#on principle i do not get sick. i will not.
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if i have covid im moving underwater
#multiple coworkers have had it recently & every time i experience anythibg that could be a Symptom i get so mad i Refuse to be sick#on principle i do not get sick. i will not.
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Everyone thinks they can write a romance novel. Scratch that. They think they can write a romance novel better than all the other romance novels. Because of course they can. Romance is trite. It’s trashy. It’s simple.
Everyone thinks they can write a romance novel until they actually sit down to write one.
Because the people who disparage the genre are too embarrassed to engage deeply with the ideas that build the work, to make any meaningful commentary on anything, to add to any on-going conversations. They’re hovering above it all, too precious to land. Instead of writing a romance novel, they’re writing a novel that insists they’re beyond all of this, that says romance is beneath them, it’s not worthy of them.
So they end up with a parody of what they think romance is. I.e. they have written a bad romance novel.
I think it’s true that anyone can write romance. Anyone can do any of the cringey, heart-on-your-sleeve art. In fact, the hardest part is beginning.
Step one: You have to love the thing you’re making.
#ov yilo isi?#squawk tag#does this make sense?#I’m so sick of everyone thinking they’re too good for romance#I think also (and this is what gets me abt the New Romance Authors on Tiktok) you have to /know/ the genre before you can really add to it#in a way that matters. if you havent read widely how do you even know the place your work is fufilling in the community?#also. you cannot simultaneously disparage and profit off a community. it doesn’t work like that.#if you hate romance on principle. go write a fucking nonfiction book abt fishing idk#but stay out of my house#😤
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every day i kick a rock and bash my head into the wall because i'll never get to go on a big space adventure and become tightly close-knit with my new found family up there <//3
#re lrb..........#i mean realistically if i was in the voltron/quintenary stars universe chances are i would probably NOT be one of the people#going on the space adventure.#i'd be roped into the plot when the aliens invade and earth almost gets destroyed. spoilers for arc 2 btw sorry#but man. child soldierism aside i wish that were me so so so bad#sadly kicks a rock when will EYE have a deep and mystical connection with a giant ancient cat :(#its not even that i want to interact with the main cast bc i dont really i just. wanna be in their position man#i think one of the reasons why voltron grabbed me so hard (among MANY) is how badly i wanted to do what the main characters did#i remember when i was first watching it while it was coming out i would CONSISTENTLY daydream about being launched into space#with a handful of other people and having to fight a war and grow up far away from home and all the suffocating stuff that came with it#and then coming back years later already solidly knowing who i am and being confident in that#so i'd actually be brave enough to be unapologetic about it. and i'd be found family with the people i went to space with also#that parts important#idk man just. i dont like saying i was abused when i was younger because i really dont think it was like that and it isnt even close to#what how people who have really been abused have had to go through#but sometimes i really do wonder. like now that im (mostly) out and able to review everything with an outside perspective#not even getting into the cult survivorism stuff this is JUST family dynamics im talking about here#bc that shit is a whole other can of worms#i think my parents were genuinely doing the best they could with the cards they were dealt but. jesus christ.#i would have given ANYTHING to be able to run away from all that. and throw magic cats into the equation? brother im GONE#anyway this tags ramble has derailed in a MAJOR way. tldr i wanted to be a paladin sooooo fuckign bad bro#like it actually makes me SICK how much i want a lion. red you are my forever girl even if only in my heart <///3#i still do want to do all that out of principle but its not as desperate now i just really love space and really want a big kitty friend#winter speaks
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Honestly the roleplay blogs are stronger than I am because if I saw a post where people were saying my blog was annoying and calling me corny I would jump in a large pit and rot away
