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i understand people who are upset about the continually misogny in the MCU and media in general. i also understand being upset because you feel like your wlw ship is once again being sidelined or wasn't given as much attention as you would have like, or even because it hasn't played out on-screen the way you hoped.
but they're also conveniently forgetting that joe was announced as the MALE LEAD alongside kathryn. not to mention everyone who had the slightest interest in the show knew "teen" was going to end up being wiccan. and those of us who follow the mcu know that they've been hinting at the young avengers for ages, of which wiccan is a massive part.
i don't think being disappointed about one thing means you should hate on another thing, especially when the other thing is going to figure greatly into the future of the franchise. by all means hate on marvel and tptb. i guess you can even hate on jac if you must (although lbr, she's given us far far more to love than anyone else imo).
anyway joe is a star with a bright future in the MCU, and the ire being voiced in his tag really should be directed elsewhere.
THATS EXACTLY WHAT IM SAYING! Be mad all you want but hating on ANOTHER QUEER CHARACTER AND ACTOR IS NOT IT! “why is the male given more screentime?” Like…have you not seen how they did press…joe was literally paired with kathryn all the time? and tbf we didnt even know of agatha and rio’s relationship wise until the series started and breadcrumbs were given
they made it sound like jac promised some kind of amazing love story when it was never the focus! i was similarly mad that we didnt see more of Agatha and rio’s backstory and would love to see their history on screen but shitting on joe is not it like how tf is he to blame? Just because hes a white twink lol
#ppl are fcking ridiculous#oh cause hes the preferred in ppls eyes#cause hes a male and white and a twink#ok so that makes hate justifiable#got it#ask#anonymous
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Snake Gets Done Dirty
Remember, Clear Sky can NEVER have a consequence for his actions. Ever. If you're ever mad at him for any reason, YOU will be punished for being upset. Clear Sky is allowed to do anything he wants to you but if you don't start slurping you're the Real Bad Guy.
Snake: "FUCK YOU! YOU'RE THE REASON WHY THIS HAPPENED"
Clear Sky: "uhhh... well..... oopsie uwu"
Snake:
But don't worry, Snake is punished for the high crime of embarrassing Clear Sky by being dogpiled by the Clap At Baby Crowd.
Because, AGAIN, god forbid Clear Sky ever suffer a consequence of his actions.
WHY ARE YOU BOOING HIM, HE'S RIGHT
Clear Sky poses this dumb speech about fighting One Eye like it's some big, beautiful, selfless act of service. He was ALWAYS going to do this-- HE WANTS HIS AUTHORITY BACK. He's ALWAYS been an ambitious asshole who hates taking orders from other people, and will clobber anyone who embarrasses him or offends his massive ego.
He's been like this since SUN TRAIL. He's ALWAYS been controlling and fragile with a hunger for power. There has NEVER been a version of Clear Sky that wouldn't have wanted to kill One Eye for taking his toys away, humiliating him publicly.
His piss-poor judgement has gotten DOZENS of people killed in pointless border skirmishes, in the First Battle, and now AGAIN to this tyrant. He had a fit like a child when people tried to warn him it was a bad idea, and he didn't listen!
Snake is the first cat who's done anything about it at this point. The only one who doesn't immediately cave and forgive him after Clear Sky puts on a display of crocodile tears. It's LONG overdue!
And yet, all these cats still gather around to come to his aid. They have NO reason to do this. Clear Sky has proven, OVER AND OVER, that he should NOT HAVE ANY AUTHORITY OVER PEOPLE. These cats have NO reason to trust him, they've all been screamed at, smacked around, and buried mauled loved ones because of him.
They've seen, at most, a month of two of peace under him following the greatest massacre in history, broken by yet ANOTHER bad call.
Writer's pet! Some guy on the writing team ABSOLUTELY projects themselves onto Clear Sky as some kind of power fantasy. There's no other explanation for this level of utter ineptitude.
#Snake dotc#gif#dotc hate#it's ok that snake has bad judgement with slash later I forgive him#quite frankly I think they did it on purpose so it would make snake less justified in hindsight#Same way they made One Eye Born Evil so he'd make Clear Sky look less bad in comparison#Because this arc snaps its spine bending over backwards for this awful character#Ties itself in knots like a pretzel
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myy biggest criticism of camila and one im shocked no one else talks about AT ALL is the fact she watches luz put the gift her DEAD FATHER GAVE HER into the trash after giving her the 'reality talk' and says NOTHING? doesn't even flinch? she instead SMILES and rewards her for going along with it.
like????? why is no one talking about this? it LITERALLY sets up the entire series?
