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sleepyfaceandsnark · 2 years ago

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Fic writer interview

Tagged by the boo @bellafarella

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

116.

I used to have close to 300 but I deleted or orphaned a lot of them (especially the 5 sentence prompts which were like 50 lmao) and some I was just not liking or felt I could've done better or felt like I could add it to another fic instead.

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

340,713 --- damn i didn't even know this existed. I wonder how much it ws before I deleted lmaoo

3. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Actions Speak Louder Than Words - Ian/Mickey 753 kudos

I Don't Love You, But I Always Will - Ian/Mickey 723 kudos

Parent/Teacher Conference - Ian/Mickey 712 kudos

Frank Fucking Gallagher - Ian /Mickey 644 kudos

Never Have I Ever - Ian / Mickey 540 kudos

genuinely surprised by these lol

4. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Always! Or try my best to. I lovee getting comments. Half the time I write it's just to see people's comments or tags lol. Idk they make me happy (unless they're mean)

5. What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

Yikes lol well I have several death fics so those? lol

The Highwayman

Skype Calls

If You Loved Me, Why'd You Leave Me?

6. What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?

Happiest oof...hmm Soul Meets Body where Bucky and Steve get reunited after Bucky gets trapped in the soul stone and they retire? Or the gallavich one where Ian wakes up and Mickey never got arrested (post s5) and they're good.

I have a lot more but those are usually just fluff oneshots not a whole story

7. Do you write crossovers? If so, what is the craziest one you’ve written?

I think I've only technically done one. It was where Mickey gets attacked by a Djinn and basically ends up seeing the mickey version of what Dean saw in the Supernatural episode "What is and What Should Never Be". If I recall Sam and Dean saved him.

oh and the She's the Man Fic I don't remember if it had characters from the movie or not though lmaoo but maybe. I'll have to reread

8. Have you ever received hate on a fic?

Oh yes. Usually they didn't like where I went with it. (even though i'd make it obvious). Accuse me of not knowing the characters. And that one person that got mad me and @bellafarella made lip too "likeable" ?? weirdos. Always had issues with the shameless fandom with giving nasty comments tbh.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Not anymore tbh. I like putting them in turmoil instead.

10. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Actually I think so?? Or they tried it. Def had someone write a fic about my fic which was interesting.

11. Have you ever had a fic translated?

OH yes! A lot of gallavich ones

12. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yes! So far just the Shameless/She’s the man crossover fic with @bellafarella

13. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

Stevebucky </3

14. What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

All the one in my head but especially 1960's stevebucky, musician stevebucky, and deathfic but plot twist not a death fic stevebucky but like I said they're in my head and have been for yearss

15. What are your writing strengths?

angst lol I used to be really good at description but my brain has rotted through the years lmaoo

16. What are your writing weaknesses?

Grammar. Commas confuse me and dont get me started on ;. Passive voice or active voice (apparently) , repeating words too often. I need to get good at description again and better word choice.

17. What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

It depends. As long as it's in character and the correct way for it to be typed. Otherwise I'd put "says in ___ " or what not

18. What was the first fandom you wrote for?

Shameless US or a long time ago when I started a fic for Crisis Core but i never got far at all

19. What’s a fandom/ship you haven’t written for yet but want to?

Currently none. Ask me a month ago I would've said Tarlos

20. What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

I'm too lazy to look through my Ian/Mickey ones but i had a lot of faves there.

My Lakehouse Stevebucky fic is my favorite as of late Distant Lover, One Day I'll Hold You Like the Sun Holds the Moon

Tagging: idk who to tag in these anymore lol so anyone that wants to do it :D

#bellafarella #<3 #fic questionaire #stevebucky #tarlos #gallavich #fic writing #slowly but surely getting back into it

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kanohivolitakk · 3 years ago

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Have you done Krekka for the ask game? I know you're a huge Nidhiki fan, curious if you have any thoughts on his partner?

I haven't gotten Krekka yet actually. So far I only done Toa Ignika and Axonn for the Bionicle ask game (which Im still accepting). That being said great choice. Krekka isn't necessarily a big favorite of mine (partially because I'm not that fond of the "dumb brute" archetype barring a few exceptions), but I have to admit I do have a soft spot for the big guy. Krekka is a relatively simple character when it comes to characterization/backstory/role in the story (especially when compared to Nidhiki), but that doesn't mean I don't have any "deeper" thoughts regarding him or that there isnt stuff worth discussing.

Anyways some thoughts/headcanons/general musings:

This is a weird thing to start with but... Krekka is kinda adorable for me. I think its kinda this ...overgrown puppy (bulldog??) vibe due to his loyalty and dumbness. I admit BOADH is a big reason for me feeling this way since it gave him a few moments that made me go "AWWW he's so cute". Just..love his loyalty so much.

His undying loyalty makes him stand out for me across the other dark hunters. While many dark hunters we ha e are opportunistic and schemy, Krekka is just...very loyal. Maybe too much so. But I love that he is loyal. Feels refreshing tbh.

And now I cant help but feel that TSO is just "guys stupid but at least he wont double cross me and is easy to keep in check" when it comes to him.

Not to go woobifying villains but I genuinely dont think the guys that bad. Hes just really stupid, overly loyal and doing his job. Its kinda like w Lariska being a decent person despite being a knife happy murder girl although to a much lesser extent since guys a literalminded fool and also just smashy boy.

I do like his backstory of being a former guard who lost his job and started wreck havoc until one day a dark hunter found and hired him. It isnt anything too complex but it works well for his character and explains why he is so loyal to Dark Hunters. It also helps bringing a bit more light to his homeland and I love when we get more info of places through character backstories, makes the world feel more real that way.

Also can Gorast please stop hurting charaxters I like. This is the reason shes my least favorite character in the 2001-2008 storyline that isnt just a glorified extra or a plot device.

When it comes to Krekka, one scene I always think of when I think of him is in BOADH where he temporarily forgot to fly and Nidhiki was just "WAIT A MOMENT LARISKA TOLD ME YOU CAN FLY????" and Krekka just goes "whoops I forgot". That was adorable honestly. You dumb idiot, forgot you could fly.

Also, I know he's kinda "the idiot character", and while I am NOT saying he isn't, I do think its worth pointing out that he's basically literal minded. In BOADH (again) when Nidhiki tried to do that training scenario Krekka basically was like "wait I’m here, there’s nothing there why should I move there". This is

Another thing I really like about Krekka is that how, despite being an absolute idiot and tool, he still is willing to sometimes not take Nidhikis bullshit, see preventing him from getting the Zamor launchers (geez BOADH did a lot for this guys characterization lmao)

I sometimes call him truck boy because his name is one letter off my languages word for truck.

Also unless canon/word of Greg says otherwise I don't think every member of his species is as stupid as him. Like possibly on similar level but still.

It is made pretty clear that Nidhiki couldn't stand Krekka at all, but I do genuinely wonder how Krekka feels about Nidhiki. Based on the little we have I'd say he liked him to some extent or at the very least, didn't hate him to the same degree. I also have to wonder how aware he was about Nidhikis haterd towards him.

I also love the idea that when Nidhiki was mutated, Krekka just...wasnt afraid of him at slightest, no fear in this dumb boy. (I also like the idea he didnt recognize him at first and Nidhiki just, had to explain to his thick skull who he was. It took a while but eventually he got it.)

On a related note, I find it interesting how the LOMN website describes him working with Nidhiki because guy knows where to get the good jobs or something rather than being his goverment (read TSO) assigned partner The way the twos relationship were described makes it feel that by this point the staff hadnt figured out what they wanted to do with Dark Hunters , or if it even was an organization or just these two tools.

Its really interesting for me how Krekkas characterization not only varies between the books/comics (where hes more intimidating and him being a simpleton isnt as pronounced) and the movie (where hes more of a dumbass) but also how his characterization evolved. Like, his loyalty wasn't that pronounced trait but now I feel its just as important part of him as him being a dumbass (which is to say, very interesting)

I remember how the aftoermentoined Metru Nui movie website described that Krekka hated toa to the point wouldve hunted them for free if Nidhiki didnt make sure the two would get paid. I feel this is somewhat early installment weirdness as it isnt mentioned anywhere else but at the same time Krekka being willing to fight without payment sounds 1000% in character if you ask me

Something I have been confused over: when exactly was Krekka recruited to the dark hunters??? The timeline is very vague about this and I wish we knew.

It's been AGES since I watched my home countrys dub of LOMN but what I recall I really liked Krekka's voice in that dub. He sounded more badass and I loved it, the VA had a pretty unique sound. Sadly dont think there is any clips of the LOMN dub, which is a shame. UPDATE: I rewatched the dub and I love the voice itself but felt the voice direction made him sound kinda inconsistent

This is more a "Nidhiki and Krekka related thought" rather than just Krekka related but one thing I really like about Krekka and Nidhiki is that how they are like a more serious and competent take of "those two evil henchmen with contrasting personalities" trope. Often these types of villains are rather goofy, but these two could be rather dangerous as well and I really like that. I also like their dynamic of just doing Nidhiki being done with Krekkas bullshit. One of the main reasons I wish LOMN was a miniseries rather than a movie is because I really wanted more screentime with the two.

On a related note can I JUST SAY I LOVE the way the two compliment/pararell each other. From design (Krekka being bulky mostly blue colored, Nidhiki being slender and monstrous, mostly green colored) to personality (Krekka being foolish and simpleminded but loyal Nidhiki being cunning and ambitious but treacherous) to powersets (Krekka being strong physical attacker, Nidhiki being weaker(??) but faster and more special attacker).Heck, even their backstories have similarities as they both lost their orginal purpose in one way or another and didnt have anywhere to go but Dark Hunters (the main difference being that Nidhiki inflicted his fate upon himself by betraying the toa while Krekka didnt really do anything iirc)

Now for something crossovery, Krekkas and Nidhikis dynamic reminds me a lot of Kronk and Yzma from Emperors New Groove. Yes I have drawn a parody of the "pull the lever kronk" meme, yes I intend to make more screencap redraws. They also remind me a lot of Mummymon and Archenemon from Digimon 02, partially due to the dynamic (smug spider that tries to be cunning and intimidating but gets outclassed by most other villains in that + loyal blue dumb boy) partially due to their ultimate fate being rather similar.

