

Oh shit Braius of of everyone being able to lie? That totally won't bite is in the ass WILL IT SAMUEL?

VOX MACHINA ASSEMBLE BITCHES

OH SHIT the fucking bright queen vouching for the mighty nein shiiiitttt if she only knew

Taliesin: happy wiggles

Oh poor kiki dealing with all these assholes on top of everything else

Dorian thank you oh my god I was sitting here like Ash pls I love you but this one time keep your opinions to yourself you beautiful dumbass

Oh no

Okay maybe it's okay that Braius can lie ...maybe

Many months = two whole days

A GUY WHO MAKES Chairs crying

"what's the Platinum Dragon's mother's name?" Hoo that throwback

Oh boy Sam is making something Canon rn

Interesting okayokayokay

Oh Ashton oh no

Oh. Okay. No I'm vibing with this though.

Fearne flashing the room would be hilarious

"quick spin the bottle" XD

Oohhhh showing them is uh an interesting choice right now with the uh exhaustion that comes after

Fuck shit I missed a bit because technical issues hell

Oohhhhhh hh my sweet bard boy

Robbie is such a wonderful story teller ugh

Orym blue screening over Dorian and his horsedragon, love him

Chet is gonna wolf out ain't he.

Tiny sexy breath 🤣🤣🤣

Aaand there it is. Ope he's not actually changing okay okay

OH SHIT TITLES OH MY FUCK AKXBSUHVG

I totally got distracted and missed something said but it's fine I'll watch again Monday

Chet

Oh

What

Where's papa Wyvernwind

Yeeeeeee

I forgot his name is Bronte

Yeah no tracks okay fuck.

Break time! More rambling fuckery in the second half yall

Go use the bathroom and get drinks and snacks

[fourteenfifteen]

may i request some friends at the table fic recs? i haven’t ventured really into the tag

HELLO ANON yeth you can.

i am not an expert and have not read everything but i have some faves! which i will sort by season for your convenience : ] also i have not finished sangfielle so i can't help you there lo siento. if you want more fics i would say a good place to start is @arwainian's fic marathon project. he has been reading everything in the tag and recommending things as he goes there's probably as many recs as u could want right there

ALSO stating at the top that i also write fic! not going to rec any of mine but i'm kind of a hottie i won't lie to u so that's there

OK recs under the cut

these are not in any particular order within seasons!

pzn/pld [at the top bc i have a palisade fic agenda]:

bad endings by elanoides

the stellar combustor arc but a time loop. amazing writing and an instant fave as soon as i read it. i mean come on dude it's a time loop fic come onnnnnnnn

i will reveal you by rozecrest

a recent addition to the tag that i really liked very fun brnine/gucci fic. where's that post about wanting every fic to also be a literary analysis essay that's me rn

use you as a focal point by joeysnowy

theeee crysanth/SI fic which ok it's a niche market but this is just a great one

party 2nite @ bc, rsvp capt. kb by fangirl_squee

VERY fun fic where the blue channel hosts a halloween party. i was giggling bro i won't lie to you

tm:

the cat who got the whipped cream by bluecloak

how often do you get to say that the most kudosed fic in a tag totally earns that in terms of quality? lovely and funny and absolutely gorgeously written

my place to land by lady_mab

yes it's the longest fic in the tag yes it's worth the time. total au that still manages to hit that tm vibe

as many times as it takes to get it right by theorangewitch

i just read this for the first time within the last couple weeks and oof it's a great one. very funny and creative and sweet reincarnation fic

excerpts/yours/beloved/signet.asmblg by kalcifer

signet and belgard twine fic!! great shit this one goes out to all the divine likers

c/w:

rising water by yellow

in lieu of a summary i'm just going to say that i'm actively not a cassmako person but i have read this fic a dozen times

light up the way by harpydora

damn i love these crazy kids. very good fix it fic for the ppl who cried at the end of counter/weight (everyone i assume)

hieron/marielda:

moving shadows / moving light by waveridden

uhh ok so do you know the reality show naked and afraid. ephrim and throndir on that. my secsam gift from last year which was a PRIVILEGE

champions of the world by fangirl_squee

an elaborate hieron hockey au longfic. very cozy and well-thought out

presque vu by fangirl_squee

ok this one is odd and hard to describe but very cool. genuinely have read very few fics like it. read if you like: hieron's tone, weird aus, and magical realism

and i follow just to find you by angstandcaffeine

oh my godddd i love this fic. the cw's supernatural WISHES

the killing of the king god's car by the traitor prince maelgwyn by thunder_rolled_a_six

a total classic that probably everyone would recommend to you. marielda high school au but ok i don't usually like that kind of thing so trust me on this one

fits and starts by luckydicekirby

augh. oh my god. does anybody else like crying. totally amazing samfam fic that really digs into god weirdness in a way that i love and also yeah it broke my heart

making something new by harpydora

love the samol characterization in this one also i just think it's fun

other?:

who put love in my head? by kaynara

does anybody else remember half past and flashback and absolute territory? no just me? ok well in any case this fic is so fun and the character voices are so great

ok that feels like a good list! i could absolutely generate a dozen more but i'll leave it there lol generally i will say the fic generated by this fandom is pretty high quality and you'll have a decent experience just looking around in the tag like there's some good stuff in there. worth taking a chance on things (esp recent stuff!)

[kristiemewisstan]

The Tortured Poets Department: The Anthology Review (or me slowly going from spiraling in excitement to madness to sadness in 1 hour):

The Black Dog-

SO GOOD THIS IS SO GOOD IM YELLING THIS HAS MY FAV PRODUCTIKN THUS FAR I STILL XANT BELIEVE IT EITHER TAYLOR WHAT TGE FUCK | listen 2 cause I was to hype to truly listen, the magic fabric of her dreamin’ 🥺, oh the original father cheated song, DO YOU HATE ME? ooooof the fact that she felt made fun of by him and still went on to do her shit is so strong and I love her, your honor

imgonnagetyouback-

This one is VERY GOLD RUSH and I’m in love (I’m so sorry I’m not gonna be able to be unbiased rn because I’m too fucking excited), the ahh ahhhhs are so GOOOOOOODDDDD

The Albatross-

“One less temptress one less dagger to sharpen” OOF I feel like I’m in terrible danger of a heart attack, Taylor, I-I Love This Song So Much it’s so folklore

Chloe or Sam or Sophia or Marcus-

THIS IS SO GOOOOOOOOOD TAYLOR WHAY THE FUCK MAN, Certified Horse Girl, I’m gonna need to be medicated after this

How Did It End?-

I HEREBY CONDUCT THIS POSTMORTEM IS SUCH A HARD LINE TO START A SONG WITH, the amount of piano overall in these pleases me IMMENSELY, SITTING IN A TREE D-Y-I-N-G yeah Taylor that’s what YOU ARE DOING TO ME

So High School-

THIS IS WHAT I WANTED THE WHOLE ALBUM TO BE, 💯 made to vibe like a coming of age story, “YOU GONNA MARRY KISS OR KILL ME” I LOVE HER, bridge goes HARD

I Hate It Here-

scared to go outside, OH MU GOD JUST THE WHOLE SONG I KEEP WANTING TO WRITE LYRICS DOWN, so folklore, this ones it, ITS IT I LOVE IT SO MUCH

thanK you aIMee-

Oh so we cheated okay Joe I see how it is your days are numbered, SING FUCK YOU AIMEE, HELL YEAH TAYLOR, ID WRIT A THOUSAND SONGS THE YOU FIND UNCOOL, ITS ON SIGHT, OH ITS HAPPY NOW YAY

I Look in People’s Windows-

Okay stalker much lol, this one is sad :(, very pretty though I’m sorry I can’t focus on the lyrics I’m too hype, very folklore so very sad

The Prophecy-

THIS SOUNDS LIKE ANOTHER SONG BUT I CANT PLACE IT it’s gonna kill me, “who do I have to speak to about if they can redo the prophecy” rip my heart out my god, DONT NEED MONEY JUST SOMEONE WHO WANTS MY COMPANY, also a very sad one

Cassandra-

snake mention 🐍, THE ALTO UNDERLAY OH MY GOD, I normally am not the largest fan of vocal layering when it’s this obviously but this is absolutely lovely, this one tells a VERY GOOD story, “BUT THEY NEVER SPARED A BRICK FOR MY SOUL” OOOOOOF

Peter-

the piano started off this song and I immediately smiled and it ends up being such a bittersweet song, “promises oceans deep but never to keep” these songs rip my heart more and more and more, CAUSE LOVES NEVER LOST WHEN PERSPECTIVE IS EARNED this really hurt me, this longing hurts me

The Bolter-

She’s a runner she’s a track star! THE CHORUS ugh I love it Taylor why do you have to be so good, yeah this one was very good and I relate to being scared of commitment after heartache SOOO MUCH

Robin-

“Strings tied to lovers” IM CRYING, “ALL THIS SHOWMANSHIP TO KEEP IT” JOSEPH YOU FUMBLED SO HARD, THE INVISIBLE STRING RIFF IM ALREADY CRYING YOU DIDNT NEED TO DO THAT TO ME, i will never be able to listen to this song and invisible string in the same day I think it’s genuinely break me

The Manuscript-

the opening piano made me close my eyes and take a deep breath in, New Year’s Day vibes BUT SAD, oh god you know what I’ll kill him, I’ll take the hit, she knew what the agony had been for 🥹 fuck

First Listen Overall- 10/10

I have no notes it was everything I dreamed the actual album would be Taylor please let me buy this on vinyl I need to have it in my grasp also please give me the lyrics written out so I can analyze it plz

I don’t have a favorite they are all my favorite you could pay me to choose

[nako-doodles]

i need your thesis on all the songs in the album i'm being so serious rn 😭 i'll rb it once a day for months and months don't deprive me like this of things i didn't even know i needed

ioaefjerjgioajo ill try my best aiofjoerjgiojao i was so annoying to my friends over my first impressions over all the songs so im gonna try my best to summarize my thoughts on these songs

joonie said this entire album was a recollection of everything hes done in his 20s aka the transformative years of his life and you can ABSOLUTELY hear the member influences (at first i heard the sope influences bc they have the biggest body of work so their style is most distinct but upon relistens its really a love album to his younger self (you can really tell its an evolution from rm and mono) and his members. ALSO i love how he modulates and changes his style and timbre to fit the style and quirks of his featuring artist? hes so fucking cool????? oh my GOD?????? anyways heres the impressions by song:

track one: yun ft. erykah badu very hot of him to start the entire album w 'FUCK THE TRENDSETTERS' the bassline the restraint of a laidback soundscape the reverb set to max the lines 'I wanna be a human / ‘Fore I do some art / It’s a cruel world / But there’s gon’ be my part' is so fucking insane? fuck. this song lyrically is all about uncertainty and the soundscape has a lot of space for growth and white space for art to be exhibited dare i say, its like the debut group's first stage? full of promises and expectations and uncertainty, but you march ahead regardless......what a sexy first song on the track track two: still life ft. anderson paak

BRING IN THE FUNK HELLS YEA VHOPE IS VIBING SO HARD RN I JUST KNOW IT now the empty space and reverb bassline is given some direction and happiness here. still life is a form of art and thus begins rm's first piece of art here in his lil art collection and joon accepting that things will come as they are and ppl will try to reduce him down to one thing, but hes still a fully realized human moving forwards like us all

track three: all day ft. tablo

ok this bassline and instrumental SCREAMS yoongi to me. the lil kick between verses the beats w the bassline the high melody line the bridge that sick transition from verse to chorus like no wonder tablo is here. i know yoongi draws lots of inspiration from epik high so it makes sense. sonically speaking this song takes the funky sounds of the previous track and condenses it and brings a hint of melancholy just in time for our next track. speaking on less fun notes, tablo is really the only other person who survived such vicious tonguelashing and emerged more powerful and a better person and im just glad joonie has someone to look up to.

