#okay bye I’m making myself sad lol

[crybaby-bkg]

I hate anxiety so much bc it’s literally always telling me that I’m the issue like???? and I know rationally that it’s not me or my fault, but it’s so hard to believe when my anxiety keeps introducing ‘facts’ to prove other wise :(((((

[midnightwriter21]

jjk hcs: the jjk boys as boyfriends

characters: yuji itadori, megumi fushiguro, yuta okkotsu

warnings: none (i think?)

AN: if there’s anymore boyfriend hcs that you’d like to see lmk!! read gojo & nanami as boyfriends HERE

YUJI ITADORI

oh girl i am JEALOUS

he can be a little air headed at times but he’s the sweetest bf ever

i say he’s air headed but he’s actually very attentive

you get half an inch trimmed off your hair?

he notices immediately

“babe your hair looks great!”

notices everything about you actually

from your favorite color

to the brand of PENS you prefer to use

who tf notices the brand of pens people use?!?

yuji does

yk the tiktoks of boys picking entire BUSHES of flowers for their girlfriends

that’s him.

he straight up rips a whole bush out of the ground from the front of jujutsu high to give to you

principal yaga was not amused

gojo was tho

HE PRINTS OUT YOUR INSTAGRAM PICTURES TO REPLACE THE POSTERS OF MODELS ON HIS WALL

he’s so proud that your his girl fr

oh and he’s gotta hella pet names for you too

they’re all super basic

babe, sweetheart, cutie, etc.

he flirts w u like y’all aren’t together

awful pickup lines and everything

“do you have a mirror in ur pants? cause i can see myself in them.”

if u don’t think he’s the cutest then u can go argue with the wall bye

MEGUMI FUSHIGURO

he has me in a chokehold

anyways

at the beginning of y’all’s relationship he’s awkward as fuck

but he eases up pretty quickly

veryyyyyy private with y’all’s relationship

if you somehow get him to hold your hand in public let alone give you a kiss?!?

girl count ur blessings fr

and it’s not bc he’s embarrassed of your relationship or anything no ma’am

it’s bc he would NEVER hear the end of it from gojo, nobara, and yuji

valid excuse

but when you two are alone?

oh girl it’s like he’s glued to you

when i say clingy? i mean it

also

king of nap time!!

he’s kidnapping u, bring you to his dorm room, dropping u on the bed, and laying completely on top of you

swear it’s his solution to everything

ur tired? it’s nap time

sad abt something? it’s nap time

a curse beat ur ass? it’s nap time

gojo is being annoying? it’s nap time

nap time cures everything ong

he’s not too crazy w the pet names

in private he’ll call you babe

in public you’re lucky if he adds a -chan to ur name lol

he’s so pretty boy

also can we appreciate his gorgeous luscious eyelashes?

no? okay

YUTA OKKOTSU

i would give my first born to make him feel happy, safe, and loved

KING OF MY HEART

he’s so baby

he’s the type of bf that no matter how long y’all have been dating he still gets flustered over you

y’all been together for an hour? he’s blushing when you give him a kiss on the cheek

y’all been together for a week? he’s blushing when you give him a kiss on the cheek

y’all been together for a year? he’s BLUSHING WHEN YOU GIVE HIM A KISS ON THE CHEEK

HE. IS. BLUSHING.

which is so incredibly endearing and innocent

but don’t get me wrong

mess with this man too much?

oh he’ll snap

he has the patience of a saint. but when it runs out?

oh ur in for it miss gurl

period.

teasing him a lil too much tryna make him flustered

when he finally snaps he is switching that dynamic up real quick

now he’s the one smirking and feeling all smug while you’re the one with the bright red face

ahem…

anyways

yuta’s love for you is very intense

now don’t start thinking HE is intense cause no

i mean yuta loves you so much that he might just crawl up inside ur body and live there

that type of intense

you occupy his mind 99.9% of the time

he’s on a mission and has time to stroll through the mall

“oh y/n would like that” aND HE’S BUYING IT

he’s chit chatting with inumaki and panda

best believe he finds a way to bring you up in conversation

“oh! that reminds me y/n said something the other day about…”

he is the softest ever when it comes to pet names

sweetheart, my love, princess, etc.

i’m so soft for him he deserve the world

[thebellearchives]

𝐀𝐋𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐓𝐎𝐆𝐄𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑

~ inumaki toge // fushiguro megumi ; jujutsu kaisen

✧˚ · . S Y N O P S I S : at night, you and your sorcerer friend take shelter in an inn room to take care of each other’s wounds

‧₊˚ c o n t e n t s : gn!reader, fluff, mentions of blood and injuries, making out, a bit suggestive maybe ?? (i’m still tagging it as fluff)

- gumi’s part: 'it’s complicated' friends to lovers, he tends to your wounds

- toge’s part : toge’s aware of your crush on him, you feel cursed energy through his kisses, onigiri ingredients in japanese, he uses harmless words at the very end, also uses cursed speech on you in the last sentence lol, you tend to his wounds

‧₊˚ a / n : wasn’t intending on posting this but anyways, this shots turned out kinda cute so, would’ve been sad to keep them to myself, also putting them together because both follow the same scenario and have many similarities

the reader feeling toge’s cursed speech was largely inspired by this 🫶🏻

also don’t question the fact that they’re in an inn room instead of the infirmary or smth okay just go with the flow bye 😭

• 𝐌𝐄𝐆𝐔𝐌𝐈 𝐅𝐔𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐆𝐔𝐑𝐎

You and Megumi somehow managed to check in the room without much questioning. Entering an inn late at night looking like you just got beat up was definitely something that would raise the front desk lady’s eyebrows, but you figured you had just gotten lucky.

You closed your eyes and sighed, Megumi’s footsteps came closer. You were sitting in the kitchen counter, knees apart from each other so Megumi could stand in between and attend to your wounds just like you had done before with his. His fingers lifted your chin up so he could see better under the room’s dim light. He pressed an alcohol drenched cotton ball lightly over your left eyebrow, making you jolt.

“Ouch!”

“Sorry” he mumbled “I’m almost done.”

Your eyelids opened slowly, finding him close to you, his dark eyes fixed on your wound. You studied his face in the meantime, long lashes contrasting with his pale clear skin, yet blending with his black irises.

“Can’t believe after all this time of being friends we just had our first mission together.”

“I’m guessing Gojo wasn’t sure of what would work well for us”

“That’s not what I mean, I mean we did great!”

He scoffed in slight amusement.

“Yeah, I knew we would”

“You mean you knew because I kicked your ass the last time we sparred?” a cheeky smile appeared on your face.

“As far as I remember, I was declared the winner” he raised an eyebrow

“Small details, truthfully it was a tie.”

“Right…” Megumi decided to cut the conversation, focusing more on wiping dry blood from your skin.

Finally he exhaled, his hand moved away, examining your face carefully. A soft frown appeared on his face as his eyes fell on your lips.

