#now it’s just terrible bc the managers are terrible | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

lobotomy-lady · 1 day ago

Note

How did you figure out you were autistic? I know this is gonna sound ignorant because I am ignorant but from my very limited interactions with those on the spectrum you act pretty differently. You are heavily sarcastic and seem to understand when someone is joking in your asks versus not even over text. Idk. I know there's like levels and stuff but you seem pretty socially aware and funnier than most so now I'm just like what makes you different from a neurotypical? I tried googling about autism and it seems a lot of high functioning people have like sensory issues and are picky eaters but like, is that it ? Just curious

I am not self dx so I never "figured it out", I was diagnosed aspergers (back when that was the dx for high functioning tism) when I was 6, my mom took me to a psychiatrist. at that time I was selectively mute-ppl at school thought I was incapable of speech bc between ages 4 to 9 didnt talk at all except at home to family. I had frequent meltdowns due to emotional regulation problems and also cuz of severe sensory issues (sound, the feel of clothing which led me to wear the same outfit every day for years, temperature). Even when I started talking a little more at school I was TERRIBLE socially. I was made fun of constantly & didn't get what i was doing wrong but they always thought I was weird & they thought it was funny that I didn't understand that I was being made fun of until they started laughing & even then i didnt get what i was doing wrong. It didnt help that i was 5'9 and 140 pounds by age 9 I was very aware I stood out a lot both physically & behaviorally

So yeah like most kids on the spectrum I was bullied relentlessly for the childhood years due to my social ineptitude and general awkwardness & it continued until I managed to group in w/ the other unpopular "weird" girls with bad social skills in junior high. Still friends with some of them. So i wasnt as much of a target then tho I was still gossiped about, ppl started a rumor that I never bathed due to my habit of wearing the same thing every day (I had multiple versions of that outfit but not as if they would know). Special interests were a huge thing too obv. I read probably 8 hrs a day mostly books related to space or when I was younger dolphins.

But anyways, bc of my experiences when I was younger I knew I had to learn to assimilate, or mask as I later learned it was called. I studied that shit like it was my PhD. I learned how to talk enough (but not too much!) I learned how to make eye contact (but not too much!!), learned how to be playful but not be rude, learned to run to a bathroom before having a meltdown in public, learned to buy different clothes out of similar material, to not be seen eating the same exact food every day for months. Learned how to not infodump about an interest unless I knew the person cared about it. I had learned most of this well enough by halfway through high school to stop being seen as a total freak, & by adulthood I was not only not BAD at socializing but actually GOOD at it, tho it still was (and is) exhausting & requires a lot of recovery time alone.

Anyways tldr basically my point is the person you perceive now was constructed out of necessity to avoid being a pariah forever which is what I knew would happen if I didnt change. I was an autistic kid & now I'm an adult who very easily passes as allistic. I've been doing it so long that most of it doesn't take much effort anymore. I've always been good at learning things. sarcasm and humor can be learned & I've been at this awhile needless to say

#in my early 20s i had this idea that i had ''cured myself'' of the autism lol. tho certainly not the bipolar or the other mental issues. but #that isnt how it works #also its funny that self dx autism is so common now #common enough that you assumed that was the case with me . but nope i was hauled to the psychiatrist veeery early #asks

20 notes · View notes

crepusculum-rattus · 5 months ago

Text

man o(-( i miss when my job didn’t fucking Suck

#like. it used to be fun even tho it was bad for my joints #now it’s just terrible bc the managers are terrible #and constantly under staff us :/#which is NOT something a ropes course/zipline place should do😭😭😭#like DAWG we need as many ppl as we can get to keep ppl SAFE #stupid fucks #🐀

4 notes · View notes

pollen · 3 months ago

Text

i've been diving a lot deeper into adhd symptoms and comorbidities and misdiagnoses and whenever i tell my boyfriend something i learned that sounds like me he responds with something like