#camila says NOTHING does NOTHING and feels NOTHING#even if luz wasnt whimsical anymore camila shouldve said 'hey keep that as a keepsake' or realized 'oh heyy im making her so insecure#that she's literally throwing awayy her most prized possession and the thing my husband gave her'#toh#i know theyy kinda retconned her in se 3 so people didnt hate her#butttttt#i do think criticism of her is more than justified#and dont even get me started on the manipulation she displays when luz goes through the mirror#when i saw that scene i was like 'oh damn ok tight luz wouldve been completely justified if she HAD run awayy intentionally'#and hot take even in se 3 i dont really forgive her bc once again (running theme for myy toh posting this morning) everything feels forced.
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Creating some kind of fucked up soap opera between metal and mecha in my head
#unfortunate spoilers for one of the asks i guess but i dont think anyone gives a shit#spoken as someone whos never seen a soap opera. mecha just fucking hates his guts [his gears?] so bad#canonically speaking they shouldn't be around at the same time but its like 10 million bajillion times more fun to make them coexist#and there wasnt that big a gap between s3&k and cd anyway so we can just say mecha hasnt been destroyed yet. its ok#would eggman have made another sonic ripoff if mecha is still there. probably not but thats not the principle here#this is abt character exploration and their roles are plenty different enough to justify it for my own sakes#have most definitely fallen in the hole a bit. as is wont to happen i suppose
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i feel somewhat responsible for this, even if i’m not the one saying these things. I’m genuinely so sorry.
No need to apologize! It's not one singular person doing it and truth be told I don't think it's a large majority that thinks that (albeit the ones that do are quite vocal). I didn't mean to upset anyone or anything when complaining about it, I was just letting off some steam.
Having a yap session under the cut sorry I feel like rambling under your ask anon.
Admittedly, I do think there are reasonings for people thinking this way. A lot of the focus with Clash has been on the cogs, especially after the 1.3 update. Which I can't say I blame them! Managers were something new and exciting and (from what I can tell) really separated them from the other servers. I don't blame them for wanting to put focus on that because that was their thing. Alongside other things, but majorly when you hear Clash the managers are mentioned in someway shape or form. But as we all know, toons ended up taking the short stick from this. This isn't helped by the gameplay itself, being mainly a fetch-quest deal so you often only talk to npcs once or twice unless if they're repeated ones and the taskline wasn't entirely accessible on the wiki for a while (shoutout to the wiki maintainers. The taskline script is a savior). Which I'm quite excited to see if they deal with this issue with the rewrite. I imagine they will, but anyways. Social media posts would often contain more managers than toons, which I also believe they're starting to fix. And ontop of this, I believe most of the team in the early era of the sever is gone, so there's been some stuff lost in the change. So yeah, dialogue/writing has been kind of rocky. AGAIN- I am completely aware of the rewrite going on and I am not judging them harshly based off of their current state. I'm very appreciative of the fact that they took the time to listen and are focusing on trying to fix it up. And then there's also fandom mischaracterization- especially of the cogs. Forgive me for mentioning mischaracterization because normally I wouldn't really care (I've mischaracterized characters before..especially in my younger years. I think it's just a process of learning an having fun and I hate to limit anyone because of it). With that being said, there's a lot of baby-fying and coddling of the managers. Especially with those who have more 'sympathetic' stories (Misty, Chip, Winston specifically). Don't get me wrong, I like these characters and I can appreciate the story they're trying to tell, but I feel like so many people will hear their dialogue and then misplace their anger. People get mad at Bessie for trying to protect HER lighthouse or at the Elders for trying to keep YOTT safe (lets not forget Winston was there to brainwash toons). Yes, yes technically there would've been better ways to do it but consider this: The toons are scared. Their homes, stores, lives are being taken over by a big corporation that has more resources that they do. They don't have the privilege of waiting, seeing, and gathering. And then people forget that the company has such a huge role in both toons and cogs lives. If you're mad over the mistreatment of Misty or the fact that Winston is still in the dungeon, your anger should be directed at the company who doesn't care. I may be completely wrong in saying this, but I feel like the stories with almost all of the managers is a reflection of the company. The toons are only trying to protect themself and their environments and yet this seems to go forgotten when people start bashing them. And of course, I'd consider myself a toon guy so me saying all this and complaining may come off as "I HATE the cogs and everyone who posts only about them!" and for clarification that's not true. You all know how much I like that little brain thing. The cogs are interesting, their designs are fun, I don't blame people for liking them because I do too. I just wish that the thought process behind so many of these discussions wasn't so cog focused because I believe that this anger at the toons for, RIGHTFULLY, defending themselves helps push this mischaracterization of them as a whole. That they're mean, boring, unlikeable while the opposite is true. Yes there are some, what I'd consider, "filler" dialogue from the shopkeepers. This is just because of the gameplay. But there are some funny and cute moments with them if people would just listen and read.
