#now i am 24 goddamit

[demonyawa]

Happy belated valentines day from my Narumitsu art of 2019, they will always have my heart

[corpse-husband-simp]

Fic recs masterlist

Masterlist part 2

❤️ =means smut :). 🧡 = social media au. 💛 = headcanon 💙 = blurb/drabble (short Fic). 💜 = oneshot (Long Fic). This means deleted.

Last updated 17/11/20 (Im taking a break) <3

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@fairysimp. Read here. The prettiest flower 17/10/20. 💙 If you’re a fairy, so am i 18/10/20. 💙 Corpse classic 19/10/20. 💙 You’re on! 20/10/20.💙 Sucks to suck 23/10/20. 💙 What are you afraid of 24/10/20.💙 Cupcakes, sugar and sundresses 24/10/20. 💙 I told the stars about you 24/10/20 💙 Feather light 27/10/20 💙 Soft vibes 27/10/20💙 Danny devito 17/11/20 💙~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@ewritesthangs. Read here. Blurb 17/10/20.💙 Q and a time 18/10/20. 💜 Oneshot 22/10/20.💜 Blurb 23/10/20. 💙 Oneshot 25/10/20. 💜 Cake tasting 26/01/20 💙 The Big day 31/10/20 💜 Losing a pet 03/11/20 💙. Extrovert reader 15/11/20 💛~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@marvelandsuchstuff. Read here. Sleepness nights and Golden sunlight 17/10/20💜 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@corpsehusband-simp. Read here. Lazy day 15/10/20. 💙 Opposites attract 16/10/20.💙 Oops 1 20/10/20. 💙 Oops 2 26/10/20💜 Insecure 08/11/20 💜~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@laysfics. Read here. Spell 16/10/20. 💜 Spell 2 18/10/20. 💜 Spell 3 19/10/20. 💜 Dinner 20/10/20 💙 Happily ever after 23/10/20💙 Bad days 01/11/20 💙~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@bastillewolf. Read here. Shinigami eyes 1 13/10/20.💜 Shinigami eyes 2 16/10/20 💜 Panic attack 28/19/20💙 Kinda sketchy 29/10/20💜 #corpsebride 09/11/20 💜~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@sttalkr Read here. Your voice 15/10/20.💙❤️ My little pet 19/10/20 💙❤️~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@artist-bby. Read here. Deadass 1 12/10/20.💜 Prepare for trouble... Make it double 2 14/10/20.💜 A tired man needs his Well deserved cuddles 25/10/20 💙 Belly rubs 27/10/20💙 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@fandomlit. Read here. Voice impressions 13/10/20. 💙 Destracted 13/10/20. 💙 Mad 13/10/20.💙 Fangirling 13/10/20.💙 Daddy (deleted). 💙 Flustered 25/10/20 💙~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@skyeet-the-writer. Read here. Id never snitch on daddy 9/10/20. 💜 My mind is restles with the toughts of u 13/10/2 💜. You have my heart 26/10/20 💜 This is a shoutout to my ex 26/10/20 💜 And if you wanna stay, Please stay 07/11/20 💜~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@ghostgamer. Read here. Comforting you 8/10/20. 💙 Calm nights 11/10/20. 💙~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@iamsuchasimp. Read here. Simp 12/10/20. 💙 Simply simping 15/10/20. 💙🧡 Extra 16/10/20.💙🧡 Making amends 16/10/20.💙 Headcanons 1 17/10/20.💛 Headcanons 2 18/10/20.💛 Miss you 19/10/20.💙 Meant to be? 19/10/20.💙 Alibi 20/10/20.💙 Trending 22/10/20.💙 Ship 25/10/20 💙 Headcanon 27/10/20💛 Popular 29/10/20 💙 Bodyguard 08/11/20 💜~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@introverted-mushroom-san. Read here. Just a human (series) 16/10/20 💜 Confession 07/11/20 💜~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@harleysarchive. Read here. Among you and me 13/10/20. Among you and me 2 19/10/20 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@storiesforallfandoms. Read here. Propostion 19/10/20 Caught feelings 04/11/20 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@star-gaz3rs. Read here. Unspoken words and read messages 19/10/20 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@locallolli. Read here. Corpse head canon 19/10/20 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@corpsedaydream. Read here. #concepts. Neon banter 19/10/20. Sore loser 20/10/20. Cold hands, warm neck 21/10/20. It’s fine 21/10/20. Beach baby 22/10/20. Im okay 25/10/20. Wine night 001 25/10/20. Flappy bird 26/10/20. Yeah baby thats Nice 26/10/20 Monthly 27/10/20 Painted nails 27/10/20 Pet names 26/10/20 A Long week 27/10/20 Crash 01/11/20 Wet hair and warm cuddles 04/11/20 Chaotic s/o 05/11/20 Car 05/11/20 Spooning 05/11/20 Carry on 05/11/20. Corpse does Your makeup 06/11/20. Healing kisses 06/11/20. Fruit salad 06/11/20. Stress and refresh 06/11/20. Pre/post streaming 07/11/20 A fright 10/11/20. Paint wars 11/11/20. See you in the morning 11/11/20 Golden hour 12/11/20 Swing 13/11/20 Carrots 17/11/20 💜~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@randomafwritings Read here. It’s 2 am dude... 19/10/20. Missing prank 28/10/20 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@corpseglider Read here. Soft!boy hours 20/10/20. Mute Your mic 20/10/20. Attention seeker 21/10/20. Want some company? 22/10/20. You’re sus 23/10/20. Flower fingers 24/10/20. Jealous tendencies 25/10/20. Mirror 26/10/20 You’re beautiful 27/10/20 Flower fingers 2 29/10/20 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@moonjelly-princesa Read here. Simp 12/10/20 Next time 20/10/20 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@bakubabes-hatake Read here. Muted infatuation 20/10/20. Sweater weather 24/10/20 Sleepy sessions 31/10/20 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@divinecorpse Read here. Date and snowman’s 20/10/20. Podcasts and announcements 22/10/20. You are in love 25/10/20 It’s never not for you 31/10/20 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@foxypuppy Read here. Secret snuggles 20/10/20. Back to you 21/10/20. Sweet Cakes and first dates 25/10/20 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@breathygasps Read here. A scarier possibility 1 21/10/20. A scarier possibility 2 23/10/20. Sick day 24/10/20 A scarier possibility 3 29/10/20 A muffin run gone wrong 30/10/20 Odd hours 12/11/20 A scarier possibility 4 14/11/20 French tongue 16/11/20 💙. Dog days 16/11/20 💜~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@xoxoyourdad Read here. Blurb* 22/10/20. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@bitch-im-your-biggest-nightmare Read here. It doesnt matter What they say 23/10/20. Stars 1 23/10/20. Stars 2 23/10/20. Welp, i guess the cat is out of the bag 23/10/20. Stars 3 24/10/20. Stars 4 24/10/20. Stars 5 25/10/20. Sick boi hours are over 25/10/20. Disaster 25/10/20. Allergies are not fun 25/10/20. Tears falling down at the party 25/10/20. Stars 6 (finale) 26/10/20 Panic attacks suck man 26/10/20 Goddamit kid now they know Im a single father 27/10/20 Parents fucking suck bro 27/10/20 No! This isnt how you’re supposed to play the game 28/19/20 The blood on our hands is a Bond 31/10/20 Happily ever after 01/11/20 Parenting 101 03/11/20 Parenting 200 05/11/20. Summertime Sadness 07/11/20. Panick attack in gorcery store 07/11/10 Headcanon 10/11/20 Riddle me this 15/11/20 💙 Sorry 15/11/20 💙~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@flowersforcorpse Read here. Under the bus 22/10/20. To distraction 24/10/20 The cat Got out 27/10/20 Marination 30/10/20 Limbo 08/11/20 Zoned out 10/11/20 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@apricauts Read here. A sleeping corpse 23/10/20. A lovely day 24/10/20. Nsfw headcanons* 24/10/20. Nsfw headcanons 2* 25/10/20. Nsfw headcanons 3* 26/10/20. The lion sleeps tonight 26/10/20 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@crystalg6m Read here. Trust 23/10/20. Secret player 04/11/20 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@monsterenergysimp Read here. Permanance 24/10/20. Reckless endangerment 25/10/20 Oh my god, they were roommates 27/10/10 Feel better 27/10/20 Forget today 28/10/29 Interruptions 28/10/20 Father of the year 29/10/20 Lock screen 30/10/20 Building Snowmen 31/10/20 This is halloween (father of the year 2) 01/11/20 Closer 02/11/20 Unravel 02/11/20 Snap, crackle, pop 03/11/20 Fluffy concept 04/11/20 Sleepy 05/11/20. Mute 07/11/20. His anxiety 07/11/20 Forgetful 13/11/20 Permanance 2 17/11/20 💙~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@myherotrashbin Read here. Soft smiles and warm hugs 24/10/20. Just let it out 25/10/20. First kiss 25/10/20. Cuddles are needed 25/10/20. Well this happened 26/10/20. Just a little love 04/11/20 I just wanna hold you damn hand 04/11/20 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@mmonamona Read here. Beautiful 23/10/20. Petty fights and lonely nights 20/10/20 I Think Im in love with you and Im terrified 26/10/20 Halloween 28/10/20 Alls hair in love and war 02/11/20 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@uhithinkthefucknot Read here. Respectful simp 25/10/20. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@letsloveimagines Read here. Crush 25/10/20. Forever 26/10/10 Crush 2 05/11/20 A friend that is a Girl 09/11/20 Murderer 12/11/20 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@flowersbby Read here. Drawn to you 25/10/20. Hard day? 26/10/20 Dont overwork yourself 27/10/20 Star struck 31/10/20 Nobody compares 03/11/20 I need you 11/11/20 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@kakyoinsimp Read here. Anything for you 26/10/20 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@thefanficmonster Read here. Falling faceless 25/10/20. Unlucky 25/10/20. You Call it a mess, we Call it baking 26/10/20 Switch blade 28/10/20 Caring 29/10/20 Lucky me (Unlucky 2) 01/11/20 Power couple 02/11/20 Love for the faceless 02/11/20 Inky memories 05/11/20 Just two sad roommates 08/11/20 Whats it to you 15/11/20 💜~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@sloppythots-com Read here. Reaction 24/10/20 Nails and reassurance 24/10/20. Hugs 27/10/20. Sweetie 29/10/20 Innocent 01/11/20 Believe 01/11/20. Eyeliner 06/11/20. One time 06/11/20 Favorite Girl 12/11/20 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@flowersandcorpse Read here. Shes optimistic (not me) 1 22/10/20 Shes optimistic (not me) 2 27/10/20. Marinanation 30/10/20 💙 Clasped hands 16/11/20 💙. Marinanation 2 16/11/20💙 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@readerwriterandteadrinker Read here. Pillow talk 27/10/20. The ten hour stream 1 27/10/20 The ten hour stream 2 28/19/20 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@euphoniumpets Read here. Agoraphobic 27/10/20. Haunted 27/10/20 Cuddle buddy 01/11/20 It’s snack time 03/11/20 Cuddles and thunder 05/11/20. Break my baby 05/11/20. Cooking 06/11/20. Nap time 07/11/20. Oppostite attractions 07/11/20 Baby bump 13/11/20 Flirty interactions 15/11/20 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@literatureteachervibes Read here. Opportunity 1 24/10/20. Opportunity 2 28/19/20. Opportunity 3 30/10/20 Where corpse saves her from a creep 03/11/20 Opportunity 4 31/10/20. Opportunity 5 11/11/20 Simp 17/11/20 💙~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@struggling-with-time Read here. Dinner for two (at Home) 28/10/20. Translucent 28/10/20. Cuddle time 28/10/20 Outfit for the day 28/10/20 Movie night (horror movie) 28/10/20 Can i have my sweater back? 28/10/20 Size difference and snuggles 28/10/20 Dont turn green on me now 28/10/20 Sykkunos biggest simp 28/10/20 Rainy days 29/10/20 Dog parks are a good place 29/10/20 Penpals from across the sea 29/10/20 Cloudy afternoons 30/10/20 Stressful streaming 30/10/20 Comfort 30/10/20 YouTube video (ASMR) 31/10/20 Blind date 31/10/20 Halloween party 31/10/20 YouTube singer!reader 01/11/20. Cuddles 01/11/20 Funny S/O 01/11/20 Ocular migraines 01/11/20 Kitten calling 02/11/20 Our cat child, our precious son 02/11/20 Gifted collar 02/11/20 Suprise song 03/11/20 Fun fact 03/11/20. Comedian 03/11/20. Cat Girl 03/11/20 Ruben moves in 03/11/20 Painter 04/11/20. Lost connection 04/11/20 Lost connection 2 06/11/20. Cousin of a cousins wedding 07/11/20. Pokis friend 08/11/20. Pokis friend 2 08/11/20. Bedside confessions 08/11/20. Uncertainties 08/11/20. Working together 08/11/20 Among us promises 08/11/20 Spilled tea 09/11/20 Stuffed animals 10/11/20. Dungeons and dragons 10/11/20 Corpses brother 12/11/20. Off cam kisses 12/11/20. Being corpses sister hc 12/11/20

