#ok. thats my life update hehehe

[nicegaai]

i'm playlist anon (is this a good name for me. i haven't decided on what a good name would be for me yet)... okay i LOVED your response it brought me such giddy like you can't even imagine. i've been listening to your playlist too and it fits with them so much??? like my playlist is mostly "easy listening while reading" tbh but yours is way more character appropriate (which i guess makes sense because you're the writer). i added a new song to my playlist though. more swedish english-language indie.

anyways i think the thing i'm most curious about right now in terms of your past decisions: why did you switch timo from an only child to someone with siblings? in general, how would you characterize the sibling dynamics (other than sig and emil's, but you could talk about that as well ;]) in ThR? [i'm on my computer now. no more thorns.] another thing is: where do you actually characterize the story being? i'm personally imagining they're all diaspora in some sort of midwestern (north dakotan/minnesotan) suburb and cookie salad (which i've been told is the premier minnesotan salad) is at the periphery of being mentioned in the fic. but i want to hear your thoughts.

i saw u made an acct (second acct? burner acct?) and i can call u by that url if u want :3 playlist anon is also good! whatever u r comfortable with. pick an emoji if u like, for shorthand...

anyone making any kind of art based off of sm i made is like a dreammmmm im honored i inspired u!!!!!! thank u for TELLING ME that i did, that took some guts im sure and im really so so happy!!!!!!! i luv the easy vibe of it, ill absolutely be listening again to hear the updated version!

QUESTIONS I LOVE QUESTIONS. I HOPE U LIKE LONG ANSWERS! OK :

anyways i think the thing i'm most curious about right now in terms of your past decisions: why did you switch timo from an only child to someone with siblings?

i have a very long answer to this one bc i am a chronic overthinker

i wanted berwald to be an only child to a single mom for character reasons. i finally got into his head and i was like ohhh . it has to be this.

imagining timo as a little flamboyant gay boy with a supportive older sister makes me happy

i went down a wiki rabbit hole at some point about the sapmi people and i concluded that if she was related to anyone, it would be fin

i drafted a post canon one shot where ber's only-childness was a plot point and i think i worked backward from that revelation

in general, how would you characterize the sibling dynamics (other than sig and emil's, but you could talk about that as well ;]) in ThR [i'm on my computer now. no more thorns.]

HEHEHE. well... i think everyone else is normal.

mads has his two kid siblings and he is more than 10 yrs older than both of them ... the kind of age gap where hes closer to a third parent or uncle

timo grew up as a gay boy w an older sister. their sibling dynamic is normal if not uncommonly positive.

ber doesnt have siblings but he grew up surrounded by cousins so in a way they are his siblings. i think thats part of why the whole Thing is harder on him. plus the internalized homophobia and some other reasonable objections.

emil and sig are idk... very distant emotionally. they grew apart pretty dramatically once they stopped hanging out as kids and nothing was able to bridge that gap. until now! ... i havent thought much ab their precanon relationship much if im honest. im fixated on their unhealthy future codependency :)

another thing is: where do you actually characterize the story being? i'm personally imagining they're all diaspora in some sort of midwestern (north dakotan/minnesotan) suburb and cookie salad (which i've been told is the premier minnesotan salad) is at the periphery of being mentioned in the fic. but i want to hear your thoughts.

i feel called out omg... yeah, if this is set in the usa, it would be in north dakota. ive never been to the midwest in my life though and i dont know anything about how people live there so im not going to throw in anything culturally specific to the region. except for my largely midwest emo inspo playlists. lmao

the thing is i also in my heart want it to plausibly be set IN one of the nordic countries but choosing one is favoritism so its all vague on purpose. for instance whenever i said "football" = can be whatever sport comes to mind, both are valid interpretations. but i am american and americabrained so trying to make something culturally neutral really just defaults to Somewhereville, USA

tldr they live in some small town wherever u think would be funniest

sorry im kind of tired these answers mght be incomplete or rambly but i want to answer this ask so bad

[maiverie]

MAI 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻 I MISSED YOU SM BAE 💗🙏🏼

BUT ITS OK BC I FUCKING LOVED BITE BY BITE

SPOILERS AHEAD ‼️‼️

IK I ALWAYS SAY THIS BUT YOUR WRITING IS SO VARIED AND DIFFERENT EVERY SINGLE TIME WHICH MAKES YOUR WORKS SO READABLE ?? IF THATS A WORD WITHOUT GETTING BORED 😻🙌🏼

YOUR CHARACTERISATION OF HEESEUNG AND YN 🧎🏻‍♀️🧎🏻‍♀️🧎🏻‍♀️ LIKE THE WAY ITS JUST SIMPLE SENTENCES ABOUT THEIR APPEARANCES OR A FULL ON BACK STORY

IT. FUCKING. HITS. 😍🙏🏼

ITS THE SIMPLE DIALOGUES AND PHRASES THAT MAKE THE STORY FLOW SO SO WELL 🙌🏼

ALSO THE WAY YOU DESCRIBED HEESEUNG ???? 😃🔫 PLS KILL ME RN BECAUSE YOU DID NOT TALK ABOUT HIS FUCKING HOT UNDERCUT , I WANT TO THROW UP BC HE IS SO GOOD LOOKING, AND U MAKE HIM TEN TIMES HOTTER 🤓☝🏼

AND I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THE BAY BOY X KINDA SHY GIRL TROPE SO WHEN YN IS ALL FLUSTERED 😫 >>>>> ITS SO CUTE AND ITS THE START OF THEIR RELATIONSHIP WHICH MAKES IT BETTER

AND ITS REALLY COOL HOW HEESEUNG REMEMBERS HER BUT SHE DOESNT ???? 😺 AND ITS A REASON FOR FLIRTY HEE 🙇🏻‍♀️ LIKE IM DYING

SOME THINGS I REALLY FIND COOL IN THE STORY :

YN TAKING HAEMATOLOGY ??? LIKE VAMPIRE GIRL TALING A COURSE WHICH INCLUDES BLOOD 🤨 NGL I FEEL LIKE THEIR MOGHT BE A REASON BUT WE WILL SEE ☝🏼

THE PART ABOUT HOW HEESEUNG WILL DIE WITH BITE MARKS , LIKE ARE THEY FOR KILLING HIM OR ACTUALLY SAVING HIM ???? 😃😃

YN WANTING TO SAVE HEESEUNG FROM THE SPIKED DRINK 😍 MY GIRL HAS FALLEN IN LOVE AND ITS SO FUNNY THAT SHES OBLIVIOUS TO HEESEUNG ALR KNOWING HER BEFOREHAND

HONESTLY I WANT TO SAY WAYYYYY MORE BUT THIS ASK WILL BE TOO LONG ☹️ AND IM PRETTY SURE MY REBLOGS EXPLAINED MYSELF PRACTICALLY COMBUSTING WHEN I SAW THE UPDATE I THINK U SAW IT ?

BUT I REALLY ENJOY YOUR WRITING MAI AND IT MAKES MY DAY 💕💖💗💞💗💓💗💗 LIKE PLS

ALSO KINDA SAD THAT YOU SAID I WOULDNT LIKE IT , HOW COULD U 😡 /J

WAIT RI LOML WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS 😭😭😭😭 NAURRR IM GEN SOBBING AT THIS U R FR THE LIGHT OF MY LIFE 😭😭😭😭😭 MY VERY OWN MISS SUNSET ☹️💖💓💞

IM RLLY GLAD U NOTICED THAT I TRY SMTH DIFFERENT EVERY TIME ☹️☹️ like w open sesame i wanted smth super crack-y ,, then w triage smth more heartfelt and personal …. W BBB I WANT FUCKING CHAOS ‼️‼️‼️ HSJDJDKS NAH BUT FR IM RLLY GLAD U DONT MIND THAT IM TRYING DIFF STYLES AAA i would hate to be known for just one thing so ☹️💖

U LITERALLY FLATTER ME TOO MUCH AJDJFKSK AAA IM ACC SOBBING RN TYSM FOR ENJOYING THE WRITING 😭😭😭 I HAD SM FUN BRAINSTORMING THE BACKSTORIES FOR EACH OF MY CHARACTERS SO BE PREPARED FOR A LOT ‼️‼️ also you’re so real like fr shy girl x bad boy >>>> and flirty forward who dgaf abt consequences hee >>>

ALSO HSJDJDKS YEP THERES DEF A REASON WHY SHES STUDYING NURSING / HAEM ‼️ AND YEP HEESEUNGS DEATH CURSE IS DEF A MYSTERY JSJFJSK ICANT WAIT TO SHARE THE BACKSTORY BEHIND THAT 😭😭 AND FR SHE ALR TALKING ABT SAVING HIM AND HIM BEIGN GORGEOUS LIKE 🙄🙄 girlie i know who u r.

anyways NOOO DONT EVER BE WORRIED AB LONG ASKS SERIOUSLY TYSM LIKE SOSOSOSO MUCH for ur feedback and endless support fr u r gen one of my faves around here so i’m rlly happy u enjoyed BBB 😭🫶🫶🫶 vvvv honoured to receive feedback from a fellow writer too HEHEHE CANT WAIT FOR MORE OF UR WORKS?? I NEED TO BE FED PLS TYSM????

[seungminhos]

minho’s birthday isnt until october but i already have insp for his birthday set

[sukirichi]

HEY SUKI! im the 💳 anon fidkgskaia i actually sent ask a few times after i asked you about the gojo fic but i forgot to out the card emoji at the end LMAO BUT i hope you're doing great!

I just read dusk til dawn and i am hurt????? its depressing dijdhakahbaakia. BUT BUT BUT I ABSOLUTELY LOVEEEEEEEE HOW YOU WROTE Y/N???? i love female lead like that bcs i am that kind of woman and our wrath after being hurt constantly is just 🙏😇 pray for yourself lmao or should i say suna and iris should pray harder? Fidkkahaka

NO BECAUSE I WANT TO BEAT THEM SO BAD?????? its so annoying how iris had the audacity to say the crown prince wants her to be pregnant to like miss????? thats my husband??? you're so stupid wtf 😂

but the fact that iris had an inkling about how y/n might know about their forbidden relationship and suna deny it just shows that suna is just equally stupid as her fkifksbaoaokab irisuna = stupid dumb ass couple 😍

you certainly made a great job on writing this story(and your other story too) because the anger and sadness i felt when i read is just... 💀

I LOVE KITA SO MUCH 😭 i hope we get to see y/n interact with kita soon. and the smut scene between suna and iris before the wedding is so hot 💔 it breaks my heart bcs its not y/n but still you make them look hot.

but iris is not a royalty.. right? i mean princess maiko said that she is just someone who grew up in the castle but she isnt a royalty. hmmm

i like y/n and oikawa's interaction in chapter 5!! makes me happy that she is enjoying her hunt with him!! and the last scene 💀💀💀 its too early for iris to be dead lmao y/n is just playing 😍 so true queen

and i cant wait to see what will suna say to her odudmahsiska and i hope y/n just strikes some mean words back at him or something bcs the chat on his phone with iris is disgusting 😭 poor y/n

BUT i remember he said that he would absolutely would fall for y/n if iris wasnt in the picture.... and the fact that he doesnt mind about spending his life with y/n gives me hope... BUT y/n's happiness are much more important!

ok this is getting too ling i shall stop. i cant wait for the next update hehehe love you suki.

