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Obsessed with authors like Naomi Novik whose books always seem to say âno, fuck that, there is another way than cruelty, and we do have a choice to be decent, and not choosing it isnât a burden but a cop out.â
Authors like Neil Gaiman whose books seem to say âwe are all simply human, and that is so valuable. This world is worth more because we are in it, when we choose to notice and careâ
Authors like Brandon Sanderson whose books say âWe are all a little broken, and there is strength in not turning away from us, and there is pain in healing but there is also strength and hope.â
Seriously, these folks do more for my faith and hope in this life than any religion ever has. I donât have the words to describe it yet but just. Warm cup of apple cider held close to the chest on cold autumn night?? Thatâs the best I got
#recommendations#does this count as a recommendation?? everyone should read their things if they get the chance. must recommend. there now itâs a red#dawn speaks#the sandman#where death goes from person to person and the episode is a celebration of life as much as itâs lifeâs end#good omens#where people literally look at Heaven and Hell and say âweâre good thanks. we like Human better than Good and Evilâ#the scholomance#where people see âfor the greater goodâ and say in response âdo betterâ#the stormlight archive#which is some kind of ode to pain and healing and the way that process holds something difficult but so so beautiful#I have read fanfiction that has perfectly captured the human condition#and watched childrenâs shows that spit in the face of all the ways we have chosen to hate each other#it just. it hits different okay.#anyways thanks to people who make things#because you reach people <3
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maybe i'm a bitch but if i hear you go out of your way to judge someone's weight, i immediately lose trust in you & will probably forever find you a little unbearable . yes also the little floating bar over my head will start reading [hostile]. this is natural and u caused it.
#IF you do the therapy to stop being an asshole and make a POINT of being like#''i used to be a jerk about this but now i'm not''#..... we can reevaluate ....#btw i hope this doesn't need explanation and everyone can be normal on this post#and not be like#what if i am a DOCTOR and i was aSKED#like we all know what i'm referring to here#you're like in target and lizzo is playing in the background and they're like#DID YOU NOTICE THAT LIZZO IS FAT?#or ur on instagram and like some dude's comment is like#NICE ART BUT WHY ARENT YOU THIN#like .... okay we get it. we get it . go to sleep . go to therapy. bye.#ALSO BTW i am in recovery for an ED and im saying this AS someone with Brain Problems#pls do not clown on this and be like ''actually i'm allowed to be rude and judgemental''#no u aren't. none of us are. having an ED is not a pass for being a fucking dick#it can make you ACT like a dick. that isn't something you should be proud of or seek to continue#hence.... therapy!!!!!!!!#i know it's kind of controversial to say it but frankly i don't believe in infantilizing mental illness#by being like ''oh they can't help themselves''#bc that kind of thinking is .... unbelievably toxic lmafo#you might not be able to control your split-second thoughts/judgements#i have ocd i understand#but like. . . .. you know#we both know#this post is not about ''u blurted something u regret''#this post is about. THAT GUY
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Last piece â¤ď¸đ
There are still leftovers of the Calendar as well as some A5 prints with calendar pieces đ
linktr.ee/Mezzy (or check my Tumblr for links)
#klance fanart#klance#voltron legendary defender#ooofff you ever feel like you keep doing things and things are still to get done???#i keep saying this every five posts#i start to think loving getting in the 'art zone' is my biggest vice#because sure i sketch or do some digital work from time to time but if i haven't sat down to draw for hours#until eyes sting and neck cant move and brain sleepy af? is it drawing anymore? is it living anymore? yeah i thought so#im the main person making grocery shopping in this house did you know? for three people#there is always something running out and like let me tell you i already answer business emails while eating#i cleaned the windows today before my first coffee#okay to be fair i started it but apparently i used the wrong bottle and i smeared anti grease all over the windows#and then finished my coffee staring at the curvy roads of a thin film painted between me and the world promising myself to never do anythin#before first coffee#either way i feel like i havent been very present or entertaining lately#by which i mean on and off for months#am i correct or am i partially correct or reimagining things? who knows#but i keep having so many things i want to do it just keeps on going#i'm starting with commissions now#BUT THEN!!#haha yeah i hope you are having a great November and enjoy this piece!!#sending hugs <3 if you like them if not#a gentle wave from a far
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Fuck you Butch Hartman
#butch hartman/neg#love the shows he made#hate him as a person#also stay away from dsmp pls#i'm begging you#i seen the mikasa art#i seen the gon art#i seen the avatar art#it's all so bad#it's so inconsistent#coming from a fellow artist#the sketches were okay#and while i understand getting into what's relevant and seeing what the hype is about#make art for it if you actually enjoy it#when i was younger i looked up to you and respected you greatly#now while i may not have anything underneath my belt#i can proudly say i no longer do so#and am just remotely disgusted with you#so from the bottom of my heart mr. hartman#fuck you#and have a terrible day :D
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the umbrella academy fandom really said all of the siblings can fuck up and do horrible things and lash out because of their trauma. except for the black woman cause thatâs not allowed
#seeing some really shit takes on allisonâs character this season#literally all of them have done horrible shit#ALL OF THEM#and yes i agree what she did to luther was absolutely not okay#but she very clearly realized that and immediately felt horrible about it#but like this woman has been bottling up her negative emotions for two years and losing claire finally tipped her over the edge#i can really understand where sheâs coming from#that doesnât mean that anything she did was okay but she made some good points#but like i literally saw so many people saying they hate her now or that they want the writers to kill her off#like what the fuck???#everyone else can be a complex and nuanced character but god forbid the black woman is anything but flawless#the umbrella academy#allison hargreeves#tua s3#tua spoilers
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i'm not saying i should've realized sooner that i am on the asexual spectrum but...
