#now i gotta wait 3 hours till my next

[deus-ex-mona]

also!!!!!! there’s finally a way to read this guy’s name!!!!! vol 4 be w i n n i n g

[reshinless]

❝ 𝐜𝐮𝐳 𝐢 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐲 𝐬𝐡𝐞'𝐬 𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐞 ❞ hsr x reader 𓆩 𓇼 𓆪

pairings. dan heng, caelus, sampo, welt yang, gepard, blade, jing yuan, luocha x gn!reader

a/n: i miss getting silly little reuqests like this . send me requests guys (if u snet a req b4 its not in the swag askbox anym sighhh), reupload from old blog!!

warnings:oh no SEX AND NSFW AAAHHH, breeding kink caelus, jing yuan, and blade, bc yes!!. kinda bdsm w blade, praise kink w jing yuan, degrading kink w blade, kinda sadist sampo, belly bulge 👍👍, fingering BUT NOT IMPLIED FEM READER 🤬🤬

dan heng is more than happy to be yours, legally, and to be the man to put a ring on your finger. has waited his whole life for this moment, to see you walk down the aisle and everything. and nothing more than finally carrying you in his arms to the bedroom of your newly built house. but having your hands pinned to the bedframe, as his cock is so brutally penetrating your hole, and he can't help but praise you for being such a good pet and taking all of him in you. the endless thrusts you felt that kept coming, and your hole so easy to work himself in and out from all the cum from the rounds that happened hours ago, it felt so endless in your mind, but dan heng couldn't help but indulge himself into you, because you're finally his, and he's finally yours. more under the cut.

caelus thought he was foreign to this kind of stuff, like no one would ever would love him like that back. but he's here now, and you are too. picks you up bridal style on the way up stairs, ripping your wedding dress off. (not rly, just takes it off you, but lets just say he did) all he wants is to literally fill your precious hole up with his seed :(( can't help but go another round, because his stamina was just too much for you to handle, but all it did was turn him on more! the way his cock made such a cute mark on your tummy.. he couldn't help but cum at the sight of how your poor hole will remember the shape of his cock, and his alone.

sampo..? i'm surprised someone actually married him, anyways! kind of rough with it honestly, still type of guy to just ravage himself in you. taking his sweet time, especially when you were so close.<3 your expression, and the way you were just whimpering, and begging for him to just harshly thrust into you to finish it up. all he could say was "i wanna make this night extra memorable for you, and me~!", wants to be begging for his cock to just shoot his warm seed into you already.

welt yang.. all i gotta say is that he's overjoyed, over the moon that he got married to someone as amazing, stunning, to be his world, his everything, the person he'd start a family with. but before all of that, ever since you both started your relationship, he promised himself, that on the night of your marriage, that's when he'd give you the time of your life. a time where you'll always remember. remember the way his huge cock would just be so rough with you aa, just wants you to get every drop of his cum till your belly bulge that he put inside you is so full of his seed, or that your hole will always remember the shape of his dick muahahahshhdkfjvi

gepard my man! already planned it out, knows exactly how the night will go, maybe.. but whatever happens tonight will be according to a plan. probably saved his virginity for this moment, he.. he's tried reading about it, just lets the night go as it is... i guess.. but dear god he really did not hold back, as soon as you gave the go sin that he could go as rough as he wanted, bro wouldn't hesitate AT ALL. just wants to see you so full of his cum it hurts mfmfjfjfjfn. he's jerked off to this moment before too, and the way you just take all of him in, he loves ot so muchh! will breed you like crazy, no joke, even if you're a guy, bro will say he's gonna get you pregnant. anyways, he'll be soft and gentle w u in bed if you want, but if u ever say to go faster, good luck in that wheelchair next day ‼️‼️

blade?!? getting married?!? damn!! very rough, lowkey forgets about you when he's at his climax. but he didn't really plan for it, just let the night play out. oh i have to say this but silver wolf is the flowergirl, kafka is maid of honor, and nanook walks him down the aile. anyways, bro doesn't hesitate to just absolutely breed you, be honest cause i know this man wants kids. and you will have them, don't give a fuck if you a man, he will breed yo ass. licks up the excess seed that didn't, or couldn't fit in your hole that was already so full of his seed. thank you 🗣️🗣️🔥🔥‼️

jing yuan!! oo he is probably the same as gepard, will plan it out, but probably won't go to plan at all. and probably has read smutty books too, just in case. and wow that really helped because just as long as you ask bro to go faster, he will non stop breed you 'till you have like 3 generations of heirs for him. jokes aside, but he would breed you so bad. just needs to see your hole so full of him that it's too much, and won't fit anymore! probably makes you sit on his face once or thrice after all those rounds of pounding you too ;3

luocha.. hmm, if you think about it really hard, lowkey dislikes the idea of sex at the wedding night, but we do not think about it really hard, he does it anyway!! he is the type to know all your spots, all the right places to make you cream on his cock over and over again, cuz bro is a doctor. and would finger you like crazy while making out before the actual intimacy. bro is so careful with you like you are as fragile as glass. his kink is just your whole body. everything about you, your curves, your thighs, your neck, he wants everything, and thats why he'd do it on the wedding night of his!!!

for america i say for AMERICA!!!! (i dont live in the us anym)

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[love4layla]

can you make a headcanon to hawks bakgou and deku (Separate) accidentally making their s/o cry?

(btw ignore my name💀)

A/N:(Definitely Ignoring the name 😭) Holy shit bro I deleted the app for a while so I am SO sorry for being THIS late.

MY REQUESTS ARE OPEN AGAIN!

ACCIDENTLY MAKING THEIR S/O CRY

Bakugo, Hawks, Deku x Reader

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Bakugo

He was outside of the dormitory training. You had finished earlier and just went to chill in your room and just hang around for a while. Minutes turned into hours and you started to get a little worried for him, he hadn’t come inside yet, not even to eat. You decided to go and check on him. You walk out to where he normally trains and you see him flying in the air and aggressively and swiftly hitting the dummy with precision. You could see that fire in his eyes that he always got when he fought. You waited till he was done and then you talked to him. “Hey babe. It’s getting a little late don’t you think? Iida made some food inside.” You sit down next to him. He was already a little irritated before you came over. “No.” He says bluntly. You were a title taken aback but you continue to push. “Katsuki… you haven’t eaten all da-“ “I said I’m fine bitch! I’m not a little ass kid you need to take care of!” He snapped. Your eyes go wide. “Well I’m sorry for trying to make sure you don’t end up hurting yourself because you’re undernourished.” You snap back with attitude. “I don’t need someone telling what to do all the time. If you’re gonna be like that then I’ll just leave your ass in the dirt.” He says as he gets back up to train. It’s almost like your whole world stops, you feel your throat tighten and your body stiffen. Tears start to stream as you turn around and walk back inside to your dorm room. His eyes widen as he face palms as himself, fuck. A couple of hours later, you’re in your bed and sulking about what he had said, was he actually going to break up with you? Was it all over? He knocks on your door but ends up using the spare key you gave him due to hearing no answer. He walks in and sit in the edge of your bed. “Listen…I didn’t mean it alright.. I was just pissed off about sumthin else…” he grumbled trying to apologize. He ends up sighing when you don’t budge. He leans down and kisses your cocooned figure, “I’m sorry babe. I love you…” . We cuddled for the rest of the night

Hawks

You had been dating Hawks since he was the number 3 Hero. You’ve been through the highs and lows with him. all the missed dates, all the times he stood you up due to hero work. You stocked with him through it all. He always had something more important and you were getting tired of it. You had had a talk with him about how it all made you feel and he apologized and promised to change. You were out with him, having a mini date while he was on break. You two haven’t had a date in a while. He had promised you a nice cafe lunch because he knew they were your favorite. Everything was sweet and nice. He gets a call from someone. He picks up his phone “Yo” he picks it up. “Hey, what’s up…….huh?……I’m kinda in the middle of something right now…….alright fine” he hangs up the phone. “Hey babe, I gotta dip early.” Your face dropped and you got a little irritated. “What why?” You ask him. He doesn’t even tell you why, he gets up and waves “Bye baby! I gotta go”. And there you were again, left alone. You couldn’t stop your tears from falling in public. People were following hawks all the time, because, you know, he’s fucking Hawks, snapping photos of him whenever they could. You head home after you finish crying and start to cook dinner. Once you put the noddles on to boil, you scroll on your phone. You suddenly see post of you, red faced, teary eyed and bye yourself.

“Hawks’ new girlfriend crying after he left her. So sad #celebritycouples #whoisthischick?

You scroll through the comments:

“Poor girl…”

“Hawks has a girlfriend?”

Hawks was on his way home from his duties, he scrolls on his phone, his eyes widen as he sees multiple photos of you, teary eyes and mascara dripping. His head drops “Shit!” He picks up his pace as he speeds through the sky to your shared home. He opens the back door of the balcony. “Honey? Babe? Y/n!” He looks around the house for you until he finds you on their bed watching Disney+ on your laptop. You look up “Oh your back. At-“ You look at the time, “12:03am.. did you have fun?”. His heart breaks as he realizes he did EXACTLY what he promised not to do. He sits down in the bed next to you, gently taking your hand. “Y/n…. I’m so sorry honey…” he kissed you. “I saw the posts….i feel terrible baby I am so sorry I made you feel like that.” He changed out of his hero suit and kissed you in the bed until you both fell asleep (watching Moana)

Izuku Midoriya

You and Midoriya never, and I mean NEVER fight. You two had been training together for hours, it was cold outside so you two had to dress for it. (Y’all know his EVERYTHING hurts more when you’re cold outside). You two were hitting move after move, dodge after dodge. You two were in perfect unison. You two had taken a break to catch your breaths. Then you two got back to it, he zoned out mid fight and wasn’t paying full attention. Instead of landing the hit to your legs like he intended he miscalculated and landed a powerful kick it right on your breast. (Girlies know how painful that is holy-) You screamed out and tears fell from your face as you hunched over. “FUCK-“ He panicked and runs over to you “Damnit! Oh my god are you okay?! I’m so sorry!” He saw the tears falling and his heart broke. “I’m sorry! I’m sorry” he tried to find a way to make this better. He picked you up and carried you inside to the dorm commons’ couch. After a couple of minutes of him panicking, the pain went away. It was bruised but it wasn’t bad. “Y/n, I am so sorry. I got distracted and I didn’t know where I was kicking and-“ you cut him off with a hug. “It’s fine baby. I mean…. yeah it hurt like a bitch, but I’m fine now” you smile and hug him. He sighs and relaxes “Okay”

MasterList<3

[myhornysaga]

mmmm what is that certain incident... do graves and lawyer reader have kids ?? Or.... 👀 👀mmmmmm im watching from the shadowzzz

𝐌𝐲 𝐖𝐚𝐫 𝐂𝐫𝐢𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐥 𝐇𝐮𝐬𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐝

A/n: thank you for reading my work anon♡ the secret will be revealed, stay tuned

I'm planning on this chapter be divided in two parts so this is part 1 of this chapter. Songs recommended, in order: people in the front row, end of beginning, angel of the morning.

Tags: mdni, graves x Lawyer wife reader, established relationship, mentions of sex, pregnancy.

Part 2, Series masterlist , M.list

You and Graves had a kid.

A daughter.

She was born with the best of you and your husband Phil.

