#onigiri replies

[onigiriforears]

After approx. 2-3 months of studying Japanese I started to read free graded readers online and then graduated to a collection of short stories that I purchased off of Amazon. I thought that the reason I was starting to have trouble understanding sentences was because I didn't know enough vocabulary but it was because I neglected grammar completely. It was sorta drilled into my head off of Youtube creators to just study kanji, vocab and simple sentences as much as possible before even touching grammar. I feel absolutely lost, dude. I am at the 5 month mark now. I can "breeze through" kanji for the most part. (as in, I can actually retain it in a decent amount of time) I decided to study grammar about a week ago. It is SO FREAKING HARD. I don't know if there's something wrong with me or what. I don't know if it's supposed to feel like what I thought I knew is being ripped apart at the seams, stapled together, and then torn apart again....but it does.

Do you have any tips for learning grammar? Is this feeling normal? Can you tell me when the pressure in my skull will subside? I am using Bunpro's free trial but I'm unsure if this tool will actually help me. I write tons of notes to flip through but I still fail to give them the nuanced answer they're looking for. I really enjoy the setup of Bunpro and I want to like it since it's similar to WK but I'm not sure if I'm going too fast or there's a better way to learn. I stopped learning 5 new grammar points a day and started doing only 2. (I also have Genki I and watch GameGengo. He explains things in a way that's easy for my brain to understand.) Sorry for the long post but any insight would be appreciated. I'm a bit nervous asking people in the language learning community for help or insight because a lot of them treat it as a way to show how fast they learned/1-up others. Tumblr's langlearn community is a lot different with what I've seen (or maybe I'm just following the right ppl lol)

Hi! Thank you so much for waiting for this response--I'm sorry it took so long. Your message was one of the ones that popped up when they locked my ask box (they actually still haven't answered me on why it was locked so 🤷‍♀️). To make up for that, I'm gonna be longwinded because I think that this is a super valid and important question that others may also want to know the answer to!!

Pls pls PLEASE DM me if none of this is helpful or if you'd like to talk more about what you think you need help with!!

I think that sometimes when we're learning a new language that we know is so overwhelmingly different from our own language, we focus on the things that we think will be the main hinderance and sometimes we forget the key points. You might be thinking "how did I forget grammar?" but I would say don't beat yourself up about it! Many of us focus on the things that we think are our problems(--the last time I studied for the JLPT, I focused on my weak point too much and then was frustrated with myself during the exam bc I neglected the other areas.)

I don't want to lie to you and say that learning grammar will is going to get easier because that's not the case for everyone. Think of learning grammar vs everything else as learning different types of math or science--have you ever had a friend that was absolutely phenomenal at algebra or calculus but couldn't do geometry? Or a friend that was wonderful lab partner in chemistry but struggled in biology? They're struggling in biology because it requires a ton of rote memorization in comparison to practical application and math that's present in chemistry and rote memorization may not necessarily be their strong point. Personally, I think that's also why a lot of us struggle with certain grammar points. There are some that just click with us immediately and then there are others that we have to see over and over and over and over and over--you get the point--just for us to find a single sentence with it that we understand. If you're math oriented, we need to figure out a way to no longer make grammar points rote memorization for you, but to turn it into a formula of some sort. I actually write my notes out in ways that are like that--I use plus signs (+) in my notes not because the textbooks use them but because my brain genuinely reads it as "noun + particle + grammar point = a sentence that makes sense" because, for me, formulas don't fail. Your weak point doesn't have to be your weakness--you can turn the weakness into a strength that works just for you.

I've been going at this for years and every single professor or Japanese friend (or even people from the discord server) I have can tell you that I've struggled with pretty much any grammar point that included ~ように--and it wasn't because I wasn't trying, but because I couldn't find myself using any sentences that with those grammar points because I found the alternatives/similar ones to make more sense. Surprisingly, it wasn't until I was reading 夜カフェ for our book club that I was actually able to start grasping the meaning (ngl, I still haven't used it myself--I'm notorious for using alternatives); I was finally witnessing it being used in a way that made sense in my brain.

