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“Fuck off!” Dark snarls, stretching his arm out behind him as far away from the captain’s reach as he can get it. “I did not travel thousands of years through time just to poison my friend!”
Have you perchance heard of a certain fic called A Dark Among the Lights by LuckyLectio on AO3? It's a fun story about friends doing dumb things to protect each other, with varying degrees of success :D
#file name: hylia said it's my turn with the elixir!#i felt like i was giving warriors too much attention so i threw some low quality links in the background#*ignores the sheer number of dark drawings in my art folder*#wind's face gives me an extra second of life every time i glance at it#but seriously i laughed so hard at this point in the chapter#apparently dark deserves a shoutout for not instinctively punching warriors in the face#adatl#my art#dark link#lu warriors#should i tag the others?...eh#only if their face is visible i guess#lu wild#lu hyrule#lu wind
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“How’d you get stuck with babysitting duty anyway?” Boba asked one day during dinner. “Oh, I volunteered for this,” Fox told him. “Why the kark would you do that?” “Language,” Fox admonished. “Well, I was just living my normal boring life and I thought to myself, ‘I don’t get called an ugly piece of banthashit often enough.’ So I decided to adopt you.” Boba snorted. “You’re a psychopath,” he told Fox. “I’ve been called worse,” Fox replied breezily. Boba doesn’t find a new family and Fox doesn’t become anybody’s dad; an adoption story.
@bilbosmom-belladonna commissioned me to illustrate a scene from her delightful fic Trying to Escape What You Can't Let Go. She was amazing to work with and you should absolutely check out her fun little found family story!
#boba fett#young boba fett#commander fox#star wars fanart#tcw fanart#my art#digital art#cc 1010#sw fanart#sw tcw#artists on tumblr#fanart#I've only ever drawn baby Boba with this one expression on his face but I love him with it so much#also I was recently reminded that 12-13 year olds are actually teeny tiny so I guess he got his growth spurt early?#can you please appreciate Fox's barely visible shirt?#I'm so glad Bella let me work it in in the end!! I thought I was being very funny#also totally check out the fic!! the banter is A++! and boba is such a traumatized little shit I love him!#they match just right with fox
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I think it must be for the lack of going outside of your room on this website that debates about personal presentation and appearance literally never have any material analysis. sorry it's counterrevolutionary to shave my legs or wear makeup or a bra or style my hair in certain ways or "worry" about visible signs of aging but have some of you just never encountered real world situations where those things caused measurable problems dealing with other people, jobs, money, respectability, access to resources, or the ability to influence important situations? this starts happening when you go outside a lot. there's a debate on my dash rn about balding and finasteride in which not a single person has mentioned the potential negative social outcomes of losing your hair and how that can affect socioeconomic status and personal risk. maybe someone doesn't need to be "vain" to care about keeping their hair and consider the risks of medication for it. maybe they've seen how bald people get treated and referred to and made a cost benefit calculation that they can't afford, sometimes literally, to eat that cost, with everything else they've got going on. maybe I wear makeup when I have to go talk to doctors and other gatekeepers because people make assumptions about your class and mental status when you have "bad skin" and "eye bags". maybe a lot of women who wear uncomfortable restrictive bras and shave whatever and buy skin products and do gua sha have already been sharply punished when someone saw leg hair or a mustache or puffy greasy skin or god forbid their nipple through their shirt. not everyone can just say "fuck it, I can afford to eat one more social cost that will measurably impact my ability to get medical treatment or pay rent". sorry this sounds like an economics lecture, that's because it is
if you are about to tell me a long story about how you personally have not been affected by perceptions of your appearance actually so you can conclude it never happens at all, please don't. sometimes you get lucky, that's it. and on this website I think it's less likely that you're lucky and more likely that you're oblivious
