#obvs someone else is filling the void

[deathbind]

God honestly I can just say the current monarch of Meket is a gnome. I make the rules. I make the rules.

[argisthebulwark]

I'm Glad I Get Forever

summary: Asking your partner if they'll fall for someone else after you've died. gn reader, no pronouns or y/n used. feat: Teldryn, Balimund, Mercer, Farkas, Vilkas, Miraak, Arnbjorn, Brynjolf, Cicero warnings: non graphic mentions of death/grief obv masterlist

Yes

Teldryn ponders the question, feet propped comfortably on your lap. He enjoys evenings like this; sharing a bottle of wine miles from the nearest town, nothing but the stars to keep you company. For weeks you'd swapped stories until there was nothing left to tell - you knew each other too well. Asking each other questions became an easy way to stave off boredom. "I suppose." He sighs, watching your brows raise. "We both know you'd give me some deathbed speech about how you want me to keep living, cursing me to seek a new patron willing to drag me across Tamriel. Can't have my talents going to waste." He's right, of course. Teldryn's always right.

Balimund knows he will never seek out romance - he hadn't even sought you out, merely a series of happy accidents that led you into his heart. A blacksmith made a fair partner for a warrior, romance blossoming over years spent haggling over his forge. "If it happened organically, don't think I'd sabotage it." He muses, stretching out the sore muscles in his shoulder. The thought of you passing makes him feel a bit ill but he brushes past it, trusting in armor crafted by his own hands to keep you safe. "You'll always be my heart, but I've got a feelin' you wouldn't want me to end up alone."

Mercer says yes, the lie slipping easily between gritted teeth. He's already let you get too close and he can't pass up the perfect opportunity to force a bit of distance. He refuses to let you know the horrible truth he harbors deep in his chest - he cares for you. Rolling his eyes he pointedly ignores the cute divot between your brows. "Of course." He lies, panic clawing at his throat at the mere thought of losing you. "Maybe I'll find someone who bothers me less."

Farkas has to sit with your question, rolling it around in his mind. His gut reaction is to refuse - no one else could capture his heart as you have, right? Though, he hadn't expected to fall for you either. It could happen again. "Maybe a few decades later, after I've mourned and all that." He offers, though he simply cannot see a future for himself without you; your home built together, your family growing with age, your hands healing every little wound. It is only you. "Seems unlikely for you to go first, though."

No

Vilkas declines without a second thought. He doesn't even look up from his book, apparently unfazed by your question. There's a cute flush creeping up his cheeks, though you bite back the urge to comment on it. "I know you'd haunt me." He mutters, kissing your knuckles. "I'll keep an eye out for your ghost, though. Don't think that would count as seeing someone else."

Miraak is disgusted by the thought. He cannot fathom living life alone once more, the idea of another partner taking your place making him feel sick. You'd carved out space in his old heart, no other could fill the void left by your absence. "Each of my days would be too heavy without you, my love." Intense as always, he clutches your face. "You are the sole resident of my heart. I fear that I would not last long in this life without you - I would soon follow you into whatever afterlife will accept my tainted soul."

Arnbjorn rolls his eyes at your question. It's quite fun getting under his skin, though you keep that thought to yourself. Even if you know he will never harm you, he is sharpening a freshly formed dagger. "I didn't even want to fall for you, I'm not doing this again." He grunts, pointedly ignoring your excited gasp. "You're it for me." "I had no idea you could be sweet." "Shut it." He snarks, the blunt edge of his blade swinging toward where you're perched on his workbench. "Or your death will become more than a hypothetical."

Brynjolf's heart cannot withstand another, losing you would be too much. Your words remind him of those awful days he thought Mercer had stolen you from him - the pit he'd fallen into, the despair sitting so heavily on his chest. He cannot imagine living with the gnawing, ceaseless pain your loss would create once more. "Never." He doesn't find the humor in your question, holding you a bit tighter to his chest when you fall into bed. There is no one else for him. Brynjolf's known this for ages, you are the love of his life.

Cicero giggles at your question - how silly! His funny Listener, no one else can ever measure up to you. Only you understand him. Mother's chosen, his most beloved Listener, you are love to him. "Funny Listener, don't make Cicero laugh." He sighs, pinching at your cheeks. "Your jokes have gotten better - it seems you're taking after your favorite jester!" "I was serious." "Never, ever, ever, ever!" He sings, planting a kiss on your nose. "Only my silly Listener, forever and ever."

[nalyra-dreaming]

i agree that poly!loustat is v unlikely atp, given every promo & writing choice so far. if polyam was ever on the cards for them loumand would've been a golden opportunity to set that up, like having louis truly fall head-over-heels for armand but still be in love w lestat too. instead they purposely framed it as a rebound, jacob even called it that! loustat's 'open relationship' stunt felt like joyless point-scoring against e/o & they were only ever shown using other partners to fill a void or spite the other. & as you said, the jealousy & possessiveness was heightened so much. not that they can't grow or evolve as characters, they can & should, but they'd have to change beyond recognition in order to believably handle polyamory imo! i'm not criticizing the show per se. obvs their aim was to depict a fateful gothic 'entangling of souls' type romance & they committed to the bit. if the writing stays strong i won't complain. but the adaptational changes they've made will have ramifications on future plots & dynamics, we have to be aware of it! that said, call me delulu but i haven't given up all hope of dm being poly or at least firmly non-monogamous (cuck chair anyone?) i mean i'm not 'expecting' it as such, but as dm is still undefined they haven't painted themselves into any corners yet writing-wise, the way they kinda have w loustat.

... I think there is a misunderstanding of "poly", "polyamoros" and "non-monogamous"...... and what the vampires do. Imho.

You cannot apply the normal relationship labels to them, imho.

The "cuck chair" existed because in the books Armand did not have physical sex with Daniel. So he made sure Daniel was bedded by others. That does not make them poly per se in my opinion? And I would argue it doesn't even make them non-monogamous, if you want to call it that, because it was never about bringing someone else in - it was about the physical act, the scratching an itch, and likely dominance, too, but it was never about extending the relationship of Armand and Daniel to include someone else, not really, not even the dancer they "adopted" for a while.

It's the same for Louis and Lestat, imho. They love others, but these others are not really part of their relationship. And they don't invite those into their relationship either. I think they both... allow certain things, like Gregory giving Lestat blood to strengthen him in later books (for example), but Gregory still does not have one iota to do with Lestat and Louis' relationship.

And Loumand was deliberately set up in a very specific way, and by the show, because they talked about that, and implemented it, this is not only Jacob's comment there. I would recommend this thread on it as well.

And the jealousy and possessiveness... were on display in a very certain way to give us a specific picture - so far.

We know the tale was edited. We know some very... telling parts were.

Honestly?

We will only know about jealousy and possessiveness when we enter QotD "real time" territory. And I have a nagging suspicion that the picture then will shift quite a bit.

Just my two cents. I know the term "polyamory" is an umbrella term and probably allows for any interpretation, but the show did not write itself into a corner with Loustat, nor with DM (nor Loumand). They stayed quite close to the books with them, actually, imho.

[writing-for-life]

Keeping Them In Character...

It’s so interesting what you wrote about fixing Morpheus in the other post, @rriavian. I didn't want to take that one too off topic, hence I made a new one. I hope this is okay, because I love talking about these things, especially with other writers (everyone who reads this, writer or not, feel free to join in). I think I’ve said this somewhere else before (can’t remember where): If we keep him in character, there is no fixing him anyway.

