#nurofenplus

[nickanno]

To combat the withdraws i went pharmacy shopping today, SO once again, its a must to let someone else hold my stash. (is the moral to myself lol)

Not to mention I took 1 of my zopiclone sleeping pills this morning, (because they hide my anxiety). I WOULD NOT ! have taken that in the morning, if I had woken up and had my taper dose there waiting.

Cheating on my taper program, really does just totally fuck up the whole goal of becoming 100% clean, I really need to ram this into my fucking brain.

Other than that, the day was good, got me some sun tanning in, got me some exercise, got me some social interaction

[mrshighhorse]

Lurgy-licious

So, it 4am. I’m awake, throat like razor blades, waiting for my painkillers to kick in and do their job - seeing as I am going to be summoned from my beautiful slumber in exactly four hours. I sit here in the silence, dying for a wee - but seeing as Monkey-Boy is still awake (darling hubby let him crash earlier, he woke up at 11pm and refuses to go back to sleep - yay) and knowing he’ll end up calling me, and making a ridiculous noise - a noise that resembles a cow ‘moo-ing’, I’d rather sit here, cross my legs and wait. Hubby got up with him for a few hours, hoping he’d crash again, but no. So here I sit, thinking about writing some kind of blog that has some similarity to Pollyanna’s ‘Glad Game’, but, oh, hang on - what’s that? Silence? It sure bloody is. Screw Pollyanna’s ‘Glad Game’, I’m ending this and I’m back off to bed. Bring it on! Zzzzzz.

[nickanno]

long story short popping 20+ nurofen+ a day

[nickanno]

anyway back to the #codeine addiction

part3

somehow along the lines of my 20s i quit drinking (but still smoke tobacco) and things were reasonably well, i have a good job, i have a steady income and a pretty good life. BUT sometime early 2015 say (January). I got introduced to codeine phosphate. little small round white 30mg pills.. I should mention that i suffer from migraines ever since i was a kid, the type that wreck you so bad u vomit all the time, cant hold anything down and all u want to do is get a gun and shoot yourself in the head.

at this point i had tried everything.. SOOO i told my doc “look i need something fast acting that i can hold down” and so i was prescribed 40, 30mg codeine  phosphate pills and paracetamol (which is my opionion is shit lol)

NOW at first i thought WOOOW these are a wonder drug, they worked so well.

But little did i know this would have been when my nightmare began