#I don't think I should tag this one#Okay I've typed my emotions out. For a more normal way to put it: While it makes sense to be upset#best move. I'm sure the blogs in question would be happier if you just told them about the roleplay guidelines than if you made a post#where multiple people call them annoying. Like can you imagine if someone said that about a writing blog#'So sick of x reader fics in the tag I don't want to see that and they're all so out of character' What a dick move.#It is a different case with rp blogs I'll give you that. But I think the principle of the matter stands#unless it doesn't and everything I said is stupid#original ramble below I was so mad for some reason. im not mad at anyone really. everyone is cool. love you guys#I get why people are unhappy that theyre clogging up the tags#like despiar dev said not to and people want to see content of despiar thyme not just ask blogs#I saw someone say they just blocked them and like. I get why. however. people do not know everything#but my brother in Christ you're not helping the matter!!!!!!!!1 send them a screenshot of what despiar dev said!!!!help other people!!!!!!!#just politely tell them instead of weirdly vague posting it helps everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! maybe they just don't know#misspelling the tags so no one finds this post. I will actually be so pissed if people find this and r upset#Oh I'm sorry THIS is the post you're noticing? You have followed me for over six months and you haven't said anything about any other negat#negative feelings i've expressed. I see how it is#I wish the drdt confessions account was still open but whatever fucking whatever#sui mention#personal vent#whatever I guess
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i hate that the majority of us will never find true fulfillment in our jobs. it's so fucking sad (and i need to find lit on the subject and the very concept of work vs jobs). i'm still trying to accept that reality, because i really don't think i can ever stand to work for someone else period, but i can't do anything about it right now. i'm trying not to think of a career or anything like that or else i'll want to throw myself off this building, but there's a lot of comfort in really understanding that i'm working to keep myself afloat/fuel my hobbies/stay sharp. i don't think i ever really understood that until the traumatic experience i had from my previous job, because i've always had this tendency to pour my whole being into whatever organization/company i'm a part of (not very commie of me but i know better now). that usually meant striving for perfection and overworking to the point of severe burnout (which has happened three times now) for a company that would sooner watch me crash and burn than give me what i'm ACTUALLY due. i feel like this is all kind of obvious when i think about it sometimes, but now that i'm actually living it and actively learning from it, yeah it's definitely different.
im deleting this soon i just need to post this rn because notion makes me feel really alone sometimes
#i'm getting pretty nervy because it's been a while since i left that company and i'm getting sick of not earning money#but i'm learning to give myself more grace and ample time to rest and really think about what i want out of life#because i forget and when i do have an idea im always paralyzed and don't know how to proceed#and i'm still learning all of that when last year i jumped at this opportunity because it's an extremely huge company#but neither the industry nor the job itself aligned with my principles... not to mention the hours and the lack of overtime pay and god.#the abusive boss. in hindsight i'm proud that i lasted as long as i did and still did a fucking great job until i couldn't anymore#anyway tldr im wiser now and im trying to be less nervous and be more conscious about my next job pic. i'll research well#and teach myself new stuff since i want to distance myself from hr as much as possible
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i think i have dyscalculia because i'm not a stupid person but i've been struggling with math my entire life. i know how it feels to Think i solved a math problem - euphoria! - but have rarely ever actually solved one accurately without significant help along the way. there are things i should and hypothetically do enjoy, like drafting, that i'm seemingly incapable of doing well bc i can't keep the numbers straight. people with dyscalculia describe numbers feeling "slippery," like they change before their eyes, and that's exactly how it feels. or thinking about numbers is like carrying too many bags of groceries, and they eventually start snapping (disappearing/falling away). it pisses me off because teachers always described my problems with math like i just wasn't trying, but i was. there isn't much you can do when the numbers aren't appearing to you or appeared differently to you on first read. "slow down, stop making careless mistakes." i can assure you i cared. sigh
#things like economics that i understand the principles of almost intuitively#but can't really do anything with because i'm not capable of creating accurate models sfnjdlkls#i know this sounds like i'm just beating myself up and being defeatist (or i assume it does)#but like. i am sick of feeling this way about numbers and yes this is related to my anger re: 2fa.#if a site lets me paste a code in then it's ok but if i can't copy and paste for some reason#i often have to get like 3 or 5 codes bc i keep putting them in wrong#despite double checking and singing little tunes with the numbers etc.#like using 2fa is a 10-minute process
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i need to transition….i am losing my mind thinking about going into adulthood being seen as a woman it makes me want to. i was gonna say either puke or rip my hair out but. it doesn’t make me want to do those things actually. it just makes me feel bad.
