#now im kinda skeeved out

[anotherpapercut]

today my coworker told me that another coworker repeatedly brought up the outfit I wore to the extremely fancy dinner we took some of the kids to and she couldn't figure out what he thought was wrong with the outfit he just kept being like "can you believe what Orion wore to the dinner?"

[lazaruspiss]

how could anyone hate me im literally just a silly little guy

[mccncutter]

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[skylordhorus]

i doubt they meant any harm but after my last post, i was in quick succession followed by someone, sent an anon ask asking if i was looking for an artist (if they got here via my tags on that post then i literally say in the same sentence its not something im pursuing atm), and then the person who followed me (who i am p sure was the asker since their blog is just their commish advertising stuff) liked only my posts abt Recent Traumatic Experience, and it just felt kinda.. uncomfortable ? idk..

[nerves-nebula]

tbh im glad i did find your account because i was kinda anti-incest/rape portrayed in media (mainly because of personal reasons) before i did. and your stuff made me change my mind about it so thanks for that.

how pleasant!

to be honest, when i started seeking out media that dealt with sexual assault and incest it was almost always through fandom stuff (specifically ao3 because they have the best sorting for that kind of thing) because I couldn't STAND the way it was treated in mainstream media. and a lot of ppl who write about incest have personal stake in it (cause otherwise ppl tend to feel too skeeved out haha like they don't wanna think about it which like. fair.)

like the amount of times i'd finish a fic and the author would say, like, "this is a vent/cope" or something was. a lot !!

the more i branched out though the more i found i adored indie stories & those little fanfiction novels that are like, 30 chapters long haha. I'm still not a fan of how sexual assault is handled in a lot of media tbh, but that's not to say it shouldn't exist and i almost never begrudge someone for trying (unless I think it's particularly offensive)

ok now i'm just rambling about my interests- POINT IS! thank you, i'm flattered!

[valeriianz]

Trope Game!

tagged by @tj-dragonblade @notallsandmen @virgo-dream thanks guys! <3 (ive been so bad at these lately, so im gonna pounce on this before i forget! lol)

Rules: How much do these tropes affect your decision to click on a fic?

-10 -> very dissuaded

0 -> don't care either way

10 -> very enticed

nope -> if it's a hard no and you'd never click on a fic with that tag or or you ever have the tag blocked or you'd insta click out of the fic if it wasn't tagged

Bonus points for explaining the rating and whether it's conditional.

Age Gap: 0, neither here nor there. i mean... if you think about it too hard, dreamling has quite the age gap, no? but if we're talking modern and human au? i usually only read (adult aged, like 20 years old being the youngest) age gap fics by authors i trust and never go looking for it myself. it's not something im into and seriously skeeves me out otherwise.

Codependency: 3? maybe? not something i ever explored before dreamling (and patrochiles). i do like my ships to be equally dependent. but it kinda works for some dreamling. again, not something i actively think about. but if im reading a fic and i slowly discover that's the relationship, it doesn't bother me (just don't make it infantile, ya know?)

Enemies to lovers: 10. love that shit.

Enemies with benefits: 0. never actually read a fic with this trope. idk how to feel about it.

Fake dating/relationship: 5. when it's done right im a sucker for it.

Found family: 7. as someone who has her own family issues and would rather spend holidays with my friends, im into it.

Friends to lovers: 9. its easy and delicious and always slaps.

Friends with benefits: 0 unless they fall in love at the end, then more like a 4. i do also like the angst potential.

Hurt/comfort: 5. it's okay. personally i feel like it's overplayed in dreamling and i tend to skip it these days.

Love triangle: nope.

Mistaken/hidden identity: 1... im curious to read it.

Monster fu... relationship: 10. yeah im shocked, too.

Obsession, possesiveness, etc.: 7. i have a dark side and it wants to be fed from time to time.

Opposites (lke grumpy x sunshine, etc): 5. like hurt/comfort, getting a little tired of it. its fun for a meme but nothing i particularly care for in my fics.