- 💳

anon, hello!!

and aww thank you so much, i’m happy to hear you enjoy dtd and love the YN! tbh, when i first pictured how dtd would go, i always imagined her as someone who was loving and kind but eventually had to turn insensitive and maybe even cruel but like there will be moments where you can tell that she’s still a good person yknow?

oh iris didn’t say that suna wanted to get her pregnant 👀 she’s married to kiyoomi, and to make it seem like they had a happy marriage, she was lying about how she and kiyoomi are “trying” and they want to have a kid so bad but also she was provoking YN 😭

also WHOA i made iris and suna look hot??? that’s a compliment thank you! and YEAH i can’t wait for kita and yn interactions too, they’re gonna be my favorite non biological siblings duo here <33 and yeah, princess iris is not royalty nor did she come from a noble family. she’s an itachiyama citizen by birth but became a refugee in inarizaki when she was a little girl, so she grew up more with inarizaki’s culture and customs. her background will remain a mystery for now, but it’s safe to assume iris is the most odd one out of everyone in the royal family.

I LOVE OIKAWA AND YN INTERACTIONS. oikawa finds entertainment in people’s misery and somehow makes any situation enjoyable for him, with the exception of his marriage because he’s always in a sour mood around maiko. and i agree, sending a dick pic to iris was horrible like it even made me feel soooo uncomfortable and disgusted 💀

and yes, yes! suna does like the idea of spending a lifetime with us. he genuinely enjoys our company and like us as a person, and if only he hadn’t met iris first, he would’ve fallen head over heels for us. suna can be saying some mean things but we’re actually his type 😌

i love you too, anon, thank you so much for reading dtd and taking the time to send me your thoughts about it! i appreciate it a lot <33

[icharchivist]

hello icha!! i finally got around to finishing the stranger haha,, by which i mean i just watched it today. was veryyyy excited for it as i really like the poster design for this one. anyways. this event starting w/ the sort of portrait format or whatever / that narration is like. god. threw me right back to autumn troupe. I kind of love that the storytelling format itself is so distinct for autumn! the moment I realized it was omi I started getting teary… like oh man oh man… omi…. And the connection with him taking photos! ahh!! now that I think about it… omi kind of seems a bit like early version tsumugi, huh? also I keep forgetting this man is a college student lol. suspension of disbelief I suppose. onto the play i think like. mankai should invest in a fainting courch for tsuzuru. i also went to watch the play and 1) im betting yuki had a hell of a time costume design wise like the vines on the body? such fun costuming wise and 2) the ethical implications of whatever this play has,,, fun fun. tsuzuru was clearly having some kind of thoughts. i love zeros design and am always up for a3 characters crossdressing bc 1) i think its fun and 2) the costume design. i also dearly wish this whole thing was animated bc I feel like it’d be o fun to see taichi act as zero. or at least I hope this event gets full voiced one day... moving on to the scene where omi adds soy sauce to the paella I know it’s just like haha homare funny so lets five him a lil bit but like everyone in autumn troupe making their comments on the paella and like homare just jumping in. homare autumn troupe besties. just thinking. also the way they just r like. no no no omi it’s fine if u made a mistake!! it’s ok! we like it (you) anyways <3 it’s got it’s own special taste. something something omi’s perfectly pleasant as he is now but even if he weren’t on his a-game and was dealing with all of the biker gang stuff they would love him just as hard. another thing that got me was omi telling banri that he’ll give him something sweet so juza will stop grinding his teeth in his sleep… guys… guys you’ll give him cavities…. mb omi is a college student after all lol.

anyways when i saw the actual costumes. appreciative of them, i like the lil circuit-esque detailing on banri’s outfit, and that sakyo and taichi (nine and zero) both share that like collar detail? its very symbolic and probably also literal but its a nice way to sort of signify their relation to each other visually! also sakyo just looks nice. seeing him without glasses is so great. whoever thought up the like two mole detail for him was doing gods work.

something that confused me was ryo mistaking juza for nachi for a split second? like. does juza… look similar to nachi? or was it just that ryo only heard juzas voice and made that mistake. if it’s appearance wise too. kumon nachi confirmed. I’m joking lol bc I feel like I would’ve heard at least something abt it in one of the like small conversation comments, plus that doesnt seem like itd fit summer troupes style and kumon is for sure the wrong age… but still.

i really like how for this event, the roles for taichi and omi were kinda reversed. and taichis just so like. idk. smiley. rly lifts ur spirits. its kind of nice how this event contrasts to that cg where taichi is crying on omi. I also think like. idk. considering the story of the stranger. wolf gives zero a sense of purpose and life and I think that zero helps wolf lose his apathy. it’s about “the stranger” and the ending makes him like… not a stranger, right? because he’s got a companion. in the same way, taichi brings omi out of his emotional isolation. the picture taking! also the stickers coming back… thats such a good setup! the found family of it all!!

when he was trying to work out zeros character as soon as taichi mentioned a sharp speaking style I KNEW it was Yuki… yuki would never be as honest as zero is though lol… to me i imagine she’s got a sort of juza internal monologue feel? anyways. the taichi yuki dynamic intrigues me. havent yet decided how I feel abt it but when I do… yes. sorry that I make literally no sense. I think it’s very obvious that yuki is my fav chara kind of? I’m just. hmmm it makes me think! I’ve been monologuing to myself abt the yuki and juza dynamic lately which, to my a3 knowledge so far, doesn’t exist, but its ok bc I’ll make it exist! uhhh anyways this event was very good i liked the pacing. i think it didnt drag too hard and it really properly honed in on just omi and taichi, which was quite nice. they really did a lot for just an event!

time to listen to the event song,,, ok so. ah. i rly enjoyed just for myself it was very much to my taste so. out of curiousity i was like ok lemme look up the composer / producer AND IT WAS YUYOYUPPE....... that guy is like!!!! one of my FAV producers ever!!!!!! i know him from like. his vocaloid days and god leia is still one of my fav songs to this day...! this knowledge gives me so much joy omg!!! like wow!! wowwww!!! like i knew yuyoyuppe was out there doing other stuff (i know he worked on a lot of babymetal music which is cool) but like idk. to suddenly encounter it like this. heheh.... its so nice! made me soooo happy. going to relisten to leia now haha

WAIT ONE MORE THING. i was like "haha let me look at other songs i remember liking a lot" which. for me was rakuen oasis and don't cry. anyways. rakuen oasis is ALSO by yuyoyuppe???? oh my god!!! oh my god... sigh. feel like im in heaven.

OH HI FRIEND!! so good to see you with an a3 update!! :D

godd yeah The Stranger started so strongly and the idea to still incorporate portraits in his story was really something to make us cry!

And linking Omi and Tsumugi like this is pretty interesting :O <hat is your reasoning exactly? :O

For the fainting couch for Tsuzuru LMAO and i'm letting you know there's a webcomics that addresses it in Act 2 (hough there's no spoilers aside from the fact Chikage is here)

Im glad you liked the costume and the play!!! yeah i love the designs and it is always a blast to see them this into it, and yeaaah Tsuzuru has thoughts huh. It'll get voiced sooner than later hopefully and there we'll see more in details :3c but also that's what made the seiyuu live so fun bc they perform the songs in play cosplay and replay a bit of the play everytime and it's *chief kiss*

HOMARE AUTUMN TROUPE SOLIDARITY YES. LOVING IT.

And yeah the scene itself was so cute TwT they all want to reassure Omi and be there for him it's so sweet :( but yeah i love how you say it all, Omiimi TwT

and dLKFJDFLKJFDFD Giving Juza cavities is the price to pay for sleep i guess??

yeah agreed on the costume they all look so cool! and nice catch on how those three seem linked like that with their costumes, Yuki (and the designers) does such a good job! and god yeah for Sakyo.. yeah. He has sucha good design dLKJFDF

aND DLKFJD yeah no Juza is supposed to look like Nachi physically, but mostly his face? like i think Nachi was had green hair? we see a sprite of him in a future story, and yeah, everything is in the eyebrows. so Kumon should be safe? Omi mentions he sees a lot of Nachi in Juza, and while it is mostly due to their passions i think, the fact they're also rough looking guy with a heart of gold must play a part as well. but yeah, he does look like Nachi a bit.

and i love your deeper analysis of the event yeah!!

I feel like Taichi is really an emotional core of the troupe in the sense that is, he tends to catch on what others are feelings easily. And he uses it in the early chapters to ease off the tensions and stuff, but he was being held back by knowing he was deceiving them. So now that he's more free, he can be more of himself. but yeah i also love the contrast with how Omi was the one to help Taichi through his breakdown and guilt, and now it's the other way around, it's Taichi helping him through it. and the parallelism between the play and their dynamic is spot on imo! well said!!

and god yeah the sticker things made me cry sO HARD, and the pictures! and everything!! sobs it's such a sweet found family i'm going to cry :(

And! i love what you say about Yuki, Taichi and Juza on this one. I love that Taichi keeps bringing it back to "that childhood friend" and it's always like. so obvious who it is for us rip. But it can make you wonder if Yuki was more honest as a kiddo when Taichi knew him, though now he's clearly not. I love the mention of how Zero is more like Juza's internal speech (which, if anything is another argument about why you should let Juza wear a dress, cOWARD)

but also your mention of the Yuki and Juza thing, while i can't think of them having a dynamic per se yet, but i actually wrote a post during my reread about how i was baffled at the fact they treated Muku the same way?? like both of them tried to push Muku away because they were scared of how people would react if they say pure, sweet Muku was associated to them. And i find it fascinating because i guess those two are pretty aware of how the world see them, and it used to stop them from fully allowing them to be themselves.

I also find it relevant with the fact Yuki says in his personal song that while all of this way people judge him weight on him, he rather be himself, and "I want to love myself". Meanwhile we have Juza who's also aware of the way people judge him and it weight on him, and he wants to change himself from this person he hates, this self loathing - and in a way, he can grow in a way to be "someone" he may not hate, even on stage. I feel like those two have quite a bit in common in this way of being rejected by their peers in some sort of way.

I really want them to share some stuff at some point because there's really a groundwork on it all :(

But i'm really glad you liked that event!! agreed on the pacing and i do love what it brings to the characters! it really fleshes them out and have them move forward a little and it's pretty sweet.

AND OMG THAT'S SO COOL FOR THE SONG!! i'm so glad you liked it, but that's incredible it turned out to be from one of your fav producer!!! ahah sometimes life is like that where you end up finding the stuff you loved back into new stuff! and the fact Rakuen Oasis was from him as well... that's so cool!!! just, so so cool!

im pretty sure he has more songs going forward so i hope you'll enjoy the ride even more!!

thank you once again for sharing your thoughts about a3 :3c it always makes me so happy to see them!!!