when i was a freshman in high school, i got yelled at in drama class because we were watching Shakespeare in Love and during a sex scene, i turned around to my friends to roll my eyes, "ugh can you believe the filmmakers found this worth putting in the movie for some weird reason? boring!" like it didn't even occur to me that someone might unironically enjoy that kind of thing
and the teacher, whoâbless himâwas doing his best, essentially told me, "jessica! please sit straight in your seat and watch these two photogenic celebrities proceed in their stimulated carnal embrace"
and i internally went, "movies are weird, oh well better somehow simultaneously remember and yet shy away from seriously analyzing this moment for another FIFTEEN YEARS" and friends, that's
~exactly what i did~
#i have written now two separate stories wherein someone has a bi awakening at some point after high school#and i want to make it clear from the bottom of my heart that it is actually 100% okay and fine to not realize you're queer for some time#there's some humor in the stories about obliviousness but i swear to you i mean it with only love#i've said it many times and i'll say it again: i didn't realize i was queer until i was TWENTY NINE#you are no less queer if it takes you a while to put all the clues together we can't all be miss marple#asexuality
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I lied I think itâs fun to draw animals sometimes
#sonic the hedgehog#miles tails prower#knuckles the echidna#amy rose#team sonic#hey. still dont expect more sonic stuff okay. this is an exception#(I say as I immensely enjoy scribbling these animals)#man. Im mad how good these designs are tbh theyre so (clenches fists) theyre so! scribbleable!#hate that! dont like that dont like how much fun it is to draw them!#also I made amy spiky bc I want to and I can. and also shes a hedgehog#gods. thinking abt it sonic designs cater to me to such a disgusting level... the cartoon gloves... the big shapes.... the varied footwears#it's like psychonauts raz was so fuckign fun to draw. but here it's the whole cast#it's fucked up! it's entrapment!! I didn't consent to this!!!#next time they give any of the characters a big coat I'm sending sega a strongly worded letter. they cant do that to me#well. here it is anyway. genuinely these all took like an hour each I drew them as breaks inbetween work#(an hour for me is equivalent to other artists' fifteen minutes btw. I'm not fast at all I just don't know when to stop)#well. that done. back to work now#I am actually so excited abt the current one lol its just also gonna be a pain in the ass to coordinate#but I really wanna do well with it. go crazy go stupid baku!!#have a good night! a good pair of boots is worth the money but only if you can tie the strings together & wear it on ur neck in emergencies
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I thinkâŚâŚ.Bakugou would definitely be the type to absolutely bawl the moment he sees you walking down the aisle. like first itâs a small little hiccup, then his bottom lip wobbles, and then, fuck his goddamn chin starts trembling next.
like, big fat ugly tears. sobs that make everyone turn their heads from watching you walk so pretty down the aisle. the type to keep wiping at his face with his palms, but it doesnât work bc he just ends up smearing more tears on his face and he doesnât want you kissing salty lips.
gets all red and puffy around the eyes by the time you make it up there and kiss at his cheeks, wiping away the clear tracks with the handkerchief Kiri hands you. he gets all grumbly when you smile at him and coo, pushing your hands away after a kiss to the knuckles, murmuring a quiet, ââm fuckinâ okay, just stop being so goddamn pretty.â
#I go through this every week#where I watch married at first sight and think of husband bkg#on Wednesdays#and then on Fridays I watch love after lock up#and think about jailbird bkg LOL#best of both worlds#and who says he canât be bothâŚâŚ#omg jail husband bkg that marries you in an orange suit#and doesnât have to pay the guards for that marital alone time anymore#well great#now I gotta reread joâs prisoner bkg fic to get this out my system đ§đ˝ââď¸#but yes Iâm a sucker for crybaby soon to be husband bkg#who swears up and down that youâll be the one bawling on your wedding day#no surprise that itâs actually him lmfao#okay bye for now#I have stinky class in the morning and I want to rip all of my hair out strand by strand#ânew treat in the streets! đŤ#bakugou treats! đŹ
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"will shouldn't use a gun in season five because his father probably taught him how to use one and that could be a bad reminder for him" have you considered that will using what was very likely a Bad experience to save his life in what is undoubtedly an even worse experience could be a good thing? have you considered that him using a skill he was forced to learn to save not only himself but (as is likely more important and meaningful to him) the lives of others could give him a sense of usefulness and safety knowing that he isn't defenseless and can stand his and others' ground if need be? especially considering that's a skill that we've only seen hopper and nancy possess, making it that much more valuable and himself more helpful to the group? after everything in s1 and s2, he's probably felt guilty for having endangered them and dozens of other people multiple times, i don't think it'd be out there for him to feel "happy" that he can finally return the favor and protect them for once (especially after having complained about being babied and treated like a doll).
