#only had one coffee today!!!

[why-the-heck-not]

13.09.23, wednesday

today’s one of those days again, I feel like I’ve hit a wall with everything I’m doing and I also have a headache, I don’t think I’ll ever be able to get all my courses done and everything suuucks. I need to send some emails tmrw bc I’m confused about so many things

things done today:

2h of coding (ish, bc of the aforementioned wall so it was a lot of ”how the fuck” googling and thinking)

gym workout

sent an email (one less email for tmrw yay, was the one I’m second most stressed about)

[neiptune]

a bitch is real sad

[luck-of-the-drawings]

I LOOOVE LOVE ALL THE NPCS IN PRIME DEFENDERS!! THEYRE EACH SO UNIQUE AND COOL, WITH THE GREATEST THING YOU CAN POSSIBLY GIVE TO SUPER HEROS IN A SUPER HERO UNIVERSE: WAAACKY FUCKIN SUPER POWERS!! (MADE WITH ONLY PEN AND COLORED PENCILES, MISTAKES CORRECTED WITH PAPER N GLUE)

[bunnihearted]

📓🖊️🧸

[talesofwhimsy]

I have this weird feeling that my life is ending. Despair. Anxiety. Grief? Like I’m living in a Charlie Kaufman film and I’m still at the point where I haven’t accepted that I’m dead, but things are falling apart around me. But everything also feels the same. Like nothing’s changed. That nothing’s different at all. Not even me, not even the things happening around me. Like this is how it’s always been but I just never noticed it, and that it’s not even that bad anyway but there’s this encroaching, foretold doom stalking me sunset by sunset. I say this in the least psychotic way possible because besides the fear, I’m totally calm about all of this. And the fear feels like it should be debilitating but it’s not. Just a dull ache where instinct should be. More Eraserhead than Synecdoche in that way. If anything I’m more worried that I don’t feel more worried than I do. But maybe that’s me trying to invoke calamity by speaking it into existence. That I’m not satisfied with my destabilizing reality, that I deserve an all-at-once-apocalypse, just to get it over with. Just to have something different. Change. Transfiguration. Annihilation?

Sometimes I don’t express my feelings because I don’t know how to say them without sounding pretentious

[shadowbannedthehedgehog]

every time i drink i remember this is why i tell myself insist to myself that i don't drink bc if not then i do drink and when i do oh boy

[deus-ex-mona]

it’s that time of week again…

[tamagotchikgs]

i yearn for a lavender iced coffee so bad it could fix me it could make the world feel bright n loose n free

[widevibratobitch]

im so fucking mad at myself at my mother at her dead husband at god fucking knows what. "concentrate on yourself" well i cant can i. now more than anything i should and i cant. losing my fucking mind istg

[sunmontuewrites]

Quiz night tonight. And it is AWFUL weather. I will be staying in the office until I have to leave for quiz.

My desk is a mess and I have 113 emails.

CHAOS.

[nikadd]

anybody else pent up with something more than usual today or is it just me

[ketchup-monthly]

What the Batfam Orders at Coffee Shops

according to me and @space-specs (the full list is back! :D)

Bruce- hot coffee, black, with sugar (idk hes just Like That tm)(if hes feeling extra fancy he adds a shot of bourbon or bourbon cream)(usually he’s in too big of a hurry to imbibe caffeine for that)

Dick- the most sweet thing he can find (homeboy adds a lot of the different syrups to it as well, but will NEVER use the hazelnut because it makes the drink taste like dust)(he doesn’t even make the drink almost unpalatably sweet because he likes sweet things. he does it so no one will touch it)

Babs- matcha, hot or frozen (this is partially because she has a green aesthetic to keep up, but also she enjoys the flavor and the only ones who are inclined to take a sip every once in a while are Cass and Dami)(i don’t understand bc i think matcha tastes like grass, but idk. to each their own -ketchup)

Jason- iced coffee, black, no sugar (this is a solid drink, and if he’s feeling inclined towards a slightly less bitter drink, he’ll add vanilla syrup, but he also only really gets coffee from coffee shops if he has a stakeout)(this is what i order basically all of the time and i think its fantastic -ketchup)