#idk he knows me more than anyone bc i can't hide the parts i'm ashamed of from him #last night he was like. yeah EYE think you have adhd but i'm just some guy #idk i'm excited about this not because i want to be Quirky for internet reasons. yknow. but bc i've felt like an impostor of a human being #and i have no sense of self and i can't get myself to do basic tasks and the thought of doing something i don't want to do #genuinely makes me want to throw up/my brain shuts down/i can't think or talk or function to the point where i can't work.#so i can't support myself. so i feel terrible about myself. and i've been in and out of therapy for 20 years and have numerous diagnoses #that have never really felt like they fully encapsulate what's going on. and like. i've kinda just internalized that i'm not as good at #being a person as everyone else because i struggle so so much. like yeah i did well in school but i had to sacrifice literally everything #else to do that. idk how everyone else is managing to have a job and hobbies and friends #i get to pick like. one now. i used to be able to juggle everything to some degree although i felt like i was being careless in all areas #except school. i'm so scared of making mistakes or starting anything or talking to new people or trying new hobbies #because i know it won't interest me more than a couple weeks MAX and i'll feel listless and restless again #and i've come to understand this as part of who i am at my core. i'm just someone who can't commit and isn't reliable or a good friend #i just want so badly for that not to be the case because i want so badly to not be stuck like this #idk im going home to talk to my dad this weekend and just rest because i'm really really not doing well #which is why i'm scrambling to try to figure out what's going on with me because idk how much longer i feasibly can do this #and i might be moving back to the pnw bc therapists in pa don't work with medicaid #and no psychiatrists near me are taking new patients. and i can't work to get on private insurance. but therapists in or do work w medicaid #so idk. again if youre diagnosed w adhd and this sounds not like someone who is consuming social media brain rot content about adhd #but rather someone whose experiences you identify with. please let me know. please please #i am reaching out to professionals also but things move slowly and i'm trying to compile evidence so i don't sound like i'm making it up

8 notes · View notes

adore-gregor · 2 months ago

Text

Lol I keep on doing this, saying I'd come back to tumblr to only disappear again 😂😭

#and i hate it bc i miss being on here #but also i don't have to force myself or feel guilty for it #bc if i'm fr being on social media is just so time consuming and also not what is good for my mental health often #and that includes tumblr #it's not even that it's a toxic place (at least not the content i'm consuming) but sometimes i just rather spend my time with people irl #meeting someone than on social media and like focus on my life #the last month or so was just really difficult for me and i haven't been feeling so bad mentally in forever #i mean it always is like that that time of the year but i feel like i was worse this year #whenever autumn comes around with the darkness and cold i seem to hit a low mentally #when i tell you how much better my mood is in summer spring how much better i feel everyday regardless of everything else #i get people like autumn but for me its literally the worst and winter too altough at some point it gets better #maybe i adapt and maybe because i spend more time outside around christmas when i go home that's usually a turning point #and ig also the lights of december make it a bit better #but mid october to november is awful #this year the weather was much worse beginning of october was much worse #i feel like i lowkey have this seasonal mood disorder idk #but i barely managed to go to classes and i had no motivation #usually i always make myself study and do the things i have to atleast altough i often terribly procrastinate #but now i was barely able to do this and i had things to do but i couldn't make myself i missed a deadline closely #luckily my professors are the best but i felt so horrible for it how i was unable to get it done #sunlight is just so good for my mood and ik how doctors say how you should avoid it because you can get skincancer #but like i'd rather than my mental health being this bad (not that i want either)#i already miss summer so much and being happier #but tbh i haven't felt this good as I do today in weeks and even this whole week was better #i exercised more than usual altough i tried to in the last weeks i couldn't as often as i normally do so maybe this actually helps a lot #and i studied yesterday today and i will tomorrow i finally feel motivation again #besides i also tried to break up with my bf so that was also tough but i couldn't lol #i tried talking to him and tell him in the nicest way but he didn't get what i was trying to do and i couldn't say more bc i felt horrible #but maybe that's for the better altough i had these thoughts for a while that he just isn't the one for me and that we're too different...#i do really like him as a person the way he treats me and i'm still into him but i just felt like it wouldn't work

5 notes · View notes

deus-ex-mona · 3 days ago

Text

genuinely, though, this has truly been a time to be a lurker on jp music project twt