Thank youu <3 have a good day :3c

[bozowrites]

LIFE UPDATE:

I GOT GLASSES 💪💪 I CAN SEE BETTER POG.

also ‼️love‼️ is scary like i don’t like saying “ily” or smth like that without being/adding /p LIKE?/?:&;& IT FEELS ODD MAN LIKE I DONT WANBA SAY ILY IN A ROMANTIC WAY ??? BUT THEN I ALSO WANNA SAY ILY IN A ROMANTIC WAY LOVE IS SO CONFUSING IM GONNA CRY.

abtwyas i made a spotify playlist do you want the link heheh (also my user is…very…odd?) so…. ahahahahahahahahahahaha…………..

abyways bozo i also came out as pan a week ago !! :D

OK I THINK THATS ALL TAKE CARE !! - 🍃

Eyyyy I used to have glasses :D

I am not much of a love person myself. People online platonically? Always. But irl people platonically or romantically? w h a t

I would love the link :D

Congrats!!! I'm so proud of you, welcome to the club 💗💛💙

[elizabeatrice]

The Simp, The Himbo, and The Bone Man (Chapter 65)

Let’s Talk About JSHK Manga #1

Warning: !!!Manga spoilers up to chapter 65!!! Duh.

Note: I don’t speak Japanese, and I’m using Nikko Scanlations’ translation of chapter 65. Props to them for translating so fast! There’s one mangacap from chapter 60 by Caim, and one from chapter 64 by Ropes of Fate. Ya know what, props to all JSHK fantranslators. Love y’all!

I’m proud of the title. Heheh.

Ok so I read chapter 65 and then proceeded to get thrown on board SS Confusion.

Before we begin I gotta say I’m loving the faces we got in chapter 65. Thanks, sensei.

I wasn’t really surprised that we didn’t get to see hananene or akaoi this chapter. I mean, sensei just impaled my boy and last chapter was angst fest all around so naturally they’re gonna jump to comedy/something lighter in this one because … well, it’s JSHK.

Let’s get chronological.

The. Colored. Art. Is. So. Fricking. Gorgeous.

I love the whole thing with Kou worrying about his friends. Baby boy why you so wholesome can I hug him pLeAsE!

Yokoo and Satou are super cool as well! My baby Yokoo you outshine the morning sun, my son. It’s nice seeing more of them, caring about Kou no less. Gaaahhh the friendship fluff

Apparently this arc is going to delve into the whole ‘friends not telling each other things’. Exhibit A: Akane, Nene, and Aoi. Exhibit B: Satou and Yokoo and Kou.

Heck the tagline of this month’s colored art is ‘no one knows the real me’. Interesting development. I love me some friendship drama.

Yep. I’m loving where this chapter is going. Kou is feeling useless yet again. His brother is away who knows where, Akane is still lovesick insane, and Tsuchigomori won’t tell him the future. Not to mention that Hanako and Nene are missing. Kid’s literally on his own.

Until-

Ey yo Mitsuba how’re ya doin’? It’s very nice to see him caring about Kou, especially after what happened last arc.

And then the simp showed up. I love him.

(By the way isn’t his Raitejou still sealed? How is he conjuring those lightnings? Maybe he was just hitting that apparition with it?)

Finally! Kou meets his broadcasting club trio equivalent, and Natsuhiko meets his toilet trio equivalent. This is something I didn’t know I needed. Thank you sensei.

Now Natsuhiko’s definitely got something up his sleeve, from the way he seemed to prevent Mitsuba from telling Kou who he is (and most importantly, who he’s affiliated with).

Hm … Tsukasa wants No. 6, eh? Ohhh boy.

Mitsuba falling asleep right away lmaoooo. Look at these dumbasses.

And I can’t believe Kou fell for those ‘heroic stories’. Poor Hanako, his two best friends are (lovable) easily-tricked idiots hahaha. I mean, Kou is such a pure soul, bless him and his dog ears and tail. Thank you, sensei. You’ve fed us well.

Then … Bone Man. I actually call him Goat Man, but let’s just stick with Aoi’s lovely nickname (his name is Shinigami-san thoooo).

Interesting development. He be OP af man. The guy literally controls both life and death. Do NOT let that >60 year-old psycho child gets him.

I know it kinda seems like, oh, there’s the glaringly obvious answer to Nene’s lifespan problem. But as we know, there are prices to magic, and Bone Man doesn’t seem like the kind of guy to break the rules. I mean the dude wants to close off boundaries to keep the two shores completely separate, and is willing to sacrifice a girl to do it.

Yeeaaahhh … he’s a bit lawful evil imo, but we still don’t really know him yet, so. Eh.

Then Bone Man dropped this month’s bomb.

Did Nene, Akane, and Aoi just die? What freaking else can you call ‘body decaying, leaving the soul behind’ other than dying?

Not to mention not one (1) kannagi fell into the whole. TWO (2) kannagi fell into the whole, along with a dead boy and a soon-to-be-dead boy. Will that change the equation?

Speaking of dying, remember what Aoi said about No. 6? People who are about to die soon can hear No. 6′s flute? And Nene heard it?

Is this what ‘going to die in less than a year’ means for Nene? Thrown into a hole deep enough to the point of no return, a hole full of giant creepy bugs, her body decaying and leaving her soul behind, and thrown there by her own best friend no less?

This, this is wild.

But Hanako said in Misaki Stairs arc that nothing lives and nothing dies in the boundary. Is this an exception? Does the hole lead to a place outside the boundary? Is it a gate to the far shore (y’know, since there’s no returning from death unless No. 6 intervenes)?

And apparently Aoi falling there was ‘according to plan’? Hm … Aoi didn’t seem to know that the last time we saw her. She didn’t want Akane to drag her with him, remember? She could be lying, I guess. But Akane, Nene, and Hanako didn’t need to be sacrificed too. Maybe she was brainwashed not to care?

See, SS Confusion.

I know we all miss our monthly hananene, but be patient my friends! Sensei are working hard, and, well, this sort of thing comes with the whole monthly update format.

(Guys. Guys. Daydream arc is about 20 chapters long. Thats one year and eight months. It almost took two years to finish that arc. And seeing that this arc is a lot more plot driven than Daydream - which is more character driven imo - I’m kinda scared. Heh.)

Anyway! I enjoyed this chapter and all the dumbasseries featuring Natsuhiko, Kou, and Mitsuba. Really lifts the mood in this condition, ya know?

Feel free to discuss with me if you want to!

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The Return- Part 10

Disclaimer: YALL IM SO SO SO SORRY.😭😭 I have been horrible and not updated this story for at least a month.😬 I can explain though... University has been kicking my ass and between that and my co-op placement at a law firm.😅 Ive had absolutely no time to do anything😩 BTW IVE MISSED YALL SO MUCH❤️And Ive read all your messages and asks. And yes my mental health is now better and y'all are so understanding and supportive 💕 honestly could not have asked for a better group of individuals☺️❤️

Part 1 part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Part 7 part 8 part 9 Part 11 

Anyways onto the storyyyyy.....

Warnings: ANGSTY AF (kinda figured out that im probably a smut and angst writer at this point🤷🏽‍♀️), sucky ass grammar and spelling like always, my cliche imagination and the fact that Im probably a horrible human being😬😩 Also made it extra long cuz I felt baddd 

PLEASE DONT KILL ME FOR THIS ONE😬

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Sorry if I missed any of you💕 Lemme know if you want to be tagged. Also requests are open, and I’ve got a ton of them to do and finish. Hopefully Ill be able to post them soon enough

Arthur’s POV

“Arthur please! Open the door my love, I know what it may seem like to you, but I assure you that its not.” (Y/n) pleaded from the other side. I sat down on the mattress in our chamber contemplating whether or not it was true. Should I believe what my wife so desperately is trying to reassure me off. Or should I stick with my gut feeling and tell her how I have felt for the last 4 years. Her constant pounding on the door finally gets to me and I make my way to open it. “I wish to be left alone at the moment (y/n).” Her arms circle around my waist and I can feel her face wetting by back with tears. “Arthur please, talk to me. Why have you run off. You know that I love you. I do not want him, all he does is bring me pain and you take that away. So please, talk to me!” (y/n) murmurs into my back. As much as it pains me to do so I pry her hands off of me and sit us down on the bed. All I do is long for her touch, but this is not okay. I cannot keep feeling this way and go on pretending that I could have ever stood a chance against him. “(y/n), look at me. I love you and I always will. But its evident that you love him. and I honestly can say that I know I will never stand a chance against him, because the thought of you possibly running back to him has always been on my mind since the day we got married.” 

Her eyes showed so much pain that confessing this felt as if I was driving a knife through her heart. “Arthur, I love you. What can I do to show you that. Yes I confess that I was in love with him, but that was long ago and I have left it in the past in order to build a future with you. Whom I love and who I share and will continue to share beautiful children with. So please don't shut me out, Arthur.” She says leaning our foreheads together and holding my face in her gentle hands. “Ok, however I want to be able to process things by myself. So I have decided to have the guest room across the hall prepared only until I figure things out.” With out giving her a chance to fight back, I place my lips on hers and savour the kiss as if it were our last. Meeting her eyes was something I wanted to avoid as I knew that just looking at her broken expression would make me change my mind. I hastily make my way out of the room, but sneak a quick glance over my shoulder to find my wife staring off into the direction where I once sat. With tears streaming down her eyes...

Your POV

What had I done? Why was I such fool to not see what my husband was clearly going through? Millions of questions rushed into my mind about how to go about this situation. I loved Arthur, I was clear on that. But he spoke the truth, there was something in me that could not let Ivar go and it took hurting my husband and Ivar to figure that out. As I sulked I forgot about the doctor whom I had asked to see me earlier. I was having really bad stomach pains and my breasts were more tender then they had ever been. So I wanted to make sure that I was not sick, as that would have been the last thing I needed on my plate at the moment. “My Queen, are you alright? Do you wish to push back this appointment, I dont mind coming by later when you're better.” The doctor spoke from behind me. “Yes, it seems so. Ill let the servant girl know if I need you doctor. Im sorry for the inconvenience.” “Nonsense your majesty, it is my pleasure to serve you.” With a bow the doctor retreats from the room and Im left to my own thoughts once again...

