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Still thinking of that thor is the jotun one au.
Odin is having A Manly Mental Breakdown™ about lokis death. Hes being suuuuuper paranoid about his special weapons (and weapons in general) and how theyve gotta hide them bc what if thor or frigga touch them and instadie too??
The w3 will stage treason bc their king is trying to get rid of their military **while on the brink of war**
Frigga somehow convinces Odin to give back the casket. Odin just. He feels soo guilty about lokis death that actually invites laufey to sign the peace treaty & get the casket back. War prevented 👍 except... Laufeys oldest has stayed bc he wants to be a protocol instructor and what better chance to be well off than work on the aesir-jotun relationships? Welp he kind of notices the MASSIVE commotion that is lokis funeral. And tells on his dad. Jotunheim declares war.
Meanwhile thor is having A Mental Breakdown too :D since he has no powers he looks like a jotun. He does get found by jane and co and they keep him at their place bc wtf thats an alien they are smart enough not to put them through the medical system and get him got by the government.
Somehow he is convinced he needs to seduce jane w his "new body" (not really, hes just too self concious about it -always has been- and has watched beauty and the beast back on asgard and thinks it is a valid reason "to break the spell" -there is no spell-). He learns of his hammer over the local radio/podcast/tv and thinks his hammer will "break the curse" (it does not)
The us gov is already onto him bc they live in a fucking desert, how come jane&co start bulk buying parkas off amazon all of a sudden??
Events of thor happen, but this time is Frigga the one that goes to meet him. She tells him that Odin has died and Loki is king. The jotuns have had him perma-banned from asgard. Thor cries. Frigga disappears. Thor starts getting experimented on the moment she leaves.
W3 are planning to go rescue thor when whoops a full jotun invasion is going on. Odin tries to send them to the dungeons, but since the guards do not have any weapons the w3 kiiiind of get them off quickly.
Frigga tries to stop them through a MASSIVE guilt trip. Bc wow they are kind of actually deserting the army during an actual invasion. Heimdal is here to help tho, so he freezes her over. Turns out heimdal is half jotun. In fact, he is odins half brother on the jotun side. Frigga... Kind of dies? So they gotta keep moving.
They get sent to earth through a cool battle sequence and heimdal fills them in the jotun!Thor situation... Which now they know they HAVE to get in order to calm laufey down (who doesnt know how """his son loki""" has died so he is also kind of grieving his "dead son" yet again)
Now they get into some spy shit. Heimdal is a great help btw he can see where thor is, and he is smart enough to have stolen gungir before leaving asgard. He saw odin having a mental breakdown about the spear and took it after he left.
Idk i am inspired i may write some more in the afternoon 👍
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Thinking about Odin and Loki again bc when am I not. A list of songs that make me want to wail about them in no particular order and with little to no explanation:
Allies or Enemies - the Crane Wives (Regret ™️)
Liar - the Arcadian Wild (let’s be real both of them)
Wander Wonder - the Arcadian Wild (Odin)
Tongues & Teeth - the Crane Wives (Loki)
King and Lionheart - Of Monsters and Men (what they both think Could Have Been)
Bad Blood - Bastille (yeah.)
Just One Yesterday - Fall Out Boy (yeag)
Icarus - the Crane Wives (listen the singer is calling to their brother cmon. Cmon.)
Francesca - Hozier (me, making romantic songs about platonic relationships again? Ahaha no *runs*)
#my fall break ended yesterday so last night I had to go back to school after hanging out with my brother all weekend and augh#I promise we have a normal sibling relationship but I was crying to myself driving back to school and I was like “damn blorbos got hands”#he graduates this spring so I was like oh fuck oh god I have a finite amount of time with you left before you get a partner#and they become your world and I get left behind#and I can’t tell if that’s Loki @ Odin or Odin @ Loki but either way I think after the tree incident#Odin is intensely aware that he’s gonna lose Loki one day and Loki has to cope with the fact they lost him once already#bc in my headcanon loki knows the plan but goes to check up on Odin anyway bc they’re worried and find him dead and freaks + cuts him down#and I don’t think they tell Odin about this or at least not the mental breakdown they had while waiting for him to start breathing again#but I think that’s the beginning of the end bc they’re both Aware this Will End#whos to say they don’t start hurting each other on purpose to soften the blow when it eventually comes but it only makes it worse#anyway I’m normal how are you guys this evening#loki#odin#Norse mythology
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Tears of a Trickster
Sub!TVA Loki x Afab!Dom!Reader
Warning: 18+ sub/dom elements, trauma, slightly out of character (probably)
Please repost if you liked it and spread it around!!
When it came to sex, Loki has always needed it rough, hard, and quick. It did help that you always had the energy that seemed to even out Loki’s chaotic nature, so whenever he had the urges or needs most adults would, you happily obliged and took care of him…but today felt different. After your usual rough session, Loki seemed more…sensitive and emotional. As you began to clean up and remove the strap, he clung to your arm.
“Loki, what’s wrong?”
“…Mommy…”
You smiled softly as you laid down next to him, setting the strap down at the end of the bed.
“Yes baby, Mommy’s here. I’m not going anywhere.”
He wrapped his arms around you as he buried his face in your chest, soft gasps of relief spewing from him as Loki began to cry. It was common knowledge in the TVA that Loki was a traumatized god, but the extent of his trauma was unknown to everyone but you and Loki. Not even Mobius knows just how true his statement of Loki being a ‘scared little boy’ was. Between his treatment at the TVA, his treatment from Odin, and all the bullshit he went through, it amazed you just how Loki was able to simply exist without having a mental breakdown every 20 seconds. It hurt you to see him so upset.
His crying became more and more intense as his entire body began to shake, gripping onto you as he bawled his eyes out. All you could do was hold him in your arms and comfort him…
“Shhh…sh sh sh…I think someone’s experiencing subdrop…”
And he was. Loki’s subdrops we’re horrendous and have only gotten more frequent within the last few days or so. The sight of a god of trickery and mischief sobbing and wailing would normally make anyone uncomfortable or embarrassed, but to you it was normal. You continued to hold him as Loki continued to cry, simply clinging to you like a child as you rubbed his back. It was only until he latched onto your nipple and began to suck, almost as a form of self-soothing.
He was so precious like this. To see his beautiful blue eyes shimmer like stars as his soft pink lips wrapped around your nipple…it both warmed and broke your heart to see such a rare scene. Quite a rare sight, indeed…
“Loki…my sweet little prince…”
He blushed harshly as he began to tear up once more.
