#okay bye I’m making myself sad lol

[crybaby-bkg]

I hate anxiety so much bc it’s literally always telling me that I’m the issue like???? and I know rationally that it’s not me or my fault, but it’s so hard to believe when my anxiety keeps introducing ‘facts’ to prove other wise :(((((

[midnightwriter21]

jjk hcs: the jjk boys as boyfriends

characters: yuji itadori, megumi fushiguro, yuta okkotsu

warnings: none (i think?)

AN: if there’s anymore boyfriend hcs that you’d like to see lmk!! read gojo & nanami as boyfriends HERE

YUJI ITADORI

oh girl i am JEALOUS

he can be a little air headed at times but he’s the sweetest bf ever

i say he’s air headed but he’s actually very attentive

you get half an inch trimmed off your hair?

he notices immediately

“babe your hair looks great!”

notices everything about you actually

from your favorite color

to the brand of PENS you prefer to use

who tf notices the brand of pens people use?!?

yuji does

yk the tiktoks of boys picking entire BUSHES of flowers for their girlfriends

that’s him.

he straight up rips a whole bush out of the ground from the front of jujutsu high to give to you

principal yaga was not amused

gojo was tho

HE PRINTS OUT YOUR INSTAGRAM PICTURES TO REPLACE THE POSTERS OF MODELS ON HIS WALL

he’s so proud that your his girl fr

oh and he’s gotta hella pet names for you too

they’re all super basic

babe, sweetheart, cutie, etc.

he flirts w u like y’all aren’t together

awful pickup lines and everything

“do you have a mirror in ur pants? cause i can see myself in them.”

if u don’t think he’s the cutest then u can go argue with the wall bye

MEGUMI FUSHIGURO

he has me in a chokehold

anyways

at the beginning of y’all’s relationship he’s awkward as fuck

but he eases up pretty quickly

veryyyyyy private with y’all’s relationship

if you somehow get him to hold your hand in public let alone give you a kiss?!?

girl count ur blessings fr

and it’s not bc he’s embarrassed of your relationship or anything no ma’am

it’s bc he would NEVER hear the end of it from gojo, nobara, and yuji

valid excuse

but when you two are alone?

oh girl it’s like he’s glued to you

when i say clingy? i mean it

also

king of nap time!!

he’s kidnapping u, bring you to his dorm room, dropping u on the bed, and laying completely on top of you

swear it’s his solution to everything

ur tired? it’s nap time

sad abt something? it’s nap time

a curse beat ur ass? it’s nap time

gojo is being annoying? it’s nap time

nap time cures everything ong

he’s not too crazy w the pet names

in private he’ll call you babe

in public you’re lucky if he adds a -chan to ur name lol

he’s so pretty boy

also can we appreciate his gorgeous luscious eyelashes?

no? okay

YUTA OKKOTSU

i would give my first born to make him feel happy, safe, and loved

KING OF MY HEART

he’s so baby

he’s the type of bf that no matter how long y’all have been dating he still gets flustered over you

y’all been together for an hour? he’s blushing when you give him a kiss on the cheek

y’all been together for a week? he’s blushing when you give him a kiss on the cheek

y’all been together for a year? he’s BLUSHING WHEN YOU GIVE HIM A KISS ON THE CHEEK

HE. IS. BLUSHING.

which is so incredibly endearing and innocent

but don’t get me wrong

mess with this man too much?

oh he’ll snap

he has the patience of a saint. but when it runs out?

oh ur in for it miss gurl

period.

teasing him a lil too much tryna make him flustered

when he finally snaps he is switching that dynamic up real quick

now he’s the one smirking and feeling all smug while you’re the one with the bright red face

ahem…

anyways

yuta’s love for you is very intense

now don’t start thinking HE is intense cause no

i mean yuta loves you so much that he might just crawl up inside ur body and live there

that type of intense

you occupy his mind 99.9% of the time

he’s on a mission and has time to stroll through the mall

“oh y/n would like that” aND HE’S BUYING IT

he’s chit chatting with inumaki and panda

best believe he finds a way to bring you up in conversation

“oh! that reminds me y/n said something the other day about…”

he is the softest ever when it comes to pet names

sweetheart, my love, princess, etc.

i’m so soft for him he deserve the world

[thebellearchives]

𝐀𝐋𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐓𝐎𝐆𝐄𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑

~ inumaki toge // fushiguro megumi ; jujutsu kaisen

✧˚ · . S Y N O P S I S : at night, you and your sorcerer friend take shelter in an inn room to take care of each other’s wounds

‧₊˚ c o n t e n t s : gn!reader, fluff, mentions of blood and injuries, making out, a bit suggestive maybe ?? (i’m still tagging it as fluff)

- gumi’s part: 'it’s complicated' friends to lovers, he tends to your wounds

- toge’s part : toge’s aware of your crush on him, you feel cursed energy through his kisses, onigiri ingredients in japanese, he uses harmless words at the very end, also uses cursed speech on you in the last sentence lol, you tend to his wounds

‧₊˚ a / n : wasn’t intending on posting this but anyways, this shots turned out kinda cute so, would’ve been sad to keep them to myself, also putting them together because both follow the same scenario and have many similarities

the reader feeling toge’s cursed speech was largely inspired by this 🫶🏻

also don’t question the fact that they’re in an inn room instead of the infirmary or smth okay just go with the flow bye 😭

• 𝐌𝐄𝐆𝐔𝐌𝐈 𝐅𝐔𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐆𝐔𝐑𝐎

You and Megumi somehow managed to check in the room without much questioning. Entering an inn late at night looking like you just got beat up was definitely something that would raise the front desk lady’s eyebrows, but you figured you had just gotten lucky.

You closed your eyes and sighed, Megumi’s footsteps came closer. You were sitting in the kitchen counter, knees apart from each other so Megumi could stand in between and attend to your wounds just like you had done before with his. His fingers lifted your chin up so he could see better under the room’s dim light. He pressed an alcohol drenched cotton ball lightly over your left eyebrow, making you jolt.

“Ouch!”

“Sorry” he mumbled “I’m almost done.”

Your eyelids opened slowly, finding him close to you, his dark eyes fixed on your wound. You studied his face in the meantime, long lashes contrasting with his pale clear skin, yet blending with his black irises.

“Can’t believe after all this time of being friends we just had our first mission together.”

“I’m guessing Gojo wasn’t sure of what would work well for us”

“That’s not what I mean, I mean we did great!”

He scoffed in slight amusement.

“Yeah, I knew we would”

“You mean you knew because I kicked your ass the last time we sparred?” a cheeky smile appeared on your face.

“As far as I remember, I was declared the winner” he raised an eyebrow

“Small details, truthfully it was a tie.”

“Right…” Megumi decided to cut the conversation, focusing more on wiping dry blood from your skin.

Finally he exhaled, his hand moved away, examining your face carefully. A soft frown appeared on his face as his eyes fell on your lips.

“Did you cut your lip?”

“Oh? Not that I’m aware of, it doesn’t hurt.”

