#okay so I made an artblog

[ryuladrawslove]

Okay, so hear me out- There is this AMAZING Hobbit fanfic that started in 2014, called Love Pays No Indemnity by Jana. Go check it out. I'll wait.

Now, I know Bilbo/The One Ring, Bilbo/Sauron may LOOK crazy, but I promise you it is genuinely one of the best things I have ever read IN MY LIFE. No, I know, Listen To Me. Every time I start reading this fic it consumes my life until I finish, and in fall of 2016 (which is the year I started reading) I actually started painting a comic of it.

Buuuut.... thanks to job hunting, working, exhaustion, depression, and a global pandemic, and then MORE WORK and EVEN MORE exhaustion I.... stopped painting. Not just this- for like two whole years I stopped painting, drawing, sketching entirely.

I was so tired, I had no space or energy to make any art, nevermind painting something this intense. I mean- I've never made a comic before! I've never tried to re-write a novel-style work into comic format! I don't know near enough about kerning or typesetting or whatever! If you squint at the image above you can see that I didn't even plan where to put the word bubbles! I just painted pretty pictures!~

Obviously, I had no clue what I was doing back then, and honestly I still don't have a clue now. But, I lost my job and searching for another one is both tiring and somehow even more soul-sucking than having a job is. Which means, I need to do something just to stay sane.

I was planning to revitalize my old artblog and post things there again, and I still will, but when I pulled these pages out of their dusty drawer and spread them out on my floor, I felt the urge of joyful creation. I loved painting this, I loved reading LPNI (for the fiftieth time), and I want to keep feeling that for as long as possible, so I decided that YES. I'm DOING IT!!

I am going to paint the rest of this comic chapter!

There's a lot to do to get there, but already, I'm planning more pages, getting more painted, figuring out how to do the word-bubble-thingies- it's going to happen!

Posting will begin on Friday- one page at a time! (look, I'm sorry, but these are 12"x18" paintings. I NEED TIME) If I get enough done, I might post more often, we'll see.

Wish me luck and if you choose to follow this crazy endeavor, give the fic a read and send Jana all your love!

[attila-werther]

LUIS CALLING LEON PRINCE CHARMING??? HELLO????

[cielcreations]

Accepting Perfection

Trigger Warning: Gore, blood, manipulation. If you are sensitive to these topics, please do not read.

Prequel to my pervious story which you can find here: Garnet's POV Pico's POV

Note: This is based off @rainbow-neko-artblog's FNF AU called FNF V-Mix. It's an AU with lots of manipulation, blood, and gore, soooooo yeah.

Also, Boyfriend's name is Aqua, Girlfriend's name is Cherry!

"This way, come on!" The redhead yelled, gun strapped to his hip as he carried his boyfriend on his back.

The raven groaned, his foot hurting from landing wrong, "I-I'm sorry, I-"

"Don't apologize, gem, not your fault."

The other two quickly slid down the ladders.

"There is a group close behind! I know a place we can hide out!" The black man exclaimed, running ahead as he put some headphones on.

"Here!" The woman offered the other two some ear plugs.

The raven took them, putting some ear plugs on himself before helping the redhead. The four stayed as a group, the redhead behind the other two. The woman would throw her knives when needed while the black man tried to hold back on lighting cans on fire. They didn't want to attract noise, especially since one of them was hurt.

The raven groaned, the redhead stopping, "Are you okay?"

"M-Mhmm..." The raven reassured, "I-I can run, it's not like-"

"No, you're not running with a sprained ankle." The redhead decided.

"But, babe, I'm slowing you down-"

"No, you're not, you barely weigh a thing."

The raven grumbled, "Why are you so stubborn?"

"Could say the same to you."

"Could you both have this lovers' quarrel later?" The woman asked as they continued moving.

They almost made it out of the town without running into anyone, nearing the surrounding woods. However, before they could run, they stopped. In front of them, stood two other people. There was a yellow speaker, where a demon woman sat, her wings and tail out, covered in blood. She had a feather boa on, wearing a simple purple dress that fell to her upper thighs. Beside her was a redheaded man, in bright pink and blue clothing, pink blood falling from their eyes, their noses, their mouths.

"Oh, shit, Aqua and Cherry." The redhead stepped back a bit.

The two turned, smiling brightly.

"PICO!" The man yelled, though the four couldn't hear him, only able to read his lips, "AND NENE AND DARNELL AND GARNET! WOOOOOOW! YOU GUYS CAME AT THE PERFECT TIME!"

Pico gently set Garnet down, the raven taking a gun out of his bag. Darnell held his arm out, protecting the other three.

