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BRUISES ON MY KNEES FOR YOU {L.M.H} {A}{F}

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summary :everyone makes mistakes every now and then but one too many mistakes is enough to drive anyone off the edge

warnings: leeknow is mean /curing /mentions of bruises and cuts[getting hurt]/angst /comfort towards the end / established relationship /mentions of ot8

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Lee know was an ass every now and then , you knew that, he knew it too that’s why it didn’t surprise you when he emerged from your shared bedroom, frown already visible on his face as he complained about you not taking out the trash , usually you would have just caved lugging yourself out of the house to complete the task however today was an exception .You tilted your head towards the window revealing the gloomy skies accompanied by the heavy downpour that was now surrounding your apartment .lee know said nothing, matter of fact he said nothing for so long that it lead you to get off the couch to join him to see what he was looking at ,to your dismay perfectly lined up next to the balcony railing was three litter boxes for your cats which were now completely filled with water soaking the last bit of the pack of litter completely causing it to clump up becoming unusable .Lee know grumbled “all three boxes y/n” he said evidently upset his eyes fixated on the boxes in the rain “I’m sorry I didn’t know they were out ..-“ you began “I’ll clean them up and go get another bag-“ lee know cut you off waving your thoughts away with his hand “don’t bother . I’ll do it .” he spoke bitterly.

You watched lee know empty and clean out the boxes , an umbrella in his hand to shield him from the rain that ultimately got blown upside down leaving him to fight the elements of nature without it . You sighed . He was upset . More than usual so much so that you could see the way his eyes narrowed at every small inconvenience and how he pursed his lips curses threatening to spill .It was Thursday and amongst your friend group Thursday meant game night , however it was also the night lee know would cook something new and rave about it while your friends tried it giving feedback .so without consulting the hothead outside who looked as if he would commit a murder if someone dared to speak to him you took it upon yourself to prepare the meal .

You’re not an incapable cook.. you’re pretty decent if you try it’s just you were used to cooking for small numbers of people , so when you heard lee know had seven grown men as friends you gladly handed in the towel and let him do the cooking ,which explains your rustiness now, which you realize as you pick up the knife expertly slicing the tip of your finger in an attempt to opening some packaging or when you burn the side of your arm rearranging the pots on the stove to cook faster or when you slip up and drop the grater on the floor effectively having it land on your toe causing you to yelp out in pain , or when you scratched the side of your face on one of the sharp ends of the counter while you reached down to retrieve something nevertheless it got done. You prepared the meal throwing your entire heart into it along with some tears for food measure confident it would taste good .

The day passed by pretty quickly , leeknow didn’t bother to speak to you , ignoring you as much as possible uttering a few words here and there and leaving remarks about your antics in the kitchen , currently you were seated on the edge of your bed deciding what to wear when a very stoic leeknow entered the room and grabbing his coat. “ you’re going somewhere?” You asked now standing trailing behind him , lee know remained silent ignoring your tugs against his arm “ store .” He said you looked at him puzzled -“ what are you going to get ?” You asked “ I’m going to get what YOU forgot to …the drinks ..god yn you have one simple task , just one fucking thing to do and you can’t even get it done , it’s actually funny “ he said before slipping out of the apartment door and into the cold leaving you standing in the middle of your apartment.

The evening went well so far aside fromleeknows outburst earlier things seemed okay. Lee know came back from the store , heated the food that you made and you answered the door when his friends came over “it’s so good to see you yn…here I got you these “ jisung handed you a bouquet of Lilly’s “they’re lovely I’ll put them in some water “ you said going to the kitchen and looking in the cupboards for a vase .” Top left “ lee know said from his spot on the couch , “the vases are in the top left cupboard, you’ve been living here for so long and you don’t even know where we keep things can you not even be othered to remember the simplest of things ...or is that my job too?” he rolled his eyes earning a few odd looks from his friends who could now sense the tension . Taking your place on the couch you were met with a few pitiful looks as the boys watched lee know ignore you , it went on for a while you’d talk to him he’d ignore you and his friends would look at you occasionally answering the questions you asked him ,eventually lee know had enough and decided it was time to eat getting up to set the table .

Standing up to help him he turned to you eyes glaring at your figure carefully moving around the boys to get to him” I don’t want your help” he started” you’ve done enough already” he said turning his back leaving you stunned “are you guys..okay? “ Felix asked pulling you into the seat next to him “doesn’t seem like it “ Jeongin answered “ you’re all acting as if Lee know isn’t a complete ass “ seungmin chimmed in earning a side look from Chan to watch his words , you didn’t reply , you didn’t really have much to say , where would you even start?

