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Like unbelievable right Jinx gets to raise a sister but vi does not? Vi gets thrown into prison and never sees powder again and jinx gets to fuck up her life a million times more and vi loses everyone again? Stop it
#you can leave! shit gf shit sister shit city shit politics? get outta there! go explore the world or something#i just want good things for vi and i see no good things in the future or anywhere#really frustrating to have jinx almost be killed and then not bc oh shes got a sister YEAH SHE HAD A DAD TOO lol all the people she kills#have the same#why did vi walk away after that ? if youre gonna walk away then leave the city#if youre gonna stay then stay with the monster youve failed to control which is your responsibility#ok i IGNORE ME I HAVENT SEE ACT 1#my stuff#arcane
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Call Me Baby (Chapter 2) (Chapter 1 here)
Sebastian Sallow x Ominis Gaunt (Modern!AU)
Summary: The text chat logs between Sebastian Sallow and Ominis Gaunt during their 6th and 7th year at Hogwarts. (or Sebastian and Ominis can't bear to be apart for longer than 5 minutes, so spend their entire summer, winter and spring breaks texting and calling each other)
Rating: Teen & Up (this will go up in the next chapter!)
Word count: 6.4k
Recommended to read on AO3 as the layout is better but itās also below the cut <3
SUMMER
July 1st, 6:14pm
sebastianĀ changed their name toĀ ss
July 2nd, 10:02am
Ominis
Hello Sebastian. I just wanted to let you know I have one of your books. Youād left it in Transfiguration so Professor Weasley gave it to me. I tried to tell her but she wouldnāt listen. Iāll pass it on to Anne when we get back to school.Ā
FromĀ anne ^_^Ā toĀ Ominis
July 4th, 11:07am
anne ^_^
has he responded yet?Ā
Ominis
No. Iām not surprised.
anne ^_^
to be honest me neither.
heās such an idiot, Iām sorry.Ā
Ominis
It isnāt your fault, Anne. We both know how he can be when heās upset.Ā
anne ^_^
yeah but to go like, what, 3 months now? hardly talking to you is SO weird.
he gets annoyed and is super stubborn a lot but to go this long being the way he is is just off
Ominis
It is how it is, I suppose. I can only see that he felt we were pushing boundaries too far and had to take a step back.
anne ^_^
but not like this, and what do you mean?Ā
Ominis
After we changed our display names, apparently several of our classmates contacted him asking if we were dating, or assuming we were. We do - did - spend a lot of time together, but the name change was purely a joke. I think it may have had more consequences than expected for Sebastian.Ā
anne ^_^
but he was the one who told you to do it, no?
Ominis
Yes.
anne ^_^
so why was it too far?
Ominis
I think it was more the questions of us being a couple. Itās a preposterous idea but if pushed too far, some people may believe it and unfortunately people did. I think heās really just wanted to distance himself from me to prove it wasnāt true.Ā
anne ^_^
hmm. i just canāt see that being the issue though
heās always been so touchy feely with you, just changing your names and having people ask if youāre dating doesnāt seem like something heād just stop being your friend over.
and you never argued?
Ominis
Oh, we argued. A fair amount. But not recent to our last conversation.Ā
anne ^_^
and he didnt say anything to you over the phone or anything?
Ominis
No. Truly, Anne, I believe my theory wholeheartedly. And itās fine. I still have you.Ā I hope, at least.Ā
anne ^_^
oh ominis, always!
but heās been really cold to me too, so i think thereās more going on.Ā Iām certain itās not just what you think. give me a couple days to try and speak to him, ok?
let me know if you want to talk at any point <3
Ominis
Of course.Ā Thank you :)
fromĀ anne ^_^Ā toĀ ss
July 5th, 11:15am
anne ^_^
where r u?
ss
dw
anne ^_^Ā
smh where r u
ss
why?
anne ^_^
ffs seb
do i need to ask a third time
ss
on a walk itās a nice day
anne ^_^
ok but where
ss
gods anne do u want me to just send my location or something ?!
anne ^_^
please
ss
really??Ā look i just want to be alone today ok
anne ^_^
uve wanted to be alone everyday for like 3 months
ss
im good company, what can i say
anne ^_^
not the way uve been moping about ur not. me and ominis r really worried abt u
ss
whats he got to do with it?
anne ^_^
everything???? heās ur best friend and suddenly u act like u wld rather try to tame 50 graphorns at once than be around him.
look we r just worried ok? just want to know whats going on
ssĀ
anne im fine. look im just trying to come to terms with some things and id rather do it alone
anne ^_^
what? ur dramatic ass honestly
like what?
ss
like leaving hogwarts next yearĀ
and stuff
anne ^_^
so u ignore ur favourite thing about it ?!
ss
what? hes not
there r other things i like way more than him
anne ^_^
such as ???!!
since the moment u met ominis u havent shut up about him, u used to wake up everyday at school and the first thing u would do would be go and wake him up because u didnt want to do anything without him
i mean just this last year u spent 24/7 with him at hogwarts and then u get home aND CONTINUE TO TALK TO HIM 24/7
and i know u didnt have an argument or anything, all that happened was that people thought u were dating for like 5 minutes and then u stop talkingĀ
like if it wasnāt so insane to suggest id swear u were in love with him and people worked it out before u which made u work it out so now u cant deal with being around him and dont want to talk to anyone in case they mention him LOL
11:51am
anne ^_^
seb
12:07
anne ^_^
seb
12:12
anne ^_^
seb
ss
:/
anne ^_^
??
ss
ā¦
anne ^_^
what?
ss
ā¦
anne ^_^
WHAT?
oh
oh seb
im sorry i didnt mean to laughĀ i really didnt think
oh please come back home :( or at least tell me where u r. i dont wanna do this over text :(
ss
id much rather text, i think i would cry in person
anne ^_^
:( ok
im really sorry, i wish u wouldve told me
i knew u loved him i just didnt realise in that way
i mean ok maybe i sort of did if i guessed that but Gods seb :(
ss
yeah i guess everyone sort of knew before me then? which has been the craziest thing
when everyone was sending me messages asking if we were dating i was so confused cos the whole name thing was clearly a joke, then it hit me like a tonne of bricks and i realised it just wasnāt. i dont think itās ever been a joke. like ive told people no no it was a joke stop acting weird
but the only one acting weird is me
anne ^_^
seb :(
i cant imagine how uve been feeling
i wish u wouldve told me at least, even if u werent totally sure i couldāve helped, i couldve still supported u
ss
im sorry, genuinely, its just been hard
i mean i assumed i only liked girls for my whole life, and i do, i think theyāre pretty and stuff but then i realised every girl ive ever dated ive ditched to be with him? and when i have gone on a date ive just talked about him.
all i do is think about him
ive kept rereading our texts and merlin all i do is flirt, badly but still
itās just so stupidĀ
fuck sorry itās all sort of just coming out
anne ^_^
literally
ss
huh
anne ^_^
coming out, literally
ss
ohĀ
LMAO thanks i laughed out loud for probs the first time in months
anne ^_^
:D
sorry haha i didnāt mean to cut u off please continue
ss
no itās ok
hes my best friend and ive ruined it by being in love, and then ive ruined it even more by just not talking to him. ugh I just...what do i even do? u kno he messaged me the other day and it made me cry. i was sitting on a rock by the lake crying like a loser. like wtf. i still havenāt replied
anne ^_^
i think he just wants u back. he really misses u. honestly he wonāt admit it because hes sort of just accepted u hate himĀ
and u know how proper he is haha but heās devastated
ss
u think?
anne ^_^
r u dumb?
donāt answer tht. of course he is. ur literally his best friend. his entire world. he loves u
it might not be in the way u want but he would die for u I reckon. PLEASE talk to him :( Ik itās going to be hard but ur best friends at the end of the day, to throw it all away would be silly
ss
i know ur right. if i reply to him i might vomit
anne ^_^
worth it please?
ss
let me think. but i probably will at some point. ur right. he is my best friend first
gods im sorry
anne ^_^
donāt need to apologise to me but i think u should apologise to him
ss
yeah i will
thank u
anne ^_^
love u. come back home ??
ss
love u 2. i will soon
anne ^_^
<3
FromĀ anne ^_^Ā toĀ Ominis
July 5th 2:43pm
anne ^_^
heyĀ
so news - heās ok, heās just dumb. heās gonna message you soon
Ominis
Just dumb? Iām not sure I know what you mean. But Iām glad heās well.Ā
anne ^_^
ah iām not sure how i could explain it. itās not really my thing to explain, but hopefully he will. well, he better or Iāll whack him over the head
Ominis
Could you do that anyway?
anne ^_^
LOL tempting
Ominis
Well thank you Anne.Ā Iām glad you got to the bottom of it, even if you wonāt tell me!
anne ^_^
promise he will, one way or another. either he will or ive got a good sized book on magical beasts that might get his brain into working orderĀ
Ominis
Haha. I shall look out for his message then. Thank you again.Ā
anne ^_^
no problem. speak soon :)
FromĀ OminisĀ toĀ ss
July 2nd, 10:02am
Ominis
Hello Sebastian. I just wanted to let you know I have one of your books. Youād left it in Transfiguration so Professor Weasley gave it to me. I tried to tell her but she wouldnāt listen. Iāll pass it on to Anne when we get back to school.Ā
July 6th, 4:37am
ss
hi thank you that means a lot
sorry i didnt respond sooner
u can pass it on to me if itās easier
<3
haha
8:45am
Ominis
Good morning Sebastian. I think I shall do that then. Thank you.Ā
9:23am
ss
kewl. sweet. sounds good
9:28am
ss
so are you
how have you
look im really sorry for acting the way i did recently. i know it probably seemed like i was angry at u but I wasnt, i was just going through something and i got a bit weird. but ive realised im stupid and im so sorry
i understand if u donāt want to talk to me anymore. i really do miss you. cutting you out like that was really horrible. ur my best friend and im really sorry :(
Ominis
I wish you wouldāve spoken to me, Sebastian. If you were going through something - whatever it is - you know Iām here for you. Just like youāve always been there for me. We can still speak about it, if you would like, but thereās no pressure.Ā You donāt need to apologise. But I would like to go back to how things were, if possible?Ā
And you are also my best friend, by the way. You know Iām not one for sentimentality, but itās true.Ā
ss
:ā)
im honoured
sentimentominis haha
itās really not important, im over it now
ok not really but
i would love to go back to how it was
but I love.
would u hate me if.
ive really missed u dudeĀ
Ominis
And I you. Letās put it behind us. But only if you promise not to shut me out again like that. Agreed?
ss
agreed :D
July 8th, 10:52am
ss
morning :)
Ominis
Good morning.Ā
ss
how u?
Ominis
Well. My mother, father and sister had gone to visit my brother for a fortnight, so I have the entire place to myself for the next five days. How are you?
ss
im good :) thatās cool haha why didnt u get dragged along?
Ominis
They left just before I returned from Hogwarts, thankfully. I may actually use their absence to my advantage this afternoon and choose a book from my fatherās study. Iām not often allowed in there you see.Ā
ss
damn u sooooo rebelliousĀ
well i guess u acc r with not being a bigot and stuff lol.
but i go looking for treasure in catacombs in the middle of the nightĀ and u go borrow a book from ur dad
Ominis
One must start somewhere. With your influence I may start a criminal trading ring.Ā
ss
wht wld u trade?
Ominis
Books, of course. The first book traded will be the one I pilfer from my father. The rest will then follow.Ā
ss
can i join?
Ominis
Youāre my partner in this, so of course.
ssĀ
what kind of partner?
of course, travelling all over the country
Ominis
All over the world. On the run, mostly from my father for stealing that first book, but from all of the people weāve swindled as well. Itās just the two of us, versus everyone else.Ā
ss
gods i love
Haha r u drunk?
Ominis
No. It seems like I should be though, doesnāt it?
ss
yes lol
so if ur home alone
ok crazy question, ik what ur probably gonna say but ill ask anyway - if ur on ur own why donāt i come over?
i mean i donāt have to come to the mAnOr but maybe we could walk around ur village or smth
it cant be that bad can it lol, i donāt have to stay over or anything, just might be nice to see u :)
Ominis
Iād like that.Ā
ss
really???? sure????????
Ominis
My house isnāt the nicest, I must forewarn you. Itās very old and rather grim and Iām certain is falling apart in places. It might be better to stay away from it, but I could probably at least show you the outside.Ā
ss
donāt care, have you seen mine lmao, me and anne literally had to nail the window closed because it just wouldnāt shut. trust me idc
Ominis
Mine may be worse than that. How does tomorrow around eleven sound?
ss
:D, yesĀ perfect canāt waitĀ
Ominis
Wonderful. I look forward to it.Ā
July 9th, 11:43pm
ss
ik ur probably asleep but i just wanted to say i had so much fun today. ur house is so big haha im not susprised u used to get lost as a kid. but thank u for letting me see it and see u mostly
sleep well baby boy :)
July 12th, 5:18am
ssĀ changed their display name toĀ SEB!
SEB!
gmornin
9:22am
Ominis
Good morning. Did you sleep well? You were up early.Ā
SEB!Ā
kinda, someone has a rooster in the village so it woke me up bright and early lol thereās already plans to start a riot i think
Ominis
Well we canāt have that. Sebastian Sallow needs his beauty sleep.Ā
SEB!
oh you think im. so you do think im
im slowly growing uglier day by day as the rooster grows stronger, feeding off my youthĀ
Ominis
Ah, I actually donāt think itās possible, your beauty is eternal, you see, but without any sleep you will not have the strength to fight back against the evil rooster and prevent it from world domination.Ā
SEB!
fuck so you do think im
swear ur drunk again haha
Ominis
I think itās the fact Iām not having to deal with my mother and father, combined with the varying chemicals Iām certain are in the water here that are getting me āhighā.Ā
SEB!
oh jeez haha srs? maybe u should come stay with me again then
Ominis
No. Well, there could be, but I donāt think thatās why Iām acting strange.Ā I think Iām just happy to be talking to you again, in all honesty. :)
SEB!
i
ur
:)
what happened to Mr Iām-Not-One-For-Sentimentality?
Ominis
It seems Iāve grown soft, doesnāt it?
SEB!
is there another reason other than just
yea itās weird!!
Ominis
I shall stop then.Ā
SEB!
no i love
no i like this Ominis :)
Ominis
If youāre sure.Ā
SEB!
totally, but i wasnt joking about u coming to stay again. could come stay the last 2 weeks again if u wanted
or even longer, up to u
Ominis
Iāll ask my father.Ā But I would like that. I enjoyed last year, a lot.Ā
SEB!
me too, and this is our last summer at school so we should make the most of it!
Ominis
Youāre right. Iāll see what I can do.Ā
SEB!
lmk wen u kno
Ominis
Will do.Ā <3
SEB!
<3
<3
fuck
<3
July 16th, 10:32pm
Ominis
Would you like hear about my horrendous day?
SEB!
do tell. hold on
10:37pm
SEB!
ok, i have a cup of tea and some biscuits so im ready to listen lol
Ominis
I was very rudely awoken this morning by my sister, rather than the usual house elf, and ushered downstairs to where my entire family were huddled in the drawing room, as if someone had passed away. You see, apparently, after someone had tipped him off, my father had found out that the girl Marvolo was to marry was not pureblood at all!
SEB!
HORSE GIRL?
whaaaat really?
