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dendroaspis-viridis · 4 months ago

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I'm begging you, BioWare... Learn from the mistakes of Baldur's Gates past...

#please accept this low effort meme while i work on Emmrich-inspired creative pursuits #hoping and praying and sobbing and crying #BioWare i'm on my hands and knees begging you to GIVE THE SWEET NECROMANCER A SOFT TUMMY #emmrich volkarin #dragon age emmrich #okay now im gonna start complaining in the tags so this is your warning #i just don't think im strong enough to withstand ANOTHER RPG with companions that Should Not Fucking Have Abs #like sure i could MAYBE suspend my disbelief that the vain wizard would use some illusion magic to give himself abs (still cringe)#or MAYBE he got really into crunches while he was depressed for a year (HIGHLY doubtful)#BUT THE EMACIATED VAMPIRE!?#like come on bestie #did cazador have some really rigorous workout routines that were conveniently never brought up???#im going insane sorry #i just have a lot of opinions on diverse body types in video games #and dont want them to do my man dirty like that #[insert joke about how getting down and dirty with him is my job]#okay sorry i think i got it all out of my system #if anyone actually read this far please know i love you with my entire serpentine heart

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benevolenterrancy · 3 months ago

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"But in the end, I... still think... it's so unfair," Yin Yu sobbed. "If I wasn't destined to be perfect, I at least wanted to be perfectly kind. But... I couldn't even manage that. It's really... so unfair. And to tell you the truth, I can't get over it, even now. I can't swallow the fact that I'm dying for this little bonehead, Yizhen. I can't even let go and die without resentment or regrets. What the heck..." "Better than most people huh?" Yin Yu gave a small, arduous chuckle. Then he sighed, and the sound of his last regret passed along with his soul as he mumbled, "But I wanted to be a god..."

#yin yu #quan yizhen #quanyin #tgcf #tgcf spoilers #heaven official's blessing #heaven official's blessing spoilers #just finished volume seven and! wow! not okay over this!#the tragedy around yin yu specifically just! aboslutely! kills me!!!!#''if i wasn't destined to be perfect i at least wanted to be perfectly kind'' absolutely DESTROYED me and i think it 100% sums up what #yin yu is struggling with and why he can't move on from... well anything. why he can't actually reconnect with quan yizhen and why their #fallout was inevitable #but god i want him to have a chance to move past that #i want him to hear his words and realise what's been tormenting him so much and i want him to heal and be happy #i would really like him to NOT BE A CORPSE THAT QUAN YIZHEN IS CARRYING AROUND BECAUSE I NEED TO STOP READING EVERY TIME ITS MENTIONED #i'm fine i'm okay it's all okay #now that i've gotten this out of my system i'm gonna go read v8 #my art

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miikanui · 2 months ago

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dont you guys ever just make random characters in those papa louie games?? in my case, its ALWAYS vocaloid.

#miikanui #i swear im normal #these games are such a life saver for me during classes 😭😭#ESPECIALLY CIVICS.#AND ENGLISH. (sometimes)#school is kicking my ass #well #okay not really #things have been getting easier now that im balancing work and rest #EXCEPT FOR LAST NIGHT. that doesnt count.#i guess the only thing i'm worried about is how my schedule is going to look now that drama production has started #auditions are gonna be starting soon and im absolutely TERRIFIED.#i shouldve stuck with what i did last year and done backstage #SNAP OUT OF IT MIKA #YOURE GONNA BE FINE AND YOURE GONNA GET A ROLE !! (delusional)#oh before i forget #i might be a little inactive with posting art due to school and this :( i'll try and post art to the best of my abilities !!#why am i even putting it here no one reads tags #oh well #thanks for reading the tags if you did !! have a good day/night and dont forget to eat and stay hydrated :)#actual tags now #vocaloid #hatsune miku #luka megurine #papa louie #flipline studios #papa's scooperia #papas games #miikanui !!