Mothers arent always the best 12/11/20 Soft voices 13/11/20. Shy reader 13/11/20. Without you Im just a sad song 14/11/20. Actress/actor reader 14/11/20. Faceless YouTuber reader 14/11/20. Reader owning an etsy. 14/11 Simping for 2 16/11/20. 💙 One last time 16/11/20n.💙 Nightmare 16/11/20 💙~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@corpserose Read here. Mornings 28/10/20. Paint my nails 31/10/20 Snack time 02/11/20 Home 04/11/20 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@shelswrites Read here. The Sound of a voice 28/10/10. 💙 Blurb 28/10/20.💙 Livestreams 28/10/20💙 Q and a 29/10/20 💙 Famous!singer reader 29/10/20 💙 Fight 29/10/20 💙 Tall!reader 30/10/20💙 Hand 30/10/20 💙 Nicknames 30/10/20💙 Roommate 30/10/20 💙 Nicknames 30/10/20 💙 First night at corpses House 31/10/20 💙 Painting nails 31/10/20 💙 The feel of a touch 31/10/20💙 Playing with his hair 01/11/20 💙 Period 01/11/20 💙 24 hour livestream 01/11/20💙 Corpse in maid dress 01/11/20 💙 Knitted blanket 02/11/20💙 Dyeing eachothers hair 02/11/20 💙 Taking Care of his hair 02/11/20 💙 Playing with his hands 03/11/20 💙 Sharing clothes 03/11/20💙 Bisexual 03/11/20 💙 Imposter duo 03/11/20💙 Cat ears for corpsie 04/11/20💙 Holding grugdes 04/11/20 💙 Laying on Your lab 05/11/20💙 Studying 05/11/20💙 Helping him with his anxiety 05/11/20💙

Laying on Your chest 05/11/20 💙 Eyeliner 06/11/20 💙 Plus size s/o 06/11/20💙 Your hands 07/11/20💙 Putting eyeliner on him 07/11/20💙. Corpse failing at cooking 08/11/20.💙 Eyeliner and skirt 08/11/20. 💙 Cooking 09/11/20 💙 Like real people do 09/11/20.💙 Sleepy corpse 09/11/20. 💙 Comforting him 10/11/10.💙 Blushy corpsie 10/11/20💙 Holiday 13/11/20. 💙 Tired corpse laying in Your lap 13/11/20. 💙 Corpse having a bad day 14/11/20 💙. Bf not gf 16/11/20.💙 Long distance 16/11/20. 💙 Making a yt Channel together 16/11/20.💙 Playing and answering questions 16/11/20 💙~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@rxvenclawwriting Read here. The aftermath of scary videos 28/10/20. Internet trolls 29/10/20 Sketched conffesions 02/11/20 Tiktok famous 03/11/20 Just a slip of the tongue 04/11/20 The Challenge of Touch 05/11/20 Q and a 14/11/20 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@imjustpeachyme Read here. Bumpy roads and broken promises 28/10/20. The mirror always lies 01/11/20 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@ruby-lavorre Read here. Ramen 29/10/20. Dating corpse HC 30/10/20 Dating corpse HC 2 31/10/20 Holding out 01/11/20 Best friends hc 05/11/20 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@rock-c Read here. Kandi 30/10/20. Shortstack 30/10/20 The bassist 30/10/20 Movie marathons 01/11/20 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@b-star-wonder Read here Headcanon 30/10/20. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@moonlightsimp Read here. Cuddles headcanon 01/11/20.💛 Choose me 03/11/20 Simp 05/11/20 Needy 06/11/20 Shower feels 10/11/20 Social media au 13/11/20🧡 Social media au 13/11/20 🧡 Moving in 14/11/29 Pretty baby 16/11/20 💙~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@anata-e-no-izon Read here. A Big whoopsie 25/10/20. Rivalry 30/10/20. Ignorant opinions 09/11/20 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@antisocial-dumb-ass Read here. Sleepy time phone Call 02/11/20. 💙 The impostor among us 02/11/20. 💙 Cuddle time 17/11/20 💙~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@bibliofilia Read here Ships passing in the night 03/11/20. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@reaperxrex Read here. sunkissed 29/10/20. First fights 29/10/20. Sports star 03/11/20. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@withcolebrock Read here Full of suprises 05/11/20. Close Your eyes 06/11/20 Distracted 12/11/20 Amazingly beautiful 15/11/20 💜~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@souljoon Read here. Sweet 05/11/20. Infatuated 05/11/20 Whats up baby 07/11/20 Roommates 09/11/20 Roommates in among us 10/11/20 Mutual pining roommates 12/11/20 Comfort 15/11/20 💙. Not making fun of you 17/11/20 💙~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@impala-1979 Read here. Dead 05/11/20. Their life had barely begun 08/11/20 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@abluecorpserose Read here. Pretty boy 25/10/20. S/o with Anime voice 06/11/20. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@the-writings-of-a-simp Read here. Roommate 04/11/20. Corpse in a skirt 05/11/20. Rainy cuddles 06/11/20. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@marvelfreakbrynnlee Read here. The elf in the café 07/11/20. The elf in the café 2 10/11/20 The elf in the café 3 15/11/20 💜~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@syukkunii Read here. Cuddles hc 09/11/20. Corpse flirting during livestream 11/11/20 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@pepinotpepe Read here. Wildflower 08/11/20. Wildflower 2 08/11/20. Wildflower 3 09/11/20. Wildflower 4 11/11/20 Wildflower 5 12/11/20 💙 Wildflower 6 17/11/20 💙~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@auramindedd Read here. Oneshot 08/11/20. 💜 AccidenTell 10/11/20💙 First meet 11/11/10 💜 Under the weather 13/11/20💙 Period pain cuddles 13/11/20 💙~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@takenbyheartstrings Read here. Burden 10/11/20. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@the-winter-sxldier-posts Read here. Moments 12/11/20. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@glxwingbakugo Read here Takeout and horror movies 12/11/20. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@softboiicorpse Read here. Always forever 12/11/20. 💜 Grocery shopping 13/11/20 💜 Final goodbyes 13/11/20 💜. Grocery shopping 2 15/11/20 💙~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@nekomacam Read here. Not even okay 13/11/20 🧡 Not even okay 2 14/11/20 🧡 Not even okay 3 17/11/20 🧡~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@thotasshoebitch Read here. I know you did not just grab my Boob 15/11/20💙 Rain on me 16/11/20💙. My hair 16/11/20 💙~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

[evabellasworld]

Storm of the Republic

Chapter 25

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Summary:  When Tup murdered General Tiplar during a battle, Anakin Skywalker and Captain Rex dispatched Ahsoka, Fives, and Yara to solve the mystery that was plaguing the Clone Army. Meanwhile, Senator Padme Amidala contacted Commander Fox, Commander Tori, Riyo Chuchi, and Dipper to help her continue investigating the death of Palpatine, suspecting that Dooku was behind the evil plot. But when Dooku send an ISB agent to stop them, the team had to race against time to search for the truth, which could alter the course of the galaxy.

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Massaging her daughter’s hair with her fingers, Tori hummed a cheerful tune as Frieda was sitting inside the bathtub, splashing water with both her tiny hands. With two candles lighting up the room, the guest bathroom had a sweet scent, which comforted the clone commander.

Curling herself inside the warm, foamy bathtub was a privilege that Tori had, and it would be the last time she could enjoy a bath like this. Usually, she had to take an open shower with Frieda and her sisters and she had to be quick about it. Now, she could take as much time as she needed without rushing through her relaxation.

It was difficult for her to sleep through the night, despite the long journey from the base. She found her queen bed to be soft, unlike her stony bunk bed. Tori and Friedahad to share with Rex, who does everything he can to drive her crazy. She could even recall the time where Rex placed a dead spider on her pillow, which pissed her off the entire day. He apologised eventually, but that didn’t stop her from cussing at him.

It’s been a while since she felt peace, though she’ll have to go back to Anaxes once the mission was done, where she had to deal with Rex and the rest of the 101st Battalion, who always created chaos whenever they had the chance. Flover, especially, would put a dead rat in Dipper’s helmet, which caused him to scream until the other units could hear them.

Flover was also the reason Tori would get a headache whenever they’re in the battlefield, as the blue-haired clone would rush towards the enemies, which unfortunately became her hubris in the Battle of Coruscant. Tori wasn’t there, but she wished Flover was still alive. As mischievous as she was, the commander felt odd without her presence. Even Dipper missed her.

“Mama,” Frieda spoke, holding a rubber ducky in her hands. “Are you okay?”

“I am, baby,” Tori replied, focusing on her daughter. “I was just thinking, that’s all.”

“What are you thinking about, Mama?”

“I was thinking about your Aunt Flover. She would have loved you very much if she was still here.”

“Who’s Aunt Flover?” the little girl asked. “And where is she?”

“Well, Aunt Flover was one of my vod’ika, and she had blue hair and loves to joke around with the others, especially Uncle Dipper. She and Uncle Dipper were like cheese and crackers. Unfortunately, Aunt Flover died in a fight six months ago, and I miss her very much.”

Frieda hung her head low as her smile disappeared. “Mama, what will happen if you die?”

Tori blinked as she hugged her knees, wondering what she could answer. She was no stranger to her daughter’s odd questions, but this one struck a chord in her mind. There were many speculations about life after death, but the commander wasn’t sure what to believe in. But she can’t leave her daughter hanging. Frieda will feel as if she had done something wrong.

“There are many beliefs about what happened after death,” Tori tried to answer. “Some believe that you become one with the Force, some also believe that you either go to the Garden or the Pitfire based on your actions, and some believe that you’re resurrected into another life. The truth is, there is no right or wrong answer to what happened after death. There’s just many possibilities for you to believe, that’s all.”

“Well, what do you believe, Mama?”

“I believe that if I die, then I just fade into oblivion, that’s all.”

“Will you be forgotten, Mama?” cried Frieda. “I don’t want you to disappear forever. I can’t live without you.”

Tori stroked her puffy wet cheeks, smiling. “As long as someone keeps my memory alive, then I’m never truly dead. I wish I could live forever, but that would be impossible. We all have to go, eventually.”

“Do you know when you will die, Mama?”

She shook her head. “No one knows when our time is up. That’s why we shouldn’t take life for granted. In order to be happy throughout your life, we should appreciate every moment we spend with someone we love, whether it’s big or small.”

“Then I will never forget you, Mama,” Frieda promised, as she climbed on Tori’s lap and hugged her. “I’ll do everything I can to remember you.”

Tori hugged her back with tears in her eyes. The last thing she wanted was to make Frieda an orphan. The latter had survived in the streets for a while and Tori does not want her little girl to go through that hardship ever again. Tori had to make sure she lived to see the last day of war.

As she cradled Frieda with her arms, there was a thunderous knock on the door. “Are you done?” Fox shouted. “You’ve been in there forever.”

“Damn you, Foxy,” she cursed, as she got out from the bathtub, with a five-year-old in her arms. “I was having a wonderful moment just now.”

“Whatever, just get changed,” ordered the Marshal Commander. “We have a mission to complete. Also, it’s Fox, not Foxy.”

“Oh please. I bet you were also soaking in the bathtub with Riyo too.”

Silence filled outside her bathroom door. As Tori and Frieda wrapped themselves with a fuzzy towel, Fox finally spoke after a few minutes. “Just hurry, goddamit.”

She snorted, draining the tub. If he can have a nice, romantic moment with Riyo, then I’m also entitled to have a bubble bath with Frieda as well. God, what a sly, cunning fox.

Walking out of the bathroom door, they headed inside their room and changed into the same outfits they wore yesterday, except it was dry cleaned by Padmé. Despite sweating underneath the pink dress, Tori felt as if she had just bought them from a store.

She also wore the same white ribbon as well and applied makeup on her face to look pretty. Those makeup set belonged to Padmé, but the latter was happy to let her use them. Her foundations and powders, however, don’t match her skin, so Tori just put on her eyeshadow, eyeliner, and a hint of lipstick instead.

Her cat eyeliner may not be perfect, but Tori could raise her head as she glanced at her reflections in the mirror. Who the hell gave me permission to make me this beautiful?

“Tori, are you done?” Fox banged on the door. “Come on, we have to get going.”

“I’ll be there, Foxy,” she complained. “It’s not like I’m late, anyway.”

“5 minutes or I’m leaving you behind.”

“I hate you,” she blew a raspberry, as she lifted Frieda with her arms and rushed towards the living room, where everyone was geared up for a stealth mission.

[ihaveissuez]

Here's my experience with my TC. It's not your typical story, or maybe it is, idk.

He was one of my teachers in my early years of high school and I pretty much fell head over heels for him within a year. It wasnt anything too big until the year after he taught me, because it got to the point where I wouldn't stop thinking about him. Like, I wouldn't think of anything else. I would do all the typical crush-type things, like dream of being with him and imagining our future conversations etc, but it came with a lot of anxiety, which still affects me today.

I've found that with most girls/guys who crush on their teacher feel pain 24/7 and they don't want to like them, but in my case, I did. And it was fueled by the fact that he did display some things that could be interpreted as him possibly liking me back. And before you say "I doubt it", my friends would point it out to me. Nothing ever happened between us, of course. Whenever we spoke it was always professional and nothing wrong. It was something merely innocent.

I was madly infatuated with him, like VERY. Anything he did that I couldnt interpret would send me flying into my mind with all these wild thoughts. Looking back on it, I wish I could have prepared myself for the worst, which happened at the end of that year.

Basically, he left the school to go overseas (more on that later). I cried for like two whole periods at school and had to keep running to the bathroom. Afterwards I calmed down and began to accept it. I found out that he had a girlfriend too, which didn't hurt me, but confused me because I thought he had feelings for me (goddamit I wish I could've been more down to earth).

Next year rolls around and it took me about 6 months to move on. It was a massive struggle but eventually after letting myself have fun I realized I was back to normal again. I thought I would never have to deal with this situation again. Then he decided to come back to school.