Ominis
Well, according to them, not pure enough. On her Motherās side, her great, great grandmother was actually muggle-born. Which means her great, great, great grandparents were muggles.Ā
SEB!
oh my hahahahahahahaah oh i bet theyr all fuming
Ominis
Thatās putting it lightly.Ā Apparently the mother had not even told her husband or daughter about this until very recently, but they were still determined to go ahead with this marriage.
Of course my father and brother were out for blood. More so than ever before.Ā Imagine what wouldāve happened if the Gaunt name was tarnished by a minuscule percentage of muggle blood! And, God forbid, if she and Marvolo had ever had children, an even smaller percentage, ruining millennia of perfection!
SEB!
oh this is brilliant, i can imagine u standing there smiling the whole time
Ominis
I certainly wouldāve, however we were then rushed to Paris by floo to call the whole thing off, if you can even describe it as ācalling it offā. I wouldnāt have wished the sounds on my worst enemy, Sebastian.Ā
SEB!
all 5 of u??? wtf wait what happened, sorry i thought this was a funny story
Ominis
Thankfully I didnāt have to partake in anything this time around. Not like before. My sister made sure of that, I thank the gods for her. I know my mother wasnāt happy I didnāt stay to āhelp protect the Gaunt nameā as she put it. All I know was as soon as the doors closed, Iāve never heard sounds like it.Ā And they tried to fight back. Of course they would, theyāre wizards, not muggles, theyāre not as easy to break.Ā It was horrible. I hate them, this is so fucked up. Gods. I justĀ
SEB!
what?
Ominis r u home?Ā R u ok????
Ominis
Iām home now, yes. Iām sorry. Saying it out loud has made me realise just what happened. It was utterly awful.Ā
SEB!
can i call?
Ominis
Please.Ā
SEBĀ is callingĀ Ominis
Call accepted
Call ended, 3hr, 11min
July 17th, 1:59am
Ominis
Thank you. For staying so long. You must go rest now, especially if that rooster is still about.Ā
SEB!
it is still here lol but idc, i wld stay on the phone all day with u if u wanted me to, ur so so undeserving of all this shit. u have done nothing wrong ok? ever. plz dont blame urself
ur so important to me. i promise this time next year u will be out of there. i will do whatever it takes.Ā
ur my
ur my baby boy and i love u lots
:)
Ominis
Thank you. Iām sorry.Ā
Love you too.Ā
Sweetheart.Ā
:)
SEB!
<3
7:34am
SEB!
i just read those messages again, and i mean it. I love you, Ominis. Like, full homo haha
i genuinely meant it when I said I love you, did you?
i love you in a gay way btw
marry me?
im not ever going to send any of these messages so idk why im even typing
July 19th, 10:33am
Ominis
Hi. Hope you slept well. Can we call when you're available?
SEB!
ofc!!
SEB!Ā is callingĀ Ominis
Call accepted
Call ended, 2hr 42mins
July 20th, 11:21am
Ominis
Good morning. Are you free to talk?
SEB!Ā
yea !!!Ā
SEB!Ā is callingĀ Ominis
Call accepted
Call ended, 3hr, 29mins
July 21st, 12:22pm
Ominis
Call?
SEB!
<3
OminisĀ is callingĀ SEB!
Call accepted
Call ended, 4hr 2min
July 22nd, 11:15am
SEB!
Call me when ur around
OminisĀ is callingĀ SEB!
Call accepted
Call ended, 4hr 19min
July 23rd, 10:48am
Ominis
Up
SEB!Ā is callingĀ Ominis
Call accepted
Call ended, 4hr 57min
July 24th, 5:01pm
SEB!
going for a walk can call?
Ominis
Please.
SEB!Ā is callingĀ Ominis
Call accepted
Call ended, 5hr 51min
10:53pm
SEB!
oh damn haha new record didnāt even realise
Ominis
What?
SEB!Ā
we were on the phone for almost 6 hours
Ominis
Merlin, really? What on Earth do we even talk about?
SEB!Ā
absolutely nothing. itās great
Ominis
At this rate we wonāt have anything to talk about when we get back to Hogwarts.Ā
SEB!
but u know we will. we could easily break that record tomorrowĀ
and the day after
and the day after that
Ominis
I think you are right. Itās a wonder Iām not sick of you.Ā
SEB!Ā
i love
same here
somehow I forgot to ask but did u ask ur dad if u can come stay solomon doesnāt care, he was like āur almost 18 do what u wantā
Ominis
Ah, no, not yet.Ā He and Marvolo are, well, honestly, I have no idea what they are doing. As you well know Iāve spent most of my time in my room talking to you.Ā Iām just trying to keep out of the way as I usually do. But when Iāve tried to speak to him he has mostly brushed me off. Again, as he usually does.Ā
Iāll try again at some point. Thereās nothing more I want to do than to come and stay with you, but you know how my family can be.Ā
SEB!
i
yea thatās cool dude, whenever u can, if u can
anne keeps asking me about us
anne keeps asking like when is ominis coming and im like idk lay off!! lmao
Ominis
Iām clearly a wanted man.Ā
SEB!
yeah i want u so bad u donāt even kno lol imagine if i sent that
itās our last summer at school, we wanna hang out with u :)
Ominis
Soon. Promise.
SEB!Ā
fingers and toes and arms and legs and eyes and wands all crossedĀ <3
July 30th, 7:54am
Ominis
How would you feel about me staying for a month?
8:23am
SEB!
overjoyed, ecstatic, thrilled, etc etc
why?
Ominis
My father pretty much said I could come for as long as I wanted. Not in so many words, but I think heās far too focused on other things at the moment to worry about what Iām doing with myself.Ā
SEB!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ominis
Are you busy this afternoon?
SEB!
NO! NOW? TODAY?
Ominis
That is what I meant by this afternoon.Ā Would that be ok? Iād wait another day or two but I donāt think I really can. Haha.Ā
SEB!
please come whenever
come now !!
Ominis
Are you certain?
SEB!
Super certain. I canāt wait to see you.Ā
Ominis
:) Iāll pack my things. Iāll let you know when Iām coming.Ā
SEB!
iāll let anne and solomon know haha brb
8:27am
SEB!
anneās really excited!! solomon got annoyed i woke him up hahaha but he doesnāt care heās probably gonna be off somewhere in a few days anyway so
ahhhhh this is great news to wake up to, canāt wait to see u baby boy it feels like forever. only 3 weeks butĀ
9:04am
Ominis
On my way Sweetheart.Ā <3
WINTER
December 23rd, 6:33pm
SEB!Ā changed their display name toĀ sebauble
sebauble
hello lovely
did u get back ok?
7:04pm
Ominis
Yes, thank you. Thank you to you, Anne and Solomon for having me. Iām sorry I had to return back home so soon. I wouldāve liked to have stayed for the entirety of the break and not miss Christmas with you.Ā
But I suppose there is New Years, at least.Ā
sebauble
ik :( sucks
i donāt get ur family, one year they donāt care if ur there or not the next you HAVE to come home
so strange
but yeah new years woo woo
Ominis
Itās not as if we really celebrate the holiday. Thereās a meal in the evening, but we usually spend the days to ourselves, gather in silence to eat and then return to our rooms.Ā
Itās certainly not a traditional Christmas.Ā
sebauble
EXACTLY
damn gaunts bunch of weirdos haha
Ominis
Careful, Iām still a Gaunt whether I like it or not.Ā
sebauble
o_o
no no i like to think of u as a sallow
my husb
like my brother
LOL
Ominis
I told you, donāt call me your brother.Ā
Or sister, before you start.Ā
sebauble
fine, but ur still a sallow in my eyes
Ominis
How so? As your husband? Do I marry in to the Sallow name? Or is it just an honorary title?
sebauble
oh fuck did u
yes just marry me
merlin did u just
yes u can be my husband
hm it would solve lots of problems
no gaunt surname, no dealing with ur family, im a pureblood so they wouldnāt care, u could live here, wouldnāt have to be married off to someone you hate
what say u
marry me baby?
shit Iām only joking
no Iām not
Ominis
I thought youād never ask! Haha.Ā
Or I could just marry Anne. Be a modern gentleman and take her name.Ā
sebauble
oh
yeah that could work too
we would have to see if she would agree though
Ominis
Iām sure she would. Iām certainly the better choice than half the boys in our year. And we are already great friends, it seems like a good match!
sebauble
please donāt be in love with my sister i would die
Is this ur way of telling me u want to date anne or something haha
Ominis
Oh absolutely not, Sebastian!
No offence to her, but Anne is not quite my type. I thought we were joking?
sebauble
thank Merlin
wait so
Haha yeah i am lol
so what is ur type then lol
i shouldnāt have sent that fuck
Ominis
Oh, er, I donāt really know. I havenāt put much thought into it.Ā
sebauble
just enough to know def not my sister then
lol poor Anne
Ominis
I suppose so.
sebauble
THANK FUCK
So like
if u had to date someone in our year who would it be
How do u even know what ur type is when u canāt see
Is it just personality? face feel?
youāve felt my face before, did u like it?
Ominis
I really havenāt put much thought into it.
sebauble
ok but u must like someone right ?
or have in the past
u seem to get on with poppy quite well
and thereās that girl in 6th who is always nice to u and sheās pretty fit, kinda boring but
Ominis
Look, Sebastian, I donāt know and I donāt really want to talk about this. We havenāt before, and I donāt particularly want to start now.
sebauble
sorry
i wonāt bring it up again
i was just being nosy
Ominis
Letās just leave it. Iāve got to go for supper anyway. Iāll talk to you tomorrow.Ā
sebauble
im a fucking idiot
now u hate me
ok, sorry
speak tomorrow
December 24th, 1:37pm
sebauble
hellooooo
8:22pm
Ominis
Good evening. Sorry for not getting in contact with you sooner. Iāve been rather busy today.Ā
sebauble
itās ok!!
i thought u might be annoyed at me
did u do anything fun?
Ominis
My dear Aunt Noctua has come for Christmas. It was why my parents demanded me home, so I forgive them now. Haha.Ā
Iāve spent a long time talking to her today. She doesnāt often visit anymore so it has been a pleasure to be in her company again.Ā
sebauble
ahh thatās cute im glad sheās there !!!
how is she
Ominis
Very busy, as always. She was telling my sister and I multiple stories of her childhood with my father. He used to be quite kind, surprisingly. He wasnāt there to hear, though, or I fear how he wouldāve reacted.Ā
sebauble
NO WAYĀ
Ominis
Indeed. He used to read her stories to help her fall asleep when they were both young. Unfortunately the weight of the Gaunt name and the expectations from my grandfather soon caught up to him and, well, you know the rest.Ā
sebauble
that sucks
is she staying long?
Ominis
Only until Boxing Day. Then sheās back to her travels.
sebauble
ah thatās a shame
but at least u get to see her
makes up for u not being here tomorrow haha
Ominis
Yes, I suppose it does.Ā
Well, not entirely. Iād much rather be with you, Anne and Noctua. That would be a much more pleasant Christmas.Ā
sebauble
maybe one day :)
8:52pm
Ominis
Sebastian?Ā
sebauble
ā¦yeah?Ā
Ominis
Iām sorry for the way I reacted yesterday.Ā
sebauble
oh about the
no, i should be sorry. i was prying.
Ominis
Not at all. Weāre best friends, I think itās perfectly normal to talk about things like that. Especially at our age.
sebauble
yeah
i know we dont really
itās just
im in love with y
we have almost finished school and u have never gone on a date or anythingĀ
and donāt say no girls would date u cos they totally would
Ominis
I think thatās where the issue may lie.Ā
sebauble
wdym?
Ominis
I think my issue here is er the girls.Ā
sebauble
oh rightĀ
none of them are taking ur fancyĀ
idk if u gave that 6th year a chance she might be alrightĀ
or just date me lol
Ominis
Thatās really not what Iām trying to say.
sebauble
ok then i donāt get it
Ominis
Merlinās beard Sebastian I thought you were intelligent. Do I really have to spell it out?
I donāt like girls. I donāt want to date girls. Theyāre perfectly fine and Iām sure are very pretty, and actually I have been asked out before and didnāt tell you because I never went.
Because I like boys.Ā
sebauble
oh
Ominis
And Iām sorry I never told you but itās just something Iāve had to keep to myself for a long time because I just never knew how to bring it up.Ā
Iām sorry if this makes you uncomfortable now, I really hope it doesnāt.Ā Youāre the first person Iāve told.Ā
sebauble
oh
Ominis
Well donāt just keep saying oh, say something, anything, I beg of you.Ā
sebauble
sorry
me too, i like boys too, i like girls as well but i really like boys, i mean u boys, u r a boy and i like u, i love u actually, fuck sake
Ominis, it took me a long time to see it, but Iāve been in love with you for years, youāre the person I want to spend every waking moment with and talk to about everything and oh gods i canāt do it
Ominis
Are you typing? Can you just respond please, other than just sorry?
sebauble
dude i
sorry
thatās cool!!!
u shouldāve told me before
didnāt need to keep this kind of secret
i wouldāve set u up lol
Ominis
With someone from our school? Disgusting, the lot of them. Filthy, smelly boys.Ā
sebauble
even me?
then how do u kno u even like boys???
Ominis
Well.Ā Thatās a good question. Itās just something I know, I suppose. Yep, thatās it, definitely.Ā
sebauble
oh no no no no no no no no please say no
ā¦oh i see right through u
there IS someone u like
Ominis
Alright. Maybe.Ā
But donāt go pushing me, Iām not going to tell you.Ā
sebauble
fuck fuck fuck fuck just kill me
tell me who it is now, ill kill them
i wont. thats what the amortentia is for
iāll get u to smell it, tell me what u smell and then ill work it out
im very smart
Ominis
Youād have to torture that out of me, Sebastian.Ā
sebauble
if it gets u on a date with someone then itll be worth it >:)
Ominis
Thatās the other issue.Ā I donāt think this person is interested in boys.Ā
At all.Ā
sebauble
dude
I have to know now
let me help
Ominis
I think we should really leave it.
sebauble
ā¦
alright
only because im nice and respectful of ur privacy
sometimes lol
but if u need my help
i am here
Ominis
Thank you. I mean it, for not hating me. For being supportive.Ā
sebauble
ur my best friend
why would i hate u over this? donāt be daft
i could never hate u baby
in fact i
Ominis
:) Thank you.Ā
Well, I should go wallow in my own self pity now, itās been a long day. Iāll talk to you in the morning?
sebauble
speak tomorrow
sleep well
love u
<3
Ominis
Love you too.
<3
December 25th, 9:31am
sebauble
CHRISTMAS
WAKE UP
Ominis
Iām awake!Ā
Merry Christmas Sebastian :)
sebauble
MEERY CHRISTMAS OMINIS
Ominis
Donāt forget to open the gift I got you.Ā
And the one for Anne, too.Ā
sebauble
I WONT
CAN I OPEN NOW?
Ominis
Yes!
9:36am
sebauble
oh dude thank you
i fucking love it
just what i wanted
Ominis
Is it the right one?
sebauble
YES
super cool
i wanted this quidditch jumper for foreverĀ
so thank you
itās perfectĀ
ITS GOT MY NAME ON THE BACK
i just saw
Hahahahah even more perfectĀ
brilliant
<333333
OminisĀ
Iām so glad you like it. I had to get Anneās help. Did she like her gift?
sebauble
hold on
yes she loves it thank you
she said āid been wanting this diary for ages, thank you ominis, u really shouldnāt haveā
u need to stop being so generous dude
im sorry i couldnāt really afford to get u anything
Ominis
I just want to make you happy, itās not about getting anything in return, honestly.Ā
Iām glad she likes it. Merry Christmas to you both.Ā
sebauble
ā¦
Ominis
What?
sebauble
check ur bag
Ominis
What?
sebauble
just check it
9:45am
Ominis
What is this?Ā
sebauble
did u open it?