#quick timeline of events straight from my twt dash that i still cant believe i had the joy of witnessing:#the chaos began a few months ago with the tu.yu deletion threat. then things seemed fine for a bit*#*(if you don’t count the en.strries and pj.sktwt beating each other in the qrts every other hour or so)#then nghy became canon and that’s when the coincidences began to line up in a bewildering series of events #nghy outrage came first. then kinchan (hanamaru llss) announced her marriage (surprisingly gom was there in the comments which was funny)#but what wasnt funny was people trying to cancel her *just* for getting married. (c’mon guys cant you be happy for your oshi smh)#and *then* people tried to cancel the new ll group for allegedly using a.i generated album artwork based off a low res image #which was quickly debunked by subsequent releases over the following days but. the damage was done. smh #and *t h e n* tu.yu deletion was cancelled via twt poll. which. was a choice. ig.#(still think they should’ve deleted instead of guilt tripping their fans with the poll options tbh. but oh well.)#and *now* there’s the. choice. made by en.st. that im not touching with a 10 foot pole bc everything that needs to be said about it #has already been expressed more eloquently by twt users and their ‘creative’ threats to the management. it’s still a horrific choice though.#b u t there was someone comparing the en.st. ‘choice’ with lxl last stage (the part where the green dude tore up the ‘new member’ paper)#and someone qrted that and said sth like ‘well that’s well and good for lxl’s story. b u t…’#‘(hw) management ruined the story of a love series character (hiyori) by pairing her off with a childhood friend who appeared from nowhere’#‘so maybe it’s not the best example to use when it comes to management choices’ and so………..#we’ve come full circle back to nghy outrage!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what a time to be alive. man. seriously.#i think it’s a truly terrible coincidence how all of these happened within days of each other (minus the tu.yu initial deletion notice)#…anyways i think twt is a horrible place to be on. that’s all.#but. point is. i think everyone should just try to be decent(?) people on the interwebs #if you have nothing nice to say just don’t say anything at all yk~~~~~~~#…unless you’re an en.strrie. then pls direct your complaints to the official management instead of each other~~~ it’s all their fault~~~~#so glad i dont care much for en.strs anymore tbh. md.chips who left early back during the sudden pivot to chi.kn were on to something tbh #…aight enough doomscrolling for one evening. back to cleaning idolsengen pages (or trying to at least)#this has truly been an immersive asuna experience… or something

6 notes · View notes

steampoweredskeleton · 27 days ago

Text

.

Ignore

#delete later #wildly embarrassing meeting today where managers brought up concerns about my work and i had to explain that i cant get my #shit together bc my ocd is being a bitch and i can't think properly. and nearly cried multiple times so thats. embarrassing. and now #i am actually crying bc i cant do shit right atm anf its so frustrating ao so frustrating #fuck im tired of it all. they were so nice aboit it evej though i know ive pissed them off and made them frustrated.#i feel shitty bc it feels like ibe just given an excuse as to why they cant be angry at me when they absolutely should be #but im also terrified of them being angry at me so maybe i dud just use it as an excuse and am terrible and shitty #all while knowing FULL WELL that im feeling like this BC im in an ocd episode and moral scrupulosity is a part of my ocd #its this intense BC my ocd is not great atm. its so frustrating abd exhausting and makes me want to scream. and i know that ive #slipped backwards in terms of my skills. i fycking hate it. i hate it.#i just feel useless atm. and it's miserable. and im making things harder for other ppl and that makes me worse than useless #but at the same time i know why i feel like this and why i cant operate how i usually do but that just makes me more angry

