#omg i wrote too much T.T

[venriliz]

10 random facts about me

got tagged by @druidberries @alientown @papermint-airplane TY <3

u literally tagged the most boring person but that's probably what half of all people think of themselves, huh? °-° i might regurgitate some of the facts i used for my introduction post in the sims of tumblr community. i wrote a lot so i'll put a cut with the facts below here. °-°

my birthday is the 4th of july and when i was a kid (prolly like 5 or 6) i saw an american parade on the news on tv. after i asked my dad why these people are celebrating he literally told me that they're celebrating my birthday °_° i believed for several years that americans celebrated my fucking birthday bc i wasn't aware of independence day existing lmfao. my dad just loved fooling me V.V he might be dead but i'm still holding that grudge lol.

i'm kinda lucky to be alive i guess? when i was a kid i was hit by a car in what we in germany call "Spielstraße" which is kinda like a street in dense neighborhoods where kids are allowed to play freely and cars aren't allowed to go faster than 7 kph/4.3 mph. i don't now how fast the driver was but it probably was something around 30 kph/18 mph. i didn't have very bad injuries but still °-° i could've died.

i was a typical horse girl as a kid (i still like horses but i'm not riding anymore because i'm a very old 20-something with knee problems lol) and i was fucking INSUFFERABLE abt it.

i don't want to have kids or get married. i'm not one of those people who hate children like i love my nieces and my nephew BUT i have a lot of mental health issues and can't possibly take care of another life if i can barely take care of myself properly, right? marriage to me is just a weird concept. i can totally respect people getting married and if i'm invited to a wedding i'm obviously attending but i personally can't really subscribe to the idea of binding myself to someone with a piece of paper and it then being such a stupid process when it doesn't work out. also... it costs too much money lol

i have kind of an affinity for finding missing pets (i also photograph every missing poster i see so i guess that helps with recognizing them?)

i was NOT good at school like i kinda sucked and i can probably blame a mixture of mental health issues, trouble at home and also being a lazy teenager that just wasn't really built for school life lol. i barely managed to get the "Mittlere Reife" (if you're german u know what i mean. i could explain what that means but explaining the german school system would take years). english, german and biology were my only good classes. i absolutely hated math like we're lifelong enemies.

speaking of germany, i am from germany or to be more specific from the most northern region nearest to the danish border and i LOVE living here. the north and baltic sea are close to me and people here are usually quite chill. the only thing i don't like that much abt living here is kind of the regional cuisine bc a lot of it is fish and i don't like eating fish T.T

i HATE going shopping (i'm an online shopper °-° EMP my beloved) and my friends just don't take me with them on shopping trips bc they know i'll kill the mood by complaining like a child and wanting to go back home lmfao

the first sims game for me was the og Sims and i almost fried my dad's old ass pc playing it. my first vivid memory of the game was noticing that here and there random houses appeard out of seemingly nowhere. the goths got a new house that didn't fit their vibe for example lol. years later my dad told me that he used to play the game when i was sleeping and just built these houses lmfao. so i guess my dad was an og simmer oO.

i remember 9/11 (yes i'm old enough don't age shame me T.T). i was in kindergarten at that time and just came home from a friends house when the towers fell. i saw it on tv and even though i was very young i understood that a lot of people were getting hurt. definitely had an impact on me as a kid.

yeah that's it. i rambled a lot but yeah °-°

tagging @landgraabbed @olli-online @living-undead @moonwoodhollow @microscotch @crazy-lazy-elder-sims @aniraklova @tiallussims @skaterboi108 @faerun-s @cristalviper @none-of-these-days @fadingforrest @acuar-io @elderwisp @lilamausmaus @simpleratattack @azeterna @butteredfrogs @mmonetsims and everybody else who reads this! HA!

[hannie-dul-set]

Hello. I don't know how Tumblr works, but I'm sending you this message because I think this is a communication channel.

I'm Korean, and I've been reading this with a translator, and I'm writing this with a translator as well. I'll correct this to some extent but I ask for your understanding if the writing is weird... I've had a lot of likes so far, but i thought your <the psychology of strawberrie> has been the best among them all. It was pretty overwhelmingly long compared to the others, but it wasn't too boring and the storyline was perfect. It was impressive that Ricky x reader posts features all 9 members. It was interesting that a reference to Pavlov came out in the part where reader hand over strawberries candy to Ricky. It was also nice that the story of the psychology class that first came out in this part was mentioned again later. I liked the style, the composition of the writing, and the double track. I'm sorry that I'm not good at English, so I can only read this wonderful text in awkward translations.ㅠㅠㅠㅠ...T.T...😭😭😭😭

I wrote it for too long, I'm sorry... Anyway, I was so touched by your writing that I wanted to say thank you very much. I don't know what time it will be where you are, but have a good day.

omg please don't be sorry!! i really appreciate that you took the time and effort to write and translate this just so you can send me your thoughts, i really do!! so thank you!!

glad to hear you enjoyed the fic<33 whenever i write long one's such as this one, i always end up with a large ensemble of characters bcs it'd be more fun and realistic that way and there'd be a lot more things to write about that if it'd just be between the two leads!!

thank you so much for reading and enjoying my writing 🥹 wishing you a wonderful day as well!!

[myers-meadow]

This is a little more than 500 words, but omg i loved your Priest fic so much. This is less of a "what were you thinking?" and more of a "these were my favorite parts". Thank you for making this masterpiece ❤

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“Father, is this truly..?”

Michael growled, a primal sound, and it was answer enough. Your lip between his teeth, you leaned into him, his body firm and warm. His broad arms caged you in, if the cramped confessional didn’t already. Rough fingers unbuttoned your blouse and pulled it down your shoulders.

“You’ll be my little angel, wouldn’t you?” he said, breath hot on your ear. Sharp nips were eased with sweet whispers, trailing up and down your neck. The roughness of his hands and teeth made you throb. He pushed down your bra, found a nipple to toy with. Another hand groped your ass as he moved your hips against his own. “Doesn’t that feel good? Do I make you feel good? How could this be wrong, my love? Oh, you taste so sweet.”

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“Will you sin for me, Father?”

Immediately a hand around your throat forced you to look at him and he pressed his lips to yours once more, in a mean, biting kiss. You could do little else but enjoy it, panting as you pressed your pelvis to his. With combined effort, his erection sprung free, already wet at the tip and velvet smooth. A vein trailed around the side, and you stroked it, each touch caused it to spasm. He muffled his groans by biting your neck. Then it was your turn. His fingers slid over your labia, then pulled at the fabric that covered them.

“Take it off,” he said, voice thick with lust, so low it was barely audible. “Take them off.”

In an attempt to move away, you hit your head on the door, not too hard, and Michael’s patience ran out. As you leaned back, he balled his fists in the fabric and tore it with barely restrained strength. Something was off about that, but your head was far too clouded to care. More gently, he pulled you back to him, one hand over your hair, the spot you had hit on the wood, soothing it over. The other found your clit. You jolted at each light touch, much like he had, then he pressed harder, circling slowly.

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“My sweet little angel,” he murmured. “I’ve been dreaming of this, of having you all for me.”

Each centimetre you pushed down on his cock opened you up more. Eyes pressed shut in concentration. The pace you were sinking down on him was unreliable and messy, and then, finally, you pressed against him. The deepest sigh, straight from the belly. His cock was nestled so deep inside, pressed against a particularly sensitive spot.

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His lips by your ear, breath tickling. “Keep moving.”

Hand freed from your hip, instead grabbed hold of your throat. Instantly you tightened around him, supressing another whimper. You wanted to beg him, for anything. The pace was deep, oh so deep, sweet as he hit just the right spot each time. It was too slow to release anything of that pressure. It felt like an eternity until the woman stood up from her position. She took her time stretching her legs, before leaving. Even before hearing the door fall shut, he released your throat, and pounded up into you at a punishing pace. Still hitting deep, the increase was all you had been silently begging for.

Hi! Youre so nice!! sdfjkaksdfjaskjdfks thank you so so much!! that means so much to me T.T ;;;; I wrote that entire thing in one sitting, as if some spirit overcame me until it was done. I am very glad (proud?) of how it came out in the end. It means a lot to me that you liked it and didn't mind the 'creative liberties' i took to make the AU happen. I like talking about my writing (is there a writer who doesnt?) so i will give some remarks :)).

"As you leaned back, he balled his fists in the fabric and tore it with barely restrained strength. Something was off about that, but your head was far too clouded to care." This part hints that he's still very much Michael Myers, stronger than should be possible. More hides behind the facade of a priest.

“Doesn’t that feel good? Do I make you feel good? How could this be wrong, my love? Oh, you taste so sweet.” Considering someone so good that cherishing them and touching them could not possibly be sinful. I enjoyed playing with the semi-religious imagery of the 'angel' as a pet name and so on.

Michael being Michael is also hinted at with the roughness, and the obsessiveness (with both reader and with being in control). 'look at me', 'keep moving', hand on throat etc.

Still im very soft for hims, so he soothes and thinks with the reader, to show he does not see them as unimportant. Quite the opposite.

"More gently, he pulled you back to him, one hand over your hair, the spot you had hit on the wood, soothing it over. The other found your clit. You jolted at each light touch, much like he had, then he pressed harder, circling slowly." Again, he pays attention, he cares for reader's pleasure. It's not a meaningless fuck, even if that could be disputed by either.

ok so in the end; yes i think about writing a lot, and i have many thoughts in brain always (v tiring) and this was a ton of fun to write and i thank you so deeply for your ask and your kind words. It is much appreciated to be able to discuss a fic a bit and i will sleep wel with knowledge that you enjoyed it <3<3<3

[taetaespeaches]

Hi!! Im just stopping to say that im so excited that you write for svt.... in a way it feels like having a friend liking the same thing as you LIKE HI HELLO I LIKE BTS AND SVT TOO (lots of excited giggles) and i love your writing so much,, the excitement is out the roof omg

I have not read the jeonghan's one yet, but when i first see it..... the giggles and small screams i let out..... i am very excited to read it REALLY

i hope this ask does not come off as pressuring you to write more abt svt, i think you have wrote somewhere that writing svt does not mean you will write about the frequently (am i wrong? or has it changed?? college is taking a toll on me so i cantcom3 here often t.t) so just see this ask a passing excited reader who is very grateful one of her fav fic writers write for her fav groups hehe thank you for writing live i hope you have a very nice day ^^

ps: writing this makes me realise that my vocab is decreasing despite writing pages reports everyday... the amount of excited i used.... embarassing BUT i hope it delivers my greatefulness and..... excitement 😭😭

Awww I love that- we ARE friends who like the same groups dang it! I've been having a lot of fun writing for svt! Since I love writing for the longterm couples for bts I don't get to do the meet cutes as much anymore or like angstier pieces or au's as much so writing for svt has really allowed me to try some new stuff and it's been a blast. (Not complaining about writing for bts though, the longterm couples are my babies, I will never not enjoy writing them)

I did say something like that but what I meant was that with bts I try to post one fic a week and I wasn't sure if I'd be able to maintain that same kind of schedule with svt too. So like I will continue to write for svt and I actually just made a masterlist (though there's a lot of members without anything :( so idk if I'm gonna post it yet) but I just can't guarantee any amount of consistency with a posting schedule

I'm flattered to hear that I'm one of your fav fic writers :( and I'm so glad that I now write for two of your fav groups haha I'm super happy you're excited about that <3 I hope you're having a nice day too!!

p.s. your vocab is totally fine, don't worry at all! Excited is a good word 😤 WE'RE EXCITED OVER HERE!

