#ok. aroace feels right but at the same time No It Doesnt

[toppatturmoil]

wait actually unrelated but. Thinking

[wickjump]

Not exactly hurt comfort but I am enjoying the idea that every time Cross reveals something about his past/childhood it slowly but surely makes the team angry. Like he happens to share a "funny story" or mention how he was treated and one by one the gang is horrified to the point where if xgaster actually showed up in the same au as them they would all be gunning for him immediately.

Also the stars showing up during this fight and like Dream: Nightmare stop this!! What are you doing to- Nightmare: (goops over and whispers something in Dream's ear) Dream: WHAT?? No fuck that (starts aiming his arrows at xgaster)

IVE SPOKEN ABOUT THIS SO MANY TIMES WITH FRIENDS/MUTUALS I AGREE SO MYCH HE HAS SO MANY TRAUMATIZING CHILDHOOD STORIES HE INTERNALLY NORMALIZED GOD. HE DOESNT REALIZE HOW BAD IT WAS AND THE REACTIONS HE GETS ARE UNNERVING. THANK YOU FOR THIS AND OTHER CROSS RELATED ASKS YOURE SO GOOD WITH THEM THEYRE MY FAVORITE

ok ya this is just plain whump warning for lotsa child abuse including physical. like beating the shit out of an 8 year old physical. also I’m so tired right now

chances are that’s not even the worst of it because you know his seven year old ass was told ‘don’t tell anyone about me beating you to near death’ and he still sticks to that. but he speaks about abuse he doesn’t even grasp counts as abuse.

withholding food. sleeping in the yard. eating food on the floor while the others sat at the dinner table as punishment (or to eat out of a dog bowl on the ground i had to do that once lol). as a kid still scared of the dark he was locked in dark rooms until he got over his fear (he’s still scared to this day but he won’t seek help because he doesn’t want to be punished again). cross touched something he wasn’t supposed to? put your hand on the burning hot stove for however many seconds that item was worth in G (maybe divided by 5/10), or until he cried.

cruel and unusual punishments were xgaster’s forte but he tells them like funny stories to the horror of literally everyone around him.

cross is not coping well with figuring out that no that’s not normal and no that’s fucked up. most of his scars are probably from xgaster (excluding the red one on his face obv). and when he delves into the traditional abuse it gets worse somehow?? anyway xgaster is on THE multiversal hitlist. star sanses and bad sanses all want his head on a wall. even ink because ink didn’t know about the abuse because xgaster never told him for obvious reasons and it’s not like cross was willing to share.

i think that once he starts talking about the abuse he can’t stop (same) and he’s just. slowly crying and eventually hyperventilating and oh he’s been holding onto that for SO long. and then he hates that he told people because he wasn’t supposed to and is scared that they’ll see him less or punish him for some reason or hate him now, but he isn’t expecting to be comforted after? wtf? he doesn’t grasp that saying ‘yeah i got in trouble at school so my dad beat me until i lost two of my baby teeth and got a temporary crack in my skull’ normally results in being hugged or something. like dude you were 8 wtf. and he’s so scared but he just wants to feel safe AUGH HE MAKES MY HEART HURT. like dude, he almost beat papyrus at a time he was so young he had to use a step-stool to reach the sink to brush his teeth :( dude…

anyway ya cross is me fr (the burning hand stove happened once/twice to me actually idk i was like 5 lol. my grandfather is not the best man) and he deserves to go through hell on earth and be tortured in his childhood i think. oh and experience comfort or whatever after idk. kross maybe because their dynamic is ‘my childhood was ruined’ x ‘my adulthood was ruined’ and i think that’s sweet. or mtt + cross poly with nightmare as the outlier wondering why they’re so affectionate all of a sudden (he’s aroace…)

BUT THATS SELF INDULGENT LMAO what really matters is how much we torture the poor lad that is cross 🥰

also make him trans because abuse isn’t enough he needs extreme dysphoria all of the time. xgaster isn’t transphobic btw this is independent from everything else

[the-ipre]

been watching dead boy detectives (i only have the last episode left) and i am very curious about your aro crystal thoughts 👀

ok hello welcome to my thoughts !!! i think pre-canon, it is not something that she ever would have thought about. she is having a good time with her flings and has no reason to want anything more, she doesnt Do love and why should she, she is sharp and glittering and untouchable!

and then post canon as shes grappling with her memories she kind of goes wow i never really felt anything for anybody i was with. kinda feels like proof i was a bad person. hey ive got a fun thing going with charles and hes starting to fall for me and i dont feel the same way about him. kinda feels like proof im Still a bad person because if i cant even love sweet and fun charles, who Could i love

she brings this to niko who, while Not Processing her own latent aroaceness, gives some awful advice. you are such a good person crystal i am sure you will find love :] (this does not help with crystal continuing to link inherent goodness to capacity to love.)

crystal gnaws on this for a while, trying to figure it out, getting less than helpful advice from those around her, and eventually talks to charles about how she doesnt think she can love him the way that he wants to be loved. (the way he might want to love her). she likes kissing and what theyve got going on, it is fun and nice, but she doesnt think she is capable of loving him. charles is good about it!

who isnt good about it is edwin when he finds out, and there Is a fight. edwin accuses crystal of leading charles on, crystal says that it isn't her fault she cant love him like edwin does, edwin asks her why she cant just try, and well. things dont go well. its messy!

