#one step forward three steps back
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eating disorder treatment is hard. that’s all
#especially being in a different state#and going ip was never part of the plan so it feels like#one step forward three steps back#wahhh#I miss home#I miss my wife#I miss my bestie#I miss everyone and everything#just wanna go back to res asap
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(head in hands) the time will pass anyway the time will pass anyway the time will pass anyway the time
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My mother: I respect your name change and pronouns
Also my mother: why can't I say the n word
#MOM SHUT THE FUCK UP YOURE LITERALLY DATING A BLACK GUY TOO WTF WOULD HE SAY TO THAT YOURE WHITE AS FUCK#one step forward three steps back#upset yellin
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I am SO grateful that ed and stede exist as characters exactly as they are. I'm so grateful for these two men who are traumatized and messed up and struggle to even like themselves, who are terrible at communicating, who make enough mistakes between the two of them to fill an entire ocean. I am so grateful to watch them struggle and be seen and be loved and reach out for the things they want and are maybe starting to believe that they deserve. I'm so grateful that the show lets them fall in love and get together exactly as they are, that it doesn't say they need to wait until they've become some unattainably perfect version of themselves before they have permission to have that. i am so grateful for ofmd
#ofmd#there are no other shows like this one#I'm so tired of media that repeats the same idea that you need to hit a list of predetermined therapy milestones (determined by who???)#before you can fall in love#I'm honestly tired of fic that does this with ed and stede too#because guess what#you can live in the 21st century with access to therapy and dsm diagnosis and a bunch of different medications and you can be doing all the#right things and still be a trainwreck!!!#putting in the work doesn't mean you're gonna become perfect and never have problem again any more than falling in love doesn't mean you'll#never have problems again#I'll forever be crying on my knees levels of grateful for the unique writing on this show#for saying that it's okay you can be a mess you can take one step forward and three steps back and you'll still always be deserving#of love and grace and forgiveness#you don't have to do anything to deserve you deserve it just because you exist#i love this show with my entire heart#alex watches ofmd
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Despite the whackiness of the special effects, there were a lot of dark themes thrown about in this episode, but none - I think - were darker than the conversation the Doctor had with who he thought was Donna.
The fact she baits him by using the information she's learned from his mind, that she lets him think the DoctorDonna showed her everything that happened with Flux and the Doctor's own mysterious origins. And it kills me because the Doctor hasn't been able to talk to anyone about this. Not in depth. Not at all. And they're finally in a body that can say stuff like love and hug with abandon, facing one of their best friends and she knows everything, the Doctor thinks, so for just a second the walls go down and he steps forward and he's about to unleash it all.
And then the mask comes off. And it's not Donna at all, but he's still stood there with everything on the tip of his toungue with no choice but to swallow it down again. To yell and kick and scream where no one can hear him. Just like it's always been.
This was exactly how I was hoping they'd incorporate Flux and The Timeless Child into the story. I'm really wishing they'll stick to these themes going forward, with the Doctor's guilt and anger finally bubbling up, because so much could be done with it.
For now though, I am just so happy we got this.
#doctor who#dw spoilers#wild blue yonder#anyone who didn't watch chibnall's run needs to go back and watch it this is a demand.#timeless child and flux were some insane door opening levels of lore drop and i was geniunely terrified that it was just going to be#ignored like many lore drops that have come before it#i wonder now if ten's face coming back has something to do with the guilt thirteen still had when she died#that whole mentality of taking three steps back instead of one step forward#but i'm hoping the themes surrounding flux will continue forward for ncuti's run . now they've acknowledged it that's a 100% confirmation#the universe is still partially destroyed#so like. PLEASE tell me we'll get to play with that. pretty pleaseee.#i have a lot of thoughts.