2 notes · View notes

orcelito · 11 months ago

Text

My druid has "fuckboy" written all over her

#speculation nation #shes a druid but she does Not look it. nor does she act like it really.#druid stuff exists to beef myself up as a front liner (spores druid ftw)#and to act as an excuse like 'whaaaat why r u so suspicious of me im a druid 🥺🥺🥺 i just want what's best for nature 🥺🥺🥺'#meanwhile here i am hogging ALL the worms we manage to find (or. well. most of them.)#bc im going full ham into my powers lol theyre so useful #this is a game of pressing Every button and seeing what happens. yet still going along the lines of good? approximately?#it very much does feel like the kind of thing a druid drow would do. willing to consort with the darkness #but still ultimately striving for peace and order.#i am just perhaps a little bug-brained to accomplish this :3 #ive been playing a Lot of bg3. progressing well through act 2. everything is so very scary and i am just 1 druid 🥺#(i say as if i havent killed literally every single enemy ive come across. im so fucking good at this game.)#the house of healing was by far my least favorite part (so far). that boss battle was TERRIBLE but i managed to get through it.#according to my friends they just talked their way out of it. not me tho. i saw that guy strapped to the table and i was just like #'GET FUCKED BRO' *casts moonbeam* *proceeds to get the shit stabbed outta me*#holy shit he did so much damage. and he was focused ONLY ON ME.......#took me and shadowheart both healing to keep up with the damage he was doing (while astarion and karlach did most of the attacking)#but i did it! hes gone! but holy shit poking around his stuff has been so. eugh.#im in the towers now. so scary. just barely started them tho. gonna look for the prisoners and then proceed from there.#that ketheric dude is fucking terrifying. so big scared about him. but All Men Die The Same 😈#.....well maybe not exactly the same given his 'immortality' thing 😂 but i'll figure it out.#anyways yea check out taltana im going for a mixed feminine and masculine kinda vibes with her. and enjoying it very much.#bg3 spoilers/

11 notes · View notes

f1owermoon · 4 months ago

Text

sorry i just. need to rant for a second

#cause dude the whole joost situation is SO fucking upsetting #he's mentioned over and over again how overwhelming this whole overnight success thing has been for him and to respect his boundaries #and instead of yk respecting his wishes “fans” go and make things worse by constantly overstepping and being creepy and weird like hello???#like why can't we all just be normal and take a step back and enjoy things #these people are gonna end up driving him off the internet and i wouldn't blame him one bit #and the worst part is the people who should get the memo obviously don't (or refuse to) bc this isn't an isolated instance #like its been going on for a while now #idk man i just think about how hard it must be for him rn #one of the things that turned me into a joost fan (besides his music) was his personality #like i obviously dont know him on a personal basis #but from the little bits ive seen he comes across as a really genuine and sweet and kind dude #super thoughtful as well. like i just love the way he thinks and his take on things #like i remember watching his eurovision interviews and just thinking oh man this dude's a ray of sunshine LMFAO #also the literal definition of resilience like dude's been through so much stuff and hes always managed to come out on top despite of it #and thats something i really admire about him too. like the way he put it as not letting your traumas be just that #but also something that can drive you forward #but yeah dude's had more than enough like he deserves to be happy and have some peace and ppl keep ruining it for him and it makes me upset #like i actually slept like shit last night and woke up feeling terrible and i wonder if what went down yesterday w the whole live thing #has anything to do with it lmfao #and you may be like ok well youre taking it too personally and letting it affect you #and yeah maybe youre right LOL but i cant help it i care about the guy and i want him to be okay #he seems to have a really good support system though so i hope things blow over soon and he can finally have some peace #anyway. rant over! 💋#raquel speaks

4 notes · View notes

lem-argentum · 4 months ago

Text

playing ff.xiv blind as a th.ancred fan from the beginning is so funny. “hmm i wonder where than is- WHAT DO YOU MEAN HE WAS POSSESSED BY ONE OF THE MOST POWERFUL BEINGS IN THE UNIVERSE….....” “hmm i wonder what happened to than after he was teleported from the- HIS ABILITY TO INTERACT WITH THE NATURAL ENERGY OF THE WORLD WAS SEVERED AND HE HAD TO FEND FOR HIMSELF FOR MONTHS IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE????” “yaay than gets to help us with planning our defenses :D- DID HE JUST DIEoh he’s not dead his soul was just RIPPED AWAY TO ANOTJEJR WORLD????!?!?” “ohh he gets to fight r.yne’s awful guardian figure i wonder what he’s gonna- DID HE JUST DIEoh he’s fine nevermind he gets to have resolved character development now :)” “aww okay we get to go to the end of the universe together, and he’s already gone through so much so clearly nothing bad will happen to hDID HE J