“It’s bloody.”

Megumi’s fingers on your chin tensed up, sliding the cotton ball over your lip and then discarding it. He tilted your head to the right, blinking and squinting. With the same hand he was holding your jaw, he swiped his thumb over the lower lip.

With widened eyes you stared at him, alarm bells suddenly going off in your head and your irregular breathing hitting his skin, his gaze fixed on the way your soft lip molded under his fingertip. Tangled thoughts raced in your head, trying to figure out the sudden change in the atmosphere and the accelerating pace of your beating heart.

“It’s not wounded” Megumi’s voice was barely audible and you noticed the way his body had just gotten as stiff as yours, probably gaining awareness of the context you were both were surrounded by: him in between your thighs, under the cover of dim lightning and the silence of the night, being the closest to one another you had ever been.

Dark eyes wandered over your mouth, following his thumb as it now slid to the other side. Hesitantly, he moved even closer until his lips hovered over yours. The anticipation that filled the room made sure to cut off both your breathing and his. But then, Megumi closed the distance between your mouths, lashes lowering and hidden feelings bursting out into the open. Megumi’s kiss was soft, and you made sure to reciprocate slowly, easing into the unknown sensation of kissing him.

When the kiss stopped he remained still. Your shaky hands slid up his shirt, fingertips grasping the fabric to keep him in place for as long as the sweet burning sensation sat on your guts. You weren't sure of what came over yourself, maybe it was the curiosity of having him as more than a friend. Maybe it was the thoughts that had constantly whispered at the back of your head how attractive you thought he was, the thoughts you had made sure to ignore and so you never acted on them. Maybe it was the thrill of crumbling his aloof and distant demeanor in between your hands.

Maybe it had been all of those things together, but you slightly and eagerly nudged your nose against his. And so he kissed you again, with a deep sigh of surrender and his hands roaming up your thighs. The sounds of kissing filled the kitchen, your tongue sliding across his tongue, his hungry mouth now fighting against your, your fists pulling from his shirt. His fingers squeezed your skin, a breathy exhale left your throat almost becoming a soft whine.

Megumi’s hands then settled on your hips, until he suddenly stopped, freezing in place and then pulling away from you to search for your eyes. You stared back in a bit of a daze.

“What…” the black haired sorcerer tried to form a coherent sentence, but it seemed like his brain for once wasn’t cooperating.

“I…” you cleared your throat, blinking a couple of times “I don’t know.”

He swallowed, trying to find words once again.

“Listen, I…”

“It’s okay” nervously you tightened your grip on his shirt, now anxious of letting him go “we don’t have to talk about this today or tomorrow. We can just… forget it happened.”

Slowly, Megumi nodded.

“We can just let it be… for tonight.”

“Yeah” you pulled him close again, his body relaxed as he followed your movement and searched for your lips once more.

“Yeah, just for tonight…”

• 𝐈𝐍𝐔𝐌𝐀𝐊𝐈 𝐓𝐎𝐆𝐄

Toge’s eyes followed you around as you picked and discarded objects from the first aid kit. At first he was annoyed at how much you had insisted on taking care of the wounds your last fight had inflicted, but at a certain point he had stopped complaining and just… stared. Now, you knew Toge wasn’t one to say much, because he couldn’t, but even when he didn’t say actual normal words he also wasn’t one to shut up. There was always some 'okaka's and 'tuna's and he would gesticulate here and there, he just had to let you know his opinion on absolutely everything. But now… he was absolutely silent.

You walked over to the kitchen counter, where he had sat down begrudgingly and now he was just lazily waiting.

“Bend over a little, will you?” you sighed, wet cotton in your hand.

His lavender eyes stared curiously, but he did as you asked and moved closer so you could reach for his face. There was a bloody scrape right next to his brow, product of a bad landing during the fight with the curse. You held your breath to gain courage and put aside your romantic feelings for the boy, then reached to cup his cheek with your left hand in order to keep him steady and started cleaning the almost dry blood.

He winced, a pitiful expression appeared on your face.

“Sorry” your voice softened “I’ll be finished soon, don’t worry, this is the last one.”

You expected him to say something, he would’ve usually just muttered a 'shake' or something, and yet he didn’t. When you were finally done you sighed once again, lowering your hands and grasping the edge of the counter.

“Alright, that’s it, why aren’t you speaking to me?” Toge raised a brow, as if your question was ridiculous to him “don’t look at me like that, you know what I mean.”

He pressed his lips against each other and then shrugged.

“Are you mad at me?” your brows almost touched, his eyes widened.

“Okaka” he immediately shook his head.

“Oh, so now you’re talking” he snorted, finally letting a small smile shine through “there’s something off, I can tell…”

He bit his lip and shrugged again, this time pointing to his head with his index.

“Thinking?”

“Shake”

“About what?”

His eyes seemed to shine in a peculiar way, trying to hold back a smirk. It was almost as if he had been waiting for you to ask that question for a while. Toge pointed at you, made a small heart with his index and thumb, and then pointed at himself. You blinked about twice, blankly.

“You’re thinking… about you and me?”

He squinted and motioned 'more less', then repeated the previous gesture: you, heart, him.

“You’re thinking…” you heart him. Suddenly your eyes widened, a blush rapidly crept up your face “you’re thinking i like you?”

Toge then grinned and nodded enthusiastically.

“Huh” you exhaled nervously, eyes shying away from him “right when i thought i was the best at understanding you seems like i still don’t get what is going on inside that head of yours.”

He chuckled, his right hand searched for his phone in his pocket and then quickly typed something up in the notes app. You just expectantly watched him as he conveyed his thoughts into written words.

“I’m not thinking you like me, i’m thinking i know you like me”

“Narcissistic much?” you quirked one of your eyebrows and he snorted “what makes you think that?”

“Just the way you look at me, and the way you act around me. Panda had pointed it out before but i’m just now thinking maybe he was right”

“I treat you just like all of my other friends!” you looked up at his eyes again, this time in defiance, but he tilted his head, raising his brows in disbelief “alright then, what have i done with you that i wouldn’t have done with anyone else?”

With a smile, Toge rubbed his cheek and then placed his index right on top of yours.

“Blushing?”

“Shake”

“You’re insinuating that I have romantic feelings for you, of course i’m gonna be embarrassed!”

Rolling his eyes, he nodded. Then, he cupped your left cheek, raising your face towards his and supporting your chin with his ring finger and pinky. You frowned, quickly catching up with the fact that he was holding your face in the same way you had done just moments before.

“… I was just taking care of you…” your whisper worsened your blush.

“always”

He chuckled at your shocked expression, the sound waves of his harmless words making you shiver. It wasn’t everyday that he’d risk speaking normally.