"It's so awesome to see you guys again! Here, why don't we sing a song?! We all have such beautiful voices, it'll be perfect!"

Darnell lit a can on fire, tossing it towards the man. Aqua was quick to move out of the way before it could harm him, though Cherry stayed seated on the yellow speaker.

"Now, now, that's not very nice!" Cherry seemed to say.

Pico stood beside Darnell, tugging his arm. The man turned to the redhead, reading his lips. They didn't say a word, knowing they wouldn't hear each other anyways, just mouthed to each other as Nene and Garnet held their weapons. Aqua tried to step forward, but Nene readied a knife while Garnet cocked his gun.

Suddenly, Pico stood in front of the other three, lifting his gun and aiming at the two. Garnet went to step forward as well, but Darnell picked him up, throwing him over his shoulder. He was confused as Darnell grabbed Nene's hand and the two began to run. He blinked, staring at Pico, expecting him to follow.

But he didn't.

"Pico?" Garnet questioned, "Pico!" He called.

The redhead looked at him and smiled.

"...Pico! Pico, come on!"

The redhead read his lips and shook his head. Tears came to Garnet's eyes as he reached out, struggling in Darnell's hold. He watched as Pico looked away and fired his gun.

"PICO, PICO, COME ON! DARNELL, STOP PICO! LET ME GO, PICO, PLEASE, PLEASE, PICO!" The raven sobbed, shaking in the other's hold, "Please... don't leave me alone..."

***

Months passed with Darnell, Nene, and Garnet learning to survive with the new virus spreading throughout the world.

They called it the "Valentine Virus", or V-Virus for short. It was unclear where it originated or when it started spreading, but the thing was dangerous. It spreads through Love Language and, if a healthy person accepts that love, then they also become affected. Once infected, the person is basically a walking zombie, as it seems to convince its host that everything is "perfect". And because they are living "a perfect life", they wish to pull others into the perfect life. Because it's so recent and new, there's no cure, so survivors have to hide until someone hopefully finds a cure or to wait until all the infected die off.

However, surviving is hard.

The three would sneak around the city when they need food or drinks, trying their best to avoid the dead bodies surrounding the place and the infected that still lingered around. They figured out it was easier to blend in if they wore bright colored clothes, as that's what the infected seemed to wear, and they made sure to always wear earplugs to avoid words of affirmation. 

One day, Garnet was by himself, wearing a white jacket with bunny ears, a pink mask to cover his nose and mouth, purple pants, and a purple backpack, all of which were stolen and washed. He looked down and avoiding eye contact with everyone, not knowing who was or wasn't infected and not wanting to find out. He went into a grocery store and saw most of the shelves were cleaned off. He sped-walked to the canned food aisle, shoving as much as he could into his bag before turning around. In and out. He thought, walking out of the store quickly.

A little too quick as, when he did, he ran into someone and both of them fell back. He made sure his hood was still up and-

Oh no.

"Oh, you dropped something!" The person said, picking up the earplug with a bloodied hand, "Here you go, handsome!"

"I'm not handsome." Garnet quickly said to avoid accepting the virus, scooting back.

"Aww, are you shy?" The man grabbed Garnet's ankles, "Coooome oooon, you can take it-"

"L-Let go of me-!"

The man grabbed Garnet's face, his eyes, nose, and mouth, dripping pink blood. A sign of the infected.

"Take it." The man spat out blood.

Garnet moved his legs from under the guy and kicked him over his head. He grabbed his bag and ran, ducking into an alleyway. He heard people behind him, running and yelling for him. He covered his ear with one hand, using his other to dig into his bag. He found his gun and turned, shooting at the infected people, slowing them down. He knew it wouldn't stop them, this virus was strong and manipulated its victims' until it was basically a rotting corpse, and then some. He faced forward and continued running, ducking into multiple alleyways, trying his best to run as far away as possible.

When he ran out of breath, he stopped and hid behind a dumpster, panting and gasping for breath, using the alley and dumpster as cover. He groaned, taking out his other ear plug and tossing it in frustration. He pulled his knees up and hugged them to his chest. Why... Why is this happening? Why is this stupid virus taking over?! I thought living with a transphobic and homophobic dad was hell... That's a dream compared to this! Garnet thought.

"There you are!"

Garnet widened his eyes, "Pico...?" He whispered to himself.

"I've been looking for you!"

Garnet slowly looked up, ready to smile and run into the redhead's arms.

However, he stopped himself.

Tears flooded his eyes, waterfalling down his cheeks almost instantly as he stared at his boyfriend. Pico's wardrobe had completely changed. He wore a bright yellow sweater vest over a black shirt, the sweater having white hearts all over it, light pinkish-gray pants, a white cape tied around his neck with a winged design, and bright orange shoes. He had his gun strapped to his hip with pink and red blood splattered all over him, both from infected and uninfected people. 

