#oh god thank you so much heartstopper for existing

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"I know… I know you don't want me to try and fix you. But I love you so much. And I couldn't help but try."

HEARTSTOPPER S3 E3 "Talk"

[mostofthingsmostofthetime]

I finished the second episode of Heartstopper last night (wanted to post about it yesterday, but I was too tired from work), so here are some of my thoughts in no particular order for you now.

Good on Nick for checking up on Charlie after what happened. I found it odd, though, that he seemed more emotional about it than Charlie, but I guess they're in two very different places, mentally. One being 'why do I seem to like this guy way more than my other friends?' & the other being 'omg stop being so nice to me, your straight!' lol. Plus, I get that everyone deals with stuff in their own way & poor Charlie is probably so used to being mistreated that he might just be repressing the full weight of how his feeling as a copeing mechanism. It was also probably very cathartic to finally tell someone everything that happened between him & Ben (as I'm guessing he kept most if not all of it a secret from his friends & sister).

WE FINALLY MEET NELLIE!!!! And she is as cute as I'd hoped (though for some reason I expected her to be a different colour).

Sorry, Charlie, but Tori's right. Your hair looks exactly the same. Also, love that they kept the gag from the novel about her scaring him with her, always showing up suddenly without warning.

Nice to see that the outfits are on point for our boys so far with the plaid/black jeans (trying to impress someone, I see Charlie) & T-shirt/joggers (also what product is Miss Nelson using coz Nick's tops look soft as hell).

Wait, what season is it supposed to be because it looked really sunny when Charlie was walking to Nick's house (I know he was wearing a coat & hat but Charlie is always cold) but then suddenly it's snowing? Idk when Alice first came up with this story, but as a Brit, I haven't seen proper full on Snow since I was probably around eight years old. But hey, maybe in the Heartstopper universe, global warming doesn't exist.

I don’t care what anyone says, I will never get the fun of a snowball fight. If I go somewhere with a friend & they start throwing stuff at me, I'm leaving! Also, picking it up with your bare hands? One, it's been on the ground 🤢, and two, where are your gloves? Do you not feel the cold? Snow angles do look fun until I think about how my entire behind would be frozen/damp. Sorry if that makes me a "stick in the mud", I don't care 😝.

Damn, that is one photogenic dog & and aww, they already look like a couple. Also, give it up for Nick's freckles, the real star of the show 👏.

Omg, being in the same group as someone you hate must be so hard, but I get why Nick can't really say anything about what Ben did, at least not right now. Also, what is up with that Imogen girl? Mind your damn business.

I think it's good we get to see Elle longing for a bond with other girls that she just can't get from her male friend group. Makes her transition feel more fleshed out (for lack of a better word), you know?

Yay, we finally meet Tara & Darcy & they're exactly how I thought they'd be (except I imagined Darcy with brown hair for some reason). Ooh I didn't know Elle was artistic. I wanna decorate pencil cases now. Tara's pink puffa coat is so cute. What is up with adults dictating how long kids' hair can be? Like who gives a fuck! Also "gal pals" had me 😆.

Oh, thank god, it's just misinformation. For a second, I thought Tao was making shit up just to make Charlie get over his crush. Are kids really like that, though? I can't imagine kissing someone once & having people insist, I'm madly in love with them to this day, like move on already.

Ok, I officially really like the gay teacher, lol.

Love Charlie's sweater & Nick's coats are also very nice. Where are these kids getting their clothes? Coz I'm embarrassed by most of the stuff I wore as a teenager.

The big hoodie moment should be cute, but I just can't help thinking about how skinny Charlie is, which makes me ☹️.

Ok, so I didn't care much for the leaf animation in the first episode, but omg, the little fire crackles when Nick was trying to hold Charlie's hand? Screaming, crying, throwing up!!!!!!! & the hug before he left? Fucking crops watered for life, bitch!

Was digging Elle's outfit, very 70's vibes.

Ah, so their "secret" is out. Also obligatory: 🗣 LET'S GO LESBIANS LET'S GO 🗣

Can't wait for the next episode, but I practically passed out after watching episode 2 (manual labour is hard, kids 😭), so maybe I hallucinated, but did that Imogen girl ask Nick out? I thought she was daiting Ben? Or is that a different girl?

