#oof poor rose

[beckyninja]

Hope

Pairing: Roboute Guilliman x FemReader

Warnings: So. Much. Angst.

Description: Guilliman mourns his beloved's "death".

Oof, this was a rough one to write, even though it's short. I've really put this poor blueberry through the wringer.

(This is a continuation of my Guilliman x Reader series. To find the previous chapters, check out my Masterlist.)

Guilliman observed the rage in Captain Takahashi’s black eyes as if from a great distance. Dimly, he registered her voice as she bent over the holographic star map.

“We will come to the beginning of the Wards in a few standard hours’ time.” She gestured with her left arm, the right ending in a bandaged stump just below the elbow. “I’ll need a moment to observe the maelstrom and discern the patterns, before I can begin imparting instructions.”

The Chief Navigator stood at her elbow, double-jointed fingers steepled before his gray lips. “These ‘Wards’, you say? They are a… maze, in the Warp?”

“And out of it.”

“How is this possible?”

Guilliman let his gaze drift between the two.

The Captain’s eyes remained fixed on the map. “You’d call it, Archeotech. The secrets of its creation have been lost to time though, thank the Light, TerraNova’s original colonists preserved the knowledge of its maintenance. I am no engineer, but every school child learns how our forebears scattered mechanical ‘beacons’ of a sort behind them as they fled the Machine War.” 

Pressing her remaining hand to her lips, she gave a single, tearing cough. A medica in a charred uniform, half her face bandaged, stepped forward.

“Captain, you should return to the infirmary for your next round of anti-rads.”

Captain Takahashi waved her away. “In a moment, Lieutenant.” She returned to the star map. “As I was saying, these ‘beacons’ emit frequencies that twist both the Warp and Realspace, bending reality and unreality into a knot of ever-shifting pathways. The Wards.”

The Navigator’s white eyes widened. “As a child I heard rumors… stories of Navigators caught in such knots… driven mad….” His head jerked toward the Captain. “How do your people pass through such insanity?”

“Few ever do.” The Captain’s lips tightened. “But for those who must, we are taught to recognize the patterns in the maelstrom, our reflexes sharpened to make split-second navigational corrections. It is a brutal process, and in the last few decades has mostly been delegated to new navigational computers.” A sharp snort. “Mine, which now happens to be charred debris in the void.”

Something rose inside Guilliman, clawing at his shield of detachment. “You made promises, Captain Takahashi.”

Every soul in the room, even his Ultramarines, flinched. The TerraNovan Lieutenant cowered back against a wall. 

The Captain trembled a moment, then turned to face him. “I did. And I will keep them, Lord Guilliman.” Her eyes rose to his face, but did not meet his gaze. “I am of the last generation of naval officers trained to manually navigate the Wards. I will see your fleet through.”

“Some would call your actions treasonous.”

Her eyes managed to meet his. “All those to whom I swore oaths of service betrayed me, Lord Guilliman. Because of them, hundreds of my crew are dead. Not just proud voidsmen and women of our Navy, but the families who sailed with them. Children. The ship we called our home lies a broken corpse.”

Her eyes dropped away. “I failed them. And I failed the only one of our royal family for whom I felt any true loyalty. Let them call it treason.” She clenched her one fist.

“I call it vengeance.”

For a brief moment, a flicker of understanding passed between them. Primarch and Captain. He felt himself nod before turning away and exiting the room.

He moved without conscious thought, feet following patterns drilled into him long before his ten thousand year stasis. Corridors, doors, people all passed in a blur. The cacophony of the ship morphed into a meaningless babble. Vaguely, he registered the heavy tramp of ceramite boots behind him.

Too late did he realize his destination.

The door to your quarters stood before him.

No….

His hand reached for the control panel.

No…!

He watched himself enter the code, heard the hiss of sliding metal as the portal opened into darkness.

Stop….

But his body refused to obey. Or, perhaps, it obeyed some urge far more powerful than conscious will. He heard himself ordering his guard to remain outside, and stepped through the door…

…into memory.

Your scent rose all around him, overwhelming, choking. It shattered the frigid defenses he’d erected around his mind and hearts. It stabbed. It soothed. He loved it. He hated it.

He stumbled forward, hands pawing blindly until they met the bed. His knees buckled. He crashed to the floor, hands still tangled in the sheets that smelled achingly of you. 

You…you…you…you….

You, standing before him for the first time, single heartbeat fluttering like a bird in his ears.

You, face earnest as you advocate for the home and people you care for.

You, giggling at one of his ill-timed, foolish jests.

You, laid out beneath him, eyes shining as you tell him you love-

“No…,” Guilliman groaned, “stop. Please….”

The memories ceased, replaced by something far, far worse.

You, dressed in purest white, standing before him at the altar, pledging love and faithfulness for the rest of your days.

You, blushing fiercely, as he presents their new Lady to the cheering crowds of Macragge.

You, panting his name as he worships your perfect body.

“No, no, no!” He buried his face in your sheets, only for the concentrated fragrance they carried to unlock his most searing fantasy.

You, glowing with joy as you bounce a golden-haired child on your hip, your belly growing round yet again.

“Pater! Pater!”

“Come, Roboute! Work will wait. Come spend time with your family, my love!”

Roboute Guilliman, Primarch, Lord Regent of the Imperium of Man, wept.

He did not weep as he had as a young man when Konor Guilliman, his true father, lay dying before him. He did not weep as he had when, after his reawakening, he discovered the memorial to Tarasha Euten deep within the Fortress of Hera.

Even in those times, he’d known there to be a future beyond his pain.

But now….

Fabric tore as his fists clenched around the sheets. He raised his eyes to find one of the innumerable skulls carved into every surface upon the ship. A grisly symbol of the deity supposedly watching over them all.

“Why?” His voice felt ripped from the bleeding center of his being. “If you have the power people say, why do you use it to torment me?” 

He staggered to his feet, still clasping the torn sheets. “Have I not given enough? Did you find me undeserving of even the smallest modicum of happiness? Why, then, did you let me feel it, only to rip it away?”

His next words came as an agonized roar. “Why did you give me hope?!”

The very cruelest of punishments.

Guilliman looked down at the shreds of fabric in his hand. “What did she do to deserve your ire?”

But, deep within, he knew the truth. The Emperor had not doomed you. He had. His love was a poison worse than any follower of Nurgle could concoct.

Hadn’t everyone he ever cared for died?

“I am sorry. Oh Throne, I am so sorry, my love.” Once again, he buried his face in your fragrance. “Forgive me. Please, forgive me.”

He knew he tortured himself. He also knew he deserved it.

Vengeance and rage could only light his steps for so long. He would destroy all who had taken you from him. And then their fire would flicker out, leaving him with nothing but a cold, lonely trudge into the gray of the future.

At the thought, all strength left him. 

Roboute Guilliman curled onto the floor, knees tucked to his chest, whimpering like a child left alone in the dark.

…ping….

His eyes snapped open.

…ping…ping….

He clawed to his feet, chest heaving in great gasps. 

…ping….

Guilliman hurtled from the room, nearly bowling over Cato Sicarius. The Commander’s queries went unheeded as he crashed through the great gilded doors at the end of the corridor and into his personal office.

ping…ping…ping…

There, on his desk, lay a small vox receiver, gifted to him by Captain Takahashi. The unfamiliar device was set to receive one specific frequency from one specific source: a miniaturized beacon set into a band of gold and sapphire.

A band he’d placed upon your finger minutes before you left the Macragge’s Honor.

“If you need me, press the largest gem in the ring. A beacon will activate.” He’d grasped your chin, ensuring you looked into his eyes. “And I will come for you.”

Ping!

The receiver lit with a pulsing, golden light.

And hope, that cruelest and most enduring of flames, ignited in Guilliman’s hearts once more.