[grisailledreams]

Re: asking about fic: What's been your favourite thing to write for SoS so far? (Also, if you would spare this poor soul a tiny snippet I would be so happy :D)

Aww, thank you! T.T This is such a thoughtful question, omg. Not to be That Writer, but it's honestly been the Snow Queen. She's literally the polar opposite of my normal MCs, who tend to be balls of anxiety, depression, insecurity, and/or grief with identity issues (lmao same). Snow's not that at all (or she wasn't, at first, and isn't at heart). It's been a lot of fun and oddly less stressful to be able to write a person like that.

As for a snippet... well, I don't have that much of Chapter 18 written, yet, except for the ending. I think you might like the thing I wrote up for you, instead. It's so far in the future that people will probably forget about it by the time it gets posted... <3

(CW for blood, vehicular crash)

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Two men drag the father, Ethan, through the front door and into the foggy, ice-cold air. The big man, the captain, carries the little one in his big gorilla arms. He pauses next to you to watch his underlings haul Ethan into the back of a military truck without realizing the snowfall is a touch too thick, the flakes a little too large in this very specific spot. You reach out and gently caress Rose’s cheek with your static finger.

“You could have at least told the poor man why you shot that witch,” you murmur. The captain can’t hear you. As he turns to walk off with her, you lean in and whisper, “Remember what I said, Rosemary. I will see you soon.”

The captain hands off the baby again to another squad member; perhaps he was checking her for signs of harm. He climbs into the front of the non-Ethan-loaded truck and slams the door shut.

“Mia’s” body comes by in a zippered bag, heading to cruelly join Ethan and Rosemary. The bees that make up your chest buzz tight, loud, begging you to let them sting. You stay their fury and growl at the false corpse, “You remember what I said, too.”

You resolve to cling to the top of the Captain’s vehicle as a pile of snow. The Winters’ transport will be the first to crash en route and being beside it will give you an extra second to react. At this point, it’s not a question of your patience. It’s Miranda’s.

At first, you wonder if it truly is taking her this long to regenerate, but then you realize that you know a certain stretch of road when the vehicles reach it. The curve of the highway around the mountain (his mountain, oh) is the same one you followed so long ago. There’s a snowbound dip that becomes the thin, most human edge of the forest. Without a moon visible beyond the ashen clouds, it seems more shadowed than you recall. Foreboding.

No. She wouldn’t take them this close.

Would she?

She answers you. The back of the vehicle beside you bursts into shrapnel and sends yours screeching against the guard rail on the other side. You let go and watch the Winters' bodies fly with a handful of the guard squad.

Snow whirls together into thick, hefty banks below as many of them as you can manage at once, but you fly down to catch Rosemary in your incorporeal arms. She wails amid the cacophony of a car siren, spinning wheels, and groans. You try to whisper a wind into her ears and rock her, a meager offer of comfort before you have to hand her over to that tyrant. Alas, Rosemary isn’t quite old enough to appreciate you directly. Her chubby little face screws up and keeps crying.

“Mommy’s here, sweetheart.”

Your head snaps to the shredded roof of the detonated vehicle. It shudders in the snow, then flies off of a woman climbing to her feet. Before she can see you semi-solid, you lower Rosemary into the snow and burst apart into the snowfall again. Miranda, still dressed as Mia, coos and cradles the baby close to her breast. She nuzzles her tiny nose with the warmest grin you’ve ever seen her accomplish.

“Let’s get you home.” She’s practically laughing.

You watch her stride off into the forest. Really, you should follow. Ensure Rosemary’s safety. But there is only so much you can do in Miranda’s proximity without setting off the old enchantment and you will never forgive yourself if the plan comes crashing down around you so close to the end. You sit, instead, beside the father. He looks like he was tossed out of the back, along with the guard bleeding out beside him. His arm twists in the wrong direction at the elbow. The Mold must have helped him survive the crash.

“Do not fret,” you sigh, briefly pulling yourself together again. “We are only borrowing your daughter. I will see to it that she is returned to you, Mr. Winters.”

He doesn’t say anything. A cut along the back of his shoulder oozes blood. The skin on the edge turns black, then calcifies and flakes off. The greyscale patch spreads.

Hell. “Oh, you poor man.”

Your fingers skate gently over the cut. The blood flow halts. He was supposed to help you. The more of them there are, the more they fight one another and Miranda both and the longer Karl has to prepare. The longer you have. Without Ethan, the Captain and his team are going to barrel in, guns blazing, and force Karl to redirect his firepower. You purse your lips. Your hand smooths out over his wound and sends the cold through his flesh. The calcification stops; he’ll never know it was there.

“I cannot save you, Ethan,” you murmur, “but I can borrow you some time. When you awake, follow the footprints up the hill. Find the village. I will keep the Captain off your back for as long as I am able. You go save your daughter.”

He doesn’t even know who you are, let alone that you’re an ally. Honestly, he's not even aware that you're beside him. What can you do? You’re desperate. You run your fingers through his wiry, blonde hair and leave behind snowflakes. The gesture brings you back a few years. You pull away, thoughts full of a different man who once slept beside you and lived to tell the tale. A woman who clutched you tight as if she were hanging on to the edge of the world.

“Save them all for me.”

[keimisan]

omg mal hi it’s been too long :DD how have you been? (and I’m screaming internally rn I never knew you’ve been writing for tokrev I’m so disappointed in myself)

omg om OMG OMG MAYA OMG MAYA OMG HELLO HOW ARE YOU OMG

i never told anyone about this blog so that's why. i kinda wrote one fic and decided i'd leave after i post it, hence yk this blog has no secure theme, its just grayscale. but tokrev kinda pulled me in and i got really into writing for them! never planned on continuing this blog but it just happened. i was also planning on posting on @/lixiefe about this blog (after at least a month), but sad news is that my entire family got infected by covid, myself included, and my mom's situation got as worse as to have her hospitalized since the past week. so i never got around to informing anyone. i accidentally rb'ed a fic from here in that acc and then logged out and realised fuck i donno my email or my pass

so, you weren't supposed to know, don't be disappointed T.T

this makes me so happy to see you sending an ask, it really has been so long AND I MISS YA'LL SO MUCH as if i wasn't inactive enough i also lost my acc details of lixiefe i've been ....well....sick i guess and worries sick too and they're also pushing for the due assignments and i'm...doing...nothing. HOW HAVE YOU BEEN OMG I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE I'M REPLYING TO YOU

i-i'm too happy pls

my happiness knows no bounds

[alicanta77]

oooooo FELIXXXX we are so similar!!! omg. that's crazy. i unintentionally flirt too omg 💀 like i'm not even interested in the person but they'd be out there thinking im in love T.T (im legit only a hopeless romantic with one person and he's the one person i cant flirt with 💀😭)

and omggg THE SONGSSS ugh i wrote so many too!! they were mainly about heartbreak lol. or like.... liking a friend but not being able to say anything. yknow, classic teenage bullshit ahahhahahah

and i agree! writing is so cathartic. it's the only way i can express myself. like i LOVE face to face conversations and confessions. but it also sucks bcs i can never articulate how i feel properly. writing long ass letters is so much better. about anything honestly. even like expressing myself to my friends. it's easier for me to write it down than say it.

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tbh i unintentionally flirt a LOT less than i used to, i think when i got into a relationship i became a lot more aware of it because my mind was like "wait... you're not who i want to flirt with" plus i asked my bf to make sure i was aware, so i don't do that as much lmaoooo

i just find it easiest to write out my feelings in a way like songs and music. for some reason i've never been able to write down my emotions in a letter format and feel better, i just end up staring at the words or i can't write in time with the speed my brain is running at. but mainly it just feels too personal to put down on paper, like i don't like having physical proof of these feelings, where as putting them into a song just gives me something to do with them, it's like i'm getting something out of feeling this way

[juminsmysticmc]

Hello! Can I request something from Highschool AU, like MC like to confess to her crush and ask RFA + Minor Duo (her best friend) to like, be near for her to feel more confident and then she gets rejected harshly? This is so specific I hope you understand (: Love your work and hope you have a great day!

RFA + Minor Duo are MC’s best friend and are next to her when she get’s rejected harshly AU

Hi! OMG Story time ~ like, this happened to me XD not in that way but ugh. I remember it as if it was yesterday when literally the whole girls in my class FORCED ME to confess to my crush. And he then send a friend to tell me that he had no interest.

I cried straight for two hours. It was that bad, that my teacher asked me and my best friend to get out XD

But that’s not all: I still thought that he was sweet after being rejected because he wrote me a letter, saying that we could stay friends over WhatsApp T.T

And today I see him smiling with his girlfriend T.T and we never were friends like he said.

Jumin

,,Oh, he’s over there!’’ you squealed with your best friend who followed your eyes.

Your handsome crush walked by but he never looked at you.

Jumin hated the boy since he could already tell that he didn’t have feelings for you.

,,I’m going to confess!’’ you said confidently and looked at Jumin.

His eyes grew bigger.

,,Huh? Now?’’ he asked you.

His eyes immediately searched for his friend Jihyun. He wanted to ask him how to ask you.

But Jumin himself knew that as soon as you had an idea, no one could stop you.

