#one of the 1d themed books

[chussyracing]

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[1dfanficbookclub]

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[foxes-that-run]

Wonderland

Wonderland is a song about a love that feels so enticing it draws her in against her judgment. Taylor uses Lewis Carroll's Wonderland as a metaphor for love with a famous person and they try to hold on the chaos that ensues from going public. Get a cup of tea, this is long. I feel the lyrics, meaning and context of this song are overlooked because Taylor had a friend who likes the classic novel.

22 March 2011 - Taylor visited an Alice and Wonderland themed store on Portobello Road, London. (2011 timeline)

25 October 2012 - Taylors Rolling Stone Article is titled "Taylor in Wonderland" and talks about her apartment.

Over 18 months of remodeling, Swift gave the condo a heavy dose of well-funded OCD whimsy. The ceiling is arranged in multiple motifs – billowing curtains here, a painted indigo night sky there. In one corner, under hanging crystalline stars, sits a giant bunny made of moss. He’s wearing a hat. “It’s a whole Peter Pan, Alice in Wonderland structure here,” she says, welcoming me the next morning. “It’s what the inside of my brain looks like, essentially.”

5 November 2012 - One Direction is on the cover of Wonderland Magazine holding puppies. The article talks about a book deal from a fanfic about Harry, death threats to girlfriends, abuse of their mothers, relationships breaking down due to abuse by fans and absolute ferver about them at that time. It includes the quotes:

"Anyone is welcome to stare into the eyes of Madness" and "The boys show a similar stubbornness when I suggest, perhaps, if they were a little less public about their girlfriends (boybands like Take That, for example, were always encouraged by management to be perennially single in public), then maybe their partners would not have to endure so much attention. “That’s shit,” says Louis. “That means you don’t lead a life that’s real. You wouldn’t be able to go out anywhere publicly with your girlfriend.”

2 December 2012 - a month after the article Harry and Taylor walked in Central Park. They had been on/off in private for months at that point and seemingly together for the last 4 months.

17 November 2014 - Taylor is on the cover of Wonderland Magazine, she talks about 1989 and Twitter Trolls.

In 2015 Taylor indicated that all the songs of romance songs on 1989 were about on person. While Taylor has never said who that person is songs like Style hint. Thank you @cntfightmydemonsthyknowhowtoswim for the shopping photo and timeline help! In her March 15 2013 vanity fair article (the one that said harry chased her for a year before they dated and also pointed mentions she was born in 1989) Taylor said:

Lyric Video

References the book, Harry's eye's and the 1D Wonderland article:

"Anyone is welcome to stare into the eyes of the madness."

Live Performances

Taylor has only performed it 6 times, each has a reason. When 1989 was release Harry’s IG went black and white and stayed that way for nearly 2 years. He posted a colour photo within a week of each Time this song was played.

May 15, 2015, Las Vegas Rock in Rio, first played. After performing Tenerife Sea with Ed Sheeran. This first performance was 2 days before the 2015 BBMAs when Taylor knew she would be seeing Harry. (Harry colour IG post)

May 20, 2015, Bossier City Louisiana (1989 Tour), on Harry and Taylors anniversary. It was followed by the Clean Speech she referred to the 2015 BBMAs 3 days earlier and 'where you should be' which Harry later referenced in Woman. (Harry colour IG post)

June 6, 2015, Pittsburgh (1989 Tour) - the day after the One Direction Hiatus story first broke. (Harry colour IG post).

June 20, 2015, Cologne, Germany (1989 Tour). Day of Taylors letter to Apple and 1989 not to be on Apple music. (Harry colour IG post)

September 29, 2018, Houston (Reputation Tour) - day after Haylor anniversary of Begin Again Paris weekend

April 21, 2023, Houston on (Eras Tour) Taylor introduced it and said it has a"twisted kind of Alice and Wonderland vibe" day before Peace Ring Anniversary

Original Lyrics

Along with 1989 TV Taylor released the original Wonderland Lyrics 27 October 2023. They are undated. I think it may have been started in 2011 when Taylor was in London and finished for 1989. The original Lyrics further indicate this song is about Harry:

"We danced down hallways, too in love to think straight" rather than" became "So, we went on our way / Too in love to think straight" Hallway's being common theme in Harry and Taylors songs about each other.

"Screaming you're the king and I'm the queen," rather than "All alone, or so it seemed." King/Queen is a common reference Taylor has used to indicate the muse is British. This is also on 1989 in Blank Space: "Stolen kisses, pretty lies, you’re the king, baby, I’m your queen"

"Colors I'd never seen twisting around me" became "I felt your arms twistin' around me." Colours are also a Haylor theme, on 1989 with OOTW: "The rest of the world was black and white / But we were in screaming color.”

"Didn't I tell you don't listen to them?" to "Didn't they tell us don't rush into things?" this reminds me of Slut! "I said it might blow up in your pretty face / I'm not saying do it anyway / But you're going to" because they went public and it did blow up.

"I turned around to find you and you were nowhere to be found / There was screaming and lightning / And I haven't been back since I had to leave you there..." became "I reached for you, but you were gone / I knew I had to go back home / You searched the world for somethin' else." this is similar to I Knew You Were Trouble: "And he’s long gone when he’s next to me", This Love: "And you were just gone and gone, gone and gone" and Blank Space: "Screaming, crying, perfect storms, I can make all the tables turn".

Lyrics

[Verse 1] Flashing lights And we took a wrong turn And we fell down a rabbit hole You held on tight to me 'Cause nothing's as it seems And spinning out of control

The first verse sets the scene of a relationship that is in the public eye and two people trying to hold onto their love in chaos. Specifically not a hidden relationship.

Flashing lights - It's easy to overlook how very out of control the fans and paparazzi were about Haylor and One Direction in 2011 - 2013. Having dated in secret for sometime when they did go public the focus was intense. When they dated again it was hidden, which is evident in both of their discographies.

I Know Places: Lights flash and we’ll run for the fences

Is It Over Now?: Flashing lights, oh Lord, let’s fast forward to three hundred takeout coffees later

Paris: Let the only flashing lights be the tower at midnight in my mind

One Directions Perfect "And if you like cameras flashing every time we go out oh yeah"

Fell down a Rabbit Hole is similar to IWYW "We're a crooked love in a straight line down"

Trying to hold onto each other in chaos is also in:

Run: "Say you’ll never let them tear us apart and I’ll hold onto you while we run"

New Years Day "You squeeze my hand three times in the back of the taxi"

Dancing with our hands tied "Oh, and you held me close Oh, how was I to know?"

The Archer: Help me hold on to you

Harry for One Direction Story of my Life "The way that I been holdin' on too tight"

Harry for One Direction Olivia "Don't let me go"

[Pre-Chorus] Didn't they tell us "Don't rush into things"? Didn't you flash your green eyes at me? Haven't you heard what becomes of curious minds? Ooh, didn't it all seem new and exciting? I felt your arms twistin' around me I should have slept with one eye open at night

The Pre-Chorus tells of a decision to go public with a previously private relationship. At the time Harry and One Direction were incessantly asked invasive questions about dating, which Harry was increasingly uncomfortable answering. Shortly before 1D provided a list of banned questions which was not well received.

Slut! implies that Harry had wanted to go public and Taylor cautioned against it " Taking your chance / It's a big mistake / I said it might blow up in your pretty face / I'm not saying do it anyway / But you're going to / And if they call me a slut / You know it might be worth it for once"

Harry's green eyes are mentioned in many songs.

[Chorus] We found Wonderland, you and I got lost in it And we pretended it could last forever (Eh, eh) We found Wonderland, you and I got lost in it And life was never worse, but never better (Eh, eh)

The Chorus encapsulates this relationship, one they are drawn to, see the peril in and proceed anyway because they love it. Taylor has other lyrics that refer to forever not coming true:

Wildest Dreams: Nothing lasts forever, but this is getting good now

Cowboy Like Me: Forever is the sweetest con

False God: We were crazy to think / Crazy to think that this could work / Remember how I said I'd die for you?

Pretending is also a theme, I think this about suspending judgement to stay in a Lavender Haze, or set aside concerns about the potential reputational damage or bullying caused by fans:

I Knew You Were Trouble: "Pretend he doesn’t know that he’s the reason why your drowning"

Wildest Dreams: "Say you’ll see me again even if it’s just pretend"

Delicate: "Sometimes when I look into your eyes, I pretend you’re mine all the damn time"

Death By A Thousand Cuts: "Chandelier’s still flickering here ‘cause I can’t pretend it’s okay when it’s not"

Paris: "Stumble down pretend alleyways, cheap wine, make believe it’s champagne"

[Post-Chorus] (Eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh) In Wonderland x3

The post chorus Eh's sound so similar to Rihanna's "Under my umbrella, ella, ella, eh, eh, eh" which is actually similar in theme, Umbrella is about a famous couple being there for each other, Wonderland is feeling like that didn't happen.

