#on the argument that most of the time the cds they have are really cheap and anyone can buy them
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update on the other post i did the other day: the only one person that owns this album on discogs says on their bio that they don't do filesharing AAAAAA greedy motherfucker
#b.txt#on the argument that most of the time the cds they have are really cheap and anyone can buy them#ok so the album is not available for sale anywhere so now what genius#i just gonna have to wait for somebody else to magically appear and share the missing songs?#the album is from 2001 and only 2 songs are available online#one of them being posted just a day ago#24 years with only one song being available... oh im so mad rn#and somebody says they asked the frontman of the band for the songs files but the dude said his old pc died and the files got corrupted#would it really hurt to rip the songs ... come on
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two for you, if you like!
đŞ â˘ name three good things going on in your life right now
đŹ ⢠post an unpopular opinion about a popular fandom character
hiii thank you so much for the ask!
đŞ - i definitely have a hard time being positive so i'm always grateful to have an excuse to tell my brain to rewrite itself for a while lol.
1. made a new friend recently and we've been hanging out a lot! i've been pretty lonely post-college, and this person and i not only have so many overlapping interests but also happen to be the same ethnicity, and i genuinely don't know how we never managed to meet before this, especially considering they grew up in the next town over. it's been wonderful. we went to a record store yesterday, and i was perusing the soundtrack cds, and my friend goes, "omg i see something. how did you miss it???" and it was the fucking charlie and the chocolate factory broadway soundtrack. my beloathed. and yes i bought it. we also spent the entire car ride talking about mcspirk. really good.
2. i might be (maybe) getting a full time position (hopefully)! i don't want to jinx it, but i've been doing part time work for a bit now and it's finally looking like it might turn into something more! i'm tentatively excited.
3. overall, i am once again just so grateful for all my friends (both online and especially off) in fandom spaces and having the ability to share my love for these stories with others. the star trek fandom especially has been such a welcoming and loving place, and after years of pretty much only being obsessed with very niche things, it's been such a breath of fresh air. kissing you all, mwah!
đŹ - oh god, completely different vibe. i tend to steer clear of fandom discourse unless i feel like a story reaaally messed up (aka the way racism was handled in the newest season of doctor who...), so i don't really like to bash on characters specifically because i know what it's like to be on the receiving end of someone's hatred for your fav. most of my opinions tend to be unpopular anyway a) because my favourite characters are always the morally grey ones who i like precisely because they're controversial, and b) because so many people on this site don't understand nuance. it's just... so frustrating when people can't see beyond their need for a ship to be canon/a ship is the only reason they're interested in the story. arcane, for example, is not only incredibly nuanced, detailed, and, yes, full of morally grey characters, it exists to raise questions about politics and history that intentionally are not meant to be solved in 18 episodes because humanity has been trying to answer them for thousands of years! i agree that the writing felt rushed, but what people can't seem to grasp is that just because a story doesn't answer every one of life's questions doesn't mean it's a bad story. aaaahhh. anyway, sorry for the rant, that didn't really answer your question.
i'll say this: (arcane spoilers!!!)
i think jinx dying was a perfect way to end the story. i literally predicted way back when i first watched s1 that one of the sisters was going to die. i thought vi was going to kill jinx to be honest. it wasn't a cheap ending or a cop out; in the same way silco had to die in order for the story to move forward and for change to occur, the same goes for jinx. the cycles!!! they only end when we find the will to walk away!!!! that line has stuck with me since the finale premiered because it's so goddamn true. what if the people trying so hard to force the world into their own empire just... stopped. why can't they see that it doesn't fucking matter, that all that matters is loving one another and making sure we're all okay. like aaaahhh. change is necessary for us to move on and stop having the same arguments we've been having for thousands of years.
that being said, i don't think runeterra is going to necessarily be a better place post-jinx's death, especially because it keeps caitlyn in a respected position of power and i reaallllyyy hate how much the show makes you sympathise with her. i really don't like her... or vi... aaannnddd that's all i'll say about that because this is not an invitation for people to start yelling at me lol.
anyway!! thanks for the ask and sorry for turning it into an arcane rant lmao
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I quite like this, but hereâs my addition because I had Thoughts and wanted to share:
Vinyl degrades as you play it. The needle wears the recording down incrementally.
CDs can and will suffer surface damage from general entropy, but the read laser isnât causing the actual recording to degrade from use as much.
Part of the bitrate argument for streaming music is that lower bitrate compression such as MP3 also introduces audio artifacts. It doesnât matter how good your source is if thereâs artificial tinny reverb or weird unexpected warbling being added by the format. Higher bitrates have less artifacting.
Steve Martin did a routine called Googlephonics. The short version is that his record sounded bad so he iteratively builds the most insanely over-engineered sound system ever. Then he realises the record is just shit.
Thatâs what I think of with the âbad masterâ scenario.
The other thing is, you can have a great clean recording with no perceptual artifacts, and youâre playing it through crappy 20 year old speakers with a frayed wire thatâs picking up actual radio interference and the sound card is getting junk static added by badly shielded electronics.
Or you pick up some reasonably cheap 40mm driver headphones that really deliver, and you suddenly hear the recording engineer bumping about on a track you heard 9000 times and itâs fabu. But you can hear every warble and squidged artifact on something you also played the hell out of⌠but you never heard how bad the compression was before.
And thatâs the same for CD, Vinyl or media files: what you play through also changes what you hear.
But the experience is subjective. That thrashed audio track that had the weird squeep 10 seconds in, and the funny compression warbling on the choruses might be your favourite go to because it was the song that you heard and played back to back on that one magical summer where everything was perfect. A clean copy just doesnât do it for you. Is the audio equivalent of comfort food: Is it objectively the best? No. Is it subjectively exactly what you needed? Yes.
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A few people took exception to calling my car's CD player useless.
I actually think it is great there are a few holdouts still using CDs.
CDs are truly one of the most perfect media ever created.
And I can prove that mathematically.
Some will say vinyl is superior. And as much as I love records, the audio quality is preferred, not better. People have a *preference* for how vinyl sounds, but it still leaves out audio information and has noise and artifacts caused by the mechanics of the turntable and an imperfect manufacturing process.
In fact, the lesser audio quality is exactly what people enjoy. It has a warmth and comfortably compressed dynamic range that is not fatiguing over long listening sessions. It's like choosing a nice fire over a 100% efficient space heater.
But if you want perfect audio quality that does not exceed the limits of human hearing, compact discs are where it's at.
It all has to do with Dr. Harry Nyquist and his Nyquist-Shannon Theorem. (Sometimes Shannon gets left out and it is just called the Nyquist Theorem.)
The simple version is he figured out how much something needs to be sampled in order to not lose any information. As long as you sample something at a frequency greater than or equal to twice per cycle, you will have a lossless... whatever.
In this case, a lossless audio recording.
So the range of human hearing is about 20 Hz to 20 kHz. That's the lowest and highest frequencies we can perceive. The scientists creating CD audio figured they'd do 22 kHz for some overhead and then you double that to get 44 kHz. (Technically it was 44.1 kHz.)
You can imagine the smooth curvy line as an analog recording. No gaps. No information loss.
The black squares are digital samples recorded over a period of time. You can see there are gaps between those black squares. A tiny bit of time passes between the squares where nothing is sampled. INFORMATION LOSS! NOOOOO!
Clearly the vinyl nerds are correct and digital is inferior, right? You are going to get the dreaded... STAIR STEPS!
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Not so fast, bucko!
By getting enough samples over a period of time, you can use math to infer that smooth sloping line connecting those individual samples. So the digital recording also has no information lost once it is converted back to analog and played through your speakers.
This connecting of dots is called "interpolation."
You could take the curvy analog, convert it to digital, get the same black squares, and then interpolate the black squares back into analog and get the same curvy line. It goes back and forth perfectly. And this is all verifiable with an oscilloscope.
NEAT!
Then of course you need a good dynamic range--the spectrum of quiet to loud. Anything above 85 decibels will damage your hearing, so they went with a 16-bit depth which covers roughly 100 dB. Again, giving them a little overhead for death metal and overzealous trumpet players.
And the final component is data bandwidth or "bitrate" usually measured in kilobits per second. This is how much data is read every second. The 1s and 0s of it all. The bitrate of a CD is calculated by multiplying 44,100 samples per second per channel by 16 bits per sample and then multiplying by 2 channels. After all that mathing is math'd, you get a perfectly uncompressed 1,411 kbps.
So you've got all the frequencies you could ever hear combined with as much volume as your ears can stand with a bit rate that will give you no loss of data.
The *perfect* audio quality all encoded into little microscopic pits.
Now you may be asking, "Why do I see "24/96" or "24/192" advertised on fancy audio equipment and high quality streaming platforms like Tidal? Aren't 24 bits better? Isn't 96 kHz MORE than 44.1 kHz?"
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Dr. Nyquist might say... this is some bullshit.
This confusion comes from the fact that recording quality and playback quality are two different animals. This misunderstanding happens with video and photo quality as well. Recording in 6K will give you a sharper picture even if your final playback quality is 4K. You can get bad pixels and noise and stray photons that do not contribute to the detail in the video. By giving yourself overhead you can ensure you hit the desired quality target.
And recording at 24 bits and 96 or 192 kHz, you get a higher resolution to edit and master with, but it is only advantageous to the computer software... not the human ear.
From a photographer's perspective, I relate to it like this...
If I have more megapixels and more colors and more dynamic range I have more leeway when editing my photos. If you try to push a low quality photo in the edit, it has this tendency to fall apart. You can get ugly color banding and harsh contrast and sharpening artifacts. By capturing more quality than you need in the finished product, you can process the photo much more dramatically before it deteriorates and loses integrity.
Audio and video are the same way.
So let's say you have a metal singer that screams at the microphone as loud as possible from 2 inches away.
At 16 bits they may surpass that 100 decibel dynamic range and distort the recording. But if you record in 24 bits, you get 144 dB to play with. Or you can even do 32 bits and get 1500 dB--a volume that no human voice could ever surpass. It guarantees a clean, distortion free recording, but 32 bits would be pointless for human listening.
The same is true with the sample rate. Having a higher resolution allows you to zoom into waveforms and adjust things to an extremely granular level. You can do precise timings, tiny pitch adjustments, apply loads of digital effects, and just have more room for audio activities without degrading the sound quality.
But outputting 192,000 of those black squares is going to interpolate the exact same smooth curvy line as 44,100 when it is played through speakers.
The oscilloscope knows what I'm talking about.
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Now I am about to reveal a secret that no audiophile who has invested in a $115,000 high resolution 32 bit/3,072 kHz DAC wants to acknowledge...
The master recording is always more important than the playback quality.
If you have a high quality source it will sound great even in a highly compressed MP3. Just like the 6K video is sharper on the 4K TV. And the high megapixel photo looks better in an Instagram post.
If the source is good, the media will be good.
And since high resolution audio services often seek out the best masters available before encoding their playback files, it gives many people the illusion they are getting better sound quality due to the boosted specs.
When in reality, it was just a better copy of the original recording.
According to Nyquist, your human ears are not computers and all you need is double the frequency to hear perfect sound with no loss of information. So anything above 16 bit/44.1 kHz/1411 kbps and you are just wasting bandwidth on a server.
And I don't want to hear anything about "stair stepping."
IT'S MATH.
Your ears aren't better than math, okay?
If you don't believe in math, then you and Jack White can sit in the naughty math corner with his bespoke overpriced vinyl pressings.
I will say, there is a gap between your standard music streaming service like Spotify and your bullshit audiophile service like Tidal.
Free Spotify uses heavily compressed files. Which means the bitrate is quite low and there can be information loss. Or "lossy" compression. Modern compression is actually pretty amazing, but I'm afraid anything below 320 kbps may cause some songs to not sound as intended.
Depending on the content, some songs are more suited to compression than others. And even with premium Spotify, they cap songs at 320 kbps which still may not be enough for busier, harder-to-compress songs.
Also, I don't know if Spotify cares about getting the best quality master for a given song. Which, again, is the most important aspect of sound quality.
But services like Tidal waste bandwidth with their super specs and that isn't great for the environment. What I'd love to see is a company that makes their best effort to seek out high quality masters, and encodes their files at 16 bit/44 kHz with a lossless variable bit rate compression. Variable bit rate or "VBR" will do more compression during simpler parts of the audio and less compression during more complex parts. It's smart compression, basically. And as long as you use a high enough bitrate to achieve lossless compression, the sound quality will be the same as if there is no compression at all. So you still get smaller file sizes that use less bandwidth and have a smaller environmental impact.
That would be a streaming service I would consider paying for. Especially if they put great effort into getting high quality original recordings for their content.
In conclusion... if you are still using CDs you don't need to worry about audio quality. You're all set. There is a sort of beauty in what the audio scientists who created compact discs did. They figured out the limits of human audio perception and created a format that just slightly exceeded that. No "bigger number is better" marketing. No audiophile bullshit.
They said, "Here is what you need and nothing more."
They made a perfect thing and they should be proud of that.
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A Cure for Insomnia CH 11
âDid I meet your friends last night?â Kirby asked as he unwrapped his crunchwrap in the driver's seat.
âuuh...kinda? Like Toby was with me when I gave you the Surge but you sorta just ran off with it.â you pause as you sip a bit of your Baja Blast. âLike a fucking gremlin.â
Kirby lets out a snort and lettuce drops from his mouth. He tries to hide his messy eating behind his hand. Failing miserably, you can't help but laugh at your friend.
âWha' bout the other two? Kieth said you ditched 'em.â For a man who was trying to cover up his mouth he sure had the audacity to try and talk with his mouth full.
âThey're Toby's roommates, I haven't talked to them too much.â he nods as you speak.
âWell I promise I'll be more...together,â he makes a sort of questioning sound as he debates if that was the word he was looking for. He can't really think of anything else so he settles for 'together'. ânext weekend. They are coming right?â
After a brief pause he gets his mind back in place, âThis weekend, picnic's this weekend.â You chuckle.
âToby said they'd stop by. Don't think any are really people people.â
âPeople people?â
âYupâ not going to let Kirby rile you up as he often tries. Not that he could with his current brain power. Sleep haze still has him in it's hold despite being âupâ for about an hour now.
Out of everyone in your friend group Kirby is probably the one you're closest to. Along with being a fellow Ace he's an ambivert and you two just instantly clicked over dumb D grade monster movies. He jokes you guys must be long lost siblings. Well he only started the sibling thing because multiple Hornets or other members of the committee kept thinking you guys were dating. Since then Kirby takes to purposefully calling you some variation of sibling when he shows any type of affection. It seems even just being referenced to being in a relationship squicks him out. You don't mind though you'd always wanted an older brother and Kirby is the exact type you would've wished for. The funny dork who was super easy to get along with.
Even when he steals your nachos...like he is now.
âI'm starting to understand the Cain Instinct.â you say looking him dead in the eyes. He lets out a roar of laughter and reminds you he bought âbreakfastâ.
âDad tax and all that.â
âYou're not my dad! Ugly ass doodoo head.â
âIs that what that kid said? I don't think that's right.â another thing you share is constantly referencing vines or tiktok sounds.
This of course led to an argument of what the kid actually said in the vine. Both of you were determined to get home and look it up to prove the other wrong.
After your breakfast Kirby started the truck as you put all the trash into the Taco Bell bag. You switch on his stereo much to his chagrin. Kirby got a CD stuck in the radio and now the only thing he can listen to is a meme mix tape he made back in high school. It was funny the first two months for him and now he prays that the novelty will ware off on you soon.
Though it has been a few weeks since he last drove you anywhere, and what can he say Discord is always a bop.
Kirby drops you off without much fanfare, you both agree to seeing each other next week at the picnic. Is it ironic that you want to call out for him to get some more sleep? Like you are the one who's been up since five AM and it's now eleven. But you have a medical condition, Kirby is just over worked and stressed beyond Hell and back.
Getting inside you have nothing really planned for today and while you could start heading out to thrifts to find something formal for Jo's recital you really don't feel like it. Productivity wise you've already had a pretty busy weekend so no one can really judge you for taking it easy and just merging with the couch for the rest of it. Even you, you can be so tough on yourself sometimes.