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[themmatennant]

no cause not rtd litterally bringing this up in 'the giggle'. 15 looks 14 (basically 10) right in the eyes and is like u gotta deal with ur shit bro, like ur obsession with *rose* for instance?? or im not gonna be happy ever. . 14 looks so defeated throughout it, and i was just like oop, turns out he didnt move on from rose. I mean he has NOW because he finally dealt and healed from the trauma. and now for the first time in a while, the doctor is finally truly happy

i was thin

i was thinking, since we learned how badly the doctor missed donna despite not seeing her for litterally hundreds of years, he probably still misses rose. and i know that he was married to river but he had other best friends since leaving donna so it would make sense that he was still in love with her and wishes he could be with her

[1moreff-creator]

DRDT CH2 EP16 First Impressions

We’ve reached the end of the chapter! A bittersweet feeling, finally getting closure on this chapter while also ushering in a new hiatus. Still, congrats to dev for making it this far! Hope they enjoy their break, while we enjoy whatever they’ve cooked up for the ending!

Without further ado, let us enjoy peak.

Spoilers for the entirety of CH2 (hell yeah). CW: Execution, suicidal thoughts.

It’s Aceover.

ONE vote for Teruko! Do we think Ace voted for himself? Did the mystery voter from Trial 1 repeat their vote on Teruko? Or did they not, and the vote’s just Ace? {Hindsight: It’s CH1 Mystery Voter probs}

MonoTV: “You got it right!” IT’S ALL OVER.

Okay wait it’s actually kinda weird to see the new David sprites outside of the Trial. Like it’s trippy idk why. That’s crazy.

Eden: “Why her of all people?” Poor Eden, at least give her an answer! Even if it’s just “it was the easiest option” man.

Whit: “I really thought that no one would repeat what happened to Xander and Min.” Is this the very first piece of anti-Whit Time Loop theory evidence? Or is he just lying? I don’t believe the theory, so I’m passing that one to the defenders.

Ace: “I killed her. And if you can’t forgive me for that, then there’s nothing I can say.”

Hey remember when Nico said they didn’t see the point of saying sorry if they wouldn’t be forgiven anyways? Yeah.

The foils are foiling :O

Both Teruko and Eden blaming themselves in their own way (Eden mentioned it in Ep10 “just like Min!” and now Teruko’s bringing “misfortune” into the conversation), man we are in for some sad times with these two. And everyone else ig.

Hu: “How could you say it’s just misfortune?” And Hu is very against this idea, interesting.

“So we can’t blame ourselves for failing to prevent something like that.” Ah, there’s the ticket. She’s trying not to feel guilty about it, which is kinda fair, Arei’s death is 99% Ace’s fault.

Eden: “The Ace I met for the first time wasn’t a murderer.” Oof, Eden hitting us with the full highlight line. She’s so great for this honestly. Everything she says afterwards is also great for her character, I love her (and I don’t need to read her lines with suspicion!!! I’m free!!!)

Veronika. And she’s still smiling. Go worst girl! /affectionate

“The only thing anyone can do in this killing game is to shatter.” We are… getting worryingly close to secret quote wording here.

Rose: “Are you saying Ace was pushed into killing because of things like almost being killed?” (Paraphrased) Oh God she’s gonna feel guilty too because she let Nico get the turpentine! Even if that doesn’t work if Ace had already chosen to kill Eden, still! How much self-blame can we have this trial?

Teruko: “No.” Yeah thank you.

Ace: “Did you all get the Veronika virus or what?” God I’m gonna miss him so much actually.

[To Levi] “Shut up for the rest of your life and kill yourself!” Holy SHIT he’s going out with a bang. {Hindsight: I didn’t realize how accurate this would be}

David: “You still have it in you to throw stones in your glass house.” Did this motherfucker correctly use the idiom Ace fucked up earlier? He’s such a piece of shit /affectionate.

Ace: “I don’t care if it made me a hypocrite!” AGH-! New sprite and the voice acting continues the hot streak of being absolutely fucking stellar! Holy hell!

[To Levi] “I just needed a reason to stay mad at you!” Ouchie!

[The whole Levi v Ace thing] This is just fucking incredible. Levi still doesn’t understand, Ace just wanted to stay mad so he could live with his betrayal, just peak character writing all around. And peak VAing, of course.

Teruko: “I need you to do a favor for me. It might just save your life.” YOOO I CALLED THIS!!! Blackened Blaze of Glory let’s fucking goooo!!!! Thanks to shinycrows for asking me that!!!

“Kill MonoTV for me.” Alright so. Not the best plan ever, but then again, it’s not like any plan against the killing game will work on CH2. Also the way she said that was great.

MonoTV: “Yeah, more murder!” Why’s it so funny for?

Teruko: “Arei died because you’re a coward, Ace!” YO why’s she going so hard right now?! This entire scene is incredible, I don’t even have any words for this much peak. The emotion in her voice, holy fuck- Oh yeah because Arei’s crying reminded her of something! In the playground! So Teruko does have a small connection with Arei so she’d feel real bad (for more reason than just death of someone she knew)! I didn’t put that together till now.

[Ace punches MonoTV] PEAAAK! Oh shit it actually broke! That was so fucking awesome! Let’s fucking go Ace!!!!! Also MonoTV is definitely just coming back, right?

That broken MonoTV sprite though!

Eden: “Finally, it’s over—“ The lack of music is making this really impactful, even though we know it won’t work. Holy shit.

MonoTV: “A fatal error has been detected” We breaking out different fonts?

MonoTV: “Now loading the default XF-Ture personality drivers.”

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

AND THE CROWD GOES FUCKING WILD!!!!

Now we have the question. Was MonoTV created by XF for the game? Or did XF just create the AI, and someone repurposed it for thre killing game?

Also what are these defaults going to be?

…Wait whose voice is this? Someone we know? Please tell me I’m bad at recognizing voices! {I think it’s still MonoTV’s VA, just doing a different act, but I’m not sure}

[MonoTV speech] Didn’t expect MonoTV of all damn characters to have a badass moment, but I guess this is the world we live in now.

“But there is no reason to punish Ace a second time.” UHHH Chat are we cooked?

The death of every participant? This is about rule 14, right? “All murderers must be held accountable”? The “everyone is responsible for Mai’s death and must be punished” theory seems to be gaining ground.

It’s also saying this is why it was created, so XF likely did have a direct hand in the killing game. Min MM not looking so implausible all of the sudden.

“I will pass the punishment…” chat we’re actually immensely cooked what.

“I will now proceed with the execution of Teruko Tawaki.” UHHH LUCK BETTER COME IN CLUTCH!!!

[Machine Gun] BRO?!?!?!

Charles: “That thing will surely kill you!” Even Charles is sounding extremely distressed here, damn! But I guess Teruko is relying on her luck maybe?

Whit: “Charles! Stop talking and cover your eyes!” I mean yeah good advice but you know- More pressing things atm

Teruko: “No :)” Why’s she so silly coded?

Teruko: “Killed? I doubt it. As if something so kind could happen to me.” AAAAAAH!!!! The suicidal tendencies return with a vengeance!!!

[Her speech] Holy fuck holy fuck this is crazy she’s actually doing the unhinged Lucky Student thing of relying on luck she’s going in I’m so terrified for what’s about to happen.

“I’ll show you all what it means to be the Ultimate Lucky Student.” Shit boutta go crazy.

[LEVI DOES THE THING] OF FUCKING COURSE!

Bro I was not ready for this. I wasn’t ready in the slightest. This motherfucker better survive against all odds or it’s all over.

Bro that sprite- He’s so cooked.

MonoTV: “His injuries are not fatal” Wait are we saved? Arturo look I know you’re not a doctor but for the love of God tell me you can do something about this holy shit. I wasn’t ready for this.

VERONIKA. Holy shit she’s actually insane.

Arturo: “He could live…” Please??? For me???

Wait now that I’m thinking about it. He hasn’t said his secret quote. We might be saved.

[Whit sprite] … Huh??? Bro what the fuck is happening this episode.

Ace: “Execute me right now!” Ough this shit insane!!! I can’t- I genuinely can’t react. I’m just overcome with emotion at this point.

“I’ll have a third death in my hands!” … Wait the math. Unless he’s counting himself… does he blame himself for Taylor’s death???

[The entire Arturo - Ace debacle] I…holy shit???? The genuine distress in Arturo’s voice when he says he can’t save Levi??? Ace clinging to the hope that he can??? Bro what the fuck??? This is insane???? I can’t- I can’t compute- This is actually insane. This is so much. Levi better not fucking die after this I swear to god-

Ace: “I don’t want to die…” Holy shit dev did it. I’m feeling just as bad for Ace as I felt for Min. Bra-fucking-vo. Holy fuck. No words.