track four: forgetful ft. kim sawol oh our queen of folk here to deliver some nice kindie chill vibes thank you i need it for our coming song mwah. here we slowly start to hear the funky bright poppy merge to a chill sound this song was for tae i just know it!!! sonically theres some fun stuff going on but it feels like a cooldown piece for the rest of the album. joonie really said i can pull off ALLLLLLLL genres.

track five: closer ft. paul blanco mahalia

the rnb influences the syncopation the pop beats i bet jk is having the time of his life singing to the chorus. the guitar and the beat and the piano makes me an immediate fan. also they modulated the message beep to be in the same key??? as the song?????? AND it gives us a diving board into the electronica of the next song and then the sound expands when joonie comes in???? i love it.

track six: change pt. 2

OOF KIM NAMJOON DID SUM NASTY WORK ON THIS SONG ITS SO GOOD ok ok ok so this sudden electronica synthpop isnt jarring bc joonie did a fantastic job ordering this album BUT you know whats the fucking kicker???? the way he arranged this song. on paper this song should NOT fucking work but it does bc they used the same chord from the synths as the piano that comes in later even tho it turns to double time half way thru the song and it would be amazing at there BUT(dont quote me on this) change and change pt 2 are either in the same key or are on relative keys AND if you listen to change ft wale which starts on the piano and goes to electronica, he does the exact opposite here???? fuck and the lyrics mirror each other as well????? fuckK

track seven: lonely

this is the love song to mono the reverb on that guitar the upbeat melancholy the tokyo forever rain vibes are THERE BUTTTTT hes added more complex transitions and layering? like even in this short amount of time hes grown exponentially fuck kim namjoon ur so sexy track eight: hectic ft colde

THIS IS THE HOBI SONG OF THE ALBUM YES KING GIVE ME THAT BOUNCY BASS AND HIGH AIRY SYNTH CITYPOP VIBES YES KING i NEEDD someone to give me a just dance x seesaw x hectic remix asap it would sound SO good. also as someone who listens to a lot of colde/offonoff, this collab is SO FUCKING good bc you can hear coldes influences as well? its so good my god the sax the lil touches the production FUCK. ANNNDDDDD they switched to double time again for this outro so the next song doesnt come in too jarring??? mr kim how did you fit so many genres into this album and yet they all belong together????? im in so much fucking awe man!!!!!

track nine: wildflower ft. youjeen

ive told you pretty much everything i wanted but fuck the production on this song is just so fucking good. the details. the expert control of the soundscape. the arrangement. i cant wait to hear vocal line sing youjeen's lines. i also love that he put his title song at the end bc hes at the end of his 20s. this is him currently. hes still growing and growing roots and stretching to the sun fuck man i cant believe this song took over my most played joonie song forever rain in a week.

track ten: no 2 ft. park jiyoon

and here we are returned to the starting spot but slightly to the left, like when you've walked thru the museum exhibition and am spat out the exit right where you started, but w the new insights and experiences that the you from an hour ago didnt have. joonie is a masterful curator and this song ouroboroses us right back to listen to this album again. the tongue in cheek of ending w 'no looking back' when im ready to replay this album again like you literally inviting me to replay this album youve made it a point to end like this?????? lmfao kim namjoon who do you take me for hmmm?????

if youve made it to the end here i love you nothing makes sense anymore i only know that i love kim namjoon and that ive had this album on loop and i STILL hear new things in it i have no words for how much respect and awe and love i have for this man. and when he said 'fuck the trendsetters' he really did it. he dabbled in ALL of the most popular sounds and genres you hear in the music industry, pulled it off w aplomb, and moved on. anyways i love kim namjoon.

[jasperiche]

✧

send me a ✧ and i’ll bold all that apply to your muse.

I would kill you. ✧ I would physically hurt you. ✧ I would attack you unprovoked. ✧ I would manipulate you. ✧ I dislike you. ✧ You annoy me. ✧ You scare me. ✧ You intimidate me. ✧ I hope I intimidate you. ✧ I pity you. ✧ You disgust me. ✧ I hate you. ✧ I’m indifferent toward you. ✧ I’d like to get to know you better. ✧ I’d like to spend more time with you. ✧ I’d like to be friends with you. ✧ I’m unsure what to think of you. ✧ I’m unsure how I feel about you. ✧ You are my friend. ✧ You are my best friend. ✧ You are my mentor. ✧ I look up to you. ✧ I respect you. ✧ You are my hero. ✧ You inspire me. ✧ You are my enemy. ✧ You make me happy. ✧ I want to protect you. ✧ I would fight by your side. ✧ I consider you an equal. ✧ I think you are beneath me. ✧ I think you are above me. ✧ I would lie for you. ✧ I would lie to you. ✧ I would sleep with you. ✧ I would sleep by your side. ✧ I would hug you. ✧ I would kiss you. ✧ You are family to me. ✧ I would die for you. ✧ I would kill for you. ✧ I would trust you with my life. ✧ I would trust you with my most precious belonging. ✧ I would trust you with a secret. ✧ I would trust you with my biggest / darkest secret. ✧ I love you (platonically). ✧ I love you (romantically).

[sapphire-innit]

Ranboo my Beloved please help this Kid please

VOD: TommyInnit Is Actually Depressed in Exile

(rp) Well that title can only mean Good and Wholesome things right??? Everything's going to be fine and dandy RIGHT?????????

.....

yeah ok I'm ready to have my heart torn out again lets fucking do this

he's drowning again :(

"its ok though because its Dream. And hes great. H-hes cool" I have never heard Tommy sound more defeated :'(

[irt the Tubbo statue] Welp this isn't going to go over well

OH WOW THAT SKIN SHIT. he looks real fucked up ohnoooo. His eyes are greyer and hes got Visible Bags under them D: also his hair is messed up too :(

"we didn't do this out of pity" have lost their magic words huh oof

"if Tubbo wanted to be here he could, and he's chosen not to" :( :( :( this WHOLE SPEECH is painful and raw

Tommy is so angry and I wish he was ABLE to direct it at dream but man, I get it. Hard to watch him tear down the Tubbo statue though

.....also side note did BBH and Puffy build this while eggified that's wild lol

:( Fundy and Ranboo came to say hi. So did Philza. ahhhhhh, fucking hell :(

"Its been weeks" canonizing the longer timeline

Ghostbur ... that hits different now ;-; ;-; ;-;

I miss him already fuck

Tommy still not eating.. :(

adsfdfsf the fuckign... girlfriend bit what even is this

RANBOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

He's so sneaky and clever ahhh he hid the book!! fuck Dream took the last book and then he hid it too well lol

well that got depressing quick ;-;

Tommy really is so communicative he tries so so much I hate that no one seems to listen

"and he never would have gotten [exiled]" Tommy it wasn't your faaaullt

and they're trying too but he doesn't know how much Dream is intimidating them to stay away :(

shit he STILL hasn't eaten. Hes not putting on his armor either :(

I do NOT like the vibes on this "screaming station" .... seems fucked up

"the sun reminds me of a happier time, the sunset reminds me of my bench" THE SUN IS HOPE :(

and hes turning down primes

whoever suggested making a chair a "one person bench" omg adwsfdf

still hasn't e a t e n

lol always time to make fun of bbh and skeppy lol

.... a screaming station in the nether seems like an even worse idea than one over the ocean

Jack Manifold! I hear you fucking hate Tommy later!! and I have no idea why!! IS THIS IT

Fucking hell HOW IS THIS CANON

.........wow this sure is the WORST time Jack could have visited. FUCK

...he was even going to throw him a fire res Fuck

I still can't believe that was canonically Jack's last life what the fuck I can't believe that was the start of the Team Rocket arc

...he DID apologize, fuck fuck fuck

Jack and Tommy really talking past each other, this SUCKS so much like he could not have had WORSE TIMING and I wish it hadn't ended in a fucking, DEATH because I don't think Tommy ever meant to go that far at all, like, fuck man

(I know people are pretty sympathetic to Jack and all, and sure that sucked but also I'M HERE FOR MY BOY TOMMY RIGHT NOW OK)

....half a heart and still not fucking E a t i n g

running around the nether with half a heart. Building out over lava. Mans committed to the bit

................I knew it had bad vibes

FINALLY EATING!! Jesus that ghast lol

"why would he spawn there???" TOMMY THAT'S HOW MINECRAFT WORKS TOMMY adswfsdfsd

"I'm just a fucking tourist hub now" Exiles really done a number on him in a Multitude of ways

I knew that party was gonna do a number on him but man is it hard to see.

....I'm glad Ranboo's efforts have been appreciated a little bit. Its good to have SOMEONE other than Dream that Tommy's not cutting off

GOD the zoom in on the lava. Rough.

Hes tearing down the path too. He's physically and mentally isolating himself, which is ... harshly true to life

"Happy place / Theyre all happy / Its not quiet / Its just happy" Tommy writes the most Devastating Shit. Like first it was the Ranboo mail and now the sign, fuck. Its like any chance he gets to type, it just all comes spilling out, he can't help it

"Have I ever been the villain? ...(small depressed smirk)...probably" :( :( :( this is absolutely Dream's victim blaming working and everyone who dog-piled him about the walls and shit and fucking hell man, no

...the little interaction with Ranboo was a breath of fresh air, my beloved...

Wait what happened to the fake gf???

I do feel like its actually really good that Tommy managed to let ONE person through a little bit, and not brush him off out of pity. Its not enough rn but I feel like any outside connection is good for him right now.

It also does feel like it is because Ranboo kept trying even when he ran into difficulty. Its ALSO because of luck no doubt, and he managed to hit just the right vibes to not be 'pitying' because others DID try multiple times, but it couldn't have happened at all if he hadn't been so persistent with his mail either

I also noticed Ranboo questioned the "Dream and you are my only friends" line, which I appreciate

THE CHEST ROOM. FUCK. Well I know how THIS ends D:

"I owe everything to Dream, he comes and sees me and he gives me armor sometimes, and he makes me happier and he gives me a trident" . . . we're in the thick of it now huh

I LOVE THAT RANBOO SPEAKS SOME SENSE HERE THANK YOU. like Tommy's not in a place to hear it Right NOW, but I still appreciate it. He's very good at that (though he still has the backbone of a chocolate eclair lmao. Though maybe that's also why he didn't set off Tommy either)

He almost told him about the armor destruction and my heart hurts

"I'm gonna make it out of Cobblestone, because its my favorite block, it was. It is I think" :(

Ranboo really planning to run for president and help this kid get the FUCK out of exile

ALSO He's trying to clear up the compass thing, hes trying so hard. Tommy's not really in a place to hear it, but I'm glad it was said

......JACK. Hes coming in for a BIT and its just. He's bouncing off of Tommy so hard adfdf I can see how he becomes Team Rocket but also I hate that this friendship turned into hatred

asdfssfd don't ask Ranboo to STRIPE omg

why ARE there so many portals??