"will doesn't have and shouldn't have powers because that makes him different and he doesn't want to be different" not only are you wrong lol <3 but how have you not noticed that will's entire thing since the very beginning is that he is different and he knows it and while he does get his heart broken over the fact that this means he faces constant unfairness in life, he still refuses to be any other way? will doesn't conform nor does he ever try to even when others try to force or shame him to. he gets frustrated and upset at being treated differently, yes, but he stays true to himself. to battle that feeling he sometimes gets that tells him he's a mistake, a feeling he gets not from his own otherness but from living in a world that Makes it an otherness and thus isolates him for it, he seeks out that which he loves and enjoys and throws himself wholeheartedly at it. will lives his truth and is willing to suffer the consequences for it. he refuses to live in darkness and let it take a hold of him. he holds on to hope and all that makes him feel better for being different. he holds on to art, to dnd, to video games, to his family and his friends, and everything that brings him joy and reminds him that it's okay to be different. in s1 joyce defends will ("he's missing is what he is") and jonathan tells him he shouldn't like things that other people (namely their homophobic dad) try to force him to like, that he should like what he genuinely likes. in s2 jonathan gives will the freak speech and tells him that no one normal ever accomplished anything and mentions bowie. in s3, he doesn't get a speech, (though joyce does tell him that when he falls in love he won't find it gross [avoiding the word girlfriend and leaving it neutral]) but he does face backlash from someone that IS trying to conform and IS shaming will for not letting go of "childish" things aka his interests, what's important to him, and what he wants. does will back down or shy away in shame? no. instead, he lets mike sit in his shame for having said something that hurtful, and he says "yeah. i guess i did. i really did." clearly this is a conversation about what makes will different aka his sexuality bc he goes and destroys castle byers (the safe place he and his brother built once their homophobic dad left which is a place will can be himself unapologetically) with what is likely a bat that lonnie gave him when trying to get him into baseball. he calls himself stupid and donates his dnd books, but i don't see this as an act of conformity (he tells mike as much, suggesting he'll just use his books + if he was ashamed he wouldn't have painted the party as their dnd characters and given it to him of all people lol). he felt stupid because he thought they'd always be crazy together, that they were of the same mind and heart still, and that they had the same brand of "otherness" if you catch my drift. then in s4 we get jonathan's tender "you're my brother and there is nothing absolutely nothing that will ever change that" which is the most direct anyone has ever been about that which makes will different. and he doesn't shy away from it! he doesn't deny it, because we can see from his confession and how he breaks down that he's desperately been wanting and needing to hear that. he accepts that love and allows himself to be held and seen by someone else, as he has every other time. because will doesn't hate being different, he just hates that he has to live in a world where that's seen as wrong and thus makes him feel like he doesn't belong because of it. but he doesn't change himself. he doesn't feel ashamed of it. he doesn't see it as a flaw in himself or others and he never has. will is different and he knows it and he wouldn't have it any other way.
will's story since the beginning has been about being different and going through awful things, and managing to not only find the light in it but also make it out stronger because of it all. it's always been about using what makes him different as a good thing and as something he uses to save himself and others.
will being good with a gun bought him time with whatever kidnapped him. will knowing how to run and hide kept him alive in the upside down. will acted as a spy while possessed and managed not only to save hopper but also tell them how to finish this. will's experiences and senses helped them figure out what was happening in season three. will's love and loyalty inspires mike and manages to bring him to a better place even if just for a moment in the van, and again he's the one that knows vecna's current state, aaaand had he been in hawkins at the time it likely would've gone a lot better because as dustin said "we need will".