“I-I…I feel…”
You gently pulled him away from your chest as you cradled him, his soft sniffles and shaky arms wrapping around your neck as you continued to soothe him.
“I…I feel…small…”
“I know…”
“Super small…”
“Yeah?”
“Mhm…”
He stared up at you with a sense of innocence that he never usually showed. The poor little trickster was so distraught that he stayed quiet. There was a moment of silence before you spoke up.
“Anything else you want to talk about?”
“…”
You two began to sit and snuggle in silence as he stared into your sparkling eyes. It’s quite obvious that Loki was enjoying himself before he began to stare of to space, flashbacks coming to his mind as his thoughts are interrupted by your voice.
"Loki?"
Startled, Loki snaps out of the flashback and looks over at you.
"Loki, is everything okay?"
His face falls as he is once again faced with the reality of his traumas, and he can't bring himself to speak. All he can do is shake his head and look away as you watched. You gently cupped his face as you laid the both of you down on the bed as he grabbed your wrist.
“Loki…”
“Y-yeah?”
“How can I help you feel better?”
“C-cuddle?”
You smiled softly as you gently rubbed his cheek. He’s such a sweet little trickster. Loki clung to you as he took a deep breath, letting his tears fall as he buried his head in your chest. His tears fell harder and harder as he began to slowly snuggled up against your chest. This only made you want to kiss him more and more as he began to coo while you pulled him closer to you.
His cooing was so adorable as you continued to hold him. The cuddling continued as he began to whine and pull away.
“Whaaa!! Owie!!”
You quickly sat up and grabbed the TVA medkit as you examined his body. A few old faded scars and scuffs from battles and childhood. Some innocent and some not so much. The poor god was shivering as he hesitantly let you touch him, gently shivering as he let you hold him and examine his body before noticing a massive bruise on his ankle.
“Honey…what’s this?”
Loki whimpered as he began to tear up.
“I got my foot caught in a trip wire trap while on the field today…”
You noticed his tear-filled eyes as he tried to brush it off as nothing. His pale gentle skin shimmering under the lights as the red and blue bruise on his ankle showed more and more speckles of purple. Such a sight upset you as you began to clean him up and patched up his ankle.
“There we go…don’t worry, I’m here for you.”
Loki panted and whined as his member began to slowly harden as you finished patching him up and kissed his inner thigh. This made you smile as you gently rubbed his belly. He’s such a cutie!
“Y/N…”
“Hmm?”
“Hard…”
“Ah, I see…ok, how about this?”
You gently grabbed his member and jacked him off, earning a small burst of cum and a low groan from Loki while he laid on his back. The poor little god was tired and overwhelmed. You let him go and rubbed his torso as he whimpered.
“Are you ok?”
Loki nodded as he turned to his side and closed his eyes as he dozed off to sleep. Welp, looks like he was done for the night. You smiled softly as you patted his bottom and decided to address his trauma at a later date, not wanting him to hurt himself trying to explain. You smiled softly as you rubbed his back.
“Sleep tight, my little prince.”
And so…the tears of the trickster stopped as a smile grew more pronounced on his face.
#loki smut#sub!loki#dom reader#loki x reader#mcu loki#loki show#loki fanfic#loki drabble#nsft fanfic#loki fanfiction
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May I ask an extremely less sensitive teen! Reader with the RoR family finally having a mental breakdown, like reader is always extremely logical for their age and unhinged but slowly starts to crumble under mental pressure cause that's exactly why children shouldn't worry about adult matters
-You were considered a bit of an oddball by your family, you were always so levelheaded and calm, always seeming to have everything together.
-Under pressure or stressful situations, usually at school, you were the same, facing everything with levelheaded coolness.
-Many in your large adoptive family admired that about you, seeing that you were always calm, no matter what, but certain members were beginning to see the downside to that.
-Adam was the first one, followed quickly by Odin, when you were balancing school, personal life, and a part-time job, giving most of your paycheck to your ‘parents’. When he asked why you were giving most of your paycheck to them, rather than spending it on things you wanted, you just smiled, “I heard you guys talking about how food cost was rising and it was getting harder to buy certain things.”
-While you were at school, there was a family meeting, discussing what you had told Adam that morning. Nikola looked worried for you, “She shouldn’t be worrying about things like that- we can handle things.”
-Zeus agreed, giving a small nod, “Children shouldn’t have to worry about the problems of adults. Y/N should be out having fun- not worrying about bills.”
-You were surprised when you arrived back home and Odin gave you your money back, putting it back in your hand. You were confused, “But don’t you all need this to help with bills?”
-Odin lifted his hand to your head, ruffling your hair gently, “Don’t worry about it- keep your money for you.”
-Odin wasn’t prepared for you to start crying, you calm façade leaving you as you panicked, “But- but I want to help!” he could easily see what you were trying to do- you were trying to prove to them that you were useful and contributing to the household. With him refusing it, refusing your help, you were taking it that you were a failure, not able to help them.
-Adam was quick to rush to your side when Odin sounded the alarm as you were quickly panicking, panting heavily almost to the point of hyperventilating, trying to plead with them that you could help them.
-Your family was quick to realize how anxious you actually were, always helping others and going above and beyond to help because you wanted to feel useful. You had it in your head that you were only useful if you were helping others, and being unable to help, or others, like your family, rejecting your help, made you panic and feel like a failure.
-Beelzebub ended up having to sedate you, as they weren’t able to calm you down and your family had another, emergency, meeting, that they needed to make sure you weren’t doing things like this to yourself.
-Once you were awake and Kojiro prepared you a mug of hot herbal tea to keep you calm, as you were ready to burst again, your family told you and assured you that you did plenty to help out around the house and that you didn’t need to give them your hard earned money from your part-time job. They would be able to survive without it and it was for you to spend on things you wanted.
-It took a while, a couple of weeks of gentle but firm reassuring from your family to help you relax a bit as well as Odin, Zeus, and Adam telling you to enjoy your youth and not worry about things like bills just yet.
-You were so happy to have such a supportive family in your corner, supporting you just as you support them.
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Ok but if magic is disabled in the tva then why isn’t loki showing his jotun skin? Why not have the very thing that caused his mental breakdown, his (frankly justified) hatred of Odin, and what basically set him on his path changing his character shoved in his face all the time? Why not have a Loki who learns to care for others as he learns to care for himself? WHY IGNORE THE ONLY INTERESTING PARTS OF THE EARLY THOR MOVIES? WHY ARE MARVEL COWARDS?