PS. I found out Aled won't be in the show, which I accept & the only reason I haven't talked about Isaac is because he hasn't really done much yet

[prongsmydeer]

Ayesha Liveblogs Heartstopper S1

I will not lie to you have put off watching this show for so long because I thought it might hurt my feelings but I think I'm finally ready to put myself through it

I didn't realize we'd be starting this show with Charlie already in a clandestine relationship. Alright, diving right in

Call me crazy, but I think this guy who is causing Charlie's brain to create gentle cartoon leaves might be the guy he falls in love with:

"Still don't tell anyone about this." Heartwarming words from Secondary Love Interest Ben

"Why are you talking to me? I don't even know who you are." Ben, love, I think you're overcorrecting

Tao saying "Bro Dude Friends" in an American accent tickles me

God I remember not being allowed to have a phone at even at lunch in school. Dark Times

"What about your friends, have you talked to them about it? "They wouldn't get it." HAHAHA the one realistic teacher who deflects dating questions back to the teens

Immediately I like Tori. "Was he a knob?" is exactly the right question to ask

Charlie's imagined romantic cutaways are very fun

"Aren't I bit... small and weak to be a rugby player?" "We're just a school team, you know. It's not that serious." "So you're saying I am small and weak?" "No!" [Both laugh] I love Charlie's teasing streak with Nick, it's fun

"I don't just fall for any guy who's nice to me," said Charlie, as if he had not immediately fallen for Nick on the basis of them just saying hi to each other and having one conversation about ink stains

Genuinely I hope this rugby endeavour ends with Charlie making a bunch of friends and discovering a love of sport

Update from 1 montage later: I think it has!

Also I am immediately invested in Tao and Elle's relationship. They miss each other so much, it's very sweet

This episode took a really harsh and unexpected turn with Ben's reappearance. Bring back the rugby montage

"You have nothing to be sorry about." "Sorry." "You say sorry a lot. Don't say it." Thank God for Nick

"It was normal," said Nick, in a very convincing statement that no parent would find troubling

Nick said: Move over Charlie, I can also have a cartoonish dream sequence. Welcome to My Instagram-Induced Homophobia Fever Dream

Immediately I'm relating to Nick. I too get stressed out by watching other people type and have to put away my phone. Also it is becoming clearer and clearer that he's going to be the one who is slower to come to terms with his own feelings

"Thank you for being my supportive straight friend." HAHAH bold of Charlie to assume. But I get that it opens the door to that conversation

"And bisexual people exist." THANK YOU CHARLIE

"You know, when I was a teenager and had a crush on a straight boy, I just repressed it and suffered." Mr. Gay Teacher speaking to the real Teenage Experience LMAO

I love Elle making friends at her new school 💗 Not to stereotype but I do think girls are more welcoming as a social group

Nick has touched Charlie's hair one too many times today to be convincingly straight hahahah

"You seem much more yourself around [Charlie]." "Do I?" Oh, you're in it now, Nick

"Nick likes a girl," said Tao confidently, as if the 'girl' Nick's friends had been teasing him for texting was not Charlie

"You've befriended the school lesbians." GOOD FOR ELLE

Nick thinking about holding Charlie's hand but stopping himself. Sweet boy

"I don't think he's straight," said Tori, after witnessing one of the gayest goodbyes I've ever seen

Nick staring at his team photo like he can rugby away gay thoughts

HAHAHAH doing the "Am I gay" quiz and getting 62%. I am so Nick-coded. He is so me. Someone stop these Repressed Queer Blond British Boys from being so relatable hahaha

"Do you want to go to Harry's party? With me?" This is SO different to him inviting Imogen, who asked if she could come

I love that Tao's mum loves Elle so much she hugs her twice

"We don't want to make a big announcement or anything, but... just maybe not hide so much." I'm not sure which part of this interaction I liked the most, 1) Nick and Tara immediately establishing they weren't into each other 2) Tara telling Nick she is a lesbian, modelling a chill coming out and 3) Tara immediately giving Nick a sly look as soon as he mentions His Best Friend Charlie

Both cold and cool for Nick to tell Harry off for being homophobic at his own birthday party

Tao making Elle promise nothing will affect their friendship because he is clearly in love with her already LOL

Nick being visibly comforted by seeing happy queer people around him. Once again, relatable:

Very funny of the show to only NOW warn me of strobing effects, which have been bothering me for quite some minutes as I tried to get a screenshot of that scene LOL

"I'm dying." "It's cause you're old." To friends literally months older than you is honestly one of my favourite jokes