#like. every time i remember that the perception that i and some friends and kind people have of me is not the perception that society as a#whole and even my dear parents have of me. i feel sick. i will always be a girl to my parents no matter how “supportive” they claim to be#how am i supposed to convince them that i need to get hrt. how can i do that what the country i live in is filled with so much hate for#people like me? god. i need to change my name i need to go on testosterone i need to get top surgery i need to be a BOY.#as much as i don’t care about how other people see me in principle and as much as i believe i am already a guy because. i am. i need to be#seen as one. i need to. i cry everytime i think about this. because it’s always felt so inaccessible to me. to transition. even with a#relatively accepting family. but i always believed that once i turn 18. i could do it. and i would feel so much better. but i turn 18 in#less than three months and it feels more impossible than ever#i just want to feel like myself.#remy rambles#rant
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1 allowed post per day : oh my GOD im so tired why am i SOO tired when i have been awake later than this many many times
#chaos.txt#my brother is in a&e and they're just SITTING THERE and . and. he's fine .#god i feel so useless. try to be a doctor but everyone gets sick before you can fucking help!!!!#IN OTHER NEWS. watched nye by the national theatre :) free on yt What a show#GOD!!! what a show#i didn't even know it was about the nhs i was just gonna watch it because 1. free play 2. michael sheen and 3. FREE PLAY!!#but it was so good i was weepy in the first 2 minutes i won't lie. and then i did cry again 30 minutes in#RLY GOOD ACTING!!! + MY HEART AND SOUL!!!!! = crying!!!!!#idk. idk. healthcare has my heart i think. i think maybe it's an autism attachment thing#but like. man. i love that im doing this. i have SO much love for the principles of my future workplace#like i KNOW its shit. i know. it's never gonna be perfect. never ever. there'll never be enough beds#but every person is entitled to one. my mum got an mri and blood transfusion 2 years ago#my brother needs a cyst draining now. and we have felt nothing. not a pinch#i dunno!!! im just. so fucking grateful. please watch nye if you can. it's only up till 11/11. and it's really good#and it means a lot to me
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things i wish everyone a very shut the fuck up about in other tags this new year:
- barbie/oppenheimer
- the magnus archives
#not tagging this with anything in order to adhere to my own principles#space taker upper tag so people dont have to read any of my ranting... bbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb#ok thatll do#but seriously i am so fucking sick of going into a podcast tag and all i can find are either completely generic posts the op has tagged#with every podcast under the sun OR jokes/polls involving t*m*a because ofc it's still popular enough to overshadow all the posts im#actually interested in seeing#like you dont have to compare everything to this we get it you listened to two (2) podcasts. just leave it alone#it's exactly the same with barb*nhe*m*r but what really pissed me off with that one was seeing it in the godzilla tag last week. THIS IS NOT#ABOUT YOU 'ooooouhh one movie is serious and the other has pink in it this is just like-' GET A DIFFERENT HOBBY.#honestly there was so much hype i was sick of it before the movies even released but it's still all over the place like i dont even care#if theyre any good or not just keep your shit in your own fucking tags it's not hard#UGHHHH whatever.#once again just so it's clear im censoring the titles in the tags so this post wont show up there it wouldnt change anything if it did and#im not interested in spreading negativity/getting people mad at me for nothing#original
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brain being STUPID
#i know its hormones 10000%#like im on my period and running a fever rn. but hes been in ireland this week so i havent been texting him bc international fees and all#and also i dont wanna be distracting him while hes out on vacation yk. he should be having fun not texting me#but now that hes back a little voice in my brains like HE HASNT TEXTED YET!! HES GOING TO PHASE YOU OUT!!#and im not actively worried about that?? bc theres no reason to be?? but idk man im sick of my brain trying to self sabotage#like when i was in bed next to him having a full blown panic attack while most of my thoughts were completely calm and collected#and mostly along the lines of 'this is stuuuupppiiiiiddd 🙄'#its just when i let my guard down (like when im going to bed or getting sick) that this shit strikes. and its annoying bc i dont BELIEVE it#and sometimes its even stuff i make an active point of NOT believing#like when i was having that nervous breakdown the only part of my rational brain that was actually upset was the part that thought#'this isnt in line with my principles. i do not want my past experiences to make me a distrustful person and i loathe the fact that i cant#put this feeling out of my body despite that'#stupid. my brain should do what i want. why else is it there
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queer subtext is where it's at forever and you'll never take that away from me