In the period One Direction was incessantly asked for a celebrity crush (while he was actually dating an exceptional famous dream girl) Harry often said Rihanna, if he answered. Rihanna was a safe choice, she wasn't single, she has spoken highly of Harry. Also she sat in front of him at the infamous 2013 VMAs.

[Verse 2] So, we went on our way Too in love to think straight All alone, or so it seemed But there were strangers watchin' And whispers turned to talkin' And talking turned to screams, oh

Fame and focus of people outside the relationship is a theme. I can't repeat enough how much this song is about a public relationship:

Dancing with our hands tied "People started talkin', puttin' us through our paces" and

I know places - "Somethin' happens when everybody finds out / See the vultures circling, dark clouds / Love's a fragile little flame, it could burn out / It could burn out" and "I can hear them whisper as we pass by, It's a bad sign, bad sign"

…Ready For It?: Touch me and you’ll never be alone

So It Goes…: But when you get me alone, it’s so simple

Harry for One Direction Where do Broken Hearts Go: "Mind is runnin' in circles of you and me / Anyone in-between is the enemy"

[Pre-Chorus] Didn't they tell us "Don't rush into things"? Didn't you flash your green eyes at me? Didn't you calm my fears with a Cheshire cat smile? Ooh, didn't it all seem new and exciting? I felt your arms twistin' around me It's all fun and games 'til somebody loses their mind But darling

The reference of a Cheshire Cat smile is a double meaning, both referring to Harry's smile and where he grew up, Cheshire, England. Lewis Carroll, author of Alice in Wonderland, was also born in Cheshire. Calm my fears similar to the line in NYD “squeeze my hand”

[Bridge] I reached for you, but you were gone I knew I had to go back home You searched the world for somethin' else To make you feel like what we had And in the end, in Wonderland, we both went mad Oh

The song ends on a sad note, Taylor realises the relationship is too much for her so she gives it up. Her muse can't replace her and they never get over it. From Slut! and Say Don't Go in the 1989 Vault Taylor wanted more assurance in the chaotic storm of them going public. From Harry's TBSL and Little Freak we can infer that he wasn't ready for it, 19 and too famous too quickly.

Reached for you but you were gone

Message In A Bottle: I’m reaching for you, terrified

I Knew You Were Trouble: And he’s long gone when he’s next to me

I Know Places: Just grab my hand and don’t ever drop it

New Romantics: Please take my hand and please take me dancing

Willow: I’m begging for you to take my hand, wreck my plans, that’s my man

Harry's As it was: I want you to hold out the palm of your hand / Why don't we leave it at that?

You searched the world for something else

Is it over now? "You search in every model's bed for somethin' greater, baby"

Harry's As it was: When everything gets in the way / Seems you cannot be replaced / And I'm the one who will stay, oh

We both went mad: the song ends on 'we both went mad' which is a double meaning of having lost themselves in this relationship and the Cheshire Cat saying "we're all mad here. I'm mad. You're mad." in Alice in Wonderland. Madness is a theme in Harry and Taylors songs about each other:

Blank Space "Magic, madness, heaven, sin" and "They'll tell you I'm insane"

Say Don’t Go: "The waiting is a sadness fading into madness"

IDWLF "Baby, baby, I feel crazy Up all night, all night and every day"

Hit's Different "Or have they come to take me away? To take me away"

Harry for One Direction If I could Fly "I've been going out of my mind (I feel it I feel it) Know that I'm just wasting time"

Harry's Kiwi "She's driving me crazy, but I'm into it (Oh)

Wonderland also has a taymoji pack which refers to king of my heart, the rose/thorn Haylor theme.

[ckret2]

Since Dipper is the one most likely to get backstory out of Bill, did he ever come across Flatland (as in, the book)?

Dipper's the one most likely to ask the questions that get the terrifying answers that Bill doesn't realize reveal a bit too much; but I think Bill would more freely share dry unemotional biographical details . He's already told Ford he comes from the second dimension, and he mentions Edwin Abbot Abbot  when asked in the out-of-canon AMA about his origin—so I think it doesn't take much prying for him to describe where he comes from. (And in an earlier ask about this AU, I cracked a joke about him cheating at cards to coerce the family into watching Flatland for movie night.)

All of which is to say, I'm sure Dipper knows about the book Flatland—Bill's probably name dropped it—but to everyone's surprise except Bill's, it's Mabel who actually sits down and reads it first. By the time Dipper gets a crack at the book, Mabel's made a shapesona.

(This is Mabel's shapesona. Bill calls it the most hideously disfigured man he's ever seen.)

Keeping with the theme I've got going here of "Bill and Mabel are actually scarily alike and the more they notice that the more they get invested in figuring each other out": Bill is Mabel's new terrifying friend who might destroy reality, but is pretty fun when he isn't doing that or hurting her family, and MAYBE he could be talked out of wanting to do that at all! She wants to know where he came from and what made him the way he is. Dipper is driven by academic curiosity and a need to understand his enemy, but Mabel is driven by the 🌈🌟POWER OF FRIENDSHIP🦄💞!!!

So yeah she'll jump on this dry hundred-something-year-old book about MATH just to learn a bit more about Bill.

The first the rest of the household learns she's picked up the book is when she stomps into the kitchen in her pajamas ready to RIOT because the Flatlanders banned colors. "That's like banning fashion! Or HAPPINESS!"

(Bill reassures her that the book's mostly satire and color was legal in his dimension. "And anyway, they're all dead now!")

Dipper picks up the book the second Mabel finishes it. He probably gets a bit more out of the mathematical thought-experiment side of it, but not by a whole lot; Mabel might not be a nerd but she is smart, and most of the math concepts explained in the book are the kind of thing they're about to hit in school in anyway.

Mabel connects more to the story emotionally. Dipper interacts with the 1D King's disbelief of the 2nd dimension with the understanding that it's a metaphor to help a 3D reader grapple with their own disbelief of the 4th dimension, but Mabel interacts with it on the level of "the point king is stupid not to believe in lines, the line king is stupid not to believe in squares, the squares are stupid not to believe in spheres, and the sphere is stupid not to believe in 4D shapes!!" (Bill, deeply amused: "YEAH, YOU TELL 'EM, SWEATERS!")

Of course, Ford's read Flatland too, decades ago. He and Dipper can talk in depth about the mathematical concepts (which Dipper appreciates, because watching Mabel go on with Bill about the social side of the book is making him feel pretty left out). Ford helps explain some of the geometric concepts that are a bit beyond Dipper's 13-year-old education, and talks about his own personal experiences trying to interact with higher and lower dimensions—which are all a lot messier than the book would suggest.

But at night when the adults (and alien) aren't around, Dipper and Mabel have quiet conversations about the politics in the book—the sexism, the classism, the... shape-ism? the anti-intellectualism, the political imprisonments, the medical mutilations, the infanticide, the tyranny... And they wonder how much of it is just a human's fiction to make an interesting sci-fi book, and how much really does describe the world Bill came from.

Stan hasn't read the book and fell asleep during the movie.

[wingslikeiicarus]

a letter to the boy i grew up with:

the passage of time is a concept i’ll never truly understand, what i do know is one direction have been one of my greatest loves and special interests for a long long period of said time. i grew up with liam, his face and his voice is as familiar to me as family. i’m a patch quilt of my greatest passions and experiences that inform who i am now as an adult, and one direction are some of the most integral threads, woven between an overwhelming abundance of memories spanning the last 14 years. my environment is a scrapbook of the many things i dedicate my time to loving wholeheartedly, and now everywhere i look i’m surrounded my memorabilia of him. the posters litering my walls, the 1d mug my friends got me for my 1d themed birthday years ago, the 1d notebook i turned into a cookbook full of exactly three recipes that i’ve alternated between every night for years that i have open on my counter every time i cook despite knowing the recipes like muscle memory, just so it can be splashed with ingredients and become torn and tattered and used and loved, jewellery, books, concert dvds, tour programmes, an unfinished 1d painting lying discarded on my floor, and of course the 1d vinyls i got that started my collection which has since spawned into 80+ records spanning a vast discography of music that 1d opened me up to. liam is a powerhouse of vocals and lyrics, the grounding presence the band could not exist without. and so i mourn the person i’ll never get to see him heal and grow into, i mourn the band i’ll never see or listen to the same again, and i celebrate the boy i grew up with and the things he’s achieved with that band. i still shimmy like leeroy every time i put on a headband. i hope you are warm and at peace, rest easy lad. Always in my heart payno <3