"You're just going to assume they're [the person I have a crush on] a she?" "....Are they not a girl?" "Um!" Nick has talked himself into a corner on this one

"Would you.... kiss someone who wasn't a girl?" "I don't know." "Would you kiss me?" "Yeah." I loooove this dialogue. Nick is uncertain about his sexuality, but not uncertain about Charlie

Nick said: The quiz was right! I AM at least 62% gay

Charlie immediately realizing he's got himself into another situationship with a guy who is definitely not ready to come out

Charlie's dad probably thinks he was bullied at the party but in fact it was actually Charlie being retraumatized in a slightly different way

"It's not that I didn't want to, you know [whispers] kiss you... I was just so confused. I've just been so, so confused." The immediate juxtaposition between Ben, who did not give a damn about Charlie's feelings through his sexuality crisis, and Nick, who not only apologized right away, but also is actively trying to explain how he's feeling to Charlie 🥺💘

Charlie is also representing a real group of people who are The Only Out Kid At School Whom All Other People Figuring Out That They're Some Type of Gay May Inevitably Direct Their Feelings

"A lot of gay people are good at sports, Charlie," said the Rugby Coach, slightly offended on behalf of all gay athletes

LMAO @ IMOGEN'S "I'm an ally" scene, I've seen it before

Also she really does give me second-hand embarrassment. Read the room girl!!!

Tao is so hostile to Nick undeservedly ghggghhgh Nick wasn't the one who threw the rugby ball but he did get pelted with it by Tao after

LMAO @ Darcy immediately clocking Nick and Charlie as a couple

"Why are the other team literal adult men?" Ah, a classic sports dilemma

"You've got some mud on your face though," said Nick, like the rest of both of them including his own face was not also covered in mud

HAHAHAHA Isaac also immediately clocking that they are sitting way too close and gazing too much to be just homies

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO NICKKKKKKKKKK YOU ARE FALLING INTO THE SAME BEN TRAP. BE BETTER! YOU ARE SEEING SOMEONE!!!!!!!!

I know he's just trying to be a good friend to Charlie and I don't know if it's Tao's hair and face but he's reminding me of someone I know (who had a lot of emotional issues) and it's giving me a bit of the heebie jeebies hahahah

"Do you like this girl?" "Well, um, her dog died." HAHAH NICK, this poor people-pleasing boy

"Tao, no, it's his birthday," Tao is a rough mix of incredibly loyal, moderately possessive of his friends and lacking in any social graces whatsoever

Also if Tao understood what was going on, he'd be TWICE as mad. It's growing more deserved by the minute

"I was going to say I'd send him a strongly-worded DM, but murder's fine too." Hahahahah Tao

I've never seen a more uncomfortable exchange of the words, "You're a good friend." LOL:

Even if this whole Imogen thing is still pretty messy, I give a lot of credit to Nick for telling Charlie about it and explaining the context as well as clarifying he was going to put an end to it before it happened

"I wish I'd met you when I was younger," said Nick, like 16 isn't still pretty young

"I really like you." "You like me?" "Yes, wasn't that obvious?" HAHAHAHA they're so silly, I love them ❤️

I love that Charlie and Nick are so into each other they can't help but have a bit of PDA everywhere they go

Elle said: You're not the only ones capable of cutesy animations for the friend you're secretly in love with, Charlie and Nick

Do you think Isaac's like, 'Damn, this is an above average amount of romantic tension for a bowling outing'

Props to Nick for immediately following through on his pre-date break-up with Imogen

"Mamma Mia." "We've seen that four times this year already." Nick continues to be extremely me-coded, including looking up the best LGBT movies nghghgnjg

I said this MOMENTS before he googled being bisexual after watching Pirates of the Carribean. INCREDIBLE

Darcy is VERY good at clocking people's romantic vibes (Elle and Tao edition)

"Do you wanna kiss? Would that help?" [Sarcastically] "Wow." "Just a suggestion." Charlie said: Sorry about your sexuality crisis, my love language is giving u a leetle kees on the lips

AWWWWWWWWWW I loooooove Nick finally having someone to talk through his sexuality feelings with outside of his boyfriend

"Kissing you is actually one of the things that made me realize I don't like kissing guys." "Okay, happy to help?" Nick 💖

Personally I LOVE the triple date and Meddling Gays Groupchat

Charlie is so blindingly smiley every time Nick acknowledges to someone that they're together it is the sweetest:

In fairness to Tao being the last to know, he is 1) The only one who actively dislikes Nick and 2) The only cishet person at the table

Must be rough for Tara to go from everyone only ever talking about how fit she is to all the crap of people thinking they're gonna catch lesbianism

It would've been VERY funny if they all got locked in the closet

"They all probably think I'm this like, gay nerd." "Well, you kind of are a gay nerd." Nick said: You're MY gay nerd, Charlie

"Oi, just look at him behind him. Like a little girl." Harry's got so many issues. He's literally in the same proximity to Ben, what's his problem?

