#october 31st 1981

[erectomyjunko]

hey! lily evans carries a muggle camera with her everywhere she goes and is solely responsible for the documentation of the marauders school years! also also also every single one of those pictures was lost after October 31st 1981 because sirius black flipped through the albums with bloody hands and they were taken away as evidence!

[ghostinwinterfell]

oh nothing just thinking about sirius black finding james potter’s body on this night 43 years ago and being haunted by his ghost for the rest of his life with nothing but rage and grief and guilt to fuel him.

you know. the usual.

[messingwithmoony]

He'll blame the alcohol

And you'll blame the full moon

She'll blame the fall of man

And I blame the evening news

For giving us Doomsday

[whatonearthisgoingon]

So doubt this is popular at all, because I've seen nothing with it, but practically emotionless Sirius.

"Aaro, What are you thinking? Sirius is the most dramatic and emotional little shit you'll ever meet." But what if he's not. What if it's all fake and a mask.

It's not even a "oh I am trying to manipulate people and make everyone love me because I love the attention" mask. He just notices what other people do to fit in, and observes what people enjoy, and mimics it.

I love the idea of him being a very emotional and loving child, but that being beaten out of him, to the point he struggles to feel real emotions anymore; it is very rare for him to actually feel an emotion other than numbness, but you could never tell with how he acts.

Despite how depressing his home situation was, he had to act happy there, especially for parties and dances with other prominent Pureblood Families. So he learnt how to fake the emotions he essentially no longer felt, pretty early. His act is pretty easily done at Hogwarts too, as he now has a perfect example to copy, in James, his now best friend.

However, after years at Hogwarts and less time with his family, Sirius begins to feel things again, even if it is still small.

The lighter that lit his candle again? James. James was the carefree ball of sunlight and energy. He always listened, always cared, and always did everything he could to try and make Sirius feel real emotions. And the amount of effort eventually paid off.

It was a very long process of healing, but after a lot of separation from his family, moving to the Potters, the support and care from the Marauders, and more, by the time he's graduated, he can actually feel true emotions again; the world was no longer numb.

Sirius is a burning candle. The smiles are no longer fake, the laughter over jokes is real, the happiness when seeing someone is more than a practiced reaction. And he burns bright with all of his found-family.

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.

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But then, candle after candle is snuffed out. First it was James and Lily. Then it was Peter. Then Sirius was dragged away, locked into an emotion numbing prison, for a crime he did not commit. His true emotions were gone once again, the candle snuffed out.

But, just like he was as a child, he smiled, he laughed, he chatted with people. He seemed so normal and sane; the prison staff that visited once a week were creeped out by his "happiness" despite being in the worst prison in the world, the other prisoners hated him because he was not suffering like they were.

But he was suffering for over a decade. The candle of real emotion long flickered out. Now it was just a matter of time until his brain went so insane it could no longer preform on it's childhood learnt instincts.

But then one day, as a newspaper dropped into his cell, he saw a face..

The flame, although weak, flickered to life again..

[beadelmare]

happy 43rd anniversary of the phone call!!

[labyrinthhofmymind]

happy halloween today james and lily died and sirius got wrongfully accused of being the traitor and peter got to escape and remus thought the love of his life was a murderer and mary lost all of her friends and harry lost his parents and was to sent to his abusive aunties and uncles house

[flyingtacoturtle11]

Happy Halloween!!

Deep down Remus knew that he ought to ask Sirius outright. Except.

Except he was terrified of the answer He was terrified that it wasn’t about the war or James or growing up. He was terrified that the problem was him. What if Sirius had just fallen out of love?

….

[xotrashratxo]

American Pie by Don McLean but it’s about the Marauders on October 31st, 1981

[doodlebugdpj]

Until the End - Chloe Ament

I've talked a lot about this song today but I still can't stop thinking about these lyrics:

"Their friends who used to cheat on tests now 21 cheating death Go out to drink and laugh before loosing their lives to settle scores"

And

"Neither had been prepared for when the darkness cast it's final blow oh, he bled out and she fled home She raced to keep her son alive and met her love on the other side"

[hxc66]

It’s finally Octoberrrrrr 🌝

[hesolemlyswears]

James and sirius probably talked about sirius taking Harry with him on his motorbike once they were out of hiding. on November 1st 1981, Harry finally got to go on the motorbike, just not with sirius.

[erectomyjunko]

I am NOT ready to be bombarded by angst on Halloween

[ghostinwinterfell]

“happy halloween” babe james and lily potter are dead

[iliketopgun]

What if Lily visited Ivy in her dreams?

Warnings: Use of an OC, ghost Lily Potter, mother daughter who didn't get enough time, forced to grow up too soon, I don't support JKR, Lily tells Ivy how proud she is of her, dream visitation, crying, mentions of not feeling good enough, angsty, mentions of childhood trauma, the timeline is weird, reassurance, and not happy ending

Gif belongs to me

Safe below the cut

Banner belongs to @/cafekitsune

Tossing and turning. Flashes of green light. Screams. Ivy hated Halloween. She hated Voldemort for taking her parents away from her. Suddenly a weird calmness enters her dreams. A redheaded woman, with green eyes, in her late teens or early 20s appears. Lily. "Mum?" Ivy asks the woman. "Hello, Ivy." The woman says. "How are you here? Am I dead?" Ivy asks her mother. It had been 13 years to date since Ivy and Harry had been left as orphans. 13 years since Ivy saw her mother die in front of her. "Shh, you're alright dear, you're not dead, I'm just in your dreams." Lily explains. "You have been so brave." Lily extends her ghostly arm and Ivy feels a breeze in her hair followed by a warm sensation. "Your father and I, are so proud of you, so very proud. You have been so strong. You are resilient, just like the ivy I named you after." Lily comforts her daughter. "I miss you. Can't you come back?" Ivy pleads, she wasn't thinking clearly, she just wanted her mom. "Unfortunately no, but I'll be here watching over you until you pass on. You, my sweet girl, are so brave but I must go." Lily says before her translucent figure fades away, leaving Ivy alone.

[swiftiesforpeeta]

cant stop thinking about sirius trying to take his baby godson and not being allowed to it’s killing me

[labyrinthhofmymind]

crazy to think that yesterday i was so wrapped up in agatha all along i didn’t even have time to be sad about the marauders