I don't know how familiar you are with the franchise, but Krekka reminds me a fair bit of Gamel, one of the four villain generals in Kamen Rider OOOs, mainly because "the dumb brute major villain that's kinda cuteish and loyal a f while everyone else is an asshole".

I remember reading a p good oneshot fic that was just him accidentally killing a civilian when all he wanted was a hug and...honestly that is p much what I imagine him being like. Guy may be strong, reckless and a fool but like I said I dont think hes all that bad and just a puppy. An overgrown, moronic puppy but a puppy nontheless

For AUs, I remember I have thought once of "What if Krekka survived but Nidhiki died" and just ...guy wouldve been very lost and confused and unsure what to do tbh. He would most likely returned to Dark Hunters but Mata Nui knows how say TSO wouldve felt about that. Its not too complex au yet but I am thinking of developing it further one day.

Thank you for asking.

Sorry this took longer than expected. I had too many thoughts and half of them were deleted so. I hope its worth the wait tho. I do have a lot of Krekka thoughts and tbh wasnt sure if I was even able to get them all here.

(I am still doing the ask game so if anyone wants to send me a bonkle I will try to give thoughts, meta and headcanons on them)

#ask game #bionicle #Krekka

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shidiand · 6 years ago

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How do you imagine Tenco's Story ending in your head?

that is a GREAT but UNEXPECTED QUESTION freshlybaked "spider" bread and i'm really happy to have the opportunity to try and answer this ageless question that has burned within all of us in the tenco's story iv waiting room community since 2013. it is an incredible coincidence (or is it? 👀) that i was just talking to Risa about tenco's this (edit: yesterday) morning so i am extra double super in the mood to talk about Tenco's Story today. so excellent of a coincidence is this that i am tempted to refer you to them in case you wanted to hear their thoughts on the matter that would probably turn out super cool, but that is neither here nor there; let us talk Tenco's Story.

i of course must mention my unadvertised and modestly detailed commentary on tenco's i-iii at https://shidiand.tumblr.com/tencos, presenting slightly interesting facts in an unwieldy and difficult-to-use format, but as it dates back to june 2017, i want to take some time to understand my feelings about the series once more.

tenco's story is a series that has a lot of meaning to me.

i took on my current name of shidiand in november of 2013. i was still in 11th grade at the time, 4th year of high school, and a very socially isolated person. i should say i was introduced to touhou in 7th grade, 2010, so i was still working through a 3 years-strong phase of trying to simultaneously both find an outlet for and bottle up an endless wellspring of awkward weeaboo-gamer nerd energy at the time.

i had my first real foray onto the internet in 2010, tried out twitter, followed some RPers and other people who had Cool Touhou Usernames. didn't really go anywhere. i had maybe 50 followers, i dont really know the count but it was definitely a) double digits and b) pretty low. didn't know what to tweet about. didn't know how to hit it off with others. i think there was basically maybe only 3 other people i ever properly interacted with. oh shit i was playing league of legends at the time. oh my god. i really did play league of .. oh my god. let's move on.

aw shit im super digressing amn't i. well.

this is just how it goes when i write essays on tumblr.com.

i'm afraid you're just along for the ride at this point so please do your best to enjoy it.

i got kind of tired of twitter at the time because i didnt know what to do with it. didnt know how to interact with people and didnt find the people i was following interesting, so i ghosted on out of there by the end of 2012. didnt deactivate it until like 2015 but at that point that was just burning away my dark history. anyways. november 2013.

--im taking a lot of time here trawling through old files on my computer, my tumblr blog, notification emails still lying around in my gmail inbox from twitter, the dropbox i didn't actually use but it had several tenco's story pictures on it but i deleted them so this was useless, ... to trace the timeline of this story and im really seeing a lot of remnants of dark history here you know? did you know i wrote a letter to a girl i had a crush on valentine's day 2014, slipped it into her locker, and anxiously hung around nearby at lunchtime to see how she reacted at lunchtime? i certainly didn't, or at least i made darn ass sure to forget about this incredible virgin incident and not remember it, ever, until i came across the records of it that i thoughtfully preserved for the me of 5 years later today. ok well now i have to read the letter to see if it was as bad as it just sounded there brb

ok so the good news is that it was actually very focused on being positive and full of admiration for the cool things she did instead of being a confession letter so i am very glad i was able to be a respectful chad 5 years ago, but the bad news is that the jokes, the actual sentences i put together. oh my god. but i mean. well. at least i got the spirit. its certainly a step up from this other person in my grade, WEEABOO ANDREW, YOU MAY RECALL THIS STORY AND HIS NAME FROM PREVIOUS STORYTIMES, THE MAN THE MYTH THE LEGEND who came to school on halloween once cosplaying kirito from sword art online and got very possessive about people asking if they could hold his black replica plastic sword, and probably worse, dropped a "will you be my girlfriend" letter into the locker of my homie and fellow trombonist samantha, who was a little bit nerdy, hung out with the anime-likers who were actually sociable and fun to be around so you can imagine why weeaboo andrew was into her, which had i) a direct quotation from SAO chapter 16.5 (origin of the famous "glopping noise" line), and ii) a condom. jesus christ. i dont want to talk about this any more. next topic.

i also put this drawing of iku nagae and her skarmory (actually an albinoss from 18 DRAGONS) on the other side of the letter because it was the coolest thing i could think of drawing at the time. and i completely agree with 2014 me because it IS super fucking cool. hell fuckin yeah

https://shidiand.tumblr.com/post/76301993387/iku-nagae-ft-that-thing-that-supposedly-is-a

alright that was a fun little trip down memory lane but lets get back on track. november 2013. i started anew as shidiand. still awkward, still learning how to express myself and looking for my place among others. i followed some touhou bloggers, hung around r/touhou a lot as well. in december i got my first tablet for christmas, a wacom bamboo splash. i still use this thing! the usb cable disconnects if you bump it so i have to find just the perfect position to sit in whenever i want to draw, but its served me well. anyways. i was just starting to play around with digital art but i remember, probably just before new years, for some reason i wanted to find out more about tenshi hinanawi (i don't remember why. tenshi wasn't even one of my favourite characters at the time) so i went googling and right there on zerochan i found this:

https://www.pixiv.net/member_illust.php?mode=medium&illust_id=23525572

this was during my dark souls phase so i just went BANANAS at the sight of this. this was literally the coolest image i had ever seen in my internet life. That image alone made me want to draw in hopes that I could make something as cool as that someday.

it wasn't immediately after but i soon discovered tenco's story, and it was love. kannnu was my very first artistic inspiration, and for a long time, my only one. i absolutely idolized them at the time. since then, ive found other artists to look up to, in a more healthy manner, but to this day i still look up to kannnu, still admire their work a lot.

i played around with drawing, followed the lives of people on tumblr, started reading touhou fanfiction, made a new twitter. i met a lot of new people along the way. some people i havent stuck with, some i cut ties with, and some people i still keep in contact with today. over those long 5 years of being shidiand, i found a name (i used to use shidian and then shid, but someone called me shidi once and i realized that was a lot better), how to reach out to others, how to express myself, places that i could feel included in. this is why i owe a blood debt to evelyn, who permitted me to kneel at her throne and was like "yea ok you can join my discord server u seem cool". evelyn, if you were confused by me ominously mentioning this blood debt/blood oath in a tumblr reply 1-2 years ago, this is the context. those 5 years were like a coming of age of sorts, that i never had when i was in high school.

and my love for tenco's story, that inspired me to draw that day, has been with me since almost the very beginning of my time as shidiand. from the beginning, i have always encouraged people to READ TENCO'S STORY, like the kin of those who cry PLAY MELTY or WATCH SYMPHOGEAR. i think my very first sidebar description was something akin to a prayer, written in very choral language, hoping for the day tenco's story iv was completed, ..., "meanwhile, furious shitposting". kannnu's work, finding delight in whatever they chose to draw, has been at my side, all along. my true mentor, my guiding moonlight...

so that's why i still to this day love tenco's story so much.

let's talk about tenco's story.

tenco's story is a story told through single pictures. the plot is vague, and details are sparse. dialogue is rare. we only know what has happened; we seldom know why. furthermore, there are many gaps between scenes that the reader is left to fill in for themselves; we see only snapshots that form an hazy outline of the events that occurred, and must imagine the rest. motivations and explanations fail me. but even with a barebones plot, tenco's story has themes, and if nothing else, those have to be carried through.

the main theme, of course, is journey and travel, but there are also other ideas, too. i actually think they start to change as the series goes on:

book i, where tenshi runs away from home, is about striking out on your own. it's a very fun and unpredictable journey, together with a friend.

book ii, where tenshi and iku are separated, forces tenshi to find and rely on companions of her own even more. but they do so, and they are able overcome hardships, and there is food and festival.

book iii marks a climax, reasserting tenshi's goal of finding the sword of hisou. i feel like the journey shifts from a travel (visiting) to a path forwards (making your way through). perhaps this is just something i get from knowing the locations from dark souls (Anor Londo, New Londo Ruins, the Great Hollow), but the locations start to give more of a sense of verticality, like they're emphasizing tenshi's climb to the summit. the hardships and enemies are the greatest they've been yet, and right when they near the top, tenshi and iku start to bleed. the book ends on an uncertain note.

if i had to describe the type of journey and travel that tenshi and iku undertake, there's this sense of wonder at discovering new places, wandering from vista to vista in delight, but also a sense of conquering, making it through a difficult patch. the sequence from pages 2-44 to 2-51, taken together, convey this sense of overcoming the best. it's one of my favourite parts. again, although the tone definitely starts to lean towards struggle in book iii, i think tenco's sense of wonder really is the heart of the series. there's no map of the world, no predicting where tenshi and iku will end up next. and through their travels, though they come across many enemies, they also find friends -- places of refuge, places full of life, people who will look after them for a few days, companions who will stay with them for the rest of the journey. at the end of book iii, we see a long haired tenshi with purple hair being impaled by the sword of hisou (3-33, see also this extra illustration that risa pointed out to me http://sinnnkai.blog.fc2.com/blog-entry-195.html), and regular short haired tenshi continuing on her journey (3-42). if we ignore the out-of-story images where tenshi has the sword of hisou, tenshi has actually only ever used her sunlight blade (2-24, 3-26, etc), so i think that the long haired tenshi on 3-33 is a different person altogether. (if i had to guess, she might be the purple haired woman in the top left of https://www.pixiv.net/member_illust.php?mode=medium&illust_id=35443328 as we have never seen that woman appear anywhere.) she probably has something to do with the flashbacks at the end of book ii and she might somehow be short-haired tenshi at the same time, but this is just speculation.