Poly: -5. ive read maaaybe a couple fics with poly but im not into it personally and mostly avoid it.

Pregnancy: nope.

Second chance: 7! i wrote a second chance fic lol there's such a lack of this trope in dreamling. i really enjoy it if done right.

Sex to feelings: 8. honestly i just love exploring any and all ways my ship can fall in love. that includes falling in lust first ;) (also it's like, always hot).

Slowburn: 8. it's agony. im addicted.

Soulmates: 0. something i really liked when i was a young fanfic consumer. now it kinda gives me the ick lol. it never makes sense in the modern world no matter how well thought out it is.

(also, i feel like these answers could change at any time. but this was fun to do, and to read what my friends are into!) tagging... @magnusbae @mathomhouse-e @beatnikfreakiswriting

[anongalactic]

As I've been getting back into Black Butler after all these years, I have noticed something among the wider fan base (and among modern fan culture as a whole).

Warning, im talking about yee old anime fujoshis and sebaciel. Both these things are very bad and I will be talking about that.

The anime and the early manga (cannot speak for the manga as a whole as I have not read it all), is rife with weird fujoshi-bait fanservice moments. This is an UNDENIABLE fact. Yet I have seen so many people deny its existence outright; particularly in comments on youtube videos, tiktoks, instagram posts, etc., where people will outright say that there's nothing to have ever given people the idea to ship characters like Sebastian and Ciel together. Which is just,, flat out wrong?? Admitting it exists because you have eyes and can see does not mean you condone it or are some weirdo. Scenes like that and every other eyebrow raise kinda moment we're included for a reason, that reason being appealing to fans of that kinda content. It's a definite flaw of, at the very least, early Black Butler. Denying the existence of these scenes does not mean people who are skeeved out by it/want to address it are somehow the bad guys here.

There's a similar issue among villain characters in media as well. Just because a character, written as a villain and clearly shown to be in the wrong, does something morally fucked up, does NOT mean the writer nor the fans condone that behavior. There's a difference between romanticizing or trying to act like a characters actions are okay vs. when its clearly a villain doing villainous things. On the fandom end, there's a difference between analyzing a characters actions and condoning them. My favorite character of all time is Dio from jjba, that doesn't mean I condone all the bad shit he's done, in fact I love to discuss his motivations and actions because he has a lot of depth. Does that mean I think any of what he's done is okay? Absolutely fucking not, obviously.

It's basic critical thinking skills and media literacy that seem to be lacking amongst some fandom spaces today, and I've been seeing it more and more. But don't use this as an excuse to bully newer people in fandom, stfu we've all been there before. Just as I was a preteen kid watching Black Butler in 280p on Youtube, there are also new kids on the block when it comes to anime. The issue arises when it's people who HAVE been around the block, or are grown ass adults, trying to act like every interaction Sebastian and Ciel have had ever is completely innocent and lacked any kind of ulterior motive. Try to show someone the corset scene and tell them that there's absolutely nothing weird going on there. Yes it was a joke scene, but what was the intent?? fujobait. fanservice. THATS the joke, the joke is FOR those audiences. And yet there is so many people just flat out saying that interpreting these scenes for what it was intended to be, fujoshi bait, and pointing out how weird it is, are wrong. They're saying that only weirdos would be able to see it at all, like its a reach to say that the gross fanservice scenes are, in fact, gross fanservice.

Before I conclude this rant I'd also like to point out that there are some series that I believe are indefensible with its questionable-at-best content, and i don't think Black Butler is one of those. Black Butler actually has a plot outside of the fanservice moments, and from what I've heard about the rest of the manga, those moments are now few and far between. It's when a series has little to no plot, or a lack thereof, aside from the gross stuff that being a fan of it is inexcusable.

This is getting long but i assume you get the gist at this point. Acknowledging that something problematic is present in a series does not mean you condone it, nor is it bad for people to recognise the issues in the first place. You can address a series' flaws, it doesn't mean that you are weird for seeing those flaws in the first place. Rant over.