However, the reason Garnet was crying was seeing the hearts in Pico's eyes, literal hearts, and pink blood falling from his eyes, nose, and mouth. It seemed he tried to shoot himself to stop everything, as his one ear was blown off, pink blood staining the hair around it.

"My gem! Where have you been?!" Pico walked towards him, "Awww, you got a little bunny hood, is that what you wanted to surprise me with?"

Garnet shakily got up and aimed his gun at Pico, shaking the whole time, tears falling down his cheeks. He bit it bottom lip, trying to take deep breaths, but he was just shaking.

"That's so cute, you have a bow, too!" Pico held up his gun, "I love how yours is a pastel pink, it suits you!" He stepped forward.

"N-Not another s-step!" Garnet tried to stand firm, "D-Don't!"

The redhead did so, confused, "Babe, is something wrong? You look like you've seen a ghost!"

"D-Don't call me that! Y-You're a dead man walking!"

Pico tilted his head, confused, "Garnet? What's wrong?"

Garnet put his second hand on the gun, shaking still, trying to steady himself.

"Garnet? What's wrong?" He repeated, "Why... Why are you being so weird?"

The raven took shaky breaths through his nose, trying his best to pull himself together. Come on, Garnet, he's not the real Pico! He's infected, you need- He swallowed the lump in his throat, You need to shoot him and get away!

"Garnet?" Pico questioned, tilting his head, blood dripping from his mouth, "Garnet, what's wrong? Please, tell me-"

The raven felt like he was going to have a panic attack, maybe he was already in the mist of one. He stepped back, tears waterfalling down his face, barely able to breathe as he stared at his boyfriend- was that still the right word? His boyfriend was infected with this virus so it wasn't really him and he just... didn't know.

Pico tried to step forward, "Babe-"

"D-DON'T!" Garnet yelled, stopping the redhead in his track. The raven looked down, sobbing, "D-Don't c-call me t-that..."

"...Gar, I just don't understand what's going on? You're crying so much and you won't let me hug you or help you... You know I'll protect you, right? I'll take care of you, you know that, right?"

"N-No, no, no y-you won't..." Garnet tried to stop shaking as he looked back up, trying to aim, just like Pico taught him, "Y-You're infected... You're... You're not okay..."

"'Infected?' What're you talking about? I'm fine, perfect, even! But... I've missed you. I've been looking for you."

The raven was silent, if you didn't count his sobs and hiccups.

"You know, it's not perfect without you." The redhead looked down solemnly, "I see Aqua and Cherry and they're... so happy together and I remember us being like that. Granted, we didn't do as much PDA, it was more private, but still. I... I've really missed you and was worried about if you were mad at me or something... Did I do something? Is that why you're acting weird?"

You sacrificed yourself. You had to be the damn hero. You- Garnet sobbed as he lowered his gun, "You left me..."

"I what? No, I-"

"You left me alone..." The raven whimpered, "Y-You... You left me... despite knowing my past and..." He couldn't finish.

"...I'm sorry, Garnet. I'm sorry." The redhead cooed, "I... I didn't mean to make you feel so alone. You... You know I love you, right?"

Garnet didn't say anything, but he knew the answer.

"I love you so much, G. You know I can, and will, take care of you. I want to protect you, to cherish you, you're my gem, remember?"

 Garnet was silent.

"Come on, Garnet!" Pico opened his arms, smiling softly, "I promise, I'll take care of you for the rest of your life!"

That...

"I'll protect you, get you whatever you want, spoil you, you won't want for anything, I promise!"

That sounds...

"I love you, Garnet! So much!"

The raven dropped his gun and bag, running over to Pico. He sobbed as he ran over, practically jumping into Pico's arms as the redhead hugged him tightly, soothing him.

That sounds perfect.

Garnet felt sick almost immediately after he fell into Pico's arms. He coughed up reddish-pink blood, his legs becoming jello. Pico helped set them down as Garnet coughed and gagged, feeling lightheaded, nauseous. He felt blood trickle down his nose, felt blood mix with his tears, coughing up more pink blood.

Until, finally, Pico helped him to the dumpster as he vomited pure bright pink blood.

"Well?"

Garnet looked at Pico and... everything looked... brighter? It was happier, there was no broken buildings- wait, why would there be? There was no scariness of needing to survive- wait, survive from what? And Pico's injuries seemed healed and- wait, was he ever hurt? No, he couldn't have been, no one would hurt an angel with a bow and love-filled arrows!