He came back because of complications and taught as a substitute for the remainder of the year. I panicked for a while because I knew that my thoughts and feelings would come flowing back to me, but at least I had experience and I could manage not to fall into this mess again. He has started teaching full time again, which is ok. I don't care that much anymore but it's hard to move on from him when you know he could be just around the corner, y'know?

Since he's come back, he's been a lot more distant from me and other students. In fact, people are complaining about him. Hes kind of a dickhead now actually, but I can understand that, he didn't want his trip overseas to be cut short. He seems to avoid me too, and I'm not really sure what I did (I can think of a few, but that's a story for next time), he says hi to me in the hallways still, but only if we're alone. It confuses me, makes me anxious and sad, but I've learned to accept it. Sooner or later, I'll have to move on and I think that this is a sign.

I am doing a lot better, however I still suffer from extreme anxiety to do with him, which I'll explain in a separate post (lmao again). This story has a lot more detail to it but currently my suburb/region is flooding due to rainfall and we might have to evacuate (fun!), So I'm writing this while we prepare for the worst.

[readerficsbyhyaku]

Hunt for lonely souls (Endeavor x Reader) Part 2 (SMUT)

author’s note

Smut is here, hope you enjoy c: 

You had been hiding in the apartment for a week when the power was cut off. You knew it was bound to happen as more havoc was brought upon the city, but it still was a major annoyance. For example, you couldn’t have hot showers anymore, at least until Endeavor’s quirk came in handy, getting him to heat the water tank as you hopped into the bathroom. He could make pans and pots boil by holding them in his hands and focusing his flames there, even though he expressed a strong dislike at being compared to a stove.

The only thing he couldn’t fix was the cold, especially at night. You had dug up a mountain of covers and duvets, and stuck to one room in hopes the heat would be retained, but you were still frozen when the sun went down. Endeavor did not seem to be bothered by it, his body usually emitting a constant warmth that had you glued to his every step.

It was when you woke up with a sore throat and sneezing that he proposed.

« Why don’t we sleep together ? »

You almost spat out your tea.

« WHAT ?! »

He looked serious.

« For heat preservation. It would be bad if you caught a cold, and i usually run hot. »

Oh he was certainly hot, you had noticed quite a few things while being stuck with him 24/7, but that was not something you could say to his face. You just accepted his offer, as gracefully as possible coming from someone buried under about 30 blankets and with a runny nose.

The day went on as usual, which meant quite boringly for the two of you, trying to find entertainment in the books left by the previous tenants of the place. It was only when the evening came that anticipation started to twist your gut. You were still on the living room couch, not even near bedtime, but you were already finding plethora of excuses about sleeping in the same bed at Endeavor.

It’s just because i’m cold, simple as that ! We’re both adults and we know there is no further meaning behind sharing a bed than keeping each other warm.

You were rubbing your hands together as your extremities were growing colder, despite the covers, when Endeavor rose from his armchair in front of you to seat next to you. You followed his movement with curiosity, not understanding why he was doing this. But then, he started to pull some of the blankets off of you, as if he was peeling the comfy onion you had become.

« What are you doing ?! » you screeched as you felt the sharp nip of cold reach your skin, repressing a shudder.

The man then huddled to your side while rearranging the covers around the both of you, as best he could.

« Better ? » he huffed while giving you a stern glare, which you now knew was his default expression.

You were indeed feeling suddenly warmer, but you didn’t know if it was because of his quirk, or because he pulled you so close to him, his arm circling your waist and keeping you put. Your mind was racing with thoughts at first, but soon the position deemed quite comfortable, and the constant warmth lulled you to sleep.

Several hours later, you woke up. You didn’t remember falling asleep, and you were not on the couch anymore. Lights were off and as you sat up to see where you had ended, pushing a few blankets off your body despite the chilling air, a strong arm snaked around your waist and tugged you back down onto the bed. As you looked next to you, you saw Endeavor, shirtless, sleepily opening one blue eye and asking you

« Something happening ? »

Heat coiled in your gut. You whispered

« No, everything’s okay. Sorry for waking you up. »

And you sunk back under the covers, Endeavor pulling you flush with his body as you turned your back to him, embarrassed by the sudden proximity between the two of you. After a few minutes though, you couldn’t help but pipe up.

« Endeavor ? »

The deep, gravelly voice answered

« Enji. »

« What ? » you whispered back.

« You can call me Enji. »

You took a few moments to let that sink in. Sharing a bed would usually come after being on a first-name basis, you mused internally.

« Enji » your voice wavered, still not used to the intimacy of using his first name, especially not while said man was glued to your back, arms around you and talking so close to your ear.

« Did you bring me here ? »

He took some time to answer, sleep clearly taking its toll on him.

« Hmm » he rumbled « Didn’t want to wake you up, couldn’t let you get cold. »

His hold got somewhat tighter.

« D-do we really have to be this close ? And why are you shirtless ? » you couldn’t help but ask.

« To keep you warm, both » he murmured as he nuzzled your neck, hot breath tickling the sensitive skin there.

You weren’t sure if it was truly his body heat keeping you toasty, or the warmth blooming between your thighs.

« Now sleep. » he huffed out as his thumb rubbed small circles on your hip, slipped under the ample shirt you had borrowed.

You thought you definitely couldn’t get to sleep with so many sensations assaulting your senses, but your brain soon tired of running overdrive and you fell into slumber once more.

When you woke up, you were now facing Endeavor’s chest and still tangled in his arms. The warmth from before came back to you as you detailed the thin hair adorning his muscular torso, rising to every one of his deep breaths. You unwound yourself from his grip as he sluggishly woke up, casting a questioning glare towards you.

« I’m going to take a shower, you can sleep in if you want ! » you said as you jumped off the bed and scurried towards the bathroom.

« The water is cold... » he articulated as you escaped his hold.

You almost stopped in your tracks, but you couldn’t go back there.

« It’s okay, don’t worry ! » you said as you smiled back to him, even going as far as making a thumbs up, before resuming your intended course.

You had read several written pieces where cold showers helped curb some sensations, especially in more romance-oriented books. But as you stepped under the ice-cold beam of water, you deemed it was all bullshit. You energetically rubbed soap onto your skin and hair before rinsing it, at least until your fingers hurt from the cold bite and you couldn’t stand it anymore.

You stepped out of the bathtub with chattering teeth, and hastily wrapped yourself in a few towels, urgently rubbing off the water that was making your temperature drop. You then hopped into your clothes, feeling oddly warm even though you were certain they weren’t, and you dashed to the kitchen to make yourself some tea.

Until you remembered that you couldn’t heat the water without Endeavor’s help, so you stomped back to the bedroom, cold still painfully nipping at your flesh.

« End-Enji, i need your help to heat up some water ! » you said as you reached the open doorway.

He turned around, and you saw he was in the midst of putting a shirt back on, arms tugging the tight fabric over his abs. You didn’t stare, you didn’t intend to, yet you couldn’t help but notice the happy trail of red hair leading into his sweatpants as the shirt came down.

Your eyes fluttered back to his face, brain stunned and already reeling from the sight.

« Didn’t you already take a shower... ? » he asked, perplexed.

« No, no, for some tea. » you explained, slightly exasperated.

He eyed you up and down, and then said

« You look cold. »

« I am. »

Despite his abysmal social skills, he understood that you didn’t want to push the matter of why you took a cold shower even though he had offered to heat the water up. He followed you to the kitchen and got to work.

Once again, you were stuck on the couch under your fort of blankets, holding a steaming cup of tea with your numb fingers, half-burning them but you couldn’t care less. Even with the amount of covers on you, Endeavor could see you tremble and shiver.

You were cold, that much you were sure of. But your pride forbade you snuggled up to the man next to you like some scratch-starved cat. So you endured the chill, cursing against your poor choice of literature and low body heat.

But as night came around, you were dragged back to the shared bed you had with Endeavor, his piercing blue eyes and frown dismissing any attempt of escape on your part. And in all honesty, the cold had drained a lot of your energy and you couldn’t resist much the prospect of a toasty cover to snore in.

You woke up the next morning entangled with Endeavor, his chin resting on your head, and then the next morning too.

By the fifth day, you had given up and let the giant man cuddle you like you were some oversized teddy bear.

You always seemed to wake up before he did, so you used this time to detail his features. His sleeping face was relaxed, free from the usual frown he sported, and you couldn’t help but inspect his scar up close, the way his eyebrow and mustache didn’t grow on it. How his nose was so very straight. His slightly receding hairline, but nothing to be ashamed of for a man in his forties. His neat sideburns and beard, his strong jawline and - goddamit - his lips.

Seeing everything up close, from his embrace, made your heart rush and heat grow in your belly.

You sighed. How wasn’t he aware ? You were glad, and somewhat dejected that he had the decency of not lusting over his apocalypse partner.

You felt him move, your slight exhale must have woken him up. He opened his eyes and they bore through your own, the bright blue still glazed over by sleep. And then you felt his hand behind your head, tangling in your hair, and his mouth on your lips.

Too stunned to do anything, you let him kiss you deeply, hot lips molded onto yours and his arms keeping you in place, his scent overwhelming you and making your brain fuzzy.

As he broke the kiss, he blinked a few times, consciousness returning to his eyes as you stayed still.

« Shit, that wasn’t a dream. » he murmured as he rubbed a hand on his face to clear the last remnants of sleep.

« Sorry for that. »

He got up before you, his tall silhouette disappearing in the hallway as you were still processing what had happened.

You spent the rest of the day purposefully ignoring what had occurred the same morning, and as far as you knew he was doing the same.

Things didn’t feel awkward as you slipped inside the bed next to him, cuddling him for his warmth and nothing else, you told yourself. Things didn’t feel awkward as you woke him up and he always seemed to take an instant to stare at you before getting out of the bed. Things didn’t feel awkward as he kept you glued to his skin to keep you warm, at any hour of the day, because winter had settled in.

And things didn’t feel awkward when one morning, you woke up to soft pants and a constant tremor agitating the bed you laid on.

As sleep quickly cleared from your system, you were able to take in the sight before you. Endeavor, a slight sheen of sweat over his brow, eyes scrunched up and teeth gnawing at his lips, only releasing them to puff out a hot breath, a discrete moan. You were laying on one of his arms, head resting on his chest, and your gaze trailed down, down his body before you closed your eyes.

No, that was not happening.

The lewd sound of flesh rubbing flesh echoed in your ears as you forced yourself to look back at his face, ignoring what was taking place on his lower body.

As you opened your eyes again, they locked with his.

A heartbeat. Maybe two. You didn’t count.

He stared at you, eyes glazed over, the tiniest bit of pink tinting his ears and cheeks.

« Help me finish ? » he grunted out, voice straining as he didn’t stop his hand.

You knew the desperation, you knew the frustration of relief being just out of reach, so you didn’t think when you slipped one hand in his short hair and tugged his head back, maintaining eye contact with his glowing blue eyes. You buried your head in his neck and inhaled his scent deeply, a mix of spice, musk and smoke, and sucked the skin there, eliciting a raspy breath from Endeavor. Your other hand trailed down, feather-like over his abs, barely grazing the thick curls around his length before wrapping around his balls, fondling them gently as you felt his hand - the one around your waist - gripping your butt, and you knew you were doing good.

You whispered dirty words in his ear, punctuated by nips and kisses to his neck.

« Are you going to cum all over ? Spill your hot seed on your chest, your abs ? »

You could feel his movements getting sloppier, his fingers digging into the soft flesh of your ass and more moans escaping his lips, a deliciously tantalizing sight. Eyes still locked with his, you murmured

« Come for me, Enji. »

As you pronounced his name, you felt his entire body tense beneath your hand, and he let go of a strangled grunt as his hips rutted into his fist. You didn’t look down, but you could see a milky fluid reaching up to his chest, and slowly gathering in the valley of his pecs.

His grip loosened on your buttocks, and you slid your hand out of his hair, awkwardly withdrawing the other one and not quite knowing what to do with yourself. You felt dwarfed in comparison to him, tucked to his side and engulfed by his arm.

As his breathing calmed down, he opened his eyes again and turned his face towards yours.

« Thank you. » he rumbled out, a slight smile gracing his usually harsh features.

« No problem. » you murmured, unable to look at him in the eye.

« Do you want to get up ? »

You felt him tug a blanket over his hips.

« Don’t you want me to help you get off ? »

It was the thing you least expected him to say, your eyes snapping back to his face as you stared in disbelief. You were half tempted to play innocent and tell him you didn’t need to get off, but truth was seeing him jerk off had riled you up to your limit. Throwing shyness out the window, you accepted his offer.

He sat up and you came in his lap, his strong chest at your back as you did your best to ignore the sticky feeling of his fluids on your skin. He was so tall his head reached easily over your shoulder, so you instructed

« Don’t look, give me your hands. »

You felt him nod as he held out his big hands, holding them up until you had removed any obstructing piece of clothing. Goosebumps erupted on your skin, but your gut was burning. You grabbed his hands and led them to your mound, between your spread legs.

« Okay » you exhaled shakily, tension wound up so tight you were almost trembling. « You take care of my pussy, i manage the clit. Feel, don’t look. » you ordered again as you felt him shuffle behind you.

« I like it slow at first, being stretched, feeling the burn, you can remove your fingers sometimes, you can tease me. But when i say so, don’t stop, and don’t pull them out. Understood ? »

He rumbled his approval, breath fanning over your neck, and slid his fingers down to your dripping lips.

You started by making slow circles on your clit as he mapped out your hole, spreading your lips with his thick, warm fingers and rubbing them over your slit. You could feel his muscles rolling under his skin as he slowly pushed one digit inside of you, feeling your slick walls with his roughened pad. His other hand kept your pussy spread open, and you kept going at your clit. You felt like you could come in an instant if you went any faster, Endeavor was doing wonders arousing you.