Ominis
No, what have you done?
sebauble
open it
9:47am
Ominis
Iāve opened it. It feels like a photo frame. What is it?
sebauble
so if u run ur hands over the whole thing it u should be able to feel some bits feel different to the other bits
Ominis
Yes, I can feel that. Some bits are raised and other bits arenāt.Ā
sebauble
yeah
its basically a picture with the outlines raised up so you can feel it. sort of like a drawing but u can trace over it so u can āseeā it
Ominis
Whatās it a picture of?
sebauble
us
from mine and anne's birthday party
idk if u remember
she took the picture outside the dorm
i think we were both drunk but yeah
i just loved the picture
and wanted u to see it somehow
Ominis
Oh Sebastian.Ā
sebauble
is it any good?
can u sort of feel it?
im on the left side and ur on the rightĀ
if itās no good u donāt have to keep it
Ominis
Sebastian.Ā
sebauble
yeah?
Ominis
This is the most wonderful gift Iāve ever received.Ā
sabauble
haha
really?
Ominis
This is the most thoughtful, amazing thing Iāve ever been given.Ā I canāt believe it.Ā You shouldnāt have spent the money on me.Ā
sebauble
as u said earlier āi just want to make u happyā
Ominis
Sebastian.Ā Youāve made me cry.Ā
sebauble
donāt cry :(
plz
sorry
Ominis
You idiot. Iām not sad.Ā I just cannot believe someone has done something this wonderful for me. And for you to be the one to do it, well, is not surprising but.
I donāt think I can thank you enough.Ā
I love you.
sebauble
i
you
i love you too so much
Ominis
But probably not in the way I love you.Ā
sebauble
????
Ominis
Gods, I apologise, I didnāt mean to send that. Stupid phone.
Please ignore that message. How do you delete a message? I canāt delete the message, why wonāt it delete it? Oh itās still listening to me, for fuck
sebauble
what
Ominis
Please Sebastian, please ignore it. I think it mustāve heard me wrong or something, Iām sorry.
Just ignore it, I canāt delete it for some stupid reason but youāve already seen it anyway so it doesnāt
I apologise. I donāt understand why it listens to me sometimes and then doesnāt the other.Ā
I hate these stupid things.
Just forget it.Ā
sebauble
do you
are you in love with me or something?
Ominis
I said just ignore it. Please.Ā
sebauble
no, just tell me
are you?
when u said thereās someone u like yesterday
did u mean me?
Ominis
Sebastian, please.
sebauble
tell me
please
u have to tell me
Iām begging u
Ominis
I canāt do this Sebastian
sebauble
please
please because if i say i feel the same way and u say u were joking i think i would die
Ominis
You feel the same way?
sebauble
i do
ominis please
im stupidly desperately in love with you and i truthfully have no idea for how long but all i know is that i love you with every fibre of my being and i spend every second without u wishing i was with u and every second with u wishing i was closer to u
all the times Iāve called you baby and perfect and gorgeous i was never joking
please tell me u werenāt joking
please
Ominis
I wasnāt joking. I didnāt mean to send it but I am serious.Ā
Are you serious?
sebauble
ofc i amĀ
i swear
Merlin
I love you Ominis
Ominis
Can I call?
sebauble
yes
please
OminisĀ is callingĀ sebauble
Call accepted
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Ok ok ok
Favorites rn are Jade, the Carapacians (especially Jack Noir and Peregrine), Nepeta, Terezi, Vriska and Roxy (I love women moment)
I actually really love acts 1-3 and it reminds me a lot of a show i like called RWBY, where the first three seasons are chill and then the tension ramps with higher stakes. Big fan of looking back at the past and crying cause the characters were so innocent back then.
Btw anyone who says you can skip straight to act 5 to see the trolls is LYING!!!!
I like the ancestors rn, in the "they're sick legends from the past" way, I havent met the dancestors yet.
The scratch is interesting rn I dunno if i'll be able to tell completely how I feel about it till I see more of its affects. I can see why live readers didnt vibe with the Alpha kids all the way, but I'm really liking them so far. My opinions may change when they get into the game we will see.
Also WV my beloved <3 <3 <3 Such a good soul he's so brave and noble and he lead the rebellion against the Black King and kept the White Queen's ring for years what a guy!!!!
I AM SOOOOOOO SORRY FOR HOW LATE THIS RESPONSE IS LMAO. sorry. my adhd meds have been in limbo for a week and a half. everyone can tell.
You're so right though on like. Everything here lmao. The thing about Homestuck is that it just has so many really good women in it. I may be a captors stan because I have big emotions about their relationship with apocalypses but like. The women in homestuck are simply just So Good. I thiiiiiink PM is probably my favorite homestuck woman and Nepeta is my second though. If I was forced to choose. Wait no I forgot about Aradia and Kanaya. Ohhhhhh boy. How do you pick. They're all simply WONDERFUL.
I'm sooooo glad you enjoyed WV but also don't get used to him. He's never brought back properly again until like act 7. For a few seconds. It's miserable being a WV fan during act 6 because he's treated as less than a person and the fact that he's a WAR VETERAN WITH PTSD ABOUT THE WAR HE FOUGHT IN AS A REVOLUTIONARY LEADER is ignored completely in favor of LOOK! Pet for dave and karkat!
As an archival reader myself I loved the alpha kids. They're fun!!! They're delightful little idiots. I'm deeply curious about your opinions on Jake English, actually. I've been known to have what some people might refer to as strong opinions on him. Incredibly strong opinions on one particular aspect of him that may only be implied in canon but like guys it's so incredibly heavily implied in canon I'm obsessed with it.
Hope you're having as much fun with act 6 as I did when I first read it which. Ok admittedly I didn't like act 6 as much on my first readthrough because the specific flavor of romance drama was Not as engaging to me but in retrospect I really love it.
#answering asks#gardenergulfie#interacting w friends#the thing about act 6 of homestuck is that it's just So Much#it's just SO much#and a lot of it is REALLY REALLY FUN but also a lot of it is.#uh.#the love triangle of the ages.#which is a huge Yawn from me
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ppl rly do forget that like. actors are real ppl. they're living n breathin n shit. you wanna objectify smth? objectify a character ok, they're playing a role, theyre playing pretend, they know they will be perceived in any fucking light (and they know it will be sexual theyre not stupid or innocent or naive).
but when the actor is NOT acting. theyre just living life, taking interviews, posting insta stories or whatever. please. please do not go far. for the love of god AT LEAST use tone indicators or just. flat out say "yh ik what i just said was bonkers pls ignore me, im just trying to say smth with a lot of feeling" or whatever else u wanna do.
would YOU like to have those comments? when youre just at the beach or laughing or sitting or shit like that? one thing is when they're at work cuz they know what comes with that. another thing is when they are just being themselves.
y'all need to learn 1) basic human decency (i know this is SOOOO hard for some of you, but let's make an effort okay?) and 2) separate the actor from ANYTHING they have worked on. perceive any character however you like. leave the real people alone. this should be very obvious but it is not. please just treat human beings kindly and respectfully, especially when they havent done anything more than breathe.
some of yall are funny with it, sure, but it would be PERFECT if we could see that yall have self-awareness enough to know what u say is deranged. own it. accept it. point it out. and keep treating people with respect. thank you.
someone sent some random blog an anon that basically said "please stop sexualizing glen powell so much it's getting outrageous" and of course there was pushback: "he's a man, not a person" and "i can do whatever i want" which like, okay who cares
but one comment stuck out. one person said with all sincerity, "he made a workout video where he had shorts on so obviously he wants us to appreciate his physique" like...do you guys not hear yourselves? or is it wilful ignorance
#shit talking but seriously (or not)#thats my discourse/fan wank tag now#i gotta make a list of them i guess#anyways#treat ppl how u'd like to be treated basically#rebloggin time
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Wait imagine a fic where Jack and the reader are long distance or something and when Tubbo and Tommy are doing the man hunt irl the reader surprises Jack.
That would be cute I think š¤
Just One Livestream
You surprise Jack with a spontaneous visit to the UK, little did you know that they were livestreaming.
- Jack Manifold x gen neutral!reader
- Anon Requested!
ā ļø swearing, fluff!, not proofread
an// I hope yall enjoy! Much love! And sorry it came out so late I have no inspiration rn but imma get it done! Also I used the difference of American hours to London hours so sorry of
Navigation!
"Love, why are you up early?" Jack asked through the phone.
You two were facetiming eachother as he propped his phone up on his dashboard while he started to drive. It was around 1 am for you and 6 am for Jack. Sadly you two were in a long distance relationship. You had met Jack when you were on a college trip to London to study abroad for 3 weeks. You were sad that you had to leave your home country, but this was a opportunity you couldn't oppose.
During this trip you had found a cafe that you would go to often. The first time you sat at the cafe alone you always noticed it was only you and this other man in the cafe. He was always on his computer and sat by a window, he always came early too, even earlier than you. As the days went on you continued to see him around more and he seemed to notice you as well. You made a note to yourself to always try and show up a tad bit earlier to the cafe to stay around the same time as he did.
You two got to know eachother throughout the three weeks you had to stay in London. The small nods became hellos, and the hellos turned into full on conversation by the window. He had told you his name was Jack Manifold and was kind of surprised when you didn't immediately know who he was. To him it was refreshing not to be immediately noticed based on his appearance. You both had exchanged numbers one day and after each morning you two would text non stop even during your classes. Luckily trying to get to know Jack changed your sleep schedule and because of that you always made it to class on time.
Jack was such an amazing guy to you, but during the first week you had developed a small crush on the man, and he had developed a crush on you too. The second week you two had ventured out onto different territory than the cafe. Jack started to call those small outings after class, dates and you weren't opposed to the dates at all you loved them. The second and third week were mostly dates and the night before you left he asked to be your boyfriend and of course you accepted not knowing the pain of a long distance relationship.
You had to answer his question on why you were up so early. "Yeah- Um, Im up because of you." You chuckled. "You changed my sleep schedule ever since I met you."
"Well you're welcome, because before me I heard you were missing classes." Jack payed attention to the road but still talked to you.
"Because I told you! And I am grateful, but there is nothing to do at one am here." You sighed while you started to walk around your room as you lied to him.
Jack was talking to you while you did a clean sweep around your house to check if you had everything for your trip.
Two weeks ago you had decided to pack your bags and take a trip back to London. Right now your flight will be leaving early in the morning and that's why you are up so early.
You wanted to surprise Jack instead of straight up telling him that you will be in the country. You missed him dearly, and this will be a great way to spend time together instead of seeing eachother across a screen. One of you had to make that sacrafice and that would be you.
While Jack continued to talk you checked everywhere to make sure you arent leaving anything behind.
"What are you doing, darling?" Jack asked and that snapped you out of your trance. "Are you even listening to me? Im hurt." Jack faked being hurt.
You smiled at him and shook your head. "Im sorry I wasn't listening. What were you saying?"
"I was saying, when you were ignoring me, that I'm going to the cafe right now and that we should plan a trip soon. I miss you." Jack confessed and you awed.
"I miss you too Jack! I hopw we can see each other soon." You tried to contain your smile as you hid your surprise.
"Me too."
Your plane finally landed as you let out a sigh of relief. You had collected all of your shit fast so you could finally get off of that horrible plane. Every stereotypical airplane scene happened to you in the hours you were on that plane. You had a child crying behind you with a mother who couldn't keep that child calm, you were sat next to a man who snored the whole ride here and you just felt cramped.
Sadly you couldn't return any of Jack's messages or calls that you saw when you were in the airplane terminal. You tried calling him twice but they both went to voicemail while you rolled your bag through the huge building. Finding yourself outside you ordered an Uber and once you did that your phone began to ring showing Jack's name and picture of you two together on the screen.
You quickly answered the phone. "Hey!"
"Hi!" Jack chuckled. "I called like, 17 times!"
"I know! Im sorry. I was busy." You weren't lying getting a plane and basically leaving early in the morning and arriving in the afternoon in London. "So, what are you doing today?"
"I am hanging out with Tommy and Tubbo at the park! Im picking them up now!" Jack responded and you heard him close his car door.
"Which park?" You asked quickly as you saw your Uber arrive.
Jack started to laugh. "Uh I'll text you the park I guess. Why would you want to know?"
"No reason! I just want to make sure you are safe. Dont make me call 999." You tried to joke around and take the attention off of your question.
"I cant believe you still remember 999." Jack laughed.
"I still do!" You said as you got inside your Uber and gave the driver the directions to your hotel forgetting that Jack was on the other line.
"Wait hotel?" Jack questioned through the phone.
"Hotel? What are you talking about?" You acted oblivious.
"I- I thought you were talking about a hotel." Jack hesitated.
"No!" You tried to cover up your mistake.
"Well Im going to pick up Tommy soon. I'll talk to you later okay? Answer my calls this time!" Jack chuckled.
"I definitely will!"
You had recived the name of the park you were surprising Jack at. You began to walk around the parking lot after you got dropped off and noticed his car sitting there. There were tons of people at the park today and you didn't know where he would be. As you walked on the dirt trails of the park your thoughts took over, what if you made a mistake and should've told Jack that you were here in London and wanted to meet up at the cafe?
You looked at people as they passed by you ok the trail wishing that you had that energy that you had before, thinking that you would find Jack easily when in reality you were in a busy part of the park and he could be anywhere.
When you thought all hope was lost you heard some loud voices on the trail to your right. You were already walking aimlessly through the park and your first instinct was to go left and walk away from the loud voices, but then you heard something.
"Tommy this was a bad idea!"
"I dont think it was!"
You stood in the "intersection" of the dirt trails thinking that you heard those voices right. You rounded the corner and followed right to see Tommy and Jack doubled over, out of breath while Tubbo was still standing up breathing heavily. There were far away from you, but not far away that you couldn't see them clearly.
You began to call out to them. "Tommy! Jack! Tub-"
They quickly turned around and took off running. Confused on why they were doing that you took off running after them trying to tell them to stop. They were yelling and you were yelling and getting weird glances from stangers, and you dont blame them. You're chasing after your boyfriend and his two friends in a quiet public park. You continued to hear their groans of tiredness and their speed started to slow down.
"Jack! Tommy! Wait up!" You yelled out of breath as you slowed down as well.
"We give up! We give up!" Tubbo yelled and came to a complete stop while trying to catch his breath. He turned around to finally face you. "Y/N?!"
"Wait what?!"
"You're here?!" Jack ran up to you and gave you a bone crushing hug, rocking you two back and forth.
"I am! And Im our of breath thanks to you three." You said while still hugging Jack.
"M'sorry I thought you were a fan and I took off and they followed suit I guess." Tommy rubbed his forehead.
"A fan?" You questioned and Tommy and Tubbo lifted their phones up gesturing that they were recording.
"We're doing manhunt in real life, darling." Jack kissed your temple and wrapped his arn around your waist, holding you tight.
"Next time look before you run okay." You smiled still out of breath while kissing Jack's cheek.
"Enough with the PDA!" Tubbo yelled still recording you two.
"We havent even started!" Jack yelled back giving you a huge hug. Jack closed the distance between you two and gave you a passionate kiss on the lips while the two boys groaned in disgust.
