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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 1 year ago

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"If PD-MDZS drew He Xuan, would he be a Man or a Fish?"

#Poorly drawn tgcf #tgcf #He Xuan #The promised part two to the He Xuan Saga.#This is the refined and highly selected group of coherant designs #There were many....many more....several pages and sticky notes of grapheme and pen. Ramblings of a visual kind.#I got so stuck on 'sharp forehead'. You are all being saved from the worst of my attempts to figure out what that would look like.#What does it mean. What does it *mean*???#Btw the reason there's a red star next to no.5 is because that's the winner <3 #At a certain point I started making wild designs in relative jest (and desperation) and something about axolotl He Xuan just... stuck.#I couldn't stop thinking about it...And okay; It works. An amphibian very much goes with his general vibe and themes.#That and for the fact this permits me to draw Shi Qingxuan as an axolotl. Going on axolotl dates. Holding axolotl hands.#And once that image got in my head I knew.#If poorly-drawn-mdzs drew He Xuan; He would be an axolotl.

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nikolas-ghostbusters-fixation · 2 months ago

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Something I've been thinking a lot about lately is how everyone thought Egon had gone insane. What Happened that made them think that. They've fought a gigantic Stay Puft Marshmellow Man TWICE (counting the 2009 video game because iirc it's canon? Correct me if I'm wrong), fought an interdimensional god, fought a blood thirsty ruler that killed thousands and was hated by all that was trapped in a painting (and managed to get in to beat him by making THE STATUE OF LIBERTY start walking down the street with slime that reacted purely based on vibes), found an underground abandoned transit system full of the moodslime, had a bathtub try to eat Dana and her baby, fought a giant murderous black widow lady, fought the fisherman ghost who turned an entire hotel floor into the bottom of a ocean, and that's not even mentioning them getting trapped on an island that randomly raised up from underwater that had been abandoned for decades created by Ivor Shandor who worshipped Gozer. So what did he do or say that made everyone else think he'd gone insane?? All I can think is maybe he was acting strange / eratic before, but he's always been like that to some degree.

I don't know. It's something that I've been thinking about. The correct answer is 'it's not that deep and they needed a reason that the others weren't together anymore and weren't aware of Egons death or know what was going on,' but also. What Was He Saying that prompted everyone, including Ray, to think he lost his mind when he'd been right almost every time before that.

I'm genuinely so curious as to what he was up to before this. What was he doing. What insane idea was working on prior to this or was he even working on anything at all??

Also want to clarify this post isn't negative 😭 I really love the newer movies and their lore / the newer storyline / characters, I just like thinking about small stupid things like this. Gives me something to think about / speculate about / figure out an answer to.

#ghostbusters #egon spengler #nikolas posts #I have so many thoughts on it because I've just been rewatching the two movies on loop for the past few days.#All we got was Ray saying that he'd started talking about the end of the world (IIRC) and that he went insane and took everything #when he eventually left to deal with it on his own #which for the record it's extremely impressive that he would've stopped Gozer from returning BY HIMSELF. The only reason it hadn't worked #was because of the electricity issue #Hiding all the traps and setting up the proton packs to fire at the hell pit?? Insanity. He's just on a complete different level of existin #Like they were aware of Ivor Shandor and his plans long before??? They found his ISLAND DEDICATED TO GOZER who had full intention of #BRINGING THEM BACK #it's really Really REALLY not this deep but I have thoughts and I wanted to share them. Maybe someone else might have an idea I #couldn't think of or might have something to add.#I guess it could be a 'they beat Gozer once and assumed they were gone' but that wasn't the first time Gozer 'died' so??#if I missed something Please tell me. I haven't watched the newer movies as much as the older ones (I grew up watching them / playing #the game so I'm more familiar with the older lore and haven't had the chance to rewatch the newer ones 1000 times over unfortunately)#so it's entirely possible I missed something #I'd think maybe it was just because they were older but I really don't think thats the case. I have reasoning for it but I need to do #the math to make sure I'm getting the ages right by the time AfterLife happens.#really need to make a chart / timeline of all the events that happened and what year / month / day they happened. That's a project #for tomorrow perhaps.#anyways if anyones reading this sorry for the insane rambling and congrats for making it to the end #also this post isn't negative I adore the newer movies so much. I love them a lot and I genuinely don't really care about this at all #just a thing to think / ponder / speculate about if that makes sense #I enjoy thinking about stupid irrelevant stuff like this #so so so many thoughts

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numbuh424 · 11 months ago

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Let's talk composition in the jdrama. L is always on the brighter side of the frame while Light is on the darker side.