"Quick question. What's it like being gay?" Not that EVERY homophobic character is secretly gay, but it does seem more and more like Harry is 🤨

"I'm not even gay. I just felt really sorry for you." Since ep 1, I have strongly been suspecting that Ben will be the one to out Nick and Charlie and I feel it even more strongly now that he has eyewitnessed their handholding

Also it does NOT bode well that this ep is called Bully

"[Charlie] has a friend who won't leave me alone," said Harry, as if he has not been the one pelting Tao and calling him names to deal with what is probably a little gay crush repressed deep under thirteen layers of stupid and mean

"None of us are being homophobic." I feel like people are now growing up in this weird era where people ARE still homophobic but unwilling to admit it because it's less acceptable. It's fucked up to have someone do something bigoted to you and say it's not. At least when someone's horrible upfront you are facing an enemy that's showing its face

I don't blame Nick for finally losing his cool. Also wild of Harry to pick a fight with someone who is obviously bigger than him

"Some of the rugby boys are nice." "Even they just... stood there." There comes a certain point where being able to associate yourself with bigoted people must mean that you are at best indifferent to the people they harm

"I think I know why he hasn't [told me]. He thinks I'll accidentally say something stupid and out Nick to all of Nick's mates. And obviously he cares more about Nick's feelings than he does about mine." SEVERAL THINGS, TAO. 1) IT IS OBVIOUS why he hasn't told you, it's because you have shown numerous times you don't like Nick. 2) Why the hell is OUTING THEM even on your list? 3) In a situation where you COULD accidentally out Nick, his feelings are OBJECTIVELY more important than yours! And 4) This possessiveness towards your friends is part of the problem!!!

"This is all your fault," said Tao, as if Charlie had forced him to fight with Harry instead of literally intervening upon it

I get that Tao's a teen and he's hurt Charlie's priorities are different and he's short-sighted but GOD take some personal responsibility

"He said he doesn't wanna talk to you." If Charlie ends up being the only one to apologize for this I'm gonna be SO mad

All other things aside, I'm glad Tao and Nick are bonding

I love how consistently useful it is that Charlie can run fast

"You don't get to make me feel like crap anymore just because you hate yourself." YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH CHARLIE

DOUBLE APOLOGY, AS WAS WARRANTED FOR THESE TWO:

The butterflies appearing on Tao's side so we know the feeling is mutual with Elle ahhhhhhhhhh

If Nick is leaving the rugby match to kiss his boyfriend, that is the FUNNIEST possible thing he could do, surely it could wait til after the match rather than mid-mandatory-sports day

The update is that he was desperate for a conversation, which seems more reasonable LMAO

"My life is way better because I met you." NIIIIICK 😭❤️

Charlie is really coming into his own today. The most nonconfrontational boy crams three different emotional confrontations into one sports day

Bold move to make out in the school corridor mid-mandatory-sports day. In general, interesting how often people are macking around this school. But I understand, it was a very romantic conversation:

"I love liking you," said Nick, like that wasn't one of the most romantic things I've ever heard

"Does this mean we're boyfriends?" "Oh, yes. Was that not already established the last like, ten times we made out?" HAHAHA their DTR talks kill me a little

"Thank you for telling me. I'm so sorry if I ever made you feel like you couldn't tell me that." I was nervous for Nick for a moment, but I'm so glad for him now

"It's called bisexuality, if you've heard of that." LMAOOOOOOOOOOOO not Nick genzsplaining bisexuality to Mama Nelson aka Olivia Colman, of The Favourite fame

What a sweet and charming show

[fandoms-my-fandoms]