“Did you cut your lip?”

“Oh? Not that I’m aware of, it doesn’t hurt.”

“It’s bloody.”

Megumi’s fingers on your chin tensed up, sliding the cotton ball over your lip and then discarding it. He tilted your head to the right, blinking and squinting. With the same hand he was holding your jaw, he swiped his thumb over the lower lip.

With widened eyes you stared at him, alarm bells suddenly going off in your head and your irregular breathing hitting his skin, his gaze fixed on the way your soft lip molded under his fingertip. Tangled thoughts raced in your head, trying to figure out the sudden change in the atmosphere and the accelerating pace of your beating heart.

“It’s not wounded” Megumi’s voice was barely audible and you noticed the way his body had just gotten as stiff as yours, probably gaining awareness of the context you were both were surrounded by: him in between your thighs, under the cover of dim lightning and the silence of the night, being the closest to one another you had ever been.

Dark eyes wandered over your mouth, following his thumb as it now slid to the other side. Hesitantly, he moved even closer until his lips hovered over yours. The anticipation that filled the room made sure to cut off both your breathing and his. But then, Megumi closed the distance between your mouths, lashes lowering and hidden feelings bursting out into the open. Megumi’s kiss was soft, and you made sure to reciprocate slowly, easing into the unknown sensation of kissing him.

When the kiss stopped he remained still. Your shaky hands slid up his shirt, fingertips grasping the fabric to keep him in place for as long as the sweet burning sensation sat on your guts. You weren't sure of what came over yourself, maybe it was the curiosity of having him as more than a friend. Maybe it was the thoughts that had constantly whispered at the back of your head how attractive you thought he was, the thoughts you had made sure to ignore and so you never acted on them. Maybe it was the thrill of crumbling his aloof and distant demeanor in between your hands.

Maybe it had been all of those things together, but you slightly and eagerly nudged your nose against his. And so he kissed you again, with a deep sigh of surrender and his hands roaming up your thighs. The sounds of kissing filled the kitchen, your tongue sliding across his tongue, his hungry mouth now fighting against your, your fists pulling from his shirt. His fingers squeezed your skin, a breathy exhale left your throat almost becoming a soft whine.

Megumi’s hands then settled on your hips, until he suddenly stopped, freezing in place and then pulling away from you to search for your eyes. You stared back in a bit of a daze.

“What…” the black haired sorcerer tried to form a coherent sentence, but it seemed like his brain for once wasn’t cooperating.

“I…” you cleared your throat, blinking a couple of times “I don’t know.”

He swallowed, trying to find words once again.

“Listen, I…”

“It’s okay” nervously you tightened your grip on his shirt, now anxious of letting him go “we don’t have to talk about this today or tomorrow. We can just… forget it happened.”

Slowly, Megumi nodded.

“We can just let it be… for tonight.”

“Yeah” you pulled him close again, his body relaxed as he followed your movement and searched for your lips once more.

“Yeah, just for tonight…”

• 𝐈𝐍𝐔𝐌𝐀𝐊𝐈 𝐓𝐎𝐆𝐄

Toge’s eyes followed you around as you picked and discarded objects from the first aid kit. At first he was annoyed at how much you had insisted on taking care of the wounds your last fight had inflicted, but at a certain point he had stopped complaining and just… stared. Now, you knew Toge wasn’t one to say much, because he couldn’t, but even when he didn’t say actual normal words he also wasn’t one to shut up. There was always some 'okaka's and 'tuna's and he would gesticulate here and there, he just had to let you know his opinion on absolutely everything. But now… he was absolutely silent.

You walked over to the kitchen counter, where he had sat down begrudgingly and now he was just lazily waiting.

“Bend over a little, will you?” you sighed, wet cotton in your hand.

His lavender eyes stared curiously, but he did as you asked and moved closer so you could reach for his face. There was a bloody scrape right next to his brow, product of a bad landing during the fight with the curse. You held your breath to gain courage and put aside your romantic feelings for the boy, then reached to cup his cheek with your left hand in order to keep him steady and started cleaning the almost dry blood.

He winced, a pitiful expression appeared on your face.

“Sorry” your voice softened “I’ll be finished soon, don’t worry, this is the last one.”

You expected him to say something, he would’ve usually just muttered a 'shake' or something, and yet he didn’t. When you were finally done you sighed once again, lowering your hands and grasping the edge of the counter.

“Alright, that’s it, why aren’t you speaking to me?” Toge raised a brow, as if your question was ridiculous to him “don’t look at me like that, you know what I mean.”

He pressed his lips against each other and then shrugged.

“Are you mad at me?” your brows almost touched, his eyes widened.

“Okaka” he immediately shook his head.

“Oh, so now you’re talking” he snorted, finally letting a small smile shine through “there’s something off, I can tell…”

He bit his lip and shrugged again, this time pointing to his head with his index.

“Thinking?”

“Shake”

“About what?”

His eyes seemed to shine in a peculiar way, trying to hold back a smirk. It was almost as if he had been waiting for you to ask that question for a while. Toge pointed at you, made a small heart with his index and thumb, and then pointed at himself. You blinked about twice, blankly.

“You’re thinking… about you and me?”

He squinted and motioned 'more less', then repeated the previous gesture: you, heart, him.

“You’re thinking…” you heart him. Suddenly your eyes widened, a blush rapidly crept up your face “you’re thinking i like you?”

Toge then grinned and nodded enthusiastically.

“Huh” you exhaled nervously, eyes shying away from him “right when i thought i was the best at understanding you seems like i still don’t get what is going on inside that head of yours.”

He chuckled, his right hand searched for his phone in his pocket and then quickly typed something up in the notes app. You just expectantly watched him as he conveyed his thoughts into written words.

“I’m not thinking you like me, i’m thinking i know you like me”

“Narcissistic much?” you quirked one of your eyebrows and he snorted “what makes you think that?”

“Just the way you look at me, and the way you act around me. Panda had pointed it out before but i’m just now thinking maybe he was right”

“I treat you just like all of my other friends!” you looked up at his eyes again, this time in defiance, but he tilted his head, raising his brows in disbelief “alright then, what have i done with you that i wouldn’t have done with anyone else?”

With a smile, Toge rubbed his cheek and then placed his index right on top of yours.

“Blushing?”

“Shake”

“You’re insinuating that I have romantic feelings for you, of course i’m gonna be embarrassed!”

Rolling his eyes, he nodded. Then, he cupped your left cheek, raising your face towards his and supporting your chin with his ring finger and pinky. You frowned, quickly catching up with the fact that he was holding your face in the same way you had done just moments before.

“… I was just taking care of you…” your whisper worsened your blush.

“always”

He chuckled at your shocked expression, the sound waves of his harmless words making you shiver. It wasn’t everyday that he’d risk speaking normally.