taking something awful and turning it into a good thing and a source of strength is a wonderful trope. it's inspiring and empowering not only for the character but for those that could use that hope and reminder that there's always a silver lining, that life isn't all darkness and shadows and hurt. not only that, but it's something that they've literally always done for will since the very beginning. he is the prime character for that. his entire message has always been that it's okay to be different and that you can find strength and peace in that; that the things that make you different aren't a detriment, they're precisely what make you strong. like... i'm sorry, but have you not been paying attention at all whatsoever this entire time or... :/
#some of u heard 'sometimes it makes you feel like a mistake' and just forgot every other season ever it seems like#but idk maybe IM the outlier here lmao#characters like mike steve and eleven i can see the conformity argument for#BUT WILL?!?!?!?#will who has always drawn and listened to his music and wanted to hang out with his friends and play dnd and who#gets made fun of for so many things even by those that mean the world to him but has never ONCE tried to change#anything about who he is over that..... THAT'S who you think thinks being different is a bad thing!?!?!#will who has never lied about being a loner or what he likes or what he wants in life or has dressed like other people want him to#will who specifically has received multiple It's Okay To Be Different speeches and came out of them believing them is the character#that you think hates being different? will who loves mike's nerdy self and thinks the absolute world of him and TELLS HIM AS MUCH AND#CONFESSES HIS GAY LOVE TO DESPITE THE SUMMER OF HOMOPHOBIA AND THE AIRPORT FIASCO AND THAT DREW A#FUCKING HEART ON HIS SHIELD UNABASHEDLY AND CONFESSED IN FRONT OF TWO OTHER PEOPLE TOO ON TOP OF THAT#IN THE EIGHTIES!!!!!!! TO MIKE!!!! WHO COULDNT TOUCH HIM AND HAS A CONSERVATIVE FAMILY AND DIDNT TALK TO HIM FOR A YEAR#IS WHO YOU THINK HATES BEING DIFFERENT . HELLO#literally everything that he goes through is turned into something 'good' because that's the POINT!!!!#HE DOESN'T WANT TO BE NORMAL!!! HE IS NOT THE CHARACTER U SHOULD BE MAKING THOSE ARGUMENTS FOR LMAO#jus say u don't want him to have powers bro don't be lying on my blorbito's name like that đđđđđ#anyway. crazed frenzy is over im normal now <3#u kno how the long and all too passionate bordering on Is This Bitch Okay mobile posts go#back to being offline now byeeeee đââď¸
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obsessed with this site that has a bunch of stuff used & worn by the cast of mash
#you have to scroll a bit to get to the interesting stuff#but wow!!!!!!#these pictures !!!!!#mike talking#mash#mash 4077#m*a*s*h#hawkeye pierce#bj hunnicut#edit: people need to stop saying that its the smithonian. i know now!!! sorry i am not american okay i didnt realise when i made the post!!#<- idk how i didnt i mean it says it very big. but leave me be i was enamoured with all the pictures
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One thing I've noticed as I've gotten further into the DPxDC fandom is that people don't believe me anymore when I tell them I don't consume DC media.
Like, I'll be like, "Oh I don't really know much about the DC universe" which is true! Most of my knowledge is from fandom osmosis and various wiki dives I've done for the sake of my own fanfic. Even then, my knowledge tends to be very batman specific because that's the niche that I've found myself just cozying on up into.
But then I'll be talking with one of my irl friends and they'll mention something about batman or one of the robins and I go off about the things I've learned (like according to the batman wiki APPARENTLY Duke might be immortal????? Like what the fuck????) and they'll go, "Wow you know a lot about Batman, huh?"
and I have to sit there being like, none of this knowledge is knowledge I gained legitimately. I was just trying to enjoy some fanfic of my comfort media from when I was a child and suddenly I found a Danny Phantom/Batman crossover fic and now I've written over 100K words for a fandom in which I've never consumed content and whose other half I have not watched since I was a literal child.
My friends are out here being like, "Wow, Eli, you must be a fan of DC!" and like, I can't just TELL them that I only can bring myself to enjoy DC media in this very specific context because the fandom itches a particular area of my brain that has not been scratched in a long time. Like, I'm not MAD that I've ended up in these predicaments, I'm just constantly living in a state of wondering when do I stop denying that I know a lot about Batman and accept that I've become a fan of Batman media in the least legitimate possible way.
IDK if this makes any sense, it's just a thought I had while I was working on my one shot for day 6 of DP/DC Week. Also like, it feels very weird to just throw my thoughts out into the void like this when I've only really interacted with other DP/DC crossover fans via my own fanfics and other ao3 comment sections so like please excuse my general awkwardness as I shout into the void that is tumblr.