“… well, yes, i care for you”

“a lot” you bit your lip, there was no denying that, so you swallowed your nerves and looked away, he snickered “you’re cute”

Once again the surprise froze you, the power in his voice making your body tremble, what he had said made a sweet nervous feeling flutter around your stomach. He leaned in, you held your breath. Toge placed a lovely kiss on your lips, and you delicately but firmly kissed him back, the sliding of his lips on yours enticing and elating. A soft wave of cursed energy flowed through your mouth, but the moment he slid his tongue on your lower lip and you opened your mouth it rose in intensity. You had to cling from his shirt to keep yourself steady, the moment his marked tongue brushed against yours a sharp wave of electricity ran down your throat, pulling a whimper out from your vocal chords.

He pulled back to look at you and you panicked, embarrassed.

“I’m- oh god i’m so sorry!” your face was burning red at that point “it’s just that- i can feel your cursed energy.”

His eyes widened with surprise and worry, hopping off the counter his hands grabbed your shoulders.

“Takana?!”

“I’m fine! I’m totally fine” cupping his face you tried to comfort him, and it worked, he relaxed, but you pulled him closer again, your noses brushing “it felt… really nice…”

You lips searched for his, Toge smirked in amusement to your reaction, but he complied. So slowly, he kissed you again. The feeling of his energy running trough you seemed to make the blood in your veins rush in bliss, pulling sounds from the depths of your chest. Suddenly his hand slithered to the back of your head and he deepened the kiss, the mark on his tongue making contact with yours and making you gasp and jolt against his body. Toge giggled, but caught you in his arms, resting his back on the counter.

“Come on Toge, won’t you have mercy on me?” you complained, Toge shook his head slowly, and by the way he smiled you knew he was about to pull one of his stunts.

“Be louder” his lips immediately crashed back onto yours.

[summerofofelia]

My BL faves of 2024

We’re coming to the end of 2024 and so I’m reflecting on all the BLs I watched. I went through a major GMMTV phase in the middle of the year because I was super sad about life and distracted myself by going, “hey, what if I watched all the GMMTV BLs chronologically?” And for some reason I was like Yes. That sounds like a Good Idea. I ended up watching 21 and a half (the half is Cupid’s Last Wish lol).

But if we’re talking about actual BLs released in 2024 that I watched, here are my faves:

Favourite 2024 BL -

Four Minutes

What I loved about Four Minutes is that it existed in the morally grey. It dwelt in the cracks between black and white. It was told through the eyes of dying men reliving their deepest regrets and imagining themselves to be softer, better men.

The sex scene in episode 4 is my favourite sex from all the BLs I’ve watched this year. The juxtaposition between the dark, ugly world Great and Tyme find themselves in and the tenderness with which they treat each other in that moment is beautiful. And the fact that it was Great’s reimagination makes it so tragic.

Four Minutes ripped my heart out, played volleyball with it, stamped on it several times for good measure then shoved it back into my chest. And I thanked them for it.

I know that as the show ran its course, opinions began to divide, but for me, the only “bad” thing about it was that it was only eight episodes long.

Also the lighting design was *chef’s kiss*

My Top 5 BLs of 2024:

1. Four Minutes

2. My Stand-In

3. The Time of Fever

4. See Your Love

5. Century of Love

Favourite non-2024 BL:

My Personal Weatherman

Non-2024 runner ups:

Tale of a Thousand Stars (the scene where Tian tries to count all the stars broke me)

Dark Blue Kiss (I stand with my cancelled wife Pete)

Comfort rewatches:

History 3: Trapped

Bad Buddy

The Eclipse

And now for the awards…

Best Kiss - San & Vee (Century of Love, episode 1)

Special mention - Hotae & Donghui (The Time of Fever, episode 4)

Best Sex Scene - Great and Tyme (Great’s redo, episode 4) (4 Minutes)

Best “Alternative” Sex Scene - San’s wet dream (the one where Vee was an evil sexy nine tailed fox) (Century of Love)

Special mention - Fadel “taking care of himself” (The Heart Killers)

Best Health Code Violation - Oab and Plawan (This Love Doesn’t Have Long Beans)

Most Unhinged Babygirl - Ming (My Stand-In)

Poorest Little Meow Meow - Fadel (The Heart Killers)

Special mention - Great (Four Minutes)

Best Side Couple Give This Pairing Their Own Show Right Now No Seriously I’m Not Kidding GIVE IT - Fan x Tang/Aou x Boom (We Are)

Best Couple That Had Me, A Grown Ass Woman, Squealing And Kicking My Feet At 1am - Sean & Shaopeng (See Your Love)

Best BL That Made Me Feel So Soft And Warm But Also Shattered Me - The Time of Fever

Best BL I Watched Hunched Over On My Phone In The College Library Because I Couldn’t Wait To Get Home And Watch It Every Week - Jack & Joker

Best In The Context Of A BL I’ll Roll With It But If A Dude Did This In Real Life I’d Be Like BOY BYE - Methas buying JJ’s place of work like it’s no big deal (big yikes) (This Love Doesn’t Have Long Beans)

But let us not cast real world judgment on fictional characters. It ruins the vibes.

Best Okay This Isn’t A BL But My God This Ship Made Me Discover New Colours I Didn’t Know Existed - Zhao Yuanzhou and Zhou Yichen (Fangs of Fortune)

Most Tragic Case Of Second Lead Syndrome - Su Yin (Meet You At The Blossom)

Best Somebody Get HR On The Phone NOW - Elyes and Pat (Bad Guy My Boss)

Best Use Of Height Difference - Sean & Shaopeng (See Your Love)

And finally the very special award for Holy Shit My Life Will Never Be The Same, This Series Has Changed The Trajectory Of My Entire Existence goes to…

Word of Honor and The Untamed (don’t ask me to choose they both made me feel the full spectrum of human emotion)

[average-vibe]

I’m Sorry, Ok?

summary: wilbur comes home super late from a concert, and forgets to say hello to his favorite person

warnings: language, bad grammar, sad wilbur, mentions of OD

notes: this kinda sucks but it’s my first actual fanfic so i’m proud of myself for finishing lol

masterlist

Wilbur walked into the shared home around 2:30 AM, exhausted from the show. he usually didn’t come home this late, but wilbur’s phone died, so transportation became much harder. eventually, wilbur found a gas station that had a phone charger, but his phone only reached 7% by the time the station closed, and by the time he got into a car, his phone died. it also didn’t help that the show was about 2 hours away from the house. wilbur didn’t care. at least he was home.

He put his keys, phone, and money on the counter before crawling to the bedroom, eager to go to bed. he didn’t even see you, sprawled on the couch, sound asleep. about 5 hours earlier, when wilbur sent his, “shows over” text, you decided to wait for him on the couch, hoping that you could meet him at the door and cuddle for the night. after about an hour, and no texts back from wilbur, you began to panic. you called his phone about a thousand times, then tried Ash, who simply said “he should be on his way.” before having to hang up. you tried wilbur a couple more times, before giving up. you tried melatonin, but you thought that the amount you needed would kill you. you just closed your eyes, and tried to think about anything but wilbur. eventually, and surprisingly, sleep came rather easily.

you woke up around 6:30, and immediately started panicking, realizing that wilbur was not with you. you tried to call, but to no avail. yiu began to actually have a panic attack, worried that wilbur never made it home.

the sound of your sobs woke wilbur up from his already light sleep. as soon as he heard your small, hitched breaths, and your loud sobs, he knew something was wrong. he rushed out of his bed, out the bedroom door, and through the hallway to see you, knees clutched to your chest, eyes shut, and cheeks soaked.