He gently pulled out his finger, and pushed it back in, your hole swallowing him easily as your fluids dripped down your ass onto the blanket. In, and out, for a few times before you felt him add another finger inside you, the stretch burning you delightfully.

You moaned in his hold, tipping your head back as you went a bit faster with your own fingers, lazily chasing your release.

That’s when you heard his voice, oh so close to your ears, whispering sultry words as he kept pumping his fingers inside of you.

« How do you like that ? How do my fingers feel inside of you ? You’re so wet, you’re taking them so easily... »

He was knuckle deep inside of you when he paused, lowering his head to nip at your neck while you sighed in contempt.

« Are two enough ? Do you want more ? Or maybe it doesn’t matter ? » he asked as he pulled out his fingers entirely, making you whine, before he slowly slipped them in again.

Oh, how the teasing felt divine as he repeated that a few times, and you were so close to coming.

« Please, put them back in. More... » you whispered, lost in the pleasure of having your pussy spread so well by the man behind you.

« I’ll open your nice little pussy, don’t worry. Your little hole takes me so well. » he growled in your ear, pushing his fingers back in and slowly adding a third one from his other hand.

You gasped at the delicious sear, his fingers pushing over the tight ring of muscle and opening it further, making you quicken your pace on your sensitive bud.

« Faster, don’t stop now » you huffed out as you closed your eyes, feeling him pump his fingers in opposing rhythm inside of your cunt, rubbing them over your walls and tightening the coil inside your belly tenfold.

You were almost there, you moaned and puffed as you almost reached your climax, but it evaded you when you went to clamp your thighs together, blocked by your aid’s thick arms. You chased your climax again, muscles straining and tense, but your hand was tiring and it felt out of reach.

Desperate, you turned towards Endeavor, tears in your eyes.

« Enji... i don’t think i can come like this... i can’t... » you almost sobbed.

« Shhh, don’t worry. » he murmured in your ear, lips grazing the outer shell of it and sending tingles down your spine.

« I know you can do it, come all over my fingers, make a mess out of me. »

And that’s all you needed to clamp down on him, body tensing up and scorching relief washing over you as you rode out your orgasm on his fingers, overstimulating your nub until your hips jerked to escape your own touch. Your back arched and you moaned his name over and over again, one of your hands leaving your clit to grab his muscular thigh to anchor yourself to reality, fingers digging in his firm flesh.

That might have been one of the best orgasms you had in a long time, you thought as you came back from your high, feeling Endeavor slip his thick fingers out of your sensitive cunt.

You waited a bit for your breath to calm down, and tentatively cleared your throat, afraid it might still come out needy after climaxing.

« Thank you, Enji, that was... pretty good. »

You saw him bring his wet and sticky fingers to his mouth, sucking them clean, before smirking

« Agreed. »

[the-endless-storm]

Nuzlocke Shield Part Three

Part One

Part Two

Got to Hulbury and figure I can fish here for another encounter. Are there fishing spots in other towns I’ve never noticed? Fished up a Chewtle.

Snapper - Chewtle (f) Shell Armour Careful (SDf up / SAk down) “It loves to eat!”

I'll box Charjabug for the time being, Toxel will take over the electric role for the time being.

I’m going to head back to the Wild Area to do some training before fighting Nessa, and get everyone's levels up to around 24. If there are any Raid's in the three area's I’ve visited I’ll see what TRs I can get my mitts on too.

TRs were all a bust, but Snapper evolved into a Drednaw whilst training so that was a pleasant surprise.

On to fight Nessa and her trainers didn’t put up much of a fight.

Nessa's Goldeen seemed to last out against Toxel for a long time, so I switched to Drednaw to fight Arrocuda (bearing in mind it has Peck so I didn’t send out Thwackey). I forgot how fast Drednaw is for a bulky rock type, so that round didn’t last long at all.

Teackey came,out and Dynamaxed to take on her Gigantamax Drednaw and that lasted even less time.

Water badge get!

“A Power spot detector!? That’s the device that allowed me to detect power spots!” Nothing gets past Chairman Rose. You can tell he got into power on his looks and not his brain.

Thanks Hop, I can read a map buddy I know where to go. Thanks for holding my hand through the entire game. Pokemon games should come with two menu options. “I’ve played this game before” that lets you skip all the dialogue and cut scenes, and “I’ve played Pokemon games before” that skips all the tutorials and hand holding.

Galar Mine Two, and a Croagunk literally appears out of nowhere as I’m walking through. That'll be my encounter then.

Kermit - Croagunk (m) Anticipation Relaxed (Dfc up / Spd down) “It's proud of its power!”

I like Croagunk, but I already have a fighting type and a poison type, so I’ll box it for now.

Oh it's Bede. Hopefully Snapper's Bite should be enough to see him off.

I love the battle music for facing Bede. Total bop.

Bede managed to land one attack out of his entire team. GG.

Fighting Team Yell and this would be going a lot quicker if “future champion” Hop would represent and order his Wooloo to attack instead of wasting everyone's time.

Out side in Motostoke Outskirts, I ran into the grass and found a Salandit. Unfortunately it's a male, so rather than catch a Pokemon that wouldn’t be able to evolve, I knocked it out. I have a pretty good team, spares in my box and several zones of the Wild Area yet to explore so I’m not too worried about this loss.

Speaking of, I’m going to check out the remaining areas of the Wild Area, before I cross the bridge to the stronger side after (hopefully) beating Kabu. First up, Dappled Grove gives me an Oddish. Game won’t let me call it 'weed', I guess that's too naughty.

Swede - Oddish (f) Chlorophyll Hardy (no change) “It's thoroughly cunning!”

Watchtower Ruins gives me a Snorunt

Gnasher - Snorunt (m) Ice Body Docile (no change) “It's alert to sounds!”

Last but not least, North Lake Miloch has a Mudbray.

Bullseye - Mudbray (m) Stamina Jolly (Spd up / SAk down) “It's alert to sounds!”

Back to the Budew Inn and it's a fight with Marnie and I did not heal up first so I hope this goes ok.

Fuck fuck fuck it did not go ok. HaagenDazs got knocked out in one shot by her Croagunk's revenge. Rest in peace little ice cream dude, we had good times. My team is disproportionately weak to either poison or fighting, my only saving grace is Jett the Toxel.

Stop using Sucker Punch on a baby!

Ok Marnie is down but that was more annoying that it should have been, my team is very badly balanced type wise.

Vanillite is KO'd

Taking out Snorunt would be pointless considering I wouldn’t use him against Kabu, so I’ll use Bullseye. He's only level 15 so needs to be at least 28 to be on par with everyone else. So it's back to training, unless I have enough XP candies to give him.

I have an assortment of candies and Rare Candies to get Bullseye up a few levels, then train the rest. It's snowing in so many areas that it's easy for FossilFuel and Chappy to plow through ice types for easy exp.

I also teach Snappy Waterfall; which should do him a lot better than Water Gun; and Bulldoze. On the off chance I check with the Move Relearner, and I give him Crunch over Bite too. None of the others have any hidden moves to relearn.

I best stock up on some Super Potions too.

Oh I forgot you could catch Pokémon inside the gym! That's got to count as an encounter for the area right? I fished inside Hulbury City so this should count for Motostoke City. It's a Sizzlepede!

Mushu - Sizzlepede (m) Flash Fire Modest (SAk up / Atk down) “It likes to thrash about!”

Mushu will have to go in a box for now. Aww, I wish I’d got Litwik first I could have done with a ghost type. Pants. Anyway this challenge is easy.

Bullseye knocks out Ninetales, dodging a will-o-wisp then slowing it with a Bulldoze and knocking it out first in the next turn. Arcanine is next and I’m worried about Bullseye lasting against it, so I’m swapping to Snapper who will hopefully carry on the rest of the battle.

Snapper dodges a Will-o-wisp too and lands a good hit with Waterfall. The Wisp hits the second time which causes the Waterfall to leave Arcanine with a sliver of HP. I think there's going to be a Potion next so I’m going to risk a Burn Heal.

There was no Potion, but there was only a Bite attack. Got wisp'd again but that shouldn’t impact the final round too much.

Dynamaxing Dreadnaw for a Max Rockfall, should knock out Gigantamax Centiskorch in one turn. If I’m lucky.

I am not lucky. It takes two turns, with a smidge of Sandstorm damage in the middle.

Hey Chappy is evolving too, hello Machoke sorry but you're never going to be a Machamp.

Fire Badge get!

I love the way the badges fit into a ring in this game. Best badges since the ones you could polish in Diamond and Pearl.

Hop is going to have terrible arthritis in his elbows and knees if he keeps spazzing out every time he tries to talk.

One last spot in the Wild Area on this side of the bridge that I missed earlier, the Giant's Seat. I know the Pokemon here are higher than elsewhere so I should be about right to catch something there now. God I hope it's not snowing there too.

Nope it's raining and my first encounter is a Quagsire! Let me swap out Bullseye before anything bad happens...

Oops, knocked it out. Oh well, Snapper is doing well enough as my water type at the moment so hopefully I can keep him going for a while longer. I can always catch another water type later on if I must.

On to Motostoke Riverbank and oh goodie it's snowing here too. Please not another ice type, please please please... oh a Corvisquire. But I’ve already had a Rookidee so this is a duplicate and I can look for another pokemon.

Oh shit oh shit there are Sneasel's chasing me fuck they're fast! Get away!

My second encounter is a fucking Vanillite, which is also a duplicate, but my rules stop me from searching for a third time. Stupid snow.

Bridge Field is snowing too! Goddamit. It's a fucking Sneasel. Double dammit. Too many ice types filling up my encounter slots.

Salem - Sneasel (m) Keen Eye Hasty (Spd up / Dfc down) “It has a sturdy body!”

In the box you go.

Let's see what the Digging Duo can find for me.

Stamina Bro - Normal Gem, Ice Stone, Damp Rock, Fossilized Fish, Sticky Barb, Leaf Stone, Sun Stone, Heat Rock, Heat Rock.

Skill Bro - Rare Bone, Fossilized Fish, Bottle Cap, Rare Bone, Dawn Stone.

I have three more zones to go through to get to Hammerlocke, so I’ll stop down by the Nursery where it's safe and save, and leave it at that for today.

Current Team

Drumroll - Thwackey (lv 29)

Bullseye - Mudsdale (lv 28)

Snapper - Drednaw (lv 29)

FossilFuel - Carkoal (lv 29)

Chappy - Machoke (lv 18)

Jett - Toxel (lv 19)

Boxed

Joltik

Slowpoke

Charjabug

Croagunk

Oddish

Snorunt

Sizzlepede

Sneasel

Losses

Bandit the Nickit - Knocked out by a fat squirrel

Gumball the Tympole - Devoured by a centipede with a moustache

Castlevania the Rookidee - Torn apart by a cute mole

HaagenDazs the Vanillite - Murdered in an act of revenge by a smelly frog

Wild Area Tracker

Rolling Fields

West Lake Axewell

East Lake Axewell

South Lake Miloch

Dappled Grove

Watchtower Ruins

North Lake Miloch

Giant’s Seat

Motostoke Riverbank

Bridge Field

[squeiky]

Honestly papyrus and sans are the #1 deltarune teasers.

From the door... To papyruses little Easter "egg". Tp the gaster connections :/

(ps: papyrus is way more connected to gaster than sans is. )

Then the "dont forget" <- take it literally friends you seriously want to remember small tib bits in both games.

The sans wink in deltarune.. The fact that they seem...wary of the player. In fact, they talk directly to us. And even add sound effects! How kind.

Reminds me of lancers mp3. Its a cute sound effect.

Tbh, they remind me of those kids tv shows.

You know? Where they are talking someone and look directly at YOU, and go "can you find this?" Or "what should i do?" Or "what do you think?"

Like.. Elmo, or dora the exlporer. Or something.

I could go off on papyruses flying ability, or sans timestopping, time manipulating.. Just a bunch of things about time tbh. Or papyruses... Strange music in his room, or his apperent blasters, pr the fact that he looks similar to gaster....

(i messed with both gaster/mysteryman and papyruses sprite a bit. I just flipped papyrus's default face, ontop of gasters. I guess they are just 2 eggs. Beacuse they seriously have that egg shape apperance. So we have 2 eggy bois and i love it.)

Okay i dont want to go to much on papyruses frequent wall breaking which is like 24/7 and how he knows about alphys... Or the fact that she works in a laboratory... Or how the bone brothers barely know anything about the other, and how it was pointed out by the shopkeeper that she cant tell if they are related or not..

( someone said the shopkeeper has a sister soo..)

Or how similar sans is to lancer... Or how similar he is to literally everything in deltarune. Actually he's so connected to deltarune, you cant even see him die. He supposedly gets "tired" and runs away, exactly how with the nightners.

(Personally i dont think he died. He has an arrange of sound effects,( papyrus included) such as drums and what not.)

He bleeds like the nightners. According to lancer they have a blood bucket, and someone to clean up the "blood" (i think they do, i forgot their name) and how apperently know about blood to the extent of how it works, and know how to use it as a joke and not freak out. (I.e. That one kid and noelle) to the loint of having a janitor to clean it up. And sans is the only undertale character to bleed, and walk away. Seeing as monsters IMMEDIATELY dust after being brought to 0 hp. And not bleed to death, as sans does. Which sucks alot but oh well. the ICE-E crossword, that only exists in deltarune.. That sans has in undertale.