...."he takes shit from me" he told him :( I'm so glad he told him but fuck I wish Ranboo could help in some way. Too often you can't and you just gotta work with what you can do but at least he told him :(

"anyone can die Ranboo even me" there's that suicidal idealization! :(

"Its because they don't care Ranboo. Everyone who you think cares, probably doesn't"

GODDD cc!Tommy is a good actor though shit, the YELLING about the party I'M

Tommy is so communicative even now, hes trying to tell Ranboo and talk about it and I wish it made a difference

...he was triggered when Ranboo fought the mobs for him :( he sighed and it hurt :(

...he was testing him for pity with the pickaxe wasn't he, fuck

afdsfdsffs the MCC TOURNEMENT SDSFDSF

oh no tommy hes part enderman don't put him in water afdsfdf

..........................

AFDSFDSF THE LAVA OH NO ADFDSF HOW DOES HE KEEP DYING THIS WAY

......

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........

back in serious mode I see.

Ranboo talking him off the literal edge, fuck

"Its never gonna end" oh Tommy... :(

[khaoticflame]

got tagged by @jomilky and @deathclassic to do this lil tag game, thank u both so much 💕

your name: carola

your age: 23

your height in cm: 154, i’m pocket-sized

you’ve been invited to game night. you have to bring one drink, one snack, and one game. what do you show up with?: redbull, homemade cookies or paprika flavored chips and idk, maybe jenga or checkers (even if i suck ass at it bfjsnd)

last dream you remember: usually i never remember what i dream, but i have some snippets of this one in which i was in rome and i just casually bumped into damiano david from måneskin while walking jcnsndjs and i asked him a picture but i was stumbling so bad lmaooo i’m embarrassing

last book or fanfic you read: i just started you can bite me and i’m really enjoying it so far!

a song you can’t stop listening to: not a song but a whole album bc i’m on an early 2000’s music nostalgia trip rn, and in particular i’ve been listening to linkin park’s meteora and trying to get through it without crying (and absolutely failing at it)

a tattoo you’d get right this second: i’m more of a piercing person, but the idea of having a snake wrapped around my ankle has been bouncing around my brain for a while. who knows 👀

favorite season & why: FALL!! i love the vibes, the warm colors and the crispy air. fall is not a season, it’s a ✨ feeling ✨

a place you’ve never been to but want to visit: i haven’t travelled a lot, so literally anywhere please

are you the eldest, middle, youngest, or only child in your family?: the youngest

describe yourself in three (NICE) words: hmm. okay. so. i’ve been told that i’m a good listener, i think i’m kind??? like i’ve been told that too, aaand i’m definitely a loyal mf. *wipes sweat off the forehead* oof that was harder than i thought djnsjsns

i’m gonna tag a bunch of people who have probably already done it lol i’m sorry *waves you hello and sends flowers your way 🌸🌼🌻🌹🌷* @milkoviched @sickness-health-all-that-shit @vintagelacerosette @iero @bravemikhailo @gallawitchxx @iansw0rld @clingymickey

[ninja-knox-ur-sox-off]

GREETINGS, MATE. IT’S TIME FOR ANOTHER KNOX REACTS POST 

Two new episodes of Monkie Kid to watch. I actually didn’t realize these were out until a friend messaged me skmfaojwoiefmasf Figured I’d make another one of these just cause y’all seem to find them entertaining >:D Anyway, who needs preamble I GOT MONKIE KID TO WATCH! 

ONWARDS!! 

Ping Pong Panic! 

Let’s begin. 

[monkie kid season 2 spoilers beneath the cut]

*jams out to theme song* 

You know, one of these days I should do an audio reaction, and like, make an animatic out of it or something. I can talk a lot faster than I can type, it might be fun lol KK IT’S STARTING LETS GOOOO

CAN I JUST SAY, THAT RIGHT OF THE BAT, THOSE VIBES WERE IMMACULATE. MK VIBIN IN A LAWN CHAIR, CHILLIN WITH A CAT, WITH THOSE SUNGLASSES HE WORE IN THE PILOTS, LOVE THAT THEY BROUGHT THOSE BACK ALSDMFAGHOAWEFM THIS DUDE 

TEA MAKING WITH SANDY 

TEA MAKING WITH SANDY LETS GOOOOOOOOOOOOOO AAAAAAHHHHHHHH I LOVE THE VIBES RN THESE ARE ABSOLUTELY FANTASTIC ASLDKFMA;GHAO;WIEFMAWEF

I’M LITERALLY GRINNING SO BIG RN 

MK

MK DID YOU JUST DUMP LIKE FORTY OF THOSE IN THERE WHAT ARE YOU DOING MK NO 

THE WATER EXPLODED AND HE DUMPED LIKE TEN PACKAGES OF SLEEPY TIME TEA IN THERE, IF EITHER OF THEM DRINK THAT THEY’RE GONNA BE OUT FOR A WEEK 

SANDY DON’T DRINK THAT

YOU SAW HIM MAKE IT WHAT ARE YOU DOING AKLSDMFAGHOAWEF 

Aaaand he’s down 

Sandy’s down

NIGHT 

ASDFLKMAGHAWOIFMAWEF

MK IS OBLIVIOUS, CAN BARELY HEAR WHAT PEOPLE ARE SAYING HALF THE TIME, AND VIBES WITH MONKEY, I RELATE SO MUCH TO THIS DUDE KASL;DMFA;OGHOWEF 

AND HE’S JUST I shall protect you with my life, VALID, SANDY IS FANTASTIC ASLKDFMAOHGOWEF 

JUST

PLACES THE CAT 

GENTLY ASLDKFMAOFASF 

BOX

FELL FROM PORTAL 

RIGHT ON TOP OF SANDY ASDLKFMAWEF

AT LEAST THAT MAN’S DURABLE 

YOU SURE IT’S FROM MONKEY KING, MATE?? 

I mean, yes there’s a monkey symbol on the outside but ARE YOU SURE??

INSTANTLY DISTRACTED ALKSDMFAWEF LOVE HIM 

SMACKING IT WITH A CROWBAR IS NOT GONNA WORK MK, YOU GOTTA—OKAY NEVERMIND HE FIGURED IT OUT ALKSDMFAOHGAOWEFM

THE PAPER’S OUT TO KILL THIS DUDE KLASDMFHGOAWIEMFAWEF 

“For Mk??” 

“HEY THAT’S ME!” 

I LOVE 

THIS DUDE

SO MUCH 

AS;LDKFMA;OIGHAOW;IEFMAWEF

I heard the “must not open it” and immediately. You know. He’s gonna open it. There is no question. This box is getting opened KLDMSFA;WHGOAWEF

AS;LKFDMGNA;OFMEAWE

MONKEY KING RIGHT ON THAT

ASF;KLMA;OG;AWHOEIFMAWEFAWHA;OWEF 

I MEAN, MAKES SENSE, HE’D 100% OPEN IT ANYWAYS TOO ASKDFMAGAOWEF 

AHHHH LEARNING TO LISTEN EPISODE, GOT IT, SWEE PISTACHIO ICE CREAM MK’S CLUMSY WITHOUT A BLINDFOLD, LETS SEE HOW MANY THINGS HE WALKS INTO :’D SOMEONE PLEASE COME HELP HIM AKSDFMAOWE

Catch me thinking about Mk getting sensory overload sometimes (now also thinking about @winterpower98’s cursed AU and having Macaque coach him through it cause he knows what sensory overload feels like with six ears) 

That someone sounds like Mei, bro lKMFAW;OEF 

(Quick hc that he can hear his friends voices and picks them out instinctively cause they’re more familiar so it helps him focus and not be overwhelmed by all the noice) 

MK STRAIGHT UP DITCHING SANDY ASKLFMAOGWEF HE HAS NO FEAR, JUST VAULTS OVER THE CITY BLINDFOLDED 

And I love how there was absolutely no hesitation when putting it on, the boy is all for it lkMFAWOEF 

MO READY TO THROW HANDS

AND WHAT

THE HECK

IS THAT

ASK;FMA;OGHAWOFMBHAOWEF 

I think it’s supposed to be at least a little cute, but honestly it’s just freaking me out a little. 

One of those fruits maybe??? AH I’M SURE WE’LL FIND OUT EVENTUALLY 

Mo: TOUCH NOT MY BLUE MAN 

OH MURDER BABY FRUIT OKAY ASKDFMOGHWAEF

OH LOTS OF MURDER BABY FRUIT 

OKAY 

OKAY ASLKDFM;OGHA;OWIEFMASF

OH DEAR GODS THEY HAVE KIDNAPPED SANDY 

ASDLKFMG;NOAWIFJAWMEF 

WELP, LOOKS LIKE MO’S GOT HIS WORK CUT OUT FOR HIM, GOOD LUCK DEAR CAT 

BACK TO MK TIME 

GODS I LOVE THESE TWO, MEI AND MK, AN ABSOLUTE VIBE, BEST FRIENDS, I LOVE THEM 

PIGSY MAH MAN KLSAMFDOA;GH;OAWIFMAWESF GRUMP AS ALWAYS 

WHO’S SNATCHING THE GAME????? 

HA 

KNEW IT 

IT’S STUCK ON

RIP MK 

PIGSY ASKDFM;BHO;AIEWMFAF

OOF 

GREAT FIRST THING FOR MK TO REALLY BE LISTENING TO 

:’D 

NOOO MONKEY MECH!!!! 

WHAT DID THEY DO TO DESERVE THIS 

Not to veer wildly off topic, but that delivery person be looking fine as heck

CHARACTER DESIGN GO BRRRRRR

(Random Angsty hc that MK doesn’t listen to people a lot because he’s afraid of what he’s gonna hear) 

THEY ARE SO DRAMATIC AND I LOVE THEM 

WHEEZES

PIGSY 

ASDKFMAOGHAOWE WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU MAN?!?!? 

YOU HAVE A GAME ADDICTION1?! ALKSFDHGAOWEMFAOWIFAWEF PLEASE, PIGSY SDFLKMAGHWE

I THINK I KNOW WHERE THEIR DRAMATIC FLARES COME FROM 

THEY HAVE THE DRAMATIC STORYTELLER TANG AND DARK AND BROODING DRAMATIC PIGSY 

NO WONDER LKASMF;HGOIAWFMAWEF

I SEE

WHERE THIS IS GOING

PIGSY AKSLDFM;HGOAWE PIGSY NO 

ALSO, SERIOUSLY, I JUST IMMEDEATELY LOVE THIS DILVIERY DUDE ASLKDFMA;OIWMFSAD 

PIGSY 

PIGSY AKSDFMAO;GHOI;AWFMAS

HELP AISFM;OGWOAH;OAIWEMAEFL HE’S JUST LKASMFAHGO;WAEF

THIS IS GREAT 

THIS IS FANTASTIC I AM VIBIN 

ALAS, POOR PIGSY, THIS IS GONNA BE ROUGH FOR HIM ASDFKMAAWE I CAN ALREADY TELL AKSFDMA;OWEF

Easier to keep yourself from spending all your time on something by removing the temptation completely, but it appears someone has plopped it right down on his lap again (now how could I make this angsty--) 

MK DRAWING A HEART DOES NOT COUNT AS A SIGNATURE WHAT ARE YOU DOING ASKLDFMAWEF 

Mk, you super hear nothing, love, yKLGMAS;FAOWEF

HE’S SO WORRIED 

PIGSY ASDKFM;GHOAWEF 

AS SOMEONE WHO IS COMPETITIVE AS HECK AND AVOIDS SEVERAL PHYSICAL GAMES SO I DON’T BODY CHECK ANYONE WITH MY BRICK WALL OF A FORM, THIS IS KINDA RELATABLE 