#royal rambles#Loki#Loki series#loki 2023#loki 2021#jotun loki#Loki calling himself “loki of Jotunheim in the dark world was like… the last time we ever heard this mentioned ever again#after that it’s just ‘adopted’#why not mention the fact he was taken not just because he was an innocent child left to die#but so Odin could use him as a pawn later#MARVEL COME THE FUCK ONv
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Fem!Loki Masterlist
All the love (You should have given) (ao3) - Xenomorphic loki/stephen T, 1k
Summary: They sway along to the rhythm of the sea, of their breaths and hearts, of everything she holds dear, as the sun kisses the horizon and sinks into it, giving way to the night and the stars, the sky mostly clear of clouds.
At the Bar After Midnight (ao3) - LucidDreaming loki/tony G, 3k
Summary: It's the same room where Loki once threw Tony off the balcony. This time they're having a drink and a talk.
Or, this is how Tony learns that Loki has been playing the longest game
date night (ao3) - gayoonmin loki/mobius T, 4k
Summary: When she turns around, Mobius is stood stock-still with his own jacket frozen in his hands, his eyes sweeping over her hungrily. They make eye contact and Mobius comes back to life, groaning as his eyes roll into the back of his head with a whispered, “Baby….”
Loki blows him a kiss, smiling, and turns around again to hang her jacket on the coat rack.
Drunken Princess (ao3) - ChocolateXMyMouth loki/steve, background wanda/natasha G, 6k
Summary: Loki gets really drunk.
She has one of the best nights of her life because of it.
Everybody Loves Lady Loki (ao3) - CeliaEquus G, 1k
Summary: To cheer Thor up during his exile, Loki visits him on Midgard. She has always had a powerful effect on those around her...
Gem Of Yggdrasil (ao3) - EmrysTheMerlin frigga/odin G, 6k
Summary: Loki was the daughter of Asguard, or at least that's what everyone believed, herself included. Frigga had never expected the young girl whom she loved like a true daughter to have powers for such things were rare in the race of her parents, but when she begins to show powers Frigga is delighted, Odin not so much. No longer allowed to leave the palace Loki begins to grow bored and restless as dreams haunt her. But she has not earned the reputation of a trickster for nothing.
Her Hips Like a Pendulum Sway (ao3) - Eternal_Love_Song loki/tony, jane/thor E, 8k
Summary: "She had curves that would make an hourglass jealous, legs a mile long, and long luxurious black hair. He couldn’t see her face, but with proportions like hers, you couldn’t really go wrong."
Tony is very interested in the tall, dark, and curvy woman that keeps appearing out of nowhere to talk to Thor. He was surprised to find that the stranger was Loki. He was less surprised by everything that followed.
(i will always) love you (ao3) - loki1vr loki/tony G, 3k
Summary: There’s someone in the kitchen. A woman, he thinks from their stature. Tony is torn between confronting them and asking Jarvis if they’re a threat, but Jarvis wouldn’t have let a threat in, so he’s at a loss. He feels it’s his only option to say, very intelligently, “Uhm,”
“Who are you?”
The woman turns, then, and Tony is immediately graced with the most beautiful, perfect face in existence. She looks like some sort of deity, and honestly, she could probably pass as Loki, if her eyes somehow happened to be— and then Tony meets her eyes and promptly has a mental breakdown.
OR, Tony’s first time seeing Loki in their female form.
love like you (ao3) - helloilovefanfiction loki/bruce T, 1k
Summary: Loki wakes up feeling decidedly feminine. Normally this wouldn't be a problem.
But now that she's in a relationship with Bruce, she doesn't want to risk him reacting badly to her female form. She doesn't think he will, but she's been wrong about people before.
So, she decides to stay in her male form for the day, hoping that she'll be back to feeling male tomorrow. It's only one day. It should be fine, right?
...right?
Of Childhood and Death (ao3) - ADreamer67 T, 1k
Summary: Raven hair, emerald eyes. Sharp cheekbones, delicate builds.
Two different times, two different Asgards. Two different lives, connected by blood.
Hela didn’t want a child. Loki doesn’t want Hela much, either.
Princess's Tears (ao3) - Windify T, 1k
Summary: It seemed that problems were bound to find her no matter what. But Loki would much rather prefer the taunts and mockery from Asgardiands that she’d run away from than this.
set me any task (ao3) - blindoves loki/mobius E, 4k
Summary: "I have to go. Fieldwork. I laid out your clothes for you."
There's a sweet kiss pressed against his temple, and then her weight lifts off the mattress.
"Be careful," he mumbles blearily, just before the door clicks shut.
His half-sleeping brain keeps replaying her parting words, trying to make sense of them, until last night's conversation finally comes back to him. Right, another Loki conjured up adventure. He looks forward to it.
The Kidnapping of Pepper Potts (ao3) - FrenchKey, JayofOlympus T, 1k
Summary: Loki kidnaps Pepper for a much needed night off.
The Most Wonderful Time (ao3) - BarbaraKaterina loki/tony M, 1k
Summary: Christmas is just this really irritating time when everyone talks about family for Tony, but Christmas parties he can get behind. Especially when there are women like that to be picked up...
The Queen of Spades (ao3) - dante_baby T, 6k
Summary: On one day, somewhere in the 1950s, Loki decided to visit the Earth only to terrorize random casino in Las Vegas.
There's So Much More to Me (ao3) - orphan_account loki/natasha T, 2k
Summary: Loki is very good at matchmaking- all her friends eventually realize her involvement in their relationships, and decide to give her a taste of her own medicine by sending her on a blind date.
Natalia turns out to be a very interesting individual, and she enjoys her company very much.
The Stranger On Saakar (ao3) - Yulicia valkyrie/loki M, 2k
Summary: Brunnhilde had just wanted to drink her fill and watch the Grandmaster's combatants fight for sport. She ends up with quite the pleasant surprise in the form of a strange dark haired lady in green and then her night goes from good to great.
The Young Lady with the Frighteningly Good Aim (ao3) - Evian_99 steve/loki T, 2k
Summary: A tentative courtship begins. There’s a fair, a pink teddy bear and thief. While wandering the fairgrounds, they learn some interesting facts about each other and get up to some mischief.
Or, at least, Loki does. Steve is too much of a goody two-shoes to do so.
When We Had Each Other (ao3) - Another_Freak1258 G, 7k
Summary: Even though Loki had lost her mind, she'd never lose Thor's love.
(Dabbles in Loki's relationship with Thor from the beginning, complete with a soul-crushing ending that really isn't an ending.)
whisper in the dust (ao3) - lavenderism (vorpalinas) loki/stephen G, 2k
Summary: Stephen shouldn't have waited this long before coming back here.