And the connects with papyrus is more undertale related/ gaster related than deltarune related.

So mabye i was wrong and sans is more of a hint for deltarune + lancer (from his bike, to prankster personailty, to clothes, to his ENTIRE HOME.)

(the castle is filled with those forever smiles that sans has. Which is funny cause that castle is in shambles and is obviously has a terrible king in charge, and its really depressing how lancer's dad was nice, but not anymore. But yeah KEEP SMILING YA SACK O POTATOES.)

(To the benches that sans has in the fundraiser)

OH OH OH ! AND THE FACT THAT PAPYRUS REFERS TO UNDERTALE AS "HIS GAME!" AND CONNECTION WITH TOBY FOX (and possibly the temmies) AND WITH GASTER POSSIBLY BEING APPART IN DELTARUNE THATS VERY VERY INTRESTING IS IT NOT?

I mean what do you think?

Though i dont understand the "you hear a trousle of bones" in deltarune. And sans says "my little brother"..

Like how old are you sans that it conerns me. You even befriended toriel, which personally sounds awsome.

(People draw kris as if he would hate that, but kris is such a prankster, he and sans would be besties like-)

Also how young exactly is papyrus here? Asriel is obviously younger than papyrus in undertale, by using him as a ruler, papyrus and sans shouldn't be so..... Young? Adult age atleast not..babybones.

Unless papyrus indeed does the trick that goner kid did, and just doesn't exist in deltarune, due to his connection with gaster and his connection to undertale.

Unless im wrong, and asriel was just born before papyrus and sans came to snowdin, which might mean he would be older but... UGH THIS IS CONFUSING BUT THERE SHOULDN'T BE BABYBONES PAPYRUS ANYWHERE BEACUSE EVERYONE IS THE RESPECTIVE AGE OF UNDERTALE, INCLUDING ASRIEL AS DUE TO HIS CONSTANT RESETS HE'S PROBABLY ALOT OLDER THAN WE REALISE!!!!!!!!

And that papyrus cannot be connected to sans, unless toby says so.

Otherwise papyrus cant exist in deltarune, and sans has another brother or something.

Also undertale papyrus and sans are alot.more diffrent than you realise.

Actually their roles where reversed at a time! Cool huh?

Papyrus is seen being pretty depressed, while somewhere, i cant remeber where, but it is said that sans wans't always this lazy.

Which means....

ROLE REVERSION!!! Cool right?

Before you OFFICALLY MEET papyrus and sans, sans is constantly trying to cheer papyrus up with jokes

(terrible pun are normally a thing of inexperience. Unless on purpose. But he has a joke book. Most likely papyrus's book beacuse of the constant puns papyrus makes, that are really good! Papyrus is the only one who has a book shelf, so probably the quatum physics is his too. As he needs SOMETHING FOR THAT FREAKING BRIDGE. And why would you need a book if you already know all the jokes? :/ also im pretty sure either he recites it for toriel (which hes not aware is toriel) or its for papyrus. Either one makes sense. Even both)

Anyways sans was alot more hopeful and papyrus was a lot LESS hopefull. Only by meeting you, the PLAYER err... Human! He regains his hope back!

Sans is also homesick. Undertale isn't his home, he doesn't feel happy with going to the surface either.

Deltarune is the only place he truely seems at home, happy, joyfull. And even owns a...

Bar!! :DDD probably got handed it thx to grillby!

And has a freind named alphys who is just as nerdy as she was before. But now a nerdy teacher~

(WHICH CAN RELATE! I HAVE SO MANY NERDY TEACHERS IN MY SCHOOL LMAO ITS AWSOME, I GET TO TALK ABOUT ANIME LIKE-)

And not some depressed scientist with an anxiety and peer pressure.

Like no wonder he's homesick.

No wonder papyrus feels a bit "down lately." He gets the sucky version.

I guess when your suck in a strange place, a different home you lose alot of hope, rather than gain some.

Or hp. What ever you want to say. Hp= HoPe ? Sure why not i guess.

I mean, im trying to write my goddamn comic, and its gonna be hard to keep all my notes conistent.

Cause just rewatched their whole introduction and im like-

GODDAMIT PAPYRUS DO YOU NEED A HUG? FRISK MOVE, MAKE THIS GUY HAPPY. YES! THAT CONVERSATION ALSO FILLS ME WITH DETERMINATIOM! I CANT BELIEVE ITS CALLED THE "BOX ROAD" THANKS TO 1 FRICKING BOX.

YES SANS CHEER UP YOUR SUPPOSED BROTHER WITH DESPERATE JOKES AND FUNNY COMEDY AND POSSIBLE SOUND EFFECTS.

YES PAPYRUS SMILE, YES PAPYRUS GET MAD AND MARCH OFF LAUGHING HAPPILY WITH THAT ONE BACKBONE PUN.

PAPYRUS NO DONT GO BACK TO BEING Sad- goddammit he left my screen AND HES BAck... Aww... :(

What? Yes sans? He's been feeling down lately? Seeing me could cheer him up?

AWWWWwWwWWWwWwww thats so SWEEETTTTT

THANK YOU FOR TALKING TO ME DIRECTLY LIKE YOU SHOULD BTW. AS IM NOT FRISK, I AM A REAL HUMAN, USING FRISK AS A VESSEL AS I TOWER FROM ABOVE. AND YES I DO SEE YOUR FACE PAPYRUS FROM THE DIALOUGE BOX AND YOU LOOK AMAZING.

*Papyrus realises he doesn't have ears

[Facepalms]

*theres.just a bunch of makeup and sludge on the floor.

[Covers face]

*why does he even carry that?

[Peaks a little and whispers]

"Its always important to carry makeup on. You never know when you need it. Like now."

*papyrus nods his head thoughfully.

[littlefallenrebel]

My love and feels for Skz 🌹🖤

I was tagged by my dear @pikachulein (thank you for doing that btw) to do a post about my feels for Skz so here it is! 

I’m just gonna say that this post is probably a bit cringy and makes zero sense because I have a hard time putting my feelings/thoughts into words :p Also... this ended up being.......1,2k+ words long, whoops 😌

Woojin:

I see Woojin as an older brother he’s 3 years older than me so there we go even tho it’s not that much, anyway so with him it’s definitely brotherly and sibling-like love. It would be awesome to have him as my older brother can i swap my annoying bro with him please and I feel like he would be someone who I can rant about stuff and ask advice. Since he’s also super loving towards his members and takes care of them, I can sort of relate to that since I’m lowkey the mom-friend in my friend group. He’s such a sweetheart and I’m so soft ;-;

Bang Chan:

Ah, it’s mister ”here to wreck your bias list once again”. Chan is probably the one who confuses me the most, I mean he’s my bias but at the same time he’s my bias wrecker and I really don’t know how I feel about him?? I just feel drawn and very attracted to him. But despite being attracted to him, I seriously admire and respect Chan a lot. To me, he’s such an inspirational person and I would love to spend time with him talking about lyrics meanings and deep things. I think we're both that sort of people who sometimes think about stuff too deeply and maybe stress over small things. He's still so young and has a lot on his shoulders and i just sjdhsh. I would probably say my love for Chan is intellectual/magnetical type of love.

Lee Know:

Ohlord it’s the pisces+scorpio duo  with minho it’s definitely the best friends/playful type of love, absolutely. I feel like if we two were best friends we would be that super salty duo who throws shade at everyone. Minho is someone who I would love to just hang out with and share some hot tea ☕ about stuff. Also, I feel like minho would appreciate my super bad jokes and puns no one ever likes my puns and i bet my friends are ashamed of me lmao and we could throw awful pickup lines at each other. I would love to just go on a random shopping spree with him or mess around in a park in the middle of the night. Where do I get a best friend like minho?

Hyunjin:

Another sweet child o’ mine, my fellow Pisces son. I relate to Hyunjin a lot on an emotional level since I feel like we’re both emotionally sensitive so I’ll say I have this similar people/affectionate type of love towards him. I want to watch those overly sappy and cheesy movies/dramas with and cry together when something bad happens. Also, you know that face he does when he thinks his face is bloated?? I swear to god I do that exact same face 24/7. he's an affectionate person imo so i think he would make a nice hug/cuddle buddy, heh. and we both have a thing for weird noises too Hyunjin is probably the member who I relate the most to and he’s sometimes such a mood.

Han:

oof, the ultimate bias wrecker. My love for Jisung is probably the affectionate kind of love and he is another member, who I admire.  Jisung is quite deep and poetic person in my opinion and I’d love to discuss and write lyrics with him. I adore his positive and goofy personality and his shenanigans always make me giggle and lift up my mood. I sometimes just get distracted by him and then I find myself thinking “what an adorable bean you are”. He’s such a kind-hearted and sweet person, I just want to squish his cheeks and ruffle his hair. But sometimes I feel like he doesn’t really feel that confident about himself, so I would want to just comfort and support him. I want him to know he’s doing well, that he’s talented and he’s more than just the mood-maker of the group. I just want to cheer him up with my very shitty jokes and drag him to the nearest arcade. Yeah, I just want to be friends with Jisung and have a blast.

Felix:

Felix, my sweet sunshine baby boi, a precious puppy with a deep ancient God voice, I love him so much i might cry. Felix was my first skz bias and is now my second bias, so I do have a sort of special soft spot for him. I would say my love for him is a mix of affectionate and pure love. Felix is such a soft sweetheart and pure, I just want to hold and cuddle him. Like?? i just can’t imagine anything bad or nasty about him??? that boy just radiates sunshine and happiness ;_; Like I would just love to play video games and make goddamn vine references with him, that would be life.

Seungmin:

With Seungmin it’s friendship like love. I just see him as a good friend who I would have a blast hanging out with I lowkey wanna have a roast battle with him, don’t ask why i just do also, as a fellow myday, we two could just scream and fangirl about Day6 together lmao. me and seungmin singing more like screaming the lyrics to shoot me at 2am? sign me up. He’s such a cutie squish. Seungmin is kind of a mischievious person and he lowkey brings out the mischief in me too, so I kinda want to prank the other members with him lmao.

Jeongin:

Okay, Jeongin is not that much younger than me but he feels like a younger brother to me, so with him, it’s probably sibling-like love I would say. He’s so cute and precious and I just want to look after him and I’ll fight anyone who dares to corrupt this smol bean.  I also lowkey want to have that friendly, sibling rivalry -like relationship with him, idk why. I want to make sure he’s doing well and offer my help if he needs it. Jeongin is such a pure baby and his smile is worth fighting for.

baby boy culture uwu

*sigh*

now,

this next part is gonna be the cheesiest thing ever and probably a bit cringy so you've been warned. bear with me and my feels

Changbin:

oh my god, where do I even start with seo changbin. I'm sure everyone and their ancestors know that my love for him is definitely romantic/true type of love. That boy makes my heart burst and I'm just so damn whipped. im so sorry but i must expose myself and admit that there is some sexual love here too sometimes cuz boi i've had some rather heated thoughts/dreams with bin, anYWAY BACK TO BEING SOFT I love that we share the same kind of aesthetic with all the "i love dark" stuff and wearing mostly black, but then actually being the softest. Since we both have had the thought of becoming a tattoo artist, it would be so cool to draw and design tattoos together! andthengetacoupletattoo I would want to spend time with him at the studio, bring him food and make sure he doesn’t overwork himself and even though I don’t know much about making music but I would love to help him with writing lyrics too. I would support and hype him all the way and make sure he’s healthy. I want to make sure he’s eating and resting properly. Also! Since I love the height difference between me and Bin, I just want to give him all my hoodies to see how smol and soft he would look in them!!  I honestly just love everything he does, every little thing. His aegyo, his cute nose crunch, his adorable laugh, his smile,  his fierce stage presence,…. I could go on forever. I want him to know he’s doing well and I want to be there for him. I want to have those random, sleepy 3am conversations with and hold each other close. I want ruffle and run my hands through his hair and boop is cute nose. I want to share soft kisses with him and kiss that jaw goddamit. I just can't properly put it into words how much I love Changbin and how much he means to me. I could honestly just spend hours talking about him and he just makes me go all ajdhshswg. This got rly long and it's very cheesy and cringy sorry. I just love Seo Changbin with all my heart ♡

so yeah, here it is then. this post is a goddamn mess tbh but so am i so 🤷

[buildoblivion]

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#5

i need (1) archivist to be okay please

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#4

ngl I'm obsessed with the fact that sparrow!ben isnt number one like a lot of us thought... the character potential, the drama, the Diego-esque conflict ... mr blackman I am ready

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mr archivist i miss you dearly

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i don’t draw her enough and that is a crime goddamit

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the great thing about getting into the magnus archives now is that the foreknowledge through cultural osmosis about jon and martin being boyfriends makes everytime jon goes "martin is neglecting his duties to ask after me... making tea and making me go home to sleep... what nefarious schemes is he hiding????!!!!" in s2 infinitely better because like ... babe ... sweetie... come on.....

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[fuckthisblog]

2.27.18 5:06 am

Eating brownie batter and reading the bell jar.

Wondering if any of it was even real to you.

It certainly isn’t now.

You’ve detached. Oh well.

I, for the first time in almost a year, am making progress towards getting the fuck over all this.

—————

I think today is the anniversary of Sams suicide. But I don’t want to check. I mourn her constantly. I don’t want to think about the actual day. And remember every painful moment of it. But I do. I just don’t want to dedicate a day to it.

I think she’d understand.

—————-

I got a 99/100 on my first big AP exam.

200 questions, 4 hours

And I got a fucking

99.

Proud of myself. I embraced the agency I have and powered through studying my ass off, even with the difficult bullshit being thrown my way.

