#ok im done snot-nosed crying now

[barrenstars]

i've been thinking about it lately and i know a lot of my mutuals are as slow as me to reply ooc, ( tumblr dms are like the void ) so i was thinking of ways, aside from posting starter calls for people that i could make interacting with me easier than having to plot. and, honestly, memes are the absolute best way. if we've never spoken, barely spoken, speak every so often, or speak every day, i still encourage you to send some memes. because, honestly, my inbox is full of the same four people and i'm not too sure if it's because i, myself, am struggling with reaching out to people. that, and i know there is a lot of anxiety about sending memes to someone, i get anxious to send memes to people in case someone is like 'ew its them', or they simply get ignored. ( anxiety is a bastard fr fr. ) so this is my way of kind of saying, just send the meme! or forty! also, in case you're struggling to think of who to send them to, i'm going to attach a list of muses i am feeling really motivated to write for!

muses !

jujutsu kaisen todo aoi, ieiri shoko, nanami kento, ino takuma, amachi sana (oc; verse available), nakada reina (oc; verse available), anya forger (jjk verse available, might be altered), petra müller (oc; verse available). tokyo revegers sano emma, haitani ran, yamamoto takuya.

these are of course just the muses i have the most inspiration for, you can send anything or we can write anything for anyone on my muse list, it doesn't bother me at all! i'm just trying to think of ways to make things easier for people.

[saerotonins]

watching nanami's last dance

ft. nanami kento x reader

content warnings: fluff, light angst, jjk actor au, descriptions of nanami's scene (im so sorry), light hurt/comfort, slightly suggestive at the end

wc: 1047

note: guys he's not dead it's all just acting ok

jjk actor au masterlist

the soft breeze of the air, the pretty scene across the beach.

kuantan, malaysia indeed looks like a sight for sore eyes. but more so is your husband.

kento looks so peaceful, the small but obvious smile adorned his face as he take his slow dance, prance like someone who had just got their freedom. he looks so free of pain, even through an untrained eye, his heart feels light.

and it was then replaced with kento's cries of pain, agony, and compassion, while fighting off curses that surrounded him.

contrary to what you have seen earlier, he looks so exhausted, yet he still fought so hard to protect the youth and save everyone with all what he has and with all what he can do.

but as soon as he felt like he did enough, as a man, kento lowers his pride, and with a soft smile on his face,

"you've got it from here," he had said as the soft smile on his vanished the moment he did.

kento jolted beside you as he heard you wail and cry while hugging the plushie of him. he can clearly see the pain in your eyes and the snot present in your face.

"NANAMI, NOOOOOOOO!" you shouted all over again as you hugged the plushie tighter. your eyes and nose are all swollen from all the crying and your breaths and voice have been escalating really bad.

she's really taking this seriously, huh, kento had thought while staring at you across the couch.

eventually, he felt a bit bad and scooted closer to you and wrapped you around his embrace as he kisses the crown of your head.

"you're here crying over a fictional man when the real thing is just right here, darling," he said with a slight hint of humor in his voice. even without seeing his face, you know he's grinning.

you try to wiggle out of his arms but unfortunately, he's stronger than you. "you're making fun of meeeee," you say as you sniffle through your still flowing tears. "he deserved betterrrrrr, he had done so much why is his ending like thisssssss," kento couldn't help but smile as he cradle you in his arms and brush your hair through his fingers as a way to comfort you.

"he deserved so much more kento, i'm so sad," you managed to muster in between tears, "i know, darling, i know, but i'm always here, alright?" he coos at you as he sways both of your bodies back in forth and hugging you closer to his body.

you stayed in the same position all while kento is still cradling you to comfort until the episode ended. once the commercials started rolling, he spoke up.

"you're so cute when you get worked up like this, darling," he chuckled as he cupped your face with his large and gentle hands so he could see you.

there, his heartstrings had been tugged once again by you. even after crying, you still look majestic despite the tear stains and snot that had decorated your face. he also felt a part of his shirt getting wet because of your tears but he doesn't mind it one bit.

"stop it, that scene was made so well it emotionally broke me, nanami deserved better," you pouted from his teasing.

"mhm-hm, i know, darling, you were so adorable," he replied accompanied by a kiss on your forehead.

"stop flirting with me right now, i literally just lost a husband," you say with faux annoyance in your voice.

you suddenly hear and see your husband let out a very hearty belly laugh, he finds your breakdown very much amusing. "alright, i'm sorry for disrespecting the dead," kento joked as he continued to laugh.

you slapped his biceps for teasing you, "you're such a menace! i'm a grieving wife and you're making fun of me," 

"alright, alright, i'll stop," kento then reached for your left hand and brought it to his face. you see him look into your eyes right before kissing the finger where your wedding and engagement rings sit. "you're still cute though, too bad i wasn't able to record it," the playful glare from your eyes made him chuckle.

"okay but seriously though, that made me so sad, i want to fulfill his wish," a frown creeped onto your face when you remembered that nanami wanted to go to malaysia.

kento's eyebrows perked up, "you want to go to malaysia?" 

"we will go to malaysia, he at least deserves to live his dreams through me," kento nods, agreeing to your idea, "alright, we'll go there around summer, i heard it's best to visit at that time, how's that sound?" kento saw a glimpse of sparkle in your eyes and your wide smile as you vigorously nodded before you pull him into a tight embrace.

a comfortable silence envelopes the both of you for a while until he breaks it and faces you, "you let a fictional man's dreams comes true but how about mine?" he said with faux jealousy and sadness in his eyes, and a hint of mischief, one that you didn't catch.

you look at him with confusion in your eyes, "huh? what would you like then?" kento closes the gap between you and whispers to your ears, "i really, really, want to have a daughter," and when he faces you again, a shit-eating grin is present on his face.

you were shocked, to say the least. "you're so stupid!" you say out of nervousness as you feel the heat rise on your face, but the stutter in your voice doesn't go unnoticed by your husband.

ah, five years of marriage and he still makes you feel like this.

you cleared your throat right after you recovered, "well, maybe we can start making that dream a reality now."

kento's smile grew even wider and let out a hearty giggle, "that's my girl," he said with a husky voice before lifting you off from the couch and carrying you bridal style as he took wide strides towards your shared bedroom.