The frustration you're feeling when you encounter a new grammar point or overload yourself with too many things in one go is completely normal and I promise that a ton of us in the Japanese langblr community have definitely experienced it too! It probably feels like everything you know is being ripped apart because your native language may have a SVO (subject-verb-object) format while Japanese has a SOV (subject-object-verb) format--your 1-to-1 translations for your notes may not be helpful in the beginning because you're still trying to wrap your brain around the fact that your words still need to go in another order than you're used to. And then you add the new grammar points and concepts on top of that (like particles and other things) and it can become overwhelming and frustrating. Sometimes, you're going to find some grammar points just downright annoying--especially when you find that there's no equivalency to it in your own language. But don't give up!

I know this is a super cliché thing to say, but practicing them will help. If you can, I would make note of the grammar points that you're struggling with, try to make sentences with them, and ask somebody to check them and explain exactly why (or why not) they're working and then ask them for examples because they may have an even better way of explaining it to you than what you've come up with for yourself!

I can look back at old notes and see when I wrote a sentence as an example just because a textbook/professor used it but I didn't actually understand why it worked at the time and then I can also find notes where the sentences written as examples were added once I finally found something that clicked for me.

You've already done yourself a favor by learning a lot of vocab, kana, and kanji because now you'll be able to try out an array of ways to pick up grammar instead of just a textbook. (I will make a note that if you're looking to take the JLPT, I would recommend having a list of grammar points that you would need to know for the level that you're planning on sitting for because there's no guarantee of what will or won't pop up on the test.)

Another important thing while you're practicing: be comfortable with making mistakes. We all make them, but when you're learning a new language it's important to be ready to make mistakes and to welcome them with open arms because it gives you a chance to experience and learn in real time.

ALSO: for you specifically--because you're interested in reading, you might enjoy learning grammar through tracking the different grammar points through what you're reading and using the sentences as your examples because they're all going to be cohesive. And if reading books or other things totally turn you off right now, maybe games? Animal Crossing and Pokemon are very nice games to play in Japanese for people that are just starting out! You may also enjoy using Lingo Legend--it's an JRPG language learning app that I beta tested and I think that it's a nice way to review (it has some fun incentives). I'm not a big gamer, so I struggle with learning through games, but I've been picking up a lot of grammar through reading because I focus on finding things that I'm interested in, rather than things that are "at my level." When I start a manga, I will scour a ton of websites and forums and bug a ton of people when I come across a grammar point that I can't wrap my brain around because I want to be able to understand what's going on.

We have book clubs and gamers in my discord server, as well as places for people to post what they're practicing or to ask for help. We have people of all varying levels and different skillsets that love to share their wisdom with others.

I haven't used Bunpro, but I know that @sammilearns has, so she may be able to weigh in on that! And @tokidokitokyo @nihongoseito @chouhatsumimi @kanpeki-bekki @burgeoning-ambition probably also have even more tips that me--I'm trying to tag people that I know we all learn in different ways, so their tips and tricks might be just what you need!

Please weigh in, fellow langblr members! How have you been learning grammar? Are you game-ifying it? Have you turned it into math equations? Have you managed to tie it in with your special interest? I can't wait to see what people add to this post!

[onigiriforears]

i cant wait to see the review for this!

Complete a series - 誰が勇者を殺したか 預言の章

Today I finished the 2nd book of my favorite series 🥹💖

5 star read 🌟

I absolutely loved this book and I had so many emotions while reading it.

The main character of this book is so cool 💖💖💖

I highly recommend this series and i will try to write a full review of it 🇯🇵✨

[hakusins]

Are the rumours true that they took away our onigiri boycunt meal?