"Feeling better? Feeling okay?" Pico asked, cupping his cheeks.

Garnet blinked before he smiled, nodding. Why was he so upset before? Pico was here, he was here, everything was fine, everything was perfect!

"Here." Pico picked Garnet up, smiling, "I'll carry you home. You had an eventful day! Time for you to relax!" The redhead kissed his cheek as he began walking home, "I love you!"

"I love you too." Garnet smiled.

Everything was perfect.

[aptericia]

Hi! for your new little ask game… I would like to ask about the Constance you made in march for her birthday… The light is like soooo gorgeous so I'm both curious and scared to ask. If it's okay of course 💜

of course, thanks so much for playing!! The file is called “HBD Coco 2024” (very imaginative, I know lol), it took 2 hours 5 min, and has 7 layers (5 of which are visible in the final product)!!

[alphagodith]

EEEEE I FINALLY HAVE MATCHING WIZGATO OTEDAMAS EEEEEE

(fun acquisition tale and bonus pic below)

okay so i started my wizardmon collection a year or two ago, and at the time there were no open listings for this rare stackable tsum-tsum loaf plushie/digi-digi otedama beanbag thing ANYWHERE. so i thought i was out of luck. i got the regular plushie of him but i was really bummed i missed out on this one cuz it's sooo cute.

then, just the other day, my friend @peach-artblog asked me if i had a certain golden gacha mini-figurine in my collection (i didn't but now i do), and that prompted me to go back to ebay again. and guess who finally had a listing! so i SLAMMED that buy button as hard and fast and recklessly as i possibly could.

but then i thought, surely there is a matching gatomon one of these, and it would be cruel to separate the two of them, so i went looking for her and ordered her too. but then i kept looking for other wizard things that might have popped up since the last time i searched, and i found a cheaper gatomon on another site, but i had to wait for the one i'd already ordered to let me cancel it, since it apparently had to be approved by the seller since it had been a few hours. (this is important because it resulted in wiz and gato being ordered several days apart)

then a few days after THAT, i discovered that a certain phone charm i had seen plenty of times before and thought was fan-made was actually official! so i HAD to have it for my collection too, of course, and when i went to order it (from a third website), it reminded me of a funky thing with my address that sometimes causes it to get input wrong. so i went back to the other things i had ordered to make sure that hadn't happened, and guess what? it HAD. specifically with the gatomon otedama. so i emailed that seller right away, and they got back to me within MINUTES. apparently they were JUST about to ship it out (a bit later than i had expected too), so it sure was a good thing i got that fixed when i did! and i ONLY caught it because i had been looking at this OTHER purchase. (so very narrowly avoided further delays on gatomon)

so i'm carefully watching the tracking for the wizardmon otedama because i've been wanting it for years, this is the only listing ANYWHERE within that timespan, and our local shipping center has been fumbling things lately so i'm VERY worried about it arriving safely. and then the worst happens. i get a notification that the package has been 'forwarded' due to incorrect handling/labeling. basically the post office screwed up and sent it to the wrong place and it's being sent back. i feel sick. i have my husband call the post office and the first lady he gets is very rude and unhelpful, then he tries again (bless his heart) a few hours later and THIS lady explains that the vague ass forwarding message just means that it's been slightly delayed but it IS still on its way to us, and not to some random wrong address or back to the seller. so we cross our fingers and wait. (so long story short, wizardmon otedama got delayed)

and today, on the expected delivery date for gatomon and and the last day for wizardmon to arrive without me freaking out super hard, the two of them miraculously arrived safely, and together, despite being ordered on different days from different sellers!

and if that ain't magic i dunno what is.

[chronically-enthusiastic]

Hello there, thanks for stumbling across my blog!

(Here's a lil comic I made for a school assignment)

Artblog: @chronicallyartistic

Audio drama blog: @chronically-listeningtopodcasts

I'm going to start putting my social energy levels in my bio... There's a lot of stuff I want to respond to but i currently dont have the energy to do so, and so if I don't respond within like a day, check my bio and see that...

Who am I / Where else can you find me?

First of all, feel free to call me Eli!! I'm on the waiting list for an autism diagnosis. I am agender and aroace-spec.

I am verrryyy enthusiastic about the things I am interested in (hence the URL hehehe). And currently, those are: podcasts (theres a list at the bottom of the post), good omens, ofmd, bbc merlin, star trek!!!!, lotr, and probably more things that I am too tired to think of right now!

I use the queue! Im not awake at the ungodly hours i sometimes am seen posting at, I just dont want to utterly flood peoples dashes! I do reblog fandom stuff and things ive added anything to immediately, so if you see a few posts in short succession, im online!