#I caught it once and never stopped being able to see it like L is just always beneath lights or in front of windows #I was esp astounded by the 1st image the lights are off outside the window behind Light!!! and all the lights are open on L's side!!#*rubs my hands together in glee whenever there's intentionality in the media I consume*#death note #death note jdrama #light yagami #l lawliet #death note drama #you wanna know how I realized this? light starts wearing all black after he meets L #and I got kinda annoyed noticing he's always darker side of the frame cause it's hard to see him in all black #but then I analyzed. and I understood.#the jdrama just loved the black-and-white aesthetic of these two they couldn't get enough of it #in hindsight they definitely focused on this over the red/blue cause in my post about light's outfits I was surprised he wore so little red #much easier for them and also L never changes outfits and couldn't have his wardrobe match his character arc like Light anyway

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deiaiko · 1 year ago

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“That must have been hard.” Khun deflated. It was , because of course it was. Every waking moment Khun existed without Baam felt meaningless and wine was the easiest thing he could find in this world to numb that pain. The bottom of the bottle had felt like his only escape. He recalled how every sober moment felt like a nightmare and being drunk felt like it was the only way to survive in this hollow life. Prior to his death, Baam had been his cooling touch. He’d been the waves in which Khun would allow himself to drown in. He was the antidote to take the pain away. But, with the other gone, Khun felt like he had to placate the fire another way. He’d let the bitter taste soothe his hell. He’d let it drag him down until his head was submerged in its stupor. In fact, he smiled as he poisoned himself over and over again; almost begging this world to play with his fate the same way the Tower did.

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purpurussy · 3 months ago

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#tw suicide #idk i feel like i am probably gonna kms after TIT #i would do it sooner but i asked one of my friends to come with me and it would suck if i made him go alone #and it is something to look forward to which is helping me hang on i guess #but ughhhh once uni starts again in september i know everything is gonna fall apart.#i already got an extension on my thesis due to being a useless shell of a person who can't motivate themselves to do anything atm #but i was supposed to get some work done over the summer and have so far done nothing #hence why i want to kms before i have to talk to my fucking supervisors again and admit yet again that i simply cannot do this 😭#and it's not just this. my executive dysfunction has been so bad over the past couple of years and it's only getting worse #to the point where i can't imagine being able to work at all. and if i can't work i can't get out of my parents house #and then what the fuck is the point.#every time i see someone on here talking about bonding with their parents over dnp I'm like damn what's it like #to have parents who actually want to talk to you DSFGJJKL i know they let me live in their house at my big age #but that's only bc id literally be homeless otherwise and they're not like evil. they just don't love me #also went through a deeply embarrassing breakup recently #tl;dr ive been in love with this person for over a decade and i thought they were the dan to my phil or vice versa.#then after 10 years they left me and i'll spare the details but it has me wondering if they ever loved me #i thought it was a “let's live together and get a cat one day” relationship #but now i feel like for them. it was just a “sex and video games” type situation #i am trying soooo hard to at least be creative bc that makes me happy sometimes but it's hard to not be overly critical of myself #and now im getting to a point where i can barely even find any joy in this space any more. for a bunch of reasons #most of which revolve around me being extremely sensitive. and this is like my last bastion of dopamine so that fucking sucks #idk i don't see the point in my life any more. a social worker actually told me recently that i should consider euthanasia so.#it's just completely over for me i fear #this is not even mentioning all the damn migraines. and all the other ways in which my body simply doesn't work properly #sorry for this weird ass vent I'm not in therapy any more bc i couldn't find a therapist willing to treat me+all my diagnoses at this point #and im scared my friends will stop wanting to talk to me if i talk to them about this. several of them already have #the 2 friends i have left anyway. that's a whole other thing. when they said it's hard for autistic ppl to make friends i took that persona #so uh at this point it's vent here or develop a substance abuse problem. and im already halfway to having a substance abuse problem #anyway dan and phil for the love of god please fucking post something tonight. unfortunately you are my only hope