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essektheylyss · 6 months ago

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I'm not gonna put this on the other post cuz I don't really want it rebloggable but I do want to specify that like, yes I was being dramatic about Essek in terms of affect, but every part of that post is also quite literally a description of my experience with a creative field that is pretty centralized around a few locations and that has made it stringently difficult to enter and stay in the field. There are obviously monumentally different aspects around those circumstances, but like... look I left Los Angeles literally two weeks after the c2 finale with a very clear understanding that once I did, I was not going back, and that because of that, my career would never look like I'd wanted it to in any capacity, and in fact it was likely that it meant I would not work in the field I'd trained for ever again, and also knew it was the only choice that made sense if I wanted to, like, have a life. And I do! And it's great! And it still makes me very upset to think about for many reasons! So you can see why I have a lot of feelings about the whole situation.

#also to be clear i did not go into the field with some naivete about 'making it'#i started college in a time period where i distinctly recall having conversations with people like #'well it's gonna be hard for everyone to find a job so might as well go try to do what i want'#and lo and behold. it is in fact hard for everyone to find a job. most people i know do not work in the field their degree is in #and if they do they are not paid enough. frankly if they don't they're usually not paid enough either.#I'm sure most people reading this have the same experience but like. i would not even say i was naive about my job prospects at 17 lmfao #basically like. @ everyone like 'okay but this is literally exactly my experience' we are shaking hands #(and this def does apply to a lot of industries it really is fucking. rough. hell world.)#like! i do think a lot of people do not want to recognize that essek is. very relatable. to a decent amount of people.#way beyond the surface level. anyway I'll shut up now

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wildflowercryptid · 11 months ago

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tealmaskshipping has infected my brain so severely so here are some very specific things ( like themes & imagery ) i accociate with mjverse!kieflo :

kieran-specific — hydrangeas & hinoki cypress, glitches, folkflore, nightsky, angel / bird wings, yellow + red-violet + green, the porygon line, darling by materu ( jayzeroey ver. linked bc i really love it ) & figure you out by djo

florian-specific — lily of the valley & yellow roses, mythology & fables, mornings, butterfly / moth wings, scarlet & vermillion, the rotom line, fireflies never came by harumaki gohan & dandelion by iyowa

hedgehog's dilemma

destiny knot / red string of fate ( with it tangling around kieran's neck & florian's legs )

mutual obsession & idolization

cupid & psyche

and suddenly everything is different. they have looked at each other.

sacrifice of the self ( sacrificing one's identity vs. sacrificing one's safety )

leaning on each other ( for support or as a display of affection )

unyielding devotion

deep admiration

stars

fireworks

daybreak / sunrises

anemone & bellflowers

shades of magenta

the applin line ( and apples in general )

songs — goodbye, my danish sweetheart by mitski, friends with you by the scary jokes, fireworks in the summer end by jin

#i could add more to this... and i probably will at some point #i really need to make an aesthetic blog for mjverse i already have a url saved for it #also fair warning about the essay i linked for the ''they have looked at each other'' quote : i haven't read it yet so i'm not sure what >>#the full contents of it is about but i do know it's a multi part eassy about the topic of incest in rgu #i only know about the quote thanks to some rgu fanart and it's plagued my mind ever since #i NEED to watch rgu i know these two would fit the dynamic so freaking well #okay i'm gonna go try drawing now #pokemon #pkmn scarvio #rival kieran #trainer florian #tealmaskshipping #hc : (pkmn) mjverse #chara : kieran hinoki #chara : florian russel cavallari #mj.txt

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redwidow616 · 29 days ago

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I need to tell you guys about the incredibly amazing adaptation of "The importance of being Earnest" i saw last night

It was so great it made me understand why people want to write fanfiction, I forgot how much I love theater as a medium. Especially modern adaptations of older plays, specifically comedic plays, can be made even better with elements of the modern postdramatic movement. And i feel like theatres are much more free to do what they want because they are less commercial than movies and also so much more intense and always different and the city I live in is so diverse so they can do even more because they know it will be accepted.