[Thanatophobia]

(Fear of death right? Fits)

… Okay, so. I know someone brought up this term in relation to Ace. Genius, first.

Second, that might just be one of the greatest executions I’ve even seen, if not the best. I usually don’t care much about how good executions are, but this… this is incredibly good. The music was banging. The execution method was unique. It wasn’t related to his talent, but his character, which makes it better imo.

(Also are the “unexplained illnesses” related to Xander’s family?)

And even through all this… dev showed the corpse. When they didn’t show Min’s. Why would you allow me to cope even further? You drop XF and show a corpse- holy shit. I just can’t even process anything.

And he didn’t say his quote. He never said it I don’t think. Levi better survive.

VERONIKA. Holy shit she’s actually getting more and more unhinged by the second the hell-? Yeah remember when she looked unnerved by Min’s execution?!?! She ain’t looking unnerved no more!

Hu: “The elevator is open!” We’re just- gonna ignore- Alright, I guess it’s fair. Surely Levi survives right?

Rose please tell me you looked away. I know you saw Levi so it’s not looking great either way, but still.

Teruko: “Go on without me.” Is she going to talk to David maybe? About the secret?

“Everyone was gone.” Alright no, she’s just going to mourn or something?

[Teruko reflects on her similarities to Ace and Arei] I really like this moment, it’s nice of her to say what the audience was probably already thinking.

MonoTV: “I must convince everyone that I’m the villain.” And what does this mean MonoTV? Genuinely too burnt out to think about it any harder rn.

MonoTV: “That is the fate that I have, to make others suffer.” HOW ARE WE TYING MONO FUCKING TV TO THE THEME OF FATE?!?!?!WHAT DO YOU MEAN WE HAVE TO TALK ABOUT FUCKING “TERUKO-MONOTV PARALLELS” WHAT THE FUCK?! DEV YOU SON OF A BITCH YOU DID IT AGAIN!!! /positive

[Teruko breaks down] Holy hell…

“I had known the answer…” AUGH- The character writing… it’s so good… fucking hell this is incredible…

Where do we even go from here? Teruko’s speed running the themes of trust and fate like they’re not the main themes of the series?!?! I’m going crazy.

… Are we seriously leaving it on a cliffhanger whether Levi is alive or not? Like, I know the “surviving students” thing counted him, so I’m guessing he’s alive, but… hot damn. This is an evil cliffhanger.

(Also I find it funny that David’s silhouette sprite did in fact change to what the dev said was his new default lol)

“Seems there’s something he’s not proud of” The nailbiting right.

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General Thoughts

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Bro how the fuck am I expected to even begin to summarize this shit?!?!

Okay, in… ascending order of crazy.

Did David just… not speak almost the entire episode? Did he even have any lines when Teruko was being executed? The fuck is going on with him? He didn’t even reveal Teruko’s secret???

Veronika was unhinged. Loved that for her. Hope she gets worse, it seems like CH3 will be a fun chapter for her (I hope that doesn’t mean she dies).

Whit officially gets his very own unhinged/breakdown sprite! We’ve completed the set! I mean, it’s not as crazy as others, but it matches Rose’s so…

Everyone endures further trauma, fun.

I even feel bad for Arturo! Poor guy did not ask for this shit! There’s fun foils here with Levi trying to protect the group as much as he can and Arturo being forced into the role…

Also. Of all ships. I did not expect Aceturo to get a dub here somehow.

I somehow called more or less predicted what Teruko was gonna do. Fun how that happened. And her little character reflection at the end was awesome, I loved it very much. Jesus fuck.

That’s gotta be the best execution I’ve ever seen, hands down. I don’t care that there wasn’t a single horse there. This is much better.

Also, no secret quote from Ace. So those are 100% not a good metric for defining who is at risk of death. Wonder if that means we’ll get a flashback with him?

XF-Ture Tech?!?!?! MonoTV character building kinda?!?!?!?! I’m going crazy?!?!?!

Levi??? This motherfucker better be alive. There’s no reason he should be dead, so I’m gonna assume he’s alive. But wow… I guess weightedblankettt was sorta right on the “final orbit” interpretation of Levi’s connection to Shoemaker-Levy 9, just… not in a way we expected. (If that meant nothing to you don’t worry about it).

And Ace… Hot damn. Just… an entire character arc at the eleventh minute, huh? How’s that for the people who were saying Ace wouldn’t be remembered, huh? Levi probably owes him his life, in a way. He broke MonoTV. He faced his thanatophobia to try to help Levi survive. Just… so fucking good. I said it in the reaction. I genuinely felt just as much grief for him as I did Min. And coming from me, that’s… a lot. Just incredible writing and voice acting and everything in between…

This cements it, btw. This is my favorite trial from anything DR related ever. It’s genuinely insane. I am going to make a more detailed, more coherent post analyzing the entirety of Part 2 of this chapter, because it deserves it. It deserves more thought than I’m able to give right now on account of feeling too many emotions. Stay tuned for that, I guess.

Props to the dev, the VAs, and anyone who might have laid a hand on this at some point. It’s genuinely incredible, this is an unforgettable experience. Holy shit.

I don’t- I don’t have the emotional energy to keep writing. Just… I think I need to calm down for a few hours. Genuinely loved every second of this. Thanks for reading, and see you when I gather my thoughts enough to trust myself to be coherent.

[raven-at-the-writing-desk]

Crewel, how many single mothers or older sisters hit on you? As you're a handsome man.

… Bold of you to assume he attracts only women and single people 😂

If he doesn’t scare you, no evil thing will.

"Are you speaking of parent-teacher conferences?" Crewel frowned. "I've spoken with a number of guardians and siblings during those meetings, but I assure you that I keep things strictly professional. I'm quick to shut down any advances.

"Most memorable of those experiences would have to be meeting Diamond's sisters. There were two of them, so it resulted in a situation where they were fighting the other to command the conversation. It took more than a few reminders to convince them to settle down and regain focus. Diamond was quite embarrassed by the entire ordeal."

"Oof, yeah... I can see why."

You tried to picture being in Cater's shoes, sitting there while his sisters--giggly and superficial--vied to catch the eye of the alchemy professor. Heat rose to your face.

Poor Cater-senpai.

"... You needn't be concerned," Crewel quietly reassured you. "I had a talk with him afterwards to ensure he was well. Nothing significant came out of that encounter."

"Oh, that's good."

Crewel-sensei checked up on Cater-senpai when he suspected he might be embarrassed. Not only is Crewel-sensei handsome, but he's caring too!

"Has anyone else tried to hit on you...?" you inquired.

"There are many occasions when I am stopped in town or back in the Queendom and asked for my availability--perhaps because those environments are less restrictive and formal. I've also had the odd barista or bartender slipping me their numbers along with my drink order. Once, I received homemade cookies from an elderly woman who informed me that I reminded her of her late husband in his youth.

"When I'm out walking my pets, it seems to happen more often. And why wouldn't it? My dogs are the most handsome in all the world. It follows that they would be magnets for attention."

"Wow, Crewel-sensei... You're even more popular than I thought you were!" you gasped, bringing a hand to your mouth. "If you don't mind me asking, are you already taken?"

He has to be, right? With the number of people coming onto him, I'd be shocked if he hadn't already found someone!

"... You're really pushing it, pup," Crewel warned, tapping his pointer against an open palm.

There it was--his smile, both daring and dashing all at once. The smile that charmed countless, putting them under his spell.

"You ought to keep your nose where it belongs. A private matter like that stays between grown-ups."

[green-eyedfirework]

With your vault of death idea, I keep thinking of what if Rose getting hurt and then gang members attacking Dick happens more than once. Rose is barely scratched but Dick has a broken arm, and bruises all up his back, and a stitched wound on his leg, and, and. Being dragged to Slade isn’t surprising because the man had to lose patience sometime

Oof, poor Dickie being used as a punching bag. :rubs hands together in glee:

You know what would make it worse better? If Dick fails to catch Rose because of an existing injury. If his problems just keep compounding.