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teddybeartoji · 3 months ago

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PHOBIA OF SEAWEED IS AN ACTUAL THING?????????????????? you see i am not afraid of the open waters nor am i scared of the things that live there,, like i regularly spend time watching deep sea videos i think they're so cool but oh my fucking god the idea of KELP IS MAKING ME LIKE ACTUALLY TWITCH EEEEEEEEUUUUUUUGHHH okok actually looking at it is kind of fine but the thought of it touching my feet is genuinely making me wanna throw up😭😭😭😭😭

#this is such a stupid thing bc sometimes it's fine #i live by the ocean i am a fish i have seen seaweed i have touched seaweed but it's different when you grab it on purpose compared to it #just randomly touching you #DOES THAT EVEN MAKE SENSE #OMFG I'M GONNA SPIRAL #like once i thought i was gonna drown #mickey lore time #we were paddleboarding with my family and then me and my brother got off it and we started swimming to the shore and like we're both very #good swimmers so this was nothing insane aaand there were no waves or anything and my parents were still close by #but then at one point i was like oh i wonder how deep this actually is and i went under and i tried to touch the ground and sEAAWEEEDDDDD #EEEEEEEEEEEEEEUUUUUUUUUUUUUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I FEEL SICK JUST THINKING ABT ITTT #and it freaked me out so fucking bad and then i suddenly felt so tired and i just wanted to get out but i was still far away and i couldn't #stop thinking abt how it's gonna touch my feet again lmao #and i was very very very close to a panic attack in the water😭😭#oops #anyway i survived and i never told anybody i thought i was gonna drown bc i am not a pussy like that whewwwww #also. when i played subnautica (i only played for a few hours) i was more afraid of the fuckass kelp forest than anything else😭😭😭#i started thinking abt this bc i saw a video of a man in this dark scary cave (????) and like it was fine i was super intrigued until he pu #his fucking foot on the rock and you can just see the layer of seaweed i almost jumped out of my bed FUUCKKK THATTT

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primatechnosynthpop · 9 months ago

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Was seized by the supernatural urge to redraw some of my old nkotr art (mostly based on my own fics/aus because that's uhh pretty much the only time I drew them in an interesting way heheh)

[ID: two versions of an alternate cover image for Your Computer has a Virus, and it's Killing Your Online Friends. The new kids are in their jumpsuits from Computer Fighters. Neil is holding a floppy disk labeled "virus" and looking over his shoulder with a scared expression as multicoloured glitch effects surround and overtake him. Below this, Kevin grits his teeth and makes a fist while Ryan sadly puts a hand on his shoulder.

The colours in the new piece are more saturated and the glitch effects are done differently, and there's shading. Neil has his helmet, which was missing from the original, Kevin is visibly sweating and his fist is on the other side, and Ryan looks more resigned whereas in the original he has his mouth open. End ID]

[ID: two versions of a piece featuring fantasy versions of the new kids standing in front of a colourful roulette wheel marked with ominous symbols. Kevin is a human fighter, Neil is an elf bard, and Ryan is a tiefling warlock. The dark purple background is lit up with hot pink at the top and bright orange, purple, and green behind each of the guys to contrast their respective colour coding.

The old piece was done in an attempt at a realistic style, while the new version is in the artist's usual more cartoony style. The new kids' poses, expressions, and outfits are all changed to varying degrees; most notably, Neil's elf ears are bigger and Ryan's skin is red rather than a human skin tone. Ryan also has a cape instead of a jacket this time. In the original, they all look rather apprehensive, while in the new version they look more excited. Text has been added above them reading "The Only Lich Lair... With A Wheel!!" End ID]

[ID: two versions of a piece where Neil and Ryan are catboys and Kevin is a dogboy. Neil is in a cutesy pose with his hands raised like paws, Ryan is sitting or crouching with a dead mouse in his mouth, and Kevin is holding a football with scuff marks on it. In addition to the regular clothes they're wearing, Neil and Kevin have collars; Neil's has a bell in the shape of the lemon demon logo.