"it's gonna take many rounds though, so i hope you're ready," he says mischievously with a bright smile spread across his face.

oh boy, it's going to be a long night.

another note: this is a treat for my fellow kento girlies. i hope everyone is doing well (i'm still suffering btw), giving yall a big virtual hug <33

[casualbiintrovert]

i had a strange dream

I had a dream last night, one like i haven't had in a long time. one that leaves you happy and melancholy all the same, the kind that makes you feel good and warm. i dreamt that i cried and I dreamed that i was with my parents and i told them everything, i told them how sometimes the things they said hurt, how when they ignore me it makes me feel small, that for the longest time i was hurting in a way that i feared for my own life and in a way that made me feel like i would never get better. and in that dream they listened. they listened to me cry and they listened to me scream and when i was done all they did was hold me tight and tell me that they were thankful that i told them and that everything would be ok. and in that moment i believed them and i cried. i cried until my throat was sore and red. i cried till my tear ducts were empty and my cheeks were raw and the snot dripped down my nose. i cried into their shoulders and they held me tight and comforting. they let me and never said a word, they kissed my cheeks and rocked me till i could finally breathe and they held me as i shook. it felt like everything was just gone and like i was that little girl again who just had a bad nightmare and needed her parents to tell her it was just a figment of her imagination. That love and security i felt when all i wanted or needed was them. and then i woke up, and the first thing i realized was how i couldn't feel their embrace anymore and how dry my eyes were. and it hurt more than when i was actually crying. i woke up and i wasn't that little girl anymore, i wasn't their little girl anymore. and strangely enough, it left me with a melancholy yet warm feeling in my chest. i know it still hurts, but i can't help but be grateful for the dream nonetheless. and more than anything that's what hurts the most, knowing that now it seems like nothing more than just that- a dream, that im endlessly trying to recall, and nothing to show for it but my imagination and crumpled-up pillow that i hug. i was just a dream. and it was the best one ive ever had.

[gojous-exbabymama]

random headcanon about some of the jjk boy’s during sexy time

warning: smut, 18+, mdni, aged up characters, daddy kink, size kink, anal sex, crying, oral(f/m), unprotected sex, fluff, slight angst if you squint, loss of virginity, and injury to reader but nothing serious

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gojou saturo

“that time you sneezed” + “caught a cramp so bad he almost passed out”

- sex with gojou is always fun

- hate to admit it but it’s true

- it’s unpredictable yet super exciting

- don’t tell him that tho or else he’ll never shut up

- your back was arched against the sturdy kitchen table with your legs bent and pushed to your chest

- gojou was thrusting into you just right, hitting that spot deep inside you that had you screaming

- “yes, yes. right there d-dont stop!”

- “right there princess? am i hitting your special spot?”

- “you don’t have to answer that, i know i am~”

- “go on, scream louder for daddy, let em’ know just how good im making you feel”

- if you weren’t too focus on cumming you would of told him to shut the fuck up but he was making you feel good

- and you learned a long time ago that he doesn’t need to hear it from your lips to know, your body spoke for you

- the knot in your belly was growing tighter

- you were so close, your cries letting him know

- gojou glances down at you, watching your tits bounce with each thrust as your face twisted in pleasure

- “aww y/n-chan, i wish you could see the faces you’re making”

- gojou grips a hand to your face, squishing your cheeks together hard

- ��soo cute princess~” he coos mockingly, watching as your face scrunched up, eyes going watery and nose twitching

- you felt it right then, the small tickling sensation in your nose that had you breathing picking up

- mustering up all your strength, you pulled your face out of his palm and turned away

- before he could say anything cheeky, you were letting out sneeze, after sneeze, after sneeze, after sneeze-

- if gojou wasn’t so balls deep inside you he would of thought it was cute

- but no, your body tensed and jerked with each sneeze that it had you clenching so tight around his cock he couldn’t even move

- the loud whine and groan pulls you out of your sneezing frenzy as you watch gojou’s body shaking, all movement coming to a halt was he tilts his head back

- that’s when you felt it, rope after rope of his hot cum painting your walls

- followed by a loud, painful yelp coming from him as he pulls out swiftly, gripping the back of his thigh

- you sat up quickly but was forced back down from his body weight alone as you feel him go slack against you

- “saturo?” you tapped him but didn’t get a response for a few moments until he shot his head up

- “oh my god, i just came so hard i got a cramp and almost passed out!”

- you couldn’t stop yourself from laughing at that as he pouts a little, hands rubbing up and down your sides

- “it wasn’t my fault you were squeezing my dick so tight I couldn’t stop myself”

- “am I hearing the great gojou saturo has no self control?”

- you were only teasing but he took that as a challenge as he gripped your legs, pulling them up and onto his shoulders, his dripping tip rubbing against your folds

- “gojou wait, i need to-need to clean my nose!!”

- he waste no time and pushes his length back inside you, ready to punish you for thinking he was weak

- “leave it, you look cute with a runny nose anyways princess~”

- your face was covered in tears, snot, and his cum by the time he was down with you

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megumi fushiguro

“cumming way to fast” + “that time he accidentally got it in your eye”

- being a sorcerer was stressful asf

- he was exhausted literally all the time and getting injured left him bed bond for most days

- megumi barely had time to even relax

- but that’s what you were there for

- your weren’t one to brag or anything but you thought you were good at sex

- and megumi always made sure to tell you just how good you felt

- weather it’s your pussy squeezing him or the tight feeling of your throat wrapped around his throbbing length

- so to say that you felt a wee bit cocky the first time he came just seconds after bottoming out of you would be an understatement

- but you made sure to comfort him when you notice the pout and frustrated look on his face

- “that’ll never happen again” he mumbled out before cleaning you up

- but it does happen again

- about three more times actually

- and every time he grew more and more pissed at himself

- he was stressed! you knew that so you didn’t knock him if you didn’t finish

- you would tell him that it was ok

- “these kind of things happen gumi’”

- “you’re working yourself too hard baby :/“

- “let me help you relax, pls”

- expect he was never relaxed after cumming so quick inside you

- honestly, you were surprised that he could still get it up from all the stress he carries around

- finally done with finishing first every time, megumi made it his mission to get you right

- which is why he was kneeling between your legs, skirt lifted up with your panties stretched and pulled to the side as he feast on your cunt

- and you were a mess because it has been awhile since you got off and only megumi could make you see stars

- he had you spread wide for him, licking and sucking on your swollen clit that had you moaning just for him

- “ahh megumi please~” you don’t even know what your begging for but he does

- thick fingers thrusting in and out you had you gripping the sheets while your thighs tremble

- tale tale sign that you’re about to cum so he takes his fingers from out of you

- before you could whine at the loss, he’s soon thrusting his tongue inside your weeping pussy, ready to catch everything you give him

- “gumi i-im gonna cum for you!”