But fanfic wouldn’t be fanfic without those attempts, and I totally get why. I want a different ending for him, too, alas, not in canon, even if that might sound contradictory. If they touched the ending in the show, I’d honestly be pissed off, but that’s my personal problem, and Neil can do with it whatever he wants—it’s his story. So I guess every fic that sees him alive at the end starts with the premise that we have to bend him into shape ever so slightly to make it possible. To me though, there’s a world of a difference between that and basically turning him into an OC with no resemblance to Morpheus bar name and looks (not saying that isn’t fair, it’s just not for me because if I wanted that, I’d write an OC, because that’s what he would be to me).

Morpheus is not weak. I even get why some people who mainly came to the Sandman via the show might be drawn into that direction initially, because we obviously see him very low at the beginning (I’m hesitant to say “at his lowest”). But after that, he pretty much stands in his power again (with ups and down obvs)—a power that burdens him for a multitude of reasons I don’t want to go into now, otherwise I’ll still sit here tomorrow. Wrote about it a million times though.

I think the fundamental misunderstanding is that anyone can fix him. So whoever we pair up with him can only walk with him, but he’ll need to take the steps himself, and more importantly: He would need a reason to want to do that. And yes, that’s exactly what my OC tells him at some point because she suffers, and she’s done with it despite understanding him on a deep level and accepting who and what he is—I think you're right when you say there’s a tendency in fandom to turn one half of the relationship into some kind of martyr and/or “void filler” to save someone. And the tricky thing about Morpheus is: He actually is looking for something to fill a void (which, to stress that again, doesn't mean he isn't powerful, so it's not to be mistaken for general weakness). And both in The Sandman and in real life, that never leads to anything good, but I can see why it's tempting to fall into that trap because his character lends itself particularly well to that type of trope (and I even play around with that in the first part of my fic, but it was also clear to me that it won't end there).

Now, this obviously isn’t real life, a story doesn’t necessarily have to lead to something good, but the most important question, to me, was always: What would make him take said steps himself, and above all: WANT to take them? Because truly, that’s where it all falls down in canon. And there is enough scope to explore that in quite a few different ways in my view.

For me, it was always clear that it can never be through wanting to change who or what he is on a fundamental level (that’s why I’m not into retired!Dream AUs, because they would fundamentally change who he is. Again, totally fine if people want to explore that, it's just not for me). I honestly believe he would bristle at that and recoil/retreat. Because it would just add to what is at the core of his very dilemma: If you want to change who and what he is, you basically admit you don’t truly understand him (not even those closest to him truly do), and that’s part of what breaks him (I say “part”, because there are more things in the mix than one can shake a stick at). And there is a clear difference between his being capable of change (we all know he is) and wanting to change him. They are not one and the same, but sometimes, fandom treats them as if they were.

Misunderstanding him, misinterpreting him is inherent to his being: He is Dream—forever out of reach, forever nebulous and unreal and weird and prone to be misunderstood/misinterpreted unless you stop trying and just trust the process/intuition--otherwise, it wouldn’t be (a) D/dream. It truly applies to all that he is. And you see what happens when he tries to rationalise things himself: Although he understands the boundaries between dreams and reality and keeps them in place, he is UNreality, and forever will be. And the way that gets ignored in fandom sometimes baffles me. Although it also doesn’t, because of course we’re human, and we want things to be real.

Back to those steps: I personally think he would never take them for himself because he doesn’t believe he has a story, and outright centring himself as the main character who is in charge of his own story is something he will always deny himself. But I think that’s also the way in? Because if he could perceive, at least initially, that he is part of someone else’s story and that they WANT him in that story (all that he is and isn’t, including all that is broken) with full acceptance but without complete self-denial. That they don’t try to change him, because they understand what the unreal is (and that requires a very particular type of person). That he would want to try because the love he has for them weighs heavier than how little he loves himself (was it you, @stellerssong who recently also wrote something along those lines, or am I making that up?). And that by doing that, he gradually learns to see himself through someone else's eyes. And once on that path, he would maybe, just maybe, start to understand that indeed he has a story of his own, and that he might be able if not to entirely rewrite, but at least to keep on writing it from this moment onward. Like everyone who believes (because believing something is possible means trusting in it despite it not being real, and trusting in the process rather than the result. He knows the power this wields over everyone but himself--not because it’s not true for him but because he won’t allow it. But maybe he could get himself to a stage where he allows it). That it's not about fixing anything really, but growing enough around what's broken and always will be, instead of trying to make it smaller or go away.

Yes, I do believe that might be possible, although there's much more to it than I've written here because it's incredibly complex, and it requires a lot of give and take, compromise and yes, pain along the way. And maybe it might not work at all (I never really 100% know where I end up when I write because my characters always, always make those decisions for me, and despite setting out with a plan, I almost never end up where I had initially intended to go. So if you asked me today, I couldn’t promise that I truly know where my current WiP is going and who will be where at its end, and it is very frustrating at times because I’m not always happy with what these guys are doing. At the moment, I'm truly not). But I believe he would at least try if someone who allowed for those dynamics were around. And that’s why I wrote an OC, because while I can see one or two canon characters that get fairly close to what I'd envision (and none of them are one half of the bigger ships), I ultimately couldn’t do it with them because there was something in their established dynamics that threw it off for me. Unless I would have pulled at least one of them (probably both) OOC to a degree that felt too much for me. But I'm always super interested in other people's process and line of thinking.

But yeah, that’s the precarious dance between trying to keep him in character while also working towards a different ending (that's obviously far less of a problem in one-shots). If that will ever work—who knows…

[safetycar-restart]

Hey, again (you should probably prepare for multiple more of these)

So I saw video earlier (can’t find it anymore sorry 🫣) but it was a compilation of someone poking their boyfriend + the little sounds he made after and I immediately thought: LANDO

Like he’s just so giggly and squirmy and whiny and squeaky and CUTE

So around the house, he can make all the noise he wants but what about when you’re in public and prodding him or even better, he’s teasing you obvs wanting your attention which causes him to be manhandled into a very intimate position and he CANNOT STOP GIGGLING?!?

(side note here sorry, I feel like I use the words And & So wayyy too much but it’s ok, we move)

But in public, you have to get him to keep quiet

I seriously don’t know how to write this scenario so I’m just going to write a quick dialogue 🤷

“Come one baby, you’ve gotta stay quiet”

“I-”

“You wanted this didn’t you? Teasing me because you knew I’d give you what you wanted. So stay quiet yeah? Can’t have anyone else hearing how needy you are”

And then he tries but is just too whiny. Annndddd END SCENE

Sorry that this is a bit all over the place 😬 but as always; Bisous, 🪩

Oh god I love this!! This is so good and so Lando and I’m starting to get more obsessed with Lando oh my god.

So firstly, I wanna talk about all the little noises Lando makes? Because Lando prefers to make little noises instead of actual words when he’s comfortable around someone.

When Lando first meets someone, he actually talks TOO much, trying to fill the void and seem less awkward. But once he’s comfortable? He’s all squeaks and whines and whimpers and pouts with very few actual words.

He’s especially like that with you. You can exist with him for hours without him saying any English words, and instead just make little sounds every time he needs to show you something or ask for something.

And he LOVES when you poke him. Personally, you think he just wants an excuse to make a loud squeak, but all his noises are so cute so you’re absolutely fine with that being his motive.

And he loves doing it in public too!! He’s not afraid to act out a bit so that you’ll pull him into your arms and pinch his sides. In fact he’ll act out whenever he can so that he can be manhandled.

“Be quiet,” you shush him, pinching him immediately after saying that just to make him squeak. He squeaks and giggles, wriggling around in your arms and smiling so wide cause he’s so HAPPY!! Happy happy boy. This is his favourite place in the whole world.