[batemanofficial]

oh no thats fair i just couldnt tell if it was sincere or not. i wouldnt really know i watched hereditary way earlier in the year/maybe last year and remember not liking how he wrote the mom (-__- waaaughhhhh bad [mentally ill] mom in horror movie but dad is good and loves his kids... also hes an awful husband but who cares... thats so overdone and so lame every time can we just like Stop doing that . lol) (ignore that i am a sucker for "dysfunction mom-child relationship" im allowed due to the serious mommy issues . and it still sucks) but most of it is just a blur in my memory now. it had pretty good visuals though. very good visuals honestly.. i plan to watch beau is afraid eventually though so maybe your hatred of him will help me pay more attention to this

no yeah you're totally spot on i think! i def agree about the writing, his women in general (<- midsommar hater) are very flat and aren't really fleshed out beyond being widows, sluts, or shrews with some added mental illness thrown in for shock value. and as somebody who also has mommy issues you're so right for that honestly!!

beau is afraid was. mid but if you're watching it for the visuals primarily then it's an interesting watch i think. the writing was kinda all over the place and the whole film was (not kidding) basically a three hour dick joke so make of that what you will. joaquin phoenix made it as bearable as he could but i still walked out of the theatre a little skeeved out just because of the quality of the writing

[erythristicbones]

im gonna complain here instead of my borderlands blog but.....im like not feeling DLC 4. idk why but i have zero urge to play it, but im still in my 5-year-blands-hyperfixation so i Want to play at the same time as Not Wanting to

[masteroffrowns]

Remember kids, the block button is there for a reason!

[umbralundertaker]

sending this to you, premier expert on all things jack:

i think its a shame jack noir and spades slick never got to meet bc then it would provide the perfect opportunity to make a shitty animatic of them to this song https://youtu.be/p9U4iTWTqxA

As is true with anything regarding Jack Noir, I have thought many a time about what it would be like if his other iterations were to meet. Which they should have by the way; the sheer comedic potential would cause a singularity and make paradox space collapse in on itself, putting this shit comic out of its misery. where was i going with this

Anyways Jack Noir would think that Spades Slick is weak willed for being a mere mob boss rather than a universe eating diety, but would see Slick's outfit (as in put together appearance) and outfit (as in how well he commands his cronies) and still respect him, to the point where after Jack turns into Bec and gets bored of killing, he actually considers settling down and creating things like Slick instead of destroying them like he had been.

Slick would kinda dislike Jack at first, not just because of his ostentatious get up and loose-canon personality, but also because he'd be pretty jealous of him and what he's done. Normally Slick would voice his distate of someone without a second thought, but this is a different version of Himself so he wants to act Not Obnoxious. Once they actually get a chance to talk to each other though, they realize they are one and the same and have silly fun times.

Dead Session Jack Noir (DS) is also pretty envious, not just of one but of both main Noirs. He's honestly kinda bored and unsatisfied at where he's at right now. DS actually likes Caliborn and working with him quite a lot, and is damn happy about having such a powerful entourage to get payback on the black queen. But hes not too happy about having to work with the notoriously incompetent Felt, and is certainly bored of being told to explore planets. DS would be a bit chiller than the other Noirs, but he'd like them; they got the spunk needed to spice up their life.

Union Jack (yes im using that name fuck you) is a completely different story, though. All Noirs hate that guy, less for being Lord English and more because, although none of the Noirs would admit it, Union Jack unnerves them. Not so much Jack, but especially Slick would not even consider Union Jack to be a version of himself anymore, and he honestly really skeeves him out.

Thanks for coming to my ted talk.