Well, he's here now. That has to serve for something, right?
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not people on Reddit being wrong about Loki again
“I'm pointing out exactly what happened on the screen and what was explicitly stated by reliable narrators” please tell us who you consider to be reliable narrators. please. because you’re obviously considering Mobius as one of those reliable narrators and that’s hilarious for like 50 reasons so who else is on that list? anyone else from the TVA, who has a huge agenda? Odin, who lied to Loki from birth about his origin and literal species, and oh by the way lied to everybody about the entire existence of another child and also his own entire personality and warmongering ways for the first, I don’t know, two-thirds of his own life? Thor, who was also lied to about everything Loki was lied to but somehow remained a lot less suspicious about all of it and kept coming back to “wow gosh Odin ur so wise” even when repeatedly confronted with evidence of Odin actually being kind of awful? Thor’s friends, who also believed all of Odin’s lies but were pretty clearly Thor’s friends anyway and not Loki’s, and therefore biased? Frigga, who was complicit in all the lying? ...I don’t know, fucking Thanos, who’s literally the least reliable narrator I can imagine?
“I love the character, but” I dunno, do you though, you’re making an awful lot of assumptions about what he does and doesn’t know, and what he is and isn’t capable of doing, and we don’t actually know...any of that
like I’m not denying that Loki made a lot of bad decisions, particularly in the first Thor movie, but a) he was having a mental breakdown at the time and b) oh my fucking god do not call that interrogation scene a “tough love version of therapy,” fucking do not, it was interrogation and quite frankly psychological torture, Mobius just wanted information, there was no reason for him to care about Loki at that point, come on, all he wanted to do was break Loki down enough to make him useful, how are you not seeing this. how can you possibly accuse other people of, I don’t know, going too easy on Loki and then falling for this therapist interpretation of Mobius?? he’s a cop!! yes he came to care about Loki but in episode 1 he just saw Loki as a potential asset for catching the rogue Loki variant! please be reasonable and watch the interrogation scene with that perspective!
#...I got mad#loki show#loki#loki meta#my meta#ah damn I don't know if I want to put this in one of the relevant tags#marvel cinematic universe#odin#thor#mobius m. mobius#this is not character hate I'm just talking about something that literally happened onscreen#okay??#honestly their relationship is MORE interesting when they start out just trying to use each other#and then becoming friends despite themselves
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I'm having a rough time right now, is there any chance you could write about the Avengers confronting Loki's daughter about how 'she's a psycho' and she gets super angry about it because that's what everyone Odin, Thor, Frigga called her. Her dad is the only one who understands though and that she's not a psycho but he's locked away on Asgard. She gets pissed and goes to let off steam in the woods outside of the city. shebasically lets loose an explosion of magic, screaming at the top of her lungs and punching a tree until her knuckles bleed
lol angsty
You Think I'm Psycho? - Loki's daughter
Warnings:angsty, mentions of blood and mental breakdown.
A/N: i know it's a bit short,, but personally I love the way I wrote it. I really hope you feel better, love I send my hugs and good wishes to you! To anyone reading this Please take care of yourselves and treat yourselves with care and love. You deserve it 💕
"You're acting psychotic!" Natasha yelled in frustration. "You're just like your father." Thor muttered in disappointment. She was standing in the middle of a circle surrounded by the Avengers who looked at her like she was some villain who deserved to be eliminated. She took a step back with a hurt look on her face. Her eyes filled with angry tears as she clutched her right hand in a tight fist resulting in her knuckles going pale. She remembered being in Asgard and how not only Thor had called her a psycho, but also Odin and Frigga. All because of her father Loki, whom she loved very dearly. She stared at them with pure anger as she stormed out in long strides hurrying to get as far away from them as soon and as fast as possible. She needed release, an explosion of everything she was feeling at that moment. The anger, the hurt, the constant feeling of not being good enough for anyone. She ran as much as she could, ignoring street signs and passerby until she landed herself in a forest just outside of the city where nobody could her. Her heavy breathing was full of exasperation as she let out a scream that was overflowing inside of her like a water dam slowly breaking letting her emotions crash in a fury. With quivering lips and shaking hands she let the green lights of fiery magic escape her palms as she screamed with everything she had. Tears of rage rolling down her face as she destroyed everything around her. Trees were uprooted, ground was burned, her heart was still pumping with adrenaline from the pure chaos she was constructing around her. "I'll never be enough!" She screamed as she punched a tree that still happened to be intact. "I'm just like my father, and you hate that! You hate that I'm not like you! You self righteous God's! You hypocites!" She screamed again with more rage as she punched the same tree with more force as the skin of her knuckles began to bruise and bleed. She kept going and going until she she had no more energy left. She fell to the ground and broke down. She began wailing. Tears flowed down her cheeks and she clutched her knees to her chest surrounded by her very own destruction in the darkness that consumed her.
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Some random meme in my mind: Most of them Back to school meme
Adamas and Poseidon
*Adamas hit Poseidon*
Adamas : Excuse me Brah
Poseidon : You're excused
*the deities watching the scenario*
Poseidon: ...but im not ur "brah"
And thats how Adamas died
Tesla: Lemme see what you have ?
Beelzebub : A KNIFE !
Tesla : NOO
Qin Shi Huang: Is that weed ?
Hades : No this i-
Qin : IM CALLING THE POLICE
Hades .exe has stopped working
Odin : Omg Thor is dying ! Loki call the 911 !
Thor*dying*
Loki : WHATS THE NUMBER
Thor *who was joking* : rlly n***a ? Whats the number
Zero (the nice one) : Boo!
Buddha doesnt react
*Hajun appears*
Buddha : *Has run away fr his life*
Hades : How was your first day at the Valhalla ?
Adamas *kicking the TV*: I HATE EVERYBODYY!
Adamas crying in the bathroom
Poseidon: Alright Gods welcome back
Adamas : Theres a hundred and four days of-
Poseidon: You get tf out lets go
Adamas : *crying*
Rudra : im gonna miss u sm
Shiva : Bye !
Rudra: Bye !
Shiva: DONT GO I LOVE U
Parvati , Durga and Kali: WTF?
Sasaki on the TV: Go Back to life;D
Switch off the TV
Poseidon on the road yelling : HIT ME ! HIT ME WITH YO CAR!