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yeah thanks one drive I really needed that memory reminder 🙃😭😔
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my laptop won’t turn on 🙃
#okay. well. the screen won’t work. technically it’s on ig#i’m going to scream i manage one step forward and i get shoved three back#if jamin can’t fix it…more debt here i come#holly.txt
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#I don't know how to do this#I don't know how to fucking do this#I had a fucking Hours long crying breakdown after my parents left today#bc i'll never be fucking good enough for them#but if I say anything then we're acknowledging it and maybe it's better to not acknowledge it#maybe we just go back to ignoring the distance#if I say anything then I’m the bad guy again#I don't want to have to do this I don't want to have to keep being the one who steps forward first#I just want to stop trying and let it be what it is and let it hurt in a dull distant way#i've started crying again just from thinking about it#and I don't cry. I haven't cried more than like a light sniffle in three years until today#(bc of antidepressants)#I don't know what to do#I don't want to make it worse I don't want to hurt her feelings I don't want to be the one that starts shit#and I knoowwww I’m gaslighting myself bc she trained me to do this and I Cannot ignore the. two hour bathtub sob#but god what if I *am* the problem what if I *am* instigating and actually we had a good day#what if I’m expecting too much from her and this is better so maybe this is as good as it gets#do I bear it? do I bear it because she can't?#I know it's not fair and I know i'm hurting but maybe that's better than her hurting#do I just carry it for both of us?#I’m not a kid anymore I don't have that excuse#maybe this is womanhood. carrying it so your mother doesn't have to#she's carrying it for my grandmother. maybe this is just it.#I don't know. I don't know what to do.#I’m so fucking tired and it hurts#whatever.#vent#sad kids with bad moms club
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Take the idea that “Bruce Wayne is friends with most of his Rogue Gallery”
and shift it into “Batman doesn’t kill because he believes in second chances”
and then you get something along the lines of “Even when everyone believes they are irredeemable, Bruce personally knows his Rogue Gallery and genuinely cares about them and their well-being, so he’s willing to give the benefit of the doubt and second chances to even the worst of the worst because he can’t be biased and believe the best only of the people he is friends with. Everyone has the potential to do better and do good and be kind even when it’s not obvious because Bruce personally knows the Rogues that have that potential.”
And also “Bruce’s goal later in his career isn’t to pursue revenge but to prevent crime and save as many people as possible, including his rogues. He can’t reverse the damage and the lives taken, but he can try to make things as livable as possible. Batman is a symbol of fear, a deterrent of crime, and a front-line first responder, but Bruce Wayne is the one actively helping Gotham.”
But I also raise you “Gotham is legitimately cursed” and “Joker is the only Rogue who Batman doesn’t know the real identity of. Batman is partly convinced that Joker isn’t even a real person but the physical manifestation of a curse that will forever plague Gotham”
#personal#Batman#Gotham would be an apocalyptic hellsite if it weren’t for Bruce Wayne and the frankly ridiculous quantity of vigilantes that roam Gotham#any attempts to help it only causes the curse to push back harder#They try anyway#because the alternative is Gotham literally imploding#also a lot of Gotham’s rogues ARE redeemable#it’s the quiet crimes that do the longest lasting damage#the ones that exist in our real world#The Wayne Foundations really try#but one step forward is three steps back#it doesn’t help that most Gotham denizens believe Gotham to be#a lost cause#this is an idealized AU btw#I just like interpretations/AUs where DC is just a little bit kinder#actual canon is kind of too grim for my tastes#I’ve been wanting to read Tim’s Red Robin run though#I’ve read a few issues but#you know#Batman upsets me#i like Batman The Knight#I like Bruce Wayne#he’s interesting#people should be kinder#have faith in kindness
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love writing an incredibly vulnerable sentence then deleting ten sentences ...
#post: personal#one steps forward and three steps back as one would say...#also sorry i have not been around much this has been! the week from hell (mentally)#but new york is soon so <3
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Reminder for the babes (me im babes) that mental health recovery isn’t a straight road and you have to stumble sometimes. Falling back on bad habits and destructive behaviour doesn’t mean you don’t want to get better, it doesn’t mean you failed- it means you’re trying and you hit a speed bump.
Mental health is tiring and recovering is hard and that’s okay, sometimes you just feel bad.
#omen reminds themselves#posting ghis so i can look at it when i wake up fr#the ed getting to me fr fr bcs of my new meds#but one step forward#three back and then one forward again
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ALLISON TOURING WIRH ONLY EIGHT DESTINATIONS AND NONE OF THEM ARE NEAR ME HELP
“west coast tour” THAT DOES NOTHING FOR ME, A FLORIDIAN . DEVASTATED
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i’m all for putting a positive spin on things and seeing setbacks as preparation for the good things to come but the setbacks are starting to look awfully like a pattern
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this team irritates me like nothing else, i SWEAR
#one step forward. three steps back#like-#SHSJJDKDMDMDMD AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#sarah’s pats game commentary
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every time i write one sentence on my paper i reward myself by writing two sentences on my fanfic
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Will NITW get to wreck a bathroom
OF COURSE HE WILL he deserves it
#asks#em#im gonna make that scene so messy. hehehehe. one step forward three steps back thats what i’ll say >:3#also gonna be lots of hugo angst in that chapter eheheh
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