Just after a year of being married you discovered you were pregnant. Thanks to the little rendezvous the night before your husband was leaving for his 364 days deployment in the middle east.

He was in Marines back then and you worked as a full time criminal lawyer at your father's Firm, one of the three top Law firms specializing in International Laws and Extradition.

You were learning international criminal law under one of the most recognizable lawyers and a dear friend of your father, Mona De La Sierre.

Everything was going smooth, your career was at peak and you were only in your late 20s, till you discovered...

You have missed your periods for 2 months.

At first you had your doubts, no way you could be pregnant right? But its been 2 and half months since you and Phil had- no! Lets not have false hope. A simple pregnancy test will reveal whatever it is!

You sat on the toilet seat of the housing quarter. You had done 3 pregnancy tests and they all came... positive.

And it started.

You couldn't believe you were pregnant. You wanted scream and yell out of happiness and let everyone know Mr and Mrs Graves are having a kid!

You wanted the first person to know about this to be none other than the perpetrator! You couldn't just wait to call him. But you had to wait because you can only call him at night due to different time zones.

Despite staying awake past midnight and 14 calls, none were answered. You tried one last time before giving up and call next day.

The 15th call was answered by someone else.

"Hello? Phil? Babe?", you asked nervously.

"Hello?" The voice said

"Ahem... I'm trying to reach Sergeant Phillip Graves. I'm his wife is he there?" You questioned on the line.

"Uh no maam im sorry but the Sergeant will not be available for four weeks."

"4 weeks? You gotta be kidding me!", you huffed in frustration.

"Thats what im told Mrs Graves."

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4.5 weeks later.

Location: Marines Reconnaissance Base in [Redacted]

Sergeant Graves had returned to the base after leading a successful Recon mission without any casualties.

"Sergeant!" A marine called out for Graves in his tent, "sir you have a letter from home"

"Just in time", he chuckled as he sat down on his bed after a long and hard few weeks, finally resting on a proper bed instead of a dug out pit.

"The envelope looks big. Look out Graves, this could be divorce papers" one his teammates joked.

"Yeah totally. Chicks throw you divorce paper if you don't talk to em in every two hours. Haha", another one joined in

"Nah boys i don't think its that.", Philip tried to convince.

"Thats what captain Jerome said", another one jumped in and everyone started laughing. While Graves just shook his head while chuckling along and opening the envelope and started reading it.

He stood up straight out of shock, letter still in hand.

"Told ya its them divorce papers", the guys said.

"What is it Graves?", one of them asked in a serious tone now.

Everyone could still see the absolute shock on the Sergeant's face.

His heart was racing out of excitement, "Holy shit boys, im gonna be a father!", Graves said to his teammates.

Everyone in the tent started congratulating him and hugging the man. Some quipped with the question whether the kid is his or- Graves wouldn't let them finish and just hand them the DNA papers, solidifying his paternity.

The letter,

"My love, i hope you are doing well. I tried to reach you several times through call but i was informed that you are not available for 4 weeks.

Its an awful long time to wait to let everyone know. But remember this, i want YOU to be the first to know of this, that you are going to be a FATHER soon!

I checked in with the doctors and its confirmed! I am 3 months in. By the time you arrive, we'll be a family of three my bub.

And before you or your jarhead boys start questioning the legitimacy of OUR child, i will be attaching DNA tests as well, have fun.

So thats that. You are going to be a dad Phil! You better come back in one piece!

With love and warm hugs

Y/n L/n Graves xo".

.

Part 4

[littleplantfreak]

Chatterbox pt. 2 - SFW

Here's part 1 with everyone else

Togame Jo - If it's you, he lets you talk for hours. Anyone else, he prefers to keep it short and sweet. Choji'll start listening in and ends up putting you on speaker when they're at the Ori, but he gets embarrassed if Choji bring up the name he has for you in his phone. It's either some cutesy form of your name or a nickname like bunny or babe with emojis. "Togame why do you have hearts and sparkles on her name? Mine isn't like that! I'm adding some to mine too." And now he has his friend in his phone as ‘✨🦁Ch💛ji🕺✨’.

Choji Tomiyama - Loses his phone so much Togame has to search for it on Find My Friends at least once a day. But then once he finds it and realizes he missed your calls/texts he gets super pouty because he could've been bringing you with him on his daily adventures via call. Calls you back immediately even if it's past normal waking hours which has you like

Once you actually get him on the phone though, he'll talk your ear off until he gets the urge to see you. Then he's just walking to your house without telling you he's coming to get you, all while you chat on the phone. "Hey can you open the window? I'm on the second floor gutter and it's gonna fall soon." Bro.

Tsubaki Tasuku - Another chatter. Keeps it near two hours though cause his schedule is usually hectic. Sends you texts very frequently though. Insists on showing off how cute you both are on SNS and they're professional level photography (courtesy of Seiryu.) Actually a lot bolder with her affections on the phone, often making you flustered. You guys have matching charms on each other's phones too.

Kaji Ren - Although he likes the sound of your voice, like Hiragi, he wants to hear it in person rather than on the phone. Insists he's coming to pick you up right now because it's not like he's doing anything more important than spending time with you (doesnt matter what time you call him either. If you have a nightmare or something in the middle of the night, he's already at your back door.)  Has one (1) heart next to your contact name, but if anyone comments on it he flushes and gets aggro like immediately.

Endo Yamato - I shiver thinking about being able to talk to this guy on the phone. He somehow knows what you're doing when you call him despite you not even telling him yet. His ears just happen to be really good, and if he's honest about it, he kinda finds you predictable (not a bad thing, it's just how he is.) Matches your energy while texting, and he really likes when you send him pictures of your day. He doesn't seem like the type to be on the phone for more than 30 minutes to an hour.

Chika Takiishi - He lets you chat for hours, but doesn't really respond much unless prompted. Forgets you cant see that he's nodding at what your saying, which is really kinda silly to see from his end. If he's gotta do something that he can't use his phone during, he'll leave the phone with Endo while you keep talking.

Tachibana Kotoha - Loves to chat just like Ume. She'll usually put wireless headphones in so she can multi-task better during calls. Sends shopping links back and forth with you, pretty much window shopping but also getting inspo for new outfits. She's got the customer service voice down and accidentally answers your calls with it sometimes which is pretty funny. Uses more exclamation points than you'd think she does in text. Her limit is probably 2, 3 hours max (She's a busy girl.)

Suzuri Shuhei - Really likes talking on the phone and thinks things get kinda lost in translation during text. Types messages to you like he's writing a book sometimes, and other times it's like "K. Ok. Yeah." Sir just text that you're at work or gaming rn we CAN wait till later usually. Starts pretty much every call by asking what you did for the whole day, and then follows it up with his day as well. It's kinda domestic to him to end the day like that. Max is probably 2 hours but he can do more than one call a day sooo.

Sako Kota - When he's not sending you instagram worthy pictures of the cute desserts or drinks he's getting, he's calling you and asking what you want from the place he's at. Brings you anything you want, whether you're at work, school, or home if you don't or can't go with him. He doesn't wanna be on the phone for more than half an hour, but he also calls multiple times a day even if it's just a quick question about something you were talking about earlier. He doesn't know, but when you call he visibly perks up and everyone can tell it's you despite him keeping his regular tone of voice.

[drghostwrite]

Holding onto you… (pt. 3)

Summary: continuing from part 1… “let’s have a baby.”… Callie and Y/N run into some issues when trying to get pregnant, Callie has a really bad day while reader gets some good news. After a very edgy encounter reader gets very protective of Callie.

Pairing: Callie Torres x reader, Greys anatomy x reader

******************************************************** You were standing at the nurses station looking over some charts when Addison came up behind you, coffee in hand and set her charts down.

“So I have to do a cesarean for twins wanna scrub in?”

You slowly turned to look at her, “why cause you can’t handle twins?” You chuckled at her, knowing full well she could do that in her sleep, eyes closed, lights out.

“just offering, you look so thrilled doing those charts… figured it’d give you something to distract from everything.”

“yea, if you want, I don’t mind.”

“be my guest… speaking of, how’re the treatments going?” She asked, referring to the IVF treatments. You and Callie both wanted to try and have a baby with both your genetics so you found a specialist and were trying to get pregnant. You both decided that you would carry first and so far it’s been hard, “well after the first loss the next didn’t take, trying the third but nothing yet.”

“well they say third times the charm…” she reached over quickly rubbing her hand in your back to reassure you.

“yea, something like that.” Just then one of the nurses walked by with her lunch, Addison watched as you turned green and quickly bolted for the nearest bathroom, she followed hot on your heels, waving the concerned looks off as she traced your steps.

you ran in seeing the empty bathroom, flinging the first stall door open your knees hitting the hard tile floor as you emptied the contents of your stomach. You heard quick footsteps follow you into the bathroom.

“Y/N?!” She helped you as you tried holding your hair, as you stood up she grabbed towels and handed them to you, she squatted next to you, “how long?”

“three weeks…” you looked at her defeated.

“are you sure you’re not?…” she asked, knowing full well what you were going to say.

“no, I mean, the other times… no…” you looked at her confused.

“Oh my God Y/N, you’re pregnant and you don’t even know it!” She rolled her eyes.

“yea but the… really you think so?!”

“yes, come here.” She pulled you off the floor and into another exam room, she drew some blood and sent it to the lab stat. After an hour of nervously waiting as she got excited for you her phone dinged with results.

“So what does it say?” You asked nervously.

“hold on…” she said trying to get the page to load.

“Addison I need this to be real, I can’t lose another baby…”

“It’s real love, you’re pregnant… you’re gonna be a mama.” She smiled big.

“Really?!… I-I’m, haha, I need to tell Callie!” You turned to run out of the room.

“isn’t she in the OR right now?” She reminded you.

“I don’t care, I’ll wait outside till I see her, I gotta go…”

“go… go…” she shooed you out the door. You ran to the OR seeing a crowd gathered outside the scrub room door. You looked around and pushed through into the scrub room where Jo and two other interns stood.

“Hey what’s?…” before you could finish you heard yelling from the other room, looking in you saw Callie, an angry Webber, Bailey, and Hunt.

“What the hell?…” you hit the button letting you into the operating room where a very angry Webber was scolding your wife.

“You never should have operated.” Webber started.

“never, never should have… oh because my wife recently miscarried... is that why?” Callie shot back.

“Chief I think…” Bailey tried stepping in.

“Do not interrupt me.” He snapped calmly at her and she stepped back in line with Hunt watching.

“I don’t really think that’s your call to make… I’m perfectly fine to operate.”

“That is exactly my call to make, I’m Chief of Surgery in this hospital, and I don’t think you were ready, you haven’t taken the time to process your loss and now your bringing it in my OR.”

“your OR, your OR?!… with all do respect, this is my OR and my “loss” has nothing to do with it.”

“Callie you lost a baby, and today we lost a pregnant patient.”

“that has nothing to do with our loss.” You interrupted stepping in between Webber and your wife.

“Y/N, this doesn’t…”

“doesn’t concern me?… this is my wife, and a brilliant surgeon.”

“who lost a patient…”

“Callie go…” you said pointing her out of the room, you watched her leave and turned back to Webber.

“Do not yell at her because she lost a pregnant patient… you don’t yell at Hunt when he loses a gunshot patient and he’s been under fire in war zones, no offense…”he shrugged like none taken, “so do not yell at my wife for something she couldn’t help, she did everything she possibly could.” You were standing in front of him. You moved to leave and he stepped in front of you.