[werebutch]

Ok this turned really long so. It’s a rant obv

Tbh things have just been building a lot since September and I think yesterday was just like the cherry ontop and like I’ve just been thinking soooo much about everything and every decision I’ve made everyone I’ve ever known it’s like wow I can’t live my life as me. Not like this anyway I really need to change. Bc I’m graduating in a couple months and what am I gonna do then? There’s no more after this just void that I’m gonna need to fill up with things that I HOPE are okay. Like I lost a lot of myself or just didn’t find much of myself within those 5+ Years that I’ve known this person bc I was so concerned with like. Them. And September I lost them and all of my friends because I wasn’t as good of friends with them as that person was so now they think I’m a lot worse than I am. Before then despite all of the issues going on between me and that person I had started to actually live. And socialize. And make a lot of friends. I’ve always known a lot of people but I never connected with them, but at least now I could start trying. Really hard. And I guess I didn’t realize it as much bc I was so worried about that one person it took up all of my time. All of it. Worrying and thinking and dreading. I used to fall in and out of love DRASTICALLY every other week (but either way it ended up in guilt and like breakdowns and stuff. I barely thought about anything else. But I was finally doing good socially so I didn’t care. That combined with other stuff I thought I was finally growing up I guess. Losing that person was actually really good for me but I regret not cutting ties like years ago. And now my quality of life has increased bc Im not in pain every day anymore but I have nothing to show for it. Pretty much all my friends are gone. If they’re not then I never see them or whatever whatever. Im back to anger issues and wanting to kill myself though. Bc I’m graduating. Mostly bc I’m graduating. And I have no talents and no achievements and I look weird and I don’t know what I want to do. my grades are terrible ONLY because I’m just too lazy to do anything. I know I have potential but I guess I just don’t care enough to use it. I’ve wasted away my entire life and unless I do something about it I’m going to continue wasting away forever and ever and nobody will remember me. One of my biggest flaws is that I always just want someone else to lay stuff out for me. Like directions or a path or something. And I have no idea how to get over that besides just going through this and learnin along the way, isn’t that how everyone else does it ? But it’s still scaring me. which is lame as hell. But who knows maybe I just need to drink some water like genuinely. Maybe

[prospitdaydreamer]

For u anon <3

HOOOOOOO ok i’m trying to gather all my thoughts

Ok so fair warning, a lot of these stories stem from like... 5th grade and some are revamped to not be as bad, but others I’m STILL working on so... it’s gonna be a littlw rough and they’re all rlly a little WIP (especially since I never finished Naruto.... so like a lot of the characters backstory might clash with the lore. But tbh these character’s entire existence clashes with the lore in the first place so rlly?? W/e i guess)

Ok ok here we go, i’m gonna put it under a readmore so I’m not assaulting everyone’s dash.

Maku - (This is my most developed oc out of all, mostly because she’s my fave lmao) So, Maku is a runaway from her clan (I don’t have a clan name yet, but it’s gonna do smthn with cats lmao). Maku is the daughter of the head of the clan, so she was raised as a princess and the heir to the throne. However, her parents are not... great :/ They put a lot of responsibility and pressure on her, while her younger sister got to get off shinobi training early and hang with her friends. Despite this, she didn’t hold resentment for her sister and loved her very much, but she grew distant from her parents. Not long before her coronation, she actually ended up running away after having a breakdown from the pressure. She had no plan where to go or any money, but she felt finally free. Until she met Miyuka, who tried to sacrifice her to Jashin. She was able to make a deal that if she let her live, she’d help her find sacrifices. Somehow they became friends through that. They joined the Akatsuki together. I’ll definitely post more about her soon I’m sure!

Her Akatsuki partner is Miyuka, of course.

She got paired with Kakuzu. Their relationship is a very quiet one, but she doesn’t mind. She’s not like Miyuka, who is very touchy-feely. She just wants a relationship built on mutual respect. She treasures the nights where she’s curled up and warm next to him, while he reads whatever book he’s reading.

Special abilities and weapons: She inherited her clan’s kekkei Genkai. She’s able to transform into any species of feline, but the bigger the species, the more chakra it uses. As long as she’s able to maintain the form of the feline, she also gets it’s abilities ( e.g. if she’s a cheetah, she gets speed, lion gets far leaps, etc). Bonus fact: if she had stayed in her clan and became the leader, she would have been granted the ability to summon a catlike creature, much like the Sannin’s animals. However, since she dipped out, her sister got this connection instead. She doesn’t use weapons very often, her claws usually do the trick.

Miyuka: I don’t have much down about Miyuka, but she was an orphan who was taken in by Jashinists, so of course she grew up to be one too. She met Maku while finding sacrifices and made a deal with her that if she’d help her get sacrifices, she’d be allowed to live. She actually grew fond of Maku because she was always respectful of her religion and practices. It was actually her idea to join the Akatsuki. Much like Hidan, she figured it’s a great opportunity to get sacrifices. She’s definitely hot, but don’t get too close unless you’re into knifeplay ;)

Her Akatsuki partner is Maku, of course.

She’s paired with Hidan, obv. They’re definitely under the impression that Jashin destined them together and they have NO problem showing that off to the world (Much to Kakuzu, Maku, and everyone’s disdain.)

Special abilities and weapons: Before meeting Hidan, she actually hadn’t unlocked her immortality. Hidan helped her unlock it and now they share that ability. Instead of a skeletal form, though, her form is more ghostly. She uses two sickles as her weapons.

Gashiyo: Gashiyo actually wasn’t technically a shinobi, but her grandfather was and he taught her everything she knows about fighting. She lived on his farm her whole life, and she was very close with one of the cows, Yumi. She grew up with Yumi since she was a little calf. Because of her, Gashiyo grew fond of cows, and they’re her favorite animals. When she was 17, she met a boy who came to work on her grandpa’s farm, and they fell in love. They became attached at the hip, and spent a whole summer together. One fateful night, she awoke to ruckus. When she went outside she found her grandfather dead and Yumi too. Standing over Yumi’s body was the boy she had fallen in love with. Turns out he had been working for a local gang that her grandpa owed money to. She ended up killing him for what he’d done. Ever since, her heart grew cold and she became a very angry person. She joined the Akatsuki, since she had nowhere to go and she needed money. 

Her Akatsuki partner is Koki.

She got paired with Deidara. She found him extremely annoying at first, but he wormed his way into her heart. Because of her past experiences with love, it was very difficult for her to open up to him. She’s pretty waspy, but she’s grown softer since. He even made her a little clay cow (It was very difficult for him to resist the urge to blow it up, but he managed.)

Special abilities and weapons: Her stampede jutsu causes a stampede of bulls made of chakra to charge toward her opponents. She also has brass knuckles with bull horns on them.

Koki: I honestly don’t have a backstory for her yet. I can tell you what she was like before I revamped her though. She literally just looked like Kisame, but a gorl lol. They were from the same village ig. Also she was a princess too excerpt it made no sense. I just wanted a princess (this was actually before i changed Maku’s story. She wasn’t originally a princess.) character i think. 

BUT i swear she’s waayyyy better now

Her Akatsuki partner is Gashiyo

She was paired with Kisame. If ever she had a weakness, it’s muscles. She saw him with his cloak off and it was OVER. Koki is anything but shy, and i think Kisame appreciated that. She doesn’t just like muscles on her men, she loves them on herself too! They often work out together.

Special abilities and weapons: She’s a puppet master, but her puppets are rather unusual. They’re more like little spider robots she’s infused with her chakra to do her bidding. She’s very fond of them, despite everyone finding them creepy. She usually uses small ones but she has them in all sorts of sizes.

Shiitake: Shiitake used to be one of Orochimaru’s experiments. Because of this, she has amnesia and doesn;t remember much from before her time with him. She somehow got away and joined the Akatsuki to, hopefully, gain protection from him. In all honesty, she doesn’t really want to be there. Her heart was never one for murder or crime, but she doesn’t really have a choice. She’s very quiet and rarely speaks unless spoken to.