,,But you have to come with me, okay? Just stay behind me and support me, yeah?’’ you asked him.

Your eyes were shining.  

Jumin nodded.

His cheeks got red as he followed you.

The canteen was full and your crush was sitting at a table with a lot of people.  

Secure of yourself, you approached him. Your smile was as bright as the sun and your heart was filled with love.

But this love was crushed in a few seconds.

You just told him that you would like to talk to him in private and then all he did was laugh at you.

Arrogantly, he asked you if you possibly wanted to confess to him.

Of course his words caught you off guard.

,,I have no interest in a stupid girl who always brings her dog. Look, he’s already glaring like a dog who has to defend his owner.

And besides, you’re ugly,’’ he laughed and looked away.

Before Jumin could even say anything to defend you, you escaped.

The whole room of people listened and laughed at you.

,,Don’t cry…’’ Jumin begged you later on, patting your back with a lot of love.

,,It’s good to have you here,’’ you confessed, and continued to cry into his chest.

Into your best friend’s supportive chest.

Zen

,,Men are wolves,’’ he repeated for the third time in a row.

You rolled your eyes and looked yourself in the mirror once again.

You were about to confess to the boy you loved for three years.

Ever since Middle School, he was the one you couldn’t get out of your head.

Your best friend was next to you, although wasn’t as hyped as you were.

,,You will come with me, right?’’ you asked like your usually cheerful self.

Zen stayed silent, but you knew that he wouldn’t leave you on your own.

,,Where will you meet him?’’ he asked you, annoyed, as you once again checked your make-up.

,,Behind the old building. I wrote him an email,’’ you whispered. 

Suddenly, Zen pulled you away from the mirror.

,,Hey, you look good. I’m sure he will say yes. So stop now. You’re driving me crazy,’’ he hissed. 

You smiled and nodded and approached the place you were supposed to meet him.

But this all took a turn for the worst.

With disgust, he started at you.

,,I’ve liked you since Middle School and I wanted to ask you if the both of us could-’’

,,No,’’ he simply said, not even letting you finish your sentence.  

You wanted to say something, but once again he stopped you, rejecting you harshly.

,,Oi, watch your words.’’ Zen said from behind you.

You didn’t know what to do. You honestly didn’t expect this kind of reaction from the boy who always seemed nice and happy.  

A rejection, perhaps, but not that way.

,,Shut up, Albino,’’ your crush hissed, but before you could stop him, Zen hit your crush with his fist.

,,There was no need,’’ you sobbed as you disinfected Zen’s wounds.

,,Of course there was. He crushed my best friend‘s heart. I had to do something.“ he softly whispered as he stroked your wet cheek.

Yoosung

Your best friend was just as hyped as you were, maybe even more.

You couldn’t believe that he supported you so much. You were really grateful.

For days he encouraged you, helped you to pick up your clothes, and gave his true opinion about your make-up.

Finally, the day arrived.

You asked your crush to meet you at your favourite coffee shop.

Yoosung promised to sit next to you to give you more confidence.

But even with him behind you, your confidence crumbled as soon as you saw all the beautiful girls he brought with him.

Your crush let a few girls sit in front of you, then he sat down and told another girl to sit down.

His arms were around their shoulders.

,,So.“ he said.

,,Spit it out, we have something to do.“

Your hands were trembling.

Before you could confess, one of the girls exclaimed that you were probably going to confess.

,,Oh, sorry. There’s no space for you.“ he laughed and put his hand on a more private place.

The girl smirked.

Suddenly, you heard something tinkle.

In a few seconds, you stood again.

Your eyes met Yoosung’s eyes, filled with rage.

Before you could complain, he was pulling you out of the coffee shop.

When you realized what happened you couldn’t stop crying.

But Yoosung was right there, patting your back and supporting you just like he always did.

Jaehee

In Jaehee‘s eyes, it was true that a woman in love was even more beautiful.

Or so it seemed for her.

Your eyes were shining and your smile never faded.

And your good mood never turned bad.

She liked to see you like that.

And when you told her that you wanted to confess, she was sure that he would accept your feelings and make you even happier.

But Jaehee didn’t know how wrong she was or how mean boys could be.

It didn’t even take three minutes.

You put a letter on your crush‘s table and looked at him from afar.

But when he read the letter out loud, the whole class knew that you wanted to confess.

You couldn’t even confess since it was already a fiasco.

,,STOP IT NOW! THAT‘S NOT FAIR! DON‘T PLAY WITH A GIRL’S HEART!’’ Jaehee yelled and slammed her hand on your crush’s table.

,,Why? She’s just an ugly girl-’’ he couldn’t even finish his sentence before Jaehee slapped him.

,,Next time, don’t give her any mixed signals, you ugly player. She’s the most beautiful girl and you don’t deserve her.’’

With this she took your hand and lead you to the girl’s washroom where she softly took care of your make-up and hair.

,,I love you and someone else will love you back. And this one will be blessed with your affection, I promise.’’ she whispered while you red eyes started at her.

Saeyoung

,,You still look odd,’’ he said and laughed while you tried to put your hair up.

,,You look odd yourself, you ass,’’ you laughed.

Still, you glanced at him like always when you wanted to know if you looked okay.

With an affectionate smile, he nodded at you and assured you that you could confess to your crush like that.

Saeyoung was jealous to be honest.

He thought that the boy you were going to confess to didn’t deserve you.

You were way too good for the idiotic player.

But he couldn’t change the fact that you fell in love with him.

,,Okay, I will go back now. You look good.’’ Saeyoung said and got up.

He walked past you but stopped when he felt that someone was holding his sleeve.

,,I thought you would stay with me?’’ you grinned.

But Saeyoung couldn’t even complain.

He just followed you.

He could smell your Armani perfume.

Like always, you smelled so good…

When both of you arrived, Saeyoung decided to stay away from the both of you. 

He just hoped that this would be over soon since he promised Saeran to help him with his studies.

But apparently his wish came true even quicker than he had hoped.

The boy pushed you, making you stumble and fall back.

Your shocked eyes looked for Saeyoung who quickly ran to you.

,,Oi! Why did you do that?’’ he yelled as he helped you up.

But your crush already walked away.

Saeyoung looked at you.

Without saying anything he carried you home piggyback style, not saying a word the whole time while your sniffles filled the silence.

,,It won’t end like that,’’ Saeyoung thought, ,,I won’t forgive him.’’

Saeran

,,He’s coming,’’ Saeran said as he spotted your crush.

,,Do I still look good?’’ you asked him, unsure.

,,Yes, a beauty like always.’’ he answered, annoyed, but stayed silent as soon as he saw your brown haired crush approaching the both of you.

Luckily, no one could see you behind the gym hall.

You shyly smiled and looked down before you told him what the matter was.

,,Ah,’’ his response was.

You were even more nervous, what did his ,,Ah’’ mean?

Like always, Saeran could read your mind and asked him what he actually meant.

,,Just ah.’’ he said and looked away.

,,Listen, I don’t intend to have a serious relationship, but you still could help me out sometimes when the other girls can’t come, mh?’’ he laughed.

,,But don’t take him with you.’’ he said and looked at Saeran with disgust.

Your eyes followed his. Was this really the boy you fell in love with?

,,No thank you.’’ you mumbled.

,,I would rather stay with him.’’ you stated and walked away.

Just when he couldn’t see you anymore, you began to cry.

The painful feeling of rejection hit you. 

You never thought he would be like that.

,,Don’t cry,’’ Saeran whispered, stroking your back.

,,He doesn’t deserve your tears.’’ Saeran stated and comforted you for the rest of the day.

Jihyun

Your best friend patted your back as you sobbed.

Your spoon disappeared into the ice cream Jihyun bought for you and then wandered into your mouth.

This was currently your second bowl of ice cream, which seemed to not help you with the sadness you felt.

Jihyun closed his eyes. 

Your smiling face was totally different from now.

All what was left was sadness over the rude rejection you had to undergo today. 

Jihyun himself saw how your crush laughed at you.

,,So childish…’’ he thought as he remembered how your crush wrote the things you told him on the blackboard.

And Jihyun himself heard the words; they were sweet and sincere.

,,Let’s show him what he missed.’’ Jihyun said and smiled at you.

You still sobbed but apparently his idea seemed to make you a little happier.

,,For today, just today, I will allow you to cry. From tomorrow on, you will have to be happy and strong again and make him regret his decision, okay?’’

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  28.10.2019// 21:40 MEST

Tagged:

@foreversunshine-love @giulia2372 @sailormoonrocks666

@widya345 @remiliadacalde @r-f-a-journalists 

[milkybonya]

But as for my story oh my gosh it really is a story. My ult group is Kingdom! They're pretty small and just debuted last year so idk if you know them but they've got one of the most amazing concepts I've ever seen! I'd definitely check out their title tracks if you have time :) they just had a comeback on March 31 🤩 but anywaysssss I write on their fancafe twice a day! I send a message to all members in the morning with pictures of my gecko (he is my whole world so I am making him their whole world as well lol) and then in the night I write to one member. There are 7 members so each member has their own day of the week that I write to them :) Originally I was just going to write to my bias (Arthur!) but I had things I wanted to tell every member so I was like it's fine I'll just write them each once a week. So last week on Monday I wrote a letter to Louis as scheduled. Louis was my bias wrecker for the longest time but since this comeback I think I double bias 🥴 and this was the first letter I was sending him since their comeback came out so I was like ahh you did such a great job and I talked about what parts of his I liked the best and all that so the next day I wake up and see I have a notification on the fancafe and I was like 😳 no freaking way there's no way but milky I literally opened the message and there on my letter to LOUIS OKAY IT WAS MY LETTER TO LOUIS.. Arthur commented DNENJEJWNW I was like oh my god he knew I got bias wrecked and is trying to sabotage Louis jdjsjs on the man's own letter- the audacity jdjsjs but it was so weird like he did the menpa and commented on a bunch of messages addressed to him (as is expected) except for my random Louis letter. Idk if he got confused bc I put a blue heart in the title (it's my favorite color) and a lot of people have been doing that on posts to him bc he has blue hair rn but I mean in the title of the post I said Louis' name and I addressed the letter to Louis so basically idk what man was on when he decided to respond to it but regardless I'm so touched. This is the first time I've had like a real interaction with an idol before so I was over the moon especially because out of all 7 it was my bias! I do get kinda embarrassed when I think about it tho bc he read me being all simpy over Louis but 🥴🥴🥴 I'm thriving I really am we love that jfjejej Kingdom is chaos if you couldn't tell 🤩 anyways this message is so long now I really rambled there but I hope that was funny for you to read bc I laugh when I think about it lol not sure if I said it in the last message but hope you're having a good day/night! 💙 (oh and here is what he wrote! I usually tell them about my day and then comment on their performance/anything they've done or released since I last wrote)