[deviousdeliciousness]

Tipped Off

Wuh-oh. Poor tiny guy gets caught by a giant of dubious morality ;D

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Kole dug his fingers into the thick skin of the giant's palm holding him far too high up in the air, shaking like a leaf.

He scooched as best he could into the center of the hand despite how much it terrified him to be in it in the first place. Anything was better than being close to the edge, to seeing the fatal drop-off only inches away from his shivering form.

The giant's fingers were flattened straight out, offering no stability or handholds for Kole to desperately clutch onto. He'd never felt so vulnerable, so exposed.

At his back, the human chuckled lowly, sending a warm gust of air against him that had the hairs against the back of his neck standing on end.

He swallowed convulsively, squeezing his eyes shut and hunching further into himself, wishing he could cross his arms over his chest in a poor imitation of a hug, desperate for comfort, but too terrified at the thought of taking his palms off the grounding support of his weak grip on the giant's skin.

Kole's eyes snapped back open wide as his world suddenly began to tilt.

As the palm beneath him began to tilt.

He frantically scrambled backwards as the giant's fingers tipped downwards and revealed the awaiting ground below. He felt himself sliding forwards, and a scream ripped free from his throat.

"No - please!" he pleaded, panic-struck, leaning backwards as far as he could to try to counteract the slant of the giant's palm. It wouldn't be enough - it already wasn't enough - and he could feel his grip slip. His heart leapt into his throat as he tumbled forwards and towards the awaiting precipice.

Only to be caught as, at the very last second, the giant's palm leveled back off, causing Kole to land against the being's thick, long fingers with a breath-expelling 'oof' and a choked off keen.

Over the edge of the tips of the human's fingers, the concrete ground so far below seemed to stare back up at him almost tauntingly, and a flashbulb picture of his body, bloody and broken, seared across his mind.

"Oops," the giant teased - teased - and Kole's shoulders rose to his ears as he scooted himself away from the edge once more. He ducked his head, and his lips trembled, his fingers white-knuckled where he once more had them clenched into the grooves of the human's skin.

He didn't want this. He didn't want to play this game. He didn't want to be played with like this was a game - like he was a game, or a thing to be played with. He didn't even know what this giant who had captured him wanted from him at all.

Did he want Kole to beg again? To cry and plead and debase himself for the chance at keeping himself alive?

Kole would do it. He would do anything as long as it meant he wouldn't be subjected to whatever horrible fate the giant could dole out to him as easy as anything. Wasn't that what the being had just done? Shown Kole how simple of a thing it would be to snuff out the borrower's puny, pointless existence?

Kole had never been caught by a human before, but he knew the stories. Even without them, it wasn't hard to imagine what a being so many times larger than him could do. Things even worse than just letting him go splat against the ground. Like step on him, or sit on him, or rip his limbs straight from his body without even exerting any strength, or bite him in half with its powerful jaws, or swallow his entire form whole, or crush him in the palm of its hand.

Kole shivered, fruitlessly attempting to dispel the thought as his awareness of where, exactly, he was in that moment seemed to hone in just that much more.

He just hoped the giant wouldn't keep him.

Perhaps any fate would be better than that.

Above him, there was a loud, impatient-sounding sigh, and Kole startled in shock upon realizing how long he must've been lost in his spiraling thoughts for, his muscles all at once tensing with renewed ferocity.

"You're no fun," the human complained, almost - almost disappointed-like, and Kole's blood froze solid with an unprecedented amount of dread. Dread that became warranted as the hand that had been holding him aloft, keeping him undisputedly as its prisoner but simultaneously, contrarily safe, was suddenly upturned.

The scream that tore its way out of Kole's throat was sharp and jagged as he went airborne, and in that instant he would've done anything to be back in the giant's hold.

Instead, he was free-falling to the cold, hard ground below him. The wind whistled in his ears offbeat from the blood pounding through his skull, his limbs splayed out at his sides as he desperately, uselessly, tried to slow his fatal descent.

The ground came closer and closer and closer, but Kole couldn't even force his gaze away from his imminent fate, his wind-stung eyes locked onto the rapidly approaching grey, flat ground.

It felt like both less than an instant and a million years had passed before something slammed into his side, and for a second Kole was too disorientated from the abrupt end to his fall to realize what had happened.

It was only as he blinked rapidly, feeling warmth seep into his terror-chilled bones from all around, that he realized.

The giant had caught him.

And all at once, it was too much.

His eyes abruptly welled with tears, and he was helpless to stop them. He opened his mouth to take in a desperately needed breath only to choke on a hiccuping sob.

He trembled violently, and it only worsened with every twitch of the human's monstrous fingers around him. Hot tears spilled over his pale cheeks, and he couldn't strangle the horrible-sounding whimpers that fell free from his twisted lips.

He barely had the presence of mind to hear the giant as it next spoke, and he might not have had its voice not been as overwhelmingly deep and reverberating as its kind's was known to be.

"I was just messing with you," it muttered, almost like it was uncomfortable with Kole's pathetic breakdown.

Kole didn't believe the human's words. Its actions were too careless, too cruel, to have been anything but malicious. He couldn't accept the thought that anyone - anything - with a single ounce of kindness, of compassion, in its heart would do such a thing.

The others had been right.

Humans were monsters, and a borrower's life meant nothing to them at all.

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poor bebe ;(

dumb dumb giant, where'd that big brain o' yours go??

[rosakuma]

DRDT EP 14 Thoughts(spoilers of course 😋)

I’m about to go insane

Okay for starters…..I’d like to apologize to the Hu nation and the Eden!cultprit truthers. To be fair, she was very sus before we clarified Nico’s murder attempt. To which damn Nico, I was trying to give you the benefit of the doubt only because it was strange how you held that wire, but it makes sense now knowing the reason. Man I feel awful for a lot of people here in this episode. Nico regrets trying to kill Ace even if they dislike him because he reminded them of the people who hurt Nico before(peers, teachers, and their father OOF). And now they gotta live with having “Almost murder” stuck to their name while also losing a potential friendship with Rose(we NicoRose shippers lost dang it). Poor Rose feeling guilty of her memory being out of shape(the poor girl is traumatized by remembering the clear deaths, I don’t blame her) and getting blames for it. But thank goodness my goat/best girl Teruko with some good old character development came in and reassured Rose that she is useful and it’s not her fault(Us TerukoXRoss shippers fricken WON!). David while still being an ass that I hate(albeit now feel more sympathetic towards) I feel bad for witnessing Arei’s body first….god no wonder why he’s so mad at the killer, I’m pissed at them too. And then there’s Ace….this episode turn me into the 1# Ace Markey defender. My poor man has been suffering this chapter and things keep getting worse for him. He pushes everyone away thanks to his paranoia, has a eating disorder no one notices which is hurting him, was ALMOST MURDERED with no one worried about him(hell Hu fricken defended his potential murder rather than reprimanding them!), and worse of all, the one person he thought who cared about him in this terrible place admitted he doesn’t care if he lives or dies….oh and now he’s being accused of killing Arei. F*ck Ace’s life is so tragic. Oh yeah speaking of the killer. EDEN HOW DARE YOU, I BELIEVED IN YOU!! She is 100% the murder and it makes me so sad and sick seeing how well she’s able to make Teruko take her side. She even hugged her like Min did(I am going to be sick). I will say, Arei would respect the hustle and manipulation though. Well done Eden, you impressed your would’ve been bestie. I might make another post about why Ace can’t be the killer unless someone beats me to it, but yeah it’s Eden. No way Ace is the killer and it sucks how David despite revealing his true colors is still able to manipulate everyone(bro gonna out do Kokichi Ouma man).

[anony-man]

Chubformers drabble #149!

Character: Starscream (ES)

Word count: 1.3k

Frag G.H.O.S.T. and its claim of building a safer, friendlier world. Frag the operation to Unicron and back, and its gang of allies, too. Frag them, frag them all, and good riddance, as the humans would say.

Starscream knew a trap when he saw one, and in a place like that, he knew only bad things could follow. He knew the signs, the lures, the tantalizing offer of freedom and a taste of something better. He wasn’t a fool, no matter what Megatron seemed to think, and he certainly hadn’t just come online yesterday.