"I think that's enough streaming for today boys." Tommy sighed.
"Sorry again, love. That won't happen again."
You and Jack walked hand in hand down the streets of London. People had to walk around you two because you were basically taking up the whole sidewalk and you weren't letting go of his hand anytime soon.
"It better not! I dont want to run after you again." You smiled as you bumped shoulders.
"And you wont have to!" He smiled back at you as you two continued to walk and people dodged the two of you.
"Have you ever thought of moving here?" Jack asked out of nowhere.
"I have actually! On the plane ride here I thought of leaving and moving to London." You thought about it constantly. It was nice being close to Jack and it was a major risk.
"Well wherever you're ready, I'll be here for you." Jack kissed your cheek. "And I wont run away when you come here!"
You two finally made it to your destination which was the cafe you two met at. It was busy at this time because it was the middle of the day and not the beginning. You two entered and took your seats by the window where you two usually sat.
"I love you. I missed this." Jack said.
"I love you too! And of course I missed this. Maybe you can show me more places around London and convince me to stay longer." You gave him a proposal.
"Longer than what?" Jack asked.
"Four weeks." You grinned.
Jack grabbed both of your hands and kissed the back of them. "Hell yeah. I get you for more than four weeks?!"
"That's if you show me places to stay longer." You teased.
"Okay babe. You like ferris wheels?"
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May 8, 2021
9:08 am
Feeling skinny this morning, Im less bloated but I'll wait lunch time for weight myself.
I already planned to eat light tomorrow because I'll make some cinnamon buns for Mother's day so I'll eat one. Mom want to do a risotto with radish for lunch and I'll have a very light soup for dinner, it should be fine. I wanted to drink some soy milk this morning but Im enjoying not feeling too much bloated so nvm lmao.
I'll maybe go to the store because we finished the butter and I need it for tomorrow, but idk if I feel good enough for go with the bike.
I thought aa lot about my current situation and I feel stuck, I binged so I havent lost weight in the past days (and if I did idk because bloating), my therapist now is more aware of this problem so she will try to convince me to see a specialist, and idk how much time I have until mom will be that worried too. I felt awful when I bought the skirt the other day, like I was feeling not worthy enough to have it. So ig I can lose maybe another 5kg before they'll try to stop me somehow. Idk what I'll do from that on. At the same time I dont have a friend that will listen to me about this as I want, so my mind is completely free to mess with me rn.
I had the worst idea to tell to my father how much I lost and he yelled at me that im fucking crazy and he will force me to eat. Ironic how he started only after I said a number when he praised me so much until now because now Im in a better shape, and most importantly he bodyshame my mom all the time so he literally have no fucking right to tell me a single thing.
Im gonna ignore him all day, I dont fucking care, he didnt cared at all untilvnow so shut. the. fuck. up.
1:09 pm
Burned 182kcal walking in the living room while my parents were out, my dad is now acting like nothing happened and so will I, god I just want to cry and scream. I'll go out after lunch so I can stay away from him for a while.
I weighted myself again before startig to rat and I was 59,35? Is the scale drunk or what-
2:33 pm
Mom will come with me to the store, so I'll drive a little instead of going with the bike.
I drcided to have a come soy milk with cereals as a snack when I'll be back, I deserve it, I want it and most importantly, if my father see me eating that he will shut up.
Im happy to see I actually lost some weight even if ai binged like a pig a couple of days ago, tomorrow I'll probably be extremely bloated because of the pizza but I have to remember its ok.
3:25 pm
Already at home, I decided to replace my snack with some hero marmelade, the entire jar has the same calories as thr other stuff I wanted and it will surely fill me better. I'll maybe walk more since my parents will go out again. I dont want to do a workout, and Im still under 900 with my plan so its fine.
6:00 pm
My parents just came back home, I burned more and Im almost at 400kcal, I will surely reach it walking the dogs.
8:01 pm
Burned a total of 451kcal, not bad since I didnt use the cyclette today. Im gonna eat my first entire pizza since february :') mom wants to eat a piece of cake after it, but its one she bought so I can check calories and if I can eat a piece (spoiler: I surely cant, Im gonna make a tea or a coffee or idk).
10:22 pm
Aaaand I binged. Not too much, Im still in deficit ig, and I font want to feel guilty.
Im ok, I took my time for eat, not like the other times. I'll make some tea now, and tomorrow I'll just stick to the plan.
Everything is ok.
11:34 pm
I had a lot of water and tea, I honestly dont feel full because of food so Im not feeling that guilty. I kinda crave stuff but tomorrow Ihave to bake stuff because of mother's day so why I should eat bow if tomorrow I can eat a yummy thing I'll do by myself? Exactly, Its not necessary.
Im not sure I'll weight myself, but who knows, it depends on how much bloated I'll be.
Goodnight!
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Hey! I see you have good story telling recs for like video games and stuff and I just got a ps4, is there anything you recommend? I have wolf among us and Detroit become human on my list THATS all I have so far
omg girl u have come to the RIGHT place ! story-based games are my shit ok... im gonna start by doing a lil self-plug which is that iām streaming one i really love called firewatch tonight (at 7pm PST hehe) on my twitch so we can start with that one. its such a pretty game and has a really touching story. but that aside, non-exhaustive list below:
the last of us ā i havent played the second one yet, but both 1&2 are playstation exclusive i believe and the first one is probably one of the greatest games ever made. better than most movies iāve watched story-wise; i fell in love with the characters and i doubt anyone could play this without shedding a few tears.
the walking dead by telltale ā same studio that made the wolf among us (which i fucking love also), and all four seasons of this game are a masterpiece. clementine is probably my all time favorite video game character, and there were some side characters who i really sobbed over during the course of the game. plus all the characters you play as are characters of color so thereās a specific attention to diverse viewpoints there!
life is strange ā i would hope youād have played this already if you like story games, but if not, go play the original game ASAP (LiS2 is alright, but the first one is what really shines) and you can also play the prequel before the storm. beautiful atmosphere, attention to detail, gameplay mechanics, etc. good good shit
dragon age ā HELLO my fave shit omg, again not to self-plug but iām gonna be doing a stream series of this and starting with an intro to the lore for beginners because there is serious worldbuilding for these games and the storylines are immaculate. thereās three so far and including the various DLC you will be entertained for weeks if not months.
mass effect ā made by the same studio as dragon age, essentially itās dragon age in space. same great characters, worldbuilding, plotlines, etc. just... ignore andromeda and only play the main three ME games.
uncharted ā i will fucking die for naughty dog games omg so they also made the last of us plus all 4 uncharted games and these ones are SO much fun. much less emotional turmoil, think indiana jones in the present day with an extra serving of wisecracking banter and there you go. really excellent fully fleshed out female characters as well. nathan drake is a treasure.
until dawn ā more of a horror game but has weirdly excellent actors (hello rami malek???) and a super cool/creepy story with not so much focus on combat (more QTE based) which helps when youāre just there to be entertained. i love this game, iām not a huge horror person myself but itās just so good and your choices really impact the outcome.
oxenfree ā deeply underrated game with some of my favorite voice acting ever, such a gorgeous art style, and an incredible and resonant story. so much lore to unpack here too, this game was really made with so much love (like there is deadass a morse code message hidden in the beat of the main song that leads to an irl mystery... google that shit its so cool) and it has major replay value. lots of choices to make and they all impact the ending in a ton of ways.
pillars of eternity ā i actually liked the second one more than the first one and i enjoyed them both a lot so thatās saying something! you can play on easy mode and ignore the fighting and thereās tons of quests and choices to make and an interesting story/mystery to uncover. plus in the second one you get a pirate ship.
divinity original sin 2 ā played this recently and itās definitely more of a combat game, but as with POE you can just play on the easiest setting lol and then explore the game for its world and storyline. similar to POE in that itās quest-based as well, the characters are super well done, and itās all voice-acted which is nice.
star wars knights of the old republicĀ (aka KOTOR) ā listen this game is old as hell and looks like ass but its so good. idk what else to say i mean its literally like 20 years old and people are still playing it. thereās a ton of mods you can download to make it look better, but the storyline and the plot twist hold up as one of the all time greats. iāve replayed it and the sequel multiple times. even if you donāt like star wars, worth it.
stardew valley ā HELLO THIS GAME IS SO CUTE its essentially just harvest moon and yes itās pixel graphics but itās so charming and the characters are very enchanting. thereās not a ton of story but itās still worth a play as itās just very soothing and earnest. iāve logged like 200+ hours in this game lmao
hopefully you havenāt heard of all of these already!! i love all of these games and i love sharing story-based recs because there arenāt a lot of them out there. if anyone knows of any other good ones please drop ur thoughts in the replies!
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fr tho hmmm, ok since ur bingeing alot of anime lately, top 5 anime youve watched recently (u can include ongoing stuff if u want ily)
For this ask meme
I havent binged that much anime recently ;;; Just a few, a lil few.
Long list with pictures ahead, this is not list by quality but by joy factor
5. Jujutsu Kaisen
Itās weird that the anime Iāve been talking about the most is so low on the list but thatās mainly because Iām mostly hyperfocused on the manga rn. The arc the anime is in rn is where I got really invested when I was reading the manga and it only got better since then, would probs rank very high in my fav manga list rn. Iām feral for the next season and I would like to know when itās coming out hehe~
4. My Next Life as a VillainessĀ
Catarina vs my exam slump, who will win? The answer may surprise you.
This show brought so much happiness in my life when I needed it the most, I just enjoyed it a whole lot and on a few occasions it even made me laugh at loud. Catarina is a fucking dumbass but in a way that makes her lovable instead of frustrating...or at least lovably frustrating lmao! And Iāve already said my peace on the rest of the cast. The only way it could be better is if it went gay all the wayĀ
3. Skate the infinityĀ
Can you imagine that I almost didnāt watch this anime? The only reason I started it because I looked at the op cuzĀ āskating anime is bound to have some good tunesā (it has), but truth to be told from the amount of it I see on my dash I would have probably got into it anime. I love these characters (except Adam but Adam falls straight into the sort of villain trope I dislike the most soĀ ĀÆ\_(ć)_/ĀÆ) But honestly has some of the best and most lovable characters these season and Rekiās arc is goddamn heartbreaking to watch. This is the kind of show with a beating heart you know, I love it.
2. Dr Stone
Funny how I watched this after you complained endlessly about it and then ended up enjoying it so much. Iām not much of a science buff and there are times I just zone out when Senku is explaining shit but as Iāve said countless times before itās the characters that make or break the show for me and I love every single one. I just like how full of passion it is and how obvious it is that this is the author just nerding out. Senku is very interesting protagonist because he wasnāt supposed to be the protagonist at all and itās great how passionate he can be while completely avoiding the passionate shonen youth trope. Also I ranted to you constantly about how nice is to see a character with who has such a prominent way of showing love exclusively by his actions. Also the emotional moments hit so hard despite it being a nerd out show. Also just Gen, as a concept. This show feels like someone is constantly ranting to you about the thing they are passionate about and as someone who loves to listen to ppl rant about things they love, itās just great. Also I get to share in with something you really like and that always makes it better <3
1. Talentless Nana
Didnāt we calculate that I finished the entire anime and then the manga start to finish in two days flat?
Yeah I think that says it all.
Nana turned out to be such a niche show and it really deserves more. Iāve seen people compare it to Death Note but itās really not like Death Note when you get past the cat and mouse game that isnāt even itās core more like a bait to lure you in to the real thing. Like this isnāt a show that is going to vow you with itās mindgames but I do like it better than Death Note just because it has infinently more interesting and lovable characters and Nana could kick Lights ass any day. Nana has bits of BNHA in it and bits of Death Note in it but what itās really about for me is abuse and how it can break and remold a person and how hard itās to get out of it and start acting against what youāve been conditioned to believe is the right thing, no matter how much you want to do better. That message is more thoroughly explored in the manga though and since it ended up so niche I doubt weāll be getting second season ;-; But damn donāt I love Nanaās arc. She makes for an amazing protagonist that you just love despite everything she does and then you start to understand her better and how she ended up like this and you just really want to root for her to figure out what happened. And when she does itās not an instant switch, she doesnāt immediately goĀ āoh ok i know what teh good is now ill do thatā. Itās a struggle to go against what sheās been taught to believe, itās a struggle to turn her back on the only safe person she knows in her life (who is very very abusive but abusers can still be safe places thatās why abuse is so hard to leave) and try to join in with people who are very likely to refuse her just because she knows thatās the right thing to do. Watching Nana go from mindless drone to a girl struggling to leave an abusive situation and make up for all the wrongs she did is just amazing. One day I wanna go through the manga and detailly document Nanaās journey. I hope she finds stability soon my girl ;-;Ā
This has turned into a Talentless Nana rant but I just love how seriously the story takes the topic of abuse, how much it can impact you, your actions and your view of the world and how hard it is to leave. How much easier it would be for Nana to just stay where she is and ignore everything despite knowing leaving would be the best choice. Recently the manga updated with a chapter on Moe and it showed so well how much abuse can impact and persist even when a child is in a safe situation and ;-; MOE IāM SORRY I SAID I DONT LIKE YOU AAAA.Ā
Anyway if anyone aside from Peter made it to the end of the list uhhh read Talentless Nana, itās really good and I would like more please
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Fanfics i would Love to read but not talented enough to write them myself...
.... fanfics... or even better if that was actual scenes in season 4!
1. Gilbert seating on the train writing a draft of his letter to Anne, getting emotional, passionate not noticing old lad seating next to him with his wife looking at eachother smiling at young love. Telling him a short story of their love and how they have been separated and how they would suprise eachother by visiting every now and then.
2. Anne talking to Diana and deciding not to tell anyone about her and Gilbert before she actually speak with him... which later on will pay of in girls faces when they see them kissing lol
3. Anne receiving her first letter from Gilbert and being over the moon, sending her own letter straight away and meeting young intelligent boy at the post office which turnes out is at queens aswel.
4. Gilbert and Anne meeting new people, having their lessons and studies and writing little notes to add their letters, collecting little flowers, making it very personal.
5. Gilbert being jealous over this new boy which Anne mentioned in 3 letters already. Doing extra work to finish his studies few days earlier to travel to Charlottetown and see Anne.
6. All girls seating outside, learning, talking romance, Anne and Diana giving eachother side looks because nobody knows about Gilbert yet... Anne getting very emotional she havent seen Gilbert in 2months while Ruby talking about daily walks with Moody.. her eyes tear up, girls are like ohh r you ok Anne when one of them look up from their blanket and bw like: oh, Gilbert whatever you doing here...
Anne jumped up straight into his arms, he swings her around in a massive hug, then they about to kiss, tios of their lips about to touch when Diananotice Girls faces and goes like: uhmm
Gilbert and Anne look at all the suprised girls, get a bit shy, Gilbert let's Anne out of his tight hug and they stand there looking at eachother for short while, Gilbert is like: ladies... if you dont mind I would like to steal Anne for a... looks at Anne not knowing what to say, but she finish his sentence for him: tea! There's certain matters we need to discuss with Gil... with Mr. Blythe... she says while looking at Gilbert's dreamy eyes... Girls being so confused and shocked by whole situation just nods while they walk out through back gate.
7. The moment they are away enough from girls and the boarding house Gilbert swing Anne in the air again with the cutest smile, she laughs, then they step to the side of little quiet road and he kiss like theres no tomorrow...