[filmfauxpas]

The Idea of You (2024) Review

I originally watched The Idea of You in a room full of former “One Directioners,” myself included. Having all been obsessed with one or more of the 1D members, we braced ourselves for Nick Galitzine’s portrayal of the beloved British pop ideal. What graced our screen was a caricature of Harry Styles: Hayes Campbell. Dressed in a white sleeveless tee, revealing his scattered sleeve of tattoos, and ripped skinny jeans, he made his way through his trailer after encountering Solene, his love interest who is 16 years his senior, portrayed by Anne Hatheway. The two meet under improbable circumstances when Solene stumbles into his trailer at Coachella, mistaking it for a public restroom. Despite this unrealistic meet-cute, they share playful banter and part ways, only to reconnect at a meet-and-greet for Hayes' band, August Moon. Solene, accompanied by her daughter, makes her way through a line of frenzied teenage fans, where bandmates make jokes about how attractive she is and Hayes is once again, enhanced by her. During the band’s performance, we see Solene and her daughter in the crowd and Hayes makes a last-minute set change to sing a new song that he dedicates to Solene. As their romance unfolds, they quickly become infatuated with each other, traveling the world, having sex in fancy hotels, and going out until the gripping reality of their relationship becomes clear and the two face the reality of Hayes’ high-profile lifestyle. This puts Solene and her daughter in the public eye, ultimately leading to their breakup. Overall, the film isn't bad. Both Anne Hathaway and Nicholas Galitzine deliver strong performances and make their characters compelling. The plot is engaging with high stakes, and because the characters are so likable, the audience roots for them. However, it is hard to move past just how uncanny the character of Hayes Campbell is. 

The author of The Idea of You, Robinne Lee, admitted around the book's release that Harry Styles served as inspiration for the character of Hayes. Stating that “I was up late surfing music videos on YouTube" and "came across the face of a boy I’d never seen in a band I’d never paid attention to. … It was like…art.” Lee also shared after learning of Styles' relationships with older women that “the seed was planted” for the novel. However, as the book gained more popularity during the Pandemic, readers were quick to draw similarities between Harry Styles and Hayes, ultimately dubbing it a “Harry Styles fanfiction.” Lee responded to this by later stating she “regretted” sharing Styles as the inspiration and that “Harry was one of multiple people who went into creating Hayes Campbell.” Lee highlighted she wanted her novel to be seen as a story of a “woman reclaiming her sexuality and rediscovering herself.” While this theme is effectively conveyed, especially through Solene’s confident handling of divorce and new romance, it’s hard to ignore, at least in the film, how similar Hayes and Harry truly are. This similarity made it difficult to fully engage with the film, as it felt strange to watch a fictionalized version of a real person. For instance, the Coachella scene was the most jarring, with the band members mirroring real-life One Direction members in both voice and movement. The set design even echoes One Direction’s “On the Road Again” tour, with similar hand-drawn lightning bolts and arrows. It was during this scene that the room fell silence as each of us stared at the screen noting how strange this film actually was. Other details, like Hayes wearing a hat marked “Simple” — a nod to Harry Styles’ Pleasing brand — added to the sense of being in a world that felt too familiar. While these references may resonate with fans of Styles and One Direction, they can detract from the film’s storytelling.

All in all, the film's attempt to blend homage with original storytelling is notable, however, it sometimes struggles to balance these elements seamlessly. For fans of Harry Styles and One Direction, the film may offer a unique, if somewhat disconcerting, viewing experience. For others, it stands as a well-crafted romance with engaging performances and a moving narrative.

[aegor-bamfsteel]

Do you think show did wrong to Xaro character? They also changed his race.

I think the show did wrong by most of the Essosi cast, because they weren’t sure why they were written. Xaro is no exception. (His race was changed, and I know GRRM said he was white, but the Qartheen live in the far east and surrounded by people described as darker-skinned, so it makes sense to me to cast actors of color as Qartheen. It’s making him into a 1D villain to kill rather than the opportunistic sometime ally as he is in the books in addition to casting an African actor for him that I object to). In the books he’s no more evil than the other Qartheen, he actively distrusts the Undying, doesn’t care about becoming King of Qarth (not that the Qartheen ever has kings), it’s implied he’s uninterested in women (though I’m rolling my eyes that him not looking at Dàny’s breast indicates that. She’s 14 and he’s a lot older plus he’s from a culture where breast-baring is common), he apparently defends her from the Pureborn. Yes, he does want one of the dragons, but after she refuses his marriage proposal he just tells her to leave the city, not work with his perennial enemies the warlocks to steal one. Then in ADWD he and Dàny have a talk about slavery and while he’s clearly in the wrong viewing freedom as useless to slaves, he does expose how valuable her idea of freedom is, with the story of his penniless friend forced to dig a ditch and begging to be bought into slavery. There’s more to him than “violent warlord seeking to conquer and seduces a maid who is loyal to the end in the books in order to get dragons by force”; he and the evils he represents (the well spoken, wealthy elite merchant slavers) are a lot subtler. Ultimately I don’t think the show understood what GRRM was doing with the character (nor Doreah, Irri, or really any of Dány’s khalasar), and once again were prioritizing the spectacle over themes about morality and corruption.

[markanthonys-things]

ONCE HEART UNITED

Hernandez, Mark Anthony

Sta.lucia, Magalang, Pampanga Phase 2 blk bi lot 1d

09356506716

markhernandez1219@gmail.com

(CHARACTERS)

CEAN- he is handsome and smart also has taste when it comes to passion he is bestfriend of loverboy

ARK- softhearted, caring, smart, and have sense of humor he is the also the main character here

ZEYA- the cause of agurment, ex of Cean.

TIME

2024

Synopsis

There's a bestfriend who's very close to each other, they grow together in the same community. They are very close to the point they didn't even notice what's on their relationship is. The story begins when something happened in cafeteria in their school. They are like siblings, make fun of each other, sharing experience, always with in all acquaintances and treat each other more than just a patner. Because of something they didn't realize they fall on the situationthat there's no escape or turn back and it will be forever. This story thought us a lesson about love, trust, and forgiving.

.......

INTR. HIGHSCHOOL HALLWAY

We see two teenage boys, CEAN (18) and ARK (18), walking side by side, laughing about something as they make their way to class.

ARK: (jokingly) So, are you ever gonna share your lunch with me or should I just accept that you're a selfish food hoarder?

CEAN: (grinning) Sorry, buddy, but my mom only packed enough for one. You'll have to fend for yourself.

They playfully shove each other as they reach their classroom.

INT. SCHOOL CAFETERIA - LUNCHTIME

Cean and Ark sit at their usual table, surrounded by other students chatting and eating. They share a lunchbox, passing food back and forth between them, their friendship evident to anyone watching.

ARK: (leaning in) Hey, did you finish that English essay last night? I was struggling with the theme analysis.

CEAN: (nodding) Yeah, I managed to wrap it up. We can go over it together after school if you want.

Ark smiles appreciatively, their eyes meeting for a moment longer than usual before they both look away, a hint of something unspoken lingering in the air.

INT. ARK'S BEDROOM - EVENING

Ark and Cean are sprawled out on the floor amidst textbooks and papers, the glow of a desk lamp casting shadows on the walls.

Cean: (pointing at the book) So, what do you think about this character's arc? Do you think it's believable?

Ark looks up, caught off guard by the intensity in Cean's gaze. He swallows nervously before responding.

Ark: (softly) Yeah, I think it makes sense. But... um, can I ask you something?

Cean: (curious) Sure, what's up?

Ark hesitates, his heart pounding in his chest.

ARK: (quietly) Do you ever feel like... I don't know, like there's something more between us than just friendship?

Cean's expression softens, and he reaches out to gently squeeze Ark's hand.

CEAN: (tenderly) Yeah, Ark, I do.

Their eyes meet, and in that moment, they both know that they're falling for each other.

CEAN: what's plan now?

ARK: sorry i have to go, i have important acquittance and let's talk about that tomorrow.

Ark smile at Cean before leaving the room and Cean stay the room alone and the surrounding filled with silence.

EXT. ANOTHER DAY AT PARK - WEEKEND

Ark and Cean sit side by side on a park bench, the afternoon sun warming their faces as they watch the world go by.

Ark: (hesitant) So, um, what does this mean for us?

Cean takes a deep breath, gathering his thoughts before responding.

Cean: (smiling) I think it means we're more than just friends, Ark. And honestly, I couldn't be happier about it.