“Dr. Torres…”

“I have patients.”

“we’re not done.”

“no we very much are, Dr. Torres just lost a patient and needs to deal with it, as well as go tell the family that they just lost their baby girl… after being accused of letting things slip bc we just lost our baby. So unless you want to handle the family, please get out of my face.” You looked him in the eye and he stepped aside realizing it would not be wise to push you any further, Hunt stood impressed as Bailey closed her dropped jaw.

You walked out, “Jo can you take someone and go alert the family.”

“On it.” She went in to get Hunt as you walked out to find Callie, you knew she would go to your office and slowly opened the door.

“Callie?”

“Y/N I messed up.”

you rushed to her side, “no, no hey it happens, we don’t ever want it to but sometimes we do all we can and we give our all and sometimes we do everything we can and it’s still not enough.” you ran a finger over her cheek swiping away loose tears.

Sobs racked her body as she tried forming words, you held her in your arms rubbing her back, letting her cry into your shoulder.

“Wh-what if I could’ve done better… Y/N when she started to tank all I could see was you a-and the baby and it scared me, I-I didn’t want to lose them… I-I tried my absolute best.”

“And that’s what makes you great… Callie, you did everything in your power bc you didn’t want it to happen, just because we lost her doesn’t make you any less of a surgeon.”

“It’s just been so hard…”

“because we haven’t let it fully process, yes we grieved but we still need time…” she looked back up at you tears staining her face, her eyes traveled your solemn expression before her soft lips met yours, with the most gentle and comforting kiss.

“You know what you did back there, standing up to Webber, it was kinda intimidating and hot.” She said pulling away, resting her forehead on your shoulder as you chuckled.

“yea well, you know.”

“I do.” She chuckled pulling you in close and kissing you.

“well I have something that will make your day better…” you said in a low sultry voice.

“oh do you?” She said placing kiss on your neck, she ran a hand under your scrub top and you grabbed her hand holding over your stomach.

“why?…” she paused as you looked at her, stopping her hand from moving, she looked up reading your eyes.

“wait…”

“I found out this morning, Addison confirmed, were pregnant.”

“really?” She whispered as tears escaped her eyes.

“really… about 4-6 weeks, we’re gonna have a baby.”

“oh my God, oh my God, Y/N were gonna have a baby.” She hugged you as she cheered.

[aestheticpearl]

— 𝐚𝐧𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠

✧·˚ three small moments when elias realized he was in love

𝓲.

“do you think if we met under better circumstances we would still be together?”

“yes.”

elias doesn’t even hesitate at your question and you feel you heart flutter at his confident answer.

“i would’ve asked you out regardless.”

you can’t help but grin.

“why?”

“i don’t want to sound creepy.” elias chuckles nervously and you join in his laughter in an attempt to soothe his nerves.

“come on just tell me, please.” you move closer to him on the couch and he places his arm around you.

“i thought you were really good looking and just my type. honestly if that bomb hadn’t gone off i probably would’ve gone home and thought about you till the next morning— i don’t know this sounds creepy.”

“no no it’s cute, i want to hear more.”

elias sighs in defeat before continuing.

“i don’t know something about you was just so eye catching. maybe it was the way you fidgeted with your fingers when you were waiting for a customer to come up for assistance or the way you adjusted your necklace like three different times in the same minute.”

“you really liked watching me huh?”

the obvious statement makes something in elias’ brain click. he’s never been so observant with anyone like this before, you’re the first that he’s ever been so invested in.

“yeah uh i guess i do.”

𝓲𝓲.

“you gotta stay still i’m not very good at this.”

you’ve been doing elias’ nails for at least a solid half hour, you keep seeming to mess up but thankfully elias seems to have the patience of a saint.

“you’re doing great. just take your time, i’m in no rush anyway.”

elias watches as you nod and continue carefully painting the black polish on his fingernails. with anyone else he would tell them to hurry up or just take over entirely, but once again with you it’s different.

he doesn’t feel the need to rush you or groan at the fact you’re taking so long to simply paint his nails. he should be getting upset and frustrated that such a simple thing as taken so long, but he can’t seem to care how long it takes while you’re here with him.

“okay i think that’s as good as they’re gonna get, i’m sorry i really tried.”

“nonsense they’re better than anything i could do.”

“really?”

he nods and for the next fifteen minutes elias explains how much he loves how well you did his nails. from how well the paint job is to the time you took to get it perfect just for him.

“you’re just saying that.”

“nah, i don’t like lying to you. i very much mean whatever i say to you.”

you feel your face grow warm at the honesty.

“thank you.”

𝓲𝓲𝓲.

you had been asleep on elias for over two hours now and elias himself just couldn’t find it in him to sleep as peacefully as you. he laid awake staring at the ceiling thinking about how much you’ve changed who his is. he started to wonder if maybe he had gotten too soft.

“elias..?”

your sleepy voice pulls elias out of his thoughts and he quickly looks down at you. he swears the image of you in that moment made his heart skip two beats. you look too cute, all sleepy with messy hair and your eyes barely opened. he clears his throat before speaking to you.

“what’s up? you okay?”

“nightmare.”

“i thought i felt you flinch awake. was it brewhouse again?” what else could it be? he thought to himself.

“it was just so loud, it startled me.”

“i get that, i’m right here if you need me.”

you move up to rest on the pillow with him instead of his chest and elias wraps his arm around your waist.

“i know, thank you.”

you close your eyes and rest your head a few inches away from his and elias watches as you fall back asleep.

he can’t help but lean his head against yours gently and decide to try to fall asleep once again.

he falls asleep with ease.

made with a glitter gel pen✨

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[lizzieislife94x]

Damn It! (e.o)

Requested <3

LizzieG!PxFem Reader

Another update for yall 😇 assssssss always requests are open my loves.

Lizzies POV:

I groan and rub my templates as my extremely attractive new assistant trip's sending the coffees flying this girl can't do anything right I only hired her because I wanna have her "I'm sorry I'm so sorry miss olsen ill get it cleaned and get some more im so sorry" she panics making me look at her god she's so fucking adorable "y/n take a seat just leave it ill get it cleaned after work hours, I need you to go book an appointment for a new client for Thursday can you do that " I say a little annoyed as smiles and nods "yes I can do that easy!" With that she jumps out of the chair and leaves my office.

Y/ns POV:

I can't help but curse myself why am I so clumsy why does she make my brain forget how to brain I sigh and dial the number lizzie gave me as a woman quickly answers

Hey my names y/n I'm calling on behalf of miss olsen she asked me to arrange an appointment for Thursday. I say waiting for a reply

Thursday is perfect this Thursday or next Thursday y/n. I hear as I start to panic fuck shit she just said Thursday is it tomorrow or next week

Umm I uh next Thursday, thank you have a great day. I quickly hang up the phone as I gron leaning against the table.

4 hours later:

"See you tomorrow miss olsen" I say as I head out to leave the building "I need you tomorrow bright and early don't be late" her tone is matter of fact making me gulp "yes miss olsen see you tomorrow"

Next Day:

Y/ns POV:

I take a deep breath before walking into the office "you got this y/n don't let her make your brain stop you can function like a normal human being" I whisper to myself before making my way up to the top of the building "morning y/n I think you should turn around and leave" Joe one of my co workers states making me panic "lizzie is on the war path she had everything ready for the meeting with the new client this morning only to find its booked for next week" I groan and cover my face "fuck I panicked when she asked what Thursday and lizzie didn't tell me it was meant to be today" I whisper as her door swings open "y/n my office now!!!" She yells slamming the door making my blood run cold tears threaten to run from my eyes as I make my way into her office "damn it! Y/n how could you fuck this up" I don't dare look at her "you didn't tell me it was for today I panicked and said next week" I whisper my voice failing me "don't give me the tears it was a simple task and you somehow fucked it up how is that possible" I sniff and look up "I'm sorry miss olsen ill do better" she laughs folding her arms "I think I should teach you a lesson right here huh?" I look at her confused wiping my eyes "please don't fire me miss olsen this is the only sorce of income I have " I pleade as she smirks sitting down "oh I'm not going to fire you be a good girl and go make sure the blinds are closed" I stand up confused as I close them "now come here I'm going to make that cute little ass red bend over the desk and show mommy your ass" her change of tone turning me on what the fuck is happening I slowly do as I'm told till I'm bent over my bosses desk her hands running down my back gently rubbing my ass making me bite my lip "you've been asking for this since you started such a clumsy girl can never do anything right huh, I think you need mommy to teach you " I let our a loud audible moan at her words making lizzie laugh "pl...please teach me mo..m..my" I beg as I feel her stand behind be pulling my ass flush against her waist the feeling of something hard pressing into me "can you feel what you do to me y/n" she whispers into my ear as I nod trying to press my ass into her harder "oh don't worry you'll get mommy's cock and load soon but first I gotta mark that ass of yours princess " I turn slightly as I bite my lip "I.. I.. I'm not on birth control" I stutter as she slaps my ass hard making me moan again "even better you'd love to be full of my seed with my baby growing in your cute little stomach" I nod slowly as she pushes my dress up over my ass "never knew you where a thong girl" she grins pulling my now drenched thong down my legs making me instantly spread my legs a groan falling from her lips as her fingers gently tease my soaking entrance "fuck" I cry out needing more her laugh ringing in my ear "I want you to count how many times I spank your ass can you do that properly? Can you count for mommy" she mocks as I nod her hand slamming onto my right ass cheek "one" I yelp suddenly another and another and another till she finally stops at 10, my ass feeling its on fire "my hand print looks good on your ass" she whispers biting my ear as she unbuttons her pants "so fucking hard thinking about making you take my dick" I turn with my back now on the desk needing to see her "fuck" I pant as she holds her hard cock in her hand "don't worry princess you'll be able to take it " she smirks as she steps closer teasing my dripping pussy "mommy please...Don.. t tease me" I beg as she finally pushes her whole length inside me making me scream "that's it sweetheart let them all hear how good mommy makes you feel" the rest of the world forgotten as I moan like never before as she runs her hand up my body my body grabbing my tits "gonna make you mine slut" she moans her thrusts somehow getting faster the feeling of her deep inside me hitting spots no one ever has has my whole body shaking "shit don't stop oh my fucking godddddddd I'm gonna cum"

I scream as I start to cum lizzies grin getting bigger as she continues to pound me not letting me recover "such a tight little pussy fuck it's like it was made for me" she leans down kissing me as pounds and pounds "fu...ck mommy" I moan against her lips for only her to hear "if you fuck up from now on I'm gonna fuck your brains out baby" I smirk as my eyes roll "that's just gonna make me do it on purpose" she moans as she slows her thrusts "so fucking naughty, I'm close sweetheart gonna fill your pussy" she moans her eyes closing as her thrusts get harder my second orgasm seconds away as I feel her hot sticky seed filling my unprotected pussy sending me over the edge making me cum harder than I ever have my body trembling as the pleasure rushes through me lizzie slamming deep inside me holding still "fuck y/n" she moans into my ear both of us recovering from the intense orgasm "now you gotta walk around with my cum leaking out of this well fucked cunt" she smirks teasing my clit making me shake "I don't even care" I giggle as she pulls out quickly fixing my panties for me "that was better than I've pictured" she smirks cupping my cheeks leaving a gentle kiss on my lips as she fixes her pants before sitting on her chair pulling me into her lap "but we do need to talk about all these mistakes sweetheart" I feel my cheeks blush and hide my face "it's because of you" lizzie looks at me shocked and confused "what do you mean" I groan as she grips my chin making me look at her "you make my brain short circuit like I know I can do the work but you somehow make my brain stop " she laughs cuddling into me "well I'm sure we can start to fix it from now on huh" I smile and nod as I cuddle into her a loud knock making me jump "go away come back in an hour" I giggle as she laughs "I want time with you they can wait" I smile and trace patterns on her neck as we cuddle in comfortable silence.