Her Akatsuki partner is Anara.

She’s paired with Itachi. When he found out she used to be one of Orochimaru’s experiments, they bonded over their experiences with him. He told her about how he was targeted to be one of Orochimaru’s bodies. Though they know they don’t have a lot of time together due to Itachi’s sickness, they still try to make the best of the time they have. ANd until then, he promised he wouldn’t let Orochimaru anywhere near her. He felt it’s the least good he could do for someone.

Special abilities and weapons: WIP, i literally have no idea yet. 

Anara: I actually never came up with a backstory for her until like…. A year ago. Funny enough, her back story was inspired by Spinel’s from Steven Universe ( I kind of even want her to be voiced by Sarah Stiles too, but I suppose that’d be too on the nose! Still, that’s how I hear her voice). Anara never really knew what love was really like, considering her mother never cared for her much. Her mother never wanted to be a mom, but she met a man she really loved and he wanted a family. However, before Anara was born, her father died. Left as a husk from the depression of losing her lover and having a baby she never really wanted, her mom became very cold and distant. She kept her daughter alive, but that was about it. Anara tried very hard to make her mother happy, or really make her feel any emotion at all, but nothing worked. One day, her mother told Anara to stay home, and that she’d be back later. She left, and never came back, silently hoping maybe her daughter would just die. Well, she didn’t die. She eventually came to the realization her mother was never coming back for her, and she left that house and found her way to the nearest town where she was taken into the orphanage. She joined the academy to become a shinobi, but her heart was also in the arts. She performed plays for the other orphans, and loved the attention she received, the attention she craved. When she became older, she was both a shinobi and a theatre performer. Unfortunately, she still never really felt what it was like to be truly loved by someone. One day, she cracked from remembering the trauma of her mother and feeling like she may never receive the love she craved dearly, and ran away from the village, becoming a missing-nin. Tobi found her, and she became enamored with the mysterious masked man. She agreed to join the Akatsuki, hoping that he could fill the void in her heart. A chance to find a place where she belongs, whisked on an adventure by a mysterious masked man who promised to give her all she wanted? What else could a theatre girl want, lmao.

Her Akatsuki partner is Shiitake

She’s paired with Tobi, but it’s not clear if he feels the same or if he’s just using her. Doesn’t really seem to matter to her either way, she’s just happy to feel some sort of love.

Special abilities and weapons: WIP as well, lmao

Kimako: Kimako isn’t a shinobi, but she is the daughter of one. She’s the only one who has a definite village right now, she’s from Sunagakure. Her story is the one that's probably the dumbest but I have a very strong attachment to it for some reason, so w/e. 

She has no partner.

She’s paired with Sasori. They’ve known eachother since they were little, as she lived close to him and their parents were friends. Her heart broke for him when he found out his parents weren’t coming home. She always had a crush on him, and he was ok with her, since she was always kind to him. When he became a shinobi, she stayed by his side to encourage him. She’d always been proud of him. Before he lost interest in emotions or w/e, he cared for her in his own little way. He even gave her a ring and promised to be hers. Her love for him was very strong, and when he ran away, she vowed to find him, no matter what it took. When she found out he had joined the Akatsuki, she did everything she could to find a way to join and get close to him again. She somehow succeeded, and she pleaded to join, despite having no fighting abilities. She said she’d do anything, and they took pity on her, and found SOME use for her (though i haven’t figured out what that is yet… wip). Once she was accepted and finally reunited with her love, she was devastated to find out he no longer had any feelings for her. All those years, wasted. Not only that, but she now was in debt to the Akatsuki and had to do work for them. Anara did her best to comfort her, so they kind of became friends, so that’s something. DOes Sasori ever regain his feelings? Maybe, maybe not. Guess we’ll have to see ;) Though I do think, for him, she’d agree to become a puppet too. If that was his price or smthn.

Special abilities and weapons: None, just one sad little broken heart.

[t-lostinworlds]

just pain…honestly just paaaaain. i have so many questions !!! (I'm going to put it under the cut bc spoilers lol)

bc first off, with the royal baby news, and this is kinda not a big deal but...it kind of is, did the IVF become successful or did tom actually just....did it with Genevie? bc if he did, then that makes him so so soooo much of an asshole bc if my calculations are right (bc tom being gentle with her at the auditorium + asking if she was okay), Gen and y/n got pregnant around the same time so like, right after he had an affair with y/n, he then went and slept with his wife???? and that's just so so sooo shitty!!

second off, did tom know or like, had an inkling? if not, i hope he did :// obvs at the end of the day that's y/n's choice but, i wished she could've told him even weeks after the incident not bc i want them to be together or what not, that ship has long sailed, but just so she's not alone you know?? and it probably SUCKED SO BAD to receive that news when you just lost your baby with the same man like. gosh i can already see all the articles of "baby's first steps!" "first day of school!" bc let's be honest, those things get's broadcast at lot when it's the royal family and that's just like, a huge slap in the face and i feel so bad for y/n 😭 like all the "what could've been" thoughts ugh, i just hurt myself more

third off, what exactly was tom sorry for?? (i mean he has a lot to be sorry about lol but i want a bulletpoint of it pls and thanks thomas) i do have my suspicions that bc it's white roses, i mean white roses can mean so many things but one of them is goodbye, but also it does symbolises grief too?? SO DOES HE KNOW THEN??? or could he be grieving about their relationship?? bc i mean, with a royal baby on the way, that changes a lot of things bc he now how to focus on that. just WHAT ARE U SORRY FOR???? he should be sorry for everything tbh but STILL I WANT TO KNOW SKSKSK

lastly, gosh that hurt so much when she lost the baby. like i know she planned to get an abortion but i had a feeling it wasn't really what she wanted to do but what she had to. bc say, she kept the baby, if word got around? and found out who the father is? both y/n AND the child will suffer bc ppl are so rabid about protection the royal family so much. the names they're going to get called i just, it's not going to be pretty. but say she changed her mind and kept the baby, things could also have turned out for the better. but that choice was still taken away from her. like, it's the choice of it all. also, with rhys, he's sweet and stuff but eh sksks i know he's just there to fill the void so that's not really fair. he's going to be the genevie in the relationship. stuck with someone who's longing for someone else.

also i know you don't listen to taylor swift but just this song just feels like this whole story

blurb: i want to forget | tom holland

pairing/AU: university AU - modern king!tom holland x female!reader

summary: your last encounter with the King has left you in quite the pickle.

warnings: swearing, mentions of vomiting, abortion, blood

word count: 3.5k

a/n: this is the last post-epilogue blurb. this is their ending. it makes me really happy that people have enjoyed this story so much. like beyond happy:( i’m still open to do blurbs pre-epilogue for them, but i’ll only do them if i get a request. if not this will be the last thing i write for them. also full disclosure: i’m not british, which means idk if this is accurate portrayal of a british school. so, if it’s not, then please excuse that lmao

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[fairycosmos]