THEY DID !!! THEY ACTUALLY DID hang on let me pull up a pic for comparison. It was because some chinese players didn't like how suggestive it was (even though theres so many women in this gd game that has their tits out)

before, (i played on the day of launch)

after (if you played a few weeks after launch, i think it was a week or two after launch that they changed his design :(()

IM SO FUCKING MAD THEY TOOK AWAY THE ONIGIRI BOYCUNT !!!!!!! its okay the onigiri still lives on in my delulus and artwork. (please kuro games pls give it back to us)

[zantedeschia-praesul]

@kowaindar0u replied to your post “"ARUJI SOMEBODY STOLE MY ONIGIRI IT'S NOT IN THE...”:

RUDE :( (Don't worry yams aruji will try and make u some more onigiri)

​Sniff. "...can I have some with that red fish we have last time please? S-Salmon I think?"

[confinesofmy]

me and my grandmother and cousin are going to visit an ancient monument next week and i'm sooo excited. because of the monument, for sure, because that is fucking crazy, but also honestly because i'm going to pack lots and lots of foods and drinks and supplies and i've got the route all planned out and all possible stops along the way. idk why i'm like this but planning and executing a trip is literally about 50% of my enjoyment.

[onigiriforears]

you might like 結婚するって、本当ですか or the 君の膵臓をたべたい manga. do you use Natively? It's pretty nice for finding suggestions bc they recently added filters for genres. If you do use it, feel free to follow me! (It doesn't give notifications if you follow someone, but if you do, send me a message on here and I'll follow you back!)

My current favorite manga is 王子様、この恋は運命ですか?. It's not seinen, but it is josei. It's got a nice pace going to it, she's a college student and (as of rn) has a good head on her shoulders. I'm reading it on cmoa.jp.

(i also want some manga recs if ppl are about to start replying bc im NOSEY and i love to add to my TBR list)

hii does anyone have any manga recommendations?? I've been really into スーパーの裏でヤニ吸うふたり and スキップとローファー and was wondering if anyone knew about other cute, more mature romance-y stories like those! if it helps I also really liked 逃げるは恥だが役に立つ and ReLIFE. I'm a huge fan of 青年 in general

[galaxy-0f-muses]

@kitxkatrp asked: i can't even be honest with myself. Momiji to Tohru 𝖝. 𝖆. 𝖓. 𝖆. — lyrics sentence starters.

"Oh, Momiji. . ." Tohru muttered to herself, looking at the other with concern on her face. She knew that living as a Sohma wasn't all that great, but for him to go so far as to say something like that. . . "Maybe. . . You could talk about it with someone? O-or write it in a journal and burn it afterwards! I heard that works pretty well, too!"

Uo told her about that, so perhaps that isn't the smartest thing in the world, but. . .

[hekateisconfused]

Started playing onigiri again after years because my orig acc was on the cyberstep servers that are no more so I'm on steam TwT

Enjoy playing again!! I'm not the best, but if you need any tips, I'll be glad to try and help! Any Onigiri talk is welcomed here :DD

[its-weeping]

𝐃𝐑𝐔𝐍𝐊 𝐃𝐔𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐘. | miya atsumu ˊˎ

｡⋆ .✧˚ synopsis. little boyfriend atsumu is drunk and in love.

cw. kinda suggestive, pet names (baby), fem!reader

notes. men who r clingy and all cute for their partner when they're drunk have my heart 🫶

"baby," atsumu whines, breath reeking of alcohol.

you roll your eyes in reply and refocus your attention on carrying both your weights into your shared apartment, stumbling and scrambling to reach the bedroom so you could free yourself of the parasite that is your boyfriend.

finally feeling the mattress against your back pulls a sigh out of you. but then the bed shifts, and your moment of relaxation is cut short as you realize atsumu was still wide awake.

curse osamu for calling you over to onigiri miya in the middle of the night, and curse him for not taking responsibility for his drunk brother and dumping atsumu onto you when you could've been soundly sleeping by now.