A 99.

Yay.

———————-

I finally met a boy named Ty who I’ve known for 5/6 years, but had never met in person. I have no idea why, but even when I stopped answering for long periods of time and pushed me him away, he stuck around. And not in a creepy way like he was disregarding my boundaries. In a sweet way where he seemed to genuinely care about my well being because we bonded so much off the bat.

Truthfully all those years I hated myself. Didn’t understand what he saw in me. Didn’t want to ruin someone who seemed so kind. Didn’t want to expose them to the mess that is me.

But randomly, at 3 am this weekend, he messaged me to say he hoped I had a good day, because.. he just did. He knows all about my broken brain and past trauma and sex work and he likes me still. I opened up to him a few days before about not doing well. So he kept checking in, even when I all he got was silence from me.

I don’t know what compelled me, but I asked him what his plans were. At 3 am. I make myself laugh with my actions sometimes. But he was free, and doesn’t work weekends.

So I told him to come over.

And the next 24 hours were some of the best I’ve ever had.

He kissed my scars. Ones that I hate myself for because they were made says before. I had apologies for them and mentioned it was not a constant thing and hadn’t happened in so long. He simply took my hand and kissed me up my arm. In the most genuine way.

He’s a social worker. He helps children leave abusive homes and works to get them a safe place and proper care/treatment.

He is genuinely one of the kindest human beings I’ve ever met.

Our kissing was electric. It shot down my spine and back up and I swear it hit my heart. Something strange happened and I feel changed. I think it was his kindness.

Our sex was so, natural, so in tune with one another. So fucking amazing. His sweetness turned to a light dominance that felt fueled by his protective nature. It was perfect. I didn’t want the intense pain that I crave with meaningless sex.

We fell asleep tangled up in other.

We spent the whole next day together.

We didn’t watch anything, we didn’t have a planned activity. We simply were together, and the flow was so natural time slipped away completely.

I don’t quite know what to say except I have an amazing feeling about this man. I feel that this may turn into something wonderful. I want it to, I think. And that alone is amazing. Even if it doesn’t, even if it ended right this second, I’d still love it. Something in me has changed. And it has changed beautifully. I’m not quite sure what. Having this sweet, genuine, intelligent, all around amazing person touching me and caring for me and telling me im all those things and more but he knows I just don’t see it and wants to make sure I know. Something about him- I believed him. I never believe people. I act like my guard is down so nobody ever sees how high it is. But with him the walls didn’t just fall, it was like they never existed. I felt self love. It was fleeting but it was there.

I hope this becomes something. I truly don’t think I’ve ever wanted that. But even if nothing happens, goddamit I’m grateful he didn’t give up on me.

———

Connor was weird and kind of cruel. “No romantic feelings” “im just a slut when I’m drunk” “wait.. you don’t think were like getting back together do you??” “Yeah you’re pretty smart it’s just that I work with geniuses now so my perception is kind of skewed”

Out of nowhere. Why? No idea. I’m trying to learn to not analyze. Because I believe people are genuinely good inside and I’ll always land there. The belief that at their core, they’re mostly good. But now I’m trying to just look at actions. Trying to be blind to everything but what is actually bappening and how it makes me feel. And I felt it. And for the first time in so long it didn’t turn into sadness and self loathing. It turned into rage. A seething river of anger in my veins. A brand new thought in my head - how fucking dare you. I’ve never thought enough of myself to have that thought. And then another that sliced me at my core. How long have I known these things? Why did I get to the point where the actual words left his lips? Self harm is more than a blade. It’s been almost a year of this cruelty towards myself.

All because I’m terrified of letting go.

Not just him.

But everything.

I cling to things because of childhood trauma.

I stayed stagnant for far too long because the agency of action terrified me.

But I’m done I think.

I don’t expect myself to go cold turkey.

But he said those things and I felt something switch off. I felt disgusted by him.

And then I met Ty and realized how low my bar has been.

———-

The agency. Seizing control over the controllable factors of life. Steering myself in the right direction. Self love. Enough self love to power through trauma and continue on my path because I had my sights set on a goal. It’s all so new to me.

I got a 99.

On a four hour exam.

With 200 questions.

That sums it up for me better than all these other words.

———

Fin.

[stardustmovement]

I HEAR YOU'RE ACCEPTING ASKS (Strong power thank you) IF SOOOOOOOO How would all of the second year Starmyu boys be like as Kpop idols?

STRONG POWER THANK YOU TO YOU TOO BEAUTIFUL PERSON

Thank you for sending in the ask~ AND YES I HAVE BEEN WAITING TO ANSWER THIS SO BAD. Take note, the use of “rude” and “disrespectful” is a term for most Kpop fans to relate when the idol does something sexily provoking. 

So here’s a list of what I think:

Hoshitani YutaThe boy is more of a main dancer if you ask me, but he’s a singer with a unique voice that’s always recognizable no matter what even if he’s lacking of lines. The mood maker of the group and the clumsy one off-stage, but is a very charismatic and energetic DISRESPECFUL AS HECK dancer with sharp movements on-stage. Ocassionally raps in some songs. IS A GODDAMN HAPPY GOOFBALL WHO BEFRIENDS EVERYONE–

Nayuki Toru

A PRECIOUS SMOL. Nayuki’s fluffy appearance and soft features makes him one of the more stunning visuals of the group, plus Ono Kensho’s cuter voice suits him so much! He would be one of the vocalists, with a good range from soft and sweet to a harder tone of voice. The mom of the group who takes care and cooks for his members. THE FLUFFIEST HUMAN ALIVE, PERIOD. Also A SECRETLY SAVAGE SMOL–

Tengenji Kakeru

He may not look it (or does he–), but Tengenji is a rapper. Oh yes, our kabuki king is the kind of rapper who hypes up the song to give it momentum. HAS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL RICH SINGING VOICE FITE ME and is the type to be the center of a lot of songs. And can we talk about his VISUALS? Out of the world. Is the dorkiest fluffball off-stage, but his on-stage persona is the danger zone if you know what I mean WELP–

Tsukigami Kaito

My best boy right here is a main dancer, hands down. Like, HAVE YOU SEEN HOW FLEXIBLE HE IS IN THE ANIME? Kaito is also the type to participate in making choreography and song composing, mostly choreo but still contributes a lot to composing. A vocalist who can sing complex ranges no problem, overall an all-rounder. Also the sassy member of the group and laughs at lame jokes. A PART OF MANY SHIPS.

Kuga Shuu

Definitely a rapper, a lead rapper at that. A rapper who raps from his heart with passion. Owns a notebook containing rap lyric drafts. Kuga also has a distinctive voice that stands out no matter what AND A DEEPASS VOICE AT THAT WOWIE– Very much like his anime self, Kuga is the quiet member of the group who’s usually in his own world (and the center of emo memes ahem–) but IS SOFT FOR HIS MEMBERS. Also has a soothing singing voice (auditioned to be a vocalist before he became a rapper).

Tatsumi Rui

The beauty and grace of the group, a.k.a VISUAL PRINCE. A graceful lead dancer whose movements are ABSOLUTELY magical, almost like a ballerina but not at the same time (am I making sense? Nope–). Has a voice of a LITERAL ANGEL. Those who were graced with Tatsumi Rui’s presence are said to have died peacefully to his shining beauty, but there are those who lived and survived THIS DISRESPECTFUL ordeal to tell this story (that’s me). HOWEVER, when the situation calls for it, this mofo can flip his switch if yanno what I mean *wink wonk*

Sawatari Eigo

If “elegance” was a person, it would be Sawatari Eigo. Believe it or not, THIS BOY IS A MAIN VOCALIST. MAIN. VOCALIST. A tenor, has the best vocals in regards to technique but he tends to hold back a lot due to not wanting to overpower his own members (mainly Tatsumi). HIGH NOTE KING and participates a lot in lyrics. Looks and dresses like he’s going to meet your parents, but is actually very adventurous and indulges in good humor, making terrible puns (which Kaito actually laughs at). Also WHERE ARE THE GODDAMN EIGO GIFS–

Ugawa Akira

He’s smol and cute but is an angery smol who can kick your ass when provoked (Tengenji watch your ass–). Ugawa is surprisingly an all-rounder who is mainly a lead vocalist with a nice timbre, kinda calm and jazzy. A TALENTED SMOL who does most of the composing and lyric writing and LOVES HIS JOB IT MAKES HIM FEEL IMPORTANT. Maintains a cute and sassy image on-stage but is A STRAIGHT-OUT SAVAGE off-stage, Will beat up his members with a guitar if he needs to and tag teams ocassionally with Nayuki.

Toraishi Izumi

HO BOI. WHERE DO I EVEN START. First things first, Toraishi is the main rapper of he group with a very versatile flow which he made his own. Inserts quite A LOT of English (or Gibberish) in his raps, mainly just to sound cool (which actually works). Like all the rappers in the group, he owns a rap lyrics notebook AND HE SLEEPS WITH IT AWWWW– His on-stage persona is a confident and fiery rapper whose “fans are his girlfriends”, but off-stage HE’S SOFT AND EMOTIONAL AND CRIES EASILY WHAT A PRECIOUS DORK–

Inumine Seishirou

Practically useless in everyday situations like his anime self, but DAMN BOI HE’S THE ULTIMATE PERFORMER. Is mainly a dancer but he raps and sings AND CAN EVEN ACT WHAT IS INUMINE EVEN– so basically, the boy is a monster in the entertainment. Also known for hyping songs up along with Tengenji. The loud and noisy ULTIMATE GOOFBALL who always randomly breaks into a song off-stage, but beware of his on-stage charisma. You might regret calling Inumine the man’s best friend.

Ageha Riku

Was once an edgy singer with multiple Linkin Park covers stored away somewhere down the darkest pit of his old social media accounts (never talk about them again). But as of now, Ageha is pretty much still a vocalist, but less edgy AND IS AN EXCELLENT FREESTYLE DANCER. One minute being beauty and grace, another minute BEING VERY DISRESPECFUL LIKE CALM DOWN BOI. Ageha may look disinterested 24/7 of the time, but inside he’s the SOFTEST KINDEST SOUL EVER AND HAS THE CUTEST SMILE SAVE ME– Also part of the smol and savage group along with Nayuki and Ugawa.

Hachiya So

A beautiful AND UNDERRATED HUMAN BEING. Often overlooked, BUT HAS THE MOST GORGEOUS VOICE YOU HAVE EVER HEARD YOUR ENTIRE EXISTENCE. Maybe it’s because Hachiya is a kind and humble soul BUT HE’S THE OTHER MAIN VOCALIST. High Note King part 2 and is PLENTY attractive in terms of visuals. A man with various talents such as interior design FRENCH STYLE. Only downside about him, and a trait that unfortunately most people remember about is that the boy is CLUMSY AF. Ageha often has to be there for him but he does redeem himself on-stage with the RICHEST OF VOCALS. ALSO WHERE ARE THE GODDAMN HACHIYA GIFS–

Kitahara Ren

A LEGIT MODEL. A VERY stunning visual with incredible stage presence who is a singer-rapper. Has a smooth baritone voice regardless on whether he sings or raps AND HAS THE AUDACITY TO SMIRK LIKE HE’S OWNED THE WORLD– Is the member who always receives modeling requests first and flaunts any style HECK HE CAN EVEN WEAR A POTATO SACK AN STILL LOOK GOOD. Is a cocky asshole off-stage, but a good kind. Hangs out with the rapper group everytime.

Nanjo Koki

FINALLY. I would like to present to you THE RUDEST, MOST DISRESPECTFUL MOFO OF THE GROUP, NANJO FUCKING KOKI. This bizarrely beautiful mofo right here is also a singer-rapper but leans more to being a tenor. HOWEVER, his GODLY visuals stand out more if anything else and stylists always put him in low-cut outfits for this very reason (much to Ren and Tengenji’s dismay). Like Kuga, he originally auditioned to be a vocalist but got to play both positions, and MAN, HE DOES IT SO DAMN WELL. Off-stage, the boy is a smug and amused individual, always indulging in Ren and Toraishi’s catfights. AND GODDAMIT THERE AREN’T ANY NANJO GIFS OML–

[ask2pblog]

Their s/o left the door open when they are taking a shower, who takes a peak, who shuts the door, and who joins them? (Ps love your blog so far!❤️

aaAAH THANK U  FAM!! 0//v//0

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➖2pAmerica/ Al: Joins them

-The moment he hears running water in the shower, he slliiides in them DM. “Aww already wet for me?~”“…”“Kidding, unless you want-”His words were muffled by the bar of soap shoved in his mouth.

➖2pCanada/ Matt: Shuts the door

- Likes his privacy, so he gives S/O their privacy. You hear him mutter, “goddamit S/O, not again.” If he’s in the mood, will take your towel and wait *wiNK WONK*

➖2pFrance/ François: Takes a peek

- He wants the booty, he’s gonna see the booty. Acts all chill too and makes it obvious he’s checking you out. “Nice”“François what the fuck-”“Nice”

➖2pEngland/ Oliver: Takes a peek

- Not even in a perverted way, just hear “I’m back!~ Do you need help on washing your back?”Then screams like a girl when the shampoo bottle is thrown at him. Maybe one day.

➖2pChina/ Xiao: Joins them

- Boy has no chill, and the first thing he says is a flirting joke.“Come here often?~” “Xiao, pls i am shoWERING” “I thought kittens hate water”“Yet the shower makes me wetter compared to your attempts”Let’s all pray for the fallen Xiao.