however, in 3-43, tenshi's hair is rather blue, so i don't know if this is the purple haired woman or not. if it is, tenshi is probably still fine and closing in on the summit, but if it isn't, then it's very worrying to see a picture of tenshi without any of her companions. it's very ominous.

meanwhile, iku, while climbing the red carpeted corridor, is stabbed, and disappears for a few pages. there's a black page, a shot of a shrine that strongly resembles the hakurei shrine, and a picture of iku standing behind someone in a tux, with the line "In the past, I was saved by the lady I was serving, you see?". and then iku wakes up in a field of flowers.

i think what this scene makes clear is a theme that has continued to appear and reappear throughout every book of "being saved, being aided by someone's kindness".

i think another theme that is implied and has to be addressed by this story of running away from home is "return". something im imagining is that the reason tenshi makes finding the sword of hisou her goal is because she wants to have something to prove herself with, to vindicate her when she comes home. but i don't think she needs to prove anything, and i ultimately think that she would be happier spending the rest of her life exploring.

so i think this should be what happens in the ending.

open on iku's journey, and give her a long sequence of travel without seeing tenshi. underline her newfound resolve. she climbs to the summit with albinoss, and finds the rest of tenshi's companions fallen. and in the last room is sword of hisou tenshi, who has lost herself, and it comes down to iku to bring her back. after a difficult battle, when both of them are on their last legs, iku is unable to stand any longer. but at this moment tenshi sees her companions struggling to get back up and reach her, and that's what brings her to her senses. and iku gets to see how many friends tenshi's been able to make on her own, and they finally and properly reunite. together, tenshi and iku carry each other out of the last room.

i don't think it's necessary to return to heaven. as a conclusion, dedicate some time to tenshi and iku travelling together. they're on their way back, revisiting old friends who helped them along the way, enjoying the journey. their last stop is the house of the elderly nawis (1-42). tenshi shows off the sword of hisou; she decided to keep it not as a trophy to show her family but as proof of the bonds of her companions. surrounded by friends, tenshi and iku decide to part ways with each other, knowing that the other will be alright. iku drifts among the clouds once more, and tenshi sets off for the horizon.

that's the plot that i'd write/just wrote. i don't really expect tenco's story iv to ever come out, though. i mentioned my first sidebar description earlier in this essay, but of course, you can see that it's been changed. 2 years ago, i read my hopeful prayer once more and was struck with a terrible melancholy, so now it reads this: "having come to terms with the fact that tenco's story iv will never be released, i can still live, knowing that the spirit of the journey will live on through kannnu's original works [...] meanwhile, furious shitposting".

on one level, tenco's story is a story, but in the process of following it, i came to think of the work itself as a journey too. you can constantly see kannnu's improvement between and even within each book. they have always drawn whatever they liked; what plot matters in the face of "I wanted to draw a beautiful sky." "I wanted to draw a fantastic battle." "I wanted to draw Dark Souls and Monster Hunter and Pokemon and Brave Fencer Musashi and Bokura no Taiyou and Touhou."

its not really kannnu's style to go back and tie up old ends. they just draw whatever makes them happy. so as i watch them continue to draw beautiful places and fantastic creatures, new characters heading out on journeys of their own or just enjoying their everyday lives, it's as if tenco's story never ended. the limits and consistency of that world ignored, and a new one springs up; in a way, the world of tenco's, which had such thin boundaries, just gets bigger.

but even so, having said all that, i still see them draw that short-haired tenshi from time to time. it makes me happy to see them remember tenco's story with such fondness. often crossing over with orion or roar or elweiss, you can see tenshi on another journey.

#tenco's story #freshlybakedspiderbread

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1800-seungshine · 7 years ago

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ludic.

member: park woojin. genre(s): high school!au, hoobae!woojin summary: ludic. (adj) - full of fun and high spirits. in which park woojin finds himself entangled in the antics of the school’s troublemaker sunbae. (requested - bullet point format) word count: 1.6k

note: the very first request ever on this blog! thank you so much to the anon that sent this ;; i was going to format it in paragraphs but somehow i ended up going bullet-point format and and i don’t know i feel nervous presenting this bc i fear that it won’t reach your expectations but i hope that you’ll like it anon! btw, thank you so much for all the reblogs, likes and follows that i’ve received throughout the week. it means a lot to me heheh! i’ll try to continue working hard ;; i really, seriously, truthfully, completely, thank you all! < 3333

you were known around the school as the school’s lucky trouble maker

notorious for pulling light-hearted pranks, sleeping through classes or completely skipping it, and occasionally picking fights (which fyi is often bc of something you find injustice and for students can’t stand up for themselves so you just butt in and use your fists as a representative)

and for majority of the trouble you cause, you usually escape the consequences and get out of it with light warnings and punishment

hence the ‘lucky’ bit in your title

basically you’re the definition of the ‘c package’

authornim what in the world is a ‘c package’ - well obvs you wouldn’t know cos i made it up duh.

cute, charming and cool. (it’s as lame as me i know but i’m proud)

everyone just loves you okay

well,,, not really everyone bc there are a few students (mainly the ones you picked fights with) who hate your guts and a few teachers who don’t know what fun means

but somewhere within the school, there’s one person who doesn’t really get the memo and is confused on why everyone’s whipped for you

introducing park woojin everybody

the first time he heard about you was from a conversation one lunch break when his friends were fanboying talking about you. “who are you talking about?”

inserts daehwi’s dramatic gasp “oH mY gOd YoU dON’T knOW?!?! lol bye you’re deleted. idk who you are.”

he earned a lot of insults from his friends in one sitting that day

“have you been living under a rock” - park jihoon

“how dumb are you to not know who y/n sunbae is, you’ve been here for as long as she has.” - bae jinyoung

“hyung, are you sure you’re not the foreign student, like wth even i know who y/n is.” - lai guanlin

he felt so attacked, “well i didn’t know it was requirement to know who this person is to be socially accepted here.”

but dw his ass was forgiven after he got forced to listen to the four of them educating him about you, “don’t you feel enlightened now?” cue woojin’s eyes going 360 into the galaxy bc he done w/ their crap

aNYWAYS BACK TO THE STORY

woojin just hears numerous stories about you like how you once won this verbal fight against this rude popular senior and her clique who were bullying a tenth grade student, or the time you pulled a prank on this serious teacher that no one saw laugh until you placed a whoopee cushion on his seat (you still got detention for that though smh), or when you were the matchmaker for pdhpe teachers, mr. park and ms. kang who are now the school’s couple goals and just other great things about you

so apart from that one time when he was zoning out in maths class and out of the window he saw you climbing over the school’s fence to skip class (he finally understood why some students refer to you as the cute fence girl)

woojin has never really encountered you before

which is really strange bc he’s developing a slight crush on you after hearing what other people say and also seeing you from afar during lunch breaks

like the sound of your personality is like making his heart go ‘!!!!’ and he can’t even explain what he’s feeling

but he’s blaming his friends for it

and so this all changed when a classmate of yours pranked you by pouring a bucket of water at you one lunch break and in return you started a water fight in the cafeteria

the principal heard about the chaos and started to quickly head that way

so he witnessed you pull the fire alarm and he calls your name with pure rage that you were damn sure he was gonna hulk smash you

“HEY MR. KIM. BYE MR. KIM.”

you made a run for it

mEANWHILE woojin just left the library and was walking towards the school canteen

from afar he sees this girl coming closer and closer, running as if her life depended on it (cos it lowkey actually did) and he had this feeling that it was you

so as soon as you came close enough that his eyes could make clear of your appearance, he was proven right

but further along the distance, he also sees the teachers who suck up to the principal and the principal himself trying to catch up to you

and being the smart kid he is, woojin moves to the side so he doesn’t block your way

however, you weren’t exactly the brightest during that moment and thought that he’d have to snitch on where you were gonna go and get you in more trouble

hence why you grabbed his hand and woojin’s now running with you.

rip woojin

you two manage to pass the school gates, cross the traffic light and hide into an alleyway seconds before the teachers reach up the gates

so you’re both heavily panting, he’s sh00k and awkward bc wth he didn’t even sign up for this crap but he immediately forgives you once he hears you break into laughter, causing him to do the same

“sorry for dragging you.” you say sheepishly as you send an apologetic smile, “in my head, i was thinking you could have snitched and you could put me in more trouble but now that i realise, you wouldn’t have known where i was going in the first place.”

“and now i got you into trouble too.” you mumbled to yourself sadly before your bottom lip juts into a pout

legit his heart started to parkour in his chest when he saw you pout bc he didn’t know you could be this cute??? like he expected it but he didn’t really expect it yknow

“ah, no..uhm...” he replies with a shy smile, “it’s..uh...it’s okay. i don’t mind.”

what a shy awkward bean omg omg dONT YOU JUST LOVE HIM

you let out a chuckle as you look at him, casually going on your toes to pat his head, “you’re pretty cute, park woojin.”

woojin was sure he was gonna melt into a puddle after that like he doesn’t even know if he’s breathing or nah but whatever- he’s standing next to his crush who just called him cute. hE GOT CALLED CUTE. BY HIS CRUSH.

w a i t

“uh...h-how did you know my name?” he says in a confused manner bc he doesn’t seem to remember telling you-

you point at the right side of his chest, “well the name tag says park woojin and i’m assuming that you’re the park woojin that the younger students are talking about.”

“o-oh.”

w a i t p t 2

“what?” he says after recalling the second bit of your words.

“you don’t know?” you say to him before you clear your throat and begin to imitate one of the ninth grade girls you tend to overhear, “park woojin - cute snaggletooth oppa. the most adorable awkward bean with reversal charms; he’s super shy but really sexy when he dances. ah, he’s so dreamy.”

you end your acting as you clasp your hands together and you start to laugh as you notice the dark shade of red on his cheeks, paired with his red ears.

“i didn’t know i was seen in that kind of light.” he shyly mutters to himself causing you to grin even more bc damn this boi is kinda really cute.

“well, i can kinda see why they think of you that way.” you reply back with another grin as you notice his cheeks becoming red once again, “you just don’t know about it since the younger grades are good about keeping it lowkey from the seniors.”

you look out of the alley, knowing that the teachers would have given up looking for you and you turn back around to him with another breathtaking smile.