"damn you, osamu." you grumble, taking a peek at your boyfriend. he's already staring back with a slumped smirk, grip failing as he attempts closer contact.

"ya know, yer s'pretty," atsumu slurs, "mmh..soo beautiful."

you cock a brow at this, "am i now?"

"mhmm, mos'gorgeous girl 've ever seen." he coos like you're a child. you're unimpressed, evidently, but then atsumu gathers your cheeks in his hands and leans in and suddenly your poker face crumbles.

"m'wanna kiss ya baby," he whispers much too close to your lips, "can i?"

"you smell strongly of alcohol." you try to reason.

"so what?" he argues, eyes pleading desperately.

you hum, as if thinking his words over, "right.. maybe just one."

atsumu perks up and abruptly attaches his lips on yours. you settle into the kiss quickly, melting in his arms as your boyfriend manages to heave noises from you.

for someone who was hammered, atsumu still possessed so much of his strength, you think.

you're pulling away first, leaving your boyfriend pouting and wanting more. he's gently clawing at your waist and pressing his body flush against yours, needy. you call his name out, voice low in warning.

"'tsumu.."

"aw, c'mon baby jus' one more, hm? please?" he drags the last word out and you're barely able to keep yourself from giving in.

"maybe in the morning, 'tsumu, when you're not drunk."

atsumu huffs out a breath, "oh fine, wh'teva." yet doesn't do anything to protest, only snuggling up to you.

you smile at his childishness, "well– i guess in return for your patience, you can have more than just a kiss."

atsumu seems to brighten up at this and he nods his head against your chest, "deal!"

you're next to grinning at this point, god your boyfriend could be such a child.

product of its-weeping ;༊ | do not plagiarize or translate.

[onigiriforears]

rules: color the sentence that's true about you

i’m over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don’t often smile / resting bitch face / i play or have played sports / i play or have played an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook and/or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i’ve never dated anyone / i have had a best friend i’ve known knew for over five years / i am an only child

I'M TAGGING: ANYONE!! I'm nosey! :)

Since today I wrote my 500th diary entry and dunno how to celebrate, I'm gonna share this tag game I found cause why not

rules: color the sentence that's true about you (I'm gonna add further personal infos like this bc i feel annoying)

i’m over 5'5 / i wear glasses occasionally or contacts / i have blonde hair actually ash blonde at birth but I've been dark brown for years now nobody remembers lol / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don’t often smile / resting bitch face my face often goes pout-mode tbh / i play or have played sports / i play or have played an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook and/or bake / i like writing / i like to read not since a few years sadly / i can multitask / i’ve never dated anyone I hope single-dates count / i have a best friend i’ve known for over five years / i am an only child

tagging (feel free to ignore): @zzzzzestforlife @gemsstudy @dreamofghosts @fluencylevelfrench @studykac @decemberafternoon @bat-the-misfit

[dearru]

someone’s got a crush! | a.miya

pairing: ts!miya atsumu x gn!reader ft. osamu & suna | sfw | cw: cursing, not proofread, written in one sitting, slight manga spoilers but nr | genre: fluff | wc: 553 | masterlist

synopsis -> in which you going on a date leads to a shocking discovery for atsumu (with some help from friends)

ATSUMU MIYA figured out he was in love with you on a rainy night in the dead cold of the winter.

It was the after-hours of Onigiri Miya, and all the customers had cleared out– save for Suna and Osamu, who were having their monthly hangout. The only noise heard over the low hum of the refrigerator and the rain outside is the two’s quiet laughs and the clinking of the plate of food they’re sharing.

Suddenly, their chat is rudely interrupted as an irritated Atsumu barges in, uninvited, swinging the door open in his wake. His hair is weighed down from the rain and his shoes are caked in mud. His face looks murderous when paired with the dim lighting of the restaurant, but the pair of friends seem unphased by this.