#im not addressing weight or race here because im not qualified to speak on it#blog#the economics of the perceived person#i guess#also not addressing visible queerness here because again not qualified#dont yell at me#i stg if someone tries to make this about goth gatekeeping#im WHITE and even still an ongoing theme of my life is total strangers telling me to “just use conditioner” or get a Brazilian blowout#because my hair is curly#which is no joke still considered completely unacceptable in most of white cultuee#probably because its associated with being bipoc#im not saying “oh poor me” about my hair im saying people have literally told me to my face i looked homeless and crazy or drug addicted#and treated me accordingly#because im barely a 3a hair pattern#i can only try to extrapolate from this how actual women of color with natural hair get treated#but i see those women getting shit on for straightening or styling because its “reinforcing patriarchy” or whatever#girl they are not the ones doing the reinforcement
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coming home from a long day of work at the milkshape and blender and meshtoolkit factory
#mercutios goofy ass face in this bodyshop pose is gonna make me CRY.#WHATEVER. made a modified slim bodybuilder WSO for tybalt#because i needed something bulkier than LBB but also i needed it to not have a thick neck (tybalts face is too narrow. doesnt match up)#considered making a specialized wso for mercutio thats a bit... broader i guess? because most of the weight is only visible#when you look at him from the side. but this bodyshape already clips with a lot of preexisting poses as is... ah well. </3#.txt#simsposting#ANYWAYS. miles after posting bodyshop screencaps of these two fuckers for trhe 1000000th time:
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Glamtober - Day 14: Ranged
Lots of cool ranged glams to choose from, but ultimately decided to show off one of my older favorites~ Pretty sure I originally made this one for Yusui (that top hugs male au ra waists so nicely), but it looks very nice and in-character for Einn too.
Warg Jacket of Aiming
Augumented Torrent Armguards of Aiming (Rhotano Blue)
Hakama #55
Warg Shoes of Aiming
Astrild
Blue Triteleia Earring
You could also probably dye the gloves grey, but rhotano blue matches the little blue ribbon on the hem of the top
#ffxivglamtober2024#ffxiv#ffxiv screenshots#neri's screens#there's actually also princess' peach corsage dyed rhotano blue too#but it's on the other side of his head and not visible on these so i'm omitting it#einn - like hawu'li - is one of the charas with whom you can really only take gposes from one side 😅#their hair obscures their entire face otherwise#anyway uhhh you can kinda see when i just gave up with the lighting#saint mocianne's wasn't playing nice today#i also have tooooons of screens to catch up eheh#one of them is sitting in the drafts so i guess i could post that one after this#and get to rest of them later#moon bun#also in-character as in... what einn could've worn back in the forest#(minus tail ofc)
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Live laugh love Kumonoue & Yuichiro’s straining relationship 💕
#skye’s-endless-imaganitories.txt#demon slayer#kimetsu no yaiba#kny#kimetsu gakuen#kimetsu academy#gotouge#demon slayer fanart#<—- i mean. I guess????????#I’ve already posted this on yt but i thought it would be nice to share it on tumblr with all of you!!#This interaction is hereby non-canon as Kumonoue is really 2 shy to actually do something like this#And the poor girl would really take two centuries to eat her food because omg. That girl is NOT normal ‼️‼️#I feel like Yuichiro would be the only one in her friendgroup(?) to actually notice the….. unhealthy. abnormal things she does sometimes#And blud would NOT be afraid to call her out on it!!#Like. They’ll be sitting down on the lunch table together and Yui turns to her with a sort of disgruntled yet concerned look on his face#And he’ll be like. “…I wish you stopped getting distracted and actually ate your food properly. Don’t you know that’s an unhealthy habit?”#And Kumonoue would look at Yui with a confused look on her face and go#“Is it?” While Yuichiro looks at her in disbelief + disappointment.#The neurodivergent lifestyle is just too confusing for a simpleton like Yui /j#The video might be a little fuzzy…….#If it is i apologize 4 that 💔#But i hope you all enjoy regardless!!#happy saturday everyone!!#Or maybe sunday if you’re not in my area!!#And happy lesbian visibility week!! I see you gay girlies!!! 💕💕
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robert eggers please just recast lily rose depp with someone who can act robert please i'll do anything robert you can't fuck this up robert it's nosferatu robert you can't robert robert. robert.