“… well, yes, i care for you”

“a lot” you bit your lip, there was no denying that, so you swallowed your nerves and looked away, he snickered “you’re cute”

Once again the surprise froze you, the power in his voice making your body tremble, what he had said made a sweet nervous feeling flutter around your stomach. He leaned in, you held your breath. Toge placed a lovely kiss on your lips, and you delicately but firmly kissed him back, the sliding of his lips on yours enticing and elating. A soft wave of cursed energy flowed through your mouth, but the moment he slid his tongue on your lower lip and you opened your mouth it rose in intensity. You had to cling from his shirt to keep yourself steady, the moment his marked tongue brushed against yours a sharp wave of electricity ran down your throat, pulling a whimper out from your vocal chords.

He pulled back to look at you and you panicked, embarrassed.

“I’m- oh god i’m so sorry!” your face was burning red at that point “it’s just that- i can feel your cursed energy.”

His eyes widened with surprise and worry, hopping off the counter his hands grabbed your shoulders.

“Takana?!”

“I’m fine! I’m totally fine” cupping his face you tried to comfort him, and it worked, he relaxed, but you pulled him closer again, your noses brushing “it felt… really nice…”

You lips searched for his, Toge smirked in amusement to your reaction, but he complied. So slowly, he kissed you again. The feeling of his energy running trough you seemed to make the blood in your veins rush in bliss, pulling sounds from the depths of your chest. Suddenly his hand slithered to the back of your head and he deepened the kiss, the mark on his tongue making contact with yours and making you gasp and jolt against his body. Toge giggled, but caught you in his arms, resting his back on the counter.

“Come on Toge, won’t you have mercy on me?” you complained, Toge shook his head slowly, and by the way he smiled you knew he was about to pull one of his stunts.

“Be louder” his lips immediately crashed back onto yours.

[glitter-alienz]

everytime my sister sees a game/show that features divorce or parental abuse she always asks me if I’ve seen it and the answer is always yes except this week when she asked me if I’ve seen any YouTubers play ‘bad parenting’

I have heard of it but never watched a play through so I did just that. Btw she warned me that while it didn’t affect her THAT bad (she cried a lot but like she was okay after some time) it might trigger me specifically?? But ofc I ignored that. I’m not smart 🤷🏾‍♂️

Anyways, I could handle the themes of this game individually but the mix of them all was. Not great. I liked it btw. a lot actually. but I also it hurt a lot and I was uncomfortable the whole play through cuz I KNEW where it was going. I knew it I knew it I knew it. Still didn’t make it less sad. Got pretty mad cuz it reminded me that this shit happens all the time. I saw multiple comment talking about discipline and shit trying to say “this is not abuse” which is excepted. In every single piece of media I’ve consumed that featured physical and ESPECIALLY parantal physical abuse there has always been at least two people saying that it is not abuse, because if it is then it means majority of people have been abused. It happens all the time so it must be okay type of mentality. And the classic my parent(s) beat me up and I turned out fine <- if you say this you’re not fine you need actual help 🫶🏾

Spoilers for the game

TWs for physical abuse and child death

from the moment the doll mentioned why it’s neck was loose I KNEW there was gonna be a choking scene or something of that sort. Also since my sister warned me about it, I’ve been choked twice in my life and I’m kind of very not cool about it. But I didn’t want to think about the kid dying. I tried to have hope that since it’s a game there would at least be a good ending or something. I thought Mr red face would turn out to be the mom. So when the dad’s face turned all red after drinking I was like. Oh! That’s… bad! Huge fan of the kid not wanting his parents to be hurt by Mr red face. And when the cat was asking him if his dad was bad and he’d wouldn’t say the word bad but instead list all the ways he abused him. That.. that hit hard. I’m an adult who knows better and I still find myself defending my parents. I Joked about the kids in the after life place all being killed by their parents and warning the player (I have a story like that) but then when it was revealed that the player was already dead I was DEVESTATED. I felt sick and I couldn’t breathe for a second cuz I was so fucking scared lmao. It made feel like throwing up. It was a good game btw this is a five stars review. It just made me a little too upset lol. It was not too gorey and the jump-scares weren’t too bad except for one. But it was scary because I knew where it was going. I didn’t want it to go there but it did. Well! Also I’m a big fan of the doll being the “knowing” part of him. I wonder why <- has a dissociative disorder

I had a nightmare about my parents fighting because of this game. I ended up waking up at 9 am instead of my usual 12-1. And couldn’t go back to sleep cuz I was thinking of the game. And now I’m ranting on it on my blog. Maybe this will help. I’m okay bye just thinking a lot. Also kinda mad but that’s just how it be.

Rant over but I’m still sad and angry about this game :) it was good tho. So If anyone knows anything like it then pls let me know 👍🏾 shout out to my sis for knowing recommending I watch this game

[average-vibe]

I’m Sorry, Ok?

summary: wilbur comes home super late from a concert, and forgets to say hello to his favorite person

warnings: language, bad grammar, sad wilbur, mentions of OD

notes: this kinda sucks but it’s my first actual fanfic so i’m proud of myself for finishing lol

masterlist

Wilbur walked into the shared home around 2:30 AM, exhausted from the show. he usually didn’t come home this late, but wilbur’s phone died, so transportation became much harder. eventually, wilbur found a gas station that had a phone charger, but his phone only reached 7% by the time the station closed, and by the time he got into a car, his phone died. it also didn’t help that the show was about 2 hours away from the house. wilbur didn’t care. at least he was home.

He put his keys, phone, and money on the counter before crawling to the bedroom, eager to go to bed. he didn’t even see you, sprawled on the couch, sound asleep. about 5 hours earlier, when wilbur sent his, “shows over” text, you decided to wait for him on the couch, hoping that you could meet him at the door and cuddle for the night. after about an hour, and no texts back from wilbur, you began to panic. you called his phone about a thousand times, then tried Ash, who simply said “he should be on his way.” before having to hang up. you tried wilbur a couple more times, before giving up. you tried melatonin, but you thought that the amount you needed would kill you. you just closed your eyes, and tried to think about anything but wilbur. eventually, and surprisingly, sleep came rather easily.

you woke up around 6:30, and immediately started panicking, realizing that wilbur was not with you. you tried to call, but to no avail. yiu began to actually have a panic attack, worried that wilbur never made it home.

the sound of your sobs woke wilbur up from his already light sleep. as soon as he heard your small, hitched breaths, and your loud sobs, he knew something was wrong. he rushed out of his bed, out the bedroom door, and through the hallway to see you, knees clutched to your chest, eyes shut, and cheeks soaked.