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“(y/n), wake up... its seems that you fell asleep on the floor. Come on I’ll help you up.” Upon hearing Hvitty’s comforting voice my eyes flutter open and I cant help the tears that song come down my face like a cascade. “(y/n)! are you alright are you hurt anywhere? Why are you crying?” Hvitserk’s eyes scan my face and my body looking for the source of my pain, which is held in my heart, but he’ll never know that. “Arthur... He...” I try to find the words to say. “What! What did he do! Did he hurt you? I swear ill kill him!” With that Hvitserk tries to let me go and run out the door, but somehow I manage to stop him. “Hvitserk, No! He didn't hurt me. I hurt him... He believes that Im in love with Ivar, and I fear that their maybe some truth to it...” I say just above a whisper, with my head held low. “(Y/N), Ive known that since before you were married. It was obvious, but I would never say anything to you because I found that it was best if I kept such observations to myself, before I found out about your father.” Lifting my head and staring directly at him, I move my head to the side with a puzzling look. “What do you mean about my father, Hvitserk?” Hvitserk now mirrors the same lost look that I have on my face. “I thought thats why you and Ivar had gotten together, because Ragnar’s not your father...”

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Ivar’s POV

“Aghhhh!”Is the sound that comes out of my gritted teeth when the medicinal herbs are placed on my face. “That hurts like a bitch, get out! Ill do this myself if I have to. GO!” I yell at the servant girl who tried to cleanse and tend to the cuts on my face. “Ivar,  please let the servants tend to you. I still cannot believe that Arthur punched you in the face. Hehehe, you deserved it though, how could you question the paternity of his children and not expect him to want to kill you?” Bjorn laughs as he chugs the rest of his drink down. “Well, if you actually cared about your children and the heir to your throne, you’d also be quite upset to find a Christian King claiming to be their father. Those children are mine! And its pretty evident, just look at Marjorie. She's my spitting image.” I snarl at him as the anger begins to rise in me again. “Ivar, thats your mistake and why you’ll never get (y/n) back. You believe that everything should be yours. And that people are things you can govern over, but they're not. Because those are children. And yes they may be yours, but you cannot take away what they have known because you want to be selfish.” He says with a stern look on his face, whilst getting up from his chair and making his way to the door. “Now get ready and fix yourself we have a intimate dinner to attend to with MY sister and the love of your life.” Unbeknownst to us, there was Freydis on the balcony listening to our whole conversation. And little did I know that it would come to be the thing I regretted the most.

At the dinner I notice (y/n) sit on the opposite side of the table from Arthur. This wouldn't have affected me if it wasn't for the look on both of their faces. They seemed distraught and broken. Arthur masked it well, but (y/n) was an open book for all of us to know exactly how she felt at that moment. Not much talking happened, besides Marjorie and Erik shouting at each other on who was better at riding. They reminded me a lot of myself and all I wanted was to tell them the truth, that they were my children and that they would go back to Kattegat with me to learn about the true gods and not the fable that had been told to them about their so called ‘God’.” “(Y/n) are you alright, you do not seem quite like yourself tonight.” Bjorn states with a concerned look that we all share. Even Arthur looks a bit concerned, but his body language makes it seem as if he is alright and nothing is wrong. “Sarah, could you please put Marjorie and Erik to bed? Its getting late for them and they have their lessons early in the morning.” She says with a stern and cold look in her (e/c) eyes. “Su...sure your majesty. “ At that Bjorn stands up as if to accompany Sarah, but is quickly stopped by (y/n)’s icy glare and venomous words. “Sit your ass down.” At that we all look astonished, but Hvitserk only stares at her with sadness and what seems to be sympathy. He must know why she is like this then. 

Bjorn slowly sits back down on the table. A shocked look graces his face, as he cannot comprehend why she is acting this way towards her beloved older brother. “How long.” Is all she grits out through her teeth. “What do you mean, (y/n)?” My eyes meet Hvitserk’s own and the realization dawns upon me. She knows...

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Your POV

“Stop with the bullshit! I cannot take anyone else lying to me!” I scream as I bang my hands against the table, stunning everyone in sight. “How long did you know that Ragnar was not my father! How long have you kept the truth from me! How long have you known that Athelstan was my father!” I could careless about everyone staring at me as if I was a mad woman. I had been lied to my whole life. All I had known had been a lie, and the people who I trusted the most in this world had been the ones keeping it a secret from me. “(Y/N)... I..I’ve know since the moment you were born. But father had sworn me into secrecy and I could not break a promise. This doesn't change anything though. You are still my sister and you will always be.” Bjorn says in a haste as tries to come closer to me, but I step back and move as far back as I can. “Did you know? Tell me! Ivar did you know that we were not siblings!” Ivar didn't even have to answer. I knew from the look in his eyes that he too had been lying to me. 

“I knew.” Arthur says staring right at me. “I knew that you weren't his daughter and I knew that Ivar wasn't your brother. But I kept that information from you because all I wanted to do was have you by my side. I’m sorry, for the pain I have caused you (y/n). Im sorry for being selfish and not telling you the truth, but I now see that I was wrong and as of tomorrow you are free to go back to your country. I promise that your title and lands will not be taken from you or from the children. May they be mine or his. But I cannot go on with this facade anymore.” Arthur says in the most calm demeanour as he stands up and comes to me. “You hypocrite! How dare you make me feel like shit for harbouring feelings for Ivar when you knew all along and knew that my whole life was a lie.” I scream as I run at him and slap him across the face. But before I can get another punch in I feel a strong grip holding me from behind. From the shocks and the utter feeling in my stomach I knew it could have only been Ivar. As I try desperately to release from his vice grip, my whole world comes crashing down when Sarah enters the room. With blood all over her.

“Your highnesses...Erik.... he.. he..” She tries to say through her shock. “What! What is wrong with my son!” Ivar, Arthur and I scream at the same time. “He.. he’s dying!”

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We all simultaneously run after Sarah towards the doctors quarters. Ivar with his brace on, manages to run faster than all of us and busts the doors wide open. if I wasn't so worried about my son or upset about the fact they all knew Ragnar wasn't my father, I would've been impressed. “What are you doing! Get away from my son!” At that Ivar rushes towards the doctor who is bleeding Erik out. Grabbing him by the collar he slams the doctor on the wall and his sclera go into bluish hue, showing that he is in danger of breaking a bone. “Ivar stop it! Let the man go, he is just trying to help.” “Help my ass! I will not let you harm my son, do you understand me! I will not let you harm him!” At that Ivar lets the doctor go, but not without staring him down. And the doctor looking like he is about to shit himself. Rushing to Erik’s side I notice something strange. The colour of his skin is now fading and his eyes have bags under them. But what hits me the most is the memory of Uncle Rollo teaching me about poison. “He doesn't need to be bled, he needs medicine. He’s been poisoned...” 

“Mama! What is wrong with Erik! He will be okay right? He has to be okay!” Marjorie begins to say as she shakes with fear. Before Arthur or I could say something to console her, Ivar bends down and takes her hands in his. “Marjorie, listen to me. Your brother is a fighter and so are you. After all were related aren't we?” Ivar says as he lifts her chin. “Yes..I suppose that we are. Is it true what they say though? Are you our father?” At that Ivar turns to me looking towards me for permission. At this point I think to myself how hard it was to learn my whole life had been a lie and that I would not want that for my children, so I nod. “Yes, Marjorie I am your father. And no your mother is not my sister. It was something that we had to say because she needed to be kept safe.” He says ever so calmly. “Safe from who?”She questions “From my mother. Your grandmother.”

Cough*Cough* Spurts of blood cover me in seconds. My attention becomes focused in on my son again. “Where is the damn antidote! Please someone hurry!” At that Hvitserk runs into the room with a small green vial. “Here take this it should help him. Lagertha gave it to me before her and father left. Something about it would come in handy some day. Here.” Shoving the vial in my hands I open it quickly and lift Erik’s head. “Drink this Erik. It should help you, my darling. Please be strong, I know you're scared, but you’ll be alright ok. Everything will be ok.” I say through tears. Today had been the worst day by far. “Mira... please help my son. I know you're always with me, but please help me now. Pray for my son and ask God to save him.”

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A few hours had gone by and nobody had moved from the room. Arthur sat on the chair next to the bed with his elbows on his knees, looking straight and focused in on Erik. Bjorn and Hvitserk sat by the fireplace and were wetting some towels so that we could place them atop Eriks head. I sat on the bed next to my son and caressed his beautiful face hoping for a miracle. I had dismissed Sarah and told her to take Marjorie with her, but she would not budge. Sarah left, but Marjorie stayed and sat in Ivars lap asking him if Erik would pull through. Ivar was sweet to answer as best as he could, and I could tell that he truly cared for his children even if his demeanour wasn't the greatest. I knew that deep in my heart I would have to let him get to know them, but it still hurt especially knowing that he now was married. “Wait, where is Freydis? I haven't seen her since yesterday.” I say looking towards Ivar. “I dont know earthier to be honest, she's probably looking at some damn flowers anyway. Its best if she's far away anyway.” “Why would you say that about your wi-” “she's not my wife, at least not yet. Were not actually married, (y/n). I just said that to piss you off.” Taking a deep breath I go to stand up from the bed in order to fetch a bucket of water and some new cloths. Instead I end up on the floor cradling my belly, with a burning sensation in my chest and blood pouring out from my mouth. “(Y/n)! Mama!” I can hear the shouts around me. “Fetch the doctor! Now hurry!” The voices around me begin to fade and not before long I can feel myself drifting away.

“My baby... Save my baby...” And with that everything turns pitch black...

[boywaitingonapaperthrone]

Hi luv :))

Im doing alright. Im typing this right now from my phone hehe. We're finally moving for real by monday morning, and all our clothes are over there already. My days are just the same recently, wake up, cook breakfast some days, and start packing haha. Then I just rest in the evening.

Thanks for telling me about your sched :)) If you want, you can upload it sa drive and I can make a schedule for you hahaha.

Im praying for you everyday, and now that you specified your everyday problems in work, I know now what I have to add in my prayers starting tomorrow, so thanks for that :)) Keep at it, and keep climbing :))

I pray you too, and I miss you too.

See you soon luv :))

PS. Im still at it sa post its hehehe. I miss some days, but I try to make up for it naman. And, I know that sometimes we wont be happy, or ok, and thats ok. Thank you for your life updates :)) Lets keep climbing together :)) Mhmmm!!

[wordsofword]

Life update as bein coass

Helloo worldddd

welcome back to my tumblr wkwkwk

u know, I’m actually still visiting my tumblr page approximately once a month but never posting anymore becoz apparently I lost lots of my vocabularies and I feels like I no longer speak or write fluently in english again huhu

Yowman my life is upgrading and evolving way too much and still can’t believe I’m steppin on clinical year. Been roughtly 10 months as a slave. Kidding.

Coass life is pretty nerve racking, soul jerking, and ultimately frightening. As now I’m on neurology department, I feel under pressure because the consultant is so brainy but also so mean. They become so harsh and able to roast you in front of your patient if you did wrong in the examination or if u can’t answer correctly of their “super” question. So here’s my everyday life as coass:

The schedule on minor rotation is designed to be on ‘on-off’ pattern. So, if today you are in charge then tomorrow is your time to relax and enjoy your holiday. (ha? really? it’s not that hard, why do you grumbling a lot???) hehe yeah, thinking that we still have a day off after being roasted or burned alive is considered as blessing but yeah heartache is still heartache no matter how long you take a break. Oh also we are not really free when we are on ‘day off’, we still have zoom schedule sometimes.