Talk about their studies... then walk past tea house and Gilbert is like, oh we are here and Anne look at him with a cheeky smile... shes like oh we are not really going to have a tea are we.. its dull and full of boring people.. Gilbert laughs at memory of being awkward with Winfred at one of them tea houses.
Anne takes Gilbert to one of her favourite parks, they walk by the water.. theres a small patch of grass surrounded by trees, Sun sneaking through the branches, they are finally alone and kissing and cuddling... they sat on the grass talking, laughing, simply staring into eachothers eyes... they lie down cloud gazing playing with each hands, hair...
8. Gilbert walking Anne back to her house, talking about leaving to Avonlea and telling everyone, both but stressed about their families reaction... they stop by the gate to avoid Anne getting kn trouble, hold eachothers hands. Gilbert's is like: so... we are... courting? Its official! Anne gives him a shy smile: I still cant belive it... Gilbert gives her a soft kiss and tells her he will come and see her at queens next day so the can travel together back to Avonlea.
9. Anne back to her room where she is immediately flooded by questions from all the girls... You kissed him, he kissed you in public, oh that's nothing like Gilbert we knows.. Anne stands there waiting for them to calm down and simply just say: I'm in love with Gilbert Blythe for a while now, and what I recently been informed about, hes been (she srops realising he never actually said he loves her...) ... having feeling for me aswel, for a while... we will be seeing our families tomorrow as we are offering courting.. girls get all hyped, asking questions if hes a good kisser Ruby throws a little comment that she actually always was confused when she thought hes looking at her but it was more like he was staring at Anne and that shes happy for her...
(Sorry... long list... I didint realised km so needy and desperate for fanfics š)
10. All Anne can think if at school is fact that she is going to see Gilbert very soon and they will travel together back home...
She bumped into her friend, Roy which btw also have feeling for her and jokingly often admits he thinks Anne's is the most beautiful girl at queens etc... which Anne is ignoring as all she thinks of Gilbert and studies.
They walk out of school together, Roy lean and whisper somwthkng into Anne's ear, she laughs and notice Gilbert, wave at him, theyvwalk towards eachother. Gilbert's jaw is pulsing, hes jealous. Anne introduces them to each other and Gilbert have a little flashback to when he was introducing Winnie to Anne and disint know how to refer to Winfred, Anne did almost the same thing as it's actually first time she have to introduce Gilbert as her bou. Boys shake their hands bit stronger than they should, Anne says goodbye to Roy and her friends, Gilbert then offers her his arm to hold on to while looking at Roy standing and watching them walk away.
11. Gilbert is bit confused and worried, he isnt talking much on the way back, Anne is so excited shes doing most of the talking.. she noticed Gilbert acting wierd and asks, he then have tiny emotional tantrum and tells her he doesnt like the way this Roy guy is into her... she laughs and tells him theres nothing there, beside the only person she cares about... she ... loves its Gilbert.. he smiles, hold her hand... she then get a bit worried because its been 3 times when she said it out loud she loves him and Gilbert didint say it back.
12. They decided to invite Gilbert's family for dinner to Green Gables and then tell them together so when they get out of the train and see Matthew they being careful not to look to excited. Matthew offer Gilbert a ride back home and noticed little looks between Anne and Gilbert.
13. The dinner ready, Gilbert, Bash and Deli arrives at Green Gables, all the way Bash was giving Gilbert side looks with a cheeky smile and asking what so important they have to go to dinner tonight and not some other day... Gilbert just smiles and says its was Anne's idea on their way back from train station.. Marila opens the door calling for Matthew and Anne..
Anne come downstairs, Gilbert gets up with the most hearty eyes, theyblook at eachother for a while, and everyone e in the room glance at Anne then Gilbert, Marila and Bash look at eachother with a smile, Matthew looks a little bit concerned...
14. Anne stand in the middle of the room, Gilbert walks to her with a smile, turn around and stand by her side, they look at each other with a shy smile, he then pick up Anne's hand and while holding it dearly in his both hands he say something like: Marila, Matthew, Sebastian... Delphine (with a little smile as she giggle at he uncle)
We have some news, I mean... I would like to ask your permission first, ofcourse... uhmm
I would like to ask your permission to court with Anne... uhm... we recently discovered we both... have feelings for eachother... (Anne give him a concerned side look as again he wont say he loves her)
I needs to know if you Marila and Mathew gives us your... blessing..
They look at each other, Marila stands up, walked to them, hold their hands with tears in her eyes saying that shes so happy for them and their happiness and love is what matters... Bash alsongwts up and hug Gilbert with biggest smile saying he knew it and that he is so happy for them.. Anne then looks at Matthew which looks a bit sad.. gilbert then says: Matthew?
And hes like: if Anne's happy I am aswel, gets up and shakes Gilbert's hand, Anne hugs him.
15. They all seating alntalking, laughingnover the dinner table, Anne playing with Deli and Gilbert joining her, Matthew and Marila getting emotional as this is another big step towards losing their precious Anne.
16. Bash joking around, quietly saying to Marila about them behaving like perfect parents. Matthew then walking out but emotional.. Both Anne and Gilbert looking at eachother, Anne wanted Ringo but Gilbert telling her to stay and walking out behind Matthew. Then having a heartwarming conversation, telling Matthew how much he cares for Anne.
17. Anne kissing Gilbert goodbye and Bash seeing it, making comments about it on their way back home.
18. Anne and Gilbert going for walk... Gilbert being cheeky and keep touching Anne's hands, hair, face... talking about feeling when Anne suddenly tear up and tells him she wants to go back home, take a turn thru the woods, Gilbert all confused ran after her asking what's wrong, She then have a little go at him that shes scared he dowsnt really love her because it's been months and he never actually said he loves her... he then loom into her eyes, hold her face in his hands and tells her: I am in love with you Anne, my Anne with an e, I'm in love with you since i remember, it's always been you Anne...
He kiss her then and after the kiss shes all like: but why dont you say it..
He looked at her with sad eyes: I'm afraid of losing you Anne, most of people I ever loved are gone... I cant lose you Anne, I... love you to much, it hurts just thinking about losing you...
He seats on fallen tree, tell her a story of his mothers death while giving him birth, of his brothers dieing one after another to illness... then his father.. and dear Mary... he opens up and cry while she listens and hold his hand.
She then tells him how much sorry she is for being selfish and forcing him to say it, but he wont mind as it's been a while since he could open up like this and it feels so right to talk to his Anne.
They hug and talk about how Mary would be happy for them, Anne recalls his father and fact he said he herd alot about her and Gilbert getting all shy saying he told him alot abt Anne because even then he would not stop caring about her, back then he wasnt sure what it was, it was pulling him towards Anne, only recently he realised it's always been love...
Then they say it together and laugh...
19. As they are walking out of the forest Anne tripped and fall into a ditch, Gilbert laughs recalling the day Marila was talking about Anne in the ditch, asking her if that's how her adventures looks like and as shes a bit upset with him at first she also laughs saying he is her biggest adventure now...
20. Then as he helps her out, they stand and laughs, he gives her a soft kiss, Rachel Lynde watches it from nearby as she was just walking back from ms. Stacy's...
All shocked she rushed to Green Gables to talk to Marila... Markla gives he a little talk about being young and in love and maybe if she would listen to her heart she would be married now... as they talk Anne and Gilbert walks into the kitchen laughing... they both look ar Rachel bit scared of her comments.. but she gaze at Marile for short while thinking, then she gets up, walkes to them and congratulate them with a little cheeky comment about kissing...
21. They are back to their schools, emotional and full of love goodbyes, girls sneakily watching them and giggling...
22. Series of letters, Roy finding one of Anne's letters she left in one of her books he borrowed... then making a declaration.. Anne feeling overwhelmed as she does like Roy alot and woildnt want to ruin their friendship... bit of an argument between Anne and Gilbert, Roy trying to kiss her and she slapping his face...
23. Christmas back in Avonlea, together one big happy family... Anne and Gilbert sneaking out at night to spend time together... kissing and rolling in the barn...
24. Anne having a flashback from orphanage and Gilbert asking what's wrong, atvfitstvshe doesn't want to tell him but one night they talk and she opens up and tells him everything, about being bullied and treated like trash... about her imagination helping her get trough... about how broken she always felt and never couldn't even imagine being loved, and having so many loving people in her life... she would tell him about how worried she was her parents have her away because they disint love her as she was an ugly redheaded baby... Gilbert then kisses her single messy braid and tells her how much he loves her red hair and how much he Hope's their children will have same hair as her.. she then freaks out a little because she never actually thought about children and the way Gilbert talks it sounds so natural for him... she then look at him with a smile: out babies?
And gilbert is like: oh gosh, I I didint meant to scare you... but.. dont you think about... our future Anne? Coz I do.. alot he admits with a bit shy face..
She then say she only imagine their future together but she never actually thought about children... he get a bit stressed but then she adds that now he mentioned it, she also is looking forward to having a child, maybe two... they laugh and joke about it a little ... Bash and Ms. Stacy get married which course outbreak but after several years of secretly meeting and falling more in love they decided to go against the system. She ends up losing her job as a teacher but she writes books and articles to newspapers instead while pregnant with their first child. She also moves in with Bash his mother and Deli as Gilbert told Bash that after school he wont be living with them anymore. Elijah moves out as he met lovely girl himself, got married and lives outside Charlottetown, visiting them often and always helping with the harvest.
25. New years eve, theres a ball, dancing, beautiful scenes of them having fun together... Gilbert taking Anne back to green Gables.. he turn towards the cliffs... they walk together to the cliffs end, stand there looking into stars, he then drop on his knee, holding a ring, a beautiful ring and ask her to marry him, which she obviously say yes to.
26. Time skip with a bit of letters between them and their lives at school etc... suprised visits and going back home..
Matthew having another heart attack, being bed stuck, Jerry rushing to get a doctor but it's to far and they wouldn't make it, Matthew dieing with Anne and Marila by his bed... Gilbert coming to Avonlea back from his practice next day, Bash tells him what happened,bhe rush to Green Gables and Fojnd Anne in awful state.. Jerry explain to him he went to fetch the doctor from other town but it was to late... he apologise to Anne for not being here, she tells him it's not his fault... but he feels responsible for not being close to his family... he decides to come back and be a town doctor after all his school and practice is finished...
28. Anne after getting approval from mrs lacroix (stacy) applied and got the job as a teacher in Avonlea school, helping Marila as shes still very unstable after losing Matthew.
29. Then beautiful wedding in Avonlea... Marila crying.. Anne missing Matthew dearly.. lots of memories, laughs and dancing...
30. When Anne got the job as a teacher she also got the house ms Stacy useto lived in, she decided to stay at green Gables until theh get married but she got the house already for them week before the wedding.
They get back home, to their very own home, Anne is so happy it's in the woods as she always felt special connection to nature...
They have wonderful night and sweet love making, both happy in eachothers arms, enjoying the rest of their life together...
Gilbert suggest to Anne that she could write a book same as ms Stacy which she starts very next day...
31. Another skip in time... Anne giving birth, Gilbert doing his best, baby is breached, hes scared of losing Anne, of losing them both. Marila is there aswel... Baby is finally born but it isnt crying... Gilbert pass the baby to Marila and take care of Anne... she walks out quickly to check on the baby as therws still not a single cry in the house, Anne is bleeding alot, but asking for her baby... he walked in to the kitchen Marila standing there crying, he take baby if her hands and wrap aswel, their very first baby, product of their undying love didint survive the labour... he hugged his child pressing him to his chest, kissed his head... he then walked back to Anne's room... Marilenherd loud moan and deep desperate cry, shes crying herself... Gilbert asked if Anne wants to say her goodbyes. She said yes and hold her baby in her arms crying... they gold a little funeral two days after... Anne is devastated... her and Gilbert having a breakdown together crying...
32. Two years later Gilbert find himself worrying for his wife's life once agin... it was hard for them to decide tontryvfor another baby... Anne wanted it and now Gilbert is scared to death about his Anne and baby to come. Luckily this time everything went smoothly with mo single complication, baby cries and they both hold it together crying of happiness.
Then years later Anne writing another book, while their children are playing together outside of green Gables... Marilas dying wish was for Anne ro have Green Gables, it was her home and she wanted Anne and her family to live happy life in there...
Gilbert is backnfeom work, they seat on the porch, drinking tea, looking at eachother with hearty eyes, talking about their achievements kids keep running up to them, hugging and kissing them. They smile, stand up watching their 6 children being cheeky.
I love you Carrots...
I love you to Gil...
Then they kiss with even more passion than ever...
The end...
Gosh that possibly the longest post I ever wrote... when I started I had only abt 15 ideas... but as I wrote more and more... even more ideas came to my head... sorry for a long bit messy read... just wanted to share some of things that kept me awake since we found out about s4 being cancelled...
Anyway.... hope you enjoyed it... sorry for any mistakes... will proofread tomorrows as today its been a while since I started writing this...
#anne shirley#anne of green gables#anne#anne with an e fic#anne with an e#anne x gilbert#anne with an e s3#anne with an e season 3#anne with an e spoilers#awae edit#awae spoilers#awae#awaeedit#awae fanfic#awae fandom#awae fic#awae ff
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BNHA AU Ideas : Choir Group
Also on AO3!Ā
TL;DR:Ā Sometimes a family is 2 adults and 2 kids. But sometimes a family is a choir full of hero hopefuls.
