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streets saying his infinity was off
#he aint coming back#this is all fictional#he’s not even real#im in fetal position#oh this loss hurts#he was such a joy#HE DIDNT SAVE MEGUMI#ALL HE HAD TO DO WAS SAVE MEGUMI#HE DIDNT SAVE HIM#SOME KIND OF MENTOR#IM SO UPSET#YOU COULDVE DIED AFTER YOU SAVED MEGUMI#OH IM SO MAD ABOUT THAT
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Good morning, Sleepyhead.
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#'WWX was asleep for 4 days' is an incorrect factoid.#The average WWX sleeps for 8 hours. The PD-MDZS WWX who was asleep for 40 comics and 4 months is an outlier.#We are back to present day! I have missed drawing them!#Ah...the contrast between how the flashback ended (cold and distrustful) to how wwx wakes up (warm and watched over)...#The gap between the past and present is very important. Not just in this story but in our lives too.#The past can still hurt and it doesn't just go away with time as some say. It is the power of realizing that things have changed.#We can't get the good back. The bad memories have concluded. Those live somewhere else now.#It is hard to realize that you have to live for today and tomorrow. The past is so loud.#For WWX it is realizing that despite the mistrust in the past - He really does have faith that LWJ will be there for him.#It is the reflection of knowing that you changed and will keep changing and that change is good and kind sometimes.#But more importantly...and this I really do mean with all my heart:#It will all end up okay in the end. Even after the worst day. The most painful losses. You will get through it.#What feels like a breaking point is truthfully just another step you have to take. You'll get through it even though it feels like the end.#There are wonderful things you have yet to see. Friends you have yet to meet.#Even if it hurts so badly...one day it just aches. Someday you'll go a few weeks not remembering that it ever hurt.#Oh and because my izutsumi comic revealed many people were in need of hearing this:#You are loved. Right now. You are so loved right now. We just forget to tell each other that.#Go tell the people you love that they matter to you. I'm assigning you homework!!! You are graded on completion.
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Just read the comic where Joker runs into Robin!Tim for the first time post Ethiopia and starts raging about “How are you back!? I killed you! I killed you! No matter, just gotta do it again then!”
And it got me thinking again about how similar Tim and Jason must have looked in costume and just—
(Look I’m not saying there was a part of Bruce that was comforted by having “Jason” close again but—-)
#I just think Bruce mistaking Tim for Jason every once in a while adds that special flavor of angst#dick was his first Robin#but I feel like Jason was his first kid#in the way that dick never really wanted a new dad at first and wanted to be Bruce’s equal#Jason was fine being a child#and Bruce had to accommodate#and adopted him#he was a DAD#so the loss hurt all the more for it#do I think Bruce was highkey tried following Jason several times?#yes I do#that’s when Tim intervened#and oh there’s Bruce’s kid#look I know this ain’t canon but gosh do I love this trope#jason todd#dick grayson#batfam#robin#batfamily#bruce wayne#tim drake#red hood#batman#Nightwing#ghost talks#headcanon#trope#fanon
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never not thinking about how zoro loves best through obsession and whole-hearted devotion.
he said he will join luffy's crew and accept him as his captain and was ready to lay down his life for him ever since. he lost to kuina again and again and he hated her but maybe he loved her too. he made her a promise when he barely knew anything about the world and he keeps it when he is 19, 21 and for as long as it will take him. he will become the strongest or die trying. he carries kuina's blade like it's a part of his soul and treasures it more than anything else. he tells kuma to take his life instead of his captain's and says that his captain will become king of the pirates and if his death is what makes it happen, then so be it. he has never said a single kind word about sanji to his face and yet, when he stood in front of kuma and said, "i was always prepared to sacrifice myself for others" he jams his sword into his side. he trusts his crew's stupid curly-browed cook to protect his nakama and all that is precious to him. his rival, his friend tells him, kill me if I'm not myself and he wants to say, don't you dare die on me. what he says is, you will only die by my hands, so stay alive till then. he stands in front of mihawk and greets death with a smile. scars to the back are a swordsman's shame, he says. and yet, he takes one look at his captain's pain and bows down, forehead pressed to the ground, to the very same man he swore he would defeat one day, pride all forgotten. he dismisses robin's gratitude like it's nothing because of course they came for her. of course he was there with his swords unsheathed and eyes sharp. because it was never a favour. it was just something he does- he protects and loves and will always be by your side.