#not only can she not act but i think if you've visibly had that much plastic surgery you should be barred from ever being in a period piece#also having willem dafoe RIGHT THERE and he's not orlok feels like a hate crime against me specifically#recast bill skarsgard too his face also annoys me#like man i know how mean it sounds but i straight up just don't like looking at those two like djksfjslfs#nicholas hoult like whatever i guess not my first choice#i still think that /i/ should have gotten to play hutter but i digress#no one can ever amount to that beautiful twink from the 20s we'll work with what we've got in 2024 i guess#anyway i hope this inspires at least one person to eventually write about hutter and orlok having nasty nasty sex#not that i have ever thought of such things watching the 1922 film.
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happy lunar new year! i can't believe we finally got to see kyle's face again 🥹
#maplestory#hoyoung#kyle#satsuhart#hokyle#<- i guess???????#lowkey starting to think i prefer them platonic but i still really really want to see them together in any way#did you know there are 10 grandis classes now. thats entirely way too many#ok but seriously the only other time kyle showed up with his face was in the bg of AB's promo illust#in 2012!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#that + the new LNY illust + his talksprite are the ONLY times we can see his face im gonna cry#i know everything about maple is extremely inconsistent but smth about kyle having visibly big wings in this new illust is so...#like his horns are still tiny but hes grown up? 🥹 or something...#but like idk not like i can tell bc he has NO OTHER FULLBODY ART THATS NOT HIS KAISER TRANSFORMATION#extremely normal about how nexon treats kyle.
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Also like, trying to not make TLoU AU Kseniya just…wildly overpowered is fucking hard. Because yeah sure, chronic pain and looks visibly infected (meaning anyone with half a brain cell and a gun will shoot on sight) and blind; that all sucks…
…but she can fucking talk to cordyceps. She can talk to the Infected. Her and Pierce run across three Clickers? No problem, just let Kseniya casually walk up to them and make them go away. Because unlike Ellie the Infected read her as one of them, so not only will they not attack her but they’ll treat her like any other Infected. Cordyceps isn’t inherently evil or violent—it’s a fungus, it can’t have morality. It’s doing what every fungus wants to do: survive, propagate, and make more of itself. It just mutated into something that can use humans to do that, not because it hates humanity but just because that’s how it went.
So if Kseniya’s like “yeah no, not a viable host, sorry!” the Clickers will wander off and leave Pierce be.
That is UNBELIEVABLY overpowered in a TLoU context. 50% of the threat to their survival is just…gone! Poof!
#it’s an incredibly interesting inversion from tabula rasa#where kseniya is this unstoppable killing machine and yet utterly helpless in the face of her programming#and by extension hydra/department x#hence why she NEEDS pierce and NEEDS strike so badly in that world#this kseniya can barely use a rifle at the start and can just casually tell zombies to go look for food somewhere else#and she still NEEDS pierce because she does look visibly infected and without someone there to be like NO DON’T would ABSOLUTELY get shot#the second literally anyone came across her#but it’s a need that’s much less desperate than tabula rasa senya#tlou kseniya comes off more vulnerable in mannerisms but can probably fuck your shit up worse than tabula rasa kseniya#especially if i take this to the logical tactical conclusion and have kseniya not only say go away but also go attack those hunters#this can turn into a unstoppable force of post-apocalyptic nature VERY FAST if i let her become that#and that’s without factoring in the side benefits like being able to use the underground fungal network to compensate for her blindness#and know when people are coming because they stepped on some cordyceps#i know the theme of most apocalyptic stories is#humans are the real monsters and shit#but MAN are other people the literal only problem these two have in this context#guess we’re leaning REAL HARD into this theme#tag meta#tabula rasa tlou au#tlou au kseniya
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not to be mean, but if you've never had a restrictive ed or bdd then maybe just stop talking about body checking? 90% of the time you lot have no clue what you're talking about, and as someone who's struggled with those issues a majority of my life, the misinformation it spreads can be really damaging to people who are sick regardless of their recovery status.