Which also brings me into another point: people skip the dialogue. I've caught myself doing this before (on my first account. I have 4 accounts total, so I reread the dialogue on like 3 of them). But people will complain about lack of toon personalities while doing this. It's like reading through a comic book, only looking at the drawings, and then complaining because there "isn't a storyline". Luckily, there's been efforts to keep track of the dialogue on the wiki but I doubt a lot of people are going through and reading the entire script. It just feels very disingenuous to criticize the dialogue when you haven't even read it. Likewise, people don't seem to read the blogposts either. This is both from a dialogue aspect and from an update aspect (people continuously asking about hammerspace/mix-and-match under unrelated posts).
#clemask#clemramble#I think I hit some sort of word limit because it wont let me add anymore so im continuing in tags#It kind of feels like people want the toon resistance to be the perfect victim and then get mad when they act accordingly#Fear. Nervousness. Sadness. Helplessness. Anger. etc etc are all valid reactions to their situation#Not every toon needs to be heroic and whimsical. they're scared. their situation is scary if you think about it#they're at the risk of losing their environment and homes.#Obviously the cogs also have their own issues but I always see this brought up when talking about them but the same context#isnt given to the toons when thinking about their characters and communities as a whole#It's kind of weird to me because I feel like even pre-rewrite I know that I can still understand them and justify their actions#and yet people act like clashes (pre rewrite) writing is justifying the cogs when in reality its not#its just showing that cog society (reflection of workplace enviroment) has its own issues. i never saw it as a justification#even with misty. like I never once hated bessie? my opinion of her never changed even after mistys dialogue#bessie did what she had to do because she was scared and wanted to protect herself and others.#id do something similar if a cog (known for taking over towns) suddenly came up to me#PLUS bessie leaves misty alone afterwards. ppl act like she took a shotgun and shot misty dead and it makes me laugh#ANYWAYS SORRY ANON. NO NEED TO APOLOGIZE.#realistically if youre not saying it then i doubt youre contributing#I would say “i wasnt mad” or anything but to be completely transparent with you guys i was Not-Happy when writing that one post#but it's not directed at any single person but rather the idea itself. I'm sure after the rewrite people will chill out#ITS NEVER THIS SERIOUS im beefing over characters named pretty princess sparkles. im aware of how silly this all sounds ok#the clash fandom isnt the only instance of this. ive seen stuff like this in sw before so like. I know this isnt an uncommon thing either#normally id just keep this on a priv or between friends but something kinda snapped yesterday#i think its bc I just KEEP seeing posts like it with those “hot take” posts or whatever and ppl are always so mean about it#i also think some ppl just already dont like toons and look for every. little. thing. to go after them for#like the “youve been drafted line” i refuse to believe people took that line 100% seriously#or maybe this is all wrong and im just a huge toon fan. and in that case i will die on this hill#you will have to pry them out of my cold dead hands before you catch me genuinely bashing them#ok thats clems giant critques and complaints out of the way
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Hi Lexi
What do you think of partially blinded Vi? You never seem to draw her that way, and I kind of just wanted to know what do you think of it as a certified Vi lover.
I personally think that while something like this can be "cool" (as in, being beneficial to the character design), it's handled quite poor for Vi and it just looks a bit... ungrateful. Simply doesn't look good, doesn't fit her personality or character (am I missing something?) and it doesn't seem to fit or suit her...unlike Kenny's iconic eyepatch. To me, it has become a pivotal thing in his design to a degree in which Kenny with both eyes seems a bit odd looking. I see it as a symbol which stands for Ken being a martyr and all he's lost and sacrificed. He is all about family and helping those he loved, his loved ones truly were the "apple of his eye". It all makes sense, doesn't it?