(aka, what if everyone knew eachother from a choir group? what soft musical stuff can i cram into this au?)Ā
yagi does the allmight on the down-low
he had to leave broadway cause all for one ruined his organs
everyone in 1 a knows that yagi is all might but hes trying so hard to keep his secret so they just ignore it
izu wants to be a hero but hes scared of people so he joined a choir when he was smol
bakugou joined cause he wanted to beat izuku, they bonded a bit n its a more friendly rivalry
all of 1a was in the choir before ua, they are all shook that their class is just other choir kids
big three are the current choir leaders n izu was so proud they are the us big three too because he knew them when he was smol, baku n izu are the youngest in the top level
todoroki joined to spite his dad hes really good tho
mina lives for the dance group
iida is a baritone he sing low n hes a good boy, they are very proud of him cause hes one of the youngest in baritone, hes v proud too
ochako is an alto and I love her
monoma is a tenor n katsuki wants to kick him out of his section
tsuuyu is an alto too because i want someone to be a soprano but tsuuyu its too nice to be
jirou is a blessed alto
yaomomo is a soprano the poor girl
izuku is a soft alto boy! He had such a good upper range they thought hes be wasted in tenor
shinso is a soft tenor boy and has a singers crush on izuku
"oh my god hes just so fucking good he can dance too what the fuck guys. hes the only male alto im fucking shook he has the range of a god"
in their final year todo is the choral leader, bakugo is dance leader and izu is choir leader
villains are too scared to attack when they sing
aizawa was in the top level when izu joined
he was dance leader while in ua too because it was "only logical" he have a physical hobby (mic loved choir n aizawa loved seeing him that happy)
izu thought he was fucking amazing n thats why he wanted to join
n then he sees erazerhead n mic on tv when hes 8
yells to his mum "mama!!! thats zashi!! n shouta!! he had the dance solo when i joined" n inko doesnt know if izuku is right or not but she nods along and smiles anyway
first day of ua izu sees shouta n just gasps
"iTs HIm"
bakugo looks over
"oh my fuck it is isnt it"
aizawa is shook and confused
bakugo just sighs "its your fault deku is a fucking choir gay i hope you know that. you just had to be fucking competent didnt you"
all 1a student know each other from choir n they all have a big hug fest before the quirk test
"oH mY god its a soprano without a stick up her ass what are the chances" "jirou be nice to momo i know you hate sopranos but they have done nothing to you"
mineta exists in this au, as the only one not in choir. hes confused and then expelled the first day
aizawa is glad he was terrible because now he has his lil choir class, not that hed ever fucking admit it
1a harmonizes their bus songs and they learn all their choir repertoire on the bus trips around as Ā aizawa conducts
durring the usj izu n tsuuyu hum together to stay calm
izuku n todoroki are actually singing together durring their big fight, everyone in the audience is shook
its just because they are trying not to cry
because izu n todo have the "its your power" convo before the fight cause they are already friends, so izu is just trying to make him feel better about the argument he had with his dad
todoroki feels a lil more comfy so he brings up his flames n izu weeps n gives him a hug before they keep fighting
they sing stronger than you jokingly at the end of their fight
izu wins but only justttt. him n todo hug n laugh as they leave the field. yagi cries a lil for his boys.
izu n bakuās fight n it ends in a draw because they blow eachother out of the ring n they are both salty as
they have a dance battle refed by aizawa later (baku wins, izuku gives him soul custody of the medal)
enji would have a stroke
yamada was singing along the whole time other the speaker. Aizawa muted him but he just used his quirk
tenya had lots of good friends n doesnt hunt down stain, he n 1a go to hatsume about leg braces for tensei
tenya teaches tensei his choir choreography so he can get used to his braces
the boys do run into stain but they were minding they own business
they singing while they fight to stay in time n stay brave
stain is very confused but hes bopping along
todo starts it cause it made him feel better during the sports festival cause izu is crying
"you guys are true heros im so sorry about this but i really need to kill native"
"thanks i guess? but we gon fucking boop to you drop bitch"
"ToDorOkI nO"
"iida hes trying to kill us we can call him a bitch"
stains huming the song they were singing as he carted away to fucking jail
"what a goddamn boop, they heros of music"
training camp is the same time as choir camp n 1a is shook n they are conflicted. aizawa gets training camp moved back a week
(the villains still attack but they tried to assault an empty camp first n thats funny)
the fight through the earth beasts is just 1a singing literally every song they know theyd finish a song, n theres a second wait while everyone races to think of something they all know before they scream out the title n start them all off
they sang bohemian rhapsody 5 times
1a arrives at traing camp like
"we just had fuck choir camp you dont scare us"
1a wasnt joking they arent phased by the summer camp. 1b is crying
bakugo gets kidnapped n just hums softly
shinso made it in after the festival because aizawa thought he was promising n it was another choir boy zawa has to protect them no hes not going soft zashi shut up
"bitch you villains have nothing on ms king fuck she had me shook"
the bakugo rescuse is the same but its more of 1a n no one was trying to talk them out of it very well
"its dangerous, dont get hurt" "we wont" "yeah ok"
they hold hands while they watch the allmight fight cause they are too scared to let go
then they run back onto the field to allmight after the fight n they hug n cry a lot
they go with yagi to the hospital n sing dumb songs together while he gets a checkup
izuku doesnt have to stop to wipe his nose, n bakugos voice doesnt shake n todoroki is pitch perfect of course (kiri and momo are ugly crying unabashedly. tenya is trying to find tissues)
bakugo totally doesnt hide his tears n growl that thy need a shitty nerd to lead them so they dont get to good
he yells at everyone cause he was scared but he canāt make himself be too mean cause they are his smol kids
mic smiles n mutters that aizawa has really gone soft on this class n aizawa just hides his face in mics shoulder n pretends he wasnt scared out of his mind for them
all of them grab his hand
izuku hugs bakugo saying they all need the future dance leader, after all no one else is as good as him
aizawa wants to be mad but hes proud that his kids didnt get hurt and were smart n improved so much
in the dorms they draw up a birthday list n anyone whos birthday has already been gets a new birthday
they wake them up at 6am you sing happy birthday n they birthday kid gets to pick the music on the bus n in the kitchen
bakugo n sato bake
iida, shinso n izuku are harmonizing while trying to eat breakfast but its bean 5 minutes n they havent eaten anything
bakugo shoves toast into izus mouth as he walks past to make himself some coffee
izuku sings around the toats
bakugo groans n sings over him
"i Just wanTed Coffee"
"BitcH we gOttA hArmoNiZe"
ochako, mina n tsuuyu are going over their dance infront of the couch, satou n tokoyami are gently sparring around bowls of oats and fruit
aizawa is humming as he cuts up some fruit for him and mic
sero sticks sheetmusic to the walls with his quirk so they can go over it as they do other stuff
shinso plays the goddamn switch piano as a backing track n bakugo is mad that hes impressed
yagi visits n tells them all hes so proud of them n listens to their sing their favourite songs with them n listens to izuku gush about new musicals almost as much as he talks about heroes
bakugo saltily adds on little bits of info
shinso n izuku dramatically reinact musicals together as they spar, (obedient servant is their fave beat eachother up song)
they get out musical soundtracks n people call dibs on the songs they want to fight to, aizawa mans the speakers and acts as the ref as bakugo n izuku fight to alexander Hamilton
ochako n todoroki fight to my shot cause it means a lot to both of them
the kids not fighting are singing the song on the sidelines. aizawa sings along too but he wont admit it
( he n izuku sing a lil duet for the room where it happens, mic claps n yagi cries)
no one fights for the last song cause everyone is busy singing n crying. - aizawa only cried cause he had dry eye ok nothing more
bakusquad always fights over the jefferson n layfette parts, they all wanna sing them solo
izuku starts with history has its eyes on you, looks at yagi n then starts to cry
yagi starts to cry too
he n yagi hug n leave training for a min to get icecream
izu grabs yagi n full cowl jumps to get icecream, makes yagi carry the icecream n jumps back
they eat icecream as 1a finishes up the musical sparring n they try not to cry some more
todoroki is still 100% conviced yagi is izus dad, hes just also conviced neither of them know it
yagi is very proud of his boy and very proud he didnt cough blood over his icecream
mic was his section leader when he was still in choir n zawa was the dance leader n they made the best duo
they were low on time due to hero training to they learnt their songs as they fought, w mic playing them through his phone as they beat up villains
they wouldnt let midnight practise with them because the fights finished too quickly so they didnt get a chance to sing
yagi wasnt in that particular choir, or any choir really but he loved to sing, would hum to victims to make them feel better and sung on tv for fans and charity
he starts teaching at the choir after the retires from hero work because he misses working and he really thinks the kids are delightful
yagi is a good choir dad n cries at all the concerts, n at the gigs, n when ever they do well really
they get nicknamed the hero course choir because so many ua students go/have gone
there are normal highschoolers of course but the ua students wont be outdone and are the best in the class
aizwa tells vlad they sing during sparring for breath support and stamina, and then decides thats actually a good reason n makes that the official reason, ignoring "it makes them smile" and "these kids have had enough intense fights"
#bnha au#bnha#mha#midoriya izuku#deku#midoriya#bakugo katsuki#bakugo#all might#yagi#eraserhead#aizawa shouta#todoroki shouto#dadmight#dadzawa#musical au#choir group au#momo yaoyorozu#jirou kyouka#iida tenya#present mic#shinsou hitoshi#(if you regonize the choir im talking about you are now my blood brother/sister and i will kill for you
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this is a failure
ok i havent been caught up on my kdramas in a while, but i recently saw a tiktok of The Last Empress orĀ ķ©ķģ ķź²© and oh my lord. it might be one of the worst things ive seen in a while. I was drawn to it in the tiktok because it was about the ML realizing he loved the FL only after the ML2 fell in love with her and he was about to lose her. and i was likeee hmmmm its 2019 (when the drama was released), maybe this will finally be the drama that the ML really isnt the ML and he missed his chance so he doesnt get the girl now, she loves someone else. that would actually be so good. like i would be giddy. so i look up the kdrama and mind you my smile immediately fades away when there are like 26 episodes (52 parts) cause holy sh, that is WAYYY too much, like you already know that there is going to be so much unessecary drama and filler episodes. its just too much. but i would do anything for the satisfaction of ML2 getting the girl instead of the ML1. So basically, the plot is... if SKorea still had a monarchy in modern times and the emperor marries a common girl, BUT he only marries her according to his motherās wishes to protect the girl he really loves.
characters
I have gotten to episode 9 (part 19) and so far, there are 7 character that seem important 1. the emperor ML 2. the queen 3. the grandqueen (grandmother queen) 4. the empress FL 5. the emporerās lover FL2 6. Kingās main bodyguard ML2 7. the late emperorās concubine (f) 8. the emperors little brother these are the most important characters so far but im only on episode 9 so there are probably so many more.Ā
firstly i would like to point out that there is not one singular character that i like to see on the screen. these characters are so over the top and act like complete animals. I feel like whoever wrote these characters do not understand human emotion and interaction. the ONLY character i enjoy is gma. she is the only sane character in this drama. and the lil bro.... and the FL younger sister. everyone else can suck my cawk. bro everyone is so infuriating it actually makes me nauseous.Ā lets talk about the queen. ok this lady put cameras. CAMERAS in her sons bedroom and bathroom. she watches him bathe bro . like cmon how can you watch this drama with peace in mind. she is obsessed with her son which is the reason why she hates every woman that he loves. there are several awful scenes where she is kissing him on the lips and there is so much seggsual tension between her and him i cant stomach it. she makes him marry the common girl (FL) because she known he doesnt love her and the FL will be easy to get rid of. she killed the first empress (yes there was an empress before the FL and the mom killed her cause she was jealous ig??) idk man. its so hard to watch. her acting is pretty good though. sheās super emotional and believable. her chemistry with her son is so good that its actualy disgusting. props to them.
ok now the FL. i have never seen a more unlikeable female character in my life. its probably on purpose, to make her so ignorant of true royalty life, but this girl is so stupid, i cant even like her a little bit. in general its hard for me to stand by anyone who will lick a manās boots no hesitation. like,, i feel like its fine to fangirl over a cute celebrity, but how are you still gonna act like a fan girl to your husband. ML tricked her so easily too... like bro come on, not even a little suspicion?? i had a little bit of hope for her in the beginning but she folded IMMEDIATELY. it took 1 day and she folded. man proposed to her after meeting her 4 times. you have to be a DIFFERENT kind of stupid to fall for that kinda scheme. and after she found out he was cheating around, girl was like,Ā āill believe anything you tell meā and then punished his lover. like WHAT???? i know this dude the emperor and all but please get at least a little angry at him. herĀ āredeeming qualityā is supposed to be that she is a nice person and she sings well ig? but that doesnt cut it for me. Itāll probably come into play later, but right now it just seems like sheās hella pushover and ditzy. i cant watch and relate and feel for a character who is constantly getting sht on and continues to be the same person as before. :/
ok ML. bro... i have never seen such an insufferable character IN MY LIFE. IN MY WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE. this dude is the BIGGEST ASSHOLE IVE EVER WITNESSED. i cannot come ot like him. he does not get a redemption arc. if you murder someone, you do not get a redemption arc. you get sent to jail immediately. i get he has trauma and stuff from his bum ass mom, but come on dude, he is a child in a grown mans body. the worst part is that even though he is treating FL like the grime under his fingernail, HE IS STILL GONNA GET HER???? like what??? please make that make sense. unlikeable character. terrible attitude, and i dont like his acting either. i dont htink he is a good fit for his role. hisĀ āsweet smileā looks absolutely insane.
FL2 = emperorās lover. ok iām actually rooting for this girl, cause she has a plan in mind and sheāll stop at nothing to take it. sheās the only character that is showing gains and getting what she wants because she is working for it. she is an absolute slimy weasel no doubt about it, but damn is she good at what she does. and no matter how hard the characters try to throw her away, she alwys comes back in a new suit, face beat, hair done, nails done, smiling. i cant help but htinking how much of a girlboss she is. and she has the emperor wrapped around her fingers. but yes she is absolutely annoying and a murderer as well. she killed her own adoptive mom and doesnt give 2 shts about her son. all she cares about is power and money (fatal flawww) but i swear to god, if she is the MAIN antagonists and just continues to be a hurdle up until the very end, imma be pissed off, its just dragging at this point. Also she has like 5 scenes that are identical of her hugging ML and cracking a devious smile behind his back. its actually hilarious.
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This weeks notes Mostly transcription this week i think, i tried my best for nottās scene. as usual ignore the asterisks because theyre just notes to myself.
peace
Molly is Nervous (tm) abiut sticking around, or going to the gentleman
theres a fight in the evening nip, beau is fucking excited its thedd (halfling from sewers) and lewis (one of the ones that had run from the research facility)
N: "I got three gold on Thedd" M: Seems a bit late for a wager at this point N: Just you and me! M:.... fair. I'm in.
Thedd wins by standing on lewis' throat til he passes out holy shit M: (drops coins into Nott's hand) N, smug: Thank you :)
oh now Nott and Beau are fighting jesus christ. C: "I cast Haste on Beauregard." Laura: YOU PIECE OF SHIT **
J: Inflict Wounds (17 dmg) ((Fjord, changing his voice: "I GOT 5 GOLD ON THE HORNY ONE)) B: WHAT THE FUCK JESTER, Stunning Strike, (7dmg, jes fails con save (6), she is stunned, extra attack from haste, 6dmg) J: (is stunned for this round, until the end of beaus turn) B: Beaus the shit outta her ( 12dmg, 6dmg) ((MOLLY blinds her)) B: still goin, but misses 2 of em, hits on the third (12dmg) J: (goes down)
caleb: goes for the low five, and Beau just.... ignores him unintentionally bless.
Frumpkin is sent to lick the blood off of jesters face, Beau cleans her up <33
They are called to the gentleman's side
offered a forward of 500gp and a pot of 4500g to travel to Shady Creek Run, the criminals town, and free and bring back Ophelia... something, who corresponds often with the gentleman
the tldr of the second (250 adv, 1750 pot) is that the swamps are dangerous for the gentlemans safehouse which has gone dark.
theyre promised resources for missions from the gentleman
Jester: "IS HE MOIST"(re the gentleman)
they take on both, starting with the swamps. The Gentleman advises they travel the 70 miles above ground.
Fjord is so fuckin smooth talky wtf. they get greater heling potion(s)?? + cure disease? Caleb's gettin some ink + paper, but its not good for spells 8(
Nott keeps making water puns. im counting 4. and a hankie.
Jester wand of smiles Kutha again, poor kutha 8(
Caleb + beau ( + assumedly nott) go to pumat's
have they paid their inn tab??
Cay buys incense for rituals, probably find familiar lbh. he also gets his magical ink+parchment.
Beau is interested in the bracers of defence. Theyre like 1200gp tho arent they??? B: how much PS: 1200 gold B:HOLY SHIT PUMAT. [snip] B: HOLY SHIT PUMAT(S).
C: (tells beau he cast haste) B: YOU SLIP SOMETHIN IN MY DRINK CALEB??? WHAT THE FUCK MAN
they have 6 horses, 2 pulling, 6 solo. Jes is driving thr cart.
Caleb: (brings up the feywild) Jester: oh the traveller has told me about that!!
Frumpkin is (one of) the first cats yasha has seen 8'O shes fuckin loving it **
lots of fucking soldiers heading to war. hundreds, if not thousands.
night falls as they reach the origin of the. road. they cant find a campground because tal rolled SHIT even with advantage.