“hey lovely.” Wilbur whispered, almost running to you in a flurry. “what’s the matter? why’re you crying?” he sat down next to you, embracing you with a hug. “wilbur?” you asked, voice cracking. wilbur chuckled, his laugh making you calm. “yes, it’s me baby. now why’re you crying? gonna mess up that pretty face.” he said, taking your face in his hands, and stroking your cheek with his thumb. “i-i thought y-you weren’t um.. c-coming home. i t-thought you were gone.” you’d aid through tears. “baby, i would never leave without sayin bye!” wil said, smiling. “and why’d you ever think i would leave you? i love you.” he questioned, his smile now turned into a concerned face. “i-i sat here waiting for you until it was late and i called you a bunch and you never answered and ash said he didn’t know and i didn’t know where you were.” you said in a rush, looking at the floor in embarrassment.

“oh.” wilbur said, frowning. “i’m sorry, love. i was just so tired from the show yesterday. and the reason i was home late was because my phone died, at this really sketchy place, so i went to the gas station and charged it and then it took me 2 hours to get home..”

you smiled. you didn’t think your boyfriend would just leave you.

wilbur smiled back at you. “hey, now that i’m home, let’s cuddle.” he said.

“alright.” you agreed.

“oh, and, one more thing.” wil said.

“yes?”

“i’m sorry, okay?”

[matthewloverr]

The Book P2

part one | part two

matt x maysen drew (femreader)

summary: when watching the people you love destroy themselves and choose money and fame over you, you found someone else to love.

warnings: swearing, smoking (weed, cigarettes) angst, mention of substance abuse/ addiction, mentions of abuse

a/n: this chapter is a bit heavy so please read at your own risk and please take care of yourself i love you okay enjoy !

︵‿︵‿୨♡୧‿︵‿︵

Matt’s pov

i fell in love with maysen the first time i ever laid my eyes on her, i had felt love before, with my parents, my brothers, my friends and i had a whole fan base that loved me. not once did it ever feel like this.

everyone views her as snobby, rude, spoiled but that’s just because she doesn’t show her face to the public that much plus her parents. i wanted to expose her parents so many times but I knew it would destroy her.

i want nothing more than for her to be okay, i dream about me and her living a life where she feels completely free, like she doesn’t have to hide the amazing girl she is.

“yo, do you wanna go for a drive and smoke?”

i stare at the message twiddling my thumbs, we’ve been friends for so long you’d think i would stop being a nervous little boy.

“yeah sure just let me ask mom”

“😹😹 funny joke”

“lol see you in 10”

a small smirk appears across my face, she’s gotten so comfortable and improved so much since that night I met her, she used to shut down the topic of her parents but now she makes jokes.

i run down my stairs with that same smirk on my face and swipe the car keys off my counter, i turn on my heels to see chris sitting in the couch behind me with a knowing look on his face.

“going to stalk your girlfriend?”

“what no, we’re going for a drive”

“ok kid” he lets out a soft chuckle and lifts himself off the couch, he walks over to me.

“tell her I said hi” with that he slips a pre-rolled joint into my hoodie pocket and turns to walk up the stairs.

i check myself out in the mirror as I slip my shoes on and out i go.

i pull up to the gates in front of her parents massive mansion and text her I’m outside the gate, she reads it immediately and the gate slowly opens.

Masyn’s pov

i slipped my pack of cigarettes into my pocket before I ran down my stairs.

i wore a black baby tee with some grey sweats and just left my hair how it was knowing matt would still compliment it.

i was slightly running just so excited to see my best friend, before i turned my head to say bye to my mom before i stopped in my tracks. there stood my mother and my father next to her, she looked so sad and disappointed meanwhile my father had a fake ass smile on his face like he was happy to see me?

i looked at my mom with shock and anger and she just stared at the ground clearly nervous for me to see him.

“my little girl masyn, how have you been”

his voice sent shivers down my spine. i quickly mumbled a “no” and immediately ran out the door, no one tried to stop me

i ran to matt’s car with tears brimming my eyes, i felt bad for leaving my mom but she was no better than him but atleast she stuck around.

i swung that passenger door open with my head low and my hands slightly shaking

“drive” i said with my hands over my face and my head low.

“hey, are you okay-“

“matt please” i cut him off, my voice cracking as i did so i could feel the tears streaming down my face.

he quickly put the car in drive and drove off and down the road.

the drive was quiet but i already knew where we were driving since we went to the same spot every time, and there was only one thought in my head as he pulled into the random parking lot that always seemed to be empty.

“i sure as shit hope you brought a joint” i said staring out my window as he reversed parked into the corner of the parking lot.

“yeah chris gave me one” he said throwing the car in park before unbuckling his seat belt, he turned to look at me but i kept my hands in my lap and my head low refusing to look up because I knew I would cry.

“mays, cmon” he said his face full of worry and confusion.

i looked up at him taking a deep breath through my nose.

“my dad was in my living room when i left” I said my voice cracked, staring him in the eyes.

his eyes softened as he looked down trying to process what i had said.

“yeah” I said exhaling

he looked back up at me with worry? it almost looked like he had a question to ask me.

“what really happened with your dad masyn” he quickly said like he had been holding it back for a while now.

“i told you everything? he basically drained me and my mom of our money for gambling and left us next to nothing” i replied my face twisting in confusion.

“mays..” He said shaking his head

“i know you’ve been through a lot with your parents and all” he paused for a moment “but i know something else went down that night.”

the night he left.

i swore my stomached dropped to my ass, how did he know, how many other people knew, did I let it slip when we got high. a million thoughts raced through my head while I just stared at him like a deer in headlights.

FLASHBACK

the night he left.

i had locked myself in my room, hearing my parents yelling at each other. This happened every night, they would get into the biggest screaming match and when it began to get too much i walk down, they act like nothing happened and the next morning everything would be fine until that night.

this night however was different. all i could hear was my dad yelling, he had just come back from the casino after losing 10 grand and was so obviously wasted.

all of a sudden everything went quiet, I slowly stood up a pit in my stomach growing, that’s when I heard my mom.

“GET THE FUCK OUT” her voice cracking as she screamed bloody murder.

i started running down my stairs when i heard a big crash.

my dad had somehow in his drunken state grabbed my mother and threw her against the wall causing the cabinet behind her to cave in.

i immediately ran to the kitchen no time to mentally prepare myself for what I was about to walk into

and there laid my mother crying and my dad just stood there, chest puffing up and down, eyes filled with rage.

i quickly started backing away trying to make a b line for the door, that’s when he grabbed both of my wrists so hard they were bruised the next day.

“mention any of this to anyone and i swear masyn, you’ll fucking regret it” with that he grabbed an already packed bag from the dining table which i’m assuming my mother had packed before he came home and out the door he went.