Lee knows been in a foul mood for the past few weeks and it probably was your fault , a week ago he asked you to wash a pair of his pants for practice ,which you forgot to do because you had work that day or when he asked you to clean out a cupboard because he didn’t have time to and you cleaned out the wrong one making him upset that he had to do it himself and fix the other or when you burnt his shirt trying to iron it for him when he clearly didn’t ask you to , there was too many things that went wrong over the last week that it was impossible to believe that he wasn’t upset because of you, sure you could chalk everything down to mistakes and bad luck ,saying you didn't mean any of it intentionally ,which you didn't it was still inevitable for you to not feel like absolute garbage in his presence .

Siting at the dinner table the boys looked at the meal you prepared , cheer and compliments were met with “wow”s that echoed around your apartment you really hoped it tasted good it was your last attempt to calm down whatever lee know was going through . You ran your spoon through the rice collecting enough and bringing it to your mouth - you froze looking around the table to be met with similar gazes cautiously looking between you and lee know ..it was salty ..too salty so salty that it dried out your throat and left your lips pursed , lee know oblivious to the situation that you and the boys communicated about through eye contact launches a spoonful of rice into his mouth dropping his spoon to the table looking up at you ,he proceeded to taste the other dishes a look of disgust on his face “ lee know I-“ you finally spoke “ everything’s salty yn “ he said his voice filled with malice “ why did you offer to do something you know you clearly can’t do , are you that stupid huh? Could you not just let me do it and maybe just maybe it would have been stomache-able.. rather than having whatever the fuck this sorry shit is “ he said shoving his bowl away from him standing up and walking away from the table “ don’t try to do things you know you’re can’t . You’re just making yourself seem pathetic” lee know said grabbing his coat and slipping out of the apartment closing the door harshly behind him ,leaving a very stunned group of friends and a heartbroken you to deal with the mess

you sat staring down at your lap your heartfelt heavy ,why was he acting this way it wasnt like him “ sorry tonight was a bit of a mess “ you apologized to the boys standing up “ let your selves out yea ? “ you said smiling curtly while furiously blinking to keep the tears at bay . Hours had passed or what felt like hours you were sat in the corner of Your shared bedroom , silence filled the apartment it had been a while since the boys left you knew that because changbin announced to you that they were leaving claming to have cleaned up and done the dishes and put the food away before . It was nice of them really it was but there was no real point in putting the food away because you would just have to throw everything out and try to salvage whatever was left of your heart in the process . Emerging from the darkness of your room you looked at the clock it was past the cats feeding time , pulling out there bowls and opening a can of food you shared it amongst the three watching as they lapped away happily unaware of the situation between their owners

Lee know walked in to the apartment , it was cold the usual warmth that radiated from it seemed to not be present , he could only hear the sound of the shower running in the back , he looked around noticing that everything was cleaned and packed away and that the cats were fed too , it wasn’t strange he just expected you not to do it especially after how he acted . The water from the shower that was once hot now cold ran down your body coating you completely in the icy liquid , you wanted to move really you did but your legs that you were sat on now felt numb , your body too cold to move and your heart too heavy to deal with , you looked around the bathroom it felt so secure , so safe , untouched from whatever was going on beyond that door . You looked down at your arms the burns and bruises you got today were a perfect match to the bright purple ones forming on your knees from sitting on them too long . You body shook violently from the cold as you placed a T-shirt over yourself your wet hair leaking water onto it soaking it causing it to cling to your body , you walked into the bedroom sitting on the edge of the bed . Your hands were shaking and your fingers felt numb a light blue tint now visible, lee know popped his head in through the side of the door taking in your appearance . His heart falling to bits as he watched your dazed gaze and shivering form. He knew what he said was uncalled for . He knew you were trying and that you didn’t mean to forget to do things sometimes , he forgot to do things all the time you knew he did but you never told him off for it.

He walked closer to the bed pulling out the hairdryer before looking down at you . You barely moved in his presence as he connected the hairdryer blowing the warm air on you gently running his fingers through your hair . You looked up at him and his eyes met yours , his gaze was soft , his eyes that were once dark had a watery sheen to them as he cupped your cheek . “I’m sorry “ he said kneeling down now taking your hands in his running his finger tips over the cuts and bruises , eyes trailing down to the ones on your knees “ I’m sorry “ he repeated head now falling into your lap and you stared down at him

Pulling your hands away from his you ran your fingers through his hair . Lee know shifted his head further into your lap . You leaned down placing a kiss to the top of his head “ I know " you started which was accompanied by a sniffle and a few tears that tricks led down his face and on to your bare skin . "I'm not angry .. hurt but not angry " you began " I know somethings bothering you so please " you held his face in your hands gently gazing down at him "tell me .." you whispered " tell me so i can help you , help us " you said watching as the tears that filled lee knows eyes trickled down his face , as he nodded hiding his sorrowful expression in your lap as he cried, remorseful for his actions but grateful for your understanding , he knew he didn't deserve you .

Lee know was an ass every now and then you knew he was and he knew he was one too but he loved you and no matter how many times you fought or argued that love never changed . He knew that and you did too..

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