he loves and loves and loves. he loves like a dog, with canines bared and in his haunches, ready to close his maws around anything that threatens the ones he loves. he says he doesn't believe in god and yet he falls to his knees in the face of love and vows himself, body and soul, to it. he has only known love through swords clanging against each other and food stamped under one's feet. he knows love through violence and devotion and clenched fists. always the protector, always the devotee.
he loves like a prayer, like a promise. he has never known love that doesn't consume him whole. he loves like this: washing chopper's back in the bath and carrying him on his shoulders. eating anything sanji puts in his plate without question, always trusting him to protect his back in a fight. handing his heart to luffy, still bleeding and beating, without hesitation. there is not a single universe in which he doesn't love someone with all that he has got. because it has always been all or nothing for him.
#zoro every arc- welp i guess i have to almost die to prove that you have bewitched me body and soul-#-but only almost cause because nami will tax me for dying and chopper will cry and cook will never let me live it down-#-and luffy will slingshot me back to the living and that shit hurts so. no thanks I'll just take major blood loss and fatal injuries.#oh zoro you were never meant for casual. it's always sword to the chest or nothing#my stupid swordsman who has never been normal about anything ever#sighs dreamily. what a freak#roronoa zoro#zoro#sanji#straw hat pirates#luffy#monkey d luffy#blackleg sanji#one piece#vi talks#one piece meta
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Johnny 13 accidentally gains a brother.
He didn't plan for this to happen, it just did!
He was visiting his hometown, hanging around crime alley when a street rat tried to steal his bike having not noticed him.
The kid was in the middle of trying to Hotwire his bike when he couldn't help but comment. "It's the other wire, that one sets the alarm off."
"Thanks." The kid replied distractedly letting go of the slightly glowing green wire and reaching for the faintly glowing red wire.
A quiet pause.
The kid slowly turned his head so that he was looking into Johnny's eyes. "This is your bike, ain't it?" The kid asked having realised he wasn't alone.
Johnny smiled with maybe one too many teeth but luckily the kid didn't seem phased "Yep."
The kid nodded as if it was just his luck. "Ya gonna beat me up?"
"Nah, it's not like I ain't Hotwire my own fair share." He wasn't worried that the kid would steal his bike, and if the kid managed to pull it off the bike would just return to him.
"Come on kid, let's get something to eat." The kid narrowed his eyes in suspicion as Johnny walked away, that's fine, it was the kid's choice if he followed or not.
Curiosity and hunger seemed to win out as the kid fell in step beside him.
Johnny found the nearest bat burger (they weren't around when he was alive and not something he'd ever really get used to) and got a family meal with money he had 'burrowed' from the residents of Amity Park.
"Why you doing this?" The kid questioned after devouring three burgers and starting on his fourth.
Johnny shrugged. "Just know what it's like to go hungry is all." He didn't really know, maybe it was because the kid reminded him of himself or maybe it was just Phantom was rubbing off on him.
It was time for them to go their separate ways once the meal was finished and the few leftovers hidden away.
His bike was right where he left it "hey, kid. What's your name?" Johnny asked as he started the ignition.
The kid stared right into his eyes, like he was weighing Johnny's worth. "Jason."
"Jason Todd" The kid said it slow, like each word was a mistake.
Jason Todd,huh? Johnny committed it to memory. "Name's Johnny, kid." He gave back. "I'll see you around."
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After that it became a sort of habit to find the kid, buy him food and listen to whatever was happening in town, whenever he visited Gotham.
The other ghosts thought it was funny, one of them even jokingly said "welcome to parenthood."
But it didn't feel like Jason was his kid. It felt more like... Having a little brother.
Yeah, that was it.
One day Johnny rolled into Gotham with a crisp one hundred in his pocket, unknowingly donated by the Manson family, fullly intending on buying Jason some new clothes, probably a few books, and maybe a new lock pick set.