I am a very big fan of the oxford comma and double brackets. Semicolons are pretty cool too. And ellipses are incredible.

i love all of my mutuals dearly!! Making cookies and hot chocolate for you all <33

I try to use tone tags as much as possible!

Boundaries:

Things I am okay with sharing/doing:

My age, gender/sexuality, things about my guinea pigs!!, and most other things

Things I am not okay with sharing/doing:

The city I live in, pictures of me/anyone I know, my full name, my birthdate, my phone number/email address, meeting up with people irl, sending/receiving money/gifts, dms (<- though if we're mutuals and interacted a lot dms are fine!!)

^ this applies to everyone im not in the discord with

I will let someone know if they cross boundaries, and *really* would like other people to let me know if I cross theirs!!

DNI: people who are here to spread hate and anger. Just, stay away. I dont engage in discourse. I know DNIs dont deterr these people, but this is a demonstration of my core values :)

Tags:

(At the top cause otherwise it will get lost) ALSO #tw body horror

I block quite a few tags but most notably #tw war and other ones to do with the war in israel/palestine. This is not because I don't care. I care so so so much about what is happening and I cry every time I see a post about it. It breaks my heart that such horrible things are happening. However, I really struggle with high empathy, and seeing a post about it can really affect me for a while, and I need tumblr to be a safe space away from the real world problems. If I follow you - please could you tag things to do with war. Thank you <3

Updated to clarify - I do block the generic tags such as Israel and Gaza, which most of the posts are tagged with by the op, so if you forget its no big deal!!

A list of all the podcasts I listen to because y'know, its fun:

Fiction:

The Amelia Project

Wooden Overcoats

The Adventure Zone

Sherlock & Co

Alba Salix

Unseen

And a whole lot more that i no longer listen to either because they havent updated or they are a little too creepy (Welcome to Night Vale falls into the latter category)

Science:

The Sci Guys

Lets Learn Everything

Lingthusiasm

A podcast of unnecessary detail.

Comedy/other:

Dear Hank and John

The Unmade Podcast

Books Unbound

Lateral

A book list of recommendations from mutuals for my own use:

abigail by Magda Szasbo (@mack-anthology-mp3)

The Alphabet of Candice Phee (@jamie-dinow)

A list of music reccomendations from mutuals:

in the lap of the gods revisited by queen, why can't i be you by the cure, pyramid song, and lucky & the tourist by radiohead, when the sun hits by slowdive, dancing barefoot by patti smith, tangerine by led zeppelin, autumn sweater by yo la tengo, rubber ring by the smiths, water by pj harvey (from @/mack-anthology-mp3)

imi hendrix’s all along the watchtower (from @/catholickedd)

[greywaysart]

So. Okay. Hear me out. Okay. I. Hear me out. @raichana-artblog made this WONDERFUL piece and a story to go along with it, which in turn inspired me. And I couldn't help but draw them. I just. I love them. So much.

[rontra]

So, I loved your Salem & Summer post but it does leave me questioning Hazel's narrative role, as how things went with him seem to go against the grain for much of it thematically.

okay okay okay before that, i'm panicking like a small rodent so i have to say first up that my post wasn't really made in the intent of like opening a wider discussion or anything (hence the several frantic disclaimers haha). as much as i love rwby analysis i'm also really insecure in sharing my thoughts publicly and i prefer to filter it through my art instead, to kinda Show you what im thinking instead, i guess?? and this is in the end an artblog so i don't want to put too many text posts in a row … so i was kind of like If someone tweets at me im just gonna ignore it.

but this ask intrigues me so much i can't help but come out and investigate, so consider it a cheat day i guess 😩

about hazel, i don't really...see anything about him that overtly contradicts my strange rambling notes. of course, this might be because he's not my primary field of study (lol) so ive been in bed just distilling him into another List Of Things to try and understand what you mean. to me, hazel is a guy who

Identified one of the core brutalities of the huntsman system, and

Had that realization corroborated by Salem, who did not lie to him (although she didn't divulge the entire truth either) before

The Oz Train derails him from this by pulling him back into the good brotherly remnant (4. and also death)

to me he's a bit similar to the summer rose concept, i think: he's not in this for the thrill of the kill or because he finds it pleasant to do salem's wetwork, he's here because he thinks it would be wrong to do anything else. that remnant as it is cannot stand. he doesn't typically indulge in needless violence, and he tries to go out of his way to protect the "little guy" when and if he can. he's the most restrained of salem's onscreen lieutenants, but just like her, he's willing to sacrifice whatever people need to go in order for the plan to move forward. he just hates seeing a kid get hurt most of all, because his teenage sister was killed in action before having the chance to even graduate.