AN: hope this is OK 👍 drink water and stay hydrated babes 💗 word count 1.5k

[timbradfordslover]

Pairing: Tim Bradford x fem reader x the 100

Summary: After Raven comes down, the delinquents develop a plan to let the Ark know they’re alive without the radio.

Word count: 1554

Part 4???

The 103 III

It’s been 3 days since we brought Jasper back. He’s still in a lot of pain but seems to be doing a little bit better. Tim and I are on first watch for the night. “It’s so quiet out here,” I say to Tim. “It’s too quiet. The grounders could strike at any moment,“ he says back grumpily. I step closer to him and wrap an arm around his waist and pull him closer. I instantly feel him relax against me. “Don’t be such a grump.” I say jokingly. He chuckles and leans down to kiss me. As I pull away from him, I see a ball of fire come down. “Tim, look, “I say with curiosity. “A shooting star. You should make a wish, baby. I laugh and say “That’s just a myth. They don’t actually come true. Besides, it’s just a big rock burning up in Earth’s atmosphere.” “Doesn’t hurt to try,“ Tim says as he gently grabs my hips. The object doesn’t burn up as it gets closer like it should. “Um, Tim, that’s not a shooting star.”

We run back to the inside of the camp and see the others gathering around. “Did you guys see that?” I asked them. “Yeah. They’re coming to help us. Now we can kick some grounder ass, Jones said. “Please tell me they brought down some shampoo.” Roma, the girl next to him, said. Bellamy walks over with Octavia. “We should get moving. Everyone’s ready,” Octavia says to Bellamy. “No one’s going anywhere. Not while it’s dark. We’ll head out at first light; spread the word, “Bellamy says. Octavia stops Bellamy as he tries to walk off. “Everyone within 100 miles saw this thing come down. What if the grounders get to it first?” "I said wait till sunrise.” Bellamy says firmly.

The next morning I wake up next to Tim in the tent we have been sharing. Tim is still asleep, so I lay my head on his bare chest. “Wake up, Tim, we gotta go see what that thing was,” I say against him. He stirs under me and wraps his arm around me. “In a minute,” he says as he kisses my head. "We gotta get up," I say as I giggle against him. I slid out from under his arm and put my shoes and jacket on. I look back and notice Tim has a sad look on his face. He gets up and puts on his shirt and guard jacket.

“Looks like everyone’s up.” Finn says as Tim and I walk over to him and Clarke. “Where’s Bellamy?“ I asked them. “Let’s find out,Tim said as he walked into Bellamy’s tent. Roma is lying naked in his cot. “Ever heard of knocking?” she says as she covers herself with a blanket. I walk in after him. “Oh great, it’s a free show. Anyone else want to take a look? she says s angrily. “Where’s Bellamy?” Tim said firmly. “I don't know; he left a while ago,” she says. Tim storms out, and I follow. “He told everyone to stay. Whatever is in that thing he wants,” Clarke says when we step out of the tent. “Then we gotta get to it before he does,” I say back. “He wants the radio; we gotta be quick.” Tim says angrily.

An hour later we find the pod. We see there is a passenger passed out in the pilot’s seat. She wakes up and pulls off her helmet. "Aahh. Crap. That’s not good,” she says as she touches her bloody forehead. “Oh my god!” Clarke says as she opens the door to the pod. The girl steps out of the pod. ”Hi. I made it?“ She says. Clarke and I smile and nod at her. “. Ah. I dreamed it would smell like this. Is this rain?” “Welcome home.” Clarke says with a smile.” “Raven!” Finn yells from behind us. “Finn. I knew you couldn’t be dead,” she says as she runs up to him and kisses him. “How did you get here?” Finn asks Raven. “You know that big scraphold? The one on K deck?” She says. “You built that from scrap?”Finn says, gesturing to the pod. “I kind of rebuilt it. It just needed a few parts and some love." “Clarke, we need to put something on her wound,” I say. “Clarke? This was all because of your mom.” “My mom?“ Clarke says confused. “This was all her plan. We couldn’t wait because the council was voting on whether to kill 300 people to save air. “When?” I ask. “Today. We have to tell them you’re alive. She runs back to the pod.”The radio’s gone. It must have gotten loose during reentry. I should’ve strapped it to the A-strut. Stupid”. She hits the dash of the pod in frustration. “No, it’s our fault. Someone was here before us. We need to find him.” I say to Raven.

2 hours later we find Bellamy in the woods. “Where the hell is that radio?” Tim yells at Bellamy. “Hey Bradford, You guys going for a walk in the woods? He says sarcastically.“They’re going to kill 300 people up there,“ I yell at Bellamy. “I don’t know what you guys are going on about.“ Bellamy says nonchalantly. Raven steps between Bellamy and me. “Bellamy Blake? They’re looking everywhere for you. She says. Bellamy turns to Raven. “Shut up.” “That’s why you took the wristbands. “Looking for him, why?” I asked Raven. “He shot Chancellor Jaha, she says back. That’s why you took the wristbands. You wanted them to think we’re dead so you could save your own ass.” Tim says angrily. Bellamy starts to walk away, but Raven starts to follow. “Hey! Shooter, where’s my radio?” She says as she moves in front of him. “Get out of my way,” Bellamy yells. “Where is it?” Raven yells back. “I really should’ve killed you when I had the chance,” he says. “Really? Well, I’m right here.” Bellamy throws Raven against a tree, and she points a knife at him. ”Where’s my radio? “she says behind clenched teeth. “Okay, stop it.” Clarke says, and Bellamy lets go of Raven. “Jaha deserved to die. You all know that.” Bellamy says. “Yeah, he’s not my favorite person either, but he isn’t dead.” Raven reveals. “What? Bellamy says confused. “You’re a lousy shot.” Raven says back. Clarke approaches Bellamy slowly. “Bellamy, don’t you see what this means? You’re not a murderer.You always did what you had to do to protect your sister. That’s who you are. And you can do it again by protecting 300 of your people.Where’s the radio?” “It’s too late.” He says to Clarke.

We all set out to go to the river where Bellamy threw the radio into the water. “Hey! I found it!” Jones said, and we all ran over. “Can you fix it?” I ask Raven as she tries to see the damage. “Maybe, but it’ll take half the day to just dry out the components to see what’s broken.” She says. “Like I said, it’s too late,” Bellamy says. “Shut up, Bellamy.” Tim barks at him. Clarke marches up to Bellamy.Do you have any idea what you did? Do you even care?!” She yells at him in disappointment. “You asked me to help. I helped, he says to her. “Three hundred people are going to die today because of you.”. Clarke says. Raven steps closer to Clarke, “Hold up. We don’t have to talk to the Ark. We just got to let them know we're down here, right?” She says with a smile. “Yeah, but how do we do that with no radio? Finn asks confused. We go to the escape pod to help Raven execute her plan. “We need to launch those flares ASAP if we have any hope of saving those people. Finn, get that control panel to camp. Y/N, you and Tim, pull out those fire circuits in one piece, or they won’t work. Clarke, can I have a hand?" She hands Clarke a wrench. “Work these bolts here gently. Rocket fuel likes to go boom. We’re going to need power to fire”. She explains to her. “They’re trying in the batteries on the dropship. Should be ready when we get there. Clarke informs Raven. “Great, so what’s the problem?” Raven asks, concerned. “Nothing. I just, uh… Well, if we get the rockets to launch, will they see them from the Ark?” Clarke asks nervously. “Like the good book says, it’s all about burn time and cloud cover. But I know your mom will be watching. I’ve never seen anyone love someone the way she loves you. You know, that right?” Raven reassures her. Clarke nods. “I did. It’s complicated”.

A few hours later, after nightfall, Tim and I sit by the fire while we wait for Raven to launch the flares. “Do you actually think that anyone will see them from here?’ I ask him, leaning against his side. “ He leans over and kisses my forehead. “I’m not sure, baby; we’ll just have to wait and see what happens.” He says against my forehead. “You know they’re kind of like shooting stars,” I say, looking into his blue eyes. “Not this again,” he jokes. Raven sets off the flares, and I pull him closer and kiss him passionately.

[phen397]

Sonic adventure 2 but told through notes I took while playing part2 electric Boogaloo

OK here we go again

Tails in the Chao garden is too cute

Love the way his tails sway and flop on the ground

Feed the children all the tubes

Only one though

He will be the most drugged up Chao at the races

OK

Time to leave

Sonic in jail

Amy from the sky

Have no fear Amy rose is here

How did she get that key card

"That black hedgehog"? Amy please come see me after class

Marry me if I tell?

Did sonic write the stuff in the walls

Nah he too dumb for all that math

Who built these ramps and loops in the middle of the ocean?

Guess gun did since their name is on everything

Thanks omachao I didn't know how to do a homing attack

Cuccked by a bot phasing put of existence

Can I just not hit ghost bot?

No omachao I haven't tried using the light dash I don't even have that yet

Oh hey light dash shoes

Go fast on rings

Lots of peacocks in this level

The seal is so cute look at him

Rocket time

Bigger rocket

I gotta ride it!?

Oh snap

To space baby

Oh God he jumped

Where did this stuff come from

Snowboard down tube to goal

Sonic seems to like taking panels off of gun's stuff

I am sure they aren't important

New gate in Chao space

The kindergarten

I am going to go get apple sauce and have a nap

Oh it seems to be empty

Little drawings of chaos on the walls

Wonder if these where drawn by fans

Chao bulletin board

What browser?

Different doors for things

Can't do anything cause I didn't bring a Chao

I am a teen just wandering around a kindergarten

Not weird at all

Let me talk to the principal

Lots to say

Now how do I get my Chao here?

Poor all the animals and tubes into one Chao

What could go wrong?

Maybe if I pick up a Chao and leave I can take him to the kindergarten

Nope

Next level time

In the forest

So far so good

Hi shadow I mean faker

Not even good enough to be my fake

"I'LL MAKE YOU EAT THOSE WORDS" damn sonic let the man finish

Time to fight shadow

Did he just say he is the coolest?

Shit I fell

Wait for him to land after his attack then hit him

Do you even know who I am

Green forest

Yes

Yes it is

Close your mouth shadow please

Island gonna blow up

Soundtrack picking up for this epic race against death

Oh yea Amy and tails are here too I guess

8 minutes till boom

Epic vine swings

Love my naturally growing springs

Level done

More tubes for the child

Let's see how the child has grown

Race time

Mushroom forest this time round

Look at my child go

Not dead last so doing good

Ha some tripped

Cheer em on

3rd place thanks to a trip right at the end

Try again?!

So I need to win huh?

Fine I will be back

Island blowing up cutscene

Plane flies away

Pumpkin hill

Getting jiggy with it

Place feels haunted

Knuckles time

Shovel claws

I can dig now

I can dig up Graves

Ghosts not happy

This place feels familiar

How train why train?