But he couldn't find him.
Johnny searched crime alley top to bottom, he checked the police headquarters, checked every bat burger, checked the docks.
He ignored the growing pit of worry that in his chest.
Johnny finally found Jason in a swanky mansion that was obviously owned by someone who could give plasmius a run for his money.
Jason, book worm that he was, was found sitting in the mansions library.
Really one of these days Johnny should introduce him to Ghostwriter, they'd get along great.
"Hey, kid."
Jason jumped and whatever book he was reading fell out of his hands.
He lit up once he saw who it was. "Johnny, you're here!" That excitement turned to fear and worry "You can't be here, what if you get caught?"
Johnny waved the kid's worry away. "Don't sweat it, nobody sees me if I don't want'em to." Then it was Johnny's turn to be concerned. "What happened, I couldn't find you in crime alley."
Jason's face went through a complicated range of emotions. "I got adopted by Bruce Wayne."
Johnny's eyes flashed, he knew the horror stories about adoption. "He treating you okay?" The man would never breathe again if he wasn't.
Seeing the possible murder scene, Jason eased his worries. "Yeah, he's fine, it's just a bit weird."
Homicide prevented for now.
Johnny took a seat across from the kid in a chair that was probably worth more then Johnny owned living or dead. "Alright, fill me in."
And Jason did.
Johnny learned about how he was caught stealing the wheels off the Batmobile (he couldn't tell if that was bravery or stupidity) by the Batman which somehow led to Bruce Wayne adopting him.
"I think his other kid doesn't like me much, but it ain't bad here." Jason said as he finished his story.
Johnny quietly nodded as he absorbed the information and thought about where to go from here.
He had planned on getting Jason a nice home (woulda offered his own haunt if the living could live in the ghost zone) preferably in Amity where he could meet everyone. (Kitty would love him)
Here Jason had the chance to never go hungry, get into good schools, always have what he needed.
This situation was...ideal.
Even if Johnny wasn't happy with it. "You happy here?" What mattered was that Jason was.
Jason visibly thought about it. "...Yeah...I am."
And the decision was made.
"You know you can come to me for anything, right? If you want to get out of here or just want someone to talk to." Johnny needed the kid to know that.
Jason rolled his eyes but replied. "Yeah, Johnny, I know."
So Johnny left reluctantly feeling like he was making a mistake somehow.
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Johnny was fighting Phantom with Kitty when he felt it.
He felt Jason die.
And Johnny s c r e a m e d
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He nearly tore apart the ghost zone in his search for Jason's ghost.
There was no way that Jason didn't form a ghost with the amount of time exposed to Johnny's ectoplasmic self.
Kitty helped him search, everyone helped him search, even Phantom.
But he couldn't find his little brother.
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Then he felt it.
He felt Jason come back to life.
He didn't know the details and he didn't care. All that mattered was that the kid was alive.
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He tried to search the living realm for the kid, which would have been made a ton easier if the GIW wasn't shooting at him every ten minutes.
At some point he gave up looking and waited instead.
Jason would find his way home to Gotham at some point, all Johnny had to do was wait.
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Johnny knew the second Jason stepped into the fair city of Gotham.
He broke many speeding limits and traffic laws on his way there but he didn't care.
Especially when he saw Jason on the streets, he looked different but Johnny would know that kid anywhere.
Johnny opened his mouth to call out.
But then Jason with him and his mouth snapped shut with a click.
There wasn't even a glimmer of recognition in Jason's eyes.
His brother didn't remember him.
#dpxdc#dcxdp#Jason Todd#Johnny 13#me: ooooh Johnny and Jason knowing each other is a cool idea#also me:...how do I make it hurt more? oh! memory loss!
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Luffy Week Day 4- Emotion
One of the things I am most fascinated by in One Piece is the continuity between this small angry child, and the happy-go-lucky pirate he becomes.
I think it's all still in there, he just knows more now!!!