(please read op tags before you decide to argue, thanks)
#tw ed mention#tw body checking mention#like this isn't a ''thinphobia exists'' post- it doesn't- this is stop treating a symptom of a mental health issue as a gottcha & misrepres#-enting what that behaviour actually is and why people do that.#and i promise you even if someone is body checking like. a) they know nobody needs to be told ''hey op this is body checking''#you can find yourself doing it unintentionally if you're just like existing yeah but like even then when you catch yourself you know that's#what you were doing. and b) any attention beyond ''this is not fair to expose other potentially sick people to'' is just feeding into the#disorder. like attention to the disorder- positive or negative- is seen as validation. it's oh look it's working i'm sick i'm sick*enough*#so like you aren't doing what you think you are doing at all.#idk i feel like a lot of people forget that a) not all eds are restrictive & b) they are a literal mental health condition. they are not a#choice. they often have very little to do with weight at their core. in the case of restrictive eds it is about the fact that you feel#your body is the ONLY thing in your life you can control (with some very dark shit often being the reason for that) and that get's#projected onto control of one's weight. my guess is because that's the most visible display of control. it is a front to mask some sort of#pain that usually ends up being related to trauma. and people of ANY WEIGHT can have a restrictive ed.#and like the same is true of other eds that aren't about restriction- it is rooted in unhealthy emotional coping mechanisms due to HURT#and like. as for bdd which also tends to be misrepresented and have shit slung at it for fuckin whatever reason#please consider a) anyone at any size can have bdd about any feature & b) it's literally and obssesive compulsive disorder (with body check#-ing being the compulsive behaviour for some but not all people) and it has been shown that the way we process our faces & features on a#neurological level is different from those who do not have bdd. and if you listen to any person with bdd they more often than not only have#an issue with their ''problem feature'' ON THEMSELF meaning whatever you want to call it- it's internalized#and even then people don't just wake up and decide every mirror is going to make them feel like they are in a funhouse. though no one#knows what causes it for certain- it is believed to be rooted in genetics comorbid conditions traumatic early life experiences or some#combo thereof. people don't choose it they don't choose which feature it latches onto they don't choose the distress it causes.#set the boundaries you have to set irt your own mental health. that is more than fine. but the moralizing of mental disorders is never#going to help anyone and i have seen a huge uptick of people who do not understand eds not only leaving non restrictive eds out entirley#but acting morally superior on the basis of never having experienced one or never having dealt with bdd or leaving people who don't fit the#prototypical view of what a sufferer of those conditions looks like out without thought.#and again- i want to emphasize- in my experience more often than not it is ppl who admit to having NO EXPERIENCE in that realm.#ableism#mental health
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I stg everytime I see someone in the local queer community who I'm like "isn't that (x person)" and then talk myself out of that assumption, it ALWAYS ENDS UP BEING THE PERSON I THOUGHT IT WAS AAAAHH
#this has happened like 4-5 times at this point I am so mad#this is def a propos of nothing def didn't find someone I know on linkedin to confirm they indeed work at the place I saw their lookalike at#there's only so many highly visible queer ppl in this city#to quote that one comedian 'there's like 12 of' us#so I guess the good news is I am NOT face blind I am just STUPID and too good at gaslighting myself omfg#*screaming*#this isn't even the stupidest one so far#the stupidest one was me seeing a pic of someone I knew from pre-/during pandemic trans group who at the time had short hair#and grew out their hair over lockdown and so when I saw their pic I was like this person kinda looks like (that person I know)#but that can't be them (that person) has short hair!!#and then it was them because of course it was them#(it's always like acquaintances I don't necessarily talk to a lot but still)
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i went through this account’s handful of videos from this show, and i’m pretty confident that’s will roland, next to harrison chad as quince, despite the view being mostly obstructed from the angle this whole time. he’s Most Visible for a moment at the very end lol. since the costuming is just a buttonup and tie w/no especial “it’s This character, or Any character” cues, i’ll guess he’s “will roland” at this point, though that doesn’t mean he wasn’t appearing in some other capacity earlier. every pre-2018 xmas wrole cited in that tweet has been accounted for, but that doesn’t mean he hasn’t been some of those characters more than once, as is definitely true for uncle peenie appearances