- “do it, cum for me kitten, cum right on my tongue”

- your body shook as you cum around the stiff muscle of his tongue, thigh squeezing around his head as you grip and pull on his hair hard

- he lets you come down, pressing kisses along your thighs before he stands up, stripping himself out of his clothes

- switching spots, you kiss along his stomach before reaching for his throbbing cock

- giving small licks against the tip to catch his precum dripping as he groans

- your mouth waters and you don’t wait a second longer before you took him in your mouth

- bobbing your head up and down, moaning when you feel him thrusting slowly in your mouth to match your rhythm

- you were just getting started when your eyes meet his right as you take him to the back of his throat

- big mistake

- the hand that has a grip your hair grows tight as he cums down your throat with a loud groan

- it caught you off guard and you didn’t have much time to prepare for his large load

- you pull off his length with a cough, he’s cum dripping from your lips as his load finishes on your face

- megumi hearing you gasping loudly brings him back to earth when he sees your head slight bent with one of your eyes squeezed shut

- “y/n?” calls as you hiss, shooting him a small glare is when he sees why

- “your cum got in my eye megumi.”

- “i-im sorry ba-“

- “dont just stare get me a towel!!”

- after cleaning you up and feeding you, megumi laid on top of you as you cuddle him closer

- he apologized more than enough you’re gonna have to give him kisses to settle him down

- “it’s ok honey, i still thought it was hot.”

- megumi could only groan, pouting as he watch you grin

- “you could say that i didn’t see it coming, huh huh?”

- megumi groaned once more as he buries his face into your neck

- yeah he definitely wasn’t going to let that happen again

————————————————————————————————————————itadori yuuji

“that time it was your first time” + “was that a mouth on the side of his cheek?”

- bby boi

- you can’t really say what sex is truly like with yuuji

- since you’ve never had it with him because you were a virgin

- and he was fine with that, he’ll wait for as long as you liked

- the first time it almost happened was back in him dorm during his 3rd year

- you both talked about it and agreed to have your first time be together so a week later, yuuji had the perfect night planned for you

- he really pulled out all the stops

- we’re talking warm scented candles, rose petals, soft music playing in the background and your favorite take out

- it was actually really romantic ngl

- after dessert you found yourself laying back on his bed, making out with such passion it left you feeling buzzed

- everything was slow, both your movements gentle when taking off each other clothes

- giggling and kissing the nerves away

- yuuji reached for you bra, getting it undone with easy

- his eyes in your body from your breast down to your thighs rubbing together, pretty pink panties covering center

- “you’re so beautiful baby” he whispers

- it was moment were you took each other in before you reached for his hand, bringing it up to where you wanted him to touch you first

- your eyes closing shut once you feel his warm hand squeezing and caressing your breast, gasping softly when you feel his thumb brushing over your nipple

- his lips leaving yours before kissing down to your neck had you feel needy

- the room filling with sounds of your pleasing sighs and his heavy breathing

- all of it cut short by the sound of a low rugged voice

- “what are you waiting for? just fuck her already”

- your eyes shot open and you couldn’t stop the loud scream from your lips

- because why the fuck was there a mouth on his cheek and an eye under his eye??!?

- once you pulled the sheets over your naked body did yuuji realize what had happened

- he slaps a hand over his cheek so hard he knocked himself out of bed

- ok so maybe he didn’t tell you everything about why he was at the academy and in hindsight, he probably should of told you everything before he had you naked

- after calming you down and getting a ice pack does he tell you about how he ate an ancient cursed finger and now there is a very powerful curse living inside of him

- it was definitely hard for you to wrap your head around this information because you weren’t a sorcerer, you didnt see demons or cursed things or even knew about those kind of things

- so yeah, you were a bit freaked out, a little upset and needed sometime to think so you left

- yuuji understood and gave you as much time as you needed but he was literally dying on the inside without his baby

- he was mopey, quiet, and just overall sad to be around because he missed you so much

- finally after a few days you reached out and invited him over to your place

- tear was shed and yuuji apologizing profusely

- “im sorry y/n i love you so much, i dont want to lose you”

- “you’re not going to lose me yuuji, i love you to much for that to happen just promise me no more secret mkay?”

- he agreed with a kiss that quickly turned heated and you were back in your room

- “he’s not going to..ya know?”

- yuuji quickly shutting it down because “nope, him and i have a deal, he won’t be coming out when it’s just us, i promise”

- that’s enough to put you at ease and soon enough, clothes were thrown off and you two were finally connected

- yuuji thrust were gentle, making it easier for you to get used to his size

- his fingers rubbing circles on your clit left your body shaking and your pussy clenching around him

- and when you both cum at the same time, you’re gripping and holding each other tight

- yeah he may have shedded a tear or two when he came it was just that good

- aftercare king where he cleans you up and cuddles, whispering ‘i love you’s and soft kisses

- “promise me you won’t die yuuji”

- there’s a pause before you feel his lips kiss your forehead

- “im not going anywhere baby, i love you”

- he promised no more secrets but right now he can’t tell you what will happen the day he finds that last finger

- but for now, he’s content with just holding you until then

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aoi todo

“that time you slapped him” + “he literally blew your back out”

- the time you’ve seen todo first time was shirtless

- you were terrified and turned on because what the fuck?

- no seriously, what the fu ck¿!

- dude is massive

- like was it even legal to be that massive?

