#i have a lot of thoughts.

[azems-familiar]

"you would be wise to surrender."

"yeah, probably."

[ovenproofowl]

Despite the whackiness of the special effects, there were a lot of dark themes thrown about in this episode, but none - I think - were darker than the conversation the Doctor had with who he thought was Donna.

The fact she baits him by using the information she's learned from his mind, that she lets him think the DoctorDonna showed her everything that happened with Flux and the Doctor's own mysterious origins. And it kills me because the Doctor hasn't been able to talk to anyone about this. Not in depth. Not at all. And they're finally in a body that can say stuff like love and hug with abandon, facing one of their best friends and she knows everything, the Doctor thinks, so for just a second the walls go down and he steps forward and he's about to unleash it all.

And then the mask comes off. And it's not Donna at all, but he's still stood there with everything on the tip of his toungue with no choice but to swallow it down again. To yell and kick and scream where no one can hear him. Just like it's always been.

This was exactly how I was hoping they'd incorporate Flux and The Timeless Child into the story. I'm really wishing they'll stick to these themes going forward, with the Doctor's guilt and anger finally bubbling up, because so much could be done with it.

For now though, I am just so happy we got this.

[slautertm]

hc + 💕 for a loved-themed headcanon, hc + 😴 for a sleep-themed headcanon, hc + 🏠 for a home-themed headcanon, hc + 😡 for a headcanon about something that makes them angry

hc + 💕 for a loved-themed headcanon there is something that is completely and utterly heartbreaking about stephanie lauter but something that is deeply important to me and that is the lack of love - ANY TYPE OF LOVE from familial love ( of course her mother loved her very much but that was so long ago she does not remember it at all ) to love between friends ( she has 'friends' but after seeing how the nerds interact she's not sure that they are proper friends ) to love with a partner. steph has done various type of romantic relationships and has liked some of the people but never really felt love. it's one of the many reasons that she is trying to deny that she's in love with pete so abruptly and so fast despite making moves. it scares her a little bit, how quickly she falls and she worries he might not feel the same or she's in too deep but she cannot lie to herself for too long. it's sort of a similar thing with making friends or finding family- she worries about being overbearing or something similar. she does not know how to deal with love. and does not expect to be loved.

hc + 😴 for a sleep-themed headcanon this is something i have mentioned in passing, in replies and such but steph has the hardest goddamn time sleeping ( made worse by you know. Trauma in some verses but you know when in hatchetfield ). save for those timelines in which she goes through it ( any iteration of nerdy prudes, fantasy, mildly in abstinence camp oddly, and more ) it has nothing to do with nightmares and is in part something to do with a bad schedule--- coming home from the day and not starting homework till ten or eleven at the earliest. on nights when she actually does homework at a proper time and she actually gets into her bed, she cannot shut her brain up and stop herself from thinking till the am hours aka- steph has really bad insomnia and sleeps a lot better with someone else in her bed Thank you.

hc + 🏠 for a home-themed headcanon you know that stupid cheesy saying that is like home is where the heart is? it really isn't something steph can understand for the longest time. the lauter home has not been a home for a LONG time--- the pantries are empty, the house is big and feels echo-y and the decor feels false, it's not a home. she doesn't feel at home there. she finds home in people until she moves out--- but that is not until she makes and finds actual connections. when she goes to other people's homes, she finds herself complimenting it a lot ( usually just commenting how nice or homey it is because she can't find other words ) but likes how alive it looks. like it's lived in, like it's more than just show.

hc + 😡 for a headcanon about something that makes them angry people controlling other people in any sort of way is something that pisses steph off to no end. we know this. she's got a problem with authority and as of such has an issue with both school faculty and one max and his stupid fucking god complex. some of this does stem from her dad and the pressure she has been under, but she also is a firm believer that no one has the right to be so controlling of another person.

[inblueropes]

yk sorry not sorry im probably gna end up talking here a LOT bc i have a ridiculously high libido AUHGADUGFKLDGLK so um....... welcome enjoy ur stay cries cries

[yeepof]

I understand that tall men are our POV characters, but surely being like a foot taller than everyone around them would have some occasional consequences

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

[mintaii]

death of the magician

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

[sadclowncentral]

I think if a fairy showed up at my house like yeah they are not real but there is narrative precedent for that. a fairy, if it existed, would show up at a house. i just need to suspend one disbelief everything else tracks. it's a big surprise, but a singular one. i would know how to get with the programm pretty quick.

if a walrus knocked at my door there would be many more fucking questions than one. a walrus showing up at my house? knowing that knocking is the required social etiquette? having reasons to knock on my door and somehow the ability to do that despite having no arms? said walrus coming to me of all people?? a walrus being real is the least of my concerns at that point why the fuck does it need my help what kind of problem can I solve that a socially aware and apparently findextrous walrus fucking can't

[evercelle]

bust... or maybe i'll take it all!

[brucie-baby]

the fact that alfred was the one to put up jason's memorial is so important to me

[jeanivere]

arthur morgan tiddies and tummy thats all im gonna say

[indigo6f00ff]

need to share an experience i had 30 minutes ago

(edit: thanks to @walks-the-ages for providing and reminding me to put alt text, sorry it slips my mind alot lol)

[yeepof]

Local PHD student at wizard school HARRASSED!! FOR SHAME!!

[crumb-crumblet-s-crumbington]

if only