Jester + Fjord take first watch. (13. Nothing) Yasha + Beau on second watch. (14. Also Nothing.) B: We should huddle together for warmth??? Y: Fr- Frumpkin is keeping me. very warm. are you cold??? do you want my, my cloak? B: No, no my, my (jacket??? cant remember what she said) is fine, its htin, but its warm Then they talk about Yasha ands this is the furthest shes ever been. Y: "i like this stuff. Grass, and, things. you know." B: You appreciate grass?
B: What was your favourite part of xorhas? Y: I... dont know if i HAD a favourite part
this was the CUTEST shit
third watch is Nott + Molly (10, nothing happens) taliesin trying a jester voice makes me the heart eyes emoji
goblins canonically steal children what THE FUCK. And EAT them. But Nott, apparently, has not eaten a child. "My clan, we STOLE from people. money and clothing and things. And when things got tough, we'd steal the people too." Goblins dont do family. "I do not have an urge to kill and eat children" "i have cravings for... rats... cats-" (Caleb snaps) Frumpkin goes back to the feywild Yasha: =(
taliesin taking watch after rolling shit cmon. he gets 16. Noon, broken cloud cover, a tiny distant curl of smoke. oh not again. its a mile away tho so like
the smoke is coming from a small shack.
"For you, Fjord, I will make Frumpkin a bird." He doesn't though but its the sentiment.
Yasha gets shoulder frumpkin back!
The shack door opens to "an elderly fullblood orc" with hair and beard and all that shit.
for 1 (one) gp a month, you TOO can bother a whole old man orc. Jesus christ he had a battleaxe. puts it down, invites yasha and molly in. THIS IS SO UNNECESSARY Molly buys hide armor + 2lb of meat for 16gp. M: Perception check 10. Matt: "Okay." There is sOMETHING SUS about this.
and theyre off again, i am glad for this. i do not like elderly orc man.
yasha and molly double up on that goof "we totally killed him, three times." its very good
M + Y: What kind of meat is this? (fuck their rolls) its meat! its good meat!
M+Y take first watch, its 12. Nothing happens. Yasha collects some flowers to press awww. N+C Second watch, they roll w advantage lmao. 22. something is going to happen. "you hear the snapping of a twig. you see a shifting of shadow. a few things" Cay casts mage armor
Two arrows for Caleb. con saving throw. probably poison. 10. its poison. he is poisoned. fucks frickin sake. is it gnolls?? is it goblins??? hyenas??? furred barking things. wolves.
two ogres, a cluster of wolves, and goblin-like creatures
initiative order:
Beau: Nat20, 24 Goblins Caleb: 18 Fjord, Molly: 16 Ogres Nott: 15 Yasha, Jester: 6 Wolves
B: Jester, puppies!!
Yasha and Jester shrug off poison of those that hit them.
Caleb casts slow on one ogre. unrelated liam is so good???
oh yeah eldritch blast gets two beams of eldritch blast at lv3
Molly radiants once scimitar and cuts RIGHT through one of em. misses the second.
Caleb hit with a javelin, 4-5 inches into his stomach, holding itself upright. Caleb keeps the spell going.
Nott pretends shes one of them and aims for Caleb, hits the book instead. and nails it.
Jester (traumatised): CALEB!!! cure wounds 2nd level. but he is pretty fucked so its ok. he heals to full its ok its ok. Jester cares so much
Yasha pulls necrotic shroud! which as someone who cant watch TM, this is a reveal for me! :D
J: (to cale) Youre alive! How did- C: (monotonous) haha! funny, joke.
Fjord explodes a goblin Molly cuts one in half, vertically
Molly curses the ogre attacking beau
Nott shoots the ogre, and then the goblin next to her... but misses and is fucked
Yash gets the hdywtdt on one of the ogres
Beau @ necrotic shroud!yasha: you look... dope. You look FUCKIN HOT LETS GO.
cay has magic missile!
fjord gets the second hdywtdt w eldritch blast.
cay n molly go to retrieve stolen goods from goblin but apparently just Molly
Yasha necrotic shrouds when shes startled awake. F: Can you fly? Y: ...no J: Have you tried? Y:... yeah.
Yasha n Caleb have a conversation in celestial C: No really, are you an angel? Y: of sorts, i guess [snip] C: You will have to explain this now, or later. do you want to explain this now, or later? Y: i- ill explain it, just, maybe we should clean up first!
i have no idea whats going on but i heard marisha say "bad dragon" and im gonna die
J: Nott, are you okay? Was it weird to fight other goblins? N: it was... rewarding. I'm only sad that... one got away. B: Nott, do you share the same hatred in yourself? [snip] N: Do... do I hate myself? No. I'm... I'm cool. F: You seem excited to hurt your own kind. N: I know, I'm a goblin, for as long as I've been alive I haven't felt comfortable in, in there. I havent felt comfortable in my skin. It feels like I shouldnt be, i dont fit in with them. I feel, this feels WRONG, like I should be in a different body. The way they act, the way they are, it's not ME. They do horrible things to people, and they seem fine with it. I never felt the same with them. It's not that I don't like myself or anything, I think I'm okay, I just don't like how I feel when I see my hands, or my feet. They just feel wrong. I just want to be... different. C: Was there anyone you were close to? N: Not in my clan, but there was... someone. They tried me on different jobs but I was not a soldier, i was not a good cook, not good at sweing, or building, they stuck me with the torturer. I was the torturers assistant. there was a halfling village not far away and they captured someone from the village, they wanted me to kill him, but instead, I was kind to him. And he started talking, and my... fellow gobbies didn't like that, but they allowed it, because i was getting valuable information. [about halflings resources] I became friends with him. He was nice. J: What happened to him? N: I hope he got away J: Did you leave before him? N: We left together [snip J: Did you love him? N: .... I don't know. The halfling taught her how to speak in halfling, taught her about alchemy, when he has taught her everything, the goblins said to kill him. And she didnt want to. so she got REAL drunk, and shot another goblin in the ass. N: I hope he got away. We ran off in separate directions. I've been running ever since.
+1 to the quest log, find Nott's friend.
Beaus trying to be nice i love her.
C: I do not care. I know who you are now. (<333)
B: I think we're all a little bit of island of misfits.
F: You showed a lot of bravery tonight B: Nott, The brave. J: Maybe there is a comma.
Y: Nott, I'm sorry we made fun of you eating children N: I HAVE NOT EATEN CHILDREN
B: What got you locked up with this guy? (Caleb) N: Being me. Stealing food? C: You told me it was cherry wine. N: OKAY IT WAS BOOZE.
it is now raining.
M: Well, I'm sleeping underneath the cart! if anyone wants to join me... J: We wont all fit! M: We'll snuggle. *
Molly + Jester are under the cart.
"i tasted a baby once. ONCE. they were handing around a bowl, I didn't know-" -N Liam takes Sam's flask and takes a swig so i assume caleb does the same in canon C: "Who am I to judge?"
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i know i said i wouldnt but i am gonna try and recount this actually. so it was like roman pulled up but he wasnt summoned? and when he entered everything was a little. off. and logan and patton and thomas were there and they were like: āsorry who are you?ā and roman was like ā??? im roman??? creativity??ā and they were like āhuh. ok we havent had a good creativity show up before thisāll be useful.ā and it became clear that this was like... a just slightlyyy alternate universe that roman had somehow stumbled into.
and then... anxiety shows up. and heās still like. āooo im a mean guy >:((ā but roman just. immediately softens upon seeing him and quietly mumbles āvirgil...ā to himself and virgil kind of hears and looks up startled at him but ignores it. and starts telling thomas whatever to be anxious about and logan starts rebutting all his points and argument blahblahblah (also important patton seems to be trying really hard to be nice to anxiety this whole time) and then romanās just like āhey. thank u for bringing these concerns now letās find a way to make sure thomas can chase his dreams while u are still comfortable with it!ā and anxiety is like ā...uhhhh.... lmao ok but kinda weird like dont act all buddy-buddy with me... mr... princey. weāre not friends new guy >:(( ur with them (the light sides)ā
and romanās like āhaha u belong with us too tho.ā and anxietyās like ā...no i already have a boss.ā (VERY fascinating way to say that btw) and romanās like ālemme guess, deceit?ā and anxietyās like ā....yes..ā and romanās comes over and very softly places a hand on anxietyās arm and says āheāll flatter you and use you while youāre useful. but when youāre not useful anymore, he wonāt care about you. now you do think HE (looks at patton) is like that?ā (two points i realized upon waking up btwā1. roman is categorizing patton as their āboss.ā 2. this is obviously romanās super biased view of janus, but at this point, WOULDNT it kind of be how he views patton too? anyway.) anxiety just looks kind of star-struck at roman and romanās like ā...you donāt know how much weāll..iāll.. lā-....be grateful to have u around.ā
and i donāt really remember what happened from there but it was about there the episode ended, probably bcuz anxiety sunk out
anyway it was better in my dream AHAHA
holy shit had a tss dream last night where a new episode came out that was so good it got me like REALLY really back into the series again. and then i woke up and it turned out my mind was the one who wrote that
#lucy.txt#this is way longer than i thoughtd be to explain. whats important is roman and virgil kept looking so so softly at each other but in diff wa#*ways#like virgil looks like super surprised to be understood and seen so well by someone#and roman was like . oh my god. oh my goddd we cant even get into it there was just so much tenderness and affection and like TT_____TT#and just like he was like. i can finally say what i should have said instead of all the things i regretted telling u so much at this point
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man, this was sent like, nearly 2 weeks ago or w/e, and i completely ignored it bc i didnt have the energy/ability to care (you literally sent these when it was between 1 - 2am my time) but, it was recently brought to my attn that you put both me + lal in your byf (because i.... banned you from a server i guess, and that means lals at fault too?) so.
i guess itās high time i answer this lmao. maybe you wont even see this. maybe youll vague abt me for the next few weeks and try and make me out to be a bad person, but i dont care lol. anyways this is under a cut bc its pointless drama i guess. ask 2 tag
additionally: this isnt rly meant to act as a callout post. but since u asked on anon (and im pretty sure weāre mutually blocked) i cant really talk about this privately. this is mostly just.. well. answering your question. ive written this little paragraph afterĀ iāve written everything below, so like, idk dude, it happens sometimes, i get rly heated abt shit and then cool down after a while. so this is wild.
edit:Ā i havent read this thru nor do i care about reading it through. are there a bunch of typos? probably. dont care though
i dont rly have the energy to pull up Everything esp because that lke.... requires going thru so many discord messages adn i really just. dont care enough to sift through everything
ābut if u dont care why are you writing thisā shut up u wanted answers didnt u lol
nyways heres just . some shit lmao
man firstly letās deal w your post abt my server
+ dont worry! ive got it archived in case u delete it bc who knows what ud do lol. nyways
lets just do some breakin apart on this:
i was lterally shaking at the time and having my OWN panic issues but i guess you dont rly take that into consideration lol?
this is one of the biggest exaggerations like ... you made it sound like the server was some big special place jdfghdkj theres literally 4 mods and 2 of them didnt even talk to you. the other 2 were me and lal
like half of the server isnt even fucken active on the server and the majority of the other half dont even care about unfollowing/blocking u. what a wild assumption. thts the funniest shit 2 me
please you literally sent me 3 asks when it was way too early in the morning 4 me expecting me to reply as if it was possible for me to give u all the reasons in like 10 minutes jesus christ
ths is one of the ugliest posts ive ever seen + this was posted beforeĀ you were banned frm the server. several ppl in the server have bpd + i was absolutely not willing to have smeone who says this sht abt their illnesses around (re: the wholeĀ ānot actively in therapyā and shit. fuck off lol)
hereās some other stuff on my list that you might remember:
(kin stuff) being fully aware that my brother wasnāt - and still isnāt - okay with doubles with a specific character, and that you were specifically warned whilst he was offline, and you knew this was the case, yet decided that your best way of explaining something was..... fuck dude, whats the wording you used?Ā āiād say but some people here arenāt ok with doublesā or some shit which is! literally just as bad!Ā and tht shit has fucked my bro up so severely tht he still fuckn..... thinks abt + the shit uve said In General (shrugging emoji)
heres a fucken wild ride for u: ur the reason he left th server anyways and why the second i banned u i was immediately happy because holy shit i can talk to my bro again bc i could invite him back! to a chat where he doesnt have to deal w someone who causes him constant panic attacks! wowee
lets not forget me expressing my extreme distaste of lying [person] + r.idged.og + ridg.epho.s but u completely ignoring that shit (+ wowie remember when u said lying was yr friend and that you didnt like me venting negatively abt them bc my nasty experiences r somehow less important than ?? tht shit??? lol anyways)
god the entire fucking drama w the lying shit . i cant believe i was on yr side for a while jdfghkj. that whole fiasco was so shitty. nyways thts nothing to do w me its just something that made so many ppl uncomfy
remember when you left the lying chat and then vented to us about shit but then rejoinedĀ the lying chat unbeknownst to us + caused shit again (surprise, i know about that)
you, generally, made several people uncomfortable (myself included), and as the ownerĀ of the server, iād much rather kick one person from the server than have several people being uncomfortable. but if thatās an unreasonable thing to do then please, inform me, because thatās news to me.
whilst i dontĀ support alex or alexļæ½ļæ½s partner in any way, shape or form (before u try and call me a fucken apologist/supporter/whatever lol), the blatant deliberate misgendering of alexās partner on your byf was extremely shitty of you (which has since been fixed, but yikes).
(kin stuff) pretending to notĀ be a double around lal, knowing heās not comfortable with doubles (which, maybe youāre not! but given youāre kin w mc.ree + got that in your byf, and donātĀ have anything abt not follwing if ur x.phos in ur byf...... boyo)
god theres more but im not willing to dig up all the shit + also dont want to ask other ppl about their personal problems bc thats exposing them to a past/experience they probably want to forget about/never revisit
if u found this? congratulations. you got your answers.
if ur gonna vague abt me? go ahead. i dont really see what ive done wrong lmao.
also, re: why i didnāt tell you anything at all,
i was having a panic attack and almost throwing up
i kept trying to find reasons to keep you in the server, because i didnāt want problems to arise
i will literally never talk to ppl abt this kinda shit privately bc i dont want people to feel bad but 2 late
#jack dont look#bluespace#drama i guess but idk#ive been meaning to get this off my chest for a while but ehhh#i didnt talk abt the thing that pushed me to do stuff but its like ... not rly worth mentioning i guess#ths is sometthing ppl can skip over idc i just wanted to finally answer this
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When did you realize that hoya was your bias? What was your favorite comeback look of his? What do you like most about hoya?
this is gonna be loooooong :)
ok first of all, iād like to thank you like a million times for sending this to me. i wasnt on tumblr whole day but i opened it a few times on my phone during the day. i had been seeing this ask sent to my mutuals and was wishing someone sent it to me too. and i wrote it under a read more which i thought no one would pay attention and i didnt even mention it was THIS ask and then YOU SENT IT! *showers you with hearts and chocolate cupcakes* i hope i can write it well enough becuz my english isnt that good and im also not good with expressing myself.