British Bake Off is just the thing you need to enjoy the rest of your weekend. A calming low stress but funny baking show. Just turn your brain off and lose yourself in the soothing monotone of the judges. It's nearly six in the evening when you finally shake off your lazy day haze.
Getting up, bakers still baking, you start making a simple dinner. Fried egg on toast sounds good. Also a good balance to your supreme nacho breakfast from this morning. Dressing one slice of toast in butter and the other with butter, a little mayo, and a dash of Tabasco before placing the egg on it. You head back to eat and continue watching the competition. Your meal fills you and gives the energy you need to continue âleisureingâ.
After an hour you get up and wash the dishes from earlier. And while you have no energy to actually play any of your video games right now you do want to log in for your dailies.
A quick trip to your bedroom has you grabbing your laptop before returning back to the comfort of your living room. Couch calling you to it's cozy embrace. You half pay attention to what you're doing as you set up your laptop, muscles running on muscle memory more than any conscious effort on your part. You hadn't even noticed your hands flickering across the board and logging into your email.
By the time you do realize you aren't on your game's site you see you have a new email. It's from Barclay.
'Coming to ask for my help?' you think a little too smug that you'd been right about the cooking being too much for the man.
However, that wasn't what he was messaging you about. It seems he and Leo had been talking and the old man mentioned what your plans for cooking were.
Shortie,
Leo says you're making forager's pie for the picnic. Seasons ripe for ramps and mushrooms. You in for a little adventure through new unexplored territory?
...I'm hunting some lobster mushrooms, could use a hand or two Will share the bounty. ~Barclay sent 12:04 PM
An olive branch in hopes you weren't too sore about his rejection from earlier this week. The message and sentiment is lost on you since you got over that Thursday.
The idea of new terrain makes you a bit uneasy, however lobster mushrooms were pretty good and forage finds were really rare. Barclay grew up in these woods he probably knew what he was doing, not to mention he could easily know where to find ramps. Their flavor would really up your pie game. It's settled you're in for a forage date with big foot as your guide.
Am in Big Feet. When are we going? Sent 7:20 PM
Like with most things a waiting game began, down sides to living in a radio quiet community people weren't as attached to electronics because of the limited capabilities. But now that you know Barclay is emailing you, you can check your phone more often. Shutting down your laptop you close it before sliding it under your coffee table as you slide down the couch getting comfy.
It was two hours before Barclay got back to you.
Fantastic! Does Tuesday work? ~Barclay sent 9:42 PM
Barclay must be in a rush to get those mushrooms. You'd been thinking Thursday or Friday at the latest for the freshest mushrooms. Maybe he didn't need them for the picnic but a personal project. From what Jake has told you Barclay often falls into spells of testing out new ideas with the strangest of ingredients. With varying results but mainly positive ones.
Yea sure. Meet at the lodge after my shift? Sent 9:50 PM
Perfect see you then. ~Barclay sent 9:52 PM
Oki Sent 9:52 PM
Now that that has been settled you are free to continue your chill Sunday. Losing yourself to the lulling voices of the judges you hardly notice as you drift off. Warm in your throw blanket cocoon and cozy on the plush of your couch.
You jolt up right panting after being woken up by a loud bang. Or at least you thought you'd heard a bang, Sometimes auditory hallucinations came to you in your sleep no matter how well rested you were. The room around you is dark as the light from your TV is dimmed with Netflix's 'Are you still watching?' pop up mocking you for your marathon.
Without thinking you hit 'yes' and the bake off resumes. With the brightness restored you can see your living room and hallway are completely undisturbed. An auditory hallucination must have pulled you out of sleep. Nothing more, after all your stalker wouldn't get sloppy now, it's only been three weeks.
'That you know of.' seems to whisper and embed itself in your mind.
Shaking off the worrying thought you look at your phone to see it's now quarter till one. You are hungry and don't feel like cooking. Thankfully you have emergency white castles and fries in your freezer for this exact need. Getting up you go to the kitchen to microwave your food. Popping the fries in first you decide to head to the bathroom before that becomes a problem for you.
Before you go down the hallway you do end up grabbing the bat next to the bookshelf. The whisper from earlier clearly hasn't done much to settle your nerves after your rude awakening. Protection in hand you have a little less anxiety about walking down the dark hallway. You'd have to look into installing one of those cheap wall lamps from Home Depot to help you out in situations like this. Either that or a night light in your bathroom, you can probably get the night light done quicker. Maybe Leo sells them, you'll have to check next week.
You made it back to the kitchen after your bathroom break without any surprises, real or imaginary, jumping out at you. Replacing the fries inside your microwave with sliders, you snack on a few while you wait for the rest of your meal.
It's probably paranoia but you can't blame yourself for it as you continue to keep an ear out for any sound of abnormal movement within your home, as you eat and have the bake show low enough to catch the sounds of another person. None come, and you finish your food without incident. You're willing to chalk the noise up to a hallucination and your paranoia as valid but not necessary in this moment. Without much more thought you place your empty plate on the coffee table and curl back up in your throw blanket. Just like before you don't catch yourself as you fall asleep. This time you don't wake up until your phone alarm goes off for you to start your week and head to work.
The week has been much less dramatic than last week had been. But then again it is only Tuesday and you literally have gay brunch this Sunday. There will definitely be some sort of theatrics this week. Whether they come from homosexuals or your stalker is up to God.
Then later today you'll be going foraging with Barclay. And while that isn't anything dramatic it will be an adventure and, you hope, really fun! Your excitement has been tangible all day and you couldn't hold yourself back from focusing only on the clock in the shop all day. Even giddier than normal for the strike of five. With the energy rushing through you it amped up your tics but thankfully you hadn't hurt yourself in your excitement.
Even Nate is beginning to playfully tease you about your âdateâ with Barclay.
Great he must've been talking to Little Jo. What is it with this family and wanting you to date the lodge owner? Do you just look like the lead in a Hallmark Christmas movie that moved to a small town in order to feel the joy of the holidays? You could definitely get into the role but you don't think Barclay would be the main love interest for you.
Honestly he'd probably be the one all the viewers cheered for but you'd personally go for the puppy dog partner that has a scarred past. You have a type and your type is emotionally wounded and needing of love. That thought had made you chuckle as you and Nate closed up the store for the day.
Nate kept looking over at you throughout the day, and when he heard you giggle to yourself at closing he couldn't help the fond smile that came over his features. He could feel how his brows lifted themselves from their normally furrowed or downward tilt. He'd have let you leave early had it not been for the new procedures Big Jo had set. It's not often that your excitement shows so visibly. It's not often that the Cowell family has seen you happy like this.
But Nate understands it's not the crush that Little Jo seems to think it is, it's something more bittersweet. It's the excitement that comes from finally waning off of being isolated for so long. And boy does Nate understand that feeling. If he had to guess Nate would say you've been alone for most of your life even if you don't act like it. You need these little hangouts with your friends. So he does his fastest close yet. You both are out the door by five after and he bids you goodnight as you head to your respective cars.
With the close tonight being so quick you made it to the lodge and parked in the half full lot just before five thirty. Getting out of your car you noticed a familiar duo sitting on the stoop of the lodge.
'Something's wrong.' is the only thought you have as you walk towards the lodge.
âHey stranger.â the brunette looks up to you at your greeting.
In this light you can just catch the slight movement of his pupils in his dark eyes as they widen in surprise.
âoh...hey?â he seems confused to see you here. Must not be used to living in a small town yet. He'll learn soon enough that you run into everyone all the time here. Sometimes multiple times a week as it would seem.
âYou good?â motioning towards the hand on the back of his neck.
âYea, fucking Bri-an Mrrow thought I needed this.â Toby moves his hand to show an ice pack that you assume he's been holding to the back of his neck.
âHeat sickness?â
âNah, the RV's AC busted. I can probably fix it by the end of the week.â you nod.
That makes sense, after all CIPA affects thermal regulation, at least from a basic skim. You really need to get on that deep dive to make sure you're prepared for irregular injury prevention with Toby. Speaking of, the boy in front of you is just sitting here with Connor, why? Even if he's here to get a room at the lodge why didn't he just go in? Connor is a service dog after all not like anyone could turn him away. So why was Toby just sitting out here, especially if Brian thought he needed an ice pack to the neck to keep cool?
As if the universe heard your question and decided to give you an answer, Aubrey opened the door and poked her head out.
âThanks for letting me put up Dr. Harris Bonkers. I'll keep him in my room during your stay.â Oh that makes sense Aubrey's rabbit normally has the run of the lodge. Even if Connor's a service dog and well trained Dr. Bonkers is still a prey animal with a weak heart. Seeing Connor may have stressed the poor rabbit out, if not nearly given him a heart attack.
Her russet eyes land on you when she opens the door wider to, you assume, let Toby and Connor in. They widen and Aubrey rushes in to hug you before stopping short as if remembering you don't appreciate physical contact.
âHey YN! I didn't know you were coming over.â She says a little awkwardly mid pose for a hug.
You won't be saving her from the situation. With a smile, that she can't see, you nod.
âBarclay's taking me foraging today.â
Aubrey nods while lowering her arms and takes a few steps back so you and Toby can enter the lodge. The large foyer of the wooden chalet always looks bigger thanks to the deep red tones in it's color palette. From the dark cherry stained wood to the red rugs and table liners. Always feels a lot warmer too, but in a homey sense not the overbearing swelter of heat sense. You can't wait to see what it's like in the winter. Probably so cozy and welcoming with a fire roaring and the murmur of residents and tourist mingling over the winter festivities. There's a swell in your chest at the thought...it seems nice, you hope you're right.
'Hope you see it.' is the dark whisper that taints your thoughts.
You notice Brian and Tim are over at the counter talking to Barclay who is nodding along sympathetically to the trio's plight. He catches your eye and motions for you to wait. You'd been planning to, after all he's currently working.
Turning to Toby you see he looks a bit paler than normal, which should be a difficult feat. Aubrey had left you both, though you aren't sure if she'll be coming back with her girlfriend Dani in a moment or not. You decide to lead Toby over to the obnoxiously plush couch in the den.
It's not like the lodge is off limits to those who aren't guests, and seeing as most of it's workers live here their friends frequently come around thus using the amenities. After sitting on the couch Toby grabs at Connor's ears and starts shaking them. He isn't being rough with them despite the jerky movements and Connor seems to lean into the pet.
Just from what you can gather it seems like Toby has some pretty bad social anxiety. You really aren't sure of what you could do to help. He calmed down at the movie night with a distraction...oh that reminds you, you fell asleep on him. Figuratively and literally.
âI'm sorry for falling asleep on you.â probably not the most tactful or elegant way of bringing this up.
Toby takes a minute to register you words. Not taking his eyes off Connor or ceasing his movements he says, âEh.â as he gives a muted shrug and continues, âYour friend...Kirby...gave you a ride right?â He said Kirby's name like a question. You'd have to formally introduce the two at some point. Probably this weekend.
âYea, he's sorry about being a weirdo Saturday, said he'd be more âpresentâ this weekend.â
Toby doesn't say anything more and you let a silence fall over you two. It isn't awkward, at least to you, and you're content to just sit and wait for a while. However, it doesn't take long before Tim, Brian, and Barclay are all entering the den.
âKnew they'd be here,â Barclay says to the other two, âSorry 'bout the wait YN, Jake's comin' down to give these guys a tour an' set them up. We'll leave when he gets down.â you nod and give the other two a muted wave 'hello'.
It isn't long before Jake is sliding down the banister and leading the group out of the room before Barclay can get on to him about his juvenile behavior. Sighing at the twenty-three year old's antics Barclay turns to you and looks at what you're wearing. Hiking boots and jeans, perfect but one thing is missing.
âC'mon let's go get duct taped.â
âDuct taped?â
âYup, keeps ticks from climbing up you.â
So you make your way to his office where he sticks duct tape, sticky side up, around each ankle and just above and below your knees. All while explaining how if a tick started to try and climb up you the tape would make them stick and stay there. You'd end up with less ticks on your torso and hopefully none at all.
In no time the two of your were in the forest two baskets in hand and hunting for your immobile prey. The ramps were super easy to find and the first you knocked off the hunt list. Barlcay said they grow in the same area every year, knowing this you may have to come and grab some the next time they're in season. You can already taste how good your forager's pie tastes with the new earthy tones. Actual mushrooms were much harder to find, aside from the lobster mushrooms you were really only looking for some hedgehog mushrooms. They aren't rare or extremely difficult to find but you two aren't having any luck.
Barclay suggested a spot just past a little pond, and while you didn't find mushrooms you did find some Black Raspberry bushes. Not one to let ingredients go to waste Barclay starts picking some, and you grab some too. Maybe baking an easy Black Raspberry cobbler will be your consolation prize. Though Barclay isn't as placated as you are with the unexpected find. The man is still on the hunt for his lobster mushrooms. So you continue scouring the path and a little bit off it in search.
âWe should head back, it's dark.â you state plainly after a few hours of searching and remaining mushroom less.
Barclay agrees, but makes the comment that he'll probably come out again in a day or two.
âIf I find any I'll still give you some or helping out today.â
âIt's fine I've got my treasures right here.â You shrug it off, because while you are a bit disappointed, you still have ramps and the opportunity to make cobbler. It's not all bad. Barclay on the other hand, you know, will not be letting this go so you expect he'll hand you a container of mushrooms sometime in the coming month if not this weekend.
Getting back to the lodge Barclay helps you cut off the duct tape and disposes of it and the hitch hikers you picked up. He sends you off to shower and check for stragglers before he would allow you to go home. Thankfully you had the foresight to bring a change of clothes and after retrieving them from your trunk you do as you're told.
Barclay was right you hadn't had a single tick on you and you feel much better after a shower. Getting out you already smell the alluring aroma of Barclay's kitchen. You must have taken a bit longer than you intended if he was already done with his own shower and already cooking for the lodge. Heading downstairs with your duffle bag in tow, you are stopped by Dani at the door.
You haven't seen her in a bit so the two of you catch up and have a chat. After a bit Aubrey comes in with a Tupperware container of grilled salmon and veggies over rice.
âOh I see, you were a diversion.â you said looking at Dani as you take the container. Dani gives a sheepish smile before running off to the dinning room, and after sending you a coy smile of her own Aubrey follows after.
You know you're more than welcome to join them, but you really don't have the battery for that and just want to decompress at home.
âThank you!â you call out into the lodge, only leaving after hearing the distant chuckles drifting through the hall.
Opening the door you run right into someone. Looking up you see Toby, but he isn't wearing a mask. Instead he's wearing a large bandage on his face to cover the hole. In his hands is a box of similar bandages. Guess if they're staying for a bit he'll need them around the others.
Should you mention the others wouldn't say anything? That this whole place was like Foster's Home for Imaginary Friends, but for the misfits or the weird and disowned? You aren't really sure it's your place. And you aren't really sure you're comfortable with how comfortable you've gotten with Toby. You're probably crossing some boundary by over analyzing him so much. And he doesn't even know you're doing it.
Toby knocks you out of your head when he backs away and gives you space to exit the lodge.
âGet home safe.â it falls out of his mouth so easily.
You've noticed he has a habit of saying that...why? There you go over analyzing him, you need to stop. Shaking yourself from your thoughts this time you look at Toby with a smile.
âI will...I think you'll like it here.â when you're in your car you want to slam your head on the steering wheel but Toby is still watching. Why did you say that, you're so weird.
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Thereâs Something About Mary
A day in the life of our crusty Mr. Goore
Mary POV chapter bc I want to and I can.
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*public masturbation, kinda*
Mary wakes up horny.
He must have been having a pleasant dream, because his cock is hard and throbbing where it rests heavy against his thigh. He shoves a hand down into his undone jeans to give his cock a squeezeâjust for a moment of reliefâand, as the touch wakes him up fully, he realizes he can hear the distinct sounds of sex from one of the rooms. A thump thump thump and a squeak squeak squeak, all punctuated with blatant moans.
Fuck it, he thinks, and he begins to jack it to the sex orchestra going on, not 10ft from where he lies on the couch. Once a place they sometimes took turns on, the couch has become Maryâs de facto roomâa subtle punishment for his supposed defection. So, he has no qualms about masturbating in his room, and if any of the other guys have an issue with it, Mary has no problem making his display more public, just for spite.