[beetlejuicesgraveyardrevue]

kinda gross medical stuff, skip if that sounds like a bad time for you (im on mobile and can’t add a read more)

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I’m having a really bad reaction to my internal sutures (because my body hates me and has a hyper sensitivity to fucking e v e r y t h i n g since my severe nickel allergy diagnosis when I was 18) and there are now several tiny suture abscesses all along my incision. Only one has opened up so far but I’m so frustrated and skeeved out by it. I am not looking forward to dealing with all of them and the stress of keeping them clean when I work in an environment with animals where I sweat. Not to mention the fact that they will definitely affect the aesthetic outcome of my scar which I didn’t think I would care too much about but it turns out I do. I’m in contact with my surgeon and she seems relatively unconcerned about it, which I understand because one or two isn’t uncommon, and when I spoke to her this morning I had three trouble areas, but I’m currently looking at at least 6 popping up right now… I’m going to keep speaking to her and sending pictures every day. I am trying to keep positive and not be a complete anxious wreck about it but right now I’m just completely overwhelmed in general right now and this is something physically on my body that I can see and feel and hyperfixate on and my brain is totally going all in on that. Anyways, if anyone else has ever dealt with something similar and wants to share their experience with me I’d love that.

[felidaefatigue]

massively mixed feelings on these ai trends and idk what to do with the conflicting emotions

Ik at least a small part of it has to be admittedly like... bitterness? which is never a very good justification so I want to acknowledge it and sweep it aside.  But it is real. the like.. dreamy aesthetic one i dont mind so much for this point because its really easy to recognize but the new ai “art” program that you can input prompts into and it creates a whole thing from scratch- That one gives me a bit of a squick because like... The average person online is ATROCIOUS at recognizing the differences between different media and is SUPER SUPER easily fooled by like, photorealism ad digital manipulations and stuff *already* and I can pROMISE you majority of people wont know when they are looking at a completely AI fabricated image. 

I dont think that the tech isnt *really fucking cool* and that it shouldn’t be used- I can actually think of a ton of applications where it would be really really useful for people in all sorts of fields and skill levels- and I’d love to see it used honestly. 

But what I dont like is that like... slow making art forms and like, techniques that require a LOT of time and skill to hone are ALREADY massively undervalued and being replaced by things that take 0.2 seconds to do with AI and program help now and its like... Very very disheartening as someone who tends to gravitate towards process heavy things. Because speed will always be prioritized in a capitalist environment, these tools will replace artists, and that is a good thing for like, individuals wanting to improve their personal gains, and will make a lot of things way easier for people both skilled and unskilled in visuals generation. Which isnt entirely a bad thing. But it almost assures that like, concept artists and illustrators and stuff will be out of a lot of jobs because like. Why pay someone to go to school to learn to paint it and pay them an hourly wage or contract when you can type it into a program and get a believable image in 30 seconds.  And also like. As much as im very anti-gatekeeping art for like, learning and skill sharing and stuff. I am a little gate-keepy on who should be making art for profit. and ONLY. ONNNNNLLLYYYY. because I worry about the environmental costs of people *producing* just to make money. We create so many objects that just Do Not need to exist and are contributing to massive industries that are decimating the environment. And like I’m not talking abt people making art their passionate abt. Im talking abt like, etsy digital asset resellers and shit. People who make 1000 different merch objects just to diversify their passive income and dont really care abt who is buyig it or why?  Like its admittedly a little pretentious sure but like. It’s also just I have a STUPID sensitivity to the responsibility opf the individual to a point where its honestly ridiculous. I refuse to make art in the medium my degree is in because the environmental cost to the environment involved in being reliant on mining and oil and gas skeeves me out too much lol. which is kinda silly. because you cat really escape it. But I also like. dont have any art to make in that medium that I think the world NEEDS that justifies that. so like. why bother. Where as working in linoleum, its biodegradable, paper is compostable. Like sure its still not ideal and shipping and all that is still a huge impact and inks still require mining. But its a Way more even load of cause and effect so it doesnt make me feel as horrid y’know?  anyway sidetracked. Point being sometimes things being easier and more available isnt like. great. and i really would like to see society push towards *less* and slower more mindful, well researched creation rather than just dopamine seeking creative impulses and monetization. 