Found all 3

Eggman psa

Creepy child

Eggman empire

Egg face in space

The ark

Laser beam

NOT THE MOON

24 hours

Gang saw it all

How did he get all that energy

Chaos emerald

Talis has one just cause

I am sure you saying something important tails but I can't hear you over the sound of your theme song blasting my eardrums out

Oh shoot the popo

Yes Amy you are an accomplis now

No backing out now

Ah yes mission Street

Right next to objective lane

If you hit side quest ally you went to far

Tails level

Gonna get so many tubes

Boosters

Fly high?

More like hover mid

Okay

Okay

Okay

Okay

Okay

Thanks tails

More tubes for the child

All for now But next time I don't know maybe the child attends class or smth idfk

[itsmebytch001]

I saw that you wanted prompts and I though about many Rio doing your hair after Diana hadn’t been taking care of it properly and Arron not being able to do cute little girl hair styles

Hair Things:

Aaron had lost all his hair due to the plunge of baldness instead of the slow death of a receeding hair line and hadn't had hair in 20 years, he was always a tad envious of Jeff for being able to keep his hair despite being older.

In my mind Diana has exetremely thick black straight hair, and is 100% the type of person to get frustrated with your hair and try and just brush out your curls with sheer force, and when that dosen't work she simply leaves it, she would comment on the state of your hair but never try and help it, or learn how to take care of it, and when Aaron suggested she just take you to a salon...

Aaron: "Diana, I don't under stand why you won't just take her to a salon!"

Diana: "Do you know how expensive those places are?"

Aaron: "you don't even pay child support, the least you can do is pay for your little girls hair!"

Diana: "Why don't you do it?"

Aaron: "Look at me Diana, you think after all these years I know how to do a little girls hair?"

Diana: "No, I mean take her to a salon"

Aaron: "Again, Diana LOOK AT ME what the hell am I going to in a hair salon?"

Diana: "Get your skull shined?"

When you were a new born you were blessed with a full head of hair, Aaron was slightly thrown off by how much there was when he first saw you in the hospital, and more so when it grew so fast, and since he didn't know what to do, and Diana was not help he just kept your hair in silk wraps or bonnets most the time, and when he did try to take care of your hair himself...

Jeff: "What the hell have you done do that little girls head?"

Aaron: "What?"

*6 year old Y/n looking like a over gelled curly haired Draco Malfoy with all her hair comded into a pony tail*

Aaron:"...I think it looks fine..." He said unsure.

Jeff: "I should arrest for this, I'm calling Rio"

It was decided that Aaron would take you to the Morales home for Rio to fix your, on the way there Aaron insisted you cover your hair. Once you got there Rio's expression once she was your hair was initally shock, then almost a giggle, and then slapping Aaron in the chest.

Rio: "What is this?!" She whispered over to him.

Aaron: "WHAT? Is it really that bad?"

Rio:" YES!"

She spent about 3 hours getting out the gel, rubbing in some oils into your scalp and finally started putting your hair into two very thick plats, similair to her hair, during this process while you sat on the floor Miles entered the room and saw your half done hair.

Miles: "You look...rough"

Y/n: "Just wait till she's done, I'm sure your next"

And once finally Rio had sorted your hair and you finally looked okay it became standard practice that every week you would go over to the Morales home and get your hair done, Diana wasn’t happy since she felt that Rio was again pushing her out of her motherly role, and Rio even offered to teach her but instead she just dismissed her.

Rio enjoyed doing your her as she did wish for a girl originally and this was her main way of expressing love you for you, putting your hair in plats, teaching you how to take proper care of it as you got older but having you sit on the rug while she on the sofa doing your hair while you both watched trash TV was a good past time…

Rio: “Oh you silly girl Chelsea, HE CHATED ON YOU!” She said clicking at the TV with one hand while the over continued to do it’s work.

Y/n: “And with Angela!”

Rio: “Exactly!! Now You promise me Y/n if a boy EVER plays you like that you’ll walk straight away, or hand him to me, oh I’ll take care of him umhummm” she nodded to herself

Y/n:”sure Tita”

Rio: “No no no Y/n you gotta promise me”

Y/n: “Yes yea Tita I will leave then if they run around yeah?’

Rio: “Good, and you always gotta get a back round check with your Uncle, some men are evil baby you gotta know”

Y/n:” Yeah but Jeff always shuts down the boys I see, and if not him it’s Aaron always stepping into my business like I’m a little girl”

Rio: “ But you are a little baby” she kissed the side of your cheek from behind.

Y/n:” I am 17! I can take care of myself!”

Rio:” Hmmm, well what about Riven? He was horrible if I recall”

Y/n: “ I was never with Riven? He was with Musa”

Rio:” Yes yes I know but think about what could have been avoided if only she had a background check on him!”

….

….

Y/n:”yeah I guess…”

Rio: “I heard about Diana…are you two talking again?”

Y/n:” No no, I’m not ready, I’m not even sure if I care to be honest, and I’m so sick of people from her side of the family being like ‘she’s your Mom you need to forgive her’ all that, like I’m not even mad anymore I just don’t want to talk to her anymore!”

Rio: “ whatever keeps your peace Baby…All done!” She said cheerfully while pulling away from your head to reveal your new hair.

Rio: “ you like?”

Y/n:” yeah, thank you Tita”

Rio: “ No problems tea?”

Y/n: “ sure, thanks”

( FEED ME MORE SUGGESTIONS)(PLEASE)

[theautismgoblin]

Golden Acrobat in a Different Form a Different Time

Chapter 3

New Old Faces

Within the next couple days, I quickly realized that I’d shown up in Gravity Falls both before Weirdmaggedon and before Dipper and Mabel had even arrived, which made me ecstatic. 

I’M GONNA GET TO GREET THEM!!! 

As I was sweeping the shack, “HEY KID,” I just about jumped at my boss’s interruption to my thoughts… 

“Oh, uh yes Sir!” I said quickly. “I gotta go pick up some things from town, and I need you to watch the shack…” I immediately saluted in a very faux serious manner, “I shall GUARD THIS SHACK WITH MY WHOLE BEING! “ “YOU BETTER,” Stan said as he was already out the door. 

I just shrugged, and now that Stan was gone began to dance and talk to myself again. But specifically I was talking about the attractions… 

“The story of the Cornicorn is a strange and mysterious tale of wonder and escapades. A unicorn fair and noble pranced throughout these lands, helping all those far and wide. HOWEVER, THEY HAD AN ARCH NEMESIS, an Evil mountain lion hated all the attention the fair unicorn got, so thus the lion sought to bring down the majestic creature.The lion found a fairy witch that claimed to have just the spell. The fairy threw to the lion a bag of corn kernels!“Unicorns love corn. It's right in the name so plant these and wait for them!” The fairy said with a sinister grin, and so thus the lion ran into the forests until they found a clearing where they planted every single kernel in the bag. And magic sparks shot up, the once small plots now full grown stalks of corn.And so within the rising full moon the fair Unicorn came across the field of corn. And this was the Unicorns favorite food, it’s in the name after all!BUT when the unicorn took a single bite out of an ear of corn, something horrid happened. The once majestic creature began to shift into the very food it just ate.

And the now Unicorn made of corn was left within the forest, till we here at the Mystery Shack recovered it!!That’s the story of the CORNICORN.”  

“DUDE, THat was amazing!” And for the second time today, I got really startled. “HUH, uh?? What??” I looked behind me at Soos, who I just realized was here the entire time. “Dude, you should totally tell Stan that story for the attraction.” “What, no it’s just a stupid thing I pulled outa’ my ass.” I said, really embarrassed, especially since someone just saw me talking to myself again.. 

“No, dude that was actually really dope! Like, Stan could actually use that!” I just blushed a bit, still not used to getting attention over my random stories.. And then I stuck my chin up, “You know what, YOU’RE Right I’ll tell him it later!” I said with a big smile on my face, and kinda lying my ass off, cause ya’know ANXIETY. 

And within the next hour Stan burst through the door, “WELCOME KIDS TO THE MYSTERY SHACK!” wait.. And “Grunkle Stan, Why are we here?” a higher pitched voice said, DIPPER OMG!! “Cause this is where you’re living for the next few months!” “Wow, DipDop, LOOK AT THAT!” and I saw a long haired brunette run by to the Deer Bat Mantle. “It’s a Bateer!” Mabel said while pointing up excitedly at the mantle, and trying to reach it.. But she was too short to reach. And there I was still rebooting, cause it’s the Mystery Twins!

Dipper, as soon as Mabel was done freaking out over the admittedly cool attraction (that for some reason not in the actual Mystery Shack), started trying to get Stan’s attention. “Wait, WHAT! Grunkle Stan, you can’t really expect us to live in a dingy Tourist Trap.” “What course I do, and plus this is just the front. NOT like I’d actually expect you kids to sleep with the attractions,” pfffffff yes YOU WOULD STAN , I thought in my head. 

“Nah, y’all get your very own room..” There was a dramatic pause before he spoke again,  “Up in the attic, where all kids love to be!” And I about died in hysterics. “Oh right,” and this is the moment he chose to introduce me, “this is Alex, she’ll be working with you two. Oh Yeah, you's kids will be working here too.” To which the two twins started to protest, which is honestly fair. 

I choose to not correct Stan on my gender.. I didn't even tell anyone, mostly cause it's only 2012 and this is a small town…. Just not willing to deal with that ordeal. 

I waved to the two kids, and immediately noticed all their bags and stuff.. “Yo, y'all need help with those..”

“HEY, ya still got work to do!” Stan yelled pointing at me, to which I leaned on the rack I had just finished sorting. “No I don’t. “ I said with a big-ass smug grin. “Did ya-” 

“Swept, reordered everything, all the attractions were cleaned, and I made sure to reapply all the fake price tags and add a couple zeros to a few.” I said nonchalantly. 

Stan just groaned, “Usually it’s only Soos.. FINE go help em’ kid!” He yelled out as he kinda stomped out the room.  

I just laughed and went over to the twins. Mabel now actually noticing me, started to bounce up and down, meanwhile Dipper just kinda stared at me. “I’M MABEL AND THIS IS DIPPER, WE’RE STAYING HERE FOR THE SUMMER AND OMG THAT JACKET’S SO COOL!! WHERE’D YOU GET IT!” 

“OH my Family made it for me,” I smiled down at Mabel, the little ball of joy she is. 

Stan had moved into the showroom, probably going to make some more adjustments on a few of them. Dipper was trying to haul his bag with him, of course he overpacked, and I don’t blame him, a completely new place, and almost no idea what’ll be there to do. Not to mention I think their parents didn’t let them bring any electronics.. “Here let me help,” Dipper just looked up.. Wow It’s weird to see him in that hat, rather than the pine-tree hat! “Oh no, I got it.” Dipper said while trying to lift his bags at once, and almost dropped it. “Heh, you might’ve overpacked..” “No, I brought everything I needed with me.” “Even those dorky DVDs of BABA!” Mabel said, poking out her head around the corner, having already scurried off to start tossing stuff into her room. “WHAT NO I DON’T KNOW WHAT YOU’RE TALKING ABOUT!!” Dipper started yelling out at the now empty doorway. I just shook my head at Mabel, and grabbed the biggest bag Dipper had.. He had alot, and even I knew I couldn’t carry all of them myself. “How bout’ this, I take half and you take the other half.” 