The colours in the original are washed out and there's a little dog logo on Kevin's football which is missing in the newer version. The colours of Neil's outfit are different and his leg is bent more, Ryan now has a box to sit on and has cat pupils while the others still have human eyes, and Kevin is now wearing a baseball cap. A gradiented blue background has been added along with yellow text at the top reading "Guar-NYAN-teed Video", with a paw print in place of the G*V logo's asterisk. End ID]

+ a couple bonuses:

[ID: a follow-up to the "Only Lich Lair" piece. The new kids are now injured and look miserable. Kevin has grown a beard and lost his hair, and is wearing a blindfold over where his eyes would be. He's also lost his armour. Neil's hair is frazzled and he's covered in singe marks, and he's lost a hand and got a chunk taken out of one ear. His instrument is also missing. Ryan has an eyepatch, has the tip of one horn taken off, and is frozen. He's also lost his wizard hat and the clasp for his cape. The bright lights in the background are gone save for the pink at the top, which drips down like blood; the text is also removed. End ID]

[ID: a sketch of Kevin wearing a sweater and scarf, holding half a broken sword shouting angrily, based on a scene from I'm Gonna be the Anti-Hero. An old version of this doodle is shrunken down in the upper left corner. Colour has been added to the new version, as well as blood spatter on Kevin and tears in his eyes. End ID]

#all these redraws are from over the course of the past week and change. scary.#idk what forces have got ahold of me but once i started it's like i couldn't stop #i don't think most people will recognize all of the originals especially since i didn't even post all of them in the first place?#the catboys is the only one where you can find the original in my art tag #i think the likenesses might be better in some of the originals but to me at this specific moment in time that's not what's most important #nkotr #new kids on the rock #my art

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copiawife · 2 months ago

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i finally finished the copia shirt for my gelatoni plush!!! now i just need to make the jacket and pants ehehe

#i learned how to do buttonholes and sew buttons with the machine today #so i'm immediately using that ability for this #the arms are a little tighter than i'd like but it's okay because i still have to put a jacket over this so it's probably better #the cuffs and the collar even have raw edges to match the actual shirt i'm basing this off of! attention to detail babey #i was trying not to start/work on any extracurricular sewing projects while i'm taking this class #but i couldn't help myself once i got the buttonhole thing figured out #because that was why i stopped working on this originally because i couldn't do buttonholes #but now i can! i figured it out!#what do you have to say doll?

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mainfaggot · 6 months ago

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just watched challengers at the cinema w my little sister. it was so intense wtf

#i was like grabbing onto my scalp just yanking my hair in the last 5 mins and at the end i yelled (quietly) LOVE WINS!#bc there were only 4 other ppl in the cinema lol #its so fucking stupid on the surface like ok complicated polyamory and also insane obsession with a sport bc that is what makes these people #who they are; as in the sport IS their identity as individuals that's what fills the void that lies underneath skin and bone etc.#blah blah basic shit about messy relationships with the self and romantically with others #but it's also so profound because despite the many obstacles and personality differences. they all love one another and the sport so much.#it's so weird it's twisted in a sense because it's like they only have one another and then obviously tennis (bc tennis is the bridge)#it's very.. codependent #i can't believe my little sister understood like not in a condescending way i cant believe she got it but in a “oh i didnt know you watched #stuff with this much emotion and that you cared enough to critique media“ since she doesn't usually tell me about what shes watching #and when she does she tells me about sitcoms ..#so yeah it was nice that we watched it together but also kind of weird bc #well surface level: the make out scenes were just us giggling awkwardly #and on a deeper level when i was watching it. i couldn't help but think about how #patrick at some point turned into an observer; he stopped being a part of the art tashi patrick trio (and tennis!) and turned #into a spectator #despite very much still being a fellow player #and then tashi became a spectator of the sport despite very much being absorbed in it all and in love with art (?)#i dont know what else to call it but her need to control him came from a place of some kind of care ... albeit manipulative and self serving #so Patrick and tashi are almost parallel lines if that makes sense #theyre kicked out of “the club” whatever the club may be (for Patrick he's no longer in the trio) and for Tashi once the trio is long gone #she's no longer a competitor bc of her injury #and then art is just in the middle of it all #and he'd always followed Patrick's lead in the past and then he started thinking for himself until he became so taken by Tashi #and then he just became her little follower #he just wants to be loved and told what to do because he doesn't know how else to live. im projecting? im projecting. anyway!#the ending. god. the ending sums up their whole past dynamic:#patrick is petty. art is irritated. tashi doesn't get their little dynamic. patrick loves art. art is forgiving. tashi loves the sport #(and maybe she loves them both in her own fucked up control freak way)#z.post

