#flemwadtm

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@flemwadtm ! <3

[ text : ruth 🦕] i'm going to the big game tonight [ text : ruth 🦕] steph asked me to go with her [ text : ruth 🦕] are you going??

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hc + 💕 for a loved-themed headcanon, hc + 😴 for a sleep-themed headcanon, hc + 🏠 for a home-themed headcanon, hc + 😡 for a headcanon about something that makes them angry

hc + 💕 for a loved-themed headcanon there is something that is completely and utterly heartbreaking about stephanie lauter but something that is deeply important to me and that is the lack of love - ANY TYPE OF LOVE from familial love ( of course her mother loved her very much but that was so long ago she does not remember it at all ) to love between friends ( she has 'friends' but after seeing how the nerds interact she's not sure that they are proper friends ) to love with a partner. steph has done various type of romantic relationships and has liked some of the people but never really felt love. it's one of the many reasons that she is trying to deny that she's in love with pete so abruptly and so fast despite making moves. it scares her a little bit, how quickly she falls and she worries he might not feel the same or she's in too deep but she cannot lie to herself for too long. it's sort of a similar thing with making friends or finding family- she worries about being overbearing or something similar. she does not know how to deal with love. and does not expect to be loved.

hc + 😴 for a sleep-themed headcanon this is something i have mentioned in passing, in replies and such but steph has the hardest goddamn time sleeping ( made worse by you know. Trauma in some verses but you know when in hatchetfield ). save for those timelines in which she goes through it ( any iteration of nerdy prudes, fantasy, mildly in abstinence camp oddly, and more ) it has nothing to do with nightmares and is in part something to do with a bad schedule--- coming home from the day and not starting homework till ten or eleven at the earliest. on nights when she actually does homework at a proper time and she actually gets into her bed, she cannot shut her brain up and stop herself from thinking till the am hours aka- steph has really bad insomnia and sleeps a lot better with someone else in her bed Thank you.

hc + 🏠 for a home-themed headcanon you know that stupid cheesy saying that is like home is where the heart is? it really isn't something steph can understand for the longest time. the lauter home has not been a home for a LONG time--- the pantries are empty, the house is big and feels echo-y and the decor feels false, it's not a home. she doesn't feel at home there. she finds home in people until she moves out--- but that is not until she makes and finds actual connections. when she goes to other people's homes, she finds herself complimenting it a lot ( usually just commenting how nice or homey it is because she can't find other words ) but likes how alive it looks. like it's lived in, like it's more than just show.

hc + 😡 for a headcanon about something that makes them angry people controlling other people in any sort of way is something that pisses steph off to no end. we know this. she's got a problem with authority and as of such has an issue with both school faculty and one max and his stupid fucking god complex. some of this does stem from her dad and the pressure she has been under, but she also is a firm believer that no one has the right to be so controlling of another person.

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[ text : ruth 🦕] i don't know... everyone else might be too busy with getting busy to pay us losers any mind [ text : ruth 🦕] okay, who said i'd be dancing with stephanie lauter? going to the big game is one thing, but a school dance?? [ text : ruth 🦕] bullying is a conscious effort. of course, some people already know your name and choose to ignore it [ text : ruth 🦕] but it does feel better

[ TEXT : PETE 🦸‍♂️ ] : us??? being allowed to go to a school dance unharmed?? [ TEXT : PETE 🦸‍♂️ ] : i know things are good, but that sounds mighty icarian of us to attempt [ TEXT : PETE 🦸‍♂️ ] : well, at least me. you'll be dancing with stephanie lauter lucky [ TEXT : PETE 🦸‍♂️ ] : i'm just now realizing people know my name to begin with??? and not in a "hey brace face, go play in traffic" kinda way

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@flemwadtm​​​​ : "so… there are 24 million pigs in australia… and 24 million people… so if you ever feel lonely, there's like, a pig out there that's sort of your cosmic twin."

should he be comforted by what could barely be called a fun fact? ruth has his full attention, there's no doubt about that-- although, pete starts to think about it for a second longer, and his brows furrow with confusion, his hand lifting in attempt to pause the conversation as he clarifies. "australia? really? i'd be impressed, but the idea of being so lonely that you'd have to rely on what, a pig? not the 24 million actual human beings? is that what it comes down to?" he sighs. "that's so depressing."