#the sixth annual show....twenty thirteen....don't know of any more specific info abt this one. like ''oh xyz pic is from then''#i think the third annual show in twenty ten was Probably his first one / the year of peter the coffee kid but that's still technically#an informed guess as it were lol....and evidently he was in the next yr's show as the christmas burgler / also just [ensemble]#but atm so far as i know regarding definite Dates / the Year; there's only this b/w that & the twenty fifteen 8th annual show there#wherein he was uncle peenie / virgin mary dancer / belly button puppet show puppeteer / will roland At Least#was like hmm twenty twelve/thirteen was The Black Suits times; would he have been able to make it...#but the fact that harrison chad does appear to be there suggests it was entirely plausible for anyone else in the cast to be#what with him playing brandon....and lo & behold does seem to be william next to him there#but yeah can't even speculate ''is This the show in which he played [role listed as having been played but hasn't been seen elsewhere]??''#b/c they've all been seen elsewhere at least the once#the other videos are mostly like twenty or thirty or six second increments of mostly the mister chestnut number & like one other full song#but there was like a forty second recording of Virgin Mary Ft. Her Dancers & i was like god can you imagine. i'll lose it.#by which one means be Head In Hands like keeling over a bit. but none of them was him lmao so [oh lord. imagine] averted beyond that#joe iconis christmas extravaganza#will roland#glad there's a more visible glimpse right at the end but my watching it all prior like Okay Come On Now lmfao#i mean at least it was evident most of the way that there was even a person there to go ''oh huh that could be him'' about#just still thinking about the ''mike wazowski'd but for the viewer / listener looking / listening for him'' experience from the other day#npr affiliate station ep abt gtm:pota that at least cited every oscr cast member by name w/the sole exception of will lmao. cmon#billions wide group shot showing everyone's face except whoops winston in the corner blocked by the group of extras. pointing#but w/these glimpses it's like; hey; it's Anything which is impressive; it's identifiable Enough; also hardly guaranteed. i'll take it
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When you deleted your reddit acount because the Soul Eater reddit doesnt like your posts
Nah but for real, say what you want about tumblr, but reddit is so much more anoying - but maybe thats most social media, tried uploading videos on tiktok only to get copyright stuck the same second or just have them deleted for vague comunity guidelines shit, maybe I was too hard on youtube.
I know crying about reddit is pathetic but I dunno, just let me vent lol, idunno gotta get my shit together, too many distractions and other bullshit.
#soul eater reddit#but yeah i dunno I have thin skin so it got annoying when low effort jokes got upvoted while my love effort joke seemed to offend people lo#but in general I saw interesting questions with nobody writting anything to answer#like I get most people dont care and just want to see fanart or whatever but with the death of forums its kinda sad#like it is a kinda “Old” anime so you would assume the fans would be older and have something to say#but tbh I was allways anti reddit so jokes on me for trying to give them a chance and fit in when I just dont vibe with their “style”#like tbh I dont allways with tumblr#but atleast this website is usefull on its own like a blog and all while reddit is just shitting your shit into other peoples faces#and atleast here there are some interesting people with oppinions and shit#I probably should just have written it in the post and not tags lol idk#and I know its my own fault for procrastinating from work and the projects im actually supposed to do#but tbh the lips of the tatoos could be ragnarok lips and the haha's could be laughs of madness so its even more fitting-#but I guess Im the only one who found this joker funny ironically lol i dunno#is there some fancy word for bad impulse control yet or is that just called being a manchild baby?#so yeah i dunno what Im even trying to say anymore just a strange week or something i dont even know#also the iceberg videos didnt get many upvotes anymore so I doubt I lose much visibility but lets see with the next video#which sadly isnt coming soon#maybe now I will actually do the thing I promised myself#I dunno just imagine this is some private theraphy positve reafirmation journal#i'll try to not log in again for a few days or something maybe I should que the post for the screencaps acount for a month and not just wee#idk#yeah...sorry#also fuck reddit#and social media#and tiktok
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i gotta start editing videos so that i can be as pretentious about it as i feel i am.