- and when he dropped his pants for you the first time, you straight up walked out the room because there ain’t no way in hell

- “that thing is not going anywhere near my pussy”

- “please babygirl, just the tip?”

- it took a very, very long time before you even allowed that

- not even when your mouth watered or your pussy went purr

- his cock was just too big

- but after awhile you kinda got used to him once you realize all your insides were still in tact

- you’ve had some sex mishap, that was much was a given since this is todo we’re speak off

- you slapped the shit out of him one time when you heard him moan some idols name while he had his dick down your throat

- you didn’t let him touch you for almost a month

- he learned his lesson quick tho

- or that time he was fucking you standing up

- legs hanging over his broad shoulders while his hands held a tight grip on your ass bouncing you up and down on his thick cock

- you were three rounds in, body hot and covered in sweat

- the room filled with sounds of your moans, his deep grunts and the sickly wet squishing sound of your pussy

- todo was abusing your whole, having just made you squirt all over his cock had sent him into a frenzy, his pace picking up at a new speed

- until he took a step forward, his foot slipping out from under him, sending him falling back but he was quick enough to reach out to grip the dresser behind him

- but not quick enough to stop the stacks of manga from falling on top of you both

- one word to describe sex with this beefy man: passion

- everything he did in bed was always him trying to show just how much of a man he is and that only he could satisfy you

- whenever he was done with you, your limps were sore and achy

- it felt like you ran a marathon then swam six miles and back

- meanwhile he barely broke a sweat

- todo always made sure you were left spent and satisfied

- no matter when or where

- and he saw you bending over, getting a small peak of the underside of your perfect ass, he had to have you

- so that’s how you found yourself in a small closet, it could fit two people comfortably

- but todo made up at least three on his own so there was barely any room but that doesn’t stop him from fucking your ass

- you held your upper half up by gripping onto the shelve in front of you as his large hands grip and squeeze your plush ass

- “thats it babygirl, doing so good”

- it felt so good taking him like this, his heavy balls slapping against your soaked cunt while he pounds his throbbing length in and out your ass

- hands slapping each cheek before leaving you spread open to watch him fuck you

- “f-fuck so tight!” he thrust harder, pushing your body forward “you love when i fuck you with this big cock don’t you?”

- you move a hand back to try and slow his movement but he only grabs it and keeps his held to your back

- “too much d-daddy..s’ too big!”

- but he keeps going, grinning wildly when he heard that

- todo stretched you out good for him and it was still to much cock for you

- your cries and moans bounce off the walls, your grip on the shelf growing loose the faster he went

- he sends another hard spank against your ass before his fingers found your needy clit

- pinching and rubbing quick circles around the bud had you gushing

- “oh fuck yeah, you filthy girl cumming from getting your ass fucked? so dirty”

- your body shakes as you tongue rolls out your mouth, panting and whining like a bitch in heat

- “fucking needy, perfect girl just for me” he growls, his hips picking up speed as he chases his high

- “t-to..slow..down”

- you could barely get any words out, your brain slowly turning to mush as you become nothing but a toy for him to cum inside

- he was going feral, loving that he can turn you so dumb from just his cock alone

- the sound of wood cracking catches your attention before the shelf you’re gripping breaks, sending the front of your body forward down

- the scream you let out make todo halt all his movements, his big hands and large arms holds your middle to keep you up right as you start to sob

- “w-what’s wrong?”

- “can’t move…it hurts!!”

- white hot pain shoot through your back as you body goes stiff

- five hours later you’re being wheeled out the hospital with strict orders to not leave the bed

- you made todo swear not to tell anyone about this and swore on takada’s life that he wouldn’t tell

- but when yuuji comes to visit and ask what happened, here comes this big guy

- “it was my dick, my dick put her in a wheelchair brother!!”

- please slap him again sis

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[dapandapod]

I went out for a walk and was struck with inspiration. This is kinda sad and probably a lil weird to do for someone else but Hey, let me. I want kindness. Tw for breakdown and implied cheating. On Ao3 here 💖

It’s late. Too late to be out for a walk depending on who you are asking. And I’m asking me, so no, midnight is not that late.

I walk alone among the streets and houses. As I walk past the roundabout four motorbikes blast past. On the next street over I get company. I smell them before I see them. Perfume and cigarettes. So strong I can actually feel the taste on my mouth. I look up and see young man in front of me. He seems to be a little drunk, but he walk with a steady pace ahead.

I’m three lamp posts away but I can still smell him. Hell, I can even taste him. I slow my pace, not wanting to get too close. The sound of our footsteps mingle in the silence, bouncing between the brick walls.

Suddenly the man in front of me stops. Leans against the wall. He seems to be getting smaller, curling in on himself. Is he trying to light another cigarette? Is he going to get sick?

I keep walking towards him, my house is only a block away. The perfume smell gets stronger for every step I take. It’s a nice smell but so strong it makes my eyes sting a little.

Im prepared to walk past him when I hear it. A sob. A heart wrenching, deeply felt sob.

I stop dead in my tracks and we the mans shoulders shake in restraint. His hair is a soft brown, bangs falling into his eyes. He has one arm clasped around himself, the other presses tightly against his mouth. I’m only a few paces away, and must look like an absolute weirdo.

I take a tentative step towards him, reaching out with my hand towards his shoulder.

“Hey. Are you alright?”

The man startles badly and press himself against the brick wall. Cornflower blue eyes stare up at me, tears and a little snot streaming down his face.

“Sorry I didn’t mean to scare you.” I say, I know I don’t come off as the most approachable or friendly dude. I’m big, tall and my long white hair make people look at me like I’m some kind of mobster. “Are you alright?” I ask him again, because he looks a strong wind away from collapsing.

He looks at me for a moment longer, then his face crumples. He shoots forward from the wall and suddenly his arms are around me. He is taller than I thought, his head fitting nicely against the crook of my neck. He press his entire body against mine, his cheek is wet and his nose cold agains my neck.

This is not what I expected. Slowly I put my arms around him, and it’s like I break something when I do. He presses his forehead against my shoulder thankfully, but a wail of despair tears from his throat. I can tell he is crying because my shirt is getting damp where he press his head against me. His fingers claws and grips my shirt, drawing it against himself, pressing us closer.