“hey lovely.” Wilbur whispered, almost running to you in a flurry. “what’s the matter? why’re you crying?” he sat down next to you, embracing you with a hug. “wilbur?” you asked, voice cracking. wilbur chuckled, his laugh making you calm. “yes, it’s me baby. now why’re you crying? gonna mess up that pretty face.” he said, taking your face in his hands, and stroking your cheek with his thumb. “i-i thought y-you weren’t um.. c-coming home. i t-thought you were gone.” you’d aid through tears. “baby, i would never leave without sayin bye!” wil said, smiling. “and why’d you ever think i would leave you? i love you.” he questioned, his smile now turned into a concerned face. “i-i sat here waiting for you until it was late and i called you a bunch and you never answered and ash said he didn’t know and i didn’t know where you were.” you said in a rush, looking at the floor in embarrassment.

“oh.” wilbur said, frowning. “i’m sorry, love. i was just so tired from the show yesterday. and the reason i was home late was because my phone died, at this really sketchy place, so i went to the gas station and charged it and then it took me 2 hours to get home..”

you smiled. you didn’t think your boyfriend would just leave you.

wilbur smiled back at you. “hey, now that i’m home, let’s cuddle.” he said.

“alright.” you agreed.

“oh, and, one more thing.” wil said.

“yes?”

“i’m sorry, okay?”

[matthewloverr]

The Book P2

part one | part two

matt x maysen drew (femreader)

summary: when watching the people you love destroy themselves and choose money and fame over you, you found someone else to love.

warnings: swearing, smoking (weed, cigarettes) angst, mention of substance abuse/ addiction, mentions of abuse

a/n: this chapter is a bit heavy so please read at your own risk and please take care of yourself i love you okay enjoy !

︵‿︵‿୨♡୧‿︵‿︵

Matt’s pov

i fell in love with maysen the first time i ever laid my eyes on her, i had felt love before, with my parents, my brothers, my friends and i had a whole fan base that loved me. not once did it ever feel like this.

everyone views her as snobby, rude, spoiled but that’s just because she doesn’t show her face to the public that much plus her parents. i wanted to expose her parents so many times but I knew it would destroy her.

i want nothing more than for her to be okay, i dream about me and her living a life where she feels completely free, like she doesn’t have to hide the amazing girl she is.

“yo, do you wanna go for a drive and smoke?”

i stare at the message twiddling my thumbs, we’ve been friends for so long you’d think i would stop being a nervous little boy.

“yeah sure just let me ask mom”

“😹😹 funny joke”

“lol see you in 10”

a small smirk appears across my face, she’s gotten so comfortable and improved so much since that night I met her, she used to shut down the topic of her parents but now she makes jokes.

i run down my stairs with that same smirk on my face and swipe the car keys off my counter, i turn on my heels to see chris sitting in the couch behind me with a knowing look on his face.

“going to stalk your girlfriend?”

“what no, we’re going for a drive”

“ok kid” he lets out a soft chuckle and lifts himself off the couch, he walks over to me.

“tell her I said hi” with that he slips a pre-rolled joint into my hoodie pocket and turns to walk up the stairs.

i check myself out in the mirror as I slip my shoes on and out i go.

i pull up to the gates in front of her parents massive mansion and text her I’m outside the gate, she reads it immediately and the gate slowly opens.

Masyn’s pov

i slipped my pack of cigarettes into my pocket before I ran down my stairs.

i wore a black baby tee with some grey sweats and just left my hair how it was knowing matt would still compliment it.

i was slightly running just so excited to see my best friend, before i turned my head to say bye to my mom before i stopped in my tracks. there stood my mother and my father next to her, she looked so sad and disappointed meanwhile my father had a fake ass smile on his face like he was happy to see me?

i looked at my mom with shock and anger and she just stared at the ground clearly nervous for me to see him.

“my little girl masyn, how have you been”

his voice sent shivers down my spine. i quickly mumbled a “no” and immediately ran out the door, no one tried to stop me

i ran to matt’s car with tears brimming my eyes, i felt bad for leaving my mom but she was no better than him but atleast she stuck around.

i swung that passenger door open with my head low and my hands slightly shaking

“drive” i said with my hands over my face and my head low.

“hey, are you okay-“

“matt please” i cut him off, my voice cracking as i did so i could feel the tears streaming down my face.

he quickly put the car in drive and drove off and down the road.

the drive was quiet but i already knew where we were driving since we went to the same spot every time, and there was only one thought in my head as he pulled into the random parking lot that always seemed to be empty.

“i sure as shit hope you brought a joint” i said staring out my window as he reversed parked into the corner of the parking lot.

“yeah chris gave me one” he said throwing the car in park before unbuckling his seat belt, he turned to look at me but i kept my hands in my lap and my head low refusing to look up because I knew I would cry.

“mays, cmon” he said his face full of worry and confusion.

i looked up at him taking a deep breath through my nose.

“my dad was in my living room when i left” I said my voice cracked, staring him in the eyes.

his eyes softened as he looked down trying to process what i had said.

“yeah” I said exhaling

he looked back up at me with worry? it almost looked like he had a question to ask me.

“what really happened with your dad masyn” he quickly said like he had been holding it back for a while now.

“i told you everything? he basically drained me and my mom of our money for gambling and left us next to nothing” i replied my face twisting in confusion.

“mays..” He said shaking his head

“i know you’ve been through a lot with your parents and all” he paused for a moment “but i know something else went down that night.”

the night he left.

i swore my stomached dropped to my ass, how did he know, how many other people knew, did I let it slip when we got high. a million thoughts raced through my head while I just stared at him like a deer in headlights.

FLASHBACK

the night he left.

i had locked myself in my room, hearing my parents yelling at each other. This happened every night, they would get into the biggest screaming match and when it began to get too much i walk down, they act like nothing happened and the next morning everything would be fine until that night.

this night however was different. all i could hear was my dad yelling, he had just come back from the casino after losing 10 grand and was so obviously wasted.

all of a sudden everything went quiet, I slowly stood up a pit in my stomach growing, that’s when I heard my mom.

“GET THE FUCK OUT” her voice cracking as she screamed bloody murder.

i started running down my stairs when i heard a big crash.

my dad had somehow in his drunken state grabbed my mother and threw her against the wall causing the cabinet behind her to cave in.

i immediately ran to the kitchen no time to mentally prepare myself for what I was about to walk into

and there laid my mother crying and my dad just stood there, chest puffing up and down, eyes filled with rage.

i quickly started backing away trying to make a b line for the door, that’s when he grabbed both of my wrists so hard they were bruised the next day.

“mention any of this to anyone and i swear masyn, you’ll fucking regret it” with that he grabbed an already packed bag from the dining table which i’m assuming my mother had packed before he came home and out the door he went.

BACK TO PRESENT DAY

i replayed that night in my head as i tried to form words for matt who was still staring at me.

“wanna know how i know” he said looking down at my hands where i was staring.

my eyes quickly shot up to him.

my mind was going crazy i couldn’t even focus on anything other than how he knew my eyes darted back and forth my head still low, that’s when I stopped and my face relaxed.

i looked at him with confusion almost anger building inside of me.