crystal has got to face the fact that she cant force herself into being in love, no matter how she wishes she could and it feels like it would make things easier. she tells niko, who says that sounds sad. crystal hasnt really processed it until that point but she realizes that it isnt, she still cares about them, and theres this weight off her chest realizing she doesnt have to try and force herself to do it in the 'right' way. niko, with all her dreams of fantastical love that have never felt real or attainable, says huh! and has her own things to process-

overall !!! i think aro crystal is very fun and silly and all the internalized amatonormativity would make it a Real mess to grapple with given all the stuff shes already got going on about being a Bad Person, but ! it makes things click into place ! and she learns to accept and appreciate that without guilt

[dykeyote]

ok my dndads queer hc post randomly gets notes but i disagree w many of the takes now so im updating it . spoiler warning theres a WHOLE lot of lezzies . just doing the dads kiddads and teens HOWEVER i will say that mark likely is for sure a lezzer

darryl: bisexual and probably the most cisgender one here but he's actually SO cis that it becomes almost gnc . he/him

ron: transhet guy but he thinks his transition is like very unique to him and everyone else is doing it the exact same as each other so he doesnt really get that hes Transgender bc he thinks everyone else is doing it in a really different way than him all together . not in an angsty way hes perfectly okay w that . he/him

henry: trans bi guy we know this to be true . he/him but if you called him they/them prns he would be like well yknow ive never thought about that before but you know what go right ahead (: he doesnt exactly enjoy it but he appreciates just how gosh-darn nonbinary positive you are that he'd still encourage it

glenn: bisexual and like .... hes cis he doesnt really care abt gender much but when nick came out as trans he definitely said something about like . "dude if i was trans? id totally use they/them pronouns thats sick as fuck" and then moved on and this sort of haunted nick for a while . he/him but again he doesnt really care

jodie: cis and bisexual but in such a boring way that he might as well be straight

sparrow: tgirl lesbian who was out at one point but is not now for Normalcy Reasons . she/her in theory

lark: transneu nonbinary and aroace . not out about either of these things but not really as a like Actively Closeted thing they just dont really think abt it . they/he in theory

terry jr: tgirl lesbian also but this time out AND butch . she/he

grant: gay of course . and like .... he is cis and this wont change but he'd be a good deal happier if he was more gnc i think

nick: tguy butch lesbian . he mostly but he doesnt really care that much

link: kinda-stealth tboy (not really intentionally or anything he just doesnt really see it as relevant that often so most people dk) and gay . he/him but he doesnt really care that much

taylor: honestly idk what i think is going on w his gender but i DO know hes aro and bi . give me some time to think on that ok

scary: out nonbinary tfem lesbian!!!!! we know this!!!!!! she/it and when she writes her pronouns down she always writes the it in VERY BIG AGGRESSIVE HANDWRITING to make it clear that its SUBVERSIVE AND WEIRD

normal: bisexual tgirl . currently in a like . Questioning Phase in s2 i feel like ..... her turmoil abt being a Normal Son is tied to that . any pronouns but she primarily

hermie: bigender (girl + boy) gaybian :3 was an open bisexual tguy originally but around the poison ivy era had some Gender Complexity . he/she but certain Method Personas have diff pronoun leans whereas normal herm is pretty 50/50

[starz4valen]

queers im fucking lost come save me

ok but in all seriousness,

despite labeling myself as aroace for a hot minute and finding comfort in that label and the community for a time—shit doesnt feel quite right anymore.

i have had ONE EX. one.

i genuinely think i was in love with him. i only felt what i felt with him,,,WITH HIM. nobody else. I felt the butterflies/giddiness, i loved his laugh, his smile, hearing him, his jokes, all the names he would call me, how much he said he loved me, our late night discord calls, having him around, just. him. when he rarely spoke abt shit that was bothering him it hurt me so bad, like i would hurt with him. and the mere THOUGHT of ME hurting him made me wanna sob.

as you can probably guess by the fact we’re exes, we’re not together anymore. it hurts. hell, my stomach tangled a bit as i typed that out. (could be cause recently someone who used to be a friend went and dated him and then got upset at me for getting upset at them but this ain't abt them.)

we broke up in like june last year, and i felt so fucking horrible about it bc it basically ended w him yelling at me over text at how horrible i am at listening and how i treated him more like a therapist—which i will admit i did. i sucked for that. it makes sense why tho, i was working through a lot of shit at the time, doesn’t justify it at all though. i should’ve treated him better. im desperately trying to fix it in my current relationships so that never happens again.

then again, he also treated me badly. he said things that really fucked with my sense of trust in people and just made me scared to get close with anyone like that ever again, or in general bc i was convinced everyone had some ulterior motive w me or secretly didnt give a shit abt me—but also i felt *I* was the problem. like every relationship im in is gonna end horribly bc im just that bad. its taken a lot to say that i feel loved by and trust my current friends, as well as trying to recognize that I deserve love, and im glad i can say that im getting better ^^

but,,,idk anymore

i concluded i was aroace almost a year after we broke up. there were a couple reasons. for one, i only really got that close w him. i dont really know if ive had a crush or what that feels like—in fact i think i faked one in elementary, the whole reason i got w my ex was bc he was flirting w me and it made me feel nice. (also bc i was worried he would be my only shot at love but i digress) i feel off when people talk about heading to poundtown or anything like that, the same with crushes—just crushes tho relationships i totally get—and i still struggle to wrap my head around attraction and how people just can look at someone without even knowing them at ALL and go “you. i want you.”

i wrote off how i felt when i was with him as simply some non-romantic form of attraction and called it a day.

but recently ive been reflecting on that, and i think i was wrong. the way that even now i get all these emotions by merely talking abt my ex says something. how upset seeing that "friend" going ahead and dating him after barely knowing him and just how angry i was says something. the way i cried seeing my best friend get a whole small crate of presents from their partner for their bday bc i was THAT JEALOUS says something. the way i yearn for affection and to be loved again says something. the way im starting to miss being in love again says something. the way i would always want some sort of relationship—even when i identified as aroace—but just never thought it would happen bc i didn't feel pretty enough, or mentally well enough, deserving of one, or like id ever be lucky enough to find someone who makes me feel that way again and how scared and sad that makes me,,,says something.

now in terms of poundtown—legit dunno. closest to that I've done w anyone was neck kisses from my ex, which i did really enjoy—but also i legit identified as ace like the whole time we were together and the few times he made jokes like that i felt uncomfy. plus the only way i feel i could be ok w going further w something like that is if its either excessively gentle or the most unserious thing ever. so tbh if i had to take a guess on how i feel abt that—not too keen on it.