“Yer gonna get my floors all dirty, jackass!” Osamu scolds, chucking the towel slung over his shoulder across the room, “Dry off, yer not a dog,”

Ignoring Osamu’s displeasure, Atsumu lets the towel hit his person and fall to the floor. His expression is a mix of annoyance and depression as he drags himself over to where his brother and former teammate are sitting. “I just don’t get their taste in men,” he starts, slumping down in a nearby seat and snatching a piece of onigiri from Osamu’s plate and stuffing it into his mouth, “The guy’s a fuckin’ jackoff!”

At the sight of his distress, Suna and Osamu look at each other in knowing amusement. You, one of Atsumu’s best friends, are on a date right now, and from the look on his face– he is not happy about it.

“Is this about your friend bein’ on a date tonight?” Osamu inquires, already knowing the answer.

Staring at him incredulously, Atsumu deadpans “What else would it be about?” Still chewing his food, the setter shakes his head in disgust, “Y’know the guy’s takin’ ‘em to see a movie?! A movie date! How fuckin’ stupid is that?”

“You sound a bit upset over this,” Suna snickers, patting him on the back rather roughly, resulting in him choking on onigiri, “Is it ‘cause it would be better if they were on a date with you?” Atsumu continues to cough, but the two aren’t sure if it’s from the food stuck in his throat or out of embarrassment. Osamu stifles a laugh.

“Shud up!” he coughs, face reddening and lips pinching into a firm line, “That’s not–“ But then he stops, a realization coming over him.

Horrified by the weight of the discovery, he mutters, voice uncharacteristically small, “Aw shit. It totally would.”

“He finally realizes!” Suna exclaims, looking at Osamu, who folds his arms together and nods his head, laughing, “Took you long enough.”

“Wha…” Atsumu stammers. A vein pops out of his forehead as he stares at the pair in disbelief. Why did this seem like old news to everyone but him?

“It’s ‘bout damn time ya figured it out,” Osamu replies, hitting his twin across the head, “Everyone knows ya got a crush on them.”

The blonde looks to Suna for confirmation, to which he shrugs, grinning deviously in confirmation of his twin’s declaration. He huffs in exasperation and rises from his seat so suddenly that water droplets fall from his hair and litter the table. “Fuck all of ya!” He yells, getting up and storming out of the building without saying another word. The door closes behind him with an exaggerated slam, muddy footprints being the only evidence that he was ever there.

Atsumu doesn’t say where he’s going, but Osamu and Suna are pretty sure it’s to go and crash a date.

—a/n: currently procrastinating all my quizzes and assignments but that’s okay bc atsumu is so fucking fun to write for!!

[onigiriforears]

just looked at your blog name properly. been reading it as "onigiri fears" for ages. 😂

screaming every time i see an onigiri--my profile pic is my exposure therapy 😂

[kurooangel]

⋆.˚ BLOW JOB ❞

★ WARNING: smut. timeskip haikyuu. oral (m!receiving). petnames (pretty girl, sweetheart, kitten). public sex with osamu. english isn't my first language. masterlist!!

★ FEAT.: miya atsumu ʚɞ kuroo tetsuro ʚɞ miya osamu ʚɞ

❝ MIYA ATSUMU ❞

he just lives for seeing your face when you're sucking his rock hard dick. he could die for your glossy eyes, slightly messy hair and that pretty mouth that is around his length as your gaze is locked on his. his hand is tangled on your soft hair, grabbing it as he fucks your mouth. he isn't your nice tsumu, he is just a rough man who is chasing his climax in your mouth. his eyes roll back to his skull when you moan against his cock, the vibrations making him closer and closer to cum. "that's my pretty girl, take it — ssshiit! — in that pretty mouth of yours" he grunt as his cum fills your mouth. he caresses your cheek when you swallow it. "so good, that's my girl"