I have a question,, pls don't answer if it makes you uncomfy tho! So my gf dumped me yesterday and everything hurts. Obv I can't give all the details, but do you have any advice on how to get over someone you thought you were gonna spend forever with? Cause I'm kinda left here not knowing what to do anymore.. thank you sm. I really appreciate the kind words you say and the way you help people 💙

hey my love, i’m so so sorry to hear that 😞😞 this is just my take and your experience may very well be different, but break ups seem so tricky because there’s no quick fix or way to replace what has been lost, unfortunately. but there also doesn’t have to be. while it’s not ideal and i understand that it hurts like a fucking bitch - sitting with the pain and trying your best to process it in a healthy way, and allowing yourself to grieve at your own pace - is a much better course of action than spiraling into self hatred. or trying to fill the void with self destructive vices. it’s easy to turn this sort of thing into a blame game, to fall into the trap of thinking ‘why wasn’t i good enough?’, but the fact of the matter is that incompatibility isn’t caused by some great personal failing most of the time. it’s usually more of an issue of timing and two people simply wanting/needing different things. so while it’s alright to cry, to vent to your loved ones, to eat your weight in ice cream, to listen to sad heartbreak music - it’s also important to ground yourself in rationality every so often. when you catch yourself leaning into toxic thinking patterns/behaviours, try to remember that you are a whole person on your own. that even though you’re sad and you miss her, doesn’t mean you’re not healing at the same time. those two processes can occur simultaneously, and they often do. there’s generally no rule book to this sort of thing or time scale for when you need to ‘get over her’ by, so don’t worry about that. every day that you make it through, you’re learning how to be ok again and you’re making progress. even if it doesn’t seem like it. i know it probably feels like you’re never going to be happy again or like you’re never going to find love ever again, but that’s definitely an illusion caused by the emotional turmoil of losing someone. and while it’s normal to think that way for a while, it doesn’t mean it’s true. if you guys weren’t supposed to last then it’s because your future was opening up to make room for someone else, whether you meet them 5 months from now or 15 yrs from now. but the point is you don’t need your ex or even a romantic lover in order to feel fulfilled and appreciated and confident in who you are. you have worth as you are, whether or not anyone is around to comment on it. while it may take some time and a lot of personal growth to be able to appreciate that those attributes were inside you all along, it’s still very possible to get to that point especially if you give yourself the tools you need to thrive - by that i mean self love and patience, and opening up to those who care about you little by little. ultimately, you don’t have to know what to do right now. you just have to prioritize your own well being and allow the recovery process to take its course. it’s alright to have bad days, and it’s alright to be sad/pissed off/hurt. it’s how you choose to deal with those emotions, with actions, that makes all the difference. anyway im sorry i didn’t want to make this super long so, i’ll leave it at that. if you need a friend or if you want to talk abt anything, i’ll be here. please take care, you deserve the world. also thank you so much honey omg!! 💕 honestly i just talk a lot on here LOL helping is debatable but we love a conversation :)

[sethkate]

savannah A to Z pls

A = Aftercare (What they’re like after sex)

well in the beginning, since she and caleb were usually putting their clothes on and hurriedly being like ‘ok thanks bye!!!’ which savannah hated, i think now that they are Grown and in a relationship, she takes more advantage of the time they can spend together?? the only exception to this is, if time prevents them from doing aka if they spend 1 more second in bed they’re gonna be suuuper late to work. otherwise she’s all about cuddling, maybe just talking and catching up on each other’s lives since they have really opposite schedules and what not?? probably with a shower thrown in and definitely donuts in bed.

B = Body part (Their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

savannah likes her legs because caleb loves them tbh. her favorite body part on him is probably his dimples. also like…..every bit of him that is tattooed which i know is a lot but IDC.

C = Cum (Anything to do with cum basically… I’m a disgusting person)

sav isn’t grossed out by it as much as some girls can be??? she doesn’t throw a fit you know, if it’s in her hair or on her clothes or anything. and when it comes to swallowing her feelings can be summed up by this gif:

and on that note the rest is gonna be under the cut lmao

D = Dirty Secret (Pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

there was One time when sav had to be treated for an sti and it still haunts her to this day. like she was pressured into not using a condom (and i say that loosely bc she was prob pretty drunk so didn’t need much convincing tbh) and then unfortunately a week or so following the incident she found out what a true piece of shit the guy was. and then slashed all of his tires and broke his car windows in true savannah fashion :)

E = Experience (How experienced are they? Do they know what they’re doing?)

she’s more experienced than she would care to admit. for a long time, sex was just sex to her, so she used it to fill different voids. she didn’t really treat her body like it was something that needed to be earned and gave it out a lot more willingly than she ever would now. so honestly she’s a bit embarrassed by the number, but it’s a good thing it will never get any bigger because she’s only going to be with caleb now forever yay!

F = Favorite Position (This goes without saying. Will probably include a visual)

if they are having sex just to fuck around and get off (x) (x) cause they’re probably on the couch or in the car or something but y’know if they’re actually like makin love or whatever def something more like (x) so it’s more personal and they can ‘bond’ and what not lol.

G = Goofy (Are they more serious in the moment, or are they humorous, etc)

in life in general i think she’s way less serious than caleb, so she’s probably a bit more playful and goofy when they’re in the moment together. there are probably times when things are a bit more dire like their many, MANY instances of break-up, apology, or angry sex which wouldn’t call for that kind of humor, but for the most part she keeps it pretty light and probably tries to bring it out of caleb too.

H = Hair (How well groomed are they, does the carpet match the drapes, etc.)

savannah keeps up with shaving pretty regularly. most of the time she’s hair-free, but when life is nuts she might occasionally have a little stubble here and there.

I = Intimacy (How are they during the moment, romantic aspect…) 

for not having like A+ role models to demonstrate how to be soft and tender and intimate with someone, sav is pretty good at it. she loves caleb so she’s very into making sure that his needs are met?? which is crazy bc savannah would usually be selfish af and only care about herself. but she’s really attentive at making sure caleb gets the attention that he wants and that he walks away satisfied.

J = Jack Off (Masturbation headcanon)

both she and caleb are good at getting themselves off. once skype sex had to come into the picture because of the long distance thing and it was the only thing they could do, savannah became comfortable with touching herself and also adjusted to having someone else watch her do it. where before it may have been more of a private thing, once caleb moved to boston, all bets were off so sav got pretty into it. 

K = Kink (One or more of their kinks)

exhibitionism and agoraphilia are probably the biggest two coming to mind, mostly because of the riskiness that each of them involves. sav will eternally be an adrenaline junkie so anything that gives her a thrill like that will be something she’s into.

L = Location (Favorite places to do the do)

hotels probably!! ever since their first anniversary thing, there’s just something sav loves about spending a weekend in a place with a view, a massive bed, someone to clean the sheets daily, big showers/bath tubs and room service. it just has lots of luxuries that they don’t regularly have when they are at home, so whenever they make a reservation somewhere savannah goes big or goes home.

M = Motivation (What turns them on, gets them going)

honestly a few shots of tequila and a beer or two and she is Ready To Go. but it’s because she’s already suuuper attracted to caleb. like his almost quiet cockiness, lil bit of hard exterior/bad boy look, the tattoos. he really just has to look at her and smile and she’ll melt the big damn sap. but she is 100% about ass grabbing too. that’ll also do the trick.

N = NO (Something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

other than like..the real gross bodily fluid nonsense sav probably wouldn’t ever consider a threesome. like maybe she had a stupid meaningless one before and i’m sure she can caleb joked about it in the past (him obvs wanting to have two girls and sav saying she would prefer two guys) but i don’t think it’s something she would ever do with caleb. the thought of him with another girl drives her nuts, let alone seeing it up close and personal and having to go along with it?? no way jose!!

O = Oral (Preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc)

usually giving because in her experience a lot of guys don’t know wtf they are doing lmao. so she’d rather just get off a different way or by herself bc nothing is worse than lying there and either waiting for them to figure it out or having the mood killed bc you’re trying to explain to them in detail wtf they are doing wrong. sav’s extra giving when it comes to caleb though and she’s never really been shy about her talent with it either. so lucky him!!

P = Pace (Are they fast and rough? Slow and sensual? etc.)

depends on how much time she has. she’s proficient when she needs to get the job done quickly and knows what works and what doesn’t in a time crunch. but if there’s time to draw things out (although it’s usually hard for her to move at a slow pace in her life in general) sav has the capability of mellowing out a bit during sex. 