To come back to the play i watched, I'm not gonna write an essay, I just want to say that it was so gay Oscar Wilde would've been so fucking proud, okay thank you

#i don't really know how to put my experience into words #and my parents asked me why i liked it so much #but i didn't wanna say “the characters who are supposed to be long lost brothers had insane chemistry #and full on made out for at least half a minute at the end“#so i just said “idk i just really enjoyed it”#theatre my beloved #it's so special to me #I'm actually thinking about making a separate blog to talk about the plays i go to #which only happens like four times a years but still #yeah theatre is really special to me #okay I'm done now #no one's gonna read all this anyways

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yuckydraws · 11 months ago

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(Click for better quality)

Healing & Growth

(gif made by my friend @robanilla-arts is below - slight warning for flashing! Thanks again, Rob!)

#if you feel like reading it - I'm gonna ramble in the tags.#Don't really feel like having it attached to the post for forever... cause what if i just wanna reblog some fairysona art??#anyways #this year sucked a lot. in a lot of ways. but im grateful for it.#healing is stupidly hard and annoyingly enough? not linear in the slightest. Yet infuriatingly - it is worth it.#I am far from done with healing. I've barely scratched the surface.#but im learning and connecting with myself along the way.#The biggest step I've taken this year is working on my people pleasing ways. it's a bad habit birthed from a lot of different traumas.#but it no longer rules my life.#I am not passive anymore - and surprise! that doesn't make me a horrible or evil person.#my kindness is no longer a weakness. its still a part of me and always will be. i won't let go of it.#but it is no longer to a fault #there are people undeserving of my kindness... i realize that now. I know what i will and will not put up with in every kind of relationshi #im still learning and exploring - and i've said a lot of goodbyes this year. I'm sure i will say more.#but that's okay.#some relationships are forever - some serve you for a while and teach you a lesson when they end.#and some relationships stick around and don't *have* to have a deeper connection #and that's also okay.#I didn't think I'd make it through this year in all honesty. I was very close to ending it all on multiple occasions.#But. for what it's worth - as of now im glad im here.#i will continue to struggle and have my hard times. im not naive enough to think depression just goes away.#but im okay for now and im moving forward.#there will be pauses and abrupt stops and likely some good ol' rotting involved. but when i can - ill be moving forward.#i will not speak a word of 2024 because no matter what it will have it's ups and downs.#but i will continue to keep working on myself. and that's all anyone can do in this weird life.#if you made it through all of that... uhhhh wow you got a crush on me or smth? /j/j/j/j #but fr - if you read this far... thank you. i hope you're faring well and that you have a happy celebration tonight.#sleep well and dream well when it comes to you #yucky draws #my art

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lesbiansanemi · 20 days ago

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I'm so tired

#not to come on here just to complain and feel sorry for myself especially because i know things are so much worse for so many other ppl #but as hard as i'm trying it's hard to believe things will be okay i'm trying so hard not to fall into defeatist attitudes #but fuck man. fuck. it's not even that i'm surprised or anything it's just. man #i want to curl up in a ball and just be comforted and cry and be upset but i can't do that and i have no one to do that #my worker's comp payments aren't coming through like they're supposed to and i have like ten dollars and barely any food in the apartment #my injuries aren't getting better the pain is still there even though i'm doing everything i'm supposed to #my meds aren't working but meds have NEVER worked on me and i keep hoping and praying some day i'll find one that will but i fear they won'#i have more psych testing in january but a part of me worries about doing it because if (when) i test positive for certain things it will b #on my record and considering..... the state of things i worry about what that means for me and my autonomy esp regarding anything medical #i still can't convince any doctors to take my issues that are almost CERTAINLY endometriosis seriously and again.... given the state of thi #i find it very hard to believe that will change and will in fact only get worse and i will never be able to get any kind of sterilization o #hysterectomy and if something ever ended up happening and i DID get pregnant well. it would not be good for me #i feel very alone and like i need to and must handle everything on my own but i feel like i'm about to break doing that #and then this. this. this this this this. i know it's not fair to be upset about it. like i said things are so much worse for so many other #but fuck dude. fuck man. mentally i have not been doing good recently and nothing has happened in my life to really help that recently #i want to go back to being so repressed i genuinely felt/believed i was emotionless this was not a good year for the dam to break #i told my therapist the other day that i feel like a toddler. i was so repressed and emotionless for as long as i can remember #so i never learned to deal with big ugly and overwhelming emotions. so i react as a child still learning would because i never got the #chance to learn how to manage them and FUCK MAN i feel like i'm losing it #i know it's important to do what you can and not fall into overly negative mindsets but that's not something i was good at anyways #and now it's even harder but i'm trying. fuck dude i'm trying so hard i want to be hopeful i want to do what i can #i don't want to hate everything and jump immediately to wanting to kms or destroying my whole life because what's the point #i just. holy fuck. man i need a minute to breathe and i wish i had someone physically here to hold me and tell me it's okay #but i don't have that so i'll be a big girl and sort myself out like usual and just hope i don't break yet #i'm gonna go watch anime and try and read fic to distract myself but mannnnnnnn i feel like i'm losing it #kaz rambles