#lem text #🌊#xivposting #he never ever ever ever gets a break it’s so funny. i’m sure the game is done messing with him now for dt but AGJFNWZKR #literally as SOON as the i.frit fight happens in arr he never gets to rest until the end of shb.#like okaayyy *overworks self to the point of aetheric vulnerability or whatever -> is used as a tool for bringing about a terrible calamity #-> teleported to the wilderness never able to use magic again or interact with the world normally; unsure if friends are alive for months #-> learns that sister-figure is missing and then learns that she is basically dead -> angst arc while trying to hide all of problems #-> thinks he gets a chance to rest and is literally yoinked from his world on accident with nothing he can do about it;#forced to adapt to a whole other planet overflowing with its own tragedies with no way of contacting anyone he knows #-> discovers that sister-figure has been basically reincarnated; takes on responsibility to save her #-> manages to do so after TWO YEARS but still hasn’t gotten over grief -> has to be a parent on the run with daughter-figure now #-> waiting as random stranger tries & fails to summon the hero from his world; evading government in a land only a fraction the size of his #-> spends THREE MORE YEARS running from authorities with daughter who reminds him too much of sister-figure; is still hiding all problems #-> can only solve his problems by almost dying; apparently. does so. life becomes good until he decides he has to almost die again #-> DOES SO. and then life becomes good again. problems mayhap still not processed. average th.ancred waters lifestyle #i think his story has a big theme of like. lack of agency; and i could talk more about it but i just think it’s really interesting and sad-#that his whole childhood (limsa+sharlayan) was out of his control with his life path being chosen for him out of necessity+circumstance #he was brought to sharlayan so young and then The Incident happens at *17* indebting him to min.filia bc he sees himself responsible #and then gigantic life-changing things happen to him *also* out of his control (hinterlands+the first)#and when he finally gets to pick a long-term route for himself he fucks it up! doing everything intentionally but hurting r.yne for years!#he’s the FIRST ONE SUMMONED TO THE FIRST… A NEW WORLD… IT WAS LIKE A FRESH START… AND AUGJF HDH . IDK DO YOU GET IT.#i haven’t written this many tags in forever i guess i have to put it in the:#lem ramblings #ok i’m done. thancrebbbbbdd <3. goodnight <3.

6 notes · View notes

asshuka · 1 year ago

Text

MERRY KAGAMINEMAS i painted this in a hurry thinking their birthday was. the 26th somehow

this is my ice fog redesign and my snowman rin module named snow drop :>

commissions 🌠 ko-fi 🌠 patreon

#vocaloid #vocasynth #kagamine len #kagamine rin #piapro characters #project mirai #project diva #fanart #colored #2023 #let me tell u the first time i tried to actually start this last week #my brain was so resistant to it i had a mental breakdown #so i'm really happy i managed it in the end ; w ;!!!!#i've been a kagaminehead for years and years but never managed to do bday art bc i'm terrible with timed art #but i wanted to try this year!!#either way these designs r fun i just kinda doodled random expressions when i designed them but they're my hcs now #ice fog is smiling but has a cold interior like he's hard to get close to #while snow drop has a cold exterior but is truly a softie #so outwardly they're like the opposite of my usual rin and len hcs... ogh module hcs are so fun

8 notes · View notes

wander-wren · 6 months ago

Text

me: i don’t wanna be a cog in the capitalist machine!! my job doesn’t care about me and i literally don’t get paid enough to care about it!!

the part of me relentlessly scrutinized for being the family fuckup: but,,,,when i do good job customers like me,,,,when i do extra managers think i’m the best,,,,