They lean in, their lips meeting in a tender kiss as the world fades away around them, leaving only the promise of a love that's been quietly growing between them all along.

(Camera turn in to black screen) eme lang ma'am

INT. CEAN'S BEDROOM 2 - NIGHT

Ark and Cean are lying side by side on Cean's bed, their fingers intertwined as they gaze at the ceiling, lost in thought.

ARK: (softly) I never imagined this would happen. You know, falling for my best friend.

CEAN: (squeezing Cean's hand) Yeah, but sometimes the best things happen when we least expect them to.

They share a tender smile, their hearts beating in sync. Then suddenly Cean put a topic.

CEAN: what if tomorrow we're going to beach?

ARK: why? I don't want to go in the beach.

Cean convince Ark to agree with him to go in the beach to enjoy their relationship and make bonding.

ARK: ok Cean, i agree i will go with you in the beach. (Smilling at Cean)

Cean show a brighter smile on his face and he give tight hug for Ark.

EXT. BEACH - SUNSET

Cean and Ark walk hand in hand along the shoreline, the gentle crash of waves providing a soothing backdrop to their conversation.

ARK: (grinning) Remember when we used to come here as kids and build sandcastles?

CEAN: (chuckling) Yeah, and then we'd always end up knocking them down before they were even finished.

They stop and face each other, the setting sun casting a warm glow over their faces.

ARK: (serious) I never want this moment to end, Cean. I want to be with you, always.

Cean's eyes glisten with emotion as he reaches up to brush a stray lock of hair from Ark's face.

CEAN: (softly) Me too, Cean. I love you.

They lean in for a kiss, their love for each other written in every touch and every lingering glance. And they enjoy their time together.

As Ark and Caen walk hand in hand along the shoreline, the sun dips lower on the horizon, painting the sky in hues of orange and pink.

ARK: (gazing at the sunset) It's so beautiful here, Cean. I'm glad we came.

CEAN: (squeezing Ark's hand) Yeah, me too. This place has always been special to us.

They find a secluded spot and sit down on the sand, watching the waves gently lapping at the shore.

ARK: (softly) Cean, there's something I need to tell you.

CEAN: (concerned) What is it, Ark?

ARK: (taking a deep breath) I've been feeling... scared lately. Scared of what people might think if they knew about us.

CEAN: (placing a comforting hand on Ark's shoulder) Hey, it's okay. We don't have to rush anything. We'll take things one step at a time, together.

Ark leans into Cean's touch, feeling a sense of relief wash over him.

ARK: (smiling gratefully) Thank you, Cean. I don't know what I'd do without you.

CEAN: (smiling back) You'll never have to find out. I'll always be here for you, no matter what.

They sit together in silence, the weight of their unspoken fears lifting with each passing moment, replaced by a newfound sense of strength and resilience.

BEACH- NIGHT

The sun has set, and the beach is bathed in the soft glow of moonlight. Arkand cean walk hand in hand along the shoreline, the sound of the waves crashing against the shore creating a soothing rhythm.

ARK: (smiling) I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders, being able to talk to you about everything.

CEAN: (squeezing Cean's hand) I'm glad you feel that way, Ark. You can always count on me.

They continue their stroll along the beach, their footsteps leaving imprints in the sand as they navigate the shoreline.

ARK: (playfully) Hey, remember that time we got lost on this beach when we were kids, and it took us hours to find our way back?

CEAN: (laughing) How could I forget? We were so convinced we were going to be stranded forever.

ARK: (grinning) But we made it back eventually, just like we always do. Together.

They stop walking and face each other, the moonlight casting shadows on their faces.

CEAN: (gently) Ark, there's something I've been meaning to say.

ARK: (curious) What is it, Cean?

CEAN: (taking a deep breath) I love you, Ark. More than anything in this world.

Ark's heart skips a beat, overwhelmed by the depth of Cean's words.

ARK: (softly) I love you too, Cean. More than you'll ever know.

They lean in for a tender kiss, their love for each other shining brighter than any star in the night sky.

EXT. BEACH - LATE AFTERNOON

As the day progresses, Ark and Ceann continue to enjoy each other's company on the beach. They build sandcastles, playfully splash each other in the waves, and share deep conversations under the warm sun.

ARK: (laughing) I can't believe you're still so competitive when it comes to building sandcastles.

CEAN: (grinning) Hey, a little friendly competition never hurt anyone. Plus, mine is clearly superior.

They both burst into laughter, the sound carrying over the gentle rustle of the ocean breeze.

ARK: (playfully) You wish! But seriously, Cean, today has been amazing. I don't want it to end.

CEAN: (gazing at Alex fondly) Me neither, Ark. But we have a lifetime of moments like these ahead of us.

As the sun begins to dip lower in the sky, casting a golden shade over the beach, Ark and Cean share one last embrace, sad to leave the serenity of the shoreline behind.

ARK: (softly) Thank you for today, Cean. For everything.

CEAN: (squeezing Ark's hand) No, thank you, Ark, for being you. Let's come back here again soon, okay?

They share a smile, knowing that the memories they've made on this beach will last a lifetime.

INT. CEAN'S APARTMENT - DAY

Two years have passed, and Ark and Cean are now living together in a cozy apartment overlooking the city. The walls are adorned with photographs capturing their happiest moments together.

ARK: (setting down a tray of coffee) Can you believe it's been two years since that day on the beach?

CEAN: (smiling) Time flies when you're in love, huh?

They share a knowing look, their bond stronger than ever.

CEAN: (excitedly) I have something to show you.

Cean retrieves a small velvet box from his pocket and gets down on one knee, a nervous smile playing on his lips.

CEAN: (emotionally) Ark, these past two years have been the best of my life. I can't imagine spending them with anyone else but you. Will you marry me?

Ark's eyes fill with tears of joy as he nods eagerly.

ARK: (choked up) Yes, Alex, a thousand times yes!

They embrace tightly, their love for each other shining brighter than ever before.

ANOTHER DAY

Ark cleaning the house while Cean go to work, while Ark cleaning the house he found out something on the under the couch, it's a picture of Cean with a girl kissing Cean. Ark filled with questions "who is this girl" he never mention this girl to me, he flipped the picture and he saw a name on back of the picture. What? ",ZEYA?" Who's this girl? Ark immediately grab his phone and search this girl on social media then he found out this girl has a new boyfriend. So he try to communicate Zeya. He make a first move, he chat Zeya privately and Zeya immediately reply to his.

ARK: excuse me for bothering, i just want you to know if you knew Cean Smith?

Ark filled with emotionless in his face

ZEYA: Yes, and why?

ARK: I'm his Cousin, cause i saw ur picture here and i'm very curious so i searched you with the help on the internet i found you

ZEYA: ah, actually i'm his ex, we broke up because i choose my career over him and i'm not prepared for relationship that time i'm very sorry for him and i never get closure to him, can u please tell to him i was regretting all that i hope he can forgive me

Ark feel uncomfortable in this information, he feel cean is secretly lying to him

ARK: copy, i will tell him what you said thanks!

And that was the last conversation with Zeya.

INT. ARK AND CEAN'S APARTMENT - EVENING

Cean arrive on their apartment

Ark sits on the couch, tension radiating from his every movement. Cean stands nearby, his expression filled with concern.

ARK: (frustrated) I can't believe you never told me about your past relationships, Cean. How could you keep something like that from me for two years?

CEAN: (defensive) I didn't think it was relevant, Alex. My past is in the past. What matters is us, here and now.

Ark lets out a sigh, running a hand through his hair in frustration.

ARK: (exasperated) But it does matter, Cean! I thought we shared everything with each other. How can I trust you if you're keeping secrets from me?

CEAN: (softly) Ark, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you. I just didn't know how to bring it up.

The room falls silent as they both struggle to find the right words.

CEAN: (calming down) I understand, Ark. But I need time to process this. Can we talk about it later, after we've both had a chance to cool off?

Ark no respond, his eyes filled with angers.

INT. ARK AND CEAN'S BEDROOM - LATER

Ark and cean sit on the edge of their bed, facing each other, the tension still palpable in the air.

ARK: (hesitantly) I've been thinking, Cean. Maybe we need to work on our communication. We can't let things fester like this.

CEAN: (nodding) You're right, Ark. I should have been more open with you from the start. I promise to do better.

They reach for each other, their hands intertwining in a silent pledge to be more honest and transparent in their relationship.

INT. ARK AND CEAN'S APARTMENT - WEEKS LATER

Ark and Cean sit on the couch, a sense of peace and understanding radiating between them. They've spent the past few weeks working on their communication and rebuilding trust, and it's starting to show.

ARK: (smiling) I'm really proud of us, Cean. We've come a long way since our argument.