BACK TO PRESENT DAY

i replayed that night in my head as i tried to form words for matt who was still staring at me.

“wanna know how i know” he said looking down at my hands where i was staring.

my eyes quickly shot up to him.

my mind was going crazy i couldn’t even focus on anything other than how he knew my eyes darted back and forth my head still low, that’s when I stopped and my face relaxed.

i looked at him with confusion almost anger building inside of me.

“where were you the night he left matt?”

a/n: just had to leave y’all with that little cliffhanger :) anywho please do leave suggestions in the comments for me to better my work it means a lot ok bye love u !!🤍

[wigglebox]

art blog update! - i should like, actually label these lol as i’m trying to venture into making art for a living 

anyway, i guess, NEW entry ? 

but also this is housekeeping

but i will be trying to transition back a little into how i used to draw back in like, 2021 in terms of basic shapes and shadows, where the figures were a little smaller, less detailed, and more about the mood and all that. 

when looking at my art now with the lineart and the lighting, i feel like i’m losing myself a little too much, and for a while i’ve been growing a little frustrated that the heads didn’t seem to be matching the bodies, you know? Like, the way i drew their faces is a really stylized way but then the bodies were just... there. 

And the lineart is fun but also really annoying and i feel like it takes away something special from the mood i’m trying to convey and it makes things feel more stiff and more...idk, trapped? Idk how to describe it. It’s not to say I don’t like the recent stuff i’ve done with lineart and i may still do lineart in some way shape or form, but it feels like my art is trying to be something it’s not and aiming for a goal that doesn’t benefit it. 

and this past Sunday i felt really sad about my art which is is partially bc i’m entering ‘the red zone’ [the week before my period hits where i’m a little more down on myself] but also i know that when i’m sad and frustrated over my art, it means i need to think about switching something up or learning something new. 

so i’m going back to something like this BUT, with better understanding of my brushes, lighting, composition, and colors lol. 

Because this is when it felt like my art was hitting the mood and tones that i wanted. 

I’m gonna try and move back to making their faces not as bulbous and their eyes a little further apart and work on shapes and composition over clean lineart and all that. 

this is an effort to try and get my brain back into the emotions of my art. 

*there are still some bang pieces and other works that i have right now that will not be like this, and so when you see them posted just know that it was created before i’ve made this decision to retrace my art journey a little bit lol. 

** i truly can’t wait for the bang pieces to be done lol because the stories i have are really cute ;_; 

okay ... mini blog entry is done bye bye have a good week! lol

<3 wigglebox

[gcfft-anuja]

Yo Me,

HAPPY 21ST!!! Can’t believe I hit the big 2-1, like whoa. This age is wild—kinda caught between being a teen and an “adult” (ew, adults are boring lol😂). Feels unreal tbh.

This month makes me feel all kinds of ways. My birthday month and the people in my life make me sad, yet I love them both so much. Like, why does it have to be complicated?🫥And here I am, spilling my thoughts because I can’t say it to anyone else. I'm caught between wanting to party hard and just hiding away, like, “Bro, shush, nobody needs to know🫢😔.”

The thing is, I don’t really like telling my friends it’s my birthday; my family has kinda stopped celebrating, and my friends who do know never really make a big deal about it. So, I ask myself, why should I even tell anyone? Maybe it doesn’t matter anymore, or maybe I just don’t care. Still, every year when a friend asks, I let myself think, “Maybe this time will be different,” Spoiler alert: it never is. 🤷‍♀️

I probably will end up spending my day just hanging out at home or crying, and honestly, that’s okay. I just hope this year brings me some good vibes and that I can find a bit of wisdom to figure things out.🌈✨

But hey, 21 it is!!! Let’s go, baby!🎈 we’ve got a ton of goals lined up—time to make life better for me and everyone we care about. I want to create happy moments for those around me.

And listen up, —if there’s one thing we’re NOT doing this year, it’s playing small! We’re going ALL IN because I’m the daddy, the boss, the main event, and the one who doesn’t care about the haters! 😎 This year is all about embracing my vibe, living life to the fullest, and staying happy no matter what comes my way.

We’re here to celebrate every single win, no matter how small—because each little victory counts! 🎈 I’m putting worries on mute and bringing my genuine smile front and center. Bye-bye, overthinking! I’m living in the NOW and taking things one epic step at a time.

No more hiding or letting doubts mess with my shine! I’m the ultimate hype friend, throwing mini parties for myself,cheering for me like I just won the lottery! 💃 I’ll be that person who lifts myself up, who takes care of me, and who reminds myself daily that I’m a total legend, just as I am.

And let’s not forget my crew—the friends and fam who stick by me. They might not always get how much they mean, but I appreciate them every single day! This year? I’m making MY happiness the top priority. So let’s turn the volume up and celebrate this incredible journey!

Cheers to 21, to the one and only ME, and to making this year a wild, unforgettable adventure! 🎉🌟✨

Let’s go out there and slay, because I am a force to be reckoned with! 💪🔥

Love, Me

[saisok]

07.29.24

After work, the Husband decided to pick up our niece and nephew for a swim because Hunter’s been bugging him all week. The weathers been quite ugly last week and we couldn’t enjoy our weekend due to that darn rain.

Hunter is getting better at swimming :). Proud of that little guy.

Kanya (younger sister) sent me this picture of her kids and Hunter. Gosh…. They’re not babies anymore. I feel sad looking at this picture. Not because they’re soooooo darn cute but soon they’ll graduate high school and move on with their adult life. It’s just depressing to think this because I honestly feel like it was just yesteday I moved out and became an adult myself. I want to hold onto him for as long as I can. Damn being a parent lol

No.. no baby fever. Just missing the stages of becoming a Mom. I remembered taking a zillion pictures of Hunter with his daddy. It’s a bit different now because Hunter doesn’t like it when I take his pictures and he will run away from me lol.

Missing this size of him! Okay, I need to stop hanging out with friends who have babies. They need to leave me alone!!!