I'm debating a couple labels, bi, aroace, bi and ace, demirose, and demirose and bi, but tbh i feel bi kinda fits the most? (maybe???) but also it doesn't. idk if its the fear of opening my mind to me being in a relationship despite my fear of intimacy and commitment or just that I'm aroace and this is my brain telling me to stop overthinking shit—but i know i wanna figure this shit out

if anyone has like legit any words of advice PLEASE send it my way. i will take even the tiniest crumb of guidance cause i am more lost than a child in ikea.

thanks to anyone who read all this <3

[aroacesigma]

do you have any sigzai hcs (or just hcs about sigma or dazai separately)

you're going to regret asking this . headcanons under the cut cause im gonna feel annoying otherwise . most of them are what i headcanon as happening like post canon in a nice world where everyone is alive and happy lol

sigzais <3

ok so to me they are THE transmasc qpps ever . i might be projecting a little but both dazai and sigma are both so transmasc to me. on one hand you have sigma who wears 10 billion shirt layers and a long ass coat and goes on and on about being an ordinary man, and then on the other hand you have dazai who also wears clothes like that and bandages over his chest

hc sigma as oriented aroace with ???? orientation . hes just very confused . theyre so confused . and dazai as bi aroacespec and not particularly averse to any stuff just doesnt feel the attraction most of the time

poor sigma has spent all this time around fyolai like 'god why the fuck are people like this' and then he meets dazai and is like ohhhhhhh. oh .

when sigma joins the ada (and they will u mark my words) him and dazai end up sharing an apartment

at first dazais excited because maybe he wont be living off horrible cooking

unfortunately sigma also cannot cook for shit . he fucking sucks . legitimately the only thing he can cook is cookies in a packet mix .

sigma is unfortunately going through the same phase that kids of controlling parents go through when they finally get freedom, which is making a bunch of stupid decisions . dazai , being the wonderful boyfriend he is, is encouraging all the dumb decisions because he thinks its funny

most of their dates is just going to cafes because sigma has the worlds most horrendous sweet tooth and sigma has no moral objections to guilt tripping him into it

despite being pretty bad at it themself, sigma has a tendency to hit dazai with a pillow until he takes care of himself

vice versa dazai will be a distracting little bitch and wont stop if he thinks sigma is overworking himself

sigma

he/they sigma is so real to me btw just need everyone to know this . they like messing around with neos as well sometimes i think

even though he's pretty much always tired , isnt really a huge fan of coffee , definitely prefers really fancy tea and energy drinks

decided to run with the whole purple thing cause of his hair , abolutely loves the colour. anything he owns is purple if they can get it .

smiles all happy while listening to music in a way that makes you think its something nice . its not . his only musical requirements are loud and screaming to drown out the Anxiety™

not my headcanon but i saw someone say once that they headcanon that occasionally people get an uncanny valley kinda vibe from looking at him cause of his weird origins and honestly i think thats pretty interesting

very happy to join the ada . not quite as impressed by the paycheck .

like , really not impressed by the paycheck . theyre struggling with the dwindling clothes budget . i can totally see him trying to decide whether he wants dinner or new earrings . and probably picking the earrings .

they get along with everyone at the agency really well . a few people dont really trust him straight up but atsushi and dazai vouching for him shuts that down relatively quickly

he gets along the best with atsushi

they have a friendly rivalry with kunikida . agency productivity going straight up just because those two keep trying to outdo each other

dazai

100% has multiple troll accounts online . he enjoys being a menace . not in the mean way , in the absolutely fucking infuriating kind of way

remained in denial (or more oblivious really) about being trans until he was 16 because he asked chuuya if everyone felt like that one time and chuuya was like well yeah (also trans and stupid)

on a related note (this one is kind of about dazai and chuuya but it still counts) mori was kind of like ohhh teenage boys are so much easier to deal with right ? kouyou decided it was best not to inform him that hrt gives you mood swings .

adhd. adhd. adhd.

hes a candy crush mum . its a problem .

eats everyone at the ada's food . but he doesnt eat the whole thing he'll just take a bite . its high up on kunikidas 'things that make me want to string dazai up by his legs and attach him to a ceiling fan' list

has been known to send 12 yr olds graphic violent death threats after losing to them in video games

he has the music taste of a 14 yr old cishet girl . i will let you decide what that entails .

my deepest apologies for making you read all this but i love them both dearly and i have lots of Thoughts

[aroace-confessions]

hi sorry this is my first time and i'm a disaster at explaining stuff so i'm sorry if this is gonna be super messy

i'm aroace and i think i knew it since forever but i really dont like labels so i never searched for a name or a flag or something to tell me "yes you're valid and you exist and there are others like you". But i was tired of all the people asking me why and how it was possible that i've never even had a crush on someone so i found this now and it feels really weird. I havent told to everybody yet cause it feels too strange and i also dont know how to introduce the thing so i've said it when it was "natural" in the conversation and now there are 3 people that know.