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nexus-nebulae · 7 months ago

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brrrrr (/pos)

#weight talk #<- just in case even though this is pos #but like. okay ive been. SEVERELY underweight all my life #like i looked like a skeleton you could see all my bones it was AWFUL #i just. I've literally always hated looking like that i hated looking like a walking corpse i mean i looked ILL #but recently i started taking remeron for anxiety #partially bc my anxiety keeps causing me to not eat properly bc i feel sick constantly #so i kept ending up in the ER for malnutrition and dehydration and my liver getting messed up #well i started the remeron for the panic attacks bc daily panic attacks suck but the psych mentioned it could increase appetite #and it???? did????? I'm eating on a slightly more regular schedule???? I'm eating more than once a day????#and like. ok I've always weighed like 100lbs #highest i ever got was 111 when i was 16 #and then it dropped 10 #and then dropped 10 more in the span of 3 months while i was in and out of ER #and i was genuinely starting to panic over it bc i could PHYSICALLY FEEL my muscles getting eaten bc i had no fat left #like i was getting drastically weaker by the day my knees still won't stop buckling #but in the about three months I've been taking those meds I've. gained 10 back #I'm actually gaining weight like me and my mother are genuinely SHOCKED this genuinely hasn't happened since i was fucking TWELVE #and just now i took off my shirt and noticed. holy shit. my stomach doesn't go CONCAVE when I'm hungry anymore #like whenever i couldn't tell if i was hungry before i would just look at my stomach and be able to tell if it was too curved inwards #but now!!!!!!! it doesn't do that!!!!!!! and I'm genuinely fucking ecstatic like oh my god i don't look dead anymore #I've always wanted to gain weight i feel like i would be 100% more comfortable in my body as a fat trans man #and i can't talk about that to anyone bc they always say it's either self harm or fetishistic #when no i just genuinely feel more comfortable in my skin thinking of myself that way #and now i have confirmation that i would genuinely be happier that way with this bc the sheer joy i have at not being underweight anymore #i mean I'm still a bit under but at least im gaining SOMETHING like at least i dont look like a drowned street cat #seeing the very slight rolls and folds in my stomach when i move the right way makes me happy

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wowbright · 2 years ago

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Somersaults!

#I can finally do underwater somersaults #not sure exactly what's different about what I'm doing but it's working #I don't think my back or my hips or my abdomen are going to be very happy about this later #because of course once I got it right I kept doing it over and over #did about five right in a row #then started doing incomplete once again couldn't figure out why #then got back to doing actual complete somersaults and pretty much did not stop after that #will be interesting to see if I remember how to do the next time I'm in the pool #gpoy #swimming #also not sure why the water didn't go up super high in my sinuses and burn them like it usually does #must have something to do with my chin tuck #I must have altered it a little #and maybe spending a little faster?#could keep the water from flooding into the sinuses #I mean I did get water up my nose but not in the painful way #definitely sound right now like I have a head cold

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amandabe11man · 10 months ago

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so me and my friend are onto season 4 of X-files now and we got to the csm-centric episode, right. and when he put the sniper rifle up from the window at the start I was like "whoa there. jfk assassination much?"-- and then the flashback starts and wouldn't you fucking know it, csm was the one who killed jfk??

this made me joke about how "what is he, the dark version of forrest gump or something? lmao" (ie. being present at a bunch of historical happenings), and then it seems like I was right because after that, he killed martin luther king too... aND TH E N towards the end, they make a fuckin forrest gump reference???