You send children to their deaths for a cause that you know has no victory, no end. (8.6)

in no uncertain terms, he's identified a major issue with remnant in the huntsman system itself. he hates huntsmen and their academies. he knows remnant runs on hero blood and that ozpin has four factories spitting out cannon fodder. he knows the war can't be won, and he knows ozpin is sending people to die in it anyway. he knows this because salem, when she got to him, knew exactly what to tell him (she's unfortunately good at that); she filled him in on the important bits, demonstrated that she can't be killed and divulged that oz knows it too, and offered him the path to take revenge on the academy that murdered his sister. it's interesting that hazel has this to say about salem's motives:

We share a vision. She’s gonna create a new world order: no Kingdoms, and no Huntsmen Academies.

the destruction of ozma's remnant and construction of a new society is their "shared vision". i don't think salem painted the full picture for him (like, the stuff about the gods, and such), because she really didnt need to in order to convince him. this guy was ready right out of the gate to tear remnant apart for the thought of no one being dealt the same hand as gretchen ever again

(here's a funny aside—about gretchen, oscar posits that she "knew the risks" and made her own choice. oscar obviously has his own insane ozpin baggage given he is slated to "die" for him in a very different way as their personalities literally merge and the new combined oz overwrites him. extremely intriguing of him to say this. ozpin does this maneuver to get out of addressing my new band Raven And The Branwens, and also with Pyrrha, insisting that she must "choose" and he has to hear her decision out loud before he can bring himself to start the Soul Suckatron 4000 (machine that murders (literal), contained below machine that murders (figurative)). obviously those cases can Not be neatly chalked up to "she made a choice" either, and i don't think merely saying that and dusting his hands is the Move he thinks it is—although it certainly soothes his conscience)

(whether oscar suggesting nobody but gretchen made a choice here is just him being naive and 14 and raised by remnant, or if it's plain old ozpin bleedthrough, is up to interpretation imo. but it is. Interesting.)

(how do you make a choice like that when the people asking it of you are not divulging all the information? when you do not, in fact, know the stakes—because they are withheld from you on purpose?)

(...) Hazel denies that his twin sister's choice was ever hers to make. That the honeyed words of Ozpin, an immortal being long removed of the burdens of mere humanity, coaxed her to give up her life. (...)

How could an innocent and talented youth resist those seductive words? Talk of duty, untold glory, legendary exploits, and heroes of old? How was she to know that she was merely one little girl caught in a war between behemoths, immortals, GODS? (...) In the end, what did her sacrifice change in this wretched world? What difference did any Huntsman make in Remnant? What were a few drops of light in this ocean of black? (Amity Arena)

hazel saw the still-bloody bones remnant is built on on his own and said Hey what the fuck! and salem targeted him for her collection because he was Based. i have no idea what she told him and how much of it was true, but hazel was . right. about this stuff

like i said in my previous post (at least in the post nested inside it), characters tend to ascribe to salem whatever motivation fits their personal narrative and biases. but i have to say that compared to "salem wants to destroy the planet", this one is a lot more convincing; i don't think it's complete but it's closer, i guess, to my personal read on her actual feelings about remnant (as discussed in the other nerd posts). so maybe it's my own confirmation bias, hehe. whether it's the complete truth of her end-goal is unclear (since it seems doubtful that what she told him included things like "i am god's mistake") but i can at least very much believe they had a conversation about it where she was like Look Buddy , Shit Sucks ,

when confronted with this by hazel, ozpin does an immense ozpin maneuver: he says Actually have you heard the good word? and starts selling his own thing again—

"New world order". No. When Salem gets all four Relics, there will be no world left at all.

i touched on this in my previous post too but i do not believe ozpin when he says this. it does not feel true to me. this is Light's Guy doing Light's Guy Things and casting the Sole Evil out; she has to be unreasonable and driven only by death and destruction, and the people who know about her have to believe this, or else things begin to fall apart for him. if the redeemable remnant is destroyed, there is nothing else left for him or for humanity; there are no possible alternatives to him. the man is completely tangled up in his agonies and wearing horse blinders some deer guy put on him. it's my way or the highway, baby!

anyway, hazel doesn't believe him about this either, until an unrelated statement proves to be true, which convinces hazel to believe ozpin and oscar in general. but i HAVE to stress that nowhere was it said that THIS was actually true; hazel just is convinced to trust ozpin and oscar's word by an unrelated thing they said turning out to be true. he's being pulled back into ozma's remnant, and his ensuing mode of operation is explicitly described as

"WHAT GRETCHEN WOULD HAVE DONE."

he hasn't forgiven oz for what happened, but he's been convinced that salem's goals are too destructive, that she's going to end the world entirely. he commands oscar to ensure there be "no more Gretchens", but it's not like you can achieve that without taking down what oz built. none of this really changes the fact that she isn't One Girl who had an Unfortunate Tragic Accident: she was intended to be coke for the furnace just like every other huntsman, she just happened to die before getting in.

and now hazel is doing what she would have done: burning himself alive along with the witch.

