#ooc: Not a Starter

[raynerwilde-kjrp]

CROSSROADS: a work by Rayner Wilde

NOTE BEFORE READING: CONTENT WARNING: Death, blood, suicide, depressive imagery with hints of gallows humour

This is the work Rayner has been writing over the past few days. Rayner is naturally critical and feels a lot of anger and despair in this moment. Please be advised his writing and beliefs are not a reflection of my own.

The stars are dying out. I can see it every night, the patterns have Altered, death knell from light fading From our eyes and souls, sucking us into oblivion. Infinite black holes Grasping our desires until We’re bled dry. Counting the sand grits under my fingers to distract me. My legs and back ache from the heat from the rocks from the movement

from the shooting. I’ve been hiding but at what cost?

Here’s my crossroad, but one side is blocked off. Barricade, Where do I go? How do I act? I have no stars to guide me and no review process to aid my Understanding. Empty but aware, aware of the Obliviousness within I and the chemicals.

This is not a nature poem.

Hiding from the war from the losses from the love, let night not see my blackest desires so they fade without knowledge.

A destruction of society. Scratch that– a deconstruction of our society. Maybe that’s what needed, what’s more necessary: rebirth or deconstruction? I watch you wilt and shrivel as I tried to help you, Stoichiometry into the night to balance Life’s chemical equation to create equilibrium, but what I found was only a decomposition. Too much radiation leading to carbon dioxide without Enough oxygen, unbalance. The crossroad is my apocalyptic report, One side blocked off, can I destroy the barrier? Will you let me? This self-destruction, I hope, hasn’t completely stained my hands with black and red.

Welcome to the anthropocene, misfit chaos leads to disgust at oneself. Becoming turned foul Through radioactive counters and Sadistic rebels in the same of a Sadistic dystopia. Perhaps Orwell and Wells were both wrong: how many times have you heard the “leader” threaten to Murder your friends? Welcome to the apocalypse, allow me to show you how we kill ourselves

with Ignorance mislabelled as Bliss for the sake of so-called freedom and resistance, and war crimes have become just the average day of living. Is this a crossroad anymore? Or have we destroyed the opportunity to choose? Removal from this madness means the black and white eyes continue to laugh at our own failing. 

we die badly always public and graceless

But we keep going… But we keep struggling And pushing forward And walking towards the crossroad And questioning

And fighting

And dying And wondering And dreaming

Will this ever end?

This is not a nature poem

I trudge on Without you, With tunnel vision As I read your note over And over And over, trying to find My own flaws. It was stupid of me to think I stood a chance, and yet I let myself fall into the stupid ideas as always. I’m holding all my ambiguity and emotions together. Bottling them up so I learn from these mistakes. I don’t wish it to be a mistake, no; it’s

not a mistake. 

If it was a mistake I could deconstruct it, lay it out for all to see and use against me, break it down to it’s basic formulas. 

Welcome to the anthropocentric apocalypse, where interstellar innocence is astonishing and rare like the dreams of seeing the stars in clarity through the radioactive atmosphere. If I see the stars again, I’ll think of you, and maybe this crossroad will gain two paths again.

Works Consulted

Abel, Jordan. The Place of Scraps. Talonbooks, 2013. 

Brand, Dionne. Nomenclature: New and Collected Poems. McClelland and Stewart, 2022. 

Major, Alice. Welcome to the Anthropocene. University of Alberta Press, 2018.

Pico, Tommy. Nature Poem. Tin House, 2017.

[starlighthome74]

The Book

{Ever since Nibblenepphim visited the other night, Kik has found it increasingly obvious that something is different with the Black Book. It isn't responding very well to them anymore, mixing up its own pages and obscuring texts as if refusing to be read. The translation was taking longer than ever, and Katherine felt the pressure from their father to get it done.

And what's worse: They had barely heard from the Lords recently. They couldn't really feel their influence.

What an awful week.

Leaning back in their old wooden chair, the teen tries to reach for any of the Lords with their mind. Sighing, their eyes look to the ceiling, then close. In their mind, they recite the names, hoping that they are still connected.}

@thesiblingsoftheblackandwhite

[prof-cypress]

the 2nd and 3rd evos of the Leeno region's grass starter, nitacub!!

art done by @prof-peach

middle one is stemkuma and final evo is arktofolio

[mcflymemes]

send me a 🚩 and i'll share my unpopular rpc opinions and hot takes. bonus points if you include a specific topic to talk about, like follower count, softblocking, graphics, etc.

[cherrygrxves]

open to f | about jordan | muses are out to eat.

"babe, please don't trip on this waitress - she's just being friendly."

[the-smart-and-the-dumb-one]

OPEN RP STARTER

(Yes the other two are finally getting some ✨️trauma✨️)

TW:mentions of SH and other angst stuff

Chase walks over and hugs you without warning, he looks like he's been..crying? What do you do?