#random thoughts to spew to the void#dc x dp#dp x dc#dp dc crossover#dp x dc crossover#All the people who are like âI've never seen Danny Phantom before but have this DP/DC crossover fanfic anywaysâ I love you so much#Normalize making fanfic for shows you've never seen#Just go solely off of the fandom's vibes#Our canon now#I do constantly worry though that eventually people will call me out for being a 'fake fan'#Despite making it abundantly clear that I have not consumed much DC media#Like okay I guess I'm exaggerating when I say none#I've seen the Lego Batman Movie and read the webtoon#But the rest of my dc knowledge?#Straight from you all and wiki dives#Though sucks for you all#I have not written this much in this amount of time in so long#I may be a secret fake fan but y'all can't get rid of me now
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i turn 29 on july 1st. i feel like i make a lot of these notes to myself, to check in. hi, me, here's what's happening.
hi, me. hi, you, too, if you keep reading. here's some rules i have been following:
when a book is bad, i put the book down. i choose something i like instead. when i don't like a movie, i don't make myself watch until the end. i care less and less what people think about me and focus more on being a good friend.
for the 6 months or so, i've been asking people what they think should be my next book or tv show. i ask them where i should go on a walk next week. i ask them what food i should try next, what hobby. and then i write it down in front of them.
the truth is some stuff slips through the cracks. but most of the time? within two weeks, i get to send my favorite kind of text - so i tried the thing you were talking about and !
i have a new policy for split-second choices - it's better to try it. i have social anxiety. i have to talk myself into doing many things. i am constantly battling the desire to run away as far as my feet will take me. and then i stand up and i do the thing anyway. i make myself act and dance and sing. sometimes, yes, i know-immediately never again, i hate this. but most of the time - i just have fun with it.
i have a new mantra - nobody is scorekeeping. at the end of my life, there will be no grand reading of how many calories i'd been eating. no reviews on how many boring documentaries i forced myself through, no calculation on how many hours i endured an extremely dull educational podcast. and so what if i try karaoke and i don't actually nail it? so what if i stumble over my words while trying to make a public announcement? so what if i wear something too-showy to go to the grocery store? nobody there knows me, and: nobody's keeping score.
life doesn't resolve with a grade (i know, i was as shocked as everyone else when i realized it). i am not falling behind, because there's no curriculum to life that i should be following. there are no checkpoints; nobody is making sure i have a fully-furnished life resume. i am just here for as long as the earth will have me, and i get to decide what makes me happy.
i don't have a partner or a house or anything that is supposed to belong to people-my-age. i spend most of my time focusing on being kind, compassionate, ready to listen without restraint.
and honestly? i feel good. like actually. i kind of like it this way.
#the really ironic thing#is that the less i care what people think of me#the more friends i have#the more i get along with people easily#19 year old me would kill me for saying this bc she HATED when people said ''stop trying''#but it was that i wasn't trying to be their friend#i was trying NOT to be ME#i went from being like ''i think im too different for people to ever like me''#to a decade later being like#'' ah i'll be okay i get along with pretty much everyone ''#it was true about food too#i wasn't kind to my body and thought it could make me look a certain way#if i was pretty it would make up for the way i was internally very ugly#but im now in probably the best shape of my life#and i have pretty much kicked my eating disorder to the curb (goodbye die in a hole)#bc i spend SO much more time seeing the chance to work out as a FUN THING#bc i don't make myself ''follow the rules'' of working out -- i dance or jog or whatever my body wants to do instead#do you know how weird it is#to go from being a COMPLETELY alone kid like NOBODY will talk to you bc you're a social pariah#like bullied ALL THE TIME bc ur stupid and flighty and strange and too loud etc#to being like the exact same person but now people are like ..... ''ur smart and funny and charming and happy-go-lucky''#some of this does have to deal with the fact i got therapy and medication#and started being a better person and actually focusing on myself and the ways that i could improve#im gentler now. i don't crave attention in the same way. i don't mind things that used to destroy me#it DOES help that i finally got diagnosed with ADHD#anyway feelin things bc it's been 5 years of recovery <3
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Okay originally I made this as a random draft but APPARENTLY itâs relevant, so: Listen. I know everyone automatically makes Nico the vampire but HEAR ME OUT. He doesnât have vampire energy. He has werewolf energy (so does Jason but thatâs a given). You know who has vampire energy? Will Solace. Heâd also be the perfect vampire. Heâs a medic. He has convenient regular and question-free access to blood. He is probably randomly covered in blood often anyways. Nobody would suspect him.
#pjo#nico di angelo#will solace#read riordan#readriordan#the sun thing would be a problem though. unless he's one of those vampires that sparkle#in which case again: perfect excuse. he already glows who's to say a child of apollo cant sparkle. they probably can.#maybe he'd have immunity to the burn-in-sun thing as a son of apollo who knows#if he doesnt though it'd probably just be that one line from The Mouse's Fairy movies#(dont want to accidentally cross-tag that series so forgive the vagueness)#yknow the ''I dont do mud'' ''But you're a garden fairy!'' ''I know. Ironic innit?''#that except an apollo kid about going out in the sun#would you believe this is a like 7 year old strong opinion of mine that i just had lying around that randomly became relevant#apparently read riordan missed the costumes i gave all the protagonists like 6 years ago#cause it did include witch/mummy/and (Doctor) Frankenstein#ive been giving the Argo 2 crew halloween costumes for 7 years now okay#ol' ReadRiordan is behind on their game#''what would solangelo's costumes be'' i could tell you that. i have to answer that question every year.#ive been answering that question for 7 years
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Iâve been thinking about the development of Elizabethâs feelings for Darcy in P&P, and one of the things I find really intriguing is how incredibly careful Austen is in her handling of their physical attraction to each other.