(holy SHIT Witch is a good episode.)

one bonkers thing about hazel's self-sacrifice is that it would have done absolutely nothing. when oscar hangs back and jaune tries to prompt him to go, oscar refuses because

She'll just come after us.

to be clear: if oscar had not intervened by pulling the trigger on ozpin's stored-up Cane Energy, killing Monstra and Salem and Hazel (to shreds, you say??), this would have accomplished nothing. if a now-15-yo hadn't killed them both first, salem most likely would have dispatched hazel and resumed doing what she was doing before he cut in. hazel is pouring his blood into a futile fight against salem for no real gain just like every huntsman in history, and what oscar wrests from it is temporary relief; everybody knows salem will only be gone for a few hours at most, but at least they got away to lick their wounds and regroup. at least it's better than nothing.

but without that, it would have achieved nothing.

it's...what gretchen would have done.

i don't feel as though the story is exactly celebratory about this. it was a Big Damn Hero moment, but is that a good thing in rwby's eyes? his story is a tragedy and ends a tragedy.

i won't deny that the hours of respite it bought our heroes was invaluable, but again, hazel did not accomplish that alone (and does not have the Audience Perspective we do to gauge the full benefit). he just...didn't. if the little guys had just run as hazel intended, his death would have changed nothing at all.

those precious hours were important and mattered a lot to the overall plot, but were bought with blood. v8 didn't exactly end in a stunning victory either. we're still barely hanging in there, still on the brink, still feeding coke into the furnace to keep the lights on a little longer...

hmm...

well, anyway, summer and salem should kiss on the mou

[xiinen]

revamped intro post

hello! so, this is a revamped intro post because i am starting all over again. i'm ngl, i forgot i've made this account and since i've warmed up with tumblr now, let's re-do this, shall we?

alright, so!

hello, everyone! this is L (エル)! i still don't know what to put here, so let's just do quick basic info. pronouns are he/they. i'm of legal age. from the Philippines. an artist (artblog on my bio!!). a taurus. INTP.

okay, the important parts now,

i speak Filipino (which is of course my mother tongue HOWEVER, i've been told many times that i suck at it) and English (C2). i'm currently learning Japanese. i do not take JLPT tests, so i'm not certain what my current level is. probably low intermediate right now.

read further for tags, why i'm here, and miscellaneous info!

tags!

#Lclassic : sudden realizations, thoughts

#Lweekly : this is my weekly checkup, will include grammar points and my favorite vocabulary i've learned the past week.

#エルのノート : kind of like a weekly journal but not really written on my TL (日本語), these are open for corrections!

why i'm here...

well, i'm here to dump all of my language-learning thoughts and stuff. be an all out nerd if you will. but of course, i'm also looking for co-learners (??) to talk to (chats, VMs, voice calls are all fine), maybe practice with if you feel like it (i'm certainly down).

miscellaneous info(?)

uh, i'm on a lot of fandoms, i like anything related to art (music, films, etc.). i'm omnisexual and demiromantic. i also write from time to time! i dislike people who do the "haha, women ☕" jokes, homophobic, racist. all that stuff. you know, just be a decent human being and i'd like you.

this is turning to an essay so i'm going to stop now! feel free to get to know me if you've somehow found this post interesting, LMFAO. i'm very active on telegram and discord, so! :DDD じゃあ、 よろしく！

[claire-starsword]

okay so apparently every time i click to make a photo post now tumblr defaults to my artblog, which makes some sense i guess, but is pretty annoying given that it is change made out of nowhere with no warning to me.

[vilelittlecritter]

@viderchia-sucks-artblog okay I entirely forgot I made this post you describing th batter as just HIM™ is so god damn funny to me but also makes perfect sense.

Like you've got all these sad, gloomy, depressed teens all following about this genocidal lunatic who won't hesitate to fold you like origami because of a slight disagreement.

Like the Batter is just a fucked up freak no matter how you look at him so the idea of him just babysitting a bunch of kids is so damn funny to me.