KINGDOM WAHH I'VE BEEN MEANING TO LOOK INTO THEM ! their concept is so cool T.T

stop you give them so much love and that is so so cute??? to have a member to write to each day and everytHING AHH THATS SO WHOLESOME MY HEART IS WARM

WAIT HAHAHAAH ARTHUR REPLYING TO LOUIS'S LETTER,, omg that is so adorable T.T maybe he did get confused or maybe he??? jusT KNEW that you're starting to double bias?? he's like nuuu Kelsey don't go ! KDKSKSK omg i'm literally?!?!?!

the reply is so cute too im shedding so many tears rN SOBBINGGG aH you got the interaction you deserve 💟 the eay he thanked you for telling him about your daYY AHHH IM SOFT

[enaasteria]

Answered Asks // 2

Under the cut~~~

Anonymous said to enaasteria: April 15th 2017, 9:14:00 pm · 6 months ago Ok, don't answer to this because I will not see it anyway. I was @jamlesspyo and I say was because when you'll see this my blog will already be deleted, personnal reasons. So I want to tell that you are one of the most amazing writer I had the chance to read a story of. You are also the sweetest person so thank you so much. I hope that one you will have enough confidence in yourself because you deserve it so much. Love you and stay healthy

I will answer this bc you might come back and I’ll def miss you. Thank you for all your warm encouragement and help throughout my struggles and I couldn’t have asked for a better reader/friend. Miss you and wishing you all the best!

Anonymous said to enaasteria: April 20th 2017, 10:59:00 pm · 6 months ago you might not read this for awhile and when you do you don't have to reply, but i just wanted to tell you that all of your writing here is beautiful and amazing! finishing your story is so worth waiting for and i can't wait to read the ending! thank you for sharing your writing!

You might not think this after you read chapter 16. It’s a kind of flargh chapter but needed to be in there so T_____T I’m kinda nervous about it but hopes everyone enjoys and feel it was worth the wait.

Anonymous said to enaasteria: April 23rd 2017, 1:14:00 am · 5 months ago Freaking heck, you are an amazing and professional writer!!! I'm reading through Apartment 5108 now and I can't think of words even close to satisfactory enough to compliment your writing!! All the best for your writing and future endeavours! :)

Ahhhhhh you are too kind to me. Thank you so much for reading and no worries. please don’t stress over what to write or compliments because I enjoy any kind of feedback tbh. Spazz messages are the best!

@sassyunicorns2​ said to enaasteria: May 11th 2017, 8:31:00 am · 5 months ago I won't lose hope! I know you can do it, because you are an amazing writter and you always have great ideas!!! I am here in the other part of the world cheering for you! 🙌 FIGHTING!! 💪👊 P.S.: I'm sorry for the errors.

I hope you enjoy this chapter and thank you so much for your continued support. It means so much to me and I’m so glad you love this story!

@whosexo​ said to enaasteria: May 11th 2017, 3:57:00 pm · 5 months ago SEND 💖 THIS 💖 TO 💖 THE 💖 FIFTEEN 💖 NICEST 💖 PEOPLE 💖 ON 💖 TUMBLR 💖 IF 💖 YOU 💖 GET 💖 5 💖 BACK 💖 YOU 💖 MUST 💖 BE 💖 PERFECT 💖 Miss you hope you're doing amazing!!

No words can amount to how much i love you too! I apologize for my year long disappearance. I’m a terrible person. UGH. But I shall blame it on work and daily stress. T___T Hope you are well too, love!

@dream-exo-fantasy said to enaasteria: May 11th 2017, 3:58:00 pm · 5 months ago SEND 💖 THIS 💖 TO 💖 THE 💖 FIFTEEN 💖 NICEST 💖 PEOPLE 💖 ON 💖 TUMBLR 💖 IF 💖 YOU 💖 GET 💖 5 💖 BACK 💖 YOU 💖 MUST 💖 BE 💖 PERFECT 💖 (A side message: I hope you're not stressing too much about writing. Take your time and stay healthy 💕)

You are the sweetest and thank you so much. 2017 was unfortunately the most stress filled year i’ve ever experienced but hopefully the latter end will treat us all better, yeah? T.T

Anonymous said to enaasteria: May 12th 2017, 1:46:00 am · 5 months ago wah yay! okay take your time! i (and many others) can't wait to see your masterpiece! 💕

Love you!

Anonymous said to enaasteria: May 20th 2017, 12:32:00 am · 5 months ago So I was wondering did ahri told sehun about what happened to her while sehun went after jiyul like she drank the juice and was taken to hospital or did sehun already knew or anyone told him bc I think you didn't mention that?..

Soi definitely told him---actually her wrath probably yelled at him and was infuriated with his poor actions. he probably got scolded by everyone tbh.

Anonymous said to enaasteria: May 29th 2017, 6:07:00 pm · 4 months ago Youre probably busy with apartment 5108 but i really hope you do come back to keepers! Chapter 1 left me on edge and im still eagerly waiting for the next part!! Much love sent your way❤️❤️❤️

I CANT WAIT FOR KEEPERS. I want to write it two ways but I might just do two endings bc I’m a sap and a total angst fest lol

Anonymous said to enaasteria: June 5th 2017, 8:41:00 pm · 4 months ago enaaaaaaa i miss yoooooouuuuuuuuu ):<

I MISS YOU TOOOOOOOOOOOO

@unsungthoughts said to enaasteria: June 5th 2017, 9:19:00 pm · 4 months ago Apartment 5108. I'm beyond in love w this story! I was so into the story to the point where I could literally feel everything, the emotion esp. It is truly an amazing piece of writing. I'm new here (since yesterday and just finished 5min ago) --cont.cont.-- and yet to explore ur other stories, which I will definitely do cz I LOVE YOUR WRITING SO MUCH 💕

You make me blush! I’m so happy you enjoyed this story and I’m glad it made you feel things. I hope 16 treats you well and that you’re having a great time on tumblr! welcome, welcome. AND I LOVE YOU TOO

Anonymous said to enaasteria: June 15th 2017, 11:47:00 pm · 4 months ago power through love! you got this! 👏🏽👏🏽

I was jamming to POWER as I wrote this chapter. Lord knows I needed the help. orz

Anonymous said to enaasteria: June 23rd 2017, 2:25:00 pm · 3 months ago this is kinda random but Charlie puth's Attention reminds me of Red 😅

Imma go listen to this and add it to the playlist! TY ANON!

Anonymous said to enaasteria: June 24th 2017, 11:31:00 pm · 3 months ago ena, i just wish you can fathom 1/16 of the greatness you've omitted onto the exo fandom. you're writing is absolute perfection. fandom writers are just not appreciated enough! you're art is just as important than the art exo creates. you are able to create a story and a character. just think about that. a person and their life. real or not, you've created a character all of us can relate to in one way or another. i hope you keep finding joy in what you do and never lose this passion. 🌺

I remember reading this message 3 months ago and it made me want to cry. Thank you so much for your kind words and thank you for appreciating fanfiction as an art form. I think this writing is such a lost art and people don’t appreciate the time and effort going into a story. But reading this made it so worth it and thank you so much for your kindness!

Anonymous said to enaasteria: July 7th 2017, 7:22:00 am · 3 months ago Omg i just followed you now bcs of apartment 5108 and others too. Geez why i havent discovered you then?! Seriously for me its really hard to find fanfic that matches with my reading style gosh its pretty damn well written and you succesfully made me feel like im the character. You mess my feeling hun'. You did it. Seriously youre one of the best writer i ever known in tumblr. Im looking forward to ch 16 and others too. I hope u doing well!!!! Lots of love from your lovely reader💛

Thank you so much for your kind words! It’s such a huge compliment to see you hold my writing to such a high regard and I hope this next chapter doesn’t disappoint. I’m so glad you like it and please let me know what you think of the rest of the chaps!

Anonymous said to enaasteria: July 7th 2017, 12:45:00 pm · 3 months ago I've been following you for about a year now and DAMN HOW I LOVE YOU. Its been a year since you last updated Apartment 5108 but you still log in to check on your fans. Writers block is an ass but all you need is some inspiration and then you'll be firing away with the Seahri feels. or Ahrun feels. However you decide to ship them. Also Chanyeol is my fav and the fic you wrote called Two killsss meee. THANK YOU! Also, I'm Egyptian. Pretty cool knowing you have international readers eh?

I’m so sorry you’ve had to wait so long for a chapter!!! It’s so amazing how there are international people reading this and I can’t thank you enough for your kindness and also for sending me this comment but ALSO SEAHRI. LIKE THIS KILLS ME AND ITS SO CUTE AND ADORABLE.

Anonymous said to enaasteria: July 7th 2017, 1:56:00 pm · 3 months ago Hey Ena! Just wanted to tell you that I literally open your page every single day (its been 3 months LOL) , just to check if there's any update for apt5108, no rush but that just show how much i adore your work, i just freakin' love your story! I never felt so desperate waiting for the next chapter.. but I believe good things take a long time, and I believe your work could be one of the good things, even better the best thing!! Love, Your biggest fan💕

IM SO SORRY FOR THE WAIT. I don’t know what to say other than this year has been a mess and a true struggle but I dearly wanted to write this chapter and forced myself to do it and post today. I’m so sorry if it wasn’t worth the wait but hopefully it’s a good continuation to their story T____T

@sehun---addict said to enaasteria: July 20th 2017, 10:07:00 pm · 3 months ago Personally i would rather wait until you finish the story and post it in one go bcs waiting game for each chap is pure torture . Much love♡

I wish I could’ve posted it all but 16 nearly killed me to just finish so I hope this is a good chapter to hold you off until 17 T___T

Anonymous said to enaasteria: July 20th 2017, 10:14:00 pm · 3 months ago In reference to your tag in the previous ask- I think posting the chapters as you finish them would be preferable for me. That way I wouldn't have to wait as long for another update? But I'm wondering if writing it all and posting it generally at one point would be easier on you, so that it could kind of be one and done. Either way, I appreciate you taking the time to write this story! You are so incredibly talented and I find it so kind that you take time out of your day to write.