#give me “bestie” roommates and intricate rituals and doing the unthinkable to/for a friend/rival bc of these feelings you can't say out loud#queer subtext still has a very important place in media#and i feel like 'queerbaiting' has made everyone scared#which is understandable but stupid of the culture lmfao#but anyway i'm sick of 'queer' as a selling point it's stupid#don't tell me something's gay or i'll dislike it on principle#not to say i don't like canon gay things ofc#but don't act like that's gonna get me any closer to checking it out#.txt
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im losing the idgaf wars
#like a part of me doesnt even give a shit anymore and the other part of me is mad on principle#im so annoyed -_-#i may as well just break it off here this is so stupid#im not even SAD im mad because i was worrying myself sick and this is the fucking response i get#literally what is the point#i just wasted two years of my life like… omfg my high school life is like over and i never even got to experience anything#all leading up to this… like personally i would give more than a two word response and i would NOT continue to do a sick combo of#stonewalling + ghosting but i guess everyone is built different.#last time this kind of shit happened i cried my eyes out every night and spiralled but now i dont feel sad at all.#just like a mix of mad and frustrated and also a little amused but just a little bit
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im going to commit a violence
#my mom has covid and she’s had covid for like a week now and i just texted her asking how she was doing and she said she still doesnt feel#well and her chest has been hurting. she said she tried to go to her doctor but when she said she had chest pain her doctor told her to go#to the hospital. naturally she’s not doing that and said she’s just going to ‘wait until it goes away’#and then she said she would see me saturday for my brother’s birthday dinner which we were planning to have in a public restaurant. so if#my mom is planning on showing up to a public restaurant still sick with covid then i am not going to fucking be there like sorry to my#brother but we can hang out another time. anyway i am just so fucking pissed off that ppl treat covid like this#last weekend my mom considered bringing my sister with multiple health issues home from her group home for the weekend like normal. except#she fucking has covid. and she was still thinking of doing this#like why would you fucking do that what if my sister got covid what if she brought it back to the entire group home of individuals with#health complications#she didnt actually bring her home but its the same principle going into a public space. what about the people there will health issues or#who have relatives and friends with health issues#im going to call my brother and tell him im not going if our mom is and i told our sister about it too so im sure my mom will get pissy at#me about it but i’d rather deal with her being irritating than having covid so#sam speaks
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I still really enjoyed it but ep 3 of wonderhole felt overly edited to me? Like the skydiving scene was so short, we kinda whizzed thru all the options but then there was the end scene at the ferries wheel with NO explanation as to how they came to that idea OR what the helmets were/how they worked, anything ?!
Did I zone out and miss that or something?!
I haven't looked yet but I hope there is a long ass behind the scenes to fill in the gaps
#i'm not against a shorter runtime (and maybe they are testing that)#but some things felt a little rushed especially the end - i was like huh how did we get here?#which is a shame cuz i think in principle the set up is my fave of the 3#the fake vloggging. a song. them trying to fulfil childhood dreams. doing silly but cool things#don't get me wrong the sci fi in ep 2 was sick i just didnt find it as funny as the other 2 eps. and i assume it is meant to be a comedy lol#also next ep about ben is gonna be a cryer isnt it? ugh
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get in, loser || simp!classmate!rafe x mean!popular!reader
summary : admiration ? too light. obssession ? not enough. devotion ? perfect treatment.
warnings : +18 content. minors dni. smut. oral. sub!rafe (boy toy). act of devotion. public masturbation. p in v. verbal humiliation. lollipop. facesitting. mean girls. a lot of teasing. fingers sucking. a bit of cum eating. be aware of the warnings before reading. very pink content, i'm sorry.
author's note : i just wanted to write another thing about them...this is highly depraved.
you never had a boyfriend and you’ve never wanted one because you didn’t know how it would serve you. you already had everything, you didn't need a man by your side to be the center of attention. you were the perfect replica of the mean girls from the cult films of the 2000s. you could just as easily be a Regina George or a Jennifer Check. the world revolved around you, which meant that without you, everything fell apart.
and above all you didn't need a boyfriend because you had a boy toy now. rafe cameron. he was so obedient and docile, well he was especially so because you were a good mistress.
he didn't listen to you because he was afraid of you, but because he would do anything for you. he lived by your rules and your principles.
and today you wanted to have fun. it was the last day of school before the weekend and you were wearing one of his favorite t-shirts, a white tank that allowed him to see the size of your boobs and your perked nipples through the clothing. but above all, you didn't wear a bra so they swayed in slow motion with each of your steps. the way they were slowly bouncing simultaneously pressed together in the fabric while you walked towards him, phone in hand.