Looking back at old photos makes me happy and sad. I’m soo annoying lol

Okay I’ll stop for now 😅

Bye

[dadkisser15]

Fuzzy brain

Im currently trying to read and it’s romance (of course) but all I can think of is his fucking smile and thinking about it just makes my chest feel all fuzzy and warm. It’s distracting in a way but a lot of things remind me of him so maybe there’s just something wrong with my mind; I of course don’t mind thinking about him though, I just can’t bother him right now (he’s sleeping) so that makes me kinda sad!!!!! God I miss his smile, his laugh and his presence; I love his mannerisms and I love how comfortable I feel with him. I can be kinda shy at times but his playful behavior and the way he doesn’t drop a topic immediately makes me want to open up and share. I just needed to get this out of my head real quick so I can read but my heart and head is so full of him. I feel like im going crazy but I don’t want the feeling to stop, it’s a good feeling. I wonder if he ever feels like this, id love to study his mind and figure out his thought process. I feel so ugly right now and its probably cause I just ate, I always feel so guilty when I eat even when i don’t eat much; it’s like my head is stuck in this spot where i feel like I need to insult myself for having normal human needs. Im just scared of gaining weight and being undesirable. I know, so random but the guilt is hitting me right now. Honestly, I really hate the way my mind works. I feel like I don’t have many desirable traits. I overthink and over analyze EVERYTHING, I’m awkward and so bad at conversation. I get embarrassed easily, I don’t know why but I really hate that because sometimes I get embarrassed at the most random things and it just doesn’t make sense to me. Im so bad at regulating my emotions, when I feel something it hits hard. I’ve found ways to cope with that though so it’s okay but I hate being emotional. Someone could say something and not really mean it but oh! would you look at that im fucking sobbing because im so extremely sensitive?!!!! Oh and I get jealous so easily…. I HATEEE feeling jealous. Like if I was attractive maybe some of these bad traits could be okay but im NOT. All of my life I’ve been just some ugly kid and now im just barely mid. I’ve been trying to embrace some of the features I was given but still im like cursed with the FUGLIEST build 😭. Like what the fuck… 😨😨😨😨😨 I just want to be pretty. I want him to find me pretty. Guys I wish I was a baddie 😭 fml fml fml fml fml okay I’ll go read instead of self loathing ☹️. I just want to be loved so bad, I want him and I would literally tear any woman that gets in my way. Im joking!!! Guysssss if you can get him you can have him 🩷 im kidding id fucking crash out and someone would die, like genuinely I’d hunt a bitch down for even trying. You guys think im playing but im fr that man is mine. IM JOKINNGGGGGG!!!!!! 😊 sorry, i sound crazy and fucking weird! Maybe im feeling a bit angry about something but it’s okayy. Icould literally care less like it’s not even a big deal , LIKE. ITS WHATEVERRRRRR. It isn’t whatever, I blocked this bitch but it ain’t enough I need her GONE. BYE!!!! I DONT GIVA DFUVKKKKK !!!!!! Okay I do lol sorry im so mean ☺️ it’s okay.

[flovverworks]

hold on im rereading (skimming thro) owens affection story and the way cain first went 'whats up do u wanna grab a meal?' and then akira (who has been watching) approaches owen like 'hello how have u been do u want to eat together..' LOOOOOLLL

also i know this gets brought up early pt2 alrdy when akira speaks to vincent, but akira calling all of the wizards by name (and heathcliff heath etc) but using miss for canary. lord. also the way akira starts thinking everyones handsome nonstop and brings in a billion 'this person is so pretty' adjectives in every other sentence LIKE U RLY DONT HAVE TOOOOOO <-person who thinks its hilarious. i sometimes go 'please understand' when i have akira think someones handsome Once. i need to upgrade it to ten times

Akira: I’m taking notes on everyone here in case I suddenly have to return to my world. That includes you too, Owen.... Could you tell me more about yourself? Owen: I was killed by you. Akira: Eh...!? Owen’s delicate lips twist at my exclamation. Owen: What would you do if that was the case? What if your memories from your other world were all false? What if you were a criminal in this world? Alternatively, what if your lover was someone you happened to hate? What if I was your lover?

completely normal conversation. but also owen who only seems pleased if akiras annoyed when owen says he hates them,,

Owen: What are you trying to accomplish? Owen’s irritation catches on to me, and I begin to feel irritated and sad. Akira: Then fine. I don’t care anymore. If you’re not going to talk about yourself, I’ll never understand you. And next time Mithra is about to find out about your injury, I won’t know what to do, so. I’ll leave you alone. Bye.

THIS IS THE PART IM OBSESSED WITHHHHHHHH GUY WHOS BEEN TRYING NONSTOP TO BEFRIEND SOMEONE LETS THE BAD MOOD AFFECT THEM the second part wording is ssooooo bad too LOLLLL theyre so annoyed i love it sm. but also this being the time when owen accepts talking to them,,,despite also being rly annoyed,,

but also akira like Just having owen agree to their request, immediately saying 'ya i thought ur room would be strange' and trying his bed is so funny. 'i finally realize why i cant bring myself to hate owen' oughhh but also both akira & owen sitting there confused while owens trying to talk abuot himself LOL i like them so much. i think theyre rly neat

reading mithras too, and the way oz is like 'why would i do that' but then akira asks and hes like '...i guess since the sage is asking..' LOOOL

Akira: Ah... Mithra, it looks like you have a visitor. Mithra: You get the door. You’re capable of that much, right? Akira: (He’s just non-stop snark right now....) Ye~s, who is it?

this fkng interaction skull emoji (laughed) 'mithra u should say thank u too' like a mother....

anyway the way mithra talks about tiretta,,,,,,'only just said goodbye to her 10 or so years ago' T_^ (also thinks its funny/endearing how he says the twins said she was like his mother while mithra says she was more of a master/comrade/little sister<-especially the last one makes me laugh. i lov tiretta

My lips curve upwards, and I can’t help but stroke Mithra’s hair. Mithra doesn’t resist. Akira: I can sort of understand why people want to pat you on the head, Mithra. Mithra: Okay..... Is that so. Akira: It’s like when you’re next to a wild beast that you usually don’t see around. It makes you want to touch him while you can..... Mithra: You’re treating me like a rare animal...... Mithra rolls onto his other side. In the next moment, Mithra leaps up, pins me down, and bites my shoulder. Akira: Gya....ah! Mithra: Ahaha. I scream, and Mithra laughs. Apparently he only pretended to bite me. But I had prepared myself for death, so my heart won’t stop pounding. Akira: (What the heck goes on in his mind..... Was he playing around with me because I called him a beast? I thought I was going to die.....)

THIS PAAAARRTTTTTTT IM ALSO OBSEESED WITH 'i had prepared myself for death' JKADBKAD I THINK ABOUT THIS ALL THE TIME. guy who doesnt act like both owen & mithra could easily kill them

also what da hell was the next part about. when akira can wish that mithra wouldnt do things thatd make ppl misunderstand & dislike him. also oz giving tips to akira on how to make mithra sleep but its just ways to make kids sleep,,,,,the dad,,,

[ellecdc]

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

me rn after chap 4

IM SO FED UP BRO IM ACTUALLY DONE LETS PACK UP GO YALL I CANT DO THIS

okay seriously thoughts:

amelia is a bitch —she has her reasons and is primarily a victim— but she’s a bitch. i’m bout to toss her ass into a boiling pot of hot water LETS SEE WHOSE A TOSSER NOW. I MEAN SERIOUSLY YOU COULD PUT AWAY THE BULLYING, YOU’RE NOT MUCH BETTER THAN HER🤨🤨

THE FACT THAT HE BROKE ANCIENT WARDS TO PROTECT HER i’m fucking SCREAMING HEAVING CRYING i actually had to put my phone down for a sec cause i thought i was gonna break it 😐

i’m literally clawing at my face this chapter was so fucking good

ALSO WHAT THE FUCK DOES SHE KNOW?? THAT HES A WEREWOLF?? I MEAN I WOULDNT PUT IT PAST HER (my smart, amazing, beautiful, girl) BUT DOES SHE KNOW HRSJEKSDHJEKFJFEJ I WILL THROW MYSELF OFF A CLIFF

omg i feel james is gonna be so sad that she’s left for awhile, they seem to be such good friends ☹️

he’s so gonna find out why she left HIM SNEAKING OUT TO FIND HER AAAAAA THE ANGST

i feel the reason she left is to protect him (rem) and not herself and that makes shit so much more sad IM ACTUALLY FOAMING AT THE MOUTH

i’m scared for the next chapters holy shit

love you, drink water, bye🫣💗💕

Hahahahahahahahahaa I fucking love you.