Except for my grandma because she was the one doing most of the questions and she's really open so i did it hoping that she could understand and stop but she didnt. She's not homophobic at all she always said to me and my brother that if we were gay or lesbian or whatever she was ok with it and the only thing upsetting her was the fact that she couldnt have grankids (like biological ones) but the most important thing was our happines. But she's 80 and apparently "cant understand the idea of me spending my entire life completely alone", she felt sorry for me and started to cry. Now i wish i hadnt tell her anything cause i know her and im sure that now she spends all her days worring of me all alone forever (wich actually sounds like a dream to me but ok) and i dont want that.

Also she said something like "but you're young you still have time to find the right person and you dont know nothing about life". THATS NOT HOW IT WORKS FOR F SAKE. it's like saying to a gay guy that hes actually bi but he just hasnt found the right girl yet. Or same to a straight guy that actually is gay for the same reason. I guess i never know what can happen in your life until you're dead but that doesnt mean that you CANT define yourself (if you really need to) just because "you never know what can happen". its stupid.

And last thing because this thing happened to be way longer than what i thought (sorry) to explain the concept of asexuality to my granma i told her also that some people became ace because of a trauma (i know its not a good explanaition sorry if i offended anyone it was just me trying to make her understand by steps) BUT THAT WASNT MY CASE. Of course the first thing she said after i finished was starting to search in my past the trauma or at least the cause of why i'm like this. At this point i knew i did a giant mistake and i trusted her too much.

I know its not totally her fault, also not mine but now i just feel stupid

Submitted 20/02/24

[kerberosstyxnixcharonandhydra]

I would wish to see

OK OH LORD THIS IS GONNA BE LONG, some is stuff discussed w/ my pal @idiotv2 and some is just mine (we each have our own versions but there's some stuff shared so!)

without further adieu: These are kinda old lol. I'll be doing an eventual post about their USC interpretations

ALL:

yeah theyre all related in this one.

They're also all italian immigrants!

There is a front related to each one (Charon's Ferry - clothing store | and i cannot remember the others tbh. kerby's was a trampoline park tho. they go feral in there)

ALL SOME FLAVOR OF NB (they/them) and all of them aroace...except hydra who is the token allo /hj

all our cogs have some slight basing on animals so. furries the lot of them (affectionate)

All have some form of bone/joint/frame/shell issues (The head attorney does too) <- that's their Zizi btw (italian gender neutral for aunt/uncle figures)

All lost their shells but in different ways

(Left is relationships, right is an old reference with their shells + my friend's oc joey. hes funney i like him.)

Charon:

the oldest and tallest

got put into a leadership position but would rather not TM

I'm pretty sure that with their shell Charon was considered to be pretty attractive

Wolf based, i believe they're a timberwolf but we may not have been that specific

Our designs and HC's diverge around when they all lose their shells so -- Charon (to me) becomes a spotlight thing

(Based on the light almost looking like a moon and how wolves howl, and them not wanting to be IN the spotlight)

legal surname is Christy

Gorgon thing also, can reflect damage back at you. maybe also turn you to stone if you step into the beam of light and theyre MAD)

SO SCARED OF BUGS THEY CRY AND GAG AND THROW UP IN THEIR MOUTH (i joke but they are terrified)

COFFEE SNOB

Lost shell due to illness (from their Zizi)

Styx:

Second oldest/second tallest

The affair child TM (this is unfortunately true!)

Their animal was a hyena and boy they laugh like one

THEY ARE ALSO A DHAMPIR (male vampire and human woman) or the rough equivalent. the trait of fucked up bones appears in frame issues x2!

used to do ballet for fun in italy, fell and fucked up their foot/leg so bad they had to stop (it also required a transtibal amputation)

they have a wheelchair for bad days, but often use forearm crutches, or a cane + prosthetic (styx and graham and the foreman in the prosthetic legs club)

NO ACCENT BTW. i cannot stress this enough their voice is a dead monotone with no accent or inflection

Surname is Showalter, despite relation to Charon

DOES IN FACT DRINK BLOOD SOMETIMES. and has a life drain ability (i think it should be through their voice and this is my HC list even though i share many w/ my friend)

Showed a few symptoms of the same illness and skipped right to "get this thing off me NOW before it gets worse"

Nix:

The forgotten middle sibling (REAL) who has a passive cheat that makes people unable to sense their presence (They are a cognitohazard)

This can be rectified if you're around them a lot, but it fucks up your brain forever pretty much. They can also amplify the effect to sneak around if they want (but machines like automatic doors and cameras also forget they exist)

Almost perfectly identical to the head attorney, even when they had shells

They use this to fill in for Nyx (originally when Nyx was too ill to work even after using sick days) and they now intend to go to law school

They're why everyone hates lawbots bc they would give fake CnD's and court orders

Weird bird/cat/bat hybrid thing. cat with feathery wings (and they have white patches which are remnants of their freckles)

Surname is Christy

my freak child with an eating disorder (due to derealization and the feeling that "well im not real why bother" yeah cosmos doesnt take kindly to that.)

Weird luck powers. once made buck roll BAR 7 times in a row just by looking at him weird

Also lost shell bc of illness.