#grians latest guess the build video's editing was off and its like FINE#the cuts and everything are great as usual#ryan is for sure really good at their job however theres some thing that tip me off about this video#the icons are in a weird place like theyre placed OVER the voice chat icons which for SURE makes it look messier and like. pointless#like i understand them for showing the teams and they also show the perspective that we're looking at#but we already know which perspective we're looking at.... the hand indicator is right there#and even without that like. there being joels minecraft face isnt any better an indicater of pov as his hand to new viewers whodontknowskin#so it isnt actually conveying anything to new viewers about whos pov theyre watching#but also in showing the teams. the vast majority of the video theres only 2 people in the call INDICATED BY THE FACE ICONS UNDERNEATH THE#ADDED FACE ICONS#so it just looks MESSY#I am a big fan of the timer in the corner i like that#helps connect the timeline/improve tensions#however WHY is there no prompt indicator#WRITE OUT EACH PROMPT VARIATION AND HAVE IT VISIBLE AT ALL TIMES#the others have been great with this is idk what the deal is#idk why its missing from grians video#but it means that while watching the viewer is less likely to understand a. whats happening and b. how the prompt has changed#like what are they building? a lot of viewers will forget the exact wording of the task!#i also am not the biggest fan of the text#when grian did the count down and it came up on screen that was very slightly out of sync and that tipped me off#its likely just a premade asset but i did notice it#but yeah#if it were me id likely remove the face icons#id also have a coloured outline around the whole video#like a border#with select team colours instead of the weird icons#and then id have a title at the top with like : Jimmy POV and underneath *PROMPT*#maybe also put the timer next to that#or keep it where it is i do like the timer
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⠀ 𝝑𝑒 ⠀⠀ 𝐒𝐘𝐍𝐎𝐏𝐒𝐈𝐒. you show your husband some affection, thinking you two were alone - only to be interrupted by your son.
tags. dad!toji fushiguro x wife!female reader. fluff, suggestive. mentions of toji developing / having a dad bod. & reader having a mom bod. reader gets called ‘princess, mama (by gumi)’. baby gumi waking up bcs of a nightmare. excuse me - not beta read bcs i was half asleep when writing this rt_t
“tooooji,” you smile as you enter the kitchen. you’ve put megumi to bed - finally - and have the chance to spend some one-on-one time with your dear husband. both of you deserve the rest after a hard day of work.
toji has been putting the dishes back in their designated spots whilst you were away. the dark-haired man turns his head to the side once he feels a pair of arms wrap around his waist. a small grin tugs at his lips, “missed me, princess?”
you roll your eyes. even if years have passed since your marriage, toji has not stopped using that specific nickname for you. he loves calling you ‘princess’, because that’s what you’ll always be to him. in his eyes, at least.
“mhm,” you decide to indulge him. you bury your face into his broad back, feeling the muscles he’s worked so hard on obtaining. after megumi was born, toji did let himself go for a bit, but that is a good sign.
it means he’s content with his life - this peaceful life that he’s settled down for with no regrets. no more being reckless, no more battling for money; he’s now got a family to come back home to after all.
“is the little brat asleep?” toji asks while putting the last dish away. he’s visibly enjoying your warm hands that have slid under his shirt. your skin is so soft to the touch compared to his.
you chuckle and nod to his question. “gumi’s sleeping like a baby,” you rub your husband’s stomach gently, feeling the little bumps of his fading abs. you’re loving his new body - just as much as toji loves yours.
toji turns around to face you, desperately needing to return the favor. he can’t get enough of being with you. his rough hands grab your waist and bring you closer against his body, until your chests are nearly touching. he lowers his head to your neck, “that means i can show my wife how much i love her, yeah?”
you shiver at how toji’s voice turns from soft and gentle to sexual and husky. big hands find their place on your tummy, massaging the loose skin with its stretch marks. you can hear your husband’s breath hitch. “fuck,” toji swallows his spit, his fingers moving to grasp your hips.
toji loves how your hips got wider after you’ve given birth to your child. every change in your body, whether big or small, is completely welcomed by him. your body has blessed toji with a son he loves and he’ll forever be grateful for that fact. the least he can do is take his time to appreciate you.