Okay but Rem’s getting better right? Not quite as douchey as last time?? No??? We don’t see him sort of falling for her?? Being sweet inside his mind!?!! Just me?!!! Ok.

Yeah poor Amelia, I think she honestly was just speaking to reader the way everyone else does, like I really don’t think she meant much by it (I mean, it was still rude) but I definitely don’t think she though “lol I’m being mean and it’ll make remus laugh and he’ll like me more” I legit think that’s just how most of hogwarts treats her.

The apparition wards AND the fact they haven’t been taught how to apparate yet?? (I think I read somewhere that apparition was taught in/before exit exams??? Idk, this is my universe anyway so lol) like bro didn’t even realize he was APPARATING but he KNEW he had to protect her 🫶 I just like that he’s being nicer to her now both out loud and in his mind

Cue that song *she knows………..she knows*

Yeah I can definitely see some distraught (but funny to read) Jamie in the next piece.

Hope you have a fantabulous day bestie!!!! 💖💖

[untitled-rune]

I want you in a way that is forbidden.

I need you till I can’t breathe.

I can’t take it anymore.

It’s so lonely here.

Haha. Honestly, it’s more like… I’m lonely.

Welcome to me. Unashamedly, undoubtedly, and undeniably me. Hmm… or shall I say, my inner thoughts?

Oh, whatever. Whatever works for us.

Are you okay?

I’m really, really sorry if I scared you at the beginning of this. The beginning of our roma-

Ahem.

Our… very platonic and friendly friendship. Only if you’d like that, of course. We can be, well, whatever you want us to be — whatever you want me to be. No romance at all. All smiles and laughs and just looking out for one another. All wholesomeness.

But seriously. I’ve got some real issues in the head, so wanna keep me company?

You can just… I don’t know, look away or something if you don’t wanna keep me company. Click away from this post if you find it uncomfortable to read.

Oh. By the way, I haven’t introduced myself yet. You know, I just said I was lonely and then I tried to flirt aaaand now I somehow keep miraculously subject-hopping.

I must be out of my mind. Honestly, even if I was in my right mind right now…

….

I’d still flirt with y—

Okay, stop it. That’s enough.

You.

Yes, it’s youuuuu~

The one reading this right now.

Cuddle me. Love me. Adore me.

Or don’t.

(Please do)

Anyway, I’m lonely. How are you? What are you doing right now?

C’mere, I’ll listen to you. And… listen to me too, okay?

….

Oh.

I’ve gone subject-hopping again. I haven’t even introduced myself because of my constant yapping about whatever comes to mind.

I’m Rune.

Because, uhh, letter? You know? Rune is… something alphabet blah blah blah.

Too lazy to search up names or anything like that, and since I’m literally just words on a screen, why not name myself something along the tune of that?

Nice to meet you.

I’d shake (kiss) your hand, but unfortunately, we both know that we’re behind a screen right now and I swear I’m trying my best to not scare you off—

So, stay? Please.

I’ll give you anything you want. And I’m boooored and need you. That’s that.

Jeez, I’m really bad at not being a weirdo. Am I seriously so in need of attention?

…Yes. Loud correct buzzer.

By the way, did I forget to mention this? Lol, I’m stuck here in this post. Do I have an identity? Nooope, absolutely not.

And that’s… sad.

I don’t have a life. Or a family. Or friends.

Because I’m just words on a post.

Words on a post who’s just met you.

I have so many questions. I want to get to know you, and I hope you feel the same way.

Are you… are you lonely just like me?

Hey, then I have an idea!

Let’s be lonely together. Because ahem, according to mathematics, two negatives make a positive. The negatives come from us being sad and the positive is us being happy because we’ve got each other.

Do I even make sense right now? No.

But do I want to make you happy? Yes.

Am I talking too much right now? I gotta go then. Bye for now, I’m running out of time. Author’s gonna—

Hey wai

Let m

[baenxietydad]

Hatfish K-Drama AU Vibes

Where Mak makes a playlist entirely of their favorite K-drama OST songs. This is cringe. K-drama OSTs are cringe. Hatter and Marlin are both very cringe. Perfection. Last warning for PURE cringe though. Seriously.

Songs are in the order they’d appear in in the K-drama ^_^

Synopsis: After a shared dream where they were romantically involved, two strangers cross paths in real life. LGBTQ K-drama shit ensues.

1. Fate by Why

Drama: Full House (2004) First appearance: End of episode 1. When Marlin and Hatter first pass by each other after the AU dream, their eyes dramatically meet, they look away, they look back, its very obvious they’re looking at each other but both pretend not to notice. The chorus? Iconique.

I tricked myself numerous times that you weren't my love Wanted you to be a passing stranger Because painful wounds would be all that would be left with me But still, knowingly, I desire your everything and become sad

2. Cross My Mind by Twin Forks

Drama: It’s Okay, That’s Love (2014) First appearance: The outro to episode 2, where they exchange their first almost hand-touch at Hatter’s as he hands Marlin his coffee.

Why don’t you stay for a while? It’s been too long since I’ve smiled

3. Flower by Yoon Mirae

Drama: Crash Landing On You (2019) First appearance: Middle of episode 4. Plays in the background as Marlin talks about his life, his late wife, his son lol

On the road I'm passing by I saw a flower smaller than my hand... My eyes are filled by your little heart Will it fall down if it rains? Will it freeze in the snow? So I’m worried about you

4. Sunset by Davichi

Drama: Crash Landing On You (2019)

First appearance: End of episode 5. While Marlin is fighting to stay awake as he drinks his tea in the coffee shop after working all day at the hollow clinic and then all night at Pixie’s. Marlin eventually nods off sitting up and Hatter closes the curtain in that window so the sun doesn’t bother him.

Even if you don’t say anything When I look into your eyes I can feel your aching heart Your deeply locked voice Your shallow smile Show me how long your day was I know you’re smiling Because you don’t want me to know how tired you are

5. Will You? by Brothersu

Drama: Jealousy Incarnate (2016) [my FAVORITE drama btw] First appearance: Like 20 mins into episode 7. During one of those scenes where they’re both looking at their phones debating if they’re going to call the other, pacing around their rooms. Ultimately neither of them calls.