When Brunhilde found out that Adam has died and it was her only hope to win
Brunhilde : NO GOD ! PLS NO ! NO ! NOOOOOOOOOOOO
When Hades found out abt his Dearest brother Poseidon's death
Hypnos and Thanatos: Wheres is Lord Hades
Eris : idk*lying*
Hades in his room: its the mental breakdown tu tu tu turururu
Shiva : oh ouch call an ambulance !
Call an ambulance
Raiden: Wait lemme ca-
Shiva : but not fr me;D
(Shiva i still dont forgive u fr killing him😭)
When Hlokk finnally found out that she's going to perform Volundr with Jack
Hlokk : Its been a great day today..*sniff* cant wait fr more
Alvitr : coming in the bathroom and see her in the mirror
Alvitr : Omg ur so pretty😘
Humanity: Your my dad !
Adam: *appear from nowhere*
Humanity : your my dad wogiwogi
Thats all fr now
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A Marvel AU where children can be born from someone's magic. In other words rather than Hela having an unknown mother she was born of Odin's magic. Frigga's child of magic could totally be Baldur, who was banished from ever setting foot on Asgard by Odin after he married Frigga.
I'm sure Loki would have a child of magic and it could turn out really hilarious like kid Loki was so strong that he got to have one early but Loki being a kid was like 'I want a magic horse 🐎' and that's how Sleipnir was created. But then it can go in a very whump way of Loki's child of magic born during his captivity with Thanos, who killed the child and drove Loki mad.
I had always thought of this idea for some time but the only reason I'm putting this out here because I was imagining during the attack of the Dark elves in Thor 2, Frigga was about to be killed but Baldur shows up before that happens and fights. Of course this causes Odin to be distracted because he does not like Baldur at all. Anyway in some way Odin basically dies for a bit but lives again but it's enough for Hela to be free.
She's like planning her takeover when suddenly.
Baldur: My Love?!?
Hela, looking at her hit-it-and-quit-it: Fuck!
Everyone else:WOT?
Baldur:My love. It has has been ages since I had last seen you, where have you been??
Hela, glaring at Odin: Here and there.
Thor&Loki: A brother and a sister?!?!?
Baldur: But my love you told me you were with child the last I saw of you!
Everyone: what
Odin: WHAT????
Hela, nonchalantly: ah yes, I disguised it as a Jotun infant and hid it in a temple on Jotunheim. Don't know what happened to...
[Hela then looking at Loki in realization. Loki going through 750th mental breakdown]
Hela: oh shit.
*Buldur, looking at Loki with love and admiration* 😲😲😲
Frigga&Odin, realizing Loki is their bio grandchild, who they lied to his whole life.
Thor, freaking out that not only is he not the eldest but his elder siblings fricked and created Loki, making his brother his nephew.
Loki, finding out he's not a Frost giant. He has half-siblings, those half-siblings are actually his bio parents. His parents are his grandparents. His brother is actually his uncle. And that he is blood related to the likes Odin and Thor again.
#crack#thor the dark world#thor#loki#odin#balder#baldur#frigga#hela odinsdottir#mcu loki#child of magic au#total crack#thor odinson#loki friggason#loki laufeyson
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Alright, fine. I'm gonna be done with procrastination and actually write out my stupid destiny 2 guardian lore.
First off, the first rez. My warlock, who goes by Paladin. He's the oldest of the three, and has been around since D1. (I should finish that...)
Red war hit and he loses his damn mind over being lightless until he finds the shard and pulls a flaming sword out. Still prefers Nova Bomb. As of Forsaken, Paladin mourns the loss of a Vanguard, but presses on for justice, not vengeance. The barons are targets, Uldren is a criminal who needs to have justice served.
Shadowkeep rolls around and Paladin has several mental breakdowns over Crota being back because hey, this guy was a damn MENACE before, why are you back, go back to being dead please.
Beyond Light and Paladin embraces Stasis at first. The power is phenomenal and he continues to use it up until he freezes a guardian in the Crucible with his rift cast. It felt so unfair and wrong that Paladin just said fuck this. It's too much. I'm not using it. (This is actually the reason I don't use stasis in ANY content whatsoever on warlock!) Witch Queen rolls around and Paladin is pissed, how dare Savathun, etc. The light is OURS and then we learn the truth and Paladin feels remorse. He doesn't want to kill Savathun. But we can't talk her down.
Then we come to my Titan, Odin-4. His ghost Loki wakes him up on Nessus right after Red War, in the ruins of the Exodus Black... next to Gofannon Forge. Odin immediately defends it from a ragtag fallen raid and claims a Blast Furnace from the forge, and uses it for ages. He kinda dips off the radar until after Beyond Light and spends most of the time learning how to wield the Light and punch things harder. As of now, he bounces between Void and Solar, but definitely prefers the latter. If you're interested, I wrote a short story about Odin rezzing that I can post if people ask.
Now for the last of them. My hunter, Wolfe. Now going by Fenrir after reading about Norse mythology in the archives, he woke up in the bitter cold of Mars and was trapped there until Paladin showed up during the Warmind campaign, dying dozens of times to the environment and the frozen Hive. He's a real survivalist, putting his own survival above all else. He dislikes stasis due to it feeling cowardly and weak compared to the heat of Golden Gun, and acts as a scout more than anything. He is the most versatile of the three, having separate caches of gear for each Light subclass.
So. Yeah. There's the Lore. Long ass post that probably won't get read a lot, but hey if you like it enough I'll throw together a collage of everyone's current appearance.
#destiny 2#d2#destiny#lore post#oc lore#long post#honestly its probably pretty basic but theyre my blorbos
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Had a dream/barely-lucid thought (indistinguishable to me) last night of a Fates AU where Anankos' soul/human form just....didn't die, I guess? Like he somehow just made it through the events of Hidden Truths? But it was six months after the end of the Conquest route and Anankos had managed to get out of Valla and escape his insane dragon-self. He went straight to Nohr, knowing that's where he sent the Awakening trio and that Lilith followed as well.
Meanwhile, in Nohr, the royal siblings are working on rebuilding their country after everything Garon did. Then some hooded stranger shows up at the castle asking for an audience with Princess Corrin, and saying that some of the royal retainers can vouch for him. (Live Laslow, Selena, and Odin reaction: "oh fuck".)
Anankos...ended up introducing himself as Corrin's father, I think? Xander in particular didn't exactly believe him and was demanding proof of his claims. Anankos also tried to explain that he knew what it was that possessed Garon and where that evil power came from. Corrin could corroborate the existence of the hidden kingdom, but Corrin also kinda started having a mental breakdown when she realized she had to tell Anankos what had happened to Mikoto. And Lilith. And then Anankos was deeply disturbed to learn about Azura disappearing too.
