#one day they'll all be answered

[coquelicoq]

what i love about the Famous Actor Natori Shuuichi of it all is that...it's not just that he's famous and therefore widely recognizable wherever he goes. like yes that is very funny because he was an exorcist before he became a famous actor, which means he CHOSE, on purpose, a day job that would make it harder to hide his double life/secret identity from the hordes of his adoring public, but it's more than that. it's not just that he's famous, it's that he's famous specifically for being an ACTOR, aka a person whose job it is to dissimulate, to make believe, to inhabit roles and emotions other than his own. like he decided he was going to become as visible as possible (which again was literally not necessary! he could have gone into any other career for his day job!!) but in such a way that everyone would see him but no one would see him - they would just see his various made-up personas, including the Famous Actor Natori Shuuichi persona. i can't decide if he's a genius or if he just made so many absurd decisions that they canceled each other out and circled back around to working out. he's either playing 9-dimensional chess or he's eating the pieces. too soon to say.

[sergle]

Now I’m curious, what breeds are on your list?

✨Golden Retrievers✨ Pomeranians Samoyeds Rottweilers Irish red setters German Shepherd (I like the black ones) Rough Collies and Shelties Great Pyrenees Bernese Mountain Dogs Cocker Spaniels St. Bernards Borzois and probably more that I forgot to list!! These are all dogs that I Especially want to cry when I see them, and that I could see myself loving / being able to meet the particular needs of their breed. I've expanded my Range a little in the two years since I brought Hugo home, since he's taught me a lot about dogs, and I could potentially take care of a baby with very different needs from the ones that he had. I'm still by no means a dog expert but. Yanno. You learn small things over time! In the end, when I was searching for a dog a few years ago, I had a few qualifications I didn't want to budge on. I needed a dog that's trainable, but not stubborn, a dog that's gentle and considerate with my cats and my niblings, a dog that's not too reactive, a dog with soft fur, and a dog that is affectionate. So... Hugo is all of those things!!! He picks up skills quickly and listens (I gotta work on his Recall though), he takes extreme care around the cats and is so careful that he can be left alone with kittens and baby chicks, so being sat on / bothered / tugged on by small kids isn't even a challenge. He has never growled at anyone or anything in Irritation in his life. He's never bared his teeth. He doesn't bark at strangers or at odd noises, he doesn't snap as a response to being surprised. He's extremely pillowy soft, and his fur doesn't irritate my skin or pierce my clothes. He is extremely, extremely sweet and loving, frankly to the point that he would easily fall in love with a new owner if he was kidnapped lmao. You can maybe see why I like goldens so much. I got REALLY close to adopting a Pomeranian, which I'll continue to Think About, basically forever... but as someone with a predisposition for migraines, I don't want to set the dog up for failure if I'm not ready to hear bark bark bark bark bark bark bark all day. That's the ONLY downside. Maybe I invest in some noise cancelling headphones? They're beautiful dogs though, I love an animal that looks like a little rat. You ever see one of them after a bath? My god.

[honey-skulls]

Huge vent

Yesterday was the welcome thing for the beginning of the school year, only from 15h to 16h30. Still managed to end up late. Nothing to do either, just sit there and listen to the explanation of how the year is gonna go. Still came back home EXHAUSTED

First day of school and I'm already an hour late

They also said that if we come late, the teachers aren't gonna let us in

So now I'm just frozen, sitting on my chair after finally managing to prepare, with no idea on if i waste the little energy i have going to school in the heat only to not be let in

But they also said they'd do that last year, and they never did. So maybe they're not doing it again and I'm just wasting time when they would let me in

I don't know and that's the problem

And even if i can, the mental image of everyone in class turning to stare at me and judge while i enter in the middle of the class, because i spent more than half of last year being hours late if not straight up missing "for no reason" is too much (because this country has dog shit psychology knowledge that has been studied to be around 50 years late, and they know nothing about invisible disabilities. Not like I'd ever even tell them. This class sucks in all minorities fronts)

But also I'm literally already thousands of euros in debt for this damn school and every class i miss is money wasted

I don't know what to do

[lale-txt]

chief of the autopsy department Y/N and god of the death Matsukawa send tweet

[lavenoon]

we've seen Dusk/Moon go non-verbal, but how would the boys react to Y/N having a non-verbal episode?

I should probably start with the disclaimer that this will be heavily biased by my own nonverbal episodes, which I realize are not universal but also very much where Moon gets his from

You'll also definitely get a bonus Eclipse despite him not being that involved (at this point in canon, at least), so he'll just get a generic "you" while for Sun and Moon I'll stick with Y/N!

Given the differences in circumstances if at home vs at work I'll differentiate between Sun & Dawn and Moon & Dusk, with some reverse coded boy info too.

Sun doesn't get nonverbal himself, but he's very familiar with Moon's episodes. He knows what usually triggers them (high stress/ overwhelm, sometimes delayed) so when Y/N chokes up trying to talk to him, looking so frustrated with themself barely managing words and half sentences, he immediately switches tracks. Easily flips the conversational script to 1) check in on them and 2) stick to yes/no questions. Post reveal in particular he will offer his company if they don't want to be alone, and would be content with any of the outcomes - whether they want to be alone (and rest!), or want to stay with him - he'll end up doing some woodworking perhaps, crafting a new project and either work silently or chatter away if Y/N would still like a bit of background noise.

Dawn doesn't quite have that much leeway. If they're on a mission while the stress hits a bit too much, there probably are some other signs of Robin slowly but surely reaching their breaking point, and he would strive to get them out before. If that fails, and they struggle more with the actual words, he might try and switch to sign if yes/no isn't an option, and if it's a simple physical blockage of somehow not getting the words out. If it's too much and Robin starts shutting down he'll extract them with a fitting excuse and get them out of the social situation - if they still insist on finishing the mission (because Robin is a bit of a workaholic fool) he'll make sure they don't overdo it, and perhaps only set up some bugs or other little gadgets they might need. Back home they get pampered, no buts! Reverse Dawn has kind of lost here pre-reveal, because he too knows the signs from Moon, but Robin doesn't really trust him enough to be that vulnerable around him. He'll get them out faster, not knowing enough about how they handle these episodes, and very bluntly explains that he has an idea whats going on and there's no need to talk, so if they could just not fight him on this and get the non social parts of this mission done they'll all be home sooner. He does say it very matter of factly, which helps Robin feel not as defensive, and he doesn't mention it again unless Robin brings it up (until post-reveal, perhaps).

Moon... Moon seeing Y/N choke on words and obviously struggling overrides any hesitation he may have, even for pre-reveal reverse Moon. As far as he's concerned, nonverbal episodes are exceptional circumstances and normal social rules don't apply. (Not that he's a social rules expert to begin with). If somehow in (perceived) public (which to Moon includes the front porch) he'll make his first task getting out of that situation, and into a more private environment. He always hates being perceived by strangers when he's nonverbal, so he'll simply assume Y/N feels similarly. At the very least, privacy won't hurt. Same as Sun he switches to simple questions, and checks in with how much physical comfort they're okay with. He's touchy and craves contact/ physical reassurance, but knows that might not be the universal experience. If yes though, he won't hesitate to bundle them up and get them somewhere away from prying eyes where he can stick close and make sure they're okay with a very extensive cuddle session. They better kiss working that night goodbye. Reverse Moon isn't much different, despite being much more shy pre-reveal. He'll quickly admit to getting his own episodes, and would they like some company? The only difference is that the cuddling wouldn't be quite as touchy and perhaps opts for more of a little blanket fort as a small safe recluse instead, and also definitely wouldn't even think about getting up into their room. It might turn into a bit of a "bonding moment" where he opens up and Y/N gets to know their kind of quiet neighbor a little better, and they'll thank him for his help once they can talk again.

Dusk gets a bit more leeway than Dawn, given that there's no one else to appease. He might take a bit longer to realize what's going on if they're currently getting around via parkour or sneaking quietly anyhow. But once he does he's all business. Pre-reveal he might be a bit blunter, while post-reveal they're close enough for him to be gentler in his approach, but otherwise not much changes. He'll do a quick assessment - is this mission worth the strain, and what's the middle ground between Robin's workaholic opinion and his very "I'd say fuck work if I said fuck on the regular" approach. If the mission is cut short, he either ushers or outright takes them home, depending on the point in the timeline. If Robin insists they continue he'll keep a closer eye on them to notice the nonverbal cues, and will match their silence to not force them into their usual banter routine, before then taking or ushering them home.

Eclipse has never had a nonverbal episode - days where he's quieter, yes, but that's a mood thing. He was in their head when Moon had many many nonverbal episodes during the stress of the early days, heard the static bursts that laced his voice if he did force himself to talk, and the physical reactions that come with extended strain. Noises more than words, shaking, and then at times the blockage was so great that when Moon did end up getting something out of his voice box, it ended up being sobs. Eclipse wasn't in a position to help, and Moon wasn't in a position to accept it, anyway. Even after getting his own body Eclipse didn't feel confident enough to offer anything except quiet company or taking care of some chores while Moon retreated into his and Sun's room. So if you end up having a nonverbal episode? He needs to get this right. He can't let you down like he let down Moon. (Not that Moon would sign that - the early days were stressful, and he doesn't blame Eclipse. He wouldn't want his little brother to feel obligated to take care of him anyway). But Eclipse carries some guilt, and it means he'll be very, very careful. He'll speak quieter, softer, leaning down and closer as he reaches out but doesn't make contact yet. Makes himself smaller, and less overwhelming until he knows you're okay. If your reach out too, taking hold of his hands, he'll gladly offer all the physical contact that you want, but will ask before every escalation if it's okay. He remembers Sun's tricks and what helped Moon before, and will gladly use that. Easy questions, yes/no answers, do you want to go home/ to your room/ do you want or need this or that/ do you want him to stay/ do you want him to be quiet/ do you want distraction etc etc. He's attentive and entirely non judgemental, making sure you feel safe and understood even without the words to express yourself. He'll definitely ask about what he should do if it happens again once you can talk again, what was okay, what could be better, anything he missed entirely? He wants to be safe for you, and while he doesn't have much experience he'll do his best to take care of you as you need it

[arctic-hands]

...it should NOT be this hard to get in touch with your power company wtf

[maraeffect]

started watching hopecore right before bed and MAN. what a life it is we live on this earth.

[byanyan]

@xaallo sent:ㅤ👫

relationship headcanonsㅤㅤ✧ * º •ㅤㅤaccepting!!

ㅤthey cross paths with fair regularity, though whether it's intentional on xaallo's part or that they just happen to be partial to the same areas is up for debate. byan has, on more than one occasion, altered their route in order to avoid running into him.

ㅤbyan is honestly really curious about where xaallo came from and all the places he's been. they have a ton of questions in the back of their mind that they'd like to ask one day, but they're usually in too sour a mood in his presence to bring any of them up.

ㅤoccasionally they get a glimpse of xaallo when he's not trying to convince them to get their life together that they think "maybe he's not so bad, maybe he's kinda cool" only to inevitably circle back around to "nah, fuck him" the very second he's on them again about one of their illicit hobbies.

ㅤdespite the tense nature of their relationship, xaallo still slips byan some food every now and then. usually they'll turn it down because they hate pity scraps and don't want to give him more ammunition against them, but the odd time that they're desperate enough, they will accept it. sometimes they'll even devour it on the spot. being seen in a moment of vulnerability though, they still bristle at him afterward. sometimes they'll leave him with some sharp, unnecessarily rude comment, other times they'll slip off without a word. depends on how feisty they're feeling.

[katierosefun]

For the half of it ask game: 1, 20, 45 :^)

hiii iva!! thanks for the ask!! // from these asks

(1)A weird food combination that you love?

okay, so i'm a pineapple on pizza girlie. i just like it! it's the perfect balance of sweet and savory and i will FIGHT people on this!

(20) What is your favourite outfit?

right now, anything that’s layered + my turtleneck. my favorite is probably my black turtleneck right now, but i also love wearing tees and then a button-up shirt over it, as though it were a cardigan or something. sadly, since the weather’s been pretty chilly, i can’t do that often, but i’m looking forward to going back to rocking my white tees + denim button-ups and etc.

(45) Are you a spontaneous person?

mm, i think i'm more spontaneous than i once was, although i'm still not sure if that counts as spontaneous, per say? because i've had surprise road trips + people over when i didn't expect i'd have people over, but i feel like those are tame in the grand scheme of spontaneity. i think i'm a sponge-spontaneous person, meaning that i'll only be spontaneous if (a) the people i care about are also spontaneous, and (b) if i care enough/like those people enough to be willing to be spontaneous with them. because i know for a fact that with certain people, i would need to plan at least a week in advance to do anything with them, not because of logistics like travel, but just because i'd have to mentally prepare myself to spend time with them--whereas with some other people who i'm just more comfortable with, i'd be down for whatever, whenever.

[medicinemane]

I don't know, those gifs of Andrew Garfield saying how to him the most terrifying thing is certainty... they resonate with me

The way people go around so damn sure that they're right about things, frankly I think there's very few things more dangerous than not even allowing for the possibility that you're wrong

Like you've just decided that you 100% know best, and from now on any evidence to the contrary is just something to be pushed aside because it's clearly wrong. The harm you'll do isn't real because obviously you wouldn't be doing it if there was harm. You're just right. That's the end of it

No, I agree with Andrew Garfield, I'd much rather stop and reassess over and over, as many times as I need to, to make sure that I'm still doing the right thing

I'll never be anything cause it just doesn't interest me, but if I was going to join a religion I know I'd become Jewish

Thought that since I was little with all the Jewish friends I had at school, and what's more it just seems to fit me best, all the elements of questioning. Hell... it even sounds like if I said "you know, I don't really believe in god", that there's a chance the rabbi might say "funny thing, me neither" (I've heard some don't), but if not that at least "eh, that's fine, why don't you come discuss why with us"

It's just funny the number of times I've related to something someone's saying, and then you find out their Jewish and this ties into that sense of questioning things, and that interview is an example

I agree with him, nothing scarier than being 100% sure you're correct... you can do a lot of bad things once you know for a fact you're right to be doing them

[evils-corner]

The hardest part about waiting for things to get better is just how LONG it takes. How a few days drags on for what feels like weeks and completely disorients your entire sense of time/passage of time. Especially when it's not a given time or date and is just so vague. How things that will get better "soon" feel so unbelievably unattainable because "soon" is not now and feels like it's an eternity away. How the misery can make an hour pass by on a blip but also take four hours to get through.

[blackswallowtailbutterfly]

I...don't know why the order of my tags fucked up, but I fixed them. Hopefully.

I feel like in the rush of “throw out etiquette who cares what fork you use or who gets introduced first” we actually lost a lot of social scripts that the younger generations are floundering without.

[theha1r]

@wintersreplies asked: “You’re not the person I wanted to see today.” ( steve + avital )

( be my valentine! )

steve's eyebrows scrunch together in confusion, unsure what she's talking about and maybe about to be a little hurt ... when he looks down at himself and realizes. he'd been so happy to hear she was on set, he didn't even take the time to change before going out to see her. now, he shakes his head, giving a little roll of his eyes. "oh ... right. sorry, my mistake. one second, let me go get steve harrington." he puts emphasis on his name on purpose, and slowly, carefully begins to pretend to walk away.

[rocksalt-and-pie]

1 + 19 🌺

Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette/drinking alcohol?

Yeah I mean I guess if I HAD to but as long as I don't need to I'll gladly have that occasional cigarette/drink when I get the chance 🤷‍♀️

[something-about-sunflowers]

Man I was picking up an order from a restaurant today and while I was waiting one of the employees started asking me if I liked the type of food they serve and offered me a little menu/flyer/ad and the WHIPLASH I felt going from:

'This is a fellow working person whom I respect by nature of being a working person and not an exploitative billionaire'

To the kind of VISCERAL disgust reserved for the likes of christians proselytizing to cashiers and other employees who cannot leave or risk being too rude in their response for the sake of keeping their jobs?

Despicable. Don't ADVERTISE to me while I'm just trying to do my job.

[augustinewrites]

cw: pregnancy

“when you said we were sneaking out to go for a ride, i didn't think you meant that,” you sigh, breathless but content as you slump against your husband’s chest.

“deep breaths, darling,” diluc encourages, fingertips brushing down your spine. it makes him think of before, of juvenile fumbling and embarrassment. he’s much less chaste now. confident in his touches and his ability to please you. “why let the horses have all the fun?”

“you’ve been spending too much time with kaeya,” you grumble.

“i agree. it’s why i had to sneak away from his party with you.”

“your party,” you correct, letting him twine your fingers with yours. just like he had earlier, when he’d convinced you to sneak out of the surprise birthday party thrown in his honour. “the guests are likely looking for you.”

diluc’s used to being the center of attention. he doesn't necessarily enjoy it, but his day-to-day is filled with employees searching for his signature or potential clients seeking his participation on new ventures. as the king of the wine industry, he’s possibly the most in-demand person in mondstadt.

but their attention is nothing compared to yours. you’re his favourite person.

“you didn't even make it to the cake,” you add, shifting in his lap. “which means they'll be looking for us soon.”

he brings your hand to his lips, placing a soft kiss upon your knuckles and making your heart flutter. “i've already had dessert.”

your face warms considerably against his skin as he chuckles, releasing your hand in favour of slowly smoothing his palm down your side, resting on your hip. he’s more than content to abandon his birthday party entirely in favour of being here in bed, watching the sunset over the fields of your home and bathing you both in golden light.

“well, it’s your birthday party,” you say softly. “even if your actual birthday is two days away, i still want you to have everything you could possibly want. and if what you want is to sneak away from your party to bed me so thoroughly, who am i to argue?”

his heart starts to thump so loudly in his chest that he fears you can hear it. he does want something else, an answer to a question that’s been stifled by shyness, fear, and uncertainty.

“and if i wanted…something else?”

your fingers trace idle patterns across his arm as you hum. “i’d do my best to give it to you.”

he knows you would. which is why he’s been waiting, making sure you want this just as much as he does.

“kaeya said something to me earlier,” he starts.

“please tell me this doesn't end with you hitting him.”

“of course not.” well, not this time. “he asked when i would make him an uncle.”

your movements pause, and diluc wonders if he'd messed up, if it was too soon–

you sit up immediately, grasping his shoulders. “he told you i was pregnant, didn't he? i knew adelaide wouldn't be able to keep it a secret. she’s been knitting baby socks since last week.”

wait.

wait.

“you’re–”

“i wanted it to be a surprise,” you deflate, a frown tugging on your pretty lips. “on your real birthday. adelinde was the only one i told, only because she’d caught me throwing up in the rose bush she’d just pruned and insisted i get checked…”

diluc’s hardly hearing you, your rambling slowing to a stop as he holds your face in his hands.

he needs to hear you say it.

“we’re having a baby?”

you place your hands atop his, nodding. “we’re having a baby, diluc.”

he presses his lips against yours, one firm kiss before he rests his forehead against yours. you are and will always be his favourite person, the only one who could give him a gift as special as this.

_____

BONUS:

“lavender bisque. whispering peach. sweet potato surprise…” adelinde murmurs, hunched over a few sheets of paper.

“what is that? is that the menu for tomorrow’s party?” kaeya asks, peeking over her shoulder.

adelinde sighs, shaking her head. “they're sample colours i had sent over for the nursery.”

“nursery?”

“yes–” the colour drains from the poor woman’s face as she realizes her slip. “oh dear!”

the realization takes a few moments to sink into the cavalry captain’s “my brother had sex?!”

for @mydiluc aka mrs diluc ragnvindr for listening to my endless rambles...and also diluc bday fic!!!