#I may color this but I love the lineart enough I'm gonna put it off for now hahaha#luffy week#luffy week 2024#luffy#monkey d. luffy#one piece#one piece fanart#my art#me: 'hey should i draw him wearing a shirt or n-' My friends who don't even watch one piece: 'no shirt duh'#when you know more and are more powerful and grow up made of rubber and nothing can hurt you and people love you for the first time#and you have brothers and family and loss and hope and the gum gum fruit inside you and a hat from shanks and a goal to work towards#maybe then you can laugh even when you're angry#maybe then you don't feel so scared and helpless#IDK I JUST THINK ITS THE MOST IMPORTANT PART OF ONE PIECE#TO ME PERSONALLY#-holding up monkey d luffy- I JUST THINK HES NEAT#gear 5#oh hey this is my first time drawing gear 5
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#art#xau#ffxiv#final fantasy xiv#illustration#fake screenshot#i forgot for an entire year that shadowbringers wasn't the actual point the plot fucked her over but that the end of arr did it first😋#this game is fetch quests fetch quests fetch quests and then suddenly DEATH LOSS DESTRUCTION TRAGIC HERO oh a moogle! PAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#irrelevant but i just like to think back to how the ascians were the comical villains in arr and everything else had to step up to hurt you#lahabread walked so emet-selch can shoot a catboy
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in the name of all other black people, especially in light of everything, I hope mike tyson beats the brakes off that bitch
#real life with risa#the culture needs it#I'm begging the universe please don't let it be a paid match#we've earned the catharsis at this point#seeing a punkass white boy youtuber that helped lead us into this mess get his shit rocked would be fix me I think#especially when the little whiny white baby fans start crying about how mike went too far and oh nooo little jake is bweeding he's hurt =(#bonus if they start being gojo racist about it to excuse the loss#MWAH#DELICIOUS#PLEASE GODS LET ME HAVE THIS ONE THING#set the tone for the rest of the four years#“punch that bitch”#if I don't see that man on a stretcher
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part 11/26ish
anyone remember those scales with the springs in 'em? all i ever see these days are digital scales but those things made the best noises. i think i've seen some kitchen scales that still use spring mechanisms, but it's been a while.
technology is weird.
from the beginning
#otherkin hrt#fictionkin hrt#fictionkin#otherkin#digihrt#dg arts#-apomon#updates might slow down from daily since our brain ceased letting us do art about halfway through bfsdhjfbjshdbfs#oh well#i'm thinking of doing another fake in-universe pamphlet for a bonus though#specifically like talking about the “weight” stat#fun fact: we'd never stepped on a scale in almost a decade before finally seeing a doctor for the first time in that 10 years last year#we used to obsess over our weight in a way inherited from our mom's diet culture BS and then like#i'm pretty sure we split someone in the system who just managed to not give a shit#and everyone else that did basically got put in time out or fragmented to hell (we still don't know)#i think about this post i saw a while ago that talked about how like#weight (specifically as it is medicalized) shouldn't be a concern so much as if you're moving your joints and stretching them enough#and it should really only be a concern when it drastically changes in a short period of time because it can sometimes be indicative of#your body flipping its lid#the post talked about rapid weight loss specifically and how a lot of doctors will go “oh wow weight loss!! yay :)” when like.#no??? not yay???#anyways some medications can cause weight fluctuations too#our fibro medication can cause weight gain and tbh i don't give so much of a shit about that as i am curious about the mechanics behind it#our relationship to weight is mostly informed by being the one person in our family who never had to deal with fatphobia targeting them#but just because we weren't the target didn't mean it didn't affect us when our mom's whole life shifted around WW#i didn't want to delve into that in this comic tbh so aside from the little bonus pamphlet this is the last time it's brought up#but like a comic where we take a version of ourself through this kind of transition would inevitably have to touch on relationships to food#we're just lucky we finally found out that we can actually like... enjoy food without it hurting us?#part of the wish fulfillment of this scenario would (and is) the idea of getting to enjoy food without bodily discomfort#because on top of us almost developing an ED we also just have a garbage stomach
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normally stoic victim is crying, panicking, a part of the rocket corp building has been destroyed, the employees are scattering
concurrently, alan is trying to figure out how to tell TDL not to touch firefox
GOD. YEAH....