But for Vi, it's excatly the opposite. I'm just so sorry to see her like this. 😭😭😭 I don't think it makes sense in any way. Louis losing his tongue because he's so talkative and "won't shut up" does kind of make sense, but I cant help but see Violet losing sight as kind of lazy writing. "We need something bad happening to her!!! suffer the children!!!'- the writers exclaimed.
i think vi losing her eyesight is incredibly impactful on her character and i honestly dont understand why some people say its lazy writing. especially since it was foreshadowed multiple times. vi losing her eyesight i think is even more impactful on her character than louis losing his tongue because at least louis still has his music to express himself and uplift spirits through (and its not like he cant communicate At All. his note still makes clem laugh). the reason i dont draw blind vi very often is because of how sad it is to me. for multiple reasons
violets whole thing is wanting to be able to protect the people she cares about, and feels immense grief and guilt about the times she feels shes failed them (thinks if she had been there with the twins that day that she couldve done something to save them. feels she failed everyone taken by the raiders. is scared of failing clem too "if something happened to you because of me? i cant lose you too. i wont". its why she cant leave minnie after shooting her. and a kidnapped vi attacks clem because she doesnt want anyone else to get hurt. hell it even ties back to her grandma and feeling guilty about not doing anything for her)
so for her to lose her eyesight? she took pride in her ability to fight and now she cant do that anymore. cant protect the people she loves. and as someone who started the season as an isolated loner, it forces her to rely on those around her for help, stripping her of her independence (and her independence is what allowed her to stand up against the group for clem when it came to the marlon situation in ep2). a blinded vi is forced into accepting community, whereas a saved violet accepts it on her own. her and clem turn ericsons into the home violet could never see it as
the other reason blind vi makes me so sad is that it is Directly a result of clems actions. kidnapped vi had nothing and wanted nothing to do with the bomb, and yet shes the ONLY ONE who gets hurt by it. clem choosing to let vi be taken means clem both breaks her heart, and then burns out her eyes. louis and his tongue is between him and lilly and was a choice THEY each made outside of clems direct influence (even if it was clem who inspired him to speak up, it is ultimately his choice to keep talking, and lilly hurts him for it. its sad he gets punished for a character moment, but clem had no direct hand in him losing his tongue. its why hes not angry to see her in the cell. he doesnt blame clem for what happened), but the way vi is feeling in that cell is DIRECTLY due to clems actions. vi feels like clem abandoned her after she had put herself on the line for her multiple times. she always had clems back but clem didnt have hers. clem is the one who planted the bomb and vi gets caught in the blast. clem hurts her emotionally And physically. and vi apologizes for getting upset (she tries to apologize on the beach too before theyre forced out in the cart, so she felt wrong for those actions immediately even tho they were understandable. lilly and minnie used her moment of weakness to get in her head. she just wanted everyone to be safe)
kidnapped blinded vi is just so incredibly sad to me, especially when you compare her to a fully realized violet. a violet who has come into herself, has confidence, has opened up, has stopped pushing people away out of fear and lets herself love again. shes a leader. a fighter. a protector. and those are all things a blinded violet loses
neither vi losing her eyes or louis losing his tongue is supposed to add anything to their characters. its about what theyve lost. both of them have important parts of their identity stripped away from them after being taken by the delta. its supposed to be sad. heartbreaking. regrettable. unfortunate. they have not gained anything by their time at the delta, only lost important parts of themselves to it
#twdg#like idk to me kennys eyepatch symbolizes his descent into madness. its the impact carver had on him#hes 'lost his sight' hes losing his way. becoming a danger to the people he says he cares about#kenny gets waaaay too much forgiveness in the fandom and i cant take it honestly. his motivations dont justify his actions#i dont hate him but god do i hate the way the fandom talks about him#esp when certain kenny stans ignore all the protagonists and hate all the women/anyone who opposes a protagonists views/actions#EXCEPT for kenny for some reason???? like when he opposes lee its fine but no one else can do it#you cannot deny hes a scary man by the end of s2 regardless of his motivations and people loooooove to handwave it away#i hate that 'family is family' crap#have none of you ever had a family member do something so horrible that you cut them out of your life completely?#HES NOT EVEN BLOOD FAMILY like that idea doesnt even apply here!!#the whole point of that phrase is that you cant choose who youre related to. twdg is LITERALLY about choosing your family#s3 is the one that makes a point to address blood relations and what worth they have#ok unexpected kenny rant over sorry but boy does the overwhelming kenny love get to me sometimes. there are other characters#sorry i hope this doesnt sound directed at you personally its just the overwhelming fan opinion i see and it drives me mad#where is the NUANCE??#replies with lexi#plamglam
