#on twitter seeing ocs for it is soooo cool but i feel if i do it no one would like it idk

[cherrylight]

le sighs and screams loudly into my hands

[mc-slowwalker]

a quick google search tells me that diamond is in fact stronger than enamel so he would in fact have to create his own dental tools but to save money he could just go with a pick axe. and well I’ve always lowkey been on the eggs side, add dental insurance to the mix and I’m sold

the dreamsmp citizen memes are soooo funny. and about like the ocs and stuff, the dreamsmp really is greatcoat that cause you can basically do whatever. usually tho I hate self inserts/ocs just personal preference or the fact that the ones I’ve come across in other fandoms have been annoying as hell. it’s like what we talked about before about how the dreamsmp leaves so much room for this type of creative stuff it’s cool

ohhhh that makes sense. yeah people would probably only be talking about you if you’re famous enough or famous enough to be cancelled ig. ooh you should post it!! that’d be good cause it’s definitely true and there really is no excuse for acting in that way. I think I will write that cause the more apologist discourse I see, the more motivated I get and it’s also kind of something that really interests me. oh yeah I’d definitely post it on tumblr because I love discussion and twitter is not the space for that and they’d just misinterpret what I say anyway

what no!! chem supremacy. it’s actually so interesting!!! chem and physics are the best even tho I hated them with every fibre of my being in high school. I didn’t take bio in high school but I have to in uni as a prerequisite for my major and I hate it

wooo tumblr premium let’s goo I am not going to spend a single cent on this hellsite. I feel like this feeling deep in me whenever I refer to it as a hellsite😭😭

Okay listen logically I knew that diamond was tougher than enamel but I was thinking about it from the wear and tear perspective like can he even get cavities?? I don’t know what the effects of sugar is on diamonds in my defense!!

No I’m the exact same way with self inserts and ocs in other fandoms, they can be cool hut half the time they seem like they don’t fit into the world?? And self inserts always give me second hand embarrassment. Like reader x and reader & fics make me soo uncomfortable like hi thanks I’d rather not meet my favorite mcyt like that actually and getting singled out is my worst fucking nightmare but you do you. Sorry for the rant its just with self insert stuff I always feel weird about because like I know damn well that if I met my favorite cc or fictional character in real life we would 1000% not be friends. I’m cool with that too. I think for dream smp citizen stuff it’s less “I am friends with the creators” and more “I live in this world and I am seeing this shit happen”. Like the ccs still have a degree of separation to them that I really appreciate

I mean I could post it but I feel like it’s a little old now also I’m like 95% sure I said the post word from word so how knows. Yooooo use that motivation!!! Let spite fuel you

Here’s why chemistry sucks: I took it and not only got 13% on an 8 question test (somehow) I also had to drop out and it made me cry several times so I have a personal vendetta against it. Also I have to take it every single day next semester because I did so bad. The lab teacher also sucked I would ask questions and get yelled at for asking like bruh!! Dangerous chemicals here homie please chill. I could write a whole essay on why chem lab was the worst but chemistry isn’t worth my time im too busy understanding and like biology oh damn cells? Banger. Evolution? Banger. Regeneration? Banger. Banger after banger chem simply cannot compete /lh

I think tumblr should hire me I have a long list of way to help them make this site actively worse. I have so many ideas

[lizardswithoutlegs]

asks about dragon hoards

oh what !!! this is so sweet im absolutely ok with you doing this, i dont have a PO box but PLEASE mail me a quilt…...even if this doesnt work out im so so flattered you considered it at all !!!

Aaaa unfortunately im not doing the hoards anymore, at least at the moment !! theres already around 70 of the dang things and eventually they just got so limiting and kinda tedious……….. i aint doin no MEGA HOARD chase can come and duel me

Aaaa unfortunately im not doing the hoards anymore, at least at the moment !! theres already around 70 of the dang things and eventually they just got so limiting and kinda tedious……….. i aint doin no MEGA HOARD chase can come and duel me

This is another handful of permission type asks….the answer to all of these is yes !! and id love to see the embroidery if you ever finish it :o

WELLLLL it honestly depends! In general im perfectly ok with it, but some of the dragons arent my own designs and are the commissioners ocs - if you could tell me the specific one youre interested in i could let you know if its cool to use it !

too late this is you now

ASK THAT MAKES ME EXTREMELY SAD

Hey im just paranoid enough that this is kind of absolutely destroying me…….do i know you. Have we met.

ASKS ABOUT ME!!

Ok you know what…….yeah yeah yeah ok heres a little secret for anyone reading this i DID…..make …..a twitter account…

Aw what thank you !! ive thought about it but currently i kinda lack the drive to make a big scale production….maybe after ive spent some more time working on comics?? Getting into the habit of making longer things……………………….. The future is a mystery

IM LAUGHIN YEAH i get messages about my sidebar having my deadname in it !!! i just havent gotten around to the dang thing yet but i appreciate the message >:)

this is me n you

ITS laurence! and my pronouns are

i look like this

I like dude or bro >:) being non binary is like……”which way do you prefer to be misgendered the LEAST” ahahah but masculine terms are generally fine with me !! thanks for askin this is very sweet of you

oh fuck me who is this

I DO NOT although its something ive been thinkin about...would anyone be interested in this……….whadda fuck….