guys I think I'm finally becoming psychic

#x-files #anyway good season so far #'the field where I died' was another good one #this ep was fun too ngl cause I'm afraid I love to hate this guy #I love how it shows how /weak/ csm actually is #seems like he just gets swept up in shit all 'okay I guess I'm doing this now (hashtag powertrip)'#dude has all the agency over a bunch of others but he has no agency over himself #he couldn't even resist the peer pressure to start smoking. bruh #and he couldn't even follow through with it when he tried to /stop/ smoking either #and then when he thought he was gonna get a big break as an author and was like 'fuck yeah I'll resign from the evil job now'#..but then the editors changed the ending when publishing it so he was like 'nvm. fuck everything. violent path it is then'#that whole thing reminded me so much of john in Saw X too when he thought he'd been cured-#-so he threw away the trap-sketches he was making. guy was gonna straight up quit being jigsaw bc he thought he would get to live after all #wait a sec.... john has cancer and is a villain... csm is called 'cancerman' and is also a villain........ [connecting dots in my mind rn]#but yeah um-- back to what I was saying- this ep somehow made csm a bit less infuriating for me?#cause now we got to see that actually he doesn't have everything under control. in fact it's like he barely has a will of his own #bro has zero conviction. barely any willpower. no life. if he fails at something once- that's it. he'll quit trying forever #he's literally a loser. we love to see it #(also wtf I didn't think deep throat would be the one who argued FOR killing that alien while csm was the one who questioned it?)#(but deep throat SAID to mulder later that he regretted the things he'd done an d he helped the good guys in the end so....)#(deep throat had his redemption arc. love that guy....except for when he killed the alien. that wasn't cool)

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hella1975 · 2 years ago

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hella I keep getting edits with some sort of original version of waiting room?? on my fyp and I'm gonna be honest waiting room wasn't a song that did me in quite as badly as the rest of you but this version I keep hearing literally rips my heart straight open😭😭 like I've been planning on fixing the no waiting room on spotify issue by taking it into my own hands🏴‍☠️ but now I know it's gonna have to be this version I'm not even bothering with lost ark waiting room. it's just gonna be waiting room og bc what the fuck?? "I never grew up with you, and you're not my waiting room" what the fuck??? with the haunting background noises literally WHAT THE FUCK????????

OMG IVE SEEN THAT ONE everyone keeps going on about the vocals of 'and you're not my waiting room' but i really cant get over 'i never grew up with you' like what??? WHAT??????

#for some reason i rlly connected this song to a childhood friend of mine that im pretty sure ive at least vaguely mentioned on here before #but basically we were INSEPERABLE for years of my childhood and he was about 2 years older than me #so i think i was 5 and he was 7 when we met and we stayed friends until i went up to secondary school so SIX YEARS #and we literally spent all day together we'd play in the gardens and run about the place and we were both really outdoorsy #and obvs it was before proper tech really started coming in so it was when kids literally just got shoved outside for the day #and left to their own devices and it was GREAT like i remember him and that time so fondly #but he was also really messed up like he'd come from a lot of foster homes and he'd had every kind of abuse #and he'd finally been adopted by the couple on my street who just couldn't handle him bc their answer to his issues #was to spoil him and give him what he wanted so he just got worse bc he had a real violent streak in him #and obvs if you let that grow in a boy they're not gonna wake up one day and it'll be gone like. it's going to get malicious #and low and behold he started getting like actually dangerous like he choked his sister once and he got kicked out of school #bc he threated to BEHEAD A GIRL WITH AN AXE like really fucked up shit #but i was in a pick me moment bc he was always really nice and respectful to me until he wasnt #and even then ive never ever blamed him for it bc we were both young and he was so traumatised #and sooner or later we stopped hanging out and my mum was relieved bc that's how bad he was getting #and ive literally never spoken to him again. but he's just one of those people i think about all the time????#like idk if it's bc of what went down or bc of the age i was but he was a HUGE deal to me and my development #and for some evil fucking reason i think of him when i listen to waiting room especially the 'i know it's for the better'#bc i KNOW it's for the better i got away from him before he got really bad but still i so desperately wish i couldve helped him yk?#especially now i understand what abuse actually means and what he'd suffered which i had no idea about at the time #SO TO ADD 'I NEVER GREW UP WITH YOU' WHEN I FEEL LIKE I ABANDONED HIM AS CHILDREN?? STOPPPP #PHOEBE PLEASEEEE #anyway unnecessary rant over rori pls pirate this song for the masses pls pls the world needs you #ask

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existencebringsonlypain · 10 months ago

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ughhhhhh remind me to never ride motor vehicles ever again