So what we actually do if it’s the day we are in charge? It’s depend on what duty you are on, you can be in outpatient or inpatient room or in bahasa we say “dinas poli” or “jaga ruangan”. 

If we are in charge on outpatient room, we go on hospital at 7.00 am and begin to do examination and (guessing) diagnosis and therapy as we can before the consultant came. After the consultant came, we direct the patient and show (explaining what we got on examination) to the consultant. The consultant then re examine the patient (if she isn’t believe or doubt you haha) and give the therapy to the patient. In this time beware of many question that will bombard you, just like “How is the motoric of this patient? are the propioseptic normal? If she complain numbness till toes where is the possible segment of medspin that injured? etc etc depend of the patient’s clinical symptom). It goes on until the last patient. Then if we are lucky enough we can get discussion session of rare case or interesting case from the patient. The outpatient department is close on 13.00 and we can go home.

Contrary to the vibes of outpatient duty that still less frightening, being in charge on inpatient room is more scary and terrifying. You must arrive at hospital at 4.00 am or earlier because you need to report the patient to the consultant before 7.00 am. Not only reporting the patient, your task is also follow up (examine) the progression of the patient. Then after all the neuro patient followed up, you wait for the consultant to arrive approximately at 9.00 am and that’s the time to do “visite” together with your luvly consultant. Don’t forget we need to ‘show’(explain) the patient we followed to the consultant. So it’s like we describing the identity, chief complain, etc etc as like “Here’s doctor Mrs. X 50 y.o with hemorrhagic stroke onset day 4, today the patient has no complaint, the patient still have hemiparese dextra with muscle strength 4455, the patient have received nicardipine pump ....,...”. Even if the consultant ignore you, you still need to show up your patient. This term when I was in surgery rotation is called “being a bird” wkwkwk keep chattering even the doctor ignore you. OK thats it. Ah I forget, still, beware to be showered by questions or if you are not lucky enough the consultant can shower you with lots of “you are dumb and ignorance!” haha

Well, ciao...i will update more about coass life if I’m not lazy.

Dont forget to stay in line with our motto “What dosesn’t kill you make you stronger” and “Tetap hidup meskipun agak ruwet” hehehe

Byeee all~~

[justmeinstead]

Sun, 6 May

hey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!after so long for not updating my profile for tumblr theres alot to talk about tho. I just dk where to start with really heheh, well i just gonna go with the flow tho. Usually i update it thru my phone but i find it smh difficult cause need to type and it gets irritating at times, right now im at work and my office comp is able to access to tmblr so is much easier to type with the keyboard. Especially when you know you have content to talk about. Before we start where we left which idk whr, i would like to say tht is been 1year alrd for me and my ummi. See the girl in my DP pic shes been the best tht ever hppn in my life, nothing cn take her away from me plus we hve our princess tht will always hold us tight tgtr and both of us will do our best to guide her and raise her well. One more thing have fun reading ummi. ILOVEYOU IT HAS BEEN AND IT WILL ALWAYS BE.

Lets Begin;

So whr did i stop after so long??? hmmm guess what fgt about it is alrd 2018 a brand new year and is alrd May guys Ramadhan also around the corner...if we were to flashbck for 2018 hmm smh theres kinda alot tht had hppn alrd..lets lay it out shall we, i will list down the importants of it only ok? Lets go...

1) Savings plan for our marriage is a lil bit bumpy as we just used it up for our trip to bangkok. No doubt we hve alrd plan to pick up our savings. 

2) 1st year anniversary falls on 11/04/2018 and on the 21/03/2018 is also our 1st year of knowing each other. For this story of our anniversary i will try to keep it nice and short to read. It has been a bumpy ride for our r/s knowing is been alrd 1 year were tgtr so blessed and thanks to him above who plan our path to meet each other. Ofcrs the mainstream part of anniversary is the exchnge gift, im actually speechless when i recieve mine,you guys wont believe the creativeness in her to do wht she did is just beyond wow! heheh let me tell about wht she did, she did a flipbook with just papers and each pages has it owns unique style of animations is all DIY evry piece of details and attention she did is done perfectly. For hers i buy is all a last min item heheh wht i bought is a laptop bag and a notebook, knowing she loves to write and her diary she needs a new one plus is green her fav colour but guess wht shes smh now hooked with the colour blue which my fav colour ^^ is true laa how come shes not into blue evry time when we go out as family cnfrm whr blue most of the time heheh. Wtv it is alhamdulillah we manage to pull thru wtv tht we face tgtr the ups and down. Now all we need to do is to be strict in our savings and wait for the big day inshaallah amin.

3) Bangkok Trip

For this trip is a 4d3n trip for us we were so excited for it and at the same is sad. why sad? is bcs we cant bring along our princess along as distance away w/o her is sucks. Nvr the less we keep our heads up and proceed, so how the day when from day 1 till were bck in sg? Let me see if im able to cut evrtyg short and squeeze all the stories tgtr or nah..wish me luck heheh..[ 28/04/18 1st day; ummi hve to work from 7am -2pm, while i was still sleeping. So i fetch her from work and first thing we proceed to clementi mall and chnge some amount of money once we did tht we straight proceed to changi as our flight is at 1800hr. Fast fwd, we rch changi airport take our boarding pass and we go find food, keep searching we decide to eat McDonald. Continue story once landed ^^ We reach Bkk alrd heheh thts a very fast forward from mkn to land at Bkk, once rch we got to freaking walk 500m just to rch the arrival hall..rch the arrival, chop passport,all done we go and get our simcard as internet access is major must since we are on our own, get simcard done.Next we get into line for a cab and guess what once we get a cab it cost us about 500 Thai Baht whr my friend says you can get at about below 300 baht..well anw we manage to rch the hotel and settle btw we stay in Bangkok City Hotel.] [29/04/18 2nd day; Theres a lot for 2nd day as we were out from noon till night and most of it we do is shop and walk nothing much just exploring the city tgtr. Food wasnt so difficult for us as our hotel is near to a mosque and therefore theres Halal food, we had lunch in one of the shop near the mosque.. All we had was just one plain rice with 2 omelletes thts for ummi and i had rice with beef and basils, not only is cheap is freaking delicious and the serving were just right and is just a good meal to have. Well actually nothing much to say for this day..main thing is walk around and shopping thats all guys.][30/04/2018 3rd day; for this day also we didnt do much just go out shop and we when to the night market which open at 5pm onwards. End the night early get bck to our hotel pack our stuff get ready for heading bck on the next day.][01/05/2018 4th day; woke up, freshen up, get ready say one last goodbye to the hotel and chckout. We tot we cn get a cheaper price ride to the airport infact is the same price as we took when we first landed. well anw we still got money left so we just pay for it jelh.] 

So guys thats the update from eversince we last posted anytg and to my ummi happy reading to this post..Till more to come Inshaallah Amin!.ILOVEYOU UMMI IT HAS BEEN AND IT WILL ALWAYS BE, IMISSYOU SO MUCH UMMI. Blessed to have you and kakak thanks to him.

-Justmeinstead ^^

[maiverie]

is ok girly I'm here to send asks fy😤

1) Who is your favorite character to write for and is this the character you find easiest to write for?

14) What is something you wrote in a fic that you are hoping readers picked up on but you don't know if they did? And/or, what is something that you were excited that readers did pick up on? do it on triage and open sesame only —I HAVENT READ THE OTHER ONES SUE ME BITCH

hehe anyways love u bye let's play league again LMFAODNDJQBAHHA

HEY WTF MIRAI MY BESTEST SLAYERRR 😳 TYSM FOR SENDING IN QS WTH LEMME SEND U SOME TOO?? 😽😽😽

[1] who is your favourite character to write for and is this the character you find easiest to write for?

OK OUT OF THE CURRENT TUMBLR WORKS I HAVE OUT…….. honestly open sesame’s yn was legit my fave to write for HAJFJSJSKSSHDK THAT BITCH WAS GENUINELY CRAZY 😭 like fr all i had to do was think to myself “ok how do i make her sound like the most disgusting simp in the world” and ez fic completed ✅ HAHSHA BUT TBH triage!hee is really fun to write too bc he’s saur smol and soft 😭 open sesame’s yn probably wasn’t the easiest to write but she was really really fun bc tbh i laughed at my own jokes 😁 the easiest to write is defs triage!yn bc she’s quite stoic and calm and i feel like it’s quite easy w all her dialogue since i have a v clear picture of her??? 😳😳😳

[14] what is something you wrote in a fic that you are hoping readers picked up on but you don't know if they did? and/or, what is something that you were excited that readers did pick up on?

OH EM GEEE SJDKDJJD OUT OF MY HEE FICS (bitch imma sue u anyway ? 🤨) HMMM I WAS DEFS RLLY RLLY excited to see if people thought open sesame!hee and sarang actually had sex?? like i was hoping they picked up on a few clues i dropped that they DIDNT do the squeaky squeaky and that it was just a massage (the tools part; “i’m working right now”; “oh come on, you said you’d be free for the full hour!”)

BUTTTT MY LINES IN TRIAGE are actually the things i’m anticipating the most since literally nobody has rlly commented on it??? 😓😓 mostly this one line “while you’ve only spoken to him once in your entire life, he had been the one to accidentally walk in on you spilling your greatest secret a year ago. and for that reason, you think a part of you resents him just a little bit” bc i was tryna hint that they have some kinda history-ish but idk if anyone noticed ;-; also the fact that yn is a chronic liar (mostly hinted in chap 1,2) and does it very very easily; that taehyun asked heeseung to do a drug urine test for him in chap 1 and we don’t rlly know what happened since then 😳😳 HAJDJS BUT THATS IT RLLY ??? HEHEHE i was hoping people would kind of think about these things and guess how the plot will go but it’s kinda hard when my updates are like two months apart 😭😭😭

ANYWAY BESTIEEEE PLEAEE ANSWER BOTH THESE QUESTIONS BC IM SO CURIOUS AB UR ANSWERS??? THANKS FOR SELECTING SUCH SEXY QUESTIONS AND YES PLS CARRY ME IN LEAGUE AGAIN 🧎‍♀️🧎‍♀️🧎‍♀️🧎‍♀️🧎‍♀️

send in a question I BEG

[dirgahayoemerdeka]

Good bye Instagram

Setelah semingguan lebih meng-uninstal app instagram di hp, finally hari ini saya juga sudah menghapus akun. Berarti sudah benar-benar terputus dengan dunia per-instagram-an. Wkwk.

Kalo ditanya gimana perasaannya? Jujur, awalnya itu sulit. Setelah meng-uninstal app, saya biasanya masih membuka aplikasi lewat web. Sekedar mengecek apakah ada notifikasi. Syukurnya kalau kita buka instagram melalui web, igstory tidak muncul. Which is good for me karena lihat2 igstory orang itu sudah menjadi rutinitas buruk saya setiap main instagram.