➖2pRussia/ Viktor: Shuts the door

- Scolds you while doing it. “You’re gonna get a cold, S/O”. Sadly no shower sex for S/O :c

➖2pGermany/ Lutz: Joins them

- You just hear clothes being thrown and know. This guy definitely shampoos your hair and makes those funny hairdo-styles. Unless you want some sexy time then ;33

➖2pPrussia/ Gilen: Shuts the door

- He would be so scared in fear looking like a pervert. You just hear the door slowly creaking as it closes. Nice job Gilen, now S/O thinks the bathroom is haunted.

➖2pAustria/ Roland: Takes a peek

- This asshole would try to scare you. Turning off the lights and do an evil laugh. “Roland I know it’s you”“i aM tHE ghOST whO droWNED-”“While taking a shower?”“,,,aww you’re no fun”

➖2pItaly/ Luciano: Joins them

- Out of all the 2Ps, would try to make it sexy times ;))). Would slide his arms to your waist on oOO BOI. Would back off if S/O don’t wanna of course, but other than that… ;))))

➖2pRomano/ Flavio: Joins in

- This guy wouldn’t even make flirting jokes, but shampoos your hair and make sure you get those fancy routines. Flavio somehow makes you look like you came out of the spa, how the boy does it, it’s a mystery.

➖2pJapan/ Kuro: Takes a peek

- Wouldn’t make it obvious. Uses his NinjaSkills ™  to observe then disappear. Mentions it at a random time too, “You use too much hot water”“Says the guy who takes baths 24/7″“Touché”

➖2pSpain/ Andrés: Shuts the door

- He’d think about joining in, but goes to flush the toilet like the little shit he is, THEN shuts the door. Rest in pieces S/O. A smirk never leaves his face, especially when screaming about the shower’s temperature change is heard.

[jejublr]

Super!Joshua

A/N: Hi guys! I’m back with another installment of the Super!Seventeen AU! First of all, I want to thank you so so much for the support and love I’ve been getting from Super!Mingyu :D You don’t know how much I appreciate it!! I’ll continue to try and improve my writing as we go. Second of all, I have something to ask you: was Super!Mingyu too messy? Should I write another Super!Mingyu where he’s part of an actual team of superheroes?? idk but I’m just wondering ^^ Anyways, I hope you’ll enjoy this second one! Love you all!

So Joshua is the resident healer/doctor in the Heroes Association Headquarters

His touch can heal wounds and his presence can calm patients I mean, how can it not

Empath!Seokmin said that he’s got a healing aura around him that makes people feel assured and comfortable whenever he’s around

His power comes with a price though

If he choose to heal someone’s wound, he would feel the pain of the person suffering the wound and he would feel like he’s experiencing the same pain on his own body

Sometimes, the symptoms would stay with him for a prolonged period, almost as if he absorbed his patient’s illnesses 

Basically it’s too draining for him to do so mentally and physically so he refrain from doing it unless it’s really necessary 

So he stuck with being the regular good ol’ doctor for heroes

Deals with injured heroes and victims of a fight on the daily

Everyone agrees he’s the real hero of the day

His gaze either heals you or sends you into a cardiac arrest

All the nurses, patients heroes and civilians alike are in love with him

Heals wounds but open new ones in his patients’ hearts lmao

Breaks hearts as easily as he heals it

Pretends to be oblivious to others’ attraction towards him because he’s too soft and feels too guilty to reject them

And he thought it wouldn’t be professional to date a patient anyways so

People would usually give up pursuing him after a while and resorts to just admire him from afar

Really soft and gentlemanly man

Genuinely cares about his patients’ well-being not only physically, but mentally too

“HOW CAN WE BE MENTALLY STABLE WHEN YOURE THE DOCTOR” THEY WANT TO SCREAM 

But nonetheless everybody’s grateful that they got a doctor as caring (and as good looking) as Joshua

Ok so you’re one of the newer heroes on the job

Despite that, you’re quite powerful cuz you’re pretty much impenetrable

Bullets, knives, you name it, can’t hurt you

One day during a simulation, you fell unconscious out of exhaustion

Naturally they brought you to the clinic

When you wake up, Joshua was hovering over you

And with the fluorescent lights above casting a halo around him, he literally looked like an angel

And you’re like, if this is what heaven looks like I’m all in lol

“Are you an angel?? Am I dead??”

lmao he heard that too many times tbh

But he just smiled and said “You’re in the clinic, Y/N. You fell unconscious remember??”

lol how are you supposed to remember when all you can think is how pretty he is?? how is that even possible???

So that’s how your first meeting went, just you starring at him like an ass, completely at loss for words

And it’s kinda amusing to see, really, but he’s concerned because are you ok???

You’re not

Team Leader!Seungcheol suddenly popped his head into the room and was like “Oh goodie, you’re alive. Thanks, Shua.”

But he saw your face and became like “Goddamit, Shua, not one of my kids, this is the third time this month >:(”

Joshua’s like IT’S NOT MY FAULT

Seungcheol figured the only way to snap you out of it is to drag you out of the clinic

But you’re like, Nooo let me stay with the kind doctor :((

Seungcheol ended up having to drag you out of the clinic by the collar

Joshua was left standing in the aftermath like 0_0

o kay

You ended up paying the clinic a lot of visit after that

You literally give zero f***s as you march up to him and complain how sick you’re feeling almost everyday

“Joshua, I feel dizzy I think I need to lie down”

“Joshua, I hit my head earlier, can you check it for me?”

“Joshua, Dino scratched my arm earlier. I think I’m bleeding, please save me.”

“Y/N, you can’t bleed from a scratch.”

“But that doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt! >:((”

Everyone’s like “Y/N, you should give up now. There’s no point in chasing him, he does not caree”

But you’re like “Nope! I’m gonna win his heart!!!” 

cue everyone sighing 

Apparently your brain is just as impenetrable as your body smh

At this point, you come so frequently that the nurses and staff started to just accept your existence and ignore you

You keep pestering Joshua whenever you got the chance

You keep him updated with the gossips that has been going around the HQ

You know you actions may be the product of infatuation and that he probably won’t reciprocate your feelings

But Joshua made you feel some kind of way and because you’re used to getting what you want, he kinda makes your heart clench a little bit

Sometimes it makes you wonder like,”Oml is this what pain feels like???”

From how cool and controlled he is when handling patients to the genuine kindness that shows in his eyes

You can’t help but be drawn to him like a moth to a light

Basically the relationship is like a pull-pull party with you doing all the pulling lol

Joshua just let you do your antics 99% of the time

One day you were out on a mission when, for the very first time in your life, you got hurt during the fight 

Turns out the enemy had found out a way to immobilize you through poison with a smoke bomb

You’re immediately rushed into the HQ’s emergency unit

Everybody’s shell-shocked because this is Y/N??? How in the world did this happen???!

They just never saw you in the clinic except for that one time and the other times you follow Joshua like a lovesick puppy so you getting hurt is a pretty big deal considering your power

Everyone went scrambling to find Joshua bc they don’t know what to do

“Dr. Hong! We have an emergency!! It’s Y/N!” 

Joshua’s so used to you getting “hurt” and trying to get his attention that he just rolled his eyes in amusement and was like “Alright, alright, I’ll be there in a minute”

But the nurse wasn’t having it and she went “Y/N IS DYING WE GOTTA BLAST”

Joshua literally dropped everything and went to follow the nurse and 

When they got to you, you were so pale and looked so lifeless, and there’s blood everywhere and it literally scared the s*** out of him because he’s not used to seeing you like this

You’re always so bright and so full of life

And here you are, lying on a cot, your life hanging by a thread

Joshua knew that if he doesn’t do anything soon, something’s bound to happen

And he doesn’t want it to

But seeing how badly you were injured and the fact that he doesn’t have the antidote for the unknown poisonous substance in your system, he really doesn’t have any choice but to get down to business

And by business I meant using his power to try and save you

The nurse was like “Dr. Hong, it’s too dangerous! You know the risks! We don’t know how it would affect you!!”

But nothing is too dangerous when it comes to saving his patients, especially when the patient is you

So that night, he sat next to your cot, his hands on yours, trying to neutralize the poison in your body

The curtain was closed for privacy, mostly to keep others from seeing how pained he might look when using his power, and the only thing accompanying him in that small space were you and the gentle beep of the heart rate monitor

You’re unconscious, your chest rising an falling in a gentle rhythm, your hands warm wrapped in his, 

And it’s painful, oh it’s f***ing painful but if that’s what it takes to save you, he would do it all over again

He felt wave after wave of searing hot pain throughout his body as he tried to ease your pain

And through these waves of pain, in this brightly-lit room, he finally looked at you

The clinic feels a little bit lonelier quieter now that you’re not awake to pester him around 

He missed that, to be quite honest

Everyone else that tried to pursue him always does it for all the wrong reasons 

Mostly because they just thought that he’s good looking

They chased him because they thought he could be the one to pick up pieces of them ad put it back together, forgetting the fact that he, too, is a human

But you’re different 

While you try to get his attention all the time that you’re around him, you’ve been looking out for him, too

Like that time he functioned on three hours of sleep

And while he’s used to the strenuous and messed up sleeping schedule that comes with his work, you won’t have it

“Joshua, you should get a shut eye.”

“It’s ok, Y/N, my shift will be over in three”

“You said that an hour ago. At least let me go buy you coffee ok? Americano sounds good, yeah? Ok bye” 

And before he could say anything, you had sauntered off just like that

He couldn’t help but look of with the fondest look

what a cutie

He doesn’t know why but that night, the coffee tasted a bit better than usual 

He realized the irony that while he loves it when people give him their full attention and put up a good chase for him, more than that, he loves it when people actually took care of him instead of the other way around

And you certainly did

It took him hours of cleansing before deciding that you’re stable enough to be able to flush out the rest of the toxin yourself

He can’t stay by your side 24/7 because of his duties but he would spend all of his free time to check up on you and stay by your side

The staff are worried for him because he started going back to his regular routine

He still looks kinda pale and his gait gave out the fact that he’s tired but he’s like “No no no, it’s alright, I have duties to attend to”

They’re like “Dr. Hong.. :(((” and worry that he’ll work himself to the ground 

He won’t tell but he just busies himself with other things just so he could take his mind off you for a bit and not worry too much

Fortunately, a few days later, you woke up

Joshua wasn’t around but the nurses were like”!!!we gotta tell Dr. Hong!!!”

Joshua was having a lunch break with Seungcheol and Chan (after the long, tedious process of trying to coax him to leave you for a minute just to get changed into a fresh set of clothes and get something to eat) when his pager blinked

Joshua literally took a mad dash back to the clinic thinking something happened to you but when he arrived you’re awake and are trying to chat up a recently admitted patient next to you

When you saw him you go “Hey stranger! :D”

And seeing you back into your usual self, although a paler and thinner version of it, it feels like as if a huge weight has been lifted off his shoulders

But you became concerned when you see how tired and pale he was

There are dark circles on his eyes, his face a little gaunt and his hair looked as if he’d ran his hand a thousand times through

I mean, he still looks good, just now well

And you know he hasn’t been sleeping from the looks of it so despite the fact that your body’s screaming for you to stop moving and it still hurts from the residual poison left in your system (and bc you’re not used to the feeling of pain in general)

You scoot over to one side of the bed and pat the space next to you, beckoning him to sit

He’s slowly advancing on you, his steps slow and tentative

Before you know it, he’s right next to you

“How are you?” his voice raspy as he asked you

“I’m ok, I think.”

He gave you a small, and although tired, relieved smile

You wanted to take his hand and palm his cheek and tell him to rest because he looked like he’s barely awake but you also fear that he’ll push you away so you settled on just asking how he’s feeling

And he knows you’ll see right through him anyways se he said “A little tired but it’s ok”

And you realized how sluggish he looked and never before you’ve seen Joshua like this and you just like that you knew

“Joshua, did you use your power on me?”

He just looked at you sheepishly and you’re like JOSHUA HONG

“How can you do that! That’s too dangerous! You should just use it for more important things! I don’t want you to strain yourself like this!”

“But you are important!”

And there was a silence

And you both just looked at each other and he finally sighed

“I realized…a lot of things when you’re..not awake. I realized that I like it when you’re around. I realized that you cared about me. I realized that I care about you. But most importantly, I realized that I want you in my life.”

You don’t know what to do bc you literally would’ve never thought that this moment would actually happen in your lifetime, let alone with someone like Doctor Joshua Freaking Hong

Ever so gently, he took your chin in his hand

“So please, stay a while.”

You don’t know what to do because for once, Joshua’s presence does exactly the opposite of what it’s supposed to do

You feel your cheeks burning, you’re sweating, you feel like your heart’s having an attack and your brain feels frazzled and for a moment you thought “Did he really get all the toxin out of my body lard bc I’m feeling woozy all of the sudden” 

But outside, you’re like “Joshua…”

“Can I..kiss you?” he asked softly

And you’re like asdfghjkl please.

And you’re both leaning for a kiss until you hear the curtain open only to close back in 0.3493255 seconds

“oh my god” you hear a whisper from outside

You+Joshua= O_O wHO In tHe wORLD?

“Have fun playing doctor, kids!” you hear Seungcheol shout from the other side as his footfall rapidly disappears and you’re both like fffffffff

“SEUNGCHEOL THERE ARE KIDS IN HERE”

[volumniafox]

Got tagged by @symmetryorigin, thank you!

RULES: answer 30 questions and then tag 20 blogs you would like to know better.

1. NICKNAMES: No serious ones, but quuuite a few hideous ones my friends like to use. Kiekie _still_ being the absolute worst. Guys why.