I don’t know what to do. This stranger, this broken man in my arms in the middle of the night. How can I just tear free and leave?

I won’t do that. I know what it’s like to feel that terrible, only I didn’t have somebody there to catch me.

I let my head rest against his, the stench of cigarettes almost overwhelming when I’m this close. Slowly, softly, I let my hands rub circles on his back. He is leaning heavily on me so I twist us a little so the brick wall will support us.

Us.

I suppose it is now. There is a comfort in ‘us’ somehow.

I hum, not really talking nor singing, just letting my voice vibrate through me. My ex Yen once told me it was like leaning agains a giant purring cat when I did that. She took comfort in it, so maybe he can too?

I don’t know how long we stand there. His arms are still tight around my ribs, his breath is still fast and uneven, but he doesn’t seem to cry anymore.

I let my hand cradle the back of his neck. I don’t know why, it’s uncalled for and frankly a little creepy to do to a stranger. But I do it anyway, some strange instinct telling me this is what I must do.

“You will be ok,” I tell him. “One deep breath. Another, there you can do it.”

Being alone sucks. I hope this helps.

After another long ten minutes it seems like he is done. His grip has slackened a little, the breaths evened out. There is a slight tremble in his shoulders.

“Feel any better?” I ask him, trying to make him look up at me.

He doesn’t but I can make out a mumbled “Sorry.”

“It’s alright.” I say, still rubbing circles into his back. “Do you live far from here?”

There are a few seconds of silence before he sighs and pulls away. It’s cold without him against me.

“Not anymore.” He smiles sadly and puts his hands in his pockets. He looks so miserable and broken. “I uh... I found him with someone else in our bed. I didn’t think, I just left.”

Fuck. Fuck.

I can’t.

“You can crash at my place tonight if you want to.” I offer this complete stranger. I don’t even know his name. He also haven’t met my eyes since he broke down.

“Sorry, shit, that sounds totally suspicious huh? But I’ve been there so... I know how it feels not to have anywhere to go. I’m Geralt.”

Finally he looks up at me. He is absolutely drunk and he should not be out here.

“Jaskier.” He says, a slow smile finding his lips. “And thank you. I uh... I guess it’s that or sleeping on the street tonight.”

I lead him with me that last block. His perfume and cigarette smell is still overwhelming as he walks up the stairs to my flat. I give him a T-shirt and send him into the shower while I carry pillows and blankets to the couch.

He looks a little better when he exits the bathroom. He absolutely smells better now. We don’t speak, just make sure he has what he needs for the night before I settle into my own bedroom. This was one weird night.

The morning turns out to be even weirder. When I open my eyes and return to awareness I do so to the smell of pancakes. I pad barefoot across the floor into the kitchen just to see my stray stand there in my slightly too big T-shirts, trying and failing to flip a pancake in the air. He looks a little better.

I lean in the doorway for a moment just watching him in the sunlight. When he notice me he startles just as badly as the last time and almost drops the frying pan.

“Shit! Fuck!” He struggles to catch it, but the pancake is destroyed. He frowns at it and puts it on a plate next to the stove with three other failed attempts.

“Morning.” I say, amused. He is so at ease in my space. It’s weird. I scratch my bare chest and cracks a yawn. “Are any of those gonna be salvageable?” I catch him staring at me with a slight blush on his cheeks. It’s a good look on him.

“I uh... fuck, sorry, I was just thinking I could make breakfast as... thanks...”

“It’s all good.” I say again, another yawn breaking free. “Jaskier was is?”

“Yeah.” He puts a new load of batter in the pan and it sizzles promisingly.

We share breakfast. Some of the pancakes were good enough to eat. Jaskier seems like he is starving but I know crying is a hungry business. We talk a little, my cheap coffee working as a icebreaker.

After almost an hour Jaskier declares he must go back. Not home, just back.

“Do you have any friends you can stay with?” I ask him when he puts on his shoes, knowing that he probably doesn’t. Why else would he end up here, with me?

I feel a pang of something, sympathy.

“It will be alright.” He says with a smile. “Thank you for everything. And I’m sorry.”

“Don’t be.” My arms are crossed in front of me, all I wanna do is just scoop him up in another hug. To make things alright again, to make that awful sad go away.

“See you around, Geralt.” He says, another smile and a little wave as he disappears down the stairs.

I hope we will, I think silently to myself

[heckyeahyandereimagines]

Hi Im not sure if you do angst but can I request an imagine for Aizawa and fem s/o? Reader has a healing quirk a bit similar to Recovery Girl's but aside from that she has the ability to revive someone from death but in exchange is her own life. Aizawa was killed in battle against LOV , reader then revives him with a kiss and was able to still confess her secret love for him since they were kids before dying/ fall in a coma. Thank you and I really enjoy your works 😍😍😍

        Aizawa huffed, looking at his planner. Today was it. After the snot nosed kids leave to go home, he'll finally ask you out. If he was being honest he should've done this sooner. Maybe before you became his teaching assistant. But he knew he had to say something when you almost died on your last mission. The hero killer had been running around at this point, and being the hero you were you of course took a mission that would involve him. You happened to stumble upon some nameless hero on the brink of death. Stain was still in the alleyway, ready to plunge his knife into the hero until you ran at him full speed, knocking him down. while you had time you knelt down, kissed the top of the hero's head, healing them before getting up, glaring at Stain. You don't remember much after that. Aizawa had to be the one to break the news that the hero ended up dying anyway and that Stain had saw...something in you that made him not want to kill you. Aizawa knew that was probably a one in a million chance so he had to take that next time. the life of being a hero is dangerous and if he can’t spend that time with you..he wasn't sure how he was going to handle it. you, aizawa and thirteen were taking the kids to the USJ for some rescue training. The mood was quickly flipped when the LOV had invaded, both you and Aizawa going to the front to block the kids. 

  "Take the kids to safety" Aizawa glanced at you "You're not suited for fighting right now." 

You scoffed, rolling your eyes "recovery girl said i'm fully healed, it's fine." Aizawa grunted and launched himself into the battle, taking down multiple villains at once. You went to rush in after them but heard a scream, your eyes going wide "Kids!" Aizawa turned his head to see what was happening, only to see you running full force at the purple villain. You took two grappling hooks from your suit, shooting yourself into the air. He reached his 'arm' out to attack you but you dodged, tucking and rolling in front of the kids. You kept your arms out, blocking the kids and glared at the villain, standing up.  