“well, you’re not really going to get any punishment apart from a detention since i’ll take all the blame for today, so mr. reversal charms how about i make up for causing you trouble by spending the rest of the school hours, skipping classes with me?”

woojin remains in silence, almost as if he’s deciding your offer

but lmao he’s just freaking out internally bc you’re making his heart beat even faster than usual and it’s unhealthy for his kokoro plus how will he act cool around you?!?!?

however you considered his silence as a yes and you take his hand into yours, gently dragging him causing his heart to flip. “i won’t take no for an answer, park woojin and even if it’s my first time to use it to be authoritative, you should say yes to your sunbae.”

“o-okay, sunbaenim.” “good.”

so now you’re just both walking wherever your feet may lead you like what you usually do when you skip classes

but his eyes are fixed on both of your hands and you look at where he’s looking before you flash a grin at him, “let’s just say that your hand looked heavy so i’m here to help you with that.”

“wow she’s pretty cheesy. more emphasis on the pretty bit though.”

he hears you burst into laughter and he instantly covers his mouth with his free hand, realising that he didn’t just think it but he said it too.

“d-did i say that out loud? god, i didn’t mean to. i swear- i’m so sorry ahh...this is so embarrassing.”

but you’re just there laughing and quite close to tears which makes him lowkey satisfied bc even if he embarrassed himself in front of you, he’s making you smile (ong my goodness this is so pure and cheesy idek)

after you calm yourself down, you shake your head in amusement. “don’t be sorry, if anything, i’m kinda glad that my dumb ass dragged you, park woojin.”

and so for the rest of the day, woojin finds himself falling for you harder than he had imagined.

maybe getting into trouble will be worth it after all.

#park woojin #woojin #produce 101 #produce 101 season 2 #wanna one imagines #wanna one scenarios #wanna one #woojin imagines #woojin scenarios #im wheezing #woojin getting me bent #im so whipped for wanna one #i told myself that ong would be the ongly one #hahah get it #anyways im being unloyal but im proud

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adityafulia · 4 years ago

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DISCLOSURES

Not a while after i arrived in Jakarta, Friday night, i went home, received message, she apologized because she couldnot pick me up,,, how sweet,

,, naively i replied, hoping i could still meet her, at least to get some clarity,, after while, i thought it might be a good idea to just come to her house and i did, which was stupid and failed miserably

Saturday, I reached, her house was empty, i called, she rejected my call, i dont know why, what’s so hard to pickup the call

Then i went to my friends houses,,, at night, i received message, she said she didnt want to meet me, asked me to stop meeting her,

I was confused, what went wrong,,,at least she owed me explanation, with good explanation, i’ll be good

then again around 10pm, she text again.replied, and she said she already got a boyfriend, didnt want to meet me and happy now

That was the end for me, my last push, failed, i thought i will not bug her anymore

The next day, 26 july,i received message from her fiancee (whhch i though she already broken up), suddenly he asked when did i started relationship with this socio,,, i replied, calmly, i thought this just conversation between ex, checking and checking, no harm,

Then something big happened, he called me, he told me, he was already in relationship with this socio, since may 2018,,,till 26july

Me : september 2018-aug 2019,,, you can do the math, basically this sociapath had a double life, had 2 boyfriends at the same time

Managing both at the same time.. he was furious, the reason was, the night when i came to her house,this sociopath actually went on date with her shitty best firend, with another guys

This stupid bf, post the picture, 2 couples, without realizing that one of the viewers was also mutual friend with the fiancee.

Screenshot taken, then those 2 happy couples, partying hard, the photo even taken with those bitches sitting on another guys lap,,,

This photo was sent the fiancee, sunday morning, that how it got started

I had a couple of mins chat with the fiance, matching small part of our story, bitterly laughing our own stupidity, then hang, something happened

Then after couple of hour, this fiancee confront the socio, met her in her house, then ask her to talk, he even called me, put me on speaker, to talk to this sociopath,,, god man

I could have “killed her” with my words, but i didn,t

I think in my context, i was just sidekick, sideshow,co-star of this sick twisted fuck relationship , as i dont have any relationship since aug 2019, i only had hopes, which already evaporated, i dont think i need to angry, im just shocked, stunned by how this sociopath fool us , easily, gracefully, extremely neat and delicate, and now it got revealed, just because of the stupidity of this one bf

Very unfortunate, i told her “i dont know you anymore, you and me are done, now you fix your problem will your fiancee..” then i hung up

I know this fiance, mad and angry , he called me couple of times a day, then we also met,my intention was to give him some clarity, i understood, he might get very emotional and low at the same time, then i will just matching my story, we shared our story, the story of fake, deceitful relationship..

From our story, i could guarantee, we both victim, shocked, but we knew we was something in this sociopath, that’s why we put our hope to this sociopath

After a long conversation, i was exhausted

I was shocked, want to know why she did this, how could i tricked badly

I was curious, how man involved on this fraudulence,

I was scared, this is the biggest evidence that showed the flaw of my screening machine, i though my wall was thick enough, my screening was good enough, it turned out that, i nowhere near better.. i got tricked by this sociopath

I felt pity to her as well,, thinking about her past, what kind of tragedy shaped her to become such sociopath

Passiev aggresive, delusional, self entitlement, self narcisistic

Her past without parents, her past of being unpopular girl

Her past with bioolar boyfriend, abusive

She was shaped, years after years, mentally and physically, since she was a little girl

It was a very unfornate event, after that, i delete the photos, and really, i could not see anything from her face,

I couldnot see the sociopathy, the dark lies, delusional history about her family, about houses, about parents, all the stories, lies after lies that she made,just to serve her hunger of love, attention,sex and she would do anything to protect those lies

She would turn the table, make you feel guilty, aggresively blaming your past mistake, saying sorry and attacking you at the same time, and also went out, run from problem, with other guys, there is this bottomless pit which will never be filled properly

If you think carefully, carefully, i dont think she ever love someone, she loved someone and then got hurt, then she will take the revenge

Her fiance said, she might loved me the most, among other guy

I dont think so, she can just fake the feeling. She knew that, she had a feeling once, after it was gone, she will just replicate those feeling, acted like she had one,, then trick everyone,

She picked her fiance, because of assurance, house car presence

She picked the guy whom she sat on his lap, because of charm and wealth

She picked me, because i have a good image, she hang on, because she knew, she will got good image , from me, she will not have to dealt with other people thought. I was just a shield...really

She picked, other guys, maybe because of,,, car, wallet, new bags, watches,,,i knew she not golddiger type but for sure she didnot stupid enough to pick poor guy, she still need rice and food to live

I realized that, quickly

All the stories, all the lies, all thar was in my head. Was 90persen chances true. If you remember the dirty stuff, i guarantee you, i still feel pukishs everytime i did

She knew me too well, so many thing i shared with her, too many things,i just came to know that she was the trickiest person i’ve ever met

But i know, perspective needs to be change , new narative needs to be built, im starting over now, building up my wall, i promise myself, my wall should be harder than steel, my screening machine should be able to detect any small lies.

I went home from india, just to know this story, got revealed totally, got me realized that the story that i built , the naration that i built this whole year ,since 2017, which i though will become my way out, now has become the source of my misery, my problems, my responsibility

I am writing this piece of story, tragedy i would say.to laugh myself , about my mistake, my tragedy, my new start, new beginning, of becoming better guy

To become wiser , to take respinsibility to be more resilience, to understand how toxic relationship could be

To understand that we need to act without hope, to not have a high hope , to not lay on our emotions

Everything is dead for me, this sociopath too,, i’ve buried her,,,never wanted to see her,i felt proud, i never tried to kill her, direclty, nor killl other guys which i suspected who fucked this sociopath also

I think that’s the best way, for me, to forget and move along, to laugh about this tragedy, to just take a next step, little by little, pieces by pieces, rebuild my fortress, rebuild my screening machine. It freaks me out, i’ll carry on

Dead poet- busty and the bass

Take it or break it off

Been here since I recall

This life is everything

Maybe someday I'll find

Pieces of peace of mind

Pick up the things that stay

Cause we're sold out, it's okay

Sold out, it's okay

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m0onbean · 7 years ago

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Shopping Carts

category: floof, crack humor

pairing: eunwoo X reader

warnings: light cussing

note: author‘s note at the end!

As you roamed the supermarket in search of groceries, you pushed your shopping cart around carelessly. However, you didn't notice the other shopping cart lined up against the shelves.

Violently, your shopping cart crashed into the other one, making a clanging sound that echoed throughout building. When you timidly looked up, you didn't expect a face so chiseled and hair so perfect staring at you.

A blush crept up on your face. "U-uh I'm sorry..." you stammered in your own language.

The man gritted his teeth and rubbed his forehead. He said something in a sweet and slow voice while making strong eye contact with you.

Although you had no idea what he said, you couldn't help but feel your heart pounding upon hearing his honey sweet voice and looking at his extremely attractive facial features. Assuming he accepted your apology, you smiled brightly at him.

He widened his eyes a little in confusion and cocked his head. After blinking a few times, he murmured something under his breath and left the scene,

The next day, you found yourself in the bakery across the street. The aroma of freshly baked bread swarmed the room and blessed your nose. You were picking up some pastries for your co-workers before you headed into the office late. This was a convenient strategy. If you're late, they won't be pissed at you because you had brought them food. Reaching out to get your favorite berry assortment set, a hand reached out for the same thing. Not having it, you snapped your head in their direction to yell at the figure, but only to see the same handsome man from the day before.

You tried to speak, but no words came out of your mouth. Agaped, you watched his face recognize you as well. He smirked at you knowingly. Confused on whether or not he was mocking you or not, you snatched what you wanted and left the building after hurrying to pay everything. The moment you exited the store, you heard footsteps behind you.

Not knowing why he was trailing you closely, you ran to your car and tried to get in as soon as possible. Shit! Why does it have to be him again. I didn't do my eyebrows today. When you pulled the door handle, you realized that it was locked. Cursing to yourself, you fumbled for your keys. It's not like you felt threatened, you were just horribly embarrassed and didn't want to encounter him.

Right before you were about to successfully open the door and retreat, an arm slammed onto the window from beside you, stopping you from opening it further. You looked up. It was him again. HOLY CHRIST. HE'S REALLY MAD BECAUSE I DIDN”T DO MY EYEBROWS. You gave him a sheepish look and he smiled at you. He thought you were adorable.