❝ KUROO TETSURO ❞

he is an eater, but he doesn't mind when you want to suck his dick. while you're in bed just casually talking before sleeping, you comment jokingly that he should let you do it more, and he replies "c'mon, do it then" with a smirk plastered on his face. it's a challenge, and you're taking it. that's how you end between his thighs, licking his hardness while he runs his hand through your hair and moves it away from your face. "you're doing it great, kitten" he mumbles, big hand on your cheek. your eyes are fixed on his, keeping the defiance of the challenge, as you put his cock in. your throat burns at the firsts thrusts, but you catch the pace quickly. he groans, but his smirk is still there. "s-such a —fffuuck!— competitive woman" he absolutely loves it.

❝ MIYA OSAMU ❞

onigiri miya is full, and so you are. at least, your mouth is. osamu is standing behind the bar, charging the customers while you take his whole length in your mouth and your nails dig in his thighs. he doesn't even look at you, if he did you would end up losing his cool, so for now he just bites his lower lip slightly and lets you take his cock like the good girl you are. "you'll regret this when we get home" he mutters when you suck him harder and he cums in your mouth, his short nails digging into his palm because of his hands clenching into fists.

[solzscribblez]

onigiri shop date!! - k.sakusa x f!reader

summary: after a red carpet interview with the woman behind "onigiri shop date!!" goes viral, sakusa finds himself the star of a show he never wanted to be on.

OR the one where sakusa finds himself on "onigiri shop date!!" just to spend time with a girl he has a crush on.

with a side of atsumu and nishinoya making themselves as unhelpful as possible!!

tags: unrequited (requited) love, pining, miscommunication, somewhat canon compliant, stay tuned for updates on this as i write!

warnings: cursing, miscommunication, sakusa is bad at everything, msby 4, drug and alcohol usage, stay tuned for updates on this as i write!

chapters:

introductions: ate the boots down house | survivor contestants

chapter one: coming soon!

taglist: 49/50! open! please send an ask or reply to the masterlist to be tagged!

please note, any and all of this is subject to change as i write!

[dearest-tobio]

“out of us three, i never thought atsumu would get married first.”

miya osamu turns to face you, approaching him with two glasses in hand. he steals a second to admire you in the wisps of moonlight—you looked ethereal, always have been, but tonight most particularly. osamu rolls his eyes as he takes the glass from you, part disdain, part cheeky happiness for his brother.

“yep. never would’ve thought someone would want ta be with that idiot.”

you laugh, taking a sip of your drink. “give him some credit, ‘samu.”

it is but a nickname, one that you’ve called osamu since you were kids, but it still yields the power to soar his heart into the clouds. 

“‘tsumu’s always been a charmer,” you continue, “getting confessions left and right.”

“i remember that one time, that girl from another class? she mistook you for ‘tsumu and ran away after she gave you a bunch of snacks along with a sappy love letter.”

osamu snorts, recalling all the instances that he was mistaken for his twin. growing up, they had similar hairstyles and interests. it was no surprise that people had a hard time differentiating between them. 

maybe that was part of the reason why atsumu chose to dye his hair piss blonde as a first-year. of course osamu was roped into it, but he chose an unassuming grey finish instead. ma didn’t receive the change very well—she was angry for weeks—but osamu always thought it was worth it because of you. 

he still remembers the first time you saw him with grey hair, bubbling worry in anticipation to what you’ll say. you noticed atsumu’s new style first, mocking his ridiculous shade in front of the whole team. even kita-san cracked a smile as you hurled insult after insult, immune to atsumu’s whines about how it was fashionably empowering.

“so did ‘samu get his hair done t—oh.”

your eyes met osamu’s, and you float over to him across the hard vinyl floor. your hand reached out across the air to brush the strands on the side of his head. in that moment, osamu realises he’s never felt so raw, so exposed. logic snaps at him to get himself together, but your touch was intoxicating. what was he thinking?