CEAN: (gratefully) Me too, Ark. I feel like we're stronger than ever.

They share a tender glance, a silent acknowledgment of the growth they've experienced together.

ARK: (thoughtfully) You know, I've been thinking about what you said, about your past relationships. And I realize now that it doesn't define who you are today.

CEAN: (emotionally) Thank you, Ark. That means a lot to me.

They lean in for a gentle kiss, their love for each other shining brightly in their eyes.

ARK: (playfully) So, what do you say we celebrate how far we've come with a movie night and pizza?

CEAN: (grinning) Sounds perfect to me.

They cuddle up on the couch, content in the knowledge that their love is stronger than any obstacle they may face.

INT. ALEX AND BEN'S BEDROOM - LATER THAT NIGHT

Alex and Ben lie in bed, wrapped in each other's arms, the soft glow of the moon casting shadows on the walls.

ARK: (whispering) I'm glad we talked things out, Cean. I feel closer to you than ever.

CEAN: (pressing a kiss to Alex's forehead) Me too, Ark. I never want to lose what we have.

Their hearts full of love and gratitude for each other, knowing that no matter what challenges may arise, they'll always face them together.

INT. CEAN AND ARK ROOM - Day

Cean and Ark are sitting on the couch, sipping tea and looking at their wedding planner.

CEAN: (excitedly) Can you believe it, Ark? Our wedding is just a few months away!

ARK: (smiling) I know, it's hard to believe how fast time has flown by. I couldn't be happier.

CEAN: (flipping through the planner) Have you thought about what you want our ceremony to be like?

ARK: (thoughtfully) I've been giving it some thought. I want it to be simple yet meaningful, surrounded by our closest friends and family.

CEAN: (nodding) That sounds perfect. I was thinking we could have it in that beach we visited last summer. Remember how beautiful it was?

ARK: (grinning) Yes, I remember. It was like something out of a fairytale. I think it would be the perfect setting for our special day.

CEAN: (leaning in closer) And what about our vows? Have you started writing yours yet?

ARK: (blushing) A little. It's harder than I thought it would be, putting into words how much you mean to me.

CEAN: (reaching for Ark's hand) I know what you mean. But don't worry, whatever you say will be perfect. As long as it comes from the heart.

ARK: (squeezing Cean's hand) Thank you, love. And what about you? Have you started writing yours?

CEAN: (smiling) I have. I've been listing down little things here and there, trying to capture all the love and joy I feel when I think about our future together.

ARK: (tearfully) You always know how to make me feel so loved, Cean.

CEAN: (pulling Ark into a hug) And I always will, Ark. Forever and always.

2 WEEKS BEFORE THEIR WEDDING

INSIDE OF ARK AND CEAN'S APARTMENT

It's a cozy space with wedding magazines scattered across the coffee table and wedding invitations neatly stacked on the counter. Cean is flipping through a bridal magazine while Ark is sorting through a pile of wedding suits.]

CEAN: (excitedly) Ark, can you believe it? In just two weeks, we'll be saying "I do"!

ARK: (smiling) I know, it's crazy how fast time flies. But hey, we've got a lot to do before then.

CEAN: (nodding) You're right. Let's tackle this to-do list together.

They both sit down at the dining table, pulling out notebooks and pens.

ARK: Okay, first up, we need to finalize the guest list. Did you get a chance to speak with your Aunt Sarah?

CEAN: (grimacing) Not yet. You know how she can be. But I'll give her a call today, I promise.

ARK: Great. And I'll follow up with my cousin Mark about RSVPs. We need those numbers for the caterer.

CEAN: (writing it down) Got it. What about decorations? Have you decided on a theme yet?

ARK: (thoughtful) I was thinking something simple yet elegant. Maybe white roses and fairy lights?

CEAN: (smiling) Sounds perfect. I'll add that to our shopping list.

They continue brainstorming and jotting down notes for the next hour, occasionally pausing to share a laugh or steal a kiss.

ARK: (glancing at the clock) Wow, time really flew by. We should probably start looking at our vows soon.

CEAN: (nervously) Yeah, I've been thinking about that. I want them to be perfect, you know?

ARK: (reassuringly) Don't worry, Cean. Whatever you say will be perfect because it's coming from your heart.

CEAN: (gratefully) Thanks, Ark. I needed to hear that.

They share a tender moment before getting back to work, determined to make their wedding day as magical as possible.

TWO WEEKS LATER

A beautiful beach on a sunny afternoon. The sound of gentle waves crashing against the shore creates a serene atmosphere. The wedding setup is simple yet elegant, with white chairs arranged in rows facing an arch adorned with billowing white fabric and white vibrant flowers.

Cean stand at the front waiting for his husband, he dressed in stylish beach wedding attire, surrounded by their loved ones.

The red carpet is laid out along the sandy aisle, leading to the front where Cean eagerly awaits the arrival of his groom, Ark.

After few minutes finally his husband arrived

The guests turn their heads as Ark, accompanied by his parents, makes his grand entrance. Ark's parents beam with pride as they walk beside their son, their steps synchronized with the rhythm of the ocean waves in the background.

PRIEST: (smiling) Dearly beloved, we are gathered here today to celebrate the union of Cean and Ark. They have chosen this beautiful beach as the backdrop for their special day, a place where the sea meets the sky, symbolizing the endless possibilities of their love.

CEAN: (whispering to himself and started flow his tears in his eyes) Wow, Ark looks absolutely breathtaking.

Ark locks eyes with Cean, a radiant smile spreading across his face as they share a silent exchange of love and anticipation. With each step, Ark's confidence grows, fueled by the support of his parents and the knowledge that he's about to marry the love of his life.

ARK'S MOTHER: (whispering to Ark) You're glowing, my dear. This is your moment.

ARK: (gratefully) Thank you, Mom. I couldn't have asked for better parents.

As they reach the front, Ark's parents take their seats among the guests, leaving Ark standing face to face with Cean. Their hands find each other's, intertwining fingers in a silent promise of forever.

PRIEST: (smiling) And now, with Ark's parents by his side, we witness the union of two souls destined to be together. Cean and Ark, your love has brought you to this moment, and as you stand here surrounded by your loved ones, may you always remember the unwavering support of those who stand beside you.

Ark's parents exchange a proud glance, their eyes shimmering with emotion as they watch their with the man he loves. Tears of joy glisten in their eyes as they witness the beginning of a beautiful journey for Ark and Cean.

With Ark's parents seated among the guests, the focus shifts back to Cean and Ark, who stand united at the altar, ready to take the next step in their love story.

Officiant: Cean and Ark, as you stand here today, ready to embark on this journey together, remember to cherish each moment, to support each other through life's challenges, and to always keep the flame of love burning bright in your hearts.

The ceremony proceeds with heartfelt vows exchanged between Cean and Ark, their words carrying the weight of a lifetime of love and devotion. As they exchange rings, the sun begins to set, casting a golden glow over the beach.

Cean's Message to Ark:

My dearest Ark,

As I sit here on the cusp of forever, my heart swells with an indescribable joy knowing that in just a few moments, I will have the privilege of calling you my husband. From the moment our paths first crossed, I knew that you were the missing piece of my heart, the one I had been searching for all along.

Today, as we stand on the sandy shores of this beautiful beach, surrounded by the love and support of our cherished family and friends, I am filled with an overwhelming sense of gratitude. Gratitude for the love that we share, for the laughter that fills our days, and for the endless possibilities that lie ahead of us.

You, Ark, are my greatest adventure, my most cherished treasure. Your love has brought light into the darkest corners of my soul, and with you by my side, I feel invincible. Your kindness, your compassion, and your unwavering support have lifted me up in times of need and made every joy that much sweeter.

As we prepare to exchange vows and pledge our love to one another in front of our loved ones, I want you to know that I am making a promise to you. A promise to love you fiercely, to honor you deeply, and to stand by your side through all of life's twists and turns. Together, we will weather any storm and celebrate every triumph, hand in hand, heart to heart.

Ark, my love for you knows no bounds, and today, as we embark on this incredible journey together, I am filled with an overwhelming sense of gratitude for the gift of your love. Here's to us, my darling, and to a lifetime filled with endless love, laughter, and adventure.

With all my heart,

Cean

Cean seals the envelope with a kiss, his heart brimming with love as he eagerly awaits the moment he can share his heartfelt message with Ark, his partner in love and in life while crying

PRIEST: let the husbund tell what his message to his Husband

Ark: (whispering to himself) This is it, the moment I've been waiting for my entire life.

With tears of joy welling in his eyes, Ark begins to write, the words flowing from his heart onto the page.