Mungkin keputusan meninggalkan dan ‘melepaskan’ instagram ini menjadi pertanyaan besar dari sebagian orang yang kenal sama saya. Mendengar seorang Hafni menghapus instagram itu sama halnya dengan melihat anak bayi yang melepaskan botol susunya ketika isi botol masih penuh dan si bayi dalam keadaan haus dan lapar. Instagram itu app numero uno di hape saya. Sekalinya buka hp pas paket data aktif atau dapet wifi, app pertama yang saya buka, yaa instagram. Sekedar melihat beranda, cek notif, stalking ig orang, putar2 igstory. Macem2lah pokoknya. Apalagi kalo habis upload foto, beuhh.. tiap menit dicek. Sudah berapa likenya, siapa2 yang like, ada yang komen nggak. PARAH!

Kenapa hapus Instagram? Jawabannya panjang~ kali lebar kali tinggi. Hehe. Jawabannya mungkin karena ikut-ikutan. Ada teman yang bikin tulisan di tumblr, betapa hidupnya jadi lebih positif ketika meninggalkan instagram. Pikir saya kenapa tidak dicoba. Kayaknya bagus. Hehe. Mungkin orang2 melihat, saya masih ‘berhubungan baik’ dengan instagram karena masih biasa posting foto, hingga sampe ketika saya memposting foto terakhir, dengan caption “temporary off”. Jujur saya akui, awalnya saya cuma berencana me-nonaktifkan akun hingga Ramadhan usai, biar ibadahnya makin khusyuk. Maklum, instagram itu candu bagi saya. Tapi, kemudian setelah membaca tulisannya itu, saya pun memutuskan untuk 'putus’ selamanya dengan instagram tanpa banyak pikiran ini dan itu lagi. . .

Kalian para instagrammer sadar nggak sih kalau instagram sekarang itu sudah jadi tempat pamer? Semakin ke sini dan semenjak adanya igstory entah kenapa instagram itu menjadi sumber penyakit hati terbesar bagi saya (mungkin kalian juga. hehe) Lihat si A story lagi traveling ke sini, saya IRI. Lihat si B lagi story dapat kado sepatu pas ultah saya IRI. Lihat si C story lagi training karena keterima di perusahaan ketjeh saya IRI. Lihat si ini dan si itu story tentang kesehariannya itu entah kenapa membuat saya selalu IRI dan DENGKI. Ini tidak berlaku untuk yang story sama feedsnya biasa2 aja ya. Hehehe.

Mungkin orang2 berpikir kalau saya tidak bijak dalam menggunakan sosmed, yaa saya akui itu. Saya banyak menemukan teman yang main instagram seperlunya saja, upload foto jarang, bikin story jarang. Yaa, i give you thumbs up! Tapi, banyaaaaaaaaaaaak sekali juga orang di luar sana yang kasusnya sama dengan saya. Terutama yang emang suka banget sama fotografi, editing, art, dsb. Instagram itu ketjeh banget tauks. Buat orang2 seperti kita (yang emang suka fotografi). Tapi, yaaa tetep. I need to leave you. Instagram. For a better of my life.

Ngomong seperti ini kesannya semua hanya dilakukan oleh orang lain, semua karena orang lain. Oh, tidak sama sekali. Saya pun juga sadar sudah turut andil dan ikut2an biar terlihat keren di mata orang. Traveling ke mana, bikin story. Baca buku apa, bikin story, edit foto se-ketjeh mungkin trus upload (yang ini bukan biar keliatan keren, tapi sejak dari lama feeds saya itu emang harus rapi dan ketjeh. Bukan di mata orang lain, tapi di mata saya sendiri). Saya tidak sadar kalo apa yang saya tunjukkan itu ternyata bisa menjadi boomerang bagi saya melalui penyakit 'ain. Thats why, foto2 saya yang 300an itu dan rata2 foto jalan2 saya hapus satu persatu dan tersisa 51 ketika terakhir main instagram.

Jadiii, keputusan melepaskan hal yang saya sukai ini bukan demi siapa2 tapi, demi saya sendiri. Mungkin dengan tidak main instagram saya terlihat cupu, saya tidak update (kebanyakan update tentang kehidupan orang). Tapi, saya fine fine aja. Hobi saya bisa saya salurkan di media sosial lain, saya tidak terlalu kecanduan dengan hape lagi kecuali ada wifi which is saya bisa nonton youtube. Hehe. Saya tidak banyak iri dan dengki lagi karena selalu mengcompare kehidupan saya dengan kehidupan orang lain. Seakan hidup orang lain itu OKE dan kehidupan saya itu tidak OKE. Padahal kehidupan saya itu BAIK BAIK DAN OKE OKE SAJA. Dan yang paling penting dampaknya tidak main instagram itu so far, semuanya POSITIF.

So, keputusan untuk 'melepaskan’ ini, insya Allah saya ikhlas dan rela.

Kendari, 10 Ramadhan 1438H

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ACT OMEGA PART 10

THE 26/10/16 UPDATE

WOOOOOOO DOUBLE FUCKIN DIGITS YO. This is fantastic. So last time we left off, Dirk and Jake were gay and dumb. Now we are getting into the most anticipated interaction yet, Rosejade. Listen you people, you have no. idea how much I ship Rosejade. It ship it a l o t . . . Oh man it’s really cute. BUT Um YEAH LETS READ IT.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Jesus christ this is too cute. Jade is so fucking happy to see Rose aaaaa.

And Rose is just like “jesus jade dont knock me over”

ROSE: -Oof. JADE: nice to see you rose!!!

YES. YES it is.

Oh my god help its too cute. I love their droopy lil pajama sleeves, it really makes this so much better and im not sure why.

ROSE: (... Nice to see you too, Jade.) JADE: bark!

Goddammit. Ok its clear I have a problem here, Jade is too fucking cute.

Alright thank goodness, those cute detailed panels were a little too much for me. John’s creeping in the background, and Dave’s hanging out with Karkat. Jade doesn’t seem happy?

JADE: (oh my god im so sorry) JADE: (i cant believe i just did that!) JADE: (thats so embarrassing...)

Jade shut up it was cute.

ROSE: (No harm done.) ROSE: (It’s endearing, in a way.) ROSE: (Though perhaps the charm might simply be a patented Jade Harley trait.)

God, YES. Now Rose is complimenting her, and its probably in a platonic sense considering she has a girlfriend but JEEZ I ship it.

ok I hope my shipping of this doesn’t come off as annoying.

JADE: ..dawwww! :) ROSE: (But you might want to keep your voice down.) ROSE: (I’m not sure why it’s become so quiet, but I am perfectly willing to preserve this lull in activity.) ROSE: (Especially in order to sustain the pleasant conversation we’re currently having.)

Yes it is very pleasant. Very very.

JADE: oh ok! JADE: whoops JADE: (i mean) JADE: (ok) ROSE: (Now that our vocal chords have been successfully wrangled, we can get right into the thick of it.) ROSE: (It seemed like you had something to ask me when you approached.) JADE: (oh um yes i did!) JADE: (but im kind of unsure how to ask...) ROSE: (In moments like these, I think the best advice I can give is to say “fuck it”.) ROSE: (And do it anyway.) JADE: :o

great advice Rose. NOW Jade, what did you have to ask? It’s probably gonna be something extremely platonic and irrelevant to my ships, but you know what I can dream.

JADE: (well geez when you put it that way!) JADE: (heh...) ROSE: (Well?) JADE: (oh right yeah) JADE: (soooooo)

hrnK help

Oh. Right, it’s the Earth. So what did you need to ask then? What would Rose know about the Earth?

JADE: (i was wondering what you thought we should do about the earth!) JADE: (john said that taking care of it is supposed to be my responsibility) JADE: (and looking at it right now... isnt it a bit more uh) JADE: (watery, than it should be?)

Yeah, it is quite watery. this is the post-scratch earth I believe, so that would make sense. I think, at least. I never know with all this time shit.

ROSE: (It certainly looks that way. It's just another unfortunate consequence of the scratch.) ROSE: (Though I think it might be a slight improvement over the barren ball of basalt our earth became after that cataclysmic meteor shower.) ROSE: (We’ll just have to make do.) JADE: (so thats it then?) JADE: (we just) JADE: (give earth an orbit around a new star or something) JADE: (and find an island to live on?) ROSE: (That does seem a suitable course of action.) ROSE: (We might want to do something about all that ocean, though.) ROSE: (At the very least to make the planet somewhat more aesthetically pleasing. Sprinkle a few continents here and there, you know.) ROSE: (No offense, but one measly island will doubtless get boring after a while.) ROSE: (Let alone be capable of housing what will hopefully one day be a thriving multi-species civilization.)

Oh yeah, there’s gonna have to be a lot more land for all that LIFE. Do they have a way of making more land though? It’s probably not gonna be a problem, it’ll just be interesting to see how they do it I guess.

JADE: (hehehe!) JADE: (i guess youre right about that!) JADE: (although...) JADE: (i kind of wonder about all of our planets here in the medium) ROSE: (What about them?) JADE: (i went through all that trouble to bring them here, and now were just gonna leave them behind?) JADE: (why dont we bring them along?) JADE: (personally im a little attached! :P) ROSE: (Personally, I would rather not.) JADE: (aw) JADE: (well why?)

But Rooose, your land is so pretty! How would you just give that up?

ROSE: (They’re essentially just an overly grandiose and complicated puzzle designed for preteens, presented as personalized celestial bodies.) ROSE: (Some of them even have giant snakes inside them. Ew.) JADE: (pfffft)

pfffft. Those snakes were awesome. And even if they are just a puzzle, that doesn’t mean you can’t appreciate what they are aesthetically! I mean, come on Rose. You gotta stop resenting things for what they’re supposed to be! 

JADE: (wow rose i sure did miss you a whole lot)

8D

JADE: (you always have such a smart and funny way of putting things!) JADE: (but will the denizens really still be there if we take them with us?) ROSE: (It was a joke, Jade. One of the many that I dole out on a regular basis, as the shrewd yet whimsical person you say I am.) ROSE: (They’ll likely vanish once we exit the game for good, whether we bring them through to the new universe or not.) ROSE: (They’re game constructs. I can’t see them serving much purpose past the end credits, so to speak.)

Wellll, I don’t know about that! I mean, yeah, they are game constructs and all. But like all the consorts, I think it’s safe to say they’re sentient as well! Sooo... Hm. Why would Jade’s Denizen have wanted her to take them all in the first place? I mean, to save them from Jack I suppose, but what’s the point if they would die from the big “your winner” screen at the end anyways?

JADE: (oh... well that makes me wonder) JADE: (what about the sprites? theyre game constructs too right?) ROSE: (That is a decent point.)

That IS a decent point. I dont wanna lose Jasprose or Davepeta.

Also. Has anybody wondered if there could be a Jasprovepeta^3? Because THAT, would be pretty great.