  "You're not touching theese fucking kids you bastard."

"You're healing heart hero aren’t you? This really isn't your element, is it?" He was slowly inching his way towards you and you ushered the kids to the side, pointing towards the door. 

"I can make anything my element you villain" You smirked, pulling out what looked to be a gun. The villain growled and rushed forward, trying to attack you but thirteen jumped in front of you, using their blackhole quirk. "Get the kids to safety, I can handle him" You nodded 

  "Kids lets-" You heard a loud crunch, followed by heavy thuds. you wiped your head around, your heart dropping when you saw...that creature slamming aizawa's head into the concrete, over and over. "SHOUTA!" You screamed, ready to rush to him until you heard a scream behind you.

 "Thirteen!" You turned around, only to see Thirteen turning to dust. The mist villain started to attack you once more but you aimed the gun you had earlier at him, shooting a strong gust of wind at the villain, blowing most of his mist back.  

 "IIda!" You screamed, startling the class rep "Run! Run now! escape and warn the other pros! We need help!" Iida panicked a moment before closing his eyes and nodding, sprinting to the door. the villain tried to turn, using your push to get at Iida but you turned off the gun, running after him. part of the villain teleported in front of iida but one of the other students tackled the portal, giving Iida a chance to keep running. you got just a little bit ahead, using your grappling hooks to make a makeshift tripwire wall. the villain flew right into it, allowing iida to escape the purple mist that started to cover him

   Uraraka used the trip wire as a booster, jumping onto it and reaching into the villain. he must have had a physical component to him because he began to float to the top of the building. 

 "Good job kid!-" The villain went to go after Iida but Sero shot his tape at him, sato taking it and yanking him back. 

   Iida was able to escape before the villain yelled in frustration, teleporting to somewhere else. you glared at the spot the villain once was, quickly looking around only to see he was down by Aizawa. Aizawa. Oh god. "Kids, Watch Thirteen!"

 Aizawa, in his pained haze, saw the misty villain appear next to the ring leader of it all. 

  "Did you kill Thirteen and Healing Heart?"

"Thirteen is out of commission. I wasn't able to disperse all of the children and Healing Heart was surprisingly adaptable. One of the children escaped so help is most likely on its way." The ringleader growled

 "This is game over then. we lost. we have to start over" He began to violently scratch his neck, growling lowly until he stopped "But let's make it hurt" He immediately went to tsuyu, about to disintegrate her but his quirk had no affect. Aizawa glared him down, making Shigaraki murmur something. Nomu went to slam Aizawa's head into the ground and Midoriya went to attack Shigaraki but you swooped in, kicking Shigaraki in his ribs and launching him a few feet. You were breathing heavily, trying to catch your breath, smirking a little when the students started to cry tears of joy. "It's ok kids, You and Aizawa will be sa-" You went silent when you noticed a large shadow cast over you. You looked up, eyes going wide seeing the Nomu towering over you. 

 "Cool...very cool..For just a healing quirk you're really able to hold your own in a battle" Shigaraki slowly stood up and looked over at you "But not well enough" The Nomu enclosed his fist on your head, yanking you up and violently shaking you about. he pelted you to the ground, hearing the satisfying crack and pop from your bones. You groaned in pain, shakily pushing yourself up and frowning when you felt your backside covered in something warm and wet. your vision was blurry, spots growing in the corners as you felt the liquid, pulling back to realize it was blood. 

  "How about you heroes die side by side" The ring leaders words echoed in your head, making you turn your head to the left, seeing the main source of the blood. 

  "Sho..uta?" You mumbled, your voice coming out broken and shaky. "Shouta" You felt tears prick your eyes and you  gasped in pain, the Nomu picking you up by your legs. "Shouta!-"You grabbed his hand, feeling the weakest of squeezes before the Nomu pulled you away. It slammed you into the ground again, over and over, the pain bursting all over your body. You heard a loud explosion before the Nomu dropped you for the last time. immediately you slowly, ever so slowly, inched yourself closer to Aizawa.

  "Shouta...Shouta please be alive" You whispered. You could hear muffled fighting but it wasn't anywhere close to your focus. "You can't die, I love you...I love you so much..." You put a hand on his cheek and you could've sworn you heard one of the students called your name but you just pet Aizawa's hair back. You knew if you tried to heal his injuries you would only pass out. so you did the next best thing. take his injuries on top of yours. You slowly leaned forward and kissed him, squeezing your eyes shut tight. You felt waves of pain wash over you as you took his pain away, his body easing up and relaxing. You pulled away from the kiss, too much pain was wracking your body for you to continue and collapsed next to him. Aizawa groaned, shifting his head slightly to look at you.

  “Hey…Get...up” He frowned when you shook your head. “You need to leave…you healed me as much as you could-You need to get up and get the kids to safety” He grunted, trying to slowly push himself up. You slowly shook your head again 

   “Shouta...I can’t..you know...that creature really did a number on you. It hurts alot.” You laughed literally before it quickly turned to a violent cough. His eyes widened when he realized what you did and moved closer to you 

  “You didn't ...I told you that was too dangerous!-” Your coughing died down and you gave him a small smile, putting your hand on his cheek “You’re better at this shouta. Keep the kids safe-ok? I trust you. I love you. I have since highschool.” Shouta glared down at you as he wrapped his arms around you “You’re talking like you’re going to die-don’t you dare” He carefully picked you up and started to try to stand before he cried out in pain, collapsing onto the ground; almost landing on you. 

  “I’m sorry...I couldn’t take all of your injuries-”

“You shouldn’t have taken any of them you idiot” He growled, smacking your face a little when it looked like you were starting to pass out. “I’m getting you to safety-You’re not dying here. Not hen I know you return-” He tried to get up again, thrown off by the giant gust of wind pushing you both from behind. He turned to look and see what happened and you felt the darkness cover your eyes, taking you into a cold sleep. Aizawa looked back down at you, trying to wake you up again.

