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I don't have friends to talk to...

.. dont have anyone I can be truly honest with.. and recently I'm feeling g brokenhearted..

The guy who I thought its the love of my life broke my heart.. we are still together, been together for over 10 years and have 3 children together but something snapped inside of me..

We've been away for almost a year due to his work, I stayed home qith kids and looking after my dad..

He came back, it was great, was so happy.. until one day he would just walk around the house accusing me of being upset and angry at him.. whilst I kept telling him that I don't feel well.. he would make quite a few seriously rude comments.. went to bed in the evening but he would carry on accusing me of being a bitch, yerp, he called me that..and just generally spread alot of hateful vicious coments which I was so confused about... eventually I did get pissed out of confusion and told him I do t understand where is all his coments coming from.. he said I've being acting wierd all day, I've been giving him cold shoulder and aparwntly gave him an angry vibe and he had enough of me being a bitch..

After series of arguments, he got up, at round 2 in the morning and started packing.. he said he is going away, back to work etc... that confused the shit out of me since I still wasn't even sure why is he upset..

He carry on rumbling round the room packing his stuff, underwear, sprayes, cables and charges.. I lied in bed confused.. questioning whole 10 years of our relationship...

Eventually I got up and told him how confused and hurt I am.. told him not a single time I was angry with him.. I'm just not feeling well!

After crying my eyes out I wwnt back to bed, turn my back on him and cried even more, he lied behind me as I shaked and weeps myself to sleep..

Next day I felt even worse.. our oldest son and my dad also wasn't well.. after contacting a doctor we've been send to have a COVID tests which came back POSITIVE!!

So in conclusion I started having covid and wasn't giving him 100% affection only coz I wasn't feeling well... and he assumed I'm angry and upset with him and treated me like shit... whilst I was feeling worse and worse.. then whwn I cried and weeped in bed he didn't even cared to hug me or apologise at least.. after tests he apologised and told me he wasn't really planning on leaving just wanted to get a reaction from me.. but I told him that's last thing I need.. we are mature and been together for long enough not to play wierd games and treat eachothwr shit.. i needed his support but I got accused of being bad wife..

Since then I'm notici g more and more wierd behaviours.. he keeps assuming that I will get upset or angry.. I am VERY understanding and supportive, I even set myself a notifications abt his favourite sport teams.. I dont mind if he plays console etc.. yet I keep feeling attacked and mistreated..

He keep saying things like: oh thats typical you, you will be bringing that up all the time.. I never bring up the past, I dont cling into past arguments.. I am so confused.. and the teasing and joking to the point my eyes tear up and then he's upset with me coz im emotional..

I do t understand.. what happened to my relationship?! I'm not a child, I don't look for arguments, I am dping my best to solve problems without major arguments .. yet I feel like I'm always the bad guy..

Probably talking to myself but oh well.. I'm just tired of not being able to talk this out with anyone.. and im so confused.. and tired

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OMG yes! I was picking up my jaw and my boobs feom the basement....

This should be illegal.

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One of many reasons I love this kdrama... no silly one "freeze" kiss.. no.. they kiss, look into eqchothers eyes, smile, kiss.. then smile into another kiss.. like it is between ppl in love..

Dosan was sucha adorable character with great character growth, same with Dalmi, she became sucha amazing character..

Its been a bit if rollercoaster but no usual drama like accidents, life threatening incidents, memory loss, being forced to spend night in one bed lol

Their relationship grew so nicely it was satisfying to watch..

And ohh my heart.. whwn Dosan came up with ideas to improve life of ppl with blindness to help her nana.. the way he stood when stepfather son wqs charging at her, he was her shield.. whwn he rushed into her office after not seeing her for 3 years, to help, walking in ignoring everyone else, seating at her pc like it was yesterday they worked together, two their friwnds fallowing in same manner, sucha great moment showing how great of a team they all are.. love it so much!

Going to church with her even though he doesn't belive..

Checking foe cats under the car..

Being adorable..

Just ughhh... pure love for this character!

The fact neither of them engaged in other relationships whilst away from eachother..

All the trust he put in her whilst other guy would only tell them off, rudely..

There was never triangle.. there was 2 ppl on love with bit of a drama and 1 guy who just hung around trying to sabotage yet not actively trying to hit on dalmi himself..

He’s like a different person at times. That makes me a little sad, but for some reason, those few odd moments here and there excite me and make my heart flutter.

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.. and thats how they love eachothers...

Im pretty sure if she dropped a dead body on him he would have few sec of freaking out, then he would just ask where they are going to bury it and go with it...

Evwn though it was him who always looked after her imncertain and she actually proved it, that the moment he need help and support she would drop everything and b there..

Love like theirs is most precious! I'm.in love with my best friend, we mess around, I'm wierd myself round him, we talk abt everything...

