#okay I broke up the massive chunk of text into a lot of smaller chunks

[m4gp13]

thinking about Ethan spending years of his life waiting for his bargain with Nemesis to be fulfilled, training until he’s better than most able bodied swordsmen, searching for years for any trace of the army, finally finding them in the labyrinth and resigning himself to the fact that he’s gonna have to kill someone to join whether he wants to or not.

 Going into the arena, looking at Percy and thinking only one of them will leave with his life and knows he really wants that one to be him, if not for himself then for all the minor deities and their children who need him to tip the scales in their favour. 

Fighting harder than he ever has before, getting so tantalisingly close and losing because of his damned armour. Lying on his back with the dirt pressed up against it. 

Looking down his nose at the sword resting gently on his neck before following the length of the blade with his eye up to its owner, looking across to Anteus and Luke, feeling his stomach sink even deeper at the sight of that thumb.

 His mind going a thousand miles a second trying to fit his bargain in with this new reality, the one where he dies before doing anything significant for his cause. But that’s okay, he thinks, he doesn’t have to understand how the fates work, maybe he tips the scales with his death, yeah, that must be it. But then it wasn’t. Then Percy, stupid stupid Percy risked both their necks getting them out of their.

 And maybe Ethan did want to go with him, maybe he wanted to leave all this half-blood bullshit behind and bang his head until he got amnesia. But he couldn’t, he still had a deal to finish. Sorry I just have a lot of thoughts, okay?

[icaruskey]

As I’m coming into the crunch time, I’m having to figure out exactly how I’m going to figure out this whole final critique thing. 

I have five projects to have some level of “finished” by final critique. Two of them won’t actually be done anytime soon, and then unrelated I have a five page paper to write. But the projects, and details, and things I need to figure out, are under the cut because it’s a lot of talking to myself.

untitled lithography print: a 3 color print (because I always have to be extra, even with a smaller print). Edition of 5, starting printing in class Monday, so we’ll see how long it takes. 

depending on how this goes and how much time I’ve got free, I may use the scraps of photo litho plates to make a couple of little books. No idea what the subject matter would be. If I enjoy the lithography process, maybe I’ll test some pigeons? That’ll make sense in a minute 

dermatillomania book: my “sculptural” book. I need to purchase some brown ink to mix into the red and make it more like dried blood. I need to get through a small but decent chunk of it, maybe an entire section (there’s four)? But they’re pretty fat. 

this also needs a cover. I know the style of cover I’ll be making, but not the cover. Very possibly bare board since my bookbinding professor is extoling the virtues of bare board so much. I think that + white thread would be rather striking if I decorate the cover at all. no ideas yet. 

tentacle book: yeah this still needs a proper name. My main goals are to finish the base etchings (3 layers of tentacles on each side of my papers). I need to cut down another page of stonehenge because I fucked up a page. :’) But I think I can do nine layers a day. Just depends cause it takes me about an hour, hour and a half including clean up. 

Cover (yeah, there’s more). I need to make a mockup of my cover with the proper stuff I’m using (though I might use a thinner board just for my own sanity. I already broke a needle. 

Oh yes, there’s a lot to this one. I need orange, fluorescent orange thread for this. Dunno if I’m going to dye something from school or purchase it. Also, small beads to sew into the tentacles. 

oh I also need to work on the poem that’s going in. I can do that now cause I have the mockup text block. I can get that started at home at least.

Basically, I need to have a completed mockup yay.

kudzu prince: this is a two part project. The broadsides only need the text and car (”only” lol), and I’ve got...240 pages to print for my books. Yes, I’ve already gotten several layers done on half of that, but even a conservative six layers per page results in  over 1400 layers. Luckily for me, I am doing this on the vandercook, and I got through a nice amount of layers in six-ish hours. So I’ll do some math Saturday night to try and plot it out. 

untitled pulp painting: this is an edition of ten, and I’m trying to figure out if I want to do massive variations or not. Basically I’m creating an image and squishing it between two sheets of paper. It’s all paper and a piece of string. Trying to decide if I want to change the image or just where I’m placing the color. But this is the easiest cause I’m doing one image a day, and that’s it. 

Trying to think of what projects I’ve done and am willing to show off for final critique...

woodcut print

etching print 

(lithography print)

(dermatillomania book)*

first tentacle mockup (that I’m now using as a sketchbook)

(second tentacle mockup)

(kudzu prince broadside)

(kudzu prince book)

paper editions

(untitled pulp paintings)

(tentacle pages)*

*will be WIPs

That’s actually quite a bit of work considering this is all in four months. 15 weeks technically. Fuck, okay, no wonder I’m so tired.