"You... beautiful?" He said and asked at the same time in your language. He was so proud of himself too that you couldn't tell if he was being serious or not.

"Uh. Yes." you answered.

"Thank you." he replied.

Little did you know that he was just spitting out any words he knew in your language.

Confused, you smiled at him awkwardly. You both stood there trying to think of what to say. Suddenly, he took out his phone and typed something furiously. After a few moments of him scrunching his eyebrows and deleted words, he showed you his screen and it was a translator that read, "My name is Eunwoo. What you?"

As you kept reading the screen over and over again, trying to register the meaning, he studied you closely. No doubt you were perplexed and was thinking strongly. It was cute how focused you were mouthing the words over and over again.

"(Y/N)!" You blurted when you realized the meaning. You caught him staring at you and he looked away and blushed.

"(Y/N)," he repeated. He smiled.

You got home late, again. Work was super exhausting and time-consuming ever since you got promoted. You quickly showered and rushed to open your computer to see 15 unopened messages from your foreign boyfriend.

HIM: Yo I just got home. from promotions. Hallo HALLO babeeeeee bABE BAB imbored i a m b o r e d look at your messages omg are you dead???? did you get kidnapped??? no youre too strong and short for that. you would just duck under their arms LOL m kidding you arent short pls answer i was kidding hellooooo

You rolled your eyes, but chuckled in amusement. Clearing your throat you clicked the "Video Call" button and waited for the clingy mess to pick up.

The moment he picked up, you melted seeing his bare face and his glasses.

"Awh babe, did you miss me?" You cooed, trying to make him mad.

"No, actually. Moonbin was talking to me this entire time," he huffed.

"THAT'S A LIE. HE'S BEEN WHINING ABOUT YOU FOR THE PAST HOUR!" shouted Moonbin from the background.

"Ah. I see," you said as you exhaled. You wiggled your brows at him while he turned his head around around, out of frame, to hunt Moonbin down. You laughed upon seeing his flustered face.

You've been learning English and Eunwoo has been learning your language as well. Being in a long distance relationship wasn't that hard, but the only thing that really seemed to be a struggle was the language barrier.

"You're so cute when you're mad," you teased playfully. The moment you said that, he dropped his attitude and started talking to you normally, forgetting about what just happened. You laughed at his stubbornness and proceeded to make conversation.

After conversing for awhile, he suddenly brought up something. "Hey remember when we met?"

"Oh yeah, in the grocery store?" You recalled.

"I think this is a good moment to tell you," he murmured unsurely.

"What?" You reply, deeply confused and slightly worried.

"I actually cursed at you when you bumped into me," Eunwoo said sheepishly.

You stared at him blankly. Memories flooded in, and then you realized why he was so confused when you guys met.

"Oh.." You responded. Then all of the sudden, you burst into laughter.

Blinking at you, he asked, "What? Aren't you a little bit mad?"

You wiped a small tear from your eye and hooted in more laughter, "I thought you complimented me, that's what made me like you in the first place."

Realizing the situation, Eunwoo began to laugh with you as well. The both of your laughters dissolved into the air as you two spent the rest of the night chatting and giggling together.

(author's note: I actually had my older sister write this chapter for me since I was busy but I ended up having to heavily edit it anyways so I practically wrote it smh)

(sister's note: HEY YALL. wassup its yo gurl. Becky doesn't even let me follow her blog,,,,,, I DONT EVEN KNOW HER BLOGS NAME. but i hope you guys enjoyed this. request for me again if you like it ok bye.)

(author's 2nd note because one just isn't enough: btw guys she's in 11th grade and the story was filled with typos like "panguage" instead of "language." aside from her horrible writing skills and weak grammar/vocabulary, i guess it's pretty funny. ok pls don't request from her it's basically just me teaching her how to properly write. mkay bye)

(sister's 2nd note: I BUSTED MY MIDDLE FINGER SO I CAN'T TYPE PROPERLY. ok bye for realzies)

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ais-n · 8 years ago

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Hi there! Wanted to say a HUGE THANK YOU to you and santino for creating ICOS its an amazing series! love the characters, love the plot, even love the pain it comes with. boyd especially is my favorite character :) hope you dont mind, i have a couple of questions (fade related):1. how would boyd have gone about telling everything to danny had carhart not interrupted him? 2. does he have any triggers from the forakis mission that affect his relationship with hsin?

***FADE SPOILERS IN ANSWER - just an FYI for anyone who needs it :)***

Hi :) Thank you! I’m happy you like the series! Thank you for taking the time to read the long ass story and also reach out :) I don’t mind at all – I will just put the answers behind a cut for anyone who hasn’t gotten that far yet :) (Same reason for the bold at the top of this, sorry!) Also, sorry it took me awhile to get back to you.

!!**SPOILERS** FOR FADE BENEATH CUT!! (Also, long post beneath cut)

1) I had the whole thing planned out in my head at one point but I’ve forgotten the nuances since then. But from what I recall, he basically had planned to start the whole thing with a “look, I know you’re going to think I’m insane when I start telling you all this but please hear me out” sort of disclaimer. Then he probably would have gauged Danny’s response and his seeming level of skepticism from that disclaimer alone, and determined his best way forward.

One way would be to just get right into the explanation and try to push Danny’s incredulous questions to the end after he’d gotten through everything. This way led the risk of Danny shutting down on the whole thing and not listening at all.

The other way would be to start out asking pointed and detailed questions designed to poke holes in the understanding Danny has of his situation–the things that don’t really add up, because they aren’t actually real–and then when Danny is starting to get kind of thrown off acknowledging some of those oddities, Boyd was going to give him the full, real explanation of what was going on behind the scenes, tying everything together for Danny to realize how the truth, as bizarre as it probably would seem to him, still makes a lot more sense than the truth he thought he knew. This way led the risk of Danny feeling like Boyd was being condescending or not truthful enough by dragging it out.

Either way, he would have planned to provide him as much evidence as he had available. If he had pictures on his phone, he would show those. Or if he had old drawings or whatever else, he’d do that. Basically, it would be whatever he had that was close enough to the evidence Danny eventually finds, to prove it further. He also was planning to do his best to prove these weren’t the edited doings of a crazed man who photoshopped him into pictures or sat around creepily drawing his pictures and backdating them.

There was a slight possibility that Danny would hear all this and go, “Oh wow, this all makes sense. I believe you.” But Boyd figured that chance was pretty small, all things considered. The conversation was far too life-altering and would seem far too crazy for it to be likely that Danny would accept it without question. He expected Danny to be not just skeptical, but to tell him he was outright insane and to fuck off for a bit. He figured it was best to plan for that as a worse (but not worst) case scenario, so that it would give him the opportunity to plan ahead to try to keep Danny safe in the meantime before Danny accepted everything.

(Boyd saw the worst case scenario as something like Danny getting up mid-story, calling the cops on Boyd for being a stalker or insane, cutting all ties with Boyd and maybe even trying to pursue legal action like an order for protection to keep him away, Janus and the Agency catching wind of all of this, Danny being subjected to experiments and sent by the Agency to somewhere Boyd couldn’t find, the Agency turning on Boyd and his friends in the assumption that they knew about all of this too, his friends being hurt or tortured, Boyd being strapped down somewhere and left to die a torturous death with his mind descending into insanity, Danny dying in the experiments or getting really fucked up or somehow living his life without freedom or happiness, and just generally everything going completely to hell. There were other scenarios like Danny freaking out and accidentally killing Boyd, thereby also fucking up Danny’s future, but Boyd figured that wasn’t worst case scenario because there was a chance Danny could still be found by loved ones as a result of the fallout of that happening, but other ways like his worst case scenario wouldn’t involve that possibility.)

Assuming Danny let him talk to the end, he would have very, very strongly pushed Danny to leave immediately after hearing all of this, as a way to protect him. He would ask Danny to go, even if Danny had to think of it as a sudden impromptu vacation and not a permanent life change, because who would upend their life suddenly for what could be the ravings of a paranoid madman? Boyd would do everything in his power to prove to Danny why that was a very necessary step to take, regardless of how insane he thought Boyd was by that time.

And although he was more than willing to run with Danny, he assumed Danny would think he was crazy and would not want him to go with even if Boyd was able to convince him to leave.

So, honestly, Boyd figured what was most likely to happen would be he would tell Danny everything, Danny would be in denial and would understandably think Boyd was totally off his rocker, but Danny would recognize at least that Janus and others were a concern so maybe he could get Danny to leave even just for that, even if Danny thought it was a temporary thing. Maybe Danny would trust at least that Boyd, due to his job, knew a better way for safe passage for Danny than Danny would easily and quickly be able to scrounge up for himself. Boyd was planning to all but force Danny to take the safe route Boyd would have prepared for him, to try to protect him.

Assuming Danny didn’t want him to go with for whatever reason, Boyd was going to tell Danny he loved him when Danny left, and then Boyd figured he would never see him again. He figured eventually Danny would come to grips with what happened, and would accept the truth on some level whether or not he liked it. But Boyd knew that if he told Danny everything, and if Danny fled Annadale, then the Agency wouldn’t be long behind. And he couldn’t let that happen. Nor could he risk any of his friends back at the Agency getting implicated in anything, if the Agency thought he’d told them everything.

So his plan was to make sure Danny got away safely, make sure Danny was in the hands of someone or some process that wouldn’t let him do something stupid like come right back to Annadale before he realized the truth, and then Boyd would go back to the Agency and either wait for them to realize what he had done (which would give Danny more time to get away), or depending on the circumstances and whether he felt Danny needed more protection, he might find a way to send false positives about Danny sightings to the Agency in an automated way that would continue to protect Danny into the future. He may have also attempted to break into areas of the Agency to further this goal by fucking with their systems or trying to delete information about Danny in the computer system or whatever it was he learned would help and he was capable of doing.

Regardless, he knew that as soon as Danny was gone and if he didn’t go with him, then it was only a matter of time until the Agency realized what Boyd had done.

So, Boyd knew if he didn’t go with Danny, he was dead.

He planned to delay and confuse the Agency as long as possible and automate as much as he could so Danny would continue to have protection going into the future even after Boyd’s death. Boyd figured that ultimately the Agency would go after him to find out where Danny was, and Boyd assumed he would die a slow, torturous death of them trying to get that information from him. His main goal in all of that was to make sure the Agency didn’t get anything from him that could endanger Danny, or endanger any of Boyd’s friends. He wanted to make sure it was clear to the Agency that he hadn’t told the others anything, so they wouldn’t be a target of the Agency’s wrath as well once he was gone.