At the house im staying at weve been watching soooo so so so many old painting restoration videos by this man who REALLY knows what hes doing and im fascinated by them 

Aaaaa thank you !! honestly i took a break from social media for a REALLY LONG TIME BECAUSE I WAS MASSIVELY DEPRESSED - 2018 was a really really really bad year for me for a lot of reasons, and MOST OF THEM were self inflicted honestly - i lost a lot of close friends due to some undiagnosed mental things i had going on and was honestly drowning in, and when everything came to a head i kind of stopped caring about anything for like a solid year Im only now starting to get back on top of the things i let slip into the uhhh uhhhhh huhh the abyss !!! dont feel too bad for me though i was a little nightmare to be around i think!!

[mestos]

3AM Ramblings

LMAO well

what you see above there is actually a wip image of a small comic lol, changed the way i draw alpha’s hair yet again but whatcha got to lose, sad part about the comic is that ill prolly never post it on tumblr (or at least, try not to) but itll be up on my pixiv since i’m basically trying to build a log to upload, and i didn’t draw enough over the past few months of m///apl/e due to school. i don’t feel right just uploading 2pics bc ik it could get disappointing opening a photoset and only seeing 2 pics lmaoOOOOOooooo 

trying really hard to get rid of my attention-seeking habits. a long time back, i never actually had a problem with it? like, i was attentionseeking but not to the unhealthy extent i am now. i think making an askblog really ruined me mentally as notes and notifs and numbers suddenly took a huge impact on me? back then, it was just something i observed from afar but now when ive felt the numbers myself thats when it started to get really bad. ive had a bunch of friends tell me off for this - and i’m well aware that skill =/= number of notes/notifs, but its still such a fucking struggle to get rid of the mindset. i still glance by this godforsaken website and all my blog lists wondering if its worth putting time and effort then feeling disappointed and depressed when i see a low number or whatever after I post, and logically speaking that ain’t cool for me to do but I still do it anyway. trying to refrain is going to be one of the methods i try to avoid it, but i just hope i don’t end up lapsing back into the shitty mindset once i do post things again.

aside from that, a lot of my loneliness really stemmed from having no one to scream about my things towards bc HA, i like screaming to someone who understands the feeling towards the media with enthusiasm, and i often wonder if i’m spamming my twitter - i am, no doubt about that - so i really do say sorry to all my mutuals lmao...although i’m in a Avoid M///a//p///l//e/S///////t///o//r//y At All Costs phase rn bc all that dumb game/franchise has ever brought me is salt, despair, bullshit, etc. my favourites are never noticed, i fucking despise freud x zero till i die and that’s all i ever goddamn see (yeah, i said it. i dont give a fuck) , and well. idk. i feel like my skill is so limited bc - even though i enjoy drawing my faves, i feel like its not bringing me anywhere with my improvement, so i’m trying new things/focusing more on my original works. drawing Tiaz is still technically related bc he is a franchise OC, but i dont really associate him with whatever salt bc most of what i associate him with is like, the completely insert-based material. really, his story just contains the lore and not so much the bullshit story that makes me angry in the first place, so i’m cool with that. i really like drawing asta/teria too, i did a vote with my twit account and im pretty pleased to know  that people really like them too?? my friend personally also said they’re her current faves out of my ocs so that makes me soooo so pleased (lbr, teria is super pretty and asta is swag). 

sometimes i really envy people. its weird, because i can do the same thing as them? its so simple. but for some reason i feel like, i can’t at the same time or the chance always escapes me? or that i feel overwhelmingly obnoxious the minute i do something simple like sending a message. i’m also really closed off because i’m highly selective of the things i like, which makes it even harder. plus bc a lot of the time i cater to myself more than others and since i do that im usually in a minority, which makes it more difficult for me to magnetize people towards me. i’m trying though!! i do strike up conversations when i see it... but i always suffer that ‘i can help. but i don’t know how.’ thought which limits me even more??? god, i’m always so hesitant. when i was faced in a situation where someone was suffering i immediately stepped in to help but i didn’t know what to do? i asked questions but i really wasnt- i really didnt know what i couldve done. eventually someone else stepped in with more experience and was able to settle the situation, but the feeling of ‘i couldve helped but i didn’t know how’ just really stuck with me. i feel like i lack the maturity and independence to go out but i’m confused on how to change that? bc those things are built with experience, which means i need to go out and get some experience, but that’s easier said than done lol. i do feel like, sure, one thing i can do to get closer with people is listen to them and ha, i do that! anytime someone needs it, i’m willing to lend an ear or time. but what i do notice is that, while someone needs someone else to listen they also need guidance or advice. i’m aware i cant change the fact that i’m inexperienced in so much that i can’t offer any words of wisdom, but there it is again, the ‘i can help but i don’t know how’ feeling. i don’t want to say shit and i always have felt like ‘you’re saying shit they’ve heard before and you’re just making it worse’ whenever i try to say something reassuring. so i...i really envy people who can step in and create new bonds without these types of thoughts holding them back. i’m trying to get rid of them as best as i could because they sound like excuses don’t they? it sounds like i’ve come up with reasons to avoid interacting with new people. ha, that’s really not the case though...

wow this is long. it is late. i should sleep. did not want to overload my twit with a dumb threat so long ass tumblr post it is.