Ark's Message to Cean:

My dearest Cean,

As I sit here on the brink of forever, my heart overflows with love and gratitude for the incredible journey that has brought us to this moment. From the day we met, I knew that you were the one I had been waiting for, my soulmate, my partner, my everything.

Today, as we stand on the threshold of forever, surrounded by the beauty of this beach and the love of our family and friends, I am filled with an overwhelming sense of joy and peace. Knowing that I get to spend the rest of my days by your side, sharing in life's joys and sorrows, is the greatest gift I could ever ask for.

You are my rock, my anchor, my guiding light. Your love has given me strength in times of weakness, hope in times of despair, and joy in every moment we share together. With you, I am whole. With you, I am home.

As we exchange vows and embark on this new chapter of our lives, I promise to cherish you, to support you, and to love you with every fiber of my being. I promise to be there for you in good times and bad, in sickness and health, for as long as we both shall live.

Today, surrounded by the beauty of this beach and the love of our family and friends, I make a vow to you, my beloved Cean: to love you fiercely, passionately, and unconditionally, for all the days of my life.

With all my love,

Ark

Ark seals the envelope with a kiss, his heart overflowing with love as he eagerly awaits the moment he can share his heartfelt message with Cean, his partner in life and love.

PRIEST: And now, by the power vested in me, I pronounce you husbands for life (smiling) And with the exchange of vows and rings, I now pronounce you husband and husband. You may seal your love with a kiss.

Cean and Ark share a tender kiss, surrounded by cheers and applause from their family and friends. As they walk down the aisle as newlyweds, the sky erupts into a vibrant display of colors, painting the scene with hues of pink, orange, and purple.

GUESTS: (clapping and cheering) Congratulations!!

The sun dips below the horizon, casting a golden glow over the beach as the wedding ceremony draws to a close. Cean and Ark stand hand in hand in the front, their hearts overflowing with love and gratitude as they bask in the warmth of their newfound union.

CEAN: (whispering to Ark) This is it, Ark. Our happily ever after begins now.

ARK: (squeezing his hand) And I wouldn't want to start it anywhere else but here, with you, by my side.

They continue walking hand in hand, their hearts full of love and gratitude for each other and for the beautiful beach that witnessed the beginning of their new chapter together.

As the evening unfolds, the beach comes alive with music, laughter, and dancing as friends and family celebrate the newlyweds' love. Against the backdrop of the shimmering sea and the twinkling stars above, Cean and Ark take to the dance floor for their first dance as husbands, their love shining brighter than ever before.

Cean: (whispering to Ark) This is the happiest day of my life.

Ark: (smiling) Mine too, Cean. I love you more than words can express.

As the night wears on, Cean and Ark are surrounded by the love and warmth of their family and friends, dancing, laughing, and making memories that will last a lifetime. And as they look out at the sea, hand in hand, they know that their love is as infinite as the ocean itself.

Months turn into years, and Cean and Ark's love only grows stronger with each passing day. Together, they navigate life's highs and lows, leaning on each other for support, laughter, and unwavering love. And as they grow old together, hand in hand, they know that their love story is just beginning.

In the end, Cean and Ark live happily ever after, their love standing as a testament to the power of love, hope, and the magic of finding your soulmate. And as they walk off into the sunset, their hearts full and their smiles bright, they know that their love will endure for all eternity.

[this-daydream-is-dangerous-13]

tr's play is very common destination in London rn, my cousins went and they're not even fans of theater. but i do expect Anne to show up at the eras wembley shows bc eras tour is a cultural phenomenon and no one should miss it.

Awwww…I am glad to hear that the play is so popular. I will never begrudge a Canadian woman doing well, ha! But more importantly, this is a superbly talented *cast of colour* drawing attention to important themes and anything that raises awareness about this production is a win in my book.

I agree - no matter what the situation with her son and T, Anne will get an invitation to Eras (at Wembley or Anfield or somewhere else in the UK). Gemma too. I would bet money that they’ve stayed in contact over the years. It’s Blondie: she writes notes to kids she met at an award show who come backstage 4 years later (Alicia Keyes’s son Genesis). As if she didn’t send a note or something when Anne and Robin got married, or when Robin died of cancer!

Anne has been pro Taylor from the very start, and is still low key publicly supportive of her on social media.

And do you guys remember this? It’s in This is Us.

Timestamp 6:38, when Anne and Robin are in the car on the way to the Dec 3, 2012 1D MSG concert (which Taylor cannot attend because she is getting an award from the some Kennedy association that night, but quickly exits that and goes right to the after party.)

Look at her shirt! How sweet that they made sure Taylor was “there”.

(Am I certain this is TS? No. But it is certainly a point of discussion, and probably not a coincidence.)

This is one day after the “first date” day where she went for dinner with Anne and Robin for the “first time”. (I am belabouring this, I know, but I want to highlight the fact that *they had been dating in secret for months at this point.*Taylor was already familiar and loved by the important people on his life by the Central Park date!)

So yeah: no matter what, I think she will go to Eras. She cares for Taylor over and above what happens with any relationship with her son. And why not? They both seem like lovely people IRL.

[aimmyarrowshigh]

1 & 12 for the fic asks!

1. what's the fic youre most proud of?

Honestly, my current longfic WIP (Lent From Tomorrow) is easily the best thing I've ever written, fic or original work. But I'm proud of most of my longer-than-a-drabble fics for something or another.

I'm very proud of the Five Places Cinna Came From for actually finishing the whole thing, and same with Milliefic.

(The longer it's been since writing Milliefic, the more I'm like, 'its only real redeeming value is having finished something of that length, especially posting as I wrote,' but that's just me letting Larries spoil my fandom experience, I think.)

I'm proud of every Big Bang or Mini Bang fic I've actually finished and posted. I think Not In The Answer But The Question is currently the best fic on my AO3, probably, although I do think that I had to flub the pacing on the last quarter to meet the deadline. I still to this day think that Valor Valeria and What They Don't Tell You In History hold up, and they're old as heck, so that says something.

I actually really love the Stereo Kicks/H*rry P*tter world crossover that @fille-lioncelle and I wrote? It's paced well, IMO, and I think we took a fairly unique take on that trope by making them all adults and out of school.

I love all of the Since Feeling Is First stories that @nichestars and I wrote, even though it drives the OCD part of my brain a little nuts that we're three words short of an even 100,000 on the series, LOLOLOL.

I don't know that there's any one fic that I'm like "THIS IS MY PERFECT MASTERWERK" about, because I don't do like, extensive rewriting or whatever on fic and I know that I don't quite meet any lofty goals of having Symbolism! or Theme! that I try for with longer stuff, but there are aspects of pretty much everything longer than a drabble that I can take pride in. I try hard to be gentler to myself about the quality of my output than I used to be, because being cruel to myself just made me Not Write At All, and that's the opposite of the point, so.

11. Has a fic you’ve written ever caused issues/controversy?

Well, the Fanlore page for the "Timeline of 1D Fandom" says that Milliefic created some of the Larrie Truther tropes, and I've accepted that even though I don't GET it because it's CLEARLY ALL MADE UP OUT OF MY DUMB HEAD, but that would count as causing issues, for sure.

Landslide got (and still gets) inane hate for having M/F sex scenes even though it's M/M endgame. WAYYYYY back in the day, I wrote an Alec/Clary fic before Alec came out as monosexually gay in the Shadowhunter books, and every so often someone reads it without seeing that it was written in like 2010 and they get angry about me making a gay character bi (which would be fair if I'd done it after he came out as gay, but ::shrug::).

I feel like I vaguely recall someone trying to stir up something about my THG fic when The Panem Companion was announced, but they're completely separate works that have nothing to do with each other, so I feel like if there WAS drama about it, I wasn't actually aware of it.

But yeah, Milliefic takes the cake on that one.

[wlwmermald]

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[whentherewerebicycles]

today was an ELEVEN HOUR DAY god I just got home but it was so fulfilling and full of so many good human interactions!!!!

[bluewinnerangel]

Can we talk about the reference to cinema in Lucky Again? I was watching a reaction to FITF (I can't stop) from someone who didn't seem to know much about L/H/1D and she said "who is this man selling tickets at the cinema?" I had to laugh. Also after the leak I thought it was "they're selling tickets at the cinema" but the lyric book says THERE which really changes how I interpret that line. What do you think?

I think yes. When we did not have the official lyrics yet I thought it was

If you believe that guy is superman

They're selling tickets to the cinema

followed by "whatever gets you through the darkest night" which I thought was a bit shady, saying yeah if you think highly of that guy and all his behavior then you go over there and buy what he's selling you, you go watch that movie, you go entertain yourself with those thoughts if that helps you I guess whatever, but then it flips and but just find the light out of that madness like find your way back to earth (you're not superman) because that ain't real life.