He did worry about his friends back in the Agency if Danny decided to ask Boyd to go with him, but he still planned to go with in that event because he wanted to be there to protect and support Danny–to make sure the Agency never got him.

From Boyd’s assumptions about how everything would play out, he saw the conversation with Danny as a literally life or death situation, not just for Danny but also for himself. Telling Danny the truth meant endangering Danny, and potentially signing his own death warrant. But he would have done it regardless of the consequences on himself, because he felt at that time that Danny was getting too close to danger without the information, and he didn’t know how else to protect Danny or make sure he could remain safe, happy, and free far into the future. That goal was more important to Boyd than anything else.

I’m not sure if anyone will think any of that sounds a bit dramatic, but Boyd’s mindset was that the Agency would try to kill him and try to recover Danny at all costs, which ended up being accurate to what was seen later. He may or may not have been right about specifics about how it could have gone down, but the stakes of that conversation were quite high in the long run, so he would have tried to prepare for all the variations as best he could, while assuming something would go wrong in the process, because Boyd’s experience was something almost always went wrong when it came to the Agency.

He figured a sacrifice was inevitable at those high of stakes and considering the circumstances and the wrath the Agency was likely to have. When it came down to it, the only sacrifice he felt safe offering for the protection of everyone else was sacrificing himself so everyone else could stay as safe and free as possible. So his plan was built as much around shielding everyone else and giving Danny as much of a safety buffer as possible, with Boyd being the main way of trying to throw the Agency off as long as possible with false information or misleading clues. That was, he figured, the best way for him to try to control as many variables as possible to extend Danny’s safety net as long as Boyd could hold out.

This may all seem a bit tangential to mention but I mention it because Boyd would have been thinking about all of this when he went into his conversation with Danny, so he would have been adjusting the way he said things and how quickly he brought up new information based on how Danny was reacting, because his ultimate goal had to be to get Danny out of there immediately, and to stay gone, and for that he needed Danny to trust him enough to believe at least that the imminent danger to Danny was real and that Boyd’s offered escape was safe, even if Danny didn’t believe everything. All of that would have greatly affected exactly how that conversation went.

2) There probably were, especially in the beginning. I could see there still being some now… it’s a little hard to say because we haven’t written much interaction of their relationship as it is now, and a lot of times with Boyd I don’t always know how he’ll react to something until I’m at that moment in that scene in his mind. There are times I think he’d react one way when thinking about that scene ahead of time but we get there and he reacts a totally different way. I always go with it because it makes sense for him as a person, and it reminds me constantly that I am not him so I can’t always speak for him properly. That may sound like a weird thing to say about a character and it probably sounds cheesy for me to say but I think of characters like real people–I may have an insight into their mindset from knowing them so well, but I don’t always know what they will do or how they will feel until I’m at that moment writing it out.

I know he does have residual issues from that mission and also from everything with Janus later in Fade, because it all fed together.

Things that I know specifically would trigger him or freak him the fuck out include some of the things we already saw referenced or implied in Fade, like:

**Him having a panic attack aversion to the idea of having to perform on screen or have any sort of sexual or intimate interaction with Hsin for the gratification of others. Depending on how thrown off he is, this could transfer to other, more innocuous situations too, like he could potentially freak out even if it’s just him doing something non-intimate and non-sexual with Hsin and others watching/commenting/paying a lot of attention to it. If they’re in a setting where there are a lot of bright lights aimed at them, people watching their every move, maybe cameras going, people commenting on him, basically something that could throw him back into a flashback of filming the videos or being forced to perform for/with groups/etc, then even something like, let’s say, Hsin/Boyd doing a training exercise to show others how to fight against mods using two different skill sets (Hsin’s and Boyd’s) could potentially trigger him into some sort of panicked, dissociated reaction. Or he may not have any problems at all.

**He may similarly have panicked reactions to porn videos, and absolutely would freak out if he thought Hsin ran across one he was in. He’s never told Hsin the extent of any of that and doesn’t want him to know about the movies he was in, let alone have Hsin ever see them. Although he would definitely react negatively to one with him in it, if there were some other porn video playing there’s a possibility he wouldn’t freak out after all. It’s hard to say, but I do think that’s pretty likely to be a stressor for him.

**He’s now freaked the fuck out over the idea of being drugged, which might extend at times to a distrust even of taking lower level medication he would have taken without a thought in the past, like Advil or Tylenol. He doesn’t at all trust people coming at him with a syringe and might react violently if he’s already feeling vulnerable. Although this isn’t likely to come into play for Hsin and Boyd’s sexual relationship, it’s something that potentially could have come up at times if Boyd, say, had a really bad headache or was hurt or something and if Hsin for some reason thought he should take medication and Boyd was really hesitant. He would 100% trust Hsin but he wouldn’t trust who made or provided the medicine to Hsin for Boyd, depending on the situation. It may not be a problem if he feels like Hsin verified everything, because he trusts Hsin to protect him and make sure he won’t take anything unsafe. In some circumstances, absolutely the only way he would allow someone to administer drugs to him is if Hsin is there and will be there the whole time and saw the drugs be put into his IV or whatever it’s in. Even then, he may be really leery because he may be afraid of showing a side of himself to Hsin that he’s ashamed of, if he’s afraid the drug will be some sort of aphrodisiac or similar. But then, as always, there are also other circumstances where he might take the medication without freaking out.

**From an intimate or sexual standpoint, I don’t know. That’s a lot harder because he trusts Hsin not only with his life but also with his sanity, his heart, and his body. His phobias and triggers all tie into the same idea: losing control, and especially having that vulnerability then used against him. That can be said about his fear of being held down, his fear of drowning, and then the fears and triggers he developed after Alexio and after Janus and even after the Agency.

He gets to a point where he almost entirely loses his fear of losing control around Hsin, because he knows Hsin won’t use it against him. But he still has a fear of losing himself. Even if he knows Hsin will love him no matter what, the idea of turning into Cameron around Hsin is absolutely horrifying to Boyd. He feels like being Cameron takes power away from him. He loses control of himself, even if it isn’t due to others taking that control from him, if that makes sense.

So I think that implicit and unshakable trust he has with Hsin is one hugely comforting part of being around Hsin and might do a lot to fight against triggers or extreme reactions he may otherwise have. But at the same time, no matter how much he loves and trusts Hsin, being triggered or having an extreme reaction isn’t a question of love or trust, nor does he always have control over whether it will happen. It’s a question of brain chemistry and memories and human psychology, all of which are things that can work autonomously from logic or his thoughts or feelings on a topic.

So it’s hard to say because I think those are two very powerful forces, and whether it affects his relationship with Hsin depends entirely on what force wins out and what was the impetus for the stress in the first place.

That may seem like a non-answer and if so, sorry! I just don’t know for sure yes/no because there are too many extenuating factors to know for sure.

Hopefully all of this makes sense. I ended up replying to this pretty late at night which means I’m more talkative even than normal but also sometimes I word things super confusingly and go on tangents. If I didn’t answer something properly, let me know :) And I hope you have a great day!

#ask ais #icos #in the company of shadows #fade spoilers #laurelsaveus

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itsdjjones · 7 years ago

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When We Met | Dominer

TAGGING: @notpeterxparker & @itsdjjones

DATE: Freshman in high school ~ 2008/2009

PLACE: Lima, Ohio

NOTES: Flashback to when Parker and DJ met back in high school.

Parker adjusted her camera as she walked towards the football field and furrowed her eyebrows before she glanced into her bag. She let out a sigh of relief once she saw the two extra rolls of film, knowing that her advisor would've gotten her head if she had left them in her locker again. She closed her bag as she reached the football coach with a smile. "Hey coach, I'm here to take some pictures for the paper." She heard him grumble go ahead and make sure to get the best view of the team, including the wide receiver and the quarterback. She tried not to roll her eyes, knowing that she couldn't ask why she had to take separate pictures. She started taking pictures, moving out of the way once in a while, making sure she wasn't tackle. She happened to get a few shots of her sister before she noticed, not something but someone. She lowered her camera as she squinted before she glanced at the coach and headed towards it. She pulled out her camera, took a few pictures of what was happening and glad to be the one who develops the film. "Excuse me, I was wondering if you knew where the football field was at?" She asked loud enough for them to hear.

DJ couldn't resist when one of the cheerleaders was eyeing him at football practice. And he couldn't resist lying to coach that he'd be in the bathroom. And he couldn't resist when that girl followed him and pushed him behind the bleachers with lips like an angel. I mean if he had to chose between football and a girl it was a no brainer. Sure football was great and it had made him a lot more popular than being in book club did but it was the girls attention that he liked the most. He quickly became that hot nerdy football player. The cheerleader didn't waste anytime with smacking on him but it didn't last long when he heard a voice behind him. He pulled away from the girl's lips and turned around. "What?" He asked. The girl looked at him and walked away, quickly slipping a piece of paper in his hands, presumably her number. It was common nowadays for DJ to get those digits. "Did you just ask where the football field was...are blind?" He asked looking at the unfamiliar girl that just cockblocked him. "Also you owe me for that interruption" he said nodding towards the cheerleader who had left.

Parker took a picture of his confused face and smirked a bit. She waved goodbye to one of the cheerleaders as she leaned against the structure as she crossed her arms around her body. "It work, didn't it?" She asked and shook her head as she glanced at the pictures before she glanced up to see him. "Oh no, a make out session with one of the cheerleaders, how can I ever live." She placed her hand on her heart and then looked at him. "You owe me for taking pictures of you in action. Though, Im sure your coach would love to see these pictures of you two swapping spit. I think they would look beautiful in the newspaper." She knew that she wasn't going to put them in the newspaper or in the yearbook.

DJ raised an eyebrow at her and he clearly had an annoyed look on his face when she snapped a picture of him. "Hey what no!" he said realizing why she was taking pictures. He walked towards her to reach for the camera. "You cannot show anyone those. Pretty sure that girl has a boyfriend" he said looking out at the field between the bleachers. "Can...can you just delete them...please?" he asked arms open wide in defeat. "Why do you care anyways?" He asked. "I dont even know you and you're being rude."