He pauses only to spit in his hand when his dry palm begins to chafe. It doesnât even matter when the noises from the other room cease (and later Mary will have to tease them about their staying power), Mary just scrolls through his mental Rolodex until he brings up the memory of his dick in between Sueyâs tits, how they jiggled despite being held together, how shiny they became once covered in his jizz, and how she looked up at him as she contorted one to bring it up to her mouth to lap some off.
âShit, shit,â he exclaims as the memory of her pink tongue lapping up his cum causes him to release. Some shoots up his bare chest, but most of it lands and pools in his belly button. Eyes still closed, his free hand shoots out and fumbles for the box of tissues on the table, encountering instead a stack of thin takeout napkins.
As he does his best to clean himself up with the napkinsâwhose integrity is suspectâhe can hear the low rumble of male voices and a high, feminine giggle from the sex room. Just to be a jackass, he gets himself up so that he can have first dibs on the bathroom.
Making sure to lock the door behind him, Mary turns on the hot faucet, willing the water to warm up sooner than later. He takes the opportunity, while he waits, to piss in the toilet; itâs already openâtoilet seat upâeven though itâs supposed to put it down when they have guests. Theyâre out of TP again, so a roll of paper towels rests on the lid of the tank.
Once the water is warm enough, Mary uses a couple pieces from the roll to clean off the jizz drying and to give himself a brief wipe down. His face is still half crusty with makeup, and heâs tempted to just add to it, but heâs learned from hard experience how that can fuck up your face, soâeven though itâs a goddamned painâMary washes his face. He even uses the harsh Dial hand soap, even though the acrid smell will get up into his nose for hours.
He thinks of the nice-smelling scrub Suey has and her drugstore face cream he sometimes rubs into his skin.
In the soap- and toothpaste-speckled mirror, he starts to apply his âDay Faceâ (as Suey calls it) from the communal box of makeup (his better stuff is in his backpack): a light dusting of white powder; some eyeliner all the way around; a dull, red lipstick; and black shadow on his cheekbones.
Heâs just starting on his hair when there comes a pounding on the door
âFucksâ sake. Câmon, Goore.â
Mary turns his head upside down in the sink basin so he can haphazardly splash some water into his hair.
âFuck off, douchebag.â
He starts to work his fingers into his locks, coaxing the glue already in it to activate.
âSheâs gotta pee, man.â
He fluffs his forelock in the mirror as his other hand searches for the blood tube in the box.
âWe have a kitchen sink.â
A small voice tells him not to take his annoyance with his friends out on the girl, and he sighs.
âStop being a diââ
The voice cuts off as Mary swings the door open. Brendan's angry face smooths into one of minor irritation. The girlâLisa?âstands, thighs crushed together, in an oversized kitten t-shirt. She looks at Mary, wide-eyed; her gaze darts to his bare, wet chest before snapping back up.
âLis,â he says, winking as he saunters out.
Her face crumples a little.
âLizzy,â she says, and Maryâs stomach swoops a bit when he realizes heâs probably slept with her before.
He makes himself smile as she moves past him to the bathroom.
âThatâs what I said: Liz.â He shoots her a finger gun at her as Brendan scowls at them both. When the door closes and Brendan is still glaring, Mary lets out a âWhat?â
âYou sticking around for breakfast, man?â
Mary rolls his eyes. âIâm here, ainât I?â He starts to paw through the plastic shelving drawers next to the couch for a shirt.
Brendan shrugs. âThought your pussy-whipped ass might need to get back to that uptown princess of yours.â
He glares at Brendan. âStop being dick.â
âSheâs fucking slumming it, dude. Iâm warning you.â
Itâs not a new argument, so Mary just ignores him, instead trying to apply a bit of blood to the tip of his forelock using the heart compact Suey gave him.
Titus emerges from the shared room, yawning, in his terrible leopard print robe thatâs way too short.
âMorning, asswipe,â he says to Mary as he walks by. âWhatâre we bitching about?â
Brendan says âuptown girlâ as Mary says ânothing.â
Titus sighs.
âJesus, Brendan. You gotta get over that. Thatâs Maryâs mistake to make.â
âYou know what? Fuck this shit.â Mary starts getting his backpack in order.
âThatâs right! Blow off another band meeting!â says Brendan, and Mary spins on his heel to stomp back.
He jabs a finger into his chest. âIâm here all the goddamned time, more than I am at her place. I come to every meeting you tell me about.â
âI shouldnât have to tell you about anything. You should just be here. You should be committed,â hisses Brendan.
âIâm going to make some toast,â says Titus as he swishes toward the kitchen.
Mary rifles through his plastic draws and slams a notebook and loose papers onto the table.
âThereâs mine, dude. Lyrics. Composition. Whereâs yours?â
Donnie and Jamie wander out of their room.
âNot this shit again. Itâs too fucking early,â says Donnie.
Brendan vibrates. âWhat about funds, man? A social media presence? You think all that happens by magic?â
âSo Iâm supposed to write, and compose, and do the budget?â snarls Mary.
âGuys,â moans Jamie.
âAnd our Insta is shit, by the way.â
âFuck. Can we not?â moans Donnie.
Mary again jabs a finger at Brendan. âThen tell him to can it. Iâve already been exiled to the couch. I donât need him picking fights because he doesnât like my girlfriend, whoâby the wayâhas never fucking done anything wrong.â
âYou havenât been exilââ Jamie starts.
âWe were supposed to fucking share those rooms,â Mary hisses as he gesticulates. âI pay the same amount of rent, and yet I come home one day to find all my stuff in a pile in the living room. I have to wait for you guys to stop playing video games because âthis is shared spaceâ to fucking sleep.â
âWe all agreedââ
âNo. You guys agreed. I didnât get shit to say about it. So youâll forgive me if Iâm not too fucking keen on being pleasant.â
They all stand there, glowering at each other until Donnie says, âI need to take a goddamned piss,â and finds the bathroom door locked. At his soft The fuck? the lock clicks, and Lizzy opens the door cautiously.
âIâm sorry. It just. Seemed like you guys were getting into it.â
Brendan sighs. âCâmon, babe. Letâs get your stuff.â
The fight isnât a new one, andâwith no resolution in sightâthey all drop the subject so they can get on with the breakfast of eggs on toast Titus brings out and the subsequent band meeting. The Brickâa cheap, overworked laptopâis brought out so they can go over band business: the budget; the van maintenance and parking costs; the gig and practice schedule is outlined so that they can align their work shifts; new merch ideas are bandied about; and they talk about how to improve their digital sales.
Maryâs leg jiggles impatiently.
The meeting breaks nearly 5hrs later; Jamie goes back to sleep because heâs got the night shift at the Quikâ˘Mart; Brendan heads out for his afternoon shift at Target; itâs Donnieâs day off, so he cues up Mario Kart; and Titus decides heâs going to go pound on the drums in the practice space they rent, since his dad pays his bills.
Mary has been saddled with stopping by the local record stores to see if any of their physical CDs have sold to prove heâs âcommitted,â even though heâs got the closing shift at Sixes & Sevens.
As heâs leaving the building, he encounters Brendan, who is leaning against the brick, smoking a cigarette. Maryâs fingers twitch.
âSo youâre not coming back tonight, then.â
âWe have band business?â
âNo.â
âThen, no.â
Brendan lets out a puff of smoke.
âYou think Iâm being a dick, but that girl does not care about you. Sheâs a tourist. Usâthe band. Thatâs whatâs real, Mary.â
Mary knows he should keep walking, but even after counting to 10, heâs still pissed, so he spins on his heel.
âYou donât know anything about her or her goddamned life.â
âNeither do you.â He finishes the smoke, then tosses it to the pavement to grind under his combat boot. âWeâll be here when it all explodes in your face, Goore. But youâre going to have to rebuild a lot of bridges.â
And then heâs off down the sidewalk. Mary stands there, seething, waiting until Brendan disappears round the corner since heâs also headed in that direction.
Heâs not really in the best of moods when he hits up the first store, but by the 4th, heâs back to his plucky repartee. The owner of his favorite shop intimates that a vinyl version of their LP might sell much better than their DIY CD, and Mary enthusiastically thanks the dude as if itâs the first time such a concept has been considered.
The whole route honestly doesnât even really take that much time at allâmaybe 2 hoursâso he chances stopping by Sueyâs. Worst case, heâll take a nap; best case, sheâll be there to bitch at him.
Like everything else today, however, circumstances are just not on his side, and he opens the door to her tiny fucking apartment to find it empty. The mail is bad again, and he rifles through it, plucking out anything thatâs obviously junk to toss and anything that looks like a bill to put on her counter. Thereâs only a bowl in the sink, so he leaves it.
Heâs hoping that she comes home before he has to leaveâmaybe sheâll even give him a blow jobâas he wraps himself up in the afghan that smells slightly of her.
She doesnât.
His alarm wakes him up at 4:15pm for his shift at 6. Groggily, he stumbles to the fridge to see what there is to eat, and finds a pot crammed in haphazardly amongst the other food items. Maryâs not really sure what heâs looking atâSuey tends to just throw shit together when she canât be bothered, but most of the time itâs edible.
It ends up being some sort of cheesy potato stew and actually isnât that bad. He eats the whole thing out of the pot before scrubbing it and the lone bowl clean. He waits as long as he dares to watch her come clomping tiredly through her door, but he really does have to leave. He leaves a kiss on her mirror after he reapplies his lipstick. (He should probably redo his face but: eh.)
Work is work. It starts slowâwith Mary taking down the chairs and wiping off everything with the disinfectant spray. Sometimes Mary finds this kind of Zenâa time to hum out chords and roll around lyrics in his headâbut today heâs just tired. It gets a little better when Mickey and the other bartender show up to do citrus prep. Itâs a weekday, so thereâs only a moderate crowd, and Mickey leaves them to it so he can do business manager-type things in his office.
And then there are the girls. Most of the girls who come to Sixes & Sevens arenât the type to be put off by Maryâs whole shtickâand there are obviously the ones who come here expressly to flirt with himâso he has no qualms turning on his charms. Mickey lets him do it because customers are customers, and if girls want to come and spend money on drinks while they purr at Mary, who is Mickey to stop them? Len or Mika donât give a shit because tips are pooled.
Used to be Mary could have his pick of a warm body for the eveningâsome girl (or occasionally some guy if Mary deemed him beefy enough) whoâd take him to her nice-smelling, clean apartment ⌠whoâd let him spend the night on her soft, downy pillows after he pounded her into next year, before kicking him out at dawn. But now heâs got a girlfriendâone who makes sure he eats and yells at him to wash his faceâwaiting for him in her stale apartment with her flat, polyester pillows, and Mary hopes heâs not fool enough to fuck that up.
Not that his dick has gotten the memo.
No matter how many times Mary tells that fucker that heâs not going to fuck any of these women, his dick still twitches in interest whenever plump lips are wrapped around straws or fingertips trail over his hand. Tonight is especially bad for some reason, and Mary has to stick close to the walls of the bar so that no one can see his semi. A girl in a furry, white shrug seems particularly on his dick, and he does his best to flirt just enough for a good tip, but not enough for a proposition.
When he gets his break, Mary takes it out back in the alley by the dumpster. The air is chill, but it feels good after the humidity of the bar. He was hoping maybe his dick would go down, but itâs like itâs trying to spite him. Leaning his head back on the wall, he canât help but close his eyes and run his palm lightly over the outline. Itâs a foolâs errandâitâs not like he can get off without it showing on his pantsâbut that doesnât stop him from touching.
A voice clears, and Mary startles. Heâs out here by the rancid garbage so he can be alone, so he wasnât really expecting to find anyone else.
âI can help you with that,â says the girl with the white fur that may or may not be real. Sheâs standing across from him, and he can see that sheâs in a dress so simple that it must be hella expensive. Sheâs holding an unlit cigarette.
Mary jerks his hand away from his crotch, shifting so that he can surreptitiously adjust his jeans.
âThe fuck are you doing out back here?â
She shrugs. âNeeded to get away from my bitches. I love them but: drama city. You got a light?â
He knows itâs a ruse, but he still fumbles out his Zippo because heâs a goddamned gentleman. She, shockingly, takes the opportunity to move in closer to his body as he holds out the flame ⌠close enough to blow the smoke of the first drag in his face.
âSo,â she says, eyes darting down to his semi. âYou want me suck that?â She gesticulates with her chin, posture nonchalant but eyes hungry.
His dick gives an answering throb, but he shrugs. âNah. I got a girl.â
She looks at him, assessing, before half crossing her arms and taking another drag. Smoke pours out her nose.
âSheâs not here.â
Mary doesnât respond immediately, not knowing how to get out of this. She hasnât said anything untrue. Heâs horny, Sueyâs not here, and she wants to suck his cock.
He reaches his hand up and taps his breast where he thinks his heart is.
âSheâs here,â he says, and heâs glad Sueyâs not present because hoo boy would she give him shit for that winner.
The girl just tilts her head at him, this time blowing smoke out the side of her mouth after she inhales. It occurs to Mary that he wants her cigarette more than his dick wants to be sucked. If she thinks this is some kind of elaborate game of hard to get, sheâs sorely mistaken.
âYou got a picture?â
âA ⌠what?â
She gesticulates impatiently. âA picture. Of this girlfriend.â
Mary thinks, then pats around for his wallet, even though he only ever puts it in his back pocket. When she sees the wallet come out, she laughs.
âAn actual picture? Thatâs old school.â
He shrugs as he rifles. âIâm on my break.â He doesnât tell her that his ancient flip phone doesnât take pictures. Well, not good ones.
The photo of Suey he has is relatively newâslipped in behind the old, worn one of his mumâbut its edges are starting to soften. In the image, Suey stands, hip popped, as she gives him the finger with a snotty look on her face. Sheâs in one of her weird 90â˛s outfitsâa micro mini and tied up band teeâand the cute pudge of her belly hangs over her waist band a little. Her hair is pushed back from her face because sheâs just lifted up her sunglassesâthereâs still a little mark on her nose where they were resting.
She hates this picture, but her attitude makes him smile.
âYou gonna ogle it all night, Mary?â
Maryâs attention snaps back to the alley. He ignores the intimacy. Carefully, with a stern look on his face that he hopes conveys how much the photo is not to be fucked with, he hands the picture over.
White Fur looks at the picture for a long time. Then she looks up at him. She gives the image one more glance before handing it back to him.
âYeah, ok,â she says as she crosses her arms again.
Mary tucks the photo back into his wallet.
âThe fuck does that mean?â he scowls. Heâs just about had it with people insulting Suey today, and some random-ass girl in a back alley is the last person heâd let get away with it, even if she is a fan.
She takes her last drag before flicking the stub in the direction of a dumpster.
âDunno. You seem like the type to have some scene girl with more legs than brains hanging off your arm.â
Mary thinks thatâs a little uncharitable: heâs always been an equal-opportunity lay.
âShe seems legit though,â the girl continues. âMakes sense.â
âUh. Thanks?â
âYeah, no problem.â She heads for the door, but stops to smirk at him. âLooks like I helped after all.â
As she swings back inside, Mary looks down to realize his hard-on is gone.
Mickey doesnât cut him early, but he doesnât make him stay past closing either. Even so, itâs still after 3am when he gets to Sueyâs. The bills are gone from the counter, but there are no new dishes in the sink. He opens the fridge to find a pizza box crumpled into the top, balanced precariously on the other items. Mary takes it out and inhales the cold pizza right from the box; he knows theyâre all for him because Suey fucking hates pepperoni. (Though it doesnât escape his notice that sheâs put one piece of pineapple in the center to mess with him.)
He leaves the box by the trash (heâll flatten it tomorrow), and then makes his way to her bathroom to wash his face and brush his teeth, lest he incur her wrath.
When he finally wiggles into her twin bed in his boxers, heâs bone tired. His dick still kinda wants some action, but Mary thinks heâd probably just fall asleep in the middle, and Suey really would bite his head off if he woke her up for no reason. He wishes sheâd just sleep nude, but finding her in one of his well-worn shirts is the next best thing. He doesnât mean to wake her up, but he canât help himself from running his hands all over herâthis girl who sees him and not his âimage.â
âMare?â she says in a quiet, sleepy voice.