Heartstopper Season 2

I will be brief in this paragraph, but I wanted to let you all know that season two was WORTH THE YEAR AND A HALF WAIT. I’m not going to spoil everything, but I will say that we have a MASSIVE CLIFF HANGER. THERE WAS SO MUCH GOING ON THIS SEASON AND EVERYTHING WAS SO BEAUTIFUL AND OH MY GOD I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO ABOUT THIS OR IM GONNA EXPLODE. @chronicintrovert you have outdone yourself yet AGAIN. THANK YOU FOR CREATING THE MOST BEAUTIFUL SERIES BOTH BOOKS AND TV. I am not doing well after finishing season two. I am really not doing well. But I am so elated and happy and overjoyed and excited. This season was beautiful, amazing, show-stopping, hilarious, incredible, fantastic, wonderful, gorgeous, stunning, jaw-dropping, gut-wrenching, miraculous, heart-warming, creative, energetic, fabulous, unique, outstanding, spectacular, stupendous, and perfect. I have no complaints other than the fact that we have to wait another YEAR for season three to exist. I have so much to say…but I’m literally speechless. My jaw has dropped to the fucking floor, nay, to another fucking dimension. Im not going to be able to stop talking about season two of Heartstopper for WEEKS. NAY. MONTHS. NAY. YEARS.

HELP.

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Heartstopper

Inspired by this post

Jameson taps his fingers rhythmically against his leg as he sits inside his gilded cage watching the black and white TV they brought him, Stars, 60 years ago? He really wishes they’d upgrade it by now. He knows color TV exists now. 

The facility however, does seem to be doing it’s best to please him, most likely to keep him calm and compliant. Technically he could break out, but he’d rather stay in one place so he can be found easier. Besides, once they let him make his own food his experience has increased exponentially so!

He hears some workers outside of the room with a voice he’s never heard before.

He turns to look at the door as it opens, two older works and as he suspected, a new intern who seems to think highly of himself.

He smiles and waves at them and the two scientists who’ve dealt with him before avoid looking directly at him. The intern on the hand pauses before turning to one of the scientists.

“Are you sure this is the right ALTR?”

“Yes Johnson now-”

“But he’s so cute!”

“That's what makes him so dangerous.” The other snaps at the intern in a strained quiet voice.

Jameson can feel his smile become more strained as he watches them. Jameson raises a hand, smiling as brightly as he can, catching the researchers and interns attention before waving.

The intern seems to melt while the researchers avoid looking at him.

“Aww he’s baby~” The intern coos in a not so quiet voice and it takes all Jameson has to not let his face twist with disdain.

The taller scientist, Micheal if he recalls correctly clears his throat as he enters the room further.

“Apologies Mr. Jackson, the restocking for your food as been delayed, if they are not here by 5pm we’ll allow you access to the kitchen to make whatever you like.”

Jameson merely nods in understanding. As long as he doesn’t need to go back to that awful gruel they dared call food again.

“We’re merely here to check on a few things and show Mr Johnson the ropes.”

Jameson nods again before lifting his hands and signing, “‘Tea?’”

“No, thank you, Mr. Jackson.”

Jameson merely nods again and goes back to tapping his fingers. Perhaps he’ll paint off his unfinished dolls tonight…

“What did he say?” The intern, Johnson, asks.

“He was just asking if we wanted some tea.” Tom, The other scientist mutters.

“Aww, he’s so sweet.”

“Focus Johnson.”

‘So unprofessional.’ Jameson thinks as he watches them, looking back at his show he decides to just make himself tea.

For the next thirty minutes he can feel the eyes of the intern looking back to watch him when he makes his tea and when he sits back down, drinking it and watching his show.

Around the thirty-minute mark, Micheal comes over with his clip board.

“Anything you’d like to request before we leave Mr. Jackson?”

“‘A Colored TV would be wonderful.’”

The scientist, pauses, looking at him, almost surprised before slowly nodding and writing something down.

He hears Thomas translate for the intern as Jameson stands up. 

“Oh my god he’s so small.” Johnson whispers as her takes the three of them to the door, Tom explaining to Johnson that it’s something he does because he says it’s polite.

And Jameson stands firm on that stance thank you very much. However, this intern on the other hand… 

Jameson feels his hand twitch, his sleeve far too empty for his liking before smiling to himself. 

“Have a nice day Mr. Jackson.” Are Micheal's parting words, then tom but the inter stays behind, looking down at Jameson with the smile.

“See ya later Jackson.” Then the man reaches up, patting Jameson’s face. Jameson’s hand twitches, resisting the urge to rip the man's hand away.

“Johnson no-!” 

Jameson smiles pleasantly, adorably, at the man. Earning him a smile in return before the intern freezes before being ripped away from Jameson.