Though his spark still pounded and his helm still spun at the very thought of being trapped in that place again, the flier allowed himself a chance to rest and relax a little. It was hard to turn his processor off when it had worked itself up so badly, but things were over now, and with that in mind, he had slowly begun coming down from the terror of it all. The threat of impending danger and government officials spilling from the tree line was ever present in his racing processor, and he could already tell it would remain so for some time… still, Starscream also knew that he needed to calm himself down before something unpleasant followed.

Both Nova Storm and Skywarp slept fitfully nearby, the two fliers lying tangled together against the cool grass under the cover of a maple tree. Having exhausted themselves from the events of the day, they remained deep in recharge and blissfully unaware of the tizzy their third companion had worked himself into. Thank Primus, Starscream thought as he crouched close beside and reached into his subspace. He didn’t need them getting worked up, too.

With careful, quiet movements and bated breath, Starscream slid one cube after another from the extra space in his cockpit. Frag G.H.O.S.T. and its so-called promising operation, he thought to himself as he shoved cubes of fuel into the laps of the sleeping seekers and stacked a pile for himself to eat. He’d been to the other side by then and did not at all like what he had seen.

“Stay here,” he said to no one in particular, all while hoping that by some miracle the two snoozing seekers would somehow hear him. “Don’t get caught and don’t run off. I’ll be back in a few, all right?”

As expected, there was no reply. Starscream sighed and internally facepalmed at how motherly he’d become since reuniting with the two other bots, then rose to his pedes with his share of the fuel in his arms and crept off into the trees.

G.H.O.S.T. had been a cold, hard place for bots like him, and taking his fair share of fuel on his way out the door was only one way the vengeful seeker was looking to get back at the organization. As the sun set, and the day came to an end, he found his resolve weakening and his strength waning… and Primus, was he hungry.

Though waking his companions was something he was desperate to avoid, Starscream hadn’t managed to get very far away from their temporary setup before his trembling legs buckled underneath him. He hit the ground with a painful oof!, the impact sending cubes of energon he had precariously stacked flying in all different directions.

“Scrap,” he hissed under his breath as he rose to all fours and reached a trembling servo out to the nearest discarded cube. “Those idiots…—ugh.”

How pathetic this must have looked from an outside perspective, Starscream thought bitterly as he sat back on his aft and tore the lid free from the first cube. He was left high-wired and anxious, exhausted and starved, and it was all thanks to G.H.O.S.T. The poor seekers who’d fallen dead on their pedes from the strain of escaping weren’t much better off, and he was all the more angry because of it.

Frag G.H.O.S.T. and its filthy operation. Starscream wished desperately to one day have a better opportunity given for sweeter revenge, but right now, he was plenty satisfied with making it out of there alive. That and the weeks worth of fuel he’d managed to smuggle for him and his two companions, of course. G.H.O.S.T. may have gotten him first, but he was intent on getting the last laugh.

He would have never admitted it, but as he began to drink, Starscream almost felt relieved Nova Storm and Skywarp had passed out before getting to the fuel he’d stolen. He could only imagine what a sight he made as he sat there, guzzling cube after cube and suckling the residual fuel that dribbled down his chin off the tips of his fingers. G.H.O.S.T. had left him a wounded, starving animal, but Starscream was finally beginning to right this once again. His appetite was fierce, and his processor was a mess, but each cube of fuel he lifted to his lips and chugged down seemed to make his problems disappear.

Starscream chugged one cube after another, his focus having moved solely to filling the ache in his gut. He was starved in the system, and stifled by their barriers, but now that he was free once again, he could do as he pleased—so he did. One cube became two, and two became three, and before he knew it, the stockpiled stash of energon stolen right from under their noses had become a pile of empty containers tossed aside and licked clean.

Some time had passed between falling to his knees amongst the trees and becoming engulfed in the raging hunger that drove him to eat and eat and eat, but when Starscream came back to his senses, it was to sticky fingers, slack-jawed panting breaths, and a bulging belly that curved beneath the glass of his cockpit.

Starscream closed his optics and grimaced, his callback to reality dawning slowly. As the ache in his belly gradually increased, leaving behind the bittersweet taste of stale energon rations handed out to all the ex-Cons such as himself, he forced his processor to slow its racing and took in a series of deep, steady intakes. The trees rustled against the wind, and somewhere in the distance he could hear the faint sounds of wildlife, but no signs of any curious or concerned seekers were to be found.

Good. They’d slept through most of the night and the appeasement of his ravenous appetite. He couldn’t ask for much more, really.

With his belly aching all the more by the second and the crash that followed an intense and stressful day like the one he had had, Starscream could feel his frame threatening to shut down on him. He was exhausted now, his bare needs having been met, and all he craved from here on out was a good bit of recharge in close proximity of the other seekers. He tried to stand, but his belly protested, a threatening gurgle emitting from its pit in response to his daring attempt at moving.

“Of course,” he muttered aloud, one servo falling back against the grass while the other circled the dome of strained, bloated mesh. “The one night I indulge again and it backfires. Why should I be surprised…”

Well, he supposed he’d at least gotten a chance to eat by now. Besides, Nova Storm and Skywarp weren’t far off; if something were to happen, he’d know.

Disregarding the fact that his stuffed tanks had already made the decision for him, Starscream slumped back against the grass with an audible huff. His optics were closing before he’d so much as folded his servos over his grumbling middle, and by the time he’d found a rhythm to awkwardly soothing his bellyache, he was already drifting off into recharge himself.

The clearing was a mess of empty cubes and a bloated, sleeping seeker, and that much would be found by Starscream’s two sleepy companions come morning. In the meantime, he was content to sleep through the worst of his bellyache… because after all, he didn’t have much of a choice.

[rakkuntoast]

what sort of consequences does the radiation have on Sneeg besides glow stick and amnesia?? does the feds or the watcher remember the purgatory 2 participants that disappeared and went "should we look into that or"?? if he gets shaken hard enough in a jar will he glow more?

poor rose working overtime to fix the environmental damage Sneeg is causing by existing. Does Phil get infected as well due to exposure?? I know rose is trying her best to limit it but they're still spending everyday together

the details about sneeg keeping items that reminds him of osmp. MY HEART. also what sort of reenactments? Is it like scenes from stories specifically with o!Phil or when bugza and Sneeg spent time together?

also love the graph. bugza has funky powers and I hope he gets to use it for evil (giving everyone weird dreams). if bugza and q!Phil ender are the same, does that mean they share rose and the other gods as well?? did rose use bugza as a way to communicate with q!Phil like heads up theres a weird man stalking your ass

it's sad that o!Phil and q!Phil never met but I wonder if they did what kind of team up they would do especially with the whole possession thing

oof, poor o!Phil, man literally used as a conduit just to contact q!Phil is ROUGH and then dying cuz of it is rough. I hope Sneeg and bugza gets to kill him and avenge o!Phil, and if they fought ender, would he be using o!Phil's body??

incredibly fun for me to keep asking questions I love prying into how the world and characters work. sorry about the essay assignment each ask though whoops?