And its better than any stupid romantic gestures! Coz dates and romantic gestures are not the base of good relationships... its how two ppl are around eachother whilst nobody is looking, how they treat eachother in worst situations.. its abt being yourself, of accepting the other person as they are..

I'm sad coz I had to watch two whole seasons to see their relationship actually bloom and grow but those few moments they gave us was more real and had stronger love vibe than two entire seasons of the other guy...

Saw so many complaints but as a person who is in over 10 years relationship atm with my best friend I can tell you that love and friendship are the most powerful tools in good relationships

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Saw few Love Alarm posts on here and TikTok.. and came to a realisation... that it's not as easy as I thought before..

Just saw the moment after 4 years when JoJo stands on one side of the road and see Sunoh on the other and her Love Alarm goes of as she walkes closer... yeah...

Then the other guy comes and shes all confused, possibly thinking is the other guy who ring her alarm.. He notice her but doesn't say a thing to Sunoh.. then we see Sunoh walking towards her by library and her alarm goes of...

Is that mean.. he was ALWAYS in love with her whilst the other guy gave up on her and renew his feelings after seeing her on the street and in the library?

Coz if that's the case I'm totally changing my mind... Sunoh been loving her for years... so it must have been true love.. whilst the other one had a crush on her at school, then stopped loving her and then after seeing her again fall for her again..

Sunoh was the real deal..

It's complicated coz it's not as obvious as other love triangles where we clearly see the connection and even through all the drama the connection only get stronger.. here I think the problem isn't the guys.. its JoJo not loving herself.. she picked the other guy coz that was the moment in her life where she started loving herself and accepting her past as part of her life... whilst Sunoh was the one who started this process...

He was the one working hard to make her happy...

Ughhhh... Im not satisfied!

Can someone have a discussion with me pls? I need more opinions and ideas to understand her decision...

Me three episodes in to love alarm:

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The story is a good lesson...

It teaches you that 1st love or love you feel is like "the one" isn't always as perfect as we think...

Love at a 1st sight often is shallow coz you fell in love with what the person looks like and not their character, their temper, their inside...

As much I loooooved the beggining, fact the guy was sweet and respectful... I also couldn't stop thinking it felt like he was desperate to know if she loves him coz everyone else did and it was a new strange thing that somebody isn't looking at him like that.. they both wqs broken and needed that love to feel a bit better I their life.. the accident was literal example of how their relationship works.. its him not caring abt rest if the world but her.. tontye point its actually dangerous... it should not be like that..

I think he fell in love with an idea of being in love, he saw his friend carrying for this girl, he knew his friend is a zing person so would not puck a shallow girl.. he saw him looking at her and then saw the girl not ringing his LA and this was the moment he knew she isn't like all other fangirling teens.. he wanted her coz with her he felt good about himself, he finally cared abt someone but forgot to give them space and actually learn to create mature relationship.. the idea of love feels amazing, it's like watching good romance, warm feeling in your heart, a little crush on the main character.. 8t feels good..

2nd guy was mature, he prob would never even try to hit on her if he wasn't jealous.. but he was down to earth, did not expect miracles and sparkles straight away.. he was aware love isn't easy but he was there for her but also gave her space to grow..

I met my hubby 10years ago.. was not looking for love, neither of us was.. he annoyed me but also respected me and showed me its ok to be yourswlf, its ok to make mistakes.. we ware into eachother but with time we developed stronger feelings, learnt how to accept and coexist.. how to be a better person...

It's been 10years and our love is stronger than ever even though due to unexpected circumstances we see eachother twice a year since he works over 1000miles away...

Obviously when started watching it was hoping for a passionate emotional ride with alot of drama but also cute moments (not only during first few episodes), tension and bit more kisses lol... since my 1st kdrama was meteor garden it's hard to look at other ones where guy isn't as passionate and protective as duoling si...

But can't complain coz story does make sense.. we do care and depend on technology way to much this days..

forgetting life is a fairy tale.. love needs working on

Me three episodes in to love alarm:

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So... I'm almost finished and it hurts...

I cant say goodbye to them just yet..

It was sucha great journey, so many great moments...

Not often I'm that emotional about show or book.. most of the time I'm sad its finished but not like this.. this is grief..

I was not expecting to like this show, thought it will be another teen drama with stupid empty plot lines... and plot holes...

But this gave me so much enjoyment...

I saw post on tiktok and since I'm polish with very long difficult name, Mieczysław Stilinski got me intrested... gave it a go...

It was fun at the begining, but then 3rd season came and it literally broke me, I was hurting coz evwn tho it's just a made up character I felt it like it was me.. I feel void sometimes.. I feel like I'm not myself.. I'm so angry with life I feel like I lost my original self somewhere..