#roddy dream diary tag#i have extremely detailed post-conquest headcanons for corrin and it's just consecutive mental breakdowns#for like the first two years straight. just like. my girl is not doing well.
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Okay, im having a slight mental breakdown
I just heard, very clearly, very closely, very loudly, two short whistles, while i was in the shower. Mom didn't hear anything, dad's sleeping.
My immediate reaction was to not look over where the sound came from, as im not illiterate and won't trust whatever did it just like that. But now, i have no idea what it was.
Running the list, and keep in mind im Brazilian and a Lokean, it could very well have been: a spirit, a good spirit, a bad spirit, a Caboclo, Matinta Perera, the saci, Exu himself, the kitsune spirit i thought had gone away, Loki messing with me, some other Orixá, etc
I also realized, soon as i looked at my hand, that one of the stone eyes of my serpent ring had fallen off, and it reminded me of the few instances where Odin reached out.
In the case it would be one of the non norse entities nor the kitsune, I'll leave out a bit of tobacco, just to be sure. But anyone that could help me identify if it was Loki or Odin or someone else, I'd be very grateful.
"Religious" experiences in this household, no, this whole country, are wacky, man
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Can you ask for something NSFW from 'Wolf Child'? In the scene, Thor invited the Vanir girl to a party in Valhalla a few days, and she agreed to go. But she would take a pair of her wolves. Thor and the Vanir woman are already in a relationship, but no one knew about it so many were surprised, especially Loki, Aphrodite and some of the Valkyries (Loki and Aphrodite just want to gossip). Odin already knew it before his son confessed it to him. (Forseti is in a corner having a mental breakdown not knowing this from his greatest hero) At first everything was calm, the Vanir is happy living with gods as with human participants in Ragnarok. Her (she beat Raiden in a wrestling match, and told how she had to tire the millennial deer in a race since she had no weapons and needed the animal alive) But Thor began to see the undignified looks of the lesser gods, while y/n began to notice the not-so-disguised whispers of the various female deities criticizing their braided hair or their beads in their hair and woven string necklaces, or his muted-toned clothes that he wears to hunt in Vanaheim. Y/N tries to ignore him but his instincts tell him to back off, and he does. Thor then goes to her and tries to calm her down, but she tells him that Odin's son should be with someone less wild. So Thor decides it's better to show her how she makes him so happy to be by her side, as well as leaving other men a warning. It should be said that she and/or she is a virgin since helping her father with the hunt does not leave much time for such things.
Hello dear Anon, I apologize that this request isn't spicy like you requested. It didn't flow for me in the way that some of my other spicy works have. I do hope that you like what I have written.
-The gossip that went around Valhalla was like an unstoppable tidal wave when you walked in, holding Thor’s arm to the Summer Solstice Ball held in the Norse pantheon.
-Everyone was gawking except for Odin, who knew of and approved of the relationship as Odin knew that you were a powerful warrior as well as an honorable maiden, as he had seen you honor your father before you came to the ball with Thor, leaving mead at his grave.
-You were flanked by two wolves, your largest, the parents of the other wolves that you called your pack, your family.
-Forseti and Loki were both gawking, seeing you with Thor, they had no idea that he was courting you, beside themselves in anguish; Forseti because he didn’t know this about his Lord Thor, and Loki because he could have been teasing the thunder god for who knows how long!!
-You were welcomed warmly by the humans who were in attendance, Lu Bu and Raiden could both easily tell that you were strong, despite being a petite little maiden and Thor could only stare with pride and amusement as you had easily taken down Raiden in a wrestling match, making it look easy.
-Odin himself spoke with you, shocking many who had not seen you as worthy to be here, seeing you only as a forest woman.
-Odin inquired about how you had caught the deer you brought to him, the deer still alive, now living peacefully and in luxury in Valhalla.
-You told your tale, approaching the creature with no weapons, your wolves remaining back, challenging it to a race and that if you won, it would go with you quietly and it had won, it would have made its own request of you.
-Odin and many others were impressed with your skills, as you had proven yourself by bringing the deer to Odin.
-Thor was relaxed, seeing you speaking with his father, the two of you conversing warmly, but he began to see other goddesses looking over at you with cruel eyes, whispering behind their hands.
-He wandered around, listening closely to these catty gods, speaking of your leathers, as you were wearing browns and greens, colors that helped you move through the forest you called home, the beads and braids in your hair, symbols of pride that you have earned over the years, the scars on your arms and a few on your face, trophies that someone else, warrior or creature, had earned, and the one that made his blood boil, that you didn’t deserve to be with Thor.
-The mug in his hand immediately shattered and eyes quickly turned, seeing Thor there, staring down at them in fury, instantly shutting up.
-Aphrodite couldn’t help but coo, thinking his reaction was cute, seeing him so angry about those speaking poorly about you.
-You had looked over and your eyes fell only slightly, as you had been hearing the cruel words for most of the night, as your hearing was very sharp, having grown up in the dense forest, you honed your senses.
-You felt embarrassed that Thor had heard their words as well and got angry over it.
-Odin left to speak with Zeus and you stood, your wolves perking up and they were quickly by your side so you could slip away.
-Despite being happy to be at this party with Thor, as you had been enjoying yourself, you felt a bit uneasy, being around so many people at once, people with poisoned tongues.
-You didn’t get far, slipping out a side door, “Y/N?” you turned, seeing Thor coming after you, he saw your shoulders relax but you didn’t meet his eyes, looking almost hesitant as he approached.
-He said nothing, grabbing you by your hips and threw you over his shoulder, a small yelp leaving you before he looked at your wolves, their tails wagging, “Go back and enjoy the party. We’re going to be busy.” They trotted off, leaving the two of you alone before he turned and headed down the hall, heading to his private quarters.
-You propped yourself up on his shoulders, “Thor, put me down.” He refused, giving your ass a firm swat when you tried to wiggle out of his grasp, “You’re not leaving, Y/N. We have something to discuss.”
-His words confused you, only slightly as he opened the door to his private quarters, locking it shut behind him before he threw you onto his bed.
-He was quick to kneel before the bed as you sat up, looking up at you as you moved to your knees, “Y/N, I-” you cut him off, your confidence gone as you felt a bit ashamed, “Are you okay… okay with someone like me?”
-He frowned, hearing your words before he reached up, brushing your hair out of your face, “There’s no one else I would want by my side, Y/N. You are everything to me.”