#bird noises #work sucks in a lot of ways #it’s just food service nothing special and it will destroy my body eventually #but also it is genuinely better for my mental health to just. get positive feedback and interact with people in a nice way #i havent really had any terrible customers yet. the occasional grumpy or kinda rude one but nothing i cant shake off in a second #that probably helps #its funny bc my parents notice the difference and its like GEE I WONDER HOW ELSE THIS COULD HAVE OCCURRED #PERHAPS IF THE HUMANS I LIVE WITH WERE ALSO NICE TO ME #but alas……#anyway thinking about this bc i accidentally volunteered myself to do two people’s closing tasks and that sucked #but my manager said im amazing soooooooooo maybe it was worth it #i’m gonna fight whoever’s in charge of their advertising tho for saying they have a ‘competitive wage’#which is $3-4 less than the nearby ‘good’ places money-wise AND ALSO. exactly the same or less than what people were making at this location #THREE YEARS AGO #which i know because i worked here. making $2.50 less. but i talked to the new hires and found out they made a good chunk more #we do get tips which is like an extra $1-1.50 so thats nice but its not competitive my friend #its barely acceptable #theyre lucky no one else would hire me #also pisses me off bc their main website advertises their starting wages as ACTUALLY competitive but c’est la vie #i’m in a weird situation where i need to Be Employed more than i need money per se so i’m fine with it for now #wren stop talking about panera challenge

5 notes · View notes

brittapcrrys · 1 year ago

Text

i think companies should have to actually name the specific herbs and spices that go into their products instead of just saying "spices" in the ingredients list, actually

#trying to identify the common element in the foods i have a bad reaction to is HARD when nothing is SPECIFIC #anyway i am in a bad mood bc dinner was delicious and now im having reflux and the prelude to a reflux migraine !#literally god forbid i want to enjoy something with a tiny bit of flavour and seasoning for 1 single meal #i MISS being EXCITED abt food now i just. eat in fear of reflux or migraines or ''ibs'' etc etc :)))#i mean at least i managed to fgure out that additive 621/msg causes the TERRIBLE cramps and violent aftermath so thats a win but #also a Loss in terms of flavour and options. along with cutting back significantly on dairy/lactose....#the Strong garlic/ginger combo seems to be a recurring element in Problem Foods for me but i cannot be SURE at this stage #anyway . miss wanting to eat. miss wanting to cook. miss being excited to try a meal rather than anxious abt how it MIGHT go badly after

2 notes · View notes

paimonial-rage · 1 year ago

Text

To that person that sent that ask yesterday.... please understand that yes, I do completely understand your love for her...

#about me #SORRY I DONT MEAN TO FLEX BUT I TOTALLY MEAN TO FLEX #I HAVE MAINED THIS WOMAN SINCE THE START OF MY GENSHIN CAREER #I JUST GOT HER TO C6 LIKE A FEW WEEKS AGO #like... within 20-30 standard pulls i somehow managed to get... TWO LISAS #CAN YOU IMAGINE THE ODDS? I SCREAMED #sorry I don't mean to brag but like I was literally expecting to have to wait another year to c6 her haha #hoyo made it impossible to get any cons for the original team #you have good taste for liking her #she is amazing #i really do need to get better arts for her tho #59% crit rate is just not cutting it #the thing is that i always pull so well on crit dmg but always terribly on crit rate #isn't it crazy i've never pulled a good tf atk% sands tho?#they just don't pop up #just like how i can never pull def% husk sands orz #i can't wait until fontaine comes out bc then i'll be able to use those art strongbox things to convert useless arts into the husk set urgh #sorry i'll stop rambling now #i just wanted to let you know you have good taste

6 notes · View notes

opens-up-4-nobody · 2 years ago

Text

...