Anyway I know you posted this like two months ago but this made me laugh a lot harder than it should have so thanks lol

I keep seeing people crossover RPGmaker game protagonists so you know what here's a silly doodle I did of the batter and the children he's forced to babysit

@ask-the-rpg-3 for mostly giving me the idea I guess. I don't know a lot about the au but the bits I've seen look cute :)

And Niko's here for some reason

[destroyhorse]

i got weird and stressed and shelf-conches about drawing regularly (much less actually posting it) for a while bc of weird dumb shit i was dealing with irl lmao so im. trying to get back in the groove of actually drawing again and restraining myself from getting shy & deleting it immediately. 😬😬😬

[greywaysart]

Okay, so this one is legit one of my faves. See, I used the CSP models to get things the way I wanted to, then I made the modifications I needed to my line art to get that really close feeling I wanted, and it *really* worked out! I love these two. They're best friends in the AU they're both in, and I wanted to get that across, which I think I did!

Ariel (on the left) belongs to my friend @raichana-artblog! Ruby (on the right) is mine!

[stitchieau-the-actual-one]

I was talking about the fact it’s all buried under her reblogging whatever cope comes out of Lily’s mouth or scam posts. But okay bro

(That and she’s neglecting the fact I actually after long while of searching did eventually find her own content and even gave her a rather good suggestion she eventually decided to follow)

Here’s my artblog:

My AO3:

My Adult DA:

Nobody else’s stuff just my own content.

Separate from Lily, do you make anything yourself? Like your own art or content?

Like at this point your blog is just Lily 2.0

You mean like the Henchwoman? An original story idea I came up with and have been doing art and character work for? Which Lily isn't involved in beyond helping me promote it? Which I've been proudly showing off on my social media?

Actually look at my stuff rather than use me as an excuse to talk shit about my wife

[sanderstribute]

The whole time I was watching the new Sanders Side I kept thinking of your theory and You NAILED It like Wow.

Oh my gosh thank you, it surprised me so much tho!

I had it in mind since the first time I saw people theorizing about the new side being a liar, but I literally posted my thought like. 1-2 days before the video came out gjsghsjg

And even tho it was so close from the release, please believe me when I say that the moment the video came out, I cOMPLETELY FORGOT AbOut iT and it was only until the LAST MOMENT where “Patton” was getting desperate that I was like “Oh. OOOoooooh. Oh No. There it is. Screw this. I didn’t wanna be right to begin with” so I panicked and closed hte vide o

[rinoomi]

tw vent?

okay so. i was at my peak when I posted those suna fanarts. like that's when my acc grew the most? i truly appreciate all of the support!

now, I haven't drawn him in a very long time (not just him but I haven't really drawn for the hq fandom in a while) this isn't me falling out of love w hq or the chars or anythING like that! I have noticed that I grow more as an artist when I indulge in and draw for other fandoms. this way I get to draw chars with unique character design? I also get insanely burnt out when I draw the same character over again and again. there are many artblogs that are dedicated to one fandom alone or like drawing for one specific character but that's something I can never get myself to do. I once did exactly that and it costed me a huge art account that was once my pride and joy (I abandoned it 2 years ago btw,, drew for a specific fandom for 3 years until one day I just couldn't?) I don't want to repeat that mistake ever again because I didn't just lose the acc but it also made me fall out of love w the fandom?

ever since that incident I've never been hard on myself or forced myself into drawing for one specific fandom, if I start feeling even a little iffy or get that whole "awhh shi wait am I drawing to satisfy the ppl who follow me on here?" feeling, I just stop. and go draw for other fandoms, indulge in other things etc. also noticed that I get into artblocks a lot when I'm continously focused on drawing for one fandom?

lmao drink water when you read the word 'fandom' 💀

I don't know where I was going w this but anyway- all i want to say is! its okay. its okay to draw for other fandoms. don't ever feel pressurised to keep producing content for one specific fandom just because you want to please your followers/friends or want to grow your acc. because hun we both know thats not gonna help you grow. acc? maybe yeah but that's not the growth I'm talking of rn. and you know exactly what i mean. AND it's okay when the current fandom you're making content for doesn't get you the attention, appreciation, love your old works used to get. don't get discouraged. (I'm speaking to my inner child here shhhhh)

just wanted to get this out because I feel like- nono not just feel I'm speaking from experience here hdjdjdjdj that many artists feel extremely pressurised to keep serving for one fandom. (like I said earlier there are MANY artblogs that draw for one specific fandom and theyve done it for years and grown which is amazing honestly!! this whole thing isn't targeted towards them. I'm only referring to the ones who feel like they're restricted or bound to produce content for a specific fandom)

okay what is this even 🥲 hdjdjsjs this is just how I talk inside my head I'm soo sorry if you had to read this 😭