“you look good, ‘samu.” your soft smile is ingrained instantly in his head, as well as the words that follow after: “grey suits you.”

osamu brings himself back to the present, with only you and the cool night air for company. the wedding party inside is still going strong, but out here is a world of its own. out here, it’s quiet, and out here it’s only the two of you.

“you know, ‘samu. i’ve always wondered why you didn’t date back in high school up ’til now. i betted on you tying the knot first.” 

all words seem to die in osamu’s throat—how can he explain that it’s you? it’s always been you? you, who stuck through all the late night cramming sessions. you, who came to each and every volleyball game. you, who stood by him at every hurdle that came at onigiri miya, until his onigiris were renowned all over hyogo.

he doesn’t want to imagine the day you text excitedly in the groupchat about someone you’ve met, the first date, and the second, and the third. he can’t place himself in that position, not now, not ever. but he keeps his secret to himself, for one more night. for the foreseeable future.

“i don’t know,” he replies. “guess i haven’t found that someone yet.”

masterlist

[heich0e]

liv, please feed us more the the osamu finding out his fav nsfw audio creator standing and ordering on his shop..

osamu's not sure if his prayers have been answered or ignored when you show up at onigiri miya a second time.

in defense of whatever cosmic power is responsible for responding to prayers, he did send pretty mixed messages when he put that energy out into the universe. but when the bell at onigiri miya chimes to signal your arrival a few days (three, to be specific, not that he's been counting) after your initial appearance, osamu is equal parts delighted and horrified to see your face again.

his cock, it cannot be understated, is unequivocally thrilled.

"hi," you say, approaching the counter once it's your turn to order.

"good afternoon," osamu's shocked he manages to get out a greeting in reply to your own, his tone surprisingly even given the typhoon presently raging underneath his ribs. your lashes flutter prettily as you read the menu overhead, and osamu has to forcibly tear his eyes away from you lest he come across as a total fucking weirdo.

"could i please get, ah—" you hesitate as you consider the menu, but the way you draw out that little noise at the end of your sentence almost makes osamu keel over in front of you, his staff, every customer in the place, and whatever god sent you back to his restaurant.

he grips the front of his apron with both his fists, hoping that you can't tell how hard he's holding back a shudder from the mere sound of your voice.

"i'll have one grilled salmon and one pickled plum, please."

"i'll throw one of today's special in fer ya too, on the house."

osamu has no idea who's taken the wheel inside his brain to steer him through this conversation, because he hardly realizes he's speaking at all until his sentence is already concluded, but he's endlessly appreciative of it.

"oh—" you do that thing again. that awful, incredible thing where your voice gets all breathy and osamu's cock throbs. "that's so nice of you, thanks so much."

with every single word you speak, osamu is more certain that he wasn't wrong the first day he saw you. there's no doubt in his mind that this is the same voice that he's been cumming to on a damn near daily basis for nearly three years. his entire face feels like it's on fire when he hands you your order, and the smile on your face practically cleaves him in two.

he's grateful you're taking your order to-go today, because you've only barely made it out through the door before osamu is squatting down behind the counter with his head in his hands.

fuck. when was the last time he felt like this? has he ever gone this unbelievably stupid over a girl?

"hey boss, we're almost out of—oh man, you good?"

osamu's employee, ryo, pokes his head out from the kitchen and is shocked to find the restauranteur doubled over behind the counter.

osamu says nothing, but waves dismissively in an attempt to reassure him. clearly whatever spirit had guided him through taking your order had abandoned him now that you're gone.

"you look like... really awful."

osamu looks up at his employee with a grim expression.

"'m good."

"you sure? your whole face is like... purple."

"ryo, get back in the fuckin' kitchen or i'm makin' ya deice the walk-in after close."

"jeez!" ryo throws his hands up in defense, quickly skittering back behind the curtain with a laugh. "i'm just looking out for your health, boss!"

osamu sighs, a resting a hand over his chest where his heart is still racing underneath.

maybe he needs it.