-Your eyes were wide at his words, his hand moving to cup your cheek gently, as you softened, your hand coming to hold his hand to your cheek, turning your head to peck his palm softly.
-Thor then stood, looming over you, a fire in his eyes, “I need to prove to all those who doubted you that you do belong with me.”
-He couldn’t help the smile as your whole head seemed to flush, starting from your neck, rising up to the top of your head, steam coming from it before he was quick to descend upon you.
-Thor carried you back to the party two hours later, as your legs were too shaky to walk, making him feel like a peacock.
-Aphrodite and Loki were holding their cheeks, gushing as they saw the kiss marks covering your neck and chest that wasn’t covered by your dress, similar marks on Thor as well.
-People burned with jealousy at the both of you, seeing the remnants of your passion.
-Odin rolled his one eye, knowing what Thor had done as you fetched your wolves and the two of you decided to return to your home for more privacy for certain activities.
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ok i'm just still so caught up on how horrifyingly pro-colonialism op is. What? WHAT???
"Jotunheim is in ruins. It’s like a frosty desert in the MCU. If your patron state was covered in gold and bathed in the warmth of the sun with giant structures and a wealthy society, would you really shirk their help?
This one angers me the most. A) a cold habit is a good thing for the Jotnar, as well as any other cold-climate species. B) WHY DO YOU THINK IT IS IN RUINS????
Asgard is a serious colonialist/imperialist state. They view themselves as superior, and uphold their self-imposed duty of keeping other, "inferior" races in-check- whether that be conquering or outright genocide. Jotunheim is desolate because of war and the fact that Asgard took the Casket of Ancient Winters from them. They don't ever explain exactly what it is, but it is clear that is can produce ice, and Odin described it as "the source of their power." When we visit Jotunheim on Thor's coronation day a thousand years after the casket was taken, the whole planet seems to be unstable and falling apart.
And are you really implying that kingdom/country/planet should be grateful when another, more powerful state wants to take them over? For what? "Security"? That is just their word for power, for complete control. For the fact that they are "have gold"? Those riches will not go to their subjects. And it's not even like that gold is theirs. That gold was stolen, pillaged as a show of power and wealth from places they have conquered, enslaved, and/or killed. What other reasons would you have? To "save" these people from their "savage" ways? To help them "advance"? Or perhaps by some "divine right"?
Are these your reactions when you learn of the European colonists coming to America? Stealing land and gold and goods? Spreading christianity and deadly diseases? Following the Manifest Destiny? Dehumanizing, lying, murdering, slaughtering, raping, all while having the audacity to call the native people "savages?"
No one should want that. No one should be grateful for that.
"Also, at your point of Loki’s disgust for himself and for the Jotnar springs out of the fact that Odin didn’t think he was ready to learn about his true birth, and (ohmygods) did it turn out that he was right?? Because Loki completely flipped shit and completely lost sight of Odin’s intentions, as well as jumping to conclusions that completely threw his ambition into a spiral."
Why do you think it was so disgusting for loki? Why do you think it gave him a mental breakdown? Aside from the fact that being lied to about that your whole life would be hard for anyone (and it would be valid)(seriously, you shouldn't go about adoption by hiding the fact that they are adopted), Loki's was far, far worse. Loki's learning of his heritage was paired with immense racism, that then turned into internalized racism. Racism doesnt just happen in a void. Those are beliefs and thoughts and behaviours that are taught and perpetuated. Loki grew up in a place that viewed the Jotnar as subhuman- not even as animals, but as monsters.
Don't say shit about "odin didnt tall loki bc loki wouldn't be able to handle it" when it was odin's actions that made Loki unable to handle it. Odin is the one that continue his father's and his realm's legacy of conquering and genocide. Odin is the one that stole an innocent baby from the temple of the world he was dominating (the heir, no less). Odin is the one who purged Loki of all signs of is true heritage. Odin is the one who said nothing when every person on Asgard perpetuated the racism, dehumanization, evilness, and death-worthiness against the Jotnar. Odin is the one who specifically painted the Jotnar as inherintally and all evil when telling of past battles.
Loki's breakdown was not his fualt in the slightest. Every reason for his mental decline had a reason, an external reason. Blaming Loki and making him out to be some selfish, whiny, emotional, spoiled brat is just... so wrong. He was put into a terrible situation, suffered from it, and you make fun of him? (And your condemnation of him doesn't happen in a void. Your victim-blaming of a fictional character perpectuates victim-blaming of people in real life).
"Odin gave him a home, Odin gave him a family, Odin gave him a chance at life, and maybe even a chance at the throne of a kingdom he did not remember belonging to. Odin gave Loki opportunity for something greater—something kinder—than he was given at birth, and Loki threw it back in his face."
Again, are you saying that someone stolen from their homeland by colonistic, imperialistic, pro-genocide conqueres, taken to their home, stropped of all identity, raised to hate those of your (unknown) homeland, be the unfafoured, neglected son, and give up your entire self in an effort to prove yourself worthy is something to be grateful for?
Loki's story was a tragedy, even in just the first film. Its something you cry about, because how different would you be in the same situation?
And you defend Odin?
#i wish the thor films had followed their original course and had thor finally Realize what asgard was in the third film rather than just.#scrapping everything.#Also op's takes were absolute SHIT#well i guess not technically OP.#OP just posted some nice gifs.#i hope your notifacations for this post are muted sorry :(#loki#mcu loki#2011 loki#tdw loki#loki meta#thor 2011#asgard is racist#asgard#mcu asgard#meta#colonialism#imperialism#tw genocide#unityrain.txt#long post
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I like to listen to Dusty Thunder read AITA stories while I'm at work at night. I do a lot of walking, so I just let my tiktok play with my headphones in. It's that or I watch youtube. A lot of my nightly things I do are boring, tedious and just bland so having this little bit of noise keeps my head in the game and gives me the ability to just keep going even when my brain starts trying to play the, I don't want to do this so I'm not going to do this till it's the very last second and stress myself out.
Anyways, there was a story tonight that was like 'aita for telling my wife that after five years of her mental breakdown and not being employed that I think she needs to get a job.'
Basically, he has been working 80+ hours a week and the wife continued to refuse to get a job or even really help out around the house because of her mental health.
Now don't get me wrong, I very much do believe in mental health issues. I, myself, suffer from many. But, I do understand that eventually when push comes to shove, there has to be a compromise on some part.
My wife and I aren't happy in our living situation. I mean, who can really be happy living in a trailer long term with a 14 year old and 13 pets. It's a lot, and chores often go overlooked and even when chores get done, by the end of the night the tiny home is almost back to the state it was before you even started and the exhaustion of fighting an unending uphill battle just starts to wear on you.