Not even a second later and the intern collapses. Jameson smiles at the two man, staring at the now corpse of the coincidently former intern. Waving a goodbye before closing his door as he hears more people approaching.

Hm, perhaps he will paint a doll, he thinks he knows exactly how he wants it to look. He wonders if his family will like it when they finally find him.

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heartstopper s2e7 live episode reaction

ok ep 7 of s1 is my least favorite one, let's see how this one goes

see, darcy can sleep over at tara's, learn something @ jane

oh wow nick could run a charlie stan account sweet lord

is it really a season of heartstopper if nick isn't zooming in on a picture of charlie and realizing things

NOT WEVE ALL BEEN WAITING FOR THIS DAY TAO'S MUM YOU ARE THE SUN YOU ARE THE ENTIRE SOLAR SYSTEM

I am sorry the idea of everyone in tao's family waiting for him and elle to get together sjfudkfudirudkrudirudkrudori

"do you have a girlfriend you'd like to invite, david?" OOOOOOOOOOOOOO SICK BURNS FROM SARAH NELSON

TORI TORI TORI TORI TORI TORI

we love a supportive squad <3

darcy baby girl oh no

how have literally none of you realized that isaac isn't into james lmao

BEN YAAAAAAAA ME TENES MAMADO SAPAAAAAAAAAAAA

"I think I'll go to prom" okay troy bolton

"I don't wanna wear matching suits" "me neither" sickening as FUCK y'all are the worst

DARCY HOLY FUCK

not everyone pitching in so darcy can wear a suit I'm going to start crying

I'm not immune to non-binaryism even if not canon idc man

isaac's face when everything fits in......... god. I'm in this and I don't like it

OH SHIT

OH SHIT THEY'RE DOING THAT WITH IMOGEN AND SAHAR AREN'T THEY

OH SHITTTTTTTTT

"interesting" INDEED TARA INDEED

elle's painting I'm sobbing lmao

PUNCH HIM NICK FUCK THAT

I can't believe this bitch went all the way there just to give himself some pat on the back, a piece of SHIT

okay nick is like. that's scary dog privilege lol

CHARLIE MOTHERFUCKING SPRING HOLY FUCKING SHIT

YOU DON'T GET TO AMBUSH ME INTO FORGIVING YOU

oh. my. god.

oh. my. god. i have tears in my eyes. oh my fucking god charlie.

fuck I hope this is the last we see of ben lmao

FUCK that was. give joe an emmy? please? god?

no I had to pause I'm crying so hard that was so cathartic I love you so much charlie spring

also okay the dinner I hope tori kicks david's phone AND his teeth out

M8

PAL

BRO

SUPPORTIVE STR8 FRIEND

he's got no right to know you don't owe him a thing

STOP WITH THE FATHERLESS BEHAVIOR @ SELF

oh my god I can't stop sobbing lmao

victoria's going to murder someone tonight

she asked that so calmly lmao "what is your problem?"

DON'T YOU DARE

OH HE'S DOING IT

OH HE DID IT

hdkfjdkghdkgj julio and jane all "why are we in this" JSKFUDOFUDLFIDLFUDLFJDKFJ

LETS GO NICK

maybe david SHOULD just stay w stéphane next time

and then they both can disappear into a black hole

sarah's faces are giving me LIFE my god this woman is a saint

WRECK THE BITCH STEPHANE AAAAYEEEEEEEEEE

SARAH IS GOING OFF OH MY GOD

julio and jane are out there like "oh jesus fucking christ this is making us seem like a functional family unit"

I can't get over it they're doing all this in front of julio and jane, tori, charlie, and god

he's not a very good dad is he?

oh

oh my god

oh my god nick no

oh fuck me I'm sobbing AGAIN WHAT THE FUCK

oh my fucking god

"I think it's a very sad way to exist" yeah

oh my god I need therapy after this

I'm literally calling my therapist after I'm done with this episode

jesus fucking christ that was bad. that was Really Bad I haven't stopped crying

oh okay thank fucking god for tori

YOU ARE A PATHETIC LITTLE MAN

sarah apologizing about the drama like the spring household doesn't have like 7 different mental illness diagnoses lmao

TORI IN THE BACKGROUND SAYING "YOUR BROTHER'S A PRICK" LMAOOOOOOOOOOOO

NICK?