#im back in my apartment. and im rather sick. just a cold but like woke up feeling ok and then over the course of thr 12hr travel day #i was increasingly feeling worse and now im like 😵‍💫 its probably worse bc 7hr jet lag and my hormones r fucked #so im a bit recked. im supposed to go instruct undergrads tomorrow doing a procedure that fills me with rage even when i dont feel terrible #well see how awful i feel in the morning. i also have v lil food here bc ive been gone so long ugh #so much i gotta do. and do i feel better than when i left? not especially. i still wanna fucking quit working here. my dad is like #prioritize ur stuff bc u gotta move in 2 months and hes right but its gonna b real hard to stick to that #ugh. i feel so awful. i dont wanna work tomorrow.#i also watched that salin4 gomez doc on her brain stuff and it made me cry. and i was like weeping as i drove back from the airport bc a #lotta thimgs. but whatever itll b a 3 day weekend and im gonna try to b better abt doing as lil work as i can manage #so i dont like die. ya kno. but whatever. 2 months left. then i move. the process of getting #permits for sampling has already begun. ill b outta the desert soooooon. the light is there #unrelated

5 notes · View notes

deus-ex-mona · 11 months ago

Text

s. s ave me, meoto…

#n o t me clinging to meoto to retain my sanity bc g o o d l o r d today was the worst #today was truly a very bad; very horrible day indeeeeeeed #man. today truly was a comedic tragedy in every way possible. i’d laugh if i were anyone else tbh #first i couldn’t start my workstation bc we were out of this cleaning acid thing.#t h e n this other branch lab sent over a precise amount of [reagent] that we needed to make the cleaning acid thing #*and* what’s worse was that they also demanded like. 1/5 of the acid we mixed. like bro. make it yourself mans.#but the worst part was when i tried to use a dropper to poke this sediment out of [tube i was supposed to be cleaning]#bUT THEN HALF OF THE DROPPER MELTED BC THAT BUGGER CAN’T HANDLE HIGH TEMPERATURES AAAAAAAAAAAAAA #stupid new droppers man. the old droppers could handle 100 degrees just fine. s o now the tube is clogged with melted plastic and it’s just.#life’s *really* great sometimes yk~~~~? (ʘ‿ʘ)#and so the night shift dude who came to take over the workstation against expectations seemed kinda pissed that i hadn’t started anything #and im just there. with my intestines wriggling about like internal abdominal worms. tryin not to cry in the face of my mistake.#while he’s fumin’ away like a freakin’ chimney or sth. like. man. no one asked you to take this workstation. you came here on your own. :(#anyway i ditched him and left for my break to calm myself down only to be approached by some random terribly lost middle aged to old lady #who was looking for directions to *somewhere* but she only spoke chinese aaaaaaaa #and i can’t read maps/i don’t even live in the area of my workplace so i have no idea if the lady managed to make it safely #but. lol. the lady showed me her message screen when she asked me for directions to her destination #and by pure coincidence the person she was texting is apparently related to someone with the same first name as me #the cons and cons of having common names man. i hope the lady managed to find her friend with the same name as me though lol #anyways. pls hw im begging. pls drop the crossfade for lxl birthday tmr i n e e d more meoto to carry on—#s o b s this is what im living for now ig. meoto………..

7 notes · View notes

loregoddess · 2 years ago

Text

you know, for the most part my asthma is very under control and not too much of a bother, but heavens forbid some dust gets blown around by high winds and then I get sick with a chest cold bc my immune system was too busy causing allergies over the dust instead of doing its actual job and then I can barely go up or down a flight of stairs without losing my breath

#something fun to bring up ay my next visit to a specialist I guess #I am having a terrible time breathing #luckily I only get chest infections once every like 5 years or more but still #when I get them I am in misery #I feel kinda bad for snapping at my managers for trying to keep me at work when I demanded to be sent home #but considering how much worse I am now than I was this morning it's probably for the best #WHY managers of food places want to keep sick employees around their food and customers I will never understand #although considering that ''I like my coworkers and regulars a whole lot'' is the only thing keeping me at my job #like...the threat of getting fired isn't a threat what am I gonna do go down the street and get a similar job paying me more money?#anyhow I'm so tired of being sick I spent the beginning months of last year sick #and I don't want to spend this year's start sick as well #it's annoying to have to call out of work bc I have to do it in such a way to avoid the ''get someone to cover you'' BS #which means getting my ass up at the crack of dawn to call out every single shift #also I don't like being unable to really DO anything bc I feel too shitty to do anything #I'm just tired #sorry for the long rant I just needed to get this out of my system at least #oracle of lore

4 notes · View notes