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not me going on a "landlords are evil parasites and buying to rent should never be considered an ethical way to make money" rant at christmas dinner & realising most of my cousins are landlords or aspiring landlords......even the one who has a precarious artistic job like me........class traitor! ruined my mood i had to go smoke in the snow alone & sit in the kitchen while my sister did the dishes for 30 minutes
#istg i hate landlords so much i am never inviting him to any of my gigs again#my other cousins are liberal rich kids so i expected it but from HIM?????#you really can't trust anyone#i find it so crass when a person who is/used to be very precarious justifies buying to rent as a way to get out of precarity#like ok so you're just happy with becoming part of the system that abused you & kept you broke & miserable#just because now you're the one that has the power to leech off of more precarious people who need housing#makes me SICK
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You know I have a cousin who is a trans woman who is visibly and openly trans online, and because she is my family member and I have known her all my life I think I can say on good authority that she is nothing close to a faultless person. I actually had a lot of problems with her growing up and she still often posts inappropriate and objectionable things online that perhaps make her a bigger target than just the fact that she is trans by itself. And I like know that she's quite an easy target and I see herself put herself online in ways that make me worried and concerned for the kinds of comments she gets. She has people scroll her public Facebook page and on any post, especially if it mentions being trans or queer, whether it is innocuous or not, she'll get all these laugh reacts, because Facebook transphobes are evil. But it also feels like, I just wish she'd stop posting like she does. This is not blaming her, and I know transphobes seek her out whether they at first find her saying something respectable or not. It's not fair at all. But I do very much see that she cannot resist feeding the trolls and it's just hard to fucking watch
#she goes through cycles of using and not using social media#i wish she would just use the block button like girl stop trying to justify yourself to everyone#THESE PEOPLE HATE YOU AND WILL NOT RESPECT YOU NO MATTER HOW YOU RESPOND#it's maddening to see specifically happening to a family member. it's never ok to witness#but that's not just any trans woman that's my cousin. i KNOW she has other issues to deal with#and i KNOW so much about her life and issues that i know this online hate isn't even the top of the list#but it can't be helping in fact i know it's not#these cyberbullies don't think of the ppl they attack as being human or having families at all#they don't give 2 shits about cruelty#i feel helpless to defend her#tales from diana#also sometimes she does say shit i straight up won't defend but she doesn't deserve abuse over#for instance she is actually very pro-life. which is a stance i find to be bigoted no matter who it's from#plenty of cis women i have no problem calling misogynists for wanting to outlaw abortion. it's fundamentally wrong#idk why she feels the need to speak on things like that since it does her no favors and makes her a bigger target#i mean obviously it will never affect her since she can't give birth. it is very much like stay in your lane#whether or not you have a uterus it's nobody's right to tell someone else they shouldn't have full legal possession of their own body.#there's really no need to be a transphobe about it to her. but of course they ARE#as well as any other vulnerable/personal information or opinionated stance she gives out#i feel so sorry for her
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hey can we stop dehumanizing people who have done bad things? like is that a thing we can collectively stop doing? i genuinely do not give a fuck how terrible someone is, treating ANYONE as subhuman or undeserving of life is immoral and disgusting.
and while im thinking of it, can we also stop labeling anyone who does something wrong on the internet as a sociopath or psychopath? can we stop applying labels that stigmatize and demonize mental disorders? can we stop acting like people with certain disorders or symptoms are evil and disgusting? like if you're someone who claims to be positive towards mental health and the mentally ill but still think people with NPD, ASPD, etc. are evil and morally wrong for having those disorders you're being ableist.
the way people treat individuals with ANY disorder that can have symptoms that are "scary" or "gross" is downright terrible. dissociative disorders and disorders that cause psychosis are constantly painted as scary or evil or inherently dangerous. cluster B disorders get treated in a very similar way. this demonization of mental disorders and dehumanization of the mentally ill has been perpetuated over and over and over and over again by people being either unknowingly or purposely ableist and by media like youtube where every single creator who does something wrong is labeled a narcissist or a psychopath or a sociopath or having no empathy or emotionless
it is RIDICULOUS to me that so many people just cannot seem to comprehend that people with disorders are PEOPLE. that people who do bad things are PEOPLE. people who have disorders and do bad things are PEOPLE. treating the mentally ill like animals and treating people who do immoral things like demons gets us literally nowhere. all it does is hurt people, whether they be innocent or not.