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teiasviago · 3 months ago

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happy 20th birthday to me <3 hard to believe that eight years ago for christmas i got my first gaming computer to play inquisition!! lagged so bad during combat and crashed when i tried to enter the undercroft for the first time lol. don't mind me being weepy, dragon age just happens to be the first ever rpg series i played and i wouldn't be pursuing video game writing alongside tv writing in my screenwriting major if not for that!

#and don't worry i got the regular version not the deluxe version #okay okay i've been thinking. and this is a little spoilery for veilguard so don't read on if you don't want potential spoilers #but i think i'm gonna have my first rook be a grey warden. i mean my da poster is a warden one i'm committed.#plus solas has big beef with the wardens so that'll be so fucking funny. he'll be like “oh. one of YOU guys. fucking things up. YET AGAIN.”#i wasn't going to initially but i think we'll get a cure for the calling by virtue of dealing with the blight #and i think that the blight still inevitably killing of rook would be bad writing bc we already have that fate lingering over the hof yk?#i mean especially as a writer (which feels really redundant now i'm sorry sdkfhjd) i think it's a fair assumption esp based on the trailers #that the blight and the evanuris will be completely dealt with in veilguard #anyways i wasn't gonna be a warden initially bc i didn't want to be worrying about my rook leaving harding all alone bc of the calling #but that probably won't be an issue... so............... uhh it's wardening time? !!!!!#dragon age #rambling

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keeps-ache · 4 months ago

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okay, my plotting

#just me hi #'my plotting' i'm thinking of my independent to dos outloud bfsvh #anyWho so i've got those two revenges i've gotta finish.. and then there was one big one i wanted to do..#and then uhhh.. i Do need to get around to watching that tutorial on synfig lol #13 minute video is Nothing to me but ohhh man is it SoDaunting hhfbshh #well let me not say daunting i think i am thinking of a grueling hour-long tutorial when it's really 13 min long and i really wanna learn #this thing so hhhhhmm :^#i gotta respond to my messages..#mm i also have- oh i've gotta eat at some point let's not forget that lmao :3 #gotta go through my askbox..#n really clean up my email... i love cleaning up my email :>#finish that story i was reading...#explode 4000 times bc i vaguely thought of something neat...#i think i should get into woodcarving...#no wait that's not a to-do.. maybe organize my clothes box. she is Not lookin good hhfbhsfhv #i hate doing that though so fingers crossed that ever gets done lmao #/mm yea i think i'm gonna finish up this attack rn ehe :3 #there is something so nice abt already having something you like working on ready when you wake up. hellooo drawing hfbsh #okay on my way now :) gotta clean my things up #//ouh i Need to go skating at some point this month....... so bad #//okay i'm going Now hgfbshv ; toodles :3

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silverselfshippingchaos · 5 months ago

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i love my husband he's so silly goofy!!