16 is going up soon. I hope you enjoy it and I’m so sorry for the wait. Thank you for your patience and I hope you read with low expectations because I’m a bit nervous about this chapter. It’s excruciatingly long T.T

Anonymous said to enaasteria: July 20th 2017, 11:46:00 pm · 3 months ago please post 16 when it's finished! that way we can have a new chapter at a time to enjoy!

It’s going up!

Anonymous said to enaasteria: July 23rd 2017, 4:47:00 am · 2 months ago I know I'm late but about the end of appartment 5018 I'm really curious about Polaris. Will it be build ? Will it be insignifiant ? I really like it so yeah that's what I'm most curious about :)

This will be addressed in 17! :D

Anonymous said to enaasteria: August 2nd 2017, 9:53:00 pm · 2 months ago same anon who recommended moondust~~ i have another one for you ena ^^ it's the house we never built by gabrielle alpine <3 best of luck on the story!

Imma check this out after I answer these messages and add it to my playlist! Thank you so much!

@yoruu-gen said to enaasteria: August 21st 2017, 1:01:00 pm · a month ago Happy Fanfic Writers Appreciation Day to my most favorite fanfic author in existence ❤ Apt 5108 is by far the best thing I've read on this website and I look forward to continue stalking your Google Docs 👀 I'm so thankful that you pulled me out of the writer's block abyss and I hope I won't disappoint in the future lol. Thanks for always being such a great friend and for always dying with me about our biases 😅 Love u lots~~

YOUUUUUU. I LOVE YOU. I also thank you so much for helping me with this chapter. You are such an inspiration and I know you feel like you’re not that great of a writer but honestly---you are one of the two I really, truly, look up to on this platform. I always enjoy your words, your stories, YOUR STRUGGLES with your biases but also so thankful for your friendship. 

Anonymous said to enaasteria: August 26th 2017, 9:36:00 am · a month ago Red is my favorite fic and it impacted me so much in a way i can only be thankful. Getting away of a one-side love relationship was really a big choice i should have made before but it's really scary to do so. Reading Red helped me aknowledge what i was doing to myself after denying it for too long and i finally decided to take care of myself for once. So i'm thankful because your amazing way of using words helped me realize i should do what's better for me and no one else. Take care of yourself

Red is honestly one of my favorites too. It was so easy to write (compared to apt) hahaha and although Sehun wasn’t a good character in it, I enjoyed the progression of how real the characters were? Like---this happens in real life and not all things end happily with rainbows and butterflies. It is a struggle to see a person go through something like this but it’s also a testament to their character and their willpower to walk away from it and say when they’ve had enough. I hope you’re doing well, anon.

[aja154ever]

GRANRODEO LIVE TOUR 2017 Pierrot Dancin’ Zepp DiverCity Tokyo - 06/09/2017

Set List

Pierrot Dancin’

TRASH CANDY

ナミダバナ

Glorious days

FAT SHAPER

君に one way love

日常ホライゾン

Fake lover’s true heart

HARD DRIVING MIDNIGHT

ボルケーノ

The Other Self

終わらぬ夢

BIG SUN

Darlin’

NO PLACE LIKE A STAGE

カナリヤ

modern strange cowboy

UNDER THE SKY

Once & Forever

Y.W.F.

Can Do

The fan report I thought I couldn’t write - because it was so hard to put these feelings into words. But still wrote anyway, for recording purposes. As in my previous GR report (March mini live), this may not be arranged in order. And warning: a very Kiiyan-centric post.

I’m relatively new to the GR fandom, though I met Kiiyan from UtaPri and has been a fan of his singing voice from the first time I heard it. This is actually my first time to attend a GR full live so yeah feelings, feelings, and feelings. This is my 4th time to watch and hear Kiiyan sing live though, and among those, his voice was in the best condition this time.

I was already expecting Pierrot Dancin’ to be the first song plus it’s no longer my first time to hear it live anyway, but no, I was not prepared at all for Kiiyan’s voice. The acapella intro was SO devastatingly good that my heart jumped out of my chest. I wasn’t able to yell cheers and get pumped up with everyone because I stood there as if I was struck by a lightning lol. It.was.that.good. But later on as the song progressed and the music joined Kiiyan, I think the performance was a bit off - except for today’s intro, it was better the last time I heard it.

But aside from Pierrot Dancin’, I think everything else was good.

TRASH CANDY - Oh this song will always be special to me as this was the first GR song I heard live, thanks to the Bungou Stray Dogs event. And I LOVE BSD, and Kiiyan reminds me so much of Chuuya that I can see Chuuya singing this song. I love them both so so much T.T

The stretch (idk what to call it) for the last word in ナミダバナ (知れ-Shire) was magnificently done receiving cheers from the crowd.

Everyone, including the crowd, did better in FAT SHAPER and Fake lover’s true heart today than the first time. Oh both songs was a blast!

Really good vocals for HARD DRIVING MIDNIGHT OMG

The Other Self - another GR song close to my heart. 

Nanno tame ni ganbaru no mada mienai kedo Sore demo yukundarou Sore dake wa shitteiru Chii ya meiyo dake nanka janai ze Mukau saki wa mae dake de ii Shita wo muitatte jimen shika mienai Dakara ikeru toko made

(“For what purpose are we doing our best? We cannot see it yet. But even so, we will still go on, right? That’s the only thing we know. This isn’t just for status nor prestige. Where we should face is only towards what’s in front of us. If we look down, there’s nothing to see but the ground. So we should go wherever we can”)

This lyrics strikes me personally that I actually quoted it in a speech contest I joined back at school. And hearing it live straight from Kiiyan for the first time, so you expect tears from me. Yes, Kiiyan, no matter how harsh life is, I’ll do my best. Thank you.

終わらぬ夢 - THIS. THIS. THIS. This is one of my personal favorites in the latest album and have been wishing badly to hear this live. So when I learned that Kiiyan sang this in the Hokkaido tour, I said I’m gonna die when this moment comes. Now what. I just can’t describe. It was astoundingly beautiful. Kiiyan how could you sound just the same or even better live? I apologize to the people beside me but I did my best to control my overwhelming emotions. I cried more when Kiiyan sang the line, “dakara nakanaide” lol

Glorious Days and BIG SUN sound so good live! I REALLY loved the live version more than the CD. Kiiyan forgot some lyrics in BIG SUN’s chorus though. He just sang “tenenenen.” LOL KIIYAN PLEASE

Darlin’ - NO PLACE LIKE A STAGE - カナリヤ - modern strange cowboy - This was a very exhaustingly fun line-up. Crowd participation at its best. But can I just say that I love Darlin’ so much yayyyy

UNDER THE SKY - THIS. THIS. You know Kiiyan’s voice is always beautiful but slow songs like this really kill me. Again he sang this REALLY well. Oh please I’m running out of adjectives. I badly wanted to shout “I love you too” after he said the last line, “I love you.”

Once & Forever - Y.W.F. - Encore. Everyone was already so wild at this point. Can this not end please. I just want to jump and bang my head all night.

Can Do - Ending the night with this made me reflect as this is where everything for me began. I met GRANRODEO from Kuroko no Basuke, and so basically Can Do is the first GR song I learned. It will forever hold a special place in my heart. This was the last song so I just went all out yelling, jumping, singing, dancing, everything.

MC points

It’s been 3 weeks since the Hokkaido live, which was the first leg of the tour. And so they said it felt like the first day again. e-zuka said that he was nervous and joked the crowd not to look at him as he wants to focus.

e-zuka teased Kiiyan about crying in the Utapri Live. Introducing the next song, Kiiyan suddenly spoke in a cool voice that caught e-zuka’s attention. He said, “I thought you already left that good voice and the tears in Seibu Dome.” Kiiyan got embarrassed and replied that what was circulating on the internet about him was a lie (just like what he said in his tweet lol). He told us to watch the Blu-ray when it arrives, and see that he had that scene cut out! Oh tsun-tsun Kiiyan kawaii

They talked about the fact that drummer Shin has not revealed his age yet to the public, but they do know it. e-zuka hints that Shin actually came from school with a ランドセル on his back. (You know the big backpack that Japanese grade school kids use). Kiiyan laughs saying, “That’d make him Shin-chan!”

Kiiyan talked about the rainy season and the coming of summer. e-zuka then sang and played Happy birthday with his guitar. (Kiiyan’s birthday’s coming up yay!) Speaking of birthdays, they asked if anyone in the crowd was celebrating her birthday today, and there were actually some. They greeted them and thanked that they were able to come even if it’s their birthday. Incidentally, there was also a couple who was celebrating their wedding anniversary. Kiiyan also mentioned that today also happened to be Johnny Depp’s birthday. e-zuka then thanked everyone and introduced himself as Johnny Depp.

They mentioned that there are still a few tickets left for the additional Osaka tour in August. They said that they also mentioned this in the Hokkaido tour, so why are there still tickets left even after 3 weeks?? Lol I always find it cute when Kiiyan awkwardly self-promotes. Kiiyan said that on the contrary, it was apparently difficult to get tickets for the “Yama no Hi (lit. Mountain Day)” live, and he wondered why. Lol. It just happened to fall on “Taniyama no Hi (Taniyama’s Day”) and I’m so bitter I’m one of those who has not gotten one tho I got Aug 10 but still huhu

Kiiyan’s MC was interrupted at some point when sweat kept on flowing into his eyes. He then wiped his face with a towel. I just want to mention this because it was cute lol

When they announced that G7 will be held in Okinawa, Takita-san asked if he will be coming along too. Kiiyan said of course because he and e-zuka can’t do it by themselves. Takita-san said that he has actually not been to Okinawa which gained an “EEEEEHHHHHH?” from the crowd. Takita-san asked why they are making such EH reaction, “Is it that bad (that I haven’t gone to Okinawa)??”

When Kiiyan announced that there’s only one song left, he received a sad “EEEEHHH” from the crowd. Kiiyan grunted, “Why are you looking so dissatisfied? I just said that I’ll still be singing!” Lol Kiiyan we’re so satisfied but we just did not want this to end

Kiiyan said that it was so fun that they do not want the live to end. The crowd suggested to start over again. e-zuka enthusiastically responded, “Let’s do this again together!” as he pointed out that live performances are done by them and the audience together.