OH MY GODS PIGSY I AM SO CONCERNED FOR YOU 

ASDKLFMAG;HA;WORIFAW

MK IS JUST 

AFRAID OF NOTHING AND NO ONE, DRIVING BLINDFOLDED 

I WISH I HAD YOUR BLIND CONFIDENCE MY DUDE 

THANK GOODNESS MEI’S THERE KLASMDF;AHGOAWEF 

LOOK I JUST REALY LOVE THEIR FRIENDSHIP. MK WHO GETS DISTRACTED EVERY FIVE SECONDS BY SOMETHING, AND MEI WHO CAN FOCUS FOR HOURS AT A TIME, AND THEY LOVE AND CARE FOR EACH OTHER SO MUCH AKSDLFMA;OHGWEF ;A; 

I will not apologize for getting emotional over their wholesome, fantastic friendship 

PIGSY ASLDKFMAOGHAWEFAWEF

We all know one bounce with 100% hurt RIP PIGSY AKSLMFDAO;GHWEF

WATER BREAK 

OH WOW THESE BABY FRUIT REALLY BE TRASHING SANDY’S PLACE 

MO SEE’S WEAPON 

READY TO MURDER

ASDF;KLMOGAWO;IFJNAW;FUJ;AIOWRF

OH NO PIGSY 

PIGSY SADLKFMGHAOWIFMAOBAWOEFAWE

OH NO ASKLDMF;GHOAWIFEW

I CAN’T BREATHE I’M WHEEZING PIGSY’S FACE 

Y’ALL HE LOOKS READY TO COMIT ARSON

HELP ASLKDMFGAOWEFMVNA;OWEFIAWE

FHABGWKEFGBAOWHIE

WHOAH

HE JUST

ASFKLMBAOIE;JSAIEFUGBAEF

CAUGHT THAT GOOD HEAVENS PIGSY WHOAH SIR, BRO, DUDE, CHILL AKSLMDFGNBSAWO;EIHG;OAWRIFGH;AWE

THIS VOICE ACTING FREAKING FANTASTIC 

AS;LKFMDGNAWO;RIWAE PIGSY READY TO ABSOLUTE DESTROY TANG IN PING PONG 

You know what would be funny if he bribed him into it, like said if he could beat him he’d clear his tab or something aslkdfma;ogwhwaoef 

TANG CONCERNED 

ALSO LOVE THE IMPLICATIONS THAT PIGSY AS EITHER TOLD TANG ABOUT HIM PLAYING PING PONG, OR THAT TANG HAS KNOWN HIM LONG ENOUGH TO HAVE SEEN IT AND I VIBE WITH BOTH ASKFMD;HGAW

ASDLFKHGA;OIWRFWAE

THAT FACE

HIS FACE

WELL, I WAS ALMOST RIGHT 

BOY, PIGSY IS UNSHAKEABLY CERTAIN THAT HE WILL WIN, AIN’T HE ASDKLFMA;OGIHWEF

I’M WHEEZING GUYS 

TANG YOU FOOL 

YOU FOOL 

ASFLKDMGBAO;RIGA;OHRWG;OIAWFMAWEF

WHAT ARE THESE HERE FOR, MONKEY KING?? WHY ARE THEY HERE!?!? ALKSDMFA;GHAOWIEFAWEF

Monkey cop show 

*coughs.* 

No comment 

HOLY FREAKING CAT ALKSFMA;GHAOWEF

IT’S MO TIME SUCKAHS KLASMDF;AHG;OWAEFAWE

IS THAT ALKSMFA;OGHWA

MK’S TEA

*WHEEZES*

OH MY GODS, MO YOU’RE BRILLIANT LKASMDF;HGAO;WEFAWE

AND SANDY’S BACK OUT ASLKFMAW;GHAOWEF

BACK TO THE DUO 

MK JUST STRAIGHT UP TAKES HIS HANDS OFF THE WHEEL WITH NO CONCERN ALSKFMAO;WIEFMASDF

MEI’S JUST -_- please bro lkMVA;FHAWE

MK, BRO, NO AKSDLFM;AOWEF ;A; 

EXCUSE ME GETTING EMOTIONAL OVER HOW MEI DOESN’T GET FRUSTRATED WITH HIM, SHE JUST WALKS WITH HIM AFTER THEY CRASH AND SUPPORTS HIM AND HELPS HIM BRAINSTORM 

CATCH ME CRYING I GUESS 

THEY’RE WHOLESOME AND WONDERFUL AND I LOVE THEM LASKDFMAWEF

 I AM CACKLING 

IS THIS BATTLEFIELD 

PIGSY

PIGSY ASDKLFMG;HOW;AIEFMAHWEF

One random guy: ugggh it hurts but I’m not dead

I LOVE THE LINES IN THIS SHOW SO MUCH ASLKDFMAO;GHAWEF

MEI: WHAT THE HAM 

ASDF;KMGAHW;ORIABAW;OFH;OAWJEFM

SERIOUSLY, DIALOGUE 10/10 

MK STOP STEPPING ON PEOPLE KSALMDFNBAO;WHGO;AWEF

THAT GUY JUST LAKSMDBAOWEF

YEETED

HOLY ASKDFMGHAOWEIFJAWEF

IS MEI GONNA HAVE TO BEAT PIGSY AND PING PONG???? 

I’M DYING WHEEZES PIGSY LOOKS TERRIFYING ASLKFMDNBA;OWEF

TANG 

I’M AKSDFNGAOAWEF

THIS IS 

THIS IS AMAZING I’M WHEEZING PLEASE KLMASFD;GHWAER

Mk: People are getting hurt! *steps on somebody* 

Love him KMFA;WFHAWOF

PIGSY I AM SO CONCERNED FOR YOU 

BUT I ALSO WANT TO KNOW JUST HOW IT GOT THIS BAD IN THE FIRST PLACE, Y’KNOW?? 

(Pigsy spending hours cause it’s a healthy outlet, right? Practicing, mindlessly hitting the ball, it’s something he can do by himself, he gets faster, better, someone challenges him and he figures why not? ALRIGHT, MY BRAIN TAKING THIS AND RUNNING, MIGHT COME BACK TO IT LATER EXCSUE ME) 

MEI I LOVE YOU 

HOLY MOTHER OF PING PONG 

PIGSY ASKFMH;OAIWEFAME

HE JUST 

WELL, THAT’S WHERE HE’S BEEN HIDING ALL HIS DEMON STRENGHT I GUESS LKASDMFAOWHOFAWEF

 THE ONE SCENARIO?? MK ASKDFM;GHAO;WFAWE

ASL;FM;AOGHAOW;E

MEI ASLFDKM;GA;OWEF

I LOVE HIM SO MUCH 

MEI IS JUST 

*WHEEZING* 

WOW I’M IMPRESSED MK WAS ABLE TO BLOCK THAT

ALSO 

SERIOSLY 

IF YOU EVER NEED TO FIGHT A DEMON AGAIN, JUST SEND PIGSY IN WITH A PING PONG PADDLE AND TELL THEM THEY WERE TALKING TRASH ABOUT HIS SKILLS AND YOU WON’T HAVE A DEMON PROBLEM ANYMORE AKLSMFD;AHGAW

OH CATCH ME CRYING I GUESS 

“Pigsy’s just like me!” 

THE FLASHBACK OF THE HAIR RUFFLE 

YEAH I’M FINE

TOTALLY FINE

PIGSY HAIR RUFFLE 

WE’VE GOT A PIGSY HAIR RUFFLE, EVEN IF IT WAS JUST A STILL FRAME FLASH BACK CATCH ME CRYING 

I DUNNO Y’ALL I’M JUST REALLY REALLY LOVING THIS EPISODE 

(Me thinking of Pigsy seeing Mk and taking him in cause he sees he’s a lot like him when he was a kid and wants him to have the support he never did—) 

LOOK

LOOK

I’M FINE LKSADMFGHA;OWEF

WOW

DANG MK 

REALLY DOES HAVE SUPER HEARING I GUESS 

RIP PIGSY’S HIGH SCORE, MK IS LITERALLY ABOUT T BEAT HIM BLINDFOLDED LAKSDMF;AOWGHAWE

“I hear ya Pigsy” ;-; 

I THINK I’M JUST READING TOO FAR INTO ALL OF THIS BUT I DON’T CARE I’M VIBIN ASKLDFNAHG;OWAEF

AGAIN

YES, IT HAS CERTAINLY HAPPENED BEFORE RIP PIGSY ASDFKMAO;GHWAEF

WHOAH MK, I MEAN, YEAH KINDA, BUT YOU CAN’T BLAME YOURSELF 

BOY HE’S GOT SOMETHING ELSE TO WORK ON I SEE 

*holds Pigsy gently * I think this man needs therapy lk;MFSA;OHGAOWEF

MEI JUST

PATS 

AND PIGSY STRAIGHT UP LETS HER LKASMGNHAWEOFM

I LOVE THEM LKASMF;HAGW

TANG

Tang: Yeah, this ain’t ping pong mah dudes 

ASDLKFMA;WOGH

LETS GO CHECK ON SANDY ASDLFKMAWHE

HA HA HASDFNVAWOEM LOL 

*WHEEZES* 

“Yeah, I wasn’t gonna help anyway—“ ;KFMA;NGOWHEOIFAMWEF TANG

I SURE HOPE ONE OF THEM DOESN’T OPEN THE BOX AFTER MO FINALLY FINISHED CLOSING IT 

AND WHY WOULD THEY DRAW A MOUSTACHE ON SANDY’S FACE

HE ALREADY HAS A LAKSDMGH;AOWIFAHBAWOEF 

PIGSY TRYING TO LIGHTEN THINGS UP 

Tang, who’s been thoroughly traumatized and will likely never play ping pong again: too soon 

LKFMAWE;OGHAWEF

LEAVE THE POOR CAT ALONE, MEI ASLKFGHA;OWEF ;A; 

MO WILL NOT STAND FOR YOUR FOOLISHNESS THIS DAY MK ALSKDFGH;AOWEFAW

DO NOT DRINK THAT TEA LKASDFMAGHOWEAF

BOY

WOW THERE WAS A LOT IN THIS EPISODE LKSMFD;HABOWEF

I MEAN THERE ALWAYS IS BUT WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

I AM LOVE LOVE LIASDFM;OGHAOWEF

Quite the themes, I wanna know if Pigsy’s ever put anyone in the hospital via ping pong, I also want him to go all ping pong on some demon messing with his kids cause CLEARLY HE’S GOT POWER I’M JUST SAYING 

PIGSY CAN FIGHT, AND I WANNA SEE IT PLEASE LAKSDFMG;BHAOWEF

 THAT WAS A PRETTY FUN EPISODE ACTUALLY, AND I AM VIBIN 

THINKING ABOUT ALL THE ANGST AND FLUFF ALSKDFM;HA;WOEIFMASDF 

AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

AND I GOT ANOTHER ONE TO WATCH!!! 

I LOVE THIS SHOW L;AKSMDN;BASOHFDIAMWEF

SO MUCH TO APPRECIATE HERE 

GONNA BE THINKING ABOUT ANGSTY REASONS FOR MK NOT LISTENING TO PEOPLE, AND ANGSITER THINGS FOR PIGSY TO BE ADDICTED TO THAN PING PONG CAUSE HOOOOO BOY A;SKMFDGAHWEF

ALSO GONNA BE THINKING ABOUT HOW MEI HAS NO CONCEPT OF PERSONAL SPACE (I’m thinking it’s a dragon thing) AND AND PIGSY ACCEPTS HEAD PATS 

*flips table* 

AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH 

[kaebedom-me]

Poly ch💙ya + a little bit of Ch💙ya? Idk

I'm,, big sads today so,, we're gonna do some self indulgent headcanons umu Oh, It's gonna be like real scattered cuz brain not fine

Also this is kinda like a dark AU or smth idk I'm in my feels. Update: this was kinda dark and nasty. PLEASE READ WITH DISCRETION

Cw: mentions of alcohol, drugs, and blood, dd/lg, gun kink(?), pee??, mentions of cheating/NTR

Disclaimer: this headcanon is no way in any shape or form promoting alcohol, drugs, and/or violence. Stay the fuck away from drugs and violence, drink alcohol in moderation when you're of legal age.