Dipper grumbled, “Fine.” And went to grab his half of the bags, “I dunno whether to be scared of or enlightened by your sister..” I said as we hauled the bags up the stairs, I could hear Stan’s loud presentations, seems like we have a tour group too right now. “That much energy and I’m guessing strength.” Dipper just rubbed the back of his neck, “Heh, yeah.. She’s just like that..” I proceeded to help Dipper and Mabel unpack all their stuff. And I had thought Dipper was the only one to overpack, Mabel was like in the same tier, what with the enormous amounts of stuffed animals, posters and everything else.. The only difference between the two was that Dipper packed more reasonable and useful stuff.. While Mabel’s packing felt like she just grabbed everything in her room.. “ANd THEN they were like You two only stay inside ALL summer, which NO I go out a bunch. Like everyday and interact with others. It’s Dipdot that always stayed Inside and played his games. So they just like told us to pack, and BAM, next day we were here!!!” Mabel said in a neck breaking pace, I due to my own experience could actually understand every last word. “Mabel could you not completely overwhelm someone we met not even an HOUR ago.” I just laughed a bit, “Nah, it’s fine. And honestly, energetic folks make life more FUN!” I exclaim, spreading my arms out wide. “Just like.. Imagine, if no one was chaos, LIFE WOULD BE BORING.” I said as I scrunched my face at the thought, “AND BORING is no fun.” 

I spent the rest of that day getting to know the two kiddos, and it was great. AND then Stan yelled from downstairs, “ALL RIGHT Get yall’s butts down here, I need to SHOW ya’ the ropes!!” Welp that ends that. Dipper was the one groaning, as Mabel zoomed outta the room down the stairs. “Coming Grunkle Stan!!!” She seemed to have warmed up to the idea of the Mystery Shack after I had talked more about some of the attractions. Admittedly, I overdid it on some of the story telling. Dipper however did not. 

Dipper very grumpily got up, he had brought a book with him, I think it’s a mystery novel, which FAIR. 

So he got up very begrudgingly, “You coming with us?” He asked, us making eye-contact, it’s still weird to see Dipper’s irises, chocolate-brown. And since he’s a kid, they’re bigger too. “No, I gotta go home. Got some extra stuff needing to get done.” I said with a small smile, “DIPPER GET YOUR BUTT DOWN HERE!!!” Both me and Dipper jumped, and I just laughed, “Looks like your Grunkle needs you.. Probably for some scam, you better get down there.” I said as I head out the door, and leaving the house.. Making my way back to my makeshift hut. 

When I was suddenly stopped.. By a gnome.. OH NO, I just inwardly groan. I KNEW THIS SHIT WOULD HAPPEN!

I could be wrong though.. But chances are no. I’ll give this guy the benefit of the doubt, it’s weird though they ain’t trying to pretend to be human like they did with Mabel..

“How might I help you,” I said questionaly with an eyebrow raised. 

“Oh well ya see pretty miss, me and my friends have been awfully lonely as of late. And we saw ya in the woods, when ya showed up. And we were-” 

I immediately cut him off, “First off not a miss, and secondly if you ask me out I will drop kick you so hard right now.” I looked down at him.

“Wait, you're not a girl!” Jeff looked surprised at me. “Yeah no, I ain't nothing in the gender department. Too confusing for my brain hole.” 

“Oh well then in that case, toodles!” And he just scampers off. Leaving me in massive confusion… 

Did that seriously work, me saying I ain't a girl… I just said it on a whim.. 

OH well, ONE LESS PROBLEM TO WORRY ABOUT!! 

I started running back to my little sanctuary, excited to get back. I had found the perfect area to go stargazing tonight, and I AM DETERMINED TO GET THERE BEFORE SUNSET!!! But I kinda gotta grab some stuff, namely Tigey. 

So I ran through the trees, the light slowly draining from the skies, I had stayed much longer than I had meant to at the Mystery Shack. As soon as I found my sanctuary I ran in and grabbed Tigey, along with some snacky snacks. Then I bolted out of the cavern, running to the spot. Then finally, I got there. Crystal littered the ground, what kind I’m unsure of, but I know they ain’t size changing ones. I’d flashed a light through it previously to be sure of at least that. The sun had just begun to set, coating the crystals in a thousand shades. The flowers all seemed to again glow.. Though it was quick, the sun had set after what felt like seconds. Now the star began to peak out of the skies. And the moon was full, illuminating the area. 

I stared up at it.. Seeing once more the yin-yang.. I don’t know why I only see that, but not the Man in the Moon or the Rabbit.. 

I had thought about why I’m here even more since that first night.. This is one of the first times I actually needed to be here.. Every other time I dimension hopped it was for my own delight. 

But I hope I can become better friends with Dipper and Mabel. Heck, maybe I can help a tiny bit with their adventures.. I really don’t want Mabel to almost get nabbed by the gnomes.. But I don’t wanna interfere too much.. Though, if I try to interfere too little I might never find them.. I’ll just go with my gut and soul.. My soul is going to be the main driving point in this mission, it’s the key.. After about an hour of this, I got up. I need to start the search.. But where to begin, maybe the forest.. I don’t think it’ll be in town, too normal… Not to mention other factors… 

Maybe. IT COULD BE IN THE JOURNAL, I jumped up at the idea. If it’s in the journal I have an excuse to hang out with the Mystery Twins!! Also, also, I’d be able to do more than if I didn’t have any other reference to what all is in the forest.. 

Though. I am crossing my fingers on what it is… But I could very well be wrong. 

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[disasterpurplebois]

Gotta vent for a sec

I’m def short on sleep so take all this with a grain of salt but on top of being tired today, I’m visiting my family bc I still have stuff to take from my parents house, and I’m feeling so guilty for leaving them (like it’s overall a good thing and they’re all adults they’ll be fine) but I was always the one who cooked for everyone and now my parents and my sister are all individually cooking for themselves bc none of them ever learned how to anticipate and meal prep for everyone.

Also I need to pick up my bridesmaid dress for next weekend but when I went to get it the seamstress said she was super behind but working on it now and could I come by later or tomorrow? RAnd I get that she got busy and behind but it took me an hour round trip to get to her shop bc of all the holiday traffic and I can’t come get it another day bc I’m going back to my house tonight and I’m busy all week before the wedding and can’t drive back down to my parents. And so now I’m waiting for her to call me and say it’s ready so I can drive back and pick it up.

And all I really want to do is be home and watch the new ep of CR but I probably won’t get home till after 8 tonight and I have work in the morning and I’m already short on sleep and exhausted. I did a lot of socializing/errands yesterday and I’m also working 60 hours in the next 7 days and supposed to get my period soon so I’m just not in a fantastic headspace right now.

Like yes hello I’m an adult with responsibilities but can time just stop for a few days so I can catch up on everything. Also also I just had “vacation” this week which consisted of 3 consecutive days off so you’d think I’d be rested. But no.

[hearthhuntescasty]

This last week I've really been able to pull my life together. Cooking meals, doing some cleaning, painting, doing some dishes, getting to work better, praying to my dieties. But work has been tiring, I don't feel appreciated, I don't even feel like I'm doing a great job, somehow I'll always do something wrong even if it's what I've been told before or it was a harmless mistake, and I'm pretty sure my 2/3 coworkers think I'm a well meaning floundering idiot.

Taking care of myself at home has made a huge difference, but weekend has hit, I let myself give it all a rest Friday. And now I'm just tired. I've been waiting all week for the weekend, and I know this is a perfect time to catch up on dishes, do more things I love, make the house nicer so I can enjoy it more. But I'm just tired. Doing it all feels good, it feels worth it when I do. But it means fighting every minute of the day, and even if it is worth it and makes me happy, it doesn't make me any less tired. Do people really do this everyday? Does this stuff roll off their backs? Taking care of themselves and such, properly. I fight with depression and ADHD. I'm medicated for my depression, that helps. Doesn't solve anything. Even outside of work I fight every minute to keep myself moving. I give myself an hour or two in full just for watching TV and doing something with my hands to rest. It just seems like cooking dinner, doing a few dishes, picking up after myself, doing a hobby that makes me feel satisfied, is a fight. Everything worth doing is a fight with my executive dysfunction.

Me and my live-in partner, he thinks we're on good terms, but I think we should break up. He struggles with so many more mental health stuff than me, and I'm just tired of fighting to tend to the house by myself, taking majority care of his dog sometimes, I stopped trying to take care of him because fighting his fight isn't the way to go. Especially when he's not trying I'm the ways I'm trying to help him. I'm tired of watching him spend far too much of his personal money on useless objects and ordering in when my paycheck is supporting both of us. I don't want to commit to the same gradure of 7 little puppies and kids even when our lives are more settled. He's off from school these last few weeks, with adding very little to the housekeeping at all and waking up when I get home from work, leaving his small dog unable to go out from 6am till I get home at 3:30.

I really would much rather live alone in peace and quiet, where any messes are just my own and my paycheck of 17 an hour only supports me. The only reasons I haven't broken up with him, is without me his entire financial situation and plans are screwed. There's no sense in making things harder when we're stuck living together till the lease is up. I can't keep up with all of this, alone, I can't go to my caretaker job and act like his mom when I come home. So I just stopped. And yes, I've talked to him about issues, and he's made some efforts. It's not like he's a bum, but I don't think I can continue this relationship with him.

It's definitely taught me a lesson for my next life partner. I need someone who can take care of themselves, someone who can take care of me sometimes too. Because I don't feel loved and cared for, I mean, he cares and he loves me but I don't think I even want to be close to him. I'm concerned that might've gotten interested with him out of pity of some level, that's something I've done before. I always wanna fix people, I gotta make sure my next relationship isn't someone to fix or save from their hard home life. Cause I am sucker.

[jodilin65]

TUESDAY, AUGUST 15, 2000 Fortunately, Paul didn’t try to call today while I was out. Yeah, we went to Whataburger and ate inside instead of going through the drive-thru. I missed those chicken strips. Tom got a burger and some fries. It was our first time in a fast food place in ages. Probably the longest we’ve gone without it since knowing each other. I felt I deserved a treat after reaching 113 pounds! And he certainly deserved it, too.

We also stopped at the grocery store. We picked up a few things – bread, chicken slices for my sandwiches, a birthday card for his mom, another John Sandford book, and a couple of 9-volt batteries. I needed one for the alarm clock so that I don’t have to worry about resetting the alarm when we have power failures. They also had a two-for-one deal on scent cartridges, so I picked up their new rainshower scent for the main body of the house (den, kitchen, living room). The big open part of it. Rainshower is OK, but not as good as Country Garden, vanilla, Tropical Mist, strawberry, and raspberry.

I slept later today than I should have and would’ve liked to. I didn’t get up till 10:00, so I gotta back up and hope the storms don’t interfere with my sleeping schedule.

They shut the power down again yesterday evening for about 20 minutes, obviously to repair whatever the storm had damaged, but fortunately, this didn’t entice our local assholes to blast their music. Tom said he thinks that our storm performer got sick of not having anything so it went out to blast the music to hear in its house. But we could hear it in our house, so somehow I doubt they needed to play it that loud to hear it in their house. Maybe they really did want to listen to music, but either way, they didn’t want themselves to be the only ones to listen to it. They wanted to include as many others as they could.