and dont even fucking start with the "well people who arent innocent deserve it" bullshit because THAT DOESNT MATTER. i do not give a FUCK if someone "had it coming" or whatever, because guess what???? i think hurting people is a bad thing!! we SHOULD expect accountability from those who have harmed others, but harming someone back isnt doing that! you cant tell someone to take accountability for the stones they threw when you're throwing stones back! you CANNOT expect someone getting attacked and barraged from all sides to just put their hands up and take it, that isnt how this works and is honestly a TERRIBLE thing to encourage.
i understand that people can be vindictive and cruel and unwilling to change their behavior but just doing the same thing back, just being vindictive and hateful back to them, it doesnt fix anything. treating someone terribly because they did the same thing doesnt fix anything. all it does is create more people who have been hurt. it will never, and i mean NEVER, be justified to do cruel things to another person. there isnt a thing on this earth that will convince me that violence and revenge is a reasonable response to "crimes" that pretty much everyone has committed. being a bad friend or partner, being shitty to someone, harming others, literally none of it is fixed by doing it back.
instead of punishment and dehumanization and ableism and discrimination of any variety, just condemn their actions or block them or report them or anything that isn't just throwing a bigger stone.
#sorry i feel strongly about this#it genuinely angers me that so many people will immediately respond to hateful behavior by just being hateful back#that solves literally fucking nothing#it is ok to be upset and hurt but it is never justified to express that pain by hurting someone else#it is alright to feel wronged but the saying “two wrongs dont make a right” exists for a reason#trust me when i say i have felt and been wronged and hurt many times#and even though my first thoughts were always vengeful i hold myself to a standard of not doing the same thing back to them#what do i accomplish by hurting people the way i was hurt? a feeling of satisfaction that someone else feels that pain?#why should i give into that urge just because someone else did?#it is better and much more healthy to step back and remember that i am in no position to decide to spread my pain to others#because thats how more hurt and angry people are made who can then end up creating even more hurt and anger#no one is in any position to decide that someone else deserves to feel their pain
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I saved a daddy long legs!
i was scared and (i know dont @ me) was considering spraying him because I still fear spiders and spider-look-a-likes
up until past few years ive been working really hard on figuring out how to save them rather than kill bc ofc, it doesnt align with my views to kill them
normally i let my dog eat them to justify it- ironically, bc "im not killing them, my dog is"
but he was in one place, not moving and i was on the toilet, so i took the time to read up about him.
i named him, forced myself to, and to call him cute, so that it would make it harder for me to go through with killing him
i tried to imagine him being curious, or scared, or relaxing. Though i know most likely they arent capable of it in a way we can understand, it still helped me see him as no different than my dog or cat or me, rather than "just a bug' or some type of 'scary thing'
and in the end i saved him! container and a folder.
i still was scared, but seeing the (idk another word) humanity in him, the value he has and that he has for himself as a living being, helped make it possible to save him
its still really hard, and on occasion i do end up killing spiders or having my dog eat them when its quick scenarios where i dont have time to think it through
but compared to years ago ive gone from saving 0 to maybe 80%
and this is one of those moments where, its not exactly possible for me to push myself because it can undo all the work ive done. and thats ok.
this is the best i can do right now and im proud of myself.
my best, is not how i imagine my best being. in my mind, i could push myself harder but thats not practical.
doing your best is strategic.
im just so glad i didnt kill him. reading about him, learning about him, appreciating his role, and labeling him cute and giving him a name helped a lot
and sometimes, anthropomorphizing animals can be beneficial. i know he doesnt feel fear and curiosity like i do, but if it means not unnecessarily taking a life, then he does to me in that moment
#anyway#i havnt had a lot of oppurtunities like this where i went from deciding to spray and kill to having time to think it through#so it feels a little different than usual#i think it also helps hes not a spider#but i can feel it made me a little more confident#and truly i used to not sleep for like at least 2 nights if a spider was in the room AND CAUGHT#and killed!#i used to be so scared i would get dizzy and have panic attacks and feel like i had to throw up#this was before i went vegan but even after#even with my mindset changed with how i viewed all animals i still would kill spiders bc i was scared#and i never even really tried. i would justify it by making my dog eat them or i would justify it with my fear#my strong reaction justified me killing them. and id try not to mention it and forget it was a part of my life bc i knew#that my actions didnt align with my morals. like i was well aware of the hypocrisy#and some might thing whats the big deal. but that little guy is part of thr ecosystem. i shouldnt decide that they dont get to live#simply because im afraid. at what point is it then wrong to do so to any other animal? how small do they have to be?#is it ok when its only a bug? id say people would object to someone killing a butterfly out of fear simply bc a butterfly is beautiful#killing mice is acceptable bc we label them pests simply bc they are trying to survive off our items on property they have no understanding#of. so yeah. im not ok with it and i hate that it took me so long to work towards fixing it.#and my friends have held it to me and im glad.