[pespillo]

i think i feel the need to let this out my chest cuz its been building up for a long time and if i dont talk abt it now i might forget again, it could be me just being overly paranoid or reading too much into things but ;

as much as i love a lot spring bonnie designs, theres something a bit , uncomfortable when people make Spring Bonnie like, a “Girl” character that William like, “corrupts” and masculinizes , or like making Spring Bonnie feminine in like a creepy way and sinister, because i feel like it really borders on the dangerous transmisogynistic tropes of “serial killer man in a dress” type of things, especially worsened when it comes to a child murderer , like hey i could be totally wrong who knows, i just know way too many TME artists who kinda forget a lot of homophobic and transphobic tropes that come in horror because its literally so normalized in more vintage horror media it kinda gets brushed off or ignored, and ive got NOTHING against making Spring Bonnie girly or anything like that, its just that when you start talking about how William interacts with that femininity that kinda skeeves me out and makes me feel.. bad. 

but yeah i mean im transmisogyny exempt (TME) so it would be better if those who are TMA (affected) wanna reply or comment with their own thoughts, as i dont wanna overspeculate on this since its not my lane

[swampgallows]

Hello! Just wondered if you’d had a chance to play through ember court during shadowlands? If not I think you’d appreciate the level of development that went into the guest characters through dialogue with them during invite quests/friendship ranks/quill of correspondence letters. Added a lot to shadowlands for me (fave bit of the expansion.) Also kind of worth it just to see Grandmaster Vole as his own hype man during some ember courts. :)

ive heard really great things about the ember court stuff, im sure blizz beefed up those quests knowing a shitton of the player base would go venthyr. ive only done bastion's campaign but i know a little bit about what goes on in the other ones from friends. id been meaning to get my gal edithe further along in revendreth but once i found out A Guy wasnt there i kinda lost steam lmao (also theotar skeeves me out but ive gotten enough flak about that). but yeah ive heard great things about the funny parties, how stuffy the kyrian are, and how much fun vole is. grandmaster vole our beloved.......... absolutely love that guy............ shadowlands mvp

ive been going back to old characters and questing a lil bit after work so maybe ill put more work into finally doing venthyr stuff on my warrior (right now i have her in un'goro working on uh... the ...venomhide... ravasaur............... lmao

[gaydelgard]

thinking abt ferdinand more and i realized the reason i actually hated him is anything he ever said to or about edelgard

hes a lot more tolerable in other contexts

this fantasy version of edelgard he has constructed in his head, and the relationship he thinks he has with that person, which isnt real or reciprocated, it just skeeves me out so bad

now i think edelgard does have genuine respect for ferdinand and his abilities, let me say that now

but the way he hounds her incessantly despite near constant implicit and explicit cues from edelgard that his attention in that way was not welcome. its no good. and then people actively criticize edelgard for being mean to him and claim it was unwarranted! when she goes out of her way to point out her respect for him (DESPITE how uncomfortable his attentions made her over and over again) aftwerwards in an obvious attempt to smooth things over after being backed by his relentless harrasment into a place where she needed to be harsh

and i think they can move past it and be real friends, but it’s something HE needs to work on away from her

their A support is often praised as a good moment for him, and yes his idea for public schooling was a good one. but it was also his plan B, he still doesn’t believe in her dream and thinks the ruling class of nobles is necessary and a better option

and the fact that he then attempts to propose marriage to her tells me hes still stuck with this idea of edelgard that isn’t reality. hes not talking to her, hes talking to the version of her he built up in his head, and hes building the proposal off the idea of their dynamic he had which simply was never real.

(and like maybe im projecting or whatever but i know how it feels to relent and say something nice after being forced into being harsh with an overly pushy man)

(again i think edelgard believed the nice things she said about ferdinand, but he put her in a position where she felt she had to say them even after he had repeatedly disregarded her wishes and made her uncomfortable)

like it feels like she really does want to be friends with him but he refuses to listen to her or see her as an actual person

anyway he doesnt have this problem with others and ive slowly come to appreciate him more in other contexts, but also i kinda lost the thread of what it was about him that i found so upsetting in the first place

and i gotta say his relationship with edelgard will never make me anything but uncomfortable, even if my opinion of him has improved to some degree in other ways