Parker raised an eyebrow as she put the camera behind her back and raised an eyebrow. "Yet, you still decide to make out with her. Hm. Interesting." She replied as she placed her camera in her bag, crossed her arms across her chest and thinking a bit. "Maybe and I care because I was sent out to take pictures of the Quarterback and the wide receiver, which is you because we're doing a spotlight story on the football team in the newspaper and I can't do it with you making out underneath here." She slowly nodded as she pushed herself off of the bleacher. "Because I actually care about my football team and how great they'll do this season. No, what would be rude of me thing to do, is to publish those pictures. After you told me nicely. You're being rude for thinking with your head below the belt instead of thinking what scouts would be at the games and actually getting out of here." She turned on her heel and started leaving the bleachers.

DJ shrugged. "Not my problem." he said. "Yeah well Im pretty sure they wanted pictures of practice not here" he said raising his eyebrows back at her. "Oh really? You care about the football team?" he asked. "Besides...you know...kissing girls isn't gonna make me play worse..honestly it might make me play better." He chuckled to himself. DJ sighed. "Hey wait up" he said following after her. He walked out from the bleachers with her and he moved in front of her. "I'm DJ" He said with a nodding gesture. "I mean we might as well get to know each other if you're gonna get such intimate pics of me" he winked, flirting with her immediately.

Parker "It'll be your problem once her boyfriend finds out and gives you a black eye." Parker pointed out and rolled her eyes as he talked. "I do, actually." She shook her head. "We'll see about that, since if I recall, it might distract you." She started to walk towards the practice field and shield her eyes from the sun. "I know. Im Parker." She stopped walking and raised an eyebrow. "Uh-huh, sure. Believe me, Im not going to get anymore intimate pics of you. Im here to take pictures, not to flirt with the wide receiver. Nice try though." She patted him on his chest and pulled out her camera once more.

DJ shrugged. "Well the only people that know are you...me and her. So how about we spare my eye today huh?" he asked her. DJ raised his eyebrows at her and he laughed. She was definitely something else. He's never met a girl like her and immediately he was drawn to the girl. "It was worth a try." He said. DJ looked at her one last time before running off towards the field again finishing practice. The next day in English class they were working on a project for their Romeo and Juliet unit. You could work in pairs and DJ didn't really have anyone in that class. That's when he saw her across the room. Parker he remembered her name. When everyone was shuffling off and pairing up DJ moved across the room and sat next to her. "Hey, be my partner?" He asked.

Parker nodded. "Yeah, we can." She replied and "Maybe next time." She shouted as he ran off towards the field again. Parker wasn't looking forward towards the Romeo and Juliet unit, since she knew about the play and had done research over the summer. She had friends sure, but she knew that they would work together and leave her be the third wheel. She glanced up from her book and glanced over at him. "Sure." She gave him a small smile and gotten the papers together for them.

DJ smirked and he got out the book and the worksheet they were supposed to be working on. "Plus you know you still owe me" he nodded speaking about the other day at practice. He looked down at the sheet of paper and then back up at her. "Do people ever tell you that you have the same name as Peter Parker?" He asked. "I mean obviously your names not Peter but...you know what I mean" He laughed.

Parker raised an eyebrow. "It depends on what you mean that I owe you." She replied as she wrote her name on the worksheet and flipped her book up to the page that the worksheet had said. She smiled, she didn't know why but it just made her smile. She mentally slapped herself. "You know, you have to be first person outside of my family to get that." She answered as she glanced at him. "I do, and it gets better. My middle name is Gwen, so its almost a would've been a dream come true if Gwen didn't die and she could've been Gwen Stacy Parker. We will never know."

DJ laughed. "Really?" he asked. "I thought it was obvious. Wait your name is Parker Gwen..." he glanced at her paper to see her last name. "Fabray?" he asked. "Kind disappointed that your last name isn't stacy or Peter." he teased her. "Thats cool though. I'm not named after anyone. Well..James is my grandpa's name" he nodded. "That's my middle name and the J in DJ" he nodded. "It's Dominic" He said before she could ask. He looked down at his paper and smiled back at her. They talked all class about Spiderman and other super heros. She was a big nerd as much as he was...maybe even more. But she was cute and DJ didn't feel like he had to hit on her though. It was easy to talk to her. When class ended he packed up his backpack. "Wanna sit with me at lunch?" He asked.

Parker nodded. "Really." She replied and shook her head. "Yeah, Fabray." She let out a sigh and nodded once more. "Same, honestly. I might end up changing my last name when Im old enough." She smiled, as she crossed her leg over her other leg, thankful she was wearing a dress. "Thank you and that's awesome." She made an oh face and gave him a smile. "Dominic is a nice name." She piped up and returned the smile as well. She felt even more relaxed around him. She packed up her bag and looked at him. "Sure, yeah." She led them out of the classroom and towards the lunch room. "So,do you like being called DJ or Dominic?"

DJ "Yeah that would be cool" he shrugged. DJ nodded. "Thanks" He did a little victory dance in her head. He realized he didn't have to hit on her to get her to like him. They walked together towards the lunch room and he adjusted the backpack on one shoulder and pushed some of his braids out of his face. "Most people call me DJ." he nodded. "Mom called me Dominic but I like either of them. I will answer to both" he said as they got in line. DJ said hi to some guys from the team as they walked by, giving them that typical bro handshake and pat on the back. He caught back up with Parker and smiled. "Football" he explained. "So you take pictures for the newspaper do you take pictures of anything else?" He asked.

Parker nodded. "You're welcome." She replied as she watched him pushed some of his brads out of his face. "Ah, okay. Well, how about for now. I'll call you DJ until we get to know each other better?" She questioned as they gotten in line. She pulled out her phone, not seeing anything from her sister and put her phone back into her backpack when she heard DJ come back. "I had a feeling, but wasn't for sure." She matched his smile and nodded before she hummed a bit. "Yeah, I do actually. Im trying to build up my portfolio, that way once I have enough pictures, i can send it off to colleges. That way my name would be out there." She moved with the line as she continued to look at him. "Do you pull your braids back in a ponytail to make sure they don't get in the way of you seeing?"

DJ nodded as he listened to her talk about her future plans. It was nice to see a girl that knew what she wanted. DJ was still figuring it out but he knew he wanted to do something with kids. "That's really cool. You'll have to show me some pictures sometime...just you know preferably not me kissing some other girls." DJ chuckled. He got the food in line and sat down with her at an empty table. He raised his eyebrows at her question, something he'd never been asked before. "Yeah sometimes" he said with a smirk on his face and a fork in his hands. "Do you put your hair up when you can't see?" he asked.

Parker smiled as she laughed and nodded. "Good because those are kind of gone anyway." She replied and thanked the lunch ladies as she grabbed her food. She took off her bag once she sat down and hoped that her question was okay. She didn't want to ruin anything between them, even thought they met the other day. She felt her cheeks redden and realized how she formed the question before she heard him ask the same question. "Yeah, sometimes." She repeated with a smirk and took a drink of her water. "So, how come football?"

DJ looked at her and smirked. He started to eat his food when she asked another question. "I like it." he said. "I mean I've always liked football and I wanted something to fall back on in the future possibly." DJ shrugged. "Mostly its just fun. I don't care that much about if we win or lose...unlike you though who's super school spirit" he joked. "Did you ever think about becoming a cheerleader?" he laughed, teasing her a bit but all in good fun. He hoped that she didn't get mad at him for joking with her. "Plus the ladies love the uniform" He winked at her playfully.

Parker took a bite out of her food and chewed as he talked then nodded, knowing what he had meant. She smiled after she swallowed her food and took a quick sip. "Im sorry, but I want our football team to actually win some games." She replied and shook her head. "Nooo, that's my twin sister's area. She's the cheerleader in the family, Im comfortable on the sidelines." She laughed and knew that she couldnt pull of the cheerleading look like Quinn did. She saw his wink and shrugged. "Well you do have a receiver's ass."

DJ raised his eyebrows. "You have a twin sister?" he asked. "There's two of you babes walking around here?" He laughed. "No but I wanna win too it's just not as important. I rather be in class. I really like English" he nodded. DJ took a bite. "You should come to a game sometime" he said with a mouthful. He almost choked when he took a drink of water. "I'm assuming that's a good thing?" he asked. DJ smirked at her. She was fun and he already knew they were going to be good friends.

Parker "Yeah, same features except her hair is in a high pony while my hair is down and she's in a Cheerios uniform and Im in street clothes." Parker replied as she popped a chip into her mouth before she offered him some. "That's good because you picked the right partner for the unit." She shrugged a bit as she took a drink and swallowed her water. "Yeah, its a good thing. That means you have a great ass." She smirked. It felt natural to have fun with him, which was something that she always struggled with.

DJ nodded. "I see" He reached into the bag of chips she had and took one. "Oh really? Are you really into Shakespeare? Pretty sure we are reading A Midsummer Nights Dream next." He licked his lips at her comment and shook his head. He wasn't even gonna go there with her right now because he wanted so say so many things but held his tongue. "Thanks" he said simply. DJ offered her some of his oreo cookies that he had grabbed. "So what other classes are you taking?" he asked.

Parker took another chip after he did and nodded. "Mhm." She replied before she ate her chip, thought about the question. "I like Shakespeare, I wouldn't say that Im /into/ like a lot of my other friends but I enjoy it. What about you?" She nodded as she confirmed the next play and swallowed hard, knowing that she pushed it to far and gave him a small smile. "You're welcome." She thanked him as she took an Oreo from him and chewed it as she thought about her classes. "Trig, European history, photography, French, art and of course English. What about you?"

DJ shrugged his shoulders. "I like his poems more than his plays." He nodded. "But I'm not super into him either. I much rather read something else for English. I love talking about the symbolism of stories. Great Gatsby is amazing and I've always loved that book. Also Harry Potter of course!" he laughed. "And Star Wars. I don't think people realize that those are also books." He paused for a moment. "I like reading" he nodded. DJ listened to her classes. "Oh dang Trig already? Are you with like a bunch of juniors and seniors?" he asked. "I'm just in Algebra right now." He shrugged. "Also taking Child Development, Spanish, Bio, African American History, and English of course." he smiled.