#pitch posts#the perfect balance /j#tommy's stickmen tag#tommy's aus#loss of control au#'please don't touch firefox. it will try to set you on fire'#'oh fuck off you're not my dad. how bad could it hurt anyway' (gets set on fire)#meanwhile: Victim Is Suffering
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there are some nights i really do not like minecraft diaries. not because of what it is but because of what i lost. minecraft diaries s1… is very nostalgic, obviously, but it holds so much character and builds an exciting world for aphmau to explore. i love her learning about these places, her people, her friends. there’s so much love there. i lose a lot of this feeling post season 1, because after that, it loses a lot. everything aphmau has learnt is gone. the people i grew to love are there, but not really. it’s drastically changed. it makes me miss everything that season 1 was. sure she gets to explore new things and meet new people and explore existing relationships, but i genuinely don’t think it holds the same charm. i don’t think it was meant to, i’m just describing my own experiences with this feeling yk
i mean, i guess i can’t say i dont like minecraft diaries when i’m reminded of the joy of s1. but it gives me a strong sense of mourning. i miss the simplicity of it. i experience feelings of nostalgia for a world that i was never even in beyond viewing. it’s heartbreaking to me and maybe thats why i cant bring myself to rewatch early season 2 a lot of times. i still get joy out of the later seasons but damn it sucks when you’re reminded of how bright season 1 is compared to the rest and it really puts it into perspective for you
#aphmau#minecraft diaries#idk im rambling here but#dude it hurts so fuckin bad lmao#its just that sense of dread kinda. like oh man thats . not coming back#ughhh :(#i mean like obviously the characters experience the loss way greater BUT ITS TELLING WHEN I DIDNT EVEN EXPERIENCE IT AND I STILL MOURN WHAT#ONCE WAS#its really weird and kinda sad#and frustrating. oddly frustrating#also this is just my personal experience i genuinely love s1 more than the other 2 seasons combined#(low bar but bare w me)#there are things abt s2 that are arguably better but ! idk nothing beats the og
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"i think i have a pretty good handle on the emotional landscape in this story even though i don't really relate myself to anything happening right now," i say, right before making myself grieve so hard i feel like i'm gonna throw up in this coffeeshop,
#kitkat forgets that loss of languages makes her sad bc she has no emotional object permanence. a day in the life#oh my god this fucking scene hurts so bad. jesus CHRIST.#like not in a BAD WAY i'm not emotionally self-harming i'm just like. oh my GOD. I AM IN PUBLIC. GIRL.#toh#princess luz au#since obviously this is. about that
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Anyways update i just didnt bother to post earlier:
fr God is good and the whole car crash my parents got into last week was so incredibly mild in terms of injuries!!!! worst was a bruised knee im pretty sure
ALSO-
*taps mic* HUG YOUR FREAKING LOVED ONES OR SO HELP ME!!!!!!!
#ALSO DO NOT READ THE TAGS IF YOURE HERE FOR A GOOD TIME!!!!#ENDED UP VENTING AGHHHHH- (<- amongus ref in 2024???? l+ratio) (no but seriously stay safe; im not sure if i should add a cw???)#no but like the cars themselves?#FOLDED-#ive seen photos of worse ones of course lol (ty internet <3)#but we´re all in agreement that if it had hit anywhere else at that speed it wouldve been BAD Bad-#like; severe injury to the leg at least; drivers door wouldve crumpled; thankfully it hit the tire mostly#our car got what seems to be the lesser damage and theyre still debating if it counts as total loss xd#also oh goshhhh#so i usually go and say goodbye to my dad when hes headed to work; i did it that day as usual; car was already halfway out the driveway#my dog also loves to go and she was already in the car#but my mom (taking my dad to work) said she´d need to stop by the store after dropping dad off; so she handed her back to me#last minute descision-#my dog is a small kinda elderly chihuahua and wouldve been on my mom´s lap when they crashed#no seatbelt for her obviously#she wouldve gotten injured so freaking bad if she was there ):#overall feels like we dodged a life altering accident by a hair#i wasnt even in it and im still shook hahaha#i always go say bye to dad if hes leaving for work no matter if im pissed off or sad or whatever#half out of habit; half bc i know anything could happen at any moment and id rather not have been too proud to say goodbye#dammit im crying now hahaha#saying again; everyones fine!!!!! please remember to hug your loved ones !!!!!!#shut up sheo#but oh gosh too many reminders of death as a constant recently#that happened about a week after a cousin died; i hadnt seen him in forever but his family went to our church growing up; he was my age#it was a dull and distant pain even then to hear the news but it still hurt; i didnt go to the funeral#did go to the one a couple days later tho; for a family member i truly didnt know; it was a car crash i think#a special kind of heartbreak from meeting his mom and seeing his kids running around#now that i realize it; as im writing this; i hadnt stopped to process just about anything hahaha#freaking sobbing at 9 in the morning smh!!!!!