ROSE: (The kernels, at the very least, are absolutely nothing more than game constructs. They are a core mechanic of the game in their relationship with the maturity of the battlefield and the power of the black and white monarchs, and they don’t even have consciousness.) ROSE: (The sprites, however... well.) ROSE: (I’m not sure.) ROSE: (It’s highly likely they’ll be able to continue existing indefinitely, all things considered.) ROSE: (Though ultimately, it’s up to them whether they’d like to take a stab at life beyond Sburb.)

Well I dont see why they wouldn’t! Aside from maybe Erisol.

Pfft

ROSE: (Hopefully at least ONE of them will remain here.) ROSE: (Far, far away.) ROSE: (Never to be seen again.) ROSE: (Or be mourned.) ROSE: (At all.) ROSE: (Ever.) JADE: (um???) ROSE: (Nevermind that.)

NO dammit, Jasprose cannot stay behind. She needs to continue to exist and be part of this story because she’s greAT! Though she did say she was no longer interested...

JADE: (okay well) JADE: (im still kind of unsure about all this...) ROSE: (We’ll figure it out, Jade. There’s really not much to worry over.) JADE: (well... what about uh) JADE: (repopulation?) ROSE: (Like I said. We’ll figure it out.) ROSE: (Some ectobiology will likely be involved.) ROSE: (Which we will all be able to discuss as a group when the time comes.) ROSE: (Rather than right this second.)

Something wrong Rose? You’re kinda seeming a little impatient.

JADE: (um...) JADE: (rose, im sorry, i dont mean to make you mad)

Oh, Jade noticed too

ROSE: (I’m not mad.) JADE: (you seem a little mad!) ROSE: (*sigh*)

Out with it, Rose. Tell us what’s going on in that brain of yours.

JADE: (i just really want make sure i do my job right) JADE: (im supposed to make sure we all have a proper place to live!!) ROSE: (You’ll do just fine, Jade. You’ve always done your best at every task you’ve tackled, and what small miracles you can accomplish with hardly any effort are a reflection of how truly capable you are. We all have faith in you.)

Oh jeez.. Is it just me, or is Rose kinda seeming resentful towards Jade’s achievements. I hope that’s not the case.

JADE: (thanks, but...) JADE: (is everything okay?) JADE: (you dont sound all that enthusiastic) JADE: (did i do something wrong?) ROSE: (No, no.) ROSE: (This is all me.)

Come on rooose, tell us

ROSE: (I missed you Jade, I really did. But seeing you again now brings back unpleasant memories.) JADE: (oh) JADE: (you mean like your mom...?) ROSE: (Less the incident itself and more the horrifically immature child I behaved like back then.) ROSE: (Never was my childishness more apparent than with how I treated you.) JADE: (what! what do you mean?)

Hmm... thinking back at it, Rose sort of did treat Jade as just this object of mystery. Dave was always suspicious of her too, but Rose was seemingly always trying to point out when Jade said something that didn’t add up.

ROSE: (I was never a very good friend to you, Jade.) ROSE: (There were, and perhaps still are, some things about you that made me feel...) ROSE: (Insecure.)

Hmmm again.. I could understand insecurities in the past, but now Rose is practically on the same level as Jade. Is it a personality thing? because that doesn’t seem likely.

ROSE: (And, well. I was very petty, and allowed myself to wallow in jealousy while shoehorning you into another of my many imagined rivalries.)

Oh, damn. I guess I should have suspected something like that, considering how competitive Rose really can be when it comes to just about anything.

JADE: (you were jealous?) JADE: (of me???) ROSE: (You were bubbly and cheerful. Genuinely likeable, unlike me. Legitimately smart, where I more often than not felt the need to pad my intellect with random facts I learned on the internet. You had a multitude of talents and seemed to be able to do almost anything with hardly any effort.) ROSE: (Not to mention, I was under the impression you could see the future.)

DammIT, this is a large part of the reason I wanted them to interact. there was so much misunderstanding between them before, and once Rose finally knew how Jade did the things she did, it just went.. unmentioned.

JADE: (oh yeah... ugh, i thought i was soooo smart :\) JADE: (just thinking about all those dumb vague hints i used to drop makes me cringe!!)

I mean, it’s not like you didn’t always do what was best for your friends. Come on! You gotta feel a little smug when you understand all of the complicated bullshit about sburb. Even though you didn’t, in the end. you still thought you did. Plus you were 13. Nowhere near as mature as you are now. Which I suppose can be said for everybody, really.

JADE: (i totally get it, rose. im really sorry!) ROSE: (Please, don’t be.) ROSE: (Without the haze of envy blotting my vision I can see you for the charming, likeable, caring girl you really are and always have been.)

AGh, dammit this is putting me back into shipping mode nO!

ROSE: (I’d like to think I’ve done at least SOME maturing over the last three years.) ROSE: (Now I’m the smug one with clairvoyance. My, how the tables have turned.) JADE: (welllll...) JADE: (you were always a LITTLE bit smug :P) ROSE: (Oh, only a little?) ROSE: (You flatterer.)

fuCKINg. KISS.

Ah, shit. thats the end of their interaction. NEXT UP, we goooot... Calliope and Jane! Sweet. And as it seems to be the pattern we are following, we get a sneak peek at their conversation in this update.

JANE: (Pssst!) JANE: (Callie!)

And that’s it. ALRiGHT, sNEAK PEEK OVER.

This was a really fun Rosejade conversation though. We got to learn more about how they felt about eachother in the past, and how those feelings have changed since. And not to mention, some plot details on the plans for the new Earth.

And since I still suck at ending these things, ten parts in, ill seeya next time. might be today again, whon knows. maybe ill go for 5 updates in one day.

[survivormarmoreal]

Episode #8: "The fajitas are truly guiding me" - Matt

OMG i made it to the merge. Im so happy but now let the game begin.

im so sad. dennis was such a king. and to be taken out by nick... like idek what to do with this merge. ppl i want to work with: nathan, maynor, brian, anna?, matt? idek if i wanna work with brian its just i like meeting new ppl NNN i wanna work with sharky too. but like nathan loves nick apparently. like... no ty!!! nicole... keaton? no ty! my preferred boot order is just keaton. nick. nicole. thats it idc!!! i dont wanna work with like og absolem tho bc theyre all tight without me but the other options arent good either EFKJDSAHKJ. i am waiting for redemption island twist pls and ty although my luck jaydne comes back NNn well these are initial thoughts woohoo

PHEWWWWWW I MADE MERGE BITCHES!!!!!! Honestly that tribal was so fucking cracked and all kicked off in 20 mins at the end with nick revealing he had an idol. and YEET i was so close to playing my idol as well. The fajitas are truly guiding me (even tho i am eating them tomorrow for lunch and I am very excited hehehe) Brian, myself and sharky are gonna align (tho not telling about the idol tho) so woooo lets go merge!

I hate my life. a forced self vote? no thanks. UGH TIME TO DIE!

WE FUCKING MERGED! And I got rid of Dennis. Which I do feel slightly bad about it but it was time to make a move. I playing loose this season and I'm going to see how far it takes me. I have alliances with Maynor, Brian, Nathan, Annabelle, Matt, Nick, and sort of Nicole so that puts me in a pretty good spot as long as I don't overplay and show my cards too soon. I've got to walk the line very carefully. And ngl careful is not my strong suit.

Ok now Let's rank my mergemates. 1) Brian- husband. 2) Matt- second husband. 3) Maynor- best man at my double wedding to Matt and Brian. 4) Annabelle- my fave underrated queen. 5) Nathan- I love him but check back in a few rounds ok. 6) Bryce- we barely talked but he loves Chi Chi Devayne so...I love him. 7) Nicole- ...every season needs a purple edit 8) Nick- cool kid but I'm sooo bitter about wanting him gone 3 tribals in a row 9) Keaton- who?

Well, merge is finally here and i get to reunite with Sharky. Which is great because he was my duo from the begining and now i have Keaton as my other duo.i also have Bryce as well. Nathan wants to work with keaton and I so thats good and i believe he’s tight with Annabelle so shell come along as well. Thats already 5 with me is 6. As long as none of them are targeted first vote and others are. Ill be sitting in a good spot. From here the first vote, i wouldnt mind voting out Nicole. Only one to yet to talk to me besides saying hi.

WEELLLLL!!! I merged, ladies (and lads)!  I cannot believe it, but I have made it!!  I think I know what my strong points are right now in my game and I just have to keep playing on them.  I'm a lot stronger socially now and I want that to continue going into the merge.  I have allies in every single little aspect of this game, and I want to ensure the people I'm not working with go first.  So less than half of these hoes better watch their backs!

Now that I've merged and have freedom with who I want to work with, I'm definitely going to try and solidify my quad-some with Sharky, Nathan, and Annabelle as a final 4 alliance and also make sure that my other final alliances (one with Bryce, who I just met up with, and then one with Matt) also are stronger than ever before.

I usually do like cast run-downs and... idk... I haven't yet in this game, but I guess I will now going into the merge!!

Annabelle - A queent!!  I absolutely love her and wish that a trio of Ariana stans (with Marie) could've gone through!!  I can't wait to strengthen my bond with her and for us to slay this game together! Bryce - I may have just met Bryce in game, but I've known him for a little bit!  We have never really had a full-on conversation, but we have talked in passing and in some League games.  I've talked to him for like... 30 minutes so far... and he's already a top person in this game for me.  Love him! Keaton - idk him, but he's already trash talked Marie to me... so .... bye ! Matt - I adore him... he's... an angel!  I see myself working with him for a long time in this game, and I have to hope he feels the same hehe... Maynor - eh!  I like him, but we don't.... click... so if he goes home... he goes home... :S... Nathan - LOVE HIM!  He's so funny and so nice and he says we have a final 2, but girl... if we get to final 2 together it's by sheer luck because I shoreeee as hell know he's going hard or going home.... and I'm not playing that same balls to the walls type of game! Nick - LOL OK??? Idols replace social play and gameplay ig!!! Nicole - I just wish she was more active because I'd love to really put all my trust in her, but I don't really ever talk to her! Sharky - ANGEELLLL!!! Das my game hubby... I adore him so much... I really thought I was going to go into this game wanting to fuck him up with a lawn mower, but here I am putting all my eggs into his basket and trusting him completely... I hope I'm making the right decision!  I know he's a big threat, but I just lahva him a lot! Ugh..

This challenge is very interesting. Im just hoping that I somehow get enough points to get the high amount. Immunity would be great. Still working out who i could work with and who i would target. I know for sure that im going to be with Keaton and Sharky. Still dont know about the others yet.

I do not want this immunity. There's like weird touchy subjects vibes. If I win it means a lot of people wanted me to get immunity so I'm well liked which will translate to "Threat". I told the jock destroyers to give me negative items. So hopefully if my other allies give me positive scores it will even out to a smooth 0 and I can stay relatively under the radar.