āBiasā thing is a complex term for me. i guess its becuz im pretty older than all those boys, i cant just pick one and call themĀ ābiasā. and i usually cant have 2 biases at once. iĀ ājoinedā the kpop community in the beginning ofĀ ā12 and over these 5 years, i called 3 idols as my bias. first was TOP, then came Yongguk and for a few months i biased both of them but eventually Yongguk claimed his place as my one and only and stayed like that for a very long time. then when Howon came, just like the previous time, both of them stayed for a few months but then Howon won over Yongguk.Ā I wanted point that out to show that for an idol toĀ āwonā the title of being my bias (lmao) they mustāve be REALLY good! (and i take this sh*t way too more seriously than i should otl)
already 3rd paragraph and i havent even started answering your Qs omg! okay so like i said i was a hardcore YG stan. honestly, HW got me by his looks at first. not only becuz he was good looking but becuz he had thisĀ āmanlyā image you know? im more into that type. when i first saw him was during Hās Special Girl era and i was someone who hasnt listened to even 1 infinite song (shame on me!) i was seeing YaDong gifs all over my dash but everyone was going crazy over Dongwoo (i dont blame them :D) but i was thinkingĀ āwhy is there no love for Hoya? he is -imo- more good lookingā. but i didnt pay too much attention to it. later i started watching Replyā97 due to a friendās rec and HWās good looks, combined with his amazing acting skills and the character he played, caused him to sneakily and slowly get into my heart and brain. he is the reason i started following Infinite and simply there wasnt anyone else to steal his place among OT7. and later, both by some stuff that YG was doing to cause me grow away from him and the stuff that HW was doing to win me over, the game came to an end. so it wasnt likeĀ āomg he looked so good in X eraā or sth but i had already found too many things that i loved about him as time passed by and un-stanning YG just made everything official. i think its been around 2 years since he became my only bias.
My fave look(s) [sorry for cheating:)]; im normally a trash for up-styled hair so his Pretty era look was perfection. but, tho i wasnt a fan back then, im in love with his Be Mine era look and im praying for the day i can see him with a short hair like that (SY has it now and IT LOOKS AMAZING!!!) Plus, i love his fluffy light brown hair during Back era (that is a sad era for us Howon stans but for some reasons i love it too much as well) And lastly, i just cant ignore his cotton candy hair colors during Last Romeo era hehe^^;;
Ok this is the hardest but the best part. its 4am now and its been a veryyy long and tiring day so i hope i wont skip anything (i just couldnt leave this post to later i HAD TO do it now :D)Ā
Like i said his good looks was the reason he got my attention so iāll start with it. i mean his eyebrows could slice my heart into pieces and his cute eyes make me go blind and his JAWLINE IS SHARPER THAN THE SHARPEST BLADE and i really love his lips (i dont like too big/plumpy lips) and his lips are just perfect for me and the way they shape when he cant contain his laugh like his lips get so wide you can see his gums its the most beautiful smile ever but HIS NOSEEEEE!!!! DUDE HIS NOSE!!!! ITS THE CUTEST NOSE I HAVE EVER SEEN AND I JUST WANNA PUT LITTLE PECKS ON HIS CUTE LITTLE NOSE ITS SO AÅDENEÄANAPROLUX!!!!
Another thing is how he is rather reserved. i mean he is surely much more open now, esp since Back era but still he likes being on his own, getting lost in things that he loves like dancing, making music or stuff like that and im like him too so idk its like a connection you know?Ā
He is strong. not only physically but also mentally. he has a strong determination. he has been thru too much to be at where he is now. starting from his family (here is a ref for those who dont know how hard it was for him) i think thats very brave of him to risk so much for an unclear future.
I LIVE FOR HIS LAME JOKES!!!! and i dont think they are lame (ok some of them are :D) but i think its a proven fact that was accepted by everyone that he is witty. and i love my man smart :D lol he even praised his fans for being witty in his last vlive saying sth likeĀ āfans are like their idols. im witty and youāre witty tooā or sth like that lol he is adorable!!!!
Which leads me to another thing i love about him; his love and respect for fans! about 2 years ago he was given a letter by a fan (i think its better if yāall check it here if you havent already) i love the way he approached the issue. he is always so straightforward about things which is another thing i love about him but i think ever since that time, he has become moreĀ āactiveā at airports. i mean he couldve just ignored it. losing 1 fan wouldnt have mattered. or he couldve done that speech but still go on acting like that and tbh we couldnt blame him becuz he really doesnt have to do any fan service at the airports. but oh my god! the fanservice that i had the honor of witnessing with my own eyes from the first row at the airport in Berlin!!!! he was the only one to open the curtain and wave at us and did āi say ho you say yaā with us, he kept waving till the van disappeared from our sight and he def couldve chosen not to do that and we couldnt blame him but he chose to do it! also when he first did vlive, it was becuz he had to do it due to some official thing but he said if he knew it was so easy to do, heād do it often and tbh i thought he said it just to say it you know? but he was sincere about it! he really does the most vlives and idk what more to say on this issue lol
His thought on his own chastity just multiplied by respect for him a million times!!! im keeping this short since its a private issue but its one of the top things i love the most about him!
Another thing i adore is his relationships with his friends. i mean everyone loves their friends but i think he is doing a little more than that. he always features his friends on his personal or group schedules whenever he has the chance so he introduces them to more and more people. in a way he isĀ āpresentingā them you know? i mean i dont think too many people knew about Hyojin before his Good Kissser stage (i for one didnt know) but now i dont think there is an Inspirit out there who doesnt know her and i think its too cute!
I love his fashion sense. you guys are probably thinking (i mean if you have come this far, bless you
I legit started this around 4am and now its 5am and i have to wake up early otl but i had so much fun writing this and realized once again how much i love him not only as a singer but as a person too. I hope i havent missed out anything lol There are also stuff like how talented he is (he does perfect jobs in so many fields), how hardworking he is, how he loves his members etc but i think they are the kind of things that anyone, even if they arent HW biased can agree on and i wanted this post to be more personal rather than stating the observable facts :)Ā
If anyone has read this till the end, im really sorry for wasting your time but i also hope i could cause you see Howon from different sides and somehow put a smile on your face.Ā
Have a great day/night everyone šā
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So far on the boys ive talked to in japan - aside that teacher
1) around september i decided to look at whose on tinder. One boy i matched with talked to me and didnāt stop responding upon finding out i was not japanese. He helped me with a couple japanese phrases - telling me what sounded most natural. Asked me if i lived alone. Said he wanted to meet me.... asked if i was free that week. I said yes. I gave him a couple days that i was off. He never responded again - that was about 5-6~ days into talking
2) october i went to a club... after a disappointing night i talked to the cute ... not bar person but like he was on the floor. I thought heād walk away but he got all happy and kept moving close to me to talk. It being too loud combined with my poor japanese and his no english meant we used google translate to talk mostly. Added each other on instagram and he said heād like to hang out sometime. I asked about a few days and he pulled out his calendar and both were days he worked- he had two jobs. He said weāll figure out a time later. We had some conversations on instagram. Then after a couple weeks his stories always showed him with friends. I asked him a couple times when he was free and he said he was working all the time. After another weekish of that i said it seemed that he had time to see his friends but not me. And he basically just said yep
3) december i got back on tinder. But for real. Not just a qick swipe through. Talked to the next guy with a bunch of other dudes. Was just talking. Trying to improve my english. Hoping someone would ask me to go eat with them since that is what id written on my profile. This boy asked me to hang out. Weād talked more and more over the two weeks and he said he really wanted to see me. But he couldnt cause he was working too much. Then he told me when he has a break. I had the flu at the same time and told him id tell him when i was better and he got sweeter and sweeter toward me. Then we talked on the phone and it was awkward and difficult cause my japanese not being great is even worse when i cant gesture. But it went well. Then. Suddenly. Over text the tinder boy - lets have sex! - bs came up. I said i didnt want to the first time we meet and i wanna just talk. He asked a couple more times about it and then agreed. The day before we talked on the phone again - he suddenly said he had to take another call and hung up and then didnt say anything else the rest of the night. I freaked out a bit that night thinking hed stopped talking to me. But the next morning he messaged me like nothing happened. Didnt even want to acknowledge my freak out aside from telling me not to think so much.
We met up. He took me to a shrine. We got fortunes and ties them to a tree... then he took me to his apartment... fast... he said he wanted to watch movies together.... bought... chocolate. I mean great but i wanted real food i was hungry. Then. He kept trying to have sex with me. So many times just pushed and pushed. Would not take no for an answer. Finally when... he was trying to take off more of my clothes and i wouldnt let him and said no again. He asked if i had my period. And only stopped after i said i did. Kept trying to pursuade me to give him a blowjob.
Before that... he asked me to be his girlfriend. Said he was moving soon and asked me to move in with him. Told me hed be workig two jobs for the rest of january so we couldnt meet again till February...
Anyhow after i kept saying no to a blow job and other stuff happened i asked him if we could go get food. He said he didnt have money and cooked bad ramen on the stove and french fries... he drank a bunch of alcoholic. We watched some music videos and he went to sleep.
When he kinda seemed to wake up i tried to make a point of me leaving. He just acted kinda annoyed that he had to even still deal with me being there at that point and ignored me while trying to sleep... he ghosted me right in front of me
He replied to my text the next day with some nonsense and about a week later he told me about his apartment plans. He sent one last text about it before... never responding again
I let it be for the next four weeks... till the days he was supposededly done working two jobs and couls see me again. Hed made story postings during this time
But yea. Never replied to me again
4) some boy who wanted to get better at english cause hes moving to the us. We talked on the phone a couple times near christmas. He complained about not having a gf and said he wanted to hang out. But the times i asked he was ābusyā. We hung out once... played darts. He said he didnt want to drink cause he drank the night before and he ate before meeting me so left early.... said next time. There was never a next time.
5) some guy i talked to a bit. He asked to meet up. I agreed. Took a whole for us to find each other cause he kept...... hanging up the phone on me.... he didnt look like his pic and he dressed weird. He basically hailed me over when he found me and then walked fast so that i basically had to chase him around. He was one of those dudes that walks with his hands out like people are supposed to move for him. After about 20 minutes of that he told me to wait while he pretended to get a call and then told me his dog is sick and he needed to leave to take her to the hospital. He said well meet again. Never saw him again not that i wanted too.
6) talked to another boy for a couple weeks. Just about fun stuff it was good conversation. We talked about music and movies and murder mystery parties. About our days and just generally the kind of good conversation you have with friends. Around the third week we talked about meeting... but. Then. Tinderboy - i wanna have sex! Came into the convo... i told him i had my period and asked if we could go out to drink instead. He said lets drink before we do next week. Whatever. Next week comes around. Same good conversation everyday. The day of comes and he responded to me in the morning reconfirming the time and place and stuff. Once the time to meet rolled around. No response. I called him a couple times more so to bitch him out. He blocked me.
7) some other dude. We talked a bit. He asked me to go out to eat. Post poned 3 times that night cause he was working later than he was supposed to. I was so hungry. No he didnāt wanna go out to eat. Bought me some convience store food and barely let me finish eating before hooking up... he said thanks to my happy birthday message. But otherwise we havent talked again. Even though hes a ten minute walk away.
8) then of course theres the absolutely adorable boy who took me out on the date of my dreams.... until he silently walked me the train station. Said bye. And now has slowly ghosted me all week. He just unmatched me on tinder after i asked about it so. Guess heās gone. Which has me feeling fucking terrible.
9) talked to a guy a couple days ago. He asked if i wanted to hook up. I basically agreed. I WANTED HUMAN CONTACT ON VALENTINES DAY. He told me beforehand he was only free for a couple hours. Asked if i wanted him to pick me up the night before buttttt i got my hair treated and shouldnt sweat so i said it was too late and i needed to sleep. He met me. Late. At the station and walked me back yo his apartment after i was done work. One of my students saw me with him... embarrassing. We talked a lot. Hes the oldest guy ive ever... anything. Though still just 29. It would have been a good conversation if... i didnt know he asked me to come have sex and then never made a move. An hour and a half in he suddenly went
Oh its the time! Sorry go. I should have agreed to his request for yesteday instead of insisting on friday.
Ive been freaking out about 8 and i messaged him asking if he lost interest in me. He never responded to my message asking if he wanted to hookup yesterday. He didnt respond for 20 minutes and then i said either say yes or no so im not waiting. And he almost immediately responded with no. So. Idk.
10) talked to some dude from hong kong yesteday. He messaged me first saying he doesnt like japan and just came for the food. Ive been crying all day and basically hust bitched about japan to him. Apparently he doesnt actually dislike japan... he just doesnt like the bidets.... and i told him my home life sucks so im here but here sucks too so wtf. Ya know. Things that are totally attractive go someone you started talking to a half an hour ago. He said he wanted to talk about food. Im good at food talk ok. Then asked if i wantrd to meet up and look for cake with him. Sure. Shinjuku. The same placd i met 5 and 3. Thought id break the- everytime i come to this city im depressed. Cause before them the last time i went to shinjuku in the summer. I couldnt find the clothes shops i was looking for. There were couples all around me. And it was the first day in japan i felt so utterly and truely miserable and alone and like nothing in my life was better. I was still hoping at that point that the teacher i worked with would go with me and show me around and i left thinking next time i go itll be better cause i wont be alone.
Well shinjuku appears to be bad luck for me. I got stressed trying to find this boy and sounded like it over the phone. But he still met up with me. I brought him some snacks from the baskery near me on my way. We talked. He speaks english. But he just asked about my job... how do you get it. Is it hard. Whats its pay.
I walked past a cake shop on my way to meet him and i showed him the cakes he said he really wanted. He said he didnt bring much cash so he didnt want it.... k i thought that was the point of this trip but whatever. He asked me if i was hungry three times. I said i ate before coming because normally when i meet people we dont eat and i go hunry. I left out the YOU SAID YOU WANTED CAKE!!! Part. He said he was hungry but didnt want me to not eat while he did. So i told him to find a place with desert and ill eat desert while he eats a meal. Were walking. This is about 25 minutes in and he starts to complain his legs hurt and that hes tired. Another 10 minutes pass and he complains more about how he feels like hes floating and his shoes dont fit. I see mcdonals and say i know this is lame but ive kinda been craving a big mac. Its fine if not cause ya know your visiting japan but would you want mcdonals. He jokes about it and then goes yea i could go for a bigmac. We get in the store and he tells me to go. And i tell him to go ahead first. Then he says no he feels sick and doesnt want to eat.... tells me to eat... the exact situation he didnt want earlier
Hm. Gee. I wonder whats coming. I say i only wanted to eat cause he said he was hungry. We leave and then he says maybe its tmi but - proceeds to tell me about being constipated. I didnt try to listen. Btw he was 6ā4 and kinda difficult to hear if i didnt try. I wrap that up with. Yea i think that was a tmi story but good for you. Cause the gist of it was that he could shit now.
Then. You know its coming. He says hes gonna go home. I stop acting happy. I told myself the next time this happened id confront them.
We met up at 7 and it was now like 7:50. My train is 10 bucks round trip.
But. I couldnāt think of anything to say.
All i could say after a while of kinda just going silent was - whyd you ask me to meet if you were so tired.
And he aaid cauae walking around japan alone isnt fun. Yeah mean i know. I said that to you over text earlier.
I asked him if i dont look like my pic. He says i look exactly like my pic.
I say a few times before ive met up with guys and we never talk again. And he goes - well youre meeting strangers and sometimes it just doesnt click
He unmatchd me the moment he got on his train. I imagine were still friends on snapchat cause he probably deleted it since he redownloaded it to talk to me
So yea. Same experiences as back home because im me and i will always be cursed and miserable. I dont wanna sleep cause im waiting to see when that boy in 8 will block me on line... cause i sent alot of messages. It doesnt help me to know when.... but.... ya... idk. Someone shoot me please
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