NICK OH MY

oh

oh fuck

OH DARCY NO

DARCY NO OH MY GOD

oh my god

oh no

[ninacarstairss]

honestly i’m still shocked that every single person we hired or interviewed suddenly quit. we have some real shit luck there i guess. oh god why does work have to be like this?? why can’t tumblr just be our job?? it’s so unfair. the fact that you’re gonna have free time is great but it also sucks because bills, gas, adulthood and stuff 😭😭 i just wanna be 13 again and forget these things even exist. adulthood is definitely nero-and-cece-phobic. i hate it so much 😭

OH MY GOD I LOVE HER!!!! that shadowhunter shelf is so beautiful!!! they all are actually. like all those editions of the classics and the amount of serotonin it gives me the fact that those book fit so perfectly, like the spines all perfectly aligned, it’s so calming

yes exactly. casey’s writing style is very recognisable and i love how i could see them all over the pages, in every little detail. i really wasn’t expecting to love all these characters so much but it’s definitely war if anyone ever hurts them

the rwrb edits are bad for me too. my camera roll is begging me to delete something because it is full of gifs and pics and edits and whatever. it’s impossible to stop. and it’s just so much easier than reading sometimes. like after you’ve had an eight hour shift and you’re tired as fuck it’s so much easier to just doomscroll on tiktok. i would love to read, i need to read, but my brain is just constantly disconnected

ohh that’s great then!!! also yes!!! london pride!!! i still want to go too!! i need them to announce a date so that i can start booking stuff :))

no way 😭😭😭 you just started getting tattoos and she is moving?? so unfair. and honestly this tattoo is going to make me so weak, the chain and the ring are just too much for me to handle 😭😭 OH MY GOD i am screaming so hard right now. we are really soulmates you know that? i’ve always wanted a tattoo of that story too, i can’t believe you could get a whole forearm with that story!!!! i will be so in love 🥹

honestly same 😂 i love that i can feel the ink create the picture on my skin but also just appear there in a second, thank you. so i was planning on getting those two i got, a rwrb quote, a vignette from heartstopper, a date and a quote from harry styles for the concert i went to. they will be done soon anyways lol also it was my birthday a few days ago and my friends got me a voucher for the tattoo studio so they will be done very soon :)))

also hi!! here are my radio silence and carnation tattoos!! the carnation was supposed to be entirely green, you know after oscar wilde and what it represents, but it kinda looked like a salad lol so we decided to still keep the green but put it like this, as if the color was being dripped on it, and i love it so much, it turned out perfectly in my opinion

if you don’t mind it, sure!! and thank you!!!! i will live this class vicariously through you lol i cannot wait!!!

yes exactly! at least i know the money’s coming for now and that’s good. and yes i’ll definitely take all the pics and send them to you!!! you might not hear from me again before i leave because i am still so busy and tired, but i’ll be coming back with a huge letter for you and tons of pictures from all the heartstopper moments <3 you’re gonna be so annoyed with me lol i’ll send you so many pictures from disneyland you’re probably gonna want to kill me 😂😂

that would be perfect 😂 so you have one you can just admire and leave it pristine, and one to actually use it as it was meant to be used lol i’m squeezing you back real tight and picking up my copy of rwrb for the millionth time. that motivation worked kind of <33333

hello nero my beloved soulmate!!!

i have pride stories!!! i went to pride this saturday and it was so much fun i need to tell you all about it!!!

well first of all i really hate that i had to work in the morning because it made me so tired and it was the first weekend of sales so yea, not fun. but anyway, my friend picked me up at 3pm and we got to florence. we had to park pretty far from the meeting point and then take a bus, and it was amazing because we were totally lost looking for that bus and at some point we see a bus full of people with rainbow flags, glitter, signs, flower crowns, rainbow stickers and temporary tattoos and all of that. and we just went in, no questions asked. we just figured we’d follow them out of the bus too 😂 i love our people honestly. we were so colorful

anyway we got to the meeting point and it was deadly hot. i swear there were like 45 degrees. but it was so amazing to be around all of those people dressed in all colors and wearing all sorts of things we’d usually be judged for, it felt so safe. except that there was a religious protestor so we got to give him the finger like the heartstopper cast did :)

also my sister came with me. she’s always so supportive and it meant the world that she came with me. anyway the parade started and there were some amazing floats. there were rainbow families, drag queens, all the lgbtqia+ associations from our territory and we started walking behind this float that had amazing music, so we started dancing and singing and it was so much fun!!! we got to talking with some people, there were some amazing signs that were just perfect and i had to go there and tell them how much i loved them :) it was just so fun, i loved meeting random people and it was just the perfect environment. at night there was also a dj set and a band singing to keep the show going!!