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was going through my blog trying to track down an old post i made talking abt my feelings on jolene and it was. much longer than i remembered it being. and haha yeah i still agree with it. i need to fucking. sort out my feelings on that character and that subplot
#like. its just been A Thing where once i thought abt it too hard it was just Wow i hate this actually#its not entirely like a visceral discomfort but its a sort of like. its unpleasant to think abt this for too long#like??? the easiest way for me to explain it is that normally its fine like ok a pursuer antagonist character to add lil backstory#but the moment you toss in the implication that she still has romantic feelings for him it jumps up to WOW THIS IS UNCOMFORTABLE#for me. for me. like just all of it? and some fan stuff that influenced it like. bad jokes and uncomfy phrasing that leans to linebeck bein#like an unwilling participant or ‘giving in’ like fan stuff also REALLY hasnt helped so i just. yknow avoid it#salty talks#might delete later but i didnt delete the og so whatever#like she is absolutely just. badly written. shes a joke and poorly written and its just. there and there are implications#it does just come down to. shes badly written and the way linebeck reacts to all of it doesnt help#like when i worry abt like. coming off as sexist. its like nah shes just fucking badly written#casca is a similar kind of character as someone aggressive to her love interest and lashing out at him despite having feelings#but shes like. well written. and guts reciprocates. and you like. see them communicate and grow closer#here youre just given a disastrous fucking aftermath where communication is completely broken down#and while the aggressive party still has feelings the other party actively wants to just not engage with it and actively doesnt care#cuz like. he literally does not bring her up or allude to her outside of her being immediately relevant i cannt see him being interested#GOD. i just need to write all this out i keep justifying myself with it i need to. get it out#im narrowing down. something. for how i think their backstory together goes with it being a lot of miscommunication and it just being like#a bad situation anyways with their last actual encounter being a violent one and its like yeah no that was a trainwreck#i know its a fucking like. comedic(????) subplot in a lighthearted childrens game#but it has Vibes to me and that game does have some darker vibes to it we all know that#and it just. i dont like her. i dont. i remember i used to be like. alright with her. and then i thought on it too much#casca addendum ig. shes objectively not like. well well written. but all things considered. shes pretty good#like im p sure she was made to suffer to make guts feel bad but. she does happen to be a kickass character in the midst of that
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Justice for jolyne wdym emporio defeated pucci
#can i say maybe i dont like where this is going bc i dont like the priest. like why not have dio do all this. i have to endure his boring#self while not having any motivation bc i still dont know why he wants to do all this bc that backstory doesnt justify anything#while dio is in the background and he has a motive to hate the joestars and create a world without them. idk#this is like light and near but unjustified#i would have prefered the priest resurrecting dio in some strange way than him doing all this i think#and i still dont like his powers ☝🏻 they dont make sense to me and the evolution doesnt either. how can you just flip stands.#also his rant about how he killed all his enemies... josuke and giorno are out there now lmao#retracting my statement they changed the opening but just this last episode#i do like the destiny stuff like the same thing happens in a new world bc of necessity and the whole plot has been about things happening#because it needs to happen but why does this reset need to happen??? why does pucci want it?? so everyone can be happy?? why??#literally nothing that happened to him has been the joestars fault. dio brainwashed him? ok SHOW IT#like the plot is okay but the priest doing all this makes no sense it could be anyone at this point#okay i get it now destiny is like gravity.... but his stands changing makes no sense still. the disc thing got out bc of the plant baby. ok#but the gravity just changed to something else entirely??? to time??#he kept repeating time and space but a space stand would be the hand. gravity is something else entirely#its not like velocity>acceleration or star platinum and the world velocity>time. that makes sense#gravity and time is like my stand makes anything into ice cream and then it makes things disappear#rant at this point but yeah#okay control. the priest wants to know exactly what is going to happen at all times to be prepared and evolve?? and why would dio want this?#weather report...... i mean it was meant to be#yeaaahhh emporio roast him#irene and anakiss ajdhaisjaisjakakakak#i might be crying but this doesnt change my pucci criticisms#the ending song..... incredible choice#i think i liked golden wind too much and i cant control myself and not compare#but pucci doesnt make sense to me here apart from being a priest and wanting to fulfill 'god's' purpose or whatever that means#so now there is a new world but with joestars but they dont have stands?? or just pucci doesn't exist (or dio)#so just the prison gang doesnt get them. but ermes didnt go to prison either. idk#talking tag#watching jojo
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Someone stop me sending a passive-aggressive thank you for considering it message to the lecturer who said she wouldn't let me take a quiz at a later date despite my being like. actually pretty sick.