“where were you the night he left matt?”

a/n: just had to leave y’all with that little cliffhanger :) anywho please do leave suggestions in the comments for me to better my work it means a lot ok bye love u !!🤍

[beans-core]

I finally got around to watching season 2 of Invincible (great show btw) and… oh my lord.

I need to ramble. I MUST.

spoilers after the cut! (If there’s still people who haven’t watched it lol I’m late to the game)

Oh my good god. There’s so much, but this is just the stuff that’s lurking near the front of my brain.

First off, Allen the Alien is the pookiest pookie to ever pookie. He’s so sweet and so determined. He literally risked loosing a battle on purpose to try and be taken to prison, a prison of the enemy, on the off chance that Mark’s dad would be there. And even then it was still a maybe that Nolan would even want to help the cause! Allen still trusted Marks word completely, even though it sounds crazy... “yeah dude okay I believe you, your mass-murdering Viltrumite father who totally tore up Earth and a bunch of other planets has changed his mind and feels bad. Good to know, I’ll make sure to find him and make sure he isn’t executed. I also understand you not wanting to ditch your planet and loved ones, and even though I’ll get in trouble with my commander I’m not going to force you to come to space with me. Bye now, sorry for breaking your bed, nice seeing you man!” And this was all in season 2. Even in season 1 he was still a bro. Allen is the Bro Code personified and I love him for that.

Eve and her family always makes me tear up. Because I can understand how her father, a hardworking man who was probably raised on the saying ‘money doesn’t grow on trees’ — who now has a daughter who can literally make money grow on trees— would feel so upset. It doesn’t make up for the fact that he’s yelling at his family like a dickhead, but it’s still a whole shitty situation. It’s always a grand ole time when Eve is back with her parents… ha ha. The little pep talk from Rex was an awesome little insight on their relationship through the years too.

Rex… my boy, how do I even begin. He’s been a reluctant fav of mine since season one, but he’s also such a douchebag! Sucks that it took being shot in the head and watching your superhero friends/coworkers die in front of you to realize that maybe the whole douchebag thing isn’t really the way to go. But yeah. Good for him! Want more of his backstory tbh, think that’d be cool. And yes, I know I could probably look through the comics and see if there something in there if I really wanted to. But what if I spoil something for myself :c

The Immortal grieving and confused on why he feels so much… the parallels to Nolan with that… not to mention the reveal of Kate being alive! The way he stood there stunned before hugging her was so beautiful. Ugh. Was a bit weary of their relationship until Kate said ‘he knows what it’s like to die over and over’ and then it was like bam they’re in love your honor new otp.

And man. Amber and Mark were my old otp… I knew it was going to end sooner or later (I accidentally got spoiled bruhhh) but I really had hope for them. Sad but honestly Amber deserves the world and if Mark can’t give that to her (and he’s so sad about it too he just wants to go to college and be normal and love his bae) then literally no one can fault her for putting her needs first. That’s another thing I love about the show, there’s no shame when people put their own lives first, and the tough conversations are organic. Magnificent. Anyway Amber is amazing I’m going to miss herrrr T-T hopefully they stay friends and she shows up in other seasons!!

Have I mentioned that I love the gorey fight scenes? Because I really really do. It’s the whole reason I started watching Invincible. So the scene with Mark beating the life out of that slimy megamind with the name I don’t remember? AMAZING. For me, anyway. Mark experiencing the panic and mania right after was still not so great for him, but for me? Good soup. I like my soup seasoned with extra angst, morality struggles, and mental breakdowns. Yum.

Mark hugging his mom so so tight after he gets back to his dimension and curling up crying on the hospital bed next to her? Hitting a little too close to home. Had to pause to wipe my eyes. Also grape baby Oliver has all my love. If something happens to that child, I’ll want to burn the world down. Mark Grayson probably will.

Mark telling his mom he needs to get better so he’s leaving college. ouch. “I need to learn to control myself”… “I can’t be like dad”… gods above. And also “what am I going to do, become a dentist?” LMAO it sucks but he’s right, unless some crazy shit happens and his morality suddenly crumbles to dust, he’ll be a superhero. Because with great power comes great responsibility and all that. There’s usually a bonus savior complex included in the package, but everybody doesn’t learn about that until later womp womp. He and Amber talked about it too, she said something like “if you were the type of person who didn’t immediately leave to go save people, we wouldn’t be dating”. PERIOD.

Don’t even get me started on that last line from Nolan. Caught me by surprise, came out of nowhere. “I think I miss my wife.” STRIKE ME DEAD… I actually shed tears. After everything he’s done, after getting a new wife and having another child and seeing Mark again,,, this bastard is just now missing his wife?? He’s so fucked up fr. But the pain in his voice, BRO, he sounds so confused and heartbroken, like he’s wondering how after everything he’s done to earth and their family, how can he still miss his wife when he doesn’t even deserve to think her name??

Man. This show. So many different subplots and they come together like *chefs kiss* it’s amazing. This show makes me FEEL, even for the characters that I thought I’d always hate… the writers and actors and everyone make all of the characters so human it hurts. EVEN WHEN THE CHARACTERS ARE ALIENS—

[punkinvsblogging]

My whole body hurts, and I am trapped in a hotel bed in Mexico City, alternating between crying and just lying here in disbelief.

Pero last night, I saw Caer Afuera Chico, and it was:

increíble (⟡ᗜ⟡) !!

celestial ଘ(੭ˊᵕˋ)੭* ੈ✩‧₊

perrón ദ്ദ��(˵ •̀ ᴗ - ˵ ) ✧

chingó ( ˶°ㅁ°)!!

poca madre ( ◡̀_◡́)ᕤ

devoraron (｡ᴖ ⤙ ᴖ)

pocas pulgas (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶)

Probably not gonna use some of those lol The Mexican fans have been so funny and nice. I love it here lol

I have never cried so much at a Fall Out Boy show before. Like BOO HOOed hardcore. Shit was cathartic. Wore me out. Something happened to me mentally because I already forgot the whole show lol I guess that means it was GREAT lol so great I FORGOT IT. :’)

There were a couple of times when I let The Sad get through, and I really beat myself up about it. I let myself get upset about small things, and I didn’t take care of myself well, so I had to take a break at one point. There was a moment when I remember being like, “Why am I even here?”

And then I remembered:

LOS 👏🏽BOYS 👏🏽

Seeing all of those people so happy really was something beautiful and special, and I’m so glad I was able to witness it and be a part of it.

I feel so blessed to have been able to keep doing this. Sometimes, I freak myself out because I start wondering if I’m a creep or a weirdo or something, but I’m sure it’s fine?? I’m not doing anything weird?? I’m just hanging out, vibing (and crying) to my favorite songs and trying to make people happy. That’s okay, right?

…Right?

Anyway. Fall Out Boy forever or whatever. See yall at WWWY if I can afford it. Bye.