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[ TEXT : STEPH ] : 7-9 hours of sleep are for people who are NOT riddled with impending doom and anxiety... or who aren't super hot and cool and have plans [ TEXT : STEPH ] : i'll leave it up to you which one i am 😅 [ TEXT : STEPH ] : i think i'm okay???? it's just all feeling super real, you know? i think you know how it feels the best. us staying here. our hot boyfriends going there. [ TEXT : STEPH ] : chris got accepted to college in nyc. and i'm so crazy happy for him OBVIOUSLY [ TEXT : STEPH ] : but like... he's hot. and i'm... me. what if he finds some super hot theatre girl in the city?

[ text : ruth ] : we should tell that to pete because i may be lightly reminding you because i fully got reminded but ruth i don't fucking sleep either so i feel it. [ text : ruth ] : and No. bad ruth brain hush. deep breaths. i can send you some calming songs if need be. [ text : ruth ] : but yeah. i think i know what you mean about that. both on the impending doom and everything kinda sorta hitting suddenly. [ text : ruth ] : i don't know what you mean by me because you are one of the coolest people i know ruth. in like. every way. [ text : ruth ] : but also hi. chris is like? completely and utterly in love with you? like head over heels cheesy musical theater romance in love you with you. i know my words only mean so much but i also can tell you i don't think even if he's going far away and its hard he's not going to be roaming or even looking at those nyc gals. [ text : ruth ] : would it make you feel better if i tell you i feel / worry the same about pete?

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[ text : ruth 🦕] you think so? i'm trying not to think about it too much or i might just have a heart attack in the process [ text : ruth 🦕] but fuck yeah! [ text : ruth 🦕] do you think we'd be allowed to go to the homecoming dance, too?

[ TEXT : PETE 🦸‍♂️ ] : i don't know, pete. i think you were always kinda freakin cool. i mean, you were asked on a date by STEPHANIE LAUTER before all of this even happened so [ TEXT : PETE 🦸‍♂️ ] : it's about time we got some nerd visibility instead of nerd erasure in these halls 🖖

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[ text : ruth 🦕] really covering all of our bases there, ruth [ text : ruth 🦕] us? cool? it wouldn't be the first time i've gotten my hopes up for nothing. i'd say we all saw what happened last time, but... i guess it kinda led to this? [ text : ruth 🦕] i like the sound of that though

[ TEXT : PETE 🦸‍♂️ ] : yeah??? it's like they know we got rid of max jagerman [ TEXT : PETE 🦸‍♂️ ] : which we DIDN'T @ mr. government man in my phone [ TEXT : PETE 🦸‍♂️ ] : it's LIKE we did [ TEXT : PETE 🦸‍♂️ ] : i'm trying not to think too much about it and just embrace the fact that maybe this is how people wanted to be all along?? maybe max jagerman was so cool that it just eclipsed everything else and this is our chance to be cool???

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[ text : ruth 🦕] well, when you put it that way... [ text : ruth 🦕] i don't see why not? i don't know, i haven't had any problems with literally anyone since... you know. i think we're in the clear [ text : ruth 🦕] have people been suspiciously nice to you, too?

[ TEXT : PETE 🦸‍♂️ ] : 👀👀👀 [ TEXT : PETE 🦸‍♂️ ] : you know what i think i AM going [ TEXT : PETE 🦸‍♂️ ] : seeing a bunch of guys throw their arms around each other and tackle each other to the ground?? it's kinda homoerotic and kinda hot?? [ TEXT : PETE 🦸‍♂️ ] : you think they'll actually let us stand and cheer in the student section??