  “Hey...Hey you idiot-get up-wake up-You can’t pass out-wake up-” When you wouldn’t so much as stir, Aizawa felt his chest tighten. He couldn’t even see you breath. He almost attacked the paramedic that took you from his arms, quickly going to stand to follow but another paramedic stopped him. “Sir-You’re injured, let us help you-” 

  “Im fine!” He snapped and tried to push the paramedic away, seeing you on the ground as paramedics tried reviving you with defibrillators. In between shocks paramedics were healing what injuries they could, covering wounds with gauze. You were starting to look like a mummy with all the injuries they were trying to cover. 

  “Healing heart is breathing!” They moved you into the ambulance with Thirteen, just barely letting Aizawa jump in due to his own injuries needing to be healed.

  You were alive when you arrived at the hospital but you were practically clinging onto a string and there was nothing doctors could keep doing to help you. The doctor that came to talk to Aizawa had said that you weren’t going to heal much more past this. You’d be stuck on life support, unconscious and unfeeling. God forbid if you did wake up, you would be put through excruciating pain. When your parents came in, they believed uethenasia was most likely the best option. 

(And because some people don’t always like a death ending)

  It had been days when your parents made the decision and signed the papers albeit hesitantly. Aizawa was given his chance to be in your room alone before your family came in and they  did the procedure.  He sat down in the plastic chair next to your bed and took your hand, kissing your knuckles.

  “Im sorry” He murmured, lightly squeezing your hand “I love you too you know...I shouldn’t have let you heal me..I could’ve survived. 

   “You ...don't...know that…” You choked out, slowly looking over at him. His eyes went wide and he dropped your hand, making you yelp in pain. 

  “Shit-sorry-wait i’ll get a doctor-”

“No” You whimpered, trying to reach out to him but gasping in pain. “Shouta...Please. I want you here” Aizawa hesitated, frowning as he stood “The doctors need to know, they can help you-” you whimpered again as you shook your head “The...the doctor will come in eventually, please just stay, you being here helps me feel...calmer...less like i’ve got the most broken body in the world.’ He sighed but resigned, staying in the seat. You gave him a small smile and closed your eyes “Thankyou shouta...deep down you truly are kind...that’s why I love you you know.”

  Aizawa scoffed, looking away a moment “So that confession...It wasn’t something in the spur of the moment because of your adrenaline.” You slowly shook your head

  “I do love you shouta. So much”” He let out a long breath and smiled, leaning over your and gently touching his forehead to yours, being careful he didn’t hurt you in the process.

  ‘I love you too. I love you so much. We’re going to get you out of here. We can go back to my home-take a nice long nap wrapped up on my couch together. We’ll let banner join us to, or else he’ll meow his little head off-” He was cut off by the long beep from the heart monitor, his own heart stopping a moment 

   “No...No!” He frantically started to hit the nurse button, trying to call for help. But it was too late. Aizawa was trying to get them to resuscitate you but he was escorted out of the room, giving the family a chance to come talk to you. 

[kinkymagnus]

I have to wonder if Magnus has ever broken down crying in front of someone before. Not the pretty glistening tears on cheeks perfect for a lover to wipe them away but ugly sobbing, blotchy red face, snot dripping from the nose crying. I feel like Magnus hasn't felt safe and secure enough to let himself just shatter like that in front of someone before. And like one day hes just chilling like looking out a window sipping some tea or something and he looks down and just freezes 1/2

and his subconscious mind takes over and its all “You could do it you know. You wouldn’t have to suffer life as a mundane if you did. Maybe your magic will come back and slow your fall on instinct.” and so on and his hand gets tighter and tighter on the hot ceramic mug, a hairsbreadth away from panicking. And the mug shatters the hot liquid burning his hand and the shards cutting his skin. Alec notices of course because how do you know notice a mug breaking in a quiet room 2/(word limit so short

And Alec recognizes that Magnus is panicking, clinging tighter to the window frame (On no I broke it, I can’t fix it because I have no magic and it wasn’t mine he will be angry etc) And Alec just hugs him tight and whispers soft words to him trying to distract him as he pulls him away from the window and broken ceramic and sits him down and quickly cleans it all up and Magnus just can’t understand why he isn’t yelling at him why he isn’t mad that he can’t fix it 3/(Seriously not enough space)

And when Alec comes back to double check and make sure his hand is okay he asks him why he isn’t mad and he just can’t understand why he isn’t mad which might progress into yelling “I’m useless without my magic, can’t even fix a cup insert other self depreciating things” and Alec just hugs him and Magnus just breaks, hiding his face in Alec’s shoulder, Gasping breaths in between sobs tears, spit, and saliva dampening Alec’s shirt. And at that point Alec understands why he needs his Magic back4/4

sdg;fkdfg ok another long post wow

d;lhgkflhkfgh ok ok before i address every thing that broke my heart in this, im gonna talk about magnus and ugly crying.

he just. he has a hard enough showing any sort of vulnerability, even just crying at all in front of people. but all shields down, ugly crying? ugly, gross crying that’s wet and messy where your face is scrunched up and flushed and wet and you’re gasping for breath and there’s some snot and possibly a little drool and your shoulders are shaking uncontrollably and your throat aches and your chest is shuddering??? that kind of just really ugly messy crying is something magnus hasn’t really done in front of many people.

i would say in front of ragnor (in magnus’s words, the man who knew him better than anyone, his oldest friend) and possibly, a few times in front of catarina. but even then, he probably held back as much as he could, even if it wasn’t much.

looks, after all, and his composure and confidence–those are things people like about magnus. things that give him value. not needing help, never being a burden, always being beautiful and untouched–that’s what magnus thinks he always has to do. 

but then ALEC. lkjhfgh. the first few times magnus cries in front of him aren’t really ugly crying. they’re not one beautiful tear, but they’re not really fully letting go, either. but at some point, magnus is just at his lowest, devastated, and alec has wrapped his arms around him tightly, is holding him close, and magnus’s face is pressed against his chest and he’s trembling with the effort of holding all the tears in and alec just. rubs his back. holds him close. murmurs reassurances and soft words of comfort in his ear. and magnus just. feels so safe. he feels understood, like alec knows him inside and out and still loves everything he sees.