Photos/posts from official accounts:

(This was posted on the 2nd day but I just want to post this photo that had me laughing on the floor Kiiyan please why)

Wew. Wew. I don’t know how many times I’ve said this but still, I’m saying this again - that Kiiyan’s singing voice is the most beautiful sound I have ever heard. While listening there live, my thoughts were like, “Everyone should listen to this! It’s too unfortunate that some people do not know about Kiiyan.” No single word exists or not even an essay can suffice to describe Kiiyan’s voice. But even so, as a fan I admit that Kiiyan’s singing is actually far from perfect. I mean voice quality and singing ability are two different things. Moreover, I actually had hesitations before as it seemed that Kiiyan sounds better in CD than in live. But no, I have really affirmed today that he can sound pretty much the same whether recorded or live. Or that he can actually sound better in live. Damn I heard him sing 21 songs this time okay. Sure there were glitches at some parts of the song, but I want it raw and I’m embracing all his imperfections. I was torn between keeping my eyes open to watch him or closing my eyes so I can listen to his voice more intently. I really love watching Kiiyan as I can feel his love for music, singing, and performing. Because that’s one of the most valuable things, right? That the performer himself is having fun with what he’s doing.

It was a very, very fun and gratifying night; but more importantly it was a night full of admiration and gratitude. And I thank God again for bringing Kiiyan and GRANRODEO into my life. See you next live! ❤

[laytmblr]

OMG I HAVE 200 STALKERS

Yeah, not stalkers, but followers. But it was way much more fun to put it like that hehe ;)

Sooooo, OMG! 200 of you decided that I was worth following. YOU GUYS HAVE LIFTED MY MOOD TODAY!!! It’s probably not much compared to other blogs, but I don’t like to compare myself to others, we are all unique and different, and the world is better that way :D

I didn’t do anything when I passed the 100, because honestly I was in too much shock HAHA When I started this, it was to meet people who have the same craziness than me about BTS (and Kpop) and I really thought I wouldn’t go pass 25 followers. FAM YOU'VE MADE MY DAY!!!!

I’ve been tag, not long ago, by @mimibtsghost​ for a 60 TRUTHS TAG thing and I’m doing it now to celebrate! This way, all of you will get to know a little more about me ^_^ Here we go:

Nickname(s): Lay (honestly it’s why it’s all over my SNS accounts)

Bias: MIN F*CKING GENIUS YOONGI

Blood type: O

R/s: Not at the moment, but it’s a choice though ;)

Birthday: June 8th

Zodiac sign: Gemini

Pronouns: Biologically: She/Her. Psychologically: None. Both. Idk, idc ^^

Hair leight: Short, with sidecut

Height: 165 cm

A crush: Im Jaebum, Choi Youngjae, Jackson Wang, Mark Tuan, Choi Junhong, Choi Seunghyun, HAHA

What do you like about yourself: My eyes and my open mind

Right or left handed: Right handed

List of three favourite colors: Black, Red and Grey

(Right now) eating: My tongue (because lunch is over)

(Right now) drinking: Tea (YES, I almost wrote Tae...)

I’m about to: Sadly get back to work T.T

Listening to: Love Who Loves You Back - Tokio Hotel (Don’t fight me that song is gold)

Kids: EW NO THANKS

Get married: What for?

Recent phone call: A wrong number

(Have you ever) Dated someone twice: Yes. And broke up twice too HAHA

Been cheated on: I don’t know. They’ve been clever enough to never get caught!

Kissed someone and regretted it: Nop

Lost someone special: Yes. Sad shit. Life. Stuff.

Been depressed: Oh yeah... bad stuff too.

Been drunk and thrown up: Yeaaaaaah, not my best moments HAHA

Had glasses or contacts: I wear glasses actually, because without them, I can’t see past 2 meters away from me

Had sex on the first date: Nah. Definitely something I have to correct though HAHA

Broken someone’s heart: Not proud of it, but yeah. Didn’t mean to though. Just life.

Turned someone down: I hate those moments but yeah...

Cried when someone died: IRL: Of course. Other: Yes my poor heart! Sirius Black, Kili I w-will always re-remember youuuu... *sobs*

Fallen for a friend: No, friends are friends

(In the last year have you) made a new friend: YES I LUV HER SHE MADE MY LIFE BETTER (I’ve made more than one, but my heart thought of her first. Guuuuurl! You Know.)

Laughed until you cried: Every tuesday with BTS xD

Met someone who changed you: BTS. They didn’t change me, but they helped me find my true self and it changed a lot of things for me.

Found out who your true friends were: Oh yeah. A long time ago, I ditched the bitch who was holding me down and back, and my real true friends remained with me.

Found out someone was talking about you: A long time ago but, meh, teenagers are stoopid

Lips or eyes: BOTH. I want to look someone in the eyes before I kiss them.

Hugs or kisses: Depends on my mood. But most of the times, none ^^

Shorter or taller: I don’t care

Romantic or spontaneous: I’m not the relashionship-kinda-person, so I’ll go with spontaneous ;)

Sensitive or loud: Me? Depends. Both.

Hookup or relationship: HOOKUP. Don’t even need reflexion on this one HAHA

First best friend: A Bitch.

Surgery: Couple fractures and a Carpal Tunnel Syndrome surgery not long ago.

Sports I joined: Roller Derby. First as a player, then as a referee and then again as a player.

Do you believe in yourself: With my choices in life, yes very much. With other people, meh... not so much ^^

Miracles: Just a word

Love at first sight: Interesting in fictions

Heaven: ... let’s not talk about that... ^_^

Do you have any pets: Not anymore

Do you want to change your name: No, too much paperwork

What did you do for your last birthday: Nothing

What time did you wake up today: 7:30 am (and I was late)

What were you doing last night at midnight: Downloading a video to get the audio, to change my alarm ringtone. #TrueStory

Something you can’t wait for: I heard of Suga collaborating with someone... and I’m still desperately waiting Hobi’s mixtape!

Last time you saw your mom: Few days ago... maybe more...

What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: My gender. Being a girl sucks.

What’s getting on your nerves: Injustices (in the large meaning of it) and haters. (and sooooooo many other little things hehe)

I can’t tag all 200 of you here, it would take me days HAHA! BUT! I’m gona tag 20 of you! Of course, if I don’t tag you, but you wanna do it anyways, feel free to tag me somewhere in a corner so I can get to know you a little too ;)

@kpopisruiningme @bamhoe @itzisnotaghost @harrystylesismyreligion @eat-the-fucking-strawberry @willwesurvivetoday @miinyooongii @omgtaetaethings @kaep-jjang-veryjjang @sofythaaa @jihminshi @bulletproofgot7 @bootaecall @small-yoonmin @sadistic-kihyun @lolopop-wang @sunlitae @sofihobi @sugarsgrr @nochu-jungshook

[stephaniecandywilliams]

Hwarang Female Character Appreciation Post #2

Post #1: Aro

(Oh god it’s been so long since my last post OTL sorry guys... and since Sooyeon is such a personal favourite I’m so PRESSURED to write this post well OMG)

WARNING: LONG POST + there will be an abundance of the repetition and variations of the words “cute” and “adorable” XD

I am back with my second installment of my series of meta for the main female characters of the drama Hwarang!!! Giving you all the goodness of female characters who break stereotypes and steal hearts!!! ;) This time, it’s my personal favourite female character of them all, the one and only... Kim Sooyeon!!! (I love this gif so much omg thank you op <3)

I have to admit, at first I was REALLY critical and judgemental of Sooyeon’s character (IM SO SORRY BB OTL) because we were only given the information that she’s friends with Aro and that she’s the younger sister to playboy Sooho and love interest of cool guy Banryu at the start of the drama. My mind immediately conjured up the mental image of the stereotypical nice daughter from a rich family, quiet, elegant, well-mannered, boring, background material. BUT OH MAN SHE SURPRISED ME

She’s the VERY EPITOME of bubbly, cute and endearing /heart eyes/ She can be very manly, shy, playful,funny, lovey-dovey, daring, petty, romantic, relatable, ALL AT ONCE!! She’s a very multi-faceted personality that draws us in and keep us hooked, not just for her love line with Banryu, but everything that she does <3 <3 (get ready for the onslaught of gifs coming right up!!!)

Ah~ the legendary first meeting of the two love birds ^~^ LOOK AT THAT CHEEKY LOOK OF PURE SATISFACTION ON HER CUTE FACE WHEN SHE SQUEEZED HIS BUTT, and not to mention how her expression froze as Banryu turned around XD this shows how much she’s not a pushover and that she would get back and seek revenge on her brother whenever she gets the chance ;3 i guess Sooyeon is a very HANDS ON person ;)))) (pls get used to my bad jokes, i won’t change anymore hehe) I still remember her adorable squeak when she retracted her hands in light speed and hugged herself XD not to mention how her first reaction in panic was to slap Banryu and immediately regret it (ah so cute)  

and after she used a FUCKING VASE to knock her furious brother Sooho out cold and hanging off a fence, she fuzzed over Banryu’s face where she slapped instead of caring about her brother XD we could all SEE THE AMOUNT OF WORRY IN HER FACE UGH AND BANRYU IS SO IN LOVE HAHAHAHA

After that whole fiasco and Sooho losing his memory of that night (no thanks to Sooyeon and her trusty vase ;)) she was even nice enough to write to Banryu to make sure her brother didn’t get angry and cause trouble. (ISN’T THAT LIKE THE NICEST THING EVER??? if it was me I’d just lay low and maybe disappear out of shame :’)) she got a infamous reputation around town as “the girl who got her chest molested” but she still worried about Banryu (getting killed by her brother) more than herself XD

This scene is getting on my nerves on HOW CUTE IT IS UGH~ Sooyeon actually shows up to the night club- I mean Okta to look for her lover boy /swoons/ (and not to mention with that gift of red wine which was expensive AF) judging by the way we see her barge into Sooho’s rented room and walking back out, we could see that she’s basically trying to find Banryu by walking into every occupied room to try her luck XD if that’s not the most badass, daring thing that someone could do, I don’t know what qualifies @~@ she finally finds a fuming Banryu and pulls him aside (I have no idea how she has the guts to pull him when he looks like he could murder somebody ;_;) the two lovebirds were enjoying some(miniscule) alone time when KIM SOOHO BARGES IN AND LANDS A PUNCH ON BANRYU’S FACE (he finally remembered that night Sooyeon apparently got molested (molested somebody hehe)) 

The funny thing about the next thing that happened is that we see Sooyeon getting shocked by the sudden attack, but it doesn’t stop there. Second by second just by the look on her face we could tell she’s getting angrier and angrier, until she just makes a split second decision to sacrifice her expensive gift and just use the heavy wine bottle to hit her brother on the back of his head (again). Even funnier, she just lets go of the bottle until it hits the ground with a clear resounding breaking sound (she’s so cool how to be her omg) she then pulls Banryu up and just walks over her brother’s unconscious body with Banryu XD

MAN I hold this conversation SO DEAR TO MY HEART <3 <3 it’s just so precious and protective of Sooyeon seriously

“If my brother does anything to Banryu you have to tell me right away!” said Sooyeon in a grave and serious tone. “Even if I do tell you, what are you gonna do about it?” Aro questioned. “Then I will, oh I tell you what, climb over this wall and end my brother~” Sooyeon answered, aggressively gesturing a neck-slice, “you’re dead Kim Sooho, I’m not gonna stand here and do nothing.” her eyes glinting murderously. Shocked by the words, Aro asked, “Are you really the Sooyeon that I know??” Sooyeon fired back confidently, “I protect my man.”