A lot of takes on Darcyâs initial attraction to Elizabeth focus entirely on the physical element, but Austenâs description of it folds together his attraction to her intelligence, her expression, her body, and the âeasy playfulnessâ of her manner. Of these, the earliest mentioned is his realization that her face is ârendered uncommonly intelligent by the beautiful expression of her dark eyesâ and her eyes are the physical feature that he seems to dwell on the most.
At any rate, Darcyâs attraction to Elizabeth is established early on (Ch 6) and continues as a thread from that point on. AndâI mean, even in 1813, itâs one thing to show a man in his twenties being attracted to the pretty heroine. Austen is a lot cagier about Elizabethâs feelings.
The narrative is structured so that we know Darcy is physically attractive from his entrance in Ch 3, when the narrator refers to âhis fine, tall person, handsome features, noble mienâ along with his wealth. But weâre not in Elizabethâs head at that point, and iirc, she isnât shown as saying or thinking anything about his physical attractiveness until she blushingly agrees that he is very handsome forty chapters later.
Even there, Austen leaves the dialogue to stand on its own and tells us nothing of what Elizabeth actually feels about it. The conversation moves to Darcyâs personal virtues, which reveal the critical fact that Darcy is consistently kind and good-natured in the domestic sphere. So Elizabethâs concession that Darcy is physically attractive is narratively linked to the suggestion that he would make a safe husband, emotionally speaking (although her concession comes first, which may be significant).
Between the initial, omniscient narrator-type description of him and Elizabeth agreeing in Ch 43, we do get references to his looks a few times, but during the period of Elizabethâs dislike, itâs always either through implication or through someone around Elizabeth rather than Elizabeth herself. So Bingley, for instance, jokes about how Darcy is so much taller than he is, but the narrator only remarks on Elizabethâs assumption that Darcy is offended by this.
We know that Elizabeth looks for a resemblance to Darcy when she first sees Lady Catherine, and finds it, but this isnât explicitly linked to her conclusion that Lady Catherine might have been handsome in her youth.
Then thereâs the introduction of Colonel Fitzwilliam, when he arrives with Darcy, as âabout thirty, not handsome, but in person and address most truly the gentleman.â Obviously the contrast is with Darcy, who is handsome but has less gentlemanly manners, but this isnât explicitly spelled out. Austen simply says that Darcy âlooked just as he had been used to look in Hertfordshireâ and moves to the manner of his compliments to Charlotte.
We do get an explicit contrast later, when Darcy, Georgiana, and Bingley come to Lambton (so, after the critical revelations):
Miss Darcy was tall, and on a larger scale than Elizabeth; and, though little more than sixteen, her figure was formed, and her appearance womanly and graceful. She was less handsome than her brother; but there was sense and good humour in her face
Austen breezes past this to Georgianaâs manners and Bingleyâs arrival. There are a couple of discussions of Darcyâs appearance earlier at Pemberley, but entirely held between Mr and Mrs Gardiner, who admire his figure while Elizabeth is consumed by embarrassment. She mentions that it was obvious that he had only just arrived via horse or carriage, but not how she knows this or what she feels about it beyond repeatedly blushing.
Then they meet again, he interacts with the Gardiners for awhile, and Elizabeth and the Gardiners leave. The Gardiners discuss the encounter including Darcyâs appearance, and Mrs Gardinerâwho at this point, still thinks Darcy has mistreated Wickhamâfirst concludes that Wickham is handsomer, then immediately re-considers and decides that Darcy has perfect features, but not Wickhamâs angelic countenance. She (Mrs Gardiner) goes on, âHe[Darcy] has not an ill-natured look. On the contrary, there is something pleasing about his mouth when he speaks.â
Elizabeth does not opine on Darcyâs mouth, lol, and instead defends Darcyâs moral character as far as his financial dealings with Wickham are concerned. We donât hear much more of it apart from that, and in general, we see Elizabethâs reactions to Darcy more than we hear about them:
Their eyes instantly met, and the cheeks of both were overspread with the deepest blush.
She blushed again and again over the perverseness of the meeting.
The colour which had been driven from her face, returned for half a minute with an additional glow, and a smile of delight added lustre to her eyes, as she thought for that space of time that his affection and wishes must still be unshaken.
Darcy had walked away to another part of the room. She followed him with her eyes, envied everyone to whom he spoke, had scarcely patience enough to help anybody to coffee; and then was enraged against herself for being so silly!