He kisses her head.
âGo back to sleep, baby doll.â
She doesnât speak again, but she squirms around until sheâs sprawled across his chest. Heâd prefer to have her caught up in a little spoon, but having her pressed into himâbody sleep warmâis nothing to wave a stick at.
This is all he wanted, anyway.
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mtmte liveblog issue 30
30 issues wow...forget the fact that I skipped like 5 issues of crossover event nonsense
another big ole swerve recap omg
this trial is so messsyyyyyyyyy lmaoÂ
hvbajdfbahsjkfdbhjs starscream listening to meagtrons speech looking like âhmmmmmmm I may have miscalculatedâÂ
prowl looks pissed af meanwhile optimus just looks dead inside lmao
I mean. megatron kinda does have a point. this is like, the most biased, conflict of interests lookin trial of all time, in that all the major participants have some sort of long, complicated history with each other. what a mess
optimus, listening to megatronâs speech: wow this is worse than divorce court was
oh shit I totally forgot that those decepticons attacked the trialÂ
MAGNUS HAMMER AYYYYYY
a guy saying âobjection!â as optimus prime punches half his face off...that pretty much sums up idw op lmaoÂ
op: oh thank god, I can punch shit now. I'm not cut out for this bureaucracy nonsense
megatron: thanks, random decepticon, for the attempted rescue, but I'm super old and I just want to nap so no thanks
random decepticon: wtf- [gets murdered by optimus prime]
I love opâs big ass antennaeÂ
meanwhile, brainstorm goes to a bar and instead of buying anything, pulls out his own drink. I feel like that isn't allowed in most bars, or is at least frowned up vbsjdhfbhjdkfn. ily brainstormÂ
also? big ass mood I was so broke last time I was on a barhopping vacation w/friends that I brought a cheap giantass bottle of mixed drink in my backpack and just drank that at all the bars lmao
WHIRLLLL I love his humansona sm. and also I love that whirl is into artsy french movies or w/e omg
brainstorm, drinking thru a wrist funnel: sorry I cant take my mask off rn it isnât plot relevant yet
âearthletsâ lmao
I love that rung is like, too pretentious to care that much about movies and would rather read earth books lol
and then bluestreak is like âyeah they have books...comic booksâ can this man not read
I still cannot fuckign believe that the argument that got megatron out of a for-sure death sentence or w/e was âits not a war crime if weâre on the moonâ liiiiike what the actual hell lmao
also I love that, once again, we see magnusâs strict adherence to the law, technicalities and all
magnus: you cant really stop a trial and move it somewhere else where the laws are better suited to the outcome you desire
prowl: what are you, a cop? fuck off
also op being like âok whatever all that doesn't matter...what DOES matter is that it would look bad for us to move the trial to cybertron in an obvious attempt to circumvent the rules, and public perception is whatâs most important, fuck all that âmoralityâ bullshitâ
meanwhile, rodimus is dead! and ambulon is also dead, which makes first aid sad, which makes ME sad
ayyy, rodimus is still alive! well, one rodimus is alive, at leastÂ
rodimus and megatron really have the vibes of âstepfather and stepson forced to work together on a family road trip gone wrong after dad decided to sit this one outâ lmao
ah yes, âmalaiseâ the medical diagnostic term for âI don't feel so hot and idk whyâ that practitioners like to throw under the âdiagnostic notesâ section of lab orders to explain why they're ordering every blood test under the sun for a patientÂ
I love medical terminology. ANYWAYS
BE NICE TO MY BOY MEGATRON.Â
rodimus: listen I have to come to terms with the fact that there's another version of me right here, and heâs DEAD, which means we canât fuck, which is super lameÂ
I firmly believe that rodimus would be team âhell yeah id have sex with my AU selfâ tbhÂ
I find it interesting that megatron is often casting blame for his actions onto others - here, he says that rodimus made him realize he doesnât want to stop doing stuff w/his life, and then says that starscream forced his hand w/the whole âluna 2 lawâ thing, and previously heâs said how whirl beating him up in jail is what led to him abandoning pacifism - take responsibility for your actions and decisions dude!
though he goes on to say here that he resorted to violence because he realized that the system that was in place could withstand everything else he would have tried to use to change it, which is super interestingÂ
megatron: okay, yes, I MIGHT have murdered billions, but I could help find us a new planet, which would be baller, sooooo...how about you co-opt your lame sonâs frat boy ship and put me in charge?Â
op: sounds fair to me. now how about we do some more Big Speeches before I make you somebody elseâs problem
vbhdjskfbhaskdjf the âteam rodimusâ lineup setup reminds me so much of the âtogether we make the ______â meme with the different members being like, âthe powerâ âthe gayâ âthe awesomeâ âthe guy with no earsâ hbvhjdkfbs
chromedome: if I do this I could die
rodimus: that sounds like a you problem bro
âthis one timeâ YEA RIGHT c'mon cd honor your dead husbandâs wishes
omfg I forgot abt brainstorms âearly early warning systemâ lmao
I love nautica soooo much oh man
ooooof drift :( :( oh no
dead future rodimus!! uh oh is right
rodimus, known himbo: I'm sure I can defeat the inevitability of future events! all I have to do is cut my own arm off!
tailgateeeee heâs so cute...I love that he can tell stories of his daring escapades, just like at the beginning of mtmte, but this time its actually TRUE
OH SHITTTT GETAWAY
he looks so fucking sinister there lmao how are we NOT supposed to realize he has bad intentions from the get-go
âyouâll make a prime one dayâ well, getaway, youâre right about that at least...
cyclonus in the bg like đ¤¨đ¤ at getaway
seriously I cant get over how getaway has such a slimy kinda vibe to him, like specifically in his interactions w/tailgate - this is before things even really take off but I'm still like TG GET AWAY (lol) FROM THIS GUY
cyclonus: somebody flirting with my crush? better go stare out a window instead of communicating absolutely anything to said crush about my feelings!
honestly I feel like, while megatron renouncing the decepticons and becoming an autobot is certainly interesting, it would be equally interesting for him to remain a decepticon but try to change the philosophy of the movementÂ
like, I get why op had him give that speech - to prevent the cons from trying to free megs again/thinking that he was being coerced into things (ironic considered he WAS coerced into giving that speech) - but itâs kinda the easy way our for megatron - being able to completely abandon the decepticon cause and not deal with it at all, and start over anew as an autobot
it would've been a lot harder to remain a con and try to reform what he has broken in the decepticon movement - but I think that would've been really interesting
though from a writing logistics standpoint, I get why jro didn't go for that bc we don't get a lot of other decepticons in the cast for that to work, and also megatron still definitely DOES have to face down all his mistakes w/the decepticons w/the djd and overlord and whatnot
anyways. I cant believe that all megatron had to do to join the lost light was make ONE speech denouncing the decepticons. like, they should've at least had him do a tiktok dance too or something, just to make it a really tough deal
I love the rodpod vbhjfsdkfbjaskjndfj
ok but I still don't really get the logic of making megs CAPTAIN like ouch. poor rodimusÂ
I feel like making megs a bartender at swerves or st would've been WAY more useful in showing him humility or w/e. OR it would've made him evil again, which, fair,Â
ratchet: don't worry, weâll medically poison him, itâll be fine
ok but rodimus is right, this is SO messy, op wants to prove his ex husband isn't 100% evil so heâs like âill let my rebellious son deal with himâ lmao god. I love this setup so much, its so wild
ratchet is also right, rodimusâs fuckup definitely pales in comparison to megatrons All ThatÂ
OH BRUTALLLLLLLL when ratchet says the list is fake âbecause my nameâs not on itâ FUCKING OUCHHHHH
âonly bad guys say âunhand meâ rodimus ily
omfg âweâve practiced thisâ of course they've done evacuation drills...magnus ily
lmao itâs the panel where it looks like rodimus and megatron are doing karaoke or having some sort of rap battle
and the lost light is GONE! oh shit!!!!
and there closes issue 30! once again weâve gotten a lot of setup and exposition - which, while definitely necessary, means I don't have too much to say
I will say, throwing megatron onto the lost light has definitely mixed things up, and itâs interesting to see new dynamics already forming
so, until next time!
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Iâm a bit curious and confused about your post about streaming and artists. How does streaming stop artists from making a living?
It turned out very long so itâs under a readmore.
Artists donât make any money off streaming. People increasingly dislike having to pay the actual cost of entertainment - and Iâm not just talking about stuff from major corporations, small- and mid-level stuff too - so they subscribe to a service that allows them to have as much content as they want, whenever they want, in the highest possible quality with little to no hiccups ever. This is really, really expensive, especially if weâre talking Netflix or Youtube in 4K (or even 8K, in some cases). But thereâs a ceiling to how much someone is willing to pay for a streaming service. People are okay with paying ten dollars a month, but for that content to be delivered at a price that low someone has to take a hit. Itâs not the company and itâs not the consumer. Itâs the artist. Spotify pays the artist an average of $0.004 per stream. To make sure your favourite artist gets a single dollar from your streaming them, you have to listen to their songs 229 times. To give them a dollar. Even big artists donât always make that much there. Your streams have to be in the millions. One million streams at $0.004 per? Thatâs $4000.Â
Now, because streaming is so cheap (to the consumer) and available, people donât buy albums anymore. Artists, especially smaller ones, make all their money off album sales and merch sold during tours (which includes albums). But why would you pay $20 for a CD when you can just go home and listen to all the music theyâve ever made for $10? Who even owns a CD player anymore, right? And buying digital is silly; paying $20 for a collection of files you canât hold or touch or display on your shelf? So people increasingly donât do that anymore. Why bother if an artist is pressured to upload their music to YouTube anyway - which pays a FRACTION of what Spotify does - and which you donât even need a subscription to use? Â
So where is an aspiring artist going to get enough money from to support their art? People donât want to pay for it. Theyâll pay $10 a month to stream it and thatâs about it. Anything much higher than that and they turn to piracy. And hereâs the kicker: streaming services donât really post a profit because they have to keep the subscription price so low. So NOBODY is winning - except the consumer, who is happy they get an unlimited amount of content for almost nothing. Spotify has LOST 2 billion dollars since they launched. Netflix, which started posting a profit three years ago, is billions of dollars in debt. Disney+ was projected to run at a loss for YEARS before they started making money off it. All this money comes from, as I understand it, venture capitalists: people who throw money at something because they think it MIGHT turn a profit eventually. Thereâs an optimum number the streaming service can charge for it: the magic maximum that the highest amount of people will keep their subscription for for the longest amount of time. And remember, they are serving massive amounts content for between $10 and $20 a month. Entire runs of TV shows that would cost you close to $200 if you bought the Blu-Rays at Walmart. Movies that usually go for $30. You donât own it, but itâs so convenient that the majority of people donât mind that. Now, in the middle of this super low subscription price, the loss the companies are taking in hopes of one day, perhaps, making some money, and what they USED to get from sales is: the artist. Companies donât want to take risks, so now they hire big-name actors for animated roles instead of, you know, going to the trouble of hiring an unknown voice actor. This has always been a thing, of course, but it has been happening increasingly often over the years and itâs bleeding into other industries. Honestly, what are Penn & Teller and Ice-T doing in Borderlands 3? Theyâre ensuring maximum profit via brand recognition, thatâs what. Some people went to see Moana solely because the Rock was in it. But him being in it meant that an actual voice actor, who went to school for it and trained for it their whole life, doesnât get a shot because it would hurt the potential profits. He is worth more but that unknown person? They didnât get a chance to work at something that could have helped their career. They continue to be worth less.
Now, with the almost impending death of the theatre industry and streaming services being propped up by massive amounts of debt (or Disney money), the ways for an artist to make a living off their art is shrinking. You can see it right now with DJs: only the top 100 DJs make enough to live off, and they mostly make that money doing tours. To make a living a lot of DJs have to tour AND produce music nonstop AND have a weekly radio show - free, of course (basically a free set every week). Obviously a lot of DJs are out of work right now, so some of them had online events that they sold tickets for. And people criticised them for it. They told them they were selfish and cruel and unempathetic for putting their show behind a $10 ticket because the world is shit so they should provide their art for free to help their fans take their minds off it. That they should donate the money and that they donât need it, despite most of their revenue stream being taken away overnight with no knowledge of when itâs coming back. That their job isnât a real job anyway so why should anyone pay for them to do it, itâs not like theyâre a doctor or a nurse or something important. Besides. Someoneâs going to record it and put it on YouTube anyway, so theyâll just wait and stream it from there. With AdBlock on, of course, because fuck the artist for wanting to make a living from their art. Who cares what the repercussions of that is.
We already saw it happen with the publishing industry. People wonât pay for books anymore. Unless you happen to be the next Stephen King, youâre not going to make money off writing. People just torrent the .epub and complain when a series ends on a cliffhanger, as though the writer seriously didnât want to write the next book in the series but couldnât because the publisher said, âWell, based on past sales we just donât think it will do very well.â Most novelists either have a day job or they have someone else supporting them until they have enough books out there they can support themselves - and sometimes âenoughâ means âthirty Harlequin romances they had to pump out every six monthsâ. But books arenât being propped up by venture capitalists. Theyâre just going to keep disappearing and the value of writing will continue to decrease. You can see it in the video game industry as well. People seriously ask if a 60 hour game is worth $60. Cuphead was held up as some great victory achieved by indie artists - even though one of the artists MORTGAGED THEIR HOUSE on the outrageous bet their game would be successful. And people still shrugged and said, âDonât care, pirating it anywayâ. And that game was what, $20 at launch?Â
Streaming services, even if they raise their subscription fees (which they can only do so much, lest they stray too far from that magic number), are probably never going to give more money to the artist. In fact, when corner-cutting time comes, theyâll take more and say, âIf you donât like it, go somewhere elseâ. Except there is nowhere else. And they know it. Itâs similar to how Uber Eats and Skip the Dishes operate. They take up to 30% commission on all the sales made through them and if you donât like it, itâs not as simple as just not using the service. You have to. Maybe you get lucky and you have some wildly cool concept that everybody wants and you can get what youâre worth for it, but 99% of people arenât going to get that lucky. And when your luck runs out, thereâll be someone else standing behind you to do what you did and theyâre willing to do it for less.
Art made and provided for people out of passion is not a bad thing. Itâs a great thing. But when so much of it - harking to the arguments of the greatness of fanfiction vs most other media - is held up as being virtuous and âbetterâ and of inherently more worth because itâs free or valued at a fraction of what itâs worth or people donât have to do anything for it other than consume it? That IS a bad thing. Especially when someone is doing it because they know they can never make a living off of it. Itâs plain SHAMEFUL that something like Patreon has to exist. And even there people want tons of exclusive content for a dollar a month.
#so says Indy#semi-sentient-and-tired#it's also a little rambly but these industries are all connected#asks#basically: in the 'how low can we valuate labour' race to the bottom#artists lose out first#and they will continue to as they have been
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In 2014, Sean Jewel conducted a massive interview with a gathering of Deathbomb Arc artists and label head Brian Miller. In recent years, the article has been scrubbed from the site it was originally posted at. We have gathered all of the text content for it from archival sites and recreated it below. Only one image from it has currently been found, picturing (L-R) tik///tik, William Hutson, and Jonathan Snipes.
No Genre, No Authenticity, No Problem: An Interview With LA Label Deathbomb Arc by Sean Jewell
Interview conducted with Los Angeles DIY label Deathbomb Arc, on the birth of clipping., the meaning of experimental music, and the curses and blessings of liking everything:
I love Seattle, but after developing a nasty case of seasonal-affected malaise last month, I did what any miserable person would do: took some work in Los Angeles, California. I later realized that the dates Iâd be there included the evening of the Grammys. I began to imagine a scenario in which an award would be given to artists who take chances with music rather than make popular music, and little Los Angeles label Deathbomb Arc came to mind. I did what any self-doubting writer would do: I requested an interview. Deathbomb Arc is the label that birthed Sub Pop signees clipping., a group whose music works as much to entertain as it does to muddle and expand genre. Their 2013 release midcity did the unlikely and combined two of my great loves: electroacoustic interference music and hiphop. I wanted to understand the genesis of their sound, so I talked to label boss Brian Miller and to my surprise in one evening heâd rounded up two-thirds of the members of clipping., Jonathan Snipes, and William Hutson (Daveed Diggs was away and unavailable), rapper I.E. (Margot Padilla), noise musician Tik//Tik (Stephen Cano) and label videographer and graphic designer Cristina Bercovitz for an all-pro interview session.