Kerberos:

doberman pinscher (parents weren't going to straighten their ears but i assume another family member did under the guise of getting their ears pierced. sickness and despair in the world

SO PROTECTIVE OF HYDRA FOR REASONS THAT ARE SO FUCKED

conspiracy theorist (but not in a fucked up way, in a funny way. like cryptid hunting) (theyre also so oblivious. we had a joke about them asking THE PERSON THEY WERE TALKING ABOUT about... well themself, without knowing)

One time Hydra got dumped on their doorstep at 8 years old and they never got a moment of peace since (they were like idk 10? 11??)

can obtain messages thru electronic signals ("MOOOM THE TV CALLED ME A BITCH AGAIN" "lol youre so imaginative")

Surname is Showalter

GOT HIT BY A TRAIN AND THEIR SHELL BROKE APART

HYDRA:

IDIOT BLACK CAT ENERGY

The shortest and youngest, but oh so feral

talked to god once we dont need to focus on that

IMMIGRATED ON ACCIDENT I CANT STRESS THAT ENOUGH

kind of a brat but in a PTSD way (neglectful/abusive parents)

"mommy why do you have beef with me im 4"

had 2 imaginary friends growing up, a greek fish who's name translated to Jabberwocky, and a talking house (both are in fact real dw about)

their parents didnt wanna immigrate but they were 8 and didnt understand so after a tantrum their parents packed a suitcase and dropped them with kerberos

they also didnt get a chance to learn english for for like the first few months they only spoke italian (and some greek)

vessel of fate sort of.

Surname is... well they legally changed their name to be.... hydra Hydra. after the mario movie (the live action one) where mario's surname is also mario. theyre wacky.

lost their shell in a drunk driving accident (the designated driver was drunk and drove them right into another car head on)

anyways have some funneys

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#5

Senku hcs

Oh this shall be fun

Realizes he's aromantic asexual in middle school. Everyone else was going on about romance and dating and all that other stuff, and all he cared about was science.

Was the one lecturing people in elementary school about why certain super powers can't be real and crushed the hopes and dreams of those wanting lazer vision

Would secretly leave Taiju money or other things he needed but pretended he had no idea where they came from

Since hes the definition of aroace, his gaydar is never wrong

Tried to figure out if he could turn himself into a robot as a kid, it did not work

Speaking of robots, he had robot pj's up until he was 11 in which he traded them for science ones

His experiments would make stay up late into the night, so naturally, he developed a taste for energy drinks.

At night he will sometimes think of Byakuya and remember all the memories he has with his dad, he might try to act like the man was embarrassing and all, but deep down hes a kid who never got to say goodbye to his dad

The only two people he can fully confide in are Taiju and Yuzuirha

While its common for kids who are adopted to want to know about their biological parents, he doesnt. He had Byakuya after all, and Byakuya is his dad, nothing else matters.

Hope you like them. Senku is a very fun character to make headcanons for.

45 notes - Posted March 28, 2022

#4

no one in Dr.STONE is an autistic retard so why do you plan to make a post about it? just cause you're retarded doesnt mean they are

congrats you got me to use Tumblr Desktop instead of my phone because im going to have a lot to say.

First of all, fuck off with the R word here, its an outdated and harmful term thats rooted in Ableism. Secondly i was going to ignore this and delete it when i saw the first line but then you also decided to insult me so you know enjoy getting your ass handed to you.

But whats wrong with noticing that certain characters in Dr.STONE are ASD coded? Like everyone accepts that Ryusui has ADHD but being autistic is something bad right? News Flash it isnt. Also show me where in the manga that Sai and Yuzuriha dont show traits of autism? i feel explaining to you would be a waste of energy but just know this is only going to make my post on it even longer cause holy fuck the beginning will now have a rant about people like you. Do me a favor and never send an ask here again and kindly fuck off.

Also this comment really pissed me off and i was going to focus on just Sai and Yuzuriha but now im gonna add Magma,Senku and Ruri to this as well cause ive also been seeing them as ASD coded but have been keeping that to myself.

47 notes - Posted August 13, 2022

#3

so i finished fmab

sobbing crying wailing etc it was SO GOOD and completely destroyed me at the same time fhjfjkfjhfkjhsahjsdjhfkjdjghdkjsk definitely the anime of all time

welcome to the world of FMAB. The obsession will never leave, and the pain gets worse with every rewatch. But with that also comes seeing little things you never noticed before which makes the series even better. 

47 notes - Posted January 23, 2022

#2

Ok so ill be posting about the final chapter soon but. IM SO HAPPY SENKU DIDNT GET ANY LOVE INTERESTS. HES AROACE AND STAYS AROACE HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

54 notes - Posted March 6, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Ok but i really need to know what people have against aroace characters? Like theres nothing wrong with any character being aroace but for some reason it just causes others to be so upset and for what? Ive seen it with mostly One Piece and The Disastrous Life of Saiki K. Luckily havent seen it as much with Dr.STONE or at least on tumblr. The number of people ive blocked on tiktok for getting upset about Senku being CANONICALLY aroace is ridiculous. But yeah can someone just explain this to me? Cause aroace exist and we do deserve to have our representation in media and not in the "oh im rude because im aroace and thats my only personality" way. But in a way where we ardnt dehumanized for not feeling romantic or sexual attraction.

331 notes - Posted July 1, 2022

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[rolaplayor101]

on god you’re such a fucking homophobe lmao why are you erasing the fact that he’s in romantic love with riku

Because hes not in romantic love with Riku. Hes got queerplatonic love for Riku, as well as Kairi. And he confuses it for platonic love because he doesn't know what Queer platonic is. Its easy to tell in how he acts in the games. He calls them all his friends, he goes to incredible lengths for them, gets to his knees crying for them, and all in the name of friendship. He even calls Kairi his friend despite how Donald and Goofy tried to imply his feelings were romantic in the first few games.