I'm like in my feels rn and-

Kaeya getting drunk and high is kinda lowkey hot

Like sloppy make out sessions where you're numb to the world but yet strangely hyper aware of the slide of his tongue against yours oof

Childe when he wants to be numb to the world beats people up or gets his ass beaten

Something about feeling of warm blood against his aching knuckles just really takes his brain away from thinking thoughts

Alternatively them looking at you worriedly with a little bit of like disappoint when you turn to alcohol or drugs to get your mind off things

Your high/drunk ass crawling over to them, numb but not completely gone and-

Drugged sex? High sex?

It's like slow and heaty. A lot of unspoken emotional tension oof

Like idk dudes but i think that shit sounds hoT

I want them to look at me disappointingly and seduce them into bedding me

Because them fucking away your feelings, emotions, your thoughts just turning your brain into mush, or like completely numbing you mwah [chef's kiss]

And they won't deny you for too long because they know you're trying to cope so for now they'll just go along with you

Will absolutely keep everything in check doesn't want anything to happen to you

After that, when you're ready, they're there to talk to you and help you with whatever you're trying to go through

And also find a better coping mechanism cuz this shit ain't healthy

I also,,,

I just,,, really want to call them daddy ya know AAHAHA

Kaeya would be into it, not by the idea of being a daddy? More of a power play thing

Like he gets off to you submitting to him that's why he gets off of daddy

Biggest fucking tease about it if you initiate it?

"oh? What was that, baby? You repeat that a little louder? You're so dirty"

But if you don't initiate it he'll try to get you to do it? It's just something he wants to try lol

Asks you to call him daddy and you're like bashful "ew what no" and he'll go on fucking you when you're at your peak he stops

"say the magic word and I'll reward you, baby"

You can deny him but you'll deny yourself orgasms

If you get off from begging him like calling him daddy then he'd really get off too

"you like that, baby? Calling out daddy so lewdly, are you feeling good, huh? Does daddy make you feel good"

Childe isn't as into it methinks uwu

Like I'm not,,, I'm not a father yet?

BUT HE COULD BE

I think he's real into daddy because of the aspect of being a daddy? I think. That's the vibes he gives off

Like you gotta kinda put it in his brain the whole daddy thing and he'd get real into it

It's ok tho Kaeya can help uwu

"do you want my babies that badly, darling? What exactly are you getting off of, hm?"

I think once he gets into the right head space there's no turning back like he really gets into it

Loves hearing muffled reiteration of it? Whether he's stuffing your mouth full of cock, his fingers, gags anything. You calling, or trying, to call him daddy makes his cock throb

Because to him it's like you being needy and he thinks it's adorable when you're so needy and basically mush for him

A little bit of Chaeya because they bring me great comfort and i had this idea for awhile now

Like them using each other for sex and realising tension

But realising after awhile that they've fallen for each other? [chef's kiss] maybe after dating someone else they have a little light bulb moment when they see each other at a club w someone else-

Dumps their partner or not (depends if I'm feeling the NTR)

And goes to fuck the sense out of each other and they start like dating hot shit

I fucking hate people who smokes but the thought of Kaeya smoking

Him blowing smoke into your face when you're negotiating something? Or like idk????

Like the sexual tension????

Him having one of those fancy kiseru pipes, lounging on a chaise, with like a velvet robe that's exposing his chest

I'd simply get on my knees and let him face fuck me

Speaking of NTR Chaeya not dating but being FWBs even though they're dating other people because they just vibe with each other's sexual chemistry,,, i love it

Someone on twitter once drew a mermaid Chaeya AU and I have not be able to get that out of my brain since

Like marine biologist or sailor or obsessed w the ocean Childe and mermaid Kaeya-

Mermaid Kaeya............

And childe does eyE-

Anyway mermaid Kaeya being cute because wtf is human thing bring it to me

I want Childe to fuck me with a gun. I just thought about it, and i have brainworms now

Knowing him he will refuse to put bullets in there but will not tell you

You're almost at your orgasm as he's fucking you with what you think is a loaded gun, you're begging him to touch you anything and he fucking shoots

You're squirting all over the gun and his arm, he's laughing at what a slut you are for danger. Gods, i think that'll be the hottest and best fucking orgasm you'll ever have

If you're so scared, you kinda pee yourself a little. Childe will humiliate you, it'll be the Worst for you but it's so fucking hot to him

Kk but like

I really like the idea or Chaeya being fucking morons together doing stupid shit like yeeting each other across an empty parking lot on like a shopping cart

Them laughing and singing dumb pop songs like maniacs without a care in the world

AAH my heARt

[lowkeyorloki]

BC anon hiiii OKAY YIKES I did actually make it all the way through and not read asis until I was done with everything today however it had nothing to do with my own personal willpower and everything to do with the fact that my professors absolutely have it out for me but ANYWAY I KNEW Y/N WOULD DO IT I KNEW LOKI WOULD NEVER DUMP Y/N I’m not happy they broke up but I am kind of happy it was y/n who did it bc it means I guessed right lol ALSO okay I think that y/n is also gonna be the one to initiate getting back together however I’m on Loki’s side in this break up I almost don’t want him to take her back lol just bc I didn’t like how she brought Narvi into this like LEAVE HIM ALONE WHATS WRONG WITH YOU like I get she brought narvi into it for a reason and didn’t actually want to hurt him but like now I’m like okay Loki dont let her around your son anymore when Loki said “what am I going to tell narvi” OOF OW OW OW WHY WHY WHY and omg I also got pissed at y/n bc after PURPOSEFULLY hurting Loki (and narvi even tho he doesn’t know it yet) she decides she regrets breaking up with him im like WHAT WAS THE REASON TO HURT THEM THEN!!!! Anyway I have a lot of emotions rn also side note i love the fact that you might write more one shots and stuff for the asis universe once the fic ends im also not ready to say goodbye to dilf Loki or narvi as a character!!! Also last side note but it was perfect asis breakup weather today I swear it was so cold and rainy and windy where I live and I think it’s bc the universe is also mourning professor laufeyson and y/n anyway the vibes were immaculate tho

Hi sorry one more ask from BC anon bc okay WAIT I FORGOT I WANTED TO TALK ABOUT THE CLINT STUFF why was I like actually kind of happy Loki failed Clint just because he could like maybe it’s just bc I personally couldn’t care less about Clint Barton as an MCU character but like IDK IT MADE ME WEIRDLY SATISFIED TO KNOW LOKI FAILED HIM ON PURPOSE??? I was like okay YES Loki be vindictive and petty we love to see it anyway maybe I’m just showing blatant favoritism here I get why that information would be upsetting to y/n but idk this chapter made me love asis Loki even more than I already did and made me even more hurt that y/n hurt him I’m like noooooooo whyyyyyyy I even knew she was gonna hurt him and I tried to mentally prepare but it didn’t work

//

V PROUD OF YOU FOR GETTING EVERYTHING DONE so you could have a lil chapter of asis. As a treat. Also I'm psyched the weather matched the chapter for you because ~ambiance~ is very important. For me it was 73 degrees and sunny so :/ Also also ty for letting me know you would read more drabbles even after the fic ends! Maybe I'll just make a separate fic literally called "ASIS Oneshots" and update it whenever I have something new... I could even open requests for lil drabbles/oneshots and put them there ;)

LMAO yes I get it BC anon like it sucks that they broke up but hey if that was going to happen at least you can say you were right. It's about small victories. Also *lil jon voice* YEAH coming in hot w/the guess that y/n will initiate getting back together we love to see it. Also YES she regrets it and YES she was mean but Mr. Lokey would not let her go and that's why she was mean he wasn't giving up on her any other way... also though ms. y/n also could have just walked away lol. Literally leave BYE mission accomplished

I ALSO HATE MCU HAWKEYE he's boring and I don't like Jeremy Renner (side note can you believe Jenson Ackles almost was Hawkeye? I think about that daily). I know it's hard to put the feelings, or lack thereof, for that boring bland bowl of oatmeal of a man aside but Loki failing a student just because he felt like it is messed up. My professor glared at me in front of the class yesterday and made everyone watch me (I was checking my email at 10:00:08 and class started at 10 he was having a bad day) and I'm still not over it so if a prof failed me just because I pissed them off a few times I would cry. Also though yeah Clint did antagonize Loki. BUT YOU ARE SO RIGHT that it's fun to see Loki be a bitch. As he deserves! Like the Clint thing serves a narrative purpose obviously but I also wanted to reference Loki's mean streak because it's sexy what can I say. He made it on the Marvel villain and hero posters so he'll be a villain and a hero in asis it's the duality of man it's equality it's giving the people what they want and as shawn mendes would say it's giving cher

I hope you're doing well and have a good weekend!! Thank you for the messages I luv to hear from youuuuu :D <3

[ackermans-freedom-inc]

ship your moots!! pick a few mutuals and ship them with which aot boys you can see them with and why!

*rubs hands together* god im so nervous IM SO NERVOUS I DONT WANNA UPSET ANYONE

BUT AIGHT LETS GOOOO - gonna set these all in the modern age and everyone is obvs 18+ at my mutuals I’m sorry if you hate me after this @@ I haven’t done this before but it was really fun!! I also know some of you better than others and I’m real sry for not chatting more tbh. If u end up wanting me to take ur part out just lemme know!!

@anlian-aishang I know u like blonde bois (does he count) and u are literally the most bright ray of sunshine??? And best person??? And I just see u with Farlan and just wow??? Literal ray of fkin sunshine anlian with a nice soft kindhearted Farlan who is also capable of kicking major butt is just 11/10. amazing, cute, so super smart and sometimes silly. This is one of those “get you a mans that can do both” moments. Soft one second and bam will slice someone for u in the next. Him playing among us with you???? Bodyguard af. Me and u playing among us style.

@melancholicmonologue my dear Mara my dear sweet Mara I feel like you would do well with Eren he’d be an entire hype squad all the time?? He would literally hype you up doing anything, wearing anything, just casually makin mozzarella sticks and he’d be like WOW THE BEAUTY THE TALENT WOW. And I would love to see that.

@bluebellhairpin (I wanted to say Eren just to be a prick 🤣 but honestly if you and him were a thing it would be SO entertaining to watch, just you constantly kicking his ass and fighting and oof)

Ok ok in all seriousness for you Nemo for some reason I get Reiner vibes?? You exude such a badass energy and that just makes me imagine Reiner realizing and being like “oh? Oh shit? Nemo is a badass”. That makes me happy to think about. Also I just KNOW you could take the man. Ok he would be like “NO U LISTEN HERE” and you’d be like “did u just raise ur voice to me?” And he’d be like “o shit uh no I didn’t I’m sry”. Also imagine the cuddles with this bigass dude of a man *huff*

@alrightberries ALRIGHT. Ignoring where it says “boys” in the ask, but I see you with Historia??! For some reason?? You exude some sort of *vibes* that make me feel like the two of you would be super cute?! Poor levi-esque insomniac you with your arm falling asleep cause Historia is laying on it and you’re too nice to wake her up to save your arm?? Why can I see this??