I did my best to avoid the Grammys in LA. I sped up Mullholland drive, tumbled down Topanga Canyon, and watched paddle boarders surf in the sunset at Malibu. I went to Watts, talked to the daughter of Harlem Renaissance player Leo Trammel about the Charles Mingus Youth Arts Center. We agreed Los Angelesâ legacy of great musicians (Eric Dolphy, Schoolboy Q, John Cage, Ice Cube, Tyrese Gibson, Barry White just to name a few) was shamefully not its most recognized feature. I watched a girl play guitar at Watts Towers, heard her father sing, and became aggravated at the police helicopters looming overhead. I relaxed in the sun. That evening I found my way to Mid City LA and met the Deathbomb Arc crew at the home of Jonathan Snipes. We sat around the kitchen table and talked. My malaise melted and was recast as a sense of belonging.
My first exposure to clipping. was through their mixtape for No Conclusion. The group took a leak of Kanye Westâs Yeezus, and the idea from their Twitter followers that Kanye might have been listening to clipping. during its making, and put together a mixtape over their favorite parts of his leaked songs (there werenât many) that included their favorite rap music from the year prior. The person who pointed me toward clipping. mentioned to me that this label had been releasing artists music on cassette like the medium never went out of style. clipping. released an untitled cassette on Deathbomb and very few sold until their album midcity drew attention with a free online download. Midcity was also later released on cassette. I asked Brian Miller about that.
âI feel pretty out of touch with the history of its hipness. I put out the first cassette on Deathbomb in â04 and at that point I felt late to the game.â He and Jeff Witscher (aka Rene Hell) put out work on cassette as Foot Village. He reminded me that the cassette has always been the chosen medium of the noise music genre and that it just never went away in that small corner due to its relative cheapness to produce. Brian is soft spoken and obviously cares deeply about music. Heâs seen to it that his younger musicians get albums put out on cassette so they can see and hold quality, visible copies of their work. He does it to show them he cares. The idea comes up that older cars accommodate the medium, as well as the fact that it can be produced in any length cheaply. âThe thing I love about cassettes is that nobody is making the argument that they sound better,â Snipes jokes. âThey sound awful, so the the appeal really is all fetish or novelty.â "I have no idea what many of the younger acts I work with think about me putting their music out on cassette," Brian Miller says. "For them itâs not novelty or fetish at all, they didn't grow up with them, and acts like Signor Benedick The Moor have been completely shocked when I describe releasing music on actual physical cassetteâ I.E. is sitting off to my left and confirms the notion when he asks if she had an opinion about the release of her work on a certain medium: âI didn't care what the hell it came out on!â
I.E. makes painfully earnest hiphop that stems from her growing up outside of LA (in Inland Empire, hence the name). I ask her how her recent show in Seattle was. âIt was terrible.â I played at The Josephine, nobody came, I just kind of played for the two dudes that lived there and the other act.â Brian Miller reminisces on bringing clipping. and Foot Village to Seattle and being well attended, but recognizes the fortune of those in their scene in LA, a place with no apprehension about putting a band on a bill because of their style. Itâs this kind of availability and openness at venues (the last decade) that has given way to such a youthful music movement in LA (think Burger Records, Innovative Leisure, Deathbomb Arc).
Snipes, who is also a film score producer (Room 237, the documentary that investigates the myths behind Kubrickâs The Shining, is his best work, which he brought along Bill Hutson for) confesses his love for CDs as a music medium and his worst show in Seattle. Heâs hirsute and talkative, smart, and nice. He has a lot of thoughts about music. He recalls his worst show in Seattle with his "ravesploitation" group Captain Ahab (one part of the genesis of clipping.) âI played the Baltic Room, the people who booked the show were very kind, but we got unplugged pretty soon into our set because people who were there weren't there to watch a sweaty white dude rap about buttholes.â Laughter erupts at the table. âIt gave me the perspective that my ideaâwhich to me was the most important part of that groupâwas totally offensive to everyone else on the bill, rappers and DJs whose craft defined them. Since then I've been on a bill or two with acts who I regarded as offensive.â Captain Ahab was a group born out of post 9-11 nationalism and moroseness of a nation, âWhat Captain Ahab was doing was acceptable in the circles we traveled in because everyone had gotten so conservative and boring, but here was a group of young people with no genre, making art a safe space for dangerous ideas, defending that idea at a point in America where people were questioning the way they expressed themselves,â Miller says.
âThe modus operandi of Deathbomb is punk as a way of being in the world, and not a type of music,â Hutson interjects. Heâs undoubtedly the dissident in the group. He towers over me in height, and heâs ruggedly good looking. There are things going on behind his piercing eyes. He doesnât speak much, but when he does itâs profound. Iâd heard of his work, but he surprised me with his in-depth knowledge of hiphop, noise, and punk. âIf you listen to most punk now, itâs the most conservative, closed-minded shit you've ever heard. You can be punk now and not make punk music.â
His comment reminds me that I.E.âs work is a dead ringer for early-'80s LA punk. A self-proclaimed chola rave queen, she could be the child of Alice Bag, and her music recalls The Cholitas and X. âI do listen to that music, but I grew up on hiphop. Iâm also big into Euro dance music and new wave.â The great thing about her album Most Importantly is that she reminds every hard-on about the absolutely horrid world women grow up in without a single sad face emoji. Instead she uses chip tunes, noise music, and hiphop to get her truly hilarious, truly feminist point of view through to you.
Besides I.E. and Brian Miller, everyone gathered is into theater or came from that background. Some went to UCLA, Daveed went to Brown, Christina is a well-known puppeteer in Los Angeles and has directed several videos for clipping. and other Deathbomb artists. âWe studied very traditional American theater, what can you say about that? It makes you creative in a very production-driven way. It affects the way we all work together.â
âItâs also a style of art weâre all interested in, but realized soon into school that we really donât ever want to make,â Snipes jokes. âWe learned how to do all this by doing Captain Ahab (Snipes' earlier group). It took us a long time to learn how to brand things, how to package things,â Cristina adds.
Miller brings up the point that the improvisational ability members possess affects their love for their unorthodox performances and musical styles. That the training to recognize others' cues can direct you on stageâtheater or musicalâand take you somewhere further than just a recital of recorded work, can really bring the music to life. Snipes talks a bit about how theater relates to composing music: âWhat is the idea of this entire play, and does every decision youâre making support this one very simple idea. If it does not, you cut it, successful theater is based on this.â Hutson concludes, âThe only other idea I would add is that what theater did for us, for Captain Ahab, and for clipping. is that we have no concern for authenticity. Lying is a performance; we lie a lot.â
âThere is nothing explicitly sexist about speaking over rhythms.â William Hutson says, laughing. âYou donât have to say monstrous things about women as a rapper, they just generally do for some reason.â
Iâd just brought up my theory that hiphop as a movement is incorrectly labeled as sexist. That people, rappers, as individuals can be called out for their actions or their speech, but the movement cannot. People donât attack thespianism as a whole because the actor who plays Don Draper on Mad Men gives a sexist performance on TV, so whatâs the difference with rap?
âSome people don't understand that. People do think that musicians go on stage and are the ultimate version of themselves,â Brian Miller adds.
People imprint themselves on music like no other art form. clipping.âs work especially has been regarded as more aggro than deserved (in my opinion) and Bill Hutson helps me understand why when I bring up the fact that I have feelings for abstract art (I feel as emotional at the lines of Judd and paint blotches of a Frankenthaler as I do at good music), yet I still understand the painters and sculptors of that period were not referencing me.
âBut even abstract art was sold on the rugged individualism of Pollock as some cowboy. With the artist as the character and not the art,â Hutson interjects. âItâs all a bunch of bullshit to me,â he says, before shrinking back into his shoulders and staring into his wine.
Jonathan Snipes explains: âI always thought of my Captain Ahab lyrics as a sort of musical timbre. I responded to Miami Bass and Detroit Ghetto House music. I liked the drum machine sounds, the way they were programmed, the synths, and the words. The words in those songs just so happen to mostly be about womenâs butts.â (Everyone at the table giggles. it makes sense, sort of.) âIt wouldnât be that type of music if we werenât talking about womenâs butts. The words youâre using can be a timbre choice. I think the same is true for clipping. I donât feel like Iâm allowed to say that, because I donât write the words for clipping., but I would say thatâs true of that band as well.â
He brings up a point Iâd been dying to talk about. The lyrical choices on clipping.âs midcity are massive in terms of word placement. Itâs clear that Daveed Diggsâ lyrics werenât written into a cell phone that evening and recorded once, never to be edited. His story rhymes and raps are deliciously grotesque poetry about lost lovers, affection for the city, and blind loyalty to the street, that are as visually stimulating as they are precisely spit. I read that they'd been choosy about his phrasing. âRappers donât have editors," Hutson says, âexcept for Daveed, heâs been amazed that we have opinions, and will ask us which line or word is better, but that certainly is not how rap music gets written anywhere else.â The amazing thing about clipping.âs experimental hiphop is also the fact that Daveed seems to stand alone while rhyming, as the electro-acoustic interference and noise he raps over is not necessarily providing him with a rhythm, many times he is the rhythm, and the noise is the lead, but before I get to lost in my love for minimalism, the maximalist at the table speaks up.
tik///tik (Steven Cano) has been a noise-music fixture around Los Angeles for years. If there is a true noise music maker at the table itâs him. Iâm surprised though, to learn that the vocals and vocal samples in his music are his own. Miller regards him as the most soulful musician of the group because of his earnestness, and Iâm surprised at his personality in person. He's congenial, almost diminutive. He speaks quietly for having made such noisy music over the years. My favorite works of his Jewel Play, and Every Hex Is A Hearthache wrap his pop vocals in visqueen and duct tape and toss the kidnapped, dead idea of pop into a chilly slough. âI might push the volume, but thereâs always something in the middle of that maelstrom of sounds going around in my music. Thereâll be a horrible torch song right in the middle of my songs, and thatâs what Iâm worried about,â he says, quietly, almost unsure of himself.
If you hear his music you might be as shocked as me that heâs making pop tunes. His inspirations:
âI relate to Miami Freestyle, I used to steal my brothers N.W.A., I listened to LL Cool J, thatâs kind of what attracted me to Captain Ahab (Snipesâ early group) originally because I like that Miami âbootyâ sound.â
Brian says: âThe first time he really struck me was on his tracks during âThe Fruit Will Rot Vol. 3â; everyone else delivered really harsh noise for that compilation. Steven turned in these tracks that could have used vocal samples from pop acts from the '60s or something, but they werenât, theyâre actually Steven singing. Iâve never heard anything else like it." Then he sums up tik///tik in a single sentence, putting it in a way I'd never thought of: "How many people out there are like âGee, I sure wish there was a group that bridged the gap between my harsh noise records and my soul collection?â
Steven's reply: âItâs part of the LA thing, though. Iâm fine sitting between all these people. Iâve been on tour with them. Nothing is weird to me. To me I.E. has written the noisiest punk-rock track ever. Genre doesnât exist.â
Speaking of LA acts going way back, and The Fruit Will Rot Vol.3 gives me the chance to ask Bill Hutson of what Iâd heard was the genesis of clipping, his early work as a noise act called Beach Balls.
âIt was a joke about all of the LA harsh noise acts at that time, people were ripping off one artist known as Pedestrian Deposit. Everyoneâs music was coming out as blasts of harsh noise between ambient music cuts. I made the joke that I was going to do that in my band Beach Balls, but with harsh noise and rap a cappellas. It was just an attempt to re-format what everyone was doing by ripping off one guy. But instead of copying weâd switch out one of the genres for something I related to.â
The DNA of clipping. can be traced all the way back to that mixtape in which Bill uses a click track and a Ying Yang Twins sample to make a song called âCase Sensitivityâ that takes the juvenile "whisper song" and turns it into an ominous hiphop adventure. Snipes recalls begging Hutson to form a band after seeing LA group Death Set play distorted radio-rap songs inbetween songs in their set. âI told him for years someone needed to do this as a band, combine noise and rap, and eventually I convinced him we should do it as a remix project. The first one we worked on was using an Insane Clown Posse a cappella.â
Hutson: âThe reason I did all that, and I made all these songs that never came out, was because I was uncomfortable with the degree to whichâŚit was a joke about taking these power electronic songs that are either explicitly or implicitly white-supremacist music, and I would beat match them with like Lil Wayne rapping over them. Because they were in the same tempo, and it was like, âthese are two sounds I like and how do I deal with the fact that some of the music I like is really fucked up and I donât agree with itââŚâ He goes on to rant about acts whose white-supremacist values seem to have been forgotten (or more likely not even researched) because their bands make for good buzz media.
Miller: âThe idea was of negotiating between all the different types of music, and being able to touch base with them, but the culture at that time was not ok with us mixing those things. We mash things together so much that people donât realize we love all these genres. You really have to listen to hear those things in there, the soul singing, Trina samples, J Mascis. We met because I once put out a very abstract tribute to Cash Money records, and I knew of Billâs music, then wrote to him and found out we lived near each other. It was cool for us, but at the time it literally got me hate mail from people who thought we shouldnât combine certain music and rap. Bill just happened to be into experimental music and hiphop like me.â
Hutson: âVery specifically, Cash Money records. When I was a kid I wanted to be a Cash Money Millionaire, and in 1998 I switched to wanting to be a No Limit Soldier,â he laughs.
As Brian points out, these things may sound like nothing weird at all now, but in â02 looked like a pretty defiant (read: punk) stance toward the standards of craven scenesters. Brian also previously put out a tribute compilation to No Limit records as well that asked bands to write songs around the idea of No Limit records. The DIY to stardom aspect of those labels are what inspired Deathbomb. Also the question of what it means to be a white person from suburban LA who loves southern gangster rap. The exploration, the experiment, was the point.
âCall it mysoginist, but those Southern labels supported more female acts at that time than any other label, I can name more female rappers from New Orleans than I can from any other city.â Earlier I mistakenly referred to Percy Miller (aka Master P, head of No Limit) as Patrick Miller, and Bill Hutson corrected me as soon as it came out of my mouth. I apologized. Dude is serious about his rap and hiphop.
What's the point of any music?
It would be taking advantage of the privilege of having so many experimental, electro-acoustic interference, musique concrète geeks in the same room to not ask: What is the point ? What is the point of music with little rhythm, few words, unrecognizable instruments? I look to the very intelligent members of this very noisy label for help.
âI might be the wrong person to answer that,â Steven Cano (aka tik///tik) says âwhen Iâm making my music I feel like Iâm Selena in the middle of everything. For me itâs another version of pop music, and thatâs how I attack it. It doesnât mean I donât listen to other noise artists, but thatâs how I know how to make music, thatâs where it comes fromâ
âI love the sounds, personally. I find them exciting, and for me thatâs all there needs to be is that the sounds are pleasing to my ears.â Jonathan Snipes says.
âWhatâs the point of any music?â Bill Hutson says, then crosses his legs and looks away and laughs.
But from I.E. comes something poignant as usual:
âThe first time I heard these guys was over The Smell speakers and the hair stood up on my arms. I never knew what noise music was, but I kind of made it, and then when I was starting to become an artist I had the same feelings as these guys, like maybe everyone was a white supremacist or something, and being part of a group meant just getting together and collectively hating things. I tried to hang with punkers, because where I grew up hiphop was the music of gangsters, and though hiphop was my whole life, I didnât want to be a gangster. Then I met these guys and they had this funky way of liking everything and playing it loud. I didnât know what noise was but I saw tik///tik, and Beach Balls, and I just felt awesome. I felt so happy that there were people who didnât discount anything or put things in a boxâ.
The conversation drifts and I let it. Most of these people haven't sat in the same room together in some time, and combined they have decades of experience making art. Clearly we have music in common, but just like I love to talk about Seattle, they love to talk about LA.