OMG I CANNOT EXPRESS HOW MUCH I LOVE THIS CONVERSATION UGH it’s this conversation and what Sooyeon had expressed here that made me fall deeply in love with this character /sobs/ why is she so precious 

Ah, this makes me think of the sweet times being with siblings XD this can’t get more real than a real sibling relationship, and I applaud the producers for including this amazingly realistic interaction between these two :3 

Yes, they fight. Yes, they get really physically brutal with each other. But Sooyeon finally told(screamed) her brother the truth and stopped the situation from worsening. ^~^ She’s really honest, I’ll give her that. She clarified everything and left no detail out, even the part about grabbing Banryu’s butt. Owning up to something like that needs a lot of guts, even towards a family member.

Oh and how could I forget the amount of trust she puts in her crush??? She’s courageous and adorable and all, but she does get blinded by love sometimes (a LOT of the time XD) But judging by the limited contact that she could get with Banryu in that ancient time period, and how they started off getting to know each other by letters, it’s quite easy to understand why she isn’t weary of what Banryu is doing in the Hwarang house. 

Up until the most recent episodes, she still did not show any sign of fearing their opposing family backgrounds, and that is simultaneously a good thing and also a bad thing. The relationship can blossom under the ignorance of threats, but when the problem really emerges to break them apart, it’ll result in serious heartbreak.

THIS SCENE BROKE MY HEART UGH. Sooyeon was waiting outside Banryu’s house, excitedly adjusting her hair trying to look good in front of him (LOOK AT HOW CUTE SHE IS), but Banryu just walked past her. She was SO IN SHOCK and started crying, and I STARTED CRYING TOO I AM SO WEAK FOR HER MY POOR BABY... T.T 

Even when her brother tried to get back at Banryu for making her cry, she didn’t let him go after Banryu. If she was sassy enough she could just let Banryu get beaten up, but she didn’t, and held on to her brother as strongly as she could even while she was crying her heart out... 

Oh man. This was when it was announced that Banryu was going to go along with the others to protect Princess Sookmyung. Sooyeon was so worried about  Banryu’s safety. Meeting Aro at their usual place (the short wall where they both put up ladders to talk to each other XD), she cried and cried, saying how Banryu could make such a decision without talking to her about it first :( the funny thing about it is that Aro’s going as well but Sooyeon wasn’t worried about her at all XD

Then Sooyeon wiped away her tears and made a grave decision. She wants to give Banryu a snip of her hair for him to remember her by. Why is it serious and not creepy at all? Because in the olden days, in Chinese culture (it extends to Japanese and Korean culture but maybe not completely on details) it is a token of serious commitment in a relationship, where the woman gives the man her hair as a sign that she would wait for him to return from their separation. But the fact that Sooyeon still decided to give him such an important token when all of them know how serious it meant, really shows how determined she was to wait for Banryu. 

THIS SCENE IS SO CUTE AAARGH!!! Sooyeon actually wraps up a cut section of her beautiful hair in an elegant pouch and handed it to Banryu before he leaves for the escort mission, and how she worriedly asks if it was burdensome makes me go “aawwww”~ I can still see the slight awkwardness between the two of them though, the kind of awkwardness when you like each other a lot but aren’t well acquainted enough that you could be comfortable in front of them yet. 

AND YOU KNOW WHAT MY LITTLE DARLING BABY WENT AND DID?? SHE KISSED HER LOVER BOY ON THE CHEEK THAT’S WHAT!!! ASDFLJALS;DFL;

I REALLY love how she took the first step in most of the stuff they encountered, the first fateful meeting (butt grab), the first letter she wrote him, the first gift (liquor, which didn’t really become a gift but rather a weapon), THE FIRST KISS /screams/ and Banryu finally gets the guts to pull her in for a real kiss /swoons/ AND THAT KISS IS THE REALLY SMALL AMOUNT OF TIMES I’VE ACTUALLY SEEN GOOD KISSING IN A KOREAN DRAMA OMG most of the time the female leads would just pause there and stare with their enormous eyes in shock through the whole kiss XD

and that wraps it up until the things that happened up until episode 14 (I think I’ll make another post on Sooyeon when the series ends, since I love her so much XD)

Ah seriously I spent half a day typing this XD (if it adds up the days this has been in my drafts, I think it’ll be over a week), but I love Sooyeon so much this post deserves nothing less than PERFECTION <3 <3 (jk I know it’s not perfect, there’s SO MUCH MORE TO TALK ABOUT ON HER PERSONALITY) somehow I wish that there’ll be a spin-off series that has Sooyeon as the main character, but I kinda know that it’s not possible... (I can still dream can’t I? /sobs/)

p.s.: I have no idea when the next parts will be up (for Princess Sookmyung and Queen Jiso), since I take REALLY LONG to type up each post T~T but thank you for reading!!! Love Hwarang with me!!!

[keimisan]

HSBDJABSKA OMG THANK YOU SO MUCH PLS that mitsuya fic was... yeah 😳 BUT IM GLAD YOU LIKED IT <333

also i only speak the truth 😤😤 you are worth every admiration that someone gives you bc your writing is just that good ^^ i think the the first fic of yours that i read was out with a kick and omgmfmfnfmmssmanb it was so?$??##?!$ so?$!$(#!$) 😩😩😩😩 no words it was beautiful 😢 i was in love <33

and you can laugh at my username JDNSKSNAKDB in my language "kaku" means stiff so like i was 🤔 debating on whether or not i should use it 🤔 but ultimately i decided to use it bc,,, everythinf for kakucho <33

also i heard you are bored 😇😇 and i have a few chifuyu headcanons to spare 😇

everything for kakucho- words of a wise human

%#%%$%^%$^% naw, n a w 😳you'll make me malfunction (wtf this word matches with my name) but really, thank you 😭. out with a kick was the first request i wrote and i too, like that trope T.T but didn't expect you to like it that much ishvsgvuse.

i binged on your masterlist yesterday and you write so well too! i also feel like our styles are a bit similar but you convey your thoughts quite beautifully.

DROP THE HEAD CANONS OMG I LOVE CHIFUYU. i thought i was a mitsu simp (my masterlist proves that) before a chifuyu simp but damn the recent episode wrecked whatever simp i was and except brain, there's only c h i f u y u

[supaliaxpress]

Episode 12 Goblin Review: An absolute fate that is beyond human beings’ eternities

OMG!! Episode 12 was such a wild ride... I don’t even know where to begin! DAMN, GR made me fall in love with him 12 times over in this episode! Warning: This review is gonna be super long. 

So that bastard Joong Won wasn’t dead after all and had the audacity to approach Eun-tak with his disgusting hands. Idk... her ghosts friends were being awfully weird. Thank goodness she didn’t touch his hand and told them to leave. After experiencing a frightening sight, Eun-tak ensures that she has a lighter in each and every one of her jackets (fuck, I’d do the same too and even put a back up lighter just incase). Then we see a depressed Sunny as she tries to make up her mind about GR, but it didn’t matter anyways cause Sunny knew she would finish in 7 shots and started with “I want to date him.” As for GR, he discusses with a grim reaper friend that he wants to have his memories back despite the painful longing and the consequences that come with remembering them. Shin notices that GR hasn’t been well lately and tries to find out the reason for GR’s behavior, but Eun-tak comes looking for GR’s help to translate Shin’s journal. She finally finds out that the journal wasn’t a love letter, but instead the words she was told by DH were Shin’s personal thoughts. This causes a domino effect causing Shin, GR, and Eun-tak to finally realize the many “mysterious” things that DH has done and said. 

The conversation between DH and Samshin was finally revealed - showing a very different DH from what we know. Samshin questions this his motives and why he brought them together, while he answers back, “It was fate.” This mysterious DH speaks with a presence of almighty and knowing... which suggests that God has always been listening and watching. The most interesting thing was when God said, “All God does is ask questions.” This means that God asks questions because he already knows the answers, but it’s up to ourselves to discover them, to think through them, and to make our own choices based on what we believe. With the scene of the butterflies flying out from DH’s body, it suggests that God has been inhabiting DH’s body to watch over Shin and GR. The look on their faces was priceless as they couldn’t believe that God was in front of them all this time, such as the saying, “God is closer than you think.”

Though Sunny knows GR’s identity of being a grim reaper, the first thing that concerned her was if there were any female ghosts who approached him. This shows that Sunny is quite strong-minded for accepting GR’s position as a grim reaper and just how amazing her attention and consideration to people’s situation (To both Eun-tak and the grim reapers who came to eat at her restaurant). Joong Won stirred trouble by approaching the female grim reaper, who was a maidservant during Goryeo, to discover her past by touching Sunny; apparently she committed a huge crime but we don’t know what she may have done exactly to put her in that situation (Maybe she was conspiring with Joong Won? Or maybe she did something to pit Wang Yeo against Kim Sun?). From the earlier confrontation with God, GR contemplated over about what God meant when he said, “I’ve never erased your memories. You made the choice to erase them.” He probably felt conflicted after learning that it was HIM who chose to erase his memories... not God - therefore this suggests that people who become grim reapers choose their own fate to erase their memories. 