Q = Quickie (Their opinions on quickies rather than proper sex, how often, etc.)

i feel like with their lives, probably a good 70% is probably quickies simply because they just can’t ever get the timing, the place, the circumstances, etc. right. so it’s kinda just something that they are used to. but it’s always so nice when they actually can take their time with things and thoroughly enjoy each other. i imagine they probably make time to have sex 4-5 days out of the week, but more if they can manage it. 

R = Risk (Are they game to experiment, do they take risks, etc.)

savannah’s entire life is a risk??? so she’d be pretty down for anything. 

S = Stamina (How many rounds can they go for, how long do they last…)

for a smoker and someone who is 100% against working out, her stamina is pretty good. she can probably go 2-3 times in a day and she usually lasts about as long as caleb does. they’re pretty in sync with one another!

T = Toy (Do they own toys? Do they use them? On a partner or themselves?)

sav probably had to invest in some when they were doing the long distance thing. like before caleb if she wanted sex she could just go out and get it, but when her bf lived hundreds of miles away she had to get a little bit more creative. so she’s probably got a collection of a few things after trying different ones trying to find something that did the most comparable job to caleb haha. probably made darren go with her into the store too and i am literally Dying at the visual.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

i feel like savannah teased caleb a loooot more in the beginning?? because there was that whole cat/mouse chase element to their relationship. but now that she has him, she doesn’t need to lay it on super thick the way that she used to. but she’ll still do it in small ways if she needs to get his attention or something.

V = Volume (How loud they are, what sounds they make)

savannah usually doesnt restrict herself in volume when they have sex, which is just one of the trillllion reasons her neighbors hate her lmao. i mean she has a loud mouth outside of the bedroom sooo if that’s any indication. usually it’s just a lot of moaning, panting and probably swearing too knowing her. 

W = Wild Card (Get a random headcanon for the character of your choice)

i’d say savannah doesn’t remember probably more than half of her sexual experiences. i feel like since she didn’t take them very seriously, most of them were liquor/drug fueled some probably even borderline consensual since there’s no way she could have had any idea what was going on. 

X = X-Ray (Let’s see what’s going on in those pants, picture or words)

(x)

Y = Yearning (How high is their sex drive?)

it’s always kinda been on the higher side and then i think once she got with caleb and saw how good sex could be, especially when it was with someone you care about, it went up tremendously to the point where she can be pretty insatiable at times.

Z = ZZZ (… how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

it depends.... because usually sav and caleb are running on -138 hours of sleep so if that’s the case, they can fall asleep pretty quickly afterward. if they have more time to kill and more chinese food to finish they’ll probably just take a break and sleep it off later. 

[my-hero-aaron]

Provisional Licenses, Part 3

Perched up on the roof, atop a positively huge flower, sat Oliver, ready to hit some targets of his own with what looked like an improvised slingshot built from vines.

No sooner than I had pieced together just what Oliver was up to, was when he acted. A ball went whizzing over my head, and impacted with a dull thud. Before I could turn around to see what (or who) Ollie had hit, however, a sound like the world’s loudest vaccum tube being opened assaulted my ears, and I felt the air start to tear from my lips. Thankfully, there was a harsh drop in temperature to go with this odd effect permeating the air around me, and, in hindsight, that kept me lucid enough to channel the cold into a mask over my mouth and nose, keeping all the air from ripping from my lungs. Unfortunately, that momentary reaction gave whoever was behind me the opportunity they were looking for, and I heard the sound of a ball slamming into the target at my back.

Oh HECK, that’s not a good thing... was the only thought to cross my mind as I spun to face my opponent. The first thing I noticed about the girl was her hair, which, while a bit over the top, was an absolute look and she wore it well. It started out dark blue near her head, and gracefully blended to white at the tips. She wasn’t much taller than K, and her grey eyes were sharp with what looked like either shock, fury, or a dangerous combination of both. The rest of her face was covered by a pretty utilitarian gas mask, and there were a few tanks that it was connected to on her back. Immediately, I noted that two of the three targets scattered around her body were already lit, and I knew that this was my chance to take a step toward passing.Stepping forward out of the roaring din of air-weirdness she’d stuck me in, I threw what was in both hands at her with a surprisingly practiced motion. The snowball in my left hand, having been thrown just a bit earlier, worked magnificently as a feint, disintegrating against her chest harmlessly, forcing her to dodge into the path of the actual ball I’d thrown.

“Who are you and HOW THE HELL DID YOU NOT GET AFFECTED BY THAT?” Despite the muffling of her support item, the rage in her voice was incredibly evident.

In one smooth motion, I raised a hand to toss a finger gun the girl’s way, dispelling the mask around my face.

“Let’s just say I don’t freeze up like most folks! Thanks for the charge-up!” I quipped, turning to Kailey and taking her hand once again as I dashed off past the girl, who now looked so beside herself I was shocked she didn’t burst a vein or something.

After a bit of jogging, Kailey and I found ourselves in the middle of what looked like a town square. The lack of cover from the surrounding buildings had hardly begun to make me nervous before a few somewhat quiet footfalls could be heard from one of the surrounding buildings. Rather than whirling to face the sound like K did, I grit my teeth a bit, and stomped a foot, putting into motion the special move I had been working on. The balance between flow and surface area had been hard to pin down, and it still was nowhere near the efficiency I needed to really pull it off effectively. I could feel the collossal drain it was putting on the store of cold left in my chestplate, and I knew that we had to act fast. As best as I could, I reached out with my thermal senses, hoping to get a ping nearby. Other than my best friend right next to me, there seemed to be one other person in the area, obviously the source of the footsteps. Slowly, I let go of K’s hand, and started to walk toward them, the cloud of fog I was putting out coming with me. Clearly the cloud was having the intended effect, as a few stray balls came swirling through the fog in a vain attempt to hit me. Only one came close to it’s mark, and it was relatively simple to slip my arm out of the way. Thankfully, Kailey was behind me when I slipped into the building, and I did my best to maintain the cloud as we snuck up the stairs to try to find the person’s vantage point. She spotted the person ages before me, and a small flicker formed around Kailey’s prey as she threw three balls, aimed perfectly to hit the unaware young hero-to-be. Judging by the slowness of their reaction, that little flicker was K messing with time, and it was only a moment before the person let out a startled groan. With that, my best friend had passed the first part of the test, and now all that was left was for me to find one more person to knock out.   

Unfortunately, as I stepped down into the lower floor of the building, I found, upon examination, it was obvious that my chestpiece didn’t have much as far as stores of cold go. I knew the fog cloud was going to burn off a lot of what I had stored, but the fluid inside my armor was well, just that. Fluid. Even before we’d snuck in here under the cover of a bubble of mist, the thing had been frozen stock solid. Whatever I was going to do, it had to be two things: clever, and simple. Not to mention the fact that all I had keeping me from getting knocked out was the one target on the inside of my arm.

I slipped a palm against the wall, hoping there would be at least some sort of water piping in these buildings, but all I could feel, at least in my immediate vicinity, was concrete and plaster, and they were all plenty warm from the sun that was beating down into the arena. I’d really have to keep it economical, the last thing I needed was to overextend myself in the middle of a hostile arena like this. My moment of thought afforded me one grace, though. There was the telltale crunching sound of frozen grass outside reaching my ears, and it was obvious that it wasn’t K walking away. I scrambled to hide somewhere, anywhere in the building I was standing in, and thankfully, my dive behind the full-length bookshelf got me out of sight of whoever was walking in. Unfortunately, my movement was less than silent, so it was pretty clear there was someone else in the room, and my adversary tipped off that they knew this, calling out “Hey, I know you’re in here. Come out, face me! I want a good fight.”

My pulse quickened noticably at this. There weren’t exactly obvious actions to take here, and I could feel my brain screaming through options, trying to piece something together to pull off this fight in my favor.