Don't apologize about that lmao, I love writing about it I'm just not thrilled when I have to do it on my phone

And I guess keeping him alive could be considered a consequence of radiation? he is mutated from the pools of toxic waste and that's what keeps him going, for sneeg it's playing with the balance of if you take too much he will die but if you don't he will keep being this amnesiac guy who is aggressive to the people he doesn't recognize (also we cannot ignore the huge hole he has in his chest)

No I don't think they do remember but I do think they kept records from the quarantine zones found in purgatory island

Yes he will glow more

Bugza doesn't get infected by radiation persay but he does get one or other side effects from being exposed too much to it, he mostly gets really tired when he's been exposed for too long but by far he hasn't had more side effect,maybe because the amount of gold he consumes on the daily is helping with keeping that at bay (I had to research about how gold reacts with radiation for this)

Bugza does reenact the moments he's had with sneeg, but when it comes to memories with ophil he rather just tells sneeg about it hoping he can remember some of them, I don't think bugza would be comfortable acting as someone he's not even for his best friend

And yeah they do share deities, they are still sort of the same guy. although rose didn't use bugza as a means to communicate with qphil. In comparison with the endeking, rose is not a sore loser who's trying and failing miserably to regain her power back <3 (I also like to believe the deities are sort of omnipresent except for ocean, he's just vibing)

Ophil and qphil would bully ender to death, having one bird being a shit to you even when he's losing its annoying enough, now imagine having two and the later is worse cuz it has a superiority complex

Ender wouldn't use ophil to fight, at least not physical fights cuz he does suck at them (shout out Chayanne btw)

[jakkon-and-rose-topic]

Cw: Mentions to graphic... sickness, blood, shaking, withdrawals in general, stuff like that, Swearing

By agonizing withdrawals, I mean agonizing. Be warned

(Please leave comments I love reading them, even if it's just a simple oof or F in the chat for this poor man - No he isn't dead)

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Jakkon stumbled and leaned heavily against the wall with a soft groan. He needed something, anything. It hurt. It hurt far worse than he'd expected. The Satyr gasped through his teeth, breaths shuddering with every movement as his throat tightened and his lungs shattered in his ribs.

He held onto the rock as best as he could, other hand gripping the fabric of his shirt over his chest as pain pulsed like a fiery heart beneath his skin. “Shit…” Jakkon looked up, gritting his teeth as he tried to level his ragged breaths. He needed to see the others. If not, they might suspect something was wrong. He needed to piece it back together and stand up straight. He could do that. He could handle pain. He could ignore it. He'd done it plenty of times before to fool Rose out of burning herself out. He could do it again.

Jakkon shook the hair out of his face and steadied himself. He managed a level step and quiet breaths, but he funneled all of his efforts into staying upright and could hardly find the control to keep his hands from shaking. A tugging dread crawled through his mind as his fake optimism began to crumble. What if he couldn't do this? What if it killed him? What if he hurt someone?

The Satyr shook his head as he forced an uneven smile and directed his attention to appearing fine. But despite all of his efforts, his heart raced and his focus slipped away. He stepped into the doorway of the main cavern and hesitated.

But before he could rethink his decision, Rose waved with a smile. “Good morning Horns!”

“Morning.” He nodded to her, slipping his hands behind his back as he trotted over and sat down beside her.

“Are you alright? You're awake later than usual.” The Fae raised an eyebrow.

“I’m alright. I will be. Do you have any tea, water, or something like that?”

Rose stopped for a moment, but Morena smiled at him from beyond her. “I do. Would you like some tea?”

“Yes please.” The Satyr smiled gratefully, finally able to let go of the concentration and effort it took to stand, hoping desperately that if he had something to drink, it might loosen the claws of pain digging into his skin from every angle.

“Here.” Morena smiled warmly as she pushed a cup of tea toward him.

The Satyr lifted the cup to his lips as gently as he could. It didn’t help as much as he’d hoped, but it did enough, taking his mind off of the pain for a moment. But the relief only lasted for a moment, as a sudden stab of new agony shot through his shoulder and an intense wave of nausea hit him like a rock.

He flinched, pulling back from the table. “Ah…F- I… I should go.”

“What? Horns! Horns are you okay?” Rose stood quickly.

Jakkon groaned in pain. “Yes… I’m… Fuck, ow, no! No, I’m not okay. Shit…”

Rose’s eyes widened and she started to move toward him, but worry sparked into his eyes as he noticed Rose’s desperate terror and instinctively pulled back to avoid hurting her, standing suddenly in an attempt to back away further. But the sudden motion finally snapped the last string holding him upright and he collapsed against the table, shaking.

“Shit! Fuck! Morena! Get Finn!” Rose tensed, vaulting over the table as Jakkon’s body shrank in on itself and fell to the ground, leaving him to convulse on the stone floor, as Rose began to panic, searching for something to do.

But as she froze, he coughed, blood beginning to foam from his mouth as his body began to shake and jerk violently. “Shit, shit, shit, shit, shit!” Rose began to hyperventilate as she ripped the coat from her shoulders and shoved it under his head as a hope that it would help prevent any damage from the stones beneath him as her wings flapped and bright orange Roses rained petals so thick it covered both of them. His hands twitched, fingers gripping at nothing in the air as his entire body tensed and shook with him.

Finn and Morena rushed back into the room. Finn lunged for Rose, eyes widening in horror as he caught a glimpse of what was going on. The harpy pulled her back into the hallway, away from what was going on. Rose resisted his hold, screaming and clawing at his arms as she shrieked for her brother-in-law, terrified beyond anything she’d ever felt before.

Finn closed his eyes, trying to shut out Rose's desperate screams as her nails dug into his skin, just like Jakkon when Eveny had died. Fighting and screaming with all his will to save her, now Rose for him. Though she didn't fight like he had. She fought for her brother, for the last thing she had left.

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[comfortmechsforverystablepeople]

End of relationship comfort

I am sorry but I'm not comfortable enough to write about anyone else than the mechs. Simply because I don't have a clear vision of who the other characters are. The only one I tried so far is Briar Rose and I'm not even sure if it's what I want her to be...

But I hope you still like it!

@yourlocalmechanism-dr-carmilla

Jonny

Jonny would probably try to cheer you up by putting down the one who dumped you. Who do they think they are? You are more than great, they just don't know what they loss, what a fool!

Don't let them get at you. You should swear revenge and live your best life out of spite! Now let's break some stuff so you can feel better.

Nastya

Don't listen to Jonny. What does he know about relationship? You should listen to her. After all, she is the only one with Aurora who has a true long term relationship aboard.

Love, even the platonic type, is messy and unpredictable. Especially between organic beings like you. There are thousands of reason to explain what had happened, but no need to blame yourself for it. You weren't compatible, it's better that everything stop to avoid wasting time an energy.

She would probably help you keep your mind occupy with fixing Aurora with her so you wouldn't think about it.

Ashes

Ashes would agree with Jonny and Nastya, but only partially. Yes, you are great and it's a shame your relationship fall out this much. Yes, it's better to break up instead of dragging the relationship until one of you explode.

But those two have the emotionnal capacity of tea spoons. Yes. Even Nastya.

Look, it will hurt for a while. And maybe it will keep hurting when you will think about it. But it's not the end. Not the end of the world, not the end of your relationships, and not the end of you. You will find someone special at some point, but you need to keep moving.

Want to burn stuff with them? It's warm and pretty, very comforting.

Ivy

Ivy isn't great at relationship. She aboards a lot of unpredictability by calculating statistics and odds, which isn't the best thing to do, mind you. Her only significative relationships - other than with books - are with the mechs, maybe she could tell you stories about them?

Because it's not because she struggles with relationships, crushes, squishes, and other stuff... that she doesn't love reading about it! If you need any feel good story to cheer you up, you will find it in her archives.

Brian

You poor thing! Do you need a hug? His body temperature is optimal for a hug right now.

Brian is a great listener and won't judge you no matter what. He knows how hard it can be to be let down by someone you consider important, it's not the time for that. It's only time for comfort.

Toy Soldier

Toy Soldier is confused but has the spirit. It is used to pretend to love people, in any way, until it's true. Why wouldn’t this person continue to pretend until it works?

What do you mean it is not healthy? Well... It has to admit it did a few things it is not proud of just to be able to stop pretending loving someone...

Then maybe it is a good thing you broke! Right? Maybe you will to explain it more in details your situation...

Tim

Oof. Big oof. He knows how it is, how it feels. Maybe Nastya likes to pretend she is the only one capable to talk about deep attachement, but she is not the one who went on a rampage in the middle of a war for someone.

Look. It won't go away. It will always be there. But it will get better, maybe it will only sting a little for a while, but it will be there.

You need to go foward, to continue to live. You own yourself that much at least. And if you stop, then you will miss a lot of new wonderful people!

... alright. Maybe the mechs aren't the best example. But you know what he means!

Raphaella

Love is a chemical reaction in your brain which helps to keep you happy and to reproduce. Do you want her to stop it?

Sure, maybe you will never feel love ever again. And not just the romantic one like a lot of people think it's the only type. But also friends, family, best friend, squish...