Tim- black coffee, extra espresso shots, hot (usually when he actually goes to a coffee shop its because Alfred has cut him off or he’s on the way to some form of meeting and needs the caffeine, so that’s what he intends to get)

Cass- chai tea (its tasty, and is caffeinated, and is sweet on its own without needing extra sugar, though she does add milk to it)(she is also inclined to order a croissant when she goes)

Steph- something fruity, iced or frozen (she doesn’t like coffee, and doesn’t really like hot drinks when it isn’t super cold outside. plus coffee shops have some really interesting fruit drinks!)(she also almost always gets some sort of sweet pastry to go with her drink)

Duke- iced caramel latte (its sweet, while still remaining bitter, and he really likes that it sort of masks the flavor of the coffee behind the caramel and milk)(tastyyyyyyyy he’s just like me for real-specs)(blech -ketchup, who does not like caramel and coffee together)

Damian- some hoity toity tea (has flashbacks the his very specific tea request in Son of Batman)(if they have a specialty tea blend, he is inclined to try it, though he tends to be overly critical and tries to get brown sugar instead of white when possible)

Cullen- iced mocha and an Arnold Palmer for Harper (he likes chocolate and coffee together and Harper will steal his drink if he doesn’t get something for her. the sweet tea and lemonade seems to keep her at bay and Cullen gets two drinks for himself)

Harper- “tea, earl grey, hot” (she doesn’t even like earl grey tea. she just does it to see who will get the reference. when cullen goes with her and she starts the line, he makes dead eye contact with the cashier with the most world-weary expression known to man on his face)(i also don’t really like earl grey, but i would totally do that -ketchup)

Kate- mango smoothie (it’s fruity, like her)(do i have an explanation? no. i zoned out and the answer came to me -specs)

Alfred- nothing (he does not go to coffee shops. and if he did, no one would ever catch him)(he will hang out at a coffee shop for the ambiance and the company, but will pull out his own drink in the middle of the shop)

Terry McGinnis- black tea (no milk, no sugar. it’s because he doesn’t like coffee and tea has the caffeine that will keep him patrolling)(he also just doesn’t like milk that much)

Matt McGinnis- iced banana milk (but its a strain of banana that hasn’t been invented yet, so it tastes completely different than the bananas we have today)(and yes, Terry is horrified by the fact that Matt gets it with ice in it)

Jarro- a cup of whipped cream (he doesnt even eat it. he plays with it like shaving cream on a desk. -specs)

Drake Winston- toasted marshmallow smore blended drink (he orders it year round, but also he doesn’t go to coffee shops but once every month or two, so it’s a treat for him)

Carrie Kelley- monster energy drinks (for the flavor, not the caffeine. she doesn’t go to coffee shops but instead just goes to the nearest gas station to get her fix)

Jim Gordon- black coffee with almond milk (because he’s lactose intolerant and found that out far later than he should have, working in a place where drinking coffee was almost expected)(he is loath to admit it, as to not embody the donut-eating cop stereotype, but he also frequently orders a donut or two)(more, if he’s taking some back for Bullock)

Bette Kane- hot vanilla latte (its a classic, and its a classic for a reason. she likes it, not matter how “boring” it may be.)

Luke Fox- hot chocolate (he likes coffee well enough, but he prefers hot chocolate)(plus, he’s man enough to confidently order a “kids” drink)

[pegasusdrawnchariots]

the eternal question: is scheduling w friends as an adult That Hard or am I just bad at it

[butchfaith]

they should invent coffee that doesnt keep you awake but that isnt decaf

[iero]

I keep having fucking panic attacks and I don't know what they're stemming from...

[pondslime]

shoutout to that one masters of horror movie I watched on ye olden youtube at the tender age of 16. which was like. a retelling of frankenstein’s monster? maybe? kinda? about this nervous lookin little guy who wants to learn how to bring the dead back to life. 

the whole movie eventually culminates in some sexy married lady he meets getting GANGBANGED in a CEMETARY by a bunch of rotting decaying zombies

what a film. that was