I had a very disturbing dream last night. In the dream, our living room where the animals and Bowflex are was our den. Tom noticed a couple of cop cars through the mostly closed blinds pull in down by Meadow Green. Panic came over me and I was like – oh no! Now what? But I knew that no matter what, they had come to arrest me. I heard someone say, “OK, guys,” then give instructions we couldn’t hear, as half a dozen or so people got out of the 2-3 cars. I wasn’t about to open the door this time around, but they stayed out there for hours! They even set up this hutch-like thing for refreshments while they waited. I wondered how they knew anyone was home since our lights were off and our blinds were shut, even though the car was there. We could’ve gone off with someone else, for all they knew. Next thing I knew it was dark and Tom had gone to bed. I then realized that no, all the blinds weren’t down, so I pulled down the bedroom shades and blinds, wondering if they had seen me. Then it was light out again and sunlight was streaming in and right on me as I looked out and saw they were still there, and then it was dark again. Somehow I knew, though, that it was still the same day. The cops had been out there for about 6 hours. I then realized that they’d only get to me as soon as he left for work in the morning so I decided I had no choice but to surrender. So, Tom went out and spoke to them and brought in this woman who was with them while I changed into better clothes. I asked Tom, on my way out to all the waiting cops, if he knew what this was all about. I figured he’d tell me it was the freeloaders trying to get me, but nope. It was all about the assholes back east. That caused a real panic, as well as anger, to settle over me, for the folks may be mean, but not stupid. They could persuade law enforcement to suspect I tried to kill them if they really wanted to.

I thought about that when I woke up right about that point. Yes, they could persuade law enforcement of all kinds of nasty things. Hell, they could persuade the president to hang himself! I don’t know what their trick is, but as I know I’ve said before, these people are just about the most persuasive people I know. They had me brainwashed for years. And I don’t know yet that there won’t be a comeback from others I sent nasty letters to. I just didn’t think Tammy and Bill would be first on the list. I was thinking Jenny, Ronnie and Larry would be higher up on the list, but Larry may feel that doing anything would be giving me the reaction I may want, and he may feel that reacting in any way would be acknowledging me (something he’d never want to do again) and downright embarrassing for him. He may feel that the best way to “get even” would be to ignore me. Or maybe he feels the tape’s too funny to turn over to the police, who knows? Maybe Tom’s letting Tammy bitch, although I still don’t think he should’ve given her the time of day, and his talking to her (she’s always liked Tom) will be enough to get her and Bill off my ass, but I’ll never assume anything’s over till it’s been over for at least a year or even longer. Remember, the people back east are just as stubborn and determined as the freeloaders. They’re very vindictive, spiteful, lying, I’m-gonna-get-you kinds of people. They don’t know when to give up and drop things. They just don’t know how to move on. It’s even hard for me to move on at times too, when someone’s fucked me over as much as they have. That’s why I sent more mail than I planned on and should have. You just want to keep punching and kicking and lashing out at assholes like that at the same time you want to ignore them and never associate with them again. Well, rest assured, I don’t want to know they exist.

Later…

Just when I was thinking my stomach built up a tolerance to dairy (I had a chocolate shake with my chicken strips) I have major gas and even some nausea. I thought I was gonna puke for a minute there. I took some Rolaids and a piece of bread to help act as a sponge and absorb the gas and now I’m feeling a little better.

Nowadays, over-the-counter water pills really do work, so it’s nice to know I can take that without having to worry about having to have a banana or orange juice to supplement the potassium loss when I get watery.

Tom set things up so I could easily use my scanner with that new picture program he loaded up for me. I’ve decided to scan the signs from an old sign language book I’ve had since I was 19. I think it’d be neat to have a file folder of signs, but I’ll also print them out and bind them with my spiral bookbinder thing.

MONDAY, AUGUST 14, 2000 Sex was the usual boring, predictable Sunday sex, but don’t dare tell my husband I said so or else he’ll be quick to change things for the better, that’s how much he loves to please his wife. Ha! Dropping the sarcastic touch, you know it’s actually just the opposite; if I complain, that’s all the more he’ll keep it up. He’s stubbornly determined to keep me turned off in bed and “be himself.” It’s no wonder I’m never horny anymore, and when I am, I’d just assume to take care of it quickly myself.

This time we were without power for 3 ½ hours due to last night’s storm. The power didn’t come back till just after 11:00. It started with lots of wind, then the thunder and lightning came. Just when we thought we weren’t going to get any rain, down it came. It even haled for a few minutes, and damn was it loud hitting the skylight! Sounded like it was gonna come right through, but Tom reminded me that the skylight’s Plexiglas and not glass, which is much stronger. That’s what they have in psych wards. Again, the thunder was super loud, sounding like gunshots.

Once the storm passed through and calm settled upon the land, a bad feeling came over me. What better time to blast your car stereo and get all the more people’s attention than when there’s a power outage, preventing people from drowning you out with ACs, fans, or music of their own? It was a boom car stereo lover’s ultimate situation to take advantage of, and sure enough, for 10-20 minutes (I got so fed up after 5 minutes that I stuck a foam earplug in my good ear) some desperado seized the golden opportunity it saw, jumped into its car, and thumped its annoying bass all through the place. And it kept turning the volume up and down and on and off. That’s a popular thing with these sick fucks. I never could figure that one out, the up, down, on and off thing. My guess is that it’s a tease. They turn it down making people think – Yeah! They’re finally gonna shut up and let us live in peace for a while – only to be fooled when they blast it off again. It was definitely coming from the back of the house and was definitely anywhere from 5-20 miles away. Once again, it’s pretty sad to have to hear other people’s music inside your house in the middle of a 10-acre ranch. Also again, these are no gentle, subtle-sounding things. It’s a deep, penetrating sound that’s totally nerve-racking. The annoying, grating sound of a chainsaw would be preferable. This world is sick! I mean, there’s nothing more frustrating and stressful than not being able to ignore civilization in the privacy and sanctity of your own home. I wish this world would just shut up and leave me the fuck alone!!!

Despite life’s bullshit and the people that cause it, I do love it here, I love this house, and I hope we can always live here. We just need to build walls!

For the second day in a row, Houdini came out and played in the morning. He did his usual thing – ran around, chewed carpet, jumped in the aquarium that sits on the floor by the cage and played with my hair by tangling himself up in it and taking it in his mouth and pulling on it and shaking it like a dog shakes a rag. My hair’s gonna be as dead as it was before I cut it if he keeps it up.

I’m up to 117 pounds and I’m pretty sure it’s water. Yes, my sore tits and I should be getting a flow any day now. I’ve been spotting on and off for two weeks. What else is new? Every other period is so erratic.

Later…

Jesus fucking Christ! It’s just like I predicted. Exactly like I predicted. I predicted that every 6 months to a year would get worse and worse. Or, I should say louder and louder. As is the case 8 out of 10 times, I’m correct. When we first came here we were hearing music every 2-4 weeks, but now it’s 2-4 times a week! I just heard a boom car stereo for about 10 minutes, and this time I think it was coming from the front of the house. What is this world coming to? Especially when the more remote areas get noisy? Here I was thinking the other day how it’s quiet out here 99% of the time. Yeah, well, now we’re down to 98% or even 97% of the time and I know I can expect that slow decline to continue. I thought, especially cuz it’s hotter out here, that it’d be quieter during the summers, but no way. The winter was definitely quieter, even with Dan and his music and engines. Imagine how this winter will be! Besides, even if there were only half a dozen households owning bassy car stereos in Maricopa, God would make sure to put them close enough to our house so I could hear them, and the shitty thing about being psychic is that it has nothing to do with altering fate. Just because I sense something, doesn’t usually mean I can change it. And it’s always the bad things I vibe, too. Never the good. And when I do vibe something good, I tend to be wrong much more often than when I vibe something bad. Or sometimes, I don’t have a bad feeling and I ignore my logic and end up being taken by surprise. When the cops came out here last month, I thought right away it was either cuz of people back east or cuz somebody did something to the blacks and Mexicans and they were blaming me. It shocked the shit out of me to find out that last January’s shit with them was far from over, yet my logic told me the day I left the Phoenix PD not to believe a thing a pig says, because even if that pig isn’t lying, someone else in some other department of the PD/courts, may very well have entirely different plans for you. And I should never trust God. I should’ve gone by past experiences and patterns and kept it in mind that I can’t get away with shit, and being woken up and dragged to the piggy department would never be enough of a punishment in the eyes of God.

Later…

Us and our fucking toilets! We’re almost as cursed with those as we are with other things. Or as I am. Meaning, he’s not necessarily cursed to the degree I am and with the same things. The music doesn’t bother him as much as it does me, and I can’t say he’s cursed sexually when the sex is made to his order. I’m the only one who doesn’t enjoy sex. Anyway, the second bath’s toilet is leaking. I tried to fix it, but I can’t figure out how to. I know he knows how to deal with it, though, so he can do that when he gets home.

Maybe I was bogged down more in shit than water. I already dropped a pound. I shit 3 times and I’ve only been up 7 hours. Yeah, another power failure woke me up at 6:00, two hours before I planned on getting up. I’ve been woken up more here than in the last couple of years in Phoenix! Yeah, that’s what I get for going against God and taking measures to try to improve that. Anyway, the power was off for nearly an hour, but not cuz another storm rolled in. I don’t know why. Maybe the stupid idiots were working on something, and as is always the case when the electricity goes out, the phone went out, too. Tom left the cell phone here. I guess he figured there could be problems. You know the slightest change in sound wakes me up. Well, I was awake even before the fan I always sleep with fully stopped. Anyway, by mid-September, or even sooner, these electrical storms should be over. They’re cool, but they’re a nuisance.

I left Paul a message as he told me to. His answering service picked up and they let me leave him a message. I gave him my number, asking that he call me back. I’ll try again around 4:00, and that’s it. I’ll have done my part and then he either calls me or he doesn’t.

I noticed the sparkler effect wasn’t working, but the blinker and other effects were. I think I’ll go back to highlighting after today. It’s easier and more reliable, so it seems.

Later…

Unfuckingbelievable! Now we’re up to multiple times a day and now we have yet another boom car stereo in the area. A dark red car I don’t think I’ve seen before just went banging down Meadow Green. Saw the pickup too, but it was still quiet. Before a year or two’s out, I guarantee we’ll be hearing this shit 2 or 3 times a day, every day. I’ll bet my dolls on it.

Speaking of dolls, I decided to quit collecting, and not get much of the other things I wanted, like murals, water lamps, etc. It’s not that I’m sick of dolls or that I want to quit collecting, but it’s the best thing to do cuz dolls aren’t cheap. Besides, we’ll never be rich enough for me to have all the dolls I want, anyway. After thinking about it, I decided it’s best that we save our money, get caught up, and stay that way without spending money we don’t have to spend. Too many expenses pop up in life – blown tires, broken this, broken that, bail bonds, etc.

Later…

Both our modems are shot cuz they got hit by lightning. Thanks, God. Just what we need – another broken thing. And I just burned myself on the oven, and let me guess, God’s gonna sic a boom car stereo on me any sec, right?

Also, more of those effects quit working on me, so I said – fine, I’ll just highlight as I usually do.

Got a couple of iguana shots today from the bedroom window. I got a shot of a big one that was about 6’ from the window, and of a medium-sized one that was right outside it. In fact, if we had a better camera and no screens, I would’ve gotten a great shot. The problem with shooting through the screen, though, is that it focuses on the screen and whatever’s behind it is one big blur.