2. GENDER: Female

3. STAR SIGN: Scorpio

4. HEIGHT: 163cm (/ 5′4 to yall americans)

5. TIME: 09:12

6. BIRTHDAY: October 31st

7. FAVOURITE BANDS: Too many. Queen, Arctic Monkeys, The Beatles, Genesis, Blondie, Dire Straits, The Doors, The Smiths...

8. FAVOURITE SOLO ARTISTS: Also too many. David Bowie, Kate Bush, fucking Morrissey, Patti Smith, Peter Gabriel

9. SONG STUCK IN MY HEAD: Yes - Owner of a Lonely Heart

10. LAST MOVIE WATCHED: Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom :--D

11. LAST SHOW WATCHED: Skin Wars

12. WHEN DID I CREATE MY BLOG: 2010 ffs

13. WHAT DO I POST: History, music stuff, aesthetic stuff, fashion, art...

14. LAST THING I GOOGLED: cm to feet lmao

15. DO YOU HAVE OTHER BLOGS: I have one that was my portfolio for my art diploma in high school but let’s never talk about that

16. DO YOU GET ASKS: Not very often

17. WHY DID YOU CHOOSE YOUR URL: I didn’t like my old one. This one is a reference to Virginia Woolf

18. FOLLOWING: 435

19. FOLLOWERS: 574

20. FAVOURITE COLOURS: Deep blues and purples

21. AVERAGE HOURS OF SLEEP: Like 5

22. LUCKY NUMBER: 7

23. INSTRUMENTS: I used to play the guitar, not sure how much I remember of that tho

24. WHAT AM I WEARING: A t-shirt and my baggy, red stay-at-home pants

25. HOW MANY BLANKETS I SLEEP WITH: 1

26. DREAM JOB: I want to be a boring university professor/linguistic researcher goddamit

27. DREAM TRIP: Since I already went to Rome and am going back for a month I’m going to say Japan or Hungary. This one’s hard, I wanna go everywhere.

28. FAVOURITE FOOD: Falafel or risotto.

29. NATIONALITY: Finnish

30. FAVOURITE SONG(s) NOW: Pet Shop Boys - Integral, Fleetwood Mac - Little Lies, a-ha - The Sun Always Shines on TV, Kesha - Praying

I don’t even know 20 people, I’m tagging @hintzs, @auroralle, @henryhiems, @aortta, @karpassieni, @bowie-base-one

[brace-yourself-blog]

What’s the Buzz? (Tell me what’s a-happening)

(July 25th, 2017)

I’ll get straight to the point – this blog ain’t gonna be the prettiest.  There will be pictures of teeth all over the place (with both the teeth and the posts being all over the place) and there will probably be lots of emotions and dramatics on my part.  However, I implore you to stick around and hang out with me over the next couple of years if you are considering or moving towards having braces or (the main focus of this blog) maxillofacial surgery. “What is maxillofacial surgery?” you ask? Well, my friend, maxillofacial surgery is surgery of the jaw and/or face.  In my case, the surgery will move my bottom jaw to the correct position for a human being.

With only two weeks to go until I get braces, I’m aware of being reassured by friends and family that my under bite is not as pronounced as I think it is.  My bottom jaw sticks out in front of my top jaw and decided it would be fun to scoot a little to the right as well while it was developing, just for shits and giggles you know? (Oh yeah, I’m not keeping this PG. Sorry Mum.)  And it might not be super noticeable for other people and there might be other people who have it a lot worse than I do, but my surgery will boost my confidence and quality of life.  I don’t want my jaw to ache 24/7 (I get enough of that from my scoliosis, but that’s another story) and having only braces will worsen my overbite, so in order to get the smile that I crave, I gots ta do that surgery boiii!  

“But Becky,” you ask, “you’re 19 years old! Surely you should have had braces by now? Everybody else had them when they were teenagers, not when they were already in university!” Yeah so the reason why I’m having it now is because of money.  I can’t afford to have the surgery and braces without the NHS.  Now, don’t get me wrong, I adore the NHS. Their doctors and nurses do not get enough credit for their work.  They really are doing the best they can with what the government gives them (which isn’t enough imho buuuuuttttt.....) but this means that waiting lists can get pretty fucking long... especially when there is only one surgeon qualified to do the operation you need in your area... if there even is one at all.  It’s such a postcode lottery and I am very lucky that I’m even able to get this all done on the NHS.  I have, however, been on the waiting list since I was about 15.  But the waiting part is done now and in exactly two weeks I’ll be getting one set (top or bottom, unsure of which I’m getting first) of braces!  It’s been a long time coming and I am so excited but simultaneously so nervous.

My younger sister (who’s now 17) had braces put on when she was 15 I think?  She had them off probably a year ago now, maybe longer, and I have been painfully jealous of her self-confidence and just the obvious increase in her levels of happiness because of her beautiful smile.  And goddamit I want that too!  Having watched her struggle with, deal with, come to terms with her braces and the whole process of having them tightened ever six weeks, I’m not worried about that part.  I’m worried about how, as my teeth move to their correct places in my mouth, my under bite will appear more pronounced, but I’m hoping that I won’t notice it too much since it will happen gradually, and that I’ll be able to hide it a bit by posing my jaw differently.  The part I’m most nervous for is, of course, the surgery – both the operation itself and the recovery part.  I’m going to look like an actual potato with all of the swelling I’ll have for the first few weeks and I know it’s going to hurt. I don’t know about you but I’m not the biggest fan of being in pain??? I’ve probably watched too much Grey’s Anatomy (“too much” meaning all of it.  There is so much... but it’s so good...) because I’m getting worried about super rare things.  “What if this thing that happened in that on episode happens?”, “What if I end up like that one character after their surgery?” SHUT UP!!  It’ll be fine!!  They were included for dramatic reasons!!  And I know it will be fine!  I’m still scared though.  Although apparently they can give me something for that before I go under the knife!

So it’s time for a quick recap: braces in two weeks, corrective jaw surgery about 18-24 months after that to move my lower jaw backwards and to the left, braces for another few months after that, not nervous for the braces, terrified for the scalpels going into my face, happy gas needed, super pumped for the final result.

This entire blog is mainly for personal recording. I want to keep track of my emotions and thoughts throughout these next couple of years, as this is something I’ve been wanting for nearly 5 years now.  But this is also for other people who are going through the same as me.  I couldn’t find anything like this when I was doing my research, at least, nothing so personal.  There are plenty of video blogs and regular blogs provided by the NHS, but, seeing as they’re on the official websites, I’m not sure how in-depth they are.  I wanted something more than what they were giving me and, while this isn’t the most extreme surgery ever, it is a fairly common one, and I just want to give that little extra bit to people who want it, you know?  Also me...  This is mainly for me.

Anyway!  Let the show begin!! (In two weeks...)

[square-hammered]

Merry Christmas [Young Tobias x Reader]

The wind blows quietly, blowing the falling snowflakes right in my face what makes my frozen bones shiver even more. The buses has stopped due to the snow storm and there was no taxi, nor they could pick me up and there was no way I would miss Christmas with my darling Tobias.

Tobias and I met last Christmas. My mum is close friends with his hence we spent the Christmas over there. He was 17 at the time but by God he was gorgeous.  He was such a cute little thing I had a crush on him and because I had a thing for younger guys I knew it will not go away. A few days later he confessed he has a crush on but bless him he said he knows he had no chance with me. I was 24 so he thought I date older guys, but he had no idea how much I liked him until I told him. We spent pretty much every second of the day together until I had to flew back to America. We kept in contact until the past few months where I was so busy I barely had time to take care of myself so we lost contact. I hated myself for it.

Now after a year once again I’m back, I’m excited yet nervous at the same time, I’m worried he will be mad, or he won’t even talk to me, I know how teenagers are I was the same. I take a deep breath as I knock on the door clenching the handle of my large suit case which contains a brand new guitar for Tobias, he was bragging about how much he wanted it so I decided to get him whatever it takes.

The door opens. My hearts beats in my throat. I’m a bit relieved when I see Tobias’s mom standing in the door with a big smile on her face and just pulls me into a tight hug. I hug her then she leads me in where Tobias’s dad also hugs me then help me carry my suitcase upstairs.

“Does he hate me?” I ask nervously as I look Svea.

“I don’t even know anymore dear, you know boys one minute they love you, the second they hate you. Don’t worry I know you were busy but he is a bit needy” Svea chuckles and shakes her head then…

“Who’s needy mom?” I hear a voice from behind us and as I turn around I see him standing there leaning against the kitchen counter with his arms crossed. God he grown so much. His hair was down near his shoulders, he was nearly as tall as me and God his voice dropped a few octaves, he is definitely not my sweet little boy, but a gorgeous young man.

“Hey…” I say awkwardly forcing a smile as I walk into the kitchen while Svea close the door behind us giving us some privacy.

“Hey…” he says as he bites his bottom lip and look away. He is still adorable.

“Look Tobbe I am so-“ I get interrupted when he pretty much launches at me and hugs me tightly. I feel like a huge stone being lifted off my chest and I wrap my arms around him, resting my head against his. “I missed you baby boy so much”  

“I missed you too y/n” he mumbles it against my shoulders as he squeezes me gently. “I’m sorry for being so clingy… Mum’s right I’m needy”

“You are not clingy, nor needy. You know your mom was just joking, right?” I smile as I slowly pull away and caress his cheek. “Goddamit you grown” I chuckle softly as I realize I’m only a few inch taller. The last time I saw him his head just about reached my chin.

“Just a bit” he chuckles awkwardly. “I’m not a little boy anymore” he shakes his head in the most adorable way and my heart melts, he’s still my little boy inside.

“To me you always be my baby boy” I smile and gently rub his cheek with my thumb as I look into his big green puppy eyes.

“Only for you” he bites his bottom lip shyly then looks away embarrassed while his cheeks flash up red.

“You’re so damn adorable” I chuckle then gently move his head back as I lean in and kiss him softly. He smiles into the kiss and instantly kisses me back while slide his hands on my hips. My hands slowly drops onto his chest as I get lost in the kiss when he takes control and lean into the kiss more. Without realizing I’m clenching his shirt then suddenly he bites my bottom lip and gives me a cheeky smile. “You little brat” I chuckle softly and gently slap his chest. “Behave”

“I don’t want to” he says it then bites his bottom lip once again while giving me that look and I know exactly what he wants.

“Maybe later” I smile and kiss his forehead and he just giving me a pout what makes me chuckles. “Stop being a brat Tobbe”

“Maybe later” he mocks me then sticks his tongue out. I quickly lean in and gently bite his tongue and he looks at me surprise which I can’t help but start laughing until he pulls me to him and slips his tongue between my lips. I let out a soft moan as his tongue brushes over mine. He slides his hand down to my ass and squeeze it while he eagerly fights my tongue for dominance. I feel myself slowly losing it, goddamit I want him right here, right now.

“Tobias stop..” I break away from the kiss panting softly as I look at him.

“Sorry” he mumbles it with a pout then leans into me and hugs me.

“It’s okay baby” I smile and gently stroke his hair then suddenly he bites down on my neck and I can’t help but let out a surprised yelp/moan. “You little shit” I clench his shirt as he starts sucking on my neck and I just bite my lips to hold back a moan.

“You welcome” he bites his lip with a grin as he pulls away and by God I could just smack him, but I just sigh and roll my eyes with a smile.

“Get in kiddo” I point my finger towards the room then I playfully kick his ass as he turns around.

The dinner went well just like last year. Filled with laughter and joy just like as it should be on Christmas. After we finished dinner I helped Svea cleaning the table while Tobias kept looking at me like a lost puppy what just made me chuckle. He’s seriously so cute. Once the whole family moved into the living room for story time, I excused myself and told Svea I’m stealing Tobias which she happily agreed as she knew we probably would be bored anyway.

“I got you something by the way” I smile as I open my suitcase once we are in his room.

“Really?” his eyes spark up and I can tell he is excited.

“Of course baby” I chuckle softly. “There you go” I say as I pull the big black pleather case out my suitcase and I can see he starts get it what’s in it.

“No way…” he shakes his head as he slowly opens the case with shaking hands. Once he opens the case and he sees the guitar he gasps and tears start to fills his eyes. “Y/n… you…” he stops himself and just tackles me with a tight hug. I chuckle as I hug him tight and kiss the top of his head. “Thank you so much y/n”

“Anything for you baby boy” I smile and look at him as he pulls away wiping his eyes. Seeing him happy was the best present I could ever ask for. His face lightened up and he was even more gorgeous if that is even possible.

“I actually… uhm got you something as well” he says shyly as he furiously bites his lips while his face goes red.

“Baby you shouldn’t” I smile and I kiss his forehead.

“Its nothing big, you might not even like but yeah…” he shrugs as he gives a small box horribly wrapped in wrapping paper what makes me chuckle a bit, it’s so sweet. I slowly and carefully open it then I look at the small velvet black jewellery box. I bite my lips but my eyes widen as I open it and I see a simply but beautiful black ring with a ‘T’ on it.

“Do you like it?” he asks nervously as he desperately looks at me for an answer.

“I love it baby boy, it’s beautiful” I smile then I put the ring on.

“It’s you won’t forget me” as he says that my heart breaks a bit and I pull him into a tight hug as I start to tear up. “I will never forget you silly”

“I hope not” he mumbles quietly as he clenches onto me and buries his face into my neck. I hold tight and gently caress his back and I wish for this moment to never end.  “I love you” he says quietly and I just hold him tighter.

“I love you too baby boy. Merry Christmas” I whisper then kiss the top of his head.

“Merry Christmas” he smiles and kisses my cheek.

It is indeed a merry Christmas.