“so beautiful,” toji sighs as he leaves soft pecks on your neck and throat. his fingers are working their way down to your thighs and ass—not leaving a single patch of skin untouched. his lips eventually find yours and you melt into his embrace.
it’s getting heated and the tension is palpable. toji’s about to lift you into his arms when you catch a glimpse of a short figure in the doorway. your eyes widen and you immediately detach your lips from your husband’s.
toji quickly catches on and sighs. he cocks his head to the left, the sight of his toddler standing at the doorway coming into view. “damn kid,” he whispers, nearly pouting because of the interruption. you playfully slap his bicep—a warning to fix his potty mouth in front of megumi.
“h-hey, gumi,” you say with an awkward giggle, walking towards the child. you fix your shirt in the meantime, straightening the material. you crouch down to megumi’s level and pat his head tenderly, “what happened? why are you out of bed?”
megumi stares up at you with teary eyes. he’s clenching onto his dog plushie, hugging the stuffed animal to his little body. you can easily guess that he’s scared—probably because of a nightmare. he’s been getting those more frequently.
though, instead of explaining himself, megumi searches for answers to something else. he points at his dad who’s leaning against the counter with his arms crossed. the toddler then looks back at you like he’s made some big discovery;
“mama papa kissing!”
you nearly choke on your spit. megumi’s a clever little boy and it shows through his advanced vocabulary. you’re surprised that he’s learnt what that meant already. you try to deny what your child said, “no, uhm, mama and papa were just hugging!”
toji snorts at your half assed excuse. he lazily walks over to you two, hands in his pockets. he bends forwards and looks megumi in the eyes with a huge smirk on his face. “yeah, we were. ‘n you totally ruined it,” he utters without any shame and menacingly sticks his tongue out at the little boy.
you hiss and lightly shove toji—he cannot take anything seriously. you’re trying your best to distract megumi’s attention from what he’s seen his parents do, to what his reason is for waking up.
“did you have a nightmare again?” you coo and pick your son up. he instantly snuggles up to you and presses his face against your chest in search of comfort. you smile and can conclude that your assumptions are right.
you pet megumi’s head whilst softly humming one of his favorite lullabies. toji watches your interaction with his son and his mood softens once more. he silently hugs you from behind—also wrapping an arm around megumi—turning it into a little family group hug.
“y’re all right, buddy,” toji mutters to megumi and the little boy sniffles in response, “mama ‘n papa ‘re right here.”
after a couple minutes, you carry megumi back to his room before putting him down in his bed. your husband stands next to you as you make sure your kid is tucked in properly.
megumi stares up at you with a sniff and you nearly melt at the adorable sight. you brush his bangs out of his eyes and kiss his forehead, wishing him a good night. the toddler nods and hugs his plushie to his chest again, still a bit shaken up from the nightmare. however, he’s doing a lot better after he got comforted by both his parents.
“sweet dreams, gumi,” you whisper and rub megumi’s cheeks with a fond smile on your lips. toji simply stares at you conversing with megumi—his face showing little to no emotion. though, from within, toji is absolutely in awe at your motherly personality. you’re the perfect mother.
megumi gets drowsy and tosses onto his side so he could be more comfortable. he struggles to open his eyes, but manages to look at toji. the little boy pouts and points another finger at his dad, this time drowsily warning him, “papa no kiss mama, ‘kay?”
that comment catches you off guard. you’re embarrassed by the fact that megumi still remembers what he’s seen in the kitchen. you try to clear your throat and explain yourself, but toji’s one step ahead of you. he silently mimics megumi’s words and rolls his eyes—
“yeah yeah, whatever. i won’t,” toji promises his son. the toddler clearly inherited your husband’s protectiveness. you chuckle at the playfulness between the two, enjoying the jokey banter the father-son duo have each time.
megumi huffs in victory and nods. he can sleep in peace now, knowing his dad won’t try anything funny with you. he closes his weary eyes and is asleep within just a few seconds.
you stretch your arms and sigh in content. you can’t help but chuckle once you notice how megumi’s fallen asleep with a tiny smile on his lips. you give the child one last forehead kiss before leaving the room in silence.
toji follows right behind you. now that his son is sound asleep, he doesn’t have to keep his promise. technically— he wasn’t planning to anyway.