Hutson: âThereâs also sort of an assumptionâand you see this a lot when you play places that arenât big cities or you interact with people who like noise but arenât from big citiesâthereâs an idea that youâre making an extreme kind of music because you donât like the music that the guys who picked on you in high school listened to. Thereâs an assumption that if you like noise that you dislike other things, like because you make this music you donât like Mandy Moore, but the opposite is true in LA; you can do both.â
Snipes: âThereâs so many weird nested little music scenes here that youâre not just part of the 'music scene' thereâs a place for you here no matter what you do."
Brian Miller: âWhatâs been hard to find outside of LA is a scene of people who donât play music that sounds the same, where the people are related by more abstract concepts and will share the same bill. There is a place for lots of acts who are not appropriate bar-rock acts.â
Hutson: âIâm interested in the character of underground LA music. For instance, what are you doing making music for a very small group of people in the city that produces mainstream culture for most of the world? You canât be sanctimonious about it, either, because no one here is actually proud of LA. This is a city that when you leave and tell someone where youâre from they have no problem telling you how much they fuckin' hate it. Then they go home turn on their TV and look at my fuckin' cityâ.
Snipes: âI love LA for that reason. Iâm scared of civic pride anyway. Itâs like nationalism to me. I love a lot of cities, but I love Los Angeles because we donât have that. Being from LA is neutral in a weird way, because weâre all at odds with our environment.â
Hutson: âTalking to Sub Pop and playing in Seattle at the Silver Jubilee I couldnât believe how much un-ironic pride there was in something so simple as a little record label. The whole city stopped, you guys flew a Sub Pop flag from the Space Needle! I saw the mayor walking around the concert in a Sub Pop T-shirt. I just couldn't imagine that happening in LA. Could you imagine a street fair and our landmarks flying flags because weâre proud we made Transformers 3 this year? I love the sincere pride in a cultural product from the city. I told everyone that while I was there.â
This is the genesis of Deathbombâs latest group project, True Neutral Crew, a trio consisting of Brian Miller, Daveed Diggs, and I.E. that seeks to make music from a truly neutral standpoint. Their original idea for their #Monsanto EP was an album written from Monsanto's point of view. Thankfully, being truly neutral, they made what came outâa smartly written, well-rhymed noise-rap record. But the very structure of the group is representative of their isolation, their lack of an option to have an opinion about. Their refusal to participate in a broken system.
We talked a bit about the "instruments" that Deathbomb artists use. Tik///Tik used a flower electronics brand synth called a little boy blue. The designer, Jessica Rylan, is well respected in the group (indeed, in noise-music circles in general), she did graduate work at Stanford, and sheâs now at MIT, but has spent time on tour with Deathbomb happily repairing the gear they smashed, and playing music with them. Christina Bercovitz filmed clipping.'s videos with a Betamax camcorder, and a mini DV recorder after finding the Betamax camcorder in Jonathan's dadâs attic. Their ideas for a dirtier, noisier visual aesthetic are from talking to Hutson and Diggs about BET Uncut, a show that Daveed and Bill stayed up late watching in high school. All the videos from that era were prior to HDTV or any really clear video. Iâm surprised to find, however that for all the noises one can find on their collective records, no one is really a gear head. Iâm looking around the apartment and see only records and turntables. Jonathan does mention that since clipping. has become associated with Sub Pop they've had access to more resources than every before.
I ask Brian what the future holds, since clipping. is now signed to Sub Pop, and how he feels about them leaving Deathbomb Arc.
Miller: âIâm not afraid to stand up for what I want. Iâve known Jonathan long enough that Iâm not embarrassed to ask for what I care about, but Iâve also been invested in his music for over a decade now, so I want to see amazing things happen for him. I have asked if they could do another album on Deathbomb Arc, as well.â
Snipes: âItâs in our contract, the contract is pretty exclusive, like any record contract, but initially it was that we would make music exclusively for Sub Pop, unless it was for a film, because they knew that Bill and I had done a film score together and I had done film scores on my own. And then we were like, we should be able to do a record for Brian, and they said okay. Sub Pop has given us absolutely everything weâve asked for. Iâve yet to hear anyone say anything bad about them.â
Sub Pop actually found out about clipping. because Miller emailed someone in the label's IT department looking for a place to book a show. He shared midcity and it made such an impression that they got signed. I ask Snipes if he has a plan for the new music.
âNah.â Everyone laughs uproariously.
âWe probably canât talk too much about it. Itâs basically done. It exists, we love it, and if you turn that recorder off weâll play you a track downstairs.â
Iâve never shut a recorder off faster in my life. I found my way downstairs into clipping.'s studio and started eying gear. I sat down at the back of the small narrow space while Jonathan and Bill decided what to play. In the end, I got to hear two tracks. âTheyâre too novel,â argued Bill. âTheyâre all novel,â laughed Jonathan. Jonathan Snipes, Cristina Bercovitz, Bill Hutson, Margot Padilla, Stephen Cano, Brian Miller
What I heard first might take me some time to process. It felt open, concise, like Jay Z's early work, but drugged and thugged, as if that same work had been produced by DJ Screw. The second track I heard absolutely blew my mind. The curatorial genius of Brian Miller, the film score experience of Jonathan Snipes, the distinct taste and unrelenting dedication to sound of William Hutson, and the writing and rapping abilities of Daveed Diggs came through like a rejuvenating force. What began as âharsh noiseââperhaps the harshest particular noise I can think ofâbecomes a gorgeous heavenly chord when matched with other harsh (very common) noises up the scale. Like I.E. said, the hair stood up on my arms, things were way out of the box, nothing (not even the noises we're ungrateful we hear) had been discounted, I felt like I belonged. Everyone in the room listened like they were investigating the music. I felt the electronic warmth of the wall of modular synths, MIDI controllers, drum machines and every kind of keyboard you can name. The noise drove through the room, mingled with the flesh, and even Bill and Jonathan enjoyed what they had made. When it was over I.E. looked me dead in the eye and offered to sell me weed, I laughed, because music is my shit, and talking to the folks at Deathbomb Arc already had me high as one can get.
For a good primer with what's going on over at Deathbomb Arc, pick up their new compilation called EVIL. Sales from it go to supporting anti-debt charity rolling jubilee and it features ridiculous spitters like Signor Benedick The Moor and VIPER VENOM, plus gorgeous noise from Sissy Cobb and Dreamcrusher.
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So far, how has summer been treating you? >> Pretty well, Iâd say. When was the last time you had a slushie? >> I donât remember. Is there someone you miss right now? >> No. How many pairs of sunglasses do you own? >> Like... four. I need to buy just one good not-cheap pair and be done with it. Do you prefer sticky notes or cork boards? >> I donât have a preference, it depends on what itâs being used for.
What was the last movie you watched online? >> Crash (1996). Is there much drama going on in your life at the moment? >> Thereâs none. Are you graduating this year? >> --- Do you feel like doing something radically different with your hair? >> No, thatâs way too much work. Are you in a relationship? >> Sure. Did you ever think your cell was vibrating when it wasnât? >> Yeah, but that doesnât happen to me as often as it would to someone whoâs used to their phone going off a lot. The last person who added you on Facebook, did you accept or decline? >> --- Are you at all interested in Americaâs Next Top Model? >> Not now. What did you last take a picture of? >> I donât remember, but I did take some video of the laser light show I got to see during the last storm that passed through. Would you like to learn another language? >> Sure, but not enough to dedicate myself to it right now. What type of earphones/headphones do you own? >> AudioTechnica bluetooth ones, and also a pair of wired Sonys as backup. Your portable musical device (mp3, iPod, etc): How old is it? >> I just use my phone, which is about a year old. Do you own a pet that most would consider different? >> No. Have you ever wanted to travel to Germany? >> Sure. When was the last time you used scissors? >> I donât remember. Whatâs your favorite kind of perfume/cologne? >> I like those roll-on scents you get from street vendors in the city. The unfortunate thing about that -- besides the fact that I donât live in a city anymore -- is that thereâs no standardisation of the formula, so an âOpiumâ variant you get in Chicago smells markedly different than the one that you get off Etsy (which is a thing that just happened to me and itâs so annoying because the one I got in Chicago is my perfect scent). When it comes to amusement rides, do you get sick or can you handle it? >> Iâm fine on many of them, but I did do the teacups at Luna Park Coney Island once about 10 years ago and it threw off my equilibrium so badly that I had to sit down for the rest of the day. Is there a movie coming out that you would like to see soon? >> It Chapter Two comes out next weekend and Iâm pretty stoked about that. Do you love buying shoes? >> No. Do you bother making your bed everyday? >> No. Have you had your wisdom teeth removed yet? >> No, and I most likely wonât. Have you ever been drunk and regretted it? >> Certainly. Do you like to do anything artistic? >> I like to write. What did you last cook for yourself? >> I donât remember. Has anyone ever called you a âpipe dreamerâ? >> I donât think so. Who was the last person to text you? >> Sparrow. Think back to your last kiss, did you enjoy it? >> I sure did. Are you even slightly addicted to applying lipgloss or lipchap? >> No, I apply lip balm a lot because my lips get dry a lot, not because Iâm âaddictedâ to it. Do you ever make fun of your own country? >> Sure. What Internet browser do you use? >> Chrome. Do you consider yourself to be spoiled? >> No. What song are you listening to right now? >> None. Are you comfortable giving random hugs? >> No, Iâm quite not-comfortable with that. Who did you last argue with? >> The last time I got into a real argument was over a year ago. Do you ever have conversations with your pets? >> --- Have you ever listened to the band Rammstein? >> Sure. Do you have any plans for tomorrow? >> No. Who is your celebrity love? >> --- Are you more a Twitter person or a Facebook person? >> I have neither and I never really liked either of them. Have you ever lost a best friend? >> --- Do you own an exercise ball? >> No. Xbox 360, PS3, or Wii? >> PC. Are you messy or organized? >> Iâm more inclined towards organisation. What band / artist would you love to see live in concert? >> Meh. Are your nails painted right now? >> No. What was the craziest color youâve ever dyed your hair? >> Purple, I guess. Do you consider yourself to be a daredevil? >> No. Does it snow where you live? >> Yes. Do you have any significant scars? >> Er... what makes a scar âsignificantâ?  Who last had their arm around you? >> I donât remember which inworlder it was. Are you feeling deprived of anything? >> Nope. Have you ever been obsessed with working out? >> No. What color is the shirt youâre wearing currently? >> Black. Are you talking to anyone on an IM right now? >> No. What did you think of the movie Avatar? >> I remember being extremely unimpressed by it. I remember watching it at Sylviaâs Place when I stayed there after returning to NYC from NOLA, and just... dunking on it the entire time. Do you collect anything? >> No. Have you ever feared the future? >> I donât know, maybe. What was your highest mark this year in school? >> --- Can you walk in 4+ inch heels? >> Yeah, Iâve walked in 6âł heels before. Is your significant other shorter, taller or the same height as you? >> Sparrow is one or two inches taller, Can Calah is one or two inches shorter, and King Crimson is like a whole foot and a half taller. Is there a friend you would trust with your life? >> No. Have you ever been purposely ditched? >> I donât know, maybe. Do you live in a relatively safe area? >> Yeah. What was the last alcoholic beverage you had? >> Iâm drinking a sangria in a can, by Sierra Rose Winery. Itâs pretty good, as I expected from them. Is there someone you know who is obsessed with Call of Duty? >> No. Have you ever looked into the mirror and hated who you saw? >> Definitely. Is there a piece of jewellry you always wear? >> Besides piercing jewelry, no. When was the last time you saw your significant other? >> I see two of them constantly and I see the third daily. What was the longest conversation youâve had with a person? >> I donât know, hours. How many purses do you own? >> Zero. Is there something you should be doing right now? >> No. Iâm going to take a shower after this, though. Do you wish on 11:11? >> No. Whatâs your opinion on the Gulf oil spill? >> I know nothing of this. Is it hot in the room youâre in right now? >> No, the weatherâs been... variable lately. And itâs been a lot chillier than Iâd expected overall. Are you one of those people who are always rearranging the furniture? >> No. Do you listen to any music thatâs really old? >> I suppose. Are you a fan of the LA Lakers? >> No. When the last time you were upset and werenât exactly sure why? >> I donât remember. I usually can trace my moods pretty easily. Have you ever been somewhere tropical? >> Subtropical, but not tropical. Would you consider yourself to be a chocoholic? >> Quite the opposite. Have you ever heard of Channing Tatumâs website Post The Love? >> No. Do you know anyone whoâs currently pregnant? >> No. Are you a fan of mix CDs? >> I mean, now we just make playlists. But when I was younger and mixed CDs was The Thing(tm), yeah, I loved them. Has anyone ever given you their business card? >> Yeah. I once thought about making cards that just had all my social media info on it... now we have stuff like carrd.co that kinda functions in the same way. What is your dream job/career? >> I donât have one. Do you have a friend whoâs naturally a redhead? >> No. Have you ever had a one night stand? >> Yeah. Do you listen to the mainstream music or prefer to find your own? >> I listen to whatever I like, is all. What time is it now? >> 3.52p EST. Â
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âmama, just killed a man; put a gun against his head, pulled my trigger, now heâs dead.â
Who is the nicest person youâve ever met? I dunno, I've truly met so many. How about the meanest? Literally my former best friend, all things considered. I too often ignored her overwhelming ratio of bad versus positive traits. She was an absolute witch when entirely unnecessary to most she met, and even to those she did like, she could be extremely rude and just. Yeah, mean. Do you prefer sugar cookies or peanut butter cookies? Hmmm, probably sugar. Chocolate chip cookies or Oreos? Chocolate chip. What is on your mouse pad? I don't have one. Who was the last person to yell at you? Mom. Why did they yell at you? I don't recall, I just know it was her. What was the last thing you spoke to your mom about? I can't remember. It was as she was leaving for work and nothing major. Where was the last place you took a train to? Never been on a train. What is your favorite sleeping position? What about sitting? Sitting, idk. But I sleep like, kinda on my stomach but twist to my side with my arms positioned up like a fetus' or something. My legs are just kinda just splayed out or bent a bit beside each other. When is the last time you felt appreciated for something you did? Had to be something with Sara when she needed some comfort. Do you ever call friends just to have a casual conversation with them? I don't willingly call anyone. I've texted/messaged friends at random though. Are you the type of person who gets straight to the point? Not really. Do you enjoy playing board games? No. Are there any movies you are wanting to see? The new How To Train Your Dragon, ahhhh! Probably gonna see it with Sara when she comes. Who was the last contact you stored into your cell phone, if you have one? Probably VR. What was the last song you sang along to? Uhhh something by Powerwolf in the shower. Are you a fan of the band Taking Back Sunday? Never heard 'em. Nachos or tacos? I hate tacos, but nachos are literally the best. Do you think Kurt Cobain was assassinated? This is a conspiracy I'm not really educated on. *shrugs* I barely ever rule shit out now after going down the conspiracy theories rabbit hole. Do you feel uncomfortable when people you hardly know confide in you? Not at all. Does it annoy you when people wish away their lives? I'm guessing you mean just wish for things instead of taking action towards achieving them? Yes, it does. Wishing isn't gonna do a damn thing for you. Have you ever lived with somebody with truly repulsive habits? No. Do you tend to say things because theyâre appropriate not because you mean them? No. I've probably done it, but not enough to recall an occasion. What was the last thing to perplex you? Some conspiracy theory in Shane Dawson's new series I thought was pretty far-fetched. I've already forgotten it. What was the last thing to fascinate you? Another theory in the same series mentioned above lol. It was about the fires in California. Do you ever have really good dreams, and then the whole next day, youâre in a really good mood because of that really good dream? No. Whatâs the last thing you bought at the mall? A book. What are you listening to? "Fire & Forgive" by Powerwolf. Have you ever wanted to go to the moon? Not really. Is your favorite author the author of your favorite book? No. What are you looking forward to the most? Settling down comfortably with Sara with nice jobs, pets we love, a house we feel is perfect for us, and just. Yeah, all of that. ;v; Whatâs the last CD you bought? I haven't bought one since Hollywood Undead's "Swan Songs." Is that your favorite cd by that artist? I'm not too familiar with their albums, but I think? What food do you eat the most of? Idk, really. Meats? Some form of bread? What food do you not eat enough of? Vegetables. If you HAD to look like someone else, but could choose who, who would you choose? Probably Suzy Hanson. I'm gay as all fuck hell