We realize that the amount of pets is ultimately a large part of our issues. But, neither of us is willing to part with them. How do you part with creatures that you whole heartedly love and treat like your children?
We are parents, yes, to a 14 year old and only very briefly thought about adding another human child to our mix. It was very apparent early on in our marriage/relationship that we were not going to be having any more kids. A mutual agreement that is still present at this time.
She turns 34 this year and I turn 32, not overly old, but as a dad who has been caring for a child for the past 14 years and I never really got to be a person of my own. (Yes, I realize that is a choice I made... as a teen... to have a child, and I knew what that would mean, ish. No, I do not regret my son. Yes, I do think and wish I could go back to have waited and had him at an older age, but you can't turn back the clock) That being said, my wife and I are excited that we get to see him grow up and in a few years we get to be our very own people. We will get to be included in whatever wonderful life awaits our son, and at the same time get to have our very own life as well.
That also means, like most people, our pets are our children. We treat them like children, we care for them like children (as much as you can a non-human creature). We feed them the best foods, we give them treats, toys, dog park, walks, trips outside (for our ferrets who love being in the grass and exploring), etc.
It also means expensive as HELL vet bills. Odin alone was one of our most expensive pets as he had a very serious illness that eventually led us to having to let him go this past May.
But again, I look at all their little tiny faces and I think what would life be like without them? Sure, there are some positives. We could go on vacation without wondering or trying to save up for whatever we need to do with them while we are gone. We could leave the house for long periods of time without having to crate them, Luna and Indi absolutely WRECK the house if we don't.
But, what would coming home be like? Not to see their beautiful faces greeting me, not to get their wonderful kisses and loves and cuddles.
Anyways, I'm getting away with the reason for this long as post.
I'm EXHAUSTED. I can't say it enough. My body is breaking down, I'm running on empty. I'm struggling to pull out all the stops just to make it through another day.
I'm sick again, for the second time in less than a week. I can feel the burn in the back of my throat and the way my breathing is getting all ragged.
We started getting a little spend happy again, and we gotta nip that back in the bud so we can get back on track for paying things off so that maybe, just maybe I can go down in hours.
I know my wife is exhausted working almost 50 hours a week and being the primary care of our home. And I try my hardest to make sure I do as many chores as I can, feed the pets, change the puppy pads, make sure everyone has water, pick up and tidy anytime I find things out of place, etc. But, I have no energy whatsoever to actually clean clean anything.
I'm working well over 70 hours a week and I have little to no time at home and what time I do have at home, I find it so draining to do anything other than lay in bed watching youtube or sleeping.
My son keeps bugging me to play video games with him, but the moment I sit down on my bed and grab my controller, I'm already tired and ready to just curl up under the blankets.
I try to offer to have him come and do things with me, chores like walking the dogs or taking them to the dog park, so we can at least see each other for a while, but he is 14, and those things a boring.
I've been making sure that I always tell him goodbye and tell him I love him when I'm leaving, etc, to at least let him know I'm thinking about him, but I know he just wants my attention and I'm trying so hard but I'm so burnt out that even just five minutes of a video game and I'm spent and just want to sleep.
My wife is constantly upset as well because we don't see each other like we used to. And I totally get that. She often gets upset when I don't want to go to the dog park on days where she can take them, cause I want more sleep. Or when I don't want to stay up to do laundry, but she won't do it later when I wake up cause she wants it done early in the day.
We all have right to feel the way we are feeling, but I think we are all not taking into consideration each others levels of 'can' right now.
I want to be able to just shoulder everything and be able to do all of it and still be happy and healthy. But, at the end of the day, I'm already collapsing under everything and I just hurt all the time and it sucks.
I don't really have much to look forward to most days. As of this week, we finally worked our schedules out so that I have one day off a week instead of working 7 days a week. But, that still leaves me working both jobs three days a week and one or the other job three days a week.
I need a vacation, but we can't afford for me to take any time off work. Not even with the laundry list of medical issues I need to have attended to.
I have a broken tooth that needs extracted, I have a large hernia in the upper portion of my stomach that's expanding up my ribs and causing mild to severe discomfort most days, I have blood in my stool, I have some sort of head condition that without my prescription that I'm currently on lands me laid up in bed begging for death and I still have several months to go before the first open appointment in December for it, my constant heartburn is getting worse and I feel like I'm always nauseous. My foot has mostly gotten used to the broken bone shard that is floating around near the front of my right foot, but occasionally I step down wrong and my whole day is ruined. In a nut shell, my check engine light has been on so long it's begun to blink rapidly and I know I need to go in but I can't find the motivation to actually do anything about most my issues because it requires being awake during normal people hours (one of my jobs is a full time overnight position), it requires me making phone calls (my absolute worst nightmare), and it requires me actually having to make and keep appointments (my adhd's worst nightmare).
If we had a better place to live, I honestly think a lot of our issues wouldn't be so bad. But, the trailer is slowly falling apart due to use, and we don't have the funds to repair it while still paying off debt.
We have no family, no friends to fall back on. No one we could move in with, or rent a place with. Our credit is shit, and we are absolutely exhausted living like this and yet, until our debt is paid and we can save and somehow magically find a place that allows ferrets, we are stuck living like this.
And still in, I don't want to give up our ferrets for a house. I keep holding on to hope that one of these days we will find someone a co-sign a house with, or rent with, or something amazing like some of the crazy fun amazing stories you see on tiktok and youtube and blah blah blah.
I often think about buying small amounts into the lottery to even see if we could get just a little lucky with like a thousand dollars or something, but then I can't even think about wasting the few dollars for that but then turn around and drop thirty bucks on fast food.
And there in is another problem. Unhappy, exhausted, tired, I'm turning to food again for comfort and I'm gaining weight, and I'm even more unhappy with myself.
Why can't this be easy? Why does working with such severe mental illnesses have to be so damn hard? Why does my brain work this way? Why can't I just be a normal person and just get through my day without wallowing, without thinking about every little thing we could possibly do to try and penny pinch to pay down our debts just a little bit faster and then end up fucking that up by buying something expensive to try and make myself feel better? (Food, I'm really just talking about the fast food / coffee / etc)
I won't spend 20-40 dollars on a video game, so why am I buying so much fast food for our family? Snacks? Chips? Ice Cream?
In Sept, things have got to change. And I just don't know what we can change or do different to help lift us up and change our currently negative, tired, outlook.
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