At least Paul called. He called at 4:00 while I had the tunes cranked up in one room so Tom had to come and get me. I didn’t want to blast off before he got in and chance missing his call. He sounded very nice, saying he only got through half the police report so far cuz he’s tied up with trials, which he has tomorrow, but he does want to talk to me within the next few days, so hang in there till he calls me back. He thanked me and I thanked him and that was that.

SUNDAY, AUGUST 13, 2000 Tom put a piece of black foam inside the air vent that’s over the bedroom doorway to help block out light. I can’t believe the stupid Mexicans even put a vent there. You just don’t need it as large as the gap is under the doors.

He also took apart the faucet in his bath to clean the sand out of it. For the longest time, he had nothing but a little trickle of water coming out of that faucet.

We also both got to see a snake yesterday. A prairie dog was chasing it and we figured that if it was harmless to a prairie dog, then it was harmless to us. This one was nicer looking than the black one. It had light and dark markings, sort of striped-like, but again, it wasn’t a rattler. We think this one, and the black one, are king snakes. Those eat rattlers and are good to have around. It was in the wash when we got out to it with the camera and wasn’t coiled to strike. Just like with the black snake, its tail was a skinny, rattleless point. I got a picture of it, but it didn’t come out well. Its colors match the earth tones so well that it’s hard to see, and I was too far away. Next time I need to get up to within 2-3 feet of it, but by the time I did that, it’d be scared off. I didn’t even have the chance to get closer to it yesterday cuz we scared it into its hole. I could tell it knew that hole was there and that it had been there before. It definitely lives there. It moved differently than the black snake. This one moved with smooth, steady movements. It was almost graceful as if the hole itself sucked it into it. Tom brought up a good question – how does it turn around inside the hole since the hole was just big enough for its body to fit through? Maybe the hole loops around or gets wider at some point.

Later…

How stupid of me! I put a potato in the oven, set the timer, but never set the temp. So, now I have to wait for another hour.

I didn’t take any Theo yesterday and I slept fine. I’m doing one last experiment. I took the Theo when I got up today. If it keeps me up tonight, then it has to go for good. I gave the Albuterol another try, too. It seemed to help relax my lungs, along with the Theo, so we’ll see.

Tom loaded up the snake picture on his computer, opened a photo enhancer program, and improved what he could to bring it out. I noticed it was a really cool program. It really sharpens and brightens pictures up well, so I had him load it on my computer.

After we saw the snake yesterday we called Mary and told her about it. She said she’d never go looking for a snake and you could tell she’d be afraid to live out here.

Tom and I watched a new movie about a haunted house. It was a good movie without the typical ingredients. There was no sex, pregnancy or childbirth.

I saw the red pickup late in the afternoon yesterday, but the stereo is still broken. They’d probably just gotten up. Freeloaders are pretty nocturnal for the most part. I don’t think I’ve seen them before 3:00.

I got to hear the blaster that visits nearby for a couple of minutes last night at 11:30, and this time I’m pretty sure it was next door and not from somewhere straight ahead. I could also hear a dog barking and I know they have a dog. The dog was hard to hear, but I could easily make out the bass beat in my office over the AC, but if I’d had the loud box fan on, I wouldn’t have heard it. Due to the fact that I don’t hear this daily, it had to be a visitor. Remember, the parents of the kid next door are kids themselves. They can’t be more than 20-25. At that age, they’d want to leave the boy with the daughter’s mom and go out at times with friends or at least have friends visit, preferably after they went to bed. I had asked Tom if he thought they’d mind blasters and he said he thought they would. Well, obviously he was wrong, but then again, granny probably was ticked off, saying, “How dare you let your rude friends wake me and your kid up!” but you know you can’t tell a music blaster to turn their stereo down.

It’s so wrong. So very wrong. No one should have to hear a stereo from inside their house that’s at least 400’ away. In a way, I wish we could go back to the 70s, or even the 80s before these things were made. Then again, if they hadn’t been created, they’d just create something else to get society’s attention. Everyone wants to be on stage and stand out. We don’t live in a shy world. It’s scary to think what they’re gonna have in another 10-20 years. Sooner or later we’ll be able to hear the blasters at the old place all the way out here. Not that all white people are quiet, but Arizona would be a much quieter state to live in if the off-brands didn’t exist! They're mostly the ones that do shit like this. They know they’re the underdogs of society so they feel that that’s all the more reason to make a scene to get acknowledgment. I wish this was an affluent town! I’d rather live with a bunch of white snobs, cuz at least they keep their shit to themselves. They keep their music and their business to themselves and out of other people’s houses.

SATURDAY, AUGUST 12, 2000 For the first time since having satellite TV, Tom’s playing one of the music stations. I thought he’d pick jazz or some crap like that, but he surprised me by picking classic rock. Most of this shit isn’t any better, but I can live with it.

Just for fun, I started a lesbian love story for the first time in quite a while. Boy, has my writing improved since I last wrote this stuff! I look forward to working some more on it. If only I could look as forward to writing ghost stories and mysteries!

It never did storm yesterday, although it was cloudy and windy. All we got was some lightning. No thunder or rain. It’s wicked overcast today, though, so I wouldn’t be surprised if it stormed tonight. I just hope it doesn’t fuck up my schedule. I don’t have to see Mel for 10 days, but Paul could ask me to come into his office Tuesday at 9:00 in the morning for all I know. I want to be ready, able and available to have to leave early to play freeloaders as soon as I’m made to.

The Theo has to go. I got up at 9:30 yesterday and by 1:00 AM, I was still wide awake even with a full dose of Melatonin. Again I had to Benadryl it to sleep. Not only is the Theo causing sleeplessness, but it’s worthless. I knew I was wasting time and money by going to the doctor. It’s still too soon to judge the allergy medication, but I’m sure it’ll be just as useless. Back when I was on the Theo, I didn’t have a life and it didn’t matter that it caused sleeplessness. Also, my lungs were different back then. Back then I was a wheezing smoker, so the stuff was more helpful to me then.

FRIDAY, AUGUST 11, 2000 I got up at 9:30, ate, changed the animal cages, showered, sang, and now I’ve got nothing to do for the rest of the day. The house is clean enough and there’s nothing on TV that interests me. Nothing but pregnancy, childbirth, and infertility shit on the channels I usually watch, and you know I’m sick to death of that shit.

Right now my wallpaper directory is set on my land file. A picture of the land we took when we first came out here came up and something different about it struck me. I looked outside, then back to the picture, and I realized that now there were fewer of those wheat-colored weeds we hated to deal with in Phoenix. Then I remembered that during the summer there are fewer of them. The heat burns them away.

Most of the trenches the well rig made have been filled in as Tom used them to dig garbage holes. He’d dig a hole from trench to trench, bury trash, then fill it in evenly. However, a few of the trenches Gravity’s tractor made out front were never filled in. It’s a good thing too, cuz the rabbits and other animals love them. That’s because rainwater pooled in them and now there’s thick green grass in them that’s several inches tall. It looks pretty cool, having these streaks of grass out there. I dug a little trench around Scuttle’s grave and poured water on it so he can have grass growing around his grave. It may storm soon enough, too. It’s been really cloudy out.

As I said before, I’m not taking the Albuterol. Haven’t had to use the Allegra yet, and it’s too soon to say if the Vancenase is doing any good. If the Theo’s helping, it’s in a very subtle way. I had a hard time falling asleep again last night with the Melatonin alone and had to take a Benadryl. It may have been because I forgot to take the Theo earlier. Mid-days are better for me than towards the end of the day. Today I took it at 2:00 instead of 5:30.

[lilboytings]

Another event accountability log 🥳

Its about the first time theyve seen me in like 4 years i gotta show up and show tf out

Got over a month to get it together.

Day 1 (4.19)

Food: 1,157

Exercise: 939

Net: 218

Notes: my body lines going dumbb rn so i just at least gotta maintain form might just post a bc 🤪. Also ill weigh-in whenever i feel like the number wont make me 🤢 on sight

Day 2 (4.20)

Food: 993

Exercise: 181

Net: 812

Notes: ⭐ving to recover from this but i knew it was gonna be really over my comfort range.

Day 3 (4.21)

Weight: 111

Food: 20 (liquid iv)

Exercise: 674

Net: -654

Notes: still ⭐ving on hour 28 as of this note. I put a goal of 95 but i know its unrealistic with my schedule this week 🙃

Day 4 (4.22)

Food: 0

Exercise: 986

Net: -986

Notes: i have no clue but i made it through a 2 hr cardio session and mowed the entire yard while still fa$ting (hour 49/95). I do feel like shit rn though

Day 5 (4.23)

Food: 713

Exercise: 758

Net: -45

Notes: my legs feel like jelly but I got work and shopping to do. We on hour 65 so i might actually make it to 95.

Update: broke at 67.5 hrs and am now in pain

Day 6 (4.24)

Weight: 110.3 after "breakfast"(icecream and fries)

Food: 700

Exercise: 189

Net: 511

Note: i feel like im more aggressive when i eat, its like when im fa$ting theres nothing else that matters except not eating.

Day 7: 4.25

Food: 653

Exercise: 371

Net: 282

Week dance hrs: 6

Day 8: 4.26

Food: 412

Exercise: 109 (estimated from my step count)

Net: 303

Day 9: 4.27

Food: 724 (half liquor)

Exercise: 1091

Net: -372

Notes: partied from 4.26night to 4.27morning so the numbers are a bit funky

Day 10: (4.28)

Weight: 108.3

Food: 880

Exercise: 539

Net: 341

Notes: wrote an absolutely insane plan for next month 💀 imma still try it tho

Day 11 (4.29)

Food: 681

Exercise: 718

Net: -37

Notes: im in pain.

Day 12 (4.30)

Food: 1054

Exercise: 728

Net: 326

Notes: last day before the d1et starts 🤠 already bought food thatll fit into it though

Day 13 (5.1)

Food: 802cal

Exercise: 539

Net: 263/700

Steps: 1.4k/2k

Day 14 (5.2)

Food: 706

Exercise: 95

Net: 611/600

Steps: 788/2k

Week dance hrs: 7.25

Note: i need to tighten up

Day 15: (5.3)

Food: 851

Exercise: 1438

Net: -587/700

Steps: 4.5k/2k

Day 16 (5.4)

Food: 732

Exercise: 404

Net: 328/600

Steps: 1.7k/2k

Day 17 (5.5)

Food: 300

Exercise: 270

Net: 30/500

Steps: 2k/2k

Day 18 (5.6)

Food: 585

Exercise: 593

Net:-8 /550

Steps: 3k/ 2k

Day 19 (5.7)

Food: 590

Exercise: 461

Net: 129/450

Steps: 2.9k/ 2k

Day 20 (5.8)

Food: 940

Exercise: 539

Net: 401/450

Steps: 3.1k/2k

Day 21 (5.9)

Food: 620

Exercise: 701

Net: -81/ 600

Steps: 2.5k/ 2k

Week dance: 6.5 hrs 😡

Day 22 (5.10)

Food: 785

Exercise: 539

Net: 246/ 400

Steps: 1.4k /2k

Day 23 (5.11)

Liquid:

Exercise:

Net: /200

Steps: /2k

Umm anyways- i went to the thingy and they thought i was hot and my body was great. Just wait till the next function