you wore a plump gloss which gave volume to your lips, but above all which made your mouth so luscious and shiny.
when you sat next to him, he shifted slightly but mostly stared at you because it wasn't usual. you were always near your girlfriends, you always took care to ignore him in class and even in public. you loved playing with his feelings. as a bitch, you were good at this.
you loved laughing with your girlfriends watching him while knowing he would feel miserable and pathetic because he would never know if it was him you were talking about. you loved getting him hard before going to class just to see him squirm in his chair, and be unable to form two sentences in front of the teacher without stammering. but above all, you loved being cruel, pretending through messages that you were going to touch him, suck him, drive him crazy to finally change your mind in front of him. “oh really? when did i say that? you know, i'm very confused. "
"o-on...by message..."
"are you saying i'm a liar, cameron?" you approached him threateningly, your eyebrows furrowed and your pout upset, forcing him to step back because your heels kicked on the ground was quietly intimidating. “oh you're gonna cry, stupid ? "
he softened himself, thinking that you will be kind to him. his shoulders slumped and he swallowed hard. you slid your mouth next to his ear. “you should, loser. ”
his eyes were in tears as you were playing your favorite game — bully him. sometimes you could be such a whore. but you were also terribly hot and he hated as much as he loved the effect you had on him.
you bust out laughing, before running a hand through his hair to gently pat his head. “I was kidding. don't be mad at me...or let me do something for you..." you pushed his hand into your panties. “do your job. and you better do it well. ”
he shaked his head vividly, as you could feel his fingers making their way to your pussy. he loved being inside you so much, even if it was just his hand. but sometimes you managed to make him so sick because you purposely didn't whine just to make him frustrated. you watched him exhaust himself with a puppy glaze, his completely soaked fingers thrusting in and out, fucking you deep, pooling your own wetness out of your cunt while fingering you. “h-he…lp…” he pleaded, his own saliva running down his chin.
and you stood there with your lips sealed while he moaned against the side of your face because it felt so good. but it was also hard for you to contain all the spasms and pleasure that was coursing through your body. you were forced to control yourself, to not show anything while his fingertips moved back and forth inside your walls, slamming down your canal. his cock was so hard in his pants. it was terribly painful at this point. and you didn't care. all that frustration you inflicted on him, he took it out on the sex doll in his room. all the cum you didn't let him implode was going to be released in this girl's pussy.
today, you sat next to him, placing your bag noisily on his table.
“I thought you didn’t want us to be seen together. " he commented.
" oh don't worry. I told my friends I was doing charity today. " you replied.
class had started and you had a lollipop in your mouth for a few minutes. and you knew very well that Rafe was unable to concentrate on what the teacher was saying when you were sucking that shit so close to him, with your sticky tongue latched on over the candy. you were making discreet but obscene noises. it was a classic cherry lollipop.
his cheeks had heated. you twisted your tongue around the candy, playing with it a little.
your muscle curled around the lollipop like you did so well around his cock, a few dripping licks had been liberally placed while you pretended to concentrate on the lesson.
“get your dick out.“ you ordered. “i want to have fun.”
you didn't need to say it twice before his cock was released, springing free against his thighs. you don't know why you were always so amazed at his size. However, you had already seen it several times. but damn, that was the only thing he could dethrone you on. his heavy cock hung in the air, precum beading at the red tip.
he wore the cock ring that you ordered him to wear. “you're gonna be even bigger, loser. “you encouraged him.
you pushed the lollipop out of your lips to bring it to the glistening tip of his dick. you used the side of the candy to feel the precum wetting the sugar with amusement. you let the substance soak into the candy before letting it run down his erect shaft. you aimed the sweet treat at his penis, tracing the hard veins that ran along his member, while teasing him softly with the edible part of the stick.
you stroked his cock with the lollipop, teasing his entire length. you drove the candy over his hardened cock, watching the blood pressure enlarge his thick veins. the lollipop was so small next to it. when the candy had been completely wet and dripping, between a mixture of cum, sugar and saliva, you had slipped it between Rafe's lips. you pushed it against his tongue, forcing him to gasp over it, before applying pressure to his cheeks with your fingers to watch him swallow.