[wigglebox]

art blog update! - i should like, actually label these lol as i’m trying to venture into making art for a living 

anyway, i guess, NEW entry ? 

but also this is housekeeping

but i will be trying to transition back a little into how i used to draw back in like, 2021 in terms of basic shapes and shadows, where the figures were a little smaller, less detailed, and more about the mood and all that. 

when looking at my art now with the lineart and the lighting, i feel like i’m losing myself a little too much, and for a while i’ve been growing a little frustrated that the heads didn’t seem to be matching the bodies, you know? Like, the way i drew their faces is a really stylized way but then the bodies were just... there. 

And the lineart is fun but also really annoying and i feel like it takes away something special from the mood i’m trying to convey and it makes things feel more stiff and more...idk, trapped? Idk how to describe it. It’s not to say I don’t like the recent stuff i’ve done with lineart and i may still do lineart in some way shape or form, but it feels like my art is trying to be something it’s not and aiming for a goal that doesn’t benefit it. 

and this past Sunday i felt really sad about my art which is is partially bc i’m entering ‘the red zone’ [the week before my period hits where i’m a little more down on myself] but also i know that when i’m sad and frustrated over my art, it means i need to think about switching something up or learning something new. 

so i’m going back to something like this BUT, with better understanding of my brushes, lighting, composition, and colors lol. 

Because this is when it felt like my art was hitting the mood and tones that i wanted. 

I’m gonna try and move back to making their faces not as bulbous and their eyes a little further apart and work on shapes and composition over clean lineart and all that. 

this is an effort to try and get my brain back into the emotions of my art. 

*there are still some bang pieces and other works that i have right now that will not be like this, and so when you see them posted just know that it was created before i’ve made this decision to retrace my art journey a little bit lol. 

** i truly can’t wait for the bang pieces to be done lol because the stories i have are really cute ;_; 

okay ... mini blog entry is done bye bye have a good week! lol

<3 wigglebox

[eoieopda]

Hihi, Jade! Hope you’ve been well and are doing good hehe

I started learning the pre-chorus + chorus to Like Crazy and when I tell you it’s groovy as shit. Like damn. Though, if this doesn’t improve my hip-control, I genuinely have no idea what will 🤡

On another note, I’m meeting up with one of my friends on Monday! We’re going out for coffee and window shopping and I’m pretty excited because I haven’t seen her since the beginning of February of this year, and I’m excited to talk to her face to face (hah see what I did there ;))

I also did a little brainstorming for a story I’ve wanted to write since August of 2020, and I’m hoping it’s gonna help with my immense writers block concerning the idea itself lmfao

I was also wondering, but do you bake? I know it’s a pretty random question but a lot of my friends bake, and I’ve only ever baked once with one of said friends. We made chocolate muffins and, despite them being relatively messy, they actually tasted pretty good! I’m a bit sad we didn’t have chocolate chips though, I would’ve loved to take the famous(?) “you measure that shit with your heart” post as inspiration to make a mostly choc-chip choco muffin hehe.

Do you draw at all, either? I don’t draw much, and when I do I almost always draw exclusively doodles, but I’ve had a couple which came out pretty well. I drew this really tiny dragon a while ago (probably a few years back) which I thought came out pretty well hehet.

By the way, on a less random and softer note, I’ve been meaning to tell you but kept getting shy and insecure about how to say it, but I really appreciate you, you know? I know we don’t know each other super personally and everything, but our exchanges have been a consistent highlight to my everyday life since I’ve become your mutual.

Like, I can’t even begin to say how big of an impact you’ve had on me as a person just with a couple of our (admittedly short) interactions. Your posts brighten up my day, and I really love how full of love you are, and how you’re so unapologetically yourself. It’s really pushed me to become more comfortable in my own skin, which I couldn’t thank you enough for.

I know that probably went from zero (0) to one-hundred (100) real quick, lol, but I thought it was about time, you know? Sorry for putting something like this in an ask, I probably should’ve sent it in a PM but I thought, “I’m here, I might as well do it while I have the courage” 🥹

Anyway, sorry for all the blabbering xd.

I hope you have a wonderful day (or night, I’m not 100% what time of day you’re at rn)!

I hope this isn’t coming off as creepy as it’s starting to sound in my head 🥹 I admire you a lot is all; sorry if this makes you uncomfortable if it does lemme know pls. Okay bye ily 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

this is quite possibly the sweetest thing i anyone has told me in a very very very long time, and i am — OOF — misty in the damn eyeballs. like, i don’t even know how to thank you for that 😭🫠 i’m a whole mess omg. YOU ARE SO SPECIAL, LIL BABY HAN 😭💓💕💗🫶🏻

now i’m gonna stop wheezing and answer your actual questions and pretend i did not just fully tear up, lmao.

i do bake, but not as often as i used to? i kind of only do it when i’m home with my mom which is rare but will resume soon when i move back to my home state to be close again!! def prefer baking to cooking because there is some ridiculous disconnect in which i can do one fairly well but will burn the shit out of whatever meal i’m attempting and/or burn myself. i do not know why i am like this!!

i draw, but also not as often as i used to 🤪 like, i drew/designed all of my tattoos and used to be really into art, but my brain only lets me have 1-2 hobbies at a time, and this one fell by the wayside 🥲 rip art-phase jade.

and good luck with your wip!!! seriously, tag me in anything you post because i love FFF so much that i would surely love whatever else you write 💕🥹

[meguemii-shares]

vent because i literally do not know who or how to talk to anyone about this. and my ass is NOT looking for pity or sympathy, i just need this out in the world so please disregard :p

my boyfriend and i were playing overwatch in a 1v1 and i won and he got mad because i beat him as his favourite and his strongest hero so he closed the game and got on minecraft which i was like “whatever that’s fine, im sorry i was just trying to show you i got better” and he hung up the facetime so i assumed he just needed to cool off but then he texted me again like a half hour later asking why he couldn’t have fun when he played with me saying he didn’t even wanna 1v1 but when i asked him he said he did and that it had to be my way so i just said “okay” not wanting to argue and he kept going saying i had to make things not fun and said “Why am I even wasting my time texting you right now” which i wanna say that hurt my feelings but i literally just can’t seem to not brush it off. like im not sad or hurt and i know that should really hurt but it didn’t for some reason or maybe it just hasn’t fully set in. i’m so good to him and i get treated like shit? i’m so patient and understanding and soooo fucking forgiving but it’s not enough i guess.

so then he goes on after i told him i understood and that he doesn’t have to play games with me if he doesn’t want to and if it’ll lead to upset feelings and arguments because i take games way too seriously as well and i understand how annoying it is when you think you’re great at something and get proven that your partner is better, salt in a wound but i GET it. then he says he purposely throws everytime we 1v1 and that i act all better when he lets me win and im just trying to defuse this so i tell him i know he’s better because he is good at the game don’t get me wrong and proceeds to say he’ll beat me if we go again so i say no but he kept saying it so i said fine give me 10 minutes and then we can rematch and this fucking asshole goes “lol no i’m not playing with you, goofy. bye”

i know i deserve to be spoken to and treated better but i just don’t want better because i want him. he’s amazing 90% of the time but throws tantrums over the most small and insignificant stuff and i just sit there and take it. im so dumb and i cant blame anyone else but myself for staying but i genuinely don’t wanna leave because im willing to deal with that 10% of immaturity and disrespect.

okay rant/ vent done.