for that sweetheart. Whatâs something youâre proud of yourself for? DEDICATING TO THE PROCESS OF RECOVERY. Think of your favorite band⌠if you got to talk to ONE person from that band, who would it be, and why them? Ozzy because he is my granddad, savior, and most importantly, spirit animal. Have you ever seen someone get a tattoo done? If so, what was it? Did they cry or were they in a lot of pain? Yeah; it was a watercolor feather with "ohana" written on it. She didn't cry, nor was it excruciating. What do you like on hot dogs? Ketchup and mustard. Favorite sport team? I'm biased towards the Carolina Hurricanes because of Dad. Do you live somewhere where itâs completely safe to walk alone at night? No. Have you ever lived with someone who was a total slob? Yup. Have you ever interviewed a job applicant at your workplace? N/A Have you ever gone over 3 months without shaving/waxing your legs? Yeah, or close to it. Would you ever consider being a foster parent? No. Whatâs your opinion on lottery tickets? Waste of money, or no? A waste and a risk for addiction. What are some things that make others cry, that donât make you cry at all? Well, this is hard. I cry at pretty much anything moving. Have you ever swam in a saltwater pool? No. Can you run in heels? I highly doubt that. My balance is bad as it is. Do you think anyone has given up on you? I'm sure Colleen has. When did you last swallow your beliefs to avoid an argument or confrontation? Today, but literally most days on FB anyway with my stepmother and abortion. Do you pay your own cellphone bill, or do your parents pay it for you? Dad pays it. Have you seen every Harry Potter movie in theaters? No. Have you ever been pregnant? No. Would you ever drive a hearse for your car? Fuck yeah I would if I could decorate it some. What snacks do you usually take to the beach with you? I haven't gone to the beach consistently enough to known. Do you like to eat tomato soup along with your grilled cheese? No. Have you ever watched Buffy the Vampire Slayer? No. Do you have thick or thin hair? Thick as all fuck. If you have thick hair, do you get it thinned when you get it cut? I get it like, tapered so the ends aren't so abrupt. If you have thin hair, do you wish it were thick? N/A What kind of shoes do you normally purchase? Converse or Vans. Did you like Pokemon or Digimon when you were younger? Pokemon was and still is everything. Do you sleep with your hair up or down? It's too short to go up, but I didn't when it was long. When you go swimming, do you put your hair up or down? ^ Do you do any special workouts to stay in shape? I've started doing some yoga exercises and push-ups everyday to try to get IN shape. If youâre a girl, do you have big hips? Too big? I'd say they're fine. Is there a day youâd just like to forget? Which one? The day I ODed. Girls, do you think you look good in dresses or not? I haven't worn a dress since my sister's wedding three years ago... and I looked awful. Have you ever taken a pottery class before? No. What is the one stereotype people label you as most? Don't really hear those nowadays. Who makes you the most angry in your life right now? My last fucking school. How many times have you seen Star Wars? Be honest. Literally once, and I hated it. It was incredibly uninteresting. Do you like flowers? Whatâs your favorite kind? YEAH. I love orchids and dahlias. How many grades have you failed in your life? None. Do you own a car? Who provides your insurance if so? No. Are you someone who can easily keep a secret? Yup. When was the last time you painted something? December, a painting for Sara. Who was the last female you hung out with? My mom. When is the next time youâre going on vacation? Hell if I know. Are you currently renting out your own apartment? No. Have you taken anyoneâs virginity? No. Have you ever had anyone drop off animals at your house and what kind? No. Have you ever made your boy/girlfriend choose between you and someone else? No. Do you remember when some of the Walmarts had a McDonaldâs in them? Our neighboring town still has one. When was the last time you were somewhere that offered free Wi-Fi? I dunno. What color are your curtains and are you satisfied with this color? Maroon, and yes. When was the last time you were stung by a bee and what kind was it? Last year by a bumblebee. Do you know anyone personally who had their house burn down before? Yes. Whatâs your favorite kind of potato chip and are they cheap to buy? Hm. Maybe classic... or cool ranch. Who was the last male you hung out with? My dad. Are you self-conscious? You have no idea. Do you tend to get sick more often in the wintertime? If not, is there a certain season that you get sick more often in besides winter? No. I rarely ever get sick. Do you find yourself being more of a germaphobe when youâre in public? Uh, duh. What is the worst thing youâve seen in a public restroom? Blood under the seat. And I mean quite a bit. I usually check under them now after that event with Colleen. Nerdy question time. If you were in a more medieval time period, would you prefer to excel in might, magic, or finesse? MAGIC. Do you have an friends from foreign countries? Are they online friends or foreign exchange students? Or perhaps you have some from both? Online friends. Have you ever studied how your last name originated? Yeah. What is one recipe that you would like to learn how to make? Hell, a lot. I need to know how to cook period. How many hours can you go after a meal before you are hungry again? Does the time vary off how big of a meal it was? Depends on what I ate. Can be like... 4-5 hours or I can fast and go beyond 16. Really varies. What was your favorite Backstreet Boys song? HUNNY don't DO THIS. Oh Lord. I really don't think I can pick. I know back then it was "The Call," though. Favorite *N Sync song? Probably "Bye Bye Bye." Which of those two bands did you like best? Backstreet Boys. *heart eyes drool emoji* Do you learn choreography easily? I was okay back in dance, but I doubt it now. My memory and focus have declined. What is the theme of this yearâs wall calendar? Idk, Mom hasn't changed it yet. Do you believe that Jesus will come back in your lifetime? I don't believe that concept. Do you still have your favorite toy from when you were kid? Apparently no; asked Mom recently outta curiosity, and I was VERY surprised. I don't know how I ever could've gotten rid of him. Which do you do more: read books, spend time online, or watch television? Guess. What do you do the most when youâre online? Listen to/watch YouTube. Is your 2019 off to a good start? Eh, I suppose. What color is your winter coat? I don't have one. Whatâs your favorite candy to receive on Halloween? Reese's. Do you think youâre too old to go trick-or-treating? Well, according to society. Do you have a bobblehead? If yes, what does your bobblehead look like? No. Were you afraid of heights as a child? No. Whatâs the strangest thing youâve wrapped a present in? Nothing odd? Can you read in the car? I don't know if I've ever done that? Have you ever had a lead role in a play? No. Would you ever take a solo road trip? Nah. What is the most fascinating part of nature? Shit dude, idk. There's so much. Evolution, maybe. When did you last go to the library? What book(s) did you check out? Couldn't tell ya. Have you ever gotten in trouble for running up your phone bill? Nope. When is the next time youâll change your hairstyle? Will you color it? I don't plan to any time soon. Do people normally say youâre a fast typer, or are you rather slow? Very fast. Do you believe in the concept of global warming? It's 2019. "Concept" my ass. Have you ever worked in retail? Never again. Are you even a little bit racist? No. Were you more fond of swings, monkey bars, or seesaws as a child? Swings. Do you believe in a near-future apocalyptic event? We can't predict that. A meteor could fuck us tonight, or the supervolcano in Yellowstone could erupt the next time I blink. May not be for thousands of years. Do you have a chandelier in your home? No. Do you have a bar with stools? No. Donât you love American Horror Story: Asylum? I didn't watch it. Whenâs the last time you blew some bubbles? No clue. Are you self conscious about your nails? Not too much. Which pair of pants that you own are your favorites? Why do you like them? Pretty much all I have are yoga pants and leggings that all look the same... Now if I can include pj pants, the soft, black, white, and lilac Jack Skellington ones I have. They're comfy. Have you ever had any kind of dangerous addiction? Whatâs this addiction? No. Are your parents still married, divorced, or split up? Like this decision? Divorced. And I mean, any person would wish their parents were together ideally, but just with how mine always fought and just constantly seemed angry at each other, I'm glad they are. Are you a Jeffree Star fan? Or no? Do you think heâs awesome/dumb? I love that alien. His personality is so bubbly, he cracks me the hell up, and he's gone through so much growth. Are any of your favorite shows too dirty for television? Which ones? No. Are there any colorful quilts in your room? Which ones are colorful? No. Do you own a guitar? Specify. Which brand of guitar do you own? I do, but I don't recall the brand; I don't play it anymore. I just know it's black and white. Are you a monogamous person? Or do you hate commitment? Monogamous. Who was the last person who was rude to you? Idk, probably Mom. Have you ever met someone in person that you first met online? Yeah. Have you ever taken a test to see if you are colorblind? No. Who do you know who is dyslexic? Idk. Describe your dream wedding in five words. Small, memorable, gothic, emotional, and sincere are a few words I can think of. Is weed legal in your state? No. Have you ever thrown up in class? In kindergarten, I believe. What is something that you used to be ashamed of, but now youâre not? Mmmmm I dunno. OH ACTUALLY, for quite a while I was embarrassed of liking Pokemon for yeeeaaars because at that time it was seen as "weird," but now like. Give me everything Pokemon. Have you ever held a newborn baby? No. Are a ton of your Facebook friends getting married and having kids now? Yes. I sometimes forget we're at that age where it's kinda normal. Whatâs the last supernatural thing that happened to you? Idk. If youâre a Christian, how long have you known the Lord? N/A Do you live in an apartment, condo, dorm, or house? A house. Do you have a sibling with the same first initial as you? Well, it's his nickname. Do you ever eat kidsâ food (as in, meals made for kids)? Hell yeah, give me that fuckin nachos Lunchable. Do you remember pre-school? I have vague memories. How old were you when you made your first friend? Two. What is the movie that you have waited the longest for/which film do you remember anticipating the most/are still anticipating? The Incredibles 2, probably. What is something that an interested guy/girl could comment about you, that would make you instantly open to them (e.g., âThat book youâre reading is from my favorite authorâ)? It's game over if you recognize my Markiplier tattoo lmao. Do you refer to yourself by any sort of fan nickname (Belieber, Little Monster, etc.)? I will always be a GMM mythical beast, fucking fight me. What sort of situations make you feel most self-conscious or inadequate? Are there any people or places that just make you want to crawl into a hole? If you canât think of anything specific, can you remember the last time (or any time) you felt this way? When I'm in a position where it's my responsibility to be knowledgeable, hence why I've struggled so immensely with work. Out of all your usernames for websites, which one is your favorite? Do you use it for more than one site? I use Ozzkat like, everywhere, and it's my fave. Are there any cities near you that youâre afraid to go to because of the crime rate or its other bad reputations? Yes. Have you ever spent the whole day (or multiple days) just looking up one thing on the internet (e.g., videos of your favorite band, how-to videos, quizzes, etc.)? Ha, yeah. Can you remember the last thing you thought and subsequently thought, âwow, I really shouldnât be thinking thatâ? PTSD and OCD alike give me intrusive thoughts occasionally, so. How long does it take you in the morning to fix your hair? It takes just a few seconds to wet my hand(s) and go over the back where it usually sticks up like crazy. My hair is otherwise short enough where I have to do like... nothing. Have you ever been in a situation where you had to be around your ex everyday? No. Do you prefer kisses on the nose, cheek or forehead? Cheek. Have you seen someone recently you used to talk to, but donât anymore? No. Do you prefer a lot of ice in your drinks or just a little bit of ice? None. I don't like it to water down my drink, and even with water, I worry about one/some small ones going down my throat. Well, in margaritas it's obviously fine, just because it's so fine. Which condiment (ketchup, mustard, etc.) do you use the most of? Ketchup or honey mustard. Would you ever flirt with somebody in front of your parents? With my s/o, sure, just not if it's even mildly sexual. Have your parents ever questioned your virginity? Yeah. Have you ever spent over $100.00 on an article of clothing? What was it? FUCK no. Do you think your parents know things about you that you donât want them to? Mom might. I doubt Dad does. How many of your friends play World of Warcraft? I think Sam still does, maybe Alex, and then I have a number of acquaintances exclusive to the game. Actually Girt might too... maybe. I just know he keeps up with the lore. Are caterpillars more cute or disgusting? CUTE. Would you rather receive roses or sunflowers? I'd appreciate either, but I prefer roses as flowers. Is your dad bald? No. Surprised honestly; he's in his mid-50s, and while it's gray, there's no less of it than there's always been. Who is the most boring or dullest person that you know of? Uhhhhhhhh I dunno. How long do you have until your birthday? Three days y e e t Do you know anyone who has been arrested? Yes. Do you remember the name of the first bar you ever went to? Never been to one. Were you of age? N/A When was the last time you wanted to do something, but couldnât? With how Sara's been such a flirt lately, I deadass wanna pin her to a wall and go ham. Is there a certain song you like to headbang to? 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How to Deploy a Node.js App â From Server Setup to Production
In this tutorial, we are going to learn everything we need to know before deploying a Node app to a production server.
We will start by renting a server on Digital Ocean. Then we'll configure this server, connect to it, install Nginx and configure it, pull or create our Node app, and run it as a process.
As you can see, there is a lot to do and it will be an action-packed tutorial. So let's get started without wasting any time.
You should have some basic knowledge on how the Terminal works and how to work in Vi/Vim before getting started. If you are not familiar with basic commands, I would advise you to read up on them a bit.
I will run the commands in MacOS. If you want to follow this tutorial in Windows, you can use Powershell or some other Unix emulator of your choice.
Although I will use Node.js as the platform of our example application, most of the steps are the same for any web application.
Why Digital Ocean?
I choose Digital Ocean because it is cheap and the interface is really easy to use, compared to the likes of AWS. Also, a $100 credit is included in the GitHub student pack so you do not have to pay anything for a couple of months. It is ideal for deploying a course or hobby project.
It has a concept called Droplets, which is basically your share of a server. You can think of the server as an apartment in which you own or rent a flat.
Droplets work with the help of Virtual Machines which run on the server. So a Droplet is your Virtual Machine on a shared server. Since it is a VM, its CPU and memory share can be easily increased, usually by throwing more money at your provider.
How to Create a Digital Ocean Project
I am assuming that you have already signed up and logged in to Digital Ocean before proceeding. We should first create a project that will contain our droplets. Let's click on the new project button on the left side menu. It will ask you to name your project.
Enter whatever name you want. It will also ask you if you want to move any resources, but for now just click Skip â we will create the droplet later.
How to Create a Droplet on Digital Ocean
Let's create our droplet by clicking the Get Started button.
After clicking the button, it will ask us to choose a VM image.
Choosing an Image
On this page, I will select Ubuntu 20.04 since it is the latest LTS version at the time I am writing this post. LTS means "Long Term Support". It is best to go with the LTS version for actual projects, because the provider guarantees that it will be supported and maintained for a long time. This means you will not have problems in the long run.
I have chosen Ubuntu, and would recommend it to you since it is the most commonly used Linux distribution. This means it's also the easiest to find answers to your future questions.
You can also choose to have a Dedicated CPU if you need it. If you are building your own startup or any business project, I would recommend reading this post which contains detailed instructions about how to pick the right option for you.
I will go with the cheapest option in this case.
Then you will need to select a Datacenter region. You should pick the one that is closest to you to minimize network delay.
Select a Datacenter
Next let's select SSH Keys as the Authentication Method, since it is much more secure than basic password authentication.
Authentication Method
To connect to the server we need to generate a new SSH key on our own device and add it to Digital Ocean.
How to Generate an SSH Key
I will generate the key on my macOS device. If you are using Windows you can refer to this article. Open your terminal and move into the ssh folder:
cd ~/.ssh
Then create your SSH key:
ssh-keygen
If your computer says that it does not know this command, you should install it via brew.
It will ask you to name the file and enter a passphrase. Do not enter a name, just press enter and go with the defaults. You should have these files generated. I have named mine digital-ocean-ssh in this screenshot, so do not get confused by that.
⯠lsid_dsa id_rsa known_hosts
Our public key is the id_dsa and the id_rsa is our private key. If you forget which one is private, you can always print one of them to see.
How to Add Your SSH Key to Digital Ocean
Now we want to copy our public key and upload it to Digital Ocean so they will know which key to use in authentication.
Copy this whole key including the ssh-rsa part.
Click on "New SSH Key":
Paste the key in the textbox that appears after you click the button and you should see your SSH key.
How to Connect to the Server
We will use the terminal to connect to our server with SSH. You can also take a look at Termius for a nice interface if you want.