Sora gets very attached to multiple people throughout the games. He befriends people easily and goes to great lengths to make sure they're ok (how he reacts to Will being stabbed, and Elsa being sad, Tron when he doesn't remember him, also Neku when he immediately calls him his friend and forgives him for betraying him). The same goes for Riku and Kairi, who he's more attached to than anyone else. Once he found out Riku was ok in kh1, he stopped worrying about him and focused on Kairi. In kh2, when he found Riku, he dropped to the ground crying because for the longest time he wasn't sure if Riku was even alive or not, and in kh3 he drops down crying again because Kairi is assumed dead, having been struck down right before his eyes(he also falls to the ground screaming when everyone besides Riku is taken in by the hoard).

Also, he says in kh3 that he "doesnt completely understand [romantic]love, but [he] know[s] about sharing [his] heart with others". He even worries himself into a frenzy about Roxas in kh3, a dude he never even knew, and yet sees as important anyway. None of these things are shown as romantic. In context, none of them are romantic. The only reason it seems romantic between Kairi and Sora to Donald and Goofy is because Kairi is a girl. In kh2, to Meg I believe it is, Donald and Goofy say "he always acts like this around girls" but..he didn't do anything in the scene? He was acting like he normally does?? Nothing changed?? So it's just plain old heteronormativity.

The characters themselves never once call their relationships anything but friendships(except maybe Kairi, but I cant remember her labeling anything)! And everytime romantic love is brought up, Sora immediately equates it with platonic love, because that's the only way he can relate! He sees it as just as important(because it is)! There's also the fact that he can recognize romantic love quite easily with others, such as Meg and Hercules, and Kristoff and Anna. If he felt rom attraction, he'd be able to tell if what he was feeling was it.

Also, he'd show it. He'd blush, have the stereotypical cartoonish "in love" face (lidded, eyes, goofy smile, hearts floating around head and/or thought bubble with hearts around said person, but the video game equivalent), he'd stutter when talking to them, show nervousness specific to romantic attraction and not because he feels ashamed or did something wrong or something. When he holds Kairi and Riku's hands or hugs Riku, he'd show physical signs of romantic/sexual attraction, and or he'd have dialogue thoughts like "I cant believe I get to hold them. My hearts gonna beat right out of my chest" or something to that affect. Sora is no more conscious of holding Kairi's hand than he is Pooh Bear's. And this is Disney, as well as Square Enix. Disney has a formula when displaying romantic attraction in their movies.

Sora's actions are always exclusively done in the name of his friends. "My friends are my power!" Kairi is his power. Riku is his power. Donald and Goofy and Mickey and Roxas and Lea are his power. He cares about his friends. He cries for them. He's an affectionate aroace who treats all his friends specially when he can, although he can't see them all the time(see Pooh Bear in kh3, the talk about being in peoples hearts even when you can't see them, which he has AGAIN with Hiro in Sanfransokyo. This is a direct reference to Kairi being in his heart in kh1 and not being able to see Riku in kh2 AND Roxas now being in his heart in kh3. All platonic scenes and comparisons). And because he was always thinking about Riku and Kairi in the first games, Donald and Goofy and you confused his feelings for Kairi and Riku as romantic, when he himself has always only ever said it was platonic. And he thinks out loud, too, so we hear his inner thoughts.

Queerplatonic attraction can be seen as desiring to be in a relationship just as committed as a romantic one, but platonically, or as desiring to do romantic coded things with someone platonically. Sora says in canon that he always wants to be with Riku and Kairi. He also holds hands with Kairi at the end of Remind and KH3 before he disappears, as well as when they're "coming back to life" after the Heartless Hoard attack. He daydreams in kh1 about holding hands with Kairi and swinging around in a circle after he's found her. That last one only happens once and even still he only ever refers to her as his friend-- not his crush, or anything similar. In the dozen games that have come out, he never takes a shot at it, despite there being plenty of time to after kh2 and before Dream Drop Distance. And since Queerplatonic relationships are often mistaken for being romantic by people outside of the qpr, while also in writing sounding completely like a regular friendship to some people, then it makes most sense for Sora's orientation to be this way. Again, out of the dozen games, he never shows strictly romantic attraction towards anyone(unless you count that one daydream in kh1, but cmon). (I don't even wanna talk about Riku and Kairi. Bi and het respectfully, Riku likes Kairi in kh1, likes Sora until kh3, and Kairi only seems interested in Sora the whole way around.)

And! Since you've shown yourself that you've misread their relationships as romantic, you've proven the point that they all (Sora Riku and Kairi) are in a Queerplatonic relationship! Congratulations! Your fave is a bi oriented aroace with queerplatonic attraction that's also in a polyamorous QPR!

Sorry you have shipping brainrot and cant see how people can be passionate about and motivated by non-romantic causes and people in their lives!(you know, like, what the series is about) Hope you grow out of your amatonormative preteen-like way of thinking! Also, you don't have to be aroace to care about your friends obviously, but apparently you do have to be gay to???