“I saw you had two targets lit up, and I’m in the same boat. How about a duel?”

I pressed a hand to my chest, double checking just how much cold was stored there. By my estimation, I could maybe get away with one little blast of smoke, just enough to make whoever was challenging me’s throw that much harder. The last piece clicked into place, and taking in a deep breath, I unsnapped my cape from my shoulders, rolled out from behind where I was hiding, and put up a column of fog directly in front of the young man who was standing in the doorway. As I dashed forward to get in close, one hand had a tight grip on a ball, ready to strike, and the other flung my now loose cape into the fog. A small thud rang around the room as the cape did just what I was expecting it to: catch a ball that was heading for my now-open arm target. A few more dashed steps, and my target was directly in front of me: One of K’s childhood bullies.

“Game over, Hiraba.” I spat, my hand slamming into the third target on his chest. Apparently, I put a little bit more into the blow than I was intending, because he visibly stumbled, his heels slipping on the ice underfoot.  

“I-I-I- that’s not FAIR, Aaron! I couldn’t see you, and you were so much faster than I was expecting-”

“Consider yourself lucky I kept it to something small, you deserve worse.” I really hoped my face didn’t belie the incredibly obvious bluff I was pulling. Judging by the fear in his eyes, either he remembered that time I practically exploded when we were kids, or I was really selling the whole stabby mcgee angle. He had a few spluttering words for me as I turned on my heel, snatched up my cape off the floor, and stepped over him and through the doorway. I honestly didn’t hear a single one. Heck, I was so enthused about making it through this trial that I almost didn’t notice that Hiraba’s two partners in crime, Osaki and Kanai, were outside as well, more than a bit dumbfounded at the burning frost in my eyes and the smoke at my back, a bundle of cold-stiffened fabric in my hands.

As I walked into the little area that they had set up to gather all the folks who had completed the test, I spotted K’s vantablack gloves standing out in the crowd like someone had sliced the space they occupied out, leaving a sharp black void in their place. Thankfully, Oliver’s green hair was poking through the crowd next to her as well, and I jogged up to my pals, a smile on my face.

“Looks like we all made it, y’all! Got your snipe on, huh Ollie?”

“Golly, well it sure worked, I’m just glad that flower was so helpful!” Oliver chirped, bubbly as usual. I flashed a broader smile K’s way, a chuckle bubbling through it.

“Jeez hon, you really put the smackdown on Amber! Not like she didn’t have it coming or anything, but that was quite the trouncing.”

“As if you didn’t get a hit in on Mekai of all people!”

I opened my mouth to, if I was honest, get a little overexcited about the fact I managed to tag the guy who was aware of everything, there was a screech of interference blasted from the speakers, and the whole room was wincing as the screen in front of the table full of food flicked on.

“Alright, now that the last of you have arrived, we can make clear just what the second phase of the test is going to look like. If you’d direct your attention to the screen, please, everything will become clear.”

Mere moments after he’d stopped speaking, the camera view of the test field where we had just struggled to pull off that whole combat scenario filled the screen, and with a colossal roar, began to shake, the screen filling with smoke. Once things had cleared up, however, it was obvious just what had went down. The entire landscape of where we had just been was in ruins.

“As you can see, there has now been a terrorist attack by villains on the area. There are going to be a large variety of victims in the wreckage, and they need saving. Before the EMTs arrive, you’ll have to fill in. Get moving!” Once again, the walls of the room we were in fell with a creak, and we rushed in.

[nefariouscryptid]

Hm, so I have tons of other questions about Tariq, but instead of spamming, how about me requesting the "character polishing" prompt with him? As much of it as is established at least. Man, I'm lazy haha!

Once again only doing 25 cause it would kill me to do 50 hahah

1. How does your character think of their father? What do they hate and love about him? What influence - literal or imagined - did the father have?

As a young kid he didnt know what he father did, so he thought the world of him. Then, when he died, he found out everything. His father and mother worked for SLATE and he was appalled. Every ounce of admiration and love went down the drain. As he got older he learned to separate his father as being his father and from the man he was. He still loves his dad and understands that in his head he was doing what he had to do to help his family, but his image of him is still forever tainted. The influence he had on Tariq was him being a family man and acting as a protector and the whole “family is everything” mindset.

2. Their mother? How do they think of her? What do they hate? Love? What influence - literal or imagined - did the mother have?

The same applies for his mom. Loved her, then despised her, then sorta loved her again. However it became apparent as he’d look back on his life and realized his mom never seemed happy when coming back from work. He doesn’t know why for sure but he knows that there was always regret in her eyes. He learned to pity her.

3. Brothers, sisters? Who do they like? Why? What do they despise about their siblings?

He has his sister Aisha, who he is very close with. She’s like a best friend to him. Of course they don’t agree on everything and she was actually against him joining Morgan at first because of how dangerous it was, but soon joined herself. The problem they often have is that Aisha acts like she’s older then Tariq by 10 years and treats him as such. So like he’s incapable of making his own decisions. That causes some problems but mostly they get along very well. He loves her dark sense of humor and how outgoing and fun she is to be around. Hates how she can be condescending even without meaning to.

4. What type of discipline was your character subjected to at home? Strict? Lenient?

It was strict, because after joining SLATE they went from being extremely poor to very wealthy. Because of that they were often made to take every opportunity they had and to constantly be the best they could. Their parents weren’t mean to them but they often pushed them to their limits way too much.

5. Were they overprotected as a child? Sheltered?

Overprotected because their parents now knew what horrible things could happen to their kids. They didn’t know WHAT to protect them from so it ended up being over things that were harmless.

6. Did they feel rejection or affection as a child?

Affection, even if they were being punished or at the most feeling like they were wasting their privileges they were still very cared for.

7. What was the economic status of their family?

From 0-8 very poor, probably 20k a year. After they were at at least 600k a year.

8. How does your character feel about religion?

He’s Muslim, and while he’s not a die hard Muslim he still prays and participates in holidays if he can. He thinks religion is wonderful when you’re not abusing it to your power.

9. What about political beliefs?

Anticiv and believes in a lot of ideologies from anprimitivism

10. Is your character street-smart, book-smart, intelligent, intellectual, slow-witted?

He’s very book smart, great at math like physics, and he’s street smart as well. It takes him a while to learn things, but he’s very intelligent. He just has a hard time remembering stuff

11. How do they see themselves: as smart, as intelligent, uneducated?

He sees himself as smart but not as smart as everyone makes him out to be. He tries to humble himself, even though he should just embrace he’s a math wiz lol

12. How does their education and intelligence – or lack thereof - reflect in their speech pattern, vocabulary, and pronunciations?

Fluent in both English and Farsi, and in both he speaks using little slang. I don’t know how to describe it he just talks like a normal guy. However some Farsi pronounciations bleed into when he speaks English

13. Did they like school? Teachers? Schoolmates?

He doesn’t have an education past sophomore year of highschool but up until then he really liked it. He got along with everyone really well and had good grades.

14. Were they involved at school? Sports? Clubs? Debate? Were they unconnected

Nope, didn’t do any of those stuff. He hung out with his friends mostly haha.

15. Did they graduate? High-School? College? Do they have a PHD? A GED?

Didn’t graduate, parents died before he could. And with the stage of the world it made it impossible to get a GED.

16. What does your character do for a living? How do they see their profession? What do they like about it? Dislike?

Before he worked as a car mechanic, then he quit his job and joined Morgan’s squat. He liked his job but he hated the demand and just the whole premis of having to buy a house, pay rent, taxes ect.

17. Did they travel? Where? Why? When?

Traveled a lot via train and hitch hiking in America (no longer America cause of Frikoski). Had to get around for planning and plus it’s fun being on the move.