@commanderserwin U GET ERWIN. AS YOU ALWAYS DO. GO CLAIM YO MANS BEE GET EM. HONESTLY it matches it fits. your way with words would make him give you heart eyes and your way with bodies and muscles bc of school wink wonK mans would try to beat around the bush asking you to help him out with a sore spot or something and you’d be like “get your ass over here” Erwin would be the luckiest man.

@rainteslerrrr I have and always felt an Annie vibe for you, you’re so sweet and I can just imagine Annie looking away with a small blush on her cheek hiding being her bangs bc you did something cute. And you know she would watch anime with you. She’d pretend to not be interested but will always queue up the next episode.

@proseofpandemonium honestly HONESTLY ok ok Bertholdt??? Mans would be nervous and soft and quiet, but I know you would take charge and he would just sit and listen to you talk or chat, or the two of you would just sit while you draw or write. And he would love cats and I know how you feel about cats!!! He would definitely volunteer at a shelter and keep bringing home cats he gets attached to and you two would foster cats as well?? And it’s just...cats everywhere.

@starstruckkittensweets OKAY HEAR ME OUT but Moblit??? Your shenanigans with your roommates are absolutely hilarious and I can just imagine Moblit being over and just like “wow this is so relaxing”. I just know he would be super supportive in everything you do.

@acekou I.....is it bad that I wanna put u with like...Erwin bc GODDD THE THINGS U WOULD DO TO HIM oop. The mental imagine I have rn is NOT ok.

@jean-does-not-have-a-horseface HONESTLY. not bc of your URL but JEAN. FOR SURE. You would be defending the dude against all the insults and he just decides that you’re a good friend. Starts getting lowkey clingier and will keep up with the late night losing of mind screaming sessions with no problem.

OK I THINK IM DONE these were all...knee-jerk thoughts because I think those first impressions are there for a reason. AGAIN pls lemme know if you’re uncomfortable in any way or want me to take you out for any reason!

[brave-clarice]

“Clarice” Liveblog: Episodes 5 & 6

Since these are extraordinarily late, I tried to keep them more concise/focused than before. I’m sorry for how long it’s taken me to (almost) catch up. And to the handful of you who’ve enjoyed these and encouraged me to do them: thank you!

Episode 5, “Get Right With God”

the music at the beginning of this episode might just be in the maintenance guy’s headphones(!) but it was still a…Choice.

there’s something so tragic about watching Clarice be unable to use her legs… :’(

this whole scenario feels like a twisted parallel universe version of the end of Hannibal.

glad to see Ardelia finally has her priorities straight and is going to fight for her best friend! let’s forget her Episode 4 subplot ever happened.

good: the warrior finding a weapon even in the direst of circumstances!

bad: those damn moths are back. at least this time they might be drug-induced.

“she worked Bill alone” no, she didn’t. not really. (Hannibal: I’m right here.)

stop trying to make Likable Paul happen, it’s never going to happen!!!

I HATE the “Reesey” nickname, y’all. HATE. IT.

plus, we know that her dad called her “Baby”?

her father’s appearance doubles down on the end-of-Hannibal vibes...Not Sure If Want.

wow, Clarice is being literally tortured? thanks, I hate it!!!

really doubt that Clarice’s Pinto used to belong to her father (who drives a truck in the books??)... weird flex.

and how would she even have gotten it? her mother would either have driven that car into the ground out of necessity or else have sold it for the money the Starlings needed so desperately.

Pintos also weren’t super high-quality cars and were definitely not built to last ~20 years.

Clarice already being able to chat with her father whenever she needs to really undermines the therapy Hannibal will eventually give her, but…I guess they’ve already accepted they’ll never make it that far?

“you’re trying to get in my head” yeah, and she’s doing it, too–’cause she learned from the best!

“you get an answer, I get an answer, Felker.” she’s Hannibal’s girl all right.

this episode’s had flashes of brilliance before diving back into…whatever tf watching one of your favorite characters of all time being tortured is.

I really wanted Ardelia to say that no, but Clarice was like a sister to her.

it took FIVE episodes to get some lamb imagery, but we’ve been looking at moths for the entire season?!

oof, Clarice voicing her own insecurities about her childhood abandonment and using them to twist Felker’s arm...painful but smart.

HANNAH!!!

I would die 4 baby Clarice

after all that, Clarice is going to apologize to Ardelia about last week? this episode SUCKS.

Good: Clarice playing mind games with Felker like Hannibal did to her; Ardelia going to bat for her bestie, lamb flashbacks, baby Clarice, and HANNAH!

Bad: So much. Clarice being medically tortured multiple times, moth hallucinations, the several-years-premature (imo) Daddy-as-Guardian-Angel plot device, “Reesey”...did I mention Clarice getting repeatedly tortured?!

Ugly: Krendler backstory + making out with his wife. Ew.

Wow, this episode was a hot mess, and I kind of hated it. I loved Clarice’s really Hannibalesque approach to Felker, and I’m so thrilled that Hannah got mentioned at all (tho...did they need to be so heavy-handed with the helmet and gun and everything?) Also nice to see Ardelia behaving much more in-character. That said, it was sickening and imo totally unnecessary to further traumatize Clarice the way they did. To make her almost helpless.

Clarice, and by extension Rebecca Breeds (who is fantastic and deserves better), has been given very little range so far. She’s frequently been shown as miserable, afraid, desperate, traumatized, angry, resentful, but I also want to see her joyful, laughing, silly, relaxed...something else that will give her depth. Her life wasn’t miserable 24/7, 365. It was just unfulfilling. We got glimpses of this in the first two episodes. PLEASE bring it back!

And rn I’m questioning how Clarice’s career can possibly drag on for another six years after this. Her apparent PTSD is already interfering with her job performance as it is--this experience is only going to make it worse. Her “body count” in Hannibal was around five, iirc, and that was enough to slap her with the “Death Angel” moniker. In the show at least four people have died in close proximity to Clarice in the space of like...a week. How does she come back from that, even as the savior of Catherine Martin? It’s a PR nightmare for obth Clarice and the FBI.

They’ve also sort of forgotten that the Martins existed while continuing to flesh out Krendler’s (?!) character? It’s weird.

I almost don’t even want to watch Episode 6 after that. But here goes...

Episode 6, “How Does It Feel to Be So Beautiful?”

the freaking MOTHS again, I hate them!

frankly, yeah, Clarice should be on leave.

Clarice’s nondescript monochrome suits and constant ponytail are just so boring. in the book she’s described as never having to put effort into making her hair look good--so why is it always pulled back in this show?

I’m not sure it’s very in-character for Clarice, at this point in her career, to go over her boss’s head to get out of admin leave (one she really needs to take tbh) even for the sake of solving a case

lol what the actual hell @ AG Martin guilt-tripping Clarice, who was very recently tortured and almost died, for not calling Catherine back? Clarice is not Catherine’s therapist!

THIS is what my Vogue-reading heroine with burgeoning great taste wears for a night out? so disappointing.

never in my life did I think I’d be sitting through Krendler’s personal drama in a show ABOUT CLARICE STARLING.

her costume sucks and her hairstyle’s from years in the future, but dang does Clarice look gorgeous.

and I love thinking of her getting a taste of the luxury she’ll enjoy with Hannibal. :)

you know what? I think I was actually fine with them forgetting that the Martins were in this show.

whyyy is Krendler being made so sympathetic?!

now Catherine Martin “loved to sew” just like Frederica Bimmel? hmm. (tbf, maybe this is in the novel, and I’ve just forgotten.)

her gift for Clarice is sweet, though.

so beautiful, indeed

Christ on a cracker, that confrontation between the Martins was painful to watch (not a criticism). this show’s AG and her daughter are very much two of a kind in terms of emotional manipulation.

I stan one (1) doofus

now either Catherine’s gaslighting Clarice...or Clarice’s trauma (over BILL! again with this!) is so pervasive that it’s twisted her memories. either way, I hate it.

so Krendler’s lawyer is dirty and that’s why he’ll (probably) turn against Clarice? but WHY? why can’t Krendler just suck?

Good: Clarice looking gorgeous, Ardelia continuing to fight for Clarice, female characters in positions of authority everywhere

Bad: Clarice’s underwhelming costumes, Clarice’s primary/worst trauma apparently STILL being Buffalo Bill & having Clarice break down crying again (and NOT over what happened last week, which would tbh make a lot more sense).

Sad: Shaan’s backstory about his wife, everything involving Catherine

Ugly: Krendler subplot. Ugh.

I just don’t know how I feel about this installment. Wish I cared more about the overarching conspiracy plot, but I’m really only here for Clarice and Ardelia. And while no show can stand on the shoulders of a single character, for a show about Clarice, there seems to be quite a bit of screentime devoted to her bosses, Martin and Krendler, and even to her team members. And all without Clarice herself getting much character development. They don’t seem to be exploring much of her character other than her traumatic backstories, and I’m no longer very hopeful that she’ll be much more fleshed out in the last four episodes, either. It’s a bummer. I really think Rebecca could shine like Jodie did if she were given a chance.

Most of the scenes with the Martins were visceral and felt so real that it was hard to watch. That said...the AG Martin/Catherine content all strikes me as being somewhat detached from the rest of the show, as if the writers are making it up as they go along with no real end goal in mind.

Man...these two were rough going. Very little humor or warmth and absolutely no joy. Of course the source material is dark, so a somewhat dark crime drama is to be expected, but I really think the show needs a slightly less intense, bleak and (dare I say it?) unpleasant episode. But they writers have really dug themselves into a hole by zeroing in on Clarice’s PTSD. And unlike in Hannibal, there’s no love interest with whom she (and by extension, the audience) can flee her misery and pain. 

I'm cautiously optimistic about the rest of the season. A lot of the ingredients are there, and despite my many criticisms, it’s been great to spend time with a character I love. Fingers crossed that they finish strong!

[luvdsc]

my first business midterm was a success! i only got one question wrong, and same goes for the second one i just took! 😁 so crazy i feel like i just started college and now i’m about to sign up for my next classes already :’) time flies

about the boy, don’t worry. it’s been a while since i found out about it and i am okay now. tbh i’m kinda glad we didn’t become anything more because looking back on it he wasn’t even all that omg i was just blinded by my “i can fix him” mindset along with the fact he was tall 😭 making jokes about the situation with my friends really helped me overcome it. plus i don’t think i had any sadness in me left the second i saw his new girl looks like me whoops but as crazy as it sounds even though he broke my heart i still trust he won’t ever tell anyone else the personal stuff i told him when i opened up to him so there’s that 👍

on a brighter note, so the concert was actually hitc omg which is technically not a concert lol but it was easier to type it as so but ANYWAYS hitc was SOO FUN it was definitely a memory for the books. rich brian was for sure my favorite set out of all the days. i think i saw you said you went as well??! how was your experience? whose set did you like the most?

i’m actually really happy with my life rn and the friends i have who are still in it. reflecting on the past couple months and what i went through, ik everything happened for a reason and have no regrets in any of the choices i made. in the end it all taught me lessons ik i probably wouldn’t have learned otherwise. so yeah this is the most content i’ve been in a long time :)

anyways i would love to hear your thoughts on the re-recorded version of red and the 10 minute all too well mv!! what’s your favorite song from the vault? for me ive been having message in a bottle on repeat i absolutely love the nostalgic vibe the best has & the lyrics hehe reminds me a lot of summer - 💐 anon

oh my gosh, congratulations, honey bee !!!!! 🥳🥳 that’s fantastic news, you did amazing, and I’m so proud of you 🤩🤩 I bet you’re the one who’s setting the grade curve in your classes :’) best of luck with enrollment !!! 🍀 I hope you’re able to get all the classes you want, lovebug 💕 are there any that you’re excited to take next quarter?