but you weren't finished, you wanted more. you spat discreetly into your hand before wetting his entire cock. you wanted to please him a little so you gave him this handjob he dreamed of in class. you fisted him up and down, feeling him grow in your grip, while you worked all dick. his balls were hard and heavy, perfectly caged between his legs.
he was trying so badly to hide his urge to moan, his lips were twisted and tense, his teeth buried inside his bottom one. he squirmed in his chair, his tummy twitching hard from the pleasure. you were so good with your hand. while you stroked him, you loved to tighten your fingers around him. it was at this moment that his gasps were more intense and that you started to pump him faster. the speed of your movements let him so weak, as cries rolling down his cheeks.
he was so pretty when he was about to explode. “ is your dick hard for me, or because you're enjoying being a pussy ? ” you murmured right in his ear.
strangely, you let him take your virginity on the same day. after you invited him to your house. and then there was no one at home, no evidence, no traces. no one would know.
“get on the bed. ” you commanded. “ you've got such a pretty face, will you let me sit on it ? i know you will because you will do anything to please me. ”
he obeyed in a second and you undressed. you had taken off all of your clothes before sitting on his face. you had always dreamed of doing this and this was the perfect opportunity.
“now, it's your choice. you can be a good boy that makes me cum with his tongue...or just a good dog that only knows how to lick. show me how you want to be treated. ”
" y-yes...yes..i just want to make you feel good." he just pleaded, before being silenced by the contact of your pussy on his lips.
you were heavy. but in such a good way, he was so turned on by the way you were sitting on him, pressuring the weight of your body on his mouth, making yourself a seat on his face while he was already lapping at your soaked folds, tearing your lips apart with his tongue and starting to licks at your parts. your taste was so sweet, filled with the froth of his saliva. you began to rub yourself, pushing your cunt deeper inside his mouth to muffle his pathetic wimps. his voice was so needy.
as you were fucking his whole face, your asscheeks was brushing his nose, making him even more horny. his dick was thick, literally twitching over his flat tummy. the hard lines of his muscles were swollen.
you couldn't help but moan, but you wouldn't dare saying his name. he was lapping with such devotion, feeding your greedy cunt with needy and fat laps. his tongue was inside you, ruining your walls with appetite. he was drooling at the corner of his mouth, and on the underside of your butt.
it was as if his tongue only belonged inside you. you tried to stay in control even though you couldn't deny the pleasure that consumed you. “It feels so good..." you had escaped, holding your breasts in the palm of your hands.
you gripped the sheets when he started to get wilder in the thrusts of his tongue. your body moved in sync. as he was below you, you took the opportunity to move your ass above him, lightly slapping his face with the jiggles of your cheeks. oh god, he was so pathetic, completely hard being crushed under your weight, having his face below your soaked pussy, being covered in your wetness and drool, having his cock painfully hard and leaking, because his mouth was fucked. you could feel his heavy breath coating the heat of your core.
he had cum all over his own stomach, and you rolled your eyes. it wasn't the first time he came without warning, it was so compulsive for him. he couldn't control it.
you lay down next to him before collecting the cum on his tummy, teasing the sticky white steam with your fingers before plunging them inside your pussy. you filled yourself with his releasing, your two eyes on him, white loads leaking at your entrance. “ are you gonna Fuck me or do I need to make all the job by myself ? ”
“ i-i…”
“ such a pathetic boy, can't even speak properly with his mouth. ”
you spread your legs, and he came closer. he was so needy that he was nervous. his hands were shaking, barely able to hold his throbbing cock. you had to wait a few minutes before he slipped inside you. he whimpered all his way to your walls at the comfort of your pussy around him.
because he couldn't wait any longer, he conducted several forceful thrusts into the deep of your core. he could see his own cum floating with your wetness at the outline of your swollen cunt. his cries was loud as he pounded into you deeper, making sure he strikes your spot everytime. he was sweating, a drop of sweats watering from his torso. your legs was locked againt his arms as he was fucking you like he ever dreamed of.
his breathing was running shorter and shorter as the heat was stronger. he sunk every inch of his dick in your hole.