then when we were walking back to the bus stop at night we got the whiplash of not being surrounded by queer people anymore. we got catcalled like fifteen times in the span of three minutes. i kinda wanted to punch everyone because we had such a perfect day and i hated that we had to go back to the real world where people are shit 🥲

but still i got so many amazing memories and now all i want to do is book a flight to london for next year and have you come with me so we can celebrate together and see the heartstopper cast!!!!

also, i got a new tattoo yesterday!! and i actually had red white and royal blue with me to distract me so i almost finished the book again and cried in from of my tattoo artist lol it took me the whole day again and it was so painful but so worth it!!! i got medusa on my leg 😻

also, as to our previous letter i just wanted to say that of course i believed in you!!!! i knew you could do it!! but i can definitely believe you had to close your eyes to open that message 😂 getting grades back is always so stressful!! now manifesting a spot for the exchange 🕯️🕯️🕯️ i really hope you get it!!! it’s an amazing experience, you’d definitely love it!!!

and i’m really glad you found someone who specialises in what you need. it can take a while to find the right therapist but i hope this one works out!!

(i’m also writing down sydney and melbourne for when i’m rich enough to visit 😂 i literally booked a flight for august and my bank account kinda yelled at me to stop spending money i don’t have lol)

anyways i’m really sorry i’ve been away for so long, i had a crazy week between the beginning of seasonal sales, pride and the tattoo appointment. i kinda didn’t have time to do anything 🥲

i’m giving you a hug and some homemade chocolate chip cookies with biscoff cream on top <33

hello cece my beloved soulmate!!!!

oh my god i've been so excited to hear about this!!!

that sucks you had to go to work, boo!!! but at least you were off early enough to still go to pride!!!! and how cool that you got to share the experience of going on the bus with all the queer people!! i bet there was no straight and/or cis people on that bus 😂😂😂 just follow the rainbow!!

hot days are the worst, but pride would have made it so much better. i would not be focused on how sweaty i was or the temperature with the amount of queer joy happening around me! it's so wonderful that in a parade full of people and colour that you were able to feel so incredibly safe, and it would have been such an intimate moment for you! and fuck that religious protestor, i'm so glad you gave him the finger. the heartstopper cast would be so proud of you :')

oh that warms my heart that your sister came!!! that was so nice of her to come with you!! the floats sound amazing, and the singing and dancing!!! i am feeling some of the joy through my screen!! seriously, cece, this sounds like the most incredible time. i want to cry just thinking about you having so much fun with your friend and your sister, celebrating your queerness and talking to new people and singing and dancing like there's no one else around 🥲🥲🥲

the trip home must have been so dull in comparison! and how dare those people catcall you, i hope you gave them the same treatment as that religious protestor because seriously what the fuck.

the only thing that matters now is that you had a safe and wonderful time at pride and you can cherish those memories for the rest of your life! and yes, we must do it!! i will literally stay for an extra month just to go to pride in london with you <3

oh my god yay!!! i bet the medusa tattoo looks so cool! and yes reading rwrb while getting tattooed is properly not your best idea, but i'm already rereading rwrb any chance i get to annotate it fully before the movie so i can't say much 😂

okay, cece, i must let you know, because i said to myself i would let you know as soon as i could. but this morning, i woke up (quite late actually). i checked my watch for my notifications. i see an email waiting for me. i die a little inside realising it is from the exchange team at my university. i run out to grab my phone from where i charge it. i speed past my mum. i unlock my phone. i open my email and click on the newest one. and.... I GOT A SPOT EARLY!!! AT MY FIRST UNIVERSITY TOO!!!! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT??? i'm still in so much shock and i thank you for your manifesting and belief in me!!! oh my god i have so much to do before then (mostly saving money ngl 😂) but oh my god cece, i'm going to england for exchange!!!!!!

me too!! i just need to find the time to get a referral, so i can go and see them!!

(literally sydney and melbourne are lowkey expensive, but it is totally worth it!! and i would be more than happy to tell you where to go and where to stay! <3)

do not apologise!!! we are all busy! i am literally working the equivalent of a full time job over the next two weeks and i'm also dogsitting over the weekend :') pray for my poor soul.

i'm giving you the biggest hug i hope contains the same warmth as pride and i'm fighting off your customers so you can have a few moments to breathe <3333