#Sighhhhh#Id skip it but the developmental psych lecturer hates me and is determined to sink my gpa#So i might as well do well in this course#When asked about low marks on the midterm. (which went really well actually. I knew all the answers /and/justified them.) she said content#Was good but the writing was really bad#Huh? T.T#Like it's totally legible. Not cutesy yes. But legible...#ANYWAY. im gonna loudly drag a chair off to the side tomorrow. 'sorry. Just making sure i dont get anyone else sick. Continue please :)'#Also sneezing every few minutes today so that should be fun in class tomorrow :)#:)#(ok im kidding but also am i really dragging myself out of bed tomorrow? T.T everything hurts and my throat itches and my body has yet to#Decide if it wants a fever or not because im alternating between feverish and then the hated fever-breaking state#:(#I attend every class. I stay awake. I answer questions. I do well in exams/quizes/assignments. Ive earnt a sick day :(
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How to explain to ppl that jokes are the foundations to a lot of bigotry... Like you let ppl you don't know start laughing at jokes poking fun at groups they aren't in and that's where they start to get comfortable with being bigoted and then using "it was just a joke" as a defense
#personal#saw a post about getting wrapped in fabric for calling someone who is nb a girl#op said it was just a joke post and they didn't want ppl being transphobic in the comments#but guess what was all up in the comments??? u guessed it! transphobia#ppl making up scenarios that never happened to justify being bigoted#and saying that it's okay to misgender someone consistently and not try to properly identify them if you think it's ok cause u use the terms#in a gender neutral way 🤪🤪 hee so quirky#like stfu....#i use girl and bruh in a gn way but if someone told me they didn't want to be referred that way I'd stop#it's called being respectful#this is also why it's so sketchy seeing those joke posts that are made about specific group and then op is a gen meme uploader#with no identifiers of who is behind the account#i immediately clock the amount as run by a teenage cishet white boy since they wanna act like they're the default anyways#which then makes the perspective of their content a lot more heinous#and i don't care if its bad faith because these posts are often viewed and laughed at by ppl who are not the ppl being made fun of#and it makes the ppl in the content vulnerable to bigotry and having their existence questioned by assholes#so in my opinion if you're not apart of the group your joking about and you post content making fun of them to millions of strangers#then ur literally posting content that farms negative views towards the group you posted about#whether you did it intentionally or not#esp hate when they go but my friend is X and they're okay with it!!#ok and we aren't all your friend... and your friend isn't our ruler so....#keep that shit between you and ppl who know your boundaries or else don't complain when ppl think you're a bigot
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sorry but i need the entire fucking bad batch fandom to shut the fuck up about saw gerrera and tech's death being his fault right the fuck now
#i hate go vagueblog but.#but.#it's sus ok it's fucking sus#ever since the finale dropped seeing this reaction fucking everywhere is fucking sus as hell#i dont know how to describe it but the way you guys are so keen on bloodying this man for something he was#tangentially tied to really fucking rubs me the wrong way#maybe its not that deep but it literally makes me sick seeing how you'll band together in wanting to beat a black character for#something he is not at fault for.#the logic reach to justify it is so. hm. hm. why are you so keen on --?#anyways.#im going to bed
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Northern Ireland is so normal. Literally sooo normal. Sometimes people from other countries ask me about Northern Ireland and they're shocked when I tell them how normal it is. I feel sorry for them. They'll never know normality and my heart aches for them.
#the psni are really showing their asses atm 💀 i mean we all knew they were biased but the way they just stood there while masked loyalists#went into court to intimidate a witness in a sectarian uvf murder trial. very normal.#when are we gonna stop justifying it by saying 'well at least they're not the ruc' like maybe so but that doesn't make it ok#and where's 50:50 recruitment gone? aren't we pretty much evenly split now? so shouldn't they be bringing it back?#also the fact that over double the number of catholics are arrested than protestants lmao#but we're obviously just more predisposed to crime ig#like on one hand i wanna live where my family is and be close to them. & on the other i absolutely hate that place and am so glad to be out#even when i feel positive about it something like this always happens to remind me that no we haven't moved forward that much actually 🙃
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