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By the way when I say people fear Mortimer it's cuz there's a big reason certain people are afraid of her. Judgment and Justice and Karma and Consequence all in one person given the title of god. People tend to be unable to handle the consequences that follow behind what they've done. And for the being that is Judgment to show them just how bad they were....It drives them mad. It makes them want to hurt. It makes them want to die ... The guilt is so heavy and their actions are irreversible. It drives them mad.
Mortimer is a being to be wary of whether she likes it or not. No one is above consequences.... including her own family
#hello puppets#unreality au#the sam rambles!#hello puppets midnightshow#Oh mortimer oh mortimer....#she tried. she tried to make Riley see how badly she hurt scout with her attempts to make her invincible#and Riley experienced all of the fear and pain her child felt every day. the agony and dread and even...the loss of a will to go on..#what had she done to her? this wasn't what she wanted at all. she just wanted Scout to be safe without the threat of death once more#but when she realized how far she went she couldn't take it. and poof!! jaw go bye bye#she doesn't hold a grudge against mortimer...she was doing what had to be done. mortimer didn't want Riley to lose it either#Riley needed to snap back to reality if she wanted any chance of salvaging the straining thin piece of thread that is#the connection with her child god theyre all fucked ul
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i know the favored of the supernovas is law and i get it he's a sopping wet loser of a man but my favorite has been bonney throughout egghead she is so precious to me beyond all the others
#one piece#op#jewelry bonney#one piece egghead#egghead spoilers#could you imagine the pain? the loss of your father with so little to actually remember before your life got ruined?#a chronic illness taken advantage of to hurt everyone good to you and you're nothing but a bargaining chip?#your family destroyed and violated a million times over before you were even conceived and for long afterward?#and you lose all hope in the face of the biggest threat to your life because. of course you do#the entire authority of the world sees you and your only beloved guardian as incorrect. unworthy. despicable.#and your life is about to come to an end#then your father through a miracle defying all science and logic returns to save you one last time#because he loves you SO SO MUCH. more than you could ever comprehend even when you grow into your own#and the image of hope from his very beliefs of god above is the one to deliver you from danger in the face of hell#justifying every cry to hope in your turmoil and emotional wreckage after years of agony#oh btw you're only 12 years old#bonney is stronger than anyone to be able to survive everything she did i love her so so so much
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pax casually asking any traveling companions if they could find someplace with shade to rest but not pushing the issue if dismissed or not having the time is really underselling the fact that—
#❪ ⋅ ✹ ⋆ —┊ ❛ ooc. ❜ ❫#( could you imagine how much constant pain a vampire would be in? )#( not saying harkon was right but i understand him going on about the tyranny of the sun hsjshsh )#( the fact tes vampires can still go out into the sun [if well fed enough] but it’s going to hurt like hell the entire time is…a curse. )#( thinking about the one vampire dream in oblivion of )#( ‘You dream of long days spent basking in the sunlight of your native lands.#You feel the warmth and the heat#and feel your body become refreshed.#Then you awaken knowing it was but a dream.’ )#( most of the dreams involve body horror and other gory scenarios but that? )#( it’s the loss of those small enjoyments in life one could’ve easily under appreciated )#( it’s the longing and sorrow. )#( anyways where was i going with this )#( oh pax really needs to take his own wellbeing into consideration more but. Doesn’t. he’s very quiet with his suffering. )
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