[hyukaroki]

so computer decided to shut itself off midway and not save my full on essay and as much as id love to rant about ruikasa arthritis has already been kickin my ass this week and i dont wanna push it too much

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ok first i must start this off with their silly lgbtq hcs or a lot of this is gonna make no sense. i am saying this as if any of this will ever make sense to anyone but me

tsukasa is aroace, demi-queerplatonic, achillean, transmasc, demiblux, and i cant find it for the life of me but ive seen it before and its this xenogender thats a mix of princegender and pupgender and thats tsukasa right there fr. tsukasa uses pup/pet/woof/he prns 

rui is aroace, queerplatonic, pan, agender. rui uses web/comp/.exe/nya/they/he/she prns

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tsukasa has bpd too but both pup and rui are autistic. tsukasa is a big sensory heavy guy and gets overstimulated super easily while rui is like an immovable force and there is not enough simulus in the world. rui has apraxia and tsukasa has echolalia 

occasionally there will be times where both struggle to form sentences, tsukasa will take over by repeating lines hes learned in plays or song lyrics that wxs have covered. nene and emu are aware of these facts and have gotten used to them and are able to understand both well even when non verbal

rui struggles to take care of herself as web never gets those feelings of like when your hungry, you have to pee, your thirsty, stuff like that. in response, tsukasa (who never feels thirsty and also never knows that he has to pee btw) will randomly bring nya food and water throughout the day pet also sends them texts that r like “rui i know you are about to piss yourself cus i am too”. but at the same time rui worries for tsukasa a lot cus pup doesnt like others to know pet is struggling so randomly rui will also text tsukasa completely random like the first thought in .exes head cus they know tsukasa ADORES getting texts from rui especially big notification texts so rui will just send 20 texts talking about nothing really just in the off case tsukasa is having a bad day additionally rui just really loves to text tsukasa 

they copy each other a lot, a lot of it is unconscious. tsukasa echos the way rui mispronounces things and a lot of comps sentence structure. pup was afraid itd make rui feel insecure but she doesn’t mind. they color coordinate outfits accidentally a lot, also theyve kind of adapted eachothers styles and wear clothes thatd you go hrm that looks like something rui/tsukasa would wear

rui paints both of their nails, one cus its cute and two cus its a small attempt to get tsukasa to stop biting pets nails. they wear matching nail colors where like the pointer finger is the other persons main nail color yk. tsukasa always makes an attempt to show off woofs hands as much as possible when they are painted cus pups partner did an amazing job and you should be rlly jealous rn

tsukasa is terrified of dragonflies and butterflies due to their misleading pretty appearances to what pup considers a terrifying face. had a night when he was little where pet was convinced there was a snake in woofs bed and refused to sleep it in but was afraid to get yelled at by pups parents for waking them up so he slept on the floor terrified. i say this to say tsukasa has like delusions idk if thats the right word a lot. mainly they deal with pet feeling like there are bugs crawling all over him, rui has to reassure him a lot

[foryouthegays]

its time for a ‘assembling an army [Dream SMP]’ liveblog pogggg

bc people seem to like techno saying “puppy!” heres the timestamps for the times he says it in this stream and a few i remember from other times

10:30

12:35

2 mins into ‘minecraft VR is the ultimate fitness program’

and he doesnt say puppy but ‘train ‘em young (Collab with GURL GAMER ERMAGERD)’ is just. its so cute. please watch it. its techno playin and his little sister is in the background and i love it nd he says ‘pony’ nstead of horse so that counts. also his nod at 2:27 after his sister says ‘thats u!!’ is so cute like ahhhHHH and at 3:25 his sister says doggy and it sounds so similar to how techno says it in the vr vid ahhhhhhHHH sorry i just love that vid so much u can hear techno in the bg its so good

ALSO HE DID A ‘DO DO DOOO’ AT 15:20 :D!!!!!!!AND 1:07:45

if yall dont watch vods, he starts his stream with ‘starting the streaamm!!!!’ and its adorable. i highly recommend watchin the start of his streams just for that

as always, he says three in the prettiest way possible and i hate it. how can you make the word THREE sound nice its. its not allowed 

hes calling the wither skull place (which i had been calling theseus’ vault/home) the bunker and i kinda like that. (1:15)

“worst case scenario, he’s building an ugly tower outside of my base, best case scenario, he died!” 2:50

heres the link tommy sends at 7:10 https://www.reddit.com/r/tommyinnit/comments/kfdsid/i_know_tommy_likes_cobblestone_towers_so_heres_an/?sort=new

7:50

tommy: “what are your deepest emotions”

techno: “uhhh....revenge.”

tommy: -laughs- “what about like, you know, love.

techno: “not so much.”

tommy: -laughs- “hey, ok”

techno: “love? sounds kinda cringe,”

tommy: -laughs harder- “love?? all i know is anarchy!”

techno: “all i know is anarchy, violence, and get subscriber, ok? thats all you need.”

aroace c!techno pog??

the “i know another word for dog” “puppy!!!” convo is at 10:30 btw. techno is just. am love he

“you’re trying to think of one redeeming quality you have and you’re stuttering. you’re stuttering, tommy.” LSFJDLKDSJF 14:30

techno making fun of tommy falling through snow and then immediately doing the exact same thing is so funny a;sdkfjkasd 15:25

17:10 ah yes, a sheep, the opposite of a dog, mhmm

19:25 “tommy i dont believe in laws” LKSFJHDLA

“i need you i need you i need you” “i’m right here.” AWWWW  20:25

DREAM JOINED OH GOD 21:00

i feel like techno is just,,,,constantly redirecting the convo back to dogs to try nd distract tommy

OH GOD DREAM NO 28:00 GO AWAY

hhghn the way that techno asked tommy to describe his location,,,,,,isnt that LITERALLY grounding??? ik it was so tech could find him but just,,,tommy immediately started talking clearer and responding better to techno,,,,,hhgnn

AWW TECHNO CALLED IT ‘OUR HOUSE’ AT 29:25

why is technos laptop just randomly telling him abt pagodas im ksfhjdal 30:20

30:50 techno has access to twitch in universe

31:40 tECHNOS ‘Y O U’ IS SO FUNNY SFHGDJKAL

32:05 dream no. ‘hey I’m on my way to your house, need to have a chat with you’ GO AWAY 