he never fucked a girl and he didn't know if he was doing good but his head was empty. all his neurons were dead and it was all about sex and pleasure. and you were nothing better, all dumb by his fat cock, his merciless length feeding your insides. his face was hidden in your neck, his lips salivating on your flesh. " i-i-m...cu..a-aah..plea.se…"
it wasn't already more than ten minutes but he couldn't help. he could cum literally every five minutes inside you, because of his urges, because of the way you make him feel. you were stuffed hard, all his shaft buried in your canal. every hard back and forth left his dick all red and sticky while he was leaving beads of cum on your slit. “ that's a good boy. ” you praised, biting your lower lips. “ but now, are you gonna make me cum ? ”
you wrapped a hand around his throat while he was on top of you. you let him fuck you and abuse your cervix. when he felt your fingers around his neck, it completely turned him on. and all his thrusts had become even more intense as he was increasing the pace. your stomach was spiraling, and his eyes were glued to that.
“h-harder..please..." he was begging at you from more pressure.
"such a freak..." you replied, before wrapping his neck tighter.
your grip was now tight around his throat, his eyes rolled back as he was still fucking you raw, all your pussy milking him. you were draining him. the blue of his gaze was perfect, shiny in the light of the room because of tears. he exploded again and again until his dick start to play difficult to fuck you another round.
he was so handsome.
it wasn't your habit but you kept him in your arms. you felt the need to be nice to him after all his efforts. he was still sweltering and sweating, his body decorated with cute red marks, and you couldn't help but smile.
“hey, you did so good for me. i'm proud, very proud. ” you gently said.
your compliments had given him chills. and his tears had again welled up in his eyes.
“please, cameron.stop being a crybaby. ” you sighed with an annoying tone. “god instead of cries, i should hear how grateful you are to let you fuck me. ”
“thanks...y-you...”
“if your friends saw you like that..." you scoffed. "and if they saw you like that..." you whispered against his ear. "I can already hear the gossip...oh and your father, what would he think of you?"
you felt him shiver under your touch. “that's why you need to be kind with me, rafe. but you're a good boy, aren't you? say it, say it to me. "
“I'm...your good boy. ” he cried out with a gasp, shaking tears on his cheeks.
“ look at yourself, not only are you a good boy, rafe cameron but you're also such a pathetic thing. this is why i need to make you mine. all mine.”
you stood up to take a red marker and marked on his back with permanent ink. “ y/n’s private property. "
“now, i wish you luck in hiding that you belong to me. “
he grimaced. “ do you understand what it means ? you have my name on your fucking back. and you will have such a hard time removing it. you wanted to be obsessed with me ? fine, because now i leave you no choice than being devoted to me. you wake up, it's me. every time you jerk off, it's me. everything you think, it's me. everytime you breathe, it's me. i want everyone on that fucking island to know which pussy make you so dumb and pathetic. is it clear ? ” your hands were gripping around his throat as you spoke.
he nodded his head like a good sub.
“ words. ”
“ yes…i just…i just want you. ” he sobbed, your hands around his neck making it difficult for him to answer properly.
“ so what are you thinking right now ?”
“ you. ” he replied with such a pretty feverish tone.
“ good answer, little boy. ” you praised, while giving him a little pat on the cheeks. “ now, who do you like ? ”
“ you. it's you. ” he repeated.
“ do you want me ? ”
“ i want you. ” he confessed, moving into the space of your spreaded legs. his head was now on your lap, while you stroked his hair gently. “ i need you…” he continued.
“ of course, you need me. i'm the only one to care about you. ” when you rubbed his bottom lip, feeling the sweet wetness of his drool against your thumb, he let out a soft moan before opening his mouth, allowing you to brush fingers in his tongue.
his gaze was precious, a bit teary as his whole mouth was starting to suck your fingertips. his lips were moving faster around your fingers, taking them to the back of his warm tongue. you loved to watch your digits disappear on the side of his muscle, the sucking sounds filling the room as you could feel him grow again in his pants. he was whining at the feeling of pleasure, keeping your fingers in his mouth.
“ mmh…stay like that. i want to take some pictures…” you said in your casual mean girl tone. “ you know, baby…for sleepovers with my girlfriends , we really need something to make fun of and nothing makes us laugh more than pathetic men. ”
your gaze went down his thighs. “ oh god, i'm gonna take such beautiful pictures…please, continue to make your dick leak. soak yourself, show them how pretty you are. i want them to be jealous of what we have. ”
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Recently I’ve learned So Much about teaching mainly that teachers don’t rlly know what they’re doing all the time
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