The colour now rushed into Elizabethâs cheeks in the instantaneous conviction of its being a letter from the nephew, instead of the aunt
She had only to say in reply, that they had wandered about, till she was beyond her own knowledge. She coloured as she spoke
I do not personally think there can be much reasonable doubt about whether Elizabeth is attracted to Darcy during this phase of the book. But the narrative does dance around it enough (for understandable 1813 reasons, I suspect, given that Elizabeth either dislikes or hates Darcy for a significant portion of the book) that itâs not at all clear when she begins to finds him attractive, especially given that she does not actually see him between receiving the letter and acknowledging his attractiveness at Pemberley. So I think there are multiple valid interpretations or headcanons one could come up with for that.
#fun fact: i started writing this bc i was like 'i want to make a post about something trivial i can be concise about'#rip me i guess#but tbh my personal headcanon is that elizabeth /is/ attracted to darcy for a lot of the book but NOT remotely 'secretly in love' or w/e#people will be like 'if the attraction is mutual then what about her dislike are you saying-'#nope! she hates him. in fact she only hates him more bc he's smart and hot and complicated.#in addition to her conviction that he's a terrible person morally#and then she finds out he's actually okay and then that he's actually GOOD and then that he's made himself even better#elizabeth: i tried infatuation at first sight with wickham. now i shall try grown-up feelings like respect and gratitude#three days later: alas... i could have loved him...#some indeterminate amount of time without actually seeing him later: ...oh. fuck.#(i paraphrase. but honestly while elizabeth's realization that half her sleepless nights are darcy's fault is sad it is also very funny)#but yeah i think elizabeth is extremely wary of where attraction to emotionally unsuitable people goes and just buries all that#but once hte brakes go off she falls FAST#also she's genuinely attracted to three different men over the course of one pretty short novel and i love that for her#anghraine babbles#anghraine's meta#austen blogging#elizabeth bennet#fitzwilliam darcy#otp of otps#pride and prejudice#jane austen#long post
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everyone understands that Will had a hard time helping El and standing up for her because he himself has trauma from being bullied his whole life and doesn't know how to fight them back, his reaction to bullying is to freeze. but suddenly no one understands it when it comes to Mike and he's just called an asshole for not being able to stand up and fight El's bullies
i'm not saying he is innocent and did nothing wrong. he could have done more and just handle the situation better but he was just too focused on Will and was in his head and being the otherthinking oblivious dumbass that he is
but just imagine your girlfriend tells you she is having a good time and has friends, she does not mention anything bad and then suddenly she's getting bullied in front of you. when you've been bullied your whole life your first reaction is to freeze, to panic and just wait and hope it passes quickly and they'll leave you alone. Mike did not have any knowledge about her bullying or having any kind of problems, as long as he was aware those people were her friends. he himself has trauma from being bullied (he literally mentions it later on why yall keep forgetting??) and being suddenly thrown into a situation involving bullying can be really distressing.
when you have experience with being bullied even just seeing someone else getting bullied can make you freeze up and panic. and we know that Mike does not stand up for himself when he's the victim. even when you're not on the receiving end of the bullying but you just see it happening and suddenly you're a scared little kid again holding back tears desperately hoping for them to leave you alone.
and i know everyone wants to yell at me "you forgot about Mike standing up to Troy when they were saying shit about Will! so he can obviously stand up for his friends so why can't he for El??" and no i did not forget and yes you may be right but the situations are different. Mike was very well aware of Troy's bullying. he was involved in it. he was the victim there. he's had to deal with his bullying for years it was not a shocking revelation. however he did not know about El's situation at all and your reaction can be very different when you know about something and when you have no knowledge and it suddenly happens
again i'm not saying that he did nothing wrong. i'm just saying that we need to consider his trauma and his point of view and it could make him think less rationally and therefore not being able to help properly. maybe if he knew beforehand that something could go wrong he could be prepared and he would handle the situation better (even if it would be just them seeing Angela and her friends come and they would turn to Mike and say quickly that those people are mean to El he would still have at least some time and could prepare himself). but he did not know that and he was not prepared for this situation to suddenly escalate like this. he was unprepared and probably panicking and didn't know what to do so no he wasn't much of a help.
and maybe we should stop acting like this traumatised 14 years old kid needs to solve every problem and act rationally in every situation and not to make any mistakes (especially when he has no knowledge to prepare him for something distressing) and overall just putting everything on his shoulders and then insult and hate him when it does not end up perfectly well
and maybe i'm just being my overprotective extremely defensive self who's looking too much into this who knows
and i can't even properly put into words what i'm trying to say but if it makes sense to someone then great!