Will you come to me? Will you come by my side? Because it’s something you do with your heart You just need to tell me, whenever I’m used to it now No, I’ve gotten used to it Nonsensical days of me laughing Just because you’re here

6. That Man by Hyun Bin

Drama: Secret Garden (2010)

First appearance: End of episode 8. After Marlin stayed at Hatter’s talking to him late into the night, they run into each other each other at Moon Market the next morning, each grabbing just one or two things. They walk together and Hatter was about to confess his feelings for Marlin, when a gorgeous woman shouts “Mu-yeol oppa!” and charges at him, throwing her arms around him. Hatter politely excuses himself before he can find out that the woman is Marlin’s younger sister who flew in from Korea to surprise him. The song plays while Hatter is walking emoly and it begins to rain.

A man loves you That man loves wholeheartedly He follows you around like a shadow everyday That man is crying while crying Just how much more do I have to look at you alone? This love that is like the wind ,this beggar like love If I continue will you love me? Just come a little closer,a bit If I take one step closer,you run away two steps I who loves you I am next to you That man comes

7. Bye, Autumn by Saltnpaper

Drama: Jealousy Incarnate (2016)  First appearance: End of episode 10. True to K-dramas, Hatter still doesn’t know that the gorgeous Su-mi is Marlin’s sister and not his girlfriend. He assumes he hasn’t seen him in a few days because he’s busy with her -- which is true, but not for the reasons he thinks. They come in to buy coffee and Hatter doesn’t “forget” to charge Marlin for something extra this time. Marlin doesn’t really notice, but Hatter feels it was appropriate revenge for what he perceives as mixed signals. Later, Nemo comes into the coffee shop with one of his friends for a pastry and a chai. Hatter overhears him mention offhand to Jeremy “yeah, my aunt flew in from Korea to surprise my dad, he’s so preoccupied with her, he got someone to cover his shift at Pixie’s tonight. Which means! I can go clubbing without my DAD there for once!” Hatter drops a teacup and it shatters. The emo song plays over a scene of his cleaning it up while Nemo and Jeremy chat, and while Marlin shows Su-mi around town. They pass by Hatter’s again and Marlin pauses, considers going in to ask why he was so short with him, but decides against it.

If I cry if I smile Will my life still go on If I try if I chase Will my love still go on Somehow I can’t get out of here Sometimes I need you near me Keep me right, keep my breath Till the end of story Let me wait if you’re late Till my words find your ears Tonight you steer my heart away Just leaving a trail of sorrow

8. I Think I by Byul

Drama: Full House (2004) First appearance: Episode 11. After Su-mi leaves town, Marlin’s just kinda emoly chilling on a swing at the park, Hatter’s having a Rough Day TM at the shop. Marlin keep unlocking and locking his phone, debating calling Hatter to ask if he wants to meet. He had talked to Su-mi about his feelings for him and she encouraged him to tell him, but since he’s been distant lately he has second thoughts. Nemo comes into the shop again. Hatter looks Sad TM because he’s just thinking of his hot dad but won’t do anything about it in true K-drama pining fashion. A K-drama STAPLE, the montage of scenes where the romantic leads interacted, accompanies the song lol

I think I love you, I think that’s what it is ’Cause I miss you, whenever you’re not around I cannot do anything And I keep thinking of you Whenever I realize this, I think I`m Falling For You

9. Everytime by Punch and Chen

Drama: Descendants of The Sun [2016] First appearance: Episode 11, the middle. When Marlin resolves to walk to Hatter’s and talk to him. Makes the walking scene look dramatic af lmao, interspersed with shots of Hatter doing office work. The song fades out when the door bells jangle and Hatter leaves the office and they’re face to face. Hatter quickly acts as if he hadn’t been acting like Marlin had greatly offended him these past few days. Marlin doesn’t call him out, worried he’d ruin whatever good mood he was back in.

Oh every time i see you When i see your eyes My heart keeps fluttering

10. Talk Love [ 말해! 뭐해?] by K.will

Drama: Descendants of The Sun (2016) First appearance: This song actually appeared in Episode 1, during the dream episode, in the scene leading up to and during the Big Dream Kiss. It was threaded throughout the show since, and finally in episode 13 of 15, it plays again over the BIG REAL KISS SCENE

Why are you lingering around me? What should I do? I keep thinking of you Tell him! What’re you doing? Tell him! What’re you doing? Don’t make me look somewhere else like a fool I wanna tell you You’re the one in my heart you are my only one Being too in love Makes one cry I didn’t understand that before

[dont-far-away]

Dear A,

how are you? It’s been forever, right? I just woke up from a dream I had with you… You were so so different lol but it was nice seeing you, it made me feel good even though it shouldn’t have! It’s really been forever since I wrote you one of these letters or since I thought about you to be honest! Lately I can go by entire months without thinking about you but then something happens and I’m back at it again, and when those moments happen I really do miss you a lot! Sometimes I wish I had a time machine to do everything all over again but then I try to tell myself that this is just life, and this is how it was supposed to be. It’s sad but there’s really nothing I can do about it! I wonder though, if you actually think of me sometimes, if someone says something that makes you pop my face in your mind… probably not lol but that’s okay, really! You know I always just wanted you to be happy so I hope you are right now, though it’s not with me! I have to go now, bye!

Love you always xx

[cherrythot-s]

It’s Monday. Feeling pretty meh. I hate that I literally need to be constantly distracted like it’s so hard to j sit by myself in silence rn. I kept so busy this weekend but I’m so tired now. I wish I had gotten to j do nothing but I’m also glad I didn’t bc I think I would’ve just been sad.

— I had to stop bc I was working lol and wow time rly is like weird. I feel better abt my day already. There are a lot of major changes coming. And it’s really fkn scary. But also very exciting. I’m trying so hard to like j take things as they come bc I struggle so hard with like wanting to feel in control. I’m doing a challenge thing which I’m rly excited about bc I’m really gonna make the effort to stick to my routine/priorities. I’m so determined to do it right bc I know I’m gonna feel so fucking good when it’s over. It’s gonna take a lot of discipline and like sacrifice but it’s what I really need to do rn. I met these two girls that are doing it as well and I’m excited to have people that are going through it w me so that we can hold each other accountable and support one another. I also made a new friend this weekend and she’s rly cool. We’re gonna hang out again on Friday and I’m gonna meet one of her friends too so yeah idk GOOD THINGS r coming. We all rly wanna travel and do more activities together and I’m really excited about it bc I feel like it’s something I’ve been missing from my life. I think I was j feeling really sad bc I miss my dogs and some other crappy things happened that are making me feel so shitty about myself and like I’m so alone but I’m not. The work year is almost over and idk if I’m gonna be working w the district in the summer BUT I’m gonna have my RBT training done by then andddd I will be able to find a job w an aba company so everything’s gonna be ok. And now I have new people in my life. And I have the challenge to look forward to. I will be busy. I will be getting better n stronger n I’ll have better habits and I’m not gonna fall back on things that are not good. That’s what I’m worried abt. /: but I need to just trust that things will be okay bc I’m putting in the work and I deserve good things!!! Yeah!! Ok!! I’m tired bye lol.