WHY DOES HE HAVE A SECRET CHEST WHY IS HE LIKE THIS WHY IS HE SO SECRETIVE AHHHH 36:05

37:55 as much as i hate c! dream i just. i love dream nd technos dynamic so much but i know dreams gonna be in character and it makes me sad bc nooo dont be mean :(

38:50 “tommy....left” “who?” GFJHSKDL TECHNO IM IHUGFJSKDLA 

wait but techno couldve made skyblock canon in the smp universe if explained the sell foot as the ‘pigs foot’ from slaying dragons in skyblock and saying that they made people faster but nooOOOOooOOooooOOoooOOOoo gkfjshdl 39:45

techno just spelled coughing ‘caughing’ and idiot ‘idfiot’ im,,,,,hfdgkjs 40:50

TECHNO WHEN WE SAY U USE BIG WORDS WE DONT MEAN ‘ALOOF’ WE MEAN SHIT LIKE ‘RECIPROCITY’ HFGJDKSL 41:00  i doNT EVEN KNOW IF THATS THE WORD HE SAID IM SO DONE WITH HIM AHH

“what does impaired mean?” so THATS who technos talkin bout not knowin english 52:30 (bonus: “it means its out of pair, tommy”)

52:50 my god these people are so dumb im crying could u imagine just casually walking ur dog and u just hear yelling in the distance and u look up to see two sets of enchanted netherite, one with a dog and one with a llama who seems to be spitting at the owner, yelling at each other about staying stealthy and ur like ‘this may as well happen’ and one of them jUMPS OFF A BRIDGE and the other just yeets the llama down before jumping off as well and u see the dog walk up to u and u can kinda see an outline of someone and ur like whatever and then the other person walks by holding bamboo and no armor on with the llama still spitting and then one of them starts yelling at the other and ur like iS THAT TOMMY??? I THOUGHT HE WAS DEAD??? and u realize the other is techno and ur like,,,,god why did i move to this cursed country and then the llama starts talking and spitting at u just. and u just. u leave. u just gotta leave. 

and then now ur ranboo, going to figure out whats happening and theres a llama that starts spitting at u and ur like ????? and u see some dogs and u turn around and then theyre gone and then tommy (who, once again, is thought to be dead) texts you and says u should join vc3 and then the llama starts talking and telling u to give up all ur things and then u DIE sjkdfal; 

anD THEN THE LLAMA DIES ALSDKJFALDKFA I LOVE THIS SERVER ITS SO DUMB

GKJHSFDL I LOVE RANBOO SO MUCH

god these people have no braincells when theyre together its so funny 

1:10:20 sCHLATT????? WHA T

🦀TOMMY IS GONE 🦀 1:15:00 (also: “he died as he lived, an absolute moron” JFKSDL TECHNO)

SJKHFDAL RANBOO JOINED THE GAME JUST TO SAY ‘THAT BETTER BE CANON TOMMY’ AND THEN JUST L E F T (1:18:45)

SFDGHJKAL TOMMYS MAD BC HE HAD 18 LEVELS AND DIED AND TECHNOS JUST C A S U A L L Y AT 100 DFSJHKLA I LOVE THEM

“ew, imagine using valid arguments to refute my idiotic points” god i love techno so much (1:19:50)

[ace-and-aro-support-group]

ive been questioning if im aroace+lesbian n its Hard. i know i love girls but i dont want any form of romantic or sexual relationship or anything. even in the last relationship i was in, i cared a lot abt them but i know that the affection i was showing was the same way id act towards a close friend. there have been multiple occassions where id dated out of mistaking platonic love with romantic love. ive only ever asked someone out once (and it felt rushed and pressured) n the other (1/6)

occasions include me being asked out + just getting happy that someone liked me. my first relationship i had no interest whatsoever (cause i might be aro combined with the fact it was a guy) n didnt feel anything, causing it to only last a few months. the 2nd one lasted abt a yr and while it was affectionate, at some point it felt like the romance aspect more of an obligation (due to Reasons i didnt feel able to break up), n the one point where we broke up for a day didnt bother me that much other than missing being able to be affectionate without romantic connotations (im a generally rly affectionate person to everyone i care about so i dont think its a romantic thing). the only other relationship lasted about a few days n was also pressured and idk if its just cause it was a lesbian thing (the person being a guy didnt help cause i dont experience any form of attraction towards guys) but just being in it stressed me out. i know id much rather live with my close friends than a wife or anything yet love girls? ideally i dont wanna live with a romantic partner (i used to, but its not of interest to me anymore now that ive been in actual relationships? idk if thats just a ‘i dont wanna date atm’ thing or if im right n its just me realizing from exp that i dont like relationships, but im pretty sure its the latter) n dont wanna date in general n i know that oriented aroaces exist but im not good at trusting my own judgement so im having a rly hard time figuring it out. of course, i dont expect like a 'well you must be ___’ from this cause from previous exp with learning im nb that doesnt rly work, no matter how well they know you, but i was wondering if theres any advice/tips you could give that might help with being able to figure this out? (i always get nervous about possibly using the wrong labels which isnt really a big deal but it makes figuring this stuff out rly hard for me)

~

The biggest piece of advice I can give is to do your research. Not just on the different labels, but reading experiences from other oriented aroace people. Of course not everyone experiences their sexuality and romantic orientation the same way, but it might give you a clue that you’re on the right track if you are able to relate to a lot of their experiences. And as someone who also has troubles figuring this kind of stuff out about themselves, its ok to take your time and to not really know. You might find you dont even like labels, and thats ok. You be you, and if you find a label that you really like one day, then use it. I hope everything works out for you

-Kass