Run this command in your terminal after replacing the IP_ADDRESS with your server's IP address (you can look it up from Digital Ocean's panel).
ssh root@IP_ADDRESS
If everything goes well, now you should be in the server's terminal. We have successfully connected to server. If there is any error, you can debug it by running the command with the "-v" option or "-vv" for even more verbosity.
How to Set Up the Server
We need to do some initial setup before deploying the Node app to the server.
Update and Upgrade Software
We want to update the server's software to make sure we are using the latest versions.
Many servers are vulnerable to attacks because they are using older versions of software with known vulnerabilities. Attackers can search for the vulnerabilities in those software and try to exploit them in order to gain access to your server.
You can update Ubuntu's software using the "apt update" command.
apt updateHit:1 https://repos.insights.digitalocean.com/apt/do-agent main InReleaseGet:2 http://mirrors.digitalocean.com/ubuntu focal InRelease [265 kB] Hit:3 http://mirrors.digitalocean.com/ubuntu focal-updates InRelease Get:4 http://security.ubuntu.com/ubuntu focal-security InRelease [109 kB]Hit:5 http://mirrors.digitalocean.com/ubuntu focal-backports InReleaseFetched 374 kB in 1s (662 kB/s) Reading package lists... DoneBuilding dependency tree Reading state information... Done96 packages can be upgraded. Run 'apt list --upgradable' to see them.
If you read the message, it says that "96 packages can be upgraded". We have installed the new software packages but we have not upgraded our software to those versions yet.
To do that, let's run another command:
apt upgrade
Type y when it prompts you and it will upgrade the software.
Create a User
We have connected to the server as the root user (the user with the highest privileges). Being the root is dangerous and can open us up to vulnerabilities.
Therefore we should create a new user and not run commands as root. Replace $username with a username of your choice.
whoamiroot
adduser $username
You need to enter a password for the user. After that point, it will ask a bunch of questions, so just input y until the prompting is over.
The new user has been created but we also need to add this new user to the "sudo" group so that we can perform any action we need.
usermod -aG sudo $USERNAME
We add group with the -aG (add group) option, and we add the group name sudo to our username.
We are still root, so let's switch our user to the newly created user, using the su (switch user) command.
su $USERNAME
After this point, if you run whoami command, you should see your username. You can confirm the existence of the sudo group by running this command:
sudo cat /var/log/auth.log
Only superusers can view this file and OS will ask for your user password after you run this command.
Copy the SSH Key
We have successfully created the user but we have not enabled SSH login for this new user yet.
Therefore, we have to copy the public key that we previously created on our local computer and paste it into this user's SSH folder so SSH can know which key should it use to authenticate our new user.
mkdir -p ~/.ssh
The -p argument creates the directory if it does not exist.
vi ~/.ssh/authorized_keys
We will use vi or vim to create a file and call it authorized_keys.
Copy your public key (`id_dsa` file) then press "i" to go into insert mode. Then just paste it into this file with CMD + V.
Press esc to quit insert mode, type :wq to save and quit.
If you have any problems about using Vim-Vi, you can check out one of the many tutorials that explain how to use it.
Connect to Server as New User
Now we should be able to connect to the server without any problems using ssh. You can use this command to connect, just remember to insert your username and IP_ADDRESS.
ssh $USERNAME@IP_ADDRESS
If you are having any problems at this point, you should just delete the droplet and start over. It does not take a lot of time to start over but debugging server problems can be difficult.
How to Disable Root Login
It is a good practice to disable Root login as a security precaution, so let's do that now.
It can be useful to change the file permission just in case so that we won't run into problems regarding permissions in the future.
chmod 644 ~/.ssh/authorized_keys
Let's now open our sshd_config file:
sudo vi /etc/ssh/sshd_config
Find this line and change the yes to no in the same way we did earlier with vi.
PermitRootLogin no
Save and quit vi.
How to Install Node.js and Git
We can now go ahead and install Node.js and Git:
sudo apt install nodejs npm
sudo apt install git
We are now ready to create a Node app and run it. You can either pull your Node project from Github or create a Node app here just to test if it works.
Move to a directory of your choice and create an "app.js" file:
sudo vi app.js
You can paste the following snippet into your app.js file:
const express = require('express');const app = express();const port = 3000;app.get('/', (req, res) => { res.send('Hello World');});app.listen(port, () => console.log(`Example app listening on port ${port}!`));
Now we can run it with the command:
node app.js
You should see "Example app listening on port 3000!" on your terminal.
We can confirm that it is working by sending a request to our server:
GET http://IP_ADDRESS:3000/
Send this request either from an HTTP client like Postman or your browser and you should see the "Hello World" message.
At this point, you should notice that something is wrong: Regular users do not know how to send requests to port 3000.
We should redirect the requests that come to our web server from our IP to port 3000. We can accomplish this with the help of Nginx.
How to Install and Configure Nginx
We will use Nginx as a Reverse Proxy to redirect the requests to our Node app.
Nginx as a Reverse Proxy
Let's install Nginx:
sudo apt install nginx
Start the Nginx service:
sudo service nginx start
We can test to see if it is working by sending a request to our server's IP address from the browser. Type your server's IP address to your browser and you should see this:
It is important to know that Nginx serves from "/var/www/html" by default and you can find this HTML file in that directory as well.
I also advise you to create a folder under "/var/www", call it app, and move your Node app to that folder so it will be easy to find.
How to Configure the Nginx Reverse Proxy
We will edit the Nginx config file to configure a reverse proxy:
sudo vi /etc/nginx/sites-available/default
In this file you need to find the location / block and change it as follows:
location / { # First attempt to serve request as file, then # as directory, then fall back to displaying a 404. proxy_pass http://127.0.0.1:3000/; }
The proxy_pass directive proxies the request to a specified port. We give the port that our Node application is running on.
Let's restart Nginx so the changes can take effect:
sudo service nginx reload
After this step, we should be able to see the message when we send a request to our server. Congratulations, we have completed the minimum number of steps to deploy a Node app!
But I still advise you to complete the following bonus step as well, as I believe it's quite important.
If you can't see the hello world message, you can check if your app and Nginx are running and restart them.
How to Run your App as a Process
We do not want to start our application manually every time something goes wrong and our app crashes. We want it to restart on its own. Also, whenever the server starts, our app should start too.
To make this happen, we can use PM2. Let's install PM2 and configure it.
sudo npm i -g pm2
We are installing pm2 globally by using the "-g" option so that it will be accessible from every folder.
pm2 start app.js
This makes sure that the app will restart if it exits due to an error.
Let's save the current process list.
pm2 save
We also need to convert it to a daemon that runs whenever the system starts:
pm2 startup systemd
As a reminder, in this tutorial, I'm using the commands for Ubuntu. If you are using any other Linux distro, you should replace systemd in this command.
We can confirm that the service is getting restarted by rebooting the server and sending a request without running app.js by hand:
sudo reboot
After sending a request as we did earlier, you should be able to see the hello world message.
Conclusion
In this tutorial we started from scratch, rented a server for ourselves, connected to it, and configured it in a way that it serves our Node.js app from port 80.
If you have followed along and were able to complete all steps, congratulations! You can be proud of yourself, as this was not the easiest topic :). I hope that you have learned a lot. Thank you for your time.
I am planning to explore this topic further by connecting the server to a domain name, then connecting it to CircleCI for continuous integration. I'll also go through the required steps to make your Node.js/React app production ready. This post had already gotten long enough, though, so those topics are reserved for another post :)
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Cyberpunk 2077 Refunds: Why Some Players Are Calling the Game a Failure
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We knew fans were going to want to manage their expectations for Cyberpunk 2077, but the post-release conversations and mad dashes for refunds have ensured that Cyberpunk 2077 will contend with The Last of Us Part 2 for the honor of being this yearâs most divisive title.
While weâve previously covered the many, many controversies that impacted Cyberpunk 2077 ahead of its release, few could have predicted that the pre-release debates would only be the start of a much larger argument that has turned Cyberpunk 2077 into a title that has inspired venomous scorn and outright hate from many.
While it would take quite an effort to cover every grievance against Cyberpunk 2077, there are a few key elements of the experience that have attracted the mostâŚpassionate responses to CD Projekt Redâs much-anticipated follow-up to The Witcher 3. Weâre going to look at some of those elements in an attempt to better understand how we got here.
Cyberpunk 2077 is Nearly Unplayable on PS4 and Xbox One
While this particular collection of grievances is in no particular order, this has to be Cyberpunk 2077âs biggest problem at the moment.
Recent Cyberpunk 2077 delays strongly suggested that the game was going to poorly optimized for PS4 and Xbox One, but nothing could have prepared people for how bad those versions of the game really are. Beyond the downgraded graphics and additional bugs is the plain fact that previous-gen consoles are not equipped to effectively run Cyberpunk 2077.Â
The constant crashes that plague those versions of the game make it nearly impossible for console gamers to even try and enjoy Cyberpunk 2077. At a time when itâs nearly impossible to find next-gen consoles and new GPUs, the fact that Cyberpunk 2077 is borderline unplayable on the gaming platforms with the largest active install bases is hard to accept no matter how much youâre enjoying the game.Â
Cyberpunk 2077âs Refund Situation
Recently, Cyberpunk 2077 developer CD Projekt Red issued a statement in which they apologized for the Xbox One and PS4 versions of the game and told players on those platforms that they âcan opt to refundâ their copies of the game if they donât want to wait for improvements.Â
Recently, though, players began reporting that Sony and Microsoft are not necessarily honoring those requests. In an investorsâ call, CD Projekt Red followed-up on this situation by essentially noting that they were just pointing people towards those retailersâ standard refund systems rather than any special arrangements that had been made just for them.Â
While CD Projekt Red has set-up an email address that fans can use for additional refund assistance, itâs not clear how much help theyâre actually able to offer. Overall, many fans are seeing this refund situation as an example of CD Projekt Redâs communication problems and subpar support.
Cyberpunk 2077 Is A Very Buggy Game
It honestly wasnât difficult to guess that Cyberpunk 2077 was going to be a buggy game. There was almos no chance that the game wouldnât launch with the usual array of open-world bugs even if it was delayed another year.Â
That said, Cyberpunk 2077 might just be the buggiest game of the modern era. Along with constant visual bugs, Cyberpunk 2077 features a number of glitches that severely hinder the gameâs performance and, in some cases, have broken the game and made progress impossible.
CD Projekt Red has already addressed some of those bugs in early patches and promise to target the rest in the coming weeks and months. However, even PC, PS5, and Xbox Series X players are currently having to contend with a nearly constant barrage of bugs that come to define most of the time spent with the game.
Cyberpunk 2077âs Missing Features
One of the most contested talking points of the Cyberpunk 2077 debate involves the gameâs missing features.Â
Fans have brought up features like wall-running, customizable cars, and multiple apartment options as examples of features that are missing from the game. However, others have pointed out that CD Projekt Red did state at different points during the development process that some of those specific features were cut and not intended to be in the final game.Â
Even then, thereâs a popular belief that CD Projekt Red may have oversold the impact of certain elements of the game such as the role of police, expanded hacking options, and the global ramifications of your in-game choices. Players feel that many of the smaller elements of the game were either oversold, altered, or simply delivered in a way that matched expectations associated with some of CD Projekt Redâs previous statements.Â
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Cyberpunk 2077âs Potentially Offensive Characterizations and Writing
At multiple points during the gameâs development, some fans pointed out that aspects of Cyberpunk 2077âs gangs, characters, and world felt stereotypical and potentially offensive. CD Projekt Red downplayed some of those concerns by suggesting that some of them could be attributed to only seeing slices of a game that was still a work in progress.Â
Now that weâre playing the final (or at least the âretailâ) version of the game, though, many of those concerns remain valid. Players have been quick to point out the gameâs use of cultural stereotypes and cheap characterizations donât belong in the year 2020 or 2077. Others have stated that the gameâs generally immature tone prevents it from being able to meaningfully address the social commentary elements featured in notable examples of the Cyberpunk genre in different mediums.Â
The debate surrounding this issue will continue, but itâs important to remember that you canât tell someone whether they have the ârightâ to be offended. At the very least, this topic warrants a conversation involving Cyberpunk 2077âs triumphs and shortcomings in this area and how both can be used as practical examples of doing better in the future.Â
Cyberpunk 2077âs âEmptyâ City and Immersion Issues
Cyberpunk 2077âs recreation of Night City was touted as a key component of the gameâs overall experience, but some fans are finding that the retail version of the urban hub leaves them feeling cold.Â
While some have suggested that CD Projekt Red exaggerated certain technical elements of the city (most notably crowd size), the bigger debate concerns the perceived lack of interactive elements in the city itself. Fans lament not being able to play arcade games, lose themselves in city life that exists without their input, or, generally speaking, interact with the city in ways that weâve seen in other notable large world titles such as the Yakuza and Grand Theft Auto series.Â
Itâs been suggested that the expectation for some of these features were based on wishlists rather than unofficial information, but thereâs a popular perception that Night City feels more like a vessel for the missions and collectibles rather than one of the gameâs major characters.Â
Cyberpunk 2077âs Limited Lifepaths
One of the most hyped elements of Cyberpunk 2077 was the gameâs multiple optional origin stories. CD Projekt Red told fans that youâd be able to choose between Corpo, Street Kid, and Nomad lifepaths and that the game would play out differently based on your selection.Â
While those lifepath choices are in the game, some fans feel that this was one of those core experiences that was exaggerated during the build-up period. Each lifepath does offer somewhat unique prologue experiences, but the difference between the various lifepaths largely amounts to which dialog options will be available to you during certain conversations. Â
Again, the question is whether this system is working as CD Projekt Red always intended or whether there were more ambitious plans that were somehow cut short by the gameâs development.
Cyberpunk 2077âs Broken AI
While there are various âlittleâ aspects of the Cyberpunk 2077 experience that many fans are dissatisfied with, one of the more prevalent concerns involves the gameâs AI.
Cyberpunk 2077âs enemy AI is passable (if more than a little buggy and certainly not revolutionary), but the gameâs police and civilian NPC AI have both come under fire for their perceived fundamental inadequacies. Specifically, some players have pointed out that NPCs feel much more static in comparison to the NPCs in other open-world games that often follow their own schedules. Most NPCs wonât even react if you steal things from right under their noses. Many of those same fans have noted that the gameâs police feel oddly omnipotent and donât seem to follow any logical patterns based on their position and your criminal activity. In other words, they kind of just spawn around you like in old-school GTA games.Â
AI is one of those elements of the game that CD Projekt Red absolutely hyped up during the Cyberpunk 2077 pre-release period, so itâs easy to understand why some have pointed out that the final product feels underwhelming.Â
Cyberpunk 2077âs Limited Character Customizations
In an in-game world thatâs practically built around people modifying their bodies and the ways those modifications have reshaped society, itâs more than a little strange that Cyberpunk 2077 wonât even let you get a haircut.Â
While itâs certainly possible to build a Cyberpunk 2077 character equipped with the best cybernetic implants and perks, youâre seemingly never given the chance to meaningfully modify your characterâs physical appearance outside of the initial creation process. For that matter, itâs been pointed out that Cyberpunk 2077âs character creation process feels bare in comparison to other major games that offer similar features.Â
While CD Projekt Red has noted that features such as car customization were cut during development, this is yet another one of those instances where itâs not clear whether or not weâre experiencing CD Projekt Redâs intended vision for the game or a version of the experience that was compromised by production problems.Â
Cyberpunk 2077âs Review Process
Itâs hardly a surprise that there are fans who disagree with early Cyberpunk 2077 reviews, but Cyberpunk 2077âs review process is further complicated by the restrictions reviewers had to adhere to.Â
Not only were all reviewers sent a copy of the PC version of Cyberpunk 2077 (which appears to be the only version of the game thatâs even close to working as intended) but it seems that reviewers were not allowed to use their own gameplay footage in video reviews. This was seen as an attempt to prevent footage of the gameâs buggy performance from leaking ahead of the gameâs release.Â
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There are some who feel that these restrictions and the shape of the game at launch do not currently justify some of the high review scores the game has received so far. At the very least, others are criticizing CD Projekt Red for what they see as an anti-consumer form of damage control.Â
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