Tags (lmk if you wanna be added or removed)

@braydons-world

@demigod-jack-hearth

@ares-innocence

@im-pretty-and-in-pink

@girl-of-madness

And anyone else

[katherine-fisk]

Let's start this morning off with a kick -

I threw up blood just now.

:)

[doctorcranes-ask]

Jonathan was setting up the small table in his hideout, smiling softly when enigma ran in. several crows and ravens immediately flew over to inspect her.

good to see you, child. I had a rather... riveting conversation with your father.

but enough about that- how are you? hungry, I hope

[ @quite-the-enigma ]

[noahsresources]

MOODBOARD & AESTHETIC GAME !

send a symbol and/or the description of one if you can't see it for the receiver to make a moodboard/aesthetic for:

👕 POLO SHIRT — my muse's appearance/fashion preferences 💭 THOUGHT BALLOON — my muse's personality ✨ SPARKLES — my muse's star sign 🎸 GUITAR — my muse's hobbies/interests 🔴 RED CIRCLE — my muse's favorite/signature color(s) ☕️ HOT BEVERAGE — my muse's favorite food(s)/drink(s) ☀️ SUN — my muse's favorite weather/season 🏠 HOUSE — my muse's family/hometown ☁️ CLOUD — my muse's past 🧡 ORANGE HEART — our muses' friendship 💚 GREEN HEART — our muses' familial relationship 💞 REVOLVING HEARTS — our muses' romantic relationship 🐰 RABBIT FACE — my muse's pet(s)/favorite animal(s) ✈️ AIRPLANE — my muse's favorite travel destination(s) ⚔️ CROSSED SWORDS — a past experience of my muse's ❓ RED QUESTION MARK — a theme of the sender's choice

[this-lovely-universe]

Kinda forgot to announce this much earlier (or maybe I did and forgot?) but Brook's getting married on Halloween

I have planned nothing 👁️👄👁️

anyways will probably post smth for that

stay cool, motherfuckers (respectfully)

@arisdaughter @childofthewargod @dianedantedominic @theorphicforest

@that-girl-cupid @ithacas-prince @daonedaonlyskh @hispanic-child-of-hermes @aria-pane @unhinged-waterlilly

@chaos-pers0nified @ariathemortal @i-was-never-sane @gaygirldoodles @smileyalater

@if-i-could-cry-i-wouldnt @startswithahell

If you want to be added, removed or if I forgot to tag you, let me know :)

[kotaromita]

Closed Starter for @raddogakito

Kotaro waves at Akito enthusiastically from inside carino/carina. After seeing it on "The Late Nite Wednesday Talk Show," he'd begged Akito to come with him. How could he miss out on something as perfectly meant for him as a massive strawberry parfait!? And surely Akito would share with him—and if not, there were plenty of other good looking things they served. He knew what sort of things Akito liked at this point.

[baringtccth]

Permanent starter call.

Cause I'm not sure if I'm ok to do these, even if we are mutuals: please like this if you're OK with me doing the following! (You can do to me too, of course)

Send you rp memes

Invade your ask inbox

Make random starters or interactions

plotting calls

reply to your open starters

Sometimes occasionally on dms

doing ships: friendships, romantic ships, companionships, enemy and ect.

Tagging you in said ship.

[hatigave]

Because I lost the other one. STARTER CALL. Hit the ♡ for a starter ( length will be two paragraphs minimum but might be longer. ) Please specify muse on both ends if you're a multi too - or provide me with a vibe that you're looking for when it comes to my kids. Mutuals only, please !

[the-smart-and-the-dumb-one]

OPEN STARTER. Tw:mentions of su!cd3

You notice Finn walk out of the big house, looking more upset, and down than usual, he's wearing a necklace, that wasn't the unusual thing, the necklace had a safety pin on.

(I'll put what it means in tags)

Tags (mention if you wanna be added or removed)

@braydons-world

@demigod-jack-hearth

@ares-innocence

@superbstarlightsheep

@/anyone

[lunaetis]

what if i make a fluff call ...

[vigilant-yaksha-asks]

Open starter: Nightmares

oh, mod here, trigger warning for self harm and nightmares/panic attack/general anxiety!! the starter will be below the cut

Xiao jolted awake, eyes darting around from where he lay in the branches of the tree that grew around Wangshu Inn.

"You're safe...you're fine..." Xiao ran a hand through his hair, trying to calm down.

He stood at the top level of the Inn, folding his arms on top of the railing and resting his head on them. Xiao bit them into his forearms. His sharp teeth dug into his arms. He tried and failed to breathe deeply.

"...why did I have to be the one to survive?"

Tears sprung at the corners of his eyes despite his protests.

"Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry..."