Then the moment Scott almost killed himself and Stiles walked into the puddle of gas and made this emotional talk.. this broke me aswel.. Stiles even tho hes a human was often so much stroneger than all of them..

But the moment he was forgotten, moment Lydia was the only one who still remembered him, they holded hands, he being protective of her told her to run and she said that she's not leaving him.. his face, this little tiniest smile, sparks in his eyes evwn tho he's in so much danger at this very moment...

THIS HERE is the love I want to see in series/movies..

He was in love with her since forever... always doubted he would ever be important to her.. he was the one saving and protecting her s9 many times and here's the love of his life carrying abt him and wanting to be by his side no matter what.. I cried.. that was as important as them saying "I love you"...

Coz knowing somw care abt him, knowing he matters is what kept him going...

Love this show so much even though it suppose to be just a filler series while I'm waiting on some other series...

I'm certain I will be watching it again..

Dylan o'brien playing Stiles giving me sucha Chandler Bing vibe... the dorky guy who is always ignored by girls, who is smart funny sarcastic but also best friend who often turnes to be a glue who keeps the group together...

I love Scott aswel, he's awesome, sucha great character development, he's perfect Alpha...

But have to say... Sheriff was right whwn he said its all started whwn Stiles draged Scott to the woods looking for dead body.. and thats why I belive Sriles is the main character and he is the one holding the group together... they all great but he was the one bringing the best in every single one of them... forgetting him proved its true, they just can not deal with all the crap coming thwir way withput him...

Anyway... just wanted to share some thoughts abt TW since I'm almost finished...

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Some recommendations if you are  a newbie to the anime world

Toradora

Boku no hero

Senyuu.

Akagami no Shirayuki-hime

Barakamon

Ansatsu Kyoushitsu

Boku dake ga Inai Machi

Bungou Stray Dogs 

Noragami

Durarara!!

Higashi no Eden

Hunter x Hunter

Ouran Koukou Host Club

Psycho-Pass

Re:Zero kara Hajimeru Isekai Seikatsu

Shingeki no Kyojin

Soul Eater

Death note

Tasogare Otome x Amnesia

3-gatsu no Lion

* For more reccomandations in my blog search #sharonsays

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“Please don’t for a minute think that you deserve anything less than a loving partner whose heart and gaze are unwavering.”

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DISNEY / PIXAR LOCATIONS & THEIR REAL-LIFE INSPIRATIONS

Motunui ➤ SAMOA  Belle’s Village ➤ ALSACE (France) Sultan’s Palace ➤ TAJ MAHAL (India) Atlantis ➤ ANGKOR WAT (Cambodia) Paradise Falls ➤ ANGEL FALLS (Venezuela) Elsa’s Ice Palace ➤ HÔTEL DE GLACE (Canada) Eric’s Castle ➤ CHÂTEAU DE CHILLON (Switzerland) DunBroch Castle ➤ DUNNOTTAR CASTLE (Scotland) Beast’s Castle ➤ CHÂTEAU DE CHAMBORD (France) Kingdom of Corona ➤ MONT SAINT-MICHEL (France) Snow White’s Castle ➤ ALCÁZAR DE SEGOVIA (Spain) Aurora’s Castle ➤ NEUSCHWANSTEIN CASTLE (Germany)

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Every book in the History of Literature summed up in a single sentence

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Marilla Cuthbert’s iconic comebacks

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Looking bit better I think. There's chicken house and barn!!

Theres a duck standing on the chicken house!

Green Gables

Any Simers here? I'm in a middle of making Green Gables! Its tricky since I don't really have a floor plan and obviously the game doesnt have all the items i need... I watched Anne again and as I did I would sketch room by room... it was messy 🙈

... but I think it's going quite well so far...

Will be updating as I go... hopefully it wont take to long...

WE NEED MORE PERIOD ITEMS IN SIMS!!

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Here is a little update... still ALOOOOT to do but so far it's not bad..

I know it's not exactly the same but trying my best 🙈

Anne's room... still working on it..

It was quite empty so I'm trying to put few more things...

Green Gables

Any Simers here? I'm in a middle of making Green Gables! Its tricky since I don't really have a floor plan and obviously the game doesnt have all the items i need... I watched Anne again and as I did I would sketch room by room... it was messy 🙈

... but I think it's going quite well so far...

Will be updating as I go... hopefully it wont take to long...

WE NEED MORE PERIOD ITEMS IN SIMS!!

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Green Gables

Any Simers here? I'm in a middle of making Green Gables! Its tricky since I don't really have a floor plan and obviously the game doesnt have all the items i need... I watched Anne again and as I did I would sketch room by room... it was messy 🙈

... but I think it's going quite well so far...

Will be updating as I go... hopefully it wont take to long...

WE NEED MORE PERIOD ITEMS IN SIMS!!

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