I think both Louis and Harry use "Cinema" in the same derogatory way, in part, because I think both songs have a lot of layers to them and yes Harry's song Cinema has a ya nasty layer which is great and gay I think it also has another layer of looking at that recently luckily called off stunt where, not only did they work on a movie and it was mostly for the movie, also the whole PR fuckery around is was another movie in itself, a fake story, baby that's Cinema, that's some performative shitstorm dumpsterart, that's some narrative for you there, and well go on be entertained by it sheeple. It's passive aggressive and I love it.

Now back to Lucky Again and the actual lyrics:

If you believe that guy is superman

There selling tickets at the cinema

HA so the believed superman is the one selling the tickets. So.. thinking someone's all that because they're trying to sell you things? Trying to get you to buy the movie, the story. It's not just that dude over there is doing these great things you go watch it no he's also the dude that's the face you meet at the front desk there to sell something to you. Whether that something is a fabricated story/world (the CINEMAtic universe of the entertainment industry idk bro we're going places) or just mindless entertainment or even a specific reference to the song Cinema (which in turn takes you to the other points in my opinion so the only added layer is larry here which great good lovely). And then the contrast to that guy being superman vs him being a hard man, and that superman is standing right there vs him being a hard man to lose/find. And how that guy can be himself, either the public version or the version he thought he was or thought he had to be, but also the "you", but also another party that's selling a life to him/"you"/them both (like wow guys look fame isn't it shiny for instance), or a general figure selling a story to the general public.

But I also wanna talk about the other references of that line: hello DC universe I know way too little about. He's going from "Superman" to Batman with "the darkest night" -> The Dark Knight. With that I'm seeing the whole batman-joker-twoface-DC-cinematic-universe come to life in this verse or perhaps whole song, with the themes of madness ("madness is like gravity, all it takes is al little push") and luck (the lucky coin / leaving things up to chance and living for the chaos deciding mad actions based on a coin flip / "you make your own luck" all that) and find the light (batsignal lol), "before the world it got so serious" ("why so serious"). Like they're not directly related or not that I've cared to figure out because I don't think that would make much sense either but they're the famous quotes and this song's hitting all them keywords and I love the idea of him playing around with this stuff. There's probably a lot more to say about this, maybe for someone to whom this is the crossover of their dreams could write an essay about this lol it's not me.

And also of course the use of superman; implying that guy can do everything, achieve everything, do everything at once, be more than any mere human, be beyond mortal lol, nah he's just another guy. He's just that guy, and the "I" is a hard man (to lose/find) even, and the "you" has been working hard to be themselves, and then he's bringing it further back down to earth with lines like "I'd meet you at the favourite subway stop / we'd grab some food and meet the lads for one". Like a wise man once said "I can't be no superman, but for you I'll be super human".

Also wanna highlight the wordplay with "I'm a hard man to lose/to find" + "I was lucky once / I could be lucky again" -> hard-luck, aka unlucky, in a bad situation out of your control. This throughout the whole song, basically saying you're down on your luck without directly saying it "you give until it's gone away", "I see how hard you've worked [to be yourself]", "i made my way back", "[the time] it got away from us", "find the light out in the madness hold tight" I think all imply bad luck, but he's choosing (let's bring in "made my way back to a life I would choose") to focus on the positive, on how the luck can turn in his favor instead.

And then the other reference: "whatever gets you through the darkest night" -> John Lennon's Whatever Gets You Thru The Night, he mentioned this song together with Mind Games (again the song that holds the phrase "Faith In The Future") in a tweet at some point, and some more times throughout recent years, so I think at the very least it's something he was aware of writing it lol.

Also darkness vs light keeps coming back in his lyrics, on FITF alone but we could be bringing in other songs, also 1D and other's lyrics too, it's too much to go in to on top of all these points now but I just at least wanna mention that's a thing too and it's overwhelming :D

I don't know how to end this because I feel like we can ramble on about these things forever lemme end on The Dark Knight Rises -> I'm A Hard Man. :D :D Get IT :D :D

[anticonspiracist]

@back-to-louis and i FINALLY talk about @kaittiffany's book, everything i need i get from you. we also touch on some themes from tabitha carvan's this is not a book about benedict cumberbatch. tabitha, you'll remember, interviewed yours truly back in the dark ages!

some links!

episode 23: a larrie MELTDOWN - this is about doll lady melting down when KT sent the fact-check to her.

one direction, fake babies, and the problem with celebrity conspiracy theories - tabitha carvan's piece on the fake baby CTs of 1D and BC fandoms

thisiskatsblog's entire correspondence with kaitlyn tiffany

j-14 article about project no control

doll lady's meltdown when KT sent her the fact-check; as well as day 2 of the meltdown

[quelsentiment]

15, 27 and 28. if you want 💫❄📓

hi friend, thanks for these!! 💕

15- How would you summarize the themes of your work this year in one sentence?

it's hard to find a common theme for every one of them. i guess if you disregard the most light-hearted pieces and only keep the more serious/thoughtful ones, maybe they're all about the difficulty of embracing change but managing to do it anyway? but that feels like a cop-out answer, because aren't all fictional works about change? i can't think of anything else, though 😌

27- Which books, movies, etc, helped instruct your storytelling this year?

in terms of books, i haven't read a lot of published fiction this year. almost none, actually (meaning i can't remember what was the last novel i read :/ i've been focusing on graphic novels and non-fiction lately) i read fewer fics than i used to as well, but there's a few that had quite an impact on me (x x x x) they all have in common that they have darker themes + morally grey characters, and that's a direction i'd definitely like to explore more in my own work. i did that a little with my Buffy AU but i'd definitely like to take it further next year.

otherwise, music has been my number one source of inspo as always. just to cite a few, jeff buckley's grace (and what he said about it) was the inspiration for this. alex g's runner prompted me to write this in one night. and I've been obsessed with french band feu! chatterton lately—their lyrics are very poetic and evocative and i hope i find a way to channel that in my own writing somehow. i have a tendency (partly born out of laziness) to want to keep things direct and to the point, so i think my writing could use some more... how should i put it? style lol

28- What are your writing goals for next year?

see previous question about exploring darker themes 👀 otherwise i don't really know, i've never been the kind of person to make new year's resolutions, much less keep them

there's also the fact that i'm kind of in between fandoms right now, so i'm not sure there'll be much 1d content from me next year, apart from a fic for the zouis fest. if inspiration strikes, maybe i'll try my hand at some original writing, but who knows. it also depends on real life stuff and how (un)busy i’ll be over the coming months

[ladyaj-13]

28th Appreciation - October edition

Welcome to my (still just about October 28th in my timezone) appreciation post! Under a cut as usual, this month featuring Lilo, Tomlinshaw, Nouis, Narry, Ziam and, of course, buckets of Larry recs too. If I missed any tumblr people tags just let me know.

Lilo

slow to acknowledge the knots in our laces - dicktective - One Direction (Band) [Archive of Our Own] – 14k, M – gay chicken, canon compliant. I love me some Lilo and I love oblivious Louis and this fic has both of those things in spades – so if that's your thing, give it a read.

Do it right - MissLii - One Direction (Band) [Archive of Our Own]@pandadepanda – 2 k, T – wedding pact. So sweet. This is like little shot of serotonin, just lovely.

Tomlinshaw

Use You As A Warning Sign - Jiksa - One Direction (Band) [Archive of Our Own] @jiksax – 2k, M (and it's sequel, also 2k, M) – These fics. The perfect balance of spice and sweet, some clear issues on Louis' part (and behaviour accordingly) and Nick's refusal to put up with that. One minute it's all cute quips about coats and then it wallops you in the feels and even both parts together its only 4000 words, how did she do that?!

Maybe I'm A Liar (But For Tonight I Want To Fall In Love) - orphan_account - One Direction (Band) [Archive of Our Own] – 22k, T – fake relationship, arranged marriage, Nick is pretty much Nick but Louis is AU, as are the rest of 1D. This is layered. Louis is the wild child, but as the fic progresses you see why that is, and the way the relationship slowly grows between them is wonderful.

Nouis

how the heart bends - temerity (forsanethaec) - One Direction (Band) [Archive of Our Own] @1dgaf – 46K, E – amnesia, exes, post band – I thought I'd read all the long plotty Nouis fics and then I stumble across this one, and it's amnesia fic as well! So good.