I wasn’t prepared for it... our loving Grandpa passed away due to a heart attack. It was heart-wrenching to watch GR informed Shin of Grandpa’s death and how Shin asked GR to take care of him because, “I don’t want him feeling sorry toward me, even in his last moments... he mustn’t be tethered down to anyone in his next life, but live freely.” The way how DH looked when he realized what had happened and watching Shin cry as he mourned for Grandpa’s death killed my soul, “A man who was good-hearted every moment of every day rests here.” Eun-tak provided the best form of comfort: a hug in silence. During times of pain and sorrow, sometimes a silent hug is what people need the most because they just need to know that there’s someone there for them. With Eun-tak’s childhood, she gave the best advice, “That’s why the people left behind have to live their lives to the fullest,” because she is trying to do that herself for her mother. DH showed so much growth with the passing of his Grandpa and it was touching how GR, Shin, and Eun-tak tried their best to cheer him up with their own gifts (I loved how GR cut the apples into bunnies, Shin made his special dish, and Eun-tak was willing to give her camera to him, lol). Despite DH’s feelings of regret, it was very mature and thoughtful of him when he went to dust the candelabras/silverware, “I’m worried that Grandpa might be fretting over this.” He even acknowledged Secretary Kim as the CEO and how he has much to learn from the bottom up before becoming the man his Grandpa was, “I’ll learn everything well, from the bottom up.... how to play baduk, too. And I’ll become a good older brother, father, and grandfather to you.” 

Firstly, I’m so glad that Secretary Kim is not Joong Won! And secondly, we see that Grandpa leaves behind two letters with one for DH (his credit card T.T) and the other for him (his name is Kim Do Young). His letter said, “If someone whose last name is Kim and first name is Shin, meaning “belief” comes and says “I’ve come to claim what is mine,” give him everything. Everything I’ve left behind is his. He will walk through the rain and disappear with a blue spark. If he does that, know that that man is truly Kim Shin.” From what Grandpa wrote, it almost sounds like he knows Shin’s fate and this might be how he “returns to nothingness” - or how the drama might end for Shin. First, it’s important to note how he took the time to explain Shin’s name meaning “belief” and I think this suggests that Shin must believe in himself, the people he loves, and maybe God (regain his faith in the gods) to attain peace. And once he “walks through the rain” which symbolizes spiritual rebirth (or overcoming an obstacle) after he claims what is his, Shin will “disappear with a blue spark” which might be him “returning to nothingness.” Disappear with a blue spark could mean that 1) Shin will be reborn as a human after the sword is removed or 2) he will go to heaven. Why? Blue symbolizes stability (truth) and, also, heaven. Sparks symbolize a new source for a flame which can possibly be interpreted as a “new life” for Shin; thus the future of Eun-tak calling out to the “President” could actually be SHIN!! :O DH and Samshin walked pass each other again as the same in ep 1, but this time DH being himself. We learn that he is the “child who has nothing but kindness. And because of that, you brighten the world,” which is the DH that we all know. 

GR expressed his feelings of jealousy towards Shin for being an uncle and, for a split second, Shin saw Wang Yeo’s face in GR which surprised him. We then learn that Shin’s solider friend, Kim Woo Shik, was reborn and had applied to work for his company. Shin sees Eun-tak off on her first day of college and he presents her the necklace he bought in Canada, “It means “a fate decided by the heavens” in French.” This necklace is significant because it represents how their relationship was fated by God, but at the same time Shin took action into his own hands to ensure that he was the one who bought the necklace from 10 years into the future. Also, gifting a necklace usually symbolizes a strong connection between the giver and the receiver. Just saying, but what a perfect use and advertisement of SNOW when Eun-tak sent him a picture showing off her new necklace and to assure him that she’s safe, but I’ve also noticed how the word “death” is used often as a pun in this drama. I cried when Shin reunited with his friend, hired him, and how CEO Kim spoke to him with respect while presenting the gifts to Shin’s friend, “Because you saved the country in your past life.” T.T 

Ah, I love how Eun-tak is not ashamed to do cute stuff with Shin! But most of all, I love how she’s always thinking of what she can do for him such as giving him the money to repay Sunny so that he can see his sister. And I love it even more that she initiated the kiss and left Shin flustered, “Small and tiny mean the same thing. I want to come here every day.” But damn, that Joong Won just had to ruin my mood by showing up and revealing to Eun-tak that GR is Wang Yeo. But most of all, he’s causing trouble because he “wishes for their demise.” This obviously left Eun-tak conflicted, especially when GR came to talk with Eun-tak about him, Sunny, and Shin being connected in the past and about his true identity. With this conversation, GR resolved to confront Sunny, return her memories so that she could remember Shin, confirm if he was apart of her past, and erase her “sad and difficult memories” along with him so that she can live a normal life. It was so sad how GR decided to let Sunny go as his answer to the question as to why he chose to erase his own memories, “I, who gives you nothing but wrong answers hope that this, at the very least, is the right answer.” OMG!! Their kiss was so deep filled with longing for each other, but at the same time with sadness because they can’t be together. But it made me so happy to see Sunny greet her brother with her memories back and the joy on Shin’s face realizing that his sister remembers him. 

However a shocking revelation, Eun-tak cannot see ghosts anymore! :O Why? I’m not exactly sure but it may be connected to Joong Won’s appearance or it may be God’s doing? Or it may also be due to her becoming an adult and no longer considered a child because only children can see ghosts? But I was so glad that she at least told Shin about Joong Won - I was beginning to wonder when she was going to tell him. Finally Shin and Joong Won met again after 900 years - it seemed like Joong Won was “hunting,” which gangshi do hunt for life source during nighttime. BUT WHY CAN’T SHIN KILL THAT MOTHERFUCKER DAMNIT, “You can’t slice away the 900 years of history we have together.” Essentially, what he meant was that something stronger and meaningful can only kill him because you can’t change what happened between them no matter how much you try to cut it away. Also, if Joong Won really is a gangshi... they can’t be killed by swords. He revealed to Shin that Wang Yeo has been beside him all along and Shin realized it was the truth when he confronted Sunny. It hurt my heart when Shin said to Sunny that she insists on protecting that idiot even in this lifetime... Shin must have felt betrayed, but knew it was inevitable. GR finally confirms to himself that he’s Wang Yeo when he went to the temple and understood why he erased his memories, “It seems that I was the source of the worst memories, after all.” Shin can hear GR’s thoughts and approached him while walking up the stairs just as he did 900 years ago, but this time Shin finally reached the king and was able to deliver the message that he couldn’t relay before he died, “Your Commanding General Kim Shin... is here to see you, Your Majesty.” 

But if you watched towards the end, we get a scene of the King holding the robes of Kim Sun and he asks, “These beautiful clothes have no owner... are you searching for them, perchance?... you may take them.” This may mean that he regretted killing her and, despite even holding onto her clothes after death, she wasn’t coming back to him. Therefore, he burnt her clothes so that maybe she may finally rest in peace (finally letting her go). 

So in conclusion, all the players are in place and the climax of the series will happen in the next episodes: the Goblin, the Bride, the King/GR, the Queen/sister, and the evil Eunuch. Now that we know Shin can’t simply kill Joong Won at any convenient time and Shin and the King finally meet again, perhaps Shin will be able to “save” Wang Yeo this time and they may be able to defeat Joong Won together. However, despite all of these answers - new questions were created. Why can’t Eun-tak see the ghosts? What will Shin do next? Did Sunny really forget GR? How do you kill that bastard Joong Won? Was this God’s plan? Personally, I think Sunny didn’t forget GR/Wang Yeo because, despite she had a tragic ending, I believe she cherished every moment with Wang Yeo/GR and that’s how Shin was able to confirm that Wang Yeo was indeed GR. Therefore, even if GR erased her sad memories, she has the happy memories of him and she died as “the woman who loves him who is the sister of a traitor.” In the next episodes, we’ll definitely learn more about Wang Yeo and how he lived his life after killing Shin’s family. We finally learn that God has been watching all this time and was the reason for how things happened the way it did. Also, there was another death card announcement for Eun-tak and I think it might be related to Joong Won? Ugh.. I just want Shin and GR to make up so that they can kill that bastard and then run to their woman and never let them go in this lifetime. T.T 

Other Reviews:

Episode 1-4 Review: Our Homegirl Eun-tak

Episode 5 Review: 10 years into the future, You’re still beautiful and bright as ever, but I’m not the one beside you

Episode 3-6 Review: I can’t help but stare at your smile (Grim Reaper x Sunny Relationship Review)

Episode 6 Review: If you had really been a bad person, he only would’ve created a Goblin, and not the Goblin’s Bride

Episode 7-8 Review: It couldn’t be helped that this was the beginning of this tragic love story (Grim Reaper x Sunny Relationship Review)

Episode 7 Review: Is the thing that I’m trying to steal one more glimpse of… my own immortal life? Or, is it your face?

Episode 8 Review: I beseech the heavens and ask that, on a certain day, after 100 years, on an adequate day… I can finally tell her she was my first love

Episode 9-10 Review: I was thinking about whether or not I should hold your hand one more time (Grim Reaper x Sunny)

Episode 9 Review: I’d like it if I could use that as an excuse to continue on living on… together, with you

Episode 10 Review: Your magic doesn’t work on me.. you can never escape me

Episode 11 Review: So you did come and go for a moment in my life

Episode 13 Review: My Life must have been a reward because I met you

Episode 14 Review: Please, someone save me from this curse

Episode 15 & 16 Review: The Person left behind must go on living life

Deok Hwa and Grandpa Theory Review: From this moment on, this child will serve you, your Lordship

Important Anon Question regarding Pedophilia

[milkybonya]

Hii!! I'm actually love their songs "butterfly effect" and "all stars"! i'm like really into Sanhas vocals right now lol. Dudeeee Moonbin is gorgeous. he really rocks the blonde hair too! what're your favorites from the track?!

- much love, aroha anon

omg i love butterfly effect!! such a bop :") my favourite has got to be All Good though,, it's very much my type of vibe hehe and i found out Jinjin wrote it? is it a coincidence hes my bias?!?!?!?!?

but Sanha's voice is amazinGGG and i'm surprised at how much it's changed since he first debuted hehe

seriously Moonbin is so pretty i cri T.T