But oh well! At least you will not be in pain again! Or maybe you will be very dull and melancolic... But it's worth it? Right?

No, she is totally not trying to experiment on you. Not at all!

Marius

Is it the right time for therapy or...

Well, you are the one choosing here, you are in control! Maybe you just want to distract youself. He can do that too! He is a great distraction.

Do you want to play videogames? Board games? D&D? He can convince the others to join (with blackmailing). It could help you to see how great you are!

Aurora

Aurora can't imagine how bad you are feeling right now, she's deeply concerned about you. And she would do anything to keep you safe. She would litterally electrocute anyone who would make fun of you.

She will also make sure you feel included in the crew, even if you don't want to interact with anyone at the moment, by showing her cameras' feeds of what everyone is up to. And also by showing her blackmailing material because no one is perfect!

Scuzz

What is their name? Come on. It's just curiosity.

Mh? Why are they holding a list of names with some of them crossed? Nothing to worry your pretty head with, they are just... protecting family.

Come on, go have fun, they will... handle the sitaution.

Carmilla

Oh that's terrible! And she can relate... Don't worry, she is here for you. You can ask anything and she will give to you! Hugs, attention, affection, snacks, games, books, diamonds... you name it! Because you deserve it.

She will tell you stories about her adventures all over the cosmos, about the countless relationship with mortals she had, about how people reacts to her vampirism... You are not alone in this, far from it.

Lyfrassir

They aren't sure how to react. They had already troubles to understand his own feelings, so the ones of someone else... But for you, they will try!

Maybe they will tell you funny stories about the office gossips he heard as an inspector. Office dramas are great to understand people and their relationships between them, right?

And if you are extra-sad, they will let you play with his rainbow hair. It has a very beautiful way to catch the light and it's very smooth, and soothing.

[chartmyfixations]

cris watches dr. who: s02e04 - "The Girl in the Fireplace"

"What's a horse doing on a spaceship?" "Mickey, what's Pre-Revolutionary France doing on a spaceship? Get a little perspective!"

"He's the only man I ever loved, don't look at me like that." Poor lad. The Doctor does have this effect on people, doesn't he?

Aw. Rose sharing her universe with Mickey is adorable

Space Age Clockwork is such a cool theme to design around! It really works: the contrast between the clock, the fireplace and the foppish robots on the one hand and the cool stark blue of the spaceship on the other. Pretty pretty

The word "Don't" really doesn't work on Rose

I've had it with these motherfucking horses on this motherfucking spaceship

Oof. That is one gummy ass heart

I knew nothing of Madame de Pompadour as a historical figure, so this whole episode is an eye-opening delight

Also a fan that the locale (for once) is France rather than somewhere in England

"Why can't I keep the horse? I let you keep Mickey!" Hee

Dang. The Doctor has surprise telepathy?

Dang². Reinette has a surprise knack for reverse!telepathy? It's nice, watching the Doctor experience that terrifying moment where you realize you like someone and they see you and you want to be known but also being known by that person is the most terrifying thing ever

I like how the Doctor assumes the telepathic connection works one way but it is quickly revealed that it works both ways. Hey, just like the fireplace

Wow, I'm really good at literary analysis

Poor Ms. Fish, stepping from that beautiful lush Versailles into a Power Rangers set

Hey, I also wore white All Stars in the zeroes!

Mdm. Pompadour's last letter -- I'm not crying, you're crying

So, why were the robots waiting for Ms. Pompadour to be 'done'? Was it her intelligence? Her telepathic prowess?

Aw, the ship is bearing her name. As their last resort, they saw her as their solution. That's... kind of sad. The robots were so desperately trying to find a way out within their limitless means, not realizing they had destroyed their underlying purpose (Fix the ship should obviously lead to saving the crew) in the process. It kind of reminds of the Can't Help Myself-robot.)

8 out of 8 Tardes. Beautiful episode with a cool, innovative plot. +1 for the inclusion of Mdm. Pompadour and her amazing actress

[wetcatspellcaster]

"Angry lesbian" had me in tears 😂

This chapter had been heartbreaking. Poor Astarion. I want to hug him, with consent. While reading the part of what Cazador made him do in this fic and how public reacted, I remembered Gossip by Maneskin. Like, the celebrity culture is ridiculous as it is, but mixing in someone like Cazador to be the kinda monopolist of it... Oof. (Disney, I'm looking at you too)

I'm also was reminded of This is Us, a bit. I watched the show long time ago now, but yeah. That "pretty face, perfect body, don't you talk smart, you are not here for it", and all the confidence problems. Please don't get offended, I'm just connecting the dots to imagine how Astarion's healing may go. He is doing a fair enough job, thanks to Wyll mostly as I understand.

Also. The internalised homophobia. Is it there? Because I can smell it. With him assuming Rose is lesbian, and not really caring about representation, and like yeah, not everyone does, but. Oooh so much trauma. Sign him up for therapy, Wyll. Please.

I can imagine Wyll once tugging Astarion alone to one of the parties Karlach throws, and then him and Rose both accidentally hiding in the bathroom for some reset and quiet time.

Their messaging was so cute. And I assumed Rose was keeping it professional, as not answering work emails on her days off, but I guess I forgot who she truly is. Can't wait to read what they were up to.

So, is the apartment Rose visited in the apartment Astarion lives? I got confused about the printer being one of the few pieces of furniture there. Or is it just his own furniture that there is little of? Poor baby will have to start as a student who just moved out. And with his taste, it will be expensive. Unless he finds a sugar mummy Rosalie, but that'll come in ten years (probably), and I hope he will smarten up until then.

I was laughing at Astarion reading the books and taking in the multi syllabic words. I could imagine his Intelligence scale going 9.1, 9.2, 9.3 all the time.

It's hilarious and bittersweet how he thinks Rose is adapt when we all read and felt how anxious she was. And how she thought him so cold and collected, when Astarion is literally on the brink of breakdown over his career. The masks are on point.

And just how well you adapted game Astarion to this AU Astarion. He is just as haughty and just the same menace he was in game, but wrapped in more shiny (if that's possible) package. And the nods to the vampirism, even when he is not a vampire here. The hat, the love of sunlight, the shitty food, the insomnia! I've been screaming, even if that was incidental connections.

I can so imagine Astarion not reading type. He just isn't. He is too busy with other... Stuff. So hope Rose will show him the world. Of library. (Oh no, now I remember what Rose got up at libraries, and oof. Hot)

I can imagine it will take time for Astarion to trust her, and open up, since they barely know each other. It will be such a fun journey, I'm sure you will write it masterfully as always, and we will enjoy it immensely!

And the podcast part (that orcish woman - hot), and the book - "the soup" I bet was fun to write. And I'm with Astarion - I would've listened to Rosalie talk about everything for days. She is so expressive and clearly interested in the subject, that it will be very entertaining and educational. I wish she had been my history professor, because I would've enjoyed the lectures much more than I ever did, and now I'll learning history by myself. So I can understand Astarion's perspective at "oh shit, this person who was so glorified is actually not only ugly AF, but also a horrible horrible person"

Thank you so much for this chapter! It's a nice cozy reading for a dreary raining day!

hi anon! thanks for such a detailed message. i'm glad you're enjoying the fic :) tried to answer your question below!

I've never seen This Is Us, so I can't really be offended lol. If this turns out to be another Bojack Horseman moment where i find out my plot has affinities to shows I've never seen then, hurrah! there really are 7 basic plots in the world. (a lot of the inspiration was mostly from webtoons, kdrama, and - as always - buffy).

about internalised homophobia, I mean... there's a difference between internalised homophobia, and having a sense of belonging/community when being gay. lots of people are queer without it being political, or they 'keep politics out of it' - unless in this case, where it serves a narrative. i don't think it's homophobia, so much as not finding that belonging with anybody, right now. this astarion has no community, and also a great degree of privilege, so why would he care to engage or empathise with strangers he doesn't know? i was just using it as a way to stress his feelings of isolation, the same that in the first act of the game he is performing a social script without really feeling anything other than survival, and how he is also alienated from himself. if you don't feel good about yourself and you also don't have a support network, then why would you be openly vulnerable about any kind of queer experience, especially when it's overlapped with a degree of abuse, especially when you're learning to wield an insincere version of it as a new weapon?