So I went idol hunting and I got closer than I had ever gotten before. I could just tell. So I gave Brian the info and told him where I went wrong. And he didn't find the idol but he DID find a steal a vote advantage! So Brian and I are getting a nice little tool belt around our waists. Now we just need to get all these people to do what we want.

Everyone is being really quiet. But thats okay because this gives Maynor and I a great opportunity to strategize. To my surprise he threw out Nicole's name! Which is great. It might be too soon to go for her because I've been talking Dinah strong for a few rounds now (even though I voted Dennis out). But it's still good to know that she's on his radar. Now the goal is just to set up a F5 alliance that Brian and I can ride to F6. Maynor and I still have The Scream Team alliance and I'm loyal to that. So if I can move forward with Maynor and Brian then I can just fill in the others as we go.

Okay SWIFT UPDATE. Maynor brought up Matt's name and I was basically like "Um...I don't want to do that" and then discovered that he doesn't think Nicole has his back at all. Which would undermine any Dinah strong stuff. And I'm not going to stick my neck out to save her over a vote on my side for a few more rounds. Especially if she might flip anyway. Hmm…

Now I'm getting a chance to talk game with Anna! This night is really picking up. Unfortunately she seems to have some animosity towards Matt. Why does everyone hate Matt? I think he's bloody awesome! Oh well. She also isn't a fan of Nicole or Keaton so I can direct her target that way for a few votes and for now we seem to be on the same page minus the Matt thing.

Sharky and I are still up at midnight. We came up with a tribal vote plan which is awesome. The target tonight is going to be Nicole. I feel like shes a threat and needs to go. Sharky and I created an ideal final 5 which is me, Sharky, Brian, Matt, amd Bryce. My side alliance is Keaton and Nathan. On the outs is Nick, Annabelle, and Nicole. We are saying that Keaton said Nicole’s name and that Nicole said Keaton’s name. But main targetbis Nicole. Hopefully this plan works and Nicole goes tonight.

Things are falling into place baby! So Maynor wants Nicole/Keaton/Matt out. He thinks he can get Bryce on board. Annabelle also wants Nicole/Keaton/Matt out. I know from The Jock Destroyers Alliance that she (and I) have Nathan's vote. Anna also says she wants to work with Bryce. And Bryce told her that he feels close to Maynor. (I'm realizing Bryce is a HUGE social threat and I'm not going to be able to keep him around for too long but for now he's a number on my side.) Now, both Maynor and Annabelle also love Brian. They both also know I can bring Nick to the table because Nick trusts me. So right now I perfectly situated in the middle of a 7 person voting block. Am I a mastermind?

CLASSIC ANNABELLE. I set up this whole majority situation and told her to choose Keaton or Nicole and we can make it happen. BUT SHE WON'T CHOOSE. I love her but she always does this. She's so about being quiet that she refuses to ever make a move. Last time we played together she said I was a bully and never asked her what she wanted. Now I'm trying to be a better ally and listen to her moves AND SHE WON'T MAKE ANY. So frustrating.

Having Keatons name out was good cuz now he wants to target Nicole because she is the other name thats been thrown out. My alliance of mkn is helping get the votes for Nicole which is great.

so the names thrown out are keaton or nicole and its looking like nicole is gonna go bc ppl think shes a better player bc she gets far in tumblr games which like i guess is tea but its just sad that meta has a factor :( esp when shes like irrel in this game noah fence KJFADSHKFJAS. and like maynor prob has f2 with keaton.. but idc i guess she ghosts me all the time so w/e. im just hoping next round we can get like someone whos actually a threat out.

I WON IMMUNITY which means I made single digits!  I'm so happy with myself... I didn't really do much to deserve it, but I'm so happy I won because it means I can be a little more ballsy this round with throwing out names and whatever!

I'm thinking of voting Keaton out as a sort of revenge for Marie, but Nicole's name is out there, too, and I just really want to make the right move to launch my game into the next round in an even better spot!  I feel like the top of the world right now, and I want to keep that high.  The immunity challenge showed that even though I think I'm a fucking mess, I'm doing well enough socially.

As for that, I want to quickly add in that I love all my allies so much.  Sharky just helped me find a vote steal power which will be so useful for the long run of this game, and I cannot wait to use it to hopefully slay.  Nathan and Annabelle are angels and are also really nice for me to bounce ideas off of.  Bryce is just amazing to talk to and I really see him in my longterm plan.  Matt's another person I see in my longterm plan.  Ideally, this is probably my top 6... and I've since grown closer to Nick and we are working together "for the sake of Sharky", but I think he's more-so a side piece for me in this game!

So....I’m pretty certain I’m leaving because nobody wants to talk of anything of substance with me. It’s hard because I know I deserve to go, I haven’t been in a place mentally to give everything I need to, to this game. But that doesn’t mean I want to leave. It’s just hard, Dennis was my number one ally and now that he is gone it’s gonna be hard to reform my trust and alliances with everyone. Oof. It’s alright. Hoping that someone can use me as a vote about now but, don’t think that’s a possibility.

So I am keeping VERY quiet about my disadvantage, as I don't want anyone to know about it and jump on a bandwagon to use it against me! Like no thanks I'll pass. It looks like it'll either be Keaton or Nicole, would much rather it be Anna but she's immune smh. As long as my name ain't mentioned I'll be Gucci I hope. REEEE

Now that everyone is awake it's time to put in some work to execute the plan Anna/Maynor/myself made last night. We need to get everyone on board with voting Nicole. But I also need to make sure Nicole feels safe just in case she has an idol. I'm going to talk to Matt and Nick. As long as they vote Nicole we should be solid. I'm also going to start an alliance chat with the OG Dinah members so that we can talk about strategy and make sure Nicole feels safe with us. Then as long as everyone is telling the truth (cause no one ever lies in Survivor) it'll all be good.

Can i say that Sharky making a fake alliance chat with Nicole when we are planning on voting her out is very cold blooded. Like honesty doing it to try and throw off her scent of the vote is perfect.

I’m so glad sharky seems to be much more transparent with me. I’m really excited to see how this goes tbh I feel like we’d make a good pair. We be played together before and I thought he would be made at me for like wanting him out in canadienne but yeah I’m excited for merge!

Okay the alliances just keep piling up. It's definitely going to cause an issue later on. But for now it's good. And the newest one, The FB Bois, is one I actually do plan on staying loyal too. I really trust Matt and Brian. I like them both a lot and I want to work with them. Hopefully they feel the same. F4 with Brian, Matt, Maynor is my goal.

We are coming close to tribal. Its nerve wracking cuz it looks like nicole hasnt scrambled so she might have an idol. Im going to see if my side alliance would vote for Matt (keaton and nathan). Just in case there is an idol played. But as far it looks like Nicole is going.

For once my name hasnt been a top priority! its crazy... I really dont know what to do about it but im loving it so much... lets just wait though until I get out in about 30 mins...

Nicole is voted out 6-3-1.

[10maytojune16-blog]

Engpal

“Engpal” is pronounciation of korean acronym 응팔. Engpal itself is a abreviation from 응답하라1988 (pronoun: engdabhara il gu pal pal) It was a trivia about Reply 1988. Damn trivial 😂. Now i can read hangul. But before i aknowledged this drama, i’m blind. In my eyes, it was just a compex stiff lines. Straight lines and circles. Thanks to my willingness in learning hangul months ago so im not blind anymore (I just can read. Able to read doesn’t mean i can understand). Hehehe. How can i knew such trivial thing? Yes, it’s because of an obsession on a thing, this drama. So, i’m going to talk about Reply1988, a drama that baited me to learn its title in hangul. This drama is my life’s gem. This drama changed me so much specifically in my drama taste. Back then in 2015, winter. My hobby was watching drama diligently. I watch dramas that passing by in front of my eyes. My favorite website to watch dramas is myasiantv. If you a kdrama fan, you should know 😏. I catched up with all news about korean drama. Even i searched its actors, directors, when they started to shoot, and trivial thing like who produced it. LOL. It took me 2-3 days to finish a kdrama. Ok back to the main topic One day, i had no idea what to watch. It’s so boring and annoying day. I came to the website and search a new drama. On the website, there’s a “currently top10” drama list that updated everyday. I didn’t take serious notice on that list before. I saw Reply 1988 on that list. It made me curious. Coz i didnt know what its mean, reply to year 1988? Is it kind of teleportion to old days story? Time travelling? 1988 is likely mean a year right? No other mean. I found out it was a currently airing drama. Out of curiousity i clicked that title and started to watch it. Back then it’s already up to episode 4. And poof! I am hooked! Wow, this is my kind of story, i said to myself. As usual i looked up trivial information of that drama and i found out it was a series! There are prev Reply series before 1988. I thought, “This is cool”. but i didn’t end up watch it too. (Yeah, till now i have not finish those other series, stuck in the middle. LOL). I had some currently-airing-drama before Reply1988. It’s School2015 and Angry Mom (OK, you could tell what my kind of drama is by those dramas 😅). I knew english subs is usually available a day after or some hours after it’s airing (You know, i still remember how im waiting for school2015 english sub 5 a.m in the morning. Hahaha. I kept reload the website.). I didn’t look up for the sched of the drama. I just went to watch it every wednesday. (cz i was catching up some other dramas too LOL). It’s getting intense with those husband hunting. I searched up people opinion about who is the husband of Duksun. And i kept down everytime i read their speculation because i realize mostly people said its other “him”, not “him” who i want. Yeah i am shipping without any clue or hints. I just ship “them”, i like them, they are lovely when they are together, no objective reason. But reading a bit of theories in R88 soompi (i knew in this site’s existant before, now i regret i didnt read much when its aired :( ) makes me a bit wondering “woah, this drama is so cool. It made people thinking this mucb. Gehehhe.” i decided to not to cont to read theories and just going with flow. Yeah I saved those theories to read after the husband revealed. And yeah, conclusion is this drama is SO BEAUTIFUL. I read theories about this drama emotionally. Never fails to make my eyes wet. I downloaded the OSTs and shazaming some background songs that excluded as OST. I read everything i could read about Reply1988. I really stopped watching dramas and used those time to read R88 stuff. I desperately wanted to know how koreans think about R88 so i learned hangul! LOL it was damn crazy. I push my mom, my bro, my friends to watch R88 and tell me how is it. (Yeah, i love to hear other’s opinion on things i like hahahah too bad my mom said its boring if she liked it, i could talk all night abt it w her. Hahahah) I talk so much about it with my sister since she liked it too!! Deliberately, frequantly i went to her dorm just to talk abt it or rewatching it together. One day, i disscussed w my sister why would “the official husband” ended up with Duksun, and how beautiful is it and it took us 4 hours. LOL. It’s so beautiful and well made script. How i wish i could write something like that. If i was the writer of the script, i’m not going to submit it to local producer. I’ll submit it to HOLLYWOOD producers. This beautiful story needs to be known worldwide sigh.

Ok thats how i know this acronym engpal.

Sorry this is so-absurd-story. 😅