#mike wheeler#byler#Will is not a bad guy for not being able to stand up for El#that boy has so much ptsd from everything he's been through in his life he never stands up to his bullies#his survival tactic is to stay quiet and hope assholes won't bother him#and Mike isn't a bad guy either#no it is not an excuse for him being a bitch to El especially after she hit Angela#but again he was not prepared for anything like this to happen and it all escalated so quickly and ended up in violence#and he didn't even properly know and process what just happened#and i'm also sick of seeing everyone hating him and calling him a hypocrite for this whole thing#because 'he was okay with El using violence against his bullies' when those situations are so so different#El hurt the bullies because they literally made Mike jump off a cliff and threatend Dustin with a knife#El used violence against Mike's bullies because Mike almost lost his life he was not being humiliated#and i'm not saying that being humiliated like El was isn't bad because i know how painful and traumatising it can be#but in Mike's situation she used violence against violence and that is still different#also that happened in s1 and they were still kids and since then Mike saw so much violence and death#that it would be understandable for him to have a different view on it now#if El would humiliate Angela back like she did with Troy at first#i'm pretty sure Mike would understand that better so maybe calm down with that hate yea?#but then again it is just a speculation and my opinion so you do you#blue's 'Mike's extreme defender' ramblings
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How to give good feedback on art (from an artist)
I often see people talk about how they want to leave good comments on art, but donât know how/donât know what to say. As an artist, hereâs what I often look for to have something to say to other people!
The composition of the art â how different elements of the piece guide your eye, how certain parts are brighter against darker backdrop/darker against a bright backdrop. What catches your attention? How have they put the piece together to make this happen?
The lighting/shading â how have they rendered the piece? Do you like how the lighting is bright, harsh lines, or how itâs gently blended in? Do the shadows add extra depth that makes the whole piece look more 3D? Did they use funky, unconventional colours to shade?
The lineart â is it smooth? Sketchy? Are the lines thick or thin? Do they use lines at all? Are they in a colour other than black? How does it add to the piece? Do they just outline a piece, or add texture with lineart as well?
The colours â have they used a pallet of complimentary colours? Do they remind you of something specific â perhaps to the fandom, or to a season, an aesthetic, etc? Do they only use one colour? Do they use unconventional colours? Do they have one pop of contrasting colours against a monochrome background?
The anatomy â do they stick to exact proportions? Do they lean towards a more cartoon sizing? Is it like Powerpuff Girls, or like Tim Burton? 90s anime, or modern day anime? Do they make things very angular, or really smooth? What about it do you like specifically?
The texture â in the frame of digital art especially, have they used a specific brush to create a certain effect? Do you like how sketchy it all looks, or how theyâve blended the colours together? Does it look like watercolours bleeding, or a stamp/print made over the entire piece? Is it all rough, or super smooth?
The details â talk about how you love the tiny pattern on a blanket, or the multiple earrings in the characters ear. Talk about how you like how theyâve done the hair, or the little glint of light against a ring. Talk about the celtic patterns in the body, or the crooked teeth in their smile. Little things that jump out to you.
How it makes you feel â anything at all, but try to explain what in the piece evokes it strongest. Are you hit with isolation by the lonely figure in a wind-swept hill? Or joy, does that bright smile make your heart swell? Try and pick something out and babble about that.
Any meaning you can pick out â a little more tricky and often quite personal, but if you can pick something out that you think you can interpret, talk about it! I donât think people ever get offended, even if youâre wrong â itâs interesting to see how other peoples brains work, and what they take away from something youâve made.
Anything that stands out to you as a signature of Their Art â typically for artists youâve followed for a long time â when you look at a piece, do you think âoh, this is by Xâ. How do you know? Is it how they draw the mouths? How they shade? The anatomy? The details? The colours? The composition? The expressions? Tell them!
I try to mix and match a few of these, focusing on things specific to the piece. Talking in depth about a piece helps an artist to know you havenât just glanced it over and gone âoo cool!â and moved on. If you want Tumblr to continue having a thriving art community, itâs beneficial to engage in and spread art around, as well as letting the artist know their work was seen and appreciated. They put the work out there for you to see for free! What can take you a few minutes of your day can make their entire week. Go support your artist friends!
#art#artist#artist on tumblr#feedback#art feedback#digital art#original art#traditional art#tumblr artist#tumblr advice#advice#yeah okay that's enough now I think#this isn't me saying 'you have to tell these things to artist every time'#god knows sometimes I see a piece and just reblog it cause I think it's cool but don't have the energy to give proper feedback on it#it's more a guide in case you WANT to do that but don't know how or don't know what's effective yknow#also as a disclaimer you really. Don't have to do this to me at all. I don't want to make ti seem like I'm annoyed people don't do that#I'm not! I'm not. Don't worry. thumbs up for you#also massive one - don't??? critique??? Pieces???? Unless specifically asked to????#I have an artist friend and we share our sketches and doodles and pieces together and we tend to just froth over them#sometimes we might go 'oh this looks a little wonky?' or ask for specific feedback but like. even with both of us doing art. we don't just.#insert out critiques into pieces. it's rude. it saps motivation. don't do that innit
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