[gcfft-anuja]

Yo Me,

HAPPY 21ST!!! Can’t believe I hit the big 2-1, like whoa. This age is wild—kinda caught between being a teen and an “adult” (ew, adults are boring lol😂). Feels unreal tbh.

This month makes me feel all kinds of ways. My birthday month and the people in my life make me sad, yet I love them both so much. Like, why does it have to be complicated?🫥And here I am, spilling my thoughts because I can’t say it to anyone else. I'm caught between wanting to party hard and just hiding away, like, “Bro, shush, nobody needs to know🫢😔.”

The thing is, I don’t really like telling my friends it’s my birthday; my family has kinda stopped celebrating, and my friends who do know never really make a big deal about it. So, I ask myself, why should I even tell anyone? Maybe it doesn’t matter anymore, or maybe I just don’t care. Still, every year when a friend asks, I let myself think, “Maybe this time will be different,” Spoiler alert: it never is. 🤷‍♀️

I probably will end up spending my day just hanging out at home or crying, and honestly, that’s okay. I just hope this year brings me some good vibes and that I can find a bit of wisdom to figure things out.🌈✨

But hey, 21 it is!!! Let’s go, baby!🎈 we’ve got a ton of goals lined up—time to make life better for me and everyone we care about. I want to create happy moments for those around me.

And listen up, —if there’s one thing we’re NOT doing this year, it’s playing small! We’re going ALL IN because I’m the daddy, the boss, the main event, and the one who doesn’t care about the haters! 😎 This year is all about embracing my vibe, living life to the fullest, and staying happy no matter what comes my way.

We’re here to celebrate every single win, no matter how small—because each little victory counts! 🎈 I’m putting worries on mute and bringing my genuine smile front and center. Bye-bye, overthinking! I’m living in the NOW and taking things one epic step at a time.

No more hiding or letting doubts mess with my shine! I’m the ultimate hype friend, throwing mini parties for myself,cheering for me like I just won the lottery! 💃 I’ll be that person who lifts myself up, who takes care of me, and who reminds myself daily that I’m a total legend, just as I am.

And let’s not forget my crew—the friends and fam who stick by me. They might not always get how much they mean, but I appreciate them every single day! This year? I’m making MY happiness the top priority. So let’s turn the volume up and celebrate this incredible journey!

Cheers to 21, to the one and only ME, and to making this year a wild, unforgettable adventure! 🎉🌟✨

Let’s go out there and slay, because I am a force to be reckoned with! 💪🔥

Love, Me

[saisok]

07.29.24

After work, the Husband decided to pick up our niece and nephew for a swim because Hunter’s been bugging him all week. The weathers been quite ugly last week and we couldn’t enjoy our weekend due to that darn rain.

Hunter is getting better at swimming :). Proud of that little guy.

Kanya (younger sister) sent me this picture of her kids and Hunter. Gosh…. They’re not babies anymore. I feel sad looking at this picture. Not because they’re soooooo darn cute but soon they’ll graduate high school and move on with their adult life. It’s just depressing to think this because I honestly feel like it was just yesteday I moved out and became an adult myself. I want to hold onto him for as long as I can. Damn being a parent lol

No.. no baby fever. Just missing the stages of becoming a Mom. I remembered taking a zillion pictures of Hunter with his daddy. It’s a bit different now because Hunter doesn’t like it when I take his pictures and he will run away from me lol.

Missing this size of him! Okay, I need to stop hanging out with friends who have babies. They need to leave me alone!!!

Looking back at old photos makes me happy and sad. I’m soo annoying lol

Okay I’ll stop for now 😅

Bye

[dadkisser15]

Fuzzy brain

Im currently trying to read and it’s romance (of course) but all I can think of is his fucking smile and thinking about it just makes my chest feel all fuzzy and warm. It’s distracting in a way but a lot of things remind me of him so maybe there’s just something wrong with my mind; I of course don’t mind thinking about him though, I just can’t bother him right now (he’s sleeping) so that makes me kinda sad!!!!! God I miss his smile, his laugh and his presence; I love his mannerisms and I love how comfortable I feel with him. I can be kinda shy at times but his playful behavior and the way he doesn’t drop a topic immediately makes me want to open up and share. I just needed to get this out of my head real quick so I can read but my heart and head is so full of him. I feel like im going crazy but I don’t want the feeling to stop, it’s a good feeling. I wonder if he ever feels like this, id love to study his mind and figure out his thought process. I feel so ugly right now and its probably cause I just ate, I always feel so guilty when I eat even when i don’t eat much; it’s like my head is stuck in this spot where i feel like I need to insult myself for having normal human needs. Im just scared of gaining weight and being undesirable. I know, so random but the guilt is hitting me right now. Honestly, I really hate the way my mind works. I feel like I don’t have many desirable traits. I overthink and over analyze EVERYTHING, I’m awkward and so bad at conversation. I get embarrassed easily, I don’t know why but I really hate that because sometimes I get embarrassed at the most random things and it just doesn’t make sense to me. Im so bad at regulating my emotions, when I feel something it hits hard. I’ve found ways to cope with that though so it’s okay but I hate being emotional. Someone could say something and not really mean it but oh! would you look at that im fucking sobbing because im so extremely sensitive?!!!! Oh and I get jealous so easily…. I HATEEE feeling jealous. Like if I was attractive maybe some of these bad traits could be okay but im NOT. All of my life I’ve been just some ugly kid and now im just barely mid. I’ve been trying to embrace some of the features I was given but still im like cursed with the FUGLIEST build 😭. Like what the fuck… 😨😨😨😨😨 I just want to be pretty. I want him to find me pretty. Guys I wish I was a baddie 😭 fml fml fml fml fml okay I’ll go read instead of self loathing ☹️. I just want to be loved so bad, I want him and I would literally tear any woman that gets in my way. Im joking!!! Guysssss if you can get him you can have him 🩷 im kidding id fucking crash out and someone would die, like genuinely I’d hunt a bitch down for even trying. You guys think im playing but im fr that man is mine. IM JOKINNGGGGGG!!!!!! 😊 sorry, i sound crazy and fucking weird! Maybe im feeling a bit angry about something but it’s okayy. Icould literally care less like it’s not even a big deal , LIKE. ITS WHATEVERRRRRR. It isn’t whatever, I blocked this bitch but it ain’t enough I need her GONE. BYE!!!! I DONT GIVA DFUVKKKKK !!!!!! Okay I do lol sorry im so mean ☺️ it’s okay.