Parker nodded, knowing that she agreed with him, the poems were better in some aspect. "What's your favorite?" She asked as she carefully crossed her leg over the other one and made sure her dress stayed down before she glanced at him. "Its a great book, actually. I think I have at least two copies. One copy in my car and one copy that's on my bookshelf. I finished the series less than a week I swear. Have you sorted yourself into a Hogwarts house yet?" She asked as she pushed away her food a bit so she leaned forward some. "And they're really good. Have you read the one where Han and Leia has twins and they're going to this dark academy?" She smiled when he said that he liked reading. "Yeah, its kind of weird actually. I've been meaning to switch my math class." She listened and smiled. "Sounds like you have a full plate and I thought I did with my classes."

DJ looked at her and he recited his favorite Shakespeare poem by memory. "Love is not love which alters it when alteration finds, or bends with the remover to remove: O no! It is an ever fixed mark that looks on tempests and is never shaken; it is the star to every wandering bark whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken. Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks within his bending sickle's compass come: Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks, but bears it out, even to the edge of doom." He finished and smiled at her. "So yeah that one." He licked his lips. "Really? That's pretty intense. I don't know if I can read that fast. Those are big books!" he laughed. "I haven't. Have you?" He asked curiously. "Yeah I did read that! Star Wars changed my life I swear to god!" he said laughing. "Naw I mean if you like math just do it so you wont have to take any more math except like calc maybe?" he shrugged. "I'm an overachiever."

Parker felt herself grin from ear to ear, knowing that she was swooning but she couldnt help it and listened to him. "Im impressed, sonnet 116." She finally said once he was done and nodded."Oh yeah, they are, but they're totally worht it." She shook her head. "Nope, I haven't had the time, really to sit down and sort myself on Pottermore but if I would either sort myself into a house, it would be Ravenclaw." She laughed as she nodded. "Same! Maybe the original series, not the newest ones." She tucked a piece of her blond hair behind her ear and nodded. "True." She shrugged a bit. "I had a feeling."

DJ laughed. "I told you I liked to read. Helps that I have a really good memory too" he smiled at her. "I can see that. You'd be a great Ravenclaw. Personally I'd love to be Hufflepuff but I dont know" he shrugged. "We should totally do that because now I'm curious" He smiled. "Oh yeah definitely. No one likes the new ones" he said shaking his head. He watched her and smiled. For some reason DJ had this overwhelming need to protect her. Not in like a couple way but not really like in a family kind of way. More like in a way that this was his friend and he didn't want anyone to hurt her and he wanted to hype up how awesome she was. He smiled at her as he finished her food and the bell rang. "Text me or something" he said as he got a sharpie out from his backpack and wrote on a piece of paper for her. "We should hang out"

Parker laughed a bit. "I know and I would definiltey say so." She replied as she returned the smile and dipped her head a bit when she heard him agreeing. "Thank you and I would say Hufflepuff for sure." She looked up at him and nodded. "Sounds like a great plan, maybe we can use one of the school's computer's?" She shook her head, took a sip of her water and swallowed it. "No." She felt herself become somehow attached to him, not like in a couple's way but something else. She returned the smile after she glanced at her watch. "Okay." She watched him grab a sharpie and watched him wrote down his number. "I'd like that and here," She grabbed a pen from her bag and grabbed his hand, wrote down her number on it. 'That way you have my number too."

DJ nodded. "yeah we could do that." He smiled. DJ looked at her write her number on his hand and he smirked. "Cool" He stood up and put his backpack on. "I'll see you around then" he smirked. It was the beginning of an endless friendship. Throughout high school they became attached at the hip and eventually rumors went around that they were dating but it was never true. They flirted a lot but it was nothing more than that. Things got complicated when Parker decided to move out of her house. They were best friends so obviously he begged his mom to let her stay. It was a messy situation but eventually led to Parker living in the Jones' house for a couple years and even then they were still best friends. She was his person and he was hers. It was always Parker and Dominic against the world. It's not for sure when they fell in love but maybe it was back then. Maybe this was building up for years and now they were finally facing it because even now its still always been Parks and Dominic against the world.

#para #para: whenwemet #para: parker #thebeatedit #aesthetics

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tumblunni · 8 years ago

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Just started playing Princess Maker 1! its so surreal that we finally got an english translation of this like a decade after it was released, and way after the PM2 translation??

Mostly its kinda... ehhh. Its only interesting to a fan who wants to see what changed, its just 100% worse than PM2 in all ways. Unlike PM3/4/5, PM1 isnt like a different story or a new gameplay gimmick or anything, PM2 is almost literally an improved remake of a buggy game. I mean.. you have a different child character but the backstory is almost exactly the same even! And the gameplay and interface are sometimes almost unplayably awkward compared to PM2. ALSO JUST NO JUST NO There is a LOT of outright full-frontal nipnops for NO REASON. Its not even like it makes sense or anything, its just ‘hey 25% of all vacation images are goddamn pron and you’re playing the creepy lolicon roulette every time’. Same for random enemies being naked :P At least in PM2 the pervy fanservice nonsense was optional! So I’m probably only gonna play this once and then delete it forever and stick to PM2. I’m glad they changed the stuff they changed...

ANYWAY! Fun differences that are less frustratingbad! I tried to take screenies of em! The interface is way more minimal than PM2, with lots of stuff being crammed together in the same option. Its neat that you can click and drag the text boxes around, this was something that wasnt in PM2. (But was in PM3 and PM5 if i recall?) Its a bit annoying though that sometimes it is NECESSARY since the default text position covers up the damn interface. Everything is so cramped!!

Talking to your daughter is Weird, its pretty much 100% useless. Well, worse than useless, it can screw you over! Its a 50/50 chance that when you praise her she’ll either lose stress or lose STATS. Specifically the stats that determine stress in the first place! Since they have different names to PM2 I didnt realise my ‘spirit’ stat was basically consititution and I got it down to 0 by being too nice to my adopted daughter :P I guess maybe its cos she’s spoiled she becomes less able to handle stress...?

You dont collect new outfits at all, you just have four outfits to choose from right from the start. There doesnt seem to be any actual benefit to wearing particular clothes during the right seasons. And they all change in design every year, so its fun to click through them even if there’s no real point to it. The glamour/elegance boosting dresses are just consumeable items instead, you can buy multiple of them and they dissappear once you use them. IS SHE EATING THE DRESS??

The feature you get from talking to your daughter in PM2 is actually talking to the townsfolk in PM1. They tell you what she’s good and bad at, instead of her having voiced dialogue saying it directly to you.

Other misc stuff I’ve noticed but didnt catch a screenshot of:

I actually do quite like the one difference between the backstory in PM1 and PM2. In PM2 after saving the kingdom your knight dad character gets blessed with an angel child by the gods, in PM1 he just adopts a normal child. Its kinda more heartwarming that way, he just weeps at how many orphans were created by this war and decides to retire from knightdom and open an orphanage. It might be just one scene, but it gives the dad much more personality than the one in later games. ^_^

Winning the harvest festival gives you no prize money at all??? Its a bit more fun tho cos there’s a beauty contest where you can bribe the judges.

Its nice that the game still keeps running when you switch to another window, PM2 didnt have that. But in PM2 doing jobs has a cute animation and there’s a skip function, so you dont really need to flip to a browser while some long text scroll plays out :P

Being sick completely destroys you, you get a huge loss of EVERY STAT and have to sit through the full annoying animation of resting three times even though you dont have any stress left to recover. You just cant do anything else!

There also doesnt seem to be any way to recover from turning troublemaker and i have no idea what caused it?? Sitting here with no stress and she suddenly hates me. And it affects nothing, she still succeeds fine at work. Speaking of which, work failure seems to be random instead of related to high stress or stat levels???

its not just me,right? the weapon shop grumpy grandpa is really cute what a sweet man wish I could hug him! he’s also like The Best job, cos even though the stat he boosts is rather specific and lame he’s the only one that doesnt decrease another stat at the same time while also giving reasonably decent wages and having a low failure rate! hooray for mr gremp!

Oh, speaking of which! Battle stats work completely differently and are CONFUSING. No matter what i try, I’m still oneshotted by the weakest enemy in errantry :P You have this ‘exp’ stat instead of attack/defense/skill like in PM2, but even when you level up it doesnt seem to affect anything...

Oh, and all the jobs give different stats compared to other PM games, which is confusing. Innwork raises stamina, instead of farming (which is called lumberjack this time, rather than them being separate) And weapon shop raises that confusing EXP, and every job gives very low money with no way of gaining money from winning the festival, so the high priced sleazy bar job is way more tempting. We’re talking everyone else gives 50g or 100g a week and this one gives you 500g or more all at once! But its just so much more gross to do the ‘bad job that loses stats’ this time, since its heavily implied to be prostitution instead of just working at a bar. And this game is so much more pervy, gahhhh... But then you just get delinquent and sick for NO CONCEIVEABLE REASON, and being sick drops your stats practically to 0, and its so impossible to play this damn game that WHATEVER im gonna treat my daughter awful just so i don’t lose! >_< GAHHHHHH Its turning into like ‘the how to justify child labor slavery game’ :P

I dunno, maybe the game does still have a sin/karma stat but its hidden?? for some reason suddenly i cannot gain Morale points anymore, at all?? its SO CONFUSINGGGGGGGG the interface is SO CROWDED there’s no word wrapping! I DONT KNOW WHAT ANYTHING DOESSSSSS

the talking to the castle court thing is more like the badges in pokemon?? every single time you have to talk to everybody, you dont get to choose you just unlock more and more people as your elegance levels up

aaaaaand somehow my blundering through the game actually got a good ending?? O_O The duchess ending actually has a really interesting bit of epilogue! Your daughter wins her way into high society by sheer force of awesomeness, even though she was but a humble orphan. Its like the cinderella story but with a really badass sort of feminist twist! Yeah, your happy ending is marrying this dude, but its said that YOU saved HIM. Not by being a big masculine hero, but using the traditionally feminine marriage skills that you’ve been training throughout the whole game. Instead of just sitting around waiting for someone to whisk you off your feet because you’re beautiful and innocent, you meet a disgraced noble whose family has become poor, and after you marry him for love rather than nobility, your badass awesomeness actually rescues the family from bankrupcy! You act as super accountant and reestablish his noble reputation with your silver tongue, and singlehandedly restore the princess title all by yourself while your husband is all ‘omg i love my power wife’ It reminds me of Virion’s marriage endings in FE Awakening! So yeah, way better ending than just ‘you talk to the prince once a month for the whole game and then become a princess’, like im PM2.

#bunni plays pm1 #once and then never again #why so many gross nipnops

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