#ash rambles 💚#went on a rant today about how much i hate his source material LMAAOO #i tried to be a fan for so long but after reading the shitty light novels? what a fucking cesspool of problematic shit lmao #i get that the point of the series is that everyone sucks but come on. theyre fucking unlikable #and i hate the fandom #so much #nobody hates s.hizaya like i do. you could even say i dislike i.zaya. all the power to people who him #i just think he's a dick #interesting character maybe. but a dick. also admittedly ive had beef with people who lile him so. yrah #also i think n.arita is a shitty writer #i dont think this series is well written #and this isnt really something i wanna argue but like #it's my blog. i get to speak my truth #however #the series does have my dream man! the man of my dreams! my knight in shining armor! my ideal type! my wonderful and amazing husband!!!!#he's such a comfort to me and i love him #he's amazing #and a great dad #to both my fankid and her pet dog #I'm sorry if this post is incoherent lmao I've been doing hw all day and I'm beat #also i have my drivers exam tmr so like.. wish me luck!#IM ALSO GOING TO THE F.INAL F.ANTASY ORCHESTRA TOMORROW?!?!?!?+#j^×*÷&=&×^÷&@^jahshqysAHJSQGRJQYUEHWJEGWJE #oh i forgot to use husband's tag..#kissing in the van 💍#okay there we go #I'm gonna get back to homework now #i literally just came here to be a hater LMAAOO #also i love my husband he's amazing #and i do wanna say that there are some things abt the series i do like. please dont flame me (after all. I'm already ash. HAHAHAHAHA!!!!)

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obnoxiousarcade · 5 months ago

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I have a longing to be understood more than anything else i think

#someone very recently acknowledged something that usually goes unseen and it wasn't even that great of an acknowledgement but ive just been #staring at the messages every once in a while. its great. not really i sort of feel like a real weirdo #im very lonely. i cant say why but let it be known that i am very lonely #ok i have a question to those who lie their eyes upon this post: tell me what you know about me please?#so much lies in my social perception and i am just. not being perceived. at all. darn #i have a lot to cry about but morally i dont think i should-- specifics would mean being mean to the people i love #talking to anyone anymore just makes me feel horrible. doing anything anymore makes me feel horrible..tmbg has my back though ill live for #another.week or a few. and then my birthday will happen and rhen um #.Well. it sucks that sucks man. i dont want to disclose my age but to elaborate on why ACTUALLY HOLD ON #the thing i am about to say is not true; it is a metaphorical thing: it is my 21st birthday soon.#i decided that i wouldnt live past this age around 5 years ago and the only reason ive lived five years is being killed this year. i dont #think every thing ive been desperately clinging on to for the past 2 (?) years can keep me alive past then..i think im going to die. i have #to #NO MORE BEING A DOWNER #fox (vulpes vulpes) on the Internet for the first time #okay maybe a little more..i dont know who im talking to in this post. my friends do not read my tumblr and. i dont know anyone else.really.#uh #I'm listen to tmbg right now i love them #hey reader; i can only think of 3 people who see enough about me to check my blog. so i have separate questions for the each of you.#one of you likes (liked? school came in and i couldnt see your blog much past then; idk if its changed) tmbg. what do you think of The Else?#and uh you there... the guyyy. Google john flansburgh..i dont have a reason to this one ive just not been able to stop thinking about askin #you what you think of him.#um third person..... um #okay theres nothing iecan ask. i do want to apologize to you though: im sorry.#iThis is bullshit #im gonna delete this soon #Um also sorry if my wording here is. really wack. i tend to do that #i dont think anyones going to see this as is always #i think i just like talking to the hypothetical beast. yeah

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theydoctor · 5 months ago

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List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last 10 people who liked or reblogged something from you! Get to know your mutuals and followers✨ no pressure tho! ( ◕◡◕)っ ♡

(This is really hard btw because the last 80 reblogs in my notifications are just you and your Patrick insanity xD)

wdym i did absolutely not go insane over patrick (also you're to blame tss)

oki uhmm

- You <3

- bisexual people.

- jon & martin (except for when they make me cry)

- not dying ?

- punctual trains

#hii i'm running on energy drinks and tons of anxiety ahahahajaha can u notice #i am a mess #that's mostly because of that damn jonmartin fic though #been reading it nonstop during my journey and well. you can imagine what that has done to my psyche.#so yeah not really serious answers i don't have the mind for that #except you. you do make me happy. very happy actually.#i mean hopefully you know that though #would be awkward otherwise #if you'd thought you make me unhappy that is #love the idea of you just constantly inviting me just to see me suffer though #would be very jon coded of you #did i mention that i can only think in jonmartin rn #it's fiiiineee #i'm fine #you did this to me #and unfortunately i love you even more for it but dammit xD #anyways ok gonna stop rambling now it's okay i'm in control of everything #just gonna wait for the next train and then go home and i'll be fine #and then i'll finally sleep and tomorrow i can be at my beloved archive again and sort files #i missed that actually #ok ok i'll stop now. i'm dizzy. is that fine? surely.#byeeee #love youuuuuu #charlie rambles #newt my beloved #(new tag i guess idfk)

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roaringroa · 5 months ago

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not to make another post about loving my girlfriend but I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND!!!!!!