Marcel/Louis

City of Blinding Lights - Anonymous - One Direction (Band) [Archive of Our Own] – 13k, E, WIP – Miss Congeniality AU. One of my favourite films and this fic (currently 2/6 chapters) is such an amazing start, keeping true to the feel of the original without being scared to make changes. I'd love to read more if the author chooses to continue it.

Narry

So Much Love Hidden Beneath This Skin - FallingLikeThis - One Direction (Band) [Archive of Our Own] @fallinglikethis – 10k, T – friends to not friends to friends to lovers, internalised homophobia, self-acceptance. I think my first Narry fic? I liked it; the conflict and then the resolution were done in a really natural and realistic way, and I loved the extra dimension of their past friendship.

Ziam

you're like a sunshine - lightswoodmagic (sarah_writes) - One Direction (Band) [Archive of Our Own] @lightwoodsmagic – 6k, M – comic book artist!Zayn, personal trainer!Liam who is muscly enough to be a pose model. This is full of awkwardness and sexual tension and so very sweet.

Imagine it's already broken - wordsnnotes - One Direction (Band) [Archive of Our Own] @quelsentiment – 6K, T – enemies to lovers, musician and YouTube music critic. Listen, new Ziam fic is like gold dust to me. And this one is so well done and tips from this great antagonistic dynamic into something really hopeful. Happy sigh.

Larry

The Only One (when it's said and done) - LadyLondonderry - One Direction (Band) [Archive of Our Own] @londonfoginacup – 6k, T – alpha/beta/omega dynamics, nesting, packs. Soft, warm, and lovely. Louis taking care of people, which I love. It only posted in June and I've already read it three times.

Don't Let It (Me) Break - falsegoodnight - One Direction (Band) [Archive of Our Own] @falsegoodnight – 168k, E – AU, exes to lovers, insecure and sad Louis, potentially difficult themes so check the tags. Delicious angst and a great resolution that felt worked for and realistic instead of a sticking plaster.

A Hungry Heart - jacaranda_bloom - One Direction (Band) [Archive of Our Own] @jacaranda-bloom – 27k, E – GBBO AU, famous/not famous, clichés. Who doesn't love a baking AU? This is really cute, and so much fun to play spot the cliché with! (Written for the cliché fest, the clichés are intentional :D)

led by your beating heart - missandrogyny - One Direction (Band) [Archive of Our Own] @missandrogyny – 33k, E – famous/not famous, call or delete, radio 1. A new chapter added six years later?? Be stillmy beating heart!

I Didn't Fall For You (You Fucking Tripped Me) - allwaswell16 - One Direction (Band) [Archive of Our Own] @allwaswell16 – 20k, E - alpha/beta/omega dynamics, pet lizards, pick-up lines, hate to love. This has to be a frontrunner for best title award, and the fic is just !!! Chefs kiss. Love it. It's cute, funny, and the dialogue is brilliant.

Shake Me Down - AGreatPerhaps12 - One Direction (Band) [Archive of Our Own] @agreatperhaps12 – 208k, N/R – American/university AU (so I guess college AU, actually!), enemies to lovers, religion, internalised homophobia, OT5 friendship. It feels a bit reductive to describe such a sprawling epic in a few tropes like that, though. This fic is complicated, and I mean that in the best way. It's so utterly engaging and immersive that I read it, long as it is, in a single Sunday. Make sure you check the tags.

Cameras Flashing - juliusschmidt - One Direction (Band) [Archive of Our Own]@juliusschmidt – 81k, E – famous/not famous, coming out, alpha/beta/omega dynamics. I love famous/not famous (you can maybe tell from this list) and this is such a good one with lots of great details like a (sort of) fabricated Louis/Zayn popstar rivalry.

(Won't You) Stay to the A.M. - lululawrence - One Direction (Band) [Archive of Our Own] @lululawrence – 15k, M – famous/not famous, homelessness, fluff. This was really cute. I loved the attention to detail in this fic, as well as the treatment of a relationship within the context of differing power dynamics which was handled really well.

burn to ash - bethaboo - One Direction (Band) [Archive of Our Own]@bethaboolou – 116k, E – canon compliant band reunion (but written 2014), alcoholism recovery, exes to lovers. This was so engrossing, so engaging, very well written, and I found it really interesting to read a fic that dealt with the band breaking up that was written before it happened.

Hold You Now - solvetheminourdreams - One Direction (Band) [Archive of Our Own] @solvetheminourdreams – 131k, M – exes to lovers, slow burn, weddings. I was genuinely on the edge of my seat with this, there are so many twists and turns to keep you guessing! Poor Harry (and then poor Louis), so much beautiful tension and so much pain, it hurts so good. And Niall. Love Niall.

A Conspiracy Of Fanfiction - Almondtreeflower - One Direction (Band) [Archive of Our Own] @almondtreeflower – 9k, T – marriage proposals, Louis writing fanfiction as a dare - this is super sweet and funny at the same time, with some really lovely details. A cute five times fic!

For Better, Worse And Mischief (I'm All Yours) - RedOrchid - One Direction (Band) [Archive of Our Own] @actuallyredorchid – 37k, E – fake relationship, friends to lovers, canon. So, so wonderful. They're both complete pine trees. It gave me heart pangs.

I No Longer Feel I Have To Be James Dean - justletmegohome - One Direction (Band) [Archive of Our Own] – 35k, M – married at (almost) first sight. So much fluff! This is completely sweet and feel good and lovely.

How It Would Feel To Be Free - lovelarry10 - One Direction (Band) [Archive of Our Own] @chloehl10 – 90k, E – royalty AU, kid fic. I had to stop reading this to work and it made me mad. Such a lovely story, full of feels!

If I Loved You Less - allwaswell16 - One Direction (Band) [Archive of Our Own] @allwaswell16 - 36k, E - alpha/beta/omega dynamics, regency AU. I couldn't put this one down. I literally made myself late because I was 'just another paragraph-ing' for far too long!

Better Mistakes - lovelarry10 - One Direction (Band) [Archive of Our Own]@chloehl10 – 117k, E - mpreg, cheating (not H/L). This is one I'm still thinking about weeks later. So, so good (and mpreg, generally, not really my thing).

The First Year - parmahamlarrie - One Direction (Band) [Archive of Our Own] @parmahamlarrie – 47k, E – university AU, friends to lovers. This has so much lovely softness and snuggliness in it, it's like wrapping yourself up in a blanket. So much bed-sharing!

And Then a Bit - infinitelymint - One Direction (Band) [Archive of Our Own] @infinitelymint – 158k, E – canon reunion, fake relationship, friends to lovers. Louis is... oh, Louis. Louis is so oblivious it's a wonder he can even function. This fic is a classic for a reason; so much deliciousness, just read it (or re-read, probably. This was my first time but I think everyone else has already got there before me).

Drifting, Weightless - dinosaursmate - One Direction (Band) [Archive of Our Own] @dinosaursmate – 41k, E – canon compliant, post-1D, exes to lovers, cruises. I mean. What a fantastic idea for a story?! Maroon them all on a boat together with a load of fans and then sit back and watch. The author really pulls it off. Love everything about this.

The Murmur of Yearning - MediaWhore - One Direction (Band) [Archive of Our Own] @mediawhorefics – 93k, M – regency AU, upstairs/downstairs. I got completely lost in the world of this one. Love estate steward!Louis and a special mention for valet!Niall, of course; Narry friendship is my weakness.

One More Time Again - orphan_account - One Direction (Band) [Archive of Our Own] – 232k, E – canon compliant/divergent, time travel, X Factor era. I think I skipped over this a few times; X-factor era is not my fave, over 200k is absolutely huge, etc. Then I clicked on it, and wow. Just wow. It's SO well written and deftly handles the age difference issues and I love the twist on time travel. I couldn't put it down. When I wasn't reading it, I was thinking about it. So good.

World Turned Over / Fireproof - orphan_account - One Direction (Band) [Archive of Our Own] – 15k, E - canon compliant/divergent, time travel, companion fic to the one above but the other way round. Also very much worth a read!

Lately You've Been On My Mind - lululawrence - One Direction (Band) [Archive of Our Own] @lululawrence – 9k, NR – famous/not famous, YouTuber Louis, reaction videos. Louis trips over himself into stanning Harry Styles and of course, Harry stans him back (relatable on both sides). This is very embarrassing for Louis but super entertaining for us to read :P

one sole will survive - starryharry - One Direction (Band) [Archive of Our Own] @lt2soon – 70k, T – Survivor AU, side Ziam, fake relationship. OMG. The twists and turns of this story were just delicious. The alliances formed and the backstabbing, and the Zouis friendship, and it all just rollicked along, it was wonderful. I don't know how people write this kind of thing though, just imagining trying to do so makes my brain hurt.