“c’mere,” your husband mumbles and grabs your hand. he pulls you into a tight hug, hands instantly roaming your body which he admires so much. he plants his lips onto yours not a second later.
you smile into the kiss, finding it funny how toji couldn’t keep his (fake) promise for even one second. he would die if he actually couldn’t kiss you, and that isn’t even an exaggeration.
toji pulls back after a moment and smirks at you—those bedroom eyes of his very telling.
“so, where were we?”
#sttoru writes.#jjk x reader#toji x reader#toji fushiguro x reader#jjk x you#toji x you#jjk fluff#toji fluff#jjk x y/n#toji x y/n#star divider by benkeibear
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Too old to be a kid too young to be an adult just the right age to cry myself to sleep
#every day I want to give up and go back to my mom's house and apologize for leaving#I'm still powerless here but this is unfamiliar. at least I knew what to expect there#I still had people to avoid and I still didn't want to leave my room but at least I knew I wouldn't be kicked out if I broke a rule#I'm so scared and so sad and I feel so small and so alone#all I want is a home that is mine that I can feel safe and secure in that I can retreat to that I can have power in#All I want is the safety ans security to take a break and to take care of myself#I want to be able to focus on my health for a little while my mental health is so so bad and my stupid brain has realized that I only get#help when it's visible so whenever my mental health gets bad like this I have these constant terrible urges to tear myself apart#The ideas are so vivid and so constant I want to tear my skin to ribbons and break all of my bones and gouge my eyes out and bite my tongue#I want to claw up my face and bite off my fingers and snap each of my ribs#I get phantom aches all over and my body is so tense and wound up and my heart beats so hard for hours and hours#I want to slam my head into a brick wall until something cracks and I hate myself I hate myself for this I hate myself for my selfishness#and for my weakness and for my existence and I want to vomit up my guts and I want my suffering to be real and treatable#I want someone to save me from myself. I want the pain to go away. But there isnt pain is there because its all in my head#I'm doing this to myself just like I have my entire goddamn life. My mom says I was born in pain and cried nonstop for a whole year. Then I#grew out of it and I was perfect. except no I wasn't because I wrote big long notes in phonetic spirals about how I deserve to die.#isn't that a sign?? Isnt that a sign?? i was born this way and things will never get any better they will only change and change and change#and still hurt in ways that I cant prove that I will second guess because maybe they aren't real and I'm just stupid useless helpless weak#when I bleed I can ask someone for a bandaid. when I... exist like this. I can't ask for anything. What helps? What helps? nothing really.#being useless helps until it doesn't. I have to work to pay for the chemicals that barely help. Why do innocent people die every day and not#me. when I pray for it. When I beg. And I'm not afraid to walk alone at night because NOTHING BAD EVER HAPPENS TO ME. Because I'm so lucky.#Soooo lucky. it isnt fair. She deserves it more than me. who? pick. anyone. Someone who wants it. Maybe who I could have been if I were#better. Not me. I dont get hurt. I dont get lost. I dont die. Maybe I cant maybe I never will. I'm more afraid of having to live like this.#My life is always on the line of not quite not quite and I never need help and I always need help and I'm never enough and I'm average.#the standard. the center. Above me dont need and below me do and I? What do I? both. neither. I shouldn't exist. It hurts to exist like this#in between. I should be able to do this myself. I'm the worst player on the best team and the best player on the worst and I don't fit in#either and everyone hates me for being one or the other and I can never be better so I want to be worse and thats my whole life in one#sentiment. I'm always at the bar and I can never get over it. I've been begging forever please lower your expectations I cant do better than#this. so I'll do worse. I'll make myself worse. I deserve it anyway. I'll be more scars than skin and more pain than person and then maybe#I'll belong somewhere god fucking knows even if its a padded room I could belong somewhere.
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