and finally, the dam breaks–magnus just begins sobbing, heaving and loud and ugly, face twisted in emotional agony, dampening alec’s shirt fast, clutching weakly at him as he cries helplessly. and alec. doesn’t judge him. he just holds him tighter, comforts him, lovingly, kisses his forehead or runs his fingers through magnus’s hair, and magnus just. can’t stop crying. sobbing. he hasn’t let go and just cried like this in so long, and it’s just centuries of suppressed emotions and trauma coming out at once.

he cries for all the trauma he’s been through, the torture, he cries for ragnor and dot and elias and all his other lost friends. he cries for alec and clary and izzy and simon and catarina and madzie and all of their pains. he cries for his old hurts that have resurfaced so many times. he cries for his lost title, his home, his magic. he cries for just everything. everything he’s been through. he’s finally letting it out, just fucking crying until everything hurts and it’s hard to breathe but he feels so much lighter, and alec’s arms are warm and safe around him and he holds magnus like he’d do anything to keep him safe.

when it finally dies down his face is flushed and wet and it’s a little gross and his makeup is running and smeared on alec’s shirt but neither of them care. magnus is just. trying to breathe. feeling lighter, feeling relieved. still hurting, still sad, but the burden lifted just a little, shared with his lover. and alec is just. so relieved magnus is letting go, trusting him, because he knows that bottling it all up had been hurting him badly.

but alright now the rest of this fuck

ok the self-worth issues are strong in this one. magnus attaches a lot of his self worth to how useful he is to others. without his magic, he isn’t that. (of course, theres’s a lot more reasons why this is fucking him up but bear with me)

magnus is pretty much sure that without his ability to give things, to help, to be useful, there is no reason for alec to stick around. even if it’s subconsciously, he’s just been bartering his help–his magic, his brain, his power, even his body–to keep alec with him. to keep alec loving him. because deep down he doesn’t believe he’s enough. he honestly thinks no one would ever stay with him just for him… not even alec.

when alec realizes this he’s gonna cry too because he loves magnus more than life itself and he thought magnus knew that. he hadn’t realized that magnus had been helping them not because he wanted to (although that was part of it, as magnus is a selfless idiot sometimes and loves helping people) but because he desperately wanted alec to stay, wanted to not be abandoned again. because. you know. magnus has major major MAJOR abandonment issues.

[luwupercal]

alright, thank you for the ask! here are some extremely canon gw-are-cowards konrad curze warhammer 30k facts (be warned i have not read too many hh novels yet, so if some of these are straight up canon or contradict it i will simply shrug it off) (also it took me all afternoon to type these up bc i kept getting derailed via showing my discord friends evil cursed things)

has eaten cockroaches before in nostramo

fulgrim taught him how to read and write. he likes writing with a pen more than writing with a keyboard. he has actually really nice penmanship, albeit he holds pencils/pens way too hard and sometimes breaks paper when he’s just trying to write on them. he’s used to stabbing and slicing and carving ok?

goes after white collar criminals (embezzlers, conmen, tax avoiders, wealth hoarders etc) as seriously as he goes against muggers/robbers/burglars etc

his favourite class of criminal to gut are domestic abusers because i said so

he dislikes pulling his hair away from his face or having his face not covered by his hair in general. do not tuck his hair behind his ear he does not enjoy it

CANNOT fucking stand the itch of half grown facial hair and this is literally the only thing keeping him from having a 5 o clock shadow at all times

he shaves with his knives also

honestly i wouldnt put it past him to make soap out of people like tyler durden

would get really into embroidery if he had the opportunity, but, you know.

sharp teeth are natural, unlike some of his other sharp-teethed brothers (theyre a mutation -- all primarchs have slightly sharpened canines, some more so than others, but he wasnt expected to have all-sharp teeth)

clammy handed boy, permanently

has never been Big Horny in his life. i dont know if he experiences sexual attraction or not, thats HIS business not mine, but he doesnt really care about or put a lot of stock into sex and other horny things. sure its nice or whatever but if you were dating konrad curze for some god damn reason i feel like hed be more the “lets just curl up together into a spaghetti knot and vibe like that” type and would enjoy that far more than he would enjoy bangin. 

hes kind of SEVERELY TOUCH STARVED DUE TO HIS UPBRINGING tbf is the thing

this entire fucking post is the most canon shit ive seen in my life (thanks @sunny-sideblogging for understanding me n linking me this post when im going unhinged on discord talking about how bad connecting DID and the jekyll and hyde trope is)

has a raspy wheezy giggle, his laugh is more normal sounding, so if you ever read about him laughing (wherever, even fanfic) and hes raspy and skritchy and shit hes not laughing hes GIGGLING, its just unrecognizeable, please enjoy

isnt entirely sure of what laundry is. has never done it

if he asks you to watch a comedy with him, he doesn’t mean a comedy, he means a horror movie. he finds them funny and inspiring, like a cheesy 80s action movie, or a heartwarming kids’ movie

this is just a headcanon i have about all of the primarchs but all of the primarchs except sanguinius and mortarion are ugly open-criers and this includes konrad. like, they can shed a single manly tear or a few controlled sobs and look decent, but they weren’t build to cry, so an uncontrolled open cry for almost all of them means the whole ugly cry package -- incontrollable waterfalls of tears, turning red (or darker red in magnus’s case) all over in the nose and cheeks, a little snot, weird hiccuping noises like they’re trying to spit out something in their chest that’s pushing the crying button, the whole thing. (sanguinius can cry prettily because hes a perfect little war criminal bean. meanwhile mortarion straight up can’t cry, his tearducts are FUCKED)

also of course he has lice

i will add ACTUALLY canon modern au konrad stuff later bc i am very allergic to everything right now and i cannot sneeze and think at the same time but here is 1 nugget of information:

the first time he actually used the internet instinctively just for fun after being given a phone he stayed up all night memorizing ways different catholic saints died

You got any good Konrad facts my man's?

like, actual canon konrad facts, or things that i know in my heart to be good and true and factual but gw is too cowardly to canonify (like his lice being sentient), or modern au konrad facts? cause i have like 0 canon curze trivia but i have endless supplies of the other two