#she's so dsabiduosadas #i just love her so much and everyday with her since we started going out has been amazing but these last few weeks especially so #we spent last weekend at her family's house in the countryside it was soooo good #we were alone and got to play house a little bit watched a ton of dungeon meshi + got to know the little town that she loves so much #and then wednesday was the brazilian version of valentines day which we spent getting take out building the lego flowers i got for her #it was great we both love legos and it was so chill and fun and so us instead of having a fancy dinner or something #oh and she got me a really pretty necklace with my initial on it (and got herself a matching one with her initial)#(we have our own initials cause we're cheesy but not THAT cheesy like having each other's would be a little too much lol)#and then this weekend was amazing #i just love her so so so much #friday i'm gonna go on a trip i had planned since before we began dating and even though it's gonna be fun and i know i'm gonna love it #i'm kinda dreading it a little bit cause it's gonna be two full weeks without her #and those two weeks include my birthday!!!#which i'll be spending in another country without family friends or girlfriend...#i'll be okay though #i won't have her but i'll have the special valentines day edition kuromi plushie she got me today hehehe (she of course has my melody)#and her perfume that i'll use to spray on it... and our couple rings that will arrive tuesday dasodpsadsa #(in brazil it is pretty common to wear rings even if you're just dating someone like most of the people i know asked if there was a ring #when i told them i was about to/had asked her to be my gf. but to me rings are pretty serious so i wanted to wait for a bit #i had told her as such literally in our first date cause she mentioned a friend who got a girl a ring before she was sure the girl wanted t #date her. which she didn't. but then they stayed together. and then the friend asked again. which the girl denied again. but then they #stayed together again. and seems like third time's the charm cause now they're dating fr. lesbians.)#sorry to whoever read all this shit this is too cheesy we're too embarassingly in love

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bigassbowlingballhead · 8 months ago

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When that anon finds out you’ve known Taylor has been redacted for ages

#box talk: fic edition #like i said go read disaster #okay i'm really gonna go write now

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disdaidal · 1 year ago

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Sometimes I really kind of envy you native English speakers who make writing and posting fics seem so fucking easy. With near perfect grammar and hardly any typos. Or those of you who are capable of writing & updating your fics whenever the muse hits you just right... and not like, once in six months. Actually, try two years lol.

Whereas me, a non-native speaker, who occasionally struggles even with basic English grammar:

I'm fine. Totally.

#personal #okay so i've been writing this one piece of fiction for a while now #actually two but i've seemed to put the other one on hold for a while at least #(i may have mentioned this already like five times during the past two weeks but my point is i'm still working on it)#many thanks to @ihni who recently gave me some words of encouragement <3 and ofc @catzy88 who gave me even more insp *saatananauru*#and i'm actually really kind of enjoying it because there's no pressure to write it and post it #i write it in small sections. whenever i feel like it. giving myself enough time to plan it and think about it. even getting new ideas #and for once i'm trying not to keep editing and fixing it as i go. i just write whatever crap comes to my mind and just let it flow #i try not to think about how many mistakes and typos i make because that way i'm never gonna get it finished #but at the same time... when it's finally time to go through it #fix typos. missing words. possibly poor grammar. i know i'm just gonna hate it so fucking much lmao #but i'm really trying my best here okay. and i'm trying not to rush it. for once #because i used to write like this as a teenager. when there was nowhere really to post your original stories (thank god for that)#so i did it in my notebooks. and i quite enjoyed it doing that way #and i'm not sure why i'm even rambling this because most of you are never gonna read it anyway lol. so who gives right #but it matters to me and i'm feeling good about writing again so here i am rambling about it. no matter if you care not. so cheers mateys <

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