18. What did they find abroad, and what did they remember?

Found a lot of crazy shit, and he was one of the first to witness some hanging gardens at their newer state. He remembers or of people he met.

19. What were your character’s deepest disillusions? In life? What are they now?

He just hated the state of the world, he he hated how much money controlled everyone and that money was deemed as a privilege. It fueled him to join something that would put an end to it. He’s now an avid figure in the revolution

20. What were the most deeply impressive political or social, national or international, events that they experienced?

Revolution

21. What are your character’s manners like? What is their type of hero? Whom do they hate?

He’s fairly polite, not overly but he’s not rude either. He likes hero’s that fight for the good of all people. Hates hero’s that fight to fill some void in themselves

22. Who are their friends? Lovers? ‘Type’ or ‘ideal’ partner?

His friends are Morgan, Brenda, Aisha obviously, and he’s dating Leslie at some point. He likes people that are just outgoing, easy to get along with, good views, and opinionated

23. What do they want from a partner? What do they think and feel of sex?

Same thing everyone else does, love, not too clingy but emotionally available, and someone that’s like him but not completely like him. He likes sex a lot, not obsessed but he likes it

24. What social groups and activities does your character attend? What role do they like to play? What role do they actually play, usually?

He attends obv riots, meetings with Morgan and the squat and more international meetings, he also along with Jackie gets intel with people. He’s like a mentor in that department for her so he takes being the leader. Most of the time he doesn’t care though

25. What are their hobbies and interests?

He loves playing acoustic guitar, harmonica, banjo, and banging on a tub

[thetwistedrope]

Not being mean, I honestly want to know, what are the main tenants of ma'at everyone should follow?

So the answer to this could probably be a couple of miles long, tbh. But I’m going to try and give you guys a concise list of some of the most common themes I’ve seen over the years while reading up on ma’at. Most of this stuff comes from Karenga, Quirke and Muhlenstein. I’ve bolded the key points to help for readability.

So, to start off with…

Humility. You are supposed to be humble. Conversely, you’re supposed to not be arrogant or overly prideful.

Moderation is another common theme. This is why Set is often othered, because he lacks moderation in many respects. This is reflected in what you consume, how you respond to people, how you act, etc. I would also argue that it’s also about how you live (aka the wealth you obtain), but I don’t know that that is historically corroborated (probably not, tbh, because you were supposed to give your wealth to those who had less, and so long as you were giving back, you’d be golden afaict).

Giving to those who have less than you. This is commonly worded as “clothing the naked, giving a home to the homeless, a boat to the boatless, feeding the hungry, etc.” It’s about giving to those who have less than you. Egypt failed on this a lot. A lot of modern practitioners also fail on it.

Not being a jerk to other people. Esp. if they have less than you. It’s written in the wisdom texts that if someone who is of lesser rank than you spouts off, it’ll do you well to listen to them, but not to berate them. Leave that to someone who is of an authority to do so. This also goes back to moderation.

All in all, finding your place within your community, and doing what you can to help the community. This is probably because before the modern era, humans truly required their fellows to help them survive. No man was an island before the modern era, and everyone was needed to help keep everything running smoothly. Hence the emphasis on community in the here and now. This, ofc, means more than just the Kemetic community, but also the ppl you live next to. Conversely, it also seems to tie into not suffering people who would destroy your community.

Doing your job well, being a hard worker, having a good work ethic. Not being a cheating, swindling jerkface.

Self-reflection and making self-awareness and growth something of a priority. Taking the time to look at yourself and being honest with what you need to improve, and working to make improvements as you are able.

Maintaining the cult of the gods. This is arguably more relevant to the people whose jobs it was to do this on the regular (aka the king, priests), but it still deserves a place on the list. The gods helped us maintain Order, maintain our world. As such, it benefited us to take care of them. Conversely, if the gods weren’t fulfilling their roles, it was also within ma’at to call them on it (see my point about doing your job well) and refuse to take care of their needs until your needs (or the community’s needs) are met.

These all seem pretty self-explanatory, imo. And they are probably the most commonly sighted tenets of ma’at. The rules shift, however, when ma’at is threatened. Muhlenstein writes about this extensively in his text “Violence in the Service of Order.” In order to get a complete idea of what ma’at entails, we need to examine this side of things, too:

Being willing to smite isfet when it shows up. This is often referred to as “smiting Set’s confederates” or something similar. Ma’at is all about creating something, and maintaining that creation–which means defending it when necessary. So when someone shows up and tries to wreck the party, you wreck that person’s face and send them packing.

Once any isfet is eradicated, you are supposed to replace it with ma’at. It’s not good enough to just cut down isfet where it stands. You need to replace that void with ma’at, otherwise the isfet will return to fill the void.

Taking care of your community is another aspect of this. Egypt used this as an excuse to go conquesting. Pretty sure most of us know that colonialism is bad and would add in extra caveats on what is acceptable for “taking care of your own”, but from a purely historical standpoint, this meant beating down anyone who had stuff you wanted so that you could bring more resources back to your home. In a more modern context, I would argue that it means helping your fellows to succeed and to be safe. This is also more than just our Kemetic community, and should include people who are a part of your life or in-person community.

Protecting what you have built (usually referred to as Order, protecting Order.) This honestly is just a succinct way of saying what I said in the last three bullets.

Now, obvs, not everyone is cut out to smite isfet or help defend things on the regular. And that’s fine. However, just because you’re not able or not necessarily comfortable with it doesn’t mean that you should get in the way of those who are willing and able to do so. I think that’s honestly one of the largest issues I see in most situations. “I’m made uncomfortable by this, and therefore you shouldn’t do the thing, because I personally wouldn’t want the thing done.” Even though defending the community and those who are adherents of ma’at is part and parcel with ma’at in certain contexts.

Given how extensive ma’at is, it’s possible that I’ve missed some things, but these are probably the highlights of what comes to mind. If anyone else can think of anything I’ve missed, feel free to add.

[thesepeopleproject]

People (obv not VIPs) are in such a hurry to say someone else is the “next GD,” “next BIGBANG”. I get that you want to quickly fill in that void but let’s all stop pretending these people are anywhere close to what GD & BIGBANG are in the music/fashion scene

— Amiee 👑🐉🐻🐼👼🏻🔝👑 (@bbvip4lyfe94) June 17, 2018

[colorisbyshe]

I really wish people would realize that homophobes don't give a shit about if a bi woman is also attracted to men, except in a fetishizing context. I had the d slur hurled at me while being chased and terrorized, would telling the men who did it that I was actually bi have helped at all? Absolutely fucking not. Obvs there are differences in lesbian and bi experiences but every time I'm with my wife nobody cares about my attraction to men, they only care that I'm with a woman.

I feel like straight people have broken us down. We’ve been living on crumbs our whole lives, so the second we get something substantial to eat–words to reclaim, safe spaces, love and support–we don’t want to share. It makes sense. We’ve been starving for so long, we’ve grown so used to our stomachs hurting with all the touches and love we’ve been starved of. Why would we ever want to share with someone else?

But that’s us forgetting that sharing isn’t just something you do with someone else, they do it back. Bisexual and lesbian solidarity isn’t lesbians giving bisexual women something just to get nothing back except for an emptier stomach. It isn’t bisexual women giving lesbian something just to hear their stomach growl back instead of even a “thank you.“ It’s bisexual and lesbian women giving each other their crumbs and their food and their drinks and making a feast to finally fill ourselves and our voids with.

I’ll say it again–I get why we’d be willing to starve ourselves a bit just to protect our own. I get the fierce possessiveness and “this is my love, this is my pain, this is not yours.”

I just think we’d all be a bit fuller if we realized that we were all once starving but now we aren’t. And we can fill ourselves to bursting if we just fucking shared and stopped acting like the cishets have won and have turned us on each other.