...maybe when he has friends...

as for the 'angry lesbian' joke, we'll get round to why he is assuming that in the next chapter, and the answers is funnier than you think

the apartment Rosalie visited is where he lives. if you imagine an airbnb, an airbnb wouldn't have a printer. one of the few things he's had to buy outside of essentials, is all i meant. bc he doesn't really have anything he needs to buy right now.

all vampirism references/transformations are deliberate :) and parties incoming x

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DOCTOR WHO LIVEBLOG S4 EP11

Finally some Doctor Who free from academic stress, and just in time for emotional stress of the last few episodes in a season! Huzzah!

Ooh funny culture clash there

That looks fun

They're so besties

Don't break the number one rule Donna

Ooh I'd take a free future telling

Okay that was an ominous look

Tells her literally everything

Ooh is she gonna make a different time-line or something

This is creepy

Oof changed history there damn I don't see how this is gonna go

Ooh Billie Piper is in the credits yay!!!

Ooh she gets to go to a Christmas party

This is one hell of an alternate timeline

Ooh one of her friends has the Sight tm lol

OMG WHAT HE SUCCEEDED IN FRICKIN COMMITING SUICIDE DAMN we all know that's what would have happened if Donna wasn't there

HELLO ROSE

Wrong Wrong

Oh poor Donna

Oh damn if the doctor's dead nothing fixes it all oh dear

Oh fuck Martha's dead in this timeline

This is a depressing timeline

SARAH JANE MY HEART CANNOT HANDLE ANY OF THIS AAAHHH

Damn hello Rose again

I love Wilf so much

Oh shit the Queen's dead there now too

Oh shit

Damn this is really depressing uta making me really really sad

Oh Donna

Charming place

Oh the fat blobs

This is really sad my heart was not prepared at all I'm gonna cry

Bohemian Rhapsody!!

Little band of fighters? What little band?

TORCHWOOD aw they're all dead though fuck

This is breaking my heart

Girlie!! Girlie don't just matter-of-factly state that she's gonna die

Oh fuck labour camps that's what they called them before

Oh Wilf oh Donna

Oh her mum oh

Y'all this is physically hurting me

Don't agree that she's a disappointment gurl

Aww he still has his telescope

THE STARS ARE GOING OUT HOLY FUCK

Oh Donna hello Rose

THE TARDIS

Suddenly closes her mouth I love Donna

Oh that's a large alien beetle

Oh poor Donna

THIS glass of water is to combat DEHYDRATION

Oh Donna

People are gonna think you're crazy girl

Run girl run!!!

Two Words!?

Awww Doctor

HUG

YES YOU ARE YOURE BRILLIANT WHT was that voice it was so funny

BAD WOLF

HOLY HELL

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Name:

Ashley. You can call me that, but you can also call me Ash, Ashie or Trashley; I got this one from my friends from my former school, but you can also call me that. They thought it's funny so did I hehe.

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A bit later than 15:30 in my timezone

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Nirvana, Sex Pistols, The Ramones, The Scorpions, Black Sabbath, Weezer, Rammstein, Guns n' Roses, Green Day, Prljavo Kazaliste, Let 3, Termiti, Brkovi, The Kinks, The Beatles

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Last Movie:

The last movie I watched is Paddington. Okay I really love this movie and it's characters and I could literally relate to that little bear. When I was new in school I thought I was a complete stranger for some reason, and I still try to fit in just like he tried to fit in London, but we both did try and it was worth it

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Last show:

I have no idea which is the last show I watched, but it might be the Cuphead Show from Netflix which I watched few months ago? I really enjoyed that show because I am a big fan of 1930's cartoons, but this one was made in modern times, but it is still kinda accurate. I don't watch series that much tho-

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When did I create this blog:

Oof...I have no idea- at first it was my primarly art acc, but then during the World Cup I decided to be a Livi fanpage because I was kinda not sure if I really want to share anything about football, but I did it anyway and I am very proud hehehe

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@nikitatheweasel2 my art acc!

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Of course! Sometimes art requests about 100 faces of Croatia NT, few asks, mostly appreciations from mutals and friends which I am very VERY grateful! Ily guys sm! <3

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Lovely people that I very much appreciate! Every single one of you equally :>

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As an insomniac person I get 0 hours of sleep, but I do have to take sleeping pills so yeah my average hours might roll from 6 to 8. It depends if my dog manages to wake me up early in the morning, so yeah

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I'm currently playing bass guitar and I am actually doing pretty well. I am a self taught guitarist, so it is already easier for me to play it, buuuut for my fingers...oh well...they do become blue when I stop playing because of the strings

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I am still wearing my Livi T-shirt that I bought from Dinamo fanshop when I was in Zagreb (it's my new favorite shirt) and some black short leggins because it's HOT outside

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Dream Job:

Omg. Wildlife Rehabilitator. I love animals so much and I always wanted to help some poor creature that needs it. They sure will have to spend some time in captivity, but my favorite part will be releasing them to their wild lives once they get better. I can also take care of sick and orphaned animals, but I do have to be careful to not get infected with illness or if I have to take care of predatory birds, I have to make sure they don't hurt me

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Dream Trip:

You ask a person who has a lot of dream destinations, but okay I'll tell you some of my dream trips:

Perth - Australia

St Peteryburg - Russia

Dubai - UAE

Detroit, Michigan - USA

Vancouver - Canada

Zagreb - Croatia (Yes I want to visit this wonderful city again sometime)

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so impossible planet/satan pit... so.... s O... SO THE THING IS

the thing is they're possibly my favourite in all of doctor who?? maybe???? on a. spiritual. and also intellectual level. they're not necessarily going to make me cry the hardest, but they're. beautiful beautiful episodes

oof. so good. so so good. some of the best music to ever come out of a single-episode (double-episode), themes that go so hard into the kind of wonderfully philosophical religious questions that I gobble up + that event horizon/alien/the thing type aesthetic, not...gory ofc, this is still rated as suitable for kids, but my goodness the tension, the particular kind of horror it leans into in lieu of straightup grotesquery, the way "the devil" dialogue was written and performed. and then rose taking charge and making sure everyone left (sans poor jefferson... and toby, but toby was already dead) made it out. the trust between rose and the doctor in this one is Peak!

"if I believe in one thing. just one. I believe in her!" fuck you spooky horned guy!!!

and then to top it off it introduced the ood!!! my favourite darlings of the nu!who alien roster. these episodes blew my mind as a kid, and while I'm not Scared scared by them anymore (having watched them a dozen times), I can still feel that tension throughout

and that ending!!!!! apparently the last thing billie piper filmed was that ending, and it's always made me so emotional. I don't know if it's that s2 is just emotional to me, or that there genuinely is this buildup (but it feels like there is), when the doctor and rose aren't together this season, it hits harder -- girl in the fireplace and satan pit both play with this idea of them being torn from one another (funnily enough, with the doctor being the one who's gone into someplace and unable to return)

I also appreciate the restraint to not bring back this being for a future episode in order to explore it more. considering the fate of many a who-villain is to be prodded at into unrecognisability, thank you for letting this one (and the one from midnight) remain unknowable

I note a tiny bit of the score was lifted from s1 dalek, which makes me draw parallels of a kind between the two, even though I'm sure that's not intended, it's just a banging bit of music that never appears again. bit where the dalek reveals itself and tells rose to order it to die and it lifts into its crescendo, that's the one that comes several times in especially satan pit, notably when the doctor and rose reunite. stuff of legends indeed. the violin in this one is just. it's too good. it's something doctor who ought to be appreciated for more -- although it is to an extent as a whole, but the individual episode themes are often fucking killer, and this one is the most so

and at the end they start reading off the ood who were killed (all of them) out of respect. the way this theme is picked up again in s4, I just! stellar, perfect, wonderful, no notes, Music, spooks, aliens, emotions, thematic follow-through, knowing that the doctor and rose are soon going to be torn apart leaving the doctor a shell (until donna) but for now he's grinning and laughing without restraint at rose (well the both of them) making it out alive, fuck yeah!