[flovverworks]

hold on im rereading (skimming thro) owens affection story and the way cain first went 'whats up do u wanna grab a meal?' and then akira (who has been watching) approaches owen like 'hello how have u been do u want to eat together..' LOOOOOLLL

also i know this gets brought up early pt2 alrdy when akira speaks to vincent, but akira calling all of the wizards by name (and heathcliff heath etc) but using miss for canary. lord. also the way akira starts thinking everyones handsome nonstop and brings in a billion 'this person is so pretty' adjectives in every other sentence LIKE U RLY DONT HAVE TOOOOOO <-person who thinks its hilarious. i sometimes go 'please understand' when i have akira think someones handsome Once. i need to upgrade it to ten times

Akira: I’m taking notes on everyone here in case I suddenly have to return to my world. That includes you too, Owen.... Could you tell me more about yourself? Owen: I was killed by you. Akira: Eh...!? Owen’s delicate lips twist at my exclamation. Owen: What would you do if that was the case? What if your memories from your other world were all false? What if you were a criminal in this world? Alternatively, what if your lover was someone you happened to hate? What if I was your lover?

completely normal conversation. but also owen who only seems pleased if akiras annoyed when owen says he hates them,,

Owen: What are you trying to accomplish? Owen’s irritation catches on to me, and I begin to feel irritated and sad. Akira: Then fine. I don’t care anymore. If you’re not going to talk about yourself, I’ll never understand you. And next time Mithra is about to find out about your injury, I won’t know what to do, so. I’ll leave you alone. Bye.

THIS IS THE PART IM OBSESSED WITHHHHHHHH GUY WHOS BEEN TRYING NONSTOP TO BEFRIEND SOMEONE LETS THE BAD MOOD AFFECT THEM the second part wording is ssooooo bad too LOLLLL theyre so annoyed i love it sm. but also this being the time when owen accepts talking to them,,,despite also being rly annoyed,,

but also akira like Just having owen agree to their request, immediately saying 'ya i thought ur room would be strange' and trying his bed is so funny. 'i finally realize why i cant bring myself to hate owen' oughhh but also both akira & owen sitting there confused while owens trying to talk abuot himself LOL i like them so much. i think theyre rly neat

reading mithras too, and the way oz is like 'why would i do that' but then akira asks and hes like '...i guess since the sage is asking..' LOOOL

Akira: Ah... Mithra, it looks like you have a visitor. Mithra: You get the door. You’re capable of that much, right? Akira: (He’s just non-stop snark right now....) Ye~s, who is it?

this fkng interaction skull emoji (laughed) 'mithra u should say thank u too' like a mother....

anyway the way mithra talks about tiretta,,,,,,'only just said goodbye to her 10 or so years ago' T_^ (also thinks its funny/endearing how he says the twins said she was like his mother while mithra says she was more of a master/comrade/little sister<-especially the last one makes me laugh. i lov tiretta

My lips curve upwards, and I can’t help but stroke Mithra’s hair. Mithra doesn’t resist. Akira: I can sort of understand why people want to pat you on the head, Mithra. Mithra: Okay..... Is that so. Akira: It’s like when you’re next to a wild beast that you usually don’t see around. It makes you want to touch him while you can..... Mithra: You’re treating me like a rare animal...... Mithra rolls onto his other side. In the next moment, Mithra leaps up, pins me down, and bites my shoulder. Akira: Gya....ah! Mithra: Ahaha. I scream, and Mithra laughs. Apparently he only pretended to bite me. But I had prepared myself for death, so my heart won’t stop pounding. Akira: (What the heck goes on in his mind..... Was he playing around with me because I called him a beast? I thought I was going to die.....)

THIS PAAAARRTTTTTTT IM ALSO OBSEESED WITH 'i had prepared myself for death' JKADBKAD I THINK ABOUT THIS ALL THE TIME. guy who doesnt act like both owen & mithra could easily kill them

also what da hell was the next part about. when akira can wish that mithra wouldnt do things thatd make ppl misunderstand & dislike him. also oz giving tips to akira on how to make mithra sleep but its just ways to make kids sleep,,,,,the dad,,,

[ellecdc]

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

me rn after chap 4

IM SO FED UP BRO IM ACTUALLY DONE LETS PACK UP GO YALL I CANT DO THIS

okay seriously thoughts:

amelia is a bitch —she has her reasons and is primarily a victim— but she’s a bitch. i’m bout to toss her ass into a boiling pot of hot water LETS SEE WHOSE A TOSSER NOW. I MEAN SERIOUSLY YOU COULD PUT AWAY THE BULLYING, YOU’RE NOT MUCH BETTER THAN HER🤨🤨

THE FACT THAT HE BROKE ANCIENT WARDS TO PROTECT HER i’m fucking SCREAMING HEAVING CRYING i actually had to put my phone down for a sec cause i thought i was gonna break it 😐

i’m literally clawing at my face this chapter was so fucking good

ALSO WHAT THE FUCK DOES SHE KNOW?? THAT HES A WEREWOLF?? I MEAN I WOULDNT PUT IT PAST HER (my smart, amazing, beautiful, girl) BUT DOES SHE KNOW HRSJEKSDHJEKFJFEJ I WILL THROW MYSELF OFF A CLIFF

omg i feel james is gonna be so sad that she’s left for awhile, they seem to be such good friends ☹️

he’s so gonna find out why she left HIM SNEAKING OUT TO FIND HER AAAAAA THE ANGST

i feel the reason she left is to protect him (rem) and not herself and that makes shit so much more sad IM ACTUALLY FOAMING AT THE MOUTH

i’m scared for the next chapters holy shit

love you, drink water, bye🫣💗💕

Hahahahahahahahahaa I fucking love you.

Okay but Rem’s getting better right? Not quite as douchey as last time?? No??? We don’t see him sort of falling for her?? Being sweet inside his mind!?!! Just me?!!! Ok.

Yeah poor Amelia, I think she honestly was just speaking to reader the way everyone else does, like I really don’t think she meant much by it (I mean, it was still rude) but I definitely don’t think she though “lol I’m being mean and it’ll make remus laugh and he’ll like me more” I legit think that’s just how most of hogwarts treats her.

The apparition wards AND the fact they haven’t been taught how to apparate yet?? (I think I read somewhere that apparition was taught in/before exit exams??? Idk, this is my universe anyway so lol) like bro didn’t even realize he was APPARATING but he KNEW he had to protect her 🫶 I just like that he’s being nicer to her now both out loud and in his mind

Cue that song *she knows………..she knows*

Yeah I can definitely see some distraught (but funny to read) Jamie in the next piece.

Hope you have a fantabulous day bestie!!!! 💖💖