I’m glad to hear you’re doing well and are over that boy 💞 he didn’t deserve your time, effort, and feelings anyway 🤧 tall boys really have us in their clutch huh 😔 oof we gotta stay away from those types of boys that bring out the “I can fix him” mentality - they need a therapist first before we should even consider dating them SHUSJSDK omg his new girl looks like you?? All the best to her, I hope she sees the warning signs and moves from him too rip but it’s reassuring that you know/trust him enough that he will keep your secrets 💕

OMG YOU WERE AT HITC TOO ??? WASN’T IT SO GOOD !!!!! I made new friends there, and we’re planning to meet up again there next year !! And they also live close by, so we’re gonna hang out again sometime soon too 💘 YES I also loved rich brian’s set, also the ending stage when he and warren hue performed together was amazing 🤩 I wanted to see keshi perform the most and I loved his performance the most, but they did him so dirty with his mic 😡 I’m still mad about that hdjdjdjddk and I was super excited to see dpr, niki, and saweetie !!!! 💓💓

aaaaa I’m so happy to hear that you feel this way, sweetpea 🥺💟💟💟 I feel like when you reach that stage of happiness and contentment with your life, that’s the best place to be, like I don’t know how to explain it but it just feels so wonderful to be at peace with yourself and fully enjoy and embrace where you are in your life 💛💛 I hope you continue to feel that way, lovebug 🤍✨

OH MY GOSH I AM ABSOLUTELY OBSESSED WITH RED TV 😭❤️❤️❤️ like I am still playing all too well ten min version on repeat today, and it’s been like that since Monday 🤧 ngl i cried over the all too well mv, especially the you dropped my hand scene. The age gap was just so uncomfortable to watch, but it also was portrayed so accurately and vividly, and it just felt so raw and out there. My song favorites are still treacherous and holy ground for the original tracks, but message in a bottle is my favorite vault song too !!!! 💜 I agree, it sounds so nostalgic and summery ✨ nothing new hits me hard tho 🤧 and the very first night is really pretty sounding 💓 what about you, honey bee? Which songs are your favorites? Did they change from your old favorites when the first album version came out? 🌷🌷

[mooosicaldreamz]

We obviously need your song by song analysis of evermore please!

i got asked to do this about four times so here it is.....much anticipated. i know. please note that when i say that i hate her or despise her i don’t actually mean that. but i do

EVERMORE

OK LETS GO

WILLOW - ok, groovy first time you hear it, right? has a strong rumbly wiggle. let’s VIBE. the low of the verse, the high of the chorus…oh my goodness! what is she doing. she’s just out there! wow. “wherever you stray i follow” is a banger. “life was a willow and it bent right to your wind” with the overlay oof let’s go.!!!! a shockingly strong first entry of the record…best one since “welcome to new york” maybe!!! let’s just say it!!! for some reason “i come back stronger than a 90s trend” throws me off though…i don’t know. it’s just so moody pop, no one is doing it like her!!! i hate her

CHAMPAGNE PROBLEMS - every time i listen to this song i listen to it four times. not a joke. it’s perfect. i don’t think i need to convince anyone! it’s perfect!!!!! what are you doing? taylor swift, the most dramatic bitch, has been writing dramatic bitch songs since she was fourteen and yet, somehow, she contrives to write even more dramatic things as she ages. this song is a JOKE. there are not ENOUGH songs about denying proposals! it’s just simple and sad. oh my god. it’s insane. the fact that she wrote this with her boyfriend (i have a running theory that they are married, we are going to refer to joe as her Perfect and Glorious Husband from now on) …… come on. the ENTIRE BREAKDOWN. “YOUR MIDAS TOUCH ON THE CHEVY DOOR / NOVEMBER FLUSH YOUR FLANNEL CURE / THIS DORM WAS ONCE A MADHOUSE / I MADE A JOKE WELL ITS MADE FOR ME / HOW EVERGREEN OUR GROUP OF FRIENDS / DON’T THINK WE’LL SAY THAT WORD AGAIN / AND SOON THEY’LL HAVE THE NERVE TO DECK THE HALLS THAT WE ONCE WALKED THROUGH” ……. concluding with that absolute stabby killer “what a shame she’s fucked in the head” oh my god……….. and the song resolving in a very adult “you’ll find someone else” god

GOLD RUSH - ok so like this song is like ok it’s got the same groovy high /low that’s happening on willow but it’s so different! it’s so good! the pulse of the beat propelling the whole thing through and then the falling apart “oh what must it be like to grow up that beautiful”……………..ok. the visceral image of “my eagles t-shirt hanging from the door” …………. i admire very much taylor’s oncoming gift of moving through high/low imagery…… i love her so much? it’s so HARD. “my mind turns your life into folklore” beautiful! BEAUTIFUL! also i have some belief in me that this is about karlie kloss but i shall not dive into that hole.

TIS THE DAMN SEASON - oh so i’m supposed to LIVE with this song EXISTING. WHY!!!! HOW……..oh my god………..taylor was like, yes, i’m going to write a song about a famous girl going home and banging her high school flame for a week and jack and aaron were like oh ok. “i parked my car between the methodist and the school that used to be ours.” she is such a joke. “you could call me babe for the weekend” like ok emo!! emo!!! OK. I LOVE THIS SONG

TOLERATE IT - taylor really gave us the most depressing track 5, but it’s absolutely a banger and i love her! she is just vibing! oh my god. what a specific emotion to pinpoint with this song….it’s such a gift. no one is hitting this space

NO BODY NO CRIME - this song has no business being on this record but in the BEST WAY, like how daddy lessons mysteriously appears in the middle of lemonade. oh my goodness. this is just pure country revenge song. taylor was like oh actually i haven’t forgotten my roots and i hate men more than i ever have. and she got haim to sing with her. and it’s so good. the low “i think he did it” oh my goodness. this song is a joke. how is it real? it’s just a perfect radio song. it reminds me very much of “before he cheats” but it’s a lot more sonically calm

HAPPINESS - similar to “tolerate it” and i think “champagne problems” this song is beating on an emotional bush that is really really hard to hit the head of. like, so she collabed with the national and bon iver on this record and previous obvi, and i LOVE them, but their music can often be very………impressionistic? perhaps? is how i might put it. it’s sometimes hard to get a note of specificity from it. imo. but taylor loves a fucking story bro. and she has figured out how to tell made up stories. she can’t be stopped now. like…this space of a breakup and knowing that it’s for the best and being sad in this way? name a pop star who has a song this nuanced. for real! god. i despise her. “across a great divide / there is a glorious sunrise”

DOROTHEA - the other half to the far superior TIS THE DAMN SEASON and a banger all the same. it has the bouncy joy of the most buoyant national songs. in the same vein as the also far superior BETTY, she has her sweet dumb boy slurry and less intelligent voice. i love that she paints these narrators this way, it’s just nothing she would have ever reached for ever before this period. she has a Perfect and Glorious Husband now and she has begun to understand teenage boys, FINALLY.

CONEY ISLAND - i have upon many occasions opined that i love the national VERY MUCH. i once went to a festival with my gf and her sister to see them even though i was expressly not invited and you know what despite the fact that it caused a lot of angst, i got to see the national play TERRIBLE LOVE in the middle of the night and I SCREAMED IT. so like, listen. what is matt berninger doing here, to me, specifically????????? i was somewhat hesitant about how their voices might blend, but it works astonishingly well. and i think that it’s so wonderful, i can’t. the imagery of a dreary coney island…..”sorry for not winning you an arcade ring.” as taylor always proves, the bridge is spectacular. “were you standing in the hallway / with a big cake / happy birthday”……”and when i got into the accident / the sight that flashed before me was your face / but when i walked up to the podium / i think that i forgot to say your name” sorry to yOU calvin. she had ISSUES. and now she has a Perfect and Glorious Husband. also “sorry for not making you my centerfold” ok kaylor

IVY - this song is about emily dickinson and i DARE you to tell me that i’m wrong. I DARE YOU. I DARE YOU. you’d be wrong! embarrassing for you. taylor finally writing a probably legitimate queer song and it’s about fucking emily dickinson is so on brand…..it’s dripping with poetry and groove and she’s so fucking dumb i hate her so much. her narrative of ivy and poetry and the lakes district…….ok taylor. i know. i know you watched all the dickinson things that came out and you identified with her. the gentle sway of the “oh, goddamn” and the “oh, i can’t”……i CAN’T EITHER TAYLOR !!! i CAN”T TAYLOR!!!! “oh goddamn / my pain fits in the palm of your freezing hand / taking mine but it’s been promised to another / oh i can’t / stop you putting roots in my dreamland” TAYLOR. and then she says, “oh you didn’t realize this wasn’t gay?” “i want to know the fatal flaw that makes you long to be magnificently cursed” like @ emily yourself taylor “he wants what’s only yours”……TAYLOR. give me the entire catalogue of emily dickinson songs!!!!! i can’t do this. “springs breaks loose / but so does fear” “i’d live and die for moments that we stole / on begged and borrowed time / so tell me to run / or dare to sit and watch what we’ll become / and drink my husband’s wine.” taylor if you see this post, a, i love you, b, i need you to tell me about ivy, and c, PLEASE can i have tickets to your next tour in the year 2025 or whenever because my gf never buys me any to your shows……….i love this song if it isn’t clear. i think i’d love it if it wasn’t gay

COWBOY LIKE ME - ok this will sound weird and if you’ve read this far i’m going to assume that you don’t care about me being weird…but this song reminds me of the fanfiction STAY THE NIGHT by lynnearlington (maybe u’ve heard of it). please reply if you think about this and feel the same. “never wanted love / just a fancy car” “you had some tricks up your sleeve / takes one to know one / you’re a cowboy like me” the opening line re: the tent-like thing reminds me very strongly of the fourth of july at our family’s country club and they set up a tent over the parking lot and this song just makes me think of that vibe????? i don’t know. i have vibes. i love this song a lot, which is impressive because it follows after the gay euphoria of IVY. perhaps this is because it gives me its own gay euphoria. “now you hang from my lips like the garden babylon” ???? is one of the most gay, seductive, brutal lyrics i have ever heard. she wrote that down and was like, oh yeah, vibez, hundo p. she did that to me

LONG STORY SHORT - this song is an honorary sequel to I FORGOT THAT YOU EXISTED from the lover era (honestly i’m still in the lover era). but i actually think this song is better! so we are taking that. “actually i’ve always thought that i looked better from the rearview” ok taylor let’s access that feeling! “no more keeping score / i just keep you warm” is like, stupidly sweet.  rip to calvin but now taylor has a Perfect and Glorious Husband.

MARJORIE - made me cry, simple and beautiful. one of the more personal songs on the tracklist! and something that i had never considered that she would write about, but i think the quarantine period has allowed a lot of us to dig into our feelings, so….vibez. we’re vibing!

CLOSURE - this song’s production sounds a lot like bon iver’s recent productions, very tech-y and repetitive and spare. rip to karlie kloss but taylor has a Perfect and Glorious Husband and karlie’s legal last name is kushner so who really won? hmm? i love “i’m fine with my spite / and my tears / and my beers / and my candles” the inclusion of candles is just. vibez. there are four candles lit rn in our apartment!

EVERMORE - i think this song is very intriguing and i’m still puzzling with it! the simplicity of her depressive gray November phase and then the very ebullient and bold bon iver interlude……..really has a manic/depressive, sad/angry vibe???? it feels so on brand for this pandemic quarantine…..and it works shockingly well, except for that i’d rather listen to the bon iver part for 10 minutes more. “all my waves are being tossed / is there a line that i can just go cross” and then taylor’s sort of call and response with his interlude……should just be the whole song.  but it’s still good. that’s how annoying she is

[tragedynatural]

Hey I know you posted it like a month ago but I would love a detailed song-by song reasoning/annotations for your Sam/jake mix. If you have time it would be great to hear your thoughts!

anon i've never jumped so hard at the chance to explain my totally normal thought process in depth before. thank you! yes of course! i will try to be as brief as possible! but probably not!

the first caveat i have to give you is that this mix was based mostly on a concept where cold oak lasts for ~2 weeks. so there's time for complicated relationships and despair to set in and a lot of this won't match the like..two days? it takes in the show. also this tracklist might be different from the post. i was editing.

we must be killers (mikky ekko) - "children of the wild ones" - references demon blood and my loose interpretation of what it might feel like to have these burgeoning powers, and then the "killer" refrain is because imo a key part of boyking4boyking is about how they both Know one of them is going to die, probably by the other's hand. also i'm compelled by similarities i see between jake and sam and both have spent their adult lives (hunting, military) being trained to kill. and i think neither of them want to do that, and in this situation they're forced to consider killing their peers..oof. thinking about jake's face when he has to kill ava, thinking about how sam and jake have been in situations where they've needed to kill someone in order to ensure the safety of someone else (in the logic of spn universe's approach to hunting & military)

like real people do (hozier) - this is abt that sense of knowing i was talking about. in the 2 week cold oak au jake and sam both find out from azazel early on how things are supposed to go. and they spend a week not killing each other! but they don't know each other very well and each fears that the other will snap first. "i will not ask why you were creeping / in some sad way i already know" - a sense of like, scorpion-and-frog anticipation that the other's going to turn on you but wanting to prolong the peace before it happens. also this dynamic is a product of a horrible time for them, they know that they probably won't both make it out - the "kiss like real people do" refrain is about an idle wish of like, what would it have been like if we were normal?

damn these vampires (the mountain goats) - i just like this song i think. this was rlly about the atmosphere, capturing the sense of being changed against your will that jake is reckoning with for the first time and sam is still struggling with. also, you know, there's a little bit of a defiant feel to this song. "scream when captured... let this whole town hear your knuckles crack." at this point they think maybe they can refuse to play along with azazel, and that it might be possible to get out anyway.

our time is short (gang of youths) - look, you know, rn they've been here for a ~week? they're not sure if they're ever making it out. the other kids died in the first couple days so it's just jake and sam and i think they're going through 'last 2 people on earth' feelings at warp speed. this is .... a moment of feeling good b/c they know it won't last very long, and there's a bit of last hurrah energy. "so let's drink the best wine now..before lightning strikes us down" etc.

another place (bastille) - the jake/sam connection is a genuine feeling but it's also very much....a foxhole thing to quote bobby. they like each other genuinely but both are aware this is the result of an extraordinary situation. even if they were both getting out alive...they live completely different lives. this song is about, don't make this more than it is because even though maybe we'd both want it to be, it's not attainable.

heavy in your arms (florence + the machine) - "who is the betrayer? / who's the killer in the crowd?" is absolutely my concept for the 2 week cold oak. sam and jake being plagued by dreams from yellow-eyes, and they don't want to suspect or betray the other but. well. they'll be stuck here forever. this is both of them wondering who'll crack first. also "heavy in your arms" is a little foreshadowing for when jake stabs sam and holds him while he bleeds out. thanks!

as the world caves in (matt maltese) - look. they're going to nuke each other up boys till old satan stands impressed...on their final night alive it's YOUUU that i lie with.... this is last few days of peace before Inevitable Conflict as the tension hits a peak. it's about "i like you and i care for you and i know eventually one of us is going to kill the other but i can't be the person to pick up the knife first. so every night i sleep across the fire from you and hope you fall asleep before i do." and azazel is there.

no one would riot for less (bright eyes) - "everything is eclipsed / by the shape of destiny" - the fact that the lives of the special children have been counting down to this moment! their hopes, dreams, personal morals, affections for others are eclipsed by fate baby! inescapable! the whole "little soldier" section is again about how both of them have been made into weapons to fight for various causes, and now they're being. pitted against each other. "love me now / hell is coming" and "help me out / hell is coming / could you do it now / hell is here" is obviously about them knowing shit is going to go down soon and also this sense of like. just kill me if you're going to. don't prolong the inevitable.

have to explode (the mountain goats) - similar theme here, feeling like you're counting down to the inevitable - "the stage is set / someone's going to do something someone else will regret" sam and jake are pieces in a plan that's been in motion for years and everyone's just waiting for them to buckle down and play the role. "the fuse will have to run out sometime / something here will eventually have to explode" - dean only finds sam once sam's been stabbed and jake has 'won'. if no victor emerges they stay here until one does, and they know that they can't hold out forever.

tusk (fleetwood mac) - i put this on every playlist sorry about me! also it's, okay, jake wakes up in the night to see sam stuck in a nightmare and he knows the demon's visiting both of them. what's it saying to him, he thinks, what's sam going to do? this is about creeping dread, and this sense that the person you're with maybe knows something you don't. that they're planning to betray you, that they already have. and musically the frantic melody and vocalization just ups the tension.

bite the hand (boygenius) - jake's pov. sam is the one who pushes for a truce and holding out for another option out of cold oak, and jake is on board. at first. but as time kicks on he realizes that there's no other option whereas sam is still a little bit in denial. so the "i can't love you how you want me to / i'll bite the hand that feeds me / you want what i can't give to you / who do you think you are / who do you think i am / maybe i'm afraid of you" - is about him doing a heel turn where he realizes like, i can't do this (stay indefinitely here to find a dubiously-real other way out for a guy i just met) and sam can't do it either, and one of us is going to snap, and i'm afraid it'll be sam first.

i bet on losing dogs (mitski) - sam's perspective on ^ - he does know how it's going to end but he can't quite. give up on hoping that it won't. he doesn't kill jake when he has the chance. he must know jake'll kill him if he's not dead or knocked unconscious, but he hopes. that he won't. anyway. and he's wrong. he knows he'll be wrong, i think he can sense that jake is doing a heel turn but also, they're getting played by azazel who's planting seeds of doubt and they're stuck in this depressing place alone, and sam's not sure how much he can trust himself. he's betting on losing dogs.

samson (regina spektor) - "you are my sweetest downfall / i loved you first" - jake's pov on a guy he genuinely likes who he knows he's going to kill. before the fight & the cemetery they cared for each other. "we couldn't bring the columns down / we couldn't destroy a single one" - in the end trying to hold out against azazel does nothing, the gate opens, the apocalypse happens. it's futile. and the story never mentions jake or cold oak again - i think the fact that sam tried to like, help & protect the special kids & then had to watch andy, ava, and lily die, & then jake tried to kill him, & he had to kill jake is like. pretty fucked up. those are the last people like him on this earth man he was 23!

heaven or hell (digital daggers) - vibes! also: "i’ve got the same deep wounds as you / my love can double as a weapon too" - jake and sam's similarities are so key to me. either one of them could have been the person to turn first. i'm anti-trying to make jake into a bad guy for stabbing sam! he wanted to go home! "show me the side no one else sees / turn it back on me" - what's it like for sam to be around other special kids? does he feel more normal or less than he does with dean? thinking about that "it doesn't matter if we believe it only matters that they do" scene- SO interesting! what a cool moment of jake and sam connecting on a level of both being leaders, both knowing what a lose-lose situation looks like, both knowing how to keep the hope alive, and do what has to be done. of course this is also the trait that leads to jake killing sam / sam killing jake. they're the same.

old college try (the mountain goats) - this is specifically like, night before jake stabs sam. he knows he's going to kill sam by now. "i want to say i'm sorry for stuff i haven't done yet / things will shortly get completely out of hand" - jake thinking about this last like, goodbye. and "i will walk down to the end with you / if you will come all the way down with me" - seeing it through till the end, sam has a burgeoning sense of something wrong.

it seemed the better way (leonard cohen)- again i literally just put this one on everything i can. also you know, it's jake thinking about listening to azazel and killing sam. it seemed like the better way then, but now, when azazel's threatened his family and he realizes he can't get out of it, it's too late to go back in time and do it differently. he has to obey azazel + play along. "i better hold my tongue / i better take my place / lift this glass of blood / try to say the grace". yes i know this is about religion i'm not trying to make light of the song i just think. i'm squinting okay.

don't let me be misunderstood (nina simone) - LISTEN! JAKE'S INTENTIONS ARE GOOD. this is like, meeting in the cemetery and sam is alive and they both know what's passed between them and what can never be and where it has to go now, and jake's thinking "just remember that i'm not evil. just remember i have a family that i wanted to come back to like you, don't let where this went eclipse the fact that you cared about me, that you know i'm a good person." it's also me holding a large stick and pointing it at everyone in supernatural so that they remember that he did nothing wrong.

say goodbye (fleetwood mac) - okay bear with me. in my version. of cold oak jake doesn't get killed by sam. he kills azazel and sam and dean let him go. this is a retrospective on the whole thing for both of them. "i let you slip away / there was nothing I could do / that was so long ago, yeah / still I often think of you" and "so don't let it get you down / just a time within a time / just a scheme within a scheme / a little world within a world / yes, a dream, just a dream" are the thesis lyrics for this song. cold oak's done, azazel's nuked, back to the real world now. it's a bitter way to say goodbye to a person you cared about after they killed you/you killed them, even though you both sort of. expected it to go that direction. by this point i was just like IT FEELS RIGHT (adds to playlist).

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BUT WAIT!! THERE’S MORE!!!

20. What’s your favorite part about the fanfiction writing process?

23. What’s your absolute favorite trope to write?

25. Do you listen to music as you write? If possible, link your writing playlist.

31. Of the characters you write for, which is your favorite? Has that choice been swayed at all by your followers/readers’ reactions to certain ones?

38. What does your writing process look like? How chaotic is it on a scale of 1 (very tame) to 10 (you can’t handle this kind of chaos)?

20. It’s DIY THERAPY BAYBEEEEEEEE. Lmao. Honestly I just like to have a place to like scream about things I’m obsessed with. And I love that there are other people??? Who want to read my DIY therapy. I just like to share!!!

23. Oof. I like a good like, friends to lovers. Idk I think that’s just so wholesome and it feels like such a nice real thing to be able to portray. Idk if that’s even a trope but I stand by it.

25. Sometimes! I have a playlist for the 80’s AU I’m working on atm. Get into the vibes. Usually just ends up being me screaming and singing instead of writing, but it’s good fun. I’m on mobile so I can’t link rn but if people want it they can totally ask me for it! (I know you have it buddy)

31. I love writing Ellie. Probably I self-project a bit with her but uhhhhhh whatever fight me. Definitely helps that so many have been so responsive to my writing within that universe!! I also for sure liked writing Nicole from WEarp, but Ellie holds a gentle little gay spot in my heart.

38. OH ITS CHAOS. I’ve been told I have truly chaotic good energy and that certainly applies to my writing process. Just a lot of screaming and typing furiously and then being like “HEY LETS POST IT” so yeah. Probably a 9/10 haha

Thanks friend, this was fun!! And your new URL gives me life hahaha!