#when i was little‚ i used to read books on seven hour car rides. i was practically immune to carsickness.#as i got older‚ that immunity persisted. to some extent.#as i got even older‚ i started taking meds. like‚ a LOT of meds. enough that even I couldn't take them all in one swallow.#and somewhere along the way‚ i was prescribed a pill that tended to make me slightly nauseous on occasion.#and then that immunity disappeared.#and now i get carsick. i have never gotten carsick before‚ and i do not know how to manage it.#i ALSO had not gotten seriously sick in so long that i forgot where the threshold was.#on November 17th‚ 2023‚ i threw up on my school bus for the first time ever.#(partially due to the fact that i never rode busses before that year‚ partially due to the immunity.)#i didn't know where the point was where it got to “we need to stop the bus” and i learned the hard way.#luckily there was only me‚ the bus driver‚ and his kid‚ my friend on board. so it was generally fine. but that was where i learned the signs #and todayyyyyyy i had those signs once again. and immediately panicked.#luckily we were maybe a minute from home so i just hopped off the car and ran to the bathroom #i was at the “swallowing down saliva” stage which is fun cuz the saliva tastes weird so youve got that taste in your mouth for the next hour #i did NOT throw up. i was very near it tho #this has been a memoir in my tags #and i need to take several lay downs #existenceunrelateds

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mishkakagehishka · 1 year ago

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#once again today i tried to avoid him but alas he saw me #approached me smiled at me greeted me asked me how i was doing... and i got flustered and shy #to the point that even when he left i had to ask my friend to repeat herself bc i couldn't process what she was saying for a good minute...#😞😞😞....... i wanna get over him already it's not like i dislike having a crush it's an interesting new experience #but it's like. i need my brain to stop acting as if anything will happen. baby girl you know he's pining for someone else #set your sights on someone who you have a chance with and PREFERABLY someone from your home region or hometown better yet #i'm too pretty to pine for a northerner #i have to start wearing my cross around bc i feel like there's no more direct way to say i'm trying to get married than to advertise that #i'm religious but at the same time. i feel a bit scared of overly religious men but the type of men who are religious bc it allows them to #mistreat women rather than those who are Actually Religious. idk tho

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laazucena · 2 years ago

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yo i’m scavenging tumblr to see just how many blue and yellow gay pairings there are and in the tags of smth u mentioned u have a big list of them,, can i see it 👉👈

hello anon 🌸

first of all, thank you for this ask 💕 you are probably referring to the tags to this post my first thought went to byler so this is how i found the post again anyway, you have no idea on what kind of trip you sent me on (the amount of screenshots I had to go through... but that is not your fault but more my own🙈😅) but I'm really happy for going through all these fandom moments again 😄

I would not consider my list "big" but I'm going to list some canon queer couples in bl series (this is just from the ones that I watched so far since i started 4 months ago) that did not pass me by unnoticed when it came to blue and yellow (either in lighting, surroundings, clothes, objects, etc) and there are also going to be some short honorable mentions of other color couple who got yellow-blue moments.

Okay, I hope you're ready!

1) Cake & Seeiw - My Only 12% aka the obsession that will not leave me and I will not let go of anytime soon (and rightfully so. If you're like me a fan of slow(!)-burn, childhood best friends to lovers with good acting and a down-to earth story, then tada, this might be the series for you)

they are also shown wearing different colors* but Seeiw in the yellow hue variations** and Cake in the blue hue variations** has probably at least a 12% chance of happening during a scene😉

*(like school/college uniforms for ex., but even there -> look at their backpacks in the right picture below this) **(tint, shade, tone) (if someone wants to know more about that you know where to find me. or google might help you too)

also look at this part from the title sequence:

2) Takara & Amagi - Takara-kun to Amagi-kun aka the cutest japanese bl series imo

I got actually so used to them wearing their blue and yellow sweaters that it was actually more noticeable when they were not wearing them

3) Aoki & Ida - Kieta Hatsukoi aka my first bl love

Aoki is associated with the yellow heart while Ida is associated with the blue one

ah yellow and blue hues my beloveds

also the lighting in this pic !

4) Sun & Ozone - 7 Project Ep.1: Would You Be My Love aka where my current blog title is from

(1) if you are wondering: yes, these are the same actors as in 1) (2) like you can read from the title the characters appear in just 1 episode together, so there really is just this to work with (3) this quote takes me out, especially when I think about their names in colors with the color "sun" (or in this case I chose "radiant sun" but you probably get